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"alone nugget"

Day before mothers day made her brownie brittle a painting and a card with a note I've been losing my friends over dumb rumours and it's not like it's any different but I don't know why me I've been having the same stuff thrown at me and I just want it to end why won't it end I cry like it's going to flat me drown my own river of tears but In reality maybe that's whats best, I don't feel alive I look at the world and feel nothing I only feel like crying it's not fair

I just fucking fought with my mom, ever since I was three and she got pregnant with my brother I haven’t had a good relationship with her. While we were fighting it got brought up, she then started crying because there was so much more going on for her that year. I have only ever seen her cry once before. Not even five fucking minutes my anime said “You live everyday, your whole body in pain from self loathing. I have never felt worse. Ever. But that doesn’t make anymore excuses for still not caring for me as much as my brother to this date, or maybe that’s also my fault cause I have pushed myself away.

I’m known by everyone in my school, but no one really cares at all about me. I broke up with my girlfriend a while ago, my friends don’t really talk to me that much, and my best friend is just more of an abusive prick now, and for the love of god I can’t figure out why. I’m just everyone laughing stock. I miss having somebody, I miss it so much

Why? That’s all I ask. (To M)

I’m so alone😞

"Everyone matters, no matter how lonely or insignificant they feel" -Sunset shimmer ☀️

credit to @kouhai2456 for time stamps 0:00 || romantic homicide - d4vd 2:44 || freaks - surf curse 5:36 || notions - the rare occasions 9:44 || tired - beabadoobee 13:26 || alien blues - vundabar 16:09 || i can't handle change - roar 20:20 || creep - radiohead 25:09 || 505 - arctic monkeys

It’s always music that understands this shit more than anyone :/

I've never wrote one of these before. Anyways lately me and my bsf lets call her Lil have been getting into arguments and she keeps telling me I need to change, she told me she likes another one of our friends more then me and she said our other friend was cooler then me, I've been feeling like the second choice, we have been friends longer then 7 years, I cried with her when she suffered with crohns disease. We were like sisters and lately, I feel like we are drifting apart. (Sorry for rambling it probably sounds petty sorry.)

Thank you.

Before listening to this I got blocked twice in a day

Im honestly just fed up with the fact i cant help them in any wau because it just hurts to see my best friends suffer... it keeps me up everynight and makes me nervous everynight because i blame myself for the fact i wasnt there and cant be since it can make ir worse for them... i just want to know theyre okay please... please...

..are u feeling lonley?..dont worry! im here if you have suicidal thoughts just know: your loved, your worth it, your nice, your skin is not paper so dont cut it. your neck is not a coat so dont hang it. and back when we were younger, we made mistakes...some of those mistakes saved your life.... remember that time you almost died? your still here...aren't you? if you're reading this then your here and your safe. if you need someone, talk to your friends or someone you trust...wait..you have no friends!? well dont worry. im here. wait... you dont trust anyone!? dont worry. im here. even though you might be depressed, and think u dont belong here, you do belong here.. think about the nice things in life...think about the things you like, and yes, you do like some stuff! go look in a mirror, tell me what you see.. im looking at you right now, and to me you look nothing like you think u look like, you have a nice face, nice hair, nice body, nice body shape, and you look good! i know you miss them....but just know..they will come back some day..just wait. you will see yourself as a good person soon. have a nice day/night. stay safe and just remember what i said....⭐⭐💫💫🌠🌠🌃🌃✨✨

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To all the people watching this video who can't cry anymore/cry to this. Just remember, i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you’re excited i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions Now you can cry.

Of course, this is not such a big and sad event... But today my mother and I picked up a little kitten on the street. He was only a week old, he was weak and could not even squeak. We tried to feed him, he spit out most of the milk, but still drank something. My parents and I arranged a bed for him and were already planning to take him to the vet the next day... But 10 minutes ago, my father went to check on him and discovered that the kitten was not breathing... My parents went to bury him, and I’m sitting in tears. He was not a full-fledged member of our family, but we were going to make him one (we already have a cat and a dog). And finding him dead was a big blow for me and my family. The only good thing is that he died not on a cold street, but in a warm house, in a bed, at least a little fed, surrounded by care on our part. I'm just crying now and I can't stop thinking about him, I'm sad. I even saw my father cry, and he rarely cries. I just needed to vent, sorry. May everything be fine with you guys... ❤

⚠️vent⚠️ I was introduced to full time Internet when i was about 3, every day i would touch myself where I'm not supposed to. And i know it's wrong, but i can't stop. I've been cutting myself for 5 years and I've been to the mental hospital 3 times. I've tried to commit suicide multiple times. My parents have been divorced since I was 3, that led to sexual abuse for me, and physical abuse for my brother on my dad's side. I try to tell him to stop, but he just keeps going, i try to protect my brother's on my dad's side, but i have to stay and yell at my dad on the couch, because i don't want my baby brother to follow me, ane i know my dad will just start being weird to me again. On my mom's side, they mentally abuse me, my mom tells me it's fault she can't pay the bill's, my older sister on my mom's side makes fun of me for everything I do. My older brother on my moms side, actually cares about me, along with my brothers on my dad's side. It makes me cry every night until i sleep, but i know i have to stay strong. I promised my litte brothers on my dad's side i would take them somewhere safe, away from everyone, i want to live with all my brothers in happiness, but it's not that easy. I will take them away, no matter what i have to go through. Virtual hug?

I just want to relapse but I promised I’d try not to..

i need to stop justifying my scars just because i cared too much for the person holding the knife...

I dont wanna be alone anymore…

“Well?” “Well what?” “Do you miss being loved by your father?” “Yeah” “I do” “But not as much as i miss being loved by you.”

I’m so close to relapsing I can’t take this anymore

Oh..ok

I get emotional quickly, and my dog might be kicking the bucket soon, and I will greatly miss him, he was my best friend, and when he passes, I won’t be me anymore, I won’t be able to process it, my face hurts just type and I’m already crying, so I’m giving my happiness to all of you, please have a good life everyone, love everyone, please care for the people you know

Hey for thos who don't wanna read don't but I'm gonna vent anyway I fcking hate myself, I feel like I'm the dumbest, ugliest, person that exists I'm fat and ugly I have pimple all over the face but the worst is in my head. I'm so sad but I can't tell anyone because I feel like they don't give a fck so I close up on myself I should end me and yet I'm still there I feel like everybody is complaining about me in my back but I know it's not real and yet. Everytime I know I'm not enough I don't know how to use my hands and everything I do fails I'm a fcking failure and I should fcking d!e but I know that something keeps me here. I don't even have a lover why does someone would love something like me I'm the ugliest people that you can find I feel like everybody have an ick about me but I stay with them I can't tell how much I hate me I'm ugly when I cry I'm ugly everytime I have no style I'm weird nobody wants me and the only person that I love is my ex that is a toxic guy. Not even girls want me why does nobody loves me... I have friends but I feel like I'm all alone.. even when I try to talk to them about it I feel like a pick me or something like that and I hate it I just want to confess to stranger that wouldn't judge me but I can't even the friend that don't know me well I can't tell them because I have to stay strong and keep it to myself but I hate I can't even cry anymore I my best friend must be so tired of le everytime I seek I say to much or I don't say what should be said when I talk I feel like everybody is judging me I can't stand people sight like the attention that some people gave me is not good I start having panick attack every time I do one little mistake in front of the class or if I break something I feel like I'm gonna get killed and the eyes of my classmates on me watching me cry because I can't keep it it's horrifying I feel like I'm in a nightmare that is never gonna end like if I can't hear people everything turn blurry tears start coming up but I can't hold them so people see me cry for a little mistake because the teacher is explaining me what I've done wrong but I feel like I'm getting yelled at and the tears just go up it's the worst feeling ever or the feeling that everyone is laughing at you... You just want to get out and run to hide and cry it's the worst fcking thing you're just here, the teacher tell the notes up voice and you hear you'res... You see it's bad and all again you can't see you just want to go out and hide so that nobody can see you and laugh I just don't know what my problem is I don't know how to behave in a relationship like who talk who listens is the little attention too much ? Or am I annoying ? I think my attachment for people is to quick and big but I don't know them much so maybe they're using me for something else or maybe I'm annoying and they don't want to tell me and what if I have a attention problem love with people is just hard like you either do to much or not enough am I enough ? Like do I'm gonna get into college and have a job ? I'm just a fcking failure that wasn't supposed to exist and if I don't do well in school she's gonna hate me... What's the point of existing of I'm not at my best ? Like if I don't graduate what am I gonna do who am I gonna be ? In this world full of people that succeed if I don't what's gonna happen ? I need to graduate for me, for my mom. To save the honor of this family i feel like it's my duty because my brother is a failure my father didn't succeed in school and my mom is depressed from the behavior of my brother and my step dad so I have to put this weight on my shoulders every day. Being the mothers of the house. Doing my work like I could but it's not enough. I should d!e. I can't even have 17/20 to one exam it's depressing why am I so dumb. What am I really ? A fucking dumb b!tch failure that should have d!ed years ago. And I just want someone to love, someone that love's me. But I don't know how to behave in love I'm fat dumb ugly and without my friends I'm nothing but I always destroy everything... Why am I like this... I feel like I'm not normal I don't fit with "normal" people like I don't like party because the people mentality is generally not good if you say you like something they judge you if you don't like this they judge you... They're not very open minded and I prefer to play game with my friends or watch a movie than go with people that are dumb maybe I'm not normal I watch show that nobody know I don't fit with the "popular kids" I like things that nobody like and I prefer to be with my friend or alone than party with people like that. Is it normal ? I'm so open minded that even my friends judges things that I respect or like right know I'm with my friends and I just feel transparent they are talking and laughing on the boat at a table and I'm here writing this the only thing that they asked me was "how do you translate this ?" Why do people's just use me when they want... People don't love me how can they love me if I don't even like myself... Who would want someone like me I'm weak, dumb,weird, disgusting and I may have attachment issues so why do I try so hard but nothing works the "normal people" are appreciated by everyone so why not me why does people hate me ? I'm such a people pleaser but the other don't and when I'm angry people laugh at my face for having fcking emotion I just want to bottle up if I'm honest they don't like me but if lie they get mad to so what am I supposed to do ? I am amazed by little things that people think are dumb so why does I like it ? Why can't I be like everyone else ? And what am I ? I don't even what is my sexuality... Why does the people that don't like me and that I don't like are popular and why am I weird ? I just want to be love by someone... I try so hard but all I can do is cry about it and y'a know what ? I can't even cry in public because this guy's told me one day "you're strong, you don't cry in public not like her" so I just keep all to myself... It's so hard because if I keep it to myself I explode at time and I spoil everything by yelling on my friends and my family but when I talk about it they don't understand. And the worst is that I can't keep a smiley face when all I want to do is tell the truth to everyone. I just want to tell them what I really think but it'll end up being worst than ever so I keep all of that for me... Why do I break everything around me... My friends don't even talk to me anymore if I don't engage the conversation I think I bored them... Ther is some errors but im not english ( this come from my notes ) sorry if there's thing that are not very logical

This is a long one.. So basically me and this girl like each other so i told her and she asked to date. A week in and she says she wants to dump me. Me and her bff are really good friends. But then my gf (ex now) said lies abt me. And i stood my grounds. Now her and her bff hate me. Ty for reading have a great day!

To anyone reading this I just wanted to say that I hope you’re feeling okay and keep that smile going not the fake one the REAL one. I love you. I love you because you are still here after everything you gone through, I love you because you never left this world, I love you for going to school, I love you so much that I would die if you weren’t here. ❤️Stay here and you’ll feel safe n loved very much!❤️ even if you’re parents don’t show you affection it doesn’t mean they don’t love you they’re just grown up’s they never dealt with this when they were younger. I promise you that they love you. (I’m sorry though. I don’t usually write so it will sound weird..)

Is it bad that im 11 and cut myself ?

думаю, тут мало русских коментариев, но читая истории людей ниже, становится одновременно и безумно грустно за них, и радостно, что они делятся своими сложностями и переживаниями здесь в коментариях. жизнь безумно тяжелая штука, которую далеко не каждый может осилить. но даже в таком случае, вы прекрасные лучики солнца! не расстраивайтесь из-за неудач, любите себя, пожалуйста, уважайте себя и свое тело, кушайте вовремя!! у вас все обязательно получится! хоть и не могу обнять каждого, но передаю вам свои виртуальные объятия через экран🤲

its funny how every time your so close to getting what you want in life and then you lose it over and over again

yall listen to this playlist to cry, i listen to it to RELAX!! smoothing fr

There is so much pain. The only option is to keep moving forward. Going through the pain yourself hurts. Seeing someone go through the same thing, just breaks you.

I'm going through a break up and my bsf since we were babies just told me we need to go on a break from our friendship.. She's my only friend and we have never had any fights before. she's been hanging out with my ex's new gf who hates me. I just feel so alone. I'm what to do anymkre

“ what if.. I let the knife go..? “

I only have 1 friend and she's the reason I haven't hung myself yet. But she haven't really talked to me for about a week. I feel more alone than ever

For anyone who hasn't heard this in a while; I'm proud of you. <3

Tbh after all the battles with myself i win to live, but right now its seems the long war is about end, i feel like i have never met a person who is similar to me lonely whent they have people around them feeling like you have someone but they're not turlly there. It may sound dumb, but i wished and hoped for a better life and atm i feel like committing

it’s even worse when you realise strangers on the internet keep you more sane than the people you know in real life.

Im here because im home alone

To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! - Not mine, but pass it around guys <33

I feel alone even in a room full of people

I used to say im tird as an excuse for messing up.and being sad antill it became true and i wasent just always not happy turned out to be depreshon

vent- i have to, to someone, even if i dont know them I've been in a long lame of covering up for 8 years, i'm 14, and i have no idea what to do. I've gone to escapism so many times i cant tell what's real anymore, i want to end it all but i dont want to feel pain, i'm lost, but i dont have an end goal. I dont know how i should feel, i have to go to school but my anxiety makes my want to throw up. Parents tell me i can say whats wrong but i know i cant, pretending to care about people when i do actually care, just dont have the energy to actually show it. I dont know what to do, i'm stuck, i'm depressed, i'm lost, i'm lonely (even with people here for me, i dont feel like it), i'm over it, i dont care anymore. I just want to sleep forever, i want to go but i cant, i stop but time keeps going. "it just a phase" is so wrong, its the age where you realize everything that's wrong with your life, with your parents, your childhood, you... me. I want to be there for everyone else, and i give chances to everyone, and no matter how many times i do, i never get the chances i need, the people i need, and to be honest, i dont want them. I know i need them but i dont want them. I want to help myself, alone, but i know i cant, and i hate it, i hate people, i hate everything, i hate me.

All my friends are duos and I'm the one stuck there with everybody , I'll stay there and watch them talk with each other making me feel left out , I understand that they are closer than I'm with them but why is it always me to feel left out why always me , I'm the third person always it makes me feel like I'm holding on them so I could feel like I have friends but it's all too much , there's nobody that I can share my feelings with , everytime I make a friend I hope that maybe, maybe we'll get close to know about each other I have to keep smiling because if I don't then others will ask me what is wrong with me , i started to love myself , i started to realise that it will always be me so I have to embrace myself but oh they don't even let me do this , they come make me feel like I'm there and the next day they're gone , I dont even trust anyone. The biggest problem is I'm a people's person and i love to help them , I want them to know that we can live with love and care but it all goes in vain when they start to hurt me and leave me alone , there's this sadness in me that I don't know how it came but it feels so different , I want to cry to my friend and get comforted but at the same time I don't want to talk to them I just don't understand what's happening with me . I feel like crying , I feel like I lack something . I feel like nobody likes me , they don't care if I'm there or not because I'm always everyone's another option. I was alone today too , sitting and all my others friends talking with each other , I feel like they are going on with their life while in stuck in this small matter , there is this strike of loneliness that hit me and now I'm here

I'm seriously drained this month, My girlfriend with suicidal problems tried to kill herself 3 time just this month for due to her trauma seeing her assaulter being free, I saved her all 3 times but the last one broke me because my parents tried to stop me from saving her and said they'll disown me if I save her this time, I chose to save her, when I got back home my stuff is already packed near the couch now I'm currently living with my best friend's apartment.

Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You're such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you're alone you're not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don't beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won't ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don't feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don't want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don't want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it's not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you?. You're not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you're reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don't live up to other standards! It's your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn't, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there's no other, hug like it’s your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You're so strong, you're still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You're not a burden to anyone, don't be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You're beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don't starve yourself. Please eat, I know it's hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you're in pain : ( you deserve so much man, don't let your emotions control you. Don't let them get the best of you. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it's night for you, go to sleep, I know it's hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don't let them fight you. If it's day for you, don't start it by such sad music, I know it's impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. It's evening for you, you re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it's okay to feel the way you feel. You don't need to be scared, of course you're overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn't? But it's important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you're stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don't know much a smile can brighten someone's day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don't need to fake it anymore, because I can't say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You're worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as vou can but don't let the emotion control you by giving up. It's okay, you're here, you're safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don't think you're doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don't give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn't know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words :> (ps someone else has said this! i just wanted to spread the word, you are loved <3)

Why are these playlists more comfort than anyone in my life have given? Is it mental illness or a problem with everyone around me? Most likely, its me

I hurt yet no one believes me. My skin isn’t purple or blue, my body doesn’t have handprints of you. So why ignore me when I say I’m hurt. Your toung pierces my chest your eyes speak volumes you praise him but not me

Another day another year….the sight of get grey brings me to tears as red wires fill my lungs yet to be loved. Another memory into dust my name is gone