I’m giving you my own 101 reasons to stay alive list: 1. you'll never eat your favorite food again 2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again 3. you might one day meet your idol 4. people who care about you will miss you 5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts 6. crying to let it all out and feeling better 7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining 8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again 9. sleeping in 10. reading your favorite book 11. you'll never grow up with your friends 12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day 13. trampolines 14. cookies 15. coffee or tea (your preference) 16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness 17. rewards for doing good on something 18. your favorite show 19. your favorite game 20. singing in the shower 21. farting when you're alone and laughing about it 22. the moon 23. the stars 24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it 25. your favorite scent 26. listening to a song on loop for hours 27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing 28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you 29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather 30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather 31. dancing when to music when you're alone 32. sunsets 33. sunrises 34. snow 35. rain 36. your favorite song 37. you'll miss out on memes 38. watch corona disappear 39. long bus/train/car rides 40. road trips 41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours 42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full 43. trying out new things 44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning 45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc. 46. giving gifts 47. receiving gifts 48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries) 49. fireplaces 50. roasting marshmallows 51. s'mores 52. chocolates 53. finding stray animals 54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs 55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise 56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up 57. free things 58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem 59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right 60. holidays 61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter" 62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it 63. amusement parks 64. candies 65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other 66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you 67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting 68. aesthetic things 69. This sussy Baka number 70. seeing rainbows after it rains 71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time 72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day 73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on 74. falling leaves 75. cherry blossom trees 76. your favorite animal 77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears 78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone 79. cringing at weird things 80. trying to learn a new culture 81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something 82. you weren't born to entertain people 83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end) 84. arguing with 8 year old kids 85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug 86. new technologies 87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things 88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed 89. cringing at old things you've said and done 90. money 91. random shower thoughts 92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world" 93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright 94. that weird funky smell from new items 95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile 96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense 97. feeling happy for other people 98. cute animals 99. flowers 100. laughing at your own stupidity and lastly, 101: me :) Copy and paste this to tell others
shhhhhheeeeeeeEEEEEEeeeeeeeesh i mean i can relate especially when talking abt (not mental) things- and im on break from social media other than youtube rn
HEY!!!! if you're listening to this playlist in the first place, you're probably in a really bad emotional state. if you wanna talk, yell, or just distract yourself, im here for ya. remember, youre loved so much and you deserve only good things. take care
@@roshini.s6008 That's what we all been doing here😂. I distract myself for years with music and headphones. I swear that it is the only thing that keeps me alive for soo long. But I just don't want to give up. Just yet. I watched my fist anime Naruto - recomendation sent. Kms is not the solution - remember that. It is absolutly the last thing anyone should do... So let's just fight and keep on distracting ourselfs 😊. It's been 8 horrible years for me but lets belive that when I reach my 18's I will set my self free. Either way suicede will be considered as one of the options by that time.
thank you for making this playlist, it has just the perfect amount of numb-sadness and anger-hatred. I don't really have anyone to open up to anymore, so this is very comforting
I'm so sorry to know that.. I imagine how it feels...just remember that even if you're feeling lonely now, you're not alone..you won't be like that forever.. I know you'll find people that really love you and care about you and want you to be happy... I know I don't know you..but I care about you dear stranger, and I wish everything good for you.. I'm sure you are an amazing person and you deserve to be alright.. have you been eating well? I know it's hard..but you deserve to eat food..and drink..and be healthy!! You! You are the only you in the world, perfectly imperfect, amazing and special just the way you are.. thank you for keeping going thus far, I hope you don't give up and keep trying! ... I know you can do it.. it's okay to fail sometimes.. it's okay to make mistakes..what really matters is that you learn from your mistakes..embrace your flaws and treat you Kindly... don't hurt yourself, your skin isn't paper, don't neglect your needs just like sleep, water, food, fresh air..even socializing if you feel like too .. what Matters is that you feel okay, don't hesitate in asking for help, it's not a sign of weakness, but instead a really brave attitude!!i wish you the best, stay strong, you can do this ❤️ if you ever need anything, I'm here, don't forget
@@Bia_OkamotoS2 I know this wasn’t directed to me, but I read the whole thing and I want to thank you for making my day so, thank you 😊I greatly appreciate it
@@-panalex-4697 ohhh I might have directed it for a certain person, but when I say these things I actually want that everyone feels better reading it!!! I'm so glad that I made your day, stay strong and keep going, and remember, you're not alone ❤️
@@Bia_OkamotoS2 I don't really check my RUclips notifications so I'm sorry that I took so long to see this. I'm so glad that you took your time to make sure a stranger was feeling fine, and I'm also glad that it helped others as well. I'm not doing great, but I'm not giving up either and the same goes for you :) I wish you all well, and to receive the help and love that you need.
@@patty.5736 thank you for the lovely words, and yes, I never regret to take time to try help someone...to make someone's day better... actually it's a thing that I've been doing recently is trying to go and help people who need...even though we are strangers..we can get through this together, and I know sometimes hearing messages like this can make someone's day, so why don't keep doing it? I wish you all the love and support in this world, for everyone, and I'm really glad that you're not giving up!!! Keep fighting, I wish you all the strength for it and I know you can do this! I believe in you! ❤️. Also, if you ever want to let out what's going in your heart..you can reply to my comments whenever you want, take care of yourself, because someone really cares about you
Im getting so tired of this world. I have been taken away from my parents since 2017 because of abuse, and rape. I lived with homophobic grandparents and then, in 2019, my friend killed himself. I then moved to florida, and moved away from my home state. i left everything behind. i then came out as trans in 2020, and then i was kicked out of my house and was sent to foster care, and i moved back to my homestate, and now, Im moving homes, and i have been staying in this home for the past year, and now im leaving everything behind again, and my little brother and i might be getting seperated. My mum isnt doing anything to get us back, and all of my family hates me, and i am 15 years old. I still have until im 18 and this is terrible.
I'm so sorry to hear this 😔, pray you and your brother stay together and everything gets better quickly. Your friend is in a much better place now 🕊️🤍💚🤍🕊️
I have the same feeling and I'm younger, I've been token away from my parents as well for abuse. Im at my aunts house but she always tries to hurt me because I have bowel problems. I hope you feel better and I hope that you get a nice home 🥺
My suicidal thoughts were really weighing on me and I felt that one more casualty was going to set me off. After my cousin committed suicide and the feeling of loosing someone so important makes me want to stay longer. Having to watch my family so distressed I want to keep going for them.
I wonder... What made you have suicide thoughts? After a year I pripably shouldn't remind you of the bad stuff but. The kms is a big thing and I just don't know. Maybe compare whether my problems are actually worth it or should I just fucking come to my senses and not dramatize. I hear it all the time from my mother that I don't need a psychologist. I don't know what to think anymore because I'm being emotionally blackmailed etc...
When I was 15 I afraid to live now I'm 19 this time i afraid to die coz I feel something in this time when I was child I don't no how to survive I copy all things in human being than I know how to survive in this mysterious world Just live be happy don't overthink just try to fix your live u don't need society is OK don't afraid to facing cruel society just do for yourself get job work and buy gaming laptops play ur fictional characters watch Netflix bee happy
@@user-sb4rr8oq3u There was a lot going on at the time but I am doing a lot better now. It sounds stupid when people say “it gets better” but it most cases they are right. I know how it feels to be denied therapy by my mom and my relationship with my own mom has gotten worse but im okay with that because I realized shes a terrible person. Keep goin bro
i like how you put in ads, because im bipolar, and im triggered my voices/sounds/colors/words/etc so when i was listening to this, out of nowhere i started jamming out the the taco shack ad. you made me happy today Taco Shack
vent (eating disorder, weight, scale, not eating, mom problems): I wrote a poem about ED. I told my mom I found it on RUclips, I then read it to her. She started crying and telling me she never wants me to become like that. And how that person should be in a mental hospital. Little did she know, I was that person… The poem: "You know when you wake up and your stomach feels like a pit, you wanna get up and eat lots of food or that feeling when you are super hungry and your stomach twists and knots like yarn. some people crave that feeling because that means you’re hungry or even starving. people with ED are happy when it comes it’s more of a calming feeling because you know the next time you step on the scale it will be a lower number. They say you can't measure happiness but my mood has become dependent on three numbers on a scale. I'm tired of checking my body every time I pass my reflection asking if I’m skinner than yesterday, I'm tired of going to bed hungry because if I eat I may not like what I see in the morning, I am tired of being cold all the time, counting my food like a number because I can't have too many calories or that stupid app on my phone is going to call me a failure. I hate waking up 3 hours early just to spend the same amount of time trying on every outfit, but they all make me look too fat. People started telling me they want my body, so take it then because I don't want it. I don't want the chemical in the way it feels when the number on the scale is in freefall, the way I can tell you how many calories are on your plate from the back of my mind, to the regret I have after eating lunch then trying to throw it all back up that night. I hate how I try to sleep as long as I can, even during the day. Because the more I sleep, the less I think about food. ED has the highest mortality rate of any mental illness and every 62 minutes at least one person dies from ED. Eating disorders are real, and they are hard. But as hard as they are, it makes you skinny. And all I want to be is skinny. . ."
I get rid of sadness by playing my Clarinet. Living is boring, but band is the only fun thing to do while living in my opinion. I have planned to end my life before, but I thought about what was going for me. I felt selfish. I’m in a personal hell just being at my house. Living is painful but I still go on.
Focusing on the small happy things in life is definitely what helps you to keep going. I believe in you. You got this!! You can stick through this. You aren’t selfish, you aren’t hated, you aren’t worthless. You’re loved more than anything else in the world. You find love in your clarinet? Keep playing! Even if at a certain point you stop finding joy in playing the clarinet, then find something else you’re passionate about! It’s through these hardships that we grow. This world is pretty messed up, and I know that you’ve had to put up with it for what seems like forever. However, I’m proud of you for making it this far, and I have full faith in you that you can make it much much further. I know it’s easier said than done, but please go on to live a good life. Outlook changes a lot on what you view life, as do the situations you’re in. Not sure what your living situation is like, but no matter what it’s like, I believe that you can make it through. I believe in you!! Think of the birds outside, the clouds that look so pillowy soft, the way the sky turns all sorts of shade during a sunset. Have you ever seen a purple sky? My Spanish teacher said that it’s one of the most beautiful things one could see. Think of flowers, how they sway so gently in the wind, their petals varying in shape, and if you rub them between your fingers, they feel like velvet. Something that helped me a lot was just going outside for my own enjoyment, and taking a few deep breaths, closing my eyes and letting nature take me away. Maybe it’ll help you too! Also, I found my comfort in my God, in Jesus Christ. He was with me through all of the hard times, holding my hand through the floods and fires. I’m not sure what your stance on religion is, if you hate it, love it, or whatnot, and by no means am I trying to shove my religion on you, believe me, but just know that I’ll hold you in my prayers :). Your life is so precious, and if I could, I would give you the biggest hug ever. Apparently hugs raise your serotonin levels by quite a lot, so if there’s anyone you’re close to, maybe give them a hug to boost yours! You probably won’t read this whole thing, but I just want you to know that I love and care for you, so please keep on living. I love you so so so so soooo much, even if I have no real idea who you are. You’ve been through a lot, but just know that you’re never alone. There’s always going to be someone out there for you, and you just have to find them. I mean, I’m using the word “just” as if it’s easy, which I know it’s not, but take your time with things. Take a few deep breaths, drink some water, stretch a little. Take care of yourself, my friend. I know that you can make it through this. Also, if you ever feel like ending your life again, please seek help, maybe call a suicide hotline. I really really really don’t want you to die, and I know you probably don’t care about my opinion cause I’m just a random person on the internet, but please go on living a good life, because you deserve it.
i’m getting sent to the mental hospital in the next few days, and i know it’s to help me but i can’t help but worry about how my life is going to be so different after everyone finds out what has happened to me. i’ll have to be held back and i’ll lose my job. but i have to hope that it’ll get better that maybe i’ll get some help… this playlist reminds me of the time before everything i had fell apart, thank you.
OMG I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!YOU HUNG ON FOR SO LONG EVAN IN THE TOUGHEST TIMES I CAN NEVER BE LIKE YOU BECAUSE YOU MUST BE THE MOST STRONGEST PERSON EVER KEEP ON HANGING ON I KNOW ONE DAY YOU WILL BE HAPPY AND HAVE A GREAT LIFE STAY STRONG BY THAT TIME WE WILL BE HERE FOR YOU PLEASE DON'T THROW YOUR LIFE AWAY!!!!!!!!!!
I always feel distressed and uncontrollable, my parents say I have control but I know I dont, i wish people understood me more, everyone always says that I'm to annoying and that I make up things, I just cant, but hearing this makes me so happy, thank you so much
I also felt the same thing thought I was better(since I have depression) bit know I don't know any more I have scars that remind me. But know I don't remember who I am or what I am anymore. I feel all different emotions and anxiety has gotten way worse and school kicking in and friends make new friend groups and everything I just want to die rn but I also what to show my siblings that they can overcome it(if they have depression like me). I want to stay but don't want to. 😅 But is I can stay alive you can too!! Life is hard but we only live once!! So stay and u deserve the whole world and your not worthless because if u leave we won't be complet so don't go. U can make it and I'm here if u need it ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for making these playlists. After reading through your comment section I can see that you are an amazing person that makes things that help others, whether you realize someone needed it or not. So thank you for being a good person.
Hey you... I know it's been hard for you I value and recognize your pain, and I want to tell you that you're not alone, you will get through this, I know it's not easy, but it's possible, I wish you the best in this world, you are an amazing person even if you don't think so, and deserve to be loved, deserve to be treated with love and kindness, you deserve to be healthy, eat well, drink, breathe, be happy and be alive, please don't doubt it. You are not alone, and your feelings do matter.. I know I don't know you but I love you and I care about you, about your feelings and about your well being..so please, don't give up, Don't hesitate in asking for help when you need it and call your local hotlines if necessary... together we can get through this, you're going to be okay, I know it can get better ❤️
vent / positive rant !! (tw self h4rm) when I was around 10-11 I started having out bursts and yelling at people who were trying to help my grades were horrible I started self h4rming I had a horrible collection problem and my room was so messy people could barely walk in it everything was dark and I don’t remember most of it but I just remembered feeling like a burden everyones problem and then I met someone they were the first person to find out how badly I struggled they were one of the only people who slow danced with me they were the first person I could open up to first person to cuddle me , hold me, hold my hand lovingly it’s been around 4 years now and god everyday I remember how they helped me and how much I love them because I don’t think I ever would’ve made it to wear I am now I really fucking love them
I’m dealing with so many fake friends and these playlist always help me make me cry so I can get the emotions out🥺😭😭 My body can’t let them out unless something sad (like a song) I hear.. My emotions just don’t really “go” I guess you could put it.. I’m not saying that I have depression. (Found out I do have depression) I’m not faking it. If I did I would wish to myself that I would go to hell. I have terrible anxiety I used to have depression. I don’t know anymore… my therapists think I do but I’m not gonna say that I do…. ever…
I've been sad lately and the playlists help me. Im giving up, done with people, and Just done with everyone. But no one has to know, because I am a good hider :) People worry about me sometimes, I say Im fine but I'm screaming in my head, Fun Isn't it?
i hate doing this but im just gonna vent there. i hate doing this because i "have everything to be happy" and i dont have any reason to be feeling so down, i live in a rich country, my parents are far from being abusive and they even accept me as a lgbtq+ member, i dont have toxic friends, i dont fail school, my parents and i dont have any financial issues, im white-passing even tho im not fully white, my country is at peace, my family doesnt hate me, my family members who live outside of my country also live well etc, etc. i know how damn privileged i am, especially after looking at the comments but i cant help feel so down especially lately, a lot have of things unusual have being going on and its enough to make me very very very anxious as an autistic person, but now im so close from having a panic attack everyday since the war in ukraine started because i just feel so sad and anxious for the ppl who live there in fear or even the ppl who have family members living there in ukraine and im also scared for the whole of europe and honestly i live in europe even if i dont really live that close from ukraine, but i doubt russia gov is gonna stop at ukraine. all european countries are in danger, imminent danger or not. im just gonna hope safety for all of us especially the ukrainian people, the ukrainians soldiers and the russian soldiers who never wanted this. no one deserves this. no one deserves living through such a traumatic event. i hope everything is gonna be okay soon. i really hope.... even if i really doubt.... i want to go to sleep forever....
Please don't ever compare your pain with the pain of others, you are an individual and your feelings are completely valid, i promise. This is a really stressful time and you must feel so many negative emotions at the moment. You can always talk to me if you needed to just comment. If you need some advice i can share some of my thoughts. what helps me calm down about the whole ukraine russia situation is the thought of people in the past dealing with situations like this... everything will be over at some point no matter what. there is nothing that will last forever. So many people have lived through this, so will you. It will be okay at some point. Even if you experience death in some way, so many people have before. Maybe don't look at the news too much, i don't either. I get stressed easily. I just want to tell you that it's completely okay to feel anxious or any emotion really about the situation. You being privileged does not make you less worthy of feeling bad. It'll be okay :) do things that bring you comfort and joy, you deserve it. You're goin through a lot and it's really hard. Just know that you're not alone
also i think it's unlikely that a world war will break out and everyone is doing their best at helping with the situation, so don't worry and don't try to do more than you can. at some point it's just out of your hands so let other people handle it. Just try to make the best of it if you can
@@Lia-ws8wx I didn't try to do some comparaison with events that are not comparable, sorry if it seems like I did, honestly I suck with wordings and I often write sentences a way I didn't mean to write, sorry again
But you know, there were always wars, not only ukraine but palestine, east Turkistan, ıraq, afganistan, syria... we raised with wars, i am happy that my country always try to help other countries when its needed, but i hate it when people are like pretending to see a war for the first time LOL i cant even be sad to wars anymore, always the good people die.
@@xdkankaxd5427 its true but I wasn't really aware of all of these since the medias don't talk about it here in Europe or even try to hide it, I think medias talk about the Ukraine war right now only because it's close from us and especially that it's in Europe I never meant to be disrespectful to all those African and Asian countries going through this since years, I'm really sorry, I can always delete my original comment if needed
I hate everything about my life. im not pretty. im not goof enough for anyone. everyone just sees me as someone to play with and im tired of it. sometimes i wonder why i havent kms yet. you guys might be the last person im telling anything to.
please hold on, please we need you you are amazing amazing amazing you are special please dont, you shouldnt deserve this, you are strong for going through all of this please keep your head up
i know life can be hard most of the time but trust me you are not alone and i just want you to know that you are an amazing person and i have faith in you that you are gonna get through all of your problems. and i can guarantee that you are the strongest person for going through all of this. and remember ,anytime you feel down just look at the sky and remember that, just like a star, you would never be alone in this universe and im damn sure that u eventually would meet someone who can understand you ,all of you ,with the goods and the bads because in the end we are all just humans and we all have been there
huh…..I just found out I’m insane and they are sending me to a mental hospital for a while..it’s their fault……..thanks for this I need to cry sometimes..
I found comfort in sadness, emptiness and thought it was normal to have a suicidal thoughts everyday but i was only 13. Im already this tired? at this age? i want to die badly at this age? yes, because depression has no age and so mental illness, why they always say were faking it just because were young? man if only u know how many times i cried and look in the mirror to say 'please dont give up yet, please stay just a little bit u can do it please' to myself. I am so fcking tired trying so hard to live.
TikTok out of everything has made me feel bad about myself because of these perfect girls who have such thin bodies like it's easy. It's making me wanna stop eating so much again. And people tell me I still don't eat a lot
I’m dealing with a lot, my cousin is slowly tearing what’s left of my mental health apart. Every day it gets worse. Nobody listens. They say I’m just being dramatic and that he doesn’t know better. I don’t even know anymore.
My cousin was also very mentally abusive. I know exactly how youre feeling right now. I hope someone in your family listens to what is going on with you.
lately I felt like I can’t breathe. No idea why.... I look at my classmates and think, they’re so pretty... but I’m not. All of my classmates are funny, but I’m not. My best friends live such a good life, but I don’t. Why? because of my mom.
I couldn't stop crying during these stressful days. I'm in big trouble with my own self. Well, I've been going to school for a few weeks. At first I thought I could pass through this year because I was trying so hard and my life could be a dream. But nah... everything keeps getting harder and harder I feel like I can't take this anymore, every single day in my life has been a battlefield. I'm struggling with my life. Everybody hates me, I have no friends. Today when I was crying in my class everyone was looking at me like they were looking at a little rat and making jokes about me. They didn't let me breath for a single second. I keep on crying, my life is turning into a mess and I hate it, I wanna die, but again, I didn't do it, I couldn't. Well, I have to go to school the following day and I can't deal with it. I just wanna be alone and I wanna disappear.
Imagine. I was sat in the right corner of my now shared room, suffering silently as my new roommate slept peacefully, i didnt want to wake him, it would be selfish. I normally did this, the thoughts wont disapear, my head in my hands, now filled with the saltyness off of my tears, maybe i shouldnt be here? i thought to myself, a warm delicate pair of hands lifted my face up and began wiping the dripping tears off of my curved face, pushing my into their shoulder faster then i could have imagined. After a long phase of silence, well other then my pleading crys, a soothing voice, the same as my roommates, said, " Dont think them thoughts, its not worth it, i promise." If theres anything your insecure or worried about read the last line.
I miss them I miss the child I used to be I miss the laughs the smiles the pure joy. Do you ever think I was that or do you think I was always like this. the pathetic person you see now. The person that needs someone something to say “Good job” and not “why can’t you do better”. If you have had similar thoughts please don’t reduce your self worth from what people think of you. You are a wonderful person who is beautiful and kind so please take care of you mental health and physical. If you have ever thought of leaving us please stay a little longer. Most love Jinx.
Promise yourself. To stress less and smile more. To have strength and courage to venture outside of your comfort zone. To leave your past behind you and appreciate this moment. Most importantly, promise yourself to always live a life you truly want to live.
I'm just tired of being tired. Years spent just living as a hollow husk with temper issues towards those i loved and taking suicidal risks and now i am finally feeling a little better but i feel so guilty for it. I wish I could be happy, smile, and enjoy my life and not feel like a fraud.
my teachers and my parents compliment me on how much i try. and yeah, i guess i really do try my hardest. this has been a rough year and ive been trying over and over again to just survive everything. everyone thinks im an amazing and hardworking student, but in reality im really breaking down. its so hard to try, i don't want to try anymore. nobody knows, and i secretly wish that people will support and help me, but it never works that way. nobody cares. its just me and my thoughts. i hate myself. everything is so hard and i just want to quit. i want to give up. i want to give up on everything. i just don't want to be alive sometimes. i don't want to try anymore. thank you to those who took time out of their day to read this. i really appreciate you.
I'm sorry. Don't give up. There are people out there who love you and they would miss you if you left. There's so much good out there to live for. If you have someone who you trust, a friend or parent or teacher or trusted adult, tell them how you feel. It helps (at least a little in my experience). It's alright to take a break from school or whatever. Don't blame yourself. Hope this helped a bit. Luv u💕
@@just.me2 thank you so much, you're so kind, i really appreciate it! ❤ i was having a challenging today and reading that made me feel so much better. i hope you have an amazing day and thank you so much again! ❤❤ much love!!
The title of this playlist is so accurate for me. I'm so tired of being terrified of the world because I'm a girl. Why should I have to worry about how i act or how i dress why do i have to live in constant fear of being violated and being blamed for it. I got catcalled for the first time when I was 13. I was wearing this jumpsuit that i really liked but i never wanted to wear it again after that. Why're little girls taught that if a boy bullies her he likes her. They're setting her up for unnecessary pain and suffering that she never deserved but she thinks it's fine because that's what she was taught. Im so sick of being terrified because I exist.
I agree, I am also scared of just leaving my house sometimes because I'm a girl. It isn't right that we feel these things, we should feel safe in society. I have had similar experiences and one time I was with a friend who I liked (she liked me too) and we were holding hands, we got catcalled and the dude yelled that it was hot that we were holding hands. I wasn't super confident in my sexuality at that time either because I had been through some stuff with really toxic people but those things are just so wrong to happen. Stay safe and I'm here if you need to talk to someone
@@maddie5201 i really appreciate that and i really hope that you can feel more confident in your sexuality. That dude had absolutely no right to sexualize your relationship. If anyone did that to me and my girlfriend I would be furious and you have every right to be to. We aren't objects and we shouldn't accept harassment. If you need to talk you can always talk to me as well! Stay safe in this horrific society!
ventt i used to be a crying mess. but now, i laugh at everything. i smile at everything, even sad things i shouldnt laugh at. ive just pretended so long, i just have slowly not been able to cry, i can only laugh and smile. idk whats wrong with me. i laugh and smile when i shouldnt, i dont even mean to, i just do out of instinct. i wish i didnt, i wish i wasnt pushed into this person i am. it makes ppl not like me and think im a very bad person sometimes. its not even a very bad thing ig. but im in so much pain, but i just mask it out with smiles and laughs. this was short, and i didnt really get my point out like i wanted, but yk, i can never express my feelings right, even to myself, so this was as good as i could.
we are literally the same. you’re not alone on this. I’m the youngest out of my siblings and I was told bc I have more self control and confidence that I need to learn how to put my feelings aside basically. and that if anything went wrong I need to have my head on straight. that was such a heavy task put on me . i only cry in my room. And whenever my parents and I get in arguments I’ve mastered to hide it with a laugh until I get into my room to let it out . I don’t know how to express my feelings and I’m socially awkward which is why I literally have no friends. I probably have the driest phone in the world…lol 🙂
people normally assume that i’m just sad and depressed if i open up to them and tell them that i often feel like ending it all, but it’s much deeper, not just sadness, so many things in this pathetic world we call home isn’t worth living for, we all die in the end right? what the point of spending a life of pain and stress for the same thing i could get early? there’s really only a select few people i’m living for, also i made a promise not to end it, and i hate breaking promises with this person. i’m trying to find the bright side, im scared to go to therapy, what if i just cry the whole time? idk just tons of what ifs
It's okay to go to therapy. I wish I could. Even if you just cry, there's nothing wrong with that. If it lets out some of those bad feelings, is it really so bad?
[tw-vent] i want to be a kid again...see my mom keeps on telling me because i'm 12 i don't have anxiety i don't have depression but it's not that my moms dating so she goes out a lot as well so i take care of my other 3 siblings one 11 with atisum and one 13 he's lazy and doesn't do anything and my other sister she's 6 so i'm left for hours with my older and younger siblings and i feel nothing anymore i hate it, i hate my body, i fix there problems i fight there fights, and i get nothing absouluty nothing in return i want to run away and hurt myself all the time and i feel like i can't talk to anyone about it i'm 12 now and i've been a mom from i was 8...i didn't have a childhood i want a childhood i don't want to be alive anymore i don't want to do this anymore it hurts so so so so much i hate it the only thing i love is the hurting feeling in my heart....i can't do this anymore i need help...☹
I really wanna be a professional volleyball player that brings smiles to peoples faces but my mind and people around me are constantly hurting and knocking me over, I wanna get to my dream but I don’t wanna face reality :(
pov:ur only young but u still feel tired of the world everyday only because of a few people and u cant tell anyone and all u hear from ur sister is how she got bullied and never told anyone...
i just got dumped, and i lost my best friend at the same time, and we had been friends for over a long time.. and all this sudden i couldnt be online and i got asked out to a dance, and i didn’t even say yes.. my best friend and my ex are now a couple, it hurts.. i already cried twice.. thanks for chiming in. 🙏
when I was little I was a cheerful child, smart, and loved by many people, especially my parents, but everything changed completely, when I moved to a new house my family suddenly quarreled a lot (yes about anything), and I also I was often beaten and verbally abused, one day my family just got home from vacation but suddenly my mom sent me a message and I opened it I saw she was cursing me in a very rude language, from there I felt I was really useless in the world, the more For a long time this family was getting destroyed, so was I, I was also shunned by friends and bullied my grades dropped drastically I can't think (concentration), I cry every night thinking about how ruined my life is, every time I'm tired I always want to end my life I.
a vent about anxiety i just move in to my collage and live with the other 3 girls. At first it was awkward. And i thought that is normal since we just met. But few days later, they become so close with each other. When i tried to fit in their convo, i feel even left out. so i stop making effort to try talking to them. but the problem now is every god damn morning i woke up with crippling anxiety cuz i feel like i surrounded by nobody but strangers. even when i tell somebody about this, i slightly can feel better since they dont seem to care much. and no, its not nobody responsibilty to look out for me, but if i were other and know that somebody struggling like this, i will undoubtedly be by their side. i feel so unsafe. my heart racing and i feel like im dying everytime it happens. it exhausted me. i dont feel like myself anymore, it hurts so bad... plus i overthink about why the hell people here make a big deal about appareance. i dont really feel insecure about how i look but seeing how its so important in real life really make me think, "will people treat me nicer if i was pretty?" if yes, then it's so unfair.. i have to make my mom proud so i cant give up.. if i were to change my roommate will all this feelings go away, or another problem will arise? i feel like like im a bad luck person :) everything people does with no efforts, yet im here struggling to even feel safe in my own place. Im tired of bringing myself to be positive... im seriously so tired. and to even vent out all of this i feel like im playing victim. in other perspective, its me who want to isolate myself. but really, im just too scary. is it my fault even when i'd tried to befriended with them, but its them who dont want me? how much efforts do i have to give... why is it so easy for others to have friends..
i'm finally in healthy relationship, but i feel like i don't deserve it. i keep self-sabotaging and i feel so sorry for him, he could have someone so much better than me. i want to give him world and even more, but i just can't... im so tired and i don't want to hurt him
Well, I'm only 17 years old and having to do adult things and realizing reality is affecting me and not in a good way, I realize things that I didn't before, money is a big problem, it makes me tired and hurts having to listen to my parents complaining about it and I can't do anything, even if I spend money I feel too guilty, they add that I have eating problems and I'm not able to tell anyone, I hate myself, I'm afraid of the future, I am afraid of not achieving anything in life, I could not even live my adolescence, in a few days I will be 18 and I feel that I will never be able to be happy like children with economic comfort, it exhausts me and wears me down having to think about that I ONLY HAVE 17 YEARS OLD, I don't know if I should give up and finish everything my own thoughts consume me, I wish I was someone else. I don't feel like I belong anywhere, I don't feel comfortable being with people just being with myself, but my own thoughts consume me and I don't know what to do
Tonight im going to try to end it i no nobody i know will see this but thank you nick and alex you guys were there when i needed you you always were willing to talk to me even if you guys were busy nick i hope you eli logan yaqub ghost nap will do good in the future alex i hope you and your girlfriend gets married and have some kids in the future I always wanted to be a uncle and to the last person belle i loved you for 3 years and i hope you and your boyfriend end up doing good on the future Good bye everybody
heyy are you still there? I don't know your life or what you go through, but please don't end it. I am sorry if I can't say anything else than this, but please hold on. please . you're going to get through it, I know you will. I am so proud of you love, I know you're hurting but you're not alone. you will make it, we're with you. just give yourself another chance, even if its hard
Vent: (includes mention of sh and ed) Im just so exhausted, Im starting to sleep all day, miss school, miss lunch or anything but then at night i cant sleep and i eat massive amounts of food. I miss him, i miss my ex and what makes it even worse, he goes to my class. We broke up about 2 months ago and i did think i was over him so i started dating a friend (is a girl), but when i saw those tiktoks of those 12 year olds i always searched for mine and his letter or birthday and not my girlfriend. I kept thinking about my ex and got butterflies, when i thought about my girlfriend i didn’t, i was so confused so i tried figuring it out, coming to the conclusion its better that i break up with her, considering its super unfair for her if im still clinging onto my ex like that. He’s all i ever think about, i need him back but i just realised once again today, that i will never have him or anyone like him in my life. School stresses me to the core, i cant focus, im sleep deprived because i sleep about 2 hours each night, even if, and hes all i look at in school, anything else seems so uninteresting and dull to me. My grades are going down, so is my mental health. I’ve been clean from sh for about a month now, which i am very proud of, but each day makes it harder and harder to resist the constant urge to relapse. Its getting hotter outside, my only reason whats keeping me back from doing it honestly. I dont want people to see how i feel but i cannot pretend being all that happy and bubbly anymore when all i am is sad and empty. Every day just gets worse and worse, i break or loose stuff i care about, people are making fun of me for being not straight but also not completely gay because im still into my ex. I feel like im a burden to everyone which is why i’ll vent once, in the comments of a video, where noone knows me. I make other people feel bad, i hurt them, they dont like me and all that, and they dont even tell me, they just act like its okay and im doing absolutely nothing wrong. I hate being lied too but then what they don’t realize is that i need a damn reality check and that i need to shut my mouth and not everyone cares about me or what i do. I just wanna go home, my ex was my home, i felt so safe with him, he made me so happy, we had our downs, sure. But no one ever made me so happy like he did. I just wanna feel his touch again, the way he hugged me was so comforting, i just want one last hug. Just one..
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Hi my Dralings 🦇🕸️
I hope you enjoyed this Playlist and feel free to check out my other works and comment what you want to see next 🖤💜
Hola, podrías hacer una playlist de rock porfavor?
@@daniuxv1768 Sí, por supuesto, pero tengo mucho que hacer con la escuela en este momento, por lo que podría llevar más tiempo.
dralings pls
!!!TIMESTAMPS!!!
0:00 - 3:46 Two Birds
3:46 - 7:07 Jungle
7:07 - 12:51 idfcxsoap
12:51 - 17:12 listen before I go
17:12 - 20:42 Mommy friend
20:42 - 23:47 not allowed
23:47 - 26:53 Haunt me
26:53 - 29:10 Alligator skin boots
I might have messed up
Omg thanks 😊 💓 💗
Thank you :D
thank you :]
Thank you :)
Thank you :_)
I’m giving you my own 101 reasons to stay alive list:
1. you'll never eat your favorite food again
2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again
3. you might one day meet your idol
4. people who care about you will miss you
5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts
6. crying to let it all out and feeling better
7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining
8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again
9. sleeping in
10. reading your favorite book
11. you'll never grow up with your friends
12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day
13. trampolines
14. cookies
15. coffee or tea (your preference)
16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness
17. rewards for doing good on something
18. your favorite show
19. your favorite game
20. singing in the shower
21. farting when you're alone and laughing about it
22. the moon
23. the stars
24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it
25. your favorite scent
26. listening to a song on loop for hours
27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing
28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you
29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather
30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather
31. dancing when to music when you're alone
32. sunsets
33. sunrises
34. snow
35. rain
36. your favorite song
37. you'll miss out on memes
38. watch corona disappear
39. long bus/train/car rides
40. road trips
41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours
42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full
43. trying out new things
44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning
45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc.
46. giving gifts
47. receiving gifts
48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries)
49. fireplaces
50. roasting marshmallows
51. s'mores
52. chocolates
53. finding stray animals
54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs
55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise
56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up
57. free things
58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem
59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right
60. holidays
61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter"
62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it
63. amusement parks
64. candies
65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other
66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you
67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting
68. aesthetic things
69. This sussy Baka number
70. seeing rainbows after it rains
71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time
72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day
73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on
74. falling leaves
75. cherry blossom trees
76. your favorite animal
77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears
78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone
79. cringing at weird things
80. trying to learn a new culture
81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something
82. you weren't born to entertain people
83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end)
84. arguing with 8 year old kids
85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug
86. new technologies
87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things
88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed
89. cringing at old things you've said and done
90. money
91. random shower thoughts
92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world"
93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright
94. that weird funky smell from new items
95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile
96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense
97. feeling happy for other people
98. cute animals
99. flowers
100. laughing at your own stupidity
and lastly, 101: me :)
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had trouble reading 42
ty for this btw
Arguing with 8 year old kids >
@Ani taniwha thank
thank you
Thank you so much I’ve bin having Gary dark thoughts and reading this really helped! 🙂
I'm starting to feel burnt out, while I was listening to this I didn't even smile when my dad tried to cheer me up
i often listen to your playlists when im feeling down, or just hating my physical existance
Same ahhahqhhqhq
Or when you have no energy or motivation to even think straight or move properly and just wishes it all to end
I'm probably not the best person to be here then😓😅
Me too
Bro that’s how I feel everyday
I feel empty , i feel annoying, i feel useless
At least i feel something.. right?
shhhhhheeeeeeeEEEEEEeeeeeeeesh
i mean i can relate especially when talking abt (not mental) things- and im on break from social media other than youtube rn
I felt same as your's and I just want to disappear in this world or something I want to run away where nobody know me....
It’s alright, we’re in this together you’re not alone
@@lilbunny934 sometimes i want to Runaway too , but dont disapear because people Will miss you , the world Will missed a beautiful human
@1NV1CTUS yeah but it Will get better!
HEY!!!! if you're listening to this playlist in the first place, you're probably in a really bad emotional state. if you wanna talk, yell, or just distract yourself, im here for ya. remember, youre loved so much and you deserve only good things. take care
I hope that you also have someone to talk to.🖤
If not im here for you.
♡♡
Distract myself? But for how long? That's what I've been doing for so long...but thanks:)
I really needed that thank you 😊
@@roshini.s6008 That's what we all been doing here😂. I distract myself for years with music and headphones. I swear that it is the only thing that keeps me alive for soo long. But I just don't want to give up. Just yet. I watched my fist anime Naruto - recomendation sent. Kms is not the solution - remember that. It is absolutly the last thing anyone should do... So let's just fight and keep on distracting ourselfs 😊. It's been 8 horrible years for me but lets belive that when I reach my 18's I will set my self free. Either way suicede will be considered as one of the options by that time.
thank you for making this playlist, it has just the perfect amount of numb-sadness and anger-hatred. I don't really have anyone to open up to anymore, so this is very comforting
I'm so sorry to know that.. I imagine how it feels...just remember that even if you're feeling lonely now, you're not alone..you won't be like that forever.. I know you'll find people that really love you and care about you and want you to be happy... I know I don't know you..but I care about you dear stranger, and I wish everything good for you.. I'm sure you are an amazing person and you deserve to be alright.. have you been eating well? I know it's hard..but you deserve to eat food..and drink..and be healthy!! You! You are the only you in the world, perfectly imperfect, amazing and special just the way you are.. thank you for keeping going thus far, I hope you don't give up and keep trying! ... I know you can do it.. it's okay to fail sometimes.. it's okay to make mistakes..what really matters is that you learn from your mistakes..embrace your flaws and treat you Kindly... don't hurt yourself, your skin isn't paper, don't neglect your needs just like sleep, water, food, fresh air..even socializing if you feel like too .. what Matters is that you feel okay, don't hesitate in asking for help, it's not a sign of weakness, but instead a really brave attitude!!i wish you the best, stay strong, you can do this ❤️ if you ever need anything, I'm here, don't forget
@@Bia_OkamotoS2 I know this wasn’t directed to me, but I read the whole thing and I want to thank you for making my day so, thank you 😊I greatly appreciate it
@@-panalex-4697 ohhh I might have directed it for a certain person, but when I say these things I actually want that everyone feels better reading it!!! I'm so glad that I made your day, stay strong and keep going, and remember, you're not alone ❤️
@@Bia_OkamotoS2 I don't really check my RUclips notifications so I'm sorry that I took so long to see this. I'm so glad that you took your time to make sure a stranger was feeling fine, and I'm also glad that it helped others as well. I'm not doing great, but I'm not giving up either and the same goes for you :) I wish you all well, and to receive the help and love that you need.
@@patty.5736 thank you for the lovely words, and yes, I never regret to take time to try help someone...to make someone's day better... actually it's a thing that I've been doing recently is trying to go and help people who need...even though we are strangers..we can get through this together, and I know sometimes hearing messages like this can make someone's day, so why don't keep doing it? I wish you all the love and support in this world, for everyone, and I'm really glad that you're not giving up!!! Keep fighting, I wish you all the strength for it and I know you can do this! I believe in you! ❤️. Also, if you ever want to let out what's going in your heart..you can reply to my comments whenever you want, take care of yourself, because someone really cares about you
Im getting so tired of this world. I have been taken away from my parents since 2017 because of abuse, and rape. I lived with homophobic grandparents and then, in 2019, my friend killed himself. I then moved to florida, and moved away from my home state. i left everything behind. i then came out as trans in 2020, and then i was kicked out of my house and was sent to foster care, and i moved back to my homestate, and now, Im moving homes, and i have been staying in this home for the past year, and now im leaving everything behind again, and my little brother and i might be getting seperated. My mum isnt doing anything to get us back, and all of my family hates me, and i am 15 years old. I still have until im 18 and this is terrible.
I'm so sorry to hear this 😔, pray you and your brother stay together and everything gets better quickly.
Your friend is in a much better place now
🕊️🤍💚🤍🕊️
I have the same feeling and I'm younger, I've been token away from my parents as well for abuse. Im at my aunts house but she always tries to hurt me because I have bowel problems. I hope you feel better and I hope that you get a nice home 🥺
Im sorry to hear that, I hope god can be there for you.
Im so sorry to hear this. But, we can make it till we're 18. You only have 3 more years. I have 5. It will get better.
society is broken.
Finally! A playlist with Teen Suicide/American Pleasure Club in it!
yes LOL
My suicidal thoughts were really weighing on me and I felt that one more casualty was going to set me off. After my cousin committed suicide and the feeling of loosing someone so important makes me want to stay longer. Having to watch my family so distressed I want to keep going for them.
Stay strong 💪
I wonder... What made you have suicide thoughts? After a year I pripably shouldn't remind you of the bad stuff but. The kms is a big thing and I just don't know. Maybe compare whether my problems are actually worth it or should I just fucking come to my senses and not dramatize. I hear it all the time from my mother that I don't need a psychologist. I don't know what to think anymore because I'm being emotionally blackmailed etc...
When I was 15 I afraid to live now I'm 19 this time i afraid to die coz I feel something in this time when I was child I don't no how to survive I copy all things in human being than I know how to survive in this mysterious world
Just live be happy don't overthink just try to fix your live u don't need society is OK don't afraid to facing cruel society just do for yourself get job work and buy gaming laptops play ur fictional characters watch Netflix bee happy
@@user-sb4rr8oq3u There was a lot going on at the time but I am doing a lot better now. It sounds stupid when people say “it gets better” but it most cases they are right. I know how it feels to be denied therapy by my mom and my relationship with my own mom has gotten worse but im okay with that because I realized shes a terrible person. Keep goin bro
TIMESTAPS
0:00 - 3:46 Two birts
3:47 - 12:51 idfcxsoap {i think}
12:52 - 17:12 listen Before I go
17:13 - 20:42 Mommy fwiend
20:43 - 23:47 not allowed
23:48 - 26:53 haunt me
26:54 - 29:10 alligator Skin boots
{I think that's all}
3:47 it's not Idfcxsoap but is Jungle
3:47 - 7:07 jungle by Emma Louise
7:07 - 12:51 idfcxsoap
*Two birts*
@@emyle_tem2467 lmao-
two birts, more like two burps B)
You,The person reading this, remember to always stay strong for me
Thank you for making me feel cared for.. 🥺💖
@@mooncxyne always
Awh😭😭🥺❤️
OSHSOSHSJ I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I HOPE YOU GET A BETTER LIFE IN THE FUTURE!! YOUR SO KIND ILY
@@Itzhozom ILYT AND THE SAME FOR U
i like how you put in ads, because im bipolar, and im triggered my voices/sounds/colors/words/etc so when i was listening to this, out of nowhere i started jamming out the the taco shack ad.
you made me happy today Taco Shack
vent (eating disorder, weight, scale, not eating, mom problems):
I wrote a poem about ED. I told my mom I found it on RUclips, I then read it to her. She started crying and telling me she never wants me to become like that. And how that person should be in a mental hospital. Little did she know, I was that person…
The poem: "You know when you wake up and your stomach feels like a pit, you wanna get up and eat lots of food or that feeling when you are super hungry and your stomach twists and knots like yarn.
some people crave that feeling because that means you’re hungry or even starving.
people with ED are happy when it comes it’s more of a calming feeling because you know the next time you step on the scale it will be a lower number.
They say you can't measure happiness but my mood has become dependent on three numbers on a scale. I'm tired of checking my body every time I pass my reflection asking if I’m skinner than yesterday, I'm tired of going to bed hungry because if I eat I may not like what I see in the morning, I am tired of being cold all the time, counting my food like a number because I can't have too many calories or that stupid app on my phone is going to call me a failure.
I hate waking up 3 hours early just to spend the same amount of time trying on every outfit, but they all make me look too fat.
People started telling me they want my body, so take it then because I don't want it. I don't want the chemical in the way it feels when the number on the scale is in freefall, the way I can tell you how many calories are on your plate from the back of my mind, to the regret I have after eating lunch then trying to throw it all back up that night.
I hate how I try to sleep as long as I can, even during the day. Because the more I sleep, the less I think about food.
ED has the highest mortality rate of any mental illness and every 62 minutes at least one person dies from ED.
Eating disorders are real, and they are hard. But as hard as they are, it makes you skinny. And all I want to be is skinny. . ."
@KiwiDraws Thank you so much. I am really trying. I hope you have a good day too
I get rid of sadness by playing my Clarinet. Living is boring, but band is the only fun thing to do while living in my opinion. I have planned to end my life before, but I thought about what was going for me. I felt selfish. I’m in a personal hell just being at my house.
Living is painful but I still go on.
Focusing on the small happy things in life is definitely what helps you to keep going. I believe in you. You got this!! You can stick through this. You aren’t selfish, you aren’t hated, you aren’t worthless. You’re loved more than anything else in the world. You find love in your clarinet? Keep playing! Even if at a certain point you stop finding joy in playing the clarinet, then find something else you’re passionate about! It’s through these hardships that we grow. This world is pretty messed up, and I know that you’ve had to put up with it for what seems like forever. However, I’m proud of you for making it this far, and I have full faith in you that you can make it much much further. I know it’s easier said than done, but please go on to live a good life. Outlook changes a lot on what you view life, as do the situations you’re in. Not sure what your living situation is like, but no matter what it’s like, I believe that you can make it through. I believe in you!! Think of the birds outside, the clouds that look so pillowy soft, the way the sky turns all sorts of shade during a sunset. Have you ever seen a purple sky? My Spanish teacher said that it’s one of the most beautiful things one could see. Think of flowers, how they sway so gently in the wind, their petals varying in shape, and if you rub them between your fingers, they feel like velvet. Something that helped me a lot was just going outside for my own enjoyment, and taking a few deep breaths, closing my eyes and letting nature take me away. Maybe it’ll help you too! Also, I found my comfort in my God, in Jesus Christ. He was with me through all of the hard times, holding my hand through the floods and fires. I’m not sure what your stance on religion is, if you hate it, love it, or whatnot, and by no means am I trying to shove my religion on you, believe me, but just know that I’ll hold you in my prayers :). Your life is so precious, and if I could, I would give you the biggest hug ever. Apparently hugs raise your serotonin levels by quite a lot, so if there’s anyone you’re close to, maybe give them a hug to boost yours! You probably won’t read this whole thing, but I just want you to know that I love and care for you, so please keep on living. I love you so so so so soooo much, even if I have no real idea who you are. You’ve been through a lot, but just know that you’re never alone. There’s always going to be someone out there for you, and you just have to find them. I mean, I’m using the word “just” as if it’s easy, which I know it’s not, but take your time with things. Take a few deep breaths, drink some water, stretch a little. Take care of yourself, my friend. I know that you can make it through this. Also, if you ever feel like ending your life again, please seek help, maybe call a suicide hotline. I really really really don’t want you to die, and I know you probably don’t care about my opinion cause I’m just a random person on the internet, but please go on living a good life, because you deserve it.
I can relate and it is amazing that you have something you are passionate about, please stay safe and if you need to talk I'm here
these playlists are such comfort, thank you for making them. :)
Thanks I'm gld they help you just as much as they do me :] ♠️👾💜🕷️🎭
thanks for adding two birds, havent heard that song in awhile and now I get to add it to the list of songs I cant listen to without crying
i’m getting sent to the mental hospital in the next few days, and i know it’s to help me but i can’t help but worry about how my life is going to be so different after everyone finds out what has happened to me. i’ll have to be held back and i’ll lose my job. but i have to hope that it’ll get better that maybe i’ll get some help… this playlist reminds me of the time before everything i had fell apart, thank you.
OMG I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!YOU HUNG ON FOR SO LONG EVAN IN THE TOUGHEST TIMES I CAN NEVER BE LIKE YOU BECAUSE YOU MUST BE THE MOST STRONGEST PERSON EVER KEEP ON HANGING ON I KNOW ONE DAY YOU WILL BE HAPPY AND HAVE A GREAT LIFE STAY STRONG BY THAT TIME WE WILL BE HERE FOR YOU PLEASE DON'T THROW YOUR LIFE AWAY!!!!!!!!!!
I always feel distressed and uncontrollable, my parents say I have control but I know I dont, i wish people understood me more, everyone always says that I'm to annoying and that I make up things, I just cant, but hearing this makes me so happy, thank you so much
When you only want a comfort sad playlist and then a song about sex comes up... *Sighs in being asexual*
Same 😁
This playlist calms me down, and makes me happy-
And sad-
this was very comforting༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ🖤🖤
Thx :]
I feel worthless. I don't deserve anything.
But i love the playlist.. Great job
Don't give up, I wish you all the best. Take care
I also felt the same thing thought I was better(since I have depression) bit know I don't know any more I have scars that remind me. But know I don't remember who I am or what I am anymore. I feel all different emotions and anxiety has gotten way worse and school kicking in and friends make new friend groups and everything I just want to die rn but I also what to show my siblings that they can overcome it(if they have depression like me). I want to stay but don't want to. 😅 But is I can stay alive you can too!! Life is hard but we only live once!! So stay and u deserve the whole world and your not worthless because if u leave we won't be complet so don't go. U can make it and I'm here if u need it ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for making these playlists. After reading through your comment section I can see that you are an amazing person that makes things that help others, whether you realize someone needed it or not. So thank you for being a good person.
It's the kind of tired that sleep won't fix
music distracts me from my thoughts, so i always listen to playlists like this whenever i'm having a breakdown :)
Hey you... I know it's been hard for you
I value and recognize your pain, and I want to tell you that you're not alone, you will get through this, I know it's not easy, but it's possible, I wish you the best in this world, you are an amazing person even if you don't think so, and deserve to be loved, deserve to be treated with love and kindness, you deserve to be healthy, eat well, drink, breathe, be happy and be alive, please don't doubt it. You are not alone, and your feelings do matter.. I know I don't know you but I love you and I care about you, about your feelings and about your well being..so please, don't give up, Don't hesitate in asking for help when you need it and call your local hotlines if necessary... together we can get through this, you're going to be okay, I know it can get better ❤️
I love you. You did the right thing to support people, keep doing it
@@Itzhozom thank you so much, I love you too ❤️
vent / positive rant !!
(tw self h4rm)
when I was around 10-11 I started having out bursts and yelling at people who were trying to help
my grades were horrible
I started self h4rming
I had a horrible collection problem and my room was so messy people could barely walk in it
everything was dark and I don’t remember most of it
but I just remembered feeling like a burden
everyones problem
and then I met someone
they were the first person to find out how badly I struggled
they were one of the only people who slow danced with me
they were the first person I could open up to
first person to cuddle me , hold me, hold my hand lovingly
it’s been around 4 years now and god
everyday I remember how they helped me
and how much I love them
because I don’t think I ever would’ve made it to wear I am now
I really fucking love them
Pov: you're just trying to listen to this playlist and a grammarly ad comes out of nowhere
I’m dealing with so many fake friends and these playlist always help me make me cry so I can get the emotions out🥺😭😭
My body can’t let them out unless something sad (like a song) I hear..
My emotions just don’t really “go” I guess you could put it..
I’m not saying that I have depression. (Found out I do have depression) I’m not faking it. If I did I would wish to myself that I would go to hell.
I have terrible anxiety I used to have depression. I don’t know anymore… my therapists think I do but I’m not gonna say that I do…. ever…
I've been sad lately and the playlists help me. Im giving up, done with people, and Just done with everyone. But no one has to know, because I am a good hider :)
People worry about me sometimes, I say Im fine but I'm screaming in my head, Fun Isn't it?
@@roseyrainbow_gamez9687 ikr it’s “so fun”
Im so proud of you all ..you made it so far..
i hate doing this but im just gonna vent there.
i hate doing this because i "have everything to be happy" and i dont have any reason to be feeling so down, i live in a rich country, my parents are far from being abusive and they even accept me as a lgbtq+ member, i dont have toxic friends, i dont fail school, my parents and i dont have any financial issues, im white-passing even tho im not fully white, my country is at peace, my family doesnt hate me, my family members who live outside of my country also live well etc, etc.
i know how damn privileged i am, especially after looking at the comments but i cant help feel so down especially lately, a lot have of things unusual have being going on and its enough to make me very very very anxious as an autistic person, but now im so close from having a panic attack everyday since the war in ukraine started because i just feel so sad and anxious for the ppl who live there in fear or even the ppl who have family members living there in ukraine and im also scared for the whole of europe and honestly i live in europe even if i dont really live that close from ukraine, but i doubt russia gov is gonna stop at ukraine.
all european countries are in danger, imminent danger or not. im just gonna hope safety for all of us especially the ukrainian people, the ukrainians soldiers and the russian soldiers who never wanted this. no one deserves this. no one deserves living through such a traumatic event. i hope everything is gonna be okay soon.
i really hope.... even if i really doubt.... i want to go to sleep forever....
Please don't ever compare your pain with the pain of others, you are an individual and your feelings are completely valid, i promise. This is a really stressful time and you must feel so many negative emotions at the moment. You can always talk to me if you needed to just comment.
If you need some advice i can share some of my thoughts. what helps me calm down about the whole ukraine russia situation is the thought of people in the past dealing with situations like this... everything will be over at some point no matter what. there is nothing that will last forever. So many people have lived through this, so will you. It will be okay at some point. Even if you experience death in some way, so many people have before. Maybe don't look at the news too much, i don't either. I get stressed easily.
I just want to tell you that it's completely okay to feel anxious or any emotion really about the situation. You being privileged does not make you less worthy of feeling bad. It'll be okay :) do things that bring you comfort and joy, you deserve it. You're goin through a lot and it's really hard. Just know that you're not alone
also i think it's unlikely that a world war will break out and everyone is doing their best at helping with the situation, so don't worry and don't try to do more than you can. at some point it's just out of your hands so let other people handle it. Just try to make the best of it if you can
@@Lia-ws8wx I didn't try to do some comparaison with events that are not comparable, sorry if it seems like I did, honestly I suck with wordings and I often write sentences a way I didn't mean to write, sorry again
But you know, there were always wars, not only ukraine but palestine, east Turkistan, ıraq, afganistan, syria... we raised with wars, i am happy that my country always try to help other countries when its needed, but i hate it when people are like pretending to see a war for the first time LOL i cant even be sad to wars anymore, always the good people die.
@@xdkankaxd5427 its true but I wasn't really aware of all of these since the medias don't talk about it here in Europe or even try to hide it, I think medias talk about the Ukraine war right now only because it's close from us and especially that it's in Europe
I never meant to be disrespectful to all those African and Asian countries going through this since years, I'm really sorry, I can always delete my original comment if needed
this playlist represents me very well.
I just lost a family member and some of your playlist have really helped me cope
I'm so sorry for your loss. I wish you all the best
I often listen to this when I'm contemplating my existence but on a happy note I love this playlist
Keep holding on, I wish you all the best
@@_csinti_ I wish you best too
@@_csinti_ I wish you best too
I hate everything about my life. im not pretty. im not goof enough for anyone. everyone just sees me as someone to play with and im tired of it. sometimes i wonder why i havent kms yet. you guys might be the last person im telling anything to.
please hold on, please we need you you are amazing amazing amazing you are special please dont, you shouldnt deserve this, you are strong for going through all of this please keep your head up
i know life can be hard most of the time but trust me you are not alone and i just want you to know that you are an amazing person and i have faith in you that you are gonna get through all of your problems.
and i can guarantee that you are the strongest person for going through all of this. and remember ,anytime you feel down just look at the sky and remember that, just like a star, you would never be alone in this universe and im damn sure that u eventually would meet someone who can understand you ,all of you ,with the goods and the bads because in the end we are all just humans and we all have been there
huh…..I just found out I’m insane and they are sending me to a mental hospital for a while..it’s their fault……..thanks for this I need to cry sometimes..
I found comfort in sadness, emptiness and thought it was normal to have a suicidal thoughts everyday but i was only 13. Im already this tired? at this age? i want to die badly at this age? yes, because depression has no age and so mental illness, why they always say were faking it just because were young? man if only u know how many times i cried and look in the mirror to say 'please dont give up yet, please stay just a little bit u can do it please' to myself. I am so fcking tired trying so hard to live.
each of you deserves love
especially you deserve to love yourself
TikTok out of everything has made me feel bad about myself because of these perfect girls who have such thin bodies like it's easy. It's making me wanna stop eating so much again. And people tell me I still don't eat a lot
I love It makes me happy to listen to these when I'm stressed
I personally relate to this tbh. What about everyone else?
I’m dealing with a lot, my cousin is slowly tearing what’s left of my mental health apart. Every day it gets worse. Nobody listens. They say I’m just being dramatic and that he doesn’t know better. I don’t even know anymore.
Have hope
My cousin was also very mentally abusive. I know exactly how youre feeling right now. I hope someone in your family listens to what is going on with you.
this is such an amazing playlist
thank you for this "sad" moment ! i need to cry and that playlist helped me to cry... sorry if i have a bad grammar because im french 😅
I'm french too but I think your english is very good :D
Je suis française mais aussi anglaise et ton anglais est tres bon
@@FoxGlove8 merciiii
lately I felt like I can’t breathe. No idea why....
I look at my classmates and think, they’re so pretty... but I’m not.
All of my classmates are funny, but I’m not.
My best friends live such a good life, but I don’t.
Why?
because of my mom.
pov your getting tired of the world and its getting tired of you
I cant even laugh without the wounds in my heart aching
I have listened to this playlist on loop for 2weeks straight !!! Love it
I couldn't stop crying during these stressful days. I'm in big trouble with my own self. Well, I've been going to school for a few weeks. At first I thought I could pass through this year because I was trying so hard and my life could be a dream. But nah... everything keeps getting harder and harder I feel like I can't take this anymore, every single day in my life has been a battlefield. I'm struggling with my life. Everybody hates me, I have no friends. Today when I was crying in my class everyone was looking at me like they were looking at a little rat and making jokes about me. They didn't let me breath for a single second. I keep on crying, my life is turning into a mess and I hate it, I wanna die, but again, I didn't do it, I couldn't. Well, I have to go to school the following day and I can't deal with it. I just wanna be alone and I wanna disappear.
my head is slowling loosing some parts, im gonna die...soon.
lets die together then :D [ im also dying ]
@@justedith9196 yuh, my head is peeling herself
I hope you had a decent life atleast.
please hold on, hang in there love you've done so well and whoever you are i'm god damn proud of you for being so strong
Please take me with you. I don’t want him to touch me again. I’m scared
doing workout everyday for 2 months now and still didn't change. life sucks. especially people...
Stay strong, don't give up
@@_csinti_ tysm, u gave me courage
Imagine.
I was sat in the right corner of my now shared room, suffering silently as my new roommate slept peacefully, i didnt want to wake him, it would be selfish. I normally did this, the thoughts wont disapear, my head in my hands, now filled with the saltyness off of my tears, maybe i shouldnt be here? i thought to myself, a warm delicate pair of hands lifted my face up and began wiping the dripping tears off of my curved face, pushing my into their shoulder faster then i could have imagined. After a long phase of silence, well other then my pleading crys, a soothing voice, the same as my roommates, said, " Dont think them thoughts, its not worth it, i promise."
If theres anything your insecure or worried about read the last line.
you know something’s wrong when this shows up in your recommended :,>
I miss them I miss the child I used to be I miss the laughs the smiles the pure joy. Do you ever think I was that or do you think I was always like this. the pathetic person you see now. The person that needs someone something to say “Good job” and not “why can’t you do better”.
If you have had similar thoughts please don’t reduce your self worth from what people think of you. You are a wonderful person who is beautiful and kind so please take care of you mental health and physical. If you have ever thought of leaving us please stay a little longer. Most love Jinx.
Promise yourself. To stress less and smile more. To have strength and courage to venture outside of your comfort zone. To leave your past behind you and appreciate this moment. Most importantly, promise yourself to always live a life you truly want to live.
its kinda hard bc i cant cry because my eyes will puff up in the morning
I'm just tired of being tired. Years spent just living as a hollow husk with temper issues towards those i loved and taking suicidal risks and now i am finally feeling a little better but i feel so guilty for it. I wish I could be happy, smile, and enjoy my life and not feel like a fraud.
Thank you for this playlist! It helps me in this hard Moment of hating myself and more... So thank you!
That anxious feeling when you told your parents hospitals aren't working with your mental health.
my teachers and my parents compliment me on how much i try. and yeah, i guess i really do try my hardest. this has been a rough year and ive been trying over and over again to just survive everything. everyone thinks im an amazing and hardworking student, but in reality im really breaking down. its so hard to try, i don't want to try anymore. nobody knows, and i secretly wish that people will support and help me, but it never works that way. nobody cares. its just me and my thoughts. i hate myself. everything is so hard and i just want to quit. i want to give up. i want to give up on everything. i just don't want to be alive sometimes. i don't want to try anymore.
thank you to those who took time out of their day to read this. i really appreciate you.
I'm sorry. Don't give up. There are people out there who love you and they would miss you if you left. There's so much good out there to live for. If you have someone who you trust, a friend or parent or teacher or trusted adult, tell them how you feel. It helps (at least a little in my experience). It's alright to take a break from school or whatever. Don't blame yourself.
Hope this helped a bit. Luv u💕
@@just.me2 thank you so much, you're so kind, i really appreciate it! ❤ i was having a challenging today and reading that made me feel so much better. i hope you have an amazing day and thank you so much again! ❤❤ much love!!
anybody else gets two hours of sleep because you stayed up all night doing work then gets called lazy?
to think that my teacher was the first adult to actually care about how i feel mentally kinda sucks. says a lot about my parents doesnt it
Take care, I wish you all the best
The first song always makes me cry. I have no idea why 😭
Same but after I feel better its such a simple song with a deep massage :] 👾💜
The title of this playlist is so accurate for me. I'm so tired of being terrified of the world because I'm a girl. Why should I have to worry about how i act or how i dress why do i have to live in constant fear of being violated and being blamed for it. I got catcalled for the first time when I was 13. I was wearing this jumpsuit that i really liked but i never wanted to wear it again after that. Why're little girls taught that if a boy bullies her he likes her. They're setting her up for unnecessary pain and suffering that she never deserved but she thinks it's fine because that's what she was taught. Im so sick of being terrified because I exist.
I agree, I am also scared of just leaving my house sometimes because I'm a girl. It isn't right that we feel these things, we should feel safe in society. I have had similar experiences and one time I was with a friend who I liked (she liked me too) and we were holding hands, we got catcalled and the dude yelled that it was hot that we were holding hands. I wasn't super confident in my sexuality at that time either because I had been through some stuff with really toxic people but those things are just so wrong to happen. Stay safe and I'm here if you need to talk to someone
@@maddie5201 i really appreciate that and i really hope that you can feel more confident in your sexuality. That dude had absolutely no right to sexualize your relationship. If anyone did that to me and my girlfriend I would be furious and you have every right to be to. We aren't objects and we shouldn't accept harassment. If you need to talk you can always talk to me as well! Stay safe in this horrific society!
Pfft jokes on you im already tired of this world! 😀
Thank you so, so, so much for this playlist.
Oh and if anyone wish to vent you can reply to my comment below with ur vent I don't mind
perfect mix of nutrition and chaos🔥
ventt
i used to be a crying mess. but now, i laugh at everything. i smile at everything, even sad things i shouldnt laugh at. ive just pretended so long, i just have slowly not been able to cry, i can only laugh and smile. idk whats wrong with me. i laugh and smile when i shouldnt, i dont even mean to, i just do out of instinct. i wish i didnt, i wish i wasnt pushed into this person i am. it makes ppl not like me and think im a very bad person sometimes. its not even a very bad thing ig. but im in so much pain, but i just mask it out with smiles and laughs. this was short, and i didnt really get my point out like i wanted, but yk, i can never express my feelings right, even to myself, so this was as good as i could.
we are literally the same. you’re not alone on this.
I’m the youngest out of my siblings and I was told bc I have more self control and confidence that I need to learn how to put my feelings aside basically. and that if anything went wrong I need to have my head on straight. that was such a heavy task put on me . i only cry in my room. And whenever my parents and I get in arguments I’ve mastered to hide it with a laugh until I get into my room to let it out . I don’t know how to express my feelings and I’m socially awkward which is why I literally have no friends. I probably have the driest phone in the world…lol 🙂
I’m already sick of the world but hey while I’m regretting existence I might as well enjoy some music.
I really am sick of the world it's geting ridiculous
people normally assume that i’m just sad and depressed if i open up to them and tell them that i often feel like ending it all, but it’s much deeper, not just sadness, so many things in this pathetic world we call home isn’t worth living for, we all die in the end right? what the point of spending a life of pain and stress for the same thing i could get early? there’s really only a select few people i’m living for, also i made a promise not to end it, and i hate breaking promises with this person. i’m trying to find the bright side, im scared to go to therapy, what if i just cry the whole time? idk just tons of what ifs
It's okay to go to therapy. I wish I could. Even if you just cry, there's nothing wrong with that. If it lets out some of those bad feelings, is it really so bad?
@@just.me2 I guess you make a point, I’ll try giving it a try soon
@@arachnidsCalibrator good luck!
Remember
People care for you!
There is always light at the end of a dark tunnel!
Stay safe loves! ❤️
it’s not even the world i hate, it’s the people. i wish i could get away and see another side of the world and new people :(
ahh my mental health is currently a mess! tysm for this playlist :)) it rlly helps me
[tw-vent] i want to be a kid again...see my mom keeps on telling me because i'm 12 i don't have anxiety i don't have depression but it's not that my moms dating so she goes out a lot as well so i take care of my other 3 siblings one 11 with atisum and one 13 he's lazy and doesn't do anything and my other sister she's 6 so i'm left for hours with my older and younger siblings and i feel nothing anymore i hate it, i hate my body, i fix there problems i fight there fights, and i get nothing absouluty nothing in return i want to run away and hurt myself all the time and i feel like i can't talk to anyone about it i'm 12 now and i've been a mom from i was 8...i didn't have a childhood i want a childhood i don't want to be alive anymore i don't want to do this anymore it hurts so so so so much i hate it the only thing i love is the hurting feeling in my heart....i can't do this anymore i need help...☹
i hope it gets better for you. and hey, if you ever need somebody to vent to, I'll be here for you.
@@blu9856 thanks...it means a lot
I really wanna be a professional volleyball player that brings smiles to peoples faces but my mind and people around me are constantly hurting and knocking me over, I wanna get to my dream but I don’t wanna face reality :(
The Art reminds me of The Song "If I cleaned Everything" By Teen Suicide.
I love dis so much. Its the best help.
pov:ur only young but u still feel tired of the world everyday only because of a few people and u cant tell anyone and all u hear from ur sister is how she got bullied and never told anyone...
i just got dumped, and i lost my best friend at the same time, and we had been friends for over a long time.. and all this sudden i couldnt be online and i got asked out to a dance, and i didn’t even say yes.. my best friend and my ex are now a couple, it hurts.. i already cried twice.. thanks for chiming in. 🙏
when I was little I was a cheerful child, smart, and loved by many people, especially my parents, but everything changed completely, when I moved to a new house my family suddenly quarreled a lot (yes about anything), and I also I was often beaten and verbally abused, one day my family just got home from vacation but suddenly my mom sent me a message and I opened it I saw she was cursing me in a very rude language, from there I felt I was really useless in the world, the more For a long time this family was getting destroyed, so was I, I was also shunned by friends and bullied my grades dropped drastically I can't think (concentration), I cry every night thinking about how ruined my life is, every time I'm tired I always want to end my life I.
a vent about anxiety
i just move in to my collage and live with the other 3 girls. At first it was awkward. And i thought that is normal since we just met. But few days later, they become so close with each other. When i tried to fit in their convo, i feel even left out. so i stop making effort to try talking to them. but the problem now is every god damn morning i woke up with crippling anxiety cuz i feel like i surrounded by nobody but strangers. even when i tell somebody about this, i slightly can feel better since they dont seem to care much. and no, its not nobody responsibilty to look out for me, but if i were other and know that somebody struggling like this, i will undoubtedly be by their side. i feel so unsafe. my heart racing and i feel like im dying everytime it happens. it exhausted me. i dont feel like myself anymore, it hurts so bad... plus i overthink about why the hell people here make a big deal about appareance. i dont really feel insecure about how i look but seeing how its so important in real life really make me think, "will people treat me nicer if i was pretty?" if yes, then it's so unfair..
i have to make my mom proud so i cant give up.. if i were to change my roommate will all this feelings go away, or another problem will arise? i feel like like im a bad luck person :) everything people does with no efforts, yet im here struggling to even feel safe in my own place. Im tired of bringing myself to be positive... im seriously so tired. and to even vent out all of this i feel like im playing victim. in other perspective, its me who want to isolate myself. but really, im just too scary. is it my fault even when i'd tried to befriended with them, but its them who dont want me? how much efforts do i have to give... why is it so easy for others to have friends..
i'm finally in healthy relationship, but i feel like i don't deserve it. i keep self-sabotaging and i feel so sorry for him, he could have someone so much better than me. i want to give him world and even more, but i just can't... im so tired and i don't want to hurt him
I’m tired of waking up and wishing I could be someone else
That looks exactly like my room :,)
I can't hear Two Birds without thinking of Gravity Falls 🌲✨🐷
Well, I'm only 17 years old and having to do adult things and realizing reality is affecting me and not in a good way, I realize things that I didn't before, money is a big problem, it makes me tired and hurts having to listen to my parents complaining about it and I can't do anything, even if I spend money I feel too guilty, they add that I have eating problems and I'm not able to tell anyone, I hate myself, I'm afraid of the future, I am afraid of not achieving anything in life, I could not even live my adolescence, in a few days I will be 18 and I feel that I will never be able to be happy like children with economic comfort, it exhausts me and wears me down having to think about that I ONLY HAVE 17 YEARS OLD, I don't know if I should give up and finish everything my own thoughts consume me, I wish I was someone else.
I don't feel like I belong anywhere, I don't feel comfortable being with people just being with myself, but my own thoughts consume me and I don't know what to do
Hold on. I'm not good with words nor good at expressing myself but just hold on. I'm trying to hold on too.
very comforting
Im tired ...but i can't ..you know..just this so many damn reasons ..
Aren’t we all just another side character in the main characters story? We are just lost because we haven’t found the main character yet.
It's so strange, this playlist made me feel better
ok but just looking at the 101 reasons to stay alive makes me cry
This playlist is great! it somehow helped me feel better in a sense XD it kind of released all of the negative emotions out- lol
I wish you all the best, take care
Tonight im going to try to end it i no nobody i know will see this but thank you nick and alex you guys were there when i needed you you always were willing to talk to me even if you guys were busy nick i hope you eli logan yaqub ghost nap will do good in the future alex i hope you and your girlfriend gets married and have some kids in the future I always wanted to be a uncle and to the last person belle i loved you for 3 years and i hope you and your boyfriend end up doing good on the future Good bye everybody
Hey r u okay? It's been a day
heyy are you still there? I don't know your life or what you go through, but please don't end it. I am sorry if I can't say anything else than this, but please hold on. please . you're going to get through it, I know you will. I am so proud of you love, I know you're hurting but you're not alone. you will make it, we're with you. just give yourself another chance, even if its hard
Vent: (includes mention of sh and ed)
Im just so exhausted, Im starting to sleep all day, miss school, miss lunch or anything but then at night i cant sleep and i eat massive amounts of food. I miss him, i miss my ex and what makes it even worse, he goes to my class. We broke up about 2 months ago and i did think i was over him so i started dating a friend (is a girl), but when i saw those tiktoks of those 12 year olds i always searched for mine and his letter or birthday and not my girlfriend. I kept thinking about my ex and got butterflies, when i thought about my girlfriend i didn’t, i was so confused so i tried figuring it out, coming to the conclusion its better that i break up with her, considering its super unfair for her if im still clinging onto my ex like that.
He’s all i ever think about, i need him back but i just realised once again today, that i will never have him or anyone like him in my life.
School stresses me to the core, i cant focus, im sleep deprived because i sleep about 2 hours each night, even if, and hes all i look at in school, anything else seems so uninteresting and dull to me.
My grades are going down, so is my mental health.
I’ve been clean from sh for about a month now, which i am very proud of, but each day makes it harder and harder to resist the constant urge to relapse. Its getting hotter outside, my only reason whats keeping me back from doing it honestly. I dont want people to see how i feel but i cannot pretend being all that happy and bubbly anymore when all i am is sad and empty. Every day just gets worse and worse, i break or loose stuff i care about, people are making fun of me for being not straight but also not completely gay because im still into my ex. I feel like im a burden to everyone which is why i’ll vent once, in the comments of a video, where noone knows me. I make other people feel bad, i hurt them, they dont like me and all that, and they dont even tell me, they just act like its okay and im doing absolutely nothing wrong.
I hate being lied too but then what they don’t realize is that i need a damn reality check and that i need to shut my mouth and not everyone cares about me or what i do.
I just wanna go home, my ex was my home, i felt so safe with him, he made me so happy, we had our downs, sure. But no one ever made me so happy like he did.
I just wanna feel his touch again, the way he hugged me was so comforting, i just want one last hug. Just one..
The room looks like my room, messy.
same