i have made similar playlist of it, there is just more songs so ye but there is the link : open.spotify.com/playlist/51VS3wnzrvFAoX5rKgAgVN?si=fcab38c2588f44fc
i feel like this for 3 years EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. i'm SO tired of this, i'm giving up already... all i wanted is run away and live in my way, leave school, live my city or even country... I just wanted to feel peace. I don't feel this for years... I think i never did.
@@dwllusa I’m also thinking about running away. Experience real adventures. But i know it’s not possible. And I also have a good chance getting a bright future here.
Same, but i actyally feel like that *always* like nonstop-able, it’s been like a 9 months since i started feeling like that and everyday i feel like its progressing and becomes harder and harder, tbh im afraid i couldnt move at all in like 3 years(if i wont get to psychiatrist or smth), im scared a lil
for as long as i can remember I've always felt like i wasn't in control of my body, like I'm running on autopilot. Like life is just a show and someone is making choices for me, like my physical body is just a puppet. Everything feels distant as i can't touch it for real, everything i touch feels simulated. When i was 6, i remember asking my mom "isn't it weird that... we're physically here? that we really have a body?" And what's really frustrating is that people misuse the actual medical terminology for dissociation, associating it with "being spaced out" when it's not like that at all. It's so much more than that. Thanks for this playlist, it makes me feel a bit more understood
Sometimes thinking of the universe make me feel dissociated, it's just too giant for us, we never will know the truth of it. Millions of galaxies, millions of solar systems and millions of planets, will we ever discover them?. Sometimes I'm starving of knowledge, I want to know everything about the space. And sometimes I wanna scape there, I want to be in the universe, just exploring, floating, crying, and knowing there is more than this boring life.
This is the kind of thing that I think about all of the time. And same. How is it that space exists? Galaxies, solar systems, planets, how does any of it exist and how does it all work? How does the entirety of our universe work? How does earth work? How did earth come to be? We're these living, breathing, thinking beings. We have our own consciousness, our own thoughts, minds. We each feel, see, hear, smell, taste and process things differently to one another. Why and how do humans even exist? How do our bodies work? We're just somehow able to move these limbs connected to our bodies, we're able to hear things in our mind, think things.. each human has their own thought process and ways of existing. One day, the earth just came about and at some point humans just.. began existing. Of course, through evolution and "humans" back then were nothing like modern humans now. But they were still just like us, they thought, they felt, physically and mentally, they saw, they heard, they tasted, everything we can do. How is it that here on earth, the only planet with living beings (as far as we know, which is a bit unnerving to think about), and we all just exist on this one planet together, in the midst of this universe.. and have been for hundreds and thousands of years. How do our bodies, how do humans work, how does the universe work, how are we just living on this floating sphere, existing in the middle of nowhere, and we're able to live like how we are. One day, maybe in a thousand or so years, maybe in a million, all humans would have perished and there would be no living being to remember our existence. We would just vanish, as if we were never there, even though we've been here for so long. Everyone, all of us, gone. No souls, no humans, no anything left. Maybe the earth would be completely destroyed, and the universe would just be other planets, galaxies, etc.. weird.
Dissociating is scary, when I first dissociated it felt like I was being waken up from a coma-like dream, I felt like falling of just magically waking up from a coma. Even worse it was in the middle of the field.
It makes me feel worthless or meaningless, and fills me with sadness that the earth is beautiful but I cannot (neither can anyone) help everyone to where everyone can see the beauty. I just feel empty and in a loop almost.
actually, right now i feel like i'm not here for others. i'm always the one who texts first but never gets texted. i'm always left out, i'm in a trio... i feel like i'm here just when they need something. i'm the one who everybody knows but never talks to. i feel like nothing, void, just a ghost, like i'm already dead. i always yap and vent to my friends and they're like it's a competition. i already attempted, i got in a psychiatric hospital and nobody cared about that. i'm always here for everyone, but nobody's here when i need something, even just a hug.
Well I love you I’m here if you need someone to talk to I’m always available to help you in any situation I will be there for you just like how you are there for someone else
Everytime I have free time, I just make up scenarios. I dont read, I dont write, I just think about characters in my brain that have been there for years. And then I sometimes act like them. Its sorta therapeutic ig. When I cant think about those characters life just feels empty. Like I'm staring at a computer screen, watching a video. Sometimes I just forget to move. Its weird. I'm not sure if anything is real tbh. Maybe im just overreacting
lowk real ill be seeing ppl “erm” “oh!!” I dont understand the need to be so rude under a post where everyone doesnt have any mean intention, i mean sure you can find it cringe but theres no need to make a toxic reply ☹️
i sold my soul for happiness, but i didnt think of how can i feel happy without a soul. now, because of myself i dont have both. i just have a body and a mouth which moves on their own. i cant feel like im living. once, when i was six or seven, i tried to cut my ears because of how loud my own thoughts and the other peoples talk or the silence itself are. i dont regret any second of that. i just regret that i couldnt cut my ears. present, wherever i am is just too quiet or too loud. but silence is louder than the word "loud"
listening to this hits when your verbally/mentally abusive father insults you and does every bad thing impossible, your friend thinks you were mocking her dead cousin, and you just ended 3 and maybe 4 close friendships.
it doesnt get better. ive been dealing with this for 7 months on and off and when it disappears i think it has finally gotten better but it comes back again. i cant breathe im so tired of fighting myself and no one even knows. theres like a black hole eating inside me and everything just feels like a mild distraction from it. it feels like im going to get consumed by it and i cant do anything about it. i cannot do anything. i just want to fall asleep and never wake up i want to disappear so badly i dont know what to do.
Thing is, it does get better even if you have to wait 30 years and you might think well I don’t wanna wait 30 years but the outcome is amazing if you let it happen
I had to wait around 20 years for small steps in the direction of betterment. It can get better, especially if you‘ve been dealing with it for under a year. Though of course every day with it is one day too much… Doing things for depression might help ease it a bit. Like having a structured day with enough idle/ down time to relax. Regular breathing exercises. Going to the doctor. If you can‘t get meds, there are prescription free options like St. John‘s Wort in high dosage. A healthy sleep schedule and minimizing stressors as best as possible. Therapy or journalling is essential. There are helpful videos online to also start this alone. I believe in you.
I live in a constant state of dissociation, and when I’m not dissociating I freak tf out. It comes in phases that’s the best way I can describe it. I’ll be ok for months and then one day I’ll just stop and I won’t be ok for a couple weeks until I start again. I’m in this sort of middle state right now like I’m aware I’m not there but I am?? Idk how to explain it. I’ve stppped seeing my therapist and psychiatrist because I started college and don’t have time but I feel like I’m starting to have a toll on me I can’t sleep anymore.
я общался с лучшей подругой на личные темы и в какой-то момент она сказала "теперь понятно почему у тебя нет друзей". я решил выйти из сети на пару дней и нашел этот плейлист
все эти песни напоминают мне старый городок в котором я жила, мне в нем было очень хорошо и уютно до того, как родители меня перевезли в другую страну, да что там страну, на другой континент. я оставила там всех своих друзей и родных, не считая своих родителей конечно, теперь я каждую ночь слушаю плейлист и вспоминаю свой уютный и родной питер. и радостно и грустно.
I moved from Germany to the USA and haven't been able to visit any of my family there, i have family in America too but they live in other States, also I live in the boring countryside so I don't meet prople😢
Nobody asked this ik 0:01 - 3:05 untrust us - crystal castles 3:05 - 6:05 Brian is the most beautiful - memo boy 6:05 - 11:08 Crimewave - crystal castles 11:08 - 14:40 Insomniac - memo boy & Chakra efendi 14:40 - 18:05 everything reminds me of you - Take care 18:05 - 22:10 Vanished - crystal castles 22:10 - 24:45 Treehouse - Alex g 24:45 - 28:01 Knights - crystal castles 28:01 - 30:18 cold - sign crushes motorist 30:18 - 33:00 I was all over her - Salvia palth 33:00 - 38:06 Anwering machine - Ruby haunt 38:06 - 40:30 Inside out - Duster. 40:30-41:54 Dream - Salvia palth
Every flower is a display of beautiful petals that capture the adoration and gaze of its viewer. The most popular of which comes from a forest of thorns, the rose. Funerals, Valentine’s Day, and romantic outings are just some occasions on which a rose can be seen. At times they’re white, sometimes red, and, heck, even yellow. Roses are a sign of friendship, love, and loss. A beauty only we can admire for its thorns repel any animal that tries to approach it. Unlike them, the rose's beauty captures us and lures us in. Regardless of their spikes, we still grow and gift them. Their spikes are removed before they even reach the market. No one wants a spiky rose. Some people grow them and pluck them with the thorns and all. They believe these deliver nutrients to the plant, keeping it alive for longer. Though, as all said, no one dares to give a spiky rose. One gentle stroke, and you’ll get pricked, resulting in a small, painful injury. “Flowers are delicate plants.” but the thorns with which they are surrounded beg to differ. The rose is a strong plant that can maintain and protect itself. But what if there were no thorns? Underneath all its defenses (which aren’t many), the rose is another fragile exhibit of nature's beauty. We remove the thorns because doing so diminishes the risk of injury. Removing the thorns, stripping the rose of its protection, all for the sake of a nice counterpiece. Tarnishing its surface for a pretty sigh that will last no longer than a week. Roses are living organisms, much like us. And like the rose, we all cut off our thorns for the sake of likability. To be someone others can hold and admire. Most of us anyway. There are some that are riddled with spikes, puncturing anyone who dares to get close to them. Making them unable to be held. Sometimes it's anger. Sometimes it's not intentional; sometimes it's all they know. Others were born spikeless but eventually grew some after being damaged and rough-handled. Some have small spikes, and some have big spikes. Some are just temporary, and others are permanently held on too. Usually, depending on the extent of the injury they received. The spikeless have little to no tolerance or sympathy for the thorn-infested. “It was a long time ago," “It wasn’t that bad," and “Just get over it” are some words commonly said to the spiked. The spikeless might start off treating the thornful with sympathy, but due to a slow recovery pace or inability to function like the rest, they are often pushed aside and forgotten, being labeled as "toxic." Some of these “toxic” people are the most erratic of the bunch, going from having thick, long spikes and puncturing everyone in sight to being one of the most apologetic and empathetic flowers you’ll meet. A seemingly horrible and menacing person shifts to a beggar on their knees, praying for forgiveness in a matter of seconds. One day, they are invincible. No matter how bad things go, they never seem to get mad or lose their temper, but the next day they’re tying a noose over a stained shirt. They can go from being the most optimistic individual to the saddest person you know in a matter of minutes. This could make the smoothest of roses grow a spike or two, always on the edge for the next swing to knock them off their feet. This would put anyone in a state of distress and exhaustion. You don’t know what's coming next; you don’t know when it’s coming or why. Always being on your guard for the next temper eruption. Why would anyone stick around such a rose? A rose so many abhor? A rose that self-destructs one moment and preaches healthy habits the next. Such a turbulent, nerve wrecking person must be unhealthy to be around. Why stick around? Is it because they were once a mentally grounded, fun rose to be around?
@@yangon963 I perfected it. Every flower showcases beautiful petals that captivate the gaze and admiration of its viewers. Among them, the rose stands out, often found amidst a forest of thorns. At funerals, on lover’s day, or during romantic dates, roses appear in hues of white, red, or yellow, symbolizing friendship, love, and loss. Their beauty is undeniable, though their thorns serve as a deterrent to those who would approach. Despite this, we grow and gift roses, removing their thorns before they reach the market. No one wants a spiky rose. Some believe that thorns nourish the plant, keeping it thriving for longer. Yet, no one dares to present a rose with its thorns intact. A single prick can cause a painful wound. "Flowers are delicate," they say, but the thorns challenge that notion. Without thorns, a rose is exposed and vulnerable, stripped of its natural defense for the sake of beauty; a fleeting display that may last no more than a week. Roses, like us, often shed their thorns to be more likable, to be held and admired. Some individuals are laden with emotional thorns, making them difficult to approach. Their spikes, whether of anger or defense, can wound those who come near. Others, initially without thorns, develop them through life’s hardships. The severity and permanence of these spikes vary, depending on the extent of their injuries. The spikeless often lack empathy for those with thorns. They may dismiss past pain with comments like, “It was a long time ago,” or “Just get over it.” While they may offer sympathy initially, they quickly grow impatient with slow recoveries and label the thorn-infested as “toxic.” Ironically, those with thorns can sometimes offer the most genuine support. Their own spikiness allows them to connect with others who share similar struggles, without causing additional harm. They may shift from being erratic and prickly to showing deep empathy and understanding. One moment they seem invincible, and the next, they are overwhelmed with despair. Their emotional fluctuations can be jarring, but they offer unique insight and connection to those who understand their plight. In the end, it’s often the thorny, turbulent roses that provide the most profound support to others. Their ability to relate to and assist others comes from their own deep, lived experience. Though their presence may be challenging, it is their willingness to reach out despite their own pain that makes them surprisingly effective companions. So, next time you encounter a rose, remember that even amidst its thorns, there can be profound beauty and support. In the shifting, thorn-infested lives of these roses, you may find the strength and empathy that truly resonate.
just music and people makes me feel something, i don't feel anything when i'm alone. I feel nothing, just an empty inside of me when i'm alone, but sometimes when i think about people i can feel something, or when i'm listening to music (i always do) edit: i don't even remember how it is to feel real, alive. The last time i felt this way alive was in 2021. I got used to this feeling, but it still hurts because i feel like i will never feel normal again.
the first time I had a dissociation, was there when I had almost 7/8 years old, I was riding a bike and I almost crash with a cement post 🥸 But when I had 7 years I remember perfectly than I had a kind of dissociation than my soul left my body and I can saw me from a 3rd perspective because of a traumatic moment in the classroom
I want to talk a little here, my life has been very difficult for me, the people I live with call me a monster, and when I try to show my affection I am reciprocated with a cold and empty heart, I have reached a point of emotional exhaustion where I can't even speak, I keep myself far enough away from everything and everyone, maintaining a routine of daily crying, I am tired of myself and I can't take it anymore, I have fits of laughter that have made me faint three times this week alone, proving that my sanity no longer exists... these songs remind me of when I was happy, thank you
I never could understand myself, mine personality, feelings, issues. I always would and will take from existing characters quirks, traits and find them the best way to basically explain my issues. It keep happening for so long that I don't care anymore to learn my actual personality if there's even one and not just awful mix of traits of the fictional characters and celebrities.
Yo solo quiero dejar de respirar, dejar de oir, dejar de sentir, dejar de vivir, dejar de llorar, dejar de creer, dejar de saber, dejar de ser, dejar de entender, dejar de recordar esos momentos, dejar de recaer cada vez mas fuerte que la anterior cuando todo iba tan bien, ya tenia metas, si sigo en vida no es por mi, es porque si muero pasarian muchas cosas, victimizaciones, tristezas absurdas, mentiras, algunas personas quedarian con dudas, las personas que me quieren y yo quiero estarian lastimadas, asi que no me llamen egoista, pero hay veces en las que siento que no todo el tiempo voy a poder seguir por los demas, porque... osea, esta bien que yo haga de todo para que ellos esten bien y se sientan bien, pero... ¿QUE HAY DE LO QUE YO SIENTO?. Personas me han dicho querer ayudarme, y en el primer intento se retiran sin decir nada, u otras se inventan alguna excusa creible para alguien tan tonto como yo, ¿sere yo el problema?... Ya denme el sueño eterno, quisiera dormir de una manera tan profunda en la que tarde dias, semanas, meses, años, o a lo mejor una eternidad sin despertar es lo que yo merezco...
I feel like my brain is full of paralyzing fog and I can't really see what's in front of me. My eyes are always so tired. I'm disconnected enough to be far too self aware, but still connected enough to feel. So I feel the need to express myself,but when i do, I see every flaw in the non-factual statements I make. I see hope as more of a thing I do for others rather than myself, because hope is an intrinsic part of me, not something I have to do for myself. Maybe losing some hope disconnected me from myself. Maybe that's why I feel so painfully numb, yet free. I've rambled. I've deleted parts that matter to me. I'll share it anyway. Maybe I'll regret it later.
I tend to put songs on that help me feel my emotions out better when I am dissociating but this is actually so calming... Not really something to sleep to but definitely something to just daze out and get lost in. I like it a ton even if I'm not sure I'll listen to this often, it does its job. Maybe I'd personally use it as gaming music... Just to help submerse me into that. :3
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Someone make a Spotify playlist of this
i have made similar playlist of it, there is just more songs so ye but there is the link :
open.spotify.com/playlist/51VS3wnzrvFAoX5rKgAgVN?si=fcab38c2588f44fc
@@katthecat2420 thank you :3
@@katthecat2420ж😊
@@katthecat2420жю😊
Insta comments are worse 😂😂😂
Dissociating is so weird, especially if you feel like you aren't in control of your own body, like it's just running on autopilot
when youre talking to someone and your head feels like its in .5 mode
and then someone says something to you and you break out of it, and suddenly the haze is gone and you can barely see through the brain fog
it kinda feels nice for a few seconds before you completely feel nothing is real
@@Juniper.berry_ this is the best way ive ever seen someone explain this omg
real
the way the edit in the back is on beat with the songs is rlly impressive
i have no idea how they managed to find an edit that matched with so many songs its amazing!!
i remember when i was younger i would make characters and steal their personalities too see which one matched me best
no way same
Same?!
instead i borrowed already existing characters believing they are me and thinking this world is not real.
What if the world isn't real@@shalmiroy
@@Sophie_was_never_there i hope
i feel like nobody's appreciating how the edit is on beat with every single song
Sometimes I forget if I’m daydreaming or actually seeing what’s in front of me, it’s so hard to live like this
i feel like this for 3 years
EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
i'm SO tired of this, i'm giving up already...
all i wanted is run away and live in my way, leave school, live my city or even country...
I just wanted to feel peace. I don't feel this for years... I think i never did.
@@laura_510 i wanna do exactly this but i feel like im not gonna get far so whats the point
@@laura_510 i feel you.. running away has been on my mind 24/7 lately, im gonna do it some day.
@@dwllusa I’m also thinking about running away. Experience real adventures. But i know it’s not possible. And I also have a good chance getting a bright future here.
Same, but i actyally feel like that *always* like nonstop-able, it’s been like a 9 months since i started feeling like that and everyday i feel like its progressing and becomes harder and harder, tbh im afraid i couldnt move at all in like 3 years(if i wont get to psychiatrist or smth), im scared a lil
for as long as i can remember I've always felt like i wasn't in control of my body, like I'm running on autopilot. Like life is just a show and someone is making choices for me, like my physical body is just a puppet. Everything feels distant as i can't touch it for real, everything i touch feels simulated. When i was 6, i remember asking my mom "isn't it weird that... we're physically here? that we really have a body?"
And what's really frustrating is that people misuse the actual medical terminology for dissociation, associating it with "being spaced out" when it's not like that at all. It's so much more than that.
Thanks for this playlist, it makes me feel a bit more understood
I hope ur doing good now :(
@@bacardib8280
DPDR by chance?
Same… I also hate how dissociation and DID are portrayed on social media especially tiktok and in films
But I recommend the game OMORI for it’s portrayal of dissociative amnesia and comorbideties
I LOVE CRYSTAL CASTLES!!
I love crystal
I love crystal
long live cyrtal cast
ong live cryatl sadt
long live cat
Sometimes thinking of the universe make me feel dissociated, it's just too giant for us, we never will know the truth of it. Millions of galaxies, millions of solar systems and millions of planets, will we ever discover them?. Sometimes I'm starving of knowledge, I want to know everything about the space. And sometimes I wanna scape there, I want to be in the universe, just exploring, floating, crying, and knowing there is more than this boring life.
this might be the realest shit ive ever seen in a youtube comment
Plato's cave
never related to a comment more
I didn't know other people felt this way haha,
This is the kind of thing that I think about all of the time. And same. How is it that space exists? Galaxies, solar systems, planets, how does any of it exist and how does it all work? How does the entirety of our universe work? How does earth work? How did earth come to be? We're these living, breathing, thinking beings. We have our own consciousness, our own thoughts, minds. We each feel, see, hear, smell, taste and process things differently to one another. Why and how do humans even exist? How do our bodies work? We're just somehow able to move these limbs connected to our bodies, we're able to hear things in our mind, think things.. each human has their own thought process and ways of existing. One day, the earth just came about and at some point humans just.. began existing. Of course, through evolution and "humans" back then were nothing like modern humans now. But they were still just like us, they thought, they felt, physically and mentally, they saw, they heard, they tasted, everything we can do. How is it that here on earth, the only planet with living beings (as far as we know, which is a bit unnerving to think about), and we all just exist on this one planet together, in the midst of this universe.. and have been for hundreds and thousands of years. How do our bodies, how do humans work, how does the universe work, how are we just living on this floating sphere, existing in the middle of nowhere, and we're able to live like how we are. One day, maybe in a thousand or so years, maybe in a million, all humans would have perished and there would be no living being to remember our existence. We would just vanish, as if we were never there, even though we've been here for so long. Everyone, all of us, gone. No souls, no humans, no anything left. Maybe the earth would be completely destroyed, and the universe would just be other planets, galaxies, etc.. weird.
こういう雰囲気のプレイリストを探してた！！！ありがとう！！！
is no one talking about the edit that rhymes with almost every song??????? ITS SO GOODDDDDD AGHHHHHH AND THE PLAYLIST ITSELF IS SO GOOOOD TOOOO
Rhymes?? 😭
@@tiarenai OH SHET i just noticed i was supposed to type "matches" BUT NO SORRY THATS SO EMBARRASSING-
Rhymes sounds more poetic actually, keep it in the comment :D
Dissociating is scary, when I first dissociated it felt like I was being waken up from a coma-like dream, I felt like falling of just magically waking up from a coma. Even worse it was in the middle of the field.
It makes me feel worthless or meaningless, and fills me with sadness that the earth is beautiful but I cannot (neither can anyone) help everyone to where everyone can see the beauty. I just feel empty and in a loop almost.
''How many times have you rewatched this?''
Me: yes.
actually, right now i feel like i'm not here for others. i'm always the one who texts first but never gets texted. i'm always left out, i'm in a trio... i feel like i'm here just when they need something. i'm the one who everybody knows but never talks to. i feel like nothing, void, just a ghost, like i'm already dead. i always yap and vent to my friends and they're like it's a competition. i already attempted, i got in a psychiatric hospital and nobody cared about that. i'm always here for everyone, but nobody's here when i need something, even just a hug.
You need new friends and depending on your age I can find you some new ones hopefully :)
thhis i s s9 reoayrfable
You’re acting as if you have a bad life, who cares if your friends don’t text you back, such a trivial thing
@@Azrael-h8eYour only saying this because you got no friends just say it lol 😭😭
Well I love you I’m here if you need someone to talk to I’m always available to help you in any situation I will be there for you just like how you are there for someone else
the edit i swear is on beat with all the songs frrr
Everytime I have free time, I just make up scenarios. I dont read, I dont write, I just think about characters in my brain that have been there for years. And then I sometimes act like them. Its sorta therapeutic ig. When I cant think about those characters life just feels empty. Like I'm staring at a computer screen, watching a video. Sometimes I just forget to move. Its weird. I'm not sure if anything is real tbh. Maybe im just overreacting
nah dude u aren't overreacting, are you okay?
I thought I would never find someone that could relate to this
@@hellokittyluverrrXD not rly tbh. But it's a bit better now.
@@emiliar3543 ah i get that! i really hope it fr better tho
this playlist is perfect
Does anybody else have like a comfort character and you just imagine them being your sibling or is it just me?????
That but instead of brother it’s father lol
Me, I imagine ERI from MHA....was my little sister...
Someone commented "Bro why are youtube comments so cringe" and i thought that comment was cringe
It is true they are extremly cring
@@AlixhyMylixy real
lowk real ill be seeing ppl “erm” “oh!!” I dont understand the need to be so rude under a post where everyone doesnt have any mean intention, i mean sure you can find it cringe but theres no need to make a toxic reply ☹️
But srsly, yt comments are actually rlly cringe. I had to get up and walk around my apartment for like 5 minutes after readind some of the commetns 😭
@@The_egg_came_firsttht is SO REAL omfg
I keep coming back, this playlist has me hooked.
gojo?
THE EDIT IS EDITING 😍😍😍
Lmao when you have different personalities for different people and then you start forgetting which personality is the real one
me rn fr
That‘s insecurity, not dissociation. Though you can have both independantly of course
what is this smell
This is a lullaby for me I have been playing this playlist every single night it's like a lucky charm to me
Bro why are youtube comments so cringe
NO LITERALLY
IKR 😭🙏
They honestly aren’t that bad 🤷♀️
@@whisper.Gissellethey are 🙏
@@aimeeissilly what’s so cringe abt them?
I'm not even disassociating but this playlist is making me feel that way omg
i sold my soul for happiness, but i didnt think of how can i feel happy without a soul. now, because of myself i dont have both. i just have a body and a mouth which moves on their own. i cant feel like im living. once, when i was six or seven, i tried to cut my ears because of how loud my own thoughts and the other peoples talk or the silence itself are. i dont regret any second of that. i just regret that i couldnt cut my ears. present, wherever i am is just too quiet or too loud. but silence is louder than the word "loud"
Man that sounds deep but like wym u sold ur soul
@@thereallhatsunemikuLMAOOO OH GOD THAT MADE ME CACKLE
@@thereallhatsunemiku i didnt sold it w money, its just a cringe ass sentence cause i dont know how to start lol :D
oh!
If you don't have a soul, then how are you alive? You're body can't move without one.
i love the way the edit fits all of the songs.
I can't believe it when I saw it, it barely had 584 likes, it's incredible and I love this playlist, perfect for a long road trip :b
listening to this hits when your verbally/mentally abusive father insults you and does every bad thing impossible, your friend thinks you were mocking her dead cousin, and you just ended 3 and maybe 4 close friendships.
I hope you feel better now
@@whthoutyou thanks, haven't felt any better though. just lost 4 more friends.. been really lonely
Fatal Frame and epic music hits hard. Amazing Playlist!
THIS IS THE PLAYLIST I NEED
honestly, this playlist is great. :D
I love these types of music, where it all feels so surreal, someone tell me the name of these types of music plss 🙏🙏🙏
Synthpop, Bitpop, Electroclash, Chiptune, Synth Punk - what I found
I misread that as "piss" HELP
This playlist is everything 💖
tysm for this playlist 10/10
I need this playlist on Spotify so much 😭🙏 so i can download it and listen to it at nights
im listening to this while crying😃
I love this playlist
this playlist is lowkey fire 🔥 and i love how the edit in the background is to beat with the video!!
i hate dissociating but there are times when it lowkey feels good
Totally agree
real, it just depends on the situations ig
kind of, like sometimes I think it’s funny but others I’m scared
it doesnt get better. ive been dealing with this for 7 months on and off and when it disappears i think it has finally gotten better but it comes back again. i cant breathe im so tired of fighting myself and no one even knows. theres like a black hole eating inside me and everything just feels like a mild distraction from it. it feels like im going to get consumed by it and i cant do anything about it. i cannot do anything. i just want to fall asleep and never wake up i want to disappear so badly i dont know what to do.
Thing is, it does get better even if you have to wait 30 years and you might think well I don’t wanna wait 30 years but the outcome is amazing if you let it happen
I had to wait around 20 years for small steps in the direction of betterment. It can get better, especially if you‘ve been dealing with it for under a year. Though of course every day with it is one day too much… Doing things for depression might help ease it a bit. Like having a structured day with enough idle/ down time to relax. Regular breathing exercises. Going to the doctor. If you can‘t get meds, there are prescription free options like St. John‘s Wort in high dosage. A healthy sleep schedule and minimizing stressors as best as possible. Therapy or journalling is essential. There are helpful videos online to also start this alone. I believe in you.
I live in a constant state of dissociation, and when I’m not dissociating I freak tf out. It comes in phases that’s the best way I can describe it. I’ll be ok for months and then one day I’ll just stop and I won’t be ok for a couple weeks until I start again. I’m in this sort of middle state right now like I’m aware I’m not there but I am?? Idk how to explain it. I’ve stppped seeing my therapist and psychiatrist because I started college and don’t have time but I feel like I’m starting to have a toll on me I can’t sleep anymore.
need more playlists like thiss
If only I could feel weightless. This is the perfect playlist for that 🫀🫀🫀
I NEED MORE PLAYLIST LIKE THIS, this is my therapy..
help wtf 😭🙏
@@aimeeissillyfrrr 😭😭😭 why’d they add the … they sound like AI
@@shinizkawangelol exactlyyy 😭
@@aimeeissillywhy so judgemental? /gen
@@lxvely_ducky3801 because why not!
this is so good I can't
@@idontlikeme2 thank you💞💞 ^^
The edit and the songs are on beat it itches my brain so good argajshf
es la mejor playlist que he escuchado, es lo que he estado buscando desde hace mucho para sentirme mas mierda
я общался с лучшей подругой на личные темы и в какой-то момент она сказала "теперь понятно почему у тебя нет друзей". я решил выйти из сети на пару дней и нашел этот плейлист
I hope Google translate works for this but I hope your doing well! Find new friends other than them. Because those types aren’t good for you!
@@Roach_in_your_fridge спасибо, надеюсь у вас самые лучшие друзья. все заслуживают хороших друзей
А вот это самая ужасная подруга! Она даже не достойна такого имени, как 'лучшая подруга ' . Надеюсь что теперь тебе все хорошо☹❤
Надеюсь вы сейчас в порядке и чувствуете себя лучше. Если подруга продолжит подобное говорить, то лучше прекратить с ней общаться.
@@Roach_in_your_fridgeнет лучше друга чем ты сам себе. Все эти друзья сегодня есть, а завтра нет, а ты для себя на всю жизнь
I'm addicted to this playlist
все эти песни напоминают мне старый городок в котором я жила, мне в нем было очень хорошо и уютно до того, как родители меня перевезли в другую страну, да что там страну, на другой континент. я оставила там всех своих друзей и родных, не считая своих родителей конечно, теперь я каждую ночь слушаю плейлист и вспоминаю свой уютный и родной питер. и радостно и грустно.
where are you now?
@@laceynietzsche in us
I moved from Germany to the USA and haven't been able to visit any of my family there, i have family in America too but they live in other States, also I live in the boring countryside so I don't meet prople😢
i get u because i had to move too, i feel like i'll never make new friends
fire playlist🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Nobody asked this ik
0:01 - 3:05 untrust us - crystal castles
3:05 - 6:05 Brian is the most beautiful - memo boy
6:05 - 11:08 Crimewave - crystal castles
11:08 - 14:40 Insomniac - memo boy & Chakra efendi
14:40 - 18:05 everything reminds me of you - Take care
18:05 - 22:10 Vanished - crystal castles
22:10 - 24:45 Treehouse - Alex g
24:45 - 28:01 Knights -
crystal castles
28:01 - 30:18 cold - sign crushes motorist
30:18 - 33:00 I was all over her - Salvia palth
33:00 - 38:06 Anwering machine - Ruby haunt
38:06 - 40:30 Inside out - Duster.
40:30-41:54 Dream - Salvia palth
Tysm
nah nah nah this is the best playist for now
am i supposed to be feeling this for like 9 months now btw i like the edit
I come to this every night and I feel scared because I might randomly have sleep paralysis but I still listen to it
this playlist is honestly the best playlist ever ❤
idk but this is such a good playlist to fall asleep to
she deserve more subscribers guys!
IM GOING TO PEEL EVERY BANANA, ORANGE, APPLE, FRUIT YOUD EVER WANTED MAN!!
Can you peel mine too?
@@Syarontm yeah dw, we can even enjoy the playlist together.
@@yogumogu can you peel minee :3 ?
@@buggzterrrr of course!
U can't peel an apple
I’ve felt disconnected lately, thank you :)
Теперь это мой любимый плейлист
oh my goodness this playlist is fantastic, i haven’t felt hopelessness from music like this in a while.
Man i can't keep going anymore
This playlist helps me so much with studying. Idk why it just helps me focus.
Omg I just noticed the edit matches every song, that's so cool.
Every flower is a display of beautiful petals that capture the adoration and gaze of its viewer. The most popular of which comes from a forest of thorns, the rose. Funerals, Valentine’s Day, and romantic outings are just some occasions on which a rose can be seen. At times they’re white, sometimes red, and, heck, even yellow. Roses are a sign of friendship, love, and loss. A beauty only we can admire for its thorns repel any animal that tries to approach it. Unlike them, the rose's beauty captures us and lures us in. Regardless of their spikes, we still grow and gift them. Their spikes are removed before they even reach the market. No one wants a spiky rose.
Some people grow them and pluck them with the thorns and all. They believe these deliver nutrients to the plant, keeping it alive for longer. Though, as all said, no one dares to give a spiky rose. One gentle stroke, and you’ll get pricked, resulting in a small, painful injury. “Flowers are delicate plants.” but the thorns with which they are surrounded beg to differ. The rose is a strong plant that can maintain and protect itself. But what if there were no thorns? Underneath all its defenses (which aren’t many), the rose is another fragile exhibit of nature's beauty. We remove the thorns because doing so diminishes the risk of injury. Removing the thorns, stripping the rose of its protection, all for the sake of a nice counterpiece. Tarnishing its surface for a pretty sigh that will last no longer than a week.
Roses are living organisms, much like us. And like the rose, we all cut off our thorns for the sake of likability. To be someone others can hold and admire. Most of us anyway. There are some that are riddled with spikes, puncturing anyone who dares to get close to them. Making them unable to be held. Sometimes it's anger. Sometimes it's not intentional; sometimes it's all they know. Others were born spikeless but eventually grew some after being damaged and rough-handled. Some have small spikes, and some have big spikes. Some are just temporary, and others are permanently held on too. Usually, depending on the extent of the injury they received.
The spikeless have little to no tolerance or sympathy for the thorn-infested. “It was a long time ago," “It wasn’t that bad," and “Just get over it” are some words commonly said to the spiked. The spikeless might start off treating the thornful with sympathy, but due to a slow recovery pace or inability to function like the rest, they are often pushed aside and forgotten, being labeled as "toxic."
Some of these “toxic” people are the most erratic of the bunch, going from having thick, long spikes and puncturing everyone in sight to being one of the most apologetic and empathetic flowers you’ll meet. A seemingly horrible and menacing person shifts to a beggar on their knees, praying for forgiveness in a matter of seconds. One day, they are invincible. No matter how bad things go, they never seem to get mad or lose their temper, but the next day they’re tying a noose over a stained shirt. They can go from being the most optimistic individual to the saddest person you know in a matter of minutes.
This could make the smoothest of roses grow a spike or two, always on the edge for the next swing to knock them off their feet. This would put anyone in a state of distress and exhaustion. You don’t know what's coming next; you don’t know when it’s coming or why. Always being on your guard for the next temper eruption.
Why would anyone stick around such a rose? A rose so many abhor? A rose that self-destructs one moment and preaches healthy habits the next. Such a turbulent, nerve wrecking person must be unhealthy to be around. Why stick around? Is it because they were once a mentally grounded, fun rose to be around?
omg this is truly amazing, i never thought someone would explain such a confusing feeling, perfectly described in words. i love this A LOT!!!
@@yangon963 Thank you. Feel free to use it.
read it all :] 👍
WHOW(what+how)
@@yangon963 I perfected it.
Every flower showcases beautiful petals that captivate the gaze and admiration of its viewers. Among them, the rose stands out, often found amidst a forest of thorns. At funerals, on lover’s day, or during romantic dates, roses appear in hues of white, red, or yellow, symbolizing friendship, love, and loss. Their beauty is undeniable, though their thorns serve as a deterrent to those who would approach. Despite this, we grow and gift roses, removing their thorns before they reach the market. No one wants a spiky rose.
Some believe that thorns nourish the plant, keeping it thriving for longer. Yet, no one dares to present a rose with its thorns intact. A single prick can cause a painful wound. "Flowers are delicate," they say, but the thorns challenge that notion. Without thorns, a rose is exposed and vulnerable, stripped of its natural defense for the sake of beauty; a fleeting display that may last no more than a week.
Roses, like us, often shed their thorns to be more likable, to be held and admired. Some individuals are laden with emotional thorns, making them difficult to approach. Their spikes, whether of anger or defense, can wound those who come near. Others, initially without thorns, develop them through life’s hardships. The severity and permanence of these spikes vary, depending on the extent of their injuries.
The spikeless often lack empathy for those with thorns. They may dismiss past pain with comments like, “It was a long time ago,” or “Just get over it.” While they may offer sympathy initially, they quickly grow impatient with slow recoveries and label the thorn-infested as “toxic.”
Ironically, those with thorns can sometimes offer the most genuine support. Their own spikiness allows them to connect with others who share similar struggles, without causing additional harm. They may shift from being erratic and prickly to showing deep empathy and understanding. One moment they seem invincible, and the next, they are overwhelmed with despair. Their emotional fluctuations can be jarring, but they offer unique insight and connection to those who understand their plight.
In the end, it’s often the thorny, turbulent roses that provide the most profound support to others. Their ability to relate to and assist others comes from their own deep, lived experience. Though their presence may be challenging, it is their willingness to reach out despite their own pain that makes them surprisingly effective companions.
So, next time you encounter a rose, remember that even amidst its thorns, there can be profound beauty and support. In the shifting, thorn-infested lives of these roses, you may find the strength and empathy that truly resonate.
always having to try and find this video again so i subscribed lol
just music and people makes me feel something, i don't feel anything when i'm alone. I feel nothing, just an empty inside of me when i'm alone, but sometimes when i think about people i can feel something, or when i'm listening to music (i always do)
edit: i don't even remember how it is to feel real, alive. The last time i felt this way alive was in 2021. I got used to this feeling, but it still hurts because i feel like i will never feel normal again.
Been thinking about it, think the day is comin pretty soon.
the first time I had a dissociation, was there when I had almost 7/8 years old, I was riding a bike and I almost crash with a cement post 🥸 But when I had 7 years I remember perfectly than I had a kind of dissociation than my soul left my body and I can saw me from a 3rd perspective because of a traumatic moment in the classroom
i always vizualize memories from the 3rd person for some reasons
this is so cool
Nothing cringy about sharing our same experiences. I swear these anti "edgelords" should leave us the fxck alone
Edge
Off topic but I love your pfp
Боженки спасибо вам автор за такой атмосферный плейлист!!
@@Ктото-ы2х 💕
i lowkey listend it all the way
I want to talk a little here, my life has been very difficult for me, the people I live with call me a monster, and when I try to show my affection I am reciprocated with a cold and empty heart, I have reached a point of emotional exhaustion where I can't even speak, I keep myself far enough away from everything and everyone, maintaining a routine of daily crying, I am tired of myself and I can't take it anymore, I have fits of laughter that have made me faint three times this week alone, proving that my sanity no longer exists... these songs remind me of when I was happy, thank you
Ermm what the sigma.
@@fr4me.sDude what
@@fr4me.s This is their experience, don‘t judge. Especially not by using ironic slang
@@blue-uv4mh I'm not judging vro.. I just said what the sigma!!!🥺
@@fr4me.s u don't say goofy things when somebody's talking about something serious.
finally one that isnt corny
congrats on 1k subs!
She deserve more likes and subscribers!
I never could understand myself, mine personality, feelings, issues. I always would and will take from existing characters quirks, traits and find them the best way to basically explain my issues. It keep happening for so long that I don't care anymore to learn my actual personality if there's even one and not just awful mix of traits of the fictional characters and celebrities.
Thank you! I needed this today-
using this for writing my bookkkkkk
Yo solo quiero dejar de respirar, dejar de oir, dejar de sentir, dejar de vivir, dejar de llorar, dejar de creer, dejar de saber, dejar de ser, dejar de entender, dejar de recordar esos momentos, dejar de recaer cada vez mas fuerte que la anterior cuando todo iba tan bien, ya tenia metas, si sigo en vida no es por mi, es porque si muero pasarian muchas cosas, victimizaciones, tristezas absurdas, mentiras, algunas personas quedarian con dudas, las personas que me quieren y yo quiero estarian lastimadas, asi que no me llamen egoista, pero hay veces en las que siento que no todo el tiempo voy a poder seguir por los demas, porque... osea, esta bien que yo haga de todo para que ellos esten bien y se sientan bien, pero... ¿QUE HAY DE LO QUE YO SIENTO?.
Personas me han dicho querer ayudarme, y en el primer intento se retiran sin decir nada, u otras se inventan alguna excusa creible para alguien tan tonto como yo, ¿sere yo el problema?...
Ya denme el sueño eterno, quisiera dormir de una manera tan profunda en la que tarde dias, semanas, meses, años, o a lo mejor una eternidad sin despertar es lo que yo merezco...
I made a playlist like this before watching this video, I can listen to this song without getting, ty
You know song name?
love it
I feel like my brain is full of paralyzing fog and I can't really see what's in front of me. My eyes are always so tired. I'm disconnected enough to be far too self aware, but still connected enough to feel. So I feel the need to express myself,but when i do, I see every flaw in the non-factual statements I make.
I see hope as more of a thing I do for others rather than myself, because hope is an intrinsic part of me, not something I have to do for myself. Maybe losing some hope disconnected me from myself. Maybe that's why I feel so painfully numb, yet free.
I've rambled. I've deleted parts that matter to me. I'll share it anyway. Maybe I'll regret it later.
we gonna create a whole new theory in our minds with this one 😋😋
0:00 yall should play it 1.25x or 0.75x its either good:)
Дякую,я файно поплакала
W PLAYLIST.
i didnt listen this playlist until the end but i know what here is gonna be a lot of crystal castles
i'm depressed and i love your videos !
that’s wild
It's hard to drive, because I feel like nothing is real and I'm worried I'll crash..
im a simple person, i see fatal frame i click.
I disassociated with my emotions 4 years ago... and it hurts
love the edit!!
I tend to put songs on that help me feel my emotions out better when I am dissociating but this is actually so calming... Not really something to sleep to but definitely something to just daze out and get lost in. I like it a ton even if I'm not sure I'll listen to this often, it does its job. Maybe I'd personally use it as gaming music... Just to help submerse me into that. :3
I have this playlist on repeat now ;P (Question: Where are the visuals from?)
@@Ououou3-3 thank youu💞 i found that edit in pinterest and idk by who😭
@@katthecat2420 Oh alr, I just thought it looked familiar, like if it was from a donghua or smth, thanks!
I just found out, it's from a game called fatal frame :o
the clash between steel and wood,
paper trails dance in the night sky
endless fluorescence
Damn that playlist is good 🔥🔥