I found myself a bit emotional recording the end of this video. If you see this, and you’re genuinely struggling- know that things really get better, plenty of people have had similar thoughts, and there’s so much cool stuff you haven’t done. Love you all. Love yourself too.
Jack, I came here to post about how much I felt your words, "you are not alone." It touched me pretty deep dude. Like I said, I feel ya, I hear ya and one day at the time homie. We really appreciate you and you are not alone either... BTW, my apologies if I'm off base or even out of line. Not my intention
I lost my son 13 years ago. He was a closeted, very shy boy ,and had alot of mental health conditions ,who could never ask for help. He moved away into his own apartment when he was 17 . I dont know why i let him leave , because i could see he wasnt okay. He just wouldnt let me help him. Being by himself , lead him down the wrong path. Like the man in this video, he documented his insanity through long pages of bullet-point notebooks . I remember not understanding the situation and reading through every single page . My son took his life 24th November 2010 , by hanging himself in his apartment . Police found that he had set his left arm on fire in attempt to kill himself, when that didnt work he resorted to being hung. I miss my boy every day and i wish i could just ask him one question: what could i have done to help you? I love you John , you'll forever be in my heart . love, dad xx
Björk is so kind and sympathetic for what happened this late mentality unstable guy and sent her condolences to his family. She is so nice at that time and it touches my heart. Kudos to Björk.
So few content creators consider the impact of their work. Congratulations for having the forethought and compassion to leave the directions and support at the end. I wish you well in your endeavours.
Jack, this was a tragic and sad story. It's difficult seeing someone gradually slip away from what the rest of us call, "reality." When I was almost 20, my family watched this happen to one of my older brothers. Sadly, we didn't realize what was happening and our plans to get him help fell short by less than a day. You never expect the unthinkable to happen in your family. My brother ended up committing suicide using a shotgun under his chin. I witnessed it. Dude, if you died, a huge gap would be left in RUclips. It would be a hole that nobody could possibly fill.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Sometimes mental health issues creep on people too fast for their loved ones to take action. I’ve been in psychosis before, it’s a really scary place to be in your head because you really do believe your delusions are real. I know I put my family through a lot of pain because I was so unwell and I said some awful things while I was unwell but the thing about family is they understand you don’t mean it because they could tell I wasn’t myself at those times. With the right medication and therapy I recovered from psychosis but I understand others aren’t as lucky as me and my heart goes out to everyone who’s lost a loved one to mental illness. ❤
@@extremecoolguyyy oh man I'm so glad you got help.my brother lived his whole life mentally ill. I took care of him Unfortunately his meds were so strong it messed with him. He was a war veteran ( Vietnam) He saw awful things I feel like I went to war too. He's gone He had a break down and walked into an oncoming car He didn't know what hit him..... I'll tell you I'm so proud that you are strong enough to get help and stay with that. He would be with me now if he would have taken his meds. I miss him so bad. May God bless you and your family. Stay strong ok Respect and love from Va....
@@cherriexluvs3494 Thank you! I was in really rough shape for a long time but, I am okay, now. I had some friends that wouldn't leave me alone. I'm very grateful to them for that. Even though it has been a lifetime ago, I still miss my brother.
Oh, thank you for mentioning this case, Jack. Björk is my absolute favorite artist. I met her in 2000 in a discotheque in Brussels. She had a gig as a dj and afterwards she danced and talked with the audience. Which considering the events you talk about in this case was not so evident. Ricardo Lopez is every artist's nightmare. Pure horror!
I was graduating high school when this happened and I remember this story all to well... took me on a trip back to memory lane. His painted face use to haunt me at night.. thanks for covering this story and resurfacing a true nightmare
Sounds like you're roughly about the same age as me. I also commented that I was 22 when this story happened in 96 but Bjork was my favorite singer in the early 90s. She was all over MTV and 180 Minutes at night. This took me right back to that time for sure.
My husband has never liked my true crime so I usually watch them with my headphones, but to my surprise, he ran across one of your stories and now he likes them a lot. And since he showed me, now I look forward to watching your channel with him. You are the best storyteller. Your voice, your expressions and your motions. 💯
I feel really bad for this guy. I wish someone knew how much pain he was in and had counseled him so that this tragic suicide could have been prevented. No one deserves to suffer alone. We are all worthy of love and respect.
This was a person who didn't believe he was worthy of love himself. That is the problem with these kinds of personalities, they are unable to love themselves and believe they are not worthy of anyone's love. That is why he slipped into insanity.
Whoever is reading this, I wanted to say I hope you have a great day and that God loves you so much that He sent His son, Jesus, to die on a cross for your sins and He rose again from the dead three days later. God Bless! And also, He doesn't want you to go to Hell, but He wants you to go to Heaven with Him but you have to be Saved. How do I get Saved you might ask? Here are the steps below on how to get Saved! 1. Believe that God sent His Son (Jesus) to die on a cross for your sins and that He rose again from the dead 3 days later. 2. Confess to Jesus that you are a sinner and ask forgiveness for your sins and Turn away from your sins. If you sin again after asking forgiveness of that sin, ask forgiveness again and try not to do it ever again. Jesus will forgive you! 3. Ask Jesus to come into your heart and your life and for Him to be your Lord and Savior forever. 4. Build a Personal Relationship with Jesus by Praying and Reading the Bible daily and Live for Him Forever. I'm Praying for you and you are loved Romans 10:9-13)
@@BatkoBratthat's really sad just imagine if he had friends who would be with him growing up Oh man imagine the stress of school how hard it must have been for him man I really love my friends
@@jacktheripper5662 Yeah, friendship is important, but I've seen people in my life have difficulty loving themselves and letting anyone else love them, despite having loving friends and family. It's a brain chemistry problem ultimately, atleast when it gets to a certain level. It's like a clinically depressed person, you cannot just tell them to be happy and grateful. They cannot even fathom it
Good girl and your family and friends is the new year to you and your family and friends is the new year to you and your family and I will be a special
Just discovered this channel and am hooked. Love the way you narrate. Very entertaining and keeps your attention. So many videos I get bored half way thru, but not yours. Keep it up. Loving it :)
This was such a terrible tragedy!! I feel so very sad for his family. I actually was able to watch almost all 20+ hours of his vhs tapes he made and I can honestly say, he was crying out for help for a long time. It is just a shame his family didn't listen until it was far too late. He was seeing a psychiatrist before this incident, however it was only for a few months. He should have been in counseling as a child. Anywho, thanks Jack for another beautifully made video, keep up the wonderful work you do!!
@@PcProcks stfu, were you there!? No, you weren't!! Yes I most definitely did!! Not on youtube obviously!! 😒 some stranger thinks they know what I've watched.....go troll someone else!!
Also to point out, this isn’t the only woman he obsessed about. The first was the girl who acted beetlejuice. He gave up when he found out she was married. And the aftermath from the bjørk, well her and Goldie broke up days before his suicide.
Now imagine if Geena Davis was married to a black man maybe tha would've put him over the edge, for him a black man is inferior to him (in his mind anyway) but a white is superior or on his level (again in his mind) so he was ok with that. Anyway fck this loser
This was honestly one of the only cases that has made me sick to my stomach especially after watching the full tapes and seeing his decent into madness and how he was losing sleep and paranoid and on edge as the tapes go by.
Watching his suicide still makes my skin crawl that urggggg he let out after shooting himself was horrible and the blood hitting the floor with the silence is haunting, how did you feel after it??
I remember watching the video of him unaliving himself on a website called Rotten (I don’t think it even exists anymore). I was like 13 or 14 and it was a bit traumatizing to see someone to out like that.
It's good that they're removing websites like these. People can be traumatised or even harm themselves by watching those kinds of videos. Edit: they also have a shock value, so someone could've gotten a link to a website they don't know and see stuff like this without even wanting to
@franky montana also seeing lives wasted that way... I couldn't care less about videogame gore, but real humans that existed dying that way just makes me sad Like... you've got your whole life ahead of you, why do that??
His voice is really one of the thing that keeps me on edge when I hear these stories because you truly have a suspensful tone while talking. Keep up the good work!!
I remember this case very clearly. Beyork is also one of my most favorite singers. I'm 48 years old so she was hitting stardom right when I was 18 and her music was spectacular, blasting all over MTV and the 180 Minutes alternative show on MTV. This case was everywhere on TV, in magazines, on the news....it was insane.
My guy you do a hell of a job holding the attention of the viewer and that's actually a hard feat! I remember when this happened and you making feel like a current event for a school presentation on the news that week. Great work
I might as well say it now, you and MrBallen should collaborate and make an episode together, that would be so cool seeing 2 very good story tellers collaborate to make one episode together,
Do you tend to obsess, sweetie? If so, it's easy enough to combat, if you come to understand why you do. There's probably a vacancy somewhere that we're trying to fill. Or, it could be OCD, which is also very easily remedied. Reach out, okay?
We ALL obsess to some degree or another. But not all of us will acknowledge, or even recognize it. It's good to hear that you do, and are taking steps to keep it from getting to a harmful level. Still, you don't have to go it alone. Onward & Upward, love.
what scares me the most about this case is that just about anyone could end up like this man. What scares me even more is that, i especially could end up like this. i develop obsessions and hyperfixations easily and if i was pushed far enough i could end up doing something like this, and knowing that scares me even more.
Plz seek help. The sooner the better. Admitting your situation is already a first step. And have no stigmas against taking pills if you have to. They are for sure overused, but they also save lives when it's really necessary. Much love to you
This was very helpful. I’ve already started to address my issues and work through them whether it be homeschooling or headphones or ignoring what people say. Do not be hesitant to get help or help yourself, you’ll need it and it will feel much better
Bjork was an established artist by 1993, not an emerging one! She had already sung in The SugarCubes throughout the 80s and had done quite a but of solo work by 93! She just wasn't known by the "mainstream" at the time.
@@Stjurgeon > Not knowing her is on you. Nope, it isn't. Nobody knows everybody. You can always become more popular. That was the point of my original comment.
I just want to tell this here A online friend from my sister, So, she Had a boyfriend who got abused from his dad and also had brain cancer. He Beat it and was cancer free. But he has committed suicide due to the abusing and so on. His father got into Jail for abusing him and so on and now to the friend of my sister. She has committed suicide 9 times because her boyfriend died. but she never succeeded in it. she tried to hang herself when her little sister was talking on roblox with my sis bc her friend gave the acc to her little sister and she heard a noise and ran to the noise and saw that she wanted to commit it again They called an ambulance and she is in a hospital and she will go in a mental hospital To get better health Its really sad what happened to her boyfriend hope she will be ok 🙏
i sat and watched all the tapes without commentary, alone. It was truly disturbing to see someone slowly lose hope even when they could've turned it around for the better with the right help. I thought to myself many times how someone could ever live and think this way.
I’m struggling really bad right now. I lost my wife of 20 years, my kids, my house, my job, and my financial security literally overnight. I don’t know how I’m gonna pick up the pieces. I’m completely broken. Luckily I’m able to stay with my folks. It’s still pretty embarrassing for a man in his 40’s. I’m hurting and I don’t know what to do. Therapy doesn’t work for me because I always pretend I’m someone else, it’s hard to explain. I don’t know what to do
It's going to be alright Jeff....think of it as a glich in the matrix of your life... choose to live again this time knowing you had accomplished and you can do it again...am praying for you
Just start over,maybe u need a new place like Thailand ,veitnam, or any such country where it's cheap living. Get some online work,move there,start over with new traditional woman after a few years. Gotta keep trying.
For a research project in college I watched about 80% of the tapes that you could download… honestly it was more sad and depressing than scary after you get to know this guy. The dude spiraled and over months it kept getting worse.
I watched this Dateline years ago when It originally aired. LITERALLY this episode has stuck with me ever since. His disturbing decisions and decent in madness were unbelievably shocking.
I feel kind of conflicted hitting the like button on your stories!, reason being, I absolutely love your story telling, but the content is just so horrific! You tell your stories so well I'm always a tad traumatized and or I'm praying for the victims and their families!!!! Side note, (absolutely nothing to do with your videos or channel!) Does anybody else hate when they put on these true crime stories and say "SOME" viewers may find this disturbing? Omg, "ALL" viewers should be disturbed!! ! LOL thank you so much for bringing the historic and current stories for us! Literally can't get enough!
Now, I know this is screwed up but I am honestly impressed by his creative ability. Honestly his sulfuric acid sprayer thing is actually quite fascinating. (I swear I’m not insane)
I'm sure many ppl allready said this but u have an incredibly classy voice, great for commentary and storytelling. Good content my guy, have a blessed day.
The biggest problem with these videos is…..I WISH THEY WERE LONGER!! I for one LOVE deep dive videos that are anywhere from 30-60 mins. I just discovered this channel and I’m sure that’s probably why it was never recommended to me despite the fact I watch A TON of true crime content. Either way this kid has a great voice for narration and he makes good content.
Jack you are a pleasure to watch and listen to. Thanks for your perfectly balanced content. It’s a little bit of everything but never strays from its main essence. Always very well done. Great taste and grace. Fantastic.
How have I never stumbled across your channel before? I've been watching true crime for a few years and just found you TODAY! What a handsome fella you are and love the narration voice!! I remember hearing about this guy in the 90's but I hadn't heard all the details.. Just subbed.. I bet your channel is about to skyrocket!!!
Jack I have respect for you. You sit through these long ass sad stories just for our entertainment definitely subscribing keep up the amazing good work bro.
Happy new years,I hope you and everyone else in the comments are doing great, remember to relax, take breaks and do what you enjoy.And of course make the best out of your year. Idk if this should be shared but today I moved up a rank in my violin class so now I'll be playing harder songs just something I wanted to share.
Hey Jack, haven't seen you in awhile. Glad you're doing what you do. You're a great story teller, and presenter. I've always liked your content. Keep it real and you will go far.
I’m..young and thought about what you talking about at the end but now I ashamed of thinking about it because it won’t just effect me it will effect the people around me than you jack from the bottom of my heart
There's no need to be ashamed. Please reach out to someone you are close to. There is help out there for any problems you are experiencing. Thank you for your comment and I truly hope the best for you. Any issue can be overcome or dealt with in new light.
@@sharkbait3332 I actually did it once, with one of my close friends, and she was also suffering the same exact thing, and now since I’m Christian, I always think to myself whenever I think those bad thoughts, I always say, “God wouldn’t like it if I ****** myself, he made me, I have so much more to live for, for him, for my family.” Thank you, Jack Neel, for opening my eyes. Thank you
I know that some people have those thoughts of suicide, me included. It’s funny how a little time usually changes that perspective. Get help if you stay in that mindset. Once your dead, your dead. There is a Heaven and a Hell for eternity. God is real.
Added this to my binge watch playlist for after my knee surgery tomorrow! I actually have all of your videos in said playlist. Regarding the case covered, I personally believe that people who worship others like Ricardo did Bjork felt so lonely and unloved by their family during childhood. This would lead to them just wanting love and approval from someone they think highly of. Such a sad deal.
You keep having to remember that he was making these videos in the 90s, long before RUclips or other video sharing platforms existed, meaning that nobody (other than the police) was seeing them; which makes it all the more eerie when he addresses the camera as 'my friends' or 'everybody' as if he's talking to an audience. It feels eerie watching these on youtube because he sounds like a vlogger, it fits on the platform perfectly. You keep having to remember that he's not making these for an audience. He's alone, often late at night, talking to nobody.
I stumbled upon your videos last year or so and I've enjoyed your content and your narration skills are wonderful. Thank you for your hard work. Mr. Ballin would be proud. ☺️
2:51 an extra X *female* chromosome, not "male" as you said. X = female, Y = male. Having an extra X (female) chromosome would be why his male genitalia was abnormally small. Doesn't make sense the other way around.
its so tragic. seeing how a normal guy can turn so corrupted in a matter of seconds. never think of the worst for you. always remember you are a important part in somebodies life.
I am obsessed with your videos! Please, do not take that the wrong way, I just love your contents and your unique story telling technique. After this story, was not sure if I should even use the word "obsessed" lol. Sad and tragic story, mental illness is not something to be ignored. 😞I also binge watch your shorts, and recently been watching the longer videos. ♥️ Unfortunately, MrBallen is still #1 in my book 😏 However, both of you have awesome narrative skills!! 👍🏼👍🏼
@@oktoberina True but at the same time OP is aware of that and clarified with "do not take that the wrong way." Not even sure what you're aiming at by pointing out the obvious there.
3:34 “Oh who is sheeee…you’re such a strange girl, I think-“ But in all actuality this is a horrible and sad story, this entire story is just depressing
Gynecomastia is actually horrible. Kids in school were relentless, I was actually tortured by many of them. Essentially If you are a male and have this, your upper body develops like a female. My surgery was on July 10, 1979 I was 20, and that was badly botched. Honestly the scars are worse than having the overgrown tissue. The surgeon lied and said the scars would be very small and not noticeable. I am now over 60 and have never taken my shirt off in public! Reconstructive surgery to correct the butcher job he did was unattainable, was very expensive and needed to be paid advance. I am very successful and NEVER looked back. I see various posts all the time with guys in the gym complaining about body dysmorphia, I relate so well with them. Thank you so much for sharing. There is a CSI episode "The Case of the Cross Dressing Carp" that shows the condition and the sad results in detail. Please please talk to someone, YOU are a Survivor!
Hey. Just wanted to tell you that ladies dig scars. You could maybe even spin questions about them into cool stories or even pickup lines. "How'd you get those scars?" "I actually saw you a while ago, and my heart leapt outta my chest. They put it back... but on the wrong side! 😖"
I got drug induced gyno, mostly only noticeable on one side. Doctors didn't take me seriously and said the tissue would disappear. It ended up scarring over before I could buy drugs online (SERMs) meant to reduce it. I was saving up for the surgery (couple thousand), but kind of came to get used to it even though it can be uncomfortable sometimes. It's not BAD, but like you said, it's different when you're the one looking at it in the mirror every day or you feel that weird sensation sometimes, you know what I'm talking about. I wish male body dysmorphia was more talked away, but it's unfortunately just becoming worse now with male beauty standards. Hope you're doing well old pal
Bro your videos are amazing I anticipate every upload you're a great content creator and an amazing narrator I love watching your videos while I'm gaming or just doing other random things they're amazing so keep up the good work brother and stay safe
This is one of only a few cases where has genuinely disturbed me. Another factor are these low resolution leaks of the crime scene photos of Ricardo's apartment and his body (which was shown here)--the photos with his body are disturbing because his head is obscured and the leak has a pink hue over it, making it more disturbing to me.
6:30 *_"He makes a plan so he can attack her from a distance and not be the one held responsible."_* How are you people empathizing with monsters? I can't imagine a worse fate than an acid attack. The world is better off without people like this. MUCH better.
I found myself a bit emotional recording the end of this video.
If you see this, and you’re genuinely struggling- know that things really get better, plenty of people have had similar thoughts, and there’s so much cool stuff you haven’t done.
Love you all. Love yourself too.
I hope you're having a good day
Luv u too
Same I always feel bad for anyone that goes insane with a bad past
Jack, I came here to post about how much I felt your words, "you are not alone." It touched me pretty deep dude. Like I said, I feel ya, I hear ya and one day at the time homie. We really appreciate you and you are not alone either...
BTW, my apologies if I'm off base or even out of line. Not my intention
Love ya too man. Take care.
I appreciate how respectful you are even while trying to lighten the mood
The thumbnail looks so corny, it has the trademark shock face expression, it looks so dumb
lol yea, that generic youtube shock face for the thumbnail is real respectful
I lost my son 13 years ago. He was a closeted, very shy boy ,and had alot of mental health conditions ,who could never ask for help. He moved away into his own apartment when he was 17 . I dont know why i let him leave , because i could see he wasnt okay. He just wouldnt let me help him. Being by himself , lead him down the wrong path. Like the man in this video, he documented his insanity through long pages of bullet-point notebooks . I remember not understanding the situation and reading through every single page . My son took his life 24th November 2010 , by hanging himself in his apartment . Police found that he had set his left arm on fire in attempt to kill himself, when that didnt work he resorted to being hung. I miss my boy every day and i wish i could just ask him one question: what could i have done to help you?
I love you John , you'll forever be in my heart .
love, dad xx
Man, I feel so sorry for you, you shouldn't have had to gone through this i'm sure your son is looking down on you god bless.🕊
I cant even say anything... i don't even know what to say... I'm so sorry, just hope that everyones okay, and i feel like I'm going to cry right now.
You did the best you could, James.
😭thats so sad
Björk is so kind and sympathetic for what happened this late mentality unstable guy and sent her condolences to his family. She is so nice at that time and it touches my heart. Kudos to Björk.
You are a Gigachad for saying that, just take your crown and keep living
@@ianredfield4553 thanks man.
@Jackbones10 that’s not what happened
@Jackbones sending flowers at the funeral of the guy who tried to kill her but definitely needed help
She only did the right thing
HAHAHAHAHAHA! She's doing it for the eyes of the people. Deep down, she of course is disgusted of him.
Oh, the naivety of some people!
So few content creators consider the impact of their work.
Congratulations for having the forethought and compassion to leave the directions and support at the end.
I wish you well in your endeavours.
Jack, this was a tragic and sad story. It's difficult seeing someone gradually slip away from what the rest of us call, "reality." When I was almost 20, my family watched this happen to one of my older brothers. Sadly, we didn't realize what was happening and our plans to get him help fell short by less than a day. You never expect the unthinkable to happen in your family. My brother ended up committing suicide using a shotgun under his chin. I witnessed it.
Dude, if you died, a huge gap would be left in RUclips. It would be a hole that nobody could possibly fill.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Sometimes mental health issues creep on people too fast for their loved ones to take action.
I’ve been in psychosis before, it’s a really scary place to be in your head because you really do believe your delusions are real. I know I put my family through a lot of pain because I was so unwell and I said some awful things while I was unwell but the thing about family is they understand you don’t mean it because they could tell I wasn’t myself at those times. With the right medication and therapy I recovered from psychosis but I understand others aren’t as lucky as me and my heart goes out to everyone who’s lost a loved one to mental illness. ❤
@@extremecoolguyyy oh man
I'm so glad you got help.my brother lived his whole life mentally ill. I took care of him
Unfortunately his meds were so strong it messed with him.
He was a war veteran ( Vietnam)
He saw awful things
I feel like I went to war too.
He's gone
He had a break down and walked into an oncoming car
He didn't know what hit him.....
I'll tell you
I'm so proud that you are strong enough to get help and stay with that.
He would be with me now if he would have taken his meds. I miss him so bad.
May God bless you and your family.
Stay strong ok
Respect and love from Va....
rip guns are to easy too buy for mentally ill people
Omg.. you witnessed it..? Thats just fucked up in so many ways man. I hope you're alright now 💕
@@cherriexluvs3494 Thank you! I was in really rough shape for a long time but, I am okay, now. I had some friends that wouldn't leave me alone. I'm very grateful to them for that. Even though it has been a lifetime ago, I still miss my brother.
Oh, thank you for mentioning this case, Jack. Björk is my absolute favorite artist. I met her in 2000 in a discotheque in Brussels. She had a gig as a dj and afterwards she danced and talked with the audience. Which considering the events you talk about in this case was not so evident. Ricardo Lopez is every artist's nightmare. Pure horror!
Ooo lucky btw isn’t björk a Icelander (ik no one asked I’m Icelandic)
@@AlmaRakelK. if you really are, you should know that she is indeed
@@levinszki oh yh now i remember my old music teacher showed us her songs oh yh sorry i just forgot
@@AlmaRakelK.Yes and what's the difference. Hopefully she keeps her music there. Because it's God awful
@@tommac21 okay grandpa
I am genuinely obsessed with your voice and narrating style. I love your videos, even though the topics are typically grim and sad. Thank you!
You have the perfect narrating voice, very hard to break concentration from the story
Yow the best...your really good at what u do keep it up
Ikr lmao
Totally agree!!!!
Fr fr
I know
I'm so glad I get his videos
He also gives great tips on fianace
I was graduating high school when this happened and I remember this story all to well... took me on a trip back to memory lane. His painted face use to haunt me at night.. thanks for covering this story and resurfacing a true nightmare
Sounds like you're roughly about the same age as me. I also commented that I was 22 when this story happened in 96 but Bjork was my favorite singer in the early 90s. She was all over MTV and 180 Minutes at night. This took me right back to that time for sure.
I was only 8 years old, I'm shocked too.
damn...i wasnt even born then😓
Same
@@harlequinnmeyer7861Same
My husband has never liked my true crime so I usually watch them with my headphones, but to my surprise, he ran across one of your stories and now he likes them a lot. And since he showed me, now I look forward to watching your channel with him. You are the best storyteller. Your voice, your expressions and your motions. 💯
Thats so cool actually !😊
Ur gay?
W husband imo
Your crime ?
wait wait your crime?????
I feel really bad for this guy. I wish someone knew how much pain he was in and had counseled him so that this tragic suicide could have been prevented. No one deserves to suffer alone. We are all worthy of love and respect.
Oh well
This was a person who didn't believe he was worthy of love himself. That is the problem with these kinds of personalities, they are unable to love themselves and believe they are not worthy of anyone's love. That is why he slipped into insanity.
Whoever is reading this, I wanted to say I hope you have a great day and that God loves you so much that He sent His son, Jesus, to die on a cross for your sins and He rose again from the dead three days later. God Bless!
And also, He doesn't want you to go to Hell, but He wants you to go to Heaven with Him but you have to be Saved. How do I get Saved you might ask? Here are the steps below on how to get Saved!
1. Believe that God sent His Son
(Jesus) to die on a cross for your sins and that He rose again from the dead 3 days later.
2. Confess to Jesus that you are a sinner and ask forgiveness for your sins and Turn away from your sins. If you sin again after asking forgiveness of that sin, ask forgiveness again and try not to do it ever again. Jesus will forgive you!
3. Ask Jesus to come into your heart and your life and for Him to be your Lord and Savior forever.
4. Build a Personal Relationship with Jesus by Praying and Reading the Bible daily and Live for Him Forever.
I'm Praying for you and you are loved
Romans 10:9-13)
@@BatkoBratthat's really sad just imagine if he had friends who would be with him growing up
Oh man imagine the stress of school how hard it must have been for him man I really love my friends
@@jacktheripper5662 Yeah, friendship is important, but I've seen people in my life have difficulty loving themselves and letting anyone else love them, despite having loving friends and family. It's a brain chemistry problem ultimately, atleast when it gets to a certain level. It's like a clinically depressed person, you cannot just tell them to be happy and grateful. They cannot even fathom it
"In a sick way he got what he wanted...Bjork knows his name." Whoa. The gravity of that realization is powerful in a really macabre way
Good girl and your family and friends is the new year to you and your family and friends is the new year to you and your family and I will be a special
@@John-li6sk r/ihadastroke
@@AlexChicago1 deez not sure if Dee Williams the ligma balls
@@John-li6sk ???
@@AlexChicago1 every day 3 dies even in immortal technique
The part "Art School & Being REJECTED" got me 💀💀
thats like hitler
LMAO
Yes
Nice reference
Just discovered this channel and am hooked. Love the way you narrate. Very entertaining and keeps your attention. So many videos I get bored half way thru, but not yours. Keep it up. Loving it :)
ive been binge watching all of your videos. love you jack for these amazing videos u bring out!
Dawg Why are you ignoring someone becoming insane Like tf☠️
@@therandomperson7190 boooo shaka loooo
@@therandomperson7190 boom boom che boom boom che
This was such a terrible tragedy!! I feel so very sad for his family. I actually was able to watch almost all 20+ hours of his vhs tapes he made and I can honestly say, he was crying out for help for a long time. It is just a shame his family didn't listen until it was far too late. He was seeing a psychiatrist before this incident, however it was only for a few months. He should have been in counseling as a child.
Anywho, thanks Jack for another beautifully made video, keep up the wonderful work you do!!
No you didn’t. It’s impossible to watch 20+ hours straight.
@@PcProcks stfu, were you there!? No, you weren't!! Yes I most definitely did!! Not on youtube obviously!! 😒 some stranger thinks they know what I've watched.....go troll someone else!!
@@PcProcks they never said that they watched it for 20 hrs straight
@@PcProcks lmao wtf?? Shut up
@@PcProcks I'd like to kindly disagree on that😂
I love the fact that at 1:32 the woman's eyes are censored, but the TV's reflection is left completely uncensored.
Hey, wouldn't want to expose this anonymous woman's identity...
@@StjurgeonTV: Womp Womp
@@Stjurgeonwe already know who she is
Fr I noticed it too
Also to point out, this isn’t the only woman he obsessed about. The first was the girl who acted beetlejuice. He gave up when he found out she was married.
And the aftermath from the bjørk, well her and Goldie broke up days before his suicide.
Which girl?
Now imagine if Geena Davis was married to a black man maybe tha would've put him over the edge, for him a black man is inferior to him (in his mind anyway) but a white is superior or on his level (again in his mind) so he was ok with that. Anyway fck this loser
Winona Ryder? She's the one that was in Beetlejuice
@@noname-jh3bd His first obsession was Geena Davis.
im so glad bjork is alive and doing well ❤
Me too. It's the little things y'know?
Why? You know her personally or something?
@@shlomogoldstein3373 Why do you care?
@@shlomogoldstein3373dude probably just listens to the singer or something
This was honestly one of the only cases that has made me sick to my stomach especially after watching the full tapes and seeing his decent into madness and how he was losing sleep and paranoid and on edge as the tapes go by.
Watching his suicide still makes my skin crawl that urggggg he let out after shooting himself was horrible and the blood hitting the floor with the silence is haunting, how did you feel after it??
I remember watching the video of him unaliving himself on a website called Rotten (I don’t think it even exists anymore). I was like 13 or 14 and it was a bit traumatizing to see someone to out like that.
It's good that they're removing websites like these. People can be traumatised or even harm themselves by watching those kinds of videos.
Edit: they also have a shock value, so someone could've gotten a link to a website they don't know and see stuff like this without even wanting to
I would want to watch this
That noise he made at the end still haunts me.
Better himself than other people
@franky montana also seeing lives wasted that way... I couldn't care less about videogame gore, but real humans that existed dying that way just makes me sad
Like... you've got your whole life ahead of you, why do that??
Your narrating kept me hooked. I am a fan of everything dark in yt but you are one of the best narrator for this kind of content.
His voice is really one of the thing that keeps me on edge when I hear these stories because you truly have a suspensful tone while talking. Keep up the good work!!
im crying so hard rn, bjork giving the families flowers just making me cry harder
fr😔
Bro just wanted a waifu
OMG FRRR
Grow up, crying, bro 💀
Bro become Walter white
I just have to say Jacks voice is so soothing, it’s a mood.
I remember this case very clearly. Beyork is also one of my most favorite singers. I'm 48 years old so she was hitting stardom right when I was 18 and her music was spectacular, blasting all over MTV and the 180 Minutes alternative show on MTV. This case was everywhere on TV, in magazines, on the news....it was insane.
beyork…
björk*
This
@@mxxnlight333help it translates to bark
My guy you do a hell of a job holding the attention of the viewer and that's actually a hard feat! I remember when this happened and you making feel like a current event for a school presentation on the news that week. Great work
First video I’ve seen from this guy’s channel. I like the serious and respectful tone of this video.
It’s great and heart warming to see you give the suicide hotline and information about them in the end. Qudos to you!
I might as well say it now, you and MrBallen should collaborate and make an episode together, that would be so cool seeing 2 very good story tellers collaborate to make one episode together,
@Gemma you are right, but that doesn’t mean much, at least not to me,
@Gemma and shouldn’t
Mr. Ballin uses too many arm movements, worse then Scotty Kilmer
@ma St facts bro,😎
easy now ! the kids ok but hes no seal
“ if I die who’s gonna make the video about it.” It had me on the floor. 😂
1:33 love how you can still see her eyes in the reflection lmao
He only had one job and he failed. EPIC CENSORING FAIL
@@deadbrav 🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓
@@Angelthecup uhm what did I do
@@deadbrav sorry wrong comet
@@Angelthecup it's okay!!!
This is one of my fears and the reason why I stop liking something before I get extremely obsessive
Do you tend to obsess, sweetie?
If so, it's easy enough to combat, if you come to understand why you do.
There's probably a vacancy somewhere that we're trying to fill. Or, it could be OCD, which is also very easily remedied.
Reach out, okay?
WTF
If you tend to normally get overly obsessed with things I think you need to seek help immediately, hon. Thats not normal.
We ALL obsess to some degree or another.
But not all of us will acknowledge, or even recognize it.
It's good to hear that you do, and are taking steps to keep it from getting to a harmful level. Still, you don't have to go it alone.
Onward & Upward, love.
I’m super crazy and obsessive. I’m not to the point I’ll hurt myself . But not others .
what scares me the most about this case is that just about anyone could end up like this man.
What scares me even more is that, i especially could end up like this. i develop obsessions and hyperfixations easily and if i was pushed far enough i could end up doing something like this, and knowing that scares me even more.
😥
Seek help!!!
Get some help. Wtf...
Plz seek help. The sooner the better. Admitting your situation is already a first step.
And have no stigmas against taking pills if you have to. They are for sure overused, but they also save lives when it's really necessary.
Much love to you
Find god seek help bro
4:19 If only Hitler had known...
A video from Jack Neel is the high life
Dude your channel is freaking awesome. I'm been watching all your videos today. Like I didn't believe people can be soooo....I have no words.
This was very helpful. I’ve already started to address my issues and work through them whether it be homeschooling or headphones or ignoring what people say. Do not be hesitant to get help or help yourself, you’ll need it and it will feel much better
Congratulations! I'm happy you are working though the issues that were concerning you.
Bjork was an established artist by 1993, not an emerging one! She had already sung in The SugarCubes throughout the 80s and had done quite a but of solo work by 93! She just wasn't known by the "mainstream" at the time.
Always got to have one person bitching about nothing that matters.
Plus you’re up& coming until you have more than 1 number 1 album.
That would make her emerging
> "at the time"
Yeah because she is now, LMAO! First time I'm hearing her name...
@@godnyx117 She's been a well known artist around for over 30 years now. Not knowing her is on you.
@@Stjurgeon > Not knowing her is on you.
Nope, it isn't. Nobody knows everybody. You can always become more popular. That was the point of my original comment.
I just want to tell this here
A online friend from my sister, So, she Had a boyfriend who got abused from his dad and also had brain cancer. He Beat it and was cancer free. But he has committed suicide due to the abusing and so on. His father got into Jail for abusing him and so on and now to the friend of my sister.
She has committed suicide 9 times because her boyfriend died.
but she never succeeded in it.
she tried to hang herself when her little sister was talking on roblox with my sis
bc her friend gave the acc to her little sister
and she heard a noise
and ran to the noise and saw that she wanted to commit it again
They called an ambulance and she is in a hospital and she will go in a mental hospital
To get better health
Its really sad what happened to her boyfriend hope she will be ok 🙏
This was one of the scariest cases I’ve seen. He was so disturbed
very surprised he didn't take a few with him
Keep doing great things Jack. You are very much appreciated.
i sat and watched all the tapes without commentary, alone. It was truly disturbing to see someone slowly lose hope even when they could've turned it around for the better with the right help. I thought to myself many times how someone could ever live and think this way.
where did you watch it?
@@alicerhodes7437here on youtube
@@alicerhodes7437😂😂🎉
How did you watch all of those tapes? I heard there was like over 15 hours of nonsense, why would you even watch those? And how?
@@alicerhodes7437A couple years ago a good part of it was available on Live Leak. You can still probably find them on another shady site.
Watching this at 3 am. You have the perfect voice for this channel. One of the best horror channels I’ve watched in a while! You have a new sub :)
I’m struggling really bad right now. I lost my wife of 20 years, my kids, my house, my job, and my financial security literally overnight. I don’t know how I’m gonna pick up the pieces. I’m completely broken. Luckily I’m able to stay with my folks. It’s still pretty embarrassing for a man in his 40’s. I’m hurting and I don’t know what to do. Therapy doesn’t work for me because I always pretend I’m someone else, it’s hard to explain. I don’t know what to do
It's going to be alright Jeff....think of it as a glich in the matrix of your life... choose to live again this time knowing you had accomplished and you can do it again...am praying for you
Just start over,maybe u need a new place like Thailand ,veitnam, or any such country where it's cheap living.
Get some online work,move there,start over with new traditional woman after a few years.
Gotta keep trying.
It's like any other wound. It takes time to heal. It sucks and it hurts but you just have to tend to your wounds
4:23 The last time someone got rejected from art school, an entire continent almost got destroyed.
Jack , You are amazing for posting the help hotline for those who might need it.
Be safe!
For a research project in college I watched about 80% of the tapes that you could download… honestly it was more sad and depressing than scary after you get to know this guy. The dude spiraled and over months it kept getting worse.
“We live in a world of monsters.”
That sentence of his has always stuck in my head.
As always, a very well told story. I have never heard of this before. Thanks for sharing 👍
I watched this Dateline years ago when It originally aired. LITERALLY this episode has stuck with me ever since. His disturbing decisions and decent in madness were unbelievably shocking.
Thankyou for saying 'killing' and not 'unaliving' in your video. Faith restored.
Jack neel got the perfect narrating voice, He needs to be on the news/tv or radio
I feel kind of conflicted hitting the like button on your stories!, reason being, I absolutely love your story telling, but the content is just so horrific! You tell your stories so well I'm always a tad traumatized and or I'm praying for the victims and their families!!!! Side note, (absolutely nothing to do with your videos or channel!) Does anybody else hate when they put on these true crime stories and say "SOME" viewers may find this disturbing? Omg, "ALL" viewers should be disturbed!! ! LOL thank you so much for bringing the historic and current stories for us! Literally can't get enough!
@@Mae_burowski_hates_feds my best friend said the same thing LOL
Now, I know this is screwed up but I am honestly impressed by his creative ability. Honestly his sulfuric acid sprayer thing is actually quite fascinating. (I swear I’m not insane)
4:24 words that reminds me of someone
Back in WW2
I'm sure many ppl allready said this but u have an incredibly classy voice, great for commentary and storytelling. Good content my guy, have a blessed day.
The biggest problem with these videos is…..I WISH THEY WERE LONGER!! I for one LOVE deep dive videos that are anywhere from 30-60 mins. I just discovered this channel and I’m sure that’s probably why it was never recommended to me despite the fact I watch A TON of true crime content. Either way this kid has a great voice for narration and he makes good content.
Jack you are a pleasure to watch and listen to. Thanks for your perfectly balanced content. It’s a little bit of everything but never strays from its main essence. Always very well done. Great taste and grace. Fantastic.
I had only seen clips from your channel.
Glad I finally got to see a full vid.
New subscriber
I love your content Jack! Your voice is perfect for this stuff! :D
How have I never stumbled across your channel before? I've been watching true crime for a few years and just found you TODAY! What a handsome fella you are and love the narration voice!! I remember hearing about this guy in the 90's but I hadn't heard all the details.. Just subbed.. I bet your channel is about to skyrocket!!!
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You and mrballen doesn't need creepy sound to tell a story, that's what makes me to listen to your video.
Jack I have respect for you. You sit through these long ass sad stories just for our entertainment definitely subscribing keep up the amazing good work bro.
I like your narration, you're the perfect balance between quirky and informative 😁💪🏼💙
1:08
This scared the crap out of me I thought he was pulling his face off.
Well he was born with a stretchy face
Great job once again sir! My wife and I look forward to each and every new episode you put out👍👍👍👍
3:48 my dude would like belle delphine
Fr😂😂😂
Happy new years,I hope you and everyone else in the comments are doing great, remember to relax, take breaks and do what you enjoy.And of course make the best out of your year.
Idk if this should be shared but today I moved up a rank in my violin class so now I'll be playing harder songs just something I wanted to share.
Congratulationson the rank up.
@@joannstonebarger3545 Thank you! :DD
congratulations!
Congratulations 🎈
@@davidk413 thank you!
Hey Jack, haven't seen you in awhile. Glad you're doing what you do. You're a great story teller, and presenter. I've always liked your content. Keep it real and you will go far.
bro I seriously luv ur videos they're always interesting and sad at times
Great vid Jack! Love ur content and how much effort u put into ur videos
I’m..young and thought about what you talking about at the end but now I ashamed of thinking about it because it won’t just effect me it will effect the people around me than you jack from the bottom of my heart
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There's no need to be ashamed. Please reach out to someone you are close to. There is help out there for any problems you are experiencing. Thank you for your comment and I truly hope the best for you. Any issue can be overcome or dealt with in new light.
@@sharkbait3332 I actually did it once, with one of my close friends, and she was also suffering the same exact thing, and now since I’m Christian, I always think to myself whenever I think those bad thoughts, I always say, “God wouldn’t like it if I ****** myself, he made me, I have so much more to live for, for him, for my family.” Thank you, Jack Neel, for opening my eyes. Thank you
I hope God leads you to the persons who can help. Please talk with someone you trust, maybe school counselor or nurse. Blessings.
I know that some people have those thoughts of suicide, me included. It’s funny how a little time usually changes that perspective. Get help if you stay in that mindset. Once your dead, your dead. There is a Heaven and a Hell for eternity. God is real.
Showing LOVE for the channel thank you and have a blessed day everyone
3:34 I'm trying to be serious but after the trend that went with this clip I just started dying laughing 💀💀
What a beautiful voice you have got, Mr. Neel. Happy new year.😊
Added this to my binge watch playlist for after my knee surgery tomorrow! I actually have all of your videos in said playlist. Regarding the case covered, I personally believe that people who worship others like Ricardo did Bjork felt so lonely and unloved by their family during childhood. This would lead to them just wanting love and approval from someone they think highly of. Such a sad deal.
10:43 not to be that guy but he repeated that he was very nervous, not that "he isn't nervous".
I was just about to comment that too
You keep having to remember that he was making these videos in the 90s, long before RUclips or other video sharing platforms existed, meaning that nobody (other than the police) was seeing them; which makes it all the more eerie when he addresses the camera as 'my friends' or 'everybody' as if he's talking to an audience. It feels eerie watching these on youtube because he sounds like a vlogger, it fits on the platform perfectly. You keep having to remember that he's not making these for an audience. He's alone, often late at night, talking to nobody.
I stumbled upon your videos last year or so and I've enjoyed your content and your narration skills are wonderful. Thank you for your hard work. Mr. Ballin would be proud. ☺️
Mental health really needs to be taken seriously more in the world we live in
2:51 an extra X *female* chromosome, not "male" as you said. X = female, Y = male. Having an extra X (female) chromosome would be why his male genitalia was abnormally small. Doesn't make sense the other way around.
its so tragic. seeing how a normal guy can turn so corrupted in a matter of seconds. never think of the worst for you. always remember you are a important part in somebodies life.
6:12 bros that the Niccocado acocado vibes 💀
I am obsessed with your videos! Please, do not take that the wrong way, I just love your contents and your unique story telling technique. After this story, was not sure if I should even use the word "obsessed" lol. Sad and tragic story, mental illness is not something to be ignored. 😞I also binge watch your shorts, and recently been watching the longer videos. ♥️ Unfortunately, MrBallen is still #1 in my book 😏 However, both of you have awesome narrative skills!! 👍🏼👍🏼
Probably not the greatest word choice for a video on an obsessed fan. 😂
@@oktoberina True but at the same time OP is aware of that and clarified with "do not take that the wrong way." Not even sure what you're aiming at by pointing out the obvious there.
I'm just here for this 🍿🍿
3:34 “Oh who is sheeee…you’re such a strange girl, I think-“
But in all actuality this is a horrible and sad story, this entire story is just depressing
Gynecomastia is actually horrible. Kids in school were relentless, I was actually tortured by many of them. Essentially If you are a male and have this, your upper body develops like a female. My surgery was on July 10, 1979 I was 20, and that was badly botched. Honestly the scars are worse than having the overgrown tissue. The surgeon lied and said the scars would be very small and not noticeable. I am now over 60 and have never taken my shirt off in public! Reconstructive surgery to correct the butcher job he did was unattainable, was very expensive and needed to be paid advance. I am very successful and NEVER looked back. I see various posts all the time with guys in the gym complaining about body dysmorphia, I relate so well with them. Thank you so much for sharing. There is a CSI episode "The Case of the Cross Dressing Carp" that shows the condition and the sad results in detail. Please please talk to someone, YOU are a Survivor!
Hey.
Just wanted to tell you that ladies dig scars.
You could maybe even spin questions about them into cool stories or even pickup lines.
"How'd you get those scars?"
"I actually saw you a while ago, and my heart leapt outta my chest. They put it back... but on the wrong side! 😖"
I got drug induced gyno, mostly only noticeable on one side. Doctors didn't take me seriously and said the tissue would disappear. It ended up scarring over before I could buy drugs online (SERMs) meant to reduce it. I was saving up for the surgery (couple thousand), but kind of came to get used to it even though it can be uncomfortable sometimes. It's not BAD, but like you said, it's different when you're the one looking at it in the mirror every day or you feel that weird sensation sometimes, you know what I'm talking about.
I wish male body dysmorphia was more talked away, but it's unfortunately just becoming worse now with male beauty standards. Hope you're doing well old pal
I cant even imagine how Björk felt discovering this for the first time
i’m so surprised that she was so respectful about this.
Unlike the reply above me
Right?!
@@kaitmob3847 the said reply is gone
While yall have zero compassion towards him and his fked up life.
I saw the clip of his suicide years ago but never knew the story behind the man himself. What an insane story
Bro your videos are amazing I anticipate every upload you're a great content creator and an amazing narrator I love watching your videos while I'm gaming or just doing other random things they're amazing so keep up the good work brother and stay safe
This is one of only a few cases where has genuinely disturbed me. Another factor are these low resolution leaks of the crime scene photos of Ricardo's apartment and his body (which was shown here)--the photos with his body are disturbing because his head is obscured and the leak has a pink hue over it, making it more disturbing to me.
Imagine how horrifying this would be for bjork😳
Hope youre doing well, Jack! Another great video to start off the new year 🧡
6:30 *_"He makes a plan so he can attack her from a distance and not be the one held responsible."_*
How are you people empathizing with monsters? I can't imagine a worse fate than an acid attack.
The world is better off without people like this. MUCH better.
He’s not empathizing a criminal, it’s informational
as a chemist, sulfiric acid has a smell and ive mselt it, it smells like a sulfur lake or river and your smelling sulfur dioxide, fumes of the acid.
If is anyone is confused about 4:32 h!Tyler got rejected from art school
First of all, that’s not even the right time stamp, second of all, you can say hitler.
I remember hearing this story a few years ago so sad. I happen to be a fan of Bjork
Perfect way to end it…. Much respect 🤙🏻