Eddie, you seem to have suffered a lot on your own. Having to hide such an important part of you must be difficult. Society will always try to shape people and make them fit a certain profile. Being different is okay Being gay is okay. I'm glad you are doing what makes you happy. Be strong and I hope all your effort is rewarded soon.
Eddie 老师，I want to express my sincere appreciation, you are such a brave and honest guy. Your story is so touching and I hope things just get better, though I know how fixated with marriage traditional Chinese parents are. People will not hate you, you are an excellent human being. 在墨西哥你有一个朋友，是我。
❤️ Hey all you beautiful people in the comments❗❗❤️Just a reminder that we can help our amazing teacher Eddie by watching his playlists often so he'll reach the watch time requirement faster and so he can start earning money from all his hard work. Even when you are not in the mood to learn Chinese, maybe keep his playlist on in the background? It's a win win for all of us.
Eddie, what an honest and beautiful video. Don’t let this whole situation with your mom get to you. I went through it too. I had to leave my country, it was really tough at first, but I worked hard for two years, got a good job, made some money and now everything has changed. Like you said, independence is the solution. I’m sure you’ll get there too. Keep working hard, do your thing. What you do is great and has real value. I’m absolutely sure you’ll succeed. You’re such a great and lovely guy! Keep it up and of course you have my support! :)) 加油💪🏻
you know Eddie, I am also from China. I just wanna say that I am so proud of you. from this video, I see your strength, I see your resilience. you are a fighter and you got what it takes and I m rooting for you!
Never be sorry for being emotional and thank you for this honest video about yourself! It's really sad that we have to go through all this. I'm 25 and bisexual and have yet to come out to my family. If it's hard for me even though I live in Spain, I can't even imagine how you feel being gay in a country like China. In Spain people are more open-minded and I know that my family will just accept me and still love me if I tell them, but it scares me regardless. Sometimes I'm just like "If I get a boyfriend, telling my family that I also like girls won't be necessary!" and then I get angry with myself for thinking like that, because I really don't want to hide who I am. Also, in the case I get a boyfriend, I'm kind of afraid of telling him that I like girls too... Whatever, sorry for the ramble. What can I say, stay strong and keep on fighting, you look like a really nice guy! I hope you can find someone who loves you and makes you happy and hope your mother accepts you as you are in the future. Here I send you a virtual hug!
I'm so late to the party for finding this but it really touched me. Were the same age and how I grew up in England as a Gay man is so radically different from your experience, it was honestly a difficult thought process for me to comprehend.. But its also a story I needed to hear because getting a story like this out to the public IS a niche in itself. Just reading some of the other comments here shows how me how many people value and appreciate your work. So no matter how it might feel at times, you do in fact have hundreds of friends right here. 老师，加油！
Eddie, I am a mom and I can tell you, your mom with time will accept who and what you are! Believe in yourself! You are a wonderful human being, so what if you are gay.... being gay is not a choice, it’s who you are. In time your Mom will realize this. You have a lot to offer any young man. You are handsome, witty, and you have a great sense of humour! Believe in yourself, and the possibilities will be endless!! Good luck on your journey! I believe in you!!
I wish my mom would but I doubt it. Very stubborn when it comes to her beliefs, will take years for her to even consider the fact that she may not have the best opinion.
It's ok, 顾老师. We are here for you. You are not alone. Many of my Chinese friends were lucky and were accepted by their parents for being gay. Some that cant came out to their parents, came out to friends, coworkers, and even their grandmas. You're not alone.
Bro, I’m not gay at all, but you are really handsome man! Ignore any homophobic comments, because I know many gay boys in China that I am friends with, and they are all cool people! You’ll find the right guy soon!❤️
I'm from Vietnam. I have heard your story. I love you very much and sympathize with you because I am also gay. I have been very miserable and lived under a lot of pressure. Sometimes I seem depressed. Luckily, I meet Buddism which hepls me know that bad things come to us today is because of karma what we did in the previous incarnation. We have to pay for what we did. It is cause and effect. Accept it and we will be happy. If we want to have better life in the future, do many good things for other people and to this earth. I love you. Wish you happiness and courage to overcome dificulty in life ❤❤❤
Your honesty and how you've told your story are appreciated. Hopefully by now you have become the success you've spoken about. Wishing your future is so much brighter today than 5 years ago when you taped this soulful story of where your life was back then. Never give up.
Hi Eddie.. im in the same position as yours.. im 22. im the only gay son of my parents., i haven't said to anyone regarding my sexuality.. i have never been in a relationship. My family situation is not good. My father always focuses on his business., he is just after money . He cares for the family by just earning but there is no emotional bond between us. My mother has gone through a lot because of my father and their relatives. She is my strength from childhood and i want to be her strength here on. She always takes marriage topic for my future. I know She wants me to be happy by marrying a girl and having children. But I just dont want to disappoint her by telling im gay. And also i cant lie to myself and cheat on the girl. I just can't leave my mother alone and live a selfish life. I always wished that if i had a brother then atleast my pain would have reduced by half.. so that atleast one of us could live a NORMAL LIFE and take care of my mother. Anxiety depression stress are always with me. I cry when I'm alone. Once i reach 26-28 i dont know how i would handle this marriage topic.
Ciao Eddie sono italiano, mi chiamo Roy, ho visto ora il tuo video, spero che da 5 anni ad oggi la tua situazione sia migliorata sotto ogni punto di vista, vivi per te stesso e per le cose che senti di fare e che ti fanno stare bene, nessuno al mondo nemmeno e sopratutto un genitore per quanto bene puoi avere, ha il diritto di farti star male mettendoti pressione o perseguire con schemi di vita superati e che non vuoi e che non devi assolutamente accettare, tu sei nato libero e sei libero di seguire le tue aspirazioni e sopratutto vivere il tuo essere gay in ogni suo aspetto, tua mamma se ne farà una ragione, non hai obblighi verso nessuno. In Italia ci sono ancora persone gay che si sposano e fanno figli perchè temono il giudizio degli altri, ma fanno una vita falsa e infernale, tu devi vivere la tua vita libera, serena e in armonia con te stesso, ricoda, tu vieni prima di tutto e di tutti, se agli altri non sta bene è un problema loro, non il tuo! Sei un ragazzo dolcissimo, sul tuo viso deve esserci un sorriso e non lacrime! Forza siamo tutti con te, ti auguro ogni cosa bella che la vita possa darti! Ti abbraccio forte! 😘😬🙏❤💛
You are a courageous man to speak up and share your story. Your radical honesty is really positive and healing for so many. I am a bi woman and I lost many gay male friends to suicide and drug use because they could not handle society's pressure. You are beautiful! stay strong, and thank you for the courage to be out in China and the world, brother.
At 6:19 I could see you starting to breakdown and it gave me chills. The look on your face was so heartbreaking. I just found your channel a couple days ago but I pray you have found a man who can love you the way you deserve! Peace ✌🏾 & Love 💕
Eddie I just stumbled upon you from the Chinese forum on Facebook and I have to say I'm glad I did. Being gay and a only child myself I think it is super exciting to see someone like you teaching Chinese because I can feel comfortable learning now because I can relate to you. I hope you continue to love yourself and accept yourself for the beautiful soul you are. I'm even more eager to Chinese now.
Your story has touched me deeply. It's not easy to be who we are, but being who we are is the only way not to die inside. Always nurture your true self, love yourself and have faith, good things are coming! Be strong handsome! You are amazing! ♥️♥️♥️
Hello I'm from Brazil and I'm learning Chinese. I am also gay. even though in Brazil things are much "easier" for us, my parents are very Cristian religious and they seriously think I have a demon living inside of me and that I'm going to hell. Sounds stupid to me but they really believe that and this makes them suffer and I see in their eyes how bad they feel about this. They were always so nice to me and seeing them suffer many times made me suffer too. But I learned to accept myself and to accept the things I can not change. I am sure your mother loves you and she'll be happy if she sees that you're happy. You need to think about yourself too and your happiness is also important. Your mother is a very brave woman for kicking out that man of her life, maybe she just wants to protect you from the things she knows you're going to face on going against what society expects from you. But trust me, she already knows that you're gay. All mothers do. At least she's suspicious about it. And she didn't die. She can handle this. Think about you and your happiness now. And you're not old! I never met a gay man married before 30. You look super cute, anyone would love the be with you. Always tell your mother how much you love and admire her but don't feel sad about who you are. You can come teach Chinese here, you would easily find a job (and a super fly Latin boyfriend). But it's just a suggestion. There are a billion things you can do with your life. Start thinking about this and forget what your mom feels for a while. She'll be happy when she sees you're happy. ❤️
加油！人在国外，其实在国外的gay生活也不是一帆风顺的，在哪都会可能有隐形的歧视，而且很多时候会面临visible 和 invisible 的种族歧视的挑战。而且感觉哪里的gay都会有家庭和extending bloodline 的压力，最重要的是自己要接受自己，love yourself. 每个gay的成长史都是一本宏伟的战斗史，但最后我们都会变得更独立，更自爱。You are not alone and there is always this community wherever you go. By not changing ourselves, together we are changing the world.
Hi, Eddie. I have found your HSK course yesterday and I really appreciated the way you teach. You are really good teacher. I was curious about you and I watched other videos. You are brave and also honest talking about your personal matters. I started to study Chinese by myself a few month ago. I feel so fortunate to find you. Please keep up your great work . I am looking forward to see more of your videos.
Hi Eddie. I’m sad that I only saw this video now. I doubt you will read this but I just want to say I think it took a tremendous amount of courage. It’s been a number of years but I hope you are still so honest about your feelings. Getting emotional is honest. I wish you a lot of luck and I hope your future did turn out amazingly well. Take good care of yourself. Oh and by the way. Look in a mirror. You’re beautiful
Your video was so touching! I don’t know the struggle of what you are going through. But just knowing that you are the only child and your mum is quite unsupportive of your sexuality, it must be a lot of weight you have on your shoulders! Just remember your fans/RUclips family are here to support you. I’m sending you all my love and encouragement ❤️ Your life is so tough! I’m so devastated someone so wonderful hearted was treated like that as a young child. I love you so much! Seeing you cry made me cry! I would gladly watch you for tutorials on Chinese. I feel like you’d be the best for me to learn from ❤️ 加油朋友
Escriche Hope so😊 In Chinese, there’s an idiom 天道酬勤 meaning if you work hard, you will get there. God will award me. I like the idiom;) so I’ll just need to uploading more vids and eventually ppl will see me here
Escriche Hope so😊 In Chinese, there’s an idiom 天道酬勤 meaning if you work hard, you will get there because God is watching and will award you. I like the idiom;) so I’ll just need to upload more vids and eventually ppl will see me here and I can taste the success 💪
I am watching your channel from Lagos, Nigeria. I stumbled on your Channel for my HSK 3 studies and your videos were just too wonderful. Please just be you and continue the good work you are doing out here for all of us who are learning Chinese. Some of us have more 'uglier' stories here in Africa with zero tolerance for such things and other lifestyles. We will be watching your videos as long as you continue to make them. One advice bro, mum will eventually find out someday. It is advisable you find out the best way to tell her and be completely happy with yourself. Keeping it to yourself will deprive your joy.
I really wish I could give you a hug through the screen! I'd suggest trying your best to move country, somewhere where being gay isn't such a problem. Like the UK or Canada. I can't imagine how hard it was for you to grow up in China. You need to get out of there ASAP
You're so brave to come stay here and talk about these, which are not really easy for so many people, I'm sure that your story can help a lot of people who are experiencing a similar situation so I'm thankful
Thank you for your powerful, honest, and moving reflections about the obstacles you have been striving to overcome in your life. I came out to my mother when I was sixteen (1980) and she finally accepted that my sexuality wasn't a "stage" in the parlance of the day, after a psychologist she sent me( a few years later) to see convinced her that the best thing was to accept me for who I am. Later on, she was even happy that she had a gay son as we lived together and were best friends. I had an elder brother and sister who had children, so I understand that there wasn't the pressure to produce grandchildren and heirs that you have, but I believed from a young age that the world was facing a population crisis, so I've never felt guilty about not having children. I am just starting to watch your videos, and from what I've seen I can tell that you are an excellent (and very amusing) teacher! I teach chess myself and have an arts degree with honours in English. I'm very surprised that you don't have more subscribers, but I'm sure your numbers will grow, and you'll achieve your dreams! Sending loving thoughts and prayers from Melbourne, Australia.
By the way you mentioned near the end of the video about Chinese teaching being a tough niche on RUclips and it definitely is with beginner content like HSK 1 stuff but there really isn't alot for intermediate content and I also noticed your videos with HSK 3 and up have a good amount of views. Maybe you could try out more intermediate content? Also videos such as this and the vlogs on your channel also have alot of views and I think are unique to Chinese learning channels since we get to know more about you. Just some ideas to give you motivation 😊
thanks for the ideas. I do think there’s been a lack of higher level contents in terms of Chinese learning. I’ll pay close attention to it and modify my videos. ❤️
I've always wanted to travel to China and I was listening to your story thinking holy crap, his English is perfect - maybe I'll be able to get around in China if young people can speak English this well! And then I got to the end of the video where you mentioned that you are an English teacher...I'm like oh, now this is making more sense lol. I'm trying to learn Mandarin, but it's a slow process.
I'm here for you always, i will support you eddie, i know it's difficult to be gay in china, but im hoping soon you will find the right guy for you, just keep fighting..! I'm your facebook friend and subscriber here in youtube, if you want to talk to someone just message me. go eddie love you!
Thank you for sharing this with us! I'm sure many can relate with your story. I'm not gay but I know how it feels to be an outcast, to feel that you don't fit in. It sucks and it especially sucks when you don't have anyone to support you, which was my case at the time. I guess the quote from Mulan Disney movie is true, `The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all`. Never stop being youself. You're great :D
Hi! i just discovered your channel and I have been learning with your videos until I saw this one. I just want to say you that you are an amazing Chinese teacher and a good persom. Keep on following your dreams, because you deserve to be happy. I love your videos and I am sure that your channel will grow with time. Blessings and gratitude, Eddie 老师
Hey! I'm a Brazilian girl who is learning Chinese and I just found your video because I was looking for information on being gay in China (I'm gay myself). It's so sad that it's still so hard for people like us over there! I hope it'll get better soon. I just wanted to drop you a few words of comfort. I think you're amazing and I just subscribed to your channel. I'll definitely be watching your Chinese videos. Stay strong ❤
Have you considered teaching Chinese abroad? Such as In the Philippines, we have chinese-filipino private schools. I have also noticed that there are more and more job opportunities here if you are fluent in Chinese.
Hi, Eddie. I know this was posted years ago, but I wanted to thank you for sharing your story. I feel as though my own story was extremely similar, except in reverse in that I'm from the States and desperately want to learn Chinese and see China someday. Relating to each of your stories comes naturally. It's easy to tell you've been through so much more than you'll ever be able to tell. But please take solace in knowing you are not alone. No matter where in the world, our struggles can unite us and we can find comfort in knowing there's always someone that cares about you and will help you if they can. 🤗
Dear, ... I came to your channel by accident. I listened to your testimony and your life carefully and with great interest. Your way of speaking and your way of expressing yourself are extremely touching ... there was a moment that I cried with you. From what I understand, the situation in China regarding the 'gay' theme is not the best. They still define people who have a preference for same-sex partners 'disgusting' ... this saddens me deeply. I hope China will one day, not very far away, accept and understand that every person is first and foremost a human being endowed with different feelings, thoughts and preferences. I don't like to define people with a label, what I mean is simply: "Everyone likes what they like." This must be the one and only normality in everyone's life. Being 'gay' changes who you are? I don't believe that at all. You are YOU. And like you, many others in your country experience the same discomfort ... as if it were a shame. But it is not at all. China must one day open its mindset, but I firmly believe that it must be the young people of your country who 'fight' for what is a right for everyone: 'to be themselves and not what society wants'. You have my support, sorry for my bad English. From a friend, love from Italy :)
@@chineseeddieg1120You know? I am a girl and I am heterosexual, what is called 'normal'. Italy is a country with a very open minded and willing to change, but despite this, even here (because of the religion made for 90% by Catholics) gays have had some sad moments. Not like in China surely, here they have always been accepted even if they didn't have the rights recognized only a few years ago. But they have always been present without shame under the eyes of everyone, from TV to ordinary people. For their rights they "fought" peacefully but perseveringly to be accepted in all respects. What I'd like to ask you is: You guys, all together, couldn't you do anything about your situation? I ask why I don't know how far you could go. Anyway, I'm glad to hear you say you're okay now. Remember: Don't let people change who you are, who you are makes you unique and special. I wish you the best in your life.
I'd really like to hug you right now. My father is also as yours. He is also very conservative and I didn't have a good childhood with him neither. Afortunately, my mother accepts me as I am, but my father wouldn't support a bisexual son on his family. I know it is a personal story and I appreciate that you wanted to share it to us, it makes you even braver. I am quite sure that this video will help a lot of people who are in a similar situation. You are a great teacher and you should be proud of yourself because of who you are! Love ya and have a good day
I wanna tightly hug you whether it’s your childhood version or adulthood version. I am in the same situation as you, my mom doesn’t want to accept who I am. Even though I’m from Thailand which LGBTQ is accepted, but my mom is too traditional to accept it. I believe one day we will get through it together.
Hi Eddie, I have a friend in China who went through just the same situation as you. .you are who you are, and better to accept it than to fight against it. My friend is doing very well now. Thanks for your teaching, it is very good. Take care of yourself, keep your mind together. Love from OZ.
I really admire your authenticity , your bravery to come out out the closet. I think it's because of society and especially traditional Chinese family. I'm the third generation of 华侨 in Thailand. Although it seems open in the society but it's also depending on each family as well. It was difficult to break it opens and I felt like I didn't belong in the family. My big sister was a lesbian but my family seems doesn't care much. Anyway, it took me up until junior year at the uni that I was brave enough to reveal my true identity to my mom. Luckily for me, she was supportive though dad wasn't, but it was quite okay enough to have a person who understood me and I didn't have to hide anymore. I think after you reveal your identity, there will be a lot gay people who supports you, including me. I plan to learn Chinese many times as well as English ,but I reached plateau. You know after I watched a couple of your videos , I think you're charming ,smart and very hardworking person. I bet if you target to niche audiences like gay community or women preferences. There would definitely be room for you. I admire your English and want to know how to remove your accent and maybe if you could share tips, I would be so grateful.
你好Eddie. very brave of u to open up ur heart the way u did. Just be patient, u r going on the right direction. Just think that most countries situation where like China 30 years ago. Ur country, and u, just needs some time. And, although, being finacially independent is important, loving urself it's also. 加油
YT suggested this video to me. I am gay and old. Let me tell you it wasn't so easy for us 50 years ago. In the 1980s the public would spit at us on gay pride demos. In the 1990s in London my colleagues told me "if you let the boss find out you are gay, he will k1ll you, he owns a gun and he says gays should be k1lled". Well I was the star employee so I told the boss, he nearly collapsed (I look like a thug noone ever guesses I am gay) - but by the time I left that job 25% of his employees were openly gay. As a teenager my sister said "don't tell mum, she thinks gays should be killed". I came out to my parents at 18yo, and I am my mother's favourite to this day. Things might look bleak, but your mother might surprise you if you give her the chance. We gays are rare (1% of people). Our difference isn't obvious, and in making people aware of it they end up thinking of sex that they don't want to think about. Gay men and women even make babies without physical contact, so you can be gay and make your mother a grandmother. Your English is amazing. I am married to a thai man who has lived among English speakers for 20 years and he speaks very faulty English. I wish you every success.
As for scars, insecurity etc please understand this: the man who loves you will also love your scar. I don't mean that in a kinky way. I mean the scar will not matter to him. The man I loved most in my life had a face covered in acne scars. I never even saw them, only he was concerned about them. He was beautiful to me, he was shy in public (which I like) but in private was very funny and kind. I realise this is an old video, I hope you are much happier now.
I'm really touched by your story. I'm Polish and it's very similar in Poland as well, therefore the best choice was to move to the UK. I know it will be difficult for you to come out to your family, but I can see how incredibly brave you're. You are so amazing and good luck! I feel like we have had such a similar experience in our lives despite completely different countries. I'm really impressed!
Thank you for sharing your story, for being so open and honest to talk about your feelings. I lack the words to express how deeply I appreciate it. I strongly believe that brave and beautiful gestures like yours are of capital importance in spreading awareness and helping people be more understanding, respectful, loving. You say that individual power can't overcome society's prejudices and issues, and to some extent I agree. But you're not alone. There are lots of people hoping for a better world where nobody has to give explanations about the way they live and love. A world in which we all understand that it's natural to have feelings (love, sexual desire or whatever) to any human being of our choice, because love is natural, love is genderless, love is LOVE. Thanks again and my best wishes for you. 🤗
Eddie I’m pretty familiar with your life story, u need to know that you’re not alone in this situation and that everyone in this life have his own struggles. But I’m sure you’re strong enough to face it all. 你是最棒的老师💪🏼 继续努力吧 天天向上！ 对啦，想倾诉的话别犹豫哦.😉
Thank you so much for your videos, you don't know how you are changing my life, I really like learning chinese and you help a lot. I really feel you, I felt all the same things when I was younger, but you know, everything always gets better. You are really brave for telling us and I admire you, because even some days can be hard, you are pushing on. You don't have nothing to be ashamed. Only be proud for who you are. Greetings from Mexico!
加油，老师！Don't blame on you! You are smart and talented, just love yourself. It's hard to accept ourselves when we are different, but at the end that is what freedom means. I wish you could find a good person who loves you C: You deserve it!
I can hear from your words and voice that you are a very nice person. Always be yourself. I told my parents when I was 12yo and I came from Egypt and I was a muslim. The worls came down, but they did not hate me. I was arrested (2 years in jail) when I was 19 because I was gay. I left Egypt a year after I left jail and in this same year I left islam. Now I live in Europe and I am free. I have a partner from Vietnam and we have been together for 28 years. Now I am completely ok with my family. I must say that things are changing in Egypt, slowly of course but changing!
I always come back to this video. I am from miami. I am a gay male as well and it is very difficult, I agree with you in all aspects. I live in an area pretty much open to homosexuality so I cannot imagine how hard it might be for you. I sympathize with you when you spoke about your relationship with your father and how abusive he was to you because I experienced/still experience the same thing. I wish you all the success, love, health, and happiness the world has to offer! you are not alone, and you are an incredibly strong and independent person and you should be proud of yourself for having fought through your hardships! you have all my respect and not a day goes by where I don't think about this video. Stay strong and continue to move forward and be confident in who you are and live the life that you want to live- not the life others want you to live. thank you for sharing your experience with the world and for your bravery to be so transparent on a social platform. once again, sending you all my love, thank you.
You are very brave and honest sharing your life experience with so many people. Being straight itself is difficult, society pressurises you in many ways and I can't imagine how LGBT people cope up with the social pressure. Earlier I used to be afraid of gay people to be honest. And until around 10 years back in my little head, gay meant transgender and I didn't even know about lesbian or gay or bisexual. I am Nepalese and in Nepal while growing up I had never seen a LGBT person. Maybe even if there were people like that they wouldn't have opened up. When I went to Bangalore, India for studies there I saw few transgender people on the street. And because of their unusual appearance I used to get scared. Once, while me and my friend were walking on the road one trans person approached us and I was afraid she was coming to us to ask for money but she wasn't. She just wanted to have conversation with us. Her English was probably way better than our English. She was extremely nice and spoke to us like any other person of her age would. Then I realized that they just look different and behave differently sometimes and it's completely okay. We are all alike. And I became more open minded. Then I started watching videos to educate myself about their stories. Now after seeing all that I feel that people who are LGBT don't get to live normal life in most of the places and are not accepted by the society. I can't imagine how it feels like to be in their shoes. But I am glad that more people like you open up about their sexual orientation and feel comfortable with themselves, more people who are not aware or educated about all this will understand and eventually accept. I am really sorry if I have said anything to hurt anyone. I didn't mean it I just wanted to share how my perception changed and I try talking to my friends about all this and even my parents who are very very orthodox and think that it's a sin to be LGBT. I try to show some videos to them to make them understand that it wasn't a choice for them it's how they are. They didn't choose to be LGBT and we need to be more acceptable and think if we had a child who was like that or siblings or even ourselves, how it would be if we were treated differently and were pressured to always hide to be what we are. I am sure things will be much better over few years. Thank you very much sharing all this ❤️ I only hope that we all thrive to be better person each day and be acceptable to all kinds of people irrespective of race, color religion, ethnicity and as well as sexual orientation. No one chose to be a particular kind we were born certain way and we can't change that.
Thank You so much for your bravery. After watching the Untamed I really wondered how life is for gay people in China. I know this was posted awhile ago but I really admire your honesty so much. Thank You I wish the best for your life.
Cheer up!! Always stay true to yourself. It's the best thing to hear your own voice and decide your own pace. It's my first time to watch your channel. I will follow it even I'm a Chinese native speaker lol. Anyway cheer up❤️❤️
Eddie I am sending you lots of love and positive power to get through everything in your life. You are a beautiful person inside and out. I wish you can find your path and be financially stable and happy in your body and resilient in your mind. You are so brave for making this video. I love your videos, they are really helpful.请你不要忘记， 你真的是一位很优秀的人。Do you! Find your path. Keeping my fingers crossed for you. 艾迪加油！！！！
Thank You for your honesty. It's great. I've listened to your history with interest. It must be hard to be a gay in China. You are nice and good young man. And You are a great chinese teacher. I wish You the very best for your future.
You matter, you are important. I am rooting for you, we are rooting for you. Please don't give up on yourself because we are never giving up on you. I know you must be tired and very sad but I promise you there's a light at the end of this very dark seemingly endless tunnel and that you will reach it. 苦尽甘来！(I watched the entire video and your latest depression video, had discovered your channel today while RUclips searching for 武漢話 content since I am part 武漢人, online resources for learning 武漢話 are so scarce. I came across your 武漢話 rap vid cuz aside from you it's only girls teaching 武漢話 and I wanna sound like a 武漢 guy not a 武漢 girl!) I am sending you positive vibes brother and plenty of hugs. Please take care, you are **not** alone. I really, really, really wish I could give you a hug
Hey Eddie, I think you're the whole package :) Just believe in yourself, you are an amazing teacher, your curse words video was so much fun, I will definitely watch more as I progress in my studies! 谢谢你，老师
*You're are really brave to do this and I'm so proud of you eddie !!! You deserve everything in this world. **16:54** I don't agree with this, you should see yourself in the mirror again. Also, please don't have all the painful memories to yourself, **13:34** it breaks my heart to see you like this. I know that there is a person out there for you. we're here for you. Sending you my love and support* 💜☺️
Love from India Eddie 💜🇮🇳 I really appreciate your honesty and really want to thank you for staying this strong and will always there to support you by watching your videos❤
Dear Eddie, congratulations , you have been very courageous for getting out the closet online. And so resilient as well! You are a wonderfull teacher and a great human being ! I wish you all the very best in life and a lot of happiness! You really deserve it !
I just watched this and I can relate to everything you said. I know the struggle first hand. Just know that there are people out here who celebrate and support you, the real you, and that your situation can and will get better. I really wish you all the best and I'm for sure going to subscribe and watch your entire channel as I'm starting my chinese learning journey.
Please don't cry anymore it makes me cry too😭 You are very young, potential, handsome! I am sure your future will be bright just like your smile! Lot of love from mozambique. #Eddiegang
Eddie laoshi, I was a refugee from Laos after the Vietnam War who have resettled in America for more than 30 years and can honestly tell you that your English is way better than mine and some people who live in the United States. You should be very proud of your accomplishments. I understand how you feel. When I visited China with my American friends, the Chinese people treated us like we were kings and queens. However, when I visited China on my own, they treated me differently. I told them I was from America, but they didn't believe me. I even got a ticket for jay walking in Guizhou. Furthermore, you are absolutely correct that the Chinese people value foreigners (Caucasians) more than any other races. It is sad but the truth.
This is the 3rd video that I watch of yours. I'm still hoping that when your mom know that you are a gay, she must be proud of you, there's nothing wrong of being gay. And you are her only son. I can see that you are suffering so much, I'm sad too with your difficult situation. But no matter how hard the rain is, at the end you can see rainbow. So be strong, don't lost hope, you are smart and kind. 👍👍💙💙💪💪
Even I certainly have the desire of being the gay guy that I'm destined to be just as much as I'm absolutely never confused for figuring out which sexual orientation feels right for me to follow with. That's why I chose to follow to that particular path for myself of being 100% gay (homosexual) all my life🏳️🌈🙂
The most confident teacher, person and great human . Being a great. human is superior than a girl, boy or gay. It's not your fault. The nature has created you like this. May Allah bless you and provide you with peace in your life. Step up the game.
No one is gonna hate you because of your beautiful story except the stupid people, being brave to tell your story is such a great thing and don't be ashamed of who you are, every one in this world deserve to be loved , and remember that there is a lot of people support you, keep going and do us a lot of Chinese videos👍🏽
Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You've been a follower, a friend and a supporter of me since DAY 1. I am so happy you have always been there for me and watching my vids. 感谢你，玫瑰
@@chineseeddieg1120 因为父母传宗接代的思想当然难出柜了，你应该想一想其他补偿父母的方式，活还是要为自己而活的，不然为别人活的很累的，有些时候是要自私一点的，you only live once, make it count.只要你其他的方面足够优秀了，我相信你的父母不会在意你是不是gay了，我的父母更加看重我是否可以赚钱，你可以试着把重心放到让自己变优秀，自己的生活变得充实，既然你都30岁了，你和父母的交际应该很少才对呀，只要你是完全独立的情况，你就不用了太在意父母，出柜一定要经济独立，而且有对象最好，因为你对象会支持你，一起努力就可以了
@@chineseeddieg1120 我现在父母给我的压力也特别大，我大学毕业2年了（也是武汉的），现在工作还没有稳定下来，去上海漂泊了一年，本来是和朋友一起做自媒体的，赚不到钱，坚持不下去，现在回武汉找工作也不好找，很多朝九晚六的工作我看不上，我爸妈又逼我找一个工作安稳下来，我说我宁愿死，也不想去浪费我的时间去做我不想做的事，我理解的生活就是和我喜欢的一切东西在一起，做我想做的事. I need to make change of my life or imma die, I am going to die anyway. well am I gonna actually die haven't lived? 一起加油，打败抑郁！i am with you!
Wow Eddie you are a really good teacher and I understand that China is very tradicional and that must be very difficult for you but you can always travel. For example in Chile we accept LGBT+ people and in Europe and other countries are very supportive. So if you think China is a very hard for gay people I suggest that you could travel. In some countries we have even gay marriage and you are very young so cheer up boy I hope everything will be very good for you.
You're a beautiful soul! Im sorry you feel such a burden of having a child to continue the family. You can have a child if you want when you have a boyfriend, there are surrogacy mother's it's an option ❣️ Sending love and energy ! I'm planning to move to China, and I guess I won't have a partner when I'm there and I think the following year I'll move to Taiwan because there I know you are freer to find LGBTQ community and I could live my love life more freely. It is horrible having to hide yourself.
I don’t know how you showed up in my feed, but it’s official…I’m in love with you.♥️♥️♥️ But seriously, I just subscribed so I can see and hear more of you. I really hope things have gotten better.
I've just found this video, thank you for sharing your story. Is heart breaking to hear how homosexuality is not accepted in China. I'm so sorry. Here ( in Italy) people like us have more support. You are an example of determination, hard work and a good friend and son. Thanks for your courage and your determination. Also thank you for your channel, I wanna learn chinese linguage, I'm just a beginner but I think you'll help me. (sorry for my english) I hope you are happy now, I hope you'll find your way to be yourself. Thank you again :) Carlotta
Eddie, you seem to have suffered a lot on your own. Having to hide such an important part of you must be difficult. Society will always try to shape people and make them fit a certain profile. Being different is okay Being gay is okay. I'm glad you are doing what makes you happy. Be strong and I hope all your effort is rewarded soon.
Brenda Nascimento thanks very much❤️❤️
There are millions of gay people in the world, you should proud yourself.i always support you. 加油!
谢谢你！我会加油！
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@@lufenmartofilia5804 here in my home country Brazil, openly gay people already account for over 10% of the population.
I definitely agree with what you're saying 100% because every boy/man has the right to be gay (homosexual). 🏳️🌈
Thank you Eddie G. Know that there are many people who are touched by your honesty and appreciative of the work you are doing.
谢谢！I do feel so much better knowing ppl supporting me
Eddie 老师，I want to express my sincere appreciation, you are such a brave and honest guy. Your story is so touching and I hope things just get better, though I know how fixated with marriage traditional Chinese parents are. People will not hate you, you are an excellent human being. 在墨西哥你有一个朋友，是我。
Florentino Gutiérrez ❤️
❤️ Hey all you beautiful people in the comments❗❗❤️Just a reminder that we can help our amazing teacher Eddie by watching his playlists often so he'll reach the watch time requirement faster and so he can start earning money from all his hard work. Even when you are not in the mood to learn Chinese, maybe keep his playlist on in the background? It's a win win for all of us.
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Great idea!!
Eddie, what an honest and beautiful video. Don’t let this whole situation with your mom get to you. I went through it too. I had to leave my country, it was really tough at first, but I worked hard for two years, got a good job, made some money and now everything has changed. Like you said, independence is the solution. I’m sure you’ll get there too. Keep working hard, do your thing. What you do is great and has real value. I’m absolutely sure you’ll succeed. You’re such a great and lovely guy! Keep it up and of course you have my support! :)) 加油💪🏻
你好，Mike! I'm thrilled to read your comment. Good to know some similar experience. Thanks for cheering me up. 加油加油！
I need to second this!! Always looking for more gay Asian stories and representation. Thank you for this!!!
As a mom to a queer child I want to give you the biggest hug. Thank you for posting your video and your truth 🏳️🌈💓🏳️🌈
you know Eddie, I am also from China. I just wanna say that I am so proud of you. from this video, I see your strength, I see your resilience. you are a fighter and you got what it takes and I m rooting for you!
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Never be sorry for being emotional and thank you for this honest video about yourself! It's really sad that we have to go through all this. I'm 25 and bisexual and have yet to come out to my family. If it's hard for me even though I live in Spain, I can't even imagine how you feel being gay in a country like China. In Spain people are more open-minded and I know that my family will just accept me and still love me if I tell them, but it scares me regardless. Sometimes I'm just like "If I get a boyfriend, telling my family that I also like girls won't be necessary!" and then I get angry with myself for thinking like that, because I really don't want to hide who I am. Also, in the case I get a boyfriend, I'm kind of afraid of telling him that I like girls too... Whatever, sorry for the ramble.
What can I say, stay strong and keep on fighting, you look like a really nice guy! I hope you can find someone who loves you and makes you happy and hope your mother accepts you as you are in the future. Here I send you a virtual hug!
I'm so late to the party for finding this but it really touched me. Were the same age and how I grew up in England as a Gay man is so radically different from your experience, it was honestly a difficult thought process for me to comprehend.. But its also a story I needed to hear because getting a story like this out to the public IS a niche in itself. Just reading some of the other comments here shows how me how many people value and appreciate your work. So no matter how it might feel at times, you do in fact have hundreds of friends right here. 老师，加油！
Eddie, I am a mom and I can tell you, your mom with time will accept who and what you are! Believe in yourself! You are a wonderful human being, so what if you are gay.... being gay is not a choice, it’s who you are. In time your Mom will realize this. You have a lot to offer any young man. You are handsome, witty, and you have a great sense of humour! Believe in yourself, and the possibilities will be endless!! Good luck on your journey! I believe in you!!
Halim Shenouda thank you❤️❤️ Im grateful
Can you be all our moms??
I wish my mom would but I doubt it. Very stubborn when it comes to her beliefs, will take years for her to even consider the fact that she may not have the best opinion.
It's ok, 顾老师. We are here for you. You are not alone. Many of my Chinese friends were lucky and were accepted by their parents for being gay. Some that cant came out to their parents, came out to friends, coworkers, and even their grandmas. You're not alone.
谢谢你 亲爱的。I guess this is a good first step to share my story with you and the others who are out there for me.❤
Bro, I’m not gay at all, but you are really handsome man! Ignore any homophobic comments, because I know many gay boys in China that I am friends with, and they are all cool people! You’ll find the right guy soon!❤️
Flume Life xie xie ni:)
Bro I'm gay plz fine a boyfriend for me. And I'm from India nagaland. 😭😭😭
@@chineseeddieg1120 nì Yīngjun de❤
You are so strong to say this out loud! Never be sorry for who you are!
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I'm from Vietnam. I have heard your story. I love you very much and sympathize with you because I am also gay. I have been very miserable and lived under a lot of pressure. Sometimes I seem depressed. Luckily, I meet Buddism which hepls me know that bad things come to us today is because of karma what we did in the previous incarnation. We have to pay for what we did. It is cause and effect. Accept it and we will be happy. If we want to have better life in the future, do many good things for other people and to this earth. I love you. Wish you happiness and courage to overcome dificulty in life ❤❤❤
Your honesty and how you've told your story are appreciated. Hopefully by now you have become the success you've spoken about. Wishing your future is so much brighter today than 5 years ago when you taped this soulful story of where your life was back then. Never give up.
Hi Eddie.. im in the same position as yours.. im 22. im the only gay son of my parents., i haven't said to anyone regarding my sexuality.. i have never been in a relationship.
My family situation is not good.
My father always focuses on his business., he is just after money . He cares for the family by just earning but there is no emotional bond between us.
My mother has gone through a lot because of my father and their relatives. She is my strength from childhood and i want to be her strength here on. She always takes marriage topic for my future. I know She wants me to be happy by marrying a girl and having children. But
I just dont want to disappoint her by telling im gay. And also i cant lie to myself and cheat on the girl.
I just can't leave my mother alone and live a selfish life.
I always wished that if i had a brother then atleast my pain would have reduced by half.. so that atleast one of us could live a NORMAL LIFE and take care of my mother.
Anxiety depression stress are always with me. I cry when I'm alone.
Once i reach 26-28 i dont know how i would handle this marriage topic.
Come to Thailand and make it free and Thailand need Chinese teacher ,I'm gay and I'm Thai-Chinese
Ciao Eddie sono italiano, mi chiamo Roy, ho visto ora il tuo video, spero che da 5 anni ad oggi la tua situazione sia migliorata sotto ogni punto di vista, vivi per te stesso e per le cose che senti di fare e che ti fanno stare bene, nessuno al mondo nemmeno e sopratutto un genitore per quanto bene puoi avere, ha il diritto di farti star male mettendoti pressione o perseguire con schemi di vita superati e che non vuoi e che non devi assolutamente accettare, tu sei nato libero e sei libero di seguire le tue aspirazioni e sopratutto vivere il tuo essere gay in ogni suo aspetto, tua mamma se ne farà una ragione, non hai obblighi verso nessuno.
In Italia ci sono ancora persone gay che si sposano e fanno figli perchè temono il giudizio degli altri, ma fanno una vita falsa e infernale, tu devi vivere la tua vita libera, serena e in armonia con te stesso, ricoda, tu vieni prima di tutto e di tutti, se agli altri non sta bene è un problema loro, non il tuo!
Sei un ragazzo dolcissimo, sul tuo viso deve esserci un sorriso e non lacrime!
Forza siamo tutti con te, ti auguro ogni cosa bella che la vita possa darti! Ti abbraccio forte! 😘😬🙏❤💛
You are a courageous man to speak up and share your story. Your radical honesty is really positive and healing for so many. I am a bi woman and I lost many gay male friends to suicide and drug use because they could not handle society's pressure. You are beautiful! stay strong, and thank you for the courage to be out in China and the world, brother.
You made me cry and I just want to hug you. You're clever and handsome man. I wish you all the best!
At 6:19 I could see you starting to breakdown and it gave me chills. The look on your face was so heartbreaking. I just found your channel a couple days ago but I pray you have found a man who can love you the way you deserve! Peace ✌🏾 & Love 💕
Big support for you Eddie! You are amazing human being and teacher! Keep up with good work and thank you so much for your work and sincerity!
D U ❤️❤️
Eddie I just stumbled upon you from the Chinese forum on Facebook and I have to say I'm glad I did. Being gay and a only child myself I think it is super exciting to see someone like you teaching Chinese because I can feel comfortable learning now because I can relate to you. I hope you continue to love yourself and accept yourself for the beautiful soul you are. I'm even more eager to Chinese now.
HelloHiroki ❤️❤️❤️
Your story has touched me deeply. It's not easy to be who we are, but being who we are is the only way not to die inside. Always nurture your true self, love yourself and have faith, good things are coming! Be strong handsome! You are amazing! ♥️♥️♥️
Hello I'm from Brazil and I'm learning Chinese. I am also gay. even though in Brazil things are much "easier" for us, my parents are very Cristian religious and they seriously think I have a demon living inside of me and that I'm going to hell. Sounds stupid to me but they really believe that and this makes them suffer and I see in their eyes how bad they feel about this. They were always so nice to me and seeing them suffer many times made me suffer too. But I learned to accept myself and to accept the things I can not change. I am sure your mother loves you and she'll be happy if she sees that you're happy. You need to think about yourself too and your happiness is also important. Your mother is a very brave woman for kicking out that man of her life, maybe she just wants to protect you from the things she knows you're going to face on going against what society expects from you. But trust me, she already knows that you're gay. All mothers do. At least she's suspicious about it. And she didn't die. She can handle this. Think about you and your happiness now. And you're not old! I never met a gay man married before 30. You look super cute, anyone would love the be with you. Always tell your mother how much you love and admire her but don't feel sad about who you are. You can come teach Chinese here, you would easily find a job (and a super fly Latin boyfriend). But it's just a suggestion. There are a billion things you can do with your life. Start thinking about this and forget what your mom feels for a while. She'll be happy when she sees you're happy. ❤️
加油！人在国外，其实在国外的gay生活也不是一帆风顺的，在哪都会可能有隐形的歧视，而且很多时候会面临visible 和 invisible 的种族歧视的挑战。而且感觉哪里的gay都会有家庭和extending bloodline 的压力，最重要的是自己要接受自己，love yourself. 每个gay的成长史都是一本宏伟的战斗史，但最后我们都会变得更独立，更自爱。You are not alone and there is always this community wherever you go.
By not changing ourselves, together we are changing the world.
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Hi, Eddie. I have found your HSK course yesterday and I really appreciated the way you teach.
You are really good teacher.
I was curious about you and I watched other videos. You are brave and also honest talking about your
personal matters. I started to study Chinese by myself a few month ago.
I feel so fortunate to find you. Please keep up your great work . I am looking forward to see more of your videos.
你的故事让我感动，别放弃！我们都喜欢我们的老师 no matter what! Hello from Russia！
Диана Лебедек 谢谢❤️
Hi Eddie. I’m sad that I only saw this video now. I doubt you will read this but I just want to say I think it took a tremendous amount of courage. It’s been a number of years but I hope you are still so honest about your feelings. Getting emotional is honest. I wish you a lot of luck and I hope your future did turn out amazingly well. Take good care of yourself. Oh and by the way. Look in a mirror. You’re beautiful
Your video was so touching! I don’t know the struggle of what you are going through. But just knowing that you are the only child and your mum is quite unsupportive of your sexuality, it must be a lot of weight you have on your shoulders! Just remember your fans/RUclips family are here to support you. I’m sending you all my love and encouragement ❤️ Your life is so tough! I’m so devastated someone so wonderful hearted was treated like that as a young child. I love you so much! Seeing you cry made me cry! I would gladly watch you for tutorials on Chinese. I feel like you’d be the best for me to learn from ❤️ 加油朋友
You are really handsome! I hope you get lots of views and subscribers very soon. Also, I admire how brave and honest you are
Escriche Hope so😊 In Chinese, there’s an idiom 天道酬勤 meaning if you work hard, you will get there. God will award me. I like the idiom;) so I’ll just need to uploading more vids and eventually ppl will see me here
Escriche Hope so😊 In Chinese, there’s an idiom 天道酬勤 meaning if you work hard, you will get there because God is watching and will award you. I like the idiom;) so I’ll just need to upload more vids and eventually ppl will see me here and I can taste the success 💪
Am touched by your story , don’t feel insecure , you have all the right ,
I am watching your channel from Lagos, Nigeria. I stumbled on your Channel for my HSK 3 studies and your videos were just too wonderful. Please just be you and continue the good work you are doing out here for all of us who are learning Chinese.
Some of us have more 'uglier' stories here in Africa with zero tolerance for such things and other lifestyles.
We will be watching your videos as long as you continue to make them. One advice bro, mum will eventually find out someday. It is advisable you find out the best way to tell her and be completely happy with yourself. Keeping it to yourself will deprive your joy.
Ifeatu Osegbo 💪❤️👍
I really wish I could give you a hug through the screen! I'd suggest trying your best to move country, somewhere where being gay isn't such a problem. Like the UK or Canada. I can't imagine how hard it was for you to grow up in China. You need to get out of there ASAP
Allan Marques my ultimate goal in life is to have immigration. I’ll work hard for it
@@chineseeddieg1120 awesome! Really hope you get it! Best of luck!
You're so brave to come stay here and talk about these, which are not really easy for so many people, I'm sure that your story can help a lot of people who are experiencing a similar situation so I'm thankful
Thank you for your powerful, honest, and moving reflections about the obstacles you have been striving to overcome in your life. I came out to my mother when I was sixteen (1980) and she finally accepted that my sexuality wasn't a "stage" in the parlance of the day, after a psychologist she sent me( a few years later) to see convinced her that the best thing was to accept me for who I am. Later on, she was even happy that she had a gay son as we lived together and were best friends. I had an elder brother and sister who had children, so I understand that there wasn't the pressure to produce grandchildren and heirs that you have, but I believed from a young age that the world was facing a population crisis, so I've never felt guilty about not having children. I am just starting to watch your videos, and from what I've seen I can tell that you are an excellent (and very amusing) teacher! I teach chess myself and have an arts degree with honours in English. I'm very surprised that you don't have more subscribers, but I'm sure your numbers will grow, and you'll achieve your dreams! Sending loving thoughts and prayers from Melbourne, Australia.
By the way you mentioned near the end of the video about Chinese teaching being a tough niche on RUclips and it definitely is with beginner content like HSK 1 stuff but there really isn't alot for intermediate content and I also noticed your videos with HSK 3 and up have a good amount of views. Maybe you could try out more intermediate content? Also videos such as this and the vlogs on your channel also have alot of views and I think are unique to Chinese learning channels since we get to know more about you. Just some ideas to give you motivation 😊
thanks for the ideas. I do think there’s been a lack of higher level contents in terms of Chinese learning. I’ll pay close attention to it and modify my videos. ❤️
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Thank you for your teaching 老师 you really are awesome just keep going 加油
I've always wanted to travel to China and I was listening to your story thinking holy crap, his English is perfect - maybe I'll be able to get around in China if young people can speak English this well! And then I got to the end of the video where you mentioned that you are an English teacher...I'm like oh, now this is making more sense lol. I'm trying to learn Mandarin, but it's a slow process.
I'm here for you always, i will support you eddie, i know it's difficult to be gay in china, but im hoping soon you will find the right guy for you, just keep fighting..! I'm your facebook friend and subscriber here in youtube, if you want to talk to someone just message me. go eddie love you!
Justine Isip ❤️❤️xie xie ni:) I’m super happy now cuz I got all of you
@@chineseeddieg1120 lovelots! 😘😘
Thank you for sharing this with us! I'm sure many can relate with your story. I'm not gay but I know how it feels to be an outcast, to feel that you don't fit in. It sucks and it especially sucks when you don't have anyone to support you, which was my case at the time. I guess the quote from Mulan Disney movie is true, `The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all`. Never stop being youself. You're great :D
Diana Gabriela Ciutean ❤️💜🧡🖤🤍💛
Hi!
i just discovered your channel and I have been learning with your videos until I saw this one.
I just want to say you that you are an amazing Chinese teacher and a good persom. Keep on following your dreams, because you deserve to be happy. I love your videos and I am sure that your channel will grow with time.
Blessings and gratitude, Eddie 老师
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Hey! I'm a Brazilian girl who is learning Chinese and I just found your video because I was looking for information on being gay in China (I'm gay myself). It's so sad that it's still so hard for people like us over there! I hope it'll get better soon. I just wanted to drop you a few words of comfort. I think you're amazing and I just subscribed to your channel. I'll definitely be watching your Chinese videos. Stay strong ❤
Have you considered teaching Chinese abroad? Such as In the Philippines, we have chinese-filipino private schools. I have also noticed that there are more and more job opportunities here if you are fluent in Chinese.
whirl00 I’ll definitely take it into consideration. I probably will fly to Philippines in 2020 to do a market research.
Hi, Eddie. I know this was posted years ago, but I wanted to thank you for sharing your story. I feel as though my own story was extremely similar, except in reverse in that I'm from the States and desperately want to learn Chinese and see China someday. Relating to each of your stories comes naturally. It's easy to tell you've been through so much more than you'll ever be able to tell. But please take solace in knowing you are not alone. No matter where in the world, our struggles can unite us and we can find comfort in knowing there's always someone that cares about you and will help you if they can. 🤗
Dear, ... I came to your channel by accident. I listened to your testimony and your life carefully and with great interest. Your way of speaking and your way of expressing yourself are extremely touching ... there was a moment that I cried with you. From what I understand, the situation in China regarding the 'gay' theme is not the best. They still define people who have a preference for same-sex partners 'disgusting' ... this saddens me deeply. I hope China will one day, not very far away, accept and understand that every person is first and foremost a human being endowed with different feelings, thoughts and preferences. I don't like to define people with a label, what I mean is simply: "Everyone likes what they like." This must be the one and only normality in everyone's life. Being 'gay' changes who you are? I don't believe that at all. You are YOU. And like you, many others in your country experience the same discomfort ... as if it were a shame. But it is not at all. China must one day open its mindset, but I firmly believe that it must be the young people of your country who 'fight' for what is a right for everyone: 'to be themselves and not what society wants'. You have my support, sorry for my bad English. From a friend, love from Italy :)
Stefania L.r. ❤️ thank you. I was emotional at that time. I’m feeling wonderful now:) Cuz I got supporters.
@@chineseeddieg1120You know? I am a girl and I am heterosexual, what is called 'normal'. Italy is a country with a very open minded and willing to change, but despite this, even here (because of the religion made for 90% by Catholics) gays have had some sad moments. Not like in China surely, here they have always been accepted even if they didn't have the rights recognized only a few years ago. But they have always been present without shame under the eyes of everyone, from TV to ordinary people. For their rights they "fought" peacefully but perseveringly to be accepted in all respects. What I'd like to ask you is: You guys, all together, couldn't you do anything about your situation? I ask why I don't know how far you could go. Anyway, I'm glad to hear you say you're okay now. Remember: Don't let people change who you are, who you are makes you unique and special. I wish you the best in your life.
This is super sweet
I'd really like to hug you right now. My father is also as yours. He is also very conservative and I didn't have a good childhood with him neither. Afortunately, my mother accepts me as I am, but my father wouldn't support a bisexual son on his family. I know it is a personal story and I appreciate that you wanted to share it to us, it makes you even braver. I am quite sure that this video will help a lot of people who are in a similar situation. You are a great teacher and you should be proud of yourself because of who you are! Love ya and have a good day
I wanna tightly hug you whether it’s your childhood version or adulthood version. I am in the same situation as you, my mom doesn’t want to accept who I am. Even though I’m from Thailand which LGBTQ is accepted, but my mom is too traditional to accept it. I believe one day we will get through it together.
Thank you for opening up and sharing. I can relate to many parts.❤
Hi Eddie, I have a friend in China who went through just the same situation as you. .you are who you are, and better to accept it than to fight against it. My friend is doing very well now. Thanks for your teaching, it is very good. Take care of yourself, keep your mind together. Love from OZ.
I really admire your authenticity , your bravery to come out out the closet. I think it's because of society and especially traditional Chinese family. I'm the third generation of 华侨 in Thailand. Although it seems open in the society but it's also depending on each family as well. It was difficult to break it opens and I felt like I didn't belong in the family. My big sister was a lesbian but my family seems doesn't care much. Anyway, it took me up until junior year at the uni that I was brave enough to reveal my true identity to my mom. Luckily for me, she was supportive though dad wasn't, but it was quite okay enough to have a person who understood me and I didn't have to hide anymore.
I think after you reveal your identity, there will be a lot gay people who supports you, including me. I plan to learn Chinese many times as well as English ,but I reached plateau.
You know after I watched a couple of your videos , I think you're charming ,smart and very hardworking person. I bet if you target to niche audiences like gay community or women preferences. There would definitely be room for you. I admire your English and want to know how to remove your accent and maybe if you could share tips, I would be so grateful.
你好Eddie. very brave of u to open up ur heart the way u did. Just be patient, u r going on the right direction. Just think that most countries situation where like China 30 years ago. Ur country, and u, just needs some time. And, although, being finacially independent is important, loving urself it's also. 加油
我忘了告诉我是你的新学生😂😂
谢谢，我的新学生❤️😄
YT suggested this video to me. I am gay and old. Let me tell you it wasn't so easy for us 50 years ago. In the 1980s the public would spit at us on gay pride demos. In the 1990s in London my colleagues told me "if you let the boss find out you are gay, he will k1ll you, he owns a gun and he says gays should be k1lled". Well I was the star employee so I told the boss, he nearly collapsed (I look like a thug noone ever guesses I am gay) - but by the time I left that job 25% of his employees were openly gay. As a teenager my sister said "don't tell mum, she thinks gays should be killed". I came out to my parents at 18yo, and I am my mother's favourite to this day.
Things might look bleak, but your mother might surprise you if you give her the chance. We gays are rare (1% of people). Our difference isn't obvious, and in making people aware of it they end up thinking of sex that they don't want to think about. Gay men and women even make babies without physical contact, so you can be gay and make your mother a grandmother.
Your English is amazing. I am married to a thai man who has lived among English speakers for 20 years and he speaks very faulty English. I wish you every success.
As for scars, insecurity etc please understand this: the man who loves you will also love your scar. I don't mean that in a kinky way. I mean the scar will not matter to him. The man I loved most in my life had a face covered in acne scars. I never even saw them, only he was concerned about them. He was beautiful to me, he was shy in public (which I like) but in private was very funny and kind. I realise this is an old video, I hope you are much happier now.
I'm really touched by your story. I'm Polish and it's very similar in Poland as well, therefore the best choice was to move to the UK. I know it will be difficult for you to come out to your family, but I can see how incredibly brave you're. You are so amazing and good luck! I feel like we have had such a similar experience in our lives despite completely different countries. I'm really impressed!
谢谢你分享你的故事。 我是巴西人，正在学习普通话，而对你的视频非常有帮助。 因为我也是同志，所以很高兴知道你的故事！ 我知道有些情况很难解决，特别是在家庭方面，但是你必须知道自己并不孤单。 你真是个好人！ 你有一个巴西的大粉丝。 谢谢你的存在！另外 关于疤痕，你就这样太帅了 哈哈
与所有的爱，来自遥远的朋友！ 另 对不起 我的中文不好！
谢谢你的鼓励😊
Thank you for sharing your story, for being so open and honest to talk about your feelings. I lack the words to express how deeply I appreciate it.
I strongly believe that brave and beautiful gestures like yours are of capital importance in spreading awareness and helping people be more understanding, respectful, loving.
You say that individual power can't overcome society's prejudices and issues, and to some extent I agree. But you're not alone. There are lots of people hoping for a better world where nobody has to give explanations about the way they live and love. A world in which we all understand that it's natural to have feelings (love, sexual desire or whatever) to any human being of our choice, because love is natural, love is genderless, love is LOVE.
Thanks again and my best wishes for you. 🤗
Ale Gaydou ❤️
Eddie I’m pretty familiar with your life story, u need to know that you’re not alone in this situation and that everyone in this life have his own struggles. But I’m sure you’re strong enough to face it all.
你是最棒的老师💪🏼 继续努力吧
天天向上！
对啦，想倾诉的话别犹豫哦.😉
谢谢你 Diana. 感谢你听我的倾诉 我好多了：）
ChineseEddieG汉语艾迪 不用谢哦 :)) and i’m really glad to hear that u do feel better!
Thank you so much for your videos, you don't know how you are changing my life, I really like learning chinese and you help a lot.
I really feel you, I felt all the same things when I was younger, but you know, everything always gets better. You are really brave for telling us and I admire you, because even some days can be hard, you are pushing on.
You don't have nothing to be ashamed. Only be proud for who you are.
Greetings from Mexico!
Eddie GaEstrada thanks Eddie. 我们加油
加油，老师！Don't blame on you! You are smart and talented, just love yourself. It's hard to accept ourselves when we are different, but at the end that is what freedom means.
I wish you could find a good person who loves you C: You deserve it!
谢谢你的鼓励！❤
@@chineseeddieg1120 不用谢！
PS: 你最可爱的老师！^_^
Greetings from Chile.
@@he.ming.juan22 哈哈 谢谢你，最喜欢别人说我可爱了：）
I'm really proud of you, Eddie. You are amazing and no one can hate u for being who u are. 加油！
加油（づ￣3￣）づ╭❤～
I can hear from your words and voice that you are a very nice person. Always be yourself. I told my parents when I was 12yo and I came from Egypt and I was a muslim. The worls came down, but they did not hate me. I was arrested (2 years in jail) when I was 19 because I was gay. I left Egypt a year after I left jail and in this same year I left islam. Now I live in Europe and I am free. I have a partner from Vietnam and we have been together for 28 years. Now I am completely ok with my family. I must say that things are changing in Egypt, slowly of course but changing!
MOHAMMAD IBN ALLAH it’s a lovely story of yours too! Thanks for sharing it with me❤️
@@chineseeddieg1120 LOvely? It was it was horrible, but then it all became like paradise for me.
i rlly loved ur honesty and braveness by saying this story , thank u for sharing
I always come back to this video. I am from miami. I am a gay male as well and it is very difficult, I agree with you in all aspects. I live in an area pretty much open to homosexuality so I cannot imagine how hard it might be for you. I sympathize with you when you spoke about your relationship with your father and how abusive he was to you because I experienced/still experience the same thing. I wish you all the success, love, health, and happiness the world has to offer! you are not alone, and you are an incredibly strong and independent person and you should be proud of yourself for having fought through your hardships! you have all my respect and not a day goes by where I don't think about this video. Stay strong and continue to move forward and be confident in who you are and live the life that you want to live- not the life others want you to live. thank you for sharing your experience with the world and for your bravery to be so transparent on a social platform. once again, sending you all my love, thank you.
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You are very brave and honest sharing your life experience with so many people. Being straight itself is difficult, society pressurises you in many ways and I can't imagine how LGBT people cope up with the social pressure. Earlier I used to be afraid of gay people to be honest. And until around 10 years back in my little head, gay meant transgender and I didn't even know about lesbian or gay or bisexual. I am Nepalese and in Nepal while growing up I had never seen a LGBT person. Maybe even if there were people like that they wouldn't have opened up. When I went to Bangalore, India for studies there I saw few transgender people on the street. And because of their unusual appearance I used to get scared. Once, while me and my friend were walking on the road one trans person approached us and I was afraid she was coming to us to ask for money but she wasn't. She just wanted to have conversation with us. Her English was probably way better than our English. She was extremely nice and spoke to us like any other person of her age would. Then I realized that they just look different and behave differently sometimes and it's completely okay. We are all alike. And I became more open minded. Then I started watching videos to educate myself about their stories. Now after seeing all that I feel that people who are LGBT don't get to live normal life in most of the places and are not accepted by the society. I can't imagine how it feels like to be in their shoes. But I am glad that more people like you open up about their sexual orientation and feel comfortable with themselves, more people who are not aware or educated about all this will understand and eventually accept. I am really sorry if I have said anything to hurt anyone. I didn't mean it I just wanted to share how my perception changed and I try talking to my friends about all this and even my parents who are very very orthodox and think that it's a sin to be LGBT. I try to show some videos to them to make them understand that it wasn't a choice for them it's how they are. They didn't choose to be LGBT and we need to be more acceptable and think if we had a child who was like that or siblings or even ourselves, how it would be if we were treated differently and were pressured to always hide to be what we are. I am sure things will be much better over few years. Thank you very much sharing all this ❤️ I only hope that we all thrive to be better person each day and be acceptable to all kinds of people irrespective of race, color religion, ethnicity and as well as sexual orientation. No one chose to be a particular kind we were born certain way and we can't change that.
（づ￣3￣）づ╭❤～
Thank You so much for your bravery. After watching the Untamed I really wondered how life is for gay people in China. I know this was posted awhile ago but I really admire your honesty so much. Thank You I wish the best for your life.
You're just so real and honest, continue to be strong and soar high.
Cheer up!! Always stay true to yourself. It's the best thing to hear your own voice and decide your own pace. It's my first time to watch your channel. I will follow it even I'm a Chinese native speaker lol. Anyway cheer up❤️❤️
Stay true to yourself!
Eddie I am sending you lots of love and positive power to get through everything in your life. You are a beautiful person inside and out. I wish you can find your path and be financially stable and happy in your body and resilient in your mind. You are so brave for making this video. I love your videos, they are really helpful.请你不要忘记， 你真的是一位很优秀的人。Do you! Find your path. Keeping my fingers crossed for you. 艾迪加油！！！！
谢谢你的鼓励❤️❤️
Please don't cry anymore! I love you! You're great Eddie!
Thank You for your honesty. It's great.
I've listened to your history with interest.
It must be hard to be a gay in China.
You are nice and good young man.
And You are a great chinese teacher.
I wish You the very best for your future.
You matter, you are important. I am rooting for you, we are rooting for you. Please don't give up on yourself because we are never giving up on you. I know you must be tired and very sad but I promise you there's a light at the end of this very dark seemingly endless tunnel and that you will reach it. 苦尽甘来！(I watched the entire video and your latest depression video, had discovered your channel today while RUclips searching for 武漢話 content since I am part 武漢人, online resources for learning 武漢話 are so scarce. I came across your 武漢話 rap vid cuz aside from you it's only girls teaching 武漢話 and I wanna sound like a 武漢 guy not a 武漢 girl!) I am sending you positive vibes brother and plenty of hugs. Please take care, you are **not** alone. I really, really, really wish I could give you a hug
Hey Eddie, I think you're the whole package :) Just believe in yourself, you are an amazing teacher, your curse words video was so much fun, I will definitely watch more as I progress in my studies!
谢谢你，老师
（づ￣3￣）づ╭❤～
sending love from Germany!! thank you for your lessons and STAY YOU!!!
*You're are really brave to do this and I'm so proud of you eddie !!! You deserve everything in this world. **16:54** I don't agree with this, you should see yourself in the mirror again. Also, please don't have all the painful memories to yourself, **13:34** it breaks my heart to see you like this. I know that there is a person out there for you. we're here for you. Sending you my love and support* 💜☺️
oh no, im watching this 1 year later but i hope you feel better now. fighting!!!💪🏼
LUKAS ❤️
Love from India Eddie 💜🇮🇳
I really appreciate your honesty and really want to thank you for staying this strong and will always there to support you by watching your videos❤
谢谢 ╭❤～
Sending lots of love to you! Things always get better, is a cliche but it's true, hold tight and be yourself!
Dear Eddie, congratulations , you have been very courageous for getting out the closet online. And so resilient as well! You are a wonderfull teacher and a great human being ! I wish you all the very best in life and a lot of happiness! You really deserve it !
I just watched this and I can relate to everything you said. I know the struggle first hand. Just know that there are people out here who celebrate and support you, the real you, and that your situation can and will get better. I really wish you all the best and I'm for sure going to subscribe and watch your entire channel as I'm starting my chinese learning journey.
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同志自豪月快樂! 🌈 You're a beautiful human being Eddie!
谢谢你！
I admire your honesty and your strength. I hope you're doing well!
Please don't cry anymore it makes me cry too😭 You are very young, potential, handsome! I am sure your future will be bright just like your smile! Lot of love from mozambique. #Eddiegang
李若 I’m a happier person now;) ❤️
Just recently found your channel. I really appreciate your work. Your honesty is also very refreshing and inspiring.
xie xie ni Josh
It's good to accept and embrace who you are and It doesn't matter if you are gay, bi, or whatever! We like you just the way you are. 还好你接受自己 ！❤️
李若 感谢你的话
Eddie laoshi, I was a refugee from Laos after the Vietnam War who have resettled in America for more than 30 years and can honestly tell you that your English is way better than mine and some people who live in the United States. You should be very proud of your accomplishments. I understand how you feel. When I visited China with my American friends, the Chinese people treated us like we were kings and queens. However, when I visited China on my own, they treated me differently. I told them I was from America, but they didn't believe me. I even got a ticket for jay walking in Guizhou. Furthermore, you are absolutely correct that the Chinese people value foreigners (Caucasians) more than any other races. It is sad but the truth.
Samsaolong Giada 👍
This is the 3rd video that I watch of yours. I'm still hoping that when your mom know that you are a gay, she must be proud of you, there's nothing wrong of being gay. And you are her only son. I can see that you are suffering so much, I'm sad too with your difficult situation. But no matter how hard the rain is, at the end you can see rainbow. So be strong, don't lost hope, you are smart and kind. 👍👍💙💙💪💪
Even I certainly have the desire of being the gay guy that I'm destined to be just as much as I'm absolutely never confused for figuring out which sexual orientation feels right for me to follow with. That's why I chose to follow to that particular path for myself of being 100% gay (homosexual) all my life🏳️🌈🙂
Thanks for sharing. Your story touched me a lot!
Patrick Theobald ❤️
The most confident teacher, person and great human . Being a great. human is superior than a girl, boy or gay. It's not your fault. The nature has created you like this. May Allah bless you and provide you with peace in your life. Step up the game.
mohibullah mohibullah ❤️
This is such a beautiful video, and you are a beautiful person!
damien taylor xie xie ni 😊
@@chineseeddieg1120 谢谢。我是一个新学习者。我喜欢你的视频
@@kamenriderace1501 哇 原来你会写汉字 真棒 加油加油 继续努力哦（づ￣3￣）づ╭❤～
@@chineseeddieg1120 我会，我用字典。但是，在你的帮助下，我将是一个更好的学生！😍
@@kamenriderace1501 哈哈 太好了 你是美国人吗？
No one is gonna hate you because of your beautiful story except the stupid people, being brave to tell your story is such a great thing and don't be ashamed of who you are, every one in this world deserve to be loved , and remember that there is a lot of people support you, keep going and do us a lot of Chinese videos👍🏽
I will:) 我会努力， 加油！
Sending love and hugs to you
xiexie
You are a great person. You are a great teacher. I support you Eddie! 加油💪🌹
Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You've been a follower, a friend and a supporter of me since DAY 1. I am so happy you have always been there for me and watching my vids. 感谢你，玫瑰
很勇敢了！中国男人是真的难，现在很多人接受女同了，但是男同就会被歧视，独生子更加难。但是年轻的一代长大了就会慢慢好起来的，加油！Love yourself, be yourself.
最大的压力就是来自于父母。所以一想到这些 我就很烦。跟任何人出柜，现在对于我来说都不难，除了父母
@@chineseeddieg1120 因为父母传宗接代的思想当然难出柜了，你应该想一想其他补偿父母的方式，活还是要为自己而活的，不然为别人活的很累的，有些时候是要自私一点的，you only live once, make it count.只要你其他的方面足够优秀了，我相信你的父母不会在意你是不是gay了，我的父母更加看重我是否可以赚钱，你可以试着把重心放到让自己变优秀，自己的生活变得充实，既然你都30岁了，你和父母的交际应该很少才对呀，只要你是完全独立的情况，你就不用了太在意父母，出柜一定要经济独立，而且有对象最好，因为你对象会支持你，一起努力就可以了
@@chineseeddieg1120 我现在父母给我的压力也特别大，我大学毕业2年了（也是武汉的），现在工作还没有稳定下来，去上海漂泊了一年，本来是和朋友一起做自媒体的，赚不到钱，坚持不下去，现在回武汉找工作也不好找，很多朝九晚六的工作我看不上，我爸妈又逼我找一个工作安稳下来，我说我宁愿死，也不想去浪费我的时间去做我不想做的事，我理解的生活就是和我喜欢的一切东西在一起，做我想做的事. I need to make change of my life or imma die, I am going to die anyway. well am I gonna actually die haven't lived? 一起加油，打败抑郁！i am with you!
Eddie laoshi, you're unique and special. Don't let people belittle you.
Samsaolong Giada ❤️❤️❤️
Wow Eddie you are a really good teacher and I understand that China is very tradicional and that must be very difficult for you but you can always travel. For example in Chile we accept LGBT+ people and in Europe and other countries are very supportive. So if you think China is a very hard for gay people I suggest that you could travel. In some countries we have even gay marriage and you are very young so cheer up boy I hope everything will be very good for you.
You're a beautiful soul! Im sorry you feel such a burden of having a child to continue the family. You can have a child if you want when you have a boyfriend, there are surrogacy mother's it's an option ❣️ Sending love and energy ! I'm planning to move to China, and I guess I won't have a partner when I'm there and I think the following year I'll move to Taiwan because there I know you are freer to find LGBTQ community and I could live my love life more freely. It is horrible having to hide yourself.
I don’t know how you showed up in my feed, but it’s official…I’m in love with you.♥️♥️♥️ But seriously, I just subscribed so I can see and hear more of you. I really hope things have gotten better.
xie xie:)
I've just found this video, thank you for sharing your story. Is heart breaking to hear how homosexuality is not accepted in China. I'm so sorry. Here ( in Italy) people like us have more support. You are an example of determination, hard work and a good friend and son. Thanks for your courage and your determination. Also thank you for your channel, I wanna learn chinese linguage, I'm just a beginner but I think you'll help me. (sorry for my english) I hope you are happy now, I hope you'll find your way to be yourself. Thank you again :)
Carlotta
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