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“Why are you always on the phone w your friends and never w us!” What my parents do: let me raise my siblings and only me (my older brother does nothing) yell at me for crying do the “if you keep crying I’ll give you a reason to cry” doesn’t listen to me when I say I need mental help call me nosy (I listen into there arguments bc last time they got into a bad argument my dad punched a whole in the wall) oh and let’s not forget the whole “if you call CPS remember it takes 7 minutes or more for the police to show up see what I’ll do to you before they show up!” And they wonder why I’m scared of them and never vent to them ☹️

they say we aren’t a disappointment when they made us have anger issues, trust issues, anxiety, and they are the only reason why we’re watching these kinds of stuff…

I'm was about to burst in tears when my mom said I could stay home from school today school destroyed me and its about to destroy me completely I'm to tired to get up out of bed or do anything and every time when its midnight I have a mental breakdown until I go to sleep or don't sleep at all .School makes me even more stressed about things and teachers and parents really don't get us.....

Finally getting adopted so I can actually be loved... Being compared to their "real child" Hits hard. being ugly, "bad grades" and the worst weakness.. "Your own parents gave you up bc u weren't good enough. Not why I was given up That's not why I was given up that's not why I was fucking given up.

I just have to much on my plate. A relationship that I dont wanna lose and that needs lots of attention to get fixed. I also have to deal with school work that is stressing me out and on top of that I have to be able to keep good grades nothing worse than a B for my parents or Im disappointing them its all just to much and im not even feeling happy anymore this is just too much for me .

School. Sucks

Leaving tommrrow, I'm all packed.

They cut my hair a lil off now I have only some hair but I m ok.. ;(

Shout out to: @hallesharp1791 timestamps if you want them 0:00 ⁓ Daddy Issues by The Neighbourhood 4:15 ⁓ Michelle by Sir Chloe 7:50 ⁓ As the world caves in by SBT Semi 12:00 ⁓ My Alcoholic Friends by The Dresden Dolls 14:30 ⁓ I Hate My Mom by GRLwood 17:00 ⁓ Be Nice To Me by The Front Bottoms 19:45 ⁓ Lone Star by The Front Bottoms 23:35 ⁓ Alligator Skin Boots by McCafferty 25:55 ⁓ Mommy Fwiend by Penelope Scott 29:30 ⁓ Bottom by McCafferty 33:10 ⁓ Wozwald by Yuu Miyashita, NILFRUITS 38:02 ⁓ Happy Pills by Weathers 41:23 ⁓ parents by YUNGBLUD 44:16 ⁓ Devil Town by Cavetown 47:16 ⁓ I Can't Handle Change by Roar 50:35 ⁓ Better Wash My Mouth Out With Soap - Remix by DJ Fronteo 56:17 ⁓ Idk could someone tell me? 59:20 ⁓ Bullet by Hollywood Undead 1:02:37 ⁓ Kill Somebody - Unplugged by YUNGBLUD 1:05:42 ⁓ Cupid's Chokehold by Gym Class Heroes feat. Patrick Stump 1:09:41 ⁓ Beachboy by McCafferty 1:12:57 ⁓ Die A Little by YUNGBLUD

Cough... i have message for yall! Sad one kinda but its spelling S: suffering C : crying O: obviously dying bc of bullying O : obviously crying every day they go home from school bc of bullying and being yelled at for hours L: lack of sleep interal work We go on our devices to escape the suffering and reality Save humanity Save us kids... M: madness from our teachers A: a suffering place T: the teachers scream. When we ask to use the bathroom H: heck of a place. L: life sucks I: i never had someone who understands me. F: failing grades due to lack of sleep and stress E: everythings burning towards us as we speak E: earth falling apart A: a parent does not care sometimes R: right on the edge rn T: the HATE is overwhelming us H: hiding from everyone and everything I'm here for u all reply if u need help <3 Pt2. P: pain. In our hearts A: a idiotic world I: its painful we cry every time we are scolded N: not new anymore~ Pt3 of randomness-: some kids have committed due to the interal work and the lack of sleep and the hurt that has pieced they're hearts.. Crying. SCREAMING committing.. Bullied.. Thoughts of sucide at a young age.. Young minds. Traumatized Hearing the agruements. Ever stoping minds Scolded for no reason. "Lalalaa" Minds. Ruined to bits...

It’s been 4 days of Middle School and I’m already losing it. Why do the principles and the teachers feel the need to make everything hard for no reason? And then try to pretend like they care about are mental health. I hate school.

Michelle is also my step-mom :)

I want a motorcycle or a dirt bike

I hate highschool

my brother keeps ruining all my stuff!! yay!! (there all stuff i bought with my own money, or they are gifts from ppl who actually care abt me)

my brother keeps ruining all my stuff!! yay!! (there all stuff i bought with my own money, or they are gifts from ppl who actually care abt me)

5:31 dose any one knows this song

I listen this so i can fall asleep

My anger issues took over me once when I was at the park with my friends and I snapped at one of them who was manipulative and toxic. They had said something insulting about my other friend and it pissed me off. I went on a rant for 5 minutes straight and at the end of the rant they shut up for good and never said anything about my best friend again. I cut them off after that. Haven't talked to them in 3 years. And I don't plan on talking to them again.

WHERRE IS SIR TIMESTAMP-

Played papa's pancakeria to this

This is stolen..

i have insomnia because of school

POV: there’s no timestamp person even though 1.1M people have seen this

Daddy Issues - 0:00 Michelle - 4:17 As the world caves in - 7:50 My alcoholic friends - 12:00 I hate my mom - 14:30 Be nice to me - 17:01 Lone Star - 19:46 Alligator skin boots - 23:35 Mommy fweind - 25:55 Bottom - 29:31

My school life: Stress everytime, tons of works to do, broke parents trust many times, im trying but cant do anything, bad grades, always wanna cry, family blaming my idols for my bad study but ik my idols are not to be blamed for... its not their fault, overstress when lots of assignments and when exams arrive near, feeling really sad and bad because i got bad grades in many subjects and there are so much more, and lastly i feel like a bad child i feel like my parents and grandparents dont deserve me... just wanna go in another country for some days and disappear from here..

Almost all the time, my mum will compare me to one of my siblings, because he is smart and good and doing good in university she will compare me to him and says that I won't be able to get to university too like he did and how smart he is, smarter than me..well i get it that he is smarter, better and better than me in all the things but i cant dk anything about it. Its not like im not good and smart but its not like him....i guess ill never be enough to anybody . It makes me sad how my mum doesn't believe in me....sometimes I wonder if I'm really good or can do it. The thing is I don't believe in myself either.....

“Daddy was around but wasn’t present” it’s kinda like that…

When ur parents are one of the reasons ur suicidal, it’s funny right, how they say they care yet whenever u try and tell them something they either don’t care or say ur over exaggerating

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As a gay bpd mess I love this mix especially when my mind takes me dark places

Totally not the fact I know all these songs and lyrics 😃

This is not Pov...this is my life, i take blame for my sister, so that she don't go through what i went as a child and as a teen....

Ypu already know its good when it starts off with mad hatter

my mom called me an embaresment,but im ok 😅

this bs called college is so fucking bad but i cant just leave

Destroyed*

In the song speaking a different language, what are they saying?

My sister constantly blames me for things and now my siblings and even parents scold me because somebody did something wrong. They always assume it was me. When I say it wasn't, they say I always do bad things and that I'm a liar. My sister lies smoother than my ex. She knows my anger and anxiety problems, and calls me names that hit me harder than a heart break. Most of the names consist of me being 'over weight' or 'ugly'. My dad is on her side. So is my older sister and even mother. Now I pray that my oldest brother, the only supportive one, doesn't fall into her tricks. I miss hugging him after I snapped. I haven't hugged any other family member, as their touch makes me so pissed, uncomfortable and even sick. I had a huge breakdown before and almost choked my sister after I was fed up with her annoying me. Now she always brings it up in arguments and makes me feel like a twisted person. It was a year ago. More. I swear it was... I commonly lay here on my bed. Crying, just like last time. I can cry as loud as I want, because not even my parents check on me or say sorry. I nearly called the police on my mother, but I chose the wrong thing not to. I regret it, because she got worse. Every time I opened the fridge from how hungry I was, all I saw was wine and alcohol. I got to a point where I thought self harm and even began taking light to even heavy sips from my parents drinks. My mom smokes. Sometimes it gets hard to breathe around her. Her voice makes me so angry, and I don't know why. It's like some body babbling into my ear with commands, somebody I dare to make shut up. But of course, I wouldn't have the power. Being slapped hurts for 'talking back', y'know? My sister acts as if I'm always lying, saying 'she doesn't remember' or 'when did that happen?' and even asks for proof like what time or day. I don't keep track of days anymore, and she uses that as an advantage. I'm actually tired of everything. I'm getting too lazy to stand and do easy chores. I snap at everyone and everything. "Why're you so angry?" ...That had to be a joke. Please. That had to be a joke, yea? You can't be god damn serious.

I think that this is my new playlist for late night thinking

I used to be scared of my mom because she would literally beat me for the smallest thing back 1 grade to 5th grade but one time my brother came to school crying over a toy he didn’t get at the store and his teacher called cps and now me and her are chill👍

Why the hell does school exist?Like yea i get i need my education..But i get nlamed for stuff i do, im forced to go there even when im sick,I forgot my favorite color and my name once, i have to be surrounded by fake people, can yet they say im not doing well?Like what the hell do you want from me? To die?Oh but I have tried, why?Bc of school, and if thats si important, i almost die inside in school, i have never gone through a school shooting but i am so sorry If you have..AND IF I DO DIE IN SCHOOL WOULD YOU CARE?!Imagine that I get bullied and you pretend to care, and when i have a best friend thats fake, im stilll blamed, wtf. I get head aches in school, i cry in school, so pack my bags bc i guess im moving in school.I really feel like i am..I have grades that depend on my device (Yeah i wont be able to be back bc im getting it taken away in a few days). so Ask yourself again, why the hell does school exist?

I have a fear of my mom , she literally controls everything and my dad won’t do hell about it , he just agrees.

TW: VENT SH Man I love it when my parents use the “we’re doing this because we love you” card even though we all know that’s the biggest worst lie ever made. All they do is humiliate me, use as an extra hand to do chores they don’t wanna do. “Why are you in your room all summer, come out to be with the living!” Maybe I don’t want to be among the living. Maybe everyone is bitches to me. The only one I’ll hands down be with till the day I die isn’t even here. You don’t have to lie anymore. We all know he’s your favorite. If he’s your favorite, what’s the point of us? People to put the blame on. Just thinking of how people view this family makes me sick. The fact you have to put on a show and kindness and shit so people think this family is normal and happy makes me feel like this world is nothing but horrid disgusting people. I don’t wear the clothes you pick because I don’t like them. I don’t wear short sleeves because they don’t feel right. The amount of tears I shed over your words to the point I can’t cry anymore. The amount of times the blade cut my skin over your words. The amount of pain you caused me don’t feel emotions anymore. You starved me of love it’s not funny. I end up sitting wondering how I got here. I cry because I can’t see the only one I love. I can’t even look at knifes the same anymore. “Ah this is the same knife that will be the to kill me one day.”

I have to go back to capital city tomorrow for school, I couldn't sleep and all, I don't wanna leave my own bed 7 July 2024

Im in credit recovery 😮‍💨 wish me luck

Well growing up as a ghost. Like something that was an accident and shouldn’t be alive. I was ignored, screamed at, beaten and had to witness the things between my parents. I was scared of my mothers hands and mouth and felt betrayed by my own family. I grew up having to face my pain alone and just accept it or deal with it somehow. I mean 18 years passed and even tho I survived somehow and I’m constantly sitting in a psych ward my parents once even more wont see me as their child and I honestly don’t see them as parents either.

I’m in my 30s and I’ve been uncovering a lot of trauma and repressed thoughts about my family and… I don’t know how to feel.

My mom yells at me when my brother hits me and I kick him

Everyone hates me, I swear they do, or they don’t want me around. My dog always misbehaves around me… and my mom always asks “WHY DOES HE ONLY DO THIS WHEN YOUR AROUND?!”. My dad gets pissed at me really easy, I once dropped something on the floor accidentally and he pretended like he was going to hit me. And he’s just an ass to me. I’m a furry and therian, my brother always laughs at me and makes fun of me. He never listens, he hardly ever takes the time to understand what therians/furries go through. My aunt is a SEVERE alcoholic. she once at my house for my grandmothers funeral. I was going through a lot at the moment. She randomly yelled at me (cuz she was drunk) she yelled “YOU ARE SUCH A BITCH!” My thought to be best friend has been talking behind my back. The quotes below are what she has said (My name will be censored out for privacy reasons) “___ is so rude” I’m not rude, she was spreading rumors… “She’s so stupid” “She a Taurus, so she’s useless” “She’s SO annoying” And other shit like that… Some drama at school has been going on. P and L had gotten in a fight. P took the time to be nice to me (cause she knows I cry easily and she wasn’t mad at me. L stared at me. The mouthed the words “WHY IS SHE BEING NICE TO YOU?!” I shock my head and was panicking. She just stared into my soul. And her and P got pissed at each other so they started fighting. L has ghosted me and hates me now. L and T have been leaving me out SEVERELY… T mostly… T used to be great to me!! But she talked behind my back (talked about earlier) but for FOUR YEARS she has been excluding me, ghosting me, talking behind my back, etc. T has been doing all that to me only… but she’s been a true fucking friend to L and others. BUT IM THE ONLY ONE WHOS BEING TREATED HORRIBLY. I’ll simply ask a question. She glances over and looks back at her other friends. She walks away when I need comfort. She NEVER. AND I MEAN NEVER responds, when she does, it’s one word. Nice, cool, ok, etc. I’ve cried myself to sleep BECAUSE OF HER. It’s a friendship I can’t let go of because, deep down. I care for T. And L. I care so much. But… they don’t. All of this has stressed me out SO MUCH. I’ve been scratching my arm and legs so hard, trying to make them bleed. But I hate pain… so I’ve been using fataltotheflesh.com I hate my life I hate myself I hate my hair I hate my face I hate my voice I hate EVERYTHING about myself … But I still love those who hurt me… because it feels wrong to shut them out completely cause… they have their problems and their feelings… I don’t want to ruin their lives like mine has been ruined… I want to vent SO BAD… but it feels wrong. It’s feels so stupid. I feel like I should let others come to me… put their problems on me, suffocate me with the problems and vents and sadness and pain and anger… so I let them vent. I let the rant and rave, I let them punch me. I let them bring me down. I keep it all inside. I don’t try to cope, I don’t try to get help by my real friends, so I don’t try, I don’t want help from them. I want to help them… I guess I’m saying… I don’t want to be around them. Just disappear, because they don’t see me anyways… My mom hates me My dad hates me and is SO distant My aunt hates me My brother hates me My “friends” hate me Everyone hates my guts… So… now I’m here 🙃🥲 in conclusion… this is a great playlist… <33333 Hope yall are doing okay. And If you feel like no one loves you… I know someone does. If you don’t think that. I love you (not in a creepy way 😳😳😳)