This was the hardest thing I've ever went through. I'm still going through it. Thank you for allowing me to share this because it helps. Love you all. I am not done here.
I'm reading every comment and already have cried several times. I appreciate everyone, all of of you! I'm very Blessed to have this kind of support.. honestly I had no idea. I tried to reply to as many who also shared their loss with me as well. But as you can guess this is hard. I'm going to try and sleep for a little. From the bottom of my Heart, I thank you all.
Loosing a parent is so hard. My father died as a result of melanoma which ended up in his lungs. It will get better but only with time, you won't get over the loss, but you will learn how to cope with it. I am praying for you. I just found your channel what is your name? My name is Ellen.
When you said to call our moms i started cying, at the beginning of the video i called grandparents and later I will my mom, she is probably still sleeping, stay stong I am very sory for your loss
Wow l feel the emotions. You are so strong for openly talking about this with us and I hope it helps heal you in some small way. I lost my mom last year of a blood infection as well. It’s the hardest thing to go through but having the support system helps you manage through the pain 💙
I am so very sorry for your loss. Nothing prepares us for such pain and finality. It hurts to see your anguish. Thank heavens you took that lovely picture of your Mom. You have that to cherish - On that picture she is wearing a beautiful smile and she looks like a wonderful, terrific, beautiful woman and mother. You will make it but it will not become easier for some time. Prepare youself to grieve, and do it openly and without fear of what anybody thinks. You will go through the various stages of grieving and there is no particular way except your own way. I have lost both of my parents and one year ago on Nov. 19, I lost my only sibling, a brother. It has been one year and memories and intense feelings remain. The loss is keen and remains in a piece of your heart. Again, I can hear, see and feel your raw emotion and send a virtual hug. I am both mother, grandmother and great grandmother. I've learned much and life is not always a bowl of cherries. Live with your memories and cherish them always. Thank you for sharing and be well.
I appreciate you sharing that with me I'm sorry for your loss as well. She was such a good person.. she had a rough life but in return she only gave kindness and smiles, she had very little but was still very happy. Thank you so much and may you be well too.
I almost couldn't watch this video, as I knew it would painful, but I did because if you have the bravery to share, I have the bravery to watch it. I've just come to your channel today, looking for tutorials for clay, and as is normal with someone so talented, I ended up browsing your uploads. To come across this video, shocked me. It's a reminder that there are real people behind the videos, with real feelings and very real grief. I know it's been six months now since you lost your Mum, but I've now doubt it feels like yesterday. I also know of those inbetween moments where you're starting to feel okay and for no reason at all, you are suddenly gut punched again with the enormity of the loss. Of your Mum, I can't say much of her being a completely stranger to you and your family, but what I can say is this: she was clearly, obviously, undoubtedly a wonderful woman. I know this because of the footprints and marks she left behind - you. What a kind, genuine soul you are - to have felt that, in your mourning, you didn't want to let your followers down or go without explanation, speaks volumes of your character, a character which your Mum helped to craft and shows, by extension, how she must've been as well. Your videos have brought me joy, curiosity, fascination and inspiration - someone sat in their living room in England is thinking of you and your family, and wishing you so much joy for the future. As for the beard? Well you said in your next video you weren't sure what to do, but to you I say 'trim'! When you feel ripe for a positive change, start with the beard - that's what I did when I lost my Dad and I felt still like me, but different too, ready for my next chapter perhaps. These momentous situations require a little change in ourselves I think - we shouldn't carry on in the same vein as if nothing has happened, because the worst thing has happened. It's so important to bring in new things to your life that acknowledges that your normality has altered, but not so much to disregard your very loving and important past. I'm waffling now - I am so subscribing to your channel and look forward to seeing you when you are ready to return. With love, Carl from UK
Oh Tom, I am so sorry for your loss, I feel your heartbreak and my prayers go out to you, I lost my husband in January, and you said it exactly how I feel, it’s like a door has closed just knowing I can never talked to him again. At first it was really hard, but the heartache does begin to wane, my hope for you is to know we’re all wishing good things for you and your family, I’ve been following you a long time, thank you for for showing us your strength and hope you keep all the good memories of her first and foremost❤️ Laura
I appreciate you sharing that with me. I'm just sitting here thinking about my Wife, just the idea of losing her... I'm so sorry Laura! Sending strength and good things your way as well. Thank you for following me for so long, my experience here on RUclips is still so surreal to me.
You are very strong to be able to share this. 2020 is a terrible year to lose someone you love more than in recent years. I don't want to just say I'm sorry for your loss...I hope you and your family can remember the good times to help bring you joy...and when the sadness comes comfort each other to make it through.( I was writing this before there were other comments so please don't think I'm speaking badly to people who are saying " sorry for your loss")
I went through a similar experience when my Mom died at 59 years old. It was a stroke it happened on New Year's Eve & we had just spent Christmas together. She had a massive stroke & lived alone. She was also both my Mom & Dad our everything. It will be 26 years this New Years' Eve since she passed. All I can tell you is that not a day goes by that she is not in my thoughts & the love I feel has never died. I was only 38 years old, my siblings & I thought we had at least 20 more years & we were completely unprepared for the loss, I don't think you can really prepare for the incredible hollowness they leave. Your story made me cry because I feel that pain, but as I told my children, when I became seriously ill & we were concerned it was now my time, that energy never dies & your memories will fill a tiny bit of the void that's left behind. I would do anything to have my Mom back & there are times when I have had two very vivid dreams where she came back to ease a troubling time for me. I am so sorry for your loss, put your pain into your art, it helps. Last year I made all my siblings a Mom Christmas Ornament she was an angel & I'm no great artist but I caught the spirit of her, but it was the love & creating that brought a great deal of joy for me & my siblings. Take care & share all the good memories over & over again.
Just found your page and was really happy enjoying the content and then this video came on and I just feel so sorry for your loss. I hope your art can help you through this 💙
I am so sorry for your loss, I wish you comfort and love. I see the love on your mamas face in that photo and its beautiful, and I'm sure shes watching over you. 💜
My condolences. Take each day one at a time. Some will be easier, some will be very hard. Remember the joy she brought to your life and honor that. And the beard looks awesome. Sending Prayers and Hugs from Houston. ❤️
Omg... This literally brought me to tears. I could feel your pain. I am so sorry this happened to you. My mom is my best friend and I can't even image the day she is no longer there. Lots of hugs and love your way. Don't know you personally, but I am always someone to open arms to those who need to talk and who need some new friends. I don't have very many myself either. Stay strong.
I just started watching your videos, they are very helpful, I’m sorry for you lost! I’m sure your mom was very proud of you, you sound like a very loving son. Keep up with the good work and great talent!!!
I only just subscribed to your channel when I saw this video. I'm so sorry for your loss especially as your mum was still quite young. Both my parents are gone now and I still think of them often. The pain never quite goes away but you'll counterbalance that with the happy memories.
Just found your channel while looking for ways to get started with sculpting: the earnestness is amazing and so very helpful. I lost my dad very suddenly two years ago, and everything you’ve said here I can identify with. There’s nothing I can say to truly help you deal with your situation, but I hope you find your way through it as best you can. I’m rooting for ya, dude.
I’m so sorry I couldn’t imagine what you’re going through. Thank you for sharing with us , I know that must have been really hard for you. We care for you and we send our support to you and your family. You are not alone.
My heart is breaking for your loss. I lost both my parents, but each of us,walks this particular journey, alone with our own memories, known to no one, but ourselves. I like to think that our mom’s know and feel our love. ....That they are not alone, or in pain or in fear anymore. ..Be strong when you can and reach out to others near you, when you cannot. Good luck to you
I've just found your channel, you seem like the nicest person ever, I'm so sorry for your loss, your mum is beautiful, I just want to send you the biggest hug 🤗 x
I'm sending you strength, my sympathys, and my support. Your courage to do that video was beyond anything I could imagine. You are so talented though and you would do her proud, maybe even help you through this time do sculpt. You are an amazing individual with amazing talent to give. I never comment on anyone's videos (shyness maybe) but I had to show you my support. Keep up with the videos if you are able and we can all come together and cheer you up even if it's just a smile over a nice comment on your hard work xx
Oh my! You have my deepest, most heart felt condolences. I am so sorry for your loss. Your mom was beautiful! Her energy will always be with you. The courage it took to make that video is amazing. I cried for you. Sending love and peace to you and your family. 💜💜💜
I'm so sorry, I've been watching your polymer tutorials and your voice has been soothing me so much, I thought I'd check to see your most recent video and it's this and I'm just so, so sorry. You seem like such a gentle, kind man and I hate to see you hurting. I hope you're doing okay today, I know every day sucks without your loved ones but we just have to find those little moments of joy where we can. All my love to you.
I am really sorry about your mom. That last thing you said at the end really hit home, I have been so busy recently that it had passed more than a week since I talked to my mom, so I just called her, thank you for the kind reminder, and you are so right about things sometimes going from A to B so fast, sometimes life is so unpredictable. Thank you for sharing, please take care of yourself, I really hope you and your family stay safe and remember your mom will always be with you in your heart and in the memories you made together.
I'm really sorry to hear about this, I can't imagine how difficult this has been. Hope you are doing well and sending love from the UK, you're an extremely kind soul. Best wishes
Thank you for being brave enough to share your sadness. I hope your grief has healed somewhat now that time has passed. Your video tutorials have been very helpful an I thank you for that 👏
I haven't been around much in your channel, but when I saw you inmediately I knew I had to watch. My deepest condolences to you and your family, your mom is in a better place now and Angels are around her taking care of her. Stay strong!!!
I'm so very sorry for your loss. It's heartbreaking to hear how quickly it happened.. Know that you, your family, mom are in my thoughts. Sending you all so much love! My mom's birthday is next week but unfortunately I cant hug her cause she's a high risk so, I'm even more careful around her but I'll make sure she feels loved & celebrated
I'm so very sorry for your loss. Losing a loved one is so hard. I've only just discovered your channel but I couldn't not comment. It's a cliche but time will help you come to terms with the pain. May your mum rest in peace, blessings 🙏
I watched one of your videos, a vase you were covering then went looking to see the second part. I found this. Tom, this was a year ago according to the viewers comments. I can feel your pain because in September 2020 I lost both my parents, 12 days apart. Just 3 days before their 65th anniversary.They both were in the hospital and I couldn’t see them either. I wondered the same things. Were they afraid? I had cared for them both for about 5 years in my home before they went down so fast. They didn’t have covid according to the hospital. They were both quite a bit older than your mom. Mom was 82 and Dad was 83. I’m your mom’s age. She was beautiful. She has a loving and beautiful souled son. I love the beard. I just have to think they all had were conscienceless so there was no fear. Those thoughts will take you down. You have to remember her and not her end. She would want you to live and find happiness again. I admit I have a hard time with that myself. But I try to keep myself busy. I hope you haven’t stopped with your art. You have such talent. Find a group someplace and talk to someone or several someone’s who have similar stories. Everyone is hurting right now. The world is just fighting it’s way back and we all need to fight with it. Just take a deep breath son. Know that Mom was the best and she loved you. Your heart will take time to heal some but it will never stop missing her. That will be your new normal and you have to find a way of living with that. I’m sorry for being so long winded but I just wanted to tell you people love you. You may never meet them but we are out here. I will pray for you tonight. Hang in there. 🤟🏼🤍
So sorry for your loss!! I’m 62 and can’t imagine, she’s so young and so lovely! I’ve recently found you as I’m just starting to sculpt. I love your authentic nature. You’re a precious human being and you help with your great videos. Be well 🙏🏻❤️
I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being able to share your pain with everyone. Please take care of yourself and your health. I wish for healing and happiness in your family in the future.
I just found your videos, you're voice, you're calming nature, has made me want to focus on my alone times and thoughts when I make "stuff." Thank you for that. About your mom. I am so so sorry for the loss of your world. It's very clear how she was your world. I am a paramedic and I know how hard it has been for so many during the screwed up season of COVID. Not being able to be with her at the end is wrong. I know that sometimes we are the last ones to see your loved ones. We know this and do everything we can to make them feel safe and they are not alone. She is still there for you ❤
I'm so very sorry and my condolences to your family. Thank you for sharing a glimpse of your mom. Thankfully she is in the hands of the Lord right now and she's watching over you. She has left a caring son that will always love her and keep her in his heart. God bless you and I pray for peace in your life as you carry on.
I'm so so sorry for your lost. Mine died almost 10 years ago but I understand the pain and I'm going to say you can go trough this. It may not be easy or clean, but you will and she will be so proud of you for doing so wherever she is. I like to think that of my mom, that she can see me, and she is proud. She is not gone, just away. Be brave
God bless you and your mom man. I’m so so sorry to hear what happened. The love you have and memories you share with your mom will never end. They will last forever. Stay strong bro.
I’m sending so much love and prayers your way...she was a very beautiful woman who had raised such a nice and generous guy as you. Thank you for sharing your art and grief with us. You will make it, you’ll get through it I’m sure...take your time to mourn her loss, cry, yell but don’t isolate yourself, I am glad you decided to post this video...try to understand your trauma, ask for help, check out the five stages of grief it will really help you to process it. May God ease your pain and grant you patience, courage and strength during this difficult time. Much love and a very warm hug from France. PS. I like you beard 😁
All the love i have in my heart goes out to you and your family. You will never fully heal but in time the good memories will shine through. Thank you for sharing and being another lovely person on the planet we need more of you
I am so sorry to hear that... Time doesn't fix the losses entirely, but it has the power to turn that excruciating pain into a much more bearable feeling. I am trying to get to that moment when the sadness gives in and makes space for gratitude and good memories. I hope you can reach that point soon. Staying with your beloved ones can help the healing process. Best wishes for you, friend.
Yes, I can feel myself slowly moving to that point. My Wife was my Rock through this, I'm very thankful I didn't have to face this alone. Thank you it means a lot.
I'm so sorry you lost your Mom so fast. That's even harder, but kudos that you shared this with us. Hopefully burdens shared get lighter. I lost my Mom a almost four years ago and still miss her a lot, but I have my Dad so I will love on him for you. Just keep on going and somehow it gets better. Making art helps me, and you are far from alone here. I appreciate you sharing your art and your life. Your videos have helped me, especially since I can't go to my art classes at my studio right now. You rock that beard too.
I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts. I love my mom very much and I can't even imagine what your going through. I love yha and stay strong. You can always reach out if you need a friend!
I am so sorry for your loss. I too have a tiny family. I know what you are going through. Give yourself some Grace. Grieving is a process and we all grieve differently. I pray God comforts you all.
I am so very sorry for your loss! I’ve been subbed to you for the last 10 years and am a fellow artist, and have loved your work!! Since March I’ve lost my Gran, my brother in law and my cousin.... NONE FROM COVID, but I blame covid for the fact that I was unable to see them before during or even after!! None were able to have funerals due to these abhorrent lockdowns, so as you can imagine we have had no opportunity for closure. Apparently there are 5 stages of grief, we’re still stuck in the anger-depression stage, due to non-closure. This year is the worst year of many of our lives! I appreciate your candid update and wish you and your family many blessings and will be praying for you.
I am so so so sorry for your loss 😢 my mom and my brother are my only family so losing either of them is a huge fear of mine and I hate that you had to go through it. Thanks for reminding me I should call her. I promise I will. May yours Rest In Peace and best wishes and lots of love to you and your family.
I just scowled upon you and played your video. Yes your story is a sad one, may your dear mother Rest In Peace with our Lord above. She’s fine now, and I know she loves you and misses you with all her heart too. I’m 64 and feel that way about my son, I love him ever so must also. I’ll miss him terribly when my time will come too. Bless you for being a good son to your mother. 🙏🏽
Only discovered your channel last week and have binge watched since. Your calming voice and your talent are simply wonderful. I can guarantee I won't be the only one that feels as if they are much more than just viewers. My hero, my Dad, left to start on his next journey a very short time ago after deciding to give up dialysis so someone who had a chance of finding a donor could take his chair. It was only prolonging his pain. I can't say I know how you feel as I'm not you, but your aching heart comes through so strongly watching you. I, like all the wonderful people who you've obviously inspired, are sending you so much healing light and love, it won't take anything away, but hopefully it will be a cushion for you and yours, use it and lean on it. I had to stop reading the comments as they are so heartfelt and beautiful. Your mum is with you all the time now, always talk to her, she will still listen, smile when you feel all the love she's filled you with. Please NEVER be sorry for letting people see your pain, your tears, your heart, they are emotions too and no one apologises for smiling, laughing, caring or loving, so never be sorry for sharing your emotions. I join everyone in surrounding your family in caring arms and much love. X
I am so sorry about your loss. I sure your mom knows that you love her. Please remember that this is the nature of life, and and it was a bless that you lived with such an amazing mother and was blessed with what would be the best memories of her. God bless you all.
I'm so so sorry for what you're feeling and going through right now. I've lost a parent and I know how incredibly difficult that alone can be without all the extra stuff that has been added to your suffering. I wish I could take some of the pain away for you. You WILL never be the same....but you will be ok. Sending my thoughts and love to you and your family ❤️
Thank you for your video, thank you for reminding us to be present and appreciate our love ones while they are still here. Saying goodbye and enduring the loss it’s one of the harder things we learn here on this earth... No one prepared us for this type of things, every one is so afraid of death... When we drop (leave) our physical body, our soul (spirit) remains conscious. In reality we never die. For a while some souls would remain in this 3D, around the house they had, around love ones. You can talk to your mom and she will hear you. Later comes the ascension, when the soul will leave this 3D to a higher one. I lost my father and has been one of the worst feelings I’ve ever experience... It’s been 7 years and the the wound still feels fresh like if it was last month. Everyone will tell you that with time it will get easier to deal with it. Yes, up to a point.... I will tell you the only thing that helps me. Thinking that my dad it’s somewhere with his brothers and sisters that also passed away, his parents, friends, pets he once had here on earth with him. It helps me thinking that I am sharing him with all of them, but later we will meet again. I hope you find a way to help your hurting heart the same way I did. Remember that mothers always keep their sons and daughters in their hearts. Your mother it is always with you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your mother. From what I understand the pain never goes away however you will learn to take each day at a time and live your life the way your mother would want you to live it. You seem like a very genuine, kindhearted and loving person. I have no doubts your mother would be proud of the person you are! Not many people can say that. Take care and stay safe
I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm hugging you in my prayers right now. Thank you for sharing your heart, your sorrow and using it in hope of making a difference. As soon as I finish this msg, I'll call my mom for you. I wish you all God's very best. Love, Your Friend ~ Joy
I‘m so sorry for your loss Tom! Loosing a parent is a horrible experience and I feel you. There is nothing that could ever fill the hole this pillar of our lifes leaves. Take your time going through the grieve you feel, it is important to allow yourself to do so. You will find it often going in waves, even long after the world has decided to move on. Know that this is ok and it is normal. Even though the waves seem to crush you in the beginning, they will, over lots of time, become more bearable. Lots of love!
I am so very sorry for your loss! I lost my Mom 7 years ago, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I could hear her voice just one more time. Sending tons of love your way! The pain never truly goes away, but I can promise you that it does get easier. 💙💙💙
I am so very very sorry for your loss. I don't know you and this is the second one of your videos I ever saw and I hear your loss. Please know you sound like a wonderful son and your mother loved you so much as well. Its been almost a year since and I hope your heart has healed a little and that the memories of your mother still warm your heart.
Stay strong mate. My mum just turned 90 today. I ring as much as I can. Like you said keep in contact with family never know what is around the corner. Love your creations. I have just started playing around with polymer clay. Saw the video about painting & baking. Just the info I was after. Keep up the good work.
just came across this after loving your channel and videos.... english isn’t my first language and honestly i don’t know how to say anything but i want to let you know that im so so so sorry for this to happen. i cant even imagine the pain you feel. as a person, i see you radiate the best of energy, and i feel how much you want to help and spread that wonderful energy and i am so so so thankful for that. we need more people like you. you have helped me a lot, even if in small ways, and i am beyond thankful for this. i can see your mother was an unfathomably dear soul, and she raised such a beautiful son. i admire that beyond measure. the world is so lucky to be blessed with people like her, to inspire and support in such impactful ways. i really appreciate you, your existence is constantly bringing joy and motivation and inspiration to people around the world, and that is something not many people can do. your mother would have been so proud of you, and if you are of the belief, i know she’s watching over you still and just as proud. please take all the time you need. you don’t owe us anything more, you’ve given us so much already. you owe it to yourself to take care of you, more than anything. sending infinite love and joy and blessings always ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡
Wow, I’m so sorry for your loss. I missed this video somehow, so I’m glad you posted a follow up. So I jumped back here to see what was going on. That’s way too young....
Sharing this powerful emotion deeply moves us. All of us who have lost our mothers know that only time heals the wound, but the scar remains and the pain mixes with the memories in a bittersweet sensation. Lucky those of us who, having lost a great mother, were lucky to have had her. Bless you.
Grief is hard and you dont have to be strong all the time. Im so so sorry for you and your familys loss. I hope you feel the hugs and love from all of your watchers. I dont know that loss of a parent but it is inevitable. Prayers from North Carolina. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
Calm energy being sent and wishing that peace has started to settle on you and your family. I too have lost my parents and understand. Your mom is very proud of the man she raised, your kindness and willingness to be honest are the result of her love for you. I truly believe she is still with you, just not in the same way.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I just found you on 4-27-2023, I saw your tool for making a holder for colored pencils...I do understand having lost both my parents and 3 of my younger siblings. Around the time you lost your mom, I lost my husband. I will keep you in my prayers. I agree, tell your mom you love her if you still have her. Blessings to one and all.
I am just getting onto polymer clay as a hobby. I knew I needed to find a creative outlet after I lost my aunt, who was also a mother figure when I was young, from a rapid disease progression as well. Your channel has been a source of inspiration both creatively and spiritually. Thank you
I'm very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine it so close and so awful like that, but I have lost a family member a long time ago and that was hard enough. Don't be sorry for your emotions; you have the support of your loved ones and a whole online community of fans. My thoughts are with you. Take care.x
I only just discovered your channel today. I’m a jewellery designer and was looking for polymer clay videos. Then I came across this video. I am so very sorry for the loss of your mum. I know a lot about grief and it is a journey, that is difficult to navigate. Sending you all the love, strength and peace, you need for the journey ahead. Coming all the way from Country Victoria. Australia. Xx
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I'm reading every comment and already have cried several times. I appreciate everyone, all of of you! I'm very Blessed to have this kind of support.. honestly I had no idea. I tried to reply to as many who also shared their loss with me as well. But as you can guess this is hard. I'm going to try and sleep for a little. From the bottom of my Heart, I thank you all.
Condolences. So sorry for your loss.
Loosing a parent is so hard. My father died as a result of melanoma which ended up in his lungs. It will get better but only with time, you won't get over the loss, but you will learn how to cope with it. I am praying for you. I just found your channel what is your name? My name is Ellen.
This is the first of your videos I have ever seen. It is the most important and beautiful thing I have ever watched on youtube. Thank you.
When you said to call our moms i started cying, at the beginning of the video i called grandparents and later I will my mom, she is probably still sleeping, stay stong I am very sory for your loss
My man I'm so sorry for your lose but you are wrong about having a small family, you have 80 thousand of us.
So many people care about you. I wish you could feel the love being sent to you.
I'm in tears actually... I had no idea.. thank you so so much!
Deepest condolences, you stay strong and do what you need to do.
Dont apologize, life can be unfair at times, take care of yourself first.
It sure can.. and will do, thanks.
Wow l feel the emotions. You are so strong for openly talking about this with us and I hope it helps heal you in some small way. I lost my mom last year of a blood infection as well. It’s the hardest thing to go through but having the support system helps you manage through the pain 💙
I am so very sorry for your loss. Nothing prepares us for such pain and finality. It hurts to see your anguish. Thank heavens you took that lovely picture of your Mom. You have that to cherish - On that picture she is wearing a beautiful smile and she looks like a wonderful, terrific, beautiful woman and mother. You will make it but it will not become easier for some time. Prepare youself to grieve, and do it openly and without fear of what anybody thinks. You will go through the various stages of grieving and there is no particular way except your own way. I have lost both of my parents and one year ago on Nov. 19, I lost my only sibling, a brother. It has been one year and memories and intense feelings remain. The loss is keen and remains in a piece of your heart. Again, I can hear, see and feel your raw emotion and send a virtual hug. I am both mother, grandmother and great grandmother. I've learned much and life is not always a bowl of cherries. Live with your memories and cherish them always. Thank you for sharing and be well.
I appreciate you sharing that with me I'm sorry for your loss as well. She was such a good person.. she had a rough life but in return she only gave kindness and smiles, she had very little but was still very happy. Thank you so much and may you be well too.
@@TheBroodingTom Very kind. Thank you. Stay safe & well
I almost couldn't watch this video, as I knew it would painful, but I did because if you have the bravery to share, I have the bravery to watch it.
I've just come to your channel today, looking for tutorials for clay, and as is normal with someone so talented, I ended up browsing your uploads.
To come across this video, shocked me. It's a reminder that there are real people behind the videos, with real feelings and very real grief.
I know it's been six months now since you lost your Mum, but I've now doubt it feels like yesterday. I also know of those inbetween moments where you're starting to feel okay and for no reason at all, you are suddenly gut punched again with the enormity of the loss.
Of your Mum, I can't say much of her being a completely stranger to you and your family, but what I can say is this: she was clearly, obviously, undoubtedly a wonderful woman. I know this because of the footprints and marks she left behind - you. What a kind, genuine soul you are - to have felt that, in your mourning, you didn't want to let your followers down or go without explanation, speaks volumes of your character, a character which your Mum helped to craft and shows, by extension, how she must've been as well.
Your videos have brought me joy, curiosity, fascination and inspiration - someone sat in their living room in England is thinking of you and your family, and wishing you so much joy for the future.
As for the beard? Well you said in your next video you weren't sure what to do, but to you I say 'trim'! When you feel ripe for a positive change, start with the beard - that's what I did when I lost my Dad and I felt still like me, but different too, ready for my next chapter perhaps.
These momentous situations require a little change in ourselves I think - we shouldn't carry on in the same vein as if nothing has happened, because the worst thing has happened. It's so important to bring in new things to your life that acknowledges that your normality has altered, but not so much to disregard your very loving and important past.
I'm waffling now - I am so subscribing to your channel and look forward to seeing you when you are ready to return.
With love, Carl from UK
Oh Tom, I am so sorry for your loss, I feel your heartbreak and my prayers go out to you, I lost
my husband in January, and you said it exactly how I feel, it’s like a door has closed just knowing I can never talked to him again. At first it was really hard, but the heartache does begin to wane, my hope for you is to know we’re all wishing good things for you and your family, I’ve been following you a long time, thank you for for showing us your strength and hope you keep all the good memories of her first and foremost❤️
Laura
I appreciate you sharing that with me. I'm just sitting here thinking about my Wife, just the idea of losing her... I'm so sorry Laura! Sending strength and good things your way as well. Thank you for following me for so long, my experience here on RUclips is still so surreal to me.
You are very strong to be able to share this. 2020 is a terrible year to lose someone you love more than in recent years. I don't want to just say I'm sorry for your loss...I hope you and your family can remember the good times to help bring you joy...and when the sadness comes comfort each other to make it through.( I was writing this before there were other comments so please don't think I'm speaking badly to people who are saying " sorry for your loss")
Thank you. Not I all, I understand. It's me and my sis now, and it's getting a little better each day for the both of us I think.
I went through a similar experience when my Mom died at 59 years old. It was a stroke it happened on New Year's Eve & we had just spent Christmas together. She had a massive stroke & lived alone. She was also both my Mom & Dad our everything. It will be 26 years this New Years' Eve since she passed. All I can tell you is that not a day goes by that she is not in my thoughts & the love I feel has never died. I was only 38 years old, my siblings & I thought we had at least 20 more years & we were completely unprepared for the loss, I don't think you can really prepare for the incredible hollowness they leave. Your story made me cry because I feel that pain, but as I told my children, when I became seriously ill & we were concerned it was now my time, that energy never dies & your memories will fill a tiny bit of the void that's left behind. I would do anything to have my Mom back & there are times when I have had two very vivid dreams where she came back to ease a troubling time for me. I am so sorry for your loss, put your pain into your art, it helps. Last year I made all my siblings a Mom Christmas Ornament she was an angel & I'm no great artist but I caught the spirit of her, but it was the love & creating that brought a great deal of joy for me & my siblings. Take care & share all the good memories over & over again.
Sending you love, and I hope you are better, thanks for inspiring me to do what I love and I hope you are doing well now
So sorry for your loss. I just subbed and I feel for you. Sending love and positivity. And I hope you're doing well, now.
Just found your page and was really happy enjoying the content and then this video came on and I just feel so sorry for your loss. I hope your art can help you through this 💙
I am so sorry for your loss, I wish you comfort and love. I see the love on your mamas face in that photo and its beautiful, and I'm sure shes watching over you. 💜
My condolences. Take each day one at a time. Some will be easier, some will be very hard. Remember the joy she brought to your life and honor that. And the beard looks awesome. Sending Prayers and Hugs from Houston. ❤️
Some days are definitely harder than others for sure.. overall I think it's getting to be bearable at least. Thank you for the kind words.
Sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing. Praying for your family
My deepest condolences! Love and hugs to you! I just found your channel but I subscribed because you are so genuine, heartfelt and talented 🤗
My condolences to you and your family on your loss. May you find comfort in your memories of her. Sending prayers to help you cope.
I'm new to your channel I love you content but ever more impressed by your heart. Blessings to you and your family 💞
Omg... This literally brought me to tears. I could feel your pain. I am so sorry this happened to you. My mom is my best friend and I can't even image the day she is no longer there. Lots of hugs and love your way. Don't know you personally, but I am always someone to open arms to those who need to talk and who need some new friends. I don't have very many myself either. Stay strong.
I just started watching your videos, they are very helpful, I’m sorry for you lost! I’m sure your mom was very proud of you, you sound like a very loving son. Keep up with the good work and great talent!!!
So sorry for your loss! 😢Sending you a big, big hug! 💖
I only just subscribed to your channel when I saw this video.
I'm so sorry for your loss especially as your mum was still quite young. Both my parents are gone now and I still think of them often. The pain never quite goes away but you'll counterbalance that with the happy memories.
Just found your channel while looking for ways to get started with sculpting: the earnestness is amazing and so very helpful.
I lost my dad very suddenly two years ago, and everything you’ve said here I can identify with. There’s nothing I can say to truly help you deal with your situation, but I hope you find your way through it as best you can.
I’m rooting for ya, dude.
I am so sorry for you. I just found your channel this morning. I’ll be praying for you. I’m so sorry. Stay strong!!
I’m so sorry I couldn’t imagine what you’re going through. Thank you for sharing with us , I know that must have been really hard for you. We care for you and we send our support to you and your family. You are not alone.
Been watching some of your videos for help sculpting - and I’m just in tears watching this, so so sorry for your loss. Really hope your doing ok ❤️
My heart is breaking for your loss. I lost both my parents, but each of us,walks this particular journey, alone with our own memories, known to no one, but ourselves.
I like to think that our mom’s know and feel our love.
....That they are not alone, or in pain or in fear anymore.
..Be strong when you can and reach out to others near you, when you cannot.
Good luck to you
I've just found your channel, you seem like the nicest person ever, I'm so sorry for your loss, your mum is beautiful, I just want to send you the biggest hug 🤗 x
I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope you’re able to heal and I’m sure your friends and family will be there to support you through this
I'm sending you strength, my sympathys, and my support. Your courage to do that video was beyond anything I could imagine. You are so talented though and you would do her proud, maybe even help you through this time do sculpt. You are an amazing individual with amazing talent to give. I never comment on anyone's videos (shyness maybe) but I had to show you my support. Keep up with the videos if you are able and we can all come together and cheer you up even if it's just a smile over a nice comment on your hard work xx
Oh my! You have my deepest, most heart felt condolences. I am so sorry for your loss. Your mom was beautiful! Her energy will always be with you. The courage it took to make that video is amazing. I cried for you. Sending love and peace to you and your family. 💜💜💜
I'm so sorry for your loss. And thank you for sharing.
I'm so sorry, I've been watching your polymer tutorials and your voice has been soothing me so much, I thought I'd check to see your most recent video and it's this and I'm just so, so sorry. You seem like such a gentle, kind man and I hate to see you hurting. I hope you're doing okay today, I know every day sucks without your loved ones but we just have to find those little moments of joy where we can. All my love to you.
I am really sorry about your mom. That last thing you said at the end really hit home, I have been so busy recently that it had passed more than a week since I talked to my mom, so I just called her, thank you for the kind reminder, and you are so right about things sometimes going from A to B so fast, sometimes life is so unpredictable. Thank you for sharing, please take care of yourself, I really hope you and your family stay safe and remember your mom will always be with you in your heart and in the memories you made together.
I just found your beautiful butterfly video and then this video. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending love from Massachusetts.
Sending you so much love during this difficult time for you. I lost my dad in January 2015. It doesn't get easier-it just gets different.
I'm really sorry to hear about this, I can't imagine how difficult this has been. Hope you are doing well and sending love from the UK, you're an extremely kind soul. Best wishes
My condolences Tom, I send you a big huge and a lot of strong from Barcelona. Take care dear, is the most important right now!
Thank you for being brave enough to share your sadness. I hope your grief has healed somewhat now that time has passed. Your video tutorials have been very helpful an I thank you for that 👏
I haven't been around much in your channel, but when I saw you inmediately I knew I had to watch. My deepest condolences to you and your family, your mom is in a better place now and Angels are around her taking care of her. Stay strong!!!
I'm so very sorry for your loss. It's heartbreaking to hear how quickly it happened.. Know that you, your family, mom are in my thoughts. Sending you all so much love!
My mom's birthday is next week but unfortunately I cant hug her cause she's a high risk so, I'm even more careful around her but I'll make sure she feels loved & celebrated
I'm so very sorry for your loss. Losing a loved one is so hard. I've only just discovered your channel but I couldn't not comment. It's a cliche but time will help you come to terms with the pain. May your mum rest in peace, blessings 🙏
I watched one of your videos, a vase you were covering then went looking to see the second part. I found this. Tom, this was a year ago according to the viewers comments. I can feel your pain because in September 2020 I lost both my parents, 12 days apart. Just 3 days before their 65th anniversary.They both were in the hospital and I couldn’t see them either. I wondered the same things. Were they afraid? I had cared for them both for about 5 years in my home before they went down so fast. They didn’t have covid according to the hospital. They were both quite a bit older than your mom. Mom was 82 and Dad was 83. I’m your mom’s age. She was beautiful. She has a loving and beautiful souled son. I love the beard. I just have to think they all had were conscienceless so there was no fear. Those thoughts will take you down. You have to remember her and not her end. She would want you to live and find happiness again. I admit I have a hard time with that myself. But I try to keep myself busy. I hope you haven’t stopped with your art. You have such talent. Find a group someplace and talk to someone or several someone’s who have similar stories. Everyone is hurting right now. The world is just fighting it’s way back and we all need to fight with it. Just take a deep breath son. Know that Mom was the best and she loved you. Your heart will take time to heal some but it will never stop missing her. That will be your new normal and you have to find a way of living with that. I’m sorry for being so long winded but I just wanted to tell you people love you. You may never meet them but we are out here. I will pray for you tonight. Hang in there. 🤟🏼🤍
So sorry for your loss!! I’m 62 and can’t imagine, she’s so young and so lovely!
I’ve recently found you as I’m just starting to sculpt. I love your authentic nature. You’re a precious human being and you help with your great videos. Be well 🙏🏻❤️
I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being able to share your pain with everyone. Please take care of yourself and your health. I wish for healing and happiness in your family in the future.
I just found your videos, you're voice, you're calming nature, has made me want to focus on my alone times and thoughts when I make "stuff." Thank you for that.
About your mom. I am so so sorry for the loss of your world. It's very clear how she was your world. I am a paramedic and I know how hard it has been for so many during the screwed up season of COVID. Not being able to be with her at the end is wrong. I know that sometimes we are the last ones to see your loved ones. We know this and do everything we can to make them feel safe and they are not alone. She is still there for you ❤
I'm so very sorry and my condolences to your family. Thank you for sharing a glimpse of your mom. Thankfully she is in the hands of the Lord right now and she's watching over you. She has left a caring son that will always love her and keep her in his heart. God bless you and I pray for peace in your life as you carry on.
My condolences, deeply sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.
I'm so so sorry for your lost. Mine died almost 10 years ago but I understand the pain and I'm going to say you can go trough this. It may not be easy or clean, but you will and she will be so proud of you for doing so wherever she is. I like to think that of my mom, that she can see me, and she is proud. She is not gone, just away. Be brave
God bless you and your mom man. I’m so so sorry to hear what happened. The love you have and memories you share with your mom will never end. They will last forever. Stay strong bro.
I’m sending so much love and prayers your way...she was a very beautiful woman who had raised such a nice and generous guy as you. Thank you for sharing your art and grief with us.
You will make it, you’ll get through it I’m sure...take your time to mourn her loss, cry, yell but don’t isolate yourself, I am glad you decided to post this video...try to understand your trauma, ask for help, check out the five stages of grief it will really help you to process it.
May God ease your pain and grant you patience, courage and strength during this difficult time. Much love and a very warm hug from France.
PS. I like you beard 😁
Sending love to you and hugs. The beard looks wonderful on you!
My deepest condolences. You must stay strong, and God Bless You and your family.
All the love i have in my heart goes out to you and your family. You will never fully heal but in time the good memories will shine through. Thank you for sharing and being another lovely person on the planet we need more of you
I am so sorry to hear that... Time doesn't fix the losses entirely, but it has the power to turn that excruciating pain into a much more bearable feeling. I am trying to get to that moment when the sadness gives in and makes space for gratitude and good memories. I hope you can reach that point soon. Staying with your beloved ones can help the healing process. Best wishes for you, friend.
Yes, I can feel myself slowly moving to that point. My Wife was my Rock through this, I'm very thankful I didn't have to face this alone. Thank you it means a lot.
I'm so sorry you lost your Mom so fast. That's even harder, but kudos that you shared this with us. Hopefully burdens shared get lighter. I lost my Mom a almost four years ago and still miss her a lot, but I have my Dad so I will love on him for you. Just keep on going and somehow it gets better. Making art helps me, and you are far from alone here. I appreciate you sharing your art and your life. Your videos have helped me, especially since I can't go to my art classes at my studio right now. You rock that beard too.
I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts. I love my mom very much and I can't even imagine what your going through. I love yha and stay strong. You can always reach out if you need a friend!
I am so sorry for your loss. I too have a tiny family. I know what you are going through.
Give yourself some Grace. Grieving is a process and we all grieve differently. I pray God comforts you all.
I am so very sorry for your loss! I’ve been subbed to you for the last 10 years and am a fellow artist, and have loved your work!! Since March I’ve lost my Gran, my brother in law and my cousin.... NONE FROM COVID, but I blame covid for the fact that I was unable to see them before during or even after!! None were able to have funerals due to these abhorrent lockdowns, so as you can imagine we have had no opportunity for closure. Apparently there are 5 stages of grief, we’re still stuck in the anger-depression stage, due to non-closure. This year is the worst year of many of our lives! I appreciate your candid update and wish you and your family many blessings and will be praying for you.
I am so so so sorry for your loss 😢 my mom and my brother are my only family so losing either of them is a huge fear of mine and I hate that you had to go through it. Thanks for reminding me I should call her. I promise I will. May yours Rest In Peace and best wishes and lots of love to you and your family.
Still thinking of you hope you are well, the family sends their love. Hope Christmas can bring some joy.
I just scowled upon you and played your video. Yes your story is a sad one, may your dear mother Rest In Peace with our Lord above. She’s fine now, and I know she loves you and misses you with all her heart too. I’m 64 and feel that way about my son, I love him ever so must also. I’ll miss him terribly when my time will come too. Bless you for being a good son to your mother. 🙏🏽
Only discovered your channel last week and have binge watched since. Your calming voice and your talent are simply wonderful. I can guarantee I won't be the only one that feels as if they are much more than just viewers. My hero, my Dad, left to start on his next journey a very short time ago after deciding to give up dialysis so someone who had a chance of finding a donor could take his chair. It was only prolonging his pain. I can't say I know how you feel as I'm not you, but your aching heart comes through so strongly watching you. I, like all the wonderful people who you've obviously inspired, are sending you so much healing light and love, it won't take anything away, but hopefully it will be a cushion for you and yours, use it and lean on it. I had to stop reading the comments as they are so heartfelt and beautiful.
Your mum is with you all the time now, always talk to her, she will still listen, smile when you feel all the love she's filled you with.
Please NEVER be sorry for letting people see your pain, your tears, your heart, they are emotions too and no one apologises for smiling, laughing, caring or loving, so never be sorry for sharing your emotions. I join everyone in surrounding your family in caring arms and much love. X
I am so sorry about your loss. I sure your mom knows that you love her. Please remember that this is the nature of life, and and it was a bless that you lived with such an amazing mother and was blessed with what would be the best memories of her. God bless you all.
so sorry for your loss, love your beard & hope you & your wife are well. stay safe
Man I hope you feel well soon sorry for your loss and keep making video we love your work ❤️
I'm so so sorry for what you're feeling and going through right now. I've lost a parent and I know how incredibly difficult that alone can be without all the extra stuff that has been added to your suffering. I wish I could take some of the pain away for you. You WILL never be the same....but you will be ok. Sending my thoughts and love to you and your family ❤️
Thank you for your video, thank you for reminding us to be present and appreciate our love ones while they are still here.
Saying goodbye and enduring the loss it’s one of the harder things we learn here on this earth...
No one prepared us for this type of things, every one is so afraid of death...
When we drop (leave) our physical body, our soul (spirit) remains conscious.
In reality we never die.
For a while some souls would remain in this 3D, around the house they had, around love ones.
You can talk to your mom and she will hear you.
Later comes the ascension, when the soul will leave this 3D to a higher one.
I lost my father and has been one of the worst feelings I’ve ever experience...
It’s been 7 years and the the wound still feels fresh like if it was last month.
Everyone will tell you that with time it will get easier to deal with it.
Yes, up to a point....
I will tell you the only thing that helps me.
Thinking that my dad it’s somewhere with his brothers and sisters that also passed away, his parents, friends, pets he once had here on earth with him.
It helps me thinking that I am sharing him with all of them, but later we will meet again.
I hope you find a way to help your hurting heart the same way I did.
Remember that mothers always keep their sons and daughters in their hearts.
Your mother it is always with you.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your mother. From what I understand the pain never goes away however you will learn to take each day at a time and live your life the way your mother would want you to live it. You seem like a very genuine, kindhearted and loving person. I have no doubts your mother would be proud of the person you are! Not many people can say that. Take care and stay safe
I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm hugging you in my prayers right now. Thank you for sharing your heart, your sorrow and using it in hope of making a difference. As soon as I finish this msg, I'll call my mom for you. I wish you all God's very best. Love, Your Friend ~ Joy
I‘m so sorry for your loss Tom! Loosing a parent is a horrible experience and I feel you. There is nothing that could ever fill the hole this pillar of our lifes leaves. Take your time going through the grieve you feel, it is important to allow yourself to do so. You will find it often going in waves, even long after the world has decided to move on. Know that this is ok and it is normal. Even though the waves seem to crush you in the beginning, they will, over lots of time, become more bearable. Lots of love!
So sorry for your loss ❤️❤️ Please take all the time you need and know that she’s always with you!!
I am so sorry for your loss! I know your pain! It will get easier with time.
I am so very sorry for your loss! I lost my Mom 7 years ago, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I could hear her voice just one more time. Sending tons of love your way! The pain never truly goes away, but I can promise you that it does get easier. 💙💙💙
I am so very very sorry for your loss. I don't know you and this is the second one of your videos I ever saw and I hear your loss. Please know you sound like a wonderful son and your mother loved you so much as well. Its been almost a year since and I hope your heart has healed a little and that the memories of your mother still warm your heart.
My condolences. Stay strong buddy. Love and support from Thailand, and know that you have friends all over the world.
Stay strong mate. My mum just turned 90 today. I ring as much as I can.
Like you said keep in contact with family never know what is around the corner.
Love your creations.
I have just started playing around with polymer clay. Saw the video about painting & baking. Just the info I was after.
Keep up the good work.
Im so very sorry for your loss. Prayers for your family.
just came across this after loving your channel and videos.... english isn’t my first language and honestly i don’t know how to say anything but i want to let you know that im so so so sorry for this to happen. i cant even imagine the pain you feel. as a person, i see you radiate the best of energy, and i feel how much you want to help and spread that wonderful energy and i am so so so thankful for that. we need more people like you. you have helped me a lot, even if in small ways, and i am beyond thankful for this. i can see your mother was an unfathomably dear soul, and she raised such a beautiful son. i admire that beyond measure. the world is so lucky to be blessed with people like her, to inspire and support in such impactful ways.
i really appreciate you, your existence is constantly bringing joy and motivation and inspiration to people around the world, and that is something not many people can do. your mother would have been so proud of you, and if you are of the belief, i know she’s watching over you still and just as proud.
please take all the time you need. you don’t owe us anything more, you’ve given us so much already. you owe it to yourself to take care of you, more than anything. sending infinite love and joy and blessings always ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡
Wow, I’m so sorry for your loss.
I missed this video somehow, so I’m glad you posted a follow up.
So I jumped back here to see what was going on. That’s way too young....
Sharing this powerful emotion deeply moves us. All of us who have lost our mothers know that only time heals the wound, but the scar remains and the pain mixes with the memories in a bittersweet sensation. Lucky those of us who, having lost a great mother, were lucky to have had her. Bless you.
My condolences for your loss. I hope you can find comfort in your family and your art.
I am sorry for your sad loss of your Mum. I hope you and your small family get through this awful time. Best wishes x.
I’m so very sorry for your loss, please stay strong xx
Grief is hard and you dont have to be strong all the time. Im so so sorry for you and your familys loss. I hope you feel the hugs and love from all of your watchers. I dont know that loss of a parent but it is inevitable. Prayers from North Carolina. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
Calm energy being sent and wishing that peace has started to settle on you and your family. I too have lost my parents and understand. Your mom is very proud of the man she raised, your kindness and willingness to be honest are the result of her love for you. I truly believe she is still with you, just not in the same way.
I'm so sorry for your loss. My dad passed very similar way just not as quick. My deepest condolences
Prayers and hugs! I am so sorry for you.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I just found you on 4-27-2023, I saw your tool for making a holder for colored pencils...I do understand having lost both my parents and 3 of my younger siblings. Around the time you lost your mom, I lost my husband. I will keep you in my prayers. I agree, tell your mom you love her if you still have her. Blessings to one and all.
Love, light and support for you and your family from London... May you hold each other tightly 💖
I am so sorry to hear about the passing of your mom. Sending you all the love and light in this difficult time ❤️
I am just getting onto polymer clay as a hobby. I knew I needed to find a creative outlet after I lost my aunt, who was also a mother figure when I was young, from a rapid disease progression as well. Your channel has been a source of inspiration both creatively and spiritually. Thank you
I'm very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine it so close and so awful like that, but I have lost a family member a long time ago and that was hard enough. Don't be sorry for your emotions; you have the support of your loved ones and a whole online community of fans. My thoughts are with you. Take care.x
I only just discovered your channel today. I’m a jewellery designer and was looking for polymer clay videos. Then I came across this video. I am so very sorry for the loss of your mum. I know a lot about grief and it is a journey, that is difficult to navigate. Sending you all the love, strength and peace, you need for the journey ahead. Coming all the way from Country Victoria. Australia. Xx
Really sorry to hear that. Hope you and your family are coping
I am so sorry for your loss. My sincere condolences. Praying for you. Stay strong and let me know if i can help you somehow. I am in Canada.
Condolences! Tough news. Hoping you and family are well.
This broke me,im so sorry you had to go through this