Autoimmune Disorders Like Mine (Vitiligo) Can Be Activated by Trauma
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Autoimmune disorders (e.g. multiple sclerosis, Grave's disease, lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, and type 1 diabetes) are highly correlated with childhood trauma. Viewers often ask about the white spots on my hands (which also cover most of my face); it's the autoimmune disorder called vitiligo. In this video I talk about what it is and what it's like for me to have it.
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Wow 2 mins in and I'm like um.... hold on... takes 10 photos of white splashes across arms and legs... Omg thank you so much. I had no idea! Another link in the binding chain of trauma, hopefully this new piece will contribute to the chain I rebuild to pull on to pull me out of this hole. ❤️ 🙏
So glad it was helpful!
-Cara@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy ❤️you Anna!!!
My father and I have both struggled with psoriasis (another autoimmune disease). Towards the end of 2020, I had a terrible flare up at the same time I lost almost everything important in my life. I lost my job, car, & dog. It was also the same time I struggled to accept that my bio mother is a toxic person who never loved me the way I deserved. I had huge patches of psoriasis on my scalp that bled often. I would cry as I washed my hair with coal tar. There was not a part of my body that didn’t have spots.
I cut dairy out of my diet, upped my vitamin d and embraced self love & it worked! I’m currently free of psoriasis.
Glad it got better for you. And... I'm so sorry for you loss. I lost my pup too recently, so I share your grief. Also the one about the family stuff.
all the best to you!
I can really feel you. Your story sounds so much like mine. Me too I had a toxic mother (I suspect some low-key psychopathy as she is callous, mean and emotionally abusive in quite a sadistic way). For my entire childhood (until I moved out from my home) I suffered from the "sister-disease" of psoriasis, which is neurodermatities. I don't know which one of the two is worse, they are both horrible.
With me it was so bad, no treatment worked, that I was sent to the Dead Sea (Isreal) for cure treatments several times during my teens. It did help, temporarily, and I made some lady friends there whom most of them suffered from Psoriasis, just like you.
My heart goes out to you. Toxic mothers can do unspeakable harm.
Just like you, I adjusted my diet, embarked on a self healing path and embraced lots Self-love healing techniques, along with daily Yoga and meditation.
I is all about finding our way back home to our precious Self.
For that I am very positive that we will be just fine. As I believe that as long as we gift ourselves the Love we deserve (but where not given when little) our skin will be just fine.
All the best to you!
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I’m so sorry. That’s so much at once to go through.
I’m going trough this right now. Feel like shaving my hair off 😅
I have Alopecia Universalis. It happened after my Mother stopped speaking to me after I had my first child. She was upset that I wanted my Father at the hospital to see his Granddaughter. It stressed me out so badly that my hair fell out and never grew back. That was an incredibly stressful time in my life. This was before I understood narcissism.
😭😭😭 I am so sorry to hear this, I feel for you… my mom has alopecia and my alopecia started after a really stressful event and it was very hard for me because no one was there for me… my body is alive but my soul died so many times
My sister has MS and I believe it definitely came from trauma in our childhoods growing up with the chaos of alcoholism, violence and lack of healthy attachment to our mother who has severe CPTSD
Yes! It is Truama! Great book all about ms from stress. When the body says no!
Stress-Disease connection Gabor Mate MD! A must rezd
I have ms, fibro, ra, thyroid issues, and more.
@@claudiarobinson587 me too Fibro, from mom and dad npd abuse. Ptsd and cptsd
I have MS, Fibro, CPTSD & PTSD
@@cynthiasarah4286 I wish that there were groups like they have with alcoholics anonymous or narcotics anonymous where people like us maybe scapegoat anonymous or toxic family anonymous could link up in our cities with people who we each can understand what the other has been through. It’s not like you can really talk about this with normal people and then if you do they don’t really want anything to do with you because they cannot relate and then they think you’re just drama. When you come from families that are so full of lies and deception especially if you really didn’t know it was happening and then decades later as an adult you suddenly find out through some random event what the truth really was and then you realize your whole life was an entire lie and people that you loved were lying to you the whole time! I’m sure every person in here has a similar story and it would be so great to find a place where we could all connect. Even if it was just like a one 800 number lol. Remember those group phone numbers where a bunch of people could be on the line and everybody could talk together. Great video.
My mother was a malignant narcissist and had severe skin disorders on the
backs of both hands requiring medical treatment and she used it against us: it
was her children, her husband, usually me, her scapegoat. Your video makes
me wonder whether her being so awful to us was stressful. No one else has it
in my family. She was the only one.
I know someone narcissistic with psoriasis. People with these tendencies are traumatised too so they can have symptoms linked to their trauma's as well.
@@Alphacentauri819 that is quite insightful!
@@Alphacentauri819 Thank you for taking the risk (that's how I see it) for presenting a more understanding and less polarising view on people with narcissistic behaviour. While absolutely nothing excuses any kind of abuse or invalidates the suffering it causes, I believe most abusive behaviour has roots in trauma and as you said, comes from a place of deep pain, shame, anger. I really feel sad and concerned when as a society and especially as a recovery community we demonise people and deem them evil and untreatable without understanding or accepting what caused their abusive actions. I think it's a necessary step of healing to be righteously angry at our abusers, and to set whatever boundaries we need to heal and stay safe. However, staying in righteous anger and dehumanising people who abuse prohibits our emotional growth at some point. In my opinion. This has nothing to do with forgiveness, that is a choice everyone must make for themselves, but just understanding the tragic chain of events that is intergenerational trauma and all the different ways it can manifest. Realising the traumatic root of my parents' abusive behaviour, including some narcissistic traits, towards me as a child was ultimately freeing. And yes, for me it did allow a degree of forgiveness to take place. I still have a lot boundaries, but I don't spend energy raging at them in my mind anymore.
My physically/verbally abusive narc mom sent my sister to a dermatologist when the palm of her hand became raw from some type of unidentified rash/eczema. I'll never forget the look on my mom's face when the doctor looked her in the eye and said "It's you." She exploded.
I have 4 autoimmune disorders and I've heard about this phenomena before, but it's reassuring to hear you acknowledge it. Thank you.
It's the truth. I had a psychiatrist that was also multi specialty. She said it was all from CPTSD that occurred from childhood, and 3 other women with the same stuff as me from childhood at my therapists office. Yes it's the truth and you're thoughts are valid.
Research T.M.S. (Tension Myosistis syndrome) that was discovered by Dr. Sarno, a MD who worked with US military veterans at a VA hospital. He made the connection that the mind creates syndromes in the body so that it camouflages issues such as Trauma from the person.
@@nriqueog unfortunately I'm more than familiar with myositis. I'm also familiar with the research out there. My comment was intended to express appreciation for the content creator, especially when the research indicates that an ACE score of 6 or more can take decades off of our projected lifespan.
When I was 14, I woke up one morning and my face was bright red. The skin was incredibly hot, sore and itchy. It was weeping too. It was similar to extremely bad sunburn (but it was winter and I'd barely even been outside!) It stayed like this for about five days, and then the next stage would be for the skin to start drying up.
But my skin wasn't just dry; it would look like scorched earth with huge cracks in it. I could barely open my eyes and could only open my mouth a tiny bit to fit a straw into it for water. The skin was so dry, tight and scaly, I basically couldn't move my face for days.
It would spend about ten days healing from the intense dryness and soreness. But afterwards, I had fresh, gorgeous, new skin (well, only for about a week!).
It was my immune system attacking itself because of very high levels of stress. I never went to a doctor or dermatologist, because I knew straight away that it was a stress reaction and that the only true solution would be to get my stress levels down.
This cycle/occurrence happened 12 times over seven years (during times of intense stress.) It was only when I was able to start putting life and stressful events in perspective that it stopped happening. And it hasn't shown up for about ten years now (although I still struggle a lot with anxiety, I just don't let it peak to the extent it used to.)
Stress is an absolute fucker and will wreck your body if you don't get your stress levels under control. I actually appreciate it happening to my skin, because it was my mind and body telling me "too much! You seriously need to calm down".
It was my diagnosis of an autoimmune disease that led me to finding out about CPTSD, these videos are a life saver
Perhaps this might explain my father’s vitiligo. He rarely speaks of his youth and prefers to avoid it.❤ I appreciate your content.
Yeah look at Michael Jackson
I've never had vitiligo, but myself and my siblings all have stress related immune issues. My brother has a lot of allergies, and his skin gets very itchy and he has to apply a topical cream whenever he gets stressed on his arms and back. Sometimes he describes it as a burning sensation. For me, it's very tied to sugar/gluten consumption and stress. I can eat anything, but if I am stressed, and have a sugary meal, my entire face breaks out in hives. My sister has issues with anything spicy or acidic and stress, but for her it's stomach issues and needing to vomit. Some university could easily do a case study on how children in the same household localize stress in different parts of the body on my family.
Would be a fascinating area of research. Physical problems from lifetime trauma could exhibit in many different systems.
I have hives as soon as my husband comes into the room :(
@@frankydottir8762 😶. Make a plan to safely leave, if you're serious.
i had a very abusive husband in my youngest 20s, and all my vague GI issues went away as soon as the divorce was finalized. There's no way it wasn't trauma-induced!
And I think we've all heard of the man who's chronic back pain went away when he divorced his trauma-inducing wife.
This is interesting and I’ve suspected for a long time that extreme stress placed upon a child causes health issues. During a particularly stressful time as an 8 year old child, I developed eczema out of nowhere. Many traumas later, I developed an autoimmune thyroid disease in my teens. The pointed abuse I received by both parents was almost more than I could bear. I never thought I’d even get to grow up, thought I would never make it through. I sort of grew up. I also sort of didn’t since I have a very childlike mind which was encouraged to inhibit my emotional growth. As a sort of adult, I suffer from 3 autoimmune diseases now. And they never seem to be stabilized. Mental health in children needs to be put at a way higher priority than what it currently is.
Agreed :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
Amen to that last sentence
Thanks for bringing up this topic!
In January 2021 a lymphoma was triggered in my body. Got the diagnosis in March 2021. Yes, I did encounter a lot of stress prior to that, but actually I have been stressed almost my entire life.
The docs told me that I'm way too young for this kind of cancer. I found this diagnosis to be a warning of my soul so I started changing a lot. Still right in the middle of this process, but things are improving.
I have found that my general trauma is being unwanted and rejected a lot of times. I intensely long to be part of a friendly family.. At least I can feel it now.
So where's my tribe? 🙂
Welcome to your tribe!
-Cara@TeamFairy
your tribe is here!
*raises hand*
I'm here
I’m glad to hear things are improving. Stay strong 💪
My ex husband had lymphoma (while we were married). Docs said it would kill him within 10 years. It’s been 15 and they now say he’s cured. I’m glad my daughter has a dad and I got to see that miracle. 🌈
Omg I hadn’t noticed you have vitiligo. I have it too! A couple of years ago it started “blossoming” up a lot for me. I was in full freeze mode at that point, hadn’t yet fully recognized my own traumas and C-PTSD, and was completely isolating myself from the world. I wanted to not exist so badly at that time, but thankfully had a few things I clung to that kept me going, until I finally realized how much I was supressing my emotions and what was going on with me (in part thanks to your channel ♥️).
Anyway-I always thought it was kind of a sadly poetic metaphor. I didn’t want to be alive anymore but couldn’t face that emotionally, and physically my skin colour started disappearing. The body does indeed keep the score and all that.
(It’s much better now when I’m not as stressed all the time, though I know that’s not the only reason symptoms start showing for lots of people.)
I never noticed either, however I have noticed your beautiful hair. 💕
I have an autoimmune disease also (Ulcerative Colitis) which was triggered during a VERY stressful time of my life. I notice stress management is very important for me too.
I also have ulceritive colitis, couldn't get it into remission for years... but I don't think I have any childhood trauma. I think the way my mom treated me was great and gradually became worse and worse. How do I go about researching if I may have childhood trauma if I don't think so in the moment?
Crohn's disease here & same...
@@essennagerry I still struggle with this myself. Both UC and trying to figure out my underlying trauma.
@@Alphacentauri819 Thank you, you've given me a lot to research and also I can maybe see some of this in my childhood and teen years.
Do you think it's possible, specifically in view of what you said, that the avoidance and dismissal of my own feelings is unaware? I don't at all resonate with a desire to avoid or dismiss and I've seen it as my strength to... not do exactly that. But I've been trying to dismiss certain specific emotions or I guess emotional experiences out of conviction, a conviction which stems from how I was taught to see certain things, but that conviction has been transforming.
I really appreciate your comment, thanks again.
@@curiouscat4337 Oh, I wish you all the best on your journey! Don't beat yourself up... after I had been in remission for some time I got this GI virus and weirdly it caused me to have all those UC symptoms back... for a few hours, then I was ok for a few hours, and it went back and forth like that. That contrast made me realize how much more UC affected me than I thought. We get so used to it that we don't even know exactly what we got used to.
Self acceptance with everything about us! I used to dislike my very curly hair, until a friend with even curlier locks told me (out of the blue) that he would love to have hair like mine!
I have wondered about this. My rheumatoid arthritis started surfacing right after I went through a very traumatic divorce. It took me a long time to figure out it was RA, but the beginning of the symptoms was right after we split up and everything happened.
Trauma and a subsequent disease process is not random at all.
For anyone that may think 'BS' about autoimmune diseases being linked to childhood trauma- I've got a 9/10 ACE score and have autoimmune issues- most notably HS. My heart goes out to anyone else in the same situation. You're not alone and support is out there if you need it. It can feel like salt in the wound, battling sickness after going through tremendous adversity but you can have a meaningful life with autoimmune issues, mental illness and trauma. I wish you all well!
And best wishes to you as well!
-Cara@TeamFairy
God bless you.
What is HS?
@@thomasdoyle9748 hidradenitis suppurativa. it’s when there’s inflammation in the body and it creates these pus filled bumps on the skin, usually in areas where it’s easy for sweat to collect. sometimes they can be painful, and different people have different triggers that will cause a flare up.
@@phizzy123 Hope your condition improves.
I am a medical student, ie; I follow all new medical discoveries. My one top recommendation for you if you are worried about your future health is - do NOT drink. Not even one drink a day. Not wine, not beer, nothing. That’s the latest news💕
Thanks for the tip!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I personally think that stress is the no.1 enemy to health. My Spanish friend's grandad lived until the age of 96. He drank, smoked, ate a lot of cured meats etc etc. But one thing he didn't do was stress. He had a carefree attitude to life. And I notice this in myself. When I'm happier and have reduced stress levels, I feel and look healthier, regardless of whether I've been eating junk food or doing enough exercise.
@@charlottetaylor4471 You are right! Stress is a big killer. In fact most people who drink probably do it because they are stressed by life. (It is the last socially acceptable way to do that) But we are not all able to reduce our stress levels.
Sometimes life is just too complicated to avoid stress. For example, this is the second week in a row that my credit card has been defrauded. I replaced it the first time and updated all of the websites that needed it. Now yesterday I have been defrauded AGAIN! So I will throw away more of my time and energy this week to find the source of the problem. No way I can avoid stress.
Dr Gabor Maté is super interesting on the impact of trauma on the development of addiction and chronic illnesses. I am in hospital with a recent flare of my Ulcerative Colitis and listened to one of his podcasts on this subject just last night- he talked about the child’s adaptive focus on other peoples needs in order to have attachment, at the expense of their connection to their own body and later illnesses. Plus having to repress healthy anger in order to be loved. I’m 66 and think this may by a road map to recovery for me. He is definitely worth a listen. I love your work Anna I hope you don’t mind me mentioning Gabor Maté 🥰
You are incredible. The level of information you share so that others can seek to better themselves is beyond what most get in an office. When I was a child, I developed a condition on my arms that was bumpy. The doctors said it was from stress (ptsd to cptsd). My siblings would call it 'The Disease' because we were all kids. It has gone away but there are little scars. The way the body reactions to negative intrusion is incredible.
Thanks so much for sharing!
-Cara@TeamFairy
You truly are a blessing!!!
Stress is so bad for us!!!
I want everyone to heal from the horrible childhood experiences so we can all be healthy 🙏☯️🙏☯️🙏
I’m white, very pale and had a patch of dark skin that would show up on part of my forehead, and extend down the one side of my face. It sort of turned up as you say, except it often faded. I also have celiac and am prone to psoriasis. I didn’t realise it was possibly related to trauma! I’m learning so much about myself and others with cptsd from your videos.
Glad you're learning here!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I had bad eczema growing up, the kind oozing from my fingers, palms, elbows and sometimes my face. Not once was i taken to the doctor, and I faced severe abuse growing up, including being burnt, beaten, tortured etc. I just read an article that eczema is not just genetic or environmental, but autoimmune.
I'm so sorry you had that happen to you, our bodies keep the score.
Me too! My childhood it was the worst!! It just started coming back working on my inner child work with my therapist. I had grown out of it, interesting it is back.. oozinv under my rings, watch, behind my knee, hands.
Sorry to hear that ❤
Thanks again. Add Parkinson's Disease to that list. I carry a lot of guilt/shame for things I had no control over. Corollary of blame? Predecessor of disease, self-attack thoughts? In the 1980s in the SF Bay, I dated a man with vitiligo all over his body, he said it was stress related, he did the treatments, but hiding it took a lot of energy/shame, long sleeves & turtlenecks. Looking forward to the next video.
I have always like the purity and honesty of this channel.Thank you very much Anna. I am myself a physician in fellowship, I got thyroid cancer after a hard time work on icu. I even ended up as a patient with worst situation on icu as a patient due to complications of the operation. I am a CTPSD survivor, narcissistic parents and much drama in my teenage years.
Thanks so much for covering this. a much needed topic. I have no autoimmune disorders. However, I work in healthcare and recently encountered a child with three autoimmune disorders. Yes, reducing stress is vital for me.
I have noticed that whenever my husband starts attacking my personality and criticise me, i start scratching myself and picking my skin. I think it's related to self hatred, i try to remove my "faults" that way. (I should remember - i am enough.)
Good insight!
-Cara@TeamFairy
My Mother had Graves and got treated with radioactive iodine. I developed hypothyroidism and pernicious anaemia which results in stomach damage and Vitamin B12 deficiency. The enterohepatic circulation of Vitamin B12 and re-circulation via bile is poorly understood generally by the medical profession (this is not their fault it is omission or gap in their training), because of this it is often under treated. I was fortunate to find the Pernicious Anaemia Society here in the UK and to then see a Professor of Neurology who then looked at the information I had gathered and contacted other medical and scientific colleagues. It is a real blessing to meet someone at that level in his profession who admits he is not an expert and is willing to learn from an ordinary not medically trained individual.
I now self inject Vitamin B12 twice per week.
Trauma really impacts as much on physical health as it does mental health.
I have endometriosis and I have had 12 surgeries due to the disease. Revisiting trauma and/or stress gets my IBS flared. The New York Times wrote a new article on this painful disease. The medical community is discovering endometriosis, most patients to have to physical and/or sexual abuse in their background.
When I was 14, I woke up one morning and my face was bright red. The skin was incredibly hot, sore and itchy. It was weeping too. It was similar to extremely bad sunburn (but it was winter and I'd barely even been outside!) It stayed like this for about five days, and then the next stage would be for the skin to start drying up.
But my skin wasn't just dry; it would look like scorched earth with huge cracks in it. I could barely open my eyes and could only open my mouth a tiny bit to fit a straw into it for water. The skin was so dry, tight and scaly, I basically couldn't move my face for days.
It would spend about ten days healing from the intense dryness and soreness. But afterwards, I had fresh, gorgeous, new skin (well, only for about a week!).
It was my immune system attacking itself because of very high levels of stress. I never went to a doctor or dermatologist, because I knew straight away that it was a stress reaction and that the only true solution would be to get my stress levels down.
This cycle/occurrence happened 12 times over seven years. It was only when I was able to start putting life and stressful events in perspective that it stopped happening. And it hasn't shown up for about ten years now.
Stress is an absolute fucker and will wreck your body if you don't get your stress levels under control. I actually appreciate it happening to my skin, because it was my mind and body telling me "too much! You seriously need to calm down".
.When the body says no. by Dr Gabor Maté is a great ressource to understand how chronic stress can affect the auto immune system (I'm looking forward to reading his new book that seems more focussed on trauma) ! The science is getting clearer that there is little to no "woo woo" about that relationship :)
You are not only full of great information, you are a really sympatica person.
For all vitiligo people: a friend's dad who is from India has it and if he eats a ton of beta carotin (carrots etc) daily, the spots reduce and go away almost completely. Maybe this helps anyone. ...And just to let you know my personal view: i think it looks interesting and beautiful 😄
Love you Anna you are beautiful like an angel ❤ 😍 after leaving a horrifically depressing situation[orphanage/ neglect/ narcissistic abuse] my heart/lung/eyes/digestive issues started to slowly resolve and my graves disease is currently in remission . Exercise , healthy food/sleep plus your videos have saved my life ❤🙏
I had horrible allergies and asthma as a child. Moving out at 18 to escape I soon learned that I wasn't constantly miserable with allergy symptoms even when I forgot medicine. Assuming I kept a cleaner house than I ever grew up in and had no pets I assumed it was that. Years later main allergies I should have still had are gone and my therapist told me she's found that a lot in her trauma practice. That the constant stress response causes inflammation and symptoms and that blew my mind because there were a lot of illness and symptoms I had never attributed to my childhood and that environment
I've had semi constant trauma my entire life that was minimally recognized. My mom tried her best but she was exhausted, and dealing with her own past trauma growing up as well as trauma from her relationship with my dad. She never really saw the other things because she was focused on preventing the same trauma she grew up from happening to us. It kind of worked. But she missed so many others because they looked nothing like hers.
I have been acquiring different health issues my whole life. 2 are autoimmune suspected. Every condition needs daily meds to maintain a mostly healthy normal balance in my body.
My dermatologist called last week to confirm another problem and was surprised when I just shrugged and said ok, thanks for telling me what's going on. She was expecting more emotions I'm sure. But I'm at a point where it feels like what difference does yet another health condition even make at this point. Especially when basically every symptom from it was already covered by the other conditions which is why this one was missed for so many years.
It's fear driven behavior. Check out this free course bit.ly/38JfzK1
-Cara@TeamFairy
I have Behcet's disease and it's been a struggle to get back my feelings of self worth. Self esteem has been difficult for me for most of my life, but there are a lot of things I depended on, being physically capable, creative ability, my appearance, that are so much harder now. Not being able to do things I enjoy for weeks at a time, trouble working, that feeling of lost time, seeing what steroids have done to my face are a huge emotional drain. It's definitely connected to stress. My worst flares have always happened after intense stress. I look back on my twenties and the things I put myself through because I thought I had to instead of appreciating where I was at. And of course the disease itself is so stressful and can eat away at your control. It's hard to extract yourself from bad situations when you literally can't walk away. Even when I feel okay it's like being stuck waiting for the next disaster to hit. Not exactly where I intended this comment to go but I guess I had to get it off my chest.
Glad you got it off your chest :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
Thanks for sharing. I never noticed your hands. I have a good story on your ACE score from a former student. She took the ACE test with a family doctor and upon learning that she scored 8/10, she said - ‘so I passed the test?!’ She shared this in class discussion and it really put us all at ease. Such a great way to turn a negative into a positive.
That is awesome!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I have vitiligo on my hands too!
I'm the only one in my family with this decease.
It started in 2014, when I decided to make drastic changes in my life. At that moment, I was feeling very ashamed about my past and wanted with all my heart to be a better version of myself.
When I received the diagnosis, I felt punished by the Universe (like literally)... 😔
I wanted to be an high school teacher and I was sure that the kids would find my hands disgusting.
8 years later, I've worked alot on my self confidence and my self-worth.
I'm now an high school teacher and my students often tell me how they think my hands are beautiful! I think so too 🙂
** I also have a big sensitivity with gluten and lactose.
** English is not my first language!
Appreciate you sharing!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Two weeks ago, I thought I had this revelation. And now you are talking about it. I have it on my lips and it’s caused by anemia that I had in childhood
Glad you found the video! -Calista@TeamFairy
I think we all see how childhood trauma magnifies certain conditions, we of a certain age also were at the beginning of a ramping up of childhood immunizations. It's just increased exponentially & this far, attempts to truly & honestly assess their impacts have been essentially disallowed. It's time to have this discussion IMO
The rate of Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS) went down during lockdown, perhaps because children weren't being injected.
I've had psoriasis on my scalp and anxiety and panic disorders, fear, claustrophobia, clinical loneliness. But I take good care of myself. Diet and sleep, changing my thoughts when they want to go negative I don't allow them to settle in. Also not to worry about being in trouble when I disagree with someone or an organization. I may get cancelled most recently when I had a view on a particular scripture as my interpretation was different. It's not a deal breaker but to them it seems so. I should have kept my opinion to myself. But now I must stand on my feet and be me with dignity and integrity.
Anna, your hands are unique and that in itself is beautiful. I’m not sure why I was surprised to learn from your website that PID can also be connected to C-PTSD. Although it’s not an autoimmune disorder, looking back at life, I see how shame from abuse played out the tragedy in my body.
It's amazing how it is all connected.
-Cara@TeamFairy
Autoimmune disorders stem from trauma bc our dysregulated nervous systems produce constant ‘fight/flight’ chemicals, over-working our immune system keeping it ‘on’ and in turn, breaks down our ability to fight and protect our internal systems with our natural abilities. Staying regulated, or in parasympathetic state, is the best remedy.
I love the skin on your hands, it looks so unique/makes you look unique! Once I fell in love with a guy who had purple spots on his face, they were large and kept changing over the time, I don´t know if it is the same condition but I find it really unique!
I have vitiligo, other issues. Cptsd. Healing day by day. Your a beautiful woman crappy childhood fairy. 🧚♀️ 🧚♀️ thanks for your openness sharing your life with us all. I don't feel so alone.
Thanks so much for sharing!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Most people think Michael Jackson lightened his skin to become white, however, he started skin dying because he had a serious case of vitiligo and wanted to lessen its affects on his appearance. I can only assume it was caused by the incredible trauma of his own abusive childhood.
I never noticed yours....but I have it too . I don't let it bother me , but some people can be so rude..I don't let them bother me either ! ☺
I got the book: The Body Keeps the Score. I'm eager to start reading it as it was recommended to me by several people.
It's very good. I'm currently reading Gabor Mate's "Myth of Normal" (which is pretty similar to "The Body Keeps The Score" actually). There's also "The Boy Raised as a Dog". All similar books.
Thank you for sharing. I have Vitiligo on my hands, elbows, feet, knees, and part of my face. I have olive skin so it’s more noticeable in the Summer months. Mine started when I became pregnant and it got progressively worse throughout the years. I agree that stress is a big factor. When I’m stressed, I get additional patches on my skin. I use makeup or tanning lotions to camouflage the vitiligo but it doesn’t last and it stains my clothes. I am trying to have a different approach and try eating right, increase my walks, and enjoy life.
I have just recently come to terms with likely dealing with cptsd and this further drives the point home as I developed vitiligo and chronic eczema 1-2 years ago. I'm 35 and it is surreal to just figure this out since ive been treated for severe depression and adhd since age 7. Ive even had an early childhood memory resurface after a breakup with my alchoholic and possibly cluster b ex. Thank you for your content, it is helping me make sense of what feels like a reemergence and untangling of trauma induced thought patterns.
Also, I tell people that a journey into the abyss brands those who survive it. Maybe that's a little self congratulatory, but I think there is truth in it and look at them as something to be proud of. Not the trauma, but the resiliance it took to not give up
I know that MJ grew up in a very abusive and stressful household (there was physical and sexual abuse in the household per his accounts and his sisters' accounts). I wonder if this was a trigger for his vitiligo.
I've wondered that too.
Oh Michael Jackson? So interesting to realize that.
He & I were born in June of 1958. I loved him as a young performer but of course figured his life was better than mine. Turns out, neither of us was growing up with love. Such talent & such a troubled person.
Imagine everyone knowing who you're talking about just from initials.
My sister in law has vitiligo. Her brother recently died at 42 after having suffered from a range of autoimmune diseases. They had a rough childhood, their father is a terrible bully.
A couple of months after my daughter’s wedding (abusive ex and his wife attended) I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis.
I never realized there was a correlation. I have vitiligo on my back & also another autoimmune disease.
Traumas on the body....like being injected with foreign substances that can cause brain inflammation, as well as inflammation all over the body can cause all autoimmune diseases. They are listed as side effects on CDC website.
But we are not allowed to talk about these kind of traumas by a system that perpetrates it.
Yep
Yes, full body rash happened to someone I am close to after injection. I will never forgive the idiots who pushed this.
I have it on my private parts as well as underarms. Over 20 years ago my love relationship saw this and freaked out. Thought I was gross and contagious. She left. I was mortified and humiliated. I will never have or know a intimate relationship ever again. Also dealing with c-ptsd and bpd.
Honestly I think that was an extremely rare reaction. I can’t imagine other people reacting like that. Most people would be totally neutral.
@@sunnygirl9691 Easy for you to say. You weren't there. Could never experience that again.
Thanks for sharing
-Cara@TeamFairy
@@stevensawyer5924 of course that was horrible at the time because of that kind of reaction. I totally understand. But from a distance observing it, I can see that she was a nut job. NOT YOU regardless of even if it was rainbow!
Hi Steven, try again. Not everyone feels that way about birthmarks and body uniqueness. Not only that, here in NJ there is a place called JonJon tattooing and you can get it covered if you like. They do private areas. You can also use spray tan. Open up to the world, it’s here for you! ❤
Interesting . And Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue. EFT (emotional freedom technique) helps !
I was curious but thought it rude to ask. I had severe acne and had taken all treatments to save my once supple skin by a teenager. I used to so obsess about how my volcano zits appeared and took up binge drinking ( luckily I managed ok) and pot thanks to my sister. It helped that I was so into the hippie scene that my long hair covered a lot! Kids didn't dare fuck with me only rarely. I made it through highschool with no fights. My dad side of family had this condition so it's hereditary.
Also developed psoriasis pretty bad on my elbows and some other places 🙄
Luckily the latter ailment is easily controlled by ointments. I still get a small patch of it in weird places!
Both of them are known as autoimmune diseases, the body can be one hell of a bitch sometimes!
Hang in there, fellow X smoker ( 37 year habit, product of the Seventies)!
I think a lot of us took up smoking to feel better and look cool, but it really is hard on you. Glad to be cig free 7 years now!
You remind me of Diane Keeton. Have u been told that?
I am healing so amazingly from autoimmune. Feeling so much better. I started eating carnivore Sept 26. zero sugar for first time in my life for 6 days now (I used chocolate chips to help me step down from sugar). A lot of the problems are diet. And yes, I am severe CPTSD also. 100% on the checklist and having a pretty dysfunctional life. But now I have the lion diet and childhood fairy I am starting to have more hope.
So glad you're feeling better.
-Cara@TeamFairy
you are a true gift, thank you for sharing all these things with us.
Yes. Also look at a copper/zinc imbalance. If you supplement w zinc, stop for awhile.
Stop! It's rude and condescending. I bet she tried everything as I did when I got it.
@@Ammaall_7 I'm sorry if I appear rude or condescending. My son's vitiligo was helped by this and I would have been glad if someone told me to try.
Just to clarify, too much zinc causes immune problems? x
Yes bless you. I have auto immune disease. I have had MERSA 3 times. Gone blank with Sepsus. I take methotrexate to control the disease. Yes The stress makes life difficult for me. Later.
I was emotionally, verbally, mentally, and physically abused by my stepdad during preteen and teen years. My real dad left when I was five years old, and other trauma occured during my childhood too.
I have experienced pain in my neck since childhood, and have no memory of when I wasn't feeling fatigued, and some sort of pain. I thought everyone had some sort of level of pain and fatigue... I didn't know I was different until I was diagnosed. I also thought the pain was due to damage done during the abuse, especially since my stepdad spanked me with a wooden paddle with holes. It took YEARS for proper diagnosis. I experienced on and off severe pain since high school (mid to late 1990's), became chronic pain at age 32, properly diagnosed at age 42.... Started taking Immunosuppressants for the autoimmune disease, aaaand then covid pandemic began....
I have been diagnosed with Ankylosing Spondylitis, Fibromyalgia, Congenital Cervical Spinal Stenosis, bilateral Carpal Tunnel and Cubical Tunnel syndrome, Osteoporosis, C-PTSD, anxiety and depression. The only way I have been able to manage is with stretches, exercise, diet, meditation, supplements, radical acceptance, and pharmacutical medication including Immunosuppressants. Taking immunosuppressants places me at high risk of covid.... However, I rather take immunosuppressants/Biologics than being in tons of pain, and hardly functional. Taking medication to slow down the disease, and have my spine not fuse, sounds pretty ideal to me! It has been an interesting year. Sticking to Boundaries, Radical Acceptance. 💙
There are models that have dark skin with vitiligo. It is beautiful.
Yes! There was one girl was on America's Next Model. I'm a Black woman and I have it too. It started in my 20s. I have CPST stemming from childhood trauma
I too have vitiligo, and more surprisingly, no family history of it, or any autoimmune disorder that we know of... so it's really an oddity and a sign that my stress and trauma was pretty real. It was also something that started cristallising my decision to go no contact with my narcissistic father, of all things. When I messaged him that I found out that I had it, just to ask if he or anyone on his side of the family had it, he immediately proceeded to tell me to cover it with makeup. He hadn't even seen what it looks like (I live abroad and have a pale complexion to begin with, so it barely shows in pictures), didn't even ask how *I* feel about it. In fact I did answer I am fairly comfortable with it honestly, I think it can be pretty, I kinda like the idea of having a unique pattern and intend to own it, and he still kept insisting that I put on make up. It sounds pretty mild, he'd said and done much much worse in my childhood, and I'd already started learning and understanding my childhood trauma, but I dont' know... maybe because it was something about me that 1/objectively really had zero impact on him, 2/he had zero knowledge or legitimacy talking about, and 3/could ironically be the result of the childhood *he* inflicted on me and my family... it was an "oh" moment for me.
It is also common to get this due to stress from trauma and being around toxic people.
Granuloma annulare (gran-u-LOW-muh an-u-LAR-e) is a skin condition that causes a raised rash or bumps (lesions) in a ring pattern
We had a mail delivery person, pretty young woman with pigmentation patches.
You are such a beautiful person inside and out! Thank you for being so open and transparent 💕.
My daughter got vitiligo at 13… she was traumatized and traumatized again by having vitiligo
That is so young!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Winnie Harlow is a Black model with vitiligo.
And she's gorgeous!
Omgosh we have the same 2 disorders too! Wow! I'm learning so much from you. Thank you❤️
Glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy
I have cptsd and got allergies in my teens but when my eupd partner died a few years ago I got hyper thyroid and diabetes and was really ill, I found the autoimmune diet by Dr Amy Myers and I have been following it for a few years, I have no symptoms of any of the conditions anymore so even though the diet is difficult to stick to I will keep doing it
your so right ,I have lupus (sle) was diagnosed at 32 I'm now 53 🙏🏼💖🌈
I developed a food allergies in my 20s because of stress. I miss nightshade veggies :(
I don't know, but... I have a feeling it will get better with something as simple as being as gentle with your skin as possible, as I see this being affected by stress. I myself got epilepsy when I was 21, all of the sudden as I was forcing myself to make an apointment with my trainer, and was not in ballance for it at all that day. Everything I'm doing in a gentle way, keeps me calm & that has great affect.
i just developed rosacea 8 months ago when i left my husband; its a facial skin rash that is also auto immune and triggered by stress among other things
Thanks for sharing :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Exactly! Here's my array: rosacea, eczema, IBS, and the very rare autoimmune progesterone dermatitis. Interesting allergies to foods and substances along with fibroids are also the added seasoning to this melange.
I love to hear you talk, your knowledgeable calm voice is such a comfort! Thank you for sharing with us.
Oh thank you!
It's so helpful to hear about your personal experiences with auto-immune disorders, thank you. Wanted to mention that there's no Healing Shame video showing to click on.
The video is there now. Thank you!
I've had worsening hyperpigmentation for the last three decades. My husband used to force me to take our young son outside midday even though I already had severe hyperpigmentation by then. At the pool, where he insisted I take our son regularly (I also hate and fear water), one of the other moms, right in front of my son and a hundred other people yelled out, "Ohh my God, Amber. What happened to your face?!?!?!!!!!!!!" (Thick tinted sunscreen could no longer hide it.)
I'm getting hot and flushed just recalling it and it happened over ten years ago. 🙄
Since then, I've finally been diagnosed with acquired porphyria. Interesting how bc of it my husband could no longer force me to go out into any sun whatsoever, including his beloved vacations at the Jersey shore 🙄, much less high noon on our own patio.
So though significant trauma long before I met my husband started it all, it never hit me until this moment. My body moved into its own stages without my conscious awareness to "protect myself" from what I was being forced to do. 😂 Good for me in a very weird, sad way.
He's learned his lesson the hard way when my body finally collapsed totally the last several years and he finally doesn't do that kind of thing any longer.
I'm also crawling back out of this pit with the help of Anna and an awesome trauma therapist. 👍👍👍👍👍
Thank you so much for talking to us Anna and for listening to us and giving us all our voices and for teaching us to begin to love ourselves for the first time ever. 💞 You are awesome. Truly awesome.
Thanks for sharing your story! So glad you're here, we're all rooting for you :) -Calista@TeamFairy
After a specifically traumatic family experience with my x and my son, I had onset of Bells Palsy and Dyshidrotic Excema....The acupuncturist I sought for Bells said she felt it was directly related to stress.
Wow , I noticed your vitiligo in the last video too. I also have it. I had eczema really bad in my teens and was told it was my diet. I was very stressed in my teens. Nasty abusive mother etc etc. Eczema went away in my 20's when I was happily married and living a long way from my demanding parents. Now I am back with my parents caring for my elderly father and dealing with mum who's up to all her nasty old tricks. I noticed the vitiligo appear on my hands in the last couple of years and also heart arrhythmia that I now have medication for. I didn't know vitiligo was an autoimmune disorder. My skin is very pale so I only see it in the summer and need to be carful I don't get sunburnt but I don't mind it.
Autoimmune disorders are attacking your body's tissues. I have hasimotos thyroiditis, which is the number one cause for hypothyroidism or underactive thyroid stimulating hormone. I am blessed enough to still have a normal thyroid functioning level considered a euthyroid state. I hope I am saying this correctly, because this is my understanding. But it causes me to have chronic hives or urticaria from a delayed pressure response to pressure on my skin. I have dealt with self hatred most of my life as long as I can remember but I do believe it's directly related to chronic stress from cptsd that was undiagnosed and occurring over time from the age of five until just a few months ago I realized I have cptsd. (self diagnosed) What I have is the opposite disease that Anna has mentioned, she has Graves disease or overactive thyroid functioning. I believe.
Thyroid problems are also linked to gluten intolerance.
Thanks for sharing!
-Cara@TeamFairy
What is important is your work. I know from personal experience. You are beautiful in what you do.
At the age of 6 I had Henoch-Schönlein Purpura, at 25 I got Basedow/Graves disease, at 40 Lichen planus. Now, being 43 I am affected by Post/Long Covid Syndrome. Meanwhile, I am aware that people with CPTSD tend to get autoimmune diseases, and apparently, people having autoimmune diseases (i.e. chaotic, misled or overreacting immune system response) are prone to developping Long Covid.
I have CPTSD. My score is pretty high. I’m 66. I came down with RA when I was 59. I had a breaking up of my relationship and divorce during that time period, which I think triggered it. It’s interesting to know that so much of auto-immunity is caused by childhood trauma. I also had two different bone fracture episodes and plantar fasciitis during that time. Quite stressful! Thank you for all you do!
Gabor Maté believes it, too. That autoimmune disorders are directly linked to CPTSD
I have bad eczema now at 26. I remember as a kid every doctor I ever went to would be give me suggestions on lotions and told me I’d outgrow it. I was living in abuse and neglect, I didn’t know it was because of the daily stress, and so never “outgrew it.”
Appreciate your video, xx
When you have one, they have more friends like lupus...... and
Sjogrens, another autoimmune deasae, and lichen sclerosis!!
Flares up due to stress,
Much love ❤ much love to you and all x
Not to minimize in any way, but I find vitiligo beautiful, disease aside. Like your immune system is turning your skin into an unfolding mural 💜 I think Gabor Mate has a pretty convincing conceptualization of how our traumas produce physical illness, definitely including our increased rates of autoimmune disorders. I finally started trying to heal and not just cope when I realized the importance of all the non-psychological factors in healing. It can't all be counseling and intellectual efforts, your body and spirit were also affected and contain so much wisdom about your healing and wholeness. I'm trying to learn how to value & not punish or ignore or escape my body, partially because I know I will continue to be physically ill as long as I'm living this destructive self-denial dynamic I developed in an abusive childhood. I have to say the prevailing culture is blatantly wrong about denying and disciplining yourself when you happen to be a person suffering with CPTSD. It has to be about honoring your physical self, re-regulating so you can feel safe being fully present in your own skin. We can't afford to be harsh or critical of the last warning system many of us have. It's too easy to poison your own mind convincing yourself of some crapfitting b.s. but if your body is poisoned, it will let you know! I really feel so much of it is a matter of being safe and healed enough to even hear or understand the body's messages. I'm not worried about my inner child, I'm worried about my poor inner guts that have been dealing with my anxiety and panic for 40-something years just trying to do their job😂
It's wild to me that people still don't understand that the body holds onto trauma. EVERYTHING is connected.
Exactly! -Calista@TeamFairy
Get well soon Anna. My prayings are with you
I'm not sick in any way!
Thank you for bringing this up! I wanted to do some research into this and needed somewhere to start.
Glad it was helpful! -Calista@TeamFairy
Always honest Anna! ❤️
Wow. Thank you. I had no idea it was an an autoimmune disorder. I just realized I have it too, but just on my knees, elbows, and like you the ends of my fingers.
Thanks for listening!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Boiled onions once a day is a natural proton pump inhibitor. (GERD relief)
Boiled onion needs to be consumed like that? Can you please explain?
Yes, please explain? I’m very curious✨
I knew a man that had Gerd before meds were available. (proton pump inhibitors) He was seriously considering taking his own life due to the pain and burning of his esophagus. He was in pain if he ate. He was in pain if he drank water. He was in pain if he didn’t eat or drink. He was always miserable. Someone told him to try eating boiled onions. He kind of freaked out and said that he had eaten fried onions and and the heartburn was so awful he wanted to die! His friend said, “ boiled onion would not be the same as fried onions and he should try it. He tried it, and it changed his life. From then on he ate an early lunch of boiled onion and his raw and damaged esophagus healed. He had to eat the boiled onions every day, but it saved his life. I think that the boiled onions must have acted as a natural proton pump inhibitor. His quality of life was returned and he did not commit suicide.
I have Hashimoto’s, RA, psoriasis, and cPTSD
You are so gorgeous that I haven't noticed it before :-) I also have an auto-immune disease and had childhood trauma. Your videos and prayer helps me to heal, so thanks x
I have this all over my body, it came on about 30 years old.
Thanks for sharing!
-Cara@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy
Just a note to say my childhood was also not good, I hate myself most of the time, every relationship and job fails, and I really enjoy your Chanel, you make a lot of negative stuff make sense, and it’s nice to know there are a lot of folks in the same boat as me, Thanks!
I never noticed it.