Postpartum Depression || My Story

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  • Опубликовано: 4 дек 2024

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  • @brendav5187
    @brendav5187 6 лет назад +61

    "Don't believe everything you think when you're depressed," very wise words.

  • @stacyocharo3068
    @stacyocharo3068 7 лет назад +50

    As a labor/delivery RN, I talk about this topic with each and every one of my patients before they discharge from the hospital. Before I just had a spiel I said that probably didn't really encompass everything about PPD or the severity of it. But now, thanks to you, I will take a few extra minutes to REALLY TALK with my patients and educate them so hopefully more women will seek help and know they are not alone. Thank you for sharing your story. You are making a difference.

    • @jayallen6583
      @jayallen6583 5 лет назад

      Non of my RNs talked about this. It was in a chapter book they gave me to read but it had no where near a description of what I'm going through. I tried to prepare for it just in case but hospitals don't prepare ppl for this at all.

  • @kirstieclay4811
    @kirstieclay4811 7 лет назад +48

    I love this video. This is so raw and real feelings. People don't like to talk about this but it happens everyday

  • @shiiiiaannneeee
    @shiiiiaannneeee 6 лет назад +49

    I’m only 3 minutes in... I feel like this is me making this video. As I bawl my eyes out listening to my story be told by a stranger.

    • @julissac4260
      @julissac4260 6 лет назад

      shianne munro same 💔

    • @TinaMangum
      @TinaMangum 5 лет назад

      I hope that you are feeling better these days.

    • @suzanneemery9100
      @suzanneemery9100 4 года назад

      This was me,everyday I planned my suicide,and in the end I took 3 overdoses,my husband got me better and so did medication,I hope you are enjoying life now,it was the worse thing ever for me!!!!

  • @Wynona1929
    @Wynona1929 7 лет назад +31

    This is how I felt about my baby, I felt nothing. It’s not that I don’t love my own baby. It’s because I just didn’t know how to feel having a baby. I was always angry at my partner! Didn’t want nothing to do with him. Everyday I’m trying to be happy. And I just hope the same goes to every mother out there who is going through postpartum depression. Be strong mamas 😩

  • @petersonhouse
    @petersonhouse 7 лет назад +11

    Julie, you spoke to my heart. I had a similar experience. It's been nearly 6 years and its still so hard to talk about. Thank you for sharing.

  • @PlanningInTheDeep
    @PlanningInTheDeep 7 лет назад +21

    I'm crying watching your video. I fell into deep ppd after my fourth. He's now just about 3 and I still am not the same. But I feel this has changed me for the better.

    • @marielenaclaudio3797
      @marielenaclaudio3797 6 лет назад +1

      Planning In The Deep I suffer from depression and i think its from having my son. I wasn’t the way i am before i had him.

  • @shaunaconnors3799
    @shaunaconnors3799 5 лет назад +5

    My "baby" will be 15 years old in March. I also went through terrible post partum depression. I didnt know anything about it, so I assumed everything I felt after I gave birth was normal. It took an entire year for me to seek help, and that's when they diagnosed me with postpartum psychosis. I was hospitalized for 2 weeks, saw doctors and got on medication. I felt like such a failure. It took 3 years for me to completely come out of it. I was so incredibly lucky to have a supportive husband and family near by to help me through it all. Unfortunately I never did have any more children for fear of suffering from it again. I regret that. Thank you for making this video. I still, after 15 years have guilt about not having that "normal" beautiful connection with my baby. I feel like I still have an open wound that I keep covering up with bandaids, but your words are so healing and its so good to know even now that I am not alone. Thank you again for sharing your story. We need to discuss it more!

    • @tiffanyweber3028
      @tiffanyweber3028 5 лет назад +1

      I am there too. I have one child and I am so scared to have more for the fear of going through it again. God bless us both. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️ my hearts with you

  • @amyhamilton9477
    @amyhamilton9477 6 лет назад +8

    I’m crying while writing this right now. I’m struggling so much right now. I have a history of depression but also drug abuse, I’m clean now and have been since before I got pregnant with my daughter and I always said my depression was drug induced. My pregnancy and delivery with my daughter was amazing, I was on cloud 9, I felt so happy. Then I got pregnant with my son and something changed during that pregnancy and has only gotten worse since then. I LOVE my children so much but I often think how different things would be if I never had my son. I’m always angry and frustrated. I will never hurt my children, I will hurt myself before I would ever harm them, but I yell so much, and in the back of my head I’m telling myself to calm down and it isn’t that serious. My boyfriend (their dad) is so great and so patient with them and with me. I do have some great days but the bad are way more often. Today was a very bad day. I pray so much, asking for help. I’m sorry that I’m rambling but I feel like you would understand. Thank you for telling your story.

    • @mialove9573
      @mialove9573 6 лет назад

      amy hamilton get help if you can. You deserve to be healthy and happy. Healthy and happy mom equals healthy and happy kids😘

  • @khyrievandegrift1163
    @khyrievandegrift1163 7 лет назад +8

    You speak to my soul. I'm not kidding. Thank you for posting this!

  • @NurseLaly
    @NurseLaly 4 года назад +5

    I experienced this and it was a very rough time and experience in my life. I was finally able to tell my story! ❤️ Don’t let depression take over your life! Don’t let it win! We are strong! 💪💝

  • @Renewed85
    @Renewed85 4 года назад +3

    "Motherhood is not the burden I was given. It was the gift I was given."

  • @azharkouz3848
    @azharkouz3848 4 года назад +3

    I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for this video

  • @georgieneathy
    @georgieneathy 7 лет назад +6

    Thank you for sharing your story, you are very brace & should be proud to be able to say you have made your way through it, you will now help many other Mums by talking about it. Much love x

  • @JacieJonesDillon
    @JacieJonesDillon 2 года назад

    This is the best video on ppd I’ve seen. Thank you for sharing. It’s so relatable.

  • @DaisyKindFitMama
    @DaisyKindFitMama 6 лет назад +3

    Thank you so much for your bravery. This topic is so important. I just shared my story yesterday on my baby’s first birthday. It takes a lot of courage and vulnerability to be this open. You are helping other women. ❤️ And that’s how we conquer this terrible subject, together.

  • @homemakingandstuff1468
    @homemakingandstuff1468 6 лет назад +2

    I love this! This is exactly how it was for me. I didn't think I had ppd because I didn't feel anything but anger and guilt towards my husband. I was getting out of bed, so how was I depressed? It took me a year to get help, and I am so glad I did. I now spend everyday helping other women find positivity in life and parenting. Thank you for sharing your story!:)

  • @juliayasa6793
    @juliayasa6793 6 лет назад +7

    I feel your pain. I just had my first baby at twenty-two. As soon as reality set in about the difficulty of raising a newborn I got deeply depressed. It's hard not sleeping

  • @ontim6616
    @ontim6616 5 лет назад +3

    Thank you for telling your story this means a lot to me. I’ve been through ppd

  • @natashawatson6856
    @natashawatson6856 5 лет назад +1

    Thank you for sharing I went through this this past winter and dealt with alone and was in a very dark place not knowing what was happening. Thank you I feel I’m healing from it and getting a real grasp on what it really was.

  • @marial3609
    @marial3609 7 лет назад +2

    Thank you for sharing. I am trying through others' experiences to understand what ppd is as a very close member of my family has it. Thank you!

  • @ericasemenov1702
    @ericasemenov1702 6 лет назад +2

    How wonderful that you share your story. I too went through postpartum psychosis.. going through ups and downs, and after prayer and going to a naturapath all the mental symptoms are gone. However at the time I felt it would never end.. I could not understand for a while why I was feeling odd. There is hope! It takes first realizing there is a hormonal imbalance after birth, and fixing that is the key.

  • @kaymiller4244
    @kaymiller4244 5 лет назад +3

    Thank you for sharing your story I feel like your telling my story my one ended up with a c-section and I lost reality of who I was

  • @morenikeolukoga9814
    @morenikeolukoga9814 7 лет назад +2

    You are amazing, thanks so much for sharing in such honesty. I was with you every step of the way and cried with you at a point. Sending u love. Im dealing with prenatal depression and experiencing a lot of similar thing as u have.. I've finally sought help, but its so scary considering mediciine knowing it does transfer to baby and also would do during breastfeeding. Looking forward to the talking therapy and hope I get better before baby comes

  • @sydneytaylor2680
    @sydneytaylor2680 5 лет назад +1

    had my premie daughter 5 days ago via c section. and this video helped me. Thank you for sharing your story 💙

  • @deboracommins
    @deboracommins 4 года назад

    Thanks for sharing. This is raw and must be shared. Keep strong. You have no idea how strong you are by sharing it.

  • @Breezeeone
    @Breezeeone 4 года назад +1

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. I feel less alone.

  • @jayallen6583
    @jayallen6583 5 лет назад

    Glad you shared your story. I have PPD but felt alone in this, even knowing other ppl have gone through this still makes me feel terrible for not wanting my child the way ik I wanted to when I was pregnant. Just being alone all day with my kid put a toll on me and when my fiance came home I wanted home to watch the kid but I didn't want him to feel burden for something that was my job since he worked all day and he needed rest when he came home... But I couldn't do it. I felt terrible when I realized that it something worse than just normal feelings of experiencing a new baby in my life. I feel ashamed of all of this. I feel even worse for not being able to be active and caring with my child like I knew I wanted to. I still made sure she was taken care of and had what she needed but I missed all of her first coos and her first times she was awake in the day and I hated myself for it. I think I'm not good enough for not being able to be mentally be there for her during the first months like I should/want to be.

  • @Renewed85
    @Renewed85 4 года назад

    Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for being honest. Thank you for having your babies.

  • @jenniferwong1765
    @jenniferwong1765 4 года назад +3

    I went through this with my first son. It was difficult because I felt tired overwhelmed and depressed. I went to the doctor took meds and slowly got better. It was a very difficult time.

    • @anniemulkins6551
      @anniemulkins6551 4 года назад +1

      Medication helps for sure. It was the one that brought my life back.

  • @apiramyjeevan5653
    @apiramyjeevan5653 5 лет назад

    Thank you for sharing your experience! It's so hard to share it even those who are close to you. You are so brave!

  • @Stich_heree
    @Stich_heree 7 лет назад +4

    i was very depressed after giving birth to both of my children. It was worse with my second child....my husband ended up taking me to a psychologist because he was worried about me. that was the worse part of my life.

  • @justjessica7744
    @justjessica7744 3 года назад

    You’re brave. I am a survivor of PPD too. ❤️

  • @carolinep.7580
    @carolinep.7580 7 лет назад

    This is an excellent video. Thank you so much for your honesty! This will help so many people.

  • @lauragramirez7977
    @lauragramirez7977 7 лет назад

    I just wanna say thank u for posting this. I'm glad to hear u r in a better place cause gosh I cried watching ur video. I felt ashamed and just the worst feeling when I heard and seen my baby boy how I always seen the birth stories how the mothers cry and are happy to see their baby. I just wanna wish u the best. I will for sure ask the doctor if I get it this time around. I'm having my baby girl in 2 months and I feel I won't get postpartum this time and I'm scared thou.

  • @stacyhughes4875
    @stacyhughes4875 7 лет назад

    Thank you for talking about this. I love you and all of your insight & wisdom.

  • @Married2wice
    @Married2wice 7 лет назад

    Yup...my first two I instantly bonded during pregnancy. But with my last I had bad prenatal depression. I felt numb my whole pregnancy. It felt as though I was carrying someone else's child.
    It ceased thank God. But it was a horrible dark 8mnts. The idea of running away is very real. So many women don't talk about those shadows that haunt us. I'm so proud of you for standing up for the women who are fearful of criticism during these moments.

  • @angieportes5599
    @angieportes5599 6 лет назад +1

    I love you thank you for sharing! I went through this! Maybe I still am!

  • @BeauTCravez
    @BeauTCravez 7 лет назад +2

    Thanks so much for your story!! It is inspiring

  • @Shapeshifterfilms79
    @Shapeshifterfilms79 6 лет назад

    Beautiful video. You're so strong. Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing. Your video has really informed me.

  • @ellexo5383
    @ellexo5383 7 лет назад

    Thank you for sharing your story, you are strong to do so. I know now that I'm not alone

  • @fraiser3330
    @fraiser3330 4 года назад +3

    This happened to me!
    PURE HELL!

  • @essiejames1627
    @essiejames1627 7 лет назад +1

    I love this video. Thank you for making for it. Xx

  • @erinnrandall7920
    @erinnrandall7920 7 лет назад

    All the love! Just all the love your way. ❤️

  • @stephiedials9363
    @stephiedials9363 6 лет назад +1

    This is the realest video

  • @mayfl0w3r
    @mayfl0w3r 5 лет назад

    Thank you so much for sharing your story!

  • @GeraltOfRivia99
    @GeraltOfRivia99 4 года назад +2

    sry if i sound ignorant but im just not understanding what post partum depression actually is. i have sever anxiety and depression with loops horendous thoughts that make me cringe and i cant work because of it been this way for years but with PPD is this depression of worrying about being a bad mother or father? and ull worry about something like intrusive thoughts of ur kid? not saying ANYONE wants to do this but like hitting ur baby or pushing them down stairs. or is it just that ur now a parent and that scares you having a kid that will be there FOREVER and that kind of attachment forever is overwhelming and you get seriously depressed or anxious? just not familar with PPD i dont have kids thnx

  • @tinareilly1188
    @tinareilly1188 6 лет назад +1

    Almost six years and the dark timès catch up on me but im glad im not alone 💛

    • @violetmushroom6
      @violetmushroom6 5 лет назад

      What? six years? so im going to be this miserable for so long? I wish I never had a baby it destroyed my life...

    • @shiromaniw3527
      @shiromaniw3527 4 года назад

      violet_mushroom All people are different, usually after 6 years you still might have it but occasionally once every year for a week you feel upset, but when they learn how to talk and walk and do stuff on their own, cook, clean, and do chores for you.

  • @swidlefonseca4029
    @swidlefonseca4029 7 лет назад

    Ohhh don’t cry .. I feel sad watching you ..being a first time mom i can understand you .. I feel like I had baby blue for a while no post partum depression

  • @sanjatrifunovic3307
    @sanjatrifunovic3307 6 лет назад

    Poor lady...I really felt for her. I was going through something, but really not word to word at what she is describing. However, for a long time, I would drift between big upset to being a mpty and not inspired by anything. It took some tool on my marriage but we are recovering. I wonder which impact this had on her marriage and hopefully they are a happy family by now

  • @theryanstv
    @theryanstv 4 года назад

    Thank you for sharing your story.

  • @lisamanson4937
    @lisamanson4937 4 года назад +1

    There is a difference between postpartum depression and postpartum psychosis. Both of which should have more attention paid to. I hope you are well now.

  • @kozmaalexandra
    @kozmaalexandra 6 лет назад

    Thank you for sharing your experience!

  • @vanessasanchez5663
    @vanessasanchez5663 5 лет назад +1

    Thank you for this video, I am going thru this now 💔😭 it's very hard. My baby is about 4 months and it's been a struggle this past month. At the moment I'm scared to be left alone or drive.

    • @bm9543
      @bm9543 5 лет назад +2

      Vanessa Sanchez : please be strong and love yourself, I have also gone thru this with both my kids(4)&(2) yrs old. It’s so hard and even harder when We don’t talk about it. My obg advised me to sit out in the sun about 20 min in the am. Sunlight helps w hormone inbalance. It helped me w my first. Try it 🙏🏽 I hope it helps u too

    • @vanessasanchez5663
      @vanessasanchez5663 5 лет назад +1

      Thank you, its not easy to explain. It's hard to bond with my baby :( , I will try the sunlight sitting. Thank you for your kind words! It meant alot. Sometimes I talk about it and ppl look at me like I'm crazy.

    • @bm9543
      @bm9543 5 лет назад

      Vanessa Sanchez/ it truly takes experience to understand this situation, so it’s hard for ppl to relate or be sensitive to us! Don’t let any of this hurt u! Be strong ur amazing, ur body is just adjusting. Ur love and connection for ur baby is gonna get stronger before u know it!! Just be strong take it day by day. Trust me I had been thru it twice like I said before and I just cried when I needed to and hung in there. Ur baby needs a strong mommy because soon he/ she will be looking up to u and it’s just the best feeling!

    • @catherinejones6139
      @catherinejones6139 5 лет назад

      Vanessa Sanchez how are you feeling? X

  • @aarya18
    @aarya18 7 лет назад +2

    I suffer from depression since I have memory... but when I got pregnant 8 years ago everything went so bad for me like I never thought, I still cry sometimes by just remembering how I was with my daughter... And I wasn’t treated until 3 years later! My partner wasn’t a partner, my family don’t “believe” in mentally illness like “depression” so I was alone and isolated...those 3 years were a combination of extreme tiredness and anger, I was emotionally numbed, when I used to hold her and look in the mirror I didn’t recognize myself, I even hated the whole maternity thing and I thought I was a bad person a bad WOMAN. Now I’m pregnant again and I’m kind of terrified because I don’t know what to expect, lucky me my actual husband is so supportive and we are so happy for this baby, so I relay on that joy and try to keep a positive mindset all the time. So as a final note for other moms, personally I just learned to forgive myself to heal that mother pain and guilt, keep my supportive loving ones around me and always ask for help.

  • @supSCUB4ST3V3
    @supSCUB4ST3V3 7 лет назад +1

    Love this.

  • @MARNIE1029
    @MARNIE1029 6 лет назад

    had it with my 4th baby overwhelming. mine is slight. i lock doors and wont my other kids and anybody go in the room. i wanted to rest and rest i was so tired. until now she os 1 yr i have chronic hives for 6 months now

  • @ladonnarogers5297
    @ladonnarogers5297 4 года назад

    Did you ever get that bond with your other two kids? I had a little boy in 1992 and I felt all the love and everything they say you're going to feel and then two years later I had a little girl and I didn't neglect her or anything but I would feed her and change her diaper and then put her down I wanted nothing to do with her then her Dad would come home and hold her and stuff so she still got love just not from me but the reason I asked about the bond is because to this day I have never bonded with her the way I bonded with her 4 brothers

  • @simonewoodley5041
    @simonewoodley5041 7 лет назад

    But how do you get through It I've tried medication it's not helping just keep crying all the time

  • @cmendoza5917
    @cmendoza5917 6 лет назад

    What medication did they put u on?

  • @kamillaiqbal6156
    @kamillaiqbal6156 7 лет назад

    I used to have dreams of giving birth and feeling no connection, like being traumatized of being a bad mom....thanks for sharing ....wow....it made an impression on me and taught me....thanks for this

  • @calmchaos658
    @calmchaos658 7 лет назад +1

    😫 thank you

  • @miriamlopez1969
    @miriamlopez1969 5 лет назад

    Hello, my name is Miriam, I am currently studying psychology in Guadalajara Mexico ... I was wondering if I can your video for my studies here in Guadalajara Mexico, Thank you, Have a Good afternoon..

  • @MotherSheSpoke
    @MotherSheSpoke 7 лет назад +1

    I love you so much.

  • @stasyschneider
    @stasyschneider 4 года назад

    Thank you

  • @smilyblessings1315
    @smilyblessings1315 6 лет назад

    My 6th I felt like this my only boy First Csection than emergency Hysterectomy I was sad and depressed ut not to hurt anyone .He was my only NICU Baby too .So I think all what I went through was what caused mine God was my only help.Motherhood is hard.I never took medicine for it

  • @ranak9115
    @ranak9115 7 лет назад +1

    Same thing what I've been through😢💔

  • @benjisplaylife4296
    @benjisplaylife4296 7 лет назад

    If u dont mind me asking what meds help u im suffering but im scared or medication

  • @ashteregg2133
    @ashteregg2133 5 лет назад

    did you have epidural and gass and air?

  • @0KellieCollins0
    @0KellieCollins0 5 лет назад

    Please come back to your channel. I need you

    • @gtan5509
      @gtan5509 5 лет назад

      I went through ppd. Can I help?

  • @hebahmuhammad8607
    @hebahmuhammad8607 7 лет назад

    Hope ur doing well

  • @vanessagarrard1231
    @vanessagarrard1231 7 лет назад

    💜💜💜

  • @liengthi
    @liengthi 7 лет назад +1

    😢😢😢

  • @vickianapena
    @vickianapena 7 лет назад

    ❤️❤️❤️

  • @Sunflowers739
    @Sunflowers739 7 лет назад

    Did you tell about your problem to your OBGYN or regular physician, because I also feel weard after having birth I'm sad , the first week I was waking up with some kind of panic inside, my blood pressure even went up, but I'm afraid to tell my OBGYN they don't seem to take it seriously. Maybe I need to find a regular physiologist to talk to.,I love my baby very much but I don't feel like a mom I feel weard , I'm afraid it might be postpartum depression

  • @jayallen6583
    @jayallen6583 5 лет назад

    How did you get yourself to understand that it was postpartum and not your brain tricking you?

    • @gtan5509
      @gtan5509 5 лет назад

      I suffered from postpartum. It took 2 months for someone to tell me I had postpartum. I had very high anxiety. I never suffered from high anxiety or had a single panic attack before. My mind would make excuses for why my body was behaving off. For example, I would blame my uneasiness on the noise my children were making, or I was to couped up in the house. My brain felt some peace with an answer but then I felt my panics would become more frequent and I had run out of excuses. I was very fortunate to have my aunt, who not only is a licensed therapist, but actually went through postpartum herself. She helped break down what I was going through and that helped tremendously.

  • @leandreawilliams55
    @leandreawilliams55 7 лет назад +1

    I'm so sorry for women who deal with PPD. I hope that if anyone is dealing with this that they get help immediately. Babies are a blessing and I'm so happy to be a new mommy. Also, breastfeeding gave me such a great bond with my baby and it should be practiced more if possible.

  • @veryhappy4334
    @veryhappy4334 2 года назад

    Maybe going to the hospital is a wrong choice? Why not try the ancient birth tradition?🤔 I watched some clips, some they have rituals before giving birth.

  • @Rana-mc7wt
    @Rana-mc7wt 4 года назад

    I had ppd with both of my boys and they where very different also. With my first I felt like everyone was trying to take him from me and wouldn't expect help. My second baby I was sick, fever, cried all day and felt like a horrible mom to our oldest son. I felt guilty for have a second child when our first was still so young

    • @nildaprensa5085
      @nildaprensa5085 3 года назад

      I feel guilty too . Does it get better? I feel like I’m cheating on my first born.