Hi, I’ve been viewing your videos lately, and I just want to say that your videos calm me and make my days more positive and introspective. Your energy is immaculate. Thank you for all your work ♥️
Hi. Im a granny from New Zealand and I love watching creative people doing their thing on RUclips. You will look back at this one day and see it as part of your biography. There are always times like these in everyone’s life. It’s the contrasts in our lives that create the moments where we bliss. Creative people have licence to be who they are. You be you and you are the best thing that can happen to you x
Truly admirable how fiercely you set and uphold your boundaries, and your awareness of whenever a boundary needs to be (re)drawn. You’re killing it, whether you believe it or not. Rooting for you always, Leech 💪🏼
I just found your channel yesterday, and I am so impressed with not only your art but also your content, your presentation, you are just knocking it out of the park in every way. I'm a maker, have been slowly my jewelry for 5 years, and you've already helped me tremendously. I'm ready to truly launch, build that website and all, thanks to you. I'm also a Mom to a tween girl (I know you are not a tween) and I want to say, oh sweetheart, don't be hard on yourself! Only share what you want, only address and answer things you feel comfortable with, only make what you really want to make. You are already giving SO MUCH value here! Your voice alone is enough to soothe an anxious creative soul. Take it easy on yourself. Withdraw anytime you need space and time for your private self. Time is a treasure, and you don't have to give us all of it! Thank you for all your work. It is TRULY outstanding.
thank you for being so honest and share your introspective thoughts !! it brings comfort to see you going through similar thinking than i do, also very comfy to watch ! ✨🌱 and don't worry, dont put presssure on yourself to answer to this message or anyone's, it is very time consuming and i can't talk for everyone but hey we are grateful enough for your videos, you answering the comments is a bonus but it is not a priority, and it really isnt selfish to skip it;) anyway, rambling too, love from france
I have to remind myself 'none of this matters at the end of the day' every time I doubt about my 'success' based on literally anything that does not define my values, like how my social media content performs, my productivity, etc. You're not alone! I'M WITH YOU!!! ILY
Your response to your viewers/comments are the videos you post and the art you share with us. And when I would have those moments and rant to my bestie (I'm a bleeding heart and used to take on way too much to my own detriment) two things he said that stuck with me were, ask myself if things people etc are a compliment to my life or if it/they complicate it. The other thing 😂 it's silly but always made me feel better somehow was: f*@# it and smile.. You're awesome, you're normal everyone goes through their own up's and downs you're not too much or not not enough of anything your perfectly imperfectly you it's okay, it's who you are and makes you you. It's a hard journey and the work you put into yourself will pay off. It's not selfish to take care of yourself. The better you are with you the better you are for other people. You can't fill others from an empty cup.
fwiw I cherish the videos you make!! It always feels like shooting the shit with a friend, griping about the struggles of the professional artist life while still sticking with it bc we're insane and we secretly love it at the end of the day. That said, if you do need to fuck off and disappear from youtube, that's a totally respsectable choice. Some of my favorite creators who have been making things on youtube from the start, like neil cicierega, pretty much emerge from their caves every couple years to release a masterpiece before disappearing without explanation. They seem to have lived through Being Perceived(TM) enough to know what it does to your brain, and choose to just not engage with it. You got this ~
omg neil cicierega core memory unlocked with the fuckin harry potter puppets🥹🥹 thank you this actually makes me feel a lot better about this dumb unnecessary guilt I carry/weight I put on myself around this whole youtube/audience thing🙏🫶
It's kind of wild to hear you share all this because I resonate with it so much. From time-blocking (and it ending up as guilt bombs instead of being helpful, haha) to the pressure of algorithms and overthinking-it's rough and draining. Sometimes it feels like, what's the point? But for me, remembering why I started helps-it’s all about making art! So, I’m right there with you, and I’m sure a lot of others are too. The algorithm might not always push your videos to me, and that’s out of your control, but if you’re proud of what you create and it authentically shares your art and perspective, then you’ve already succeeded. We're here to connect with you, your process, and your insights. No pressure-just keep doing you. 😎 Also, your portfolio is spectacular - Love the beer illustrations as well. Very jealous of them! haha I worked in beer for awhile designing cans and rarely got to full on illustrate one.
oh whats the podcast or show your were listening too with the guy talking games, and just ripping people/games apart? haha. EDIT: Found out its "we are in hell" lol
no worries! you're the best! i'll keep on coming back just to listen and be proud of you! your openess is very inspiring! i'm very much like you, and some times it's just a matter of more boundaries towards pleasing others and more time towards just having fun! ❤
So wise, Leetia. I also find it is worth making myself proud on creative projects, if I have the capacity. The push for efficiency and creative compromises leads me to burnout much faster than anything else.
Hi lee, i just want to say as someone who has very similar thought patterns as you and ways of being, i find you doing youtube and trying to fight those thoughts of 'i can do more' 'how can i fix this' really admirable, I've wanted to do youtube a few times in my life, and always choose not to, cause I know those numbers would suck all the joy i could get from it, but its also laziness of not facing that issue i have of demanding too much of myself, so as i said you trying to go through with it is really brave!
Also never feel pressure to answer to me at least hahaha, i have a very low social battery as an autistic person so dont worry! You can just read this and take whatever you want from it no need to reply, your video already was enough um interection, like you sparked something in me and i return something, is enough if that makes sense haha (answer if you wish)
hi! wow! this is my first time watching a video of yours. I'm so happy my algorithm brought me here. this is exactly what i've been looking for. a chatty illustrator talking for more than an hour about how it is like being a freelance artist. I have recently began seriously pursuing a career in illustration myself. I've been wanting to do this my whole life but never had the courage to really give it my all. self doubt, fear of rejection and being judged has really kept me from trying and really putting myself (my art) out there. but hey, here i am. no reason to stop now, will give this my all until my last breath. looking forward to watching more of your videos. keep going, leechuts (: peace!
That was very raw and honest!! I'm intrigued with how much your musings remind me of my own passing thoughts about my 448 or so subs, and the sometimes meaningful interaction which passes between me and them when I post. You describe your channel like a canvas where you want to create your own fine art piece, not a commission to please others or the algorithm. I totally relate to that. I wonder if Taylor Swift sometimes thinks this kind of stuff about her thousands-deep stadium crowds, low-key wishing she could hang out one-on-one with each of them as they're singing along so passionately to her songs. I'm confident that you'll figure out a balance which works for you. Thanks for sharing so honestly with us.
36:57 i love that it looks like your rubber plant (?) is sprouting from the top of your head lol so cute also i have honestly never expected a response to a yt comment i just like to release encouraging and supportive vibes into the universe bc i enjoy small creators (:
no I completely understand evrerytime I show my parents something I’m really proud of there like ok whatever (by the way they are both artists 😂) and then there is something I drew that I completely hate and Thera are live wow like I don’t even clear about what they fink of my art but it still bothers my every time. Also I love your videos they ar so good every time ❤❤❤
the pen is from Muji but they discontinued it🥲🥲🥲 I’m using refills from Pentil Slicci 0.25 pens - the outside is not as pretty but its writes the same!
YAYYY!!! Chan chan posted a new banger and it's a long one!! I can't wait to watch while I draw (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ *Edit after watching* I can *really* relate to falling into the trap of comparing yourself with yourself when it comes to the performance of your videos (x_x;;) I’m really trying not to obsess over RUclips Studio metrics and let that influence what kind of video I should make next, but sometimes it’s just so hard not to (;_;) But at the end of the day, it’s *exactly* as you’ve said: we’re not trying to be RUclipsrs here - we’re trying to be illustrators and get our work out there. We’re trying to create things that feed our souls and connect with others by being nothing but our authentic selves 😤👏 We (I) need to keep reminding myself of this. We (I) need to keep making shit that we (I) love, whether it be videos or illustrations. You’ve told me time and time again, “don’t set expectations based on things that you can’t control.” It’s just just a recipe for disappointment 🥺❤ I feel you chan chan. I’m glad you’re able to recognize this in yourself and share this with us too!! Thank you for sharing 💕 It makes me feel less alone in my feelings.
I totally resonate with this! yeah, when the perfection feelings start to creep in, and the people pleaser, overthinker mind takes over. my whole day turns into a series of second guesses. I hate looking at these numbers. -_- Love these comments though! Especially from other illustrators! :D
Hi, I’ve been viewing your videos lately, and I just want to say that your videos calm me and make my days more positive and introspective. Your energy is immaculate. Thank you for all your work ♥️
Hi. Im a granny from New Zealand and I love watching creative people doing their thing on RUclips. You will look back at this one day and see it as part of your biography. There are always times like these in everyone’s life. It’s the contrasts in our lives that create the moments where we bliss.
Creative people have licence to be who they are. You be you and you are the best thing that can happen to you x
Truly admirable how fiercely you set and uphold your boundaries, and your awareness of whenever a boundary needs to be (re)drawn. You’re killing it, whether you believe it or not. Rooting for you always, Leech 💪🏼
😭😭😭 Pam you’re too fuckin sweet thank you🙏🫶❤️ rooting for you too you lovely lovely human❤️
I did miss the rambles haha
Your voice is so calm and cozy!
I just found your channel yesterday, and I am so impressed with not only your art but also your content, your presentation, you are just knocking it out of the park in every way. I'm a maker, have been slowly my jewelry for 5 years, and you've already helped me tremendously. I'm ready to truly launch, build that website and all, thanks to you. I'm also a Mom to a tween girl (I know you are not a tween) and I want to say, oh sweetheart, don't be hard on yourself! Only share what you want, only address and answer things you feel comfortable with, only make what you really want to make. You are already giving SO MUCH value here! Your voice alone is enough to soothe an anxious creative soul. Take it easy on yourself. Withdraw anytime you need space and time for your private self. Time is a treasure, and you don't have to give us all of it! Thank you for all your work. It is TRULY outstanding.
so sweet of you to say🥹 thank you so much for the thoughtful reminder❤️❤️
thank you for being so honest and share your introspective thoughts !! it brings comfort to see you going through similar thinking than i do, also very comfy to watch ! ✨🌱
and don't worry, dont put presssure on yourself to answer to this message or anyone's, it is very time consuming and i can't talk for everyone but hey we are grateful enough for your videos, you answering the comments is a bonus but it is not a priority, and it really isnt selfish to skip it;)
anyway, rambling too, love from france
I have to remind myself 'none of this matters at the end of the day' every time I doubt about my 'success' based on literally anything that does not define my values, like how my social media content performs, my productivity, etc. You're not alone! I'M WITH YOU!!! ILY
THANK YOU ILY2🥹❤️🥹❤️🥹 LETS GOOOOO
Your response to your viewers/comments are the videos you post and the art you share with us. And when I would have those moments and rant to my bestie (I'm a bleeding heart and used to take on way too much to my own detriment) two things he said that stuck with me were, ask myself if things people etc are a compliment to my life or if it/they complicate it. The other thing 😂 it's silly but always made me feel better somehow was: f*@# it and smile.. You're awesome, you're normal everyone goes through their own up's and downs you're not too much or not not enough of anything your perfectly imperfectly you it's okay, it's who you are and makes you you. It's a hard journey and the work you put into yourself will pay off. It's not selfish to take care of yourself. The better you are with you the better you are for other people. You can't fill others from an empty cup.
Let's have a good time watching this while drawing yipeeee
you can really see how much this all means to you and your big heart, wanting to connect with us all
fwiw I cherish the videos you make!! It always feels like shooting the shit with a friend, griping about the struggles of the professional artist life while still sticking with it bc we're insane and we secretly love it at the end of the day. That said, if you do need to fuck off and disappear from youtube, that's a totally respsectable choice. Some of my favorite creators who have been making things on youtube from the start, like neil cicierega, pretty much emerge from their caves every couple years to release a masterpiece before disappearing without explanation. They seem to have lived through Being Perceived(TM) enough to know what it does to your brain, and choose to just not engage with it. You got this ~
omg neil cicierega core memory unlocked with the fuckin harry potter puppets🥹🥹 thank you this actually makes me feel a lot better about this dumb unnecessary guilt I carry/weight I put on myself around this whole youtube/audience thing🙏🫶
It's kind of wild to hear you share all this because I resonate with it so much. From time-blocking (and it ending up as guilt bombs instead of being helpful, haha) to the pressure of algorithms and overthinking-it's rough and draining. Sometimes it feels like, what's the point? But for me, remembering why I started helps-it’s all about making art! So, I’m right there with you, and I’m sure a lot of others are too. The algorithm might not always push your videos to me, and that’s out of your control, but if you’re proud of what you create and it authentically shares your art and perspective, then you’ve already succeeded. We're here to connect with you, your process, and your insights. No pressure-just keep doing you. 😎
Also, your portfolio is spectacular - Love the beer illustrations as well. Very jealous of them! haha I worked in beer for awhile designing cans and rarely got to full on illustrate one.
oh whats the podcast or show your were listening too with the guy talking games, and just ripping people/games apart? haha.
EDIT: Found out its "we are in hell" lol
no worries! you're the best! i'll keep on coming back just to listen and be proud of you! your openess is very inspiring! i'm very much like you, and some times it's just a matter of more boundaries towards pleasing others and more time towards just having fun! ❤
So wise, Leetia. I also find it is worth making myself proud on creative projects, if I have the capacity. The push for efficiency and creative compromises leads me to burnout much faster than anything else.
ty Fran🥹🥹🥹🫶 yeah totally - been trying to learn to let go of my efficiency brain when it doesn’t serve me anymore, all donezo all the time is no fun😤
I personally love these long as he'll chatty episodes❤
Hi lee, i just want to say as someone who has very similar thought patterns as you and ways of being, i find you doing youtube and trying to fight those thoughts of 'i can do more' 'how can i fix this' really admirable, I've wanted to do youtube a few times in my life, and always choose not to, cause I know those numbers would suck all the joy i could get from it, but its also laziness of not facing that issue i have of demanding too much of myself, so as i said you trying to go through with it is really brave!
Also never feel pressure to answer to me at least hahaha, i have a very low social battery as an autistic person so dont worry! You can just read this and take whatever you want from it no need to reply, your video already was enough um interection, like you sparked something in me and i return something, is enough if that makes sense haha (answer if you wish)
hi! wow! this is my first time watching a video of yours. I'm so happy my algorithm brought me here. this is exactly what i've been looking for. a chatty illustrator talking for more than an hour about how it is like being a freelance artist. I have recently began seriously pursuing a career in illustration myself. I've been wanting to do this my whole life but never had the courage to really give it my all. self doubt, fear of rejection and being judged has really kept me from trying and really putting myself (my art) out there. but hey, here i am. no reason to stop now, will give this my all until my last breath. looking forward to watching more of your videos. keep going, leechuts (: peace!
Agh I absolutely love this type of content!! thank you so much for being nice company
I love thisssss
That was very raw and honest!! I'm intrigued with how much your musings remind me of my own passing thoughts about my 448 or so subs, and the sometimes meaningful interaction which passes between me and them when I post. You describe your channel like a canvas where you want to create your own fine art piece, not a commission to please others or the algorithm. I totally relate to that. I wonder if Taylor Swift sometimes thinks this kind of stuff about her thousands-deep stadium crowds, low-key wishing she could hang out one-on-one with each of them as they're singing along so passionately to her songs. I'm confident that you'll figure out a balance which works for you. Thanks for sharing so honestly with us.
You are great!! Love your work ethic and schedule!!
i love this yappy blog 🥰
Comforting video ❤❤❤ as a whole
I have the same alarm as you and my heart started beating so fast lol I hate getting up
36:57 i love that it looks like your rubber plant (?) is sprouting from the top of your head lol so cute
also i have honestly never expected a response to a yt comment i just like to release encouraging and supportive vibes into the universe bc i enjoy small creators (:
Why can’t I just this what she said❤
Like, subscribe, share and join her patreon ❤
no I completely understand evrerytime I show my parents something I’m really proud of there like ok whatever (by the way they are both artists 😂) and then there is something I drew that I completely hate and Thera are live wow like I don’t even clear about what they fink of my art but it still bothers my every time. Also I love your videos they ar so good every time ❤❤❤
Omg! Love your pen that u used when you were planning. Could you please tell me what brand is? ❤️
the pen is from Muji but they discontinued it🥲🥲🥲 I’m using refills from Pentil Slicci 0.25 pens - the outside is not as pretty but its writes the same!
@@leechuts thanks!
YAYYY!!! Chan chan posted a new banger and it's a long one!! I can't wait to watch while I draw (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧
*Edit after watching*
I can *really* relate to falling into the trap of comparing yourself with yourself when it comes to the performance of your videos (x_x;;) I’m really trying not to obsess over RUclips Studio metrics and let that influence what kind of video I should make next, but sometimes it’s just so hard not to (;_;)
But at the end of the day, it’s *exactly* as you’ve said: we’re not trying to be RUclipsrs here - we’re trying to be illustrators and get our work out there. We’re trying to create things that feed our souls and connect with others by being nothing but our authentic selves 😤👏 We (I) need to keep reminding myself of this. We (I) need to keep making shit that we (I) love, whether it be videos or illustrations.
You’ve told me time and time again, “don’t set expectations based on things that you can’t control.” It’s just just a recipe for disappointment 🥺❤ I feel you chan chan. I’m glad you’re able to recognize this in yourself and share this with us too!! Thank you for sharing 💕 It makes me feel less alone in my feelings.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ fuck the algorithm fuck these stupid ass metrics just focus on what you love and the rest will fall into place MUAH
@@leechuts Yeah!! fuck it all! :D
I totally resonate with this! yeah, when the perfection feelings start to creep in, and the people pleaser, overthinker mind takes over. my whole day turns into a series of second guesses. I hate looking at these numbers. -_- Love these comments though! Especially from other illustrators! :D