Chamber Of Reflection - 0:00 Space Song - 4:23 Vanity - 10:20 It's Not The Same Anymore - 15:47 Mr. Loverman (slowed) - 22:19 Drunk - 26:38 The Loser (slowed) - 35:11 No Surprises (Remastered) - 37:31 These songs go really well together. Thanks for the music, m8.
Last year My best friend of 7 years just told me all bad things possible, not just me, but to all people around her, and the reason? Drugs and a girl that just fuck her life and she thinks that she is good, I miss when she was a good person, but what I can do? People change, some become better and others don’t
@@skapinho the mom of my best friend was crazy and told me i cant be friends i with him and then blocked me in whatzapp then my bestfriend unblocked me and told me bunch of bad stuff and switched to his mom side.
“I’m alone again” is what I keep saying to hide the guilt that I always push my friends away. It’s never not my fault, I’m a liar, hypocrite, bad child and annoying person. I can’t deny this, I’ll keep living. But, it’s not like these things will stop haunting me. Never. Ever. Thanks for reading, I needed to vent here. 🙃
I understand.. you can’t help it. It’s a mental disorder but there will always be SOMEONE who will accept you for who you are.. that someone will come soon❤️
It's completely normal to have moments of self-doubt and push people away when you're going through a tough time and although your past might be haunting you, it doesn't have to control your present or future, you can explore ways to heal and move forward and keep in mind that self-compassion is key! Progress may be slow, but each step forward is a victory
Sometimes I feel like it's always my fault, too. At least that's what my "friends" always say... but where it supposedly was my fault I was just trying to live and be happy and I never realized that they saw so many issues with who I am... I just wanted to be their friend but I was never an equal to them.
I feel like I’m always on self-destruct mode but am surrounded by distractions so I can ignore that part but when someone triggers me even though it was unintentionally my mind goes on loop of all my guilts regrets an insecurities and how much I want to disappear
I relapsed yesterday, after staying clean for 3 months. I texted my boyfriend, and he was over at my house before I knew it. He helped clean up my cuts, and he cuddled with me until I fell asleep. I wouldn't trade him for the world, he's always there for me when I need him. Even though we've only been dating for a little bit, he's the best person. I lost my last boyfriend to suicide, and I met my current boyfriend when I needed him the most. He's the kindest person, and I wouldn't trade him for the world. I love you, Leo
I'm glad you have someone like that man, keep Leo close to u /gen :] obviously you know life throws a shit ton of curveballs, just know everybody's proud of u for keepin ur head up and trying. You're doing so amazing :] --someone who relates to ur situation ❤❤
thank you. This really helped. Last night, i almost committed, but i couldn’t. My sister walked into my room, she had trouble sleeping. Then i realised, i was one of her parents. I did help raise her, and even though i’m the oldest it wasn’t my job to. She needed me as much as i needed her. I cried while holding her as she slept in my arms. This helped me understand why i’m here ❤
Keep up your hard work, I promise it's worth it :) imagine how many lives have you made better just by little by simply being there You're such an amazing individual with so many perfect colours to show off to this world
@abase hey if you ever need to talk to some one i am here kid 😅i can sleep ever so just @ me and i will reply i don’t care deal with the same thing as you kid and as my favorite sing said “we still happy your here” -lizzo ❤i am here for you kid
@@SirRushin Hey, that's okay. Feeling or not feeling at all. It's probably all within us, we just got to search deeper. But you're doing well, okay? And keep doing so. We're proud of you and you're loved
Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUG YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words :) Until tomorrow, my friend :) [ not by me, spread awareness, have a nice day :) ]
I got kicked out of school and sent to alternative school for something I said no to. I’ve struggled throughout the summer through trying my best to stay positive, the other night I almost committed. I’m lucky to still be here after what happened, I want others to hear my story, and others who have gone through this maybe themselves to know that everything will be ok, you just have to keep pushing on , I love you.
It hurts me too mom...it really does, not only her but me too, I've hidden my pain in front of you many times but when i hear you say "she doesn't care much since she's the youngest" no, i just didn't let you guys see me breaking down but that has made me even worse when i hear that I'm just happy without understanding our situation, you don't even know how much I've given up because I don't wanna trouble you and how much i was humiliated. Just for you mom. I just wanna say it all out to her but then i realise she won't understand any of it.
This reminds me of my 2nd grade year. the year I started to get bullied for my weight, my body shape, how much I would eat, etc. It was so bad to the point I was already thinking bad things about myself when I was barely 8-9 years old. I still hold a grudge about that year. I still get bullied today and I’ve become more aggressive bc of my parents. I don’t know if I’m mentally I’ll, I feel depressed, stressed out, emotional, angry, rage, drained, etc.
i must admitt, it was nice to finally cry for a while. Thank you. Two days ago i almost committed by hanging myself. When i jumped up from the chair, and was hanging there for a while. I passed out. I woke up at the hospital, with my mom beside me. She looked at me. I remember she began to cry. It was my first time seeing her cry. It took one day before i woke up. When we went back to our house. I went straight up to my room. I tried to committ again. And here i am in the hospital once again. Failed. Once again. One thing is for sure. Even if you feel alone. Tired. Just completely out. You will never be the same if you try to committ. Even if i did it. I dont recommend. But even if you say "yeah but im so tired and like EVERYONE hates me.." well then do something about it?? Ik that you maybe are tired. Stressed. And maybe even uncomfortable with people. But you gotta do something! Live your lives, have fun. You only live once. And I only regret one thing. And it was that i just gave up. Well, thank you for making this masterpiece. Hope everyone is having a great night/day.
I'm happy your here. You're doing absolutely amazing. I wish you nothing but joy and peace in your future. Thank you for being brave enough to share your story. 💜
I'm proud of you it's okay if you relapsed you have come so far I am so incredibly proud of you keep your head up you got this you are a wonderful human being it's okay if you want you can vent here or if you just someone to talk to that is alright
I just want to get this off my chest I know I'm a shitty person I cheated on my first ex, I manipulated him alot and I made him self harm and want to die. I always thought he was the problem but I realize that I was, he deserves to be happy because now I just feel like shit, nothing goes right. I'm so sick of myself and I hate myself so fucking much I just wish I could disappear from everything. He was right. I will end up alone, he was always right
this almost made me cry but I can't cry, I haven't cried for so long and I don't know when ill ever cry again but ive relapsed with cutting recently and this is really helpful
I'm a therian (if u don't know the meaning, u can Google it bc I don't feel like explaining it rn) and lately, all my friends are calling me a furry and saying "all furrys are emo bc they don't have fathers" and the funny thing is, I don't have a father. One friend who I haven't come out to yet is slowly drifting away from me and my therian friend is too (kinda)
Vent: The words “you’re alone again” are very true to me at this point. School may have just started back up again but I have never felt so alone in my life. During the three months of summer, I was left home alone and as a somewhat social person this was torture. My whole family would go to work for most of the week and just leave me to either talk to myself or listen to voices from the tv or my phone. Honestly the only reason I’m on my phone A lot is because I need to hear other voices than my families or mine. During summer none of my friends talked to me unless I initiated the conversation, and even then I was still lonely. I fell into a bad mental state, as I would be all happy and fine on the outside but absolutely dead on the inside. Then when school started back up again it just made me feel more lonely. Everyone of my friends or just everyone in general already had a bestie or that one person, their rock, the person they tell everything too. I don’t. I may have one older friend I tell a lot to, but we just say what happened and get over it and keep it between us, we won’t comfort eachother or anything about it, we just tell and forget. I mean I’m ok with it, but I need someone. And I need them desperately. My mental health is going down, and my shaming parents don’t help. Like today I just realized how much they’ve guilt tripped me into not wanting to do what I want or how sometimes they would subtly shame me. And see I grew up with a lot of boys and a lot of criticism so most of the time I don’t get a lot of compliments, so I relate to boys that don’t get a lot of compliments. (Keep in mind I’m a girl) and some times when people joke around, it’s become so much that I don’t even know if they joking or not. Another thing is, my mind and every part about me is saying that I shouldn’t feel sad and that I should be happy, I have great parents and a good stable life I have friends and all that and so many people have gone through so much more than me that I should not feel this way, even if it is normal human nature to be sad. Anyway back to being lonely, I think I just need a person I can relate too, that I can comfort and listen too and that can do the same for me. And I have no idea why, maybe it’s because I feel pretty comfortable around boys because I grew up with a lot of them, that I want a boy best friend that will listen to me instead of a girl. They just feel like a better person for this job in my opinion. And I like the way they act better than girls sometimes, like when girl get in ur head during a fight but boys just fist fight. Lot easier if you ask me. But right now I think the only thing that’s really keeping me going is talking to random people on the internet like you guys or writing in my journal, cause those are the closest thing I’ll get to actually having a best friend to tell everything. Whoever actually read this, thank you for reading it, and I know it’s not important as others problems but it really means a lot to me for being there so thank you strangers.
I know it's a little late but.. If you need anybody to talk to I'm always here even though you have no clue who I am I understand how you feel I know I'm not a boy but I'm still here if you need anybody to talk to or vent to
To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :) (this is for anyone who needs it like i do a lot of the time and i hope it helped
i only just realized this is a vent playlist 💀 deadass was only here for writing vibes (Which i found) and got jumpscared by a bunch of depressing stories and vents 💀💀 but i still love yall and hope it gets better!! -SLS
This playlist fully describes my mental state. I am that strange, ugly child who has never felt needed and loved. But in September, when the new school year began, a person appeared who, I thought, was interested in me, because of whom my self-esteem began to grow at least a little. I thought he was interested in me... then I found out that he started dating my friend who knew about my feelings for him. After the secret became known, he began to ignore me and look at me with contempt. And I snapped. But everyone, as usual, didn't care. Sometimes it seems to me that when I disappear, no one will care
@@Drystayar it's good to know you're still pushing through. Keep pushing because some day you will find someone who accepts you for someone they can be with, and you will find a friend that won't back stab you. Things will get better
Every time you think about committing, think of those who'll miss you. The little sibling you practically raised. The pet whos helped you through everything. That one friend who you rarely see, but makes everything better. Imagine the pet scratching at your empty door or calling out for you. What becomes of the sibling? And the missed calls from the friend. Keep counting down the days until you can leave home, it gets better. Love you all ❤
I thought moving away to my dad's would help clear my mind and help me grow up but its just made me feel more isolated and underappreciated then ever. I forgot how exhausting it was to fake and pretend who I am. What sucks the most is that I've only been here 4 months and I planned on being here for a year or two. I'm not so sure it was worth all the mess I made from moving.
Alone. I have no problem with that. Its refreshing to take a brake from toxicity. Daily waking up to screaming in my ears becouse something isnt right.
thank you! i know that might sound stupid but everyone is always calling me weird for preferring to be alone. sometimes during parties or something, i just get socially tired an i go up to my room and rest, alone.
I love being alone. You couldn't imagine the company I've had the past couple of years I've been through unimaginable things... it's just me and my family now, always will be...
TW: Heavy Vent. Everyone left... I can't help but blame myself even if my therapist has said they were toxic... I would rather be screamed at and being surrounded by people that hated me bc I wouldn't be completely alone. My foster mom, the only person I had after issues with my toxic step family and bio family, she left. She left the state and hasn't called or messaged (I have reached out). I live in a small town and everyone I meet that is my age knows of my past that people rumor about so they just ignore me or judge me without knowing the truth. So I've gone online, but the one group of people.. I'm nowhere near in their league. They game and I'm in my apartment, no Internet just a crappy phone that I can barely afford. I'm so tired. I just want to fall asleep and not wake up. I have committed multiple times. I did the calculations I SHOULDNT BE ALIVE STILL. Even doctors said I should be dead. I don't get it. I don't know why I'm here and I just.. I'm so close to making sure I don't wake up
I'm sorry about your struggle, I'm sorry about your family issues and not being able to find friends that well anymore..... I'm so glad you are still here 🖤 honestly I always go online to find people to talk to. It keeps me social in some way at least... we're gonna be okay 💫
I’m sad so ima rant. I was in the car when my dad was arrested for a DUI. I was 12 the first car crash I was in with my drunk dad. 13 when I realized how much his words and actions hurt. His negligence lead to my mental health disorder, dissociation. Its so hard. Any time anyone is drinkin, I dissociate. If I’m playing the game on my phone I was playing the day we crashed, I dissociate. Just like the day I was in the back of a police car having a panic attack after my dad’s arrest. the kind officer helped and hugged me till my mom was there. I just want to thank him even though I know he wouldn’t see this. I love my dad. But the more my parents fight, the more scared I get. The more the words hurt. And the more I hurt myself as an way to ease the pain. I can’t take it anymore. One day if I grow up to be a mother I won’t let my kids suffer. I won’t make them drag there father in bed drunk from the yard. I won’t make their brother cover their ears from the fighting of their parents. Like my brother does for me. I will show them what it means to be loved, I promise. I am 13 years old, my name is Lexi and I’m a normal girl in 8th grade you wouldn’t notice from how I act but I’m hurting. So the next time you see someone struggling go eat lunch with them or play 4 square it’s means the world. I promise…
I'm not ready for school, not mentally. TW- Barely survived last year, I was so close to cutting myself, I tried to do it with a pencil because It was the only thing I had at the time, and one of my friends thought I was faking and ditched me then told everybody I faked suicide, nobody helped me, I helped myself, I stopped myself from cutting. I'm scared I won't stop myself, not this time.
I hope this year you can find better people to surround yourself with. True friends will stick to you. It takes time to find the right people to help you in your life. Try to focus on hobbies that you enjoy and learn good ways to cope with your struggles. Breathing exercises, art, playing games, taking a walk, etc. The feelings of being alone is only temporary. With time you will find amazing people to have around you. Take care if yourself. I'm glad your alive. Your incredible and brave. Thank you for sharing your struggles so others don't feel as alone. 💜
“alone again” I wanted to sit and cry. I’ve been getting anxiety attacks a lot recently. I feel like crying but instead I push at away and so at the end of the day a get an anxiety attack. So I wanted to take sometime to sit down and just cry and get it out. I’ve been upset that I’m moving away from all my friends and all the people I know. And so I found this playlist. And as soon as I heard this lyric, I started crying even harder 😭.
Vent: I've been physically and mentally abused though out my whole life, by my mother & father. They divorced before i was born and as soon as i came into the world they apparently thought i was a disappointment. So my mother began to drink, and my father thought i was just a "high school mistake" even though when my little sister was born she was his pride and joy. I wasn't there anymore to him. Even though my fathers house wasn't as bad as my mothers it was still difficult to live day by day. I had to learn to cook when i was 4!!!! because he was "too busy" to even feed me. When my step-mom came into the mix it made my life hell. She had a daughter named Carlyle Wolfe, and she would beat me until i was near death on the floor. (I was home schooled because they didn't want people to know about the abuse) My stepmom would shame me (fat shame also because i didn't know how to cook healthy because i was 6) for wearing goodwill clothes even though those where the clothes she would buy me even though i knew damn well she had the money to get me descent clothes. Even though she was doing all of this to me my dad acted like i was never there. My step-mothers name is Laurie Wolfe and she is a Realtor. If you want to hit her boss up telling him that she allowed men to grope a 11 year old girl, you can. 🙂 Anyway my mothers side was where the physical abuse was. She would smash wine bottles around me and force me to walk on it until i "learned" my lesson. She would lock me in the garage and smoke the room out by smoking cigarettes and i would be barely be able to breath. She let a man named Carlos stay at the house for months, and one night i had to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night and i saw my mom cheating on her wife (step-mom Kimberly Wooten, very nice didn't know what was happening) With Carlos. She saw me staring at them balling my eyes out. Because i didn't know what to do. She then told Carlos that he can do whatever he wanted to me. because they needed to keep me quiet. So he went in my rooms MANY times while i was 10-11 years old. I started to SH on my thighs because i wanted to feel something. I started eating less and progressively getting worse in health. I ended up with a eating disorder that i still deal with to this day. I am not a victim in these stories. I am a survivor. I am 13 turning 14, Aug 26 and i am still here after 7 attempts of Suicide.☺ I'm left with PTSD, trauma, Anxiety, & depression. (They are all diagnosed by a doctor). If you need help. ASK FOR HELP💗💗💗
Are you still living with those horrible people? If so you should report them as what they are doing is not right. You don’t deserve to have to deal with all of that. They are basically criminals at this point. They have been pretty much torturing you. Its not right. I hope you are ok and I hope you have a good day
Your correct. You are a survivor. You survived all of it and us strangers are so so proud of you. Im sorry that you went through that but the thing is you cant change it. It has made you who you are and you are a kind wonderful person. You matter in this cruel world. Im sorry that this world was so harsh to you. You did NOT deserve any of that. I have my own problems so i know how hard it is sometimes. The people who hurt you suck. They did not deserve an angel like you to come into their lives. I wish i could help but unfortunately im just another stranger on the internet. I hope you have gotten away from all that.
@@audreysavannahchu2358 Yes I agree with that. Except for one thing, is saying that the world is cruel really correct? This person has been through some very hard times but I don’t think that means that the world and humanity is cruel. I hear a lot of people say that but there are good people out there. And everyone has bad moments in their life, but there are good moments too and those are the moments that should be appreciated and cherished
I’m so sorry you went through that . I don’t know your situation but if you haven’t already called CPS you definitely should cause this is well beyond abuse. Also if you need anyone to talk to you can talk to me any time. Just know that you are loved ❤️
I know some people may write stories that they have someone to stop them before they commit, but some of us have no one, so Im here to stop you. People always say, "you belong here, you have a purpose." You may not believe them but you do, its difficult right now but you will find peace eventually. And for whoever has no one to say this, I love you, so dont give up, hang on for me or your friend's or family , because one day you will find your purpose. -Your internet friend.
the first song really hits me. For some reason, I just can’t shake off the fact that one friend left. I constantly feel like no one likes me and they are just faking it. Sometimes k don’t feel real. I feel like I’m losing more and more people as life goes on. My worst fear is to lose everything, but now I’m just scared if it will come true.
I've lost all my friends a few times, & been alone for years. Everything passes good & bad times, friends & family. All will eventually pass, as long as your here & your a genuine kind caring person you will find someone, new friends & family. and they will pass & the cycle continues.
Nothings wrong, I’m fine, all good, no worries. The words I always say to the perpetual “how are you?” That you get asked every day. The worst thing is that no one means it. They don’t reallllly care how you are they just want to know you’re good so that it won’t upset them. I’m a popularish guy, I have friends and clubs and lots of outlets that I’m part of, but no matter who I meet or talk to I just don’t think anyone really understands me. I know that I probably carry some of that blame because I don’t open up to people often. The only thing I’m scared of is them looking at me differently. Treating me like I’m fragile or broken and seeing how they would look at me differently would kill me. To let someone know how my mind works against me and drags me through life, would be the scariest thing to ever do. I just want to be normal and not someone who has to sit down in the shower with the lights off for an hour, someone who doesn’t have such a horrible perception of themself, and someone who can’t share how they are. The thought of leaving is always there, but never a real option. It looms behind the love of my parents, friends, and girlfriend and I know that to leave them like that would be the worst pain I could give them. I am sustained by their love, as are we all. And so I say to you, I love you. I love the person you are and I think the world is so much better with you in it. Let my love help you, share some of that weight with me. You’re not alone. We all hurt sometimes. We all need to cry. We all need love. And so I give you my love. Sincerely. So please share more time with us. We would miss you ❤
Hopefully you're doing better now but either way i love and so does the one who helped me, Jesus. If you ever want something to vent through my reply will remain and I'll respond
*precisely 173 reasons why you should live on* -from your future self. (feel free to copy, this is the og inspired by a few other comments. just extended.) 1. to make yourself proud. 2. to find hope. 3. to brighten up. 4. to meet your online friends. 5. to make god proud. 6. to make your friends proud. 7. to make your family proud. 8. to remember memories. 9. to make yourself happy. 10. to experience ice cream with your friends. 11. to experience new cultures. 12. to experience new paths. 13. to become a joyful individual. 14. to laugh until you cry. 15. to smile until your jaw hurts. 16. to experience love. 17. to feel confident. 18. to see your friends again. 19. to be able to entertain yourself. 20. to be stronger than others. 21. to listen to music again. 22. to go to concerts and live out your life. 23. to replay your memories in your head. 24. to meet your idols one day. 25. to chase your dreams. 26. to eat your favorite food again. 27. to share with a loved one. 28. to remake precious moments. 29. to reconnect. 30. to meet new people. 31. to find someone who gives you what you truly deserve. 32. to conquer your fears. 33. to hang out with your friends. 34. to do all the enjoyable things you want. 35. to realize you're not alone. 36. to experience loyalty. 37. to look at stars. 38. to look at the sunrise. 39. to enjoy small details of the world. 40. to chat and watch clouds. 41. to sit in the green grass and smell the fresh air. 42. to meet up with your old friends. 43. to be able plan your own life. 44. to experience a nap while it rains. 45. to share an umbrella with a friend. 46. to find people who relate to you. 47. to find the right person. 48. to feel joy from the heavens. 49. to feel freedom. 50. for people who care. stay for us, and we'll be grateful out of our minds. 51. to experience breakfast in bed. 52. to learn to cook with friends. 53. to go to parties. 54. to have moments of peace to yourself. 55. to talk to ones who you trust. 56. to hear your favorite song reach the radio. 57. to watch your style change overtime. 58. to watch yourself grow. 59. to share your talents, and know how much you value. 60. to realize how valuable you are. 61. to evolve as a person. 62. to watch the wind blow the trees. 63. to look out a window on a winter day. 64. to experience laughter. 65. to see the fresh untouched snow outside. 66. to watch your friends become more mature. 67. to experience adulthood. 68. to laugh at idiotic things with your friends. 69. to experience inside jokes. 70. to go through eras. 71. to find new habits you enjoy. 72. to inspire others. 73. to listen to music going to sleep. 74. to experience a free day alone. 75. to have a movie night. 76. to stay over at a friends house for the night. 77. to buy new things for yourself. 78. to treat yourself. 79. to go on trips with your family and friends. 80. to experience hugs. 81. to experience getting comfortable around people. 82. to explore. 83. to try new things. 84. to chill in a library. 85. to receive gifts. 86. to be told you were missed. 87. to gift presents. 88. to be forgiven. 89. to forgive yourself. 90. to forgive. 91. to go on field trips with your school. 92. to experience the feeling of everyone you've invited for a hangout come over. 93. to experience the child like feeling you get on a christmas morning. 94. to cosplay and do fun activities with your friends. 95. to start a new life, open to a new path. 96. to experience the feeling of relief. 97. to experience the day things finally all go your way. 98. to experience comfort. 99. to love yourself. 100. to mess around with your friends and family. 101. to visit nostalgic places. 102. to find out more about your family and friends. 103. to be curious. 104. to find something interesting. 105. to experience you and your friends making eachother food and gifts. 106. to thank yourself for the effort you've ever made. 107. to take a break. 108. to realize you've finally found someone to trust. 109. to hear "this reminds me of you.". 110. to keep going. 111. to experience trust towards yourself. 112. to find yourself growing out of old bad habits. 113. to randomly mix products together and think you're making a potion. 114. to cook for yourself. 115. to smile at yourself in the mirror. 116. to reach your goals. 117. to be the person you've always wanted to. 118. to watch the world grow. 119. to make someone else smile. 120. to make someone else feel special. 121. to let a friend know they're very special to you. 122. to find out more about yourself. 123. to grow opinions. 124. to feel cold wind on a hot day. 125. to go snowboarding with your family and friends, and drink hot chocolate inside. 126. to go to a mall with a friend. 127. to have a game night, whether its online or in person. 128. to experience the feeling of an accomplishment, such as reading all of this one by one. 129. to hear someone compliment you and mean every word of it. 130. to hear someone tell you how much you mean to them, word by word. 131. to play pranks. 132. to be accpeted. 133. to be stable. 134. to have someone be there for you. 135. to be there for someone. 136. to find someone that you have a lot in common with. 137. to try stupid, questionable things with your friends and get away with it. 138. to challenge yourself. 139. to feel like you belong. 140. to realize your priceless worth to others. 141. to experience getting something on the first try. 142. to experience satisfaction. 143. to laugh to yourself. 144. to find unexpected therapy. 145. to forgive yourself for past mistakes. 146. to find happiness. 147. to find light. 148. to become better than you ever were. 149. to finally be able to relax after the stress and rough road. 150. to expirience stress get lifted off your shoulders like a weight thats been there for years. 151. to expirience saying "hey, this is easier than i thought it would be." to something you used to be bad at. 152. to grow your mind. 153. to create new memories. 154. to experience the feeling of finally not being compared. 155. to believe in yourself more. 156. to heal from the past. 157. to experience friend head pats. 158. to feel good about yourself. 159. to experience a true smile. 160. to thank yourself or be thanked for every bit of effort you've ever made. 161. to be told how grateful people are to have you here. 162. to watch the moon change. 163. to experience having over 4 pillows on one bed. 164. to have a long wanted item atlas. 165. to experience being done with something. 166. to find what helps you escape from boredom. 167. to move on. 168. to find help. 169. to suceed. 170. to experience a sigh of relief. 171. to be the light in someone else's life. 172. to achive new goals. 173. to become your own therapist, making yourself happy. -thanks for your time, *kiddo.*
I dont know whether its good or bad, whether its selfish to expect the same love that you give to a person... Ive often heard that true love is not expecting something in return...But if I expect this, am I loving correctly? And do I love at all... But denying my love is even worse...After all, I experience such strong emotions from every word and action of a person...
In my opinion, true love differs between what you want, and if your true love is both of you loving, giving, and receiving, it isnt selfish, that and wanting to be loved is never selfish.
It's not love if they don't love you back. If you express your love for someone and they don't show you they love you back then it isn't what you deserve. But some people are shy or don't know how to express their love so that could be it too, and that's different and it might be the case too honestly.
She told me that she thinks she’s better off alone. She told me that she doesn’t think I’ll ever be the man’s he wants because of my depression and anxiety. …man :/
its 4 am your freind just quit roblox and your sad so you join your favorite game to play together and remember all the fun times they were simple and innocent the game was popular at the time but now has under 40 today you spend the rest of the night playing while thinking about all the good times u had with vivid memories from 2017 the first time you met
Sometimes i just don’t know anymore man, I hate crying and I always desensitized myself to it but now that I want to I really just can’t I’ve been cutting and drinking soulju more often and I rlly just wish I stopped feeling like shit lol I really don’t know how to properly put them into words but ye
Man u just summed up how I've been feeling lately. Part of me wants to tell u what I've been telling myself, this feeling will never go away and this is how we'll be forever because what more is there when we're perfectly satisfied with the pile of shit of a life we've built? Because the smallest part of me doesn't believe that, tho, lemme tell u: it might take forever, but we can claw our way out of that hole, fingers raw and throat burning, no matter what it takes. Somehow we will figure it out. That's what humans do, make shit up until we figure something out. It might take all the strength we have but we can find someone to help us or even just do it ourself and figure it out.
I don't know what your going through but I hope you can find yourself. You sound lost. And that is ok. It's ok to feel lost in life. Your never alone. There are always people who love you. Just know, I'm glad you're alive.
no matter how many times I play this song, it never fails to make me cry. I’m crying rn don’t know what I’m doing with life I been like this since he left it’s sad he moved on so quickly like I meant nothing to him, I just want someone to text when something makes me happy or text someone my proud moments knowing they will actually be proud of me, it’s hard to move on especially when you loved someone that much. Everyone says I will move on, I try to smile then let it out at night laying in bed. im not sure if he even cares, I hope he does because I really cared for him.. pls leave suggestions on how I can move on step by step.
I love how nobody in my family gives a fuck about my life. Like how amazing is that. They dont care when im sobbing my eyes out. They talk trash about me literally behind my back. I also thought this school year would be better, but no, it HAS to continue every school year i guess. Started on the first day. Wow, isnt my life just wonderful. Isnt it just completely wonderful that i have people telling me to commit suicide? Isnt it wonderful that I think about it? Isnt it wonderful that i have no friends to talk to or smile with? Isnt it just WONDERFUL.
When I was listening to this playlist, I just randomly started thinking about my life on why I deserved to be bullied about my insecurities, and I just started to cry, and I don’t know why I deserved to be bully about my insecurities. :(
People keep on bullying for my insecurities, saying that that “I’m fat. I have a large for head and I cry a lot and I have lots of pimples.” Even my mother talks about my pimples in front of me which gets my insecurities higher. I don’t know what I did in life to deserve this I seriously don’t.
No one deserves to be bullied, there's nothing wrong with you and it's not you doing anything wrong. It's the bullies who have nothing better to do with their time, but luckily you do. Maybe you can find a new hobby that gives you joy, increases your self-confidence and gives you a sense of mastery! I wish you good luck with everything, because you're an amazing, beautiful and valuable person. There's only one of you out there, so take care of yourself and believe in yourself, you've got this! ❤️
I never felt the need to (ut myself, I h*rt myself in other ways like sl@pping myself I know it's nothing compared to cutting but I just can't take a kn!fe into my hand, I had a lot of trauma and I've been going thru a lot, I think about committing every day, and even my own family body shames and hates me, but somehow i am still standing without a single cut of sh, I know this feeling when you have to cry but nothing comes out.. or when you are so sad that it turns to anger, I like to tell myself that others have it worse and that my problems are nothing compared to mine, maybe that's why I didn't do anything for so long, I thought if people who have it worse than me can do it, then i can aswell. but how many people really do have it worse than me? or does that even matter? no matter what you are going thru, it shouldn't happen to you, and i am sorry for you. but please remember that you aren't alone and that people love you and are worried about you, if it is a family member or a stranger online. this world is truly cruel and hurtful, but it also has some good sides, try to see the world from the good sides sometimes. again I am sorry for what happened to you, that should never happen to a person, please don't commit or hurt yourself, I know it's hard but I belive in you! you can do it! never give up! I hope you have a good day/night, I love you. -written by me
After 3 years, my heart still drops at your photo. The feelings that i thought were vanished start simmering again. Part sorrow, part pain, part love. And i try to recollect the memories we never got to build together, because you were never mine. We both knew the love was mutual. But i wonder what made us both so coward, so hesitant. Or should i be grateful that because we never started, we never ended anything? So after years of our unspoken love, and breakup without breakup, my heart still drops at the call of your name. I pray for you to show up in my dreams, since that’s the only place allowed for us at this point. But nothing kills me more to wake up to the reality that we will never be together in real life. That’s how i love and die everyday and every night, waiting for someone who’s never going to come to me.
I just accidentally hurt one of my friends feelings and now I feel really bad but can’t do anything about it because I can’t rewind time and I think I just ended our relationship because I was joking and went to far without knowing his situation
Hello. Ik we know nothing about each other. But.. You are doing great. Look at you. Alive! Im so happy you are! I wish i could give you a high five. Because you are doing so well. Even tho you may have thought of suicide. But you pushed through and here you are. Heart beating! I am so proud. So so proud. Even tho i am still young and nobody listens to me but i hope you will. Live on! Keep that spirit to live even if it's small.. You still have it. And that's amazing! Keep it at your pace. There will be times where you have really hard days. But that's ok everyone does. You may forget this but right here in this moment you are reading this. So just please. Live on. It doesn't need to be perfect you don't need to be perfect. Be yourself! Be what you think is right. Not others opinions. Trust me. I believe in you!
I'm the youngest child I watched both my brothers leave me in a toxic family where I was always the one looked over and never cared for and now that I'm the only one left I'm having to do everything by myself and not only that I'm dealing with heartbreaks and loosing my dog and my closest friend while still being traumatized from being physically amd mentally abused when I was younger I really can't take it anymore I have no one left
i know i don’t know you and all of the situation, but what i do know is that you made it really far from all the trauma and it’s crazy on how you lived through that. even if you’re at your lowest right now and there’s nobody here for you, someone will come. and it would suck for you to miss that chance. i’m also a youngest and i know that it’s tough, but when this passes it’ll be amazing. it might take a while, sure,a but it’ll make you feel amazing. plus, there’s tons of stuff left in the world for you to accomplish. it may be without your family, and that’s okay. but hey, why stop now? just by seeing this comment and you opening up tells me a lot about you. you’re strong and improving through this hard time even though it may be complicated. i know i’m just a stranger on the internet, but you’re awesome. i have a way of knowing, secret talent haha. but you’re really tough for this. now don’t stop taking care of yourself, you’ll feel better. i hope this means something, maybe it won’t, but i’m here for you. and i want you to remember something i made up. the universe may be cruel. but it exists. and every object, person, etc has their upsides and downsides. yet even though the universe is cruel, it still has its beauty’s. and if you stay you can see some. there’s always firsts every day. you breathed this certain amount for the first time. and there’s bigger firsts. so good job stranger. i love you, sending virtual hugs. have a good day/night.
Someone definitely will show up, you just need to wait and go forward a little more. You are strong, because till now you've been fighting for your sake and you continue to do it. That's truly amazing, man. I believe in you. For everything will be it's time. it's just how life works. There will be people, who really love you and respect you and your feelings. There will be. Try to meet new people, chat with them, go out with, and maybe you'll find a true friend or even lover. Your's dog'll be in a really good place and I think it would be more satisfied seeing you smile and laugh, use the time that is left for your pet and spend some time with him, ofc if you are able to. Show him that you love your buddy. And maybe there's actually a chance to save him? About your friend.. you should talk out things with them and remember that there's always a chance for the better! Even if you'll end your friendship, it won't be the end for you and just you know if you want to gain something new, then you'll need to lose something other... Just a possibility that after this you'll find a new friend or friends. Don't give up.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
I lost my grandma last year, the pain of losing her was so big that destroyed my hearth, I was in a several depression, and really bad bc I didn’t talked to much with her because I was in another country, and I feel bad for my last promise was to take care of her and give her a good life when I come back, I feel like a liar, a horrible human being for not completing my promise, I know that I couldn’t do nothing, but that still hurt me, don’t being able to do something hurt me even more, she was the most amazing human I ever meet
I can't imagine how that must feel..... :,( Depression is so hard to overcome and it takes up so much of your strength. What happened the way it happened does not mean that you didn't love her though, remember that. With time it will start to hurt less
had a girl fall in love with me, never made a relationship with her but we’d flirt and we both obv were into each other, but I wasn’t ready since my last relationship I was cheated on and left depressed for almost a year and a half, she almost snapped me out of it, she made me happy and excited every time we talked. Then she started talking to her exe again, who would manipulate and put things in her head that weren’t true, told her that she was never good enough, made her having an eating disorder and other problems. They ended up getting back together and our relationship sucked and now I’m like side piece to her, I felt so betrayed and I thought it was my fault. Turns out she wasn’t the one for me, we rarely talk and I’ve found someone better who treats me great, just know when things are tough, it can only get better 🫶
Over 20 years ago. She was beautiful. My best friend. She said we would meet again, but that was the last time I saw her. She went missing about a week after, and posters were everywhere. I still miss you.
I like this playlist that makes me REMEMBER THE BAD and good things IN MY LIFE, unfortunately I am the younger sister and even though they "treat me better" because they don't, my mom mistreats me and recently I found out that I have an allergy to cats and I have a kitten, that shocked me and even more so now that I read this comment since I only have one brother but my brother doesn't pay attention to me and doesn't talk to me he just gives me orders to "help" him but it's always like that. I only "help" him to leave me his computer, to be able to be with the most precious, my friends since they always helped me in everything (my depression and anxiety) in general I do not share any of this with ANYONE but I feel that I have reached my limit and one way or another I have to let go / me gusta esta playlist que me hace RECORDAR LO MALO y bueno DE MI VIDA, lastimosa mente yo soy la hermana menor y aunque me"traten mejor" porque no lo hacen, mi mama me maltrata y reciente mente me entere que tengo alergia a los gatos y yo tengo una gatita, eso me choco fuerte y mas ahora que leei este comentario ya que yo solo tengo un hermano pero mi hermano no me presta atencion y menos me habla solo me da ordenes para "ayudarlo" pero siempre es asi. Solo lo "ayudo" para que me deje su computadora, para poder estar con lo mas preciado, mis amigas ya que ellas siempre me ayudaron en todo (mi deprecion y ansiedad ) por lo genereal no comparto nada de esto con NADIE pero siento que llegue a mi limite y de una o otra forma me tengo que soltar.😭
I’m making a metaphor or simile of how my life is. Life is my finger, and I’m the tip of the finger nail. When the nail falls off, I’ve officially given up on life.
I’m a single child that grew up with my mom always being gone and the person that took care of me being my grandma. My grandma never paid too much attention to me just giving me necessities. So growing up I was always used to being alone but once I realized that kids in middle school would hang out places together made me sad. I had never experienced anything like that. I’m a junior now and have a lot of friends but when I take a closer look I realize I’m just the plan B friend. No one takes the time to ask me to hang out. I’ve never been to the mall with friends, never had a sleepover, never made food with anyone, never been to anyone’s house. Last year was the first time I even went to the movies with someone and had someone over. I’m always the one asking people if they want to hang out. I almost was invited by someone but then they went to the movies with their friend group instead. I hate the feeling of getting older and never even experiencing being a kid. I’m going to be 18 soon and I don’t even have one friend that I feel like I can be completely myself with. I cant even vent to my mom. I cant even stay clean for a few months. Sorry I really had to vent.
I am also a single child that grew up with my mom.Im 12 years and ive always also ben the plan B friend.I tried talking to my mom about my depresion but she told me it was just a phase and it was becouse of my phone.I dont know if im going to end it all but i hope you get better.
I just can't take it i wanna end it but i know that my mom would be really sad and I can't stand thinking of her like that her life was already hard i don't wanna make her feel worse..but i just can't I can't anymore
Life may be hard right now but things will get better. I'm glad your alive. If you ever feel like you might try to take your life please contact a hot line. Your not alone. You are loved. Please keep fighting. The future will be brighter 💖
I'm sorry I didn't know that it will be like this . I love you and I wanna be with you . I'm sorry . It hurts so bad. I just want you to be by my side but you're far away from me . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry
If you're reading this im so proud of you i might not know exactly what you're feeling but i am still so so proud of you i know you can do this -love a stranger on the Internet-
It's the sudden realization that I will never be able to say goodbye to all my grandparents really messed me up. I saw a veteran the other day and he reminded me of my grandpa, who is also a vet. He is wrongfully put in jail for something he never did. He is the sweetest person I know and to know that someone would take advantage of him sickens me
Man I tried. I tried so hard to be the best I could for everyone else. Tried so hard to be good for all my friends and girlfriend. In the end they just drifted away. And here I am now, alone in bed trying to find the joy in life. Maybe I should just give up…
I just lost my mother to suicide. The same month I was going to commit. She told me to be better and live free but I didnt leave my room for days. I finally left when I heard my dad crying and ever since then, I've been trying to get better but it's hard, and sometimes I need to take a minute and let it out.
That feeling when you have big responsibilities and feel like you aren't enough to take care of them because there is no one to cheer you up and you feel lonely and burdened as hell... I just can't wait for the years to pass
One of the worst feelings is when you get left on opened or delivered for hours, and you know they are/have been online because they're either typing in the group chat or it shows. It's happened way too many times
Thank you tonight i really felt like committing but I started reading my brothers texts and realized how much he was suffering and needed me to keep being his reason to smile and keep going he called me after listening to this saying he loved me and was so proud of me and that he loved how I always kept him smiling and safe from the world he said being your prenatal figure growing up taught me to love my son how much I loved you and always will his why I stay fighting the struggle every day
No it hasn't I cant speak for you or say for sure but it didn't go down the drain you must of exercised great self control yes you may have to restart but you'll be stronger overall as long as you learn from it I think we all relapse time from time to old methods it doesn't make you a shameful it just signals you have more to your journey
this playlist got me thinking. i was sitting infront of my screen and played this list as i pulled out my phone, i didnt do anything new just the regular but something got be thinking. i have lost so much, i have gotten so much but yet the loss is bigger. i'm shaking, i'm afraid of myself. what have i done to myself to feel so hurt so... misunderstood. i get called inasne, metally unstable, cruel everything that maybe a person or well a ''normal teenager'' wouldnt hear i suppose. what did i do so wrong? what did i do? what have i done to myself.
I don't mind dropping out of college I did it for my good of my mental health but even though I'm okay or in peace it feels a little bit lonely it's not like in a school environment you can somewhat make friends there but in online space it's a little tough
i listen to these types of playlists, they help me alot, but something i cant shake the fact of is that i know im not ok, and ive been told by alot of people that i need to seek help, ibut i know if i get help i will be sent to the psych ward. and im not ready for that- but i wnat to get help because im tired of feeling like this.. its tiring
Am i the only one that when I'm crying because of my studies they say " why are you crying don't cry for ur studies ever again " but they don't understand how hard all of this is
Literally me at school,I just moved in to a new school,my classmates barely notice me,i only have one friend in my class,I miss the time when i have so many friends that care for each other and doesnt tell hurtful jokes..
I feel like my life is just an empty space and no one ever checks on me to see if im ok or not im tiered and im just done i hope you can understand you are enough i know life hits you where it hurts but life has its ups and downs so enjoy it as much as you can cuz life does end.
This represents me so much. I've been alone for a few weeks, it turned out that when I was staying (yes, staying, like boyfriends) with a friend who had a ridiculous crush on him, the day before I had an anxiety attack, he was suddenly drier, treating me badly and being direct, too direct. That day I became depressed enough to almost commit s***de, luckily (maybe) I texted a friend and he helped me. I believe he found out about my anxiety attack through a friend of ours, he simply sent a huge text explaining himself (and no, the way he acted the day before was not in the text), one of those things was the fact that those make out moments, he says, he only did it because he didn't want to see me sad, but... From the messages he sent me and the way he acted seemed reciprocal, it hit me in a horrible way and that friend of ours consoled me, it took me a while to answer both and when I did I just said I didn't need it. Well... He probably didn't like the answer. The next day, neither of them acted nice towards me, direct and cold. I had to leave social media to recover, but I continued talking to him, it seemed like our friendship was recovering, until the next day he was meaner than before, before we walked hand in hand and we hugged, now he do it anymore nothing with me, he always seemed to feel ashamed of me, he tried not to care, but now this is combined with a feeling of disgust and contempt for me. I blocked him today, I'm sad, as I said before, that was several shots in the chest and ended up affecting all my friendships. I have no one else, no friends, no one to talk to, going to school has been hell, I'm crying every day and anything affects me, I've been abusing alcohol too, I'm in a state of decomposition.
Idk, something new I guess... There's nothing wrong with changing, but you should always try to change your mindset for the better, cause that's what you truly deserve to do and it's what you need to become even stronger for yourself and for the people around you! I love you, stay you and stay amazing ❤️
I feel like this reminds me of middle school ( I am a middle schooler) it’s just like to much to handle and I’m so stressed about myself and what I’m doing that I don’t notice my friends moving on and leaving I just feel so tired and so lonely, idk what to do with myself anymore.
when you have deleted every social media and cut off everyone in real life too, and you just stay in your room.... this is what i call alone,, having no contact at all, noone to text or call, even if i want to i can't,,, if i have the worse nightmare tho i have everyday but if its too scary i can't reach out to anyone,,, i'm getting stronger and stronger this way as nothing scares me no more
it’s wonderful knowing that your partner that you’ve had for a while doesn’t support what you are, and you haven’t came out to them yet so you don’t want to risk losing them because they have brought so much happiness to you but you also don’t want to be with them and just hurt knowing that.
It’s hard seeing the og map get destroyed for the 2nd time. The game really helped me cope w a lot of problems in reality. Sadly that’s now taken from me.
Chamber Of Reflection - 0:00
Space Song - 4:23
Vanity - 10:20
It's Not The Same Anymore - 15:47
Mr. Loverman (slowed) - 22:19
Drunk - 26:38
The Loser (slowed) - 35:11
No Surprises (Remastered) - 37:31
These songs go really well together. Thanks for the music, m8.
The first song could have been dream sweet in sea major
Thanks
Thanks for the timestamps m8!
British >>>
uhh did you not see the curor at the start of the vid?
Its hard seeing someone you loved to mess around and laugh with, replacing you with people who hurt you.
Last year My best friend of 7 years just told me all bad things possible, not just me, but to all people around her, and the reason? Drugs and a girl that just fuck her life and she thinks that she is good, I miss when she was a good person, but what I can do? People change, some become better and others don’t
@@skapinho that happen to me but a bit different
@@skapinho the mom of my best friend was crazy and told me i cant be friends i with him and then blocked me in whatzapp then my bestfriend unblocked me and told me bunch of bad stuff and switched to his mom side.
fr
Womp womp
“I’m alone again” is what I keep saying to hide the guilt that I always push my friends away. It’s never not my fault, I’m a liar, hypocrite, bad child and annoying person. I can’t deny this, I’ll keep living. But, it’s not like these things will stop haunting me. Never. Ever.
Thanks for reading, I needed to vent here. 🙃
this is so real 😕☝️
I understand.. you can’t help it. It’s a mental disorder but there will always be SOMEONE who will accept you for who you are.. that someone will come soon❤️
It's completely normal to have moments of self-doubt and push people away when you're going through a tough time and although your past might be haunting you, it doesn't have to control your present or future, you can explore ways to heal and move forward and keep in mind that self-compassion is key! Progress may be slow, but each step forward is a victory
Sometimes I feel like it's always my fault, too. At least that's what my "friends" always say... but where it supposedly was my fault I was just trying to live and be happy and I never realized that they saw so many issues with who I am... I just wanted to be their friend but I was never an equal to them.
I feel like I’m always on self-destruct mode but am surrounded by distractions so I can ignore that part but when someone triggers me even though it was unintentionally my mind goes on loop of all my guilts regrets an insecurities and how much I want to disappear
It's funny how the internet understands is more than our parents
Real
Yeah. True tho. They always think they know “everything”!! But they really don’t!!
Yeah, the irony
You just soft bru
Truly.
what really sucks is seeing your friend online, only for them to completely ignore your messages. what's worse is when it's with multiple people.
this is what hurts the most for me recently too
You’re most likely the problem
@@_Savv_That just doesn't help
Everyone does that to me. Everyone hates me too and I'm sure what I did? Why I'm so hate able
@@_Savv_bro. Wtf is. Wrong with you
I relapsed yesterday, after staying clean for 3 months. I texted my boyfriend, and he was over at my house before I knew it. He helped clean up my cuts, and he cuddled with me until I fell asleep. I wouldn't trade him for the world, he's always there for me when I need him. Even though we've only been dating for a little bit, he's the best person. I lost my last boyfriend to suicide, and I met my current boyfriend when I needed him the most. He's the kindest person, and I wouldn't trade him for the world. I love you, Leo
I'm glad you have someone like that man, keep Leo close to u /gen :] obviously you know life throws a shit ton of curveballs, just know everybody's proud of u for keepin ur head up and trying. You're doing so amazing :]
--someone who relates to ur situation ❤❤
im glad your doing alright
Called me single in many different languages that is amazing x
dude your lucky you have people like that, good for you and honestly happy your ok
My boyfriend is always like “Okay ig. Have fun”
thank you. This really helped. Last night, i almost committed, but i couldn’t. My sister walked into my room, she had trouble sleeping. Then i realised, i was one of her parents. I did help raise her, and even though i’m the oldest it wasn’t my job to. She needed me as much as i needed her. I cried while holding her as she slept in my arms. This helped me understand why i’m here ❤
I know we don't know eachother but I think about you and hope you get better.. your sister loves you too ❤
@@theeye6581 thank you. This really means a lot. I’ve been struggling for a while, and trust me, every little bit of support helps ❤️
Keep up your hard work, I promise it's worth it :) imagine how many lives have you made better just by little by simply being there
You're such an amazing individual with so many perfect colours to show off to this world
que bueno que se preocupen por su familia ya q la mia es disfuncional / It's good that they care about their family since mine is dysfunctional
@abase hey if you ever need to talk to some one i am here kid 😅i can sleep ever so just @ me and i will reply i don’t care deal with the same thing as you kid and as my favorite sing said “we still happy your here” -lizzo ❤i am here for you kid
To anyone reading this, although our souls may have never crossed paths, I still have an urge to tell you that you're loved, dear stranger
Honestly, I didn't feel anything right now...
@@SirRushin Hey, that's okay. Feeling or not feeling at all. It's probably all within us, we just got to search deeper. But you're doing well, okay? And keep doing so. We're proud of you and you're loved
thank you, same to you
Love is the nice thing, but it full of shit
thank you
Dear person whoever reads this,
Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile.
Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
I love you and send you hugs.
You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.
YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.
You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice.
You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is.
Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.
I WISH I COULD HUG YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.
It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you.
I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go.
I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.??
I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.
If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.
If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.
If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)
Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out.
Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up.
I am sorry you feel misunderstood.
But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :).
Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?!
- The stranger that cares about you more than anything.
I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay.
This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.
And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you.
I hope you will remember my words :)
Until tomorrow, my friend :)
[ not by me, spread awareness, have a nice day :) ]
U JUST MADE MY DAY
Tysm❤
Why Does it only has 13 your speech is long This must Been to 100k like Thanks this made my day better
I can’t remember the last time I cried but this made it happen. Thank you, I needed this
Thank you so much I really needed it❤
I got kicked out of school and sent to alternative school for something I said no to. I’ve struggled throughout the summer through trying my best to stay positive, the other night I almost committed. I’m lucky to still be here after what happened, I want others to hear my story, and others who have gone through this maybe themselves to know that everything will be ok, you just have to keep pushing on , I love you.
I'm glad your alive 🫶
I’m so glad ur here!! I am so proud of you. U can do this!! Take care ❤
It hurts me too mom...it really does, not only her but me too, I've hidden my pain in front of you many times but when i hear you say "she doesn't care much since she's the youngest" no, i just didn't let you guys see me breaking down but that has made me even worse when i hear that I'm just happy without understanding our situation, you don't even know how much I've given up because I don't wanna trouble you and how much i was humiliated. Just for you mom.
I just wanna say it all out to her but then i realise she won't understand any of it.
Stay strong keep striving!
We are here to keep you going if you need to talk to someone when you need it.
Hope you’re feeling better ❤
This reminds me of my 2nd grade year. the year I started to get bullied for my weight, my body shape, how much I would eat, etc. It was so bad to the point I was already thinking bad things about myself when I was barely 8-9 years old. I still hold a grudge about that year. I still get bullied today and I’ve become more aggressive bc of my parents. I don’t know if I’m mentally I’ll, I feel depressed, stressed out, emotional, angry, rage, drained, etc.
I am so sorry you had to go through that. I hope things are doing better for you now
The fact strangers care about us more then the people we know just hurts😢
Talk about it. You doing alright?
i must admitt, it was nice to finally cry for a while. Thank you. Two days ago i almost committed by hanging myself. When i jumped up from the chair, and was hanging there for a while. I passed out. I woke up at the hospital, with my mom beside me. She looked at me. I remember she began to cry. It was my first time seeing her cry. It took one day before i woke up. When we went back to our house. I went straight up to my room. I tried to committ again. And here i am in the hospital once again. Failed. Once again.
One thing is for sure.
Even if you feel alone. Tired. Just completely out. You will never be the same if you try to committ. Even if i did it. I dont recommend. But even if you say "yeah but im so tired and like EVERYONE hates me.." well then do something about it?? Ik that you maybe are tired. Stressed. And maybe even uncomfortable with people. But you gotta do something! Live your lives, have fun. You only live once. And I only regret one thing. And it was that i just gave up.
Well, thank you for making this masterpiece. Hope everyone is having a great night/day.
Glad you're still with us, wouldn't be the same without you💪
@@mitchgarfield8056 thank you :")
I'm happy your here. You're doing absolutely amazing. I wish you nothing but joy and peace in your future. Thank you for being brave enough to share your story. 💜
@@jayjay2157 thank you so much, u have kind soul! ❤❤
Womp womp
In the end of the night all the fun and memories stays with you but you'll always be by yourself in the end.
I'm proud of you
it's okay if you relapsed
you have come so far
I am so incredibly proud of you
keep your head up you got this
you are a wonderful human being it's okay
if you want you can vent here
or if you just someone to talk to that is alright
I fucking cry when i read this im so sad
do you want to talk? @@RayleighShaylynn
I just want to get this off my chest
I know I'm a shitty person I cheated on my first ex, I manipulated him alot and I made him self harm and want to die. I always thought he was the problem but I realize that I was, he deserves to be happy because now I just feel like shit, nothing goes right. I'm so sick of myself and I hate myself so fucking much I just wish I could disappear from everything. He was right. I will end up alone, he was always right
this almost made me cry but I can't cry, I haven't cried for so long and I don't know when ill ever cry again but ive relapsed with cutting recently and this is really helpful
I'm a therian (if u don't know the meaning, u can Google it bc I don't feel like explaining it rn) and lately, all my friends are calling me a furry and saying "all furrys are emo bc they don't have fathers" and the funny thing is, I don't have a father. One friend who I haven't come out to yet is slowly drifting away from me and my therian friend is too (kinda)
Vent:
The words “you’re alone again” are very true to me at this point. School may have just started back up again but I have never felt so alone in my life. During the three months of summer, I was left home alone and as a somewhat social person this was torture. My whole family would go to work for most of the week and just leave me to either talk to myself or listen to voices from the tv or my phone. Honestly the only reason I’m on my phone A lot is because I need to hear other voices than my families or mine. During summer none of my friends talked to me unless I initiated the conversation, and even then I was still lonely. I fell into a bad mental state, as I would be all happy and fine on the outside but absolutely dead on the inside. Then when school started back up again it just made me feel more lonely. Everyone of my friends or just everyone in general already had a bestie or that one person, their rock, the person they tell everything too. I don’t. I may have one older friend I tell a lot to, but we just say what happened and get over it and keep it between us, we won’t comfort eachother or anything about it, we just tell and forget. I mean I’m ok with it, but I need someone. And I need them desperately. My mental health is going down, and my shaming parents don’t help. Like today I just realized how much they’ve guilt tripped me into not wanting to do what I want or how sometimes they would subtly shame me. And see I grew up with a lot of boys and a lot of criticism so most of the time I don’t get a lot of compliments, so I relate to boys that don’t get a lot of compliments. (Keep in mind I’m a girl) and some times when people joke around, it’s become so much that I don’t even know if they joking or not. Another thing is, my mind and every part about me is saying that I shouldn’t feel sad and that I should be happy, I have great parents and a good stable life I have friends and all that and so many people have gone through so much more than me that I should not feel this way, even if it is normal human nature to be sad. Anyway back to being lonely, I think I just need a person I can relate too, that I can comfort and listen too and that can do the same for me. And I have no idea why, maybe it’s because I feel pretty comfortable around boys because I grew up with a lot of them, that I want a boy best friend that will listen to me instead of a girl. They just feel like a better person for this job in my opinion. And I like the way they act better than girls sometimes, like when girl get in ur head during a fight but boys just fist fight. Lot easier if you ask me. But right now I think the only thing that’s really keeping me going is talking to random people on the internet like you guys or writing in my journal, cause those are the closest thing I’ll get to actually having a best friend to tell everything. Whoever actually read this, thank you for reading it, and I know it’s not important as others problems but it really means a lot to me for being there so thank you strangers.
How are you doing this week?
I know it's a little late but.. If you need anybody to talk to I'm always here even though you have no clue who I am I understand how you feel I know I'm not a boy but I'm still here if you need anybody to talk to or vent to
@@briannatalbott9545 thank you
IM NOT READING ALLAT
Why do songs understand me and love me more then my own parents…🙁
is it just me or crying is harder to do when you get older
To whoever reads this,
i love you
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)
(this is for anyone who needs it like i do a lot of the time and i hope it helped
wow...
idk why but I actually teared up a bit while reading this...
❤❤❤❤ thank you kind stranger, love ya too
you deserve the world and more. i think img ggoiing to cry from how beautiful this was to read.
I cried, thank you, I needed to hear that😭😭
Literally crying, tysm
i only just realized this is a vent playlist 💀 deadass was only here for writing vibes (Which i found) and got jumpscared by a bunch of depressing stories and vents 💀💀 but i still love yall and hope it gets better!!
-SLS
SAME im writing an angsty ass story I just needed the vibes for writers fuel omg crazy reading thru these
Omg
OMG HIII ME TOO🖤
This playlist fully describes my mental state. I am that strange, ugly child who has never felt needed and loved. But in September, when the new school year began, a person appeared who, I thought, was interested in me, because of whom my self-esteem began to grow at least a little. I thought he was interested in me... then I found out that he started dating my friend who knew about my feelings for him. After the secret became known, he began to ignore me and look at me with contempt. And I snapped. But everyone, as usual, didn't care. Sometimes it seems to me that when I disappear, no one will care
Are you still holding up ok?
@@driedcranberry7041 unfortunately, not really
@@Drystayar it's good to know you're still pushing through. Keep pushing because some day you will find someone who accepts you for someone they can be with, and you will find a friend that won't back stab you. Things will get better
Every time you think about committing, think of those who'll miss you.
The little sibling you practically raised.
The pet whos helped you through everything.
That one friend who you rarely see, but makes everything better.
Imagine the pet scratching at your empty door or calling out for you.
What becomes of the sibling?
And the missed calls from the friend.
Keep counting down the days until you can leave home, it gets better. Love you all ❤
literally nothing applies to me
I thought moving away to my dad's would help clear my mind and help me grow up but its just made me feel more isolated and underappreciated then ever. I forgot how exhausting it was to fake and pretend who I am. What sucks the most is that I've only been here 4 months and I planned on being here for a year or two. I'm not so sure it was worth all the mess I made from moving.
Alone. I have no problem with that. Its refreshing to take a brake from toxicity. Daily waking up to screaming in my ears becouse something isnt right.
always happens to me :(
thank you! i know that might sound stupid but everyone is always calling me weird for preferring to be alone. sometimes during parties or something, i just get socially tired an i go up to my room and rest, alone.
I love being alone. You couldn't imagine the company I've had the past couple of years I've been through unimaginable things... it's just me and my family now, always will be...
The fact that I love sad music and even hear it when I'm happy bc I'm so used to it
I don’t know who needs to know this but you are doing amazing! And if nobody loves you or wants to be your friend, I do. 💚
Thank you 🥺
@@WhoreforShu your welcome have a good day / night 💚
TW: Heavy Vent.
Everyone left... I can't help but blame myself even if my therapist has said they were toxic... I would rather be screamed at and being surrounded by people that hated me bc I wouldn't be completely alone. My foster mom, the only person I had after issues with my toxic step family and bio family, she left. She left the state and hasn't called or messaged (I have reached out).
I live in a small town and everyone I meet that is my age knows of my past that people rumor about so they just ignore me or judge me without knowing the truth.
So I've gone online, but the one group of people.. I'm nowhere near in their league. They game and I'm in my apartment, no Internet just a crappy phone that I can barely afford. I'm so tired. I just want to fall asleep and not wake up.
I have committed multiple times. I did the calculations I SHOULDNT BE ALIVE STILL. Even doctors said I should be dead. I don't get it. I don't know why I'm here and I just.. I'm so close to making sure I don't wake up
I'm sorry about your struggle, I'm sorry about your family issues and not being able to find friends that well anymore..... I'm so glad you are still here 🖤 honestly I always go online to find people to talk to. It keeps me social in some way at least... we're gonna be okay 💫
this sounds like the most bullshit lie I've ever heard in my entire life
You're here for a reason. Find it. God loves you, it begins there
I’m sad so ima rant. I was in the car when my dad was arrested for a DUI. I was 12 the first car crash I was in with my drunk dad. 13 when I realized how much his words and actions hurt. His negligence lead to my mental health disorder, dissociation. Its so hard. Any time anyone is drinkin, I dissociate. If I’m playing the game on my phone I was playing the day we crashed, I dissociate. Just like the day I was in the back of a police car having a panic attack after my dad’s arrest. the kind officer helped and hugged me till my mom was there. I just want to thank him even though I know he wouldn’t see this. I love my dad. But the more my parents fight, the more scared I get. The more the words hurt. And the more I hurt myself as an way to ease the pain. I can’t take it anymore. One day if I grow up to be a mother I won’t let my kids suffer. I won’t make them drag there father in bed drunk from the yard. I won’t make their brother cover their ears from the fighting of their parents. Like my brother does for me. I will show them what it means to be loved, I promise. I am 13 years old, my name is Lexi and I’m a normal girl in 8th grade you wouldn’t notice from how I act but I’m hurting. So the next time you see someone struggling go eat lunch with them or play 4 square it’s means the world. I promise…
When all you want is to have friends but everyone of your loved ones push you away from them
I'm not ready for school, not mentally.
TW-
Barely survived last year, I was so close to cutting myself, I tried to do it with a pencil because It was the only thing I had at the time, and one of my friends thought I was faking and ditched me then told everybody I faked suicide, nobody helped me, I helped myself, I stopped myself from cutting.
I'm scared I won't stop myself, not this time.
I hope this year you can find better people to surround yourself with. True friends will stick to you. It takes time to find the right people to help you in your life. Try to focus on hobbies that you enjoy and learn good ways to cope with your struggles.
Breathing exercises, art, playing games, taking a walk, etc.
The feelings of being alone is only temporary. With time you will find amazing people to have around you.
Take care if yourself. I'm glad your alive. Your incredible and brave. Thank you for sharing your struggles so others don't feel as alone. 💜
“alone again”
I wanted to sit and cry. I’ve been getting anxiety attacks a lot recently. I feel like crying but instead I push at away and so at the end of the day a get an anxiety attack. So I wanted to take sometime to sit down and just cry and get it out. I’ve been upset that I’m moving away from all my friends and all the people I know. And so I found this playlist. And as soon as I heard this lyric, I started crying even harder 😭.
Vent:
I've been physically and mentally abused though out my whole life, by my mother & father. They divorced before i was born and as soon as i came into the world they apparently thought i was a disappointment. So my mother began to drink, and my father thought i was just a "high school mistake" even though when my little sister was born she was his pride and joy. I wasn't there anymore to him. Even though my fathers house wasn't as bad as my mothers it was still difficult to live day by day. I had to learn to cook when i was 4!!!! because he was "too busy" to even feed me. When my step-mom came into the mix it made my life hell. She had a daughter named Carlyle Wolfe, and she would beat me until i was near death on the floor. (I was home schooled because they didn't want people to know about the abuse) My stepmom would shame me (fat shame also because i didn't know how to cook healthy because i was 6) for wearing goodwill clothes even though those where the clothes she would buy me even though i knew damn well she had the money to get me descent clothes. Even though she was doing all of this to me my dad acted like i was never there. My step-mothers name is Laurie Wolfe and she is a Realtor. If you want to hit her boss up telling him that she allowed men to grope a 11 year old girl, you can. 🙂 Anyway my mothers side was where the physical abuse was. She would smash wine bottles around me and force me to walk on it until i "learned" my lesson. She would lock me in the garage and smoke the room out by smoking cigarettes and i would be barely be able to breath. She let a man named Carlos stay at the house for months, and one night i had to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night and i saw my mom cheating on her wife (step-mom Kimberly Wooten, very nice didn't know what was happening) With Carlos. She saw me staring at them balling my eyes out. Because i didn't know what to do. She then told Carlos that he can do whatever he wanted to me. because they needed to keep me quiet. So he went in my rooms MANY times while i was 10-11 years old. I started to SH on my thighs because i wanted to feel something. I started eating less and progressively getting worse in health. I ended up with a eating disorder that i still deal with to this day. I am not a victim in these stories. I am a survivor. I am 13 turning 14, Aug 26 and i am still here after 7 attempts of Suicide.☺ I'm left with PTSD, trauma, Anxiety, & depression. (They are all diagnosed by a doctor).
If you need help. ASK FOR HELP💗💗💗
Are you still living with those horrible people? If so you should report them as what they are doing is not right. You don’t deserve to have to deal with all of that. They are basically criminals at this point. They have been pretty much torturing you. Its not right. I hope you are ok and I hope you have a good day
Your correct. You are a survivor. You survived all of it and us strangers are so so proud of you. Im sorry that you went through that but the thing is you cant change it. It has made you who you are and you are a kind wonderful person. You matter in this cruel world. Im sorry that this world was so harsh to you. You did NOT deserve any of that. I have my own problems so i know how hard it is sometimes. The people who hurt you suck. They did not deserve an angel like you to come into their lives. I wish i could help but unfortunately im just another stranger on the internet. I hope you have gotten away from all that.
Please remember that people care about you. ❤
@@audreysavannahchu2358 Yes I agree with that. Except for one thing, is saying that the world is cruel really correct? This person has been through some very hard times but I don’t think that means that the world and humanity is cruel. I hear a lot of people say that but there are good people out there. And everyone has bad moments in their life, but there are good moments too and those are the moments that should be appreciated and cherished
I’m so sorry you went through that . I don’t know your situation but if you haven’t already called CPS you definitely should cause this is well beyond abuse. Also if you need anyone to talk to you can talk to me any time. Just know that you are loved ❤️
I know some people may write stories that they have someone to stop them before they commit, but some of us have no one, so Im here to stop you. People always say, "you belong here, you have a purpose." You may not believe them but you do, its difficult right now but you will find peace eventually. And for whoever has no one to say this, I love you, so dont give up, hang on for me or your friend's or family , because one day you will find your purpose. -Your internet friend.
Thanks I was going to take my life but you saved me thank you. -your internet friend.
@@Barryavenuevids I'm glad you changed your mind, your enough and I'm so proud of u❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you 🖤 it's been a hard time... hang in there too, okay?
I’m only here for my friends if it weren’t for them I would’ve ended it years ago
@@cynical.ghostgirl Yeah.. I'm always here if you want to talk tho! And thank you💕💕
the first song really hits me. For some reason, I just can’t shake off the fact that one friend left. I constantly feel like no one likes me and they are just faking it. Sometimes k don’t feel real. I feel like I’m losing more and more people as life goes on. My worst fear is to lose everything, but now I’m just scared if it will come true.
I've lost all my friends a few times, & been alone for years. Everything passes good & bad times, friends & family. All will eventually pass, as long as your here & your a genuine kind caring person you will find someone, new friends & family. and they will pass & the cycle continues.
Nothings wrong, I’m fine, all good, no worries. The words I always say to the perpetual “how are you?” That you get asked every day. The worst thing is that no one means it. They don’t reallllly care how you are they just want to know you’re good so that it won’t upset them.
I’m a popularish guy, I have friends and clubs and lots of outlets that I’m part of, but no matter who I meet or talk to I just don’t think anyone really understands me. I know that I probably carry some of that blame because I don’t open up to people often. The only thing I’m scared of is them looking at me differently. Treating me like I’m fragile or broken and seeing how they would look at me differently would kill me. To let someone know how my mind works against me and drags me through life, would be the scariest thing to ever do.
I just want to be normal and not someone who has to sit down in the shower with the lights off for an hour, someone who doesn’t have such a horrible perception of themself, and someone who can’t share how they are.
The thought of leaving is always there, but never a real option. It looms behind the love of my parents, friends, and girlfriend and I know that to leave them like that would be the worst pain I could give them. I am sustained by their love, as are we all.
And so I say to you, I love you.
I love the person you are and I think the world is so much better with you in it. Let my love help you, share some of that weight with me. You’re not alone.
We all hurt sometimes.
We all need to cry.
We all need love.
And so I give you my love. Sincerely. So please share more time with us. We would miss you ❤
Hopefully you're doing better now but either way i love and so does the one who helped me, Jesus. If you ever want something to vent through my reply will remain and I'll respond
*precisely 173 reasons why you should live on*
-from your future self. (feel free to copy, this is the og inspired by a few other comments. just extended.)
1. to make yourself proud.
2. to find hope.
3. to brighten up.
4. to meet your online friends.
5. to make god proud.
6. to make your friends proud.
7. to make your family proud.
8. to remember memories.
9. to make yourself happy.
10. to experience ice cream with your friends.
11. to experience new cultures.
12. to experience new paths.
13. to become a joyful individual.
14. to laugh until you cry.
15. to smile until your jaw hurts.
16. to experience love.
17. to feel confident.
18. to see your friends again.
19. to be able to entertain yourself.
20. to be stronger than others.
21. to listen to music again.
22. to go to concerts and live out your life.
23. to replay your memories in your head.
24. to meet your idols one day.
25. to chase your dreams.
26. to eat your favorite food again.
27. to share with a loved one.
28. to remake precious moments.
29. to reconnect.
30. to meet new people.
31. to find someone who gives you what you truly deserve.
32. to conquer your fears.
33. to hang out with your friends.
34. to do all the enjoyable things you want.
35. to realize you're not alone.
36. to experience loyalty.
37. to look at stars.
38. to look at the sunrise.
39. to enjoy small details of the world.
40. to chat and watch clouds.
41. to sit in the green grass and smell the fresh air.
42. to meet up with your old friends.
43. to be able plan your own life.
44. to experience a nap while it rains.
45. to share an umbrella with a friend.
46. to find people who relate to you.
47. to find the right person.
48. to feel joy from the heavens.
49. to feel freedom.
50. for people who care. stay for us, and we'll be grateful out of our minds.
51. to experience breakfast in bed.
52. to learn to cook with friends.
53. to go to parties.
54. to have moments of peace to yourself.
55. to talk to ones who you trust.
56. to hear your favorite song reach the radio.
57. to watch your style change overtime.
58. to watch yourself grow.
59. to share your talents, and know how much you value.
60. to realize how valuable you are.
61. to evolve as a person.
62. to watch the wind blow the trees.
63. to look out a window on a winter day.
64. to experience laughter.
65. to see the fresh untouched snow outside.
66. to watch your friends become more mature.
67. to experience adulthood.
68. to laugh at idiotic things with your friends.
69. to experience inside jokes.
70. to go through eras.
71. to find new habits you enjoy.
72. to inspire others.
73. to listen to music going to sleep.
74. to experience a free day alone.
75. to have a movie night.
76. to stay over at a friends house for the night.
77. to buy new things for yourself.
78. to treat yourself.
79. to go on trips with your family and friends.
80. to experience hugs.
81. to experience getting comfortable around people.
82. to explore.
83. to try new things.
84. to chill in a library.
85. to receive gifts.
86. to be told you were missed.
87. to gift presents.
88. to be forgiven.
89. to forgive yourself.
90. to forgive.
91. to go on field trips with your school.
92. to experience the feeling of everyone you've invited for a hangout come over.
93. to experience the child like feeling you get on a christmas morning.
94. to cosplay and do fun activities with your friends.
95. to start a new life, open to a new path.
96. to experience the feeling of relief.
97. to experience the day things finally all go your way.
98. to experience comfort.
99. to love yourself.
100. to mess around with your friends and family.
101. to visit nostalgic places.
102. to find out more about your family and friends.
103. to be curious.
104. to find something interesting.
105. to experience you and your friends making eachother food and gifts.
106. to thank yourself for the effort you've ever made.
107. to take a break.
108. to realize you've finally found someone to trust.
109. to hear "this reminds me of you.".
110. to keep going.
111. to experience trust towards yourself.
112. to find yourself growing out of old bad habits.
113. to randomly mix products together and think you're making a potion.
114. to cook for yourself.
115. to smile at yourself in the mirror.
116. to reach your goals.
117. to be the person you've always wanted to.
118. to watch the world grow.
119. to make someone else smile.
120. to make someone else feel special.
121. to let a friend know they're very special to you.
122. to find out more about yourself.
123. to grow opinions.
124. to feel cold wind on a hot day.
125. to go snowboarding with your family and friends, and drink hot chocolate inside.
126. to go to a mall with a friend.
127. to have a game night, whether its online or in person.
128. to experience the feeling of an accomplishment, such as reading all of this one by one.
129. to hear someone compliment you and mean every word of it.
130. to hear someone tell you how much you mean to them, word by word.
131. to play pranks.
132. to be accpeted.
133. to be stable.
134. to have someone be there for you.
135. to be there for someone.
136. to find someone that you have a lot in common with.
137. to try stupid, questionable things with your friends and get away with it.
138. to challenge yourself.
139. to feel like you belong.
140. to realize your priceless worth to others.
141. to experience getting something on the first try.
142. to experience satisfaction.
143. to laugh to yourself.
144. to find unexpected therapy.
145. to forgive yourself for past mistakes.
146. to find happiness.
147. to find light.
148. to become better than you ever were.
149. to finally be able to relax after the stress and rough road.
150. to expirience stress get lifted off your shoulders like a weight thats been there for years.
151. to expirience saying "hey, this is easier than i thought it would be." to something you used to be bad at.
152. to grow your mind.
153. to create new memories.
154. to experience the feeling of finally not being compared.
155. to believe in yourself more.
156. to heal from the past.
157. to experience friend head pats.
158. to feel good about yourself.
159. to experience a true smile.
160. to thank yourself or be thanked for every bit of effort you've ever made.
161. to be told how grateful people are to have you here.
162. to watch the moon change.
163. to experience having over 4 pillows on one bed.
164. to have a long wanted item atlas.
165. to experience being done with something.
166. to find what helps you escape from boredom.
167. to move on.
168. to find help.
169. to suceed.
170. to experience a sigh of relief.
171. to be the light in someone else's life.
172. to achive new goals.
173. to become your own therapist, making yourself happy.
-thanks for your time, *kiddo.*
I dont know whether its good or bad, whether its selfish to expect the same love that you give to a person... Ive often heard that true love is not expecting something in return...But if I expect this, am I loving correctly? And do I love at all... But denying my love is even worse...After all, I experience such strong emotions from every word and action of a person...
In my opinion, true love differs between what you want, and if your true love is both of you loving, giving, and receiving, it isnt selfish, that and wanting to be loved is never selfish.
It's not love if they don't love you back. If you express your love for someone and they don't show you they love you back then it isn't what you deserve. But some people are shy or don't know how to express their love so that could be it too, and that's different and it might be the case too honestly.
She told me that she thinks she’s better off alone.
She told me that she doesn’t think I’ll ever be the man’s he wants because of my depression and anxiety.
…man :/
been told a similar thing, stay safe and positive man
@@luvnothate imma make music to it dog, thanks
@@BURNOUTKIDOFFICIAL np man, I literally just write after shit like that, imma listen to that music too man I’m here for you 🫶
@@luvnothate your support means more than the wrld
i’m so damn sorry. ur so worthy no matter who told u u weren’t. remember that ❤
its 4 am your freind just quit roblox and your sad so you join your favorite game to play together and remember all the fun times they were simple and innocent the game was popular at the time but now has under 40 today you spend the rest of the night playing while thinking about all the good times u had with vivid memories from 2017 the first time you met
Sometimes i just don’t know anymore man, I hate crying and I always desensitized myself to it but now that I want to I really just can’t
I’ve been cutting and drinking soulju more often and I rlly just wish I stopped feeling like shit lol
I really don’t know how to properly put them into words but ye
Man u just summed up how I've been feeling lately. Part of me wants to tell u what I've been telling myself, this feeling will never go away and this is how we'll be forever because what more is there when we're perfectly satisfied with the pile of shit of a life we've built? Because the smallest part of me doesn't believe that, tho, lemme tell u: it might take forever, but we can claw our way out of that hole, fingers raw and throat burning, no matter what it takes. Somehow we will figure it out. That's what humans do, make shit up until we figure something out. It might take all the strength we have but we can find someone to help us or even just do it ourself and figure it out.
I don't know what your going through but I hope you can find yourself. You sound lost. And that is ok. It's ok to feel lost in life. Your never alone. There are always people who love you. Just know, I'm glad you're alive.
no matter how many times I play this song, it never fails to make me cry. I’m crying rn don’t know what I’m doing with life I been like this since he left it’s sad he moved on so quickly like I meant nothing to him, I just want someone to text when something makes me happy or text someone my proud moments knowing they will actually be proud of me, it’s hard to move on especially when you loved someone that much. Everyone says I will move on, I try to smile then let it out at night laying in bed. im not sure if he even cares, I hope he does because I really cared for him.. pls leave suggestions on how I can move on step by step.
I really wanna tell my bf something i never told anyone before, but im scared he will react shit and will end the relationship
I love how nobody in my family gives a fuck about my life. Like how amazing is that. They dont care when im sobbing my eyes out. They talk trash about me literally behind my back. I also thought this school year would be better, but no, it HAS to continue every school year i guess. Started on the first day. Wow, isnt my life just wonderful. Isnt it just completely wonderful that i have people telling me to commit suicide? Isnt it wonderful that I think about it? Isnt it wonderful that i have no friends to talk to or smile with? Isnt it just WONDERFUL.
When I was listening to this playlist, I just randomly started thinking about my life on why I deserved to be bullied about my insecurities, and I just started to cry, and I don’t know why I deserved to be bully about my insecurities. :(
People keep on bullying for my insecurities, saying that that “I’m fat. I have a large for head and I cry a lot and I have lots of pimples.” Even my mother talks about my pimples in front of me which gets my insecurities higher. I don’t know what I did in life to deserve this I seriously don’t.
No one deserves to be bullied, there's nothing wrong with you and it's not you doing anything wrong. It's the bullies who have nothing better to do with their time, but luckily you do. Maybe you can find a new hobby that gives you joy, increases your self-confidence and gives you a sense of mastery! I wish you good luck with everything, because you're an amazing, beautiful and valuable person. There's only one of you out there, so take care of yourself and believe in yourself, you've got this! ❤️
I never felt the need to (ut myself, I h*rt myself in other ways like sl@pping myself I know it's nothing compared to cutting but I just can't take a kn!fe into my hand, I had a lot of trauma and I've been going thru a lot, I think about committing every day, and even my own family body shames and hates me, but somehow i am still standing without a single cut of sh, I know this feeling when you have to cry but nothing comes out.. or when you are so sad that it turns to anger, I like to tell myself that others have it worse and that my problems are nothing compared to mine, maybe that's why I didn't do anything for so long, I thought if people who have it worse than me can do it, then i can aswell. but how many people really do have it worse than me? or does that even matter? no matter what you are going thru, it shouldn't happen to you, and i am sorry for you. but please remember that you aren't alone and that people love you and are worried about you, if it is a family member or a stranger online. this world is truly cruel and hurtful, but it also has some good sides, try to see the world from the good sides sometimes. again I am sorry for what happened to you, that should never happen to a person, please don't commit or hurt yourself, I know it's hard but I belive in you! you can do it! never give up! I hope you have a good day/night, I love you. -written by me
After 3 years, my heart still drops at your photo. The feelings that i thought were vanished start simmering again. Part sorrow, part pain, part love. And i try to recollect the memories we never got to build together, because you were never mine. We both knew the love was mutual. But i wonder what made us both so coward, so hesitant. Or should i be grateful that because we never started, we never ended anything? So after years of our unspoken love, and breakup without breakup, my heart still drops at the call of your name. I pray for you to show up in my dreams, since that’s the only place allowed for us at this point. But nothing kills me more to wake up to the reality that we will never be together in real life. That’s how i love and die everyday and every night, waiting for someone who’s never going to come to me.
..... 💔
Thank you! I'M CRYING NOW
idk how longer i can handle this loneliness but we 🆙🔥💯
Fuck it, we ball
@@EggeryDoo wrd
Hell yeah
yall i think i scared the 988 counselor shes not responding to my messages haha
Sometimes, you just wish to be alone.
Other times, you hate to be alone.
I wish to be away from you
@@_Savv_ 𝒈𝒐𝒆𝒔 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒉 𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒇𝒓.
decent study n homework playlist :)
thank you ml for making this !
it’s amazing, i hope you’re doing well !!
I just accidentally hurt one of my friends feelings and now I feel really bad but can’t do anything about it because I can’t rewind time and I think I just ended our relationship because I was joking and went to far without knowing his situation
Love this playlist sm. Really needed this rn. Thnx
"Having some alone time is nice, however constantly being alone is not."
-Me.
Hello. Ik we know nothing about each other. But.. You are doing great. Look at you. Alive! Im so happy you are! I wish i could give you a high five. Because you are doing so well. Even tho you may have thought of suicide. But you pushed through and here you are. Heart beating! I am so proud. So so proud. Even tho i am still young and nobody listens to me but i hope you will. Live on! Keep that spirit to live even if it's small.. You still have it. And that's amazing! Keep it at your pace. There will be times where you have really hard days. But that's ok everyone does. You may forget this but right here in this moment you are reading this. So just please. Live on. It doesn't need to be perfect you don't need to be perfect. Be yourself! Be what you think is right. Not others opinions. Trust me. I believe in you!
Omg tysm 😭
THIS LEGIT MADE ME CRY TYSM.
Thx for this Playlist ❤
I'm the youngest child I watched both my brothers leave me in a toxic family where I was always the one looked over and never cared for and now that I'm the only one left I'm having to do everything by myself and not only that I'm dealing with heartbreaks and loosing my dog and my closest friend while still being traumatized from being physically amd mentally abused when I was younger I really can't take it anymore I have no one left
i know i don’t know you and all of the situation, but what i do know is that you made it really far from all the trauma and it’s crazy on how you lived through that. even if you’re at your lowest right now and there’s nobody here for you, someone will come. and it would suck for you to miss that chance. i’m also a youngest and i know that it’s tough, but when this passes it’ll be amazing. it might take a while, sure,a but it’ll make you feel amazing. plus, there’s tons of stuff left in the world for you to accomplish. it may be without your family, and that’s okay. but hey, why stop now? just by seeing this comment and you opening up tells me a lot about you. you’re strong and improving through this hard time even though it may be complicated. i know i’m just a stranger on the internet, but you’re awesome. i have a way of knowing, secret talent haha. but you’re really tough for this. now don’t stop taking care of yourself, you’ll feel better. i hope this means something, maybe it won’t, but i’m here for you. and i want you to remember something i made up. the universe may be cruel. but it exists. and every object, person, etc has their upsides and downsides. yet even though the universe is cruel, it still has its beauty’s. and if you stay you can see some. there’s always firsts every day. you breathed this certain amount for the first time. and there’s bigger firsts. so good job stranger. i love you, sending virtual hugs. have a good day/night.
@@arwen8146 thanks alot🥹
of course, you’re a lovely person ❤️❤️
Someone definitely will show up, you just need to wait and go forward a little more. You are strong, because till now you've been fighting for your sake and you continue to do it. That's truly amazing, man. I believe in you. For everything will be it's time. it's just how life works. There will be people, who really love you and respect you and your feelings. There will be. Try to meet new people, chat with them, go out with, and maybe you'll find a true friend or even lover. Your's dog'll be in a really good place and I think it would be more satisfied seeing you smile and laugh, use the time that is left for your pet and spend some time with him, ofc if you are able to. Show him that you love your buddy. And maybe there's actually a chance to save him? About your friend.. you should talk out things with them and remember that there's always a chance for the better! Even if you'll end your friendship, it won't be the end for you and just you know if you want to gain something new, then you'll need to lose something other... Just a possibility that after this you'll find a new friend or friends. Don't give up.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
When he randomly stops talking to you and completely ghosts you for no fucking reason and you genuinely thought you had something special for once
I've been there... 💔
I lost my grandma last year, the pain of losing her was so big that destroyed my hearth, I was in a several depression, and really bad bc I didn’t talked to much with her because I was in another country, and I feel bad for my last promise was to take care of her and give her a good life when I come back, I feel like a liar, a horrible human being for not completing my promise, I know that I couldn’t do nothing, but that still hurt me, don’t being able to do something hurt me even more, she was the most amazing human I ever meet
I can't imagine how that must feel..... :,( Depression is so hard to overcome and it takes up so much of your strength. What happened the way it happened does not mean that you didn't love her though, remember that. With time it will start to hurt less
had a girl fall in love with me, never made a relationship with her but we’d flirt and we both obv were into each other, but I wasn’t ready since my last relationship I was cheated on and left depressed for almost a year and a half, she almost snapped me out of it, she made me happy and excited every time we talked. Then she started talking to her exe again, who would manipulate and put things in her head that weren’t true, told her that she was never good enough, made her having an eating disorder and other problems. They ended up getting back together and our relationship sucked and now I’m like side piece to her, I felt so betrayed and I thought it was my fault. Turns out she wasn’t the one for me, we rarely talk and I’ve found someone better who treats me great, just know when things are tough, it can only get better 🫶
Over 20 years ago. She was beautiful. My best friend. She said we would meet again, but that was the last time I saw her. She went missing about a week after, and posters were everywhere. I still miss you.
She was never found.
I like this playlist that makes me REMEMBER THE BAD and good things IN MY LIFE, unfortunately I am the younger sister and even though they "treat me better" because they don't, my mom mistreats me and recently I found out that I have an allergy to cats and I have a kitten, that shocked me and even more so now that I read this comment since I only have one brother but my brother doesn't pay attention to me and doesn't talk to me he just gives me orders to "help" him but it's always like that. I only "help" him to leave me his computer, to be able to be with the most precious, my friends since they always helped me in everything (my depression and anxiety) in general I do not share any of this with ANYONE but I feel that I have reached my limit and one way or another I have to let go / me gusta esta playlist que me hace RECORDAR LO MALO y bueno DE MI VIDA, lastimosa mente yo soy la hermana menor y aunque me"traten mejor" porque no lo hacen, mi mama me maltrata y reciente mente me entere que tengo alergia a los gatos y yo tengo una gatita, eso me choco fuerte y mas ahora que leei este comentario ya que yo solo tengo un hermano pero mi hermano no me presta atencion y menos me habla solo me da ordenes para "ayudarlo" pero siempre es asi. Solo lo "ayudo" para que me deje su computadora, para poder estar con lo mas preciado, mis amigas ya que ellas siempre me ayudaron en todo (mi deprecion y ansiedad ) por lo genereal no comparto nada de esto con NADIE pero siento que llegue a mi limite y de una o otra forma me tengo que soltar.😭
Lol ive always been alone..
HELPPPPP IM TAP DANCING THESE COMMENTS
There’s nothing to worry about.. when you’re with yourself, it’s easy. Do whatever. Just don’t pressure too much
I’m making a metaphor or simile of how my life is.
Life is my finger, and I’m the tip of the finger nail. When the nail falls off, I’ve officially given up on life.
I can’t get over the fact that I have to restart.
I had so many friends in Freshman year, I was set for highschool and now I’m across the country.
Its hard to lose someone that was the closest to you and then they just get pushed away more and more
I’m a single child that grew up with my mom always being gone and the person that took care of me being my grandma. My grandma never paid too much attention to me just giving me necessities. So growing up I was always used to being alone but once I realized that kids in middle school would hang out places together made me sad. I had never experienced anything like that. I’m a junior now and have a lot of friends but when I take a closer look I realize I’m just the plan B friend. No one takes the time to ask me to hang out. I’ve never been to the mall with friends, never had a sleepover, never made food with anyone, never been to anyone’s house. Last year was the first time I even went to the movies with someone and had someone over. I’m always the one asking people if they want to hang out. I almost was invited by someone but then they went to the movies with their friend group instead. I hate the feeling of getting older and never even experiencing being a kid. I’m going to be 18 soon and I don’t even have one friend that I feel like I can be completely myself with. I cant even vent to my mom. I cant even stay clean for a few months.
Sorry I really had to vent.
I am also a single child that grew up with my mom.Im 12 years and ive always also ben the plan B friend.I tried talking to my mom about my depresion but she told me it was just a phase and it was becouse of my phone.I dont know if im going to end it all but i hope you get better.
I just can't take it i wanna end it but i know that my mom would be really sad and I can't stand thinking of her like that her life was already hard i don't wanna make her feel worse..but i just can't I can't anymore
Life may be hard right now but things will get better. I'm glad your alive. If you ever feel like you might try to take your life please contact a hot line. Your not alone. You are loved. Please keep fighting. The future will be brighter 💖
my tears was here
I'm sorry I didn't know that it will be like this . I love you and I wanna be with you . I'm sorry . It hurts so bad. I just want you to be by my side but you're far away from me . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry
If you're reading this im so proud of you i might not know exactly what you're feeling but i am still so so proud of you i know you can do this -love a stranger on the Internet-
It's the sudden realization that I will never be able to say goodbye to all my grandparents really messed me up. I saw a veteran the other day and he reminded me of my grandpa, who is also a vet. He is wrongfully put in jail for something he never did. He is the sweetest person I know and to know that someone would take advantage of him sickens me
Man I tried. I tried so hard to be the best I could for everyone else. Tried so hard to be good for all my friends and girlfriend. In the end they just drifted away. And here I am now, alone in bed trying to find the joy in life. Maybe I should just give up…
Don't do it, it's not worth it, I've been in the same position before, just try to focus on yourself for now, take breaks
The change can handle you but you can't handle the change
I just lost my mother to suicide. The same month I was going to commit. She told me to be better and live free but I didnt leave my room for days. I finally left when I heard my dad crying and ever since then, I've been trying to get better but it's hard, and sometimes I need to take a minute and let it out.
It's so unimaginable the hurt you must feel... 💔 I'm so glad you're still here. Please hang in there?????? :,( I'll try and do the same if you try too
yall listen to this playlist to cry, i listen to it to RELAX!! smoothing fr
this'll be my new Playlist
That feeling when you have big responsibilities and feel like you aren't enough to take care of them because there is no one to cheer you up and you feel lonely and burdened as hell...
I just can't wait for the years to pass
One of the worst feelings is when you get left on opened or delivered for hours, and you know they are/have been online because they're either typing in the group chat or it shows. It's happened way too many times
Thank you tonight i really felt like committing but I started reading my brothers texts and realized how much he was suffering and needed me to keep being his reason to smile and keep going he called me after listening to this saying he loved me and was so proud of me and that he loved how I always kept him smiling and safe from the world he said being your prenatal figure growing up taught me to love my son how much I loved you and always will his why I stay fighting the struggle every day
relapsed after 11 months clean recently, all my progress has just gone down the drain👍
No it hasn't I cant speak for you or say for sure but it didn't go down the drain you must of exercised great self control
yes you may have to restart but you'll be stronger overall as long as you learn from it I think we all relapse time from time to old methods it doesn't make you a shameful it just signals you have more to your journey
Tried again last night :/ didn’t work. Music is my therapy
do you want to talk or vent?
If you need help please talk to family/friends/etc💖
Your not alone. Please take care of yourself
Dont do su1cide.That shit kills you
I love Fall asleep to vent playlist, idk why ;]
this playlist got me thinking.
i was sitting infront of my screen and played this list as i pulled out my phone, i didnt do anything new just the regular but something got be thinking.
i have lost so much, i have gotten so much but yet the loss is bigger.
i'm shaking, i'm afraid of myself.
what have i done to myself to feel so hurt so... misunderstood.
i get called inasne, metally unstable, cruel everything that maybe a person or well a ''normal teenager'' wouldnt hear i suppose.
what did i do so wrong? what did i do?
what have i done to myself.
I don't mind dropping out of college I did it for my good of my mental health but even though I'm okay or in peace it feels a little bit lonely it's not like in a school environment you can somewhat make friends there but in online space it's a little tough
i listen to these types of playlists, they help me alot, but something i cant shake the fact of is that i know im not ok, and ive been told by alot of people that i need to seek help, ibut i know if i get help i will be sent to the psych ward. and im not ready for that- but i wnat to get help because im tired of feeling like this.. its tiring
Am i the only one that when I'm crying because of my studies they say " why are you crying don't cry for ur studies ever again " but they don't understand how hard all of this is
Literally me at school,I just moved in to a new school,my classmates barely notice me,i only have one friend in my class,I miss the time when i have so many friends that care for each other and doesnt tell hurtful jokes..
I feel like my life is just an empty space and no one ever checks on me to see if im ok or not im tiered and im just done i hope you can understand you are enough i know life hits you where it hurts but life has its ups and downs so enjoy it as much as you can cuz life does end.
Thank you, I hit a rough patch in my life too and this really helped 🖤
This represents me so much. I've been alone for a few weeks, it turned out that when I was staying (yes, staying, like boyfriends) with a friend who had a ridiculous crush on him, the day before I had an anxiety attack, he was suddenly drier, treating me badly and being direct, too direct. That day I became depressed enough to almost commit s***de, luckily (maybe) I texted a friend and he helped me. I believe he found out about my anxiety attack through a friend of ours, he simply sent a huge text explaining himself (and no, the way he acted the day before was not in the text), one of those things was the fact that those make out moments, he says, he only did it because he didn't want to see me sad, but... From the messages he sent me and the way he acted seemed reciprocal, it hit me in a horrible way and that friend of ours consoled me, it took me a while to answer both and when I did I just said I didn't need it. Well... He probably didn't like the answer. The next day, neither of them acted nice towards me, direct and cold. I had to leave social media to recover, but I continued talking to him, it seemed like our friendship was recovering, until the next day he was meaner than before, before we walked hand in hand and we hugged, now he do it anymore nothing with me, he always seemed to feel ashamed of me, he tried not to care, but now this is combined with a feeling of disgust and contempt for me. I blocked him today, I'm sad, as I said before, that was several shots in the chest and ended up affecting all my friendships. I have no one else, no friends, no one to talk to, going to school has been hell, I'm crying every day and anything affects me, I've been abusing alcohol too, I'm in a state of decomposition.
Don't be sad, you are a good person and you deserve all the best 🙂
fuck man... i am alone... what has happened to me?
Idk, something new I guess... There's nothing wrong with changing, but you should always try to change your mindset for the better, cause that's what you truly deserve to do and it's what you need to become even stronger for yourself and for the people around you! I love you, stay you and stay amazing ❤️
I feel like this reminds me of middle school ( I am a middle schooler) it’s just like to much to handle and I’m so stressed about myself and what I’m doing that I don’t notice my friends moving on and leaving I just feel so tired and so lonely, idk what to do with myself anymore.
Maybe I should just…
Nope, definitely not.
@@sophielily1 Thank you ml 💕🫂
@@mel_DeLux ❤️❤️❤️
Its hard to be in a no label relationship
Cuz all i can think about is
" what if he finds someone better and change his mind "
when you have deleted every social media and cut off everyone in real life too, and you just stay in your room.... this is what i call alone,, having no contact at all, noone to text or call, even if i want to i can't,,, if i have the worse nightmare tho i have everyday but if its too scary i can't reach out to anyone,,, i'm getting stronger and stronger this way as nothing scares me no more
it’s wonderful knowing that your partner that you’ve had for a while doesn’t support what you are, and you haven’t came out to them yet so you don’t want to risk losing them because they have brought so much happiness to you but you also don’t want to be with them and just hurt knowing that.
It’s hard seeing the og map get destroyed for the 2nd time. The game really helped me cope w a lot of problems in reality. Sadly that’s now taken from me.
Since we're all here we can be alone together