Pov: School destroys your Mental health... (vent Playlist)
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- Опубликовано: 20 июн 2024
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0:00 / 0:01 - 1:20 :: just take my wallet - jack stauber
1:21 - 4:17 :: devil town - cavetown
4:20 - 8:02 :: happy pills - weathers (slowed + piano version)
8:03 - 13:06 :: experience - einaudi
13:18 - 16:33 :: bullet - hollywood undead
16:37 - 22:42 :: suck it up/しう - maretu
22:45 - 26:31 :: lone star - the front bottoms
p.s. the song selection is chefs kiss
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Art by Avogado6
Thank you
The one called experience made me think of someone remembering the "good old day." The days when they were a kid, the days where they had no worries, especially the days where they were not stressed about good grade, success, and making others happy. As the music progressed and got more intense, the memories got more intense. The memories flow with the music. It's bittersweet, calming yet sad, and gives you a sense of happiness but also loss.
Ty!💞🧚🫂
:)
Pov: You spend most of the day inside the school with your noisy classmates, and when you're at home you can only sleep. You don't have the energy for anything, not even to do the things you like, and you can only be okay when you're lost in fanciful thoughts, in things that make you forget that you even exist in a dull world.
spot on.
So ture..
Thank you
The only thing that keeps me distracted is my electronics
Yep
Who else loves venting to the comment section, because everyone there is sympathising with you and being the best comfort you could get?
Me
I don’t like venting in real life
Ikr
One thing u always gotta remember people on the internet are kinder then close people you know.
Agreed
60 exercises from math
Two tests a day
Bullying in school
Stress i won't succeed
I'm starting to think that day is too short for studying so I'm not sleeping to learn and do the tasks
Having a bad grade is equal with being dumb and a failure for me now.
And this playlist does feel like this whole preasure I'm feeling daily
You're not dumb. Everyone learns in a different way, and the pressure put on us stems from our predecessor's failures. They think we can do what they couldn't, when in truth we're just as human as them. I'm sorry you have to go through this.
you're not dumb. you're just being pressured too much by school and too much work for you to handle just in a day. i hope you're feeling okay buddy, just a reminder that you're going to make it through this. i hope you're doing okay bud
Who in the actual hell has 2 tests a day?!? Girl i wish you the best of luck bc that alone sounds terrible!
60 exercises???
damn at this point you need to transfer into another school next year
@@seufimeaqui9034 Wait... SO THERE ARE PPL WHO DON'T HAVE AS MANY TESTS? Whoooah :O
At first, I thought school was a fun place where it was easy to learn and make lots of friends when I was a kid.
then I realized the truth of the world, I didn't even know I was a fake friend myself.
Now I'm here feeling guilty for the people I have left.
haha, same.
I also realized something, I am the problem, and I've never had a real friend.
School was a fun place where it was easy to learn and make friends. As an adult, making friends is a lot harder now, especially ones your age
I wish I had appreciated it more when I was still in high school
when i was little i didn't wanna go to school even on my first days..
Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven matthew 5:3
No no, the assignments aren't the problem, neither are my classmates. My homeroom teacher is. I hate the fact she gives no shit about our mental health, on one of our projects she mocked a student who chose mental health as her topic. When we submit our work late she shouts at us; "WHY DIDN'T I SEE ANY PROGRESS ON YOUR PROJECT? I ALREADY CANCLED THE LESSON FOR TODAY AND THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY ME?" Woman we have lessons, we have family, some of us has jobs. She even said 'I don't feel overwhelmed or stressed like you guys do.' but she then said "You guys are the reason I feel stressed." I get it, she has been a teacher for 10 years. And we are the worst batch you have met, but if you're going to treat us like crap just because we don't live up to your expectations then I suggest you quit.
Edit: Hello I hope you guys are doing well, I needed to fix my grammar lol. Sorry I didn't realize I typed 'we' instead of 'you'
PREACH
My teacher called our whole class pathetic and treats us horribly. My other teacher is super nice and she's so sweet and I wish I could stay in her class forever.
@@user-cg8dm8fq4x and how is that teacher not fired yet
@just existing :/ FACTS
My home room teacher threatened me that she won’t help me with my task. Sometimes even ending the call and ignoring me, while I BEG her to help me. My parents saying “you gotta study hard but don’t overdo it, take a break” while I feel awful that I’m wasting my time. My dad came in my room seeing me crying at 12 am. I started sleeping in history class. My math, literature and other subjects are good. I’m just bad at history and geography.
One of the sad things in school is that some of the best students have such high expectations from teachers and it just isn't fair because they need to do so much more just to maintain their perfect grades and it ruins their mental health.
….exactly
That's exactly what is happening with my mom. I had such great grades in late middle school that she expected me to have grades at the same level in high school. She is forgetting that the gap between late middle school and early high school is ginormous and she thinks that taking away things that distress me (phone, video games) is going to make them better while in reality that b¡tch is just making more stress for nothing and she thinks that I'm going to fail school when I have 5 really bad grades.
It’s to the point where everything lowers my mental health 🙃
same
I went to mental hospital bc of school but now I don’t anymore I just take pills
@@Thankyouforexisting93 hope ur better sometimes life just sucks
@@AylerandBella yes and thank u so much ur so kind :)
@@Thankyouforexisting93 np 🫶:)
school really did destroy my mental health 😁
same.
Same with you
Same..
same mate :( ❤️
Same
Happy Pills really got to me.
Every day I go to school more and more tired as the day progresses. I come at the earliest at 7:10 daily, and my teacher always asks me how I feel. I always say I'm alright and plaster a believable smile on my face. I almost never eat the food my mother gives me, only the milk. Whenever I talk to anybody I make sure I sound happy so they don't think anything is wrong. But sometimes I snap and scream when the noise becomes too much for me.
I'm starting to think I took theatre class so I can improve my acting skills so I can act happier. Because the only thing at school I do is pretending. Pretend, pretend, pretend. Can't let them see your true colors. Get good grades. Bottle up your emotions. Don't fall in love with anybody. Smile.
I understand so much, I understand you. I know I don't know you but I get you.
Its ok to not be ok, please, I know its difficult trust me. But, you cant bottle up your emotions
even if you feel like you have nobody, and that nobody is listening..I know that I'm just a kid on the internet but..
Im here for you, your amazing, you are talented, you are loved, you are so so special, and one day you will find a real smile
I don't know if you like hugs or need one, but here is a nice long hug. You will get through this, keep your head up. I cant promise
that everything will always be ok, but just know, you can get through it and you will be truly happy. I get you. If you ever need someone
you have me. I know exactly how it feels for someone that you were close to, leave. So I would never do that to you. I wouldn't let you feel
that pain. Im so proud of you, I'm so so proud of you, and I know you can make it. I will always be here
I always put a smile on my face but when I get to tired to do it in public my brother always points it out and says "Ash is in a bad mood" or "why are you in such a bad mood?" Just shut up. Shut up. You don't know what I'm going through and just because I'm not smiling doesn't mean I'm in a bad mood, I could be in a neutral mood or smth. You don't know how my mind works and the things it says to me on a daily and at night. Shut up. Please. I make my voice higher to so It makes me sound happier. Sometimes it just drops and he points that out too....
that the same probleme with me
hold up you didnt start at age 5?...shit my parents got me fucked up
I relate. I always try putting on a fake smile and say that I'm ok. I starve myself, I always wish somebody without me having to say it would understand what I'm going through, I know that if I want that I have to say something, but I don't know how. I tell people to not cut or hurt themselves when I've cut myself. I go through physical and mental abuse. My Mom screams at me.
I can't believe I looked forward to middle/high school. It's so loud and overwhelming and I feel like crying every lesson since the teacher does nothing about how disruptive my class is. There were no electives related to what I want to study in the future. So many people have been sexualising and fetishizing me just because I'm Japanese. My school just makes me stare at a screen all day. I want to be smart enough to go university, but I haven't progressed at my school at all. People exploited my kindness only to make up shit about me and leave me out. My dad isn't helping either, all he does is compare me to him. I just wanted to make friends and learn new things, I miss when I was a gifted kid.
hey i hope you are doing better now
HEY!!!! if you're listening to this playlist in the first place, you're probably in a really bad emotional state. if you wanna talk, yell, or just distract yourself, im here for ya. remember, youre loved so much and you deserve only good things. take care
Ur amazing
😽
I feel like 💩 because I haven’t seen my friends from first grade in more than a year now. I barely text them and I just want to see them again. Im slowly forgetting about them and I don’t want to loose all the memories I have of them. I don’t want to loose my closest friends…
your literally amazing omggg
@@Seagull110 i would like to help you. But I can't. But there are people who can. I wish you could find them..
i don't have superiority complex, and i mean this in the most genuine way possible, but to be frank, i can teach myself better than the methods being used by the education system, and the education industry itself in general here in my country. the system is so ugly that i never really leaned towards any school officials, and teachers if i need help. i TAUGHT myself to be this disciplined student that I am. and i LEARNED every lessons advanced, and ahead of everyone else in the class on my OWN. and i ACHIEVED academic excellence all my life THANKS to my efforts, and myself. school never taught me anything, i TAUGHT myself. school is just there to reduce my worth to numbers, and average. and due to that, the school is just there to ruin portion of passions of their students, will to learn, explore and their curiosity even. and most importantly? the school system is even more a btch for being dismissive for the minorities, or those that has disabilities, both physically, cognitively and psychologically. @everyschoolsystemandeducationdepartmentintheworld please do better. we're losing young people here due to the depression and mental scar you've caused your youths.
I feel the exact same way, you're not alone with this
I am so proud of you. We should all rise up and take a stand against our school systems, but alas, they will shut us down for being "children".
Same, minus the self discipline. I've always been into art, so I never really made school a big deal and I've been conditioned to feel horrible about that. Im motivated by passion and interest (I also recently found out i probably have ADHD - checks out) and school sucks all of that out of me. I learn, but I learn in my own way. I start with niche topics and those bleed into one another (ex: I find quantum physics SUPER fucking cool, to learn quantum physics I have to learn math. ), if its something boring that I have no self motivation to learn my brain literally will not do it. School is a hell hole for me.
school is so boring,i mean imagine your science teacher just telling you about the water cycle or rock cycle
Anyone else see the picture and read the title and be like “ok so THATS why my mental health is destroyed”
school feels like hell on earth, due to my chronic illnesses i have constant aches and im always tired, every day i wake up and have to function like everyone else
to put it into perspective, imagine you never sleep. not a wink of sleep. and you work out all day every day and get up sore every morning.
that's how it is, without the productivity of actually working out.
the thought that this is how it will be for the rest of my life terrifies me
Listening to this a few hours before school and I know it’s gonna be a horrible day :)❤️
Don’t worry, i swear/hope you will be ok one day
You ok?
Mine is in a couple minutes
I tried to burn down my school... i was caught💀
@@amelie7287 💀💀how did that go down? Lol
This playlist became my life.
I am an A+ student so u can imagine how bad my mental health is.
Shut up. Atleast you are going to be successful in your life. No matter how hard i try im not good at any subject. Im so jelaous of people like you. I would give everything i have just to have atleast an B-
Yeah although i would love to be in that position. I'm failing my sciences and Algebra.
- 3 tests a day.
- Toxic enviroment
- Stressing I will fail
- Exams (quizzes or tests) every day of the goddamn week
- Atleast 5 peices of hw and 2 projects to bring home every day
- Everytime I get a bad grade i pretend I dont care and shake it off when it actually makes me feel so fricking useless
- I dont have enough time for everything now my schedhule is school,study,hw and music...
@@Just_Valerie Believe me when u see toppers in class getting A+ marks u must be thinking how easy their life is i want their life .... But no i am also a person who crave academic validation i am topper of my class but i got less marks in just one subject and here i am crying lik crazy feeling i should die feeling i am not enough.... Craving academic validation can destroy ur mental health soooooo badd ...i am going to recheck my answersheet of that subject in which i had got less marks cause i had not seen it yet my friend told me my mark......i worked so fucking hard for that subject....its impossible to get less marks no no no !!!!!
@@suhanidubey8034 Well not exactly. I dont think they have such a nice or easy time all ik is their hardwork payed off and I didnt try enough. And that makes me feel so worthless thats why I pressure myself to excell in particular subjects like History or English so I can feel a bit better of myself. Trust me whenevr I get English or History grade less then 100 I go through a mental breakdown besides I have a straight A friend so Ik its not easy being the star of the class and I still dont know how she still manages to smile.
@@suhanidubey8034 Im srry if I sounded rude or selfish but I want to be the best to and I understand how hard the pressure must be and how much it destroys mental health thats y it hurts. And I try I try a lot but no matter how hard I try theres always the one whos more resilience and more hardworking then me. Some of my friends dont care about grades cause they are rich as heck but I do and it hurts when u hear a teacher say "Im worried you wont pass my final exams this year" When its just the beginning of the term!
Listening to it on math class, puts a great mood 👌
Lmao tbh same But remember Hot people are bad at math... XD
@@xinaxpov2121 im not just bad at math, im bad at everything sweetie
@@shouterthedragon1801 I'm sure there is something your good at :]
@@shouterthedragon1801 like for example Art your Art looks really good (The things on your channel :]
@@xinaxpov2121 thx
Tired. The mental health gang will get it.
I love it how you can go trough absolute HELL at school and them you parents can vent to u about how easy our lives and how three is so bad while I’m over here wondering if I’m going to be able to go on..
A playlist that starts with Jack Stauber is going to be good no matter what
yasss
Yes
always
Yess
I am happy 😃
I was always considered the “smart kid” which really affected me, I have an extreme fear of failure and will non stop degrade myself if I get anything below a 97. I feel extremely anxious during tests and things that greatly affect my grade, I’ve convinced myself that school is the only thing I’m good at, so I feel as if I cannot fail no matter what.
I swear its like your my equal I have the sam problem only that I was bad in middle school and now I'm the best of the best and if I'm not I'm basically worthless.... But stay strong your more than the system 💜👾☔
felt this
I hope things are better now (a year has passed)
I also feel like this. I see a year has passed and I hope your in a better place now mentally. Know you are loved and I hope everything has worked/will work out for you!
Tw/cw- it gets dark
For me school has almost always been a source of stress. Anxiety. Some kind of pain that I can’t get rid of because, by law, I’m required to attend until j graduate from high school at the minimum. And I’m debating college, I don’t know if I want to go or not but my mom wants me to. And she’s overall a great mom, I love her and I don’t want to disappoint her. She’s always been proud of me and happy for me.
I think sometimes I deny it because I don’t want to admit it. But when it comes to school if I don’t understand something or I don’t get a concept, what do I do? I don’t ask for help, I look up results or answers online to make sure I score well or almost perfect on my work. It’s not because I don’t want to do the work, it’s because I don’t understand. But I don’t wanna ask for help, I don’t want to because if this is on level material that I’m struggling with so much- and somehow almost everyone else can handle just fine, I feel stupid. I feel like I’m not as good as everyone else because I can’t understand it like everyone else does, I can’t understand the material at an on level area.
And when my grades are low, as much as I love my mom I don’t wanna tell her. Because I’m scared of disappointing her. I don’t like having low grades because it feels like if I don’t have good grades I’m failing, I’m a failure if I’m doing as well as the world told me I should be. I should understand the content. I should understand the work, but I don’t. I shouldn’t need help but I do but I don’t wanna ask because it feels degrading that I’d need help with something everyone else understands. I’m good at art, creative subjects- creating, making things. Not doing math problems, understanding certain English subjects or writing papers. And even in school, high school at the least- even an art school doesn’t entirely focus on just. Art. You still have to deal with and struggle through core subjects. Even if that’s not at all where you want to go in life, if things like more advanced math or English or understanding of history have nothing to do with the career you want. What you want to go after. You’re still forced to learn things you don’t need, things that waste your time.
Middle school was when, I admit, I was at my lowest. During middle school, I’ll admit. I struggled with self harm, and there were a lot of times I contemplated suicide. One day when I was writing something I got caught by a teacher and had to talk to one of the higher staff of the school- but instead of making a mandatory meeting to talk with my mom to something they just told me to talk to her. Nothing else, didn’t check on me after that. And half the teachers, if not most. Seemed like they didn’t like working there and didn’t like the kids. Middle school was also when I was starting to find my gender identity and i said just a bit about it, and from then on I was relentlessly bullied for it. And sometimes if people were bugging me or bullying me in class, if I reacted or told them to stop- trying to defend myself, I was the one that would get told off.
I climbed out of that dark hell in my mind by myself, I don’t know how but I did. I pulled myself out of it, and it was not easy. But even after these years, it all still feels so hard. I’ve never told the people closest to me, my family, about just how bad my mental health ever got. My mom still doesn’t know and never knew I self harmed. I’ve been clean for several years now but sometimes I still get urges, urges to give in and relapse into that. I can still see the scars on my arm. The scars are minimal because I did it shallow enough that people wouldn’t notice, you would never see them there unless you knew they were there in the first place. Everything is just so hard, it hurts. But I always take on others problems and don’t talk about my own. Because I don’t want people to see me in that dark a place, why would I? I know how hard life can be, how painful it is. I never want someone to fall as low as I did, I do everything in my power to try and keep that from happening. I take everyone’s problems on as my own. Talk to them, talk them through their problems. There’s been several times where I even talked someone(s) away from hurting themselves or committing suicide. Even if it feels like my life is breaking apart, like I’m suffocating, I still put on this face that I’m perfectly fine. That my mental health has fully recovered , that I’m the happiest person I could hope to be and help others. Because I’m scared.
I’m scared to admit that I need help. Scared to admit I’ve ever struggled like that, mentally or in school. I don’t want people to worry about me because they already deal with enough and if I can lighten that load then somehow- maybe somehow if I can help someone- it won’t feel like life is suffocating me anymore.
Maybe it’ll make me somehow, some way- in some day, it’ll make me feel like I’m good enough.
I am very proud of you for what you have done, I may be younger than you, but I was always told I was more mature than other kids in school. I really hope you get to achieve what you are seeking, and that you can continue on your journey at a smooth pace.
i was a 'gifted kid' throughout school and all that taught me was to work 10x as hard as others to achieve the same things. its all because i never learned how to study and because of my rampant demotivation i cant spend the time to learn how which is due to the fact that im constantly drowning in work. elementary school was easy for me because i was always 'smarter' than the other kids. in 6th grade i started to need to utilize studying more but i didnt know so i questioned if i was actually smart and if im not good enough to be in the classes i was in. by 7th grade i still had no idea that it was because of my inability to study but my grades TANKED. i went from all As to Cs and Ds. i started to lose motivation and would hurt myself mentally and physically by telling myself that im a moron. im not smart. im a failure. i dont deserve to be in these classes. i suck. and would follow that up with punching myself and scraping my arms and neck. i hate how people have relied on grades to see how smart people are because i know that i am smart and the 'gifted' classes im in are just adding work on top of the normal curriculum. its like an infinitely expanding well. the papers keep filling up while i have a smaller and smaller window to breathe after every assignment. this increase in work and my inability to study makes doing the work and passing tests harder and harder. if i have too many assignments i wont have time to study but if i have smaller amounts of assignments i feel free and i do what i want because its the first time i had gotten to breathe in forever. if i dont know how to study my test scores will plummet and that will take a HUGE toll on my grade because its worth 80% of it. i dont know what to do anymore and my grades are continuing to suck. im going to continue to feel constant self hatred because of it. my parents will be disappointed in me. my academic level will drop because 'you have Cs and Ds and you want to be in higher level classes? what are you a moron?? obviously it shows right here' i would put in more time to school if i had any remaining drop of motivation left but its all been sucked dry by the vacuum of 'higher education' if this 'higher education' is aiding in my failure why even be in the normal education level because its all the same right? it sucks. it all sucks.
My girlfriend and The Dream SMP. That's why I'm still here. I hope you're okay! or at least will be some day. You will :D
I am still in high school and I just wanna quit already
@@arrianalougutierrez4496 same...
Listening to this a day before the school hands out the repot cards to us and our parents. I know I didn't do well. I was a top student on my Pre-school and elementary days. But now I'm in Middle school, I can't even compare from what I was. My family was used to me being a top student. And what's worse is I have 14 subjects. I couldn't keep up. I was too unmotivated and overwhelmed. It's hard to meet my Family's expectations. What's worse is I couldn't tell anyone about how I feel. I couldn't talk to anyone about my stress. I just changed completely.
If your reading this, thank you! Your an amazing person!
same here im fucking up my classes middle school is overstressing bruh id pass middle school if it wasnt for math, such a shitty subject its not like we are gonna wip out calculus in the middle of our lives
I used to be "the gifted kid" but everybody used to put so much pressure on me to get straight A's and now since i got older i started feeling like i let everybody down when i get a lower grade....learning was fun before and i tried my Best to get good grades just to feel good about myself but now I just feel like im doing it for them instead of me so thats why now im just not getting always amazing grades anymore and my parents/family put so much pressure and me and yell at me for getting "bad grades", i just feel like im falling apart and letting everyone down..
Also im here for you since now i have to show my parents my report card.....
It’s the literal opposite for me. I have ADHD and the “moving from class to class” part of my school day helps me focus, so even though I don’t do good mentally, I do good at school! An’ that’s more important, am I right? School is fucking stressful, but I try. I especially love my history teacher, he makes everything fun, so it helps me focus. Only good class, other then my choir class.
It’s so sad that I know exactly how you feel-remember that your grades don’t define you as a person and that you’re doing great
am I the only one who feels like the pressure of school is kind of affecting how other people treat you if you get too anxious about it?
(Love the edit audios!)
School is so mentally draining I have over 100 missing assignments I’m failing all my classes My parents yell at me all the time for being a f*cking idiot
You’re most definitely not the issue- The way the school “educates” is. All they do is convert things into numbers- There’s some things you cannot measure with numbers- And they just keep trying. You’re a brilliant person and I hope you’re feeling well today. ❤️ Stay strong and I believe in you.
There's nothing more detrimental than one day having the best time in high-school having good grades, friends in classes, laughing at lunch break, and playing games with them after school. Then the next day having none of that. Sitting in a bathroom stall crying, watching my mental health destroy my grades, and not even remembering half of what I did through the day other than wanting to be back home asleep again.
I got help my senior year and was significantly doing better. I'm now in my second year of college and relapsing back into that depression. I'm now on medication for panic attacks because I get them twice a day. I'm seeing all the things I went through then happening now and I'm trying so hard to better myself but it's difficult.
My friend who has social anxiety would relate to this title, i wish she recovers from it, it really affects her routine in a bad way...
But i relate to the actual songs a lot tho, devil town, suck it up, happy pills, hit harder then a brick
I hope your friend recovers fast and soon feels better I also know the struggle and I really appreciate your love and support on this vid. Oh and btw your friend sure is lucky to have a great friend like you :] 👾🦇☔💜
@@xinaxpov2121 thank you!
// vent
the first song reminded me of a friend i had in first grade/second grade , im still not over her . we were really good friends , we did quite literally everything and anything together . then we started arguing a lot , and she would ask to be friends again so i would say yes because i felt bad . but when things started to get bad (NOT PHYSICAL !! i just got pretty upset over our arguments) and we would start to avoid each other , i ended up telling my parents .
my parents didnt really like that and told me i couldnt talk to her anymore , so i listened and never did . it helped a bit to get all that weight off my chest , but we still saw each other a lot so it was hard . she would always upset me , since i dont think she ever forgave me , but i missed her and forgave her .
its now years later and i still see her so much and its hard to ignore her , but shes always looking away from me and avoids me . i miss our friendship so much , but i know ill never get it back and its my fault for being a btch . 😕
(EDITT!!! ; i have her tiktok but ive never said anything to her on there, but i decided i should apologize so i did , and we arent friends but i do believe shes not mad at me anymore and she doesnt ignore me :)
Wow I'm really sorry I have a similar situation with one of my friend... In middle school I was bullied by my teacher and I had problems finding friends. I had my one friend from kindergarden we were really close but we lost each other in middleschool...
. And since then she always comments on everything I do. She says I bullied her back in middle school and everytime I'm trying to tell her that I'm sorry and was in a Bad situation to she just ingores be...
Just remember sometimes situations force us to do things to survive and protect ourselves. Your not a bad person and its nobody's fault its just how life goes. Maybe someday you'll look each other into the eyes and talk it all out or maybe not.... But you have to be prepared for everything even for the good thing :] 👾💜☔🃏
@@xinaxpov2121 im so sorry about that omg , that sucks . also yeah - thank you :)
Wow this made me remember my childhood friend. He was the only guy friend i had. We have been also sitting next to each other for 5 years...at first we used to fight a lot. Then we somehow started getting along finally became friends. Untill...
I changed my class (i had to) but he didn't. We started to talk less and less. Untill we didn't even say hello to each other when we met. I remember seeing him infront of my class's door looking at me.
Later i heard he have been having anger issues and have been arguing with teachers a lot that he is only going to sit next to me. He has been punching his head to the wall because of anger.
To be honest i feel so guilty for not talking to him. He needed me. We were friends and i just let the distance separate us. I wonder how is he now...
I didn’t keep a lot of friends because I had anger issues so I fell ya mate. 🌹❤🩹
i have the same thing going on rn
Honestly, school is stressful for everyone involved. I know alot of teachers personally and most of them say they want to quit because of how much work there is
Also I hope everyone is doing okay. Remember take breaks and put your health before school work (but school is important so do try in it).
i would if i could
i wish i could quit school forever.
your awesome:D
How should i take care of my mental health when school puts themsleves before me, its slowly destroying me
I don’t know how I’m even getting around school anymore, I’m so tired that I could easily fall asleep while walking to a class, I space out half the time and I’ll get hit with random waves of this detached feeling, like I’m dreaming or something, I guess the only reason I don’t just stop walking is because my feet know where I’m supposed to be going. I’m so mentally and emotionally drained, school and moving with no time to adjust has really been testing my limits, I don’t know how much longer I can keep up with everything. I’m seriously considering staying home for a few weeks to try and help my mental health, though I don’t want to talk to my parents about it, so that doesn’t help. I honestly don’t know what I’m supposed to do anymore, my only escape from the stress and anxiety is writing or drawing and listening to music, but I hide away in my room so much that my parents are constantly telling me to come out and socialize, but socializing is exactly what I’m hiding from, I don’t want to talk to people, I don’t even want my family to see my face at this point. I’ll probably give up on trying in school at all, people telling me in my report card that I should try to put more effort into my classes when I’m already struggling to get out of bed in the morning and am putting all the energy I have left into trying to do well in school, but all it’s getting me is burnout and teachers telling me that what little effort I can put into school isn’t enough and I should just get rid of the rest of myself so I can get good grades, I guess education is more important than keeping the last little piece of myself together. Guess I’ll see what happens, maybe someone will finally notice that I’m not just lazy, I’m actually burnt out and in need of a break from the outside world.
Grades before mental health.
the fact that i have three types of anxiety from school is not ok
i really don’t care abt the assignments it’s my classmates they pick on me, it ruins my mental health, i talked to the counselor and she told me she was gonna tell the vice principal and talk to them. i’m literally so fucking scared to go to school on monday 💀💀
I hope you’re doing well-.. I’m so sorry this is happening to you. I hope everything feels a bit better today ❤️ Stay strong, Lovely Stranger!
I always get late
I always have pressure
I got called a disabled as an insult
I failed my math and spanish test
School is just nothing but pain
TW!!! VENT / CONFORT
when I was like 5 or 6 I met a girl my first friend. She left the school the next day but she left me a note of her.phone number. I'm still not over her at all she was so kind. But all I remember is what she looked like I can't remember her name nothing only what she looks like.
I have become suicidal and a vent friend or the therapist of the friend group. So please if you meet me don't tell me you hate me don't te me you don't want to be friends. I will cry myself to sleep.
Confort: I am very proud of you. Why because you deal with every one and no one is there to say these words. Im proud of you. You got out of bed knowing yo u would be bullied for something and you still went there because yo u knew that no matter what happens someone is always there.for you and is there to say I'm proud of you. You are loved never forget and your beautiful. Have a good life
Hey you are loved too you are so cool and amazing just for testing this like I found you so cool.
Send you and to all of the other people lots of hugs and love you all are amazing :)
Hey r u ok now?
Just a reminder that I love each and every one of you even though I'm a stranger.
i love you too
you can’t love everyone. thank you for trying anyway.
I love you too
my school is putting metal fences around it and keeping people outside in the rain and not letting them in if they have fabric on their shoes or a little bit of jewellery. my school is so shit. its turning into a prison
I just realized I tried to sleep through this whole year. I came from school, slept until 10pm and did my homework and went back to sleep. Same thing when I had english classes. I was so fed up, dissapointed that everytime I saw a bad grade even during weekends I just went to sleep to forget about it. I still felt tired after sleeping because it's always 8 hours instead of 12. I tried to sleep in my classes, whenever we had a car ride anywhere with my parents. I think I'm using sleep as somewhat a coping mechanism to forget and distance out from the world. I have to admit, it works perfectly tho
I can’t sleep. Melatonin doesn’t work well enough for my body, it isn’t strong enough, I’m apparently stronger. That fucking sucks. I now get to sleep, what, one full night every two weeks? Maybe two full 8 hours, if I’m lucky! Plus when I wake up everything hurts. My back has hurt everyday ever since I was in kindergarten, as I’d fallen off the money bars. I have terrible back issues, I feel the same, but music is my coping mechanism.
I am Ukrainian. On February 23, I had a terrible tantrum about school. I listened to this playlist and cried HAHA! Now all problems are gone, except that I no longer have a home. At least The best feeling in the world is to listen to these songs again, after all. Cool playlist
I'm so sorry. Stay strong, I wish you all the best
My past school year traumatized me so much, I feel sick when I even think about going back after summer (edit: I went back and I hate it sm, I hate the loud ppl, I hate the tests, I hate the assignments, I hate p.e, I hate having no friends, I hate the pressure, and I hate the presenting and group projects.)
My parents switched me from in person school to online because of how much school I was missing. I missed school because I didn’t feel good, my stomach would hurt really bad, I’d get headaches, I’d feel nauseous and dizzy. They found nothing wrong with me. It was probably anxiety, but I don’t know. School was like h*ll. Every boy there was rude to the girls, one boy even called a girl f*t (she did provoke him by saying he was too sk*nny, so they both are in the wrong), one of my teachers was being rac**t toward my best friend, the girls only cared about g*ssping, I broke up with my girlfriend after one month of dating because she was ignoring me and I think she wanted her ex back. We broke up and not even a week later she was dating her ex again. He had forgot her birthday and flirted with other girls, which is why they broke up to begin with. My old friends just stopped talking to me after awhile and replaced me with one of their other friends, I was struggling and not doing my work, I didn’t ask for help. My parents are worried that I have depression. I’ve been so close to snapping many times before. Boys made fun of my art one time and I felt like crying, my accidentally bent over in front of two boys and they started laughing. I feel terrible. please let me know if I should censor anything else.
Hope you feel better, also you're lucky you have caring parents.
I'm really sorry that you have to go through all of this. I hope the online school will help you, at least a little bit. Use this time to take care of yourself and your mental health. I'm in kinda simillar situation and it (tho in my case along with therapy and meds) helped me a lot, so I believe you'll be ok too. Take care
It's not my grades. But it's my classmates, they make me feel like a disagrace not gonna lie. I am always shy so it was hard for me to make friends. I finally found a friend but then she left me. Haha... Nothing lastes forever...
Perfect playlist for an existentiel crisis under the stars.
I mean this playlist does replicate the feeling of school to me. Love the playlist. Hate the school.
Life really is so stressful when you're in middle school and your mom already has you think about college applications, being perfect, being top in all classes, having "Good influence" and "smart, top of the class" friends. Not to mention the constant body shaming and just shaming in general. I'll never be perfect. Because of that, I am to blame for all her problems. It's always my fault. Whether at home or in school. I am to always be blamed just for trying. Whether trying to be perfect or fit in, it will always be my fault. At this moment, the only thing keeping me alive is my close friends, who depend on me, love me, and trust me. I feel like they're all I have now.
That's exactly how i feel, I was crying reading your comment.
Same feeling rn bro :€ im being so oressured to finish my missing assignments because im abt to transfer school (to let the admission office see i have good grades. Im abt to be senior high next school year which is months away by now) and mom dont even eant me to spend time with my cousin, which in context is only here for a MONTH because its her wedding day then after that off to Ireland she goes again for work and I won't be able to see her again. Especially she is abt to start a family. Mom denies me from it ONLY FOR SCHOOL.
im so sick being an honor student but at the same time i miss and want to maintain it. But im super damn tired that im starting to flunk each year.
7th grade was my peak best, so was 8th grade.
Then pandemic started.
Gr 9 and 10 (right now) is not doing so well... and now I just noitced that mom just looks at my imperfections and mistakes more than my rights. Yeah, she rejoices and we celebrate my wins and achievements. But one single wrong to her is a casualty.
Im starting to hate this, im a very optimistic girl but everyone has their limits. Even my optimism.
Is she gonna wait until her child became pessimistic? Im not even college yet :€ pls help me...
@@ziabuenacosa5369 I really wish I could... On the side of reality though, shit only goes downhill.
thought school was breaking me. found out i'm already broken after i started homeschool.
its not the work. its how much there is. and science is something that doesnt click. ive told her i need a new teacher, i said "mrs? is there any way i can get a new teacher for science, like talk to the head? its not because u! Its because the way u teach doesnt click in my head, it may for others, it just doesnt for me " i didnt say anything rude. she never answered and ignored me. i said it loud enough. i was right next to her. i have a c in her class. c's in my house arent aloud, i have all a's and two c's. i know my problems dont matter as much as others. i just am tired of being treated likea an animal and being ignored of my needs. my last period class teacher is a sub since my teacher had a baby (yayy ) she yells at me for no reason. ive told my parents and they take her side. i dont know what to do. i feel like a caged animal. i want out. i want a break from my life.
Learn by yourself. Read the textbook? use the youtube to help you? Search in the google? ask people in the internet for help like reddit or quora? read outside books beside the testbook? idk.
@@uhhhermmm you rlly think i havent tried those?. im an idiot. ive tried everything and anything. i just dont understand it.
@@zenaaa9052 It's not your fault, the teacher should have listened to your needs instead of just ignoring you. And you're doing great by the way
Did you try to talk to the principal/ dean yourself? I knew quite a few teachers that were qualified to teach multiple subjects so you if you could find someone else who taught science then maybe you could ask them for help or tutoring. Have you tried just other science teachers? From your grade or not?
Are you in a safe home? Because a lot of people go through the stage of having bad grades and for you to maintain mostly A's is something amazing. You should not have to be worried about when you get C's if you are trying your hardest, that isn't good.
You are not an idiot, you are not dumb for this. You need something different from what you're being provided with. And sometimes in the end you may not understand it all, but you still have the ability to be taught how to learn about it easier and from a different view.
What about trying to help yourself first? After you get home from school don't spend the night stressing about what you have to learn and understand, only work on school till a certain time. Even if you don't finish something, you just need to calm down and break from it. What about being able to do things that you feel happy about? Like taking walks, you can take pictures of things you find interest in, or even just laying down somewhere in the grass.
Even just taking a break from it all, just take a day or even a week to relax from it all.
And no matter what happens, I'm proud of you, you are doing a fantastic job and you never deserve what is happening to you. Even if you made mistakes before, don't let you or someone else trick you into believing its all because of you and its your fault. It not.
come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and i will give you rest matthew 11:28
i listened to this while studying of an assignment.. really feeling the stress sink in but somehow it's calming??
OK first- v relatable... I mean everyone keeps saying "oh school is only a small portion of your life" but um, if I keep going on like this, it's gonna be the _only_ portion of my life. Second, am I only one who love's avogado6 art here?? I mean one of their works is literally my pfp T-T ♡
//vent
My school is a type of school where you get in from a lottery. The thing is, the classes are faster than normal high school classes and more advanced. So naturally, some freshmen (myself included) were failing some classes here and there. But I was failing most of my classes to the point that a counselor ended up calling me to his office to talk about my grades (they were about in the 50s - 70s except for about 3 or 4 classes). But from that meeting, he was basically telling me to pack my shit and leave cuz "*school name* isn't for everybody* and we scheduled another meeting, which I remembered but didn't go to cuz I didn't want to hear more of his bs. My sister ended up coming with to the next meeting so then she would step on my foot from under the desk if I "spoke rudely to him". She ended up seeing why I didn't like the counselor. My chemistry teacher ended up calling my mom and I for a meeting and gave me better advice from ONE meeting than my counselor had from like FIVE MEETINGS.
TL:DR: My high school is faster and more advanced and failing is common in freshmen year for many people. I wasn't doing well in many classes and my counselor was practically telling me to pack my shit and leave in his 5 "advice" meetings while my chemistry gave me better advice from ONE meeting
Hey you! I know things might seem tough right now and yeah you're right! But I promise things will get better okay? You're important and unique and don't let anyone take you down! I'm sorry if you're stressed. I wish I could take it away from you because you deserve so much and don't need anything to drag you down! Don't let anyone push you down!! Don't listen to any of those negative words about you no matter what it is. Take care of yourself and try to seek help from others! I know it might be hard but it will help you. If you don't have anyone to talk to or vent to you can always talk to me!
I'm Beautiful Repeat that
I don't have to be perfect Repeat that
I can be who I want to be Repeat that
I'm important Repeat that
I'm special Repeat that
I'm not useless Repeat that
I'm not mistake Repeat that
I'm not a burden Repeat that
I'm not dramatic Repeat that
I am worth it Repeat that
I am loved Repeat that
I am not a problem Repeat that
100 reasons why you shouldn't commit suicide:
1. We would miss you.
2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself, if you failed or just simply left scars or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
3. It does get better. Believe it or not, it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing.
5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
8. You are amazing.
9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are at ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.
10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead.
11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive.
12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die.
13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.
15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?
17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.
18. Think about your favorite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again…
19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day
20. Listening to incredibly loud music
21. Being alive is just really good.
22. Not being alive is really bad.
23. Finding your soulmate.
24. Red pandas
25. Going to diners at three in the morning.
26. Really soft pillows.
27. Eating pizza in New York City.
28. Proving people wrong with your success.
29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
31. Being able to help other people.
32. Bonfires.
33. Sitting on rooftops.
34. Seeing every single country in the world.
35. Going on road trips.
36. You might win the lottery someday.
37. Listening to music on a record player.
38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
39. Taking really cool pictures.
40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.
41. Hearing crazy stories.
42. Telling crazy stories.
43. Eating ice cream on a hot day.
44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know.
45. Traveling to another planet someday.
46. Having an underwater house.
47. Randomly running into your hero on the street.
48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.
49. Trampolines.
50. Think about your favorite movie, you’ll never watch it again.
51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke,
52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
53. People do care.
54. Treehouses
55. Hanging out with your soulmate in a treehouse
56. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees
57. I don’t even know you and I love you.
58. I don’t even know you and I care about you.
59. Nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
60. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor.
61. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE
62. Starbucks.
63. Hugs.
64. Stargazing.
65. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is.
66. You’ve changed somebody’s life.
67. You could change the world.
68. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you.
69. You are worth so much
70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.
71. Making snow angels.
72. Making snowmen.
73. Snowball fights.
74. Life is what you make of it.
75. Everybody has talent.
76. Laughing until you cry.
77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist.
79. It’s possible to turn frowns, upside down
80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive.
81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.
82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.
83. One day your smile will be real.
84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
85. Lying on the grass and laughing at the clouds.
86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends.
87. Eating crazy food.
88. Staying up all night watching your favorite films with a loved one.
89. Sleeping all day.
90. Creating something you’re proud of.
91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and be proud you didn’t commit suicide.
92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.
93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate
94. The new season of Sherlock
95. Cuddling under the stars.
96. Being stupid in public because you just can.
97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?
98. Being able to hug that one person you haven’t seen in years
99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, anything could happen.
Please remember that your important and to contact somone or talk to someone if your feeling suicidal. Please take care of yourself, eat,drink,brush,wash anything and everything to take care of yourself.
If it's night time, remember to put your phone on the charger,make sure you have everything set and try and get some sleep okay? Hopefully the next day will be better and the days after that.
If it's the evening it might seem rough right now but I promise they'll get better. Take care of yourself and remember to make time for your hobbies and interests.
If it's the morning don't start off with such a bad mood! I know it sucks to have to get up and go to school or work but I promise the day will be good! Don't overwork yourself okay?
I love you and you're important! Please take care of yourself and seek help if your feeling suicidal or depression. Remember you're important and there's no one like you! If you ever need to talk to someone you can always talk to me! And please take care of yourself for me And remember it's okay to cry, it's a way of the body letting out it's emotions!
Go get some rest dear! And remember your valid
Red pandas and hot chocolate are my favorite reasons on this list :)
@@katbib5261 Aww I'm glad! I like red pandas and hot chocolate too! I've done a project on red pandas :]
Your so nice
@@laurel3372 Aww thanks
I cant even talk to anyone bcs I feel like a burden the only reason im not re trying is bcs of my online friends they have admitted I am the reason they are alive bcs i let them take their anger out and give them reasons to live but the stress is getting to me and the lack of sleep and idk why but I cant sleep at all.
Vent.
I have social anxiety and it gets worse everyday. I try to talk to my teachers about group projects with strangers but I can never bring myself to do it so I just suck it up and deal with it. My grades suck and so does my attendance and when a teacher asks about it I just say family problems but in reality I’m just scared to go back and trying my best to avoid it. I love learning and education but I get stressed by how much people are there and if I’ll mess something up that I’m suddenly the centre of attention. It’s like being the centre of attention in a circus except everyone is laughing, making fun of you, looking in disgust constantly , I hate it and I know they aren’t but it’s so hard to process it in my brain and also trying to keep up with work. I’m gonna try every year tho to become more confident and trying new things out my comfort zone, I’m not sure when I will try to change.
i listen to this as i study and stress about an exam
If this isn't irony idk what is
:{Vent}:
School makes me feel stupid and weak because I was never as smart or strong and pretty like everyone else I never asked for help and I was afraid that I'll get held back because I didn't have any motivation to do anything and I hated it when everyone just says that it's easy I felt like a failure to everyone around me because i couldn't be like everyone else who got straight A's it made me feel stressed almost everyday and my anxiety was getting worse because of school i just wish i didn't have to focus on all this work almost everyday even on the weekends i can't relax. There is so much i have to do in one day and it's just so stressful because everyone keeps telling me to do more and to complete this and finish that and i never do it because i just feel to tired all the time. I try to distract myself from it all but it never works and it just keeps piling up more and more. I always thought school would have been fun were I can't make friends but i was wrong It's a living hell for me...
I feel bad for you cause I know exactly what your going through.
TW//VENT
(Names are changed to cover identities)
I had this one teacher, let's call him Mr.Nolan, who was my math teacher. he was very nice to me at first, very comforting. maybe a little too much? Idk, but i felt safe around him. one day, he had come up to me, sat on the opposing desk, and asked "what do you plan on doing when you're older?". i had told Mr.Nolan: "I want to be a streamer/RUclipsr." He told me (and i'm not even joking): "you'll never make it in that business.". Made me feel like sh!t and that i wasn't good enough for a somewhat simplistic job. i wanted to scream at him, but i was just... shocked? i went home and didn't say a word about it.
There was another time, lets call this teacher Mrs.Isa, who didn't like me at all. i didn't like her either. she always put words in my mouth. one time i couldn't log in to evaluate, and i asked her for my passcode, she told me "you should remember that. *under breath* stupid child." i just sat there. did nothing as Mrs.Isa went on and on, practically yelling at me because i didn't remember 'something that simple'. i wanted to say something, but i didn't. no one else in the classroom said a word. my old crush was also in that class.
and, finally, lets not forget my parents. at the moment they want grades that aren't d's or f's(so c's - a's). but back then they wanted a's or b's. i remember that i had struggled a lot with my assignments. but i managed to get off the ICU list (which was the schools way of not letting you go to the gym in the morning), and i got an award for doing that at the end of the year. i was so proud of myself. but my sibling... they were just staring in hatred(even though they've gotten a medal before but they say it was rubber and mine was plastic). i had went home to show off my accomplishment to my parents, and my dad took it, looked at the medal, and told me "this is good, but it means nothing." i felt everything shatter. my mom said " i'm proud of you though-" then my dad interrupted "but it means nothing" i headed to my room after that and tried offing myself with the ribbon of the medal.
yea.
so much happened in those 2 years.
little things i don't want to discuss.
and current drama that is irrelevant to this.
come to me all you who are weary and burdened and i will give you rest matthew 11:28
Fuck those beetches in my opnion you did good!! Im proud of you for earning that medal, you deserve it :) keep your heads up your doing great
“I don’t care how much help you get me for school, it’s killing me that you keep trying for me to get help for school and not my mental health…” quote by me
I wish you all the best, take care
I feel like I'm in a lifeless yet stressful cycle and routine when I'm at school. I'm barely learning anything and just trying to get through every day without getting Overstimulated and Angry and then that lead to breaking down in tears. That combined with trying to keep thoughts like "I don't want to exist but not in a sewerslideal way" "I want to exist but in a different/fictional universe" out every day.
Today I came incredibly close to crying in class full of kids that are the same age as me and some older than me. I finally broke down at Home when I was away from all the kids on the Bus, but I don't wanna become ' * deadname * , the kid that cries every day' that I couldn't help but be in Elementary because I (unknowingly) always got Overstimulated and started crying, which ended up with the kid next to me SHOUTING "TEACHERRRRRRR!!!!!!!! * DEADNAME * 'S CRYING AGAINNNNN" And I just wanted to SCREAM "SHUT UP SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU USELESS SACK OF SHIT" every time, and I did a lot (only the "shut up" bit tho).
I don't wanna become that kid in *High School*
"Suck. It uuuuuup. Suck. It. *Up.*" is one part of me to the main part whenever something like this/something with the presence of negative emotions happens
The second experience by Ludovico Einaudi started playing I fell in love with this playlist
The love i have for that song is so strong ngl
@@phoenixriley7741 same :]
Ima vent for a bit.
At the time I’m writing this, I’m currently 13. I’ve experienced extreme bullying, I’ve been hit and bruised by people at school. Now here’s the thing: although that may seem normal in the school system, I also have high functioning autism, My parents are divorced and put the blame on me, and I have to live with a bipolar family member (it’s my mother, and although she takes medicine, it doesn’t always help).
So as I’ve already mentioned, I’ve been through extreme and severe bullying. My whole entire life, no matter which school I went to (I’ve been to 15 in total for elementary, 4 for middle school), the bullying followed me. It got the worst in middle school. I had my hand slammed into a door repeatedly to the point I had fractured it. As soon as I was back there, a young man did it again, and ended up breaking one of the bones in my wrist.
It was typically regarding my arms or legs. But I was slammed backwards into a wall and choked by someone, so that was something. Aaaaannnyyyway, the point is that I was bullied. My mother did everything she could to help, but nothing changed. I was finally diagnosed with severe trauma, depression, anxiety, and abandonment issues (although the last isn’t exactly a diagnosis, just a term) by about 12, and was put on medicine to help. In the beginning it helped, but the bullying just got worse. I believe the worse that happened was that I was given a bloody nose by a student and a black eye by a teacher. My principle wouldn’t do anything about it, he just said that I don’t deserve his help. But even through all that, I never resorted to self-harm. I thought about it thousands of times, thought of suicide too many times to count, but I never did it. I know I would’ve done it, but I’m so afraid of pain , so afraid of death, so there’s no way I would ever do that.
I’m afraid. I don’t want to experience this again. I’m scared. I feel like there’s nothing that can be done. Please, if there’s any way to help, tell me. I don’t want to go through this any longer.
Well, the best option to help the bullying is to try home school. It's the only way you can stop the bullying. There are plenty of videos, apps, etc online to help you learn! Your parents can help you learn too, this is the only suggestion I have. Show this comment to your mom and hopefully she will allow you to do home schooling.
hey i really hope your okay please dont commit suicide i know you will probably not see because your username says inactive but i hope your bully goes to fucking the very last level of hell when they are abused every fucking day
I healed a bit during summer break, realising that all that was for nothing. School is making me miserable again. I never get enough sleep and I come to school tired knowing that I won‘t have the time to get all the sleep I need. I started to cut my friends off, because I always compare myself to them thinking I‘m stupid because of the grades they get. Now all I do is sit in front of my school stuff not understanding anything because I‘m sick way to often and my head is so full of everything. I don‘t have the time to do things I love or even do the most important things like eating..
Yo this reminds me of 2020 (7th grade) how I was excited about not having school bc of Covid but never expected to go out this way and now (9th grade) I’m failing, falling apart and I don’t know what to do while everybody’s moving on.
Every time I get in a argument with my siblings, They bring up my grades and I shut up because that’s the thing I’m trying to work on and not to feel like a burden.
I know people have more important problems…
But to be honest I don’t even know why I was so excited to… ruin my life
lol, I listened to this during school knowing that my teachers can see what I'm doing on my computer.
haha, probably did nothing about it tho, did they?
I needed this so bad. I work as hard as I possibly can, and yet my dad only focuses on my mistakes and my bad grades. My teachers just make it worse. The counselor isn’t any better either. School will be the death of me. I can’t get good at it. It’s just made to slowly break away your mental stability and it’s obvious. My dad makes it seem like you can get a hundred just by listening carefully. WELL THATS KIND OF HARD WHEN ALL SHE DOES IS YELL AND SCREAM BECAUSE OF OUR CLASS AVERAGE. And when she does teach us, I can hardly read it because she doesn’t expect any of us to get left behind, and when we do, SHE SCREAMS AT US FOR NOT PAYING ATTENTION/ZONING OUT. The bus ride home, and band is my only safe haven in my opinion. And my friends they help. My dad, stepmom, older sisters, and teachers only see me as a lazy failure that’s going to end up somewhere homeless doing drugs like my mother. And I lost my s/o. I’m falling apart. The only things still holding me together are my friends. Thank you for reading if you’ve gotten this far, and if you relate, I’m so sorry. Just know You are loved and have an absolutely wonderful day/night.
vent//tw
Idk how much longer I can keep doing this, I see no point in school anymore, it’s not worth it if it causes me this much suffering right? Apparently not.
school destroyed my mental health so much the bullies i had to go through and im listening to this before i have a usual day getting bullied not having friends around because there sick or something..
aw, I hope someday it gets better
Had a breakdown cause of a online test i missed due to my own ignorance, mother screamed and didn't help
(full vent ahead)
Honestly sometimes i feel like I aren't in the world i used to be anymore, everything feels so dull, each day is a cycle of the same thing, every hour, minute, second, just feels like a cycle of what happened yesterday and the day before. Just wake up to mom screaming, pack ur bag, get in the car, drive to school, learn, get made fun of, sit alone, get back in the car, drive home. It's all just stressing me out so bad that I wish I could just- hit the leave button and just- dissapear, but I can't cuz i'm afraid to die. Just when I felt like I was confident after I broke up with my ex, everything started going downhill.
Frorm the start i thought the jokes my class made of me were normal and just how they joke around, but i learnt from whats normal and isnt. They make fun of how i look, how i sound, how i act.
Recently nothing has been appetizing, no food no matter what i eat. Even my favourite food dosen't seem appetizing anymore and it just feels like im forcing myself to eat. My mom REALLY forces me to eat, by that i meaning that she asks me if i want something added to my food, i say no, she adds anyway then yells at me for not eating it. Its already bad enough that I have been getting picked on, and have problems at home but my mom blames everything on my 'irl friend' that i dont even have and my therapist thats been HELPING me. My bad grades, my 'attitude', everything, and even threatens to take away all my devices for the summer when online friends is all i have anymore. and even then they sometimes dont listen and it just feels like everybody is against me.
Thank you for reading :)
Yes, I read this. I don't know what else to say but that and I feel sorry for you. :[
@@unknownunicorn567 Thank you :')
Its sad how many comments i've read where the people are so tuckered out and tired of everything especially knowing I USED to be one of those people-
(HALF VENT)
I think my first step for you for recovering is self confidence.
Yeah people might make fun of you people might laugh at you but the reason they comment the reason they laugh is because THEY are self conscious. Lets be real how many times have you laughed at someone or joked about someone because your "friends" did? How many times have you just gone along with whatever they said because "I gotta be normal"
Thats the thing though you ARENT gonna be remembered. You WONT keep your friends from lets say middle school- They are gonna disappear one day and move on with their lifes they might even REGRET bullying you or someone and have to live with that. Focusing on the little things that make you insecure will only make you more tired and stressed.
Ive kept my mask down for a while now and I dont have any regrets.
(Now im not saying this is a auto-fix but it helps in the long run.)
I ditched friends who made me uncomfortable I gave myself a confidence boost by just wearing what I think is cute because why the hell do I care if someone gossips about me? Doesnt that mean they cared to notice me? Even if they make fun of me im not dressing out for them! I do it for myself and if a friend cant hang out with you or respect you for doing things you like they arent worth it. I used to be that friend.
I was self conscious I was worried what my parents would think when they saw my grades- I used to criticize people and mock them because "ha ha they look funny" I used to wonder If I could EVER BE good enough but I cant. No rather I wont. Because i'm not living life for them I living life the way I want to because its my choice. MY OPTION and if they think they have any rights or say to MY LIFE because they gave me treats and BASIC CARE then maybe I should cut them out too.
Self care is what I recommend for your second step. I stopped drinking so much soda. Staying up late is natural for me at this point so I try to go to bed early. Im helping my body so I wont have to deal with negative thoughts to get my focus off of pain.
Im lucky. I realize how lucky I truly am to have caring parents. To not be abused to be cared for and have my opinion considered to be fed properly even when we might not have a lot of money. That doesn't mean I cant work that I'll only amount to nothing NO I'll be something because its what WE need. Someone who works from the bottom might be climbing longer it might hurt more but in the end I'll have more strength than someone on a comfy cushion from birth. (They have their issues too)
Please take care of yourself. You deserve help and love. Even if you dont think you do you'll always have my love stranger
Sending love to you as well
@@clocop1554
you are an amazing motivational writer, you should continue :D
@@wolfskiislol8581 Thank you! I do creative writing (about anything really) in my spare time so I suppose that was the main help I dont normally know what to say to people when their stressed so probably not :D
Bro. All you do in school is be stressed out, be teased, tons of homework you can't do, bullying, complains, bad grades, etc.
But friends are there okay?
I'm really glad that now it's in the past. I was switching A LOT OF schools and they only destroyed my mental health. Now, I moved to another place, my parents got another job and I finally got good friends and teachers. Wish you the best life and never give up! Someday you'll find your place in this world :) Don't forget that you're beautiful the way you are ^^ Wish you well >:]
I just want to forget about reality and realize that there's things I can do without worrying. "Oh! I forgot I have homework, sorry I can't hangout..." "Sorry, grades call, ya know..?" Then they say that I'm boring and that I'm so introverted. If covid never hit I would've been a happy kid like a kid should be. Happy and healthy. Mentally and Physically. Grades? A's. GPA? Practically 4.0. NEVER MESS UP. NEVER PRIORITIZE ANYTHING BEFORE SCHOOL. HOCKEY? NOT UNLESS YOUR WORK IS DONE. I lost so many friends over the past 2 years and I'm sick and tired of school saying that they care and all they care is for our grades and what detail we forgot to include in the long ass essay they assigned 1 day ago.
Young kids or people in general should be able to live life and enjoy while meeting some conflicts. Life shouldn't be all school and grades. I want my parents to realize that they also probably went through this. I want them to remember their past as kids and not affect their kids like this.
Do what you want when you can. Lose weight? Gain weight? Have fun with friends? Eat food? Stay up all night and cry? Do it. Whatever makes you feel happy and yourself. What makes you feel the most alive.
Whoever is reading this, realize that even though in your life, you may have so little people to understand you but understand that people on the internet like us are here for you. Don't care about what other people say. Body image is all up to you, not up to someone else.
I love you :(
School ruined me so much I don't even attend anymore. Gcse's coming up, my mental health team are panicking. Why did primary school tell us it would be fun? Damn, I don't even have hope for a job anymore.
your primary said itd be fun?????? that was a fucking gigantic lie holy shit. good wishes though
School is the 2nd reason why I'm half crying going on vent videos haha.
Honestly I think we can all relate to this…..
It is currently 04:11 AM as I'm writing this, I haven't slept in longer than 24 hours. I've lost count of the amount of times I've cried today. I'm shedding a few tears as we speak right now. Lately, my mental health has been getting worse and worse every time I wake up. I feel stupid. I feel useless, I feel dumb. I feel lazy and like an embarrassment to my family and friends. I feel like I wont succeed at anything and end up rotting away in hunger. Lately, i've been getting worse and worse socially. I've been struggling more and more with talking to my friends, talking to family, talking in general. No matter what I do, I'm not good enough. Whatever it is that people do once and finish the job, I have to do it 5 more times to even begin to understand what the hell I'm even doing. I refuse to say my thoughts out loud. I refuse to seek help. No one understands. I feel like I'm actually exaggrating and that it's not them, it's me. Every day I wake up to being told that I'm good for nothing, that I cannot achieve anything if I keep going like this, that what I lack is effort, that I'm wasting my potential. No. I do put in effort. I do try. I have been trying for my entire life. I've just never succeeded. Whenever I *do* reach out for help, it's just never the response I wanted. "you're just lazy" "everyone feels tired once in a while, it's not worth having a mental breakdown over" "Instead of crying about it, why don't you just do it?" combined with the emotional damage of grieving for someone that never died, missing a friend that never "left" just caused me to become the worst version of myself in years. He was a great friend. My best one, even. It will officially be a new year a few days later, it's been a year since I met the best-best friend group I've ever had. We never "left" we never "broke it off" but we definetly are on the very edge of losing everything we had together. And its partially my fault. I'm not sure if the US has this, but our grades seperate our schools after a certain age. I'm at that age. I lost nearly everything I loved due to being dumbg. My home life is not that bad, but it's definetly not what keeps me alive when the thought of myself alone disgusts me beyond insanity. The teachers I loved so much, the friend group that genuinely accidentally stopped my plans of ending myself. The reason I woke up in te morning and the reason I was a B+ student even if I never tried "hard enough". I'm currently failing 3 classes. And it's not even 11th grade yet. My current school has one of the worst environments that the mankind has seen. Dr4gs, sexual intimacy in bathrooms, smoking and a shit ton od other stuff I have absoloutely no interest in. I've told no one about this before, but I have no plans for the far future, not because I'm a late bloomer, but because I plan on ending myself at 19 years old. Currently, I can't wait. I hope I can overcome this. I went to therapy and psychologists before, it did nothing. Out of anger for myself, I just exercise. I'm not even built well. It hurts like hell. But thats the reason I do it.
Hey, I know this probably won't mean alot from a stranger, but I am so proud of you. Of how far you have come. Please try and stay, I know its really really sh*tty rn but once school is finished it will get better. I hope anyway.
Oh! 11:34 PM for meh. Tired but don’t wanna go to bed
Ah, Bullet, the classic happy song about suicide
Getting isolated is one of the worst experience I’ve learnt from school, and I think I’m getting used to it.
take care, i wish you all the best
Thank you for making this. Everyone thinks that because I get good grades that means im always happy never stressed and never struggling but its the opposite. the only reason I have good grades it because I push myself too far, I deal with a bunch of stress, I repeat everything until I get it right no matter how long it takes or how many tries. I still fail sometimes too. I got an f on my most recent test. school just causes stress anxiety and depression and I feel like we should never assume that someone is happy and fine because of their grades. school sucks for everyone. If you're struggling right now and reading this I hope you start feeling better soon. I know how hard it can be but please try not to let some stupid number on a page get to you. As long as you try your best thats all that matters. Take care of yourself, practice some self love, and hang in there you've got this and im so proud of you. You've made it so far already
listening to this as i finish my school work, i had to finish it last week but couldnt cuz depression, 1 year left to go, then collage :/ didnt think id make it this far in life ngl
School has always sucked majorly for me. From 1 grade till now I've been bullied, last year it got worse. My mental stability was already down from a toxic friendship, but then the two bullies would hit me. I got a football thrown at my head cuz I "was a girl and couldnt play" damnit i hated that. Then we played kickball and was told i couldn't play cuz i was a girl. Then, this is when i got mad, me and a friend were playing with the football, the two come up and insist we play a game of two hand touch. i agree like an idiot and we start, not even 5 minutes in, one rushes at me after i get the football and tries to slam me into the ground. Yea i know its football, but he knew we were not allowed to tackle. The teacher didn't even do anything when me and other kids told he was bullying me. So I moved schools this year.. There arent any bullies and I finally have a small yet awesome group of friends. But there is this teacher that yells constantly. I rarely did my homework, so I would get screamed at and embarrassed in front the whole class. Me being a damn snowflake would start breaking down cuz of idk if its a panic attack or if its cuz of what i had to deal with growing up, other than the bullying. Then she would yell at me for crying which never helped. I hid my emotions from my friends and still do. Yea we joke about us being unstable but that's all I really say. Obviously Im doing a bit better now, but its still close to rock bottom, just not as close as before. I hope it gets better.
If you are struggling, keep going. Know that you are loved, even when you don't think so. You are worth it. Stay strong my fellow unstable people and have a blest day/night
This year I worked my ass off, I made it to honor roll this year for the first time. I never got anything lower than a 90 in a class, and now it’s the end of the school and I never felt so burnt out and unhappy with myself. I’m so miserable and drained. I’m very grade obsessed and feel like my worth are based off the numbers that pops up on those report cards. School makes me depressed. I hate the overload of work I have to come home to right after spending so many hours at school. I barely have time to spend with my family or even spend time with myself. I thought I would feel happy with these grades, but this year I feel like all the work I put in was not worth it.
In my experienced teacher are the issue some of them shouldn’t be teaching if they don’t like kids simple, and high school and my classmates scare me especially teenagers I’m one but I never know if they are horrible people or just bullying people or just overall calls out other girls , I’m scared over the fact high school students don’t know about neurodiverse in schools which can affect the work and hw shouldn’t be after school bro we have a life …
SOMEONE NEEDS TO TELL MY TEACHER THAT YELLING AT KIDS IN THE ART ROOM AND ME STAYING THERE CRYING ON THE ART TEACHER IS NOT OK SHE WILL LITTRY LOOK AT US AND PICK AT THE PARTS OF US THAT WILL MAKE US "WORK HARDER" GOD DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED WITH MY HOMELIFE WHEN I SAY IT SUCKS I MEAN IT S.U.C.K.S!!
aw, I feel so bad for u. :(
Finally something relating to me❤️ When I was a kindergarten I didn’t know English that much cause I was Filipino, i was friends with the kind and quiet kid and it was my fault and I we’ll never forgive myself. Her name was isabella and both of us don’t really go well in our friendship.. She reported me tot eh teacher and ofc her name was mrs.koonz (i think) I cried in the fence and she caught me crying, She didn’t even care. She said it was my fault plus I was only young to be threaten like this now I felt like everybody blames me thanks for this playlist is my admiration
Edit: Happy International Womens Day!
My English Teacher Took 6 points off an assignment for no reason, He also Gave me a Zero For not completing an essay in a period time (40 minutes) He gave out 3 projects at the same time and expected it to be done over break. (I have a life i was busy with other teacher's assignments) and i am currently stressing out over another 2 projects, I almost fell asleep in 8th period because of this, So yes This title is so true, I'm going back to the projects now. I hope you guys get a good rest! Good Day.
I really need these types of playlists..
~Vent~
I really just want to drop out of school and get homeschooled or something, but then I know for a fact that nothing really bad had happened to me, and I have a few friends left. I've recently started falling in class, and I really have to show my parents my grades at some point, but I don't want to. Not just because I'm scared of their reaction after they find out, but because I've been relieving myself from the stress at home, but if my parents are always disappointed at me because of that, then I wouldn't be able to feel easy anymore. I've said it before, nothing bad has really happened. I'm doing okay in certain subjects still, and my friends see me. My childhood friend left, and we have no connection with each other. My old group of friends seems to be leaving me a bit, but I'm finding a few new people who seems to fit me a bit. They're not liked much by the rest of the grade, but I think they're comforting. My school fee's really expensive, and my parents have told me that if I'm not doing good in class and getting bad grades, there was no point in going to that school. I was actually thinking I was doing good, then my math teacher saw me writing on this seperate notebook instead of doing math, so I was sent to student care. By now, I've went to the student care office around 5 times, which is something I'm not proud of. The student care teacher's really awkward and asks straight-forward questions.. Questions that make me want to cry. I'm also seen as the artist of the grade and the creepy person. I draw a lot, so it makes sense, but I'm really not good at much art. It only seems good because I actually practiced and improved on my drawing, not because my mom was an artist. She didn't teach me anything, so I feel really stupid in art class for not knowing anything. People would come to me to ask things about art, and I wouldn't be able to answer, so they would make this disappointed look and walk away. It also hurts that specific people stay away from me because I like dark things. I used to be really optimistic and an extrovert as a kid, but my personality completely switched.
I bet my parents would be really mad that I'm venting online. This paragraph is already long, so I'm going to stop here before I rant all my personal information or whatever. If you read until here, thank you, I already feel better. If you're feeling these things, remember that people can make mistakes, people can feel down and hurt, but in the end, we're all humans.. I will always try to be proud of myself, and I will always be proud of you :)
I’ve came to the conclusion. If school didn’t exist, I could’ve been happy rn.
Dang I feel you too well
Had to deal with a dysfunctional classroom for 3 years now, they say it's ganna be over soon.Don't care, no matter how hard I try every day, I act and am the happiest I could ever be becouse I think of all the people outside my reach that are just like me, walks outside of school barely standing and as soon as I get home I end up crying on the floor for hours untill someone comes nearby.
I don't care if it's gonna end soon.
I will never recover.
For someone who has problems dealing with emotions I cry very rarely, I only cry when I really can't do anything, it feels as if I was unable to move or hope to escape this.
They always tell you that childhood will be the best time of your life, and it's kind of true, so I wonder can I even survive life if this is what childhood is.
Unfortunately I got hit by the worlds reality at an early age so it always felt as if nobody really understood what was going on.
Today a classmate told me something.
I gave up a long time ago acting normal to them, maybe they feel I'm crazy, but that's fine It's called coping for a reason.
That classmate told me: why are you always so sad, life is beautiful.
I will tell you.
I could not feel more anger in that moment.
I could have really killed him if there weren't consequences.
If it doesn't make sense, he always got a good happy life with friends, everyone has their demons but he said it as if it was a joke.
Like those uneducated parents who think depression is just some choice.
I don't think I can explain how I felt reslly.
So internet do your thing where you understand even if I don't explain.
Now what do I do next.
Also don't know how to tell my parents I'm queer, they aren't hatefull of queer people but so uneducated about it that they would probably think it's joke.
This was a bit extra lol.kinda wrote to much.hehe
Since I relate too this playlist I'll just say how school makes me confused about myself, I hate school so much.
:) //Vent//TW//
SOOOOO LET'S START EVERYTHING FROM THE START. :)
So basically I had multiple friends in school around 2-3 years ago. There were some I miss there's some that I cry just of the thought of them being gone. So basically I had these friends for around 1-2 years and there was this one girl that was just my bestest friend ever and she understood me so well and so did I. We were such good friends and I wanted to be friends forever. Well, when the fvcking pandemic hit the schools well shut down, the worst part is that we had no communication between together. I didn't really think much about it until I got a new teacher. She's currently still my teacher and btw my report card is coming next week :,). And so lemme just tell you about her. So she was my second teacher for the first semester cause my first one was just an idk like a substitute or something idk. Anyways, she was really kind at first(first 1-2 weeks). She was nice and handled things correctly. But whenever she took attendance she would always skip me and I would answer but she still would mark me absent. I never spoke or called her out cause I'm just too nervous and sh!t. Also, she has a favorite student and I just think having favorite students are cruel. So the first time this happened I actually cried cause my dramatic @ss is like that and yep. So after that day I just never thought of her the same cause the whole day she ignored me. And by the way, I know she could hear me cause I saw my microphone thing go up when I talked. And she could hear every other student so why just me? A couple of weeks ago (like 2-3) she called my dad cause I was 'behind in school work' but I was really trying my best and she didn't care. For those of you who use Edgenuity you would understand a bit more but for those who don't it's basically a 'learning' app. So my teacher and my dad met up blah blah blah I cried cause I'm sensitive and I hate it T-T But yeah I was forced to do my work and even though I didn't do all of it I still got a passing grade. And now the teacher meets with parents EVERY. SINGLE. FVCKING. WEEK. If you didn't think that was enough for the past 4 meetings my teacher had explained all the bad parts of my work and how I wasn't finishing all of it when she just left out the good parts so my dad could be upset with me. And I know she was doing it on purpose cause I heard it in her voice that she was excited and wanted to start laughing while telling my dad that I was failing. So I had to speak up for once and tell my dad "SHE'S ONLY TELLING YOU THE BAD PARTS AND NOT EVEN THE PART WHERE IVE BEEN TRYING." So my teacher was obviously upset that she didn't get away with that, the tone in her voice gave it away. Anyways, I hate her end of the story, there's a bunch more about her that made her a wrongen but I'll continue. So after that one day she completely ignored me and treated me like sh!t I was actually feeling a lot sadder than usual. So I just continued with my day but I realized that nothing got better. I never had the spark of happiness in me that I usually did(not trying to be cringe or trying to sound dRaMaTiC). But after around 2 months I just couldn't take it anymore. I started cutt!ng myself and no one realized. No one has realized. Everyone assumes that I'm happy all the time like- My dad once said in a meeting with my teacher, "She's a very happy girl, she's very thankful!" Well, I'm thankful to have at least 2 good friends but other than that, I want to d!e. And no I'm not happy and you only make it worse. I used to love art but now I just HATE it cause my dad was always like "mAkE tHiS!" And "mAkE tHaT!". Not only that but he would be like "mAkE aN NfT!" And sh!t like that- I actually hate NFTS and yes I do send hate toward that. :). Anyways back to the beginning, I didn't really miss her a lot until all that happened and I FINALLY realized "Hey, you know..Online school is sh!t.." LIKE JESUS CHRIST, WHAT THE FVCK TOOK SO LONG. So yeah ever since that I've hated online school even though my dad LiKeS it. And the worst part is I wanna go back to school cause I have a chance to see my friends again and things could be perfect again and I could get good grades and be happy. But guess what... NO! FVCKING NO CAUSE MY FVCKING DAD HATES MASKS AND HE ALWAYS HAS TO MAKE A EXCUSE. DOES HE KNOW HOW MUCH I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP EVERY SINGLE NIGHT?! DOES HE KNOW HOW MUCH STRESS I HAVE?! NO! HE FVCKING DOESN'T! I AM SUFFERING IN A NIGHTMARE I CAN'T FVCKING WAKE UP FROM. I'm hoping that they remove the mask mandates cause I can't take this anymore. I'm hanging from a ledge right now and not one soul cares. EVERYTHING WAS FVCKING PERFECT BEFORE! Well, I learned that life hates me and so do I hate life. I just can't take this. If you read all this thank you lol and I guess now you know all I've been having to go through at the age of 10. :)
Edit: Not to mention my friend faked her death and left me-
I'm sorry that you have to go through all that, i hope things will go better for you :)
@@Rara-mb1jz Thank you
I understand that feeling when everything is bad and none seems to care or help you even when you ask for help. I'm not sure if this will help but there are people going through stuff like this too so you're not alone in the feeling and even if I'm not there with you and we don't really know each other just know that I wish you weren't going through all this(especially at that age). I suggest if you haven't maybe try to tell your father how much online school has been effecting you and how much you would prefer in person school. If that doesn't work try to maybe make friends online if you can or find your friends online. Also please don't hurt yourself it'll make it worse I've had thoughts of doing stuff like that before to try and see if people would finally care but please don't I have people in my family and friend groups who have hurt themselves and it doesn't help the situation. So please take care of yourself it'll help you feel better even if it feels like the world and everyone is against you holding yourself worth and taking care of yourself with you coming first is really important. I really hope things get better for you.
@@Rex-nm9rl Thank you so much. Honestly, that really means so much to be and I am thankful for having people in the world who care like you
@v1kqi3 Im sorry that you've had to go through all that. If you'd like we can be friends! :D And please remember that you're amazing and poggers! >:D
"If you can meet your younger self now. What would you do?"
I will punch my past self in the face. Why? Because I used to wish to go to school more often.
Depression, physical bullying, anxiety, Breakdowns in the bathrooms, and thinking about letting my life end. Love it. My teachers didn't care when I was cutting. They thought I was doing it for attention. When my bestfriend did it (which I helped her cope with her problems after) who's in the same boat i was "oh no you poor dear!"
Freshman year and the physical bullying stopped but it's still mentally troubling, I lost my bestfriend of 10 years and I dont know what I did. Then there'my home life. I'm close to letting my 5 months of being cut free restart. I can't handle this anymore.
Please tell me your okay
Before I start, I want to say, I have way less stress on my shoulders bc I'm in upper primary, I don't have any mental illnesses. I'm just tired.
My whole life in school I've been that one smart girl who gets high grades and the teachers love but recently I've been just tired. I want to get straight As and I feel like a failure if I even get an 80%. If I tell my friend she'll just be like "Well I got a 60% and I'm not whining" yeah, that because your not the perfect girl who needs to get perfect grades or the teachers will say I didn't study or that my brother never got low grades
Seriously? My brother never got low grades? Then why does he tell me that when he got 70 percents he'd be okay with it? It's like I'll never be like him, he's this perfect angel. I love my brother and this isn't my brother's fault, he's smart and therefore I need to live up to expectations. Sure.But I'm not a carbon copy of your perfect golden child.
I want high grades but I hate studying, I just feel like crying when I do. Please, I'm trying but I can't. Please give me a break. I'm a kid. Let me live. Leave me alone. I'm tired.
this is exactly what is happening right now, thank you dear creator for making this. i will listen to this while i pretend that everythings okay 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
Love your pfp
Pov: your scared to be different. Pov: kids make a joke about you and your health turns into social anxiety
VENT!!
So, I have all B's and I feel like I'm not good enough. I want to make my parents proud, but I feel like they aren't, no matter what I do. And since I'm the "therapist friend" I deal with EVERYONES problems. Every person who has a problem, comes to me. I have to help so they don't snitch and the school calls my parents (I have a good reputation btw) so I'm forced to help, even though I don't want to. None of my friends understand what I go through and just make jokes about it if I do tell them what I go through. They are amazing people, just cross the line sometimes. I wear glasses and i had my glasses off, one of my friends said IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS "You look ugly without your glasses, just my opinion." We don't sit next to each other anymore. And my friends have never seen my cry, like never. I don't cry bc I feel ugly, embarrassed, or just in general... both. I only cried once. It was the final straw, so I cried, for the whole day. And if I get hurt and feel like I'm gonna cry, I just suck it up. My mother said that to me once, we were at a Waterpark, I fell, scraped my knee and it started bleeding. I wanted to cry, so I told my mom. She said this, infront of ALL MY FRIENDS. "Suck it up! Your fine. Just a small scrape." I just agreed and went on with my day. I wanted to cry so bad, but I didn't. I love her, but it was to far :[
If you saw/read this, don't comfort me in comments
We encourage our students to follow their dreams in hopes for a better tomorrow!
But don't worry, we'll make sure they don't want to follow them again
1:21 was my happy song :3
It’s not so much the classes but the classmates
Watching this a year later and teachers still expect us to be perfection.
School HAS destroyed my mental health. I wake up at 6am (tired asf) arrive at 8, go into a classroom with a bunch of noisy kids who have probably had a good sleep (like how are you so energetic its 8 in the morning calm down). Do lessons. Go home with about 8 homeworks I have to complete. By the time I have completed them all i have enough time to have a shower and then im tired as hell. as soon as i lay my head on my pillow im full of energy and cannot go to sleep, or i get anxious about the most stupid reasons so i end up going on my phone and watching yt then go to sleep around 11 or 12. thats my life😮💨