Metallica - Jason's First Show, Live in Reseda, CA, USA (1986) [SBD Audio Only]
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- Опубликовано: 17 ноя 2017
- Band name: Metallica
Date: November 8, 1986
Venue: Country Club
Location: Reseda, CA, USA
Tour name: Damage, Inc.
Other acts: Metal Church
Previously Unreleased Soundboard Recording.
Show Notes:
- Secret gig opening for Metal Church.
- Jason Newsted's first show.
Enjoy!
Setlist:
XX:XX - Battery (missing)
00:00 - Master of Puppets
08:04 - For Whom the Bell Tolls
12:41 - Welcome Home (Sanitarium)
18:55 - Ride the Lightning
25:06 - Kirk Guitar Solo
27:36 - Whiplash
31:56 - Seek and Destroy
XX:XX - Creeping Death (missing)
38:41 - The Four Horsemen
XX:XX - Fade to Black (missing)
43:22 - Am I Evil?
47:06 - Damage, Inc.
XX:XX - Fight Fire with Fire (missing)
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Timestamps:
00:08 - Master of Puppets
08:04 - For Whom the Bell Tolls
12:41 - Welcome Home (Sanitarium)
18:55 - Ride the Lightning
25:06 - Kirk Guitar Solo
27:36 - Whiplash
31:56 - Seek and Destroy
38:41 - The Four Horsemen
43:22 - Am I Evil?
47:06 - Damage, Inc.
metfan4l Dude your channel is the best channel... You upload so many (full) Metallica videos and audio recordings... And the fact that you upload regularly is awesome
Also how do you find all these videos and clips?
Living Death This show is from the new master of puppets box set
the country club was the spot for a lot of metal back in the day
I think Newsted passed the test...
Joseph Gallegos I grew up in San Fernando and the country club had some killer bands play there. I was here at this concert Metallica was awesome but OMG Flotsam came on and ripped the place to pieces. I thank the country club for all the awesome concerts. I was at every Lizzy Borden concert ever played there too that was cool
Ahhh, before he FOCKING left the band
He FOCKING joined the band!
@whatever 111 and he was fockin' RIGTH!! it's not necessary to make a stadium full for be a ROCKER
he never stops to do music, and some music's (i love mister trujillo) shark wait and play well!
sorry for my french, i'm anglish.......
whatever 111 PERIOD! EXCLAMATION POINT
Joel Xapelli In all honesty, I’m not dissapointed one tiny bit that we got Robert, he’s a fucking beast! Although I miss Jason
WHEN THE FOCK DID WE TURN INTO THE BAD GUYS
25:07 Apparently it was also Kirk Hamster's first (and last) gig
God, I miss that guy...😔
LMAO 🤣
He did this in many shows
💀
8:16 the irony in that sentence is strong...
Tbh James and Jason at times seemed like brothers, the one that was the douche was Lars like he was the responsible of the missing bass on AJFA
Agent HUNK Kirk and James did nothing and this was a decision that had to be done by the whole band not just Lars, even so James was just as responsible as Lars it was their idea, Kirk was the only one that treated Jason with respect.
It's not irony, he is just lying 😂🤥
@@adrianfong5783 I would admit James was also a douche but he was at least really friendly with Jason on stage but if you see with Lars he barely even reaches Jason or shows preoccupation with him aside from the "He fucking left the band" and James did show preoccupation with Jason even though it was kinda rough but if we are talking about proper respect, yes Kirk was the only one that showed it properly to Jason.
Agent HUNK that doesn’t make it any better that just makes James seem like a bigger snake it’s no use to show everybody “oh look me and Jason are buddies “ then completely treat him like shit off stage, Either way Metallica sucks ass nowadays lmao
My psychiatrist: European James Hetfield isn't real, he can't hurt you...
European James Hetfield: 8:34
HAHAH this is super funny, I clicked ahead thinking "This must be some blood curdling scream I am about to hear", instead... expectations subverted in a very good way :D
Lmfao
**Akward bass intro**
*Monty Python James
Fuck man. For Whom the Bell tolls is like 60 % faster lol. Dudes need to lay off the cocaine and meth lol. hahahaha
Holy crap this show was brutal. So fast. Insane
Yeah it was. I think they were taking all their anger and Pain from Cliff's death out on the guitars and drums
Not the bass intro from for whom the bell tolls. That tone is thinner than an anorexic.
Cocaine
Check out the live video of them playing in Canada in 87 during this tour. If forget the city, but it'll be at the top of the list. Makes this show seem slow. This is still insane though.
@@Metal4Life56 Toronto 1986
You can just hear and feel the pain and anger they all have from Burton. This was basically right after his death. It's really sad.
Yep. they sound very PISSED OFF playing to the hardest. James was actually about to kill the one driving the bus that drove Cliff to death.
Corozal De los Ochenta hmm, I thought Kirk was as well
ericj305 😂😂 maybe listen to some metal then, most have anger.
ericj305 yeah I know, I did say that and did all the attributing lol. Just a comment, k don't care either way. But it did heavily impact them, so.. they didn't really just move on with their lives however long this was after
ericj305 that's honestly all true. I used to be a huge Metallica fan but slowly lost interest. You have a fair point, they do. But however they still mention him, and honor him because he helped with getting the band started and help write most the songs that set them off. But yeah they replaced him a month or so lol, I don't know
The show had to go on, but in doing so the guys didn't properly mourn and Jason paid a heavy price. It was not until Jason left the band when we got to know how it was when Jason got into the band. The other guys admitting they developed some resentment towards Jason for replacing Cliff and also admitting they were never fair to him, the worst of all being that of killing Jason's bass mix in ... And Justice For All. Whatever Jason did was never good enough, especially for James, who always shut his ideas down and even said that Jason being a huge fan of the band didn't help either, it made Jason more annoying. But Jason was the ultimate professional and took it all like a champ, I'm sure he has no regrets.
well said.
Nice comment. Too bad Metallica decided to go full commercial. AJFA was their last great album as far as I’m concerned.
@@texasturner2313 I agree
@@texasturner2313 black album was awesome lmfao, any true metallica fan would tell you
At least Jason composed the blackened riff
If this is Jason's first show, he really did his homework.
That's what professionals do. Try it sometime.
@@maximusmax4557 And you should try learning manners
Jason somehow got ahold of Metallica’s entire live set list and learned it for his audition.
@@maximusmax4557 why so aggressive?
Everything is good at home?
mtf is a machine!!! fuck yeah!
It will never cease to amaze me how Jason Newsted walked into a completely impossible situation, like trying to put out a house fire while being swarmed by angry hornets. He did a hell of a job, though, and you could make the case that he held that damn band together when those late 86 dates could have torn them apart at the seams.
He did. He absolutely saved them. He deserved much better treatment then what he got.
@@tomzadvydas1758concordo plenamente com você!
Ok Larsy pooh 38:41
edwoodification lol
Proceeds to destroy that double bass in the verse tho!!
Apocalypse happens 3 seconds later
kirk hamster and larsy pooh performing that night
40:00 almost got me choked up. You can hear the tears in James voice. It’s a damn shame what these guys went through.
Jasons backups at that point legit sound almost identical to Cliffs.
No!!? Your off your head
Great! Thank you again!!! Jason wanted really Hard to be in Metallica, he deserved better treatment...
Dark Link and what about now 31 years after?
gandhy12 i wish i knew...
I think if he had any idea of the crap storm he would have to live in while in metallica he would have passed. Not knowing, you have to go for it.
I think he would have still done it. I would have. A huge Metallica fan, an even bigger Cliff Burton fan...no way would anyone pass it up even though you knew you were going to be hazed non-stop for the next 15 years or so
@@WarcraftIsForVirgins I agree with you man. Id have signed up too. What a chance to be famous. Flotsam and Jetsam wasn't going anywhere.
32:27 best moment
Crude yet effective.
39:21 that bass line so good
8:18 I know that James was thinking about Cliff
Damn. This was 6 weeks after Cliff's death. It's like a release of anger. Lars always plays so fast that the other guys can barely keep up, but he was REALLY fast this night.
But what's amazing is that he's fast, but also solid and on point. Whereas these days he'll be fast but sloppy.
Jason could keep up all day.
Kirk was shredding it that night too...
@@jenniferc4081
He and Lars killed it at this show, and at pretty much every show during the mid-to-late 80's.
Lars is killing it...50:24
Yeah. Surprising.
@@MrCaliforniaD not really, he was a really good drummer at the time
@@feliix2283
Not just good - he was fucking excellent.
@@MrCaliforniaD not at all. He was amazing back then. Hate the mindset that he always was and will be bad
James Hetfield: För Whöm Zhë Bëll Tölls
you can hear james trying not to cry when introducing jason
1:45. The struggle in james voice when singing, “Your life burns faster” Six weeks after Cliff’s death.
Mr Kirk hamster on guitar lol
Kirk Omelette
Kirk Wahmmett
September 27 1986
The day that the legend died. And "For Whom The Bell Tolls" intro was never the same again live😢
Only missing leper messiah. Disobedient and rebellious, dying and blaspheming God.
Jason out of tune did not help either...
My 6th birthday ☹
@@WILSON-sd8pc the music is against the priests not God
@@Brennenburg666
No excuses. The judgment of God will be without mercy.
The gospel will be preached in the whole world (by the servants of God), then the end will come.
Or you think you're going to be all your life singing '' Am I Evil? '' and call names your bitch's mother?
19:56 "I'll your life from youuuu WEWEWEWEYAH" hahah
Fury... This is what losing a friend does to a band as Metallica.
Phillip Pergens No, this is what youth, hunger and alcohol sounds like. They sounded like this with Cliff aswell.
@@mathiasthelander7834 Listen to James around 8:14. His voice goes all shaky and he stops talking for a good 6 seconds, until he can shake off the feelings welling up from inside and suppress them. That sounds like someone grieving to me.
@@Kruegernator123
Also, the way he tells himself "I am gonna have some fucking fun tonight", just as if he is struggling to have fun at that point.
HE FOCKING JOINED THE BANd
I was supposed to see Metallica with Cliff on the 8th of August, 1986 at The Concert Hall in Toronto but that show was cancelled along with a few other dates. It looks like it was rescheduled for November the 7th at Maple Leaf Gardens. Then Cliff was killed on the 27th of September in Sweden. So I ended up seeing Metallica with Jason "Newkid" on the 9th of December 1986 ; ) He got a better hairstylist not long after joining Metallica.
Now I see this first show with Jason was the day after I was supposed to see Metallica with Cliff at Maple Leaf Gardens.
Do you happen to remember any technical difficultes at the show?
At least you were in the Longed Haired Jason Era.
I had tickets to a show in NY Poughkeespie in 86. Show of course was cancelled, and I couldn't make the rescheduled show.
Saw them 2 years later.
@@xxEzraBxxx No. The entire concert was filmed. A bootleg. There's a bunch of RUclips channels that uploaded the video years ago. One shows something that had to do with what happened before the concert.
I love James voice I wish he sounded like this today 🤘
fuck yeah! but nowadays he's just singing
of course he is singing here; but completely different of what he's doing today. if you pay attention to his interviews he states that at this time he was shouting and dont know why or how people likes it !!!!!!
tom fallon after a while he probably lost his voice after the Black album. But I totally agree I do want his old voice back🤟
@@DojimaLmao Probably? It did really happen, I believe James once said it was after the "So What!" Cover.
He was mad young back then and threw out his voice on the black album tour. He had a rough childhood and took the aggression out doing that so after awhile im sure he got it all out and since theyre wealthy, not as stressed either so all their aggressiveness is really gone
James becomes emotional introducing Jason instead of Cliff before For Whom the Bell Tolls
thrashix123 "here is a new fucker" :)
He's not "emotional", he's just winded from playing Master Of Puppets, you fucking dorks.
Thank you!
it's cool how you can't read emotions at all. Maybe one day!
Again Lars takes control here. This was Cliff's signature song so he starts it at 100 miles an hour to make sure it's very different to Cliff's
Definitely everyone wanted to sound louder than the other... Angry in James's voice is so brutal... What a good times!
Where do you think that anger comes from? this is like right after cliff's death.. but yeah, he sounds brutal here
It's scarry how many times James had to sing "die" right after Cliff's death, especially in for whom the bell tolls and horsemen, he even had to stop singing a couple of times.
James´voice contains too much fury
Celso Canavesi must be from Cliff's death
There is never to much
@@cliffsenac2825
LMAO
Lars had so much attack at this point. Age comes to us all.
And the lack of hunger.
It's not age, he stopped playing like this around 92-94
He stopped practicing, he's said it himself lmao
Hoglan, Lombardo, Bostaph, Hunting, et al are all about the same age and drum circles around Lars today.
Duper Super he reached his limit of his body, remember playing drums day in day out like he did takes its toll on your body, wrists, arms, knees, he had to come to a decision about the longevity of his career
Billy Ramirez gene hoglan was a fucking beast with death angel and Death.
I was front row for this show. I was so young - and they were too. There were moments that you could tell James, Lars or Kurt were having "moments" during the performance but they absolutely came to play that night and Jason was flawless (as were they all). I know all about rumors that he never really fit with the other 3 and that they never accepted him. That may be true to whatever extent, but that night, they played like they'd all been together the entire time. A lot of love & respect for Cliff in the room that night as well. It was supposed to be a "secret show" and I'm trying to remember how I found out about it but I grew up around there and it was the 80's. It could've come from a number of sources. Back then, usually when I should've been somewhere else, somehow I'd end in Hollywood seeing live shows at clubs, arenas and festivals. At any rate, this was a night I'll never forget! Thanks for posting!
Kurt?
@@MetallicaLive
Yeah, Kurt Cobain was their guitarist for a while in 1986 - you didn't know that? Poser.
Ah yes james hetfield lars ulrich and kurt cobain playing guitar on stabe
Who is Kurt
Holy shit...holy fast
Holy wars
Hell yeahhhhhh. I love it. So bad ass. Old school classic thrash Metallica
Back in the day. Awesome.
🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘
Hetfield is very emotional here. Fury in voice, struggles to introduce Jason instead of Cliff and just going hard with the guitar. Very interesting performance.
ericj305 they could've known cliff longer than the band you fool. you dont know anything of pre-band
incase you don't have a fucking heart or soul, you can bond with a cool guy in 3-4 years. "fool"
alright, my last reply to this fucktard; you did it first, i did it after you, get a higher iq and go fuck off
ericj305 lol, what? how am i mad? secondly, you were the childish buffoon replying to everyone that had a similar comment to bayley's, you call me mad but you seemed to be the one a bit peeved earlier; and secondly "childish name calling" eh? says the boy who made a cliff joke, just stop trying dude
only thing i was annoyed about was your stupidity, you also call out the minor shit such as "editing comments". is that how large your ego is? too bad your brains are smaller than that
8:18 - "make him feel at home, alright?"
Er...
2:31 "Toss your breakfast on a mirror!"
Chop your breakfast on a mirror....as in cocaine
@@patrickalloyssius9138 DUDE I never got that bruh thank you so much
@@spookyghost8952 I thought everyone know it
38:41 "okay larsie poo UwU"
Furrytalica
48:52 this part slaps!!!
what a set list, man... those were the days... hell of a band!!
Nowadays their lists are full of load, St anger, hardwired.... And few songs from kill em all/ride the lightning /master of puppets /and justice for all.
@@murderousintents6474no bruh😂😂
8:39 that should be considered bullying
Wow turbocharged bells here
Yeah it’s called Lars on Cocaine 😂😂
They played The Four Horsemen almost as fast as The Mechanix
If they ever decide to make a Metallica biopic, this show (especially the Master of Puppets part) has to be in it!
Vincent Kartheiser as Lars.
You can feel the pain still of Cliffs passing they played with so much hate but still with greatness
Oscar E Meza sounds like a normal performance to me. I doubt they even thought about Cliff that much. Sure, it would have crossed their minds, but they were focused on the show
@@yourfriendlyneighbourhoods8202 trust me. If you've been performing night after night for three to four years with the same members, and then for whatever reason, one of them has to be replaced, you are going to notice it in the live performances that initially follow. Because a different person will bring a different personality and different dynamic which affect how the band sounds and how they perform, for better or worse. Like sure, you'll get used to that set up in time, but a connection has to be built.
@@russkate88 that your opinion
The four horsemen is literally just as fast as Mechanix
Pretty rare huh
No way, Megadeth at that time plays Mechanix even faster
Pedro Albuquerque no it was at that speed
@@waltervlogs9617 nope, it was way faster. proof: ruclips.net/video/Q1dK8nBLfvU/видео.html
warezpl0 wow didn’t know it was that fast
The Four Mechanix
Jason really gave it his all. He deserves the royalties, and believe me, he's filthy rich. That was a tough situation all around, trying to replace Cliff during the prime of the band.
Rob was an excellent choice for their post-prime years. He's easy to manage, reliable and a pretty damn good rock bassist.
Amazing sound , fury in James voice
1986, Lars adding cool things to his live drumming. 2019, Lars taking cool things away from his live drumming.
That's unfortunately what happens when you get comfortable and stop giving a damn like he has.
@@drumfeck5970 Bro, hes getting old, your body gets slower as you age mate.
@@Captain_ESC he stopped practicing like 20 years ago
@@Captain_ESCnot Dave Lombardo tho...
They were all grieving the loss of Cliff!! They were all kids back than! Lars was 21 James was like 23. They wrote Killem all in there teens!! Thats amazing!! To be that big at that age on there 3rd album and just loosing Cliff, and with everything else going on. They made a great draft pic on Bringing Newsted as there bass player! Kids today couldnt handle that kind of pressure!! R.I.P to Music!! Technology killed music its sad!
15:57
Wow, only weeks after Cliff’s death and they’d already found Jason and were touring.
Brian Talbot 6 weeks
Si Deering yeah, you’re right. Still a hell of a short time to mourn and audition bass players.
Brian Talbot They didn’t want to stop because they would have to process his passing, and they knew there would be no Metallica if they let reality set in. I think it’s what Cliff would have wanted.
km yeah, I agree. I’m just amazed they were able to audition bass players, choose Jason, rehearse all the songs and be able to jump back on tour so quickly.
At that moment, there were only 25 songs to learn. Imagine having to fill in now :-)
Take always from this show...
- they were fucking tight considering this was their first show together. Jason was on like a motherfucker.
- this show was fucking brutal and you could hear the aggression pouring out of them. Intense isn’t the word. Cathartic would also apply.
- anyone who says Lars can’t play drums can fuck off.
- Larsypoo should be a t-shirt
How I love that Jame's voice that years, so aggressive so fast, that riffs played so hard... Imagine thousands of headbagers then, no f***ing smartphones in the air only...
Thanks Jason for what you have done for all Metallica lovers for all that years.
The greatest metal band ever.
I think Metallica would argue that the greatest metal band is Black Sabbath.
@@SniffHeinkel totally 🔥
Sniff Heinkel or deep purple. I think sabbath, but they’re all fucking fantastic
LOLOLOL
Black Sabbath, Iron Maiden and Metallica
My opinion
FUCK I was at this show... it was truly a raging performance. One for the ages, and we had just seen them with Cliff less than a year earlier when they opened for Ozzy at Long Beach. R.I.P. Cliff: The true heart & soul/ creative force of Metallica
The Country Club was a great venue. I wish I could've seen Metallica there, but by the time I began going to shows there (1984), Metallica was already playing much bigger arenas (hence why this was a "secret show"). I saw Raven/Anthrax, Mercyful Fate/, and Slayer/D.R.I. at the Country Club in 1984 and '85. The last show I saw there was Soundgarden/VoiVod/Prong in 1990. The venue closed down shortly after that.
Jason was the man, he didn't give a fuck about anything, he just stood there and play like a savage.
Lars and Kirk fucking killing it here - this is why they were voted Best Metal Drummer and Best Metal Guitarist by multiple metal magazines numerous times throughout the 80's.
Fucking phenomenal show for such a sad time in Met history. Jason is tearing ass in this!
Also it sound like Lars is repeatedly dropping basketballs in the verses of Horsemen.
His double bass sound here is pretty good.
Jason is awesome basses!! Flotsam and Jetsam , Newsted are 👍 in my book. Way to go Jason
Damn , my man Hetfield been at the beach all weekend
Thank you for this!
Thank you for all the amazing uploads!!!
The audio it’s amazing, thank you
25:08 Kirk hamster
HE FOCKING JOINED THE BAND!
How professional and committed these guys always were, between alcohol abuse, intense touring, parties and even fatal tragedy (Cliff) is unbelievable.
Awesome! Love Jason.
"MISTER KIRK HAMSTER
ON THE GUITAR..... YEEAAAH"
Listen the thrash raw voice of papa James in those golden days.❣
Was at this show. They blew the roof off. Man what memories.
I'm totally blowing by the incredible sound, the totally kicking ass rage in every part... this is incredibly brutal, fast, and perfect...
Fantastic sound quality 🤘🤘
Fantastic feeling and historic show.
Happy anniversary to this show 🎊
AMAZING
I was at this show....They played BEFORE Metal Church
Hell yeah! Trujillo is a good guy and a very good bass player, but Jason fitted better on 'Tallica!
He was the energy, the groove, the headbanging, and the Thrash Metal bass and vocalist, when Metallica make the turn into Heavy Metal and Hard Rock albums.
Jason, we miss you man!!!
This show is so fast 😍
I just love that Live distorted ESP Guitar sound of the 80's that Metallica used.
P.S. I know nothing about the Guitar/Tuning, but you all know what I mean.
James is using a Gibson here, but when he switched to ESP, it sounded amazing
Kirks play on ESP since 87 James 88
Thats freakin intense maaaan
lars drumming is on point, and kirk is fast asf damn
Funny they were already calling Kill Em All "old shit" in '86
haha yea not even close as 'old'
They were doing that in 1985 as well.
While today Death Magnetic is classified as 'new shit' lmao
A rap song will come out in today and in 2 months it’s called old
Hahaha most songs of kill em All were wrote 4 years earlier by that time... When you are a teenager the last year it's too much 🤣🤣
I was in a grumpy mood when I stumbled across this today. Twas just the Fuckin therapy!
damn this is great
You can really hear the rage and fury in their music after the death of Burton.
I love MetallicA
Wow, I expected this to sound pretty poor quality-wise, but it's awesome actually. Thanks!
Great concert, great drums, great vocals. I like the version of TFHM of this concert
Jolly good show.
Holy fuck thats fast
Can't believe they started touring so quickly after cliff passed away, no doubt that it was an unhealthy thing to do for their mental health. But I guess they wanted to please the fans
same but like they said Cliff would have wanted the band to go on but also I did research on what happened in the crash and it said Lars broke his big toe during it
Unfortunately, it's a business. The show must go on as it goes
@@gabifrancis7414 They were 22-23 years old, James had no parents, they were renowned for their drinking, they managed to go from zero to practically the hottest thing in metal in a bit over 4 years, it was the 1980s, metal was macho, feelings were for weak people. There was literally no way these guys would have dealt with Cliffs death in a healthy manner.
Getting back in the saddle is actually a good way to help deal with grief. They insisted that Cliff would have wanted them to keep going and they fought through it with their music. If they'd quit it be like Cliff's death was meaningless and the band would have amounted to a 90s VH1 episode of "Whatever happened to".
I think the main reason was they didn't want to stop because they were afraid they'd never get back up and just let Metallica die.
Wow!
Holy shit this is probably the fastest I’ve ever heard them play live. They normally play faster but this is god speed
Awesome
God, they were so fucking ferocious back in the day.
My gosh, what a performance. So much emotional dysfunction (substance abuse, the pain of losing Cliff, the lashing out at Jason that marred his tenure with the band), and I'm certainly happy they've survived it and become who they are now, but what fire, what hunger, and what execution! Damage, Inc. with DOUBLE BASS! Ah, to be young again.
(and to preempt the inevitable ragging on Lars and the claims that he's just lazy and needs to keep up his chops a la Dave Lombardo, I would posit that his function in Metallica has been far more multifaceted than Dave's in Slayer - Dave is a consummate musician, while Lars is a musician who has had moments of exhilarating greatness but not the same work ethic over decades because of his growing interest and involvement in the business side of things, in addition to being a creative force that has kept the band's material fresh, innovative, and often exciting for the better part of three decades. I'm no St. Anger fan but Spit out the Bone and many other compositions on Hardwired...to Self-Destruct have found their way into my pantheon of all-time favorite 'Tallica tunes.)
So nice to see someone else giving Lars his props in a realistic manner. 👏👏👏
Imagine if creeping death was in this recording, I feel like James probably cried during that song