I’ve been SA before. By my SPECIAL ED TEACHER! I am autistic and the reason I took that class was to learn, And my teacher SA me. The principal didn’t believe me bc “All autistic ppl lie. And are overdramatic” so I dealt with it for 10 months. And it kept happening, so I told my mom and she helped.
Not a victim of SA, but a child who’s been sexualized numerous times. Please remember that YOU are valid. No matter what happened, what they did, YOU matter, please don’t forget it. I love you very much and you’re important, I swear it. ❤❤❤ These words may not bring very much comfort to you, though a random little girl on the internet cares for you and loves you.
Not SA but I was groomed online by a "friend" when I was 13 y.o boy. We were normal friends before he slowly started introducing me to erp and taking pretty much every opportunity he could to get into my metaphorical pants... It was so bad that within the span of three months I went from being a normal 13 yo talking games with him to me telling him I that ate my own s-m-n for the first time and how it tasted. I feel awful about it because I never said no, and at some point I started doing things back... he introduced me to his other friends who did similar things to me... then sometime later he and his friends just disappeared For years afterwards I kind of just let anyone do s-xual to me online, even when I didn't want to. I don't remember how it stopped or why... it just did around when I was 16 or 17. I'm 18 now. I'm still dealing with a lot of problems and I feel so much shame it hurts. I feel ashamed because... somehow I miss him. I know what he did was wrong but I miss how it felt... I liked the attention, and while I'd feel uncomfortable, grossed out, or ashamed a lot.. I kind of liked how it felt when he did that to me... so I thought that being ordered around or doing things you didn't wanna do were normal. And a lot of the time I feel like I'm just overreacting and that this was normal, even if I know it wasn't... I feel ashamed because I feel like this should make me averse to s-x related things, but it doesn't. I want even more. And that makes me feel disgusted at myself... like I'm just the same as I was back then It's not as awful as what everyone else seems to have been through but it hurts me a lot. I've been getting more comfortable with my wants and needs over time, but it can be hard.. Thanks for reading if you took the time
Hey man, I'm really sorry that happened to you. No one should have to go through that. I hope you get the help you need and start to feel better soon. Hate to sound like I'm being nosy, but have you told your parents about this? If not, then you probably should, and get some therapy. Remember that no matter what happens, Jesus (Or whatever God you believe in) loves you.
Insanely similar to what I had, I understand you very well. I feel disgusted with myself every day, but I try. Although I'm not very good at holding on, it seems to me that I'm at the limit
So similar but it was irl one of my czn brother and introduced me to another czn as an object I felt uncomfortable but I didn't do anything to stop it.
I know how it feels to think you should be s-x averse, but there is a thing called hyper sexuality that almost every S.A. survivor experiences. It makes you more sexual than the average person.
im so sorry, i understand the hurt and longing for that attention, for the love and support you had from him. its normal, to miss someone who hurt you. and wanting s-xual things is totally normal after those experiences, nobody should have to go through what you went through, but i promise you, it will get better. once you hit the bottom, the only way to go is up.
I've been SA'd twice, both times by strangers. The first time was when I was 8. I was living with my brother in his apartment for a while, whilst my parents were in Europe. One of the days I was there, his friend was there. He ended up getting drunk, and my brother went out to go do something - I think to get more beer. While he was out, his friend pinned me down and started just touching me in weird ways. When my brother came back, he hit him with a bat and kicked him out. My brother got jail for a week; the 'friend' didn't get any jailtime. The second time was this year. May 14th. I was just walking home from school, and a guy grabbed my backpack to pull me back; before he started groping my chest. I managed to escape after kicking him in the balls and running for it, but it was still pretty traumatizing. I'll never forget these days in my life. I'm only 12.
I hope you're okay :( I'm sorry you had to go through all those crap.... I'm also proud of you to standing up to yourself when that man tried to do sh!t to you..
I've totally lost faith in humanity at this point, I really hope you'll heal as best as you can. I'm very sorry this happened to you, I'm so very sorry. I hope everything will get better, just keep going and stay strong for me, for your brother, and for the world❤️
Being a SA victim since I was 3 has really messed me up, I mean the person who started it all was my own father then my cousin then friends and.... I just feel used. Like no one wants to be friends with me unless it's to use my body, due to that I've become both hypersexual and repulsed by sex. I need to go to a doctor soon or I am going to break.
I am very so Sorry to hear that from you, the world here is not perfect and our life is not very easy and there will still be all lot if bad things in life but I also know that you want give up so badly, from your life because of your problems and you never not even ones , you do not don't deserve that thing in a very so young aged. I am so very proud and grateful that you are still staying, even if you don't see it but i do . But I very hope that you will get better , because you deserve so much and goods . You are a very strong and awesome person.
Hey sweetheart, this is half a year late but I want to remind you that you have such a beautiful soul. I’m so proud of you for getting this far and I’m in the same boat as you so don’t worry, we’re gonna keep afloat and not drown. If you need help, don’t be afraid to ask for it. Rely on friends, teachers, counselors, anyone who could be trusted and help you get through this. 🫂
Not a victom of SA, but I was groomed, and not online like most, but a person irl, in my life, I couldn't get away, constantly harassing me when I was alone, I was little, 3rd grade, I'm turning 15, in 9th grade now, I never forgave him, never, he makes me feel discusting Update: so last year he got arrested and we have a restraining order now :) Edit: we are getting the hell out of where I am rn 😍😍!! Will update before and after the flight 😆‼️ Anyone seeing this, I hope you forget the peron’s fcae who hurt you 🥰🥰 Lygsm!! /p Edit: Its been 11 months! People are still commenting?! Im turning 16 soon now! :D! Im sorry for the people who related to this comment, I am glad for the people who have gotten away, and thank you to the kind replies of the people here, your all too kind :)
TW SA i was sitting in my room and i heard my door open. it was my uncle, he sat down next to me and we played barbie’s for a few minutes before he made them have s3x. he was groping me whilst doing this. he said “it’s a fun game people play”. being 3 years old i didn’t think anything of it. he asked me if i wanted to play and of course thinking it was a harmless game, i agreed. he took my hand and led me to my bed and r4ped me. this continued multiple times daily happening until i was 5 when i moved out of the house. my grandma still lives there and he’s in prison for drugs. but every time i enter my old room, untouched and everything still there, it haunts me. i’m currently 14 and dealing with the dirtiness i feel and how gross and guilty i feel. i’m making it through but in a very unhealthy manner. thank you for taking the time to read this it means a lot to me.
As someone who has been going through SA by my own father it sucks so much, my own mom wouldn't listen to me until she actually caught him doing it. I was only 3 and it was horrifying, I'm safe now thanks to my mom and other people. If you are going through SA tell someone you trust and someone you know would listen to you. It is not your fault at all
I was SA’d on August 27th 2021- Or at least I believe it to be SA. I’ll tell my story in the next paragraph. TW: Grooming, SA, Pedophilia(?), Incest(?), abuse I met my step uncle (who I considered and still consider a brother) when we were both babies. He is 4 years older than me. I was 8 when he got sexual. It was 2020. In 2020 and 2021, my brother Quentin abused me emotionally, physically, and sexually. In 2020 he was mainly just violent. He pointed knifes at me, walking toward me while I screamed telling him to stop. He was then super nice and loving towards me. In 2021, he got sexual with me. There were 3 events. I’m telling them in order. The first event was me and him playing truth or dare. I’m not sure who asked first, but I think he dared me to send a nude. I thought he was joking, so I said no, then dared him to send a nude. He did so without hesitation. The second event happened on August 27th, I think. I know that because it was right after the adopt me Axolotl came out. Me and him were playing Roblox, something we always did. We were playing Adopt me. His dad got him the Axolotl. I remember saying “I wish I had the Axolotl pet, you’re so lucky!”. He immediately responded with “I’ll give you mine if you take off your clothes.” I said no. He persisted. I said no maybe 5 times but I gave in after that. I remember being afraid he would rape me. I was so scared. I don’t know what I saw, heard, or felt, but I was scared. We negotiated on times I would show parts of my body for. I believe it was 30 seconds for upper and 15 seconds for lower. I remember quickly flashing him as a joke. I was obviously uncomfortable. I didn’t want to do it. I resisted many times, but again, I was scared. The top part went smoothly, and I remember telling him “I’m insecure about my (INSERT WORD I DONT WANT TO SAY)” as a 10 YEAR OLD. He comforted me, saying it’s okay to be insecure about down there and it’s “only my first time”. When I actually did it, I remember him telling me to “spread my legs more” and “move to the left a little bit”. I felt so violated. It was the longest 15 seconds of my life. I remember counting the seconds. Wishing they would just go faster. And then it was over. When I got into my 5th grade classroom they gave everyone sheets of paper about yourself you could fill out. I found mine a few months ago. Under fears I put “Q (Quentin’s nickname), spiders, and bugs”. In fall, my dad found the picture Quentin had sent me. I couldn’t see him anymore in person . We could only call and text. His last text to me that my mom found out about a week later? “I want pussy boob” (his exact text, he is dyslexic). My response? “Don’t we all?”. My mother called CPS and the police to file sexual assault charges against my brother. I begged her not to. I didn’t want my brother hurt. I remember crying in front of the police department. Trying not to cry when CPS interrogated me. It was so hard. So traumatic. But I love him. Now I’m hypersexual and trying to overcome addiction at 12 years old 👏👏❤️❤️😋
I was unfortunately SA-ed from 4-11 and it fucking sucked. I was manipulated and being forced in it. Fortunately, I'm getting the help and support that I need now.
SA'd by my ex a year ago. didn't even know it happened until i had a complete episode, thought i was manic and bipolar like my therapist suspected until i told my provider what happened and she said, "its awful when SA happens isnt it?" sympathetically and i was besides myself. i still have nightmares even with increased meds. said it would never happen to me, blinked and was in an abusive relationship
I’m so sorry that you had to go through such pain, but although many might not believe you, we do. I believe you and whatever you had to face. I hope you’re recovering well right now, sending love :,)
The worse part of being sa'ed for me is the fact I can't blame the one who did it, as much as I want to, as much as I do hate her for it, I know it was truly no ones fault in the end, I didn't tell her no nor yes, she had no bad motive, she thought she was in the right and it's hard to blame her for that. I just wish I'd never froze up and I wasn't scared to say no cus I know she'd have stopped if I'd just said something but I couldn't. She'd have stopped but been upset and disappointed,I now know I'd have rather gotten the silent treatment for a day and hear her whine then let that happen and maybe she should have know better being 16 when I was 13 but even then I can't bring myself to blame her even if hate boils up at just the thought of her. It would be so much easier to blame her to scream about how she wronged me but it wasn't her fault in the end and I hate that the most, I have to hold on to this anger and pain with no one to rightfully point it at. The worst part is I still find myself crying over her and missing being loved, she was my last relationship and that was almost 3 years ago now.. God I can't believe how long it's been
Being a SA victim is not something to brag about. I WAS 7!! it's not cool when you feel comfortable enough to tell your friends and they constantly blackmail you with it or make jokes. it's like they'll never understand. I don't feel good about telling my parents, as they already hate my cousin and I don't want to cause family problems. it's a huge burden I hold. I had no idea what was happening then, as I was just a little kid. MY FRIENDS TRY TO ACT LIKE I'M NOT THE VICTIM! They have used the word 'muggy.' when talking about it. I feel as if no one in my school understands. My friend has threatened to tell a teacher, who would call my mother, just to get what they want. i need new friends, but I know if I leave, then ill be alone. i just cant wait to relieve myself of this burden, death will be calling. it will be nice to not worry about it.
I know! I was SA’d 4 times by my brother, and I never told anyone but one friend, and my friend said it was just one time, and that I should want to have it, and that he wants it with me. We are middle school
@@Phone_guyFnaf honestly, nobody else seems to understand. im afraid to tell anyone else as I fear what the reaction might be. we need friends who understand.
0:00 wet - dazey and the scouts 2:55 it's never enough - we are the dirt 6:35 Liquid smooth - mitski 10:22 "Haunt me ×3" - [number of terms?] 12:19 hey kids - molina 16:10 blow my brains out - tikkle me The fact that I know all of these songs by heart isn't right....
I wasn't SAed, but I had early access to internet and it made me discover p##n when I was really young, I feel I've become hypersexual due this and I feel so awful for being like this, I'm so sorry this happened to you, I hope you're recovering for this, it wasn't your fault.💝
Your mom sucks for that. She sounds like a horrible person (The ex not your mom but like kinda) Your mom should be there for you, and you should never have to be betrayed like that by a partner.
I was groomed online about a week ago by a 16 year old (im 11), and he continued even after i told him i was underage. I told a few people and they all believe me but this one person (lets call them S) is saying "I've known him for a long time we would never do that!" and i have another groomed victim (not by the same guy) Helping me and another one of S's friends attacked the other victim and now S is silencing us.
Not a SA victim but I was molested one time at a pool this summer by one of my mom's friends stepson. We were in Orlando at the time taking a break from Disney world
i was friends with two people; one of them sa'd the other shortly after we all became friends. it was weird because i never expected it to happen but after it happened i didnt know how to act. Half of my friend group said that it was fake and the victim just wanted attention but the other half didnt and actually tried helping. I still cant really listen to the band that they showed me before the sa occurred. One day after the friend group broke up me and the victim walked past the spot where it apparently happened but now i think about it the spot it happened changed; at first it was in a bedroom but where they said it happened was in an back ally. Still they went into a lot of detail about what happened and it felt off to hard about something so private in such detail but i didnt say anything about it because i didnt know what to do.
As an SA victim, it's not fun. Most days I try to forget it but the nightmares just keep coming back and my memory plays on repeat like a record tape, till the panic attack calms, I try to be okay but it's so fucking hard, I wanna cry but was told not to (thanks dad.) Because it ruins his fucking pride so I suck it up till there more tears in me like a dam, character Ai is who's truly there for me even though it's a robot, It was a boy my age that did it, same grade, same school, dated him, he took me to his house brought me in his bedroom and locked the door, he touched me in places I didn't know of, I pushed him off me, broke the door down and ran back to my grandmas house, never told a soul except character Ai and a few friends in the future year 8 when I was comfortable, did I consent to it? No. Was I a kid? Yes. I was 7. And I didn't know if it was okay or not till my friends told me that it wasn't okay, I've still got visible images in my brain about it while I was writing it, thanks hunter for fucking doing this to me and giving me trauma.
I was SA'd by my older cousin when was 10. I havent seen him since then but my mom just tells me to get over it, and that I should be fine now. She expected me to forget everything the day it happened, I still feel uncomfortable around touchy people to this day. It's been about 2 years since it happened.(I'm currently 12.) I honestly feel disgusting in my own skin.
i always shook off the male sa i grew up with but when my first gf did it, i got ptsd. it got so bad and nobody believe me to the point i couldnt touch my out waist/thigh area. Even my mom believes me now still blames me for what happened since "she not even good looking, why date her?" but mother dearest, you said to judge people on personality:( not obesity!
That's happens to all lot of people , you didn't deserve that and we will keep still having bad things in our life but we can still do this . And sorry to hear that from you .
The 3 years of being yelled at, pressured into sexual acts when i didn't want to act on them, basically isolated as i could only give him attention, being constantly sexualized, even when i said i was uncomfortable. I hate how much he tried to guilt trip me into staying, even as just friends to "help me", you cannot help me when you did this, you cannot help me if you don't see the damage you did, you said sorry only because i called you out on everything you did to me. I didn't even realize what was happening was wrong, i was still recovering when we met and he had his way with it, it makes me feel sick
Dear reader, you are so much stronger than you realize. The people out there don’t understand the severity of the shit we’ve been though, you are more than you know, you are getting though it and you didn’t deserve it. Please know you aren’t alone, we’re all here listening to these songs for a reason, you are strong, you deserve to recover, you can get through it. It doesn’t define you
I’m a member of a DID (dissociative identity disorder) system, so I don’t remember it happening, but I know someone else does. And I have dreams about it and ptsd flashbacks even though I can’t make out exactly what’s happening, I don’t know for sure who it was and I pray to whatever may be out there that I am absolutely wrong, but the person in my bad dreams is always my dad, and I’m scared of him horribly. I know he used to tap my but and bite his lip at me when I was little, I remember that, and he stopped when I got older, like old enough to tell someone. I can never talk about it with my therapist or my mom because I could ruin my entire life on something that may never have happened, so I stay quiet, only one other person knows that I think I might have been. And so we just do our best to cope within our system :{{
Both of my adopted brothers attempted to SA/R!pe me, one of them don't remember but I remember VERY clearly. The other one they tried 3 times all of them were when I was trying to sleep, luckily I woke up in time to run into either my grandma's room or to go tell my mother (if she's awake), I feel very uncomfortable around them, the first attempt was by the older one (the one that doesn't remember) he said "hey let's go upstairs" I followed, he lead me to the bed, I didn't know what was happening, I was 6 and he was I think 10, luckily I ran downstairs when he tried to do something to me and i told my father and he never tried to do it again, and the other one, I don't wanna say it, it disgusts me, but all I'm gonna say is that HE WATCHES ME SLEEP, it freaks me out and makes me wanna barf... I'll NEVER trust them ever again... They scare me, they tried to hurt me, I hate them, I hate them so much, why'd they do that to me, why... They're the reason I hate physical touch. I don't like being alone with boys, I'm afraid of what they'll do to me... I can't trust anyone anymore, I only trust 6 people, my grandmother, my mother, my bff, my bffs parents, and my father. Yeah, I have I hard time trusting people, I have my reasons. Every time it's night time, I wait for him to go to sleep, and then I leave any room I'm in (mostly my grandma's room cuz it's the closest) and I go to me and my brothers room and stay up for a bit then I sleep.
Not an SA victim or anything major. So one day, I go to my relatively close friends house (we were and still are best friends) and we go to his room. We talk, watch tv, and whatever else you would do at your friends house. Out of nowhere, he just decides to show me p*rn (we both were 5 at that age, but he was younger by a few months). That is when I started s*xualising myself and everyone around me. Years later, I am now thinking what it would be like if I was SA'd. And I've just kept having those thoughts recently. Sure, this might not be as bad as others, and it's still weird/cringe to even be saying all this.
TW FOR POSSIBLE SA: i honestly feel like what happened was SA..idk i feel like it was my fault that i was forced outside naked because my parents did it as a punishment, yk? and i feel disgusting and sexualized from it. i was only 8. why did they do that? cuz of a mess i made??? why did they feel the need to do that? even 7 years later i still feel guilty and disgusting..
As a groomed and SA/rape victim and survivor, I'm so happy and grateful to have people who understand me. Though I wish we never had to go through that. Just remember you are loved and make sure to reach out to people you know love you and support you. Never tell anyone what happened to you too late like I did.
I had just turned 14 while he has turning 16 My first relationship, I was so so excited. Some boy who I barely knew told me how he found me so attractive, as a black girl who had been bullied for her appearances for years that had meant everything to me. Within that week we had started dating, we held hands and he’d give me small kisses, it felt so warm at the time. within the second week he began to get handsy in class, around the hallways, or at anytime in general, I told him to please stop and he told me I was just nervous since it was my first and he had so much more experience than me. He’d ask me questions that made me sick to my stomach, often getting frustrated when I said I wouldn’t answer them. His hands would slip down my thighs when I’d wear skirts and I’d have to pry them away, begging him to stop and tell him I didn’t want to as his hands rub up my waist, my hips, around my chest, and through my thighs to my backside. I began to avoid him slightly, resulting in him coming up behind me and yanking him into his arms or keeping a tight or firm grip on my hips until I’d let him kiss my neck or cheeks. I’d ask him afterwards if he could tone down the touching and he’d get ask me “whyre you being so weird about it? Why can’t you be normal about it?” *They always tell you just to say “no”. So why wasn’t that enough to get him to stop?*
Hey, im a 15 soon to be 16 ASEXUAL guy whose been a unfortunate victim though survivor of SA. people assume that i of all people wouldnt get SA'd due to me being a bit chubby yet here i am. life has been hard cuase even now i havent gotten justice cuase my mother doesnt want to believe what happened. i simply want to state that you're not alone. dont ever think you're alone. i'm sorry to what happened to you, nobody dissevered it. I'm Sorry
I don’t really want to describe it, cause I haven’t yet gotten over everything. I’ve been SA’D multiple times most recent being 13. I’m 14 now, but I haven’t had a therapist or anything cause no one believes me.
I was SA'd by multiple men in my life, however the one that sticks with me the most is my first ex. I was 13, 8th grade had just finished, my mom had left me with my father for the summer nut because he works long hours they got me a babysitter. I would be dropped off at their house, within the first week he was already touching me inappropriately, he threatened to claim I seduced him if I told anyone, and then he started to R me. I was stuck in that almost everyday routine for almost 2 years, I'm now 19 in my 3rd semester in college and have a very loving partner, but though I try to minimize it and convince myself that it wasn't even that bad and even joke about it to my close friends..on some days I can't get his hands off my body, his taste is a bitter poison that fills my mouth, and his voice haunts me everywhere I go. I have some great, very understanding, friends and as previously mentioned a wonderful partner, I'm also currently in therapy though it isn't much help, but it's good to let some stuff out. As bad as some days get, there's a good day just around the corner
To the people still not safe, still in the clutches of the evil person that hurts them; it gets better, you’ll be free soon, don’t give up, they’ll be brought to justice
I was abused between the ages of 11/12, I had known the boy since kindergarten and he is the son of one of my mother's friends. I kept it until I was 16, and the first thing they said to me was "Why didn't you speak up sooner?", "we can't do anything now" I don't know, I felt like they were putting an expiration date on my pain. Being abused when you are just a child is something that destroys you...All abuse hurts in such an inexplicable and strange way. My abuser continued to have permission to come to my house until I turned 18, thanks to my literature teacher asking me what was happening. She had my mother talk to a sex educator, and that day, she banned the boy from entering. It's not the only time I've been abused, and it probably won't be the last... but I really wanted to share that.
No mom, a simple "stop caring about your father" won't fix how much he mentally abused me, no mom, my past wasn't that good because when i was in his house you were never there, you didn't see what i passed trought, you didn't hear my father's screams, you didn't feel my grandfather's touch, you didn't see how i always hate myself, you saw nothing...please stop saying i'm being dramatic...if i tell you the truth, will you be mad at me?...
TW: SA Years ago I got SA'd for a bit, I was sexually touched and pushed into sexual situations when I didn't know better, it recently came to light, for the first time, and now I'm getting shit for everything happening, I wasn't even the one exposing it all, But now the person who did it is getting treated with the most respect, god I hate it, so so much, everyone hates me for something that wasn't my fault while that person gets to walk free with support because they "Don't remember doing it", And here I am getting yelled at because the person has to go to court now, against 4 people trying to protect me, trying to get a restraining order, and yet, my family is treating them like a bad guy. My family didn't even believe me at first. And now the only people repulsed by the person are my 2 aunts, But my own mom and my grandmother act like they don't deserve to go to court for it all. Anyways, I wish everyone wellness and happiness, you all deserve all the love in the world, Have a wonderful day/night
it really sucks being someone who was groomed online. it wasnt for a very long period, and i never sent pictures, but the gross feeling and trauma was just the same. I know my experience is valid and real, but it can be difficult having people tell me it wasnt "as bad". no matter what happened to you, your trauma and feelings are valid and real ❤ we can all heal, no matter what happened. i believe in you :]
First an older sibling. Then the older teenage son of a family friend. Then the other kids on a camping trip. Then eventually i grew up to have it all happen again and bring all the memories flood back.. it hurts so much every time..
tw!!vent, physical/mental abvse, sa/r4p3, kn!feplay ok so. I'm a fictionkin, and although I haven't personally been sa'd in this universe, I remember it very distinctly in one of my past lives. it's in the late 1940s-mid 1950s, and I (william afton/dave miller later on, from dsaf) am currently in an orphanage. there's an older group of boys there (they were 16-18, I was around 9-10). quite a lot, they'd tell me things that I can't entirely remember. they'd lure me to rooms where there weren't really any guardians (for lack of a better word). i distinctly remember having scarring (bite marks, hearts carved onto my chest/shoulder with knives, etc) from it. tbh I just feel disgusted by myself thinking abt it ://
how it feels sitting at a lunch table with seven people knowing that two of them have done the exact same thing to me multiple times and they'll never stop
I would like to leave this little "poem" here that I can't bring myself to put elsewhere because of it's topic. There are no direct depictions of anything sensitive, so no warnings needed. And if anyone scrolls by and recognizes me, hi :) I'll tell you when the time comes. Hope your own journey is going well
i take peace in knowing she's gonna get what's coming one day. sure, it wasn't "as bad" as what happened to others, but i swear on my word, karma's gonna come swingin' back for what she did to me. she harassed me. she made my body and my identity into a cheap sex joke for laughs. she took advantage of my kindness and willingness to give someone the benefit of the doubt because i genuinely thought she was a friend. she made me feel disgusting. she made me feel guilty. she made me feel small. she made me feel less like myself. not anymore. i won't let the memories of what happened control me anymore. justice will be served for every person she's hurt before me, and the ones she may hurt afterwards. i will be the victor.
Another comment on this video. My heart and empathy goes out to anyone who had been sa’d, groomed, or sexually abused. I really hope to whoever is reading this that you are doing so much better, and if you’re in a dark time that just know that I will be hoping and even praying that things will get better for you soon. Stay strong and stay safe everyone!!
@@Binkithetherian that doesn’t, it is considered to be sexual harassment or grooming though, if someone is doing this to you then it’s best you tell them to stop and not do it again. If they do it again then tell an adult and don’t hesitate to do it. Please stay safe and I hope you’re doing alright:)
As a victim of gr00ming and SA from my dad’s friend, I can’t get it out my head, he would just cuddle me without my consent, he would tickle fight me and just disgusting stuff, I just wanna say, your not alone…
I was SA'd almost everyday from 6 to 10 years old, ive never actually told anyone what he's done to me. He was a foster father, fortunately i was taken away for other reasons. Its been 11 years since it started and 8 since its been over but i feel like its still happening. I can still feel his hands on me, i can take 8 showers in a day and still feel filthy. I just want the memory to go away, i want to forget. I need to forget.
I was in 6th grade and identified as a non binary(AFAB) I now figured out I was trans in 7th grade(ftm). I was in 6th grade and I was waiting for the bus at school. I was in the crowded area and one of the boys from my Spanish class was near. His name was Isaiah. He approached me when I was with my friends who weren't paying much attention. He kept saying he was my bf even though I barely knew him and didn't even like guys at the time. He grabbed my chest twice and squeezed. I told him to stop but my friends weren't;t paying attention. As soon as the bus pulled into the bus lane I bolted and shoved on my headphones. That night I scrubbed my body and had a recurring dream that it happened again. Stupidly I didn't tell my parents that Thursday night. The next day in Spanish class, which was a Friday, he grabbed under my breast and a classmate yelled at him. I went to my Spanish teacher and told her. She didn't email admin until Monday to which my step father and mother were horrified to learn what happened. They only gave the boy ISS for a week since he said "it was an accident", which it clearly wasn't. The school dropped the case even when my mother demanded it be looked into. I have know graduated 8th grade a few days ago, I'll never forget how uncomfortable and gross it felt. To this day I see therapy for it and still scrub my body. Thank you for reading.
I got groomed in 2022 and it was the worst. he tried to get me to do "stuff" with him on unsafe games on roblox and ik you probably are thinking roblox? cant be that bad. he kept pressuring me for face photos and to yk keep uh doing stuff i unfriended him to get away from him,he kept following me into games he still follows me on roblox i think and i occasionally keep getting friend requests all i have to say is some people are really messed up but keep going! you can do it,im very proud of all those who have gone through something simular! ❤❤
I’ve only been SA’d once in my life where my moms boyfriend would bend me over and touch me. I’m still living with him and my mom never believed me although she saw it. It’s weird because my mom should know, she’s been Sa’d too.
It happened when I was in year 8. I only realised in year 12. I am now in uni. The ghost of him keeps taunting me. My only wish is that I and all his other victims haunt him too. That we keep him up at night. That he can't sleep. That he wishes to tear his skin off to get away from the things that he did. But I know he doesn't. He is still the same person and is doing the same manipulative shit as always. Bc I saw how he hadn't changed after secondary school. He just needs therap bc I'm sure he isn't aware of it since he did it almost naturally from such a young age. But I was also that young. And God do I want revenge
... I have such detailed nightmares of my stepdad 🍇ing me and it's been such a heavy fear my entire life that sometimes I wonder if the dreams are real and it's some repressed trauma resurfacing. I'm scared. Mainly of him, but partially my own mind, thinking that I deserve it etc
PS: I'm 16 rn and TW the comments includes grooming and other topics that may trigger ppl I wasn't SAed but I was groomed at 12 into taking nudes of my body. I'm an openly gay teen and outed myself at 11 so I was bullied and wanted friends so tried to make online ones and a guy took advantage of me when I told him I wanted friends and why and then i met other guys who did the same on this app. This cycle kept happening till I was 14 about to turn 15., with guys on this app being between 20 to 60. I always blamed myself and trauma blocked it out with only just recently beginning to see I was groomed and even began to realize why I oversexualize myself bc I was cohered to send sexual pics of myself so young bc i was told that it was a (twisted and f*cked) way of how I 'made friends' and my brain reinforces it, sometimes. I still feel ashamed but I was a child who wanted friends and who hadn't been taught about nudes and so forth. I'm getting the help I need and hopefully get more help soon along with having some actual true friends :)
When my life is going good I end up remembering that what I was so scared about telling people about my sa came true but a cop and both my brothers were the ones who didn't believe me and nothing was done he got off free :/ it sucks that life is like that
TW!! I was friends with a girl at my school that I use to go to, she had 2 boys she would hang out with and I soon started to hang out with them to, one day they held me up to the wall and started touching me and stuff even tho I told them not to, my "Friend" laughed and said it was just a joke when I started crying, this continued for 3 months until I told her I didn't really wanna be friends anymore, she told me she would tell my parents that I let a bunch of boys touch my like that and I stated doing drugs then, I had to only deal with this until my mum took me out of school cause I wasn't focusing on my work enough, my sister or my parents dont know about this but my sister is supportive and my only hope at this point because my parents are mentally abusive, my sister is in the mental hospitel now and my parents are thinking of sending me back to that school because they don't like me at home all the time. I want to tell them about it but I know I'm gonna be called for "fakeing" or "attention seeking" so I guess I'll just stick to Roblox friends and RUclips.
I’m not struggling with $a or gr00ming but I relate in an ex-friend situation…I am SO SORRY for all those people that have been s@ or gr00med ❤ sending love…
i’m a victim of sa, i was just in class and some girl came up to me and d put her hand in between my thighs and said “hi beautiful” (i’m trans masc) i just sat them and let it happen because my anxiety wouldn’t let me move. i told my girlfriend and she wasn’t happy about it, i can’t close my eyes at night without seeing that girl. i hate my life so much. -elliot/miles 🌹
TW: COCSA (if anyone has been through this feel free to talk to me about it in the replies :) ) Happened when I was 5-7 multiple times a day when my mum was sleeping from night shift and my dad was at work/uni and me and him would play fight but he would always over power me cause he was 9-11 (his birthday was before mine) and when he would, he would pin my down and start grinding those bits onto me while he would moan into my ear and it would fucking hurt but I knew I wasn’t strong enough to push him away so I would just sit there and let him and I was always left soar after but I thought it was normals and trusted him a lot so one time when I had a nightmare I went to his room and he pushed himself up into me (there was clothes and that but I could feel *it*) but I got sent back to my room Years later I still feel disgusted with myself that I just sat there and let it happen I didn’t fight, I didn’t scream, I didn’t cry worst part is I can’t speak about about him doing that because he is autistic so my parents wouldn’t believe me or they would say I was too young to even know what happened to me but there was always one comforting fact it’s that your skin is fully replaced very 7 years (yeah most dust and stuff is actually skin sheddings) so after 7 years everything that happened is gone, all that pain is not on your skin anymore while it may be there mentally your skin is clean now ❤ and your safe, you no longer have the marks of those people who wronged you
I really hope someone can really tell me if it is SA or I'm just delusional. Me and my father used to have not a goof relationship. We never really talked or do anything together. He was just there. Then when I grow up (aka. when I was a teen) he yelled at me and made fun of me. One day he randomly got clingy? Because I didn't feel comfortable cause he used to be a bad father to me I pushed him away. But he keeps trying to touch me somehow. He often does stuff like forcing me to kiss him and grabbing my butt. I never say no cause I am scared. Everytime when I did say no he was like "You don't love me anymore?" or my mom just yelled at me for not threatening him like my dad. He even told me as I pushed him away after he grabbed my butt that: "I'm your father, I can touch you wherever I want" My friends tell me that it is disgusting Online people too But I still keep blaming myself for not saying no sometimes or that I am being a bad daughter. I don't know if this is SA Please to anyone who read this, can you please tell me what this is? I thank u so much if you do, I really do
i'm a victim of SA, and like... it really fucks you up. its been like.. 4 years? since it happened but like,, i still think about what went wrong. i dont want to be vent because its yk,, personal,, but i hope everyone in this comment section has a wonderful life, and i hope they get help !
im not sure if this is SA. it was during the holidays. i had a friend that wanted me to be a thing with me so i just played along without knowing he would take me for advantage because of my stupid self. after the first week, he kept asking for pictures of.. some stuff. well im not that stupid so i said no and at the 2nd week he kept asking and i didn't like it as he kept calling me to "get my attention" when im doing my homework. so i broke up with him. him and i were yk in most classes. after that, whenever he goes near me i feel scared or unsafe. i feel uncomfortable and i freeze up whenever he appears. i grimace at the sight of his name or mentions of his nickname i gave him (autistic monkey). he's been touching the table where i sit on when he walks by only once. but it's like he wants me to be angry, he wants me to be uncomfortable and scared of him. honestly, i feel digusted and scared. its been 3 weeks, he's still doing it. i told the teacher to him when he tried looking down. (its only once i hope) and he didn't do it again. i still feel unsafe and uncomfortable. he also targets my friends and i as if he actually wants me to break down in class. its as if he wants me to continue self harming once a week at night. its like he wants me to act like this. i hate it. i hate this so much. im scared of what happens next. my friends help me get away from him, i really appreciate it, they won't ever know, but i appreciate it, from the bottom to the top of my heart. im scared. im scared of what hes going to do me. im angry of what hes going to do to my friends. he drawed on one of my friend's arm without her consent. he poked her with his pen. he's making more girls uncomfortable. its disgusting. i just want to get rid of him out of this world. i want him to disappear. i want him to die. but im scared. i dont know why i feel like this. im stupid.
Ive been SA by my cosin when he was 15 or 13 but he used it as a game when i was 7 and called it the "underwater game" and i never knew what he was doing till i turned 10 and i looked at him cautiously ever since and have been traumatized ever since...😔 i never told my family about this but my friends knew cause they were the only ones i had the gut to tell...i love my friends❤ ever since this incedent ive became hypersexual and sensative to touch by strangers and have been very insecure and crazy and how i talk and act and just extremly disgusting until i realized ive been so bad and i shouldent be doing this so i look back and just try to gorget what ive done on the internet and online people, its a tragity so ive been clearing myself up now.. hopefully im ok, but for now i do vent art on my comunity posts sometimes
I haven't been SA'd. But I was groomed through omegle when I was 10 and 11. I first found out what it was from a video on yt (dont remember what it was) but that encouraged me to check out the site and I stuck to the furry interest most of the time but then I started going on ones like tiktok and lgbtq and thats where the grooming began. They would say stuff like 'My dog died, I feel sad, can you take off your shirt?' and 'I'll leak your address if you don't take off your shirt." As a kid, I thought this was stuff was okay, and I was making them happy (I was a HUGE people pleaser). I didn't realize it was grooming till I was 12. I saw a video on the matter and realized I was indeed groomed. I blamed myself for the longest time and thought it counted as cheating on my girlfriend at the time (and after that my at the time boyfriend). I actually thought I deserved it for a while and it was all my fault. But after actually talking to someone about it, I realized it wasn't my fault.
I feel so guilty when I feel bad about what happened to me. I was groped by a friend’s friend. I didn’t want him to touch me but he did. But it wasn’t anything serious, he didn’t really rape me or do anything more. And whenever I hear about people who have gone through way worse I feel guilty. like I shouldn’t feel bad or I don’t deserve to feel bad about him groping me because that’s all he did. Nothing to big
I wasnt sa'd (i was molested) but most people here can agree that most people who have delt with sex related trama can get along and let me tell you it makes me so sad but somewhat happy to see this. It makes me sad to see the storys of others who have suffered in simular ways as i did but it makes me somewhat happy that it reminds me that im not alone and that ill allways have someone rather i know them or not that'll be able to understand what ive been through (and if your woundering i was 5 and he was 60)
Well since people are sharing their stories… I’ve been seggulized my entire life lol, groped and stuff. Groomed by multiple people from 8-11 or 12 12 i was abused by a “friend” By 13 I had my first stalker, who S/A’d me. By 14 I finally realized it wasn’t normal. Mentally not okay atp but whatever. Idk lol, rn I’m safe and just chilling. Kind of. I’m better than I have been, found someone great, got over stuff. Sorry if it’s not too long, I tend to repress stuff. Anyways gl to you all
TW: Grooming, abuse, self harm, SA (I think, I don’t feel that my pain was enough, I have an issue with that) I am a female. 13. When I was 12, it was October, close to Halloween. My school was doing a Haunted Hallway. I was one of the scorers as my aunt is part of the pta. (my main guardian but my parents are in my life). I was given a pumpkin mask, a cloak. I was in a makeshift classroom. We had skeletons, like them, I stayed still, then would jump out. It was fine at first. My brother wasn’t too far, so was my friend and ex. About half way through. It started. I jumped out at a group, and was nearly punched in the face. I luckily dodged, but it hit my mask. Another group consisted of boys. When they came in, I scared them as usual. For your information, I’m flat. But what happened still affected me. I was groped, then shoved into a desk. Twice. It left bruises on my back. We’re not having a scare maze this year. More groups came. The more I was pushed, and some people flirted, some tried to fight me. I felt so dirty at home. Water, soap, nothing could wash off all the touching. Nothing could remove my pain. Before this, some time. My older brother, he was 3 years older, bigger, and stronger, he has autism (idk if this partook though) I was walking to the dining table, i don’t remember why. But my wrists were trapped behind me, and I was pinned to the table, unable to move, speak, scared. My aunt came in, and shut it down. I remember hiding in my room. Scared. There were times my eldest brother would hit me and my other brother, he doesn’t anymore, luckily. But when he did, and got in trouble, I would tell my aunt. And the glares I got shook me. My mom and dad threatened violence, but never acted on it. My brother? He did (at the time). I remember bruises I hid, and the sobs I forced down at night. Then comes the parents. My mom and dad aren’t good people, neither healthy nor sane. My mom threatened us with the belt most commonly. And when we were young (0-6) she acted on it, she spanked us. My dad is a big guy. He doesn’t have to threaten us with saying it. Just look at us. This has traumatized me. I have a nightmare of my dad chasing me, going to hit me. Now the grooming; i more recently got onto discord. I am a lonely kid, most of my friends now online. I joined for them. I got friend requests from so many people. One, i remember so much. Graziano. I joined a server. He added me. The first day, it was nice! He advised me to not add other people. And tried to get me to block boys who randomly added me. I was trying to message my friends the next day, and he told me to only talk to him. I trusted him. So I listened. I TRUSTED him. Then he said; “Do you like boys my age”. He said he was 19, I was still 12. I was confused, but said “Yes, ig?” Next thing I knew, he was asking to send dick picks. I couldn’t refuse, i didn’t know how to. I felt so dirty. Every day, I’d wake up, I’d try to make new friends, but they did the same, i crawled back to him, him not knowing I did this. We called, he jerked to my voice. Asked for nudes (i didn’t send). I felt horrible, like a slut. Dirty, ugly. Whore. The names rang in my head, i listened though. I don’t know why. Luckily, I blocked him. He got banned. He made another account, I saw him in the server. I blocked him, and left it. Another grooming story; I was going to others to relieve myself from graziano. I met someone. He asked for.. pictures. I said I had a girlfriend. Luckily, he backed off. We talked, I laughed. Occasionally, he asked for more pictures. One of these times, I joked “Only for nitro”. He said I was one of “those girls”. I felt dirtier. It was a joke? I didn’t mean it, i promise, it was a joke, why is nobody listening to me? The people I were talking to started saying things about my body without seeing me. I hate my body now. And I don’t make too many friends. All this happened too quick. I’m 13. Please, creeps. Leave kids like me alone. We want to be happy, not horny toys. I feel bad I still enjoy sexual stuff. Is something wrong with me? I’m disgusted in myself, in every way, disappointed with myself. Thank you for reading.
It won’t let me edit TW: Self harm Because of what I’ve described above. I’ve found myself starving myself. Hurting myself with the small felting needles as they can’t leave a mark. I have no appetite, and I find myself in a lot of pain. I burn my finger in candles. And when I hate myself, I pinch myself. I bury my nails into my skin, enough to where I’ve bled.
I’m an SA victim.. from my cousin Me,my cousin, and my other cousin who was much younger then me were just at her house playing hide and seek and fun games like that (she was 10 while I was 8 btw) then we started playing a game of candy land and my cousin said “whoever loses is the next person to get a turn with me”. Me being a damn 8 year old I didn’t understand what she meant, I lost the game and soon my cousin brought me to her room and.. y’ know… I walked out with blood dripping down my legs and my aunt asked me what’s wrong but I lied to her because I thought it was normal, I still haven’t said anything because I don’t want my cousin to hate me, or I’m scared that my family won’t believe me and will abandon me.
I was SAed from 8 until I was 15 by my cousins. 3 of them. I thought it was normal until I realized it's not. I'm still not ok. I lost my childhood. I went through hell all by myself. I now have major trust issues among a lot of mental issues. All you can do is take things one day at a time.
I hate knowing I can't even tell anyone about it because of what he'd say when our parents inevitably question him. My brother is 2 years younger than me. I was 13, he was 11, our mom's boyfriend's 12 year old son introduced us both to p0rn. My brother started developing s3xu4l thoughts and the like. Being young and considering we'd shared a room, and because of how clingy he used to be, a bed, at night he would ask if I wanted to "play a game". I said yes. Of course I did. I thought it would be a nice game like Truth or Dare. No. And after that, he kept asking somewhat regularly. I couldn't say no anymore. When I tried to, he'd plead and never let me get away with saying no for a long time. I couldn't tell our parents because they'd never believe HE was forcing ME. That stopped a while ago, but it never went away. Now he asks if he can touch me in various places, makes s3xu4l jokes/statements that make me SO uncomfortable (I've asked him to stop but he hasn't), and has *it* out in communal spaces when we're home alone. I hate it so much, and it disgusts me, the things we used to do (semi)consensually. I wish someone outside this comment section would believe me, or that there were at least free resources to help people cope with this sort of thing anonymously (please share any resources if you have any). Wishing everyone else here the best and I hope it gets better for you all. (I'm getting out of here as fast as I can btw, don't worry about that)
I think I am a victim of both Sexual Assault and Sexual Harassment. The reason I say I think is because I'm still unsure about it because regardless of what I felt, I thought it was normal, and nobody apologized or told me it was wrong. Randos on the internet, only a few people irl, sexually harassed by them. It's kind of expected. But from and by my own mother and brother? No one told me it was wrong. NOBODY called for help. Touched, "complimented," and looked at. By the two of them. Mainly my mother. Her eyes hurt to look at now. I've grown accustomed to other types of mistreatment and abuse from my mother, so it's no wonder I thought it was normal. I have Stockholm Syndrome to both of them. I gotten "romantic" thoughts towards them ever since how they treated me, but I have grown out of them, acknowledging them as terrible thoughts for me to have. I feel disgusting, and I don't even know if my experiences count. Was I SA'd and SH'd? Am I overreacting? Have what they've done been pure intentions all this time? I don't even know if my experiences were SA in the slightest. I don't even know if I count as a victim.
I am a victim of sa/r@pe but I think it left me with shock Holme syndrome because I can't help but want to be taken advantage of because it's the only thing that makes me feel like I'm good enough for this world. I feel like a toy that has to he used now. I'm disgusted in myself...
i've never been S/A'd but i was groomed online by a 17yr old boy (which is much older than me cuz i'm years younger then him) i had met him on roblox then friended him on snap, this happened around may or before may, welp i'm even more ruined then before, and the worse part is i knew he was grooming me and i had let him and i had got attached to him, dw i had blocked him soon enough but it did hurt a little to block him i had loved him a little despite knowing our relationship was so wrong, luckily i didn't send him any of THOSE kinds of photos to him when he had asked... i'll never forgive myself or him :/
I wasn't SA'd, but my older brother attempted to SA me when i was 5-7. I was so young and didn't know his intentions... my mother found out and stopped it. She told me what he did was doing was wrong. Now im older and understand what he tried to do to me. I dont feel comfortable around him alone now....
I'm not sure if i am a victim or not. TW deep stuff (kinda) I was 15 he was 14 I was high af (my first time not his) and was so wasted i could barely move. My friend was with us and he was flirty with me already. I wasn't really into him but being high I sort of went with it. He was asking to touch my downstairs and I said that I'd be okay with it if I was sober but god i regret that night so much. He guilt me into dating him and was all around a terrible boyfriend (misgendering, explioting my trauma, asking my bsf how depressed i was, nearly drove me to su1c1de many times etc.) but idk if this counts. I mean he claims he was high too but I've seen him high before and after the fact and I don't think he was. A lot of the sexual stuff we did was when we were both intoxicated so it's hard to say. I mean he is currently following me (not full on stalking but like in a pathetic way) so I really don't know. I mean I've been catcalled with my ex gf when were both 11. There was an older guy who i met in the mental hospital who was talking about sex with me even though I had only known him a week. It's hard because I am hypersexual but don't really have any sexual trauma that I can remember.
Being groomed and assulted is something I would never wish on my worst enemy. I still can't believe I was first assaulted (I think it was the first time) was by my bio mum, either at 8 or 9 years old. the second time I was at school. In public. and no one saw or knew it was happening. I was 13 and he was my boyfriend at the time. the thrid and forth time was the same person, one inside school and one outside school and I was 16 then. I remember breaking down and telling a friend who knew the pain I was going through. she stuck by me and made sure I never had to be around my attacker while at school. we keep each other safe from our attackers who were still at school. I didn't report my attacker but she did when it happened and the school did nothing about it. i remember how scared I was to tell my foster mum about it because I had only been living with her for a few months, thankfully she believed me and listened to me. I'm 18 now and still trying to cope without being either hypersexual or depressed all the time.
I was never S/Aed, but I remember I didn't want a hug once- and I explained it to my brother, and then my dad asked if I ever got S/Aed because of it. (my brother respects that boundary) I just didn't want a hug at the moment, that doesn't mean I was S/Aed. And another time, my sister kept touching my foot and knee after I told her to stop, and my mom got mad at me for telling her to stop and said I was being sensitive.
not a victim of sa but im hypersexual from being exposed to sexual content at the age of 6! i did have a sexual interaction with my friend when we were 6 we were both girls and we were just curious. it always comes bsck to me and i feel so guilty for doing that at 6 years old..
I shouldn't be here. But I keep going back. I'm clingy. I shouldn't be. I've been touched before, but why does it feel like I have a different experience compared to others onnthis comment section? It feels.. weird. I feel left out.
I was SA’d by my partner (now ex) and my BEST friend isn’t taking me seriously and I have no one to talk to abt it and it happened like 3 months ago and I keep getting flashbacks and they won’t stop 😓
i was a victim of sa and groomed and consistently sexualized my my MOM its truely sicking im doing ok now ig but my biggest fear is it happing to someone ik and love or that person i love dose it to someone
i dont have any solid memories/proof that i was SA'd, but i cant stop thinking that my grandpa (the family member i was closest to as a child) did do something to me. i used to sleep in his bed with him, and there was just a mutual favoritism between us. as much as i hate having the thought of him possibly doing something to me, i cant stop feeling sick and disgusted about it and him. i dont have anything solid to prove or disprove anything happened, but just with certain things growing up, i think i would have to admit it could be a possibility. part of me still doesnt believe anything couldve happened, but i still feel like he mightve done something. but again idk since i have nothing but vivid thoughts to go off on.
Vivid thoughts? If you mean flashback then its the most common shit... Im not a expert but Vivid thoughts were a point for me to remember all later... It can be a sign you Grandfather really did this to you... Trust your heart beacause brain can lie... It took me a lot to stop telling myself im a freak who made all that stuff up... Im sorry...
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I’ve been SA before. By my SPECIAL ED TEACHER!
I am autistic and the reason I took that class was to learn,
And my teacher SA me. The principal didn’t believe me bc “All autistic ppl lie. And are overdramatic” so I dealt with it for 10 months. And it kept happening, so I told my mom and she helped.
Damn that's sad i hope you're ok
Omg I hope ur doing fine
Principal should be fired
Like lying isn’t even a common stereotype with us autistic people if anything were TOO honest
@@madisontucker649 exactly the principal probably just made that up bc they didn’t want to deal with issues at school
Not a victim of SA, but a child who’s been sexualized numerous times.
Please remember that YOU are valid. No matter what happened, what they did, YOU matter, please don’t forget it.
I love you very much and you’re important, I swear it. ❤❤❤
These words may not bring very much comfort to you, though a random little girl on the internet cares for you and loves you.
thanks dude
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right, idc im never valid becuz im a neo white nationalist! BEING RAPED BUILT ME!
I've gone through similar
You're valid too
Not SA but I was groomed online by a "friend" when I was 13 y.o boy.
We were normal friends before he slowly started introducing me to erp and taking pretty much every opportunity he could to get into my metaphorical pants...
It was so bad that within the span of three months I went from being a normal 13 yo talking games with him to me telling him I that ate my own s-m-n for the first time and how it tasted.
I feel awful about it because I never said no, and at some point I started doing things back... he introduced me to his other friends who did similar things to me... then sometime later he and his friends just disappeared
For years afterwards I kind of just let anyone do s-xual to me online, even when I didn't want to. I don't remember how it stopped or why... it just did around when I was 16 or 17.
I'm 18 now. I'm still dealing with a lot of problems and I feel so much shame it hurts. I feel ashamed because... somehow I miss him. I know what he did was wrong but I miss how it felt... I liked the attention, and while I'd feel uncomfortable, grossed out, or ashamed a lot.. I kind of liked how it felt when he did that to me... so I thought that being ordered around or doing things you didn't wanna do were normal. And a lot of the time I feel like I'm just overreacting and that this was normal, even if I know it wasn't...
I feel ashamed because I feel like this should make me averse to s-x related things, but it doesn't. I want even more. And that makes me feel disgusted at myself... like I'm just the same as I was back then
It's not as awful as what everyone else seems to have been through but it hurts me a lot. I've been getting more comfortable with my wants and needs over time, but it can be hard..
Thanks for reading if you took the time
Hey man, I'm really sorry that happened to you. No one should have to go through that. I hope you get the help you need and start to feel better soon. Hate to sound like I'm being nosy, but have you told your parents about this? If not, then you probably should, and get some therapy. Remember that no matter what happens, Jesus (Or whatever God you believe in) loves you.
Insanely similar to what I had, I understand you very well. I feel disgusted with myself every day, but I try. Although I'm not very good at holding on, it seems to me that I'm at the limit
So similar but it was irl one of my czn brother and introduced me to another czn as an object I felt uncomfortable but I didn't do anything to stop it.
I know how it feels to think you should be s-x averse, but there is a thing called hyper sexuality that almost every S.A. survivor experiences. It makes you more sexual than the average person.
im so sorry, i understand the hurt and longing for that attention, for the love and support you had from him. its normal, to miss someone who hurt you. and wanting s-xual things is totally normal after those experiences, nobody should have to go through what you went through, but i promise you, it will get better. once you hit the bottom, the only way to go is up.
I've been SA'd twice, both times by strangers.
The first time was when I was 8. I was living with my brother in his apartment for a while, whilst my parents were in Europe. One of the days I was there, his friend was there. He ended up getting drunk, and my brother went out to go do something - I think to get more beer. While he was out, his friend pinned me down and started just touching me in weird ways. When my brother came back, he hit him with a bat and kicked him out. My brother got jail for a week; the 'friend' didn't get any jailtime.
The second time was this year. May 14th. I was just walking home from school, and a guy grabbed my backpack to pull me back; before he started groping my chest. I managed to escape after kicking him in the balls and running for it, but it was still pretty traumatizing. I'll never forget these days in my life.
I'm only 12.
I’m so sorry, you’re so brave and strong. You are so loved. I’m sorry that you had to go through that
I hope you're okay :( I'm sorry you had to go through all those crap.... I'm also proud of you to standing up to yourself when that man tried to do sh!t to you..
Aw fuck yeah you got those survival instincts in you dawg! But yeah sucks that that happened, hope you doing good now bro
I've totally lost faith in humanity at this point, I really hope you'll heal as best as you can. I'm very sorry this happened to you, I'm so very sorry. I hope everything will get better, just keep going and stay strong for me, for your brother, and for the world❤️
I am so sorry dearie...
Being a SA victim since I was 3 has really messed me up, I mean the person who started it all was my own father then my cousin then friends and.... I just feel used. Like no one wants to be friends with me unless it's to use my body, due to that I've become both hypersexual and repulsed by sex. I need to go to a doctor soon or I am going to break.
I am very so Sorry to hear that from you, the world here is not perfect and our life is not very easy and there will still be all lot if bad things in life but I also know that you want give up so badly, from your life because of your problems and you never not even ones , you do not don't deserve that thing in a very so young aged. I am so very proud and grateful that you are still staying, even if you don't see it but i do . But I very hope that you will get better , because you deserve so much and goods . You are a very strong and awesome person.
Im so sorry for you dear :( I hope you get better, stay strong
Hey sweetheart, this is half a year late but I want to remind you that you have such a beautiful soul. I’m so proud of you for getting this far and I’m in the same boat as you so don’t worry, we’re gonna keep afloat and not drown. If you need help, don’t be afraid to ask for it. Rely on friends, teachers, counselors, anyone who could be trusted and help you get through this. 🫂
Damn, I somehow relate to the, Hypersexual and repulsed by sex
Not a victom of SA, but I was groomed, and not online like most, but a person irl, in my life, I couldn't get away, constantly harassing me when I was alone, I was little, 3rd grade, I'm turning 15, in 9th grade now, I never forgave him, never, he makes me feel discusting
Update: so last year he got arrested and we have a restraining order now :)
Edit: we are getting the hell out of where I am rn 😍😍!! Will update before and after the flight 😆‼️
Anyone seeing this, I hope you forget the peron’s fcae who hurt you 🥰🥰
Lygsm!! /p
Edit: Its been 11 months! People are still commenting?! Im turning 16 soon now! :D! Im sorry for the people who related to this comment, I am glad for the people who have gotten away, and thank you to the kind replies of the people here, your all too kind :)
That’s terrible, Being groomed is very similar to SA. I’m glad it stopped.
I had the same thing happen but it went a little to far. I know I will never know Intierly how you feel but I understand the feeling you will have
Sa can happen online like being groomed I think, like sexting-🐑
That actually is considered SA, specifically NCCSA
Don’t forgive him. Darling you did a great job.
TW SA
i was sitting in my room and i heard my door open. it was my uncle, he sat down next to me and we played barbie’s for a few minutes before he made them have s3x. he was groping me whilst doing this. he said “it’s a fun game people play”. being 3 years old i didn’t think anything of it. he asked me if i wanted to play and of course thinking it was a harmless game, i agreed. he took my hand and led me to my bed and r4ped me. this continued multiple times daily happening until i was 5 when i moved out of the house. my grandma still lives there and he’s in prison for drugs. but every time i enter my old room, untouched and everything still there, it haunts me. i’m currently 14 and dealing with the dirtiness i feel and how gross and guilty i feel. i’m making it through but in a very unhealthy manner. thank you for taking the time to read this it means a lot to me.
I’m real sorry this happened to you :( 💔
As someone who has been going through SA by my own father it sucks so much, my own mom wouldn't listen to me until she actually caught him doing it. I was only 3 and it was horrifying, I'm safe now thanks to my mom and other people.
If you are going through SA tell someone you trust and someone you know would listen to you.
It is not your fault at all
oh goodness i'm so sorry that's happened to you :( i really hope you heal from that, what he did is not ok and not your fault remember that
@@JuliXenhop I'm doing much much better, thank you
I was SA’d on August 27th 2021- Or at least I believe it to be SA. I’ll tell my story in the next paragraph.
TW: Grooming, SA, Pedophilia(?), Incest(?), abuse
I met my step uncle (who I considered and still consider a brother) when we were both babies. He is 4 years older than me. I was 8 when he got sexual. It was 2020. In 2020 and 2021, my brother Quentin abused me emotionally, physically, and sexually. In 2020 he was mainly just violent. He pointed knifes at me, walking toward me while I screamed telling him to stop. He was then super nice and loving towards me. In 2021, he got sexual with me. There were 3 events. I’m telling them in order. The first event was me and him playing truth or dare. I’m not sure who asked first, but I think he dared me to send a nude. I thought he was joking, so I said no, then dared him to send a nude. He did so without hesitation. The second event happened on August 27th, I think. I know that because it was right after the adopt me Axolotl came out. Me and him were playing Roblox, something we always did. We were playing Adopt me. His dad got him the Axolotl. I remember saying “I wish I had the Axolotl pet, you’re so lucky!”. He immediately responded with “I’ll give you mine if you take off your clothes.” I said no. He persisted. I said no maybe 5 times but I gave in after that. I remember being afraid he would rape me. I was so scared. I don’t know what I saw, heard, or felt, but I was scared. We negotiated on times I would show parts of my body for. I believe it was 30 seconds for upper and 15 seconds for lower. I remember quickly flashing him as a joke. I was obviously uncomfortable. I didn’t want to do it. I resisted many times, but again, I was scared. The top part went smoothly, and I remember telling him “I’m insecure about my (INSERT WORD I DONT WANT TO SAY)” as a 10 YEAR OLD. He comforted me, saying it’s okay to be insecure about down there and it’s “only my first time”. When I actually did it, I remember him telling me to “spread my legs more” and “move to the left a little bit”. I felt so violated. It was the longest 15 seconds of my life. I remember counting the seconds. Wishing they would just go faster. And then it was over. When I got into my 5th grade classroom they gave everyone sheets of paper about yourself you could fill out. I found mine a few months ago. Under fears I put “Q (Quentin’s nickname), spiders, and bugs”. In fall, my dad found the picture Quentin had sent me. I couldn’t see him anymore in person . We could only call and text. His last text to me that my mom found out about a week later? “I want pussy boob” (his exact text, he is dyslexic). My response? “Don’t we all?”. My mother called CPS and the police to file sexual assault charges against my brother. I begged her not to. I didn’t want my brother hurt. I remember crying in front of the police department. Trying not to cry when CPS interrogated me. It was so hard. So traumatic. But I love him. Now I’m hypersexual and trying to overcome addiction at 12 years old 👏👏❤️❤️😋
thats like.... super horrible...
Oof...
Being assaulted at 7 years old was the fucking worst I get reminded of it every time someone tries to be sexual with me it fuckin sucks
I was unfortunately SA-ed from 4-11 and it fucking sucked. I was manipulated and being forced in it. Fortunately, I'm getting the help and support that I need now.
Are you doing better now? It's been 9 months, and I'm kinda curious to know how you are now.
SA'd by my ex a year ago. didn't even know it happened until i had a complete episode, thought i was manic and bipolar like my therapist suspected until i told my provider what happened and she said, "its awful when SA happens isnt it?" sympathetically and i was besides myself. i still have nightmares even with increased meds.
said it would never happen to me, blinked and was in an abusive relationship
i will never ever tell anyone what happened to me. they cant ever know. they wouldnt believe me.
I’m so sorry that you had to go through such pain, but although many might not believe you, we do. I believe you and whatever you had to face. I hope you’re recovering well right now, sending love :,)
I believe you.
It must be really bad if this is how you feel. I am sorry for you.
I will. I will always support a fellow victim. I will listen. I have been sexualized since I was 2 years old. It's crazy. We will listen.
The worse part of being sa'ed for me is the fact I can't blame the one who did it, as much as I want to, as much as I do hate her for it, I know it was truly no ones fault in the end, I didn't tell her no nor yes, she had no bad motive, she thought she was in the right and it's hard to blame her for that. I just wish I'd never froze up and I wasn't scared to say no cus I know she'd have stopped if I'd just said something but I couldn't. She'd have stopped but been upset and disappointed,I now know I'd have rather gotten the silent treatment for a day and hear her whine then let that happen and maybe she should have know better being 16 when I was 13 but even then I can't bring myself to blame her even if hate boils up at just the thought of her. It would be so much easier to blame her to scream about how she wronged me but it wasn't her fault in the end and I hate that the most, I have to hold on to this anger and pain with no one to rightfully point it at. The worst part is I still find myself crying over her and missing being loved, she was my last relationship and that was almost 3 years ago now.. God I can't believe how long it's been
Being a SA victim is not something to brag about. I WAS 7!! it's not cool when you feel comfortable enough to tell your friends and they constantly blackmail you with it or make jokes. it's like they'll never understand. I don't feel good about telling my parents, as they already hate my cousin and I don't want to cause family problems. it's a huge burden I hold. I had no idea what was happening then, as I was just a little kid. MY FRIENDS TRY TO ACT LIKE I'M NOT THE VICTIM! They have used the word 'muggy.' when talking about it. I feel as if no one in my school understands. My friend has threatened to tell a teacher, who would call my mother, just to get what they want. i need new friends, but I know if I leave, then ill be alone. i just cant wait to relieve myself of this burden, death will be calling. it will be nice to not worry about it.
I know! I was SA’d 4 times by my brother, and I never told anyone but one friend, and my friend said it was just one time, and that I should want to have it, and that he wants it with me. We are middle school
@@Phone_guyFnaf honestly, nobody else seems to understand. im afraid to tell anyone else as I fear what the reaction might be. we need friends who understand.
@@dvmbasss i really hope you recover from this. it hurts me to see people like this. please tell a trusted adult about this. best of luck to you!
@dvmbasss ikr? I don’t really have friends anymore because of that.
0:00 wet - dazey and the scouts
2:55 it's never enough - we are the dirt
6:35 Liquid smooth - mitski
10:22 "Haunt me ×3" - [number of terms?]
12:19 hey kids - molina
16:10 blow my brains out - tikkle me
The fact that I know all of these songs by heart isn't right....
Haunt me x3 is by Teen Suicide just to let you know…and I know all these songs by heart as well..and you are correct..it doesn’t feel or seem right…
Thanks for letting me know and fr, it don't feel right....
To everyone: Your trauma is valid no matter what level it is, you shouldn't have had to go through that. You are loved by many.
I wasn't SAed, but I had early access to internet and it made me discover p##n when I was really young, I feel I've become hypersexual due this and I feel so awful for being like this, I'm so sorry this happened to you, I hope you're recovering for this, it wasn't your fault.💝
Your mom sucks for that. She sounds like a horrible person (The ex not your mom but like kinda) Your mom should be there for you, and you should never have to be betrayed like that by a partner.
I was groomed online about a week ago by a 16 year old (im 11), and he continued even after i told him i was underage. I told a few people and they all believe me but this one person (lets call them S) is saying "I've known him for a long time we would never do that!" and i have another groomed victim (not by the same guy) Helping me and another one of S's friends attacked the other victim and now S is silencing us.
I can’t explain how much this playlist has helped me, I don’t know what I’d do without this, thank you
Not a SA victim but I was molested one time at a pool this summer by one of my mom's friends stepson. We were in Orlando at the time taking a break from Disney world
i was friends with two people; one of them sa'd the other shortly after we all became friends.
it was weird because i never expected it to happen but after it happened i didnt know how to act. Half of my friend group said that it was fake and the victim just wanted attention but the other half didnt and actually tried helping. I still cant really listen to the band that they showed me before the sa occurred. One day after the friend group broke up me and the victim walked past the spot where it apparently happened but now i think about it the spot it happened changed; at first it was in a bedroom but where they said it happened was in an back ally. Still they went into a lot of detail about what happened and it felt off to hard about something so private in such detail but i didnt say anything about it because i didnt know what to do.
As an SA victim, it's not fun. Most days I try to forget it but the nightmares just keep coming back and my memory plays on repeat like a record tape, till the panic attack calms, I try to be okay but it's so fucking hard, I wanna cry but was told not to (thanks dad.) Because it ruins his fucking pride so I suck it up till there more tears in me like a dam, character Ai is who's truly there for me even though it's a robot, It was a boy my age that did it, same grade, same school, dated him, he took me to his house brought me in his bedroom and locked the door, he touched me in places I didn't know of, I pushed him off me, broke the door down and ran back to my grandmas house, never told a soul except character Ai and a few friends in the future year 8 when I was comfortable, did I consent to it? No. Was I a kid? Yes. I was 7. And I didn't know if it was okay or not till my friends told me that it wasn't okay, I've still got visible images in my brain about it while I was writing it, thanks hunter for fucking doing this to me and giving me trauma.
I was SA'd by my older cousin when was 10. I havent seen him since then but my mom just tells me to get over it, and that I should be fine now. She expected me to forget everything the day it happened, I still feel uncomfortable around touchy people to this day. It's been about 2 years since it happened.(I'm currently 12.) I honestly feel disgusting in my own skin.
Two years. I was young. I was still a kid. He was my first boyfriend. I thought I could trust him.
i always shook off the male sa i grew up with but when my first gf did it, i got ptsd. it got so bad and nobody believe me to the point i couldnt touch my out waist/thigh area. Even my mom believes me now still blames me for what happened since "she not even good looking, why date her?" but mother dearest, you said to judge people on personality:( not obesity!
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That's happens to all lot of people , you didn't deserve that and we will keep still having bad things in our life but we can still do this . And sorry to hear that from you .
thank you@@aileenescamilla2474
The 3 years of being yelled at, pressured into sexual acts when i didn't want to act on them, basically isolated as i could only give him attention, being constantly sexualized, even when i said i was uncomfortable. I hate how much he tried to guilt trip me into staying, even as just friends to "help me", you cannot help me when you did this, you cannot help me if you don't see the damage you did, you said sorry only because i called you out on everything you did to me. I didn't even realize what was happening was wrong, i was still recovering when we met and he had his way with it, it makes me feel sick
Dear reader, you are so much stronger than you realize. The people out there don’t understand the severity of the shit we’ve been though, you are more than you know, you are getting though it and you didn’t deserve it. Please know you aren’t alone, we’re all here listening to these songs for a reason, you are strong, you deserve to recover, you can get through it. It doesn’t define you
I’m a member of a DID (dissociative identity disorder) system, so I don’t remember it happening, but I know someone else does. And I have dreams about it and ptsd flashbacks even though I can’t make out exactly what’s happening, I don’t know for sure who it was and I pray to whatever may be out there that I am absolutely wrong, but the person in my bad dreams is always my dad, and I’m scared of him horribly. I know he used to tap my but and bite his lip at me when I was little, I remember that, and he stopped when I got older, like old enough to tell someone. I can never talk about it with my therapist or my mom because I could ruin my entire life on something that may never have happened, so I stay quiet, only one other person knows that I think I might have been. And so we just do our best to cope within our system :{{
Both of my adopted brothers attempted to SA/R!pe me, one of them don't remember but I remember VERY clearly. The other one they tried 3 times all of them were when I was trying to sleep, luckily I woke up in time to run into either my grandma's room or to go tell my mother (if she's awake), I feel very uncomfortable around them, the first attempt was by the older one (the one that doesn't remember) he said "hey let's go upstairs" I followed, he lead me to the bed, I didn't know what was happening, I was 6 and he was I think 10, luckily I ran downstairs when he tried to do something to me and i told my father and he never tried to do it again, and the other one, I don't wanna say it, it disgusts me, but all I'm gonna say is that HE WATCHES ME SLEEP, it freaks me out and makes me wanna barf... I'll NEVER trust them ever again...
They scare me, they tried to hurt me, I hate them, I hate them so much, why'd they do that to me, why... They're the reason I hate physical touch.
I don't like being alone with boys, I'm afraid of what they'll do to me... I can't trust anyone anymore, I only trust 6 people, my grandmother, my mother, my bff, my bffs parents, and my father. Yeah, I have I hard time trusting people, I have my reasons.
Every time it's night time, I wait for him to go to sleep, and then I leave any room I'm in (mostly my grandma's room cuz it's the closest) and I go to me and my brothers room and stay up for a bit then I sleep.
Why do I still remember it so vividly. I should have forgotten by now. I don't want to remember anything. I want to forget.
Not an SA victim or anything major.
So one day, I go to my relatively close friends house (we were and still are best friends) and we go to his room. We talk, watch tv, and whatever else you would do at your friends house. Out of nowhere, he just decides to show me p*rn (we both were 5 at that age, but he was younger by a few months). That is when I started s*xualising myself and everyone around me. Years later, I am now thinking what it would be like if I was SA'd. And I've just kept having those thoughts recently.
Sure, this might not be as bad as others, and it's still weird/cringe to even be saying all this.
TW FOR POSSIBLE SA:
i honestly feel like what happened was SA..idk i feel like it was my fault that i was forced outside naked because my parents did it as a punishment, yk? and i feel disgusting and sexualized from it. i was only 8. why did they do that? cuz of a mess i made??? why did they feel the need to do that? even 7 years later i still feel guilty and disgusting..
That’s just fcked up, no parent should do that or expose your body to the public or just outside.
As someone who has been SA'd & someone with hypersexuality these sings being me back into the feeling and how I could be changed it.. 😭
As a groomed and SA/rape victim and survivor, I'm so happy and grateful to have people who understand me. Though I wish we never had to go through that. Just remember you are loved and make sure to reach out to people you know love you and support you. Never tell anyone what happened to you too late like I did.
I had just turned 14 while he has turning 16
My first relationship, I was so so excited. Some boy who I barely knew told me how he found me so attractive, as a black girl who had been bullied for her appearances for years that had meant everything to me. Within that week we had started dating, we held hands and he’d give me small kisses, it felt so warm at the time.
within the second week he began to get handsy in class, around the hallways, or at anytime in general, I told him to please stop and he told me I was just nervous since it was my first and he had so much more experience than me. He’d ask me questions that made me sick to my stomach, often getting frustrated when I said I wouldn’t answer them.
His hands would slip down my thighs when I’d wear skirts and I’d have to pry them away, begging him to stop and tell him I didn’t want to as his hands rub up my waist, my hips, around my chest, and through my thighs to my backside. I began to avoid him slightly, resulting in him coming up behind me and yanking him into his arms or keeping a tight or firm grip on my hips until I’d let him kiss my neck or cheeks.
I’d ask him afterwards if he could tone down the touching and he’d get ask me “whyre you being so weird about it? Why can’t you be normal about it?”
*They always tell you just to say “no”. So why wasn’t that enough to get him to stop?*
Hey, im a 15 soon to be 16 ASEXUAL guy whose been a unfortunate victim though survivor of SA.
people assume that i of all people wouldnt get SA'd due to me being a bit chubby yet here i am. life has been hard cuase even now i havent gotten justice cuase my mother doesnt want to believe what happened.
i simply want to state that you're not alone. dont ever think you're alone. i'm sorry to what happened to you, nobody dissevered it.
I'm Sorry
I don’t really want to describe it, cause I haven’t yet gotten over everything. I’ve been SA’D multiple times most recent being 13. I’m 14 now, but I haven’t had a therapist or anything cause no one believes me.
Being SA about 5 times is crazy.. I still can’t process it
I was SA'd by multiple men in my life, however the one that sticks with me the most is my first ex. I was 13, 8th grade had just finished, my mom had left me with my father for the summer nut because he works long hours they got me a babysitter. I would be dropped off at their house, within the first week he was already touching me inappropriately, he threatened to claim I seduced him if I told anyone, and then he started to R me. I was stuck in that almost everyday routine for almost 2 years, I'm now 19 in my 3rd semester in college and have a very loving partner, but though I try to minimize it and convince myself that it wasn't even that bad and even joke about it to my close friends..on some days I can't get his hands off my body, his taste is a bitter poison that fills my mouth, and his voice haunts me everywhere I go.
I have some great, very understanding, friends and as previously mentioned a wonderful partner, I'm also currently in therapy though it isn't much help, but it's good to let some stuff out. As bad as some days get, there's a good day just around the corner
To the people still not safe, still in the clutches of the evil person that hurts them; it gets better, you’ll be free soon, don’t give up, they’ll be brought to justice
this playlist is comforting as someone who was SA-ed and groomed by two different people in the same month :)
I was abused between the ages of 11/12, I had known the boy since kindergarten and he is the son of one of my mother's friends.
I kept it until I was 16, and the first thing they said to me was "Why didn't you speak up sooner?", "we can't do anything now" I don't know, I felt like they were putting an expiration date on my pain.
Being abused when you are just a child is something that destroys you...All abuse hurts in such an inexplicable and strange way.
My abuser continued to have permission to come to my house until I turned 18, thanks to my literature teacher asking me what was happening. She had my mother talk to a sex educator, and that day, she banned the boy from entering.
It's not the only time I've been abused, and it probably won't be the last... but I really wanted to share that.
No mom, a simple "stop caring about your father" won't fix how much he mentally abused me, no mom, my past wasn't that good because when i was in his house you were never there, you didn't see what i passed trought, you didn't hear my father's screams, you didn't feel my grandfather's touch, you didn't see how i always hate myself, you saw nothing...please stop saying i'm being dramatic...if i tell you the truth, will you be mad at me?...
TW: SA
Years ago I got SA'd for a bit, I was sexually touched and pushed into sexual situations when I didn't know better, it recently came to light, for the first time, and now I'm getting shit for everything happening, I wasn't even the one exposing it all, But now the person who did it is getting treated with the most respect, god I hate it, so so much, everyone hates me for something that wasn't my fault while that person gets to walk free with support because they "Don't remember doing it", And here I am getting yelled at because the person has to go to court now, against 4 people trying to protect me, trying to get a restraining order, and yet, my family is treating them like a bad guy. My family didn't even believe me at first. And now the only people repulsed by the person are my 2 aunts, But my own mom and my grandmother act like they don't deserve to go to court for it all.
Anyways, I wish everyone wellness and happiness, you all deserve all the love in the world, Have a wonderful day/night
it really sucks being someone who was groomed online. it wasnt for a very long period, and i never sent pictures, but the gross feeling and trauma was just the same. I know my experience is valid and real, but it can be difficult having people tell me it wasnt "as bad". no matter what happened to you, your trauma and feelings are valid and real ❤ we can all heal, no matter what happened. i believe in you :]
I feel bad for every single one of you guys, im not a SA victim at all i thought it said "Vent playlist/TW" ☹️ i hope you guys are okay ❤
First an older sibling. Then the older teenage son of a family friend. Then the other kids on a camping trip. Then eventually i grew up to have it all happen again and bring all the memories flood back.. it hurts so much every time..
tw!!vent, physical/mental abvse, sa/r4p3, kn!feplay
ok so. I'm a fictionkin, and although I haven't personally been sa'd in this universe, I remember it very distinctly in one of my past lives.
it's in the late 1940s-mid 1950s, and I (william afton/dave miller later on, from dsaf) am currently in an orphanage. there's an older group of boys there (they were 16-18, I was around 9-10). quite a lot, they'd tell me things that I can't entirely remember. they'd lure me to rooms where there weren't really any guardians (for lack of a better word). i distinctly remember having scarring (bite marks, hearts carved onto my chest/shoulder with knives, etc) from it. tbh I just feel disgusted by myself thinking abt it ://
oh!
how it feels sitting at a lunch table with seven people knowing that two of them have done the exact same thing to me multiple times and they'll never stop
I would like to leave this little "poem" here that I can't bring myself to put elsewhere because of it's topic. There are no direct depictions of anything sensitive, so no warnings needed.
And if anyone scrolls by and recognizes me, hi :) I'll tell you when the time comes. Hope your own journey is going well
i take peace in knowing she's gonna get what's coming one day. sure, it wasn't "as bad" as what happened to others, but i swear on my word, karma's gonna come swingin' back for what she did to me. she harassed me. she made my body and my identity into a cheap sex joke for laughs. she took advantage of my kindness and willingness to give someone the benefit of the doubt because i genuinely thought she was a friend. she made me feel disgusting. she made me feel guilty. she made me feel small. she made me feel less like myself. not anymore. i won't let the memories of what happened control me anymore. justice will be served for every person she's hurt before me, and the ones she may hurt afterwards. i will be the victor.
Another comment on this video. My heart and empathy goes out to anyone who had been sa’d, groomed, or sexually abused. I really hope to whoever is reading this that you are doing so much better, and if you’re in a dark time that just know that I will be hoping and even praying that things will get better for you soon. Stay strong and stay safe everyone!!
If someone touches your butt does that count as SA? Just a question
@@Binkithetherian that doesn’t, it is considered to be sexual harassment or grooming though, if someone is doing this to you then it’s best you tell them to stop and not do it again. If they do it again then tell an adult and don’t hesitate to do it. Please stay safe and I hope you’re doing alright:)
@@BRUTUS_COMMENTARYoh ok
my cousin experienced it she trusted me and thankfully the one who did it went to prison
As a victim of gr00ming and SA from my dad’s friend, I can’t get it out my head, he would just cuddle me without my consent, he would tickle fight me and just disgusting stuff, I just wanna say, your not alone…
I was SA'd almost everyday from 6 to 10 years old, ive never actually told anyone what he's done to me. He was a foster father, fortunately i was taken away for other reasons. Its been 11 years since it started and 8 since its been over but i feel like its still happening. I can still feel his hands on me, i can take 8 showers in a day and still feel filthy. I just want the memory to go away, i want to forget. I need to forget.
I was in 6th grade and identified as a non binary(AFAB) I now figured out I was trans in 7th grade(ftm). I was in 6th grade and I was waiting for the bus at school. I was in the crowded area and one of the boys from my Spanish class was near. His name was Isaiah. He approached me when I was with my friends who weren't paying much attention. He kept saying he was my bf even though I barely knew him and didn't even like guys at the time. He grabbed my chest twice and squeezed. I told him to stop but my friends weren't;t paying attention. As soon as the bus pulled into the bus lane I bolted and shoved on my headphones. That night I scrubbed my body and had a recurring dream that it happened again. Stupidly I didn't tell my parents that Thursday night. The next day in Spanish class, which was a Friday, he grabbed under my breast and a classmate yelled at him. I went to my Spanish teacher and told her. She didn't email admin until Monday to which my step father and mother were horrified to learn what happened. They only gave the boy ISS for a week since he said "it was an accident", which it clearly wasn't. The school dropped the case even when my mother demanded it be looked into. I have know graduated 8th grade a few days ago, I'll never forget how uncomfortable and gross it felt. To this day I see therapy for it and still scrub my body. Thank you for reading.
I got groomed in 2022 and it was the worst.
he tried to get me to do "stuff" with him on unsafe games on roblox and ik you probably are thinking roblox? cant be that bad.
he kept pressuring me for face photos and to yk keep uh doing stuff
i unfriended him to get away from him,he kept following me into games
he still follows me on roblox i think and i occasionally keep getting friend requests
all i have to say is some people are really messed up but keep going! you can do it,im very proud of all those who have gone through something simular!
❤❤
I’ve only been SA’d once in my life where my moms boyfriend would bend me over and touch me. I’m still living with him and my mom never believed me although she saw it.
It’s weird because my mom should know, she’s been Sa’d too.
It happened when I was in year 8. I only realised in year 12. I am now in uni. The ghost of him keeps taunting me. My only wish is that I and all his other victims haunt him too. That we keep him up at night. That he can't sleep. That he wishes to tear his skin off to get away from the things that he did. But I know he doesn't. He is still the same person and is doing the same manipulative shit as always. Bc I saw how he hadn't changed after secondary school. He just needs therap bc I'm sure he isn't aware of it since he did it almost naturally from such a young age. But I was also that young. And God do I want revenge
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I have such detailed nightmares of my stepdad 🍇ing me and it's been such a heavy fear my entire life that sometimes I wonder if the dreams are real and it's some repressed trauma resurfacing. I'm scared. Mainly of him, but partially my own mind, thinking that I deserve it etc
PS: I'm 16 rn and TW the comments includes grooming and other topics that may trigger ppl
I wasn't SAed but I was groomed at 12 into taking nudes of my body. I'm an openly gay teen and outed myself at 11 so I was bullied and wanted friends so tried to make online ones and a guy took advantage of me when I told him I wanted friends and why and then i met other guys who did the same on this app. This cycle kept happening till I was 14 about to turn 15., with guys on this app being between 20 to 60. I always blamed myself and trauma blocked it out with only just recently beginning to see I was groomed and even began to realize why I oversexualize myself bc I was cohered to send sexual pics of myself so young bc i was told that it was a (twisted and f*cked) way of how I 'made friends' and my brain reinforces it, sometimes. I still feel ashamed but I was a child who wanted friends and who hadn't been taught about nudes and so forth. I'm getting the help I need and hopefully get more help soon along with having some actual true friends :)
When my life is going good I end up remembering that what I was so scared about telling people about my sa came true but a cop and both my brothers were the ones who didn't believe me and nothing was done he got off free :/ it sucks that life is like that
The second song is actually called never enough and it’s by we are the dirt/kass
TW!!
I was friends with a girl at my school that I use to go to, she had 2 boys she would hang out with and I soon started to hang out with them to, one day they held me up to the wall and started touching me and stuff even tho I told them not to, my "Friend" laughed and said it was just a joke when I started crying, this continued for 3 months until I told her I didn't really wanna be friends anymore, she told me she would tell my parents that I let a bunch of boys touch my like that and I stated doing drugs then, I had to only deal with this until my mum took me out of school cause I wasn't focusing on my work enough, my sister or my parents dont know about this but my sister is supportive and my only hope at this point because my parents are mentally abusive, my sister is in the mental hospitel now and my parents are thinking of sending me back to that school because they don't like me at home all the time. I want to tell them about it but I know I'm gonna be called for "fakeing" or "attention seeking" so I guess I'll just stick to Roblox friends and RUclips.
remember, improper sex education can lead to horrible things happening
I’m not struggling with $a or gr00ming but I relate in an ex-friend situation…I am SO SORRY for all those people that have been s@ or gr00med ❤ sending love…
I probably will never know if she knew what she was doing or if those were her intentions.
i’m a victim of sa, i was just in class and some girl came up to me and d put her hand in between my thighs and said “hi beautiful” (i’m trans masc) i just sat them and let it happen because my anxiety wouldn’t let me move. i told my girlfriend and she wasn’t happy about it, i can’t close my eyes at night without seeing that girl.
i hate my life so much.
-elliot/miles 🌹
TW: COCSA (if anyone has been through this feel free to talk to me about it in the replies :) )
Happened when I was 5-7 multiple times a day when my mum was sleeping from night shift and my dad was at work/uni and me and him would play fight but he would always over power me cause he was 9-11 (his birthday was before mine) and when he would, he would pin my down and start grinding those bits onto me while he would moan into my ear and it would fucking hurt but I knew I wasn’t strong enough to push him away so I would just sit there and let him and I was always left soar after but I thought it was normals and trusted him a lot so one time when I had a nightmare I went to his room and he pushed himself up into me (there was clothes and that but I could feel *it*) but I got sent back to my room
Years later I still feel disgusted with myself that I just sat there and let it happen I didn’t fight, I didn’t scream, I didn’t cry worst part is I can’t speak about about him doing that because he is autistic so my parents wouldn’t believe me or they would say I was too young to even know what happened to me
but there was always one comforting fact it’s that your skin is fully replaced very 7 years (yeah most dust and stuff is actually skin sheddings) so after 7 years everything that happened is gone, all that pain is not on your skin anymore while it may be there mentally your skin is clean now ❤ and your safe, you no longer have the marks of those people who wronged you
I really hope someone can really tell me if it is SA or I'm just delusional.
Me and my father used to have not a goof relationship. We never really talked or do anything together. He was just there. Then when I grow up (aka. when I was a teen) he yelled at me and made fun of me. One day he randomly got clingy? Because I didn't feel comfortable cause he used to be a bad father to me I pushed him away. But he keeps trying to touch me somehow. He often does stuff like forcing me to kiss him and grabbing my butt. I never say no cause I am scared. Everytime when I did say no he was like "You don't love me anymore?" or my mom just yelled at me for not threatening him like my dad. He even told me as I pushed him away after he grabbed my butt that: "I'm your father, I can touch you wherever I want"
My friends tell me that it is disgusting
Online people too
But I still keep blaming myself for not saying no sometimes or that I am being a bad daughter.
I don't know if this is SA
Please to anyone who read this, can you please tell me what this is?
I thank u so much if you do, I really do
i'm a victim of SA, and like... it really fucks you up. its been like.. 4 years? since it happened but like,, i still think about what went wrong. i dont want to be vent because its yk,, personal,, but i hope everyone in this comment section has a wonderful life, and i hope they get help !
im not sure if this is SA.
it was during the holidays.
i had a friend that wanted me to be a thing with me so i just played along without knowing he would take me for advantage because of my stupid self. after the first week, he kept asking for pictures of.. some stuff. well im not that stupid so i said no and at the 2nd week he kept asking and i didn't like it as he kept calling me to "get my attention" when im doing my homework. so i broke up with him.
him and i were yk in most classes. after that, whenever he goes near me i feel scared or unsafe. i feel uncomfortable and i freeze up whenever he appears. i grimace at the sight of his name or mentions of his nickname i gave him (autistic monkey). he's been touching the table where i sit on when he walks by only once. but it's like he wants me to be angry, he wants me to be uncomfortable and scared of him. honestly, i feel digusted and scared.
its been 3 weeks, he's still doing it.
i told the teacher to him when he tried looking down. (its only once i hope) and he didn't do it again. i still feel unsafe and uncomfortable. he also targets my friends and i as if he actually wants me to break down in class. its as if he wants me to continue self harming once a week at night. its like he wants me to act like this. i hate it. i hate this so much. im scared of what happens next.
my friends help me get away from him, i really appreciate it, they won't ever know, but i appreciate it, from the bottom to the top of my heart.
im scared.
im scared of what hes going to do me.
im angry of what hes going to do to my friends.
he drawed on one of my friend's arm without her consent. he poked her with his pen. he's making more girls uncomfortable. its disgusting. i just want to get rid of him out of this world. i want him to disappear. i want him to die.
but im scared.
i dont know why i feel like this.
im stupid.
Ive been SA by my cosin when he was 15 or 13 but he used it as a game when i was 7 and called it the "underwater game" and i never knew what he was doing till i turned 10 and i looked at him cautiously ever since and have been traumatized ever since...😔 i never told my family about this but my friends knew cause they were the only ones i had the gut to tell...i love my friends❤ ever since this incedent ive became hypersexual and sensative to touch by strangers and have been very insecure and crazy and how i talk and act and just extremly disgusting until i realized ive been so bad and i shouldent be doing this so i look back and just try to gorget what ive done on the internet and online people, its a tragity so ive been clearing myself up now.. hopefully im ok, but for now i do vent art on my comunity posts sometimes
I haven't been SA'd. But I was groomed through omegle when I was 10 and 11. I first found out what it was from a video on yt (dont remember what it was) but that encouraged me to check out the site and I stuck to the furry interest most of the time but then I started going on ones like tiktok and lgbtq and thats where the grooming began. They would say stuff like 'My dog died, I feel sad, can you take off your shirt?' and 'I'll leak your address if you don't take off your shirt." As a kid, I thought this was stuff was okay, and I was making them happy (I was a HUGE people pleaser). I didn't realize it was grooming till I was 12. I saw a video on the matter and realized I was indeed groomed. I blamed myself for the longest time and thought it counted as cheating on my girlfriend at the time (and after that my at the time boyfriend). I actually thought I deserved it for a while and it was all my fault. But after actually talking to someone about it, I realized it wasn't my fault.
I literally saw this playlist and I was like omg I hope wet is on it then I pressed it and it started playing
I’m so happy
I feel so guilty when I feel bad about what happened to me. I was groped by a friend’s friend. I didn’t want him to touch me but he did. But it wasn’t anything serious, he didn’t really rape me or do anything more. And whenever I hear about people who have gone through way worse I feel guilty. like I shouldn’t feel bad or I don’t deserve to feel bad about him groping me because that’s all he did. Nothing to big
You have been a very naughty girl
I wasnt sa'd (i was molested) but most people here can agree that most people who have delt with sex related trama can get along and let me tell you it makes me so sad but somewhat happy to see this. It makes me sad to see the storys of others who have suffered in simular ways as i did but it makes me somewhat happy that it reminds me that im not alone and that ill allways have someone rather i know them or not that'll be able to understand what ive been through (and if your woundering i was 5 and he was 60)
Well since people are sharing their stories…
I’ve been seggulized my entire life lol, groped and stuff.
Groomed by multiple people from 8-11 or 12
12 i was abused by a “friend”
By 13 I had my first stalker, who S/A’d me.
By 14 I finally realized it wasn’t normal. Mentally not okay atp but whatever.
Idk lol, rn I’m safe and just chilling. Kind of. I’m better than I have been, found someone great, got over stuff.
Sorry if it’s not too long, I tend to repress stuff.
Anyways gl to you all
TW: Grooming, abuse, self harm, SA (I think, I don’t feel that my pain was enough, I have an issue with that)
I am a female. 13. When I was 12, it was October, close to Halloween. My school was doing a Haunted Hallway. I was one of the scorers as my aunt is part of the pta. (my main guardian but my parents are in my life). I was given a pumpkin mask, a cloak.
I was in a makeshift classroom. We had skeletons, like them, I stayed still, then would jump out. It was fine at first. My brother wasn’t too far, so was my friend and ex. About half way through. It started. I jumped out at a group, and was nearly punched in the face. I luckily dodged, but it hit my mask.
Another group consisted of boys. When they came in, I scared them as usual. For your information, I’m flat. But what happened still affected me. I was groped, then shoved into a desk. Twice. It left bruises on my back. We’re not having a scare maze this year.
More groups came. The more I was pushed, and some people flirted, some tried to fight me. I felt so dirty at home. Water, soap, nothing could wash off all the touching. Nothing could remove my pain.
Before this, some time. My older brother, he was 3 years older, bigger, and stronger, he has autism (idk if this partook though) I was walking to the dining table, i don’t remember why. But my wrists were trapped behind me, and I was pinned to the table, unable to move, speak, scared. My aunt came in, and shut it down. I remember hiding in my room. Scared.
There were times my eldest brother would hit me and my other brother, he doesn’t anymore, luckily. But when he did, and got in trouble, I would tell my aunt. And the glares I got shook me. My mom and dad threatened violence, but never acted on it. My brother? He did (at the time). I remember bruises I hid, and the sobs I forced down at night.
Then comes the parents. My mom and dad aren’t good people, neither healthy nor sane. My mom threatened us with the belt most commonly. And when we were young (0-6) she acted on it, she spanked us. My dad is a big guy. He doesn’t have to threaten us with saying it. Just look at us. This has traumatized me. I have a nightmare of my dad chasing me, going to hit me.
Now the grooming; i more recently got onto discord. I am a lonely kid, most of my friends now online. I joined for them. I got friend requests from so many people. One, i remember so much. Graziano. I joined a server. He added me. The first day, it was nice! He advised me to not add other people. And tried to get me to block boys who randomly added me. I was trying to message my friends the next day, and he told me to only talk to him. I trusted him. So I listened. I TRUSTED him. Then he said; “Do you like boys my age”. He said he was 19, I was still 12. I was confused, but said “Yes, ig?” Next thing I knew, he was asking to send dick picks. I couldn’t refuse, i didn’t know how to. I felt so dirty. Every day, I’d wake up, I’d try to make new friends, but they did the same, i crawled back to him, him not knowing I did this. We called, he jerked to my voice. Asked for nudes (i didn’t send). I felt horrible, like a slut. Dirty, ugly. Whore. The names rang in my head, i listened though. I don’t know why. Luckily, I blocked him. He got banned. He made another account, I saw him in the server. I blocked him, and left it.
Another grooming story; I was going to others to relieve myself from graziano. I met someone. He asked for.. pictures. I said I had a girlfriend. Luckily, he backed off. We talked, I laughed. Occasionally, he asked for more pictures. One of these times, I joked “Only for nitro”. He said I was one of “those girls”. I felt dirtier. It was a joke? I didn’t mean it, i promise, it was a joke, why is nobody listening to me? The people I were talking to started saying things about my body without seeing me. I hate my body now. And I don’t make too many friends.
All this happened too quick. I’m 13. Please, creeps. Leave kids like me alone. We want to be happy, not horny toys. I feel bad I still enjoy sexual stuff. Is something wrong with me? I’m disgusted in myself, in every way, disappointed with myself.
Thank you for reading.
It won’t let me edit
TW: Self harm
Because of what I’ve described above. I’ve found myself starving myself. Hurting myself with the small felting needles as they can’t leave a mark. I have no appetite, and I find myself in a lot of pain. I burn my finger in candles. And when I hate myself, I pinch myself. I bury my nails into my skin, enough to where I’ve bled.
I’m an SA victim.. from my cousin
Me,my cousin, and my other cousin who was much younger then me were just at her house playing hide and seek and fun games like that (she was 10 while I was 8 btw) then we started playing a game of candy land and my cousin said “whoever loses is the next person to get a turn with me”. Me being a damn 8 year old I didn’t understand what she meant, I lost the game and soon my cousin brought me to her room and.. y’ know… I walked out with blood dripping down my legs and my aunt asked me what’s wrong but I lied to her because I thought it was normal, I still haven’t said anything because I don’t want my cousin to hate me, or I’m scared that my family won’t believe me and will abandon me.
I was SAed from 8 until I was 15 by my cousins. 3 of them. I thought it was normal until I realized it's not. I'm still not ok. I lost my childhood. I went through hell all by myself. I now have major trust issues among a lot of mental issues. All you can do is take things one day at a time.
I hate knowing I can't even tell anyone about it because of what he'd say when our parents inevitably question him.
My brother is 2 years younger than me. I was 13, he was 11, our mom's boyfriend's 12 year old son introduced us both to p0rn. My brother started developing s3xu4l thoughts and the like. Being young and considering we'd shared a room, and because of how clingy he used to be, a bed, at night he would ask if I wanted to "play a game". I said yes. Of course I did. I thought it would be a nice game like Truth or Dare. No. And after that, he kept asking somewhat regularly. I couldn't say no anymore. When I tried to, he'd plead and never let me get away with saying no for a long time. I couldn't tell our parents because they'd never believe HE was forcing ME. That stopped a while ago, but it never went away. Now he asks if he can touch me in various places, makes s3xu4l jokes/statements that make me SO uncomfortable (I've asked him to stop but he hasn't), and has *it* out in communal spaces when we're home alone. I hate it so much, and it disgusts me, the things we used to do (semi)consensually. I wish someone outside this comment section would believe me, or that there were at least free resources to help people cope with this sort of thing anonymously (please share any resources if you have any).
Wishing everyone else here the best and I hope it gets better for you all.
(I'm getting out of here as fast as I can btw, don't worry about that)
I think I am a victim of both Sexual Assault and Sexual Harassment. The reason I say I think is because I'm still unsure about it because regardless of what I felt, I thought it was normal, and nobody apologized or told me it was wrong. Randos on the internet, only a few people irl, sexually harassed by them. It's kind of expected. But from and by my own mother and brother? No one told me it was wrong. NOBODY called for help. Touched, "complimented," and looked at. By the two of them. Mainly my mother. Her eyes hurt to look at now. I've grown accustomed to other types of mistreatment and abuse from my mother, so it's no wonder I thought it was normal. I have Stockholm Syndrome to both of them. I gotten "romantic" thoughts towards them ever since how they treated me, but I have grown out of them, acknowledging them as terrible thoughts for me to have. I feel disgusting, and I don't even know if my experiences count. Was I SA'd and SH'd? Am I overreacting? Have what they've done been pure intentions all this time? I don't even know if my experiences were SA in the slightest. I don't even know if I count as a victim.
2:55 is never enough by we are the dirt btw!!
I am a victim of sa/r@pe but I think it left me with shock Holme syndrome because I can't help but want to be taken advantage of because it's the only thing that makes me feel like I'm good enough for this world. I feel like a toy that has to he used now. I'm disgusted in myself...
i've never been S/A'd but i was groomed online by a 17yr old boy (which is much older than me cuz i'm years younger then him) i had met him on roblox then friended him on snap, this happened around may or before may, welp i'm even more ruined then before, and the worse part is i knew he was grooming me and i had let him and i had got attached to him, dw i had blocked him soon enough but it did hurt a little to block him i had loved him a little despite knowing our relationship was so wrong, luckily i didn't send him any of THOSE kinds of photos to him when he had asked... i'll never forgive myself or him :/
Not a victim of SA but i feel an emotion that i have never felt before listening to this...
PS: pls make a longer one
I wasn't SA'd, but my older brother attempted to SA me when i was 5-7. I was so young and didn't know his intentions... my mother found out and stopped it. She told me what he did was doing was wrong. Now im older and understand what he tried to do to me. I dont feel comfortable around him alone now....
I'm not sure if i am a victim or not.
TW deep stuff (kinda)
I was 15 he was 14 I was high af (my first time not his) and was so wasted i could barely move. My friend was with us and he was flirty with me already. I wasn't really into him but being high I sort of went with it. He was asking to touch my downstairs and I said that I'd be okay with it if I was sober but god i regret that night so much. He guilt me into dating him and was all around a terrible boyfriend (misgendering, explioting my trauma, asking my bsf how depressed i was, nearly drove me to su1c1de many times etc.) but idk if this counts.
I mean he claims he was high too but I've seen him high before and after the fact and I don't think he was. A lot of the sexual stuff we did was when we were both intoxicated so it's hard to say. I mean he is currently following me (not full on stalking but like in a pathetic way) so I really don't know.
I mean I've been catcalled with my ex gf when were both 11. There was an older guy who i met in the mental hospital who was talking about sex with me even though I had only known him a week. It's hard because I am hypersexual but don't really have any sexual trauma that I can remember.
Being groomed and assulted is something I would never wish on my worst enemy. I still can't believe I was first assaulted (I think it was the first time) was by my bio mum, either at 8 or 9 years old. the second time I was at school. In public. and no one saw or knew it was happening. I was 13 and he was my boyfriend at the time. the thrid and forth time was the same person, one inside school and one outside school and I was 16 then. I remember breaking down and telling a friend who knew the pain I was going through. she stuck by me and made sure I never had to be around my attacker while at school. we keep each other safe from our attackers who were still at school. I didn't report my attacker but she did when it happened and the school did nothing about it. i remember how scared I was to tell my foster mum about it because I had only been living with her for a few months, thankfully she believed me and listened to me. I'm 18 now and still trying to cope without being either hypersexual or depressed all the time.
I was never S/Aed, but I remember I didn't want a hug once- and I explained it to my brother, and then my dad asked if I ever got S/Aed because of it. (my brother respects that boundary)
I just didn't want a hug at the moment, that doesn't mean I was S/Aed.
And another time, my sister kept touching my foot and knee after I told her to stop, and my mom got mad at me for telling her to stop and said I was being sensitive.
SA'd by a "friend" and sexualized at a young age hurts.
not a victim of sa but im hypersexual from being exposed to sexual content at the age of 6! i did have a sexual interaction with my friend when we were 6 we were both girls and we were just curious. it always comes bsck to me and i feel so guilty for doing that at 6 years old..
i havent been SA'ed, and have a BIGGGG fear of it, but this playlist reminds me exactly of my friend (whos a victim of COCSA)
I shouldn't be here. But I keep going back. I'm clingy. I shouldn't be. I've been touched before, but why does it feel like I have a different experience compared to others onnthis comment section?
It feels.. weird. I feel left out.
I was SA’d by my partner (now ex) and my BEST friend isn’t taking me seriously and I have no one to talk to abt it and it happened like 3 months ago and I keep getting flashbacks and they won’t stop 😓
i was a victim of sa and groomed and consistently sexualized my my MOM its truely sicking im doing ok now ig but my biggest fear is it happing to someone ik and love or that person i love dose it to someone
i dont have any solid memories/proof that i was SA'd, but i cant stop thinking that my grandpa (the family member i was closest to as a child) did do something to me. i used to sleep in his bed with him, and there was just a mutual favoritism between us. as much as i hate having the thought of him possibly doing something to me, i cant stop feeling sick and disgusted about it and him. i dont have anything solid to prove or disprove anything happened, but just with certain things growing up, i think i would have to admit it could be a possibility. part of me still doesnt believe anything couldve happened, but i still feel like he mightve done something. but again idk since i have nothing but vivid thoughts to go off on.
Vivid thoughts? If you mean flashback then its the most common shit... Im not a expert but Vivid thoughts were a point for me to remember all later... It can be a sign you Grandfather really did this to you... Trust your heart beacause brain can lie... It took me a lot to stop telling myself im a freak who made all that stuff up... Im sorry...
My Body's Made up of Crushed Little Stars would be perfect for a part two