It is a huge epiphany when - usually at therapy - one realises that they have been needlessly strict and unfair with themselves. I think therapy makes people genuinely kinder. I'm happy for you :)
I don't think inattentive alone means "milder". I never had the hyperactive aspect, but from 4th grade on, with homework demands (yes, American), my grades plummeted. I had to take summer school in high school even though I was kicked ahead in English early on. Study hall actually helped. I eventually went to college for 4 years, but only completed 60 hours (2y), and then got kicked out for good. Jobs really suffered, too, and I was ALWAYS late EVERYWHERE. I fell into IT in my late 20s, really freeing me professionally. I was diagnosed at age 35, and meds really really really helped. In 2000 there was precious little help for adults, so I still struggled then, less so now. My wife is naturally organized and on time and even completes what she starts! Before diagnosis she just thought me being late was me not caring. The diagnosis saved our marriage, but still after 12 years of damage. Things have been SOOOO much better since. I'm so glad you got diagnosed! My dream as a child was to follow Carl Sagan, but I could never study well enough. By my teens I just figured I was broken, and that feeling still haunts me at 57, even though I now know what held me back. I'm doing very very well now professionally, so I managed to pull up before crashing and burning. My main help is Adderall with Wellbutrin. All my life focus was me at a desk in an office with a party going on just outside. Every little snippet of talk distracted me. The first time I took Adderall it was like I finally had an office door I could close. I could actually point my brain at something! Like Penn Holderness in The Amazing Race I sometimes use hyperfocus like a superpower, and other times just like pointing my brain at a thing without struggling. The Holderness' won their season...the only time I could actually watch and appreciate The Amazing Race. There is hope out there for those who struggle. You have so much fun ahead of you, and that is just all kinds of awesome! Thank you for sharing!
My diagnosis happened a bit later in life, but really helped understand some of the stuff in the past. Meds are great when I need to work on something "properly", as even hyperfocus has its limits if a task is complex enough and has to be tackled over the course of a few days / weeks. Still trying to find the perfect balance of indulging my brain vs. forcing it to do something specific, but just knowing the issue exists is amazing for realising when your system is being silly and when it really is time to take a break. (oh, and on the caffein thing -- yup. Had to change some of my coffee / tea habits as the meds suddenly made caffeine work as intended, which was a nasty surprise for my already chaotic sleep cycles)
I haven't been formerly diagnosed with ADHD (I haven't even gone to any therapist regarding that) but I think I might have it. I'm now 17 years old and I've encountered ways of helping me focus. I related very much with what you said about deadlines. I find it very difficult to start a project unless the deadline is nearby (as you said perfectionism goes a bit down, but in my case it still is very high). I also am the kind of person that can't sit still at any moment. I have to be with a ruler in my hands, or tapping the table with my fingers, making noises with my feet... In order to concentrate. I have many things on my mind at the same time, and I find it difficult to focus on particular things. However, if I enter a project that really motivates me and takes 100% of my attention, I can work on it for for three hours on a row or maybe more. If not... Things get more complicated. I tend to procastinate a LOT (if there's something i must submit in the near future, I procastinate even more) and studying a lot of time in a row is hard. However I manage to make it all work and I ended up with the equivalent of all A+ in my country. So... Yea... What should I do? Is it worth it to go to a specialist and having this checked?
In my case, I have some similar issues (prone to put things off to the last minute, procrastinate, or just blow stuff off), and also tend to use caffeine to aid with focus, etc. However, I am diagnosed as autistic (originally Asperger's, but this definition no longer exists, as it would apparently now be called "level 1 autism" or similar). General "life skills" are mostly absent, and I mostly tend to get caught up in working on my own projects (though not many other people tend to care all that much about my projects). Some amount of other issues as well. Also, not very emotional (usually), and some amount of meta issues related to this. Decided to leave most of this out (it gets long), mostly stuff related to ethics, and what if one relies more on minimax and similar than on subjective emotional experiences (but, then finds the definitions assume subjective emotional experience, rather than minimax or similar). Sometimes worrying...
Overly excessive caffeine consumption was pretty much most of my 20's. I don't think I could start any of my code assignments without less than 10hrs before hand in, carton of cigarettes and 2 large bottles of coke-cola, just to have the motivation to start them. And only been diagnosed with adhd 1 yr ago, I'm still finding it hard to know what is me been lazy vs me having a bad brain day
Very interesting. My wife has yet to be officially diagnosed, but after researching extensivley she is certain that the symptoms she has point to adhd. Appreciate your insight. Thanks!
People get burned out ADHD or not especially in the software / technology industry so don't let anything stop you from achieving your goals because you are smart, beautiful and intelligent. Also you are always in control of your brain no matter the impulse like AI one only needs training P.s I'm a perfectioness as well.
Not that I know anything. But I was diagnosed with a mental illness but like how mental health professional s diagnose patients is like how people say gluten free, zero sugar. It overemphasis on individual, in mental illness overemphasis on individual behavior and not enough on well the environment is being more computational and human and tech is being blurred and as with most commercialized tech, the brain tech is being commercialized to be a monopoly. People always talk about american monopolies but nobody talks about geomonopolies. Like did we really not talk about who owns science and some of them are authoritarian. Like because we didn't talk about who owns science we didn't confront the science, commercialized science, health systems that are authoritarian. Like why.
To challenge your argument about ADHD, you seem to describe more a presentation of a perfectionist with anxiety, rather than ADHD. I’m only saying that because you keep mentioning things like “knowing your limit” and being better with autonomy as opposed to structure. ADHD is more a self regulation and time blindness disorder than an issue of procrastination and focus. Your experience seems more in alignment with a perfectionist who is also anxious and so that then presents itself in procrastination and reduced focus, as we know anxiety can affect working memory as well. I am not saying this to invalidate your struggles, it’s just that ADHD is a chronic and burdensome label to carry for the rest of your life, and it seems like your issues are more in line with reasons that are not as chronic and more easily manageable. I hope you take this in a nice way I’m only trying to be kind and supportive here
It is a huge epiphany when - usually at therapy - one realises that they have been needlessly strict and unfair with themselves. I think therapy makes people genuinely kinder. I'm happy for you :)
I don't think inattentive alone means "milder". I never had the hyperactive aspect, but from 4th grade on, with homework demands (yes, American), my grades plummeted. I had to take summer school in high school even though I was kicked ahead in English early on. Study hall actually helped. I eventually went to college for 4 years, but only completed 60 hours (2y), and then got kicked out for good.
Jobs really suffered, too, and I was ALWAYS late EVERYWHERE. I fell into IT in my late 20s, really freeing me professionally. I was diagnosed at age 35, and meds really really really helped. In 2000 there was precious little help for adults, so I still struggled then, less so now.
My wife is naturally organized and on time and even completes what she starts! Before diagnosis she just thought me being late was me not caring. The diagnosis saved our marriage, but still after 12 years of damage. Things have been SOOOO much better since.
I'm so glad you got diagnosed! My dream as a child was to follow Carl Sagan, but I could never study well enough. By my teens I just figured I was broken, and that feeling still haunts me at 57, even though I now know what held me back. I'm doing very very well now professionally, so I managed to pull up before crashing and burning.
My main help is Adderall with Wellbutrin. All my life focus was me at a desk in an office with a party going on just outside. Every little snippet of talk distracted me. The first time I took Adderall it was like I finally had an office door I could close. I could actually point my brain at something! Like Penn Holderness in The Amazing Race I sometimes use hyperfocus like a superpower, and other times just like pointing my brain at a thing without struggling. The Holderness' won their season...the only time I could actually watch and appreciate The Amazing Race. There is hope out there for those who struggle.
You have so much fun ahead of you, and that is just all kinds of awesome! Thank you for sharing!
My diagnosis happened a bit later in life, but really helped understand some of the stuff in the past. Meds are great when I need to work on something "properly", as even hyperfocus has its limits if a task is complex enough and has to be tackled over the course of a few days / weeks. Still trying to find the perfect balance of indulging my brain vs. forcing it to do something specific, but just knowing the issue exists is amazing for realising when your system is being silly and when it really is time to take a break.
(oh, and on the caffein thing -- yup. Had to change some of my coffee / tea habits as the meds suddenly made caffeine work as intended, which was a nasty surprise for my already chaotic sleep cycles)
I haven't been formerly diagnosed with ADHD (I haven't even gone to any therapist regarding that) but I think I might have it. I'm now 17 years old and I've encountered ways of helping me focus. I related very much with what you said about deadlines. I find it very difficult to start a project unless the deadline is nearby (as you said perfectionism goes a bit down, but in my case it still is very high). I also am the kind of person that can't sit still at any moment. I have to be with a ruler in my hands, or tapping the table with my fingers, making noises with my feet... In order to concentrate. I have many things on my mind at the same time, and I find it difficult to focus on particular things. However, if I enter a project that really motivates me and takes 100% of my attention, I can work on it for for three hours on a row or maybe more. If not... Things get more complicated. I tend to procastinate a LOT (if there's something i must submit in the near future, I procastinate even more) and studying a lot of time in a row is hard. However I manage to make it all work and I ended up with the equivalent of all A+ in my country. So... Yea... What should I do? Is it worth it to go to a specialist and having this checked?
It's great seeing creators I watch open up about this kind of thing. 😁
Thank you for sharing! Always appreciate someone in a similar situation sharing their experience ^^
thanks for talking like this
as much as i love you ai vids this is by far ny fav video
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In my case, I have some similar issues (prone to put things off to the last minute, procrastinate, or just blow stuff off), and also tend to use caffeine to aid with focus, etc. However, I am diagnosed as autistic (originally Asperger's, but this definition no longer exists, as it would apparently now be called "level 1 autism" or similar). General "life skills" are mostly absent, and I mostly tend to get caught up in working on my own projects (though not many other people tend to care all that much about my projects). Some amount of other issues as well. Also, not very emotional (usually), and some amount of meta issues related to this. Decided to leave most of this out (it gets long), mostly stuff related to ethics, and what if one relies more on minimax and similar than on subjective emotional experiences (but, then finds the definitions assume subjective emotional experience, rather than minimax or similar). Sometimes worrying...
Overly excessive caffeine consumption was pretty much most of my 20's. I don't think I could start any of my code assignments without less than 10hrs before hand in, carton of cigarettes and 2 large bottles of coke-cola, just to have the motivation to start them. And only been diagnosed with adhd 1 yr ago, I'm still finding it hard to know what is me been lazy vs me having a bad brain day
It's amazing how many people I know in DS that have ADHD.
Very interesting. My wife has yet to be officially diagnosed, but after researching extensivley she is certain that the symptoms she has point to adhd. Appreciate your insight. Thanks!
People get burned out ADHD or not especially in the software / technology industry so don't let anything stop you from achieving your goals because you are smart, beautiful and intelligent. Also you are always in control of your brain no matter the impulse like AI one only needs training P.s I'm a perfectioness as well.
I'm fairly certain I have ADHD but I'm not officially diagnosed.
If you're comfortable answering, which medications have helped you the most and are you comorbidity with SCT?
Not that I know anything. But I was diagnosed with a mental illness but like how mental health professional s diagnose patients is like how people say gluten free, zero sugar. It overemphasis on individual, in mental illness overemphasis on individual behavior and not enough on well the environment is being more computational and human and tech is being blurred and as with most commercialized tech, the brain tech is being commercialized to be a monopoly. People always talk about american monopolies but nobody talks about geomonopolies. Like did we really not talk about who owns science and some of them are authoritarian. Like because we didn't talk about who owns science we didn't confront the science, commercialized science, health systems that are authoritarian. Like why.
I really like your mind. I wish I can meet you one day. I feel like we are very much the same.
To challenge your argument about ADHD, you seem to describe more a presentation of a perfectionist with anxiety, rather than ADHD. I’m only saying that because you keep mentioning things like “knowing your limit” and being better with autonomy as opposed to structure. ADHD is more a self regulation and time blindness disorder than an issue of procrastination and focus. Your experience seems more in alignment with a perfectionist who is also anxious and so that then presents itself in procrastination and reduced focus, as we know anxiety can affect working memory as well. I am not saying this to invalidate your struggles, it’s just that ADHD is a chronic and burdensome label to carry for the rest of your life, and it seems like your issues are more in line with reasons that are not as chronic and more easily manageable. I hope you take this in a nice way I’m only trying to be kind and supportive here
How many people suffered with ADHD 100 years ago?