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- Опубликовано: 19 фев 2018
- I debated about doing this video for a while, but I'm not ashamed of my past anymore. I'm so grateful for all the many wonderful people in my life, the amazing experiences I had, and my ability to now go on to live the life I have only dreamt of.
Thank you for your support and your friendship!! I love you all!! Please subscribe, comment, like, etc.
I hope this finds those who need to see it. I hope this gives them hope. XoXo
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I watched the whole video. I could see the emotional roller coaster you were on. I hope you find happiness.
I hope the rest of your life is filled with joy. You're incredibly resilient and brave especially for sharing your journey.
Well done. I can't imagine going through all you've been through but I'm so happy for you. My best friend went through exactly what you did and still to this day finds it a struggle. I'm there for her anytime she needs to talk and I love the bones of her but it just goes to show you that as much as you can be there for someone, you could never imagine or feel the pain that you go through to get to this stage. I think you're amazing and so glad you're finally happy. You got this xxx
The thing I wanted most watching this video was to see that awful sorrow leave your eyes. It did, and there's strength there instead, so now I can go get some sleep. Good job, Natalie, and thanks for the video.
No one should be made to feel shame for who they are. Congrats on finding strength and self-assuredness in your journey!
Natalie, thank you for sharing this deeply personal journey. I am so glad that you have found peace with who you are.
Whew, that was a rollercoaster. You're strong as heck and an amazing person 💕
I've always watched a lot of trans people's videos even though I'm not trans, “just” gay. I guess I've always had trouble feeling comfortable in my body, because I didn't feel masculine enough, which makes trans folks' problems (FTM) a tiny bit relatable to me. But those few final sentences in your video kind of wrap it all up for anyone, regardless of their problem. Bravo!
All that matters is that you find peace. I hope you do.
Your soul radiates brilliantly through your videos and it is beautiful. This world would be a far greater place if more people like you were here to inspire and lead.
Thankfully I believe we are living in an age of awakening and enlightenment. People are waking up and realizing things must change. Thank you so much for the beautiful comment!!
How exactly does he ''inspire'' people? Fact is if he was in any way qualified to be called that then he would be telling people things like Always speak out if trauma has happened to you and never try to change your body bcz your mind is disturbed. Like his mind, trans people's mind, real inspirational people are not trans people.
Wow! Thanks for sharing your journey. You are a beautiful human, and I’m so glad you are still here, on your journey, learning to love yourself. Me to. Keep going!! ❤️
Thank you for sharing your life with all of us. That takes courage. Also, you are helping others in your boat. Your story can prevent someone from committing suicide. Keep staying strong, live your truth, and keep killing it! You are amazing!!❤💖🌟
I enjoyed that you shared your story and struggles. I wish you all the joy in your life.
Thank you!
All I can say is wow! God bless you and happy you're finally happy now.
Thanks Chan!! I really am!
Natalie, you are so inspiring and brave. I hope I can be more like you. Thanks for making this video and inspiring all of us.
You're very sweet, thank you for your kind words! Xx
You are AMAZING and I mean that all the way! You inspire me to fight through my problems. We all have our own problems and that's what makes our life beautiful: fighting and overcoming them. Personally I struggle with depression and seeing your journey makes me realise how strong I can be too!
Isn't it amazing, that you came full circle, to find You? Cherish who you are.
It is and I give gratitude to have found self acceptance daily.
YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!!!!! My husband and I were both raised in the Mormon church as well. We left the church 3 years ago.
Well done! It's always very encouraging to hear stories of people who have left the Mormon religion and found freedom.
I always feel deeply concerned and at times troubled knowing that so many innocent people are caught up in this religious deception.
It takes a lot of courage some times to just walk away.
God bless!
Hey zombie they said they left the church, they never said they stop believing in our FATHER IN HEAVEN!
@Zombie ZH himer You cursed at them and cursed at them. That's not assuming anything. That was rude. I pray you find yourself too
I know life is never "always" amazing, seeing this brings me hope. Hope in that some day I can be as courageous as you.
My heart truly breaks for all that you’ve been through. You’re a beautiful person, inside and out! Just continue being you, and don’t let the world take away your joy! I hope the rest of your life is wonderful, filled with the love and joy you deserve! 😘❤️
Thank you so much!! Your comment is a ray of sunshine on a cloudy comment section day.
No matter what stage in your life was being depicted through out the video, the entire time all I could see is an incredibly beautiful person and no matter what choices you make moving forward I hope you are happy.
Your story is beautiful - as are you. Lead the way for others who face the challenges you face with such wisdom. You are perfect as you are.
Really great video. You have such a beautiful story and thank you for sharing it. 💗
Thanks girl!! I appreciate your support!
Thank you for sharing this. I am so stoked for you and how far you've come... And thank you because this video helped me a bit in further understanding my own thoughts/uncertainty around who I am. You continue to be an inspiration and a help.
I'm so glad to hear that! Thanks May! I envy those who knew from day 1 who they are and never fought against it. We all just do the best we can though, and I hope you find your happiness!! Xx
Depression is a masquerader. Or like wearing glasses that cover up half of all the colors. I'm glad you made it through.
You know that constant feeling of “this isn’t it!”......That”s IT!
This was a remarkable video. I found myself tearing up a bit about your sadness. I am so happy you have found your true self again. You are amazing. Keep your chin up and God bless
Thank you so much Pam!! I'm so happy I've found my truth again. It's hard because I'm still so far from where I want to be, but I know it's just a matter of time. Thanks again!! Xx
One day at a time my friend!
Natalie girl, i've been thinking about your new video since sunday night. Thank godness you uploaded it today.
Love the vid btw, and ❤ you. Have a nice week!
You are a truly inspiration for me in order to never give up.
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Thank you so much!! It's still hard for me sometimes, but all we can do is try to move a little more forward each day. Best of luck to you!!!
I just wanna say I admire your courage. It must take so much to be so open to so many people. Thank you for sharing. You're very beautiful and intelligent and I'm sure you will figure things out with time. We are all just trying to figure our lives out as we go. Sending love and light and positivity to you!
Love you, Natalie! You are one strong person to have gone through all of this. I can't wait to see what good things are to come for you! ❤️
Thanks Luke!! I need to be so much stronger than I currently am, but it's a process, right? I'm excited to see what comes for you too!!
A beautiful story from a beautiful person. Thank you. God bless you, Natalie.
When you’re technically mtf and ftm:
Yeah it’s big brain time
(This isn’t meant as rude btw, lol you’d transition gives me hope and I’m glad you can love yourself ❤️)
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The fact is that they do Not ''love themselves'' and not possible to ''love yourself'' when one is contradicting that by chasing the impossible, like this, what they can never become which is the opposite gender. Meaning they do not love themselves by wanting to change themselves in this manner.
Thank you for sharing this, Natalie! You vulnerability is helping more people than you can possibly imagine, encouraging them to be honest with themselves and the rest of the world.
Oh wow, what a journey Nat!!!
Life is like that, learning, getting to know who we are, exploring our potentials, finding out who we are and what we want in life.
I am sure that your soul is pure, you’re just going through life and it is tough, but you do your best and write the best story on these pages.
You are beautiful, no matter what, I am sure that you are beautiful inside as well.
I wish you all the strength you need to keep moving through life, love and consciousness until the very last day of your journey, but until then, enjoy your life the most you can, be your best, do you best, not for everyone but yourself!
Cheers! 🥂
The shame. That's what's hard. If I could take anything away from my daughter, it would be the shame. You are a beautiful creature. You're not a mistake, and all these little things don't matter to the important people in your life. The unconditional friends. Ignore everyone else.
You're right, the rest is just noise.
💕Awesome Vid, beautiful!!! Loved it💕
Thank you so much!! I'm glad you liked it Chrissy!
You are such an amazing person! The way you know and accept yourself with complete honesty is something I truly admire. Your life story is beautiful, hope you keep living your amazing journey. And thanks so so much for sharing and helping this cis girl to learn and improve herself. Love you!
Thank you so much Laia!! It has taken years and a lot of pain for me to finally become so honest, but I'm pretty grateful for it. I'm so glad to have you as an ally, girl!! Love ya!
Thank you for exposing your raw emotions and inspiring video. I think this is most needed and could benefit thousands. Though it manifests in as many ways as there are people, We are ALL uncomfortable within, until we find our truth. We cannot try to cover our light, shine yours brightly Natalie !
You deserve more subscribers! I love your story. So inspired many people, Don’t go looking for Happiness cause happiness is closer to you than you think! Your friends and your family (these one who there and support you no matter what) these people are your true Happiness! I love your story.
Deserve?
Yeah, deserve? Hmmmm mmmkay. Thank you though Hmoob.
Natalie Day I am sorry if my words misunderstood you.
You can see in his photos he looked unhappy and so lost. So sad to have felt like that way for a long time.
True, that was a very difficult thing to hide and I wish I'd seen and done something about it sooner. C'est la Vie. Xx
Natalie Day I know how you feel, not about your situation, but about my past relationships, I was so miserable and i should of not got involved. Its ok, you cant change it now. I do love myself and i can see you love yourself too!! 😘🙏🏻🙏🏻 Buona Fortuna Natalia 💕🙏🏻🙏🏻😇 E Buon Natale, Ciao bella 💋💋
Sadly, the last 3 images look that way. N the words at 13:55 have me perplexed - rather contradictory to his entire journey.
Nonetheless, pobody's nerfect, right?😉 Live n let live.
Thank you for sharing your experience. You have given me a better understanding of the real feelings and challenges people face everyday that somehow don’t feel “right” in the body they were born into. I had the privilege of working with someone who had transitioned and she taught me so much about her struggles and my prejudice and misconceptions. Your shared experience will hopefully spread understanding, love, hope for others who are struggling either personally or with a loved one. Most of all, on the brink of this New year I hope and pray that your experience brings hope to anyone struggling and encourages them to strive towards self acceptance and self love ..... that’s where it begins and ends. Without it we have no true capacity to love, cherish and support others in a sustained way. Wishing the a happy, healthy and prosperous 2020. ❤️🇬🇧
Wow, thank you for sharing your journey. So inspiring, such strength of character and will. Thank you. All the best for you, you deserve it girl.
Natalie, again i am amazed by your ability to just be a fantastic person. You have an amazing heart. I back you 100% through your journey x
p.s... i wish i could give this video more than 1 thumbs up!! Xx
Awww thanks Rachel! I wish you could too! :P Seriously though, thank you so much! Xx
this puts 'it's complicated' into perspective.
Wow! Thanks for sharing your story with us. That was an inspirational video. I’m happy that you found your true self
You are a Hugh inspiration, you are both beautiful and amazing. My journey has mirrored yours in alot of ways and have started to re- transition myself.
Loved your ending statements queen! SO TRUE 💜💜💜💜💜 we’re on the same same boat!!! It gets bettter ❤️❤️❤️❤️
thank you so much for sharing!! you're amazingly strong and you honestly inspire me so much :"))
You honor me with your words, and I'm grateful you took the time to comment your sincerity. Thank you!
What an incredible inspiration, God bless you, your friends and of course your family xx
Thank you!! Xx
So brave, bold and inspiring, you're truly amazing 💖 🌠
But was it "stunning and brave?" Hahah I hope you got that reference. Thanks Caroline!!
The saddest thing about this entire video is that as humans we just want to be accepted by society. I am the mother of a FTM amazing son whom I love to infinity and back. The biggest lesson is to be true to ourselves no matter what we internalize society judging us as....who wants to be boring 'normal' anyway to 'fit in'. Life is an adventure, and we are blessed to be loved by our tribe....but even more blessed to be loved by ourselves for that love is absolutely the most important. Go, have fun, live life, have your adventure....sending blessings and love to you, you gorgeous girl!!
Thank you for sharing your story. That took a lot of courage. You discovered to live your truth. That is not an easy path as your video showed. Be true to yourself. Peace and love.
what a story
you had to go through so much, it all must've taken so much strength
i hope you're doing great now!
I truly am, thank you!!
I have been using the translator to read you and end up crying .. and discovered that you are a wonderful being, that a beautiful story of superation .. good luck in your new way
That's so cool! Thank you!! You're really sweet Siresio, and I'm glad you enjoyed it!!
@@grlbydesign beautiful.you should have been born a female... stunningly beautiful
✝️JESUS IS YOUR SAVIOUR✝️...TRUST ONLY JESUS ... RECEIVE JESUS NOW .... PLEASE ????😥🙏📖♥️🙏📖♥️🙏
@@joannebushberger6883 Jesus was a human like you and I, no more or no less. Natalie has everything she needs, she doesn't need saving or any other claptrap you might spurt from your bible-thumping brain. The only person who can save a person is themselves, by being who they want to be, not what others want you to be. I'm not even sure what you think Natalie needs saving from???
Lots of wisdom here, thank you!
You're welcome!
I am so glad you are on the journey of being the true (not real) you. I wish I could have come out at a younger age, but it took me to 57 and open heart surgery to realize life is short and we need to find our place in this world. If there is one thing I can tell you that I found extremely helpful was my faith in God. He helped me thru so much and I am so grateful for His peace and comfort. If you are still in L.A. seek out Hillsong church it is very open and contemporary and I think this will complete the circle of life for you. I pray God blesses you and keeps you as you travel this wonderful amazing journey. Amen
Beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story. I'm glad you are happy. Much love xx
omg... Thank you for this!
You are beautiful no matter how you look on the outside, be comfortably yourself, it is enough
I cried the whole time. You are incredible!! I'm so so happy for you and admire you so much
OMG you're too sweet!! Thank you so much Hella Joe!! Xx
You are SO strong. I have so much respect for you. You had to go through so much to finally be happy with yourself but I’m incredibly happy that you’ve found that self love. I’m sorry that you had such a difficult time accepting yourself but know that we all love, accept and care about you
What a journey you've had. We are very lucky to be sharing it with you. Onwards and upwards from here. You're now back on the right path xx
CookingwithKarma your beautiful
Hahaha God girl, this path is so much better for me. I'm lucky to share it with you! Xx
Actually very sad.
Jeremy Lee actually it's u that's very sad!
I’m in the same boat, I don’t have any one to talk to about this that had gone threw it. I lost everything and everyone after the reverse, how can I reach you to text you and get some information/idea/help. I used to be Brit, was my former name:..( hope we can chat I love to share my pics with you. I also modeled. Very similar story ✊🏻💓✊🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
omg - if I could like this more than once.
Also, you made me cry.
Everyone has a road to travel to self worth and peace and happiness. The roads are different for us all, I’m so happy you found yours. God bless you Natalie.❤️❤️❤️
So nice to see your story laid out. Sending you love 💕
You are a Beautiful person, inside and out. You’ve shown such much to the world through this video and I wish you nothing but happiness and love in your future.
Thank you so much Arudora, for this very sweet comment! I wish you the same!! Xx
Gorgeous as both male and female. That's a fine specimen of a human right there!
Hahaha thanks girl!!
@Lighten UpFrancis SHUT THE ACTUAL F UP. You're whats wrong with the world.
@Lighten UpFrancis This channel doesn't have any content lol troll.
@Lighten UpFrancis Troll.
Hombre, cuando la gente dice creer ser un gato, un perro o un león, ya estamos hablando de algo muy distinto, ¿no crees? Es más, ¿por qué mezcláis churras con merinas?
Love the line 'I'm still me, but a version I can love.' Man or woman,we all need to learn to love ourselves. So much hate, fear and pain is created by people who just don't love themselves. They muddy the water all round them so you can't see what an insecure person they are. They hurt others because it's all deflection. Live for yourself. You're under no obligation to make anyone else happy.
Thank you so much for making this video it was awesome!
Loved it, will you ever do a video about your ffs?
I think I might. Maybe I can do one with my Dr. I'll have to see what he says. Thanks for the idea.
All the best, everyone deserves happiness in their life.
Yes we all do. Thank you!!
Thank you for posting this. I hope all is well.
Great video. I am happy to see that you are happy, finally living as yourself and feeling comfortable with your body.
I know what you went through and I know it was not easy at all. You have showed that everything is possible if we have a goal and never give up.
Some souls are just Androgynous. No need to define it, it's about embracing both aspects of feminine & masculine energies. I think it's a really beautiful thing to be Androgynous. Surgery isn't really needed, just acceptance of the unique and beautiful soul you are. ✨
Thanks for your opinion. That works for some people, absolutely, but it isn't what is true for me. :)
High Elven Wisdom And Love you obviously don't understand the concept of being transgender. it's BEING THE OPPOSITE GENDER. no feminine or masculine energies, no andogynous souls or whatever the hell you're talking about
Men or woman you are beautiful! In side and out.hope that your happy and living your life to the fullest ♡
just fun there’s so much more to a content life than being beautiful, whether that’s inner or external beauty is totally irrelevant.
No she’s not. Ever heard of gender dysphoria? It’s scientific. It’s where a person is born with opposite brain waves than their physical body. Sure, she is biologically male. But in her brain patterns she is female. Why the hell do you care anyway? She’s happy!
Your inner strength is amazing and you truly are a woman to be admired and a true inspiration xx
Wow. So inspirational. Respect. Best to you in your journey!
Thank you so much!! Xx
You're good looking either way, best of luck to you. :)
That's what I was going to say. Speaking on the strictly physical part, that's when you KNOW you're good looking , when you can look great either way. Must be nice 😁
asherdash12 yeah exactly, if u can look handsome as a man to most people and pretty as a woman to most people you are without a doubt good looking.
You truly are an inspiration. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. Hugs!
You're very sweet, thank you! Xx
Thank you so much for sharing, truly inspiring.
Dear Natalie, your life story is one of amazement! I could not even come close to understand all that you have experienced from the extreme highs to the extreme lows. You are truly an incredible and inspirational person. Thank you for sharing your personal life experiences. Best regards, Steve.
Have you thought about writing a book? You could call it "Amazing Day" or "Oh... What a Day" something like that. You have lived so many lives already.
LOL, I have thought about it, but I wouldn't even know where to begin. I thought about maybe writing a screenplay because I love making movies. Hahaha who knows though, I honestly never thought I'd put any of this out here. Xx
Natalie Day Hmm, why not start with your 3rd beginning (this most recent transition) where you tell us your thoughts and your experiences. Then, you can go back to some of your past, most esp. the struggles while being an "acceptable" male, then to your 2nd beginning (the first transition) and the de-transition where it climaxes. The epilogue would then be your epiphany -- and then, we see YOU, your real YOU, like a butterfly emerging from your chrysalis . You could call it "A Day's Journey." Let me know when it's opening night so that I can buy a ticket.
Trans-tweener
I’d read/watch it.
@@grlbydesign If you do not know where to begin, start with "the".
Im a trans woman who is 3mnths on hrt, your videos have helped me so much and incouraged me to not give up on me and not listening to the naysayers in my life.
Guess you are hell bent on wrecking your long term health. Have fun.
You will NEVER be a female just a female impersonator living a life meant to deceive mostly yourself. Dr. Paul R. McHugh, the Distinguished Service Professor of Psychiatry at Johns Hopkins University and psychiatrist-in-chief for Johns Hopkins Hospital, who has studied transgendered people for 40 years, said it is a scientific fact that “transgendered men do not become women, nor do transgendered women become men.”
I’m so proud of you and thankful for your mission you took soul searching to a whole nother level & meaning thank you for your inner strength & beautiful spirit Happy New Year & beginnings 🎊 beautiful ♥️
Great, you are sharing this with us. Thank you!
You are so bold, so open, so lovely. Thanks for the encouragement about starting therapy last week. It went well, and I was finally able to tell someone (the therapist) bluntly that I am trans without dancing around the subject and interjecting/projecting my fears into the moment. It feels great to feel accepted and safe-to finally be me without the charade. It’s a small step, but I did it. I truly appreciate your openness in sharing your journey and the emotions which accompany it. I feel hopeful today, and will continue to invest positivity regarding the long haul through the days that aren’t so great. 💕
I'm so happy to hear that!! We all deserve to be happy and the only way I know how, is by being who you are. Live authentically! If you need anything else, reach out to me on either IG or email me. Best of luck girl!!!
I love the way you tell your story, the editing, everything, the choice of words, you're amazing 🌻
Thank you so much Adynda!! Xx
Natalie,I’ve followed your posts for several years. You mentioned Dr Ward in SLC did your FFS. Which procedures specifically? Approximate cost? Thank you, Teri
Thank you for your vulnerability. It shines a light for many.
So much emotional and physical pain.
Dont know why RUclips Analytics recommended this for me but did i watch the whole thing.....yes
I won't complain. The algorithm favors me sometimes and I'm glad it was interesting for you. :)
probbaly u gay bro
@@paugasolina5048 you might want to back to school, at least to learn how to spell, probably not though, also comprehension is a good skill to master, understanding what you are reading and listening to, Natalie is a female and therefore cannot be bro...You have neither good manners or decorum. PROBABLY, you should work on this, be a productive contributor to society, as opposed to blurting out complete tosh, amadan.
@@Alexandra_Hill huh? He is referring to Jason Burch's comments
One of the best transformation video's I've watched. Thank you for sharing your story! One thing you did not cover, and I'm sure was very painful, but as someone who grew up in "The Church", I'm very curious how your family took all this. I'm a gay man raised by strict Mormon parents in Salt Lake and I was very fortunate that their love for me was so strong. Thank you again for sharing this Natalie!
Thank You, i needed this!
You are an awesome person.
Thanks Eric!!
Your Modeling pictures are sooooo good!!!!!
Thank you!!! I am so proud of what I was able to accomplish as a model. Xx
I love your story.
You are arriving!
Focus and *love* today because it is a necessary part of a successful tomorrow.
Thank you so much! It's easy to allow life to consume you sometimes, but you're right, I'm arriving. One day at a time. Thanks for commenting!! Xx
I am halfway through and i can't stop crying. You have really come a long way. I am always looking forward to seeing your videos on Sunday. Thanks to them i am trying really hard to love and accept myself more. I am so glad, that you are finally yourself. I see a big resemblence of your story to mine, Wish you only happiness and everyting you wish for ! :)
You're so sweet! I've been struggling to make them every Sunday, because I never expected the response I received and I truly wasn't prepared for it. Good and bad. Keep working to love and accept yourself, every part. Everyone deserves love, and self love is just as important. I'd love to hear how our stories are similar. If you have IG, message me!!
wow! love it is a fantastic life journal of yourself, good luck and keep up going , you look amazing.
That’s wonderful that you’re finally happy and have self-worth again. It sounded like you had a rough ride trying to get to a positive. headspace. I’m sorry 🙁
Always remember...our bodies are just a vessel that our soul temporarily hijacks. No need to change the vessel. Changing your opinion of yourself is much more effective than having an overhaul done. After all, you still have the same sputtering engine underneath it all. Fix the engine (your mind) and you’ll learn to love every asset or flaw that can only be YOU! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL and if someone tries to make you feel anything less, then fuck them...they obviously could use some engine work themselves!!! You are loved by every kind-hearted person (ie: Me) who truly care about this earth, her inhabitants and beyond. Hug the world. We all could use one 🤗
IMHO religion taught us that “ our body is just a vessel that the soul hijacks”. Religions twist things. Our body is a temple that must be preserved in Our Creator’s likeness. Our Creator has no gender. Our Creator is pure love. He wants us to love ourselves and each other. That is why I will not judge the person who made this video. I just can’t bring myself to do this. I see it in their eyes, the pain, turmoil. But, I do not feel pity, because they discovered that gender isn’t happiness. Love is. Happy New Year to all.
Thank you for the video of your life. Life is up and down. Your and amazingly beautiful person inside and out. Your immense strength was also beautiful to see. Live your life, be free! Northern Cal
Thank you for sharing, especially all the stumbling and doubts. You are a very likable person, and I wish you a truckload of happiness. :-)
You're so kind to say those things. Thank you!! Xx
You are beautiful. Inside and out. Do not forget that 💓 thank you for sharing your story! Stay strong 😊
Thank you!! I shan't forget it anytime soon.