Your heart makes you cry and sometimes your brain hurts and your body is numb and you feel like you are drowning and I feel like I am burning in pain when I cry hard
here are the timestamps!! ❤️ (i don’t know most of the songs but i hope that’s okay!) 0:01 spit in my face! 0:24 glass breaking x idk 0:36 VO x alien blues 0:57 idk 1:14 VO 1:21 VO 1:30 VO x idk 1:39 VO x cigarettes out the window 1:48 VO 1:55 things to do 2:02 i bet on losing dogs x VO 2:18 VO x lights are on 2:41 put me in a movie 2:55 VO x i’m just a kid 3:03 VO x freak 3:08 new flesh 3:21 VO x drowning 3:32 daddy issues 3:39 i just want to be the one you love 3:52 heavenly (??) 4:03 rain 4:07 VO x new flesh 4:22 she’s a crybaby x carousel 4:36 numbers 4:47 sippy cup 5:13 i’m just a kid 5:40 cigarettes out the window 6:02 idk 6:08 all i want is you 6:24 running away is easy 6:35 idk 6:45 VO x cigarrets out the window 7:19 race 7:29 why is it still raining? 7:51 nintendo 64 8:23 hidden in the sand 8:30 i’ll never drink again 8:36 VO x welcome and goodbye 8:45 cold outside 9:14 VO x idk 9:29 not allowed 9:35 smells like teen spirit 9:47 VO x idk 9:58 VO x idk 10:06 smash pumpkins 10:18 10:20 VO x idk 10:27 VO x mary (??) 10:40 VO x no surprises 10:47 VO x idk 10:57 VO x advice 11:06 VO 11:24 you need help 11:45 VO x idk 12:09 VO 12:16 advice (??) 12:41 new home x little mouse 12:53 sarah lynn? 12:59 VO 13:07 VO x advice (??) 13:18 wait for you 13:32 fourth of july 13:44 lain x jealous 13:52 idk 14:07 mary 14:17 VO x i’m just a kid 14:25 idk 14:33 idk 14:47 jealous 14:53 VO x idk 15:06 idk 15:24 first love late spring 15:41 rises the moon 16:03 idk 16:33 twin sized mattress 17:02 a different age 17:14 idk so sorry i didn’t know most of the songs! i hope everyone has an amazing day/evening/night! whatever you’re going through, i know you can overcome it. i’ll always be here to listen if you need ❤️
1:55 things to do 2:55 I'm just a kid (probably) 3:08 new flesh 3:39 i just want to be the one you love 4:03 rain (by JackStauber) 4:07 new flesh 4:36 numbers 6:08 all i want is you 8:36 welcome and goodbye 9:35 smells like teen spirit 10:40 no suprises 10:57 advice by Alex g (prob) 12:16 advice by Alex g (prob) 13:11 advice (again??😭) 17:02 a different age
To storyboards i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
Vent :/ -- I remember I was either 4 or 5 years old, my mom had got a new boyfriend who also had a son. I was happy to see my mother so happy again; but her boyfriend and son thought it'd be 'oh, so great' to act like they were tickling me. It might sound funny when you read it, oh, but I later then realized: "Hey, that was weird, that wasn't supposed to happen." That was 9 years ago. I remember a couple months ago I was having this meltdown and I told my mother's boyfriend (who was her husband at this point) that he made me uncomfortable. He said he'd stop. He said he would stop, and he didn't. My mother is still married to this man, his son moved out, but I'm still living with this man. My mom is still married to him, probably because I didn't speak about it. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate my mother, I love her but it's just the man she married. I can't feel the same. He was supposed to be my dad.
@@berrymerrychacherry I’m so srry ml , pls know that it wasn’t ur fault and u didn’t deserve it , none deserves this . If u feel safe enough to do so , pls speak up abt it or tell sb if he continues to do this , don’t take it out on urself u didn’t cause any of this , ‘nd if u ever need 2 talk pls lkm I’ll promise I’ll b here , this is a safe place ml . Pls take care and stay safe
Hey... Um... I relate but don't relate to this at the same time... I got SA'ed by my uncle for 6 years... My parents found out through my diary... It's been... I think 2 years now.... And I'm so thankful they found out or I would've still been suffering... Probably even be raped or something if they didn't find out... Trust me... Tell her... Please tell her... I swear to god it'll hurt... You'll cry at nights... You'll feel like you're losing your mind sometimes and sometimes will feel like you want to rip off your skin... The memory won't go away... They can't... They're a part of you... No matter how much you hate... But *please* don't let this continue... Istg I feel like I'm gonna cry... I hate how people can relate to such bullshit... I hate how the victims have to suffer the most while the person who did all the shit gets away with it like nothing fucking happened... I hate how we have to mostly forgive and forget but THEY DON'T GIVE A SHIT...
You were a kid, you didn't deserve it, nobody does. You were young, naive, you were supposed to trust them, but it wasn’t your fault, they hurt you because they wanted to, you didn't deserve it! You deserved a childhood.. you deserved to be free, and live.. you have EVERY right to be angry at them, don’t feel like you have to apologize for everything , and forgive them after what they did Though i may not know you, i still care, and love you (not romantic way ofc-) Yeah sure, your parents don't beilive you or may not understand, but many people do.. it’s ok with they way you cope, either s3lf h@rm, m@sturb@t10n, or other.. I still love you, i dont care if you need mental help, I'll still love you, you are perfect the way you are, sweetheart ???: “I’m ugly” I don’t care ima still love you ???:”im fat” I don’t care ima still love you ???: “I’m skinny” I don’t care ima still love you ???: “I have a large nose” I don’t care ima still love you ???: “I don’t know you” I don’t care ima still love you ???: “I’m older than you” I don’t care ima still love you ???: “I was rude to you” I don’t care ima still love you ???: “but I’m not perfect..” Nobody is sweetie
Was it really my fault? That I froze and didn’t know what to do? Was it really my fault that my own father did that to me? Was I wrong to trust him? Were all those nights of scratching at my skin, blaming myself, hoping I would die, actually valid? I wish I could feel something other than pity, I wish I could actually recognize my emotions. I wish I wasn’t emotionally unavailable, I wish that it really was a cruel nightmare. That it didn’t actually happen to me, that he didn’t do what he did. That he actually was a father instead of this. I wish I didn’t want validation from men all the time, I wish I could tell someone. But isn’t it better to keep it to myself? Better for my mother, brother, and friends to never know? No matter what reality I’m in, I will always be pitiful.
Ml, you aren't alone in this please tell someone... Your father had no right to do that to his child, and what he did was not and will never be your fault. You didn't deserve it. Please if you ever need to talk I'll be here, dont blame yourself I promise you, you are here for a reason no matter what. You are loved and a amazing person, so please... reach out if you need to ml...
I am currently 13 days clean but I still have the very strong urge to break it and feel like a disappointment to everyone but I’m still trying my best but its never enough
@@Fatmushrooms please don’t feel like a disappointment! Im so proud of you that you’ve been clean for 13 days! You don’t know how much of an improvement that is! Don’t give up I believe in you, just keep going I promise it will forever be worth it!! If you ever need to talk just let me know, you are loved!
please dont ml. i broke a one year clean streak a day ago and i feel horrible to the people i promised i would never do it again. im so proud of you love, i love you and if you need to talk please reach out. 💕
@@FLUFFY3HOTDOG hey… please try… I’ll tell you that suicide is not worth it, Iv been though the same situation but there are so many people out there that love you and care for you… if you ever need to talk please let me know, I’ll be here
@JustStoryBoards im gonna kinda vent rlly quick im sorry. i just really need to get it off of me in some type of way. i don't know how tbh. it's like i can still feel their hand around my neck and scratching my arms and legs and how my arm would randomly tingle from how hard they bit me and now my neck would tighten randomly and i would get sharp pains there. i still think of them and still see them everyday. it's hard to see them so happy and not have a single thought about apologizing to me. everyone thinks it's my fault because i got into the car but i didn't know it was gonna happen. i stay in the shower for hours scrubbing my skin, almost scraping it off and once i'm done, i still feel disgusting. i don't even feel like the same person anymore. i don't know what to do with myself anymore. i hate how it keeps repeating over and over again and i feel like i will never be clean again and will forever just be seen as an object for pleasure and a punching bag instead of a human being. i hate looking at my body because it has so many marks left by others that i thought i could trust but was just taken advantage of over and over again. my body doesn't even feel like my own anymore.
@@vampzmbiez That’s horrible… Please don’t apologize for venting here, that’s why I made this… But please, I don’t know you age, but if your still a minor or live with your parents please tell them… If not maybe talk to a trusted family member or possibly a therapist. I want you to know that you are loved, and will always be… It wasn’t your fault… please don’t blame yourself for things, don’t hurt yourself… And please know that it wasn’t your fault… I’m 13 myself but if you need a place to talk let me know, I might have my hands full at the moment but I promise you I’ll always be here… So please, stay safe and know that you are not alone… I love you..
@JustStoryBoards hii srry it took me a bit bc of school n other stuff. ahh ur so younggg ahhh i feel bad for talking about it now but yeahh i've talked to my parents n brother abt it but they all blame me n say it's my fault for going n stuff n said i embarrassed them :( i know i could've avoided it but i didn't know it was gonna happen again... but thank you for listening to me, i love you too n take care of urself as well
i genuinely have nothing to complain about anymore. anything that happened remains forgotten as i don't remember half my life. i am self aware enough to where i was the one to be there for myself and ended up being okay in the end.
somehow your playlist keeps coming back to me, its been 1 month and i still love it and know it off by heart. AWESOMMEEE PLAYLISSTTT!!! Also hope your doing goodd!! heh sorry for commenting a lot
why is the photo so real. and the first song its so relatable to me because I always hid secrets for my mom yet she never cared until I told child services, thats when everything went wrong..and its my fault?? it feels like it.
@@PupunGrant-h6f I promise you it wasn’t your fault, you were a child, you wouldn’t have known what is bad and what is good, I promise you that you are loved and a amazing person, and if you ever need to talk please let me know I’ll be here for you
@@dollify-dox I’m so sorry… You shouldn’t have gone through what you had experienced, I really hope you’re able to heal, and if you ever need someone to talk to I’ll be here… :]
that made me cry again after I was crying like a maniac for two hours I don’t understand why mothers like this they hurt you really bad but you can’t hate them but I don’t even want to hug her or do anything with her or even touch this woman she doesn’t even know their own child’s needs I can’t believe a mother would abu$e they’re child like this how can a person be this cruel? I didn’t do anything wrong to deserve to be treated that bad I was always the quiet child bc nobody hears me what hurts more that my own parents can’t give me the care understanding and safety they should give me as their child but who would?
I’m so sorry that happened to you, you don’t deserve to have that, please know that you ARE loved, and will always be. So please, if you need to talk let me know…
“i’m over him! i got cps called so i’ll never see him again, he didn’t affect me!” -gets a dream of him and he touches me on my lower thigh above my right knee and i woke up crying. then his touch was still there, even if it was a dream, but it reminds me too much about the real SA’s so i cut myself on that specific spot and after every time it heals again.
@@Help.IScrubbediswear ml I’m so sry , u didn’t deserve that , but pls don’t harm urself I promise u it’ll get better … if u ever need 2 talk pls lmk I promise I’ll b here …
man reading all these comments make me want to tear up. I don’t think I was necessarily abused but it’s just so heartbreaking to read all of these comments 💔💔 I get so angry and upset when I hear about children being mistreated. why do people let all this happen and not do anything? you all deserve better.
I remember watching my mom and dad argue when I was 4-8 years old and one of the most traumatic things that I saw happen was my dad pin my mom to a wall and start strangling her. I got scared and watched them while crying. Then I ran to my sisters room, went in and ran into her arms crying then we both sat in her room with her comforting me for 30 minutes or so. I wanted to help but I knew my father would get mad at me and things would've turned out way worse than they did. I started hating myself and my life at only 9 years old.
@@Kara.sleepy I’m so sorry… that’s absolutely horrible… did you ever let someone know abt this? I don’t think this would have been a safe environment for children, especially one so young☹️ But please know it isn’t your fault and you never caused anything, you are a amazing person and have so much ahead of you and if you ever feel the need to vent or talk to someone please let me know, I’ll be here
I was so young when it happened I hate it I hate how they didn’t care of me I hate my life I don’t want to be here anymore but I’m trying so so hard not to end it or s3lf h4rm but it’s getting harder with the voices I’m tired being here I’m not that old and I want to live but it’s hard to
@@Max_goober_ig Please don’t give up, I believe in you, you were just a child you didn’t ask for that just know that you are loved and will always be. If you ever need to talk please let me know I promise I’ll be here to help you..
man like my mental health been getting worse and worse . like idk what to do. i need help bc im ruining my relationship with my bf and my friendships . all bc of my mental health. i never spoke to anyone abt it . i told my mom once and she told me its just a phase. i’m not trying to get attention or sum but i need help. idk what to do. it’s been like this since i was 11 . i’m now 15 and i just need help so badly 🤦🏽♀️
[VENTS! TW..?] As a child a lot of bad things happened, parents arguing, grossest living (I threw up when i was four and my parents didn't clean it up and it sat rotting for a week and I couldn't clean it up since I was too small yet i had to do it anyways) and $@ but one of the worst ones was when my mom left my sister alone with me and my brother outdoors on the other side of the house because she wanted to wash the car. Me and him, me:3-4 him:4:5 Obliviously didn't want to do that, we where kids...she was one so we simply left her on the concrete since we where just kids. I heard my sister sobbing when I was playing outside so annoyed I went to check on her. . . we where kids.. The concrete stairs.. The blood.. I remember lifting her onto my lap onto the top stair.. I remember holding her head... screaming for anyone, and in horror.. I can't remember what she looked like.. All I remember is being left home alone with my brother, washing the blood off my hands as my mom drove her to the emergency room.. Sorry to put this on you. No one seems to care or notice how that affected me.. I was the sweet innocent sun-shine kid, no one saw beyond that..
@@alighashford Ml , pls don’t apologize for venting , this is a safe place I promise … but u didn’t deserve that … I’m truly sry u had to experience that and I hope ur sister got the help she needed and is much better now … so pls if u ever need to talk or reach out ill b right here … again I promise everything going to b okay … stay safe
I have three younger siblings, I love them so much that I would kill for them. But I’ll always be jealous. I can’t get over the fact that I was always the test subject, I don’t want to be a therapist or teacher for my mum and I want a dad that’s not paranoid and so quick to anger. I think one of my biggest fears is the day or month or year that my siblings understand everything and realize none of it should be normal.
@@ily-j3f I hate how I know how you feel, as the ‘experiment’ or the oldest, I want you to know that you will always be loved, your siblings love you, and your parents do as well, so please if you ever need to talk please let me know!
I can never trust someone like i did before,i was betrayed,I needed comfort but my mom didnt care,I was left to fend for myself...It hurts... I cant even trust myself,please dont leave me again...I dont want this! Everybody leaves me!! I WAS DESTINED TO BE ALONE!!! NOBODY EVER CARED!! I HATE MYSELF!! I'LL NEVER RECOVER,I CAN NEVER TRUST ANYBODY AGAIN!! IT HURTS SO BAD!! IF THEIR FAULT I BECAME AGGRESSIVE!!! I'm sorry I talked back mom!! Please dont hit me!! I ALREADY HURT!! What happened to me! It's all gone!!
@@user-vb8fy2qn3b I’m so sorry… You don’t deserve that… Please know you are loved, I promise, people care, I care… If you need to talk please let me know and remember, it wasn’t your fault… I promise it wasn’t…
My mom found out today and she wasn’t kind. She said normal people dont do this and yelled and yelled at me, idk what to do anymore i just cant deal with it all
@@kamdyntibbetts8044 im so sorry you had to go through that, you didn’t deserve to have those thoughts, no one does… Just please if you need to talk reach out to me…
I'm backkk! But why this time? at my complete worst rn. (lil vent if i can) basically, i just started a new school and i'm already failing. my mom and lil brother aren't making it any better for me either, we just moved to a new house (again, 2nd time this year) and it's honestly no better even though i finally have my own room. everything is quite fine with my dad, almost my only comfort person (tho i still can't tell him everything). my sleep schedule is completely messed up, i don't really get more 4 hours of sleep due to assignments, projects, the huge ass amount of homework and my daily routine. I wake up at 6 and get home at about 8PM and do homework and head to sleep at like...1-2 AM ig? (after doing homework, trying to get myself to eat some dinner and going in the shower, crying for an hour obvi,🎧on full volume whilst overthinking my whole life!). plus, i have and ED already (eating too much and sometimes too less) and i've started doing SH (man i'm ashamed i even tried it.) after being clean for 13 years (i know, i'm so sorry, goddamn it.). atleast everyone believes those are cat scratches (i have a cat who kind of scratches), so i'd say we're safe for now. life's just becoming a pile of crap, man. i'm even so busy i don't even have time to reply to my friends. they brobs think i'm ignoring them or smth, but in reality, i'm just so fucking busy. i barely even have time to work on my unfinished book (yes, i'm writing one!), and the pc i work on is really laggy and old, so if it stops working permanently any time, that means i lose all my unfinished work and i can literally just kms (the book is all my motivation to keep going on life, all my future, man.). so yeah, i guess i can say life's okay. Sorry for such a long vent! i didn't mean to, got a bit carried away.
Hey… please don’t harm yourself, I know it’s tough but please reach out if you need to, I understand what your going through and I promise you it’s not worth it, so please please if you need to cope or talk please let someone know… I promise you there are people that love and care for you, people are worried and if you need to talk please let someone know…
Idk why but i feel like an idiot i said yes to what my step brother was trying to do until it started going too far, and he was nice enough to listen when I started saying no. He died in a motorcycle crash a couple month ago and it makes me feel worse even though i hadn't seen him in like 5 years
@@Cr3Ek_l0v3R im so sorry for your loss… I don’t know the full story so I hope im saying this right but I promise you he is in a good place… And please remember that you are loved and will always be… if you ever need to talk let me know…
Hey... Just know that it isn't your fault and that does not seem to be a "friend" they dont deserve you ml, if you ever need to talk please let me know
when parents say: mental health matters!! but when a child or teen develoups severe depression their suddenly too young to understand depression and cant have depression. like then it suddenly doesnt matter anymore! and also when a depressed tired teen or child gets told their lazy when they go to school for 7 hours then get home and does 2 hours of homework and people are still calling those people lazy who go thru that. or when someone young cuts themself out of stress then suddenly they apparently do it for attention?! like who would acually perminantly leave scars for attention?? parents have to pay more attention to how the childs mental health is or else it leads to suicide and the child or teen cant even trust their parents with their real problems. i cant trust my parents with my REAL problems anymore and its acually difficult to keep myself from killing myself. i barely tell my friends or parents anything of whats going on and im here rn tryna save my friend from commiting and i did and im being tolf 24/7 im the therapist friend of the group. also i witnissed my other oldest friend trying to commit. (i saved her) and im being called lazy by my dad and mom every day after school.
@@F0rr3zt I’m so sorry… I want you to know that you are a amazing person, and it’s not worth it to go through with it, I promise it’ll get better, there is so much the world has it offer… so please, if you ever need to talk let me know…
@@kitu_chips welp lemme just say my therapist said i had depression but my parents still wont belive it🙃 and by the way i dunno why but this spesific playlist saved me like fr spesific music can save me from doing sh or su1c1de. like at midnight i always need a good cry and this playlist is the best. i wish you luck into becoming popular!! and ima help u by giving you a lil sub :D
Everyone,if your sad,do something you like,draw,swim,make friends,sculpt,paint,anything except self harm,talk to a therapist,talk to friends (or comment on this comment,or give ur discord and we can talk,I’m a good listener) don’t self harm,kill yourself,drink alcohol,do drugs,or anything that can harm you fatally,so many people love you I love you all,see you next time
When I was 8 I had a bf and he would touch me in places I didn’t like being touched I would tell him and he would always say “I’ll stop” but never did. I’m 15 now and I’m now realizing that he’s the reason I struggle getting into relationships with the fear of not being listened too
@@TRANSMAN3Alsoasharklover-n2l I’m so sorry… you didn’t deserve that, please know it isn’t your fault and never will be, you were a child. If you ever need to talk or vent please let me know, I promise I’ll be here
I was 11, my body was growing fast, girls my age were flat and their bodies were young. they took advantage of it, most people sexualized my body, some of them used me for their pleasure and even my own parents. whenever i tell them to stop touching me they always say something like "I'm your parent, I'm allowed to touch you wherever I like". now I'm 13, i hate how my body is growing so fast :((
@@irisgobrrrrr2262 I’m so sorry… You don’t deserve that at all that’s a horrible thing that the people and your parents did. They don’t deserve you, I’m sure you are a wonderful child, they had no right to take your childhood away from you, but please know that it wasn’t your fault and will never be, you ARE loved and if you ever need to talk I’ll be here I promise
I was gr00med at the age of 9.. today's my 13th birthday none of them saw how I felt I tried to tell them they saw nothing wrong with it I hate both my parents and my brother is the favorite child.. I can't deal with it anymore only my cousin is the thing keeping me alive... she is my favorite person I'm just so tired...
I don't know but... I'm just 13 years old and I'm thinking about how can I end my life? Like disappear and no one remember me like I didn't even exist but my parents.. They're bothering me, they say if I die nothing changes but still when I think about dying or ending my life I tell myself what would happen to their life if I end my life with my own hands? Do they care? But I don't care if it solve anything or not I just want to have some peace:)
I’m so sorry your going through that… I understand what your going through, so as another 13 yr old to another let me tell you… It’s not worth it, I promise it isn’t there is so much more in life that you haven’t seen that the world is creating just for you, I want you mainly to tell a trusted adult or someone that you know can find you help, if not… Please just be careful, I promise you that your friends and family would miss you if you left them, it hurts losing a family member, especially someone in the pov of a parent losing their own child… Please, if you ever need to talk please let me know, I promise I’ll be here for you… Stay safe out there…
So i had a meeting at the assembely hall with the my grade for mental health awareness and the person talking was saying things about parents,mothers,fathers all that i looked over at my friends they were crying and tearing up i was about to but i held back especially mentioning about motherhood look my mom can be great i just wish she would change if she is capable of treating others nicely and not be so harsh she is capable to change for me a arrogant child of hers who is basicly her reflection and when the person talked about fathers i was thinking. I was aware my father wasnt always nice as well. But. He tried being a father to me even tho i was aware of his actions but i didnt care i am willing to forgive them but it doesnt mean my perspective will ever change if they dont themselfs. Im scared to tell them i need help because it always ends up me crying and them angry after yelling i only wish to be understand nothing more. I want that love that i needed as a little kid how come you adore my baby cousin. Is it because it reminds her of me.? Because youre not willing to let go of me. Wow. Just wow. Even father joke that he woukd rather have my baby cousin over me. Yea sensitive me of course but just hearing it hurts yknow i know its a joke but you see me laughing ofc not but i must say i do agree to be young where i was innocent where the world wasnt cruel to me,when my family loved me,when my friends were with me but i guess my story is just meant to be complicated all year around hm?
@@khaulahfauzolazim7534 I’m so sorry… you don’t deserve that just know that it will be okay in the end and if you need to please try and ask for help, I promise there are people who care and will want to help you… please remember that nothing is your fault and you will always be loved… if you ever need to talk please let me know
@@starrykets4ki92 I’m sorry… If you need to talk let me know, and please remember that you are loved and wanted, you are here in this earth for a great reason, even if you don’t know it yet I promise you it’s worth it… I love you, and you deserve the most ml
@@Gacha_Fantasy23 im als Kerry that happened to you, you didn’t deserve it… Just know that it wasn’t your fault… if you ever need to talk let me know… Stay safe
Too young for what my cousin did to me, what the adult said to me on discord, and what i keep getting called on the internet. (Js lemme know if ya want an explanation.)
@@Montythecoolgator I don’t need an explanation I just want to know how you’re doing… So how are you, because I promise you that you are loved, and will always be, if you ever need to talk just let me know :]
my friends think i like to cut, but its jst not true. sometimes i lose my temper and blow off a little steam but i never enjoyed it, im not a problematic child, i dont know why i cut.
Lol I have a naked humanoid horse (Body of a naked human and head of a horse. Human teeth, and human eyes) called Tasmanian...He's my comfort oc. I really love him 😊❤❤
There’s so much I could have done to prevent it. I could have been there for her. I could have done something different. Now she’s gone. I know it’s not my fault.. so why does it feel like I was the one holding the rope? What’s wrong with me? I don’t know what to feel anymore. It’s such a struggle.
@@Av3ry_Skullz I’m so sorry you had to go through that… please know it wasn’t your fault and will never be… you are loved, you are an amazing person… So please if you ever need to talk let me know… I’ll be here…
Why’s it me? It never ends. I feel like I have it great, but I have HORRIBLE ISSUES. Nobody is supposed to have to get abused, even if it was ‘just twice.’ You only pulled my arms twice when I was THREE. good job! (Sarcasm) But, friend issues and your friends SH in 5th grade, and having a horrible childhood should never, EVER, happen to anyone. I had all this Happen and more, but just…I have it better then some kids I guess…
There is this girl in my class that did some disgusting things with me, manipulated me and I kinda have the feeling it’s also my fault maybe I made her do that maybe I just shouldn’t had to force myself to love her? Yea I was probably too young to realize that.
@@Yunaniki_1 I’m so sorry that happened to you, listen you were young… You were a child, it wasn’t your fault and you never did anything wrong, you are a amazing person and will always be loved, I promise… If you get need to talk let me know…
Im proud if you for eating Im proud of you for drinking Im proud of you for breathing Im proud of you for sleeping Im proud of you for waking up IM PROUD OF YOU!♥︎
what happened? I used to look at her with a smile, and she returned it. she acted like she wanted me. she acted like she loved me. What changed mum? Why do you look at me with disappointment. you said you were sorry you said you loved me why would you lie? i was 10. then i was 11 and you met her. why did you suddenly act like i was 18? why did you tell me to shut up? she wasn't talking. why would you buy MY favorite foods and give them to her? why cant i eat anything? why can i only eat out of this box? why did you tell me what he did was my fault? you're my mother. you're meant to be on my side. My best friend just died? tfum 'you cant get bad grades because he died, that's no excuse.' he was better than you ever were, even if he was an animal. When you found the scars on my arm, why did you tell me to not do it? Why wouldn't you try to help me? Why did you take so long to realize what you were doing? so many tears. 'I don't want to talk to you in the holidays because hearing your voice makes me wanna blow my brains out. i associate your voice with the voice of someone who only hurts me.' i waited and went through pain to make sure that cut would get infected, but when it did you still cared about her, not me. your own child. i want you to look at me with a smile again. i want to feel loved again. im 14. not 24. i cant do this by myself.
@@TLT0ast_ My stomach turned reading this , you NEVER deserved this ml , I’m so very srry :[ Please if you need to reach out let me know , js remember this isn’t ur fault and never was , you were a child you didn’t cause that .
there was a guy i dated, he was older but he made me do things i didnt wanna do, i said no but i cant help but think it was my fault, maybe i shouldnt have worn what i wore? i dont understand why he would do that to me
@@ElizabethCorten I’m so sorry you went through that… you don’t deserve that… no, it’s not your fault… he forced you into those things, just know you deserve so much better ml… If you ever need to talk please let me know…
@@MikaHaerin I’m not sure what happened but i want you to know you don’t deserve that… you are loved, and you are an amazing person… So please, it’s not worth it there’s so much left the world wants you to see… if you ever need to talk let me know… I love you, and happy late birthday…
@@Saturn.gachaa I’m srry, I understand how u feel I only js did that a month ago , but please know that u deserve sb that u are able to love freely , sb that u want to be with , I’m sure u are a wonderful person ‘nd if u ever need 2 talk lemme know I promise I’ll b here , this is a safe place
@@ulthazelnut im sorry… im honestly not sure what you should do, you could always talk to family outside of your mom/dad if you need to talk, or tell a trusted adult… But just know that you are loved… And if you do need to talk I’ll be here as well… :]
@@kitu_chips aaaaa tysjm :DD my extended family is also rlly problematic and they live in a diff country anyways but my friends are really cool and understanding!!
Hahaha I wish people would have noticed earlier I want to get diagnosed or something I want to see if I have depression or not it’s been 5 years and I think it’s the lowest I’ve been I’m 13 going on 14 soon and it’s been so long. Everything’s so overwhelming I feel like no one wants me as there friends I feel shitty everyone’s smarter at math than me and they make sure I know it I suck to people to boys to everyone I suck i mean to them I don’t know why I know I need to get better but when ever a mistake happen I get called out for it and I feel shitty. It’s funny I have therapists yet I feel so scared to tell them because when ever we have sessions it’s calls and I feel like I can’t say what I feel like because I feel so shitty and my family is around when I have the. I just wanna sleep forever it makes me realize I’m those happy moments was I really happy or did I have a mask on? I just don’t wanna wake up again
Please don’t go through with it, please know you are loved and will always be, you have a reason to live and will always have one you just have to help yourself find it. You have a point to living and if you ever need to talk please let me know I promise I’ll be here…
TW: VENT. I wish it never happened. I feel like a bad kid. Why am I a bad kid. I’m sorry mom and dad. I’m sorry I’m like this. I’m sorry I broke the rules so maybe I deserved it. Maybe that’s my punishment. I feel dirty.
@@ieatpepole-k4y I’m not sure what happened but whatever did , it’s not ur fault . . . U didn’t deserve it and if u ever need 2 talk pls lmk ml , I’ll be here
Everything was finally getting better for me, I finally stopped being pessimistic all the time, I finally stopped being so terrified about everything, my anxiety and panic finally weren’t as strong. I was being clean for so long, now I’ve broken it again
@@Oliver_NSGDJDS hey… please know it’ll be okay I promise you didn’t deserve that so don’t blame yourself it wasn’t your fault, if you ever need to talk I’ll be here I promise
"Are you ok?" Me: "Yeah I'm fine now" **Me who quite litterally tried cutting myself with my scissors in class** I don't know if I'll made it past 13..I just can't take it anymore...
@@Coco_bunny5532 ml I’m so sry , pls dont go through w it i promise that it’ll get better and that thee is so much more to live 4 . . . Pls , if u need 2 talk lmk , I promise I’ll b here
@@ash_26812 Hey , js know that it’s 4 the best and the doctors are there to help u , and pls don’t starve/overeat etc; it’s not worth it and I’m sure u are beautiful
@@kitu_chips thankyou so sos osooosso much im having so much anxiety with this but my doctor told my parents to avoid talking with me abt it and she didnt tell em everything i dont think. and im like 89% sure i have anorexia and its been hard to eat lately, also im not clean at all but thanks so much for putting in the effort and doing this, i hope your doing okay as well and sorry for venting
@@ash_26812 no no it’s ok , that’s y I made this playlist ! But I completely understand what ur going through , iv had horrible trouble eating lately (going days w/o food) as well as my friend who does the same , but iv started eating lately and it feels so much better ! Bc trust me , its not fun passing out at random times 😭 . But I want u to know that it’s gonna b ok ‘nd if u have any sort of impulse to relapse js know that u can always use coping mechanisms (aka: drawing , homework , listening 2 music) or holding ice cubes in ur hands or snapping a rubber band on ur arm/etc; it’s much better than cvtting . But even if ur a couple hours clean or even days js know that it’s always smth to celebrate ‘nd im so proud of u ! Iv been clean 4 a while now ‘nd trust me it feels so good ! But if u ever need 2 talk try ‘nd reach out 2 sb u trust or I’m always here as well ml , I believe in u , and it’s going 2 b ok ! :]
@@kitu_chips thankyouuo so muhchhch also i love this playlist i have it on repeat. and ive tried the rubber band thing before but i started bleeding from how hard i did it but im trying to get better love youou
@@starrykets4ki92 Please don’t go through with it, as someone else who is 13 going on 14 in a couple months it’s not worth it, you have loved ones, not just family but friends as well, they need you by their side and you need them, I promise you it’ll get better you just have to hold on… if you ever need to talk please reach out to me…
@@kitu_chips thanks :) im currently struggling with body issues and an ed and stuff, so life's been kinda trash for me :/ but im just gonna keep living and see what happens, so yeah
@@alicia.q_q I’m so sorry! Just know that you are perfect and beautiful no matter how you see yourself! You are here for a reason! If you ever need to talk please let me know
I have a question has someone want to die but what about you going to hell you thought just know you can talk to me even if you don't know me just know I am here
Dont kill yourself, dont resort to drugs, dont cut yourself. Please i love and care about you all
@@ViennaStories
@@kitu_chips
too late
@@kayla-yf7hh please don’t go through with it, if you need to talk I’ll be here.. :]
Too late 😔
Your heart makes you cry and sometimes your brain hurts and your body is numb and you feel like you are drowning and I feel like I am burning in pain when I cry hard
@@Omgsheisgothic643 I’m sorry… if you need anyone to talk to please let me know
I'm here for you bro!
here are the timestamps!! ❤️ (i don’t know most of the songs but i hope that’s okay!)
0:01 spit in my face!
0:24 glass breaking x idk
0:36 VO x alien blues
0:57 idk
1:14 VO
1:21 VO
1:30 VO x idk
1:39 VO x cigarettes out the window
1:48 VO
1:55 things to do
2:02 i bet on losing dogs x VO
2:18 VO x lights are on
2:41 put me in a movie
2:55 VO x i’m just a kid
3:03 VO x freak
3:08 new flesh
3:21 VO x drowning
3:32 daddy issues
3:39 i just want to be the one you love
3:52 heavenly (??)
4:03 rain
4:07 VO x new flesh
4:22 she’s a crybaby x carousel
4:36 numbers
4:47 sippy cup
5:13 i’m just a kid
5:40 cigarettes out the window
6:02 idk
6:08 all i want is you
6:24 running away is easy
6:35 idk
6:45 VO x cigarrets out the window
7:19 race
7:29 why is it still raining?
7:51 nintendo 64
8:23 hidden in the sand
8:30 i’ll never drink again
8:36 VO x welcome and goodbye
8:45 cold outside
9:14 VO x idk
9:29 not allowed
9:35 smells like teen spirit
9:47 VO x idk
9:58 VO x idk
10:06 smash pumpkins
10:18
10:20 VO x idk
10:27 VO x mary (??)
10:40 VO x no surprises
10:47 VO x idk
10:57 VO x advice
11:06 VO
11:24 you need help
11:45 VO x idk
12:09 VO
12:16 advice (??)
12:41 new home x little mouse
12:53 sarah lynn?
12:59 VO
13:07 VO x advice (??)
13:18 wait for you
13:32 fourth of july
13:44 lain x jealous
13:52 idk
14:07 mary
14:17 VO x i’m just a kid
14:25 idk
14:33 idk
14:47 jealous
14:53 VO x idk
15:06 idk
15:24 first love late spring
15:41 rises the moon
16:03 idk
16:33 twin sized mattress
17:02 a different age
17:14 idk
so sorry i didn’t know most of the songs! i hope everyone has an amazing day/evening/night! whatever you’re going through, i know you can overcome it. i’ll always be here to listen if you need ❤️
Tysmm!!! Sadly I’m not able to pin yet tho, sorryyy T^T
@@kitu_chips you’re welcome! also don’t worry about it, i don’t really mind not being pinned! :) this is an amazing playlist
@@OurWalkHomeObsessed tysmm!!!
1:55 things to do
2:55 I'm just a kid (probably)
3:08 new flesh
3:39 i just want to be the one you love
4:03 rain (by JackStauber)
4:07 new flesh
4:36 numbers
6:08 all i want is you
8:36 welcome and goodbye
9:35 smells like teen spirit
10:40 no suprises
10:57 advice by Alex g (prob)
12:16 advice by Alex g (prob)
13:11 advice (again??😭)
17:02 a different age
@@Vinohakrahhh tysm aswell!!!
To storyboards
i love you
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
@@mariejolie2265 thank you so much… you don’t know how much I and other people need stuff like this… it means a lot… Thank you…
Only 7 likes man this need more Likes but ty for this i really appreciate it💗💗
_I love you_
Omg...TYSM THIS MADE ME CRYY🥹
Thank you the same goes for you to I appreciate it so much ❤️☺️😊
Vent :/ -- I remember I was either 4 or 5 years old, my mom had got a new boyfriend who also had a son. I was happy to see my mother so happy again; but her boyfriend and son thought it'd be 'oh, so great' to act like they were tickling me. It might sound funny when you read it, oh, but I later then realized: "Hey, that was weird, that wasn't supposed to happen." That was 9 years ago.
I remember a couple months ago I was having this meltdown and I told my mother's boyfriend (who was her husband at this point) that he made me uncomfortable. He said he'd stop. He said he would stop, and he didn't. My mother is still married to this man, his son moved out, but I'm still living with this man. My mom is still married to him, probably because I didn't speak about it. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate my mother, I love her but it's just the man she married. I can't feel the same. He was supposed to be my dad.
@@berrymerrychacherry I’m so srry ml , pls know that it wasn’t ur fault and u didn’t deserve it , none deserves this . If u feel safe enough to do so , pls speak up abt it or tell sb if he continues to do this , don’t take it out on urself u didn’t cause any of this , ‘nd if u ever need 2 talk pls lkm I’ll promise I’ll b here , this is a safe place ml . Pls take care and stay safe
Hey... Um... I relate but don't relate to this at the same time... I got SA'ed by my uncle for 6 years... My parents found out through my diary... It's been... I think 2 years now.... And I'm so thankful they found out or I would've still been suffering... Probably even be raped or something if they didn't find out... Trust me... Tell her... Please tell her... I swear to god it'll hurt... You'll cry at nights... You'll feel like you're losing your mind sometimes and sometimes will feel like you want to rip off your skin... The memory won't go away... They can't... They're a part of you... No matter how much you hate... But *please* don't let this continue... Istg I feel like I'm gonna cry... I hate how people can relate to such bullshit... I hate how the victims have to suffer the most while the person who did all the shit gets away with it like nothing fucking happened... I hate how we have to mostly forgive and forget but THEY DON'T GIVE A SHIT...
Completely valid feelings, even if he thought he was just being "playful" Or some shit still not alright to ignore your feelings about it
You were a kid, you didn't deserve it, nobody does.
You were young, naive, you were supposed to trust them, but it wasn’t your fault, they hurt you because they wanted to, you didn't deserve it!
You deserved a childhood.. you deserved to be free, and live.. you have EVERY right to be angry at them, don’t feel like you have to apologize for everything , and forgive them after what they did
Though i may not know you, i still care, and love you (not romantic way ofc-)
Yeah sure, your parents don't beilive you or may not understand, but many people do..
it’s ok with they way you cope, either s3lf h@rm, m@sturb@t10n, or other.. I still love you, i dont care if you need mental help, I'll still love you, you are perfect the way you are, sweetheart
???: “I’m ugly”
I don’t care ima still love you
???:”im fat”
I don’t care ima still love you
???: “I’m skinny”
I don’t care ima still love you
???: “I have a large nose”
I don’t care ima still love you
???: “I don’t know you”
I don’t care ima still love you
???: “I’m older than you”
I don’t care ima still love you
???: “I was rude to you”
I don’t care ima still love you
???: “but I’m not perfect..”
Nobody is sweetie
@@Melanie_martinezfan65 this is absolutely amazing… thank you so much, you are a amazing person :]
@@kitu_chipsty
@@kitu_chipshopefully u get better, ILYSM!! Wish u luck
@@Melanie_martinezfan65
@yasserlopez8674 I’m happy to help :) hopefully things will get better, sweetheart ^^
Was it really my fault? That I froze and didn’t know what to do? Was it really my fault that my own father did that to me? Was I wrong to trust him? Were all those nights of scratching at my skin, blaming myself, hoping I would die, actually valid? I wish I could feel something other than pity, I wish I could actually recognize my emotions. I wish I wasn’t emotionally unavailable, I wish that it really was a cruel nightmare. That it didn’t actually happen to me, that he didn’t do what he did. That he actually was a father instead of this. I wish I didn’t want validation from men all the time, I wish I could tell someone. But isn’t it better to keep it to myself? Better for my mother, brother, and friends to never know? No matter what reality I’m in, I will always be pitiful.
Ml, you aren't alone in this please tell someone... Your father had no right to do that to his child, and what he did was not and will never be your fault. You didn't deserve it. Please if you ever need to talk I'll be here, dont blame yourself I promise you, you are here for a reason no matter what. You are loved and a amazing person, so please... reach out if you need to ml...
I am currently 13 days clean but I still have the very strong urge to break it and feel like a disappointment to everyone but I’m still trying my best but its never enough
@@Fatmushrooms please don’t feel like a disappointment! Im so proud of you that you’ve been clean for 13 days! You don’t know how much of an improvement that is! Don’t give up I believe in you, just keep going I promise it will forever be worth it!! If you ever need to talk just let me know, you are loved!
please dont ml. i broke a one year clean streak a day ago and i feel horrible to the people i promised i would never do it again. im so proud of you love, i love you and if you need to talk please reach out. 💕
“Enjoy your childhood!”
Man i dont even know if ill make it past 14…
@@FLUFFY3HOTDOG hey… please try… I’ll tell you that suicide is not worth it, Iv been though the same situation but there are so many people out there that love you and care for you… if you ever need to talk please let me know, I’ll be here
committing tmrw forever 13
@ ml please don’t ! I promise u that it’s not worth it ! Please talk 2 me , I’m at school rn but I WILL be here
@@victoria-k4r7b hey are you ok?
Same
SOOOO young....
i thought they were someone i could finally trust and feel safe and loved again. i was so dumb and naive.
@@vampzmbiez im so sorry… You don’t deserve them, if you ever need to talk please let me know…
@JustStoryBoards im gonna kinda vent rlly quick im sorry. i just really need to get it off of me in some type of way. i don't know how tbh. it's like i can still feel their hand around my neck and scratching my arms and legs and how my arm would randomly tingle from how hard they bit me and now my neck would tighten randomly and i would get sharp pains there. i still think of them and still see them everyday. it's hard to see them so happy and not have a single thought about apologizing to me. everyone thinks it's my fault because i got into the car but i didn't know it was gonna happen. i stay in the shower for hours scrubbing my skin, almost scraping it off and once i'm done, i still feel disgusting. i don't even feel like the same person anymore. i don't know what to do with myself anymore. i hate how it keeps repeating over and over again and i feel like i will never be clean again and will forever just be seen as an object for pleasure and a punching bag instead of a human being. i hate looking at my body because it has so many marks left by others that i thought i could trust but was just taken advantage of over and over again. my body doesn't even feel like my own anymore.
@@vampzmbiez That’s horrible… Please don’t apologize for venting here, that’s why I made this… But please, I don’t know you age, but if your still a minor or live with your parents please tell them… If not maybe talk to a trusted family member or possibly a therapist. I want you to know that you are loved, and will always be… It wasn’t your fault… please don’t blame yourself for things, don’t hurt yourself… And please know that it wasn’t your fault… I’m 13 myself but if you need a place to talk let me know, I might have my hands full at the moment but I promise you I’ll always be here… So please, stay safe and know that you are not alone… I love you..
@JustStoryBoards hii srry it took me a bit bc of school n other stuff. ahh ur so younggg ahhh i feel bad for talking about it now but yeahh i've talked to my parents n brother abt it but they all blame me n say it's my fault for going n stuff n said i embarrassed them :( i know i could've avoided it but i didn't know it was gonna happen again... but thank you for listening to me, i love you too n take care of urself as well
@@vampzmbiez I will, you make sure to, stay safe out there..
i genuinely have nothing to complain about anymore. anything that happened remains forgotten as i don't remember half my life. i am self aware enough to where i was the one to be there for myself and ended up being okay in the end.
@@meisucksatlife8837 im so sorry… if you ever need to talk please let me know I’ll be here… :]
somehow your playlist keeps coming back to me, its been 1 month and i still love it and know it off by heart. AWESOMMEEE PLAYLISSTTT!!! Also hope your doing goodd!! heh sorry for commenting a lot
@@ash_26812 AHHH TYSMMM !!!!! No worries dw- I’m glad u like them !!!
why is the photo so real. and the first song its so relatable to me because I always hid secrets for my mom yet she never cared until I told child services, thats when everything went wrong..and its my fault?? it feels like it.
@@PupunGrant-h6f I promise you it wasn’t your fault, you were a child, you wouldn’t have known what is bad and what is good, I promise you that you are loved and a amazing person, and if you ever need to talk please let me know I’ll be here for you
listening to this playlist while having a bpd split...kinda distrating myself from thoughts of sh...itll pass ill be ok someday
@@MaheshDalle-g5g I’m so sorry… you don’t deserve to go through that, if you ever need to talk I’ll be here.. :]
so young and taken advantage of
@@dollify-dox I’m so sorry… You shouldn’t have gone through what you had experienced, I really hope you’re able to heal, and if you ever need someone to talk to I’ll be here… :]
Im so so sorry, you didn't deserve that, i hope you are doing better now
that made me cry again after I was crying like a maniac for two hours I don’t understand why mothers like this they hurt you really bad but you can’t hate them but I don’t even want to hug her or do anything with her or even touch this woman she doesn’t even know their own child’s needs I can’t believe a mother would abu$e they’re child like this how can a person be this cruel? I didn’t do anything wrong to deserve to be treated that bad I was always the quiet child bc nobody hears me what hurts more that my own parents can’t give me the care understanding and safety they should give me as their child but who would?
I’m so sorry that happened to you, you don’t deserve to have that, please know that you ARE loved, and will always be. So please, if you need to talk let me know…
hello me again! ive been listening to this playlist for 2 weeks i cant even count how much ive listened to it! So good playlist :)
@@ash_26812 Awh , I’m so glad u like it ! It’s amazing to see u again too ! Hru ? :3
@@kitu_chips Im actually doing better, you doing good as well? :)
@ that’s good , yeah I’m doing good as of td ^^
“i’m over him! i got cps called so i’ll never see him again, he didn’t affect me!”
-gets a dream of him and he touches me on my lower thigh above my right knee and i woke up crying. then his touch was still there, even if it was a dream, but it reminds me too much about the real SA’s so i cut myself on that specific spot and after every time it heals again.
@@Help.IScrubbediswear ml I’m so sry , u didn’t deserve that , but pls don’t harm urself I promise u it’ll get better … if u ever need 2 talk pls lmk I promise I’ll b here …
man reading all these comments make me want to tear up.
I don’t think I was necessarily abused but it’s just so heartbreaking to read all of these comments 💔💔
I get so angry and upset when I hear about children being mistreated. why do people let all this happen and not do anything?
you all deserve better.
@@sillyfennec_xavier
I was never treated right...
I remember watching my mom and dad argue when I was 4-8 years old and one of the most traumatic things that I saw happen was my dad pin my mom to a wall and start strangling her. I got scared and watched them while crying. Then I ran to my sisters room, went in and ran into her arms crying then we both sat in her room with her comforting me for 30 minutes or so.
I wanted to help but I knew my father would get mad at me and things would've turned out way worse than they did. I started hating myself and my life at only 9 years old.
@@Kara.sleepy I’m so sorry… that’s absolutely horrible… did you ever let someone know abt this? I don’t think this would have been a safe environment for children, especially one so young☹️ But please know it isn’t your fault and you never caused anything, you are a amazing person and have so much ahead of you and if you ever feel the need to vent or talk to someone please let me know, I’ll be here
@@kitu_chips Ty
@@kitu_chips Ty
@@Kara.sleepy ofc
I was so young when it happened I hate it I hate how they didn’t care of me I hate my life I don’t want to be here anymore but I’m trying so so hard not to end it or s3lf h4rm but it’s getting harder with the voices I’m tired being here I’m not that old and I want to live but it’s hard to
@@Max_goober_ig Please don’t give up, I believe in you, you were just a child you didn’t ask for that just know that you are loved and will always be. If you ever need to talk please let me know I promise I’ll be here to help you..
@@kitu_chips okay thanks that’s very kind of you:3 *big hug*
@@Max_goober_ig Ofcc!! *big hug*
man like my mental health been getting worse and worse . like idk what to do. i need help bc im ruining my relationship with my bf and my friendships . all bc of my mental health. i never spoke to anyone abt it . i told my mom once and she told me its just a phase. i’m not trying to get attention or sum but i need help. idk what to do. it’s been like this since i was 11 . i’m now 15 and i just need help so badly 🤦🏽♀️
@@yuri-d6h6g im so sorry… you don’t deserve to go through that… I you need to talk I’ll be here… You are loved, and will always be… I promise :]
[VENTS! TW..?] As a child a lot of bad things happened, parents arguing, grossest living (I threw up when i was four and my parents didn't clean it up and it sat rotting for a week and I couldn't clean it up since I was too small yet i had to do it anyways) and $@ but one of the worst ones was when my mom left my sister alone with me and my brother outdoors on the other side of the house because she wanted to wash the car. Me and him, me:3-4 him:4:5 Obliviously didn't want to do that, we where kids...she was one so we simply left her on the concrete since we where just kids. I heard my sister sobbing when I was playing outside so annoyed I went to check on her. . . we where kids..
The concrete stairs..
The blood..
I remember lifting her onto my lap onto the top stair..
I remember holding her head... screaming for anyone, and in horror..
I can't remember what she looked like.. All I remember is being left home alone with my brother, washing the blood off my hands as my mom drove her to the emergency room..
Sorry to put this on you. No one seems to care or notice how that affected me.. I was the sweet innocent sun-shine kid, no one saw beyond that..
@@alighashford Ml , pls don’t apologize for venting , this is a safe place I promise … but u didn’t deserve that … I’m truly sry u had to experience that and I hope ur sister got the help she needed and is much better now … so pls if u ever need to talk or reach out ill b right here … again I promise everything going to b okay … stay safe
I have three younger siblings, I love them so much that I would kill for them.
But I’ll always be jealous.
I can’t get over the fact that I was always the test subject, I don’t want to be a therapist or teacher for my mum and I want a dad that’s not paranoid and so quick to anger.
I think one of my biggest fears is the day or month or year that my siblings understand everything and realize none of it should be normal.
@@ily-j3f I hate how I know how you feel, as the ‘experiment’ or the oldest, I want you to know that you will always be loved, your siblings love you, and your parents do as well, so please if you ever need to talk please let me know!
@@kitu_chips your so sweet ❤️ and the same goes right back to you of course :)
I can never trust someone like i did before,i was betrayed,I needed comfort but my mom didnt care,I was left to fend for myself...It hurts... I cant even trust myself,please dont leave me again...I dont want this! Everybody leaves me!! I WAS DESTINED TO BE ALONE!!! NOBODY EVER CARED!! I HATE MYSELF!! I'LL NEVER RECOVER,I CAN NEVER TRUST ANYBODY AGAIN!! IT HURTS SO BAD!! IF THEIR FAULT I BECAME AGGRESSIVE!!! I'm sorry I talked back mom!! Please dont hit me!! I ALREADY HURT!! What happened to me! It's all gone!!
@@user-vb8fy2qn3b I’m so sorry… You don’t deserve that… Please know you are loved, I promise, people care, I care… If you need to talk please let me know and remember, it wasn’t your fault… I promise it wasn’t…
Why do you think I'm attention seeking!? I genuinely hurt!
@@kitu_chips It feels like it though..i get blamed for everything
@@user-vb8fy2qn3boh, I’m sorry… I really didn’t mean my words to come out that way… I truly didn’t mean it that way..
@@kitu_chips it'a fine... I JUST GOT A GRAMMERLY AD-
My mom found out today and she wasn’t kind. She said normal people dont do this and yelled and yelled at me, idk what to do anymore i just cant deal with it all
@@kamdyntibbetts8044 im so sorry you had to go through that, you didn’t deserve to have those thoughts, no one does… Just please if you need to talk reach out to me…
can relate, she said something along the lines of 'why can't you be more normal like your brothers?'://
♥︎here are you that proud so I'm this do can You
4:22 MELANIE MARTINEZ!! (what yall know bout melanie)
>_
I'm backkk! But why this time?
at my complete worst rn.
(lil vent if i can)
basically, i just started a new school and i'm already failing. my mom and lil brother aren't making it any better for me either, we just moved to a new house (again, 2nd time this year) and it's honestly no better even though i finally have my own room. everything is quite fine with my dad, almost my only comfort person (tho i still can't tell him everything). my sleep schedule is completely messed up, i don't really get more 4 hours of sleep due to assignments, projects, the huge ass amount of homework and my daily routine. I wake up at 6 and get home at about 8PM and do homework and head to sleep at like...1-2 AM ig? (after doing homework, trying to get myself to eat some dinner and going in the shower, crying for an hour obvi,🎧on full volume whilst overthinking my whole life!). plus, i have and ED already (eating too much and sometimes too less) and i've started doing SH (man i'm ashamed i even tried it.) after being clean for 13 years (i know, i'm so sorry, goddamn it.). atleast everyone believes those are cat scratches (i have a cat who kind of scratches), so i'd say we're safe for now. life's just becoming a pile of crap, man. i'm even so busy i don't even have time to reply to my friends. they brobs think i'm ignoring them or smth, but in reality, i'm just so fucking busy. i barely even have time to work on my unfinished book (yes, i'm writing one!), and the pc i work on is really laggy and old, so if it stops working permanently any time, that means i lose all my unfinished work and i can literally just kms (the book is all my motivation to keep going on life, all my future, man.). so yeah, i guess i can say life's okay.
Sorry for such a long vent! i didn't mean to, got a bit carried away.
Hey… please don’t harm yourself, I know it’s tough but please reach out if you need to, I understand what your going through and I promise you it’s not worth it, so please please if you need to cope or talk please let someone know… I promise you there are people that love and care for you, people are worried and if you need to talk please let someone know…
Idk why but i feel like an idiot i said yes to what my step brother was trying to do until it started going too far, and he was nice enough to listen when I started saying no. He died in a motorcycle crash a couple month ago and it makes me feel worse even though i hadn't seen him in like 5 years
@@Cr3Ek_l0v3R im so sorry for your loss… I don’t know the full story so I hope im saying this right but I promise you he is in a good place… And please remember that you are loved and will always be… if you ever need to talk let me know…
Pretty puppy!
@@RunawayCharm yes, how I wish that was my dog!
i have a good family a good one
but..
i have a friend.. who left and hurt me broke me then comes back and i let hes nice idk anymore..
Hey... Just know that it isn't your fault and that does not seem to be a "friend" they dont deserve you ml, if you ever need to talk please let me know
i was a child. but so was he. it doesn’t feel valid
@@whoos1sissad im sry ml if u need to talk im here
cocsa. child on child sa. it’s valid, no matter what.
when parents say: mental health matters!! but when a child or teen develoups severe depression their suddenly too young to understand depression and cant have depression.
like then it suddenly doesnt matter anymore!
and also when a depressed tired teen or child gets told their lazy when they go to school for 7 hours then get home and does 2 hours of homework and people are still calling those people lazy who go thru that.
or when someone young cuts themself out of stress then suddenly they apparently do it for attention?! like who would acually perminantly leave scars for attention??
parents have to pay more attention to how the childs mental health is or else it leads to suicide
and the child or teen cant even trust their parents with their real problems.
i cant trust my parents with my REAL problems anymore and its acually difficult to keep myself from killing myself.
i barely tell my friends or parents anything of whats going on and im here rn tryna save my friend from commiting and i did and im being tolf 24/7 im the therapist friend of the group.
also i witnissed my other oldest friend trying to commit. (i saved her)
and im being called lazy by my dad and mom every day after school.
@@F0rr3zt I’m so sorry… I want you to know that you are a amazing person, and it’s not worth it to go through with it, I promise it’ll get better, there is so much the world has it offer… so please, if you ever need to talk let me know…
@@kitu_chips welp lemme just say my therapist said i had depression but my parents still wont belive it🙃
and by the way i dunno why but this spesific playlist saved me like fr spesific music can save me from doing sh or su1c1de.
like at midnight i always need a good cry and this playlist is the best.
i wish you luck into becoming popular!! and ima help u by giving you a lil sub :D
@@F0rr3zt no that’s my parents to, your not alone in this matter
11:44 hit a little too close to home..
I feel u ml
Everyone,if your sad,do something you like,draw,swim,make friends,sculpt,paint,anything except self harm,talk to a therapist,talk to friends (or comment on this comment,or give ur discord and we can talk,I’m a good listener) don’t self harm,kill yourself,drink alcohol,do drugs,or anything that can harm you fatally,so many people love you
I love you all,see you next time
@@KyraBecker-lo5mj I agree!!
When I was 8 I had a bf and he would touch me in places I didn’t like being touched I would tell him and he would always say “I’ll stop” but never did. I’m 15 now and I’m now realizing that he’s the reason I struggle getting into relationships with the fear of not being listened too
@@TRANSMAN3Alsoasharklover-n2l I’m so sorry… you didn’t deserve that, please know it isn’t your fault and never will be, you were a child. If you ever need to talk or vent please let me know, I promise I’ll be here
I was 11, my body was growing fast, girls my age were flat and their bodies were young. they took advantage of it, most people sexualized my body, some of them used me for their pleasure and even my own parents. whenever i tell them to stop touching me they always say something like "I'm your parent, I'm allowed to touch you wherever I like".
now I'm 13, i hate how my body is growing so fast :((
@@irisgobrrrrr2262 I’m so sorry… You don’t deserve that at all that’s a horrible thing that the people and your parents did. They don’t deserve you, I’m sure you are a wonderful child, they had no right to take your childhood away from you, but please know that it wasn’t your fault and will never be, you ARE loved and if you ever need to talk I’ll be here I promise
I was gr00med at the age of 9.. today's my 13th birthday none of them saw how I felt I tried to tell them they saw nothing wrong with it I hate both my parents and my brother is the favorite child.. I can't deal with it anymore only my cousin is the thing keeping me alive... she is my favorite person I'm just so tired...
@@megumi_fushigiro58 I’m so sry ml , I understand what ur going through ‘nd I promise it’ll get better , pls lmk if u need 2 talk
OMG I LOVE THIS :D
Imma politely steal some of these audios 😀🫰
RAJHH I KNOW YOU IM SUBSCRIBED TO YOUUUU >:D
@@Mamushka_milkdo as you please lmao X3
I don't know but... I'm just 13 years old and I'm thinking about how can I end my life? Like disappear and no one remember me like I didn't even exist but my parents.. They're bothering me, they say if I die nothing changes but still when I think about dying or ending my life I tell myself what would happen to their life if I end my life with my own hands? Do they care? But I don't care if it solve anything or not
I just want to have some peace:)
I’m so sorry your going through that… I understand what your going through, so as another 13 yr old to another let me tell you… It’s not worth it, I promise it isn’t there is so much more in life that you haven’t seen that the world is creating just for you, I want you mainly to tell a trusted adult or someone that you know can find you help, if not… Please just be careful, I promise you that your friends and family would miss you if you left them, it hurts losing a family member, especially someone in the pov of a parent losing their own child… Please, if you ever need to talk please let me know, I promise I’ll be here for you… Stay safe out there…
damn...i can relate
So i had a meeting at the assembely hall with the my grade for mental health awareness and the person talking was saying things about parents,mothers,fathers all that i looked over at my friends they were crying and tearing up i was about to but i held back especially mentioning about motherhood look my mom can be great i just wish she would change if she is capable of treating others nicely and not be so harsh she is capable to change for me a arrogant child of hers who is basicly her reflection and when the person talked about fathers i was thinking. I was aware my father wasnt always nice as well. But. He tried being a father to me even tho i was aware of his actions but i didnt care i am willing to forgive them but it doesnt mean my perspective will ever change if they dont themselfs. Im scared to tell them i need help because it always ends up me crying and them angry after yelling i only wish to be understand nothing more. I want that love that i needed as a little kid how come you adore my baby cousin. Is it because it reminds her of me.? Because youre not willing to let go of me. Wow. Just wow. Even father joke that he woukd rather have my baby cousin over me. Yea sensitive me of course but just hearing it hurts yknow i know its a joke but you see me laughing ofc not but i must say i do agree to be young where i was innocent where the world wasnt cruel to me,when my family loved me,when my friends were with me but i guess my story is just meant to be complicated all year around hm?
@@khaulahfauzolazim7534 I’m so sorry… you don’t deserve that just know that it will be okay in the end and if you need to please try and ask for help, I promise there are people who care and will want to help you… please remember that nothing is your fault and you will always be loved… if you ever need to talk please let me know
i'm back here, same feeling as before. Why am i back?...
4 years and i'm still not over her. while she doesn't even give a damn about me.
@@starrykets4ki92 I’m sorry… If you need to talk let me know, and please remember that you are loved and wanted, you are here in this earth for a great reason, even if you don’t know it yet I promise you it’s worth it… I love you, and you deserve the most ml
@@kitu_chips
@@starrykets4ki92 ah, good luck! I believe in you!!
@@kitu_chips tysm!
@@starrykets4ki92 ofc!!
I was only 4.....there was nothing i could do so i just let it happen cause i was so scared and i had no clue what to do....i was powerless🙁😕😢
@@Gacha_Fantasy23 im als Kerry that happened to you, you didn’t deserve it… Just know that it wasn’t your fault… if you ever need to talk let me know… Stay safe
@@kitu_chips thank you sm
there was nothing i could do.
and i hate it
@@heidokij hey, I’m not sure what happened but how are you? If you ever need dot talk please let me know, and remember it wasn’t your fault, I promise
02:02 i think i found an audio for my dad.....
(Btw dont aks if im ok i am i just like vent audios lol)
@@Hi...203hsjik
Too young for what my cousin did to me, what the adult said to me on discord, and what i keep getting called on the internet.
(Js lemme know if ya want an explanation.)
@@Montythecoolgator I don’t need an explanation I just want to know how you’re doing… So how are you, because I promise you that you are loved, and will always be, if you ever need to talk just let me know :]
@@kitu_chips ty, and alr
my friends think i like to cut, but its jst not true. sometimes i lose my temper and blow off a little steam but i never enjoyed it, im not a problematic child, i dont know why i cut.
@@stxrryn1ght3 I’m srry ml☹️ ill b here if u need 2 talk
Me listening to this because my oc is heartbroken….
@@MM2Crowz I love traumatizing my ocs
Lol I have a naked humanoid horse (Body of a naked human and head of a horse. Human teeth, and human eyes) called Tasmanian...He's my comfort oc. I really love him 😊❤❤
Same
I was so happy when the hazbin sound came on 😭🙏
@@NuicancesObjectShow hehe I love hazbin hotel X3
There’s so much I could have done to prevent it. I could have been there for her. I could have done something different. Now she’s gone. I know it’s not my fault.. so why does it feel like I was the one holding the rope? What’s wrong with me?
I don’t know what to feel anymore. It’s such a struggle.
@@Av3ry_Skullz I’m so sorry you had to go through that… please know it wasn’t your fault and will never be… you are loved, you are an amazing person… So please if you ever need to talk let me know… I’ll be here…
@@kitu_chips
Why’s it me? It never ends. I feel like I have it great, but I have HORRIBLE ISSUES. Nobody is supposed to have to get abused, even if it was ‘just twice.’ You only pulled my arms twice when I was THREE. good job! (Sarcasm) But, friend issues and your friends SH in 5th grade, and having a horrible childhood should never, EVER, happen to anyone. I had all this Happen and more, but just…I have it better then some kids I guess…
@@S1LL1-G00B3R I’m so sorry that happened to you, if you ever need to talk please ever me know
There is this girl in my class that did some disgusting things with me, manipulated me and I kinda have the feeling it’s also my fault maybe I made her do that maybe I just shouldn’t had to force myself to love her? Yea I was probably too young to realize that.
@@Yunaniki_1 I’m so sorry that happened to you, listen you were young… You were a child, it wasn’t your fault and you never did anything wrong, you are a amazing person and will always be loved, I promise… If you get need to talk let me know…
Im proud if you for eating
Im proud of you for drinking
Im proud of you for breathing
Im proud of you for sleeping
Im proud of you for waking up
IM PROUD OF YOU!♥︎
@@Grapescentedplaydoughkitty-g2r
what happened?
I used to look at her with a smile, and she returned it.
she acted like she wanted me. she acted like she loved me.
What changed mum?
Why do you look at me with disappointment.
you said you were sorry
you said you loved me
why would you lie?
i was 10. then i was 11 and you met her.
why did you suddenly act like i was 18?
why did you tell me to shut up? she wasn't talking.
why would you buy MY favorite foods and give them to her?
why cant i eat anything? why can i only eat out of this box?
why did you tell me what he did was my fault?
you're my mother. you're meant to be on my side.
My best friend just died? tfum 'you cant get bad grades because he died, that's no excuse.'
he was better than you ever were, even if he was an animal.
When you found the scars on my arm, why did you tell me to not do it?
Why wouldn't you try to help me?
Why did you take so long to realize what you were doing? so many tears.
'I don't want to talk to you in the holidays because hearing your voice makes me wanna blow my brains out. i associate your voice with the voice of someone who only hurts me.'
i waited and went through pain to make sure that cut would get infected, but when it did you still cared about her, not me. your own child.
i want you to look at me with a smile again. i want to feel loved again.
im 14. not 24.
i cant do this by myself.
@@TLT0ast_ My stomach turned reading this , you NEVER deserved this ml , I’m so very srry :[
Please if you need to reach out let me know , js remember this isn’t ur fault and never was , you were a child you didn’t cause that .
there was a guy i dated, he was older but he made me do things i didnt wanna do, i said no but i cant help but think it was my fault, maybe i shouldnt have worn what i wore? i dont understand why he would do that to me
@@ElizabethCorten I’m so sorry you went through that… you don’t deserve that… no, it’s not your fault… he forced you into those things, just know you deserve so much better ml… If you ever need to talk please let me know…
I was 9-10 and had a srsly bad p0rn addiction!!>_< this is not skibidi chat!!!0_o
@@UNW1ND_D0RK Not skibidi at all Xd!! (But srsly how are you doing now? ^^)
me too :O!!! but i quit after m@sterb@goin and p0rn because it didn’t feel right or bring me pleasure. it’s because i was young =[
this made me realize.. it wasn’t my fault.
@@Blue_Rose_the_spacepossum
The fact is it was my birthday and i feel so done and i wanna fucking end everything i feel so tired so useless..its depressing
@@MikaHaerin I’m not sure what happened but i want you to know you don’t deserve that… you are loved, and you are an amazing person… So please, it’s not worth it there’s so much left the world wants you to see… if you ever need to talk let me know… I love you, and happy late birthday…
@@kitu_chips thank you!!
I don’t even like her but I said yes to dating her, I only said yes bc i wanted to have a relationship. Man wtf is wrong with me.
@@Saturn.gachaa I’m srry, I understand how u feel I only js did that a month ago , but please know that u deserve sb that u are able to love freely , sb that u want to be with , I’m sure u are a wonderful person ‘nd if u ever need 2 talk lemme know I promise I’ll b here , this is a safe place
@ tysm for replying, I love this playlist btw it has all my favorite songs. 🫶🏻
@@Saturn.gachaa Awh tysm ! !
im so sick of my family wtf did i even do
@@ulthazelnut im sorry… im honestly not sure what you should do, you could always talk to family outside of your mom/dad if you need to talk, or tell a trusted adult… But just know that you are loved… And if you do need to talk I’ll be here as well… :]
@@kitu_chips aaaaa tysjm :DD my extended family is also rlly problematic and they live in a diff country anyways but my friends are really cool and understanding!!
@@ulthazelnut Awh im sorry about that, but im so glad you have great friends that are there for you!! Stay safe!! :3
i will say 0:51 is correct
Edit 0:37 is correct srry i somehow messed that up but ya im 12 and when i was yonger i blame myself but i blame myself mor then ever
@@madison-p4j im so sorry… if you ever need to talk let me know :]
@@kitu_chips thx
fire playlist🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
Tysm!!
I hate being a fictionkin…(a fictionkin is someone who believes they were a character in a past life or are them in a different universe)
@@Mac_NchEz I’m js a girl>>
But srsly if uu ever n2t lmk
Hahaha I wish people would have noticed earlier I want to get diagnosed or something I want to see if I have depression or not it’s been 5 years and I think it’s the lowest I’ve been I’m 13 going on 14 soon and it’s been so long. Everything’s so overwhelming I feel like no one wants me as there friends I feel shitty everyone’s smarter at math than me and they make sure I know it I suck to people to boys to everyone I suck i mean to them I don’t know why I know I need to get better but when ever a mistake happen I get called out for it and I feel shitty. It’s funny I have therapists yet I feel so scared to tell them because when ever we have sessions it’s calls and I feel like I can’t say what I feel like because I feel so shitty and my family is around when I have the. I just wanna sleep forever it makes me realize I’m those happy moments was I really happy or did I have a mask on? I just don’t wanna wake up again
Please don’t go through with it, please know you are loved and will always be, you have a reason to live and will always have one you just have to help yourself find it. You have a point to living and if you ever need to talk please let me know I promise I’ll be here…
life truly felt hopeless.
@@number1tailsstan im sorry… sending virtual hugs
@@kitu_chips it's okay. Thank you
12:08 bro why is this shit so real
@@icantdoitanymore15
@@kitu_chips :D
Never letting my bestfriend listen at stuff like this
@@wdtfs-rrr
TW: VENT. I wish it never happened. I feel like a bad kid. Why am I a bad kid. I’m sorry mom and dad. I’m sorry I’m like this. I’m sorry I broke the rules so maybe I deserved it. Maybe that’s my punishment. I feel dirty.
@@ieatpepole-k4y I’m not sure what happened but whatever did , it’s not ur fault . . . U didn’t deserve it and if u ever need 2 talk pls lmk ml , I’ll be here
the only people that want me (as a partner) are the child preds on the internet.. (i have no friends nor partner in real life)
@@PRDtrev I’m so sorry… :[ I can be ur friend if u want (I’m a confirmed 13 yr old)
No tater how much education we got, I still didn’t fight back when he touched me…:C
Everything was finally getting better for me, I finally stopped being pessimistic all the time, I finally stopped being so terrified about everything, my anxiety and panic finally weren’t as strong. I was being clean for so long, now I’ve broken it again
@@Oliver_NSGDJDS hey… please know it’ll be okay I promise you didn’t deserve that so don’t blame yourself it wasn’t your fault, if you ever need to talk I’ll be here I promise
My friend was right their she could have help me
I’m so sorry, whatever you went through you didn’t deserve it, if you ever need it talk please let me know
"Are you ok?" Me: "Yeah I'm fine now" **Me who quite litterally tried cutting myself with my scissors in class**
I don't know if I'll made it past 13..I just can't take it anymore...
@@Coco_bunny5532 ml I’m so sry , pls dont go through w it i promise that it’ll get better and that thee is so much more to live 4 . . . Pls , if u need 2 talk lmk , I promise I’ll b here
don't hurt urself it's a bad thing remember ur family and ur friends the people that love u will be heart broken 💔 I hope u get better.
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i told my doctor that i have an ED and cvt myself and now im going to psychology and she told my parents..im cooked
@@ash_26812 Hey , js know that it’s 4 the best and the doctors are there to help u , and pls don’t starve/overeat etc; it’s not worth it and I’m sure u are beautiful
@@kitu_chips thankyou so sos osooosso much im having so much anxiety with this but my doctor told my parents to avoid talking with me abt it and she didnt tell em everything i dont think. and im like 89% sure i have anorexia and its been hard to eat lately, also im not clean at all but thanks so much for putting in the effort and doing this, i hope your doing okay as well and sorry for venting
@@ash_26812 no no it’s ok , that’s y I made this playlist ! But I completely understand what ur going through , iv had horrible trouble eating lately (going days w/o food) as well as my friend who does the same , but iv started eating lately and it feels so much better ! Bc trust me , its not fun passing out at random times 😭 . But I want u to know that it’s gonna b ok ‘nd if u have any sort of impulse to relapse js know that u can always use coping mechanisms (aka: drawing , homework , listening 2 music) or holding ice cubes in ur hands or snapping a rubber band on ur arm/etc; it’s much better than cvtting . But even if ur a couple hours clean or even days js know that it’s always smth to celebrate ‘nd im so proud of u ! Iv been clean 4 a while now ‘nd trust me it feels so good ! But if u ever need 2 talk try ‘nd reach out 2 sb u trust or I’m always here as well ml , I believe in u , and it’s going 2 b ok ! :]
@@kitu_chips thankyouuo so muhchhch also i love this playlist i have it on repeat. and ive tried the rubber band thing before but i started bleeding from how hard i did it but im trying to get better love youou
@ oh :[ But u are so welcome ml
Uhh guys i thought this was among us 😶
@@cutiebear8847 erm what the sigma
@@kitu_chips 😀
Hehe, I need someone to tell me im enough and I have a reason to live, but no one caresssssssssssssssssssssssss about meeeeeeeeee~
@@異常なやつ You are enough! And you have a reason to live! You are important person! So please if you ever need it talk please let me know,
@@kitu_chips Thank you! I really needed that reassurance
chat i dont think im making it to 2025
@@vivianamartinez3892 Please try at least… if you ever need to talk I’ll be here… :]
@@kitu_chips 14:52
@@vivianamartinez3892oh… im sorry…
@@kitu_chips its alright dont feel sorry i probably deserve it...just dont worry about me
you matter, trust and believe it. there is always someone, even if its only 1 person that loves you. i hope you heal
yk, i don't think i'll honestly make it past 14 (i'm 13 rn). prob just 3 months, and i think i'm done
@@starrykets4ki92 Please don’t go through with it, as someone else who is 13 going on 14 in a couple months it’s not worth it, you have loved ones, not just family but friends as well, they need you by their side and you need them, I promise you it’ll get better you just have to hold on… if you ever need to talk please reach out to me…
ik :/
that's too sweet ty😭😭
if i wasn't religious i would have been dead when i was nine tbh
@@alicia.q_q I’m so sorry… How are you right now..? If you ever need to talk please let me know!!
@@kitu_chips thanks :) im currently struggling with body issues and an ed and stuff, so life's been kinda trash for me :/ but im just gonna keep living and see what happens, so yeah
@@alicia.q_q I’m so sorry! Just know that you are perfect and beautiful no matter how you see yourself! You are here for a reason! If you ever need to talk please let me know
@@kitu_chips thanks :) my mom took my phone away so its hard to reply to stuff now but if i need to talk I'll try to come here
@@alicia.q_q
I have a question has someone want to die but what about you going to hell you thought just know you can talk to me even if you don't know me just know I am here
I’m so sorry I’m late to this, but how are you? Just know that suicide isn’t worth it and you are loved, if you need to talk please let me know