Am I Depressed?
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I ther a way to live with out it?
7/9.....what to do next!!!!?
hello Dr Julie iiii have 6 symptoms of depression and I'm terrified of saying it or talking about it to anyone bc they might think I'm doing for attention or being selfish.... and they might respond with "why? ur life is perfect!" but I just have been feeling...... sadness,hopeless, and half of the time I never wanna get out of bed bc I'm tired.... and idk how to tell ppl bc my anxiety won't let me seek help. .. and I've been experiencing it for like 2/1 month... what do I do?..
Miss 8/9 ... the 9eme are in
8/9 what do I do 😭
having depression feels like you don't want to live but also you don't want to die.
Relatable, but i do kinda want to die a bit.
Yes
If you don't wanna live, explore the world, do tasks that change the world, learn the texts of god in metaphorical sense and apply the knowledge to your life, accept that people are gonna be negative and you have to filter our those who are negative and stay with those who are positive. Do something that makes life worth it
@@shinjonmal8936hey it must be nice having the emotional, and economical capacity to do that. :-) hey man good for you. But it is terrible advice in these kinds of circumstances. People do want to feel better. And often it is not even the fault of the individual who feels that way.
Aspirations is an important component of getting out of depression. Real aspirations for a better future.
I tried too many times throughout the years i will never get out
I envy those who love me and because of this I feel guilty because i just hate who i am. the worst thing is that I don't even want to help myself, I don't want to feel anymore, and I know that because of this, others won't be able to help me either however hard they woul encourage me to get up and do my faveorite hobbys. I'm sorry, you must think I'm a crybaby, I don't want to put pressure on others, but... I really wanted to open up about this somehow
I don't remember the last time i was truly happy.
I’m here with you😢
Same,
Same
Same
this is what I try to remember and feel again every day but for some reason fate seems to reject me to feel that in my life😢
My experience with depression is just lack of emotion in general. I don't feel sad, but I also don't feel anything at all. It's like living in a void where nothing excites me, and I just don't care about stuff anymore.
Me.
That's also me but it's lack in sleep
@@Articfoxjelly I tend to sleep too much when I'm having an episode
That’s me, but although that’s usually, sometimes I get sudden washes of happiness which in about 5 mins is switched with extreme sadness
Yeah. School does it more too
Deppresion feels like a pit that when you try to climb out of, theres always someone or something there to push you back down
with depression you dont even bother trying to climb out
I do try to but the pit just gets deeper then it gets suddenly I see the light and I’m pulled back in
Very true.
I have so many people around me that want to help me, but I find comfort in my depression.
Often, feels like the only person keeping me in that hole is my own toxicity.
like a bucket of crabs
You're a Cure.
Dr Julie.
me having all nine of them
still don't care
Lol
Same
Thank god I'm not the only one^^
same
To be honest same but it’s not the I don’t care I make researches everyday and basically have my own therapy session with myself daily and every time I need it cause my family just doesn’t understand they are not open minded and sometimes I feel like my friends also won’t understand cause they are always joking around about things like that
Depression tests are probably the only test I actually pass with a perfect grade💀💀
Same..
samee
Yes 😭
Where can i take that tests for free
Same 🥲
Edit: And it hurts
People say that i am addicted to k and c series but these series help me to escape reality and look forward to the next day, teaching me lessons of loving myself.... helping me get over my suicidal thoughts
Same as me😭😭😭😭
SAME BROO its just anime for me :p
I literally have a shirt that says "an episode a day keeps reality away" on rn... I feel u
@@IAmAnIceHockeyGoalie delusions are my only escape
Hey bro, do what makes you happy. I get it, you might feel like you’re only happy doing these things. That’s ok, every ounce of happiness is liquid gold. Keep watching those shows ok? 😊
Your life is short, yet the longest thing you will expirience and dont let a person hurt you. I know its hard but i love you and i bet alot of people do!! Most people are mean because the same happend to them!❤️🥺
The worst bit is when you can't talk to anyone without feeling judged 😢
Depression is the only illness you will get shamed for having which makes it worse.
Very True
Its hard to share
Same 🫥
True
The worst thing is when even breathing becomes too much of a task.
it is your choice, awareness is everything, be present and all your issues will leave.
True
Praying for you, hope things get better 🙏❤
I decree this for two years, and all was vanished:
""I am the Law of Forgiveness and the Violet Transmuting Flame of all my past and present mistakes.""
Damn right
How I’m feeling and have felt for many years now is way beyond depression. There’s nothing more I can do to pull myself out of this very dark place 💔
Hi, I just want to offer some support. It may feel like your in this endless pit of darkness and that nobody understands. You’re kind of right, not many will understand, but there are other people in the dark with you. Your depression is a real and serious issue, it’s ok to take a break. You’re probably already doing this but get therapy (many online sources offer free therapy depending in your age) and tell people around you. Switch to part time work if you can or day a day of off school each week. It feels impossible to find the light in the dark void you’re in, but I believe in you. Please don’t forget how much people care about you, I’m a random internet stranger and I’m putting effort into this, think about what your family/friends will do to help you. People care about you and your presence and will be willing to help you ❤️❤️❤️❤️
for me the worst is the guilt of having quit my job. I feel so unworthy and ashamed, like I'm less of a person, not worthy of respect etc. That I will only be accepted as soon as I get a job again... (I quit for mental health reasons, on the verge of a burnout)
My symptoms are now haunting me and I'm still trying to run away from them, even though this free time is exactly what I asked for.
Exactly Same with me.. Quit my job and now feeling worthless
Going through the same situation.
I'm having the urge to quit my job right now. I just can't function to complete my daily tasks at work. I'm a teacher but I don't have the energy to convey the lesson I need to. I speak like a robot, say what I have to, move slowly, try to hide my sighs. My energy affects the students. They get bored and less concentrate on the lesson and I feel so much more terrible. I just wait for the bell to ring so that I can get out of the classroom. I don't care if they understand the lesson or not, I don't care what they are doing. I have no energy to interact with them or respond to their emotions. I just want to withdraw from any social interactions. I feel numb. I feel heavy. I just want everything to stop so that I can rest and find what is wrong with myself. But time waits no one. Life keeps going on. I'm afraid no more. Like I can quit my job tomorrow. Though not having money to live through the next days. Reading your comment made me realize I need to think about it again. I'm not in the right state of mind to make any decision.
@@onewiththeuniverse1283same with me and i have tried suiciding 2 times
@@Xeno-pb6uy please don’t commit suicideI know it’s so hard and scary to keep going but hold on for a little longer. There are people everywhere who care about you. If you go through with suicide you’re not getting rid of your trauma/pain you’re just giving it to everyone you love. They will miss you, and they are willing to help you through the darkness and hold your hand. They need you so don’t be scared to rely on them, i believe in you 💗💗🫶🫶
The first time I broke down in front of my mother she yelled and screamed at me for being dramatic or selfish. It was the last time I will ever make that mistake
I know that feeling. I hope you have a safe place/person where you can break down now 🙏🌸
So sorry to hear this 🥺 Have you heard about the Gospel and God’s purpose for your life?
I have suffered from this it is hard
I hope you are fine, same, me too, my sister my brother, my little sister my mother my father, for some reason no one in my life can understand me, or indeed they are the only ones who don't even want to know
Same happened to me too…..I can’t feel what you feel but I am here for you….
“How do you know if you have depression?”
*Immediately begins crying.*
Hold tight there buddy, we're in this together ❤️
That's me your not alone
Crying is not a symptom of depression because even I do cry whenever I feel low but the reality is that after crying you feel a little better than before.the only thing you should do is finding Positive sides of something ☺️
There's something you're holding in for too long , talk to someone, cry out alot , n then just breath . Don't say that you don't have anyone, You've God , talk to him in solitude dear ...
Me at 18 sitting for the first time at a psychiatrist. Acknowledging that something is wrong is the first step. And dont forget, if your brain cant make happy chemicals, storebought is fine.
I have all the symptoms but I haven't got a diagnose or any help cause I haven't told anyone. No one knows that I struggle and yes i try to tell my family and friends abt it but I just can't. Its my first time telling anyone abt this so thank u for reading this. This is a goal for me so maybe one day I will be able to tell someone in real life.
I wanna give you a hug so bad🫂
Hey dude, please get therapy. No one outside of your therapist will know and you might get better. It’s more important for you to feel happy again than for your family to be kept in the dark. It’s incredibly hard and scary but they will be there for you. I’m an internet stranger and I’m here for you, the people in your life will be as well. Maybe text them instead of saying it in person and mention how scared you are to tell people and request they keep it a secret. Idk, do something that works for you and please find help whether from a professional or freinds/family
I've been struggling with these feelings for 15 years now. It really sucks. There's no point living like this
10+ years for me. I keep thinking about talking to a doctor, but haven't so far. Have you talked to a doctor?
Set a goal. Run away. Travel.
I’ve felt all 9 signs for so long. Worst part is I wish I had someone I could just talk to someone to hear me out without any judgment
You can talk to me! I'll probably never look on this comment again. You can answer and say everything you feel. I'll not judge you because I'll probably foget I wrote this. But I still care about you that's why you should tell someone how you feel. Your feelings are ok, special and deserve to be heard! ❤️
You can talk to me
The comments is a safe space no one is here to judge you got this
relatable
I'm here for you.. I too have 4 of these symptoms and I know how it feels. Do get back if you feel like.. I'm here
Same here, I'm also going through the same and hoping the same
That moment when you realise all the points she said are the "normal" life to you 🙂
Yr not alone. 😘
😢
Bruh I scored a ten
Same 😐
It doesnt matter how many sins you have commtited or what you did he will welcome you with open arms. Remember Jesus is there for you no matter what, even if you dont feel like he is there. He can do anything so ask him with faith. Even as small as a mustard seed. He has a plan for you,plans to give you hope and future.
Depression feels as if you're crying out for help and no one is listening.
So true. My GP refused to give me a referral or prescribe meds. I spent years undiagnosed and without any help. Another one did the same. They keep talking about trying to reduce stress instead but depression can cause stress. They're afraid to prescribe meds because they say it will take you to a point you can never go bac.
It hurts the worst when you ask yourself “should I breathe?” 😢😢😢
Yeah 😢every day I always ask myself should I just die ahhhhh 😭😭😭😭
Please breath
Yes
@@mycute-little-heart same 😭😭😭😭
I feel you
The thing is, you’ll never be able to know if someone has depression by how they look. They’ll hide it. You’ll prob find them smiling more than others. They can laugh. They can smile. They can be social. Doesn’t mean they’re not depressed. I can say this from personal experience. Watch what you say.
Youre kinda right Just kinda..... I got it and i was way More social. Now its Like im smiling sometimes but after i Smile i start to Stop my head and get a sad face and think about the past and everything when i suddently remember that im maby inna conversation. That Moment is about 3 to 6 seconds Long. I dont Smile more but less. I think its different for people.
The people who smile the most are normally the ones who’ve been through the most pain
Fr, I'm the big sister and joker/clown of the group. They rely on me and look up to me I can't let them see how I'm crumbling 🥲
@@yoonniemin6438 same I’m the big brother 🥲
Me
I haven’t been truly happy since I was 5, so sorry to anyone else who is currently going through this with me..
Hey, I have felt a similar way but you need to get help. Please, you can find happiness, it might take a while but even just a small smile/giggle is a huge sucess. Reward yourself for doing small things, indulge from time to time in your childish desires. You make the rules. There are many online therapy services that are free you just have to find one that works for you. Find someone to vent too. You’re not alone, I’m here right beside you in this dark pit of sadness. But, when you have someone holding your hand, it can be easier to find your way out 💗💗
I have depression and I want to die, but I'm working hard not to do that, so the people I know and my family won't have to go through the pain. All i to live i do for them, but i never tell them. I feel this heavy pressure on me as my family are high achievers.
That takes a lot of strength. Keep going, you’re not alone. 💙
Hey just know you aren't alone because it sounds like we are in the same boat buddy
You are not alone mate. Sometimes you may even feel angry for having those people in your life & cannot end your struggles. But embrace them & keep in your mind that some ppl do care ❤.
Please think positive😊
I completely understand how you feel…
Sending love to everyone who is suffering
Thx
😭😭😭😭😭😭I have all 9
@@sitabhattarai77 Stay strong! You got this!!
I started feeling down like 3 days ago
Thank you I'm fighting, and hope your ok as well
That awkward moment when you've had all 9 for several years, but didn't receive any help because of the "perfect" image of your family, then went on to take so much responsibility that you stopped feeling, then went down the self-help path because it can be done in secret...
It gets better. It's never truly gone, like a really bad wound, but the scars don't hurt most days, and even when they do, it's nothing compared to the wound. We do heal, you will too ❤
I can correlate my friend. Now, even the tears flowing does not bother me. Is this depression level 100
May i ask why you're feeling depressed? I wanna understand myself deeper because i thought learning how to love and listen to myself is the only way to solve this problem. Nobody knows about my depressions, i dont have any friends totally i work hard labour everyday but i still live with my family. Every actual fucking day feels dull as shit nothing changes. Its when that void hits you it just pins you down interfering your performance at work consciously making all your purpose and values dissapear. Instead of actually going with the plan "love yourself" I'd hate myself even more to hell and for heckerson's sake, should i just accept this and let it fly over me while feeling im being burried alive everyday on a deep pit? I don't even know what are the negativities affecting me making me depressed as shit
@@Smootify I'm sorry you're going through it. It sounds like you're struggling really hard. For me, it was a blend of unhealthy attachments and emotional relationships, an endless chase for validation and acknowledgement, and my family being overprotective to the point of being quite controlling. I was very lucky to have two professors who encouraged me a lot in college. What has worked for me was to clean out unhealthy relationships and set boundaries in those that remained, take responsibility voluntarily and not because some authority imposed it on me, and find myself as an individual.
I earned my first money in the form of a scholarship, which I kept for myself and spent on what I wanted. It also helped me invalidate a lot of the negative talk around me. Things like "you are incapable/ stupid/ irresponsible" were losing their power because I did earn that scholarship, which was an accomplishment, and I was reminded every month of it. Also, critiques that I wasn't "good enough/ doing enough/ working hard enough" lost their power since I was working hard enough to be among the top 10% of my year (it later became more difficult as there were fewer scholarships). This gave me a goal that I could chase and achieve, and I was enjoying a challenge for the first time in years.
Deciding who you should cut out is difficult. I had a "friend" at the time who was highly toxic and manipulative. It took me months to make up my mind that it was indeed manipulation since I began to spot the first alarm signs. People say some are not really depressed, just in unhealthy relationships. It may not be true for everyone, but it helps way more than you think. It's better to be alone than in the proximity of people who make your mental state worse.
As for family, I started to set boundaries. They didn't accept it at first, they tried to fight my reasoning, but I had evidence that to me, was unshakeable. I also moved out. We still keep in close contact and we help each other out, but if they try to push me in something I don't tolerate anymore, I will remind them again that I am an adult now and that is a limit I will not cross.
Now, I think taking responsibility for something can sound counter-intuitive. You are already feeling overwhelmed a lot of the time. Yet, the things that overwhelm you are imposed on you by others - family, school, work, society. Find something small that you enjoy and that is small enough to not cause you stress, but big enough to put you into motion. I took care of a plant. It's something alive that depended on me to survive, yet it would do just fine if I didn't have the energy to take care of it one day. It has since turned into a hobby which I still find very relaxing today. My family still sees it as "poorly spent money and effort", to which I would respond that it is money that I earned, and an effort that I enjoy.
The numbness will pass.
I don't think I did anything in particular about that. It's kind of like navigating a terrible storm. When you're right in its middle, everything seems calm, and you feel numb. As you start moving, the numbness sort of fades at some point and you start to experience emotions again. Something to keep in mind is that there are no good or bad emotions, so try not to feel guilty if the first things you feel after being numb are anger or sadness.
I really hope this helps. It is different for everyone. Still, even if it doesn't completely pull you through, I think that taking a look at yourself and at your life, finding something that drives you, some goal to give your purpose, can help.
Same
Half a year ago, I was depressed, but slowly it cured after around 3 months. I think it's slowly returning to my life again.
All the symptoms are currently true for me yet it started a week ago stayed for 2 days, started again today.
I'm 18 y/o boy.
My overthinking makes me internalize why am I feeling like this and address it by convincing myself I have found the answer I need.
No one in my family knows what i'm going through for these past few years. I fear that if i tell them, they wont understand.
They even label me as lazy because i'm always unmotivated to do things and sleep alot. I cry almost every night because of this.😞
If only they knew how i really feel inside.
Then, they r NOT family....
It's the same as me but I told them and they said "it's normal" I don't know what to do right now.....
One day i just told them they didn't understand but after I told I wanted to suicide they finally understood and I got therapy. If they don't want you to die from suicide you can tell them ur getting suicidal thought and even tried to kill yourself once and trust me even if you only got therapy because of suicidal thoughts ur therapist will always understand
@@nidhia6925 "all asian parents"
Same here
Try to talk to friends to make it normal
Because this helps me
Hope u will recover ❤️
I don’t remember the last time I enjoyed waking up everyday happy. Or doing something I love and truly getting joy out of it. Nothing feels the same.
I don't know how to live how to think about living life more.. I just wth myslf doing anything as much as I can moving nonstop I mean surviving mode always.. just passing.. timepassing..
Normalize your dopamine levels,start doing stuff that you dont like everyday,dont play video games,dont spend too much time on social media,set yourself a long term goal to persue,working out daily helps aswell.
@@charmed0009 😵
After my father's death I fell no joy even though I act like I am happy but honestly I am lying to everyone's face and no one understands it not even one person can see it in my eyes. I am so used to it now.
It doesnt matter how many sins you have commtited or what you did he will welcome you with open arms. Remember Jesus is there for you no matter what, even if you dont feel like he is there. He can do anything so ask him with faith. Even as small as a mustard seed. He has a plan for you,plans to give you hope and future.
Im safe to say ive been like this for my whole life and this is verry concerning
Worked so hard on healing my own depression, that I can't believe I answered no to all of them. I've never been so proud of myself. Choosing to show up for myself everyday has been then best decision of my life.
So amazing. More power to you❤❤❤❤
Same!!! It was an eye opening moment for me. Except the decision one, but that’s just because I’m indecisive, not depresión.
I aspire to be like u one day ... currently i am kinda working on myself ...but still ig i have improved a bit cuz previously when i wanted to sh i did it ..but rn if i want to sh ..i try to resist it as much as i can ...also , seeing no new scars and fading away of the old ones is very satisfying ...
how long did it take?
But how? Please share.
Having all the 9 symptoms
Everyday thinking why i am alive . Whenever close my eyes first thing that comes in my mind is to end everything.
Its a blessing that many people get to see doctors. You are lucky .
Even if i tell my parents they will probably say that i am overreacting.
EXACTLY
@@bhumi8064 💕💕
When I'm depressed, like I am today, I think of how I can end it all, and I smile. I know I won't tho, I'm just a depression junkie, it's an old friend of mine. I know tomorrow I will get back on track and practice enjoying being alive, bcuz consciousness is a miracle and i like to watch clouds ☁️🌧 and i like the ocean 🌊and i wonder what my story will look like when i turn 60. Im 21 now, so i can tell you this: Life gets better after you move out of your parents. YOU decide what reality you wish to live in. You decide whether you think happy thoughts or spiral into past patterns. I love you, I wish our world was nicer, but it won't become nicer if all the people that wish it was better unalive themselves. Old generations will die, and we will bring a better world 🌎
Same with me
@@daylight_indie8142 its a are my feelings right now . and thank you for this message 🌷
It’s hard to trust people especially for me now and it’s effected me more than ever. I was in love and only ended up being betrayed by her.
I've feel like this 4 years now and since 2 years ago it aggravated so much that im not even moving from bed
Hey, I know it’s hard but please keep trying. It’s been 4 years that you’ve been depressed but it’s still not permanent. I know you can do it, take small a baby steps. Every small thing that brings you just a smile are worth doing. Please seek help from a therapist or family/friends. TherE ARE ALWYS people who care about you💗💗💗
I feel this everyday. I don't know what its like to feel normal. I don't think I ever was normal. Im glad that I haven't given up.
You will be fine one day try to talk to your loved ones
@@radhe-krishna_617 that helped you?
I have been convincing myself I’m fine, there’s no problem. Even though I know there is. I have all 9 of these symptoms. I used to be such a cool, amazing, fun person to be around. But my life has been going down hill. The littlest of things that go wrong send me into a spiral of sadness. I used to be the most empathetic person. I used to care for other people so so much. But now I don’t give a crap about anyone. I hate myself, but hide it from everyone. I tell myself it’s just a faze or to get over it. I have suicidal thoughts all the time, the only reason I don’t act on it is because my family would crumble. No one seems to see what I’m going through. There is so so so so so much more to this. It’s just the tip of the iceberg and I’m to tired to write it all out. I’m only 14.
May you find inner peace Amen.
Btw going through the SAME.
Hi. I am 15 and well, I relate to you. I am better now ig but I guess I was in depression and actually got out of it all on my own, I still feel depressed sometimes and no, it is not just mere sadness. I used to think it is just me being sad or maybe on the 'verge' of depression but recently I found out that I perhaps indeed had depression and at times, it felt the worst. I have gotten better over the course of year and I hope you can too. Though you seem much more stressed and depressed than I was. My saviour from depression was a distraction. I distracted myself by laying down and watching a show called Miraculous all the time. It somehow appeared in my life and saved me, which is why even though many fans consider it weird and creepy/cringe/ toxic at times, I don't and I even start convincing people it isn't when it is on a few points because it saved me. Well, I hope you can get better too. Maybe you will find some saviour. Remember, only you can save you and YOU CAN DO IT! Your birth isn't a waste. You had a one in a million chance to get born! And you did! That's why I believe that you can also do anything you want. You might be low now, but you can overcome it.
@@chunnilal2111 I know that you replied to a comment but I thought it was a good motivational “message” and what is that show Miraculous? I also think I have depression so I want some tips.
Same but I’ve been getting a little better ray by day what I do every night is say “there are people that care for me and someone is going through the same thing your not alone” and it’s starting to help a little I have no diagnosis of depression but and too scared to share it with my family it’s hard but it will get better
Also I’m 15
Hey I am with you.....Only one can relate us who has touched the lowest point in his life. I won't say you to forget everything or just be patient or bla bla bla. All formality nonsense
Only remember when I read your msg, bcoz of you I realized that yes there is one more person like me who too is fighting an inner fight each day and still going through it. I am proud of you sweetheart. It's oky. Cry if you want. Shout. Let it all out bcoz we ourselves are suppressing our core feelings and we only are responsible for what we doing with our sincere and pure heart.
Feeling this type of things every single day
Stay strong
I have been feeling all of these for the past ten years. God knows why I am still alive.
Are you from RYK?
Yep!! 😢 I feel the same! Lets pray🙏 for each other!❤❤❤🦾
Me too eight of these and I also wonder how come am still alive.
I hv been since 6 years… i do SH to control myself there’s just a lot going on in my head that no one will ever know and they wouldn’t even care
@@sakshiyadav7405 ❤
I have all 9 but my parents are so strict and oblivious to the fact that no one is perfect I can't even consult or tell someone about it.
Same here
same here
7 Fingers down
Same here
I feel you, and I'm sorry
9/9..
Thank you for helping this actually helped knowing what I have. ❤ this really meant a lot ty❤
Now I can gives my friends proof I’m depressed. Tysm
I remember watching a similar video a few years ago and matching 90% of listed symptoms.
Since then I moved away from abusive household, went to therapy, started taking pills, started journaling, got rid of my dermatitis, stopped taking pills, started meditating, stopped therapy, then started and finished it again for now, started daily affirmations and daily exercises…the list goes on.
It all took me a few years but now I barely match even two of those points. Life is majestic to me now and I’m so thankful to my past self for not giving up and for seeking help and for doing the work. And to my present self for keeping it up.
I mean it when I say I know how it feels when you match most criteria for diagnosis. Do your best to see it as a sign for action .
You can do this because we’re the same in that sense. Keep your head up, champ❤
How long were you depressed and was it a 1 time deal?
This last one is nearing 2 years. Had it reocurring most of life, but never this long. I'm so sick of it. Only getting worse, not better.
If you didnt move from that house nothing would have got better
@@whatifoundout Sometimes you can't move from a bad situation. I'm not living w/ abuse now, it's much more complicated than that, but it's still a nightmare that I have to find a way to live w/, and I don't know how to just ignore what is going on around me.
Ahhh
This gives me hope, thank you for sharing
The first time...you don't really realize until it's too late. Now I'm incredibly aware everytime the thoughts come back.
Yea like I have them but the last one I try to to think about bc it just makes me sad bc I know my freinds would be sad bc I am like the joy in there life when I am around them but at home I feel hopeless.
Number 8 hits so hard. I feel embarresed of talking to my dad and my friends at school. I don’t ask my teachers questions because I feel like they would be mad at me. Even though I don’t have depression, I still have that feeling.
Hey i am legitily having all of the symptoms you have mentioned above for about 2 years , the intensity is increasing , no one near me believes as such , and i am also tired of explaining the feelings i am having in addition to the constant war of thoughts in my head , i am basically fighting every single day with thoughts of giving myself pain , thinking of different ways to die , they come everytime , i am fighting to overcome , i am trying my best , even though everything seems to be going wrong , i have frequent emotional outburst , i have no one to actually help me , your videos help me , i have been seeking help for the resources that are available , i doing it for myself because i know , even though i have a easier way to let go of world but it will increase problems for my loved ones , i am willing to stay strong for them , and i will come out of it ,
Please continue making such videos you act as a way to understand myself better ❤❤❤
I finally got a perfect grade, my mom is gonna be so proud
good job!
No no no u shudnt be like that..... U r showered with lots of chove and everyone loves u❤❤
🎉
i relate to that 😭
then my mum would say "why didn't you get a grade higher?"
ur mom seems toxic!
I've been depressed for years. I'm on medication and therapy, and yet i can only sometimes poke my head about the surface of this illness. Sometimes every day feels like torture
I'm sorry for traumadumping, but thank you for talking about it openly and spreading awareness. Just knowing what's going on with you sometimes helps so immensely
How did u find the courage to get help? For me I don't feel important enough for help
@@1showoff842 I've been lucky enough to have people who care and who push me towards it. I do it for them
That was far from trauma dumping. This is the place to share. I'm sorry things are that difficult for you and I can relate. I won't share my story here, because when I do, people tend to completely ignore it, which of course feels worse. You aren't alone in this.
Don't worry about traumadumping bro. Just know that someone read it and hopes you get better. I mean, I traumadump too. 😅 But ofcource that comes with the feeling of the fact that nobody will ever read it. 😂
@@1showoff842 If understand how you feel about not feeling important enough. I honestly get it. And to answer your question, from personal experience; fortunately for me my brain being the jackass analyser that it is. It also analysed that these thoughts and this mood I'm having is not normal. So I seemed help. It also helped with that fact those I'm talking to are required by law to keep our conversations private. So... that's that. Other than that yeah...I don't talk to anyone else about it either.
I’m pretty sure I’ve had at least 6 since early childhood and I hate that for myself but I’m grateful for good doctors and medications that do help.
I have never thought I had depression but 6 of these have been something that's been happening for the past few weeks
the hardest part for me, is that i told my friend i had depression and she just ignored it and brushed it off, she will never understand what it’s like
Ppl overuse the term depression to the point where if someone mentions depression it's just an internet trend
dang that actually sucks like even if they can’t relate they could at least try to understand. i can sorta relate, i have depression but nobody rly knows except my family cuz i’m scared something like what happened to you would happen. anyways i’m so sorry to what happened to you, hope things get better for you
The only true friend i have told me i wasnt depressed lol
@@IndiaStapleton-wf5bm thank you so much!! it feels really nice for someone to kinda understand
Mine told me that depression isn't real and i just have too much time to think 😑
i feel like i forgot what it’s like to be happy, like my smile has been removed. is it just me?
Youre not alone, sometimes i just feel... empty. I have anxiety and adhd wich drains the energy out of me alreadey. Then i just geel like an empty shell
@@sirius767 thank you so much! i’m so tired bc i have ocd, anxiety, adhd and depression, it’s absolutely horrible! i’m happy to know i’m not the only one, thank you
@@ilovemusic204 Np! It made my day reading that i made someone feel a little better. Always remember that you mean something to others. Thats one thing that can make me a little happier. Thinking about the love i can give and that i (you too) have the strength to make someone happy. Help pepole when you are able too, that can maby make you feel proud of yourself. I wish you the best in life and remember that you can use the good you have inside you can be used to make even more good in the world. And dont ever think that you have no good inside of you. You have a uniqe gift. It can be your love, determanation, kindness, artistic talent, wanting to help or doing the best you can to protect the ones you love.
If you ever think about comitting sui$i€d the hear me out. The path of your life includes your friends, family, future family, the pepole you will meet in life, the ones making you happy bringing a smile to your face, doing whatever you like to do and being happy, think of all the pepole you will meet and the happiness you will feel in the future! Do you really wanna leave all that behind? Never expieriencing geting married, having kids or seeing the kids run around in the yard and playing screaming "When can we get ice cream??" or "Can i please go over to the neighbor and play, pleeeaase?"
You really wanna miss out on all that?
Even if I smile it's mostly fake cause I'm tired of people asking me questions like "Why are you so sad?"
I also feel so empty like im just existing without any reason. Just following orders from teachers and parents, i don't know what I want to do in life.
It feels like I'm blindly walking in a thick forest without knowing where to go or why I'm even there in the first place, i just keep walking and it's the same view everywhere.
@@ryocchan Try to think about what makes or made you happy. Focus on that. For me its animals. I spend my time with them and it makes me a bit more happy
I’ve been feeling a little bit low recently but when I am. My friend at school just had a go at me for ignoring her. But I’ve been struggling with self harm. But then after the fact I feel guilty
I have ' em all and more and it feels like how my whole life was running! But too intense in the last three years!
I'm out of the darkness. Took 13 years to get through the dark cloud. But I am here. Healed. Happy. Whole. And profoundly grateful to be alive.
❤❤❤
Most wholesome comment here I see 😃
Not yet. I’m
That’s fantastic ❤
i envy you
I forgot how to truly smile 🙂
I understand you bro
Same
i know how you feel, ur not alone
That hit hard...
Understandable bro... But when no one even realises that u r fake smiling hurts the most
Ive been in depression eved since last year. Humanity is just rolling downhill and i Lways hVe conversations where is like some asks if im ok and i smile and say that im fine. But then as soon as a look away my smild turns into a rock hard straight face. Everything is aslways in darkness. My sugfestion is to find the best out of life and ignore the negative. If your in the trash, find the treasure.
I have experienced 7/9 symptoms for 1 months & was unable to tell anyone about my condition....It is really difficult to act normally when there is a storm going through your heart....but i gave myself time to heal..."no one can help you but yourself" this phrase keeps me going through it... it's been 2 months still it hurts but the intensity is much lesser & also the symptoms been less...so get up & live your live because you never know what surprise is waiting for you😀
"People don't suffer from depression, they suffer from the reality we live in"
- Keanu Reeves
Keanu is my will to live
Depression is a joke
@@Friendlyinternetuser no it isn't
@@Friendlyinternetuserno the hell it isn’t
@@Friendlyinternetuser lose some closeone with depression and say it to their family. This man hasn't saw reality of depression
I think I've forgotten how to be happy. I was literally searching for subliminals to make me a happy version of myself and ended up here. It's tough, but I don't want to give up.
It’s been hard to vocalize how I feel. And this is exactly it. But just cause we ended up here, doesn’t mean we stay here. We can’t give up 🙏
I can relate. It'd be sooooo easy to just say f--k this and throw in the towel.its as easy as putting a gun to our head and pulling the trigger. But we can't. We've made it this far. Let's just take it one day,one hour,or even one minute at a time.
I feel exactly the same.
I've had all those symptoms since I was about 12. Luckily I'm getting medicine for it and on a waiting list for some more counseling.
I only don’t apply with number 5, and i have for like a year, yet i lie on my depression tests so no one worries about me.
My brother took his life 1 month ago today. The conversation I had with him was " Hey bro did you speak to mum about your problem?" Then him saying yes but she couldn't handle it... Then followed with I don't blame her I can't handle it either
i stopped talking to people about how i was feeling after i realized all it did was hurt them. the first and one of the only times i came to someone about something i had told my mom that i couldn't remember the last time i was actually happy. she burst into tears because she cares about me, but i don't want anyone else to have to feel that way. I would rather keep the pain to myself than have other share it with me.
I know how you feel, I grew up emotionally alone because I thought my mom would literally lose her mind if she knew I wasn't perfect. Been slowly learning to be more open with my friends about my feelings and it takes practice but it's important to not isolate yourself ❤ I'm here for you too
I’m ashamed to talk about my feelings to people. I know I will hurt them. I’m brutally honest with my husband, and it just occurred to me- that I have also deeply hurt him. And it sucks bc I can’t escape how I feel- my reality. And I tell him bc it basically explodes outta me- which is even worse. Kinda like how I feel at this moment blurring all this out to strangers online. Take care of yourselves, be kind and have compassion for yourselves.
meanwhile my mama doesn't give a s$&@
She just described every person ever
As always , you are an amazing doctor . you just have to be so proud about yourself and your work . your videos have been spreading maturity about mental health which we usually do not think about . thank you for your efforts.❤
I have all of these. I told my parents recently. I thought it would get better. But I am starting to regret it. They are more strict for some reason with me. I can’t take this anymore. I can barely hold on if this keeps going. I haven’t been truly happy since I was 7. Childhood trauma is a bitch. And it causes me so many problems
They probably can‘t cope with you feeling that way and have no other solution besides being strict. Your situation and especially you speaking up to them might make them feel like as if they have failed as parents, which might also be one of their biggest fears.
It‘s not your fault.
It actually hurts them seeing you like that and that‘s why they „push you away“ in some sort. In order to cope with the pain.
They‘re trying to protect you and have no clue on how to do it differently due to the education they had to experience themselves (being told to „be strong“, not being allowed to show and express emotions, etc)
I'm also suffering from the same situation. But I never told my parents about it because they are gonna more strict on me and I'll feel regret for this. I can't hold on any more.
Are you okay now ? Can’t believe I’m worried for a stranger , I hope you are okay sis ❤
@@milli6986some parents are accually pleased to see their children suffer and thats why we have childhoodtrauma
I get how u feeling i tried talkin to my parents about my problems and when i thought they understood they go back the way they were like my feeling really don't matter they just brushed it off like it really doesn't matter.
“…than usual”
I don’t remember the last time I haven’t felt this way
Same, can related
Exactly what i was thinking
Know that feeling. The bad becomes normal, so you end up not realising how bad it actually is. And others never seem to understand how exhausting depression is..
that’s exactly how i feel
I relate to 6 of these. I would want to tell someone but my parents would think I’m “too young to be depressed “
I cant belive that as a 13 yo, I feel/felt all of this. I dont want to live, but I also dont want to die.
I'm reading so many stories of fellow Indians who can't seem to get help and their parents are also not supportive. It just breaks my heart seeing how bad the situation and how difficult seeking help is here. :(
As someone who's been out of India for a while now and still struggling to seek help, I agree. Even when I tell my most supportive friends or family, they always seem to think depression is a choice, or that one can 'snap out of it', so on. In fact, even when my father committed suicide, depression didn't even cross anyone's mind as a cause.
The lack of even basic understanding of mental well-being is appalling.
@@AMyNag being an Indian I can totally agree with you on this, when I'm depresses I slept for hours more then 14hrs 15hrs not willing to see myself with others, locked myself in a room, committed suicide with no mental and emotional support, went through this, I wish I had some one next to me, but all I got to hear was " You need to help yourself , not matter what or how much ever spend time with you you'll be fine only within that time you are with them but you need to help your ownself and snap out of it ".
This sucks, I cried hours together, spent days without eating.
🥰
@@AMyNag i always hear change my mindset and even it seems i dont to be happy because i think of suicide instead of trying to be happy. If only it was that easy.
As some on from South Asia my parents love me but sometimes I feel like I’m being forced into doing things that I don’t want to
My first doctor always brushed me off as “seasonal”. After she went to another office, I got the nice old Hispanic lady who saw my mood chart and immediately got me into therapy. Then about a year later she helped me get on medication for it. Now I’m much happier, sleep better, do more things, and have lost 20ish lbs. helps having someone listen.
What medicine are you taking.
@@brendaferguson6478 I was initially on lexapro and then swapped to Prozac.
Yes, but here noone is listening.
It helps a little bit when I don't eat sugar.
Sometimes I feel guilty for trying to get better with my mental health…like I just don’t deserve it.
I moved and for a couple of weeks I was very sad, I don’t know if it was depression or anything like that, but for at least one week I didn’t want to do anything, I wanted to stay in pajamas and be under a blanket watching cheesy Netflix movies all day, I feel better now, my mom said one of those days that she missed her Chloe, and I said I did too, then I went to the bathroom and started crying. By the end of the week I had told everyone why I was so sad, and they helped remind me it was gonna be okay. I haven’t felt like that since! ☺️
Me with all nine symptoms for years but just hides it no matter how bad it is because I'm to scared to talk to anyone about it
Then don't talk about it in the comments I hate attention seekers
@@karbonkat many others have said something like this in the comments and I'm not trying to be an attention seeker it almost seems like you are the one trying to be an attention seeker by commenting this for my reaction
Well if u must know i know 10 or 12 people who have depression and they try to be hated and don't like talking about it
My heart breaks seeing those people i hate others who claim the same
I guess do your think who am i to speak anyways 🤷
@@karbonkatsometimes you need to talk about your problems to others. Introverts don't do that easily and i have shared my story in the comments before (not in this video, i am not depressed normally, i am just on a temporary medication that causes feelings of depression). If you can't talk to your family or friends about it then do it wherever you feel comfortable to, it's better than not sharing it at all. Honestly tho pls seek for help, it's horrible bc i also feel it sometimes and therapy would do you so much good
7th point touched me to my tears! I have so many problems making the smallest daily decision, people around me laugh on me, saying me dumb! I was such a beautiful young aspirant with such a great smile. I miss myself!!!
🥺🥺🥺🫂🫂🫂🫂
Don't listen to people. There are a lot of bullies out there. You are NOT DUMB. You are struggling and you'll get out of it. I wish you all the best. 🙏🤗
Pls talk to counsellor or therapist to find the root cause of your depression. If you were once passionate and aspired to be successful, maybe the spark is lost because something happened to you. You are not alone
@@adilahaz thank you dear but it's impossible to find therapist here...as it doesn't exist and mental health is a joke here! You said maybe something happened to me...means something traumatic? Or some health problems?
I don't know till.how.long can i continue....
I’ve got a reason to feel this way
I was diagnosed with depression years ago and I'm going through a rough patch, so rough I tick all those boxes. Been ticking them for months now, even on medication nothing seems to work anymore
Me who has all nine for years : 👁👄👁
Oof
Same
Same hope you’re doing okay ❤❤❤
100% club
Exactly me bruh
I just started crying....
8/9
My mom would be so proud, I finally scored good in smthng
... I'm having these stuff for almost a year, i just bury it in my mind like its a piece of trash but it always shows up again.
I have never seen a comment section being so nice to each other like this one in over 2 years of being a RUclipsr.
Ikr. Surreal. And a reminder to us what a dark and toxic place SM can be
All Nine Symptoms, but NEVER tried or WILL choose Number Nine either. Thank you for your advice ❤
Same. You are not alone in this
I like to remind myself that it wouldnt be fair to do to people who may miss me, not trying to be an egomaniac but remembering how horribly devastating losing someone i love would feel, this is a solid stop for me.
One day every one of us will reach that level😂😂
. My thought exactly....I just lost my husband, the pain is umbearable...
I really resonated with 8/9 of these systomps. I feel so broken and empty yet my mind is not matching with body. I have so many goals and a very busy lifestyle I want to keep up with, and I go through the motions when necessary, otherwise I’m struggling to just wash my face or do any basic tasks. I’ve been in bed all day, my mom motivated me to go to the gym today- and I did. She was reminding me how good I felt everytime I did go, but the heaviness of the lack of desire or interest almost always beats me. I feel like I have no one to talk to.
I have two friends, they both don’t seem to understand. I’m not blaming them but I wish they would just give me some comfort instead of either trying to say “no soldier, we got this let’s work!” (Which is usually what I’d say with her, my closer best friend) and then my other friend who would say “yeahhh I understand” and proceeds to talk about a problem she is having that day, that is insignificant- in the grand scheme of things (of course her feelings are valuable to me, and her problem is valid)
So I’m just stuck here. It’s like, what do I do?
Do I just keep going?
I know one of the worst things that has took a toll on my mental health is my private school’s outrageous school system.
Both my parents are very supportive, I talked to my mom though about switching to my friend’s school that I already know a lot about and their programs. It has a lot more opportunities that align with my goals, and at the same time I won’t be taking a test every single day that requires me to memorize chapters every night (literally).
I’m stuck at this school for now until next year I think.
I’m tired and lifeless. I feel like I could jump out of the window of a tall building and my mind would process it as “oh the view is really nice.” Like what the hell is happening to my cognitive functioning.
I feel like I could actually end up killing myself because everything around me is so normal and no one or nothing has realized the real impact of this on me. One friend told me “yeah it’s kind of difficult what’s happening to you since you conceal it pretty well” on the outside I can see what they mean, but I am literally telling them I feel depressed and really empty lately. Do I have to be dramatic and break down crying to raise an eyebrow?
It hurts I don’t know what to do
I have watch your videos about depression, and how it really is, I think you hit the spot in that one! I’d just got the diagnosis depression, medium difficulty. I recognize very much of what you are teaching , but even if I can resemble most of what you have taught is it still hard to grasp it all. In my case do I feel mostly emptiness, feeling numb, and have some anxiety attacks if you will, but it is a struggle to remove this mental downfalI. I feel that there is absolutely so much more to learn from depression even for those who have it. and I really want to thank you for your learning. This is very important for those who have this diagnosis that the closes family or colleagues understand and get some deeper knowledge about the subject. I am grateful to learn more to beat this involuntary pain that one goes through ❤️
I once had 8 of these symptoms. I never got therapy and i never asked anyone to help me. I asked god to help and started working on myself, my routine and my social life. I found out its ok to enjoy your own company. Take as many breaks as you need. Remind yourself of what you have. Would you want to leave that behind? I managed to escape and I’m much happier. Now and then I get the sudden sadness but only a fraction of the intensity it used to be. Keep trying xx
Thank you! I needed that so much! Thank you very much dear
Where are you from?
Most importantly turn to GOD 🙏💖✝️, he WILL help you if you have a honest heart
It’s almost like our lifestyles have made this worse. I wish more people would also change the things you have too and take responsibilities for getting to that place. Everyone runs to drugs, it’s not the brain, it’s our lifestyle, our brains are just reacting to the situation.
@@memamame326 amen
Same here
I am going through a lot but if i tell my family about this i am afraid that they might say “We bought everything you needed, you are in a good family we do everything for you why don’t you appreciate that?” And else. I am getting worse and worse day by day and i feel it getting serious but i just can’t find the courage in me to talk. I don’t know what to do anymore..
Hi!
I just wanted to check on you.
Are you okay?
do you have best friend or someone to talk to? imo sometimes we fell lonely because we don't have friends with the same interest
My parents are like we well go through this. NO! We're not my best friends help me be happy or even my online friends it's more fun with friends your age than having a very upsetting and serious talk with family.
@@Lulusion yeaaa sometimes i feel kinda sad because in the end is just me alone😃
@@VaishnaviSelvam144not really..
Yep I feel all of those. I’m depressed
Last Sunday on January 28th, I had an accident with my right ear to loud noise exposure. I went to the audiologist yesterday and they said my hearing was normal. I thought that I was gonna be fine. But I tried going back to school today, I couldn’t concentrate. Everything feels not normal because I can’t hear things the same way before. It feels like I’m never gonna be the same, and I don’t know if can finish college. I don’t know what to do. However, I have a good support system, and I’m going back to my therapist tomorrow
I once asked my sister what her opinion was she said "it's your choice" and I broke down crying saying "that's the whole point of me asking, I don't know what to do"
The fact that my brother is the last reason I’m still fighting is crazy to me.
Same but it's my dog and my dad
Not the only reason but the main ones
SAME
Honestly if it weren’t for my dog I don’t know if I’d care enough
Im praying for you guys🙏
Cast all your anxieties on God, for He cares for you! (1 Peter 5:7)
Ive had around 7 of these symptoms for around maybe a month and i really wanna get help, talk to SOMEONE but it never happens. I always wanna just tell my parents so they can get me help but ik they are going to question, doubt, ignore, or misunderstand it.. i feel like if they do any of those things it would be completely humiliating or embarrassing for me. Also one more thing to add, ive been crying more sensitively than i used to. My brother has been the most supportive even though he doesnt know anything about it. He’s been there for me when i was crying, when i argued with my parents, and just been there to give me the last rope when nobody else has. Shoutout to my brother ily 💗💞
😢 GOD BLESS YOU BEAUTIFUL SOUL!!❤ I have been struggling with this for 10 yrs. Its horrendous and i have NO family, friends. 💫🙏💫
@@michellethelightworker5271 oh my god! I pray for you, im here for you and thank you ❤️🩹
Damn I couldn’t relate more 😢but the person that’s there for me isn’t my brother it’s my uncle/godfather
Awh I'm sorry to hear that! Pls pray from allah-almighty/ur God for a cure and we all are here for you
@@errica6503 thank you 💞
Hi Dr Julie I Have All These Symptoms It Destroying My Life Its Not Nice To Have These Everyday 😢Not Wanting To Be Here Anymore Is A Heartbreaker 💔💔
I went to the doctors several times and was told I don't have depression because my sleep patterns hadn't changed. I ticked every other box on this list and had attempted suicide twice. I gave up in the end because continuously being disregarded and ignored does very little for your sense of self worth.
I have at least 6 of these, I am scared some of these I didn’t even know were even a sign of depression
Ay I have 9 of these things- 😭😭😭 I feel ya-
In my experience what Chad says is right, AND it doesn't take away looking for help, even professional one. Specially professional one in some cases. Indeed, He saves us through everything. So seek help, please. I don't know if you believe or not, but I also pray for your happiness and peace, and hope you get better soon. Big big hug.
@♾ Chad I know this seems nice to you but it might be invalidating to others. Especially people who do pray and still have deppersion. I've prayed and it's not gone. And it's ok for you to believe that God will take away the deppersion. But maybe think a bit about it before tell others that. As it may cause them to be upset.
@♾ Chad religion is the exact reason I'm in depression. My beliefs and faith were broken again and again. People who never suffer with actual depression only say these kind of ludicrous things. Please stop invaliating others.
@♾ Chad We know you're trying to be helpful, and we appreciate it, but just know that not everyone will turn to religion as a panacea. Alternatively, they may have contrasting beliefs or follow a different religion entirely.
I used to have all these symptoms and still have some of them cause depression can't be cured completely. I once tried to hang myself too but failed. I still get pressurised by little things easily and got severe anxiety too, but my parents would never take me to a psychologist for treatment because according to them, kids these days make up things. I still feel so empty sometimes, I wish to die. All I want is a safe place to survive💜
Hello, do you have instagram? Speak to me there. I'm more than willing to hear.
Listen sis... Don't ever think that you can't survive... The reason why we came to this world as a human is just to live like a human... So stop having thoughts like these... Parents don't understand us we say that... But the fight we are fighting is with us not with others... People will advise you or say you shouldn't give up... But just try to understand the simple reason behind your struggle is just to make you more strong... I might sound like a gyani Or something but the truth is undeniable... We all are fighting the fight against the world against us against everything... But listen never ever give up specially never stop the fight which is with our negative or suicidal thought... The world is not going to stop without us... But parents will die no parent in this world want to see their child die in front of them... Parents make us because they want us they really love us... But they always show that... You can make a huge difference in your life just try to focus on the solution... Try to figure it out all by yourself... You also can ask your friend to help you... You will find out how to live... You are strong you are the hero of your life so keep fighting and push yourself harder to fight.. The pain will go soon..
@@kimnishi2416 I understand it all, but actually these things don't work when you are sick and tired everyday, when you are mentally so pressurized. I know parents want good for us, but sometimes they expect so much, I feel how disappointed they will be I don't do good. I try my best to make everyone happy. But actually to light up others, I lost my own light. When I told my parents that I was not well mentally they said "If you keep watching videos like this, of course you will start thinking like this" I actually don't trust them at all. That day I knew I don't have any value. I am not capable enough to meet their expectations. Yes the life given to us is precious, but when it's all pain, it's better to die. The pain on the outer body is nothing when your heart aches and when you are completely dead inside. Everything hurts so much, even the small happy moments are taken away by depression and we are left alone drowning deep in the sea where no one can hear you 😔
Don't worry you are strong, ofcourse you can do it 😊
May Allah guide you to Islam, maybe u will find what u miss
Depression is like ur trapped in a none ending pool of guilt and lifeless thoughts that won’t go away
Good heavens! I have 8 of these 9 symptoms on a daily basis. And my therapist makes me feel like I need to be moving faster toward healing. I have childhood trauma and abuse that still control my life and my therapist just keeps saying that I've been out of my parents house for 20 years so why does this all still bother me. I feel like she doesn't understand the depth of trauma and abuse and how it affects a person's belief system about themselves.
Things i have stopped..
1. Living
2. Talking
3. caring
4.being happy
5. being happy
6.trusting people
7.Loving someone and never getting love back
8.Asking for friends
9.Believing myself/life
10.Having expectations
11.Eatting
12.Being happy
13.Dating
14.Loving myself
15.thinking im pretty but im really not
16.Caring for others
17.trusting people i love
18. Talking alot because no one listens
19. Sharin my feelings
20.Being myself
21. Being positive
22. People pleasure
23. Being sorry for everything
24.Trusting everyone I see
25.Giving people way to many chances
26.Not being cold
27.Hating being in my room
28.Believing in myself
29.Making friends
30.Crying after losing friends
31. Acting dum
32. Not standing up for myself
33. Apologizing alot
34.Caring for others.
35. Trusting someone again that already lost my trust
36.Forcing myself to do something i dont want to do just for others
37.Eatting to much
38.Sleeping to much
39.Crying
40.Loving
41. Using emoji's
42.Being someone im not just for ppl
43. Being open minded
44.Not being insercure
45. Respecting everyone
46.Being to active
47. Using energy
Things i still do..
1. Cry myself to sleep
2.Cry about being left by fake friends/relationships
3.hurting myself
4.Having depression
5. anxiety
6. stressed
7. Saying im fine when im really not im just hurting
8.Giving people way to many chances
And way more i just don't want to talk to much because i know yall dont wanna read all of it.
Random stuff I just thinked about
I think it's learn to accept and distance yourself from others, don't take anything to heart, it is better to let it slide off than have it mentally/physically destruct you
"Now, I understand that no one is crazy, they make you crazy little by little" - the sound of magic (kdrama)
your so real.. it hurts, we give so much and receive so little in return
The worst thing about betrayal that it doesn't come from enemies...
This hurts so much..its a deep reason when no one cares about you but you care about them its unfair..why no one is understanding our feeling…
When someone else is sad, i try my best to keep them feel that they are listened to, that they have me but when the same happens to be, there seems to be no one.
I don't know which one hurts more, being alone, or loving again.
Talking to much is a big one for me..
I only speak when necessary in school and I don't ever answer questions.
Whenever some tries talking to me I have very... Intimidating.... Eye contact :)
And I had to switch schools, and it's been like 5 weeks since school started, I ain't got 1 friend and honestly... No friends, means no drama.
I'm just a dumb bug.
"A fish with it's mouth closed never gets caught"
It hurts when you don't get the treatment that you give them !
It leaves you broken 💔
I find it Hard to trust people because once I went to a family friends party, we took our dog. He put a cage around the exit to the house so mine and my other family friends dog couldn’t escape, we left them outside while we partied. I felt a little bit scared about the two dogs so I told my dad “ dad! Do you think the dogs will escape? “ he said “ no, trust me they won’t if they escape never trust me “ I trusted him. 2 hours later the door bell rung, that’s when my heard dropped. Somebody was holding my dog. His eye was about to come out and blood was all around him, he was hit by a car. The people said they were on a walk and my friends dog came up to them because he has escaped with my dog and my friends dog led them to the road where my dog was lying. Then my friends dog led them to the house we were in, we were heartbroken. I kept on telling myself it was a dream… it wasn’t. My dad rushed him to the vet, he survived! He has broken his 2 back leg bones, this was because he ran across the road but was hit on the back causing him to fly. The cars speed hit his back legs and they got fractured, he couldn’t walk for weeks but after a while he finally could ! My friends dog is a legend
why should we care about their feelings when they don’t understand or validate ours
Its hurts when you still can't stop caring even they dont care....
Everyone has there bad moments..
But for some people like me..
Those bad moments never leave...
I’m sorry
I understand you and I get it
If you want to talk at all I’m here
I’ve read everything
27 was the saddest for me. I really hope we both get better. I read a book called Ladder out of Depression when I got really bad and it comforted me somehow. Maybe you could if reading isn’t too much. It is for me sometimes. ❤