Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord SHALL be saved!!" The Lord (Jesus, God's Son) is so loving and filled with love for each and every one of us. I just hope that you all see his love and give him a chance before it is too late! I was pulled from an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety by The Lord and God and I hope that you all may find the peace that Jesus has to offer by seeking him as well. God bless! I mean no harm or offence to anyone who doesn't believe, you still deserve just as much love, and God has it for you!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
The Holy Spirit entered my body. i really felt it when he entered me. i was filled with peace, love and comfort. God shared his love with me and gave me understanding of how much he really loves all of us. God loves the worst person out there. Even a murderer who killed 50 million ppl. God said he loves that person and hes ready to forgive them if only they ask. He's ready and willing to forgive u and remember ur sins no more. It was love that none of us could express. God told me he doesnt want hell for any of us. Hes not mean at all like some of us may see him. He only warns us because he loves us so much and wants us being reconciled back to him. I felt the holy spirit grieve in me. i started weeping nonstop for hours. The Holy Spirit was weeping for all the lost souls. He told me to pray and plead with God for forgiveness, mercy, grace and more time for all the lost sinners. pray that they come into a repentance and God softens their heart. God doesn't want hell for us. He weeps when 1 soul goes to hell. The lil bit of grief he allowed me to feel was too much for me to bear. i told God i cant handle this grief. its too much for me. God took the grief away from me. He just wanted me to know how high, deep and wide his love really is. I had hate for my enemy and unforgiveness but God gave me HIS OWN love for my enemy. And now i have love for my enemy and ive been trying to help him get saved and be reconciled back to God. There's no way u can love ur enemies on ur own. U can only love ur enemies when u SHARE in Gods love 😊💖 God is truly beautiful and he loves you so much. He doesnt want bad for u. He wants u to know and feel how much he loves you and he is for u 😊💖 we may fail God and get mad at him, but God will never fail us and will never leave us. I know this from experience😊 Jesus loves u 💖😊 read the bible starting in the book of John 😊 The NLT version is more easier to understand than KJV 😊💖
My I suggest you an album- Morning Star - Fly me like the wind. The 4th track is a testimony type song that may speak to you. I love the 2nd track starting about 10 minutes in. Also I am someone who has had times in life that ending seems better than living but it has been my Faith in God that has kept me instead of loosing it because of my thoughts. Bless you brother. Look up the poem footprints as well.
Did you ever attempt to seek God while going through your suicidal times? If you weren't then maybe that's why you feel like you had to do it all alone. I can sense you were upset at God. Funny thing is, God is literally telling YOU that you're that 1 he left the 99 for. It's no coincidence that you listened to this song. God Bless You!😊❤🙏
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
He was in the heart of the doctor who pumped you stomach. He was with the emy giving you compressions. He was with the friends who had the gut feeling to check on you... and they actually followed that. He was there when you were running far from him. He was there when your family hit you, crying with you, knowing he agreed to let us be free to be good or sadly evil. HE IS HERE FOR YOU. He wants to give you a huge hug and just let you cry and yell and let it all out to him.
I was a very depressed child and teen. I was suicidal too and I called out to God if he was real and a few days later met a friend at school that was Christian and took me to her church and God broke down all those traumatic things that happened to me in an instant.. what my psychologist and therapist couldn’t do.. The thing is even though I didn’t have a clue about him, He already knew me. What’s amazing is He heard my cry!! HE saw ME when no one did!!!
Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord SHALL be saved!!" The Lord (Jesus, God's Son) is so loving and filled with love for each and every one of us. I just hope that you all see his love and give him a chance before it is too late! I was pulled from an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety by The Lord and God and I hope that you all may find the peace that Jesus has to offer by seeking him as well. God bless! I mean no harm or offence to anyone who doesn't believe, you still deserve just as much love, and God has it for you!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
Opening your heart to God is a start, for you to see his love and wonders in your life, even the toughest hearts cant resist his love, God bless you brother
Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord SHALL be saved!!" The Lord (Jesus, God's Son) is so loving and filled with love for each and every one of us. I just hope that you all see his love and give him a chance before it is too late! I was pulled from an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety by The Lord and God and I hope that you all may find the peace that Jesus has to offer by seeking him as well. God bless! I mean no harm or offence to anyone who doesn't believe, you still deserve just as much love, and God has it for you!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
@@JoelJacksonofficial Please repent all of your sins to God , become a Christian , get saved . I don't want you, your friends and family to go to hell. God is real, Jesus is real , Heaven is real and the Holy Bible is real everything in it happended it is not a book filled with fairy tales. Prayer works it is important let's be all prayer warriors. Hell is real hot, if you go there you will be in pain all the time no convert no happiness. You will also won't see your friends , family or pets. Prayer for the unbelievers they need our prayers more than ever . don't get the chip because it's the mark of the beast you will not enter Heaven if you get it. Help other non Christians get saved God wants all of us to get saved, repent, become a Christian . also pray for satan to become a Christian only do good , repent and get saved to get to go to Heaven.
Hey Joel, thank you for your honest reaction. I just found your channel and I can see you are a genuine, caring person. The Lord wants to tell you that He was there with you the whole time when you were in your sunken place. He is still here with you. Those days of loneliness and negative voices coming against you, know Jesus was holding your hand and He still is. Don’t lose faith. You are here for a purpose. You are a living testimony. It may not feel like it now but know you are in God’s Hands. “A thousand may come at your side and ten thousand at your right hand but none will come near you.” Psalms 91:7, what happened in those six years should not be brushed aside because it is part of your testimony. However, know God Has written your future too. Your past will help those get out of suicide and depression because of your experience but know your future that God has written will bless those because your are an example of a living testimony. Do not be discouraged, Jesus got you. I pray your relationship with Him will flourish and that the Holy Spirit will give you divine peace and joy. “Because he hold fast to me in love, I will deliver him; I will protect him, because he knows my name. When he calls to me, I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will rescue him and honor him.” Psalm 91:14-15. Don’t let your past relationship with the church define your future relationship with Jesus now. Jesus is still holding your hand. He never let go. God Bless you brother ❤️
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
I am a survivor too. I was away from the Lord for many years. Satan is a liar , he tricks us to believe God does not care. The night i tried again to take my life satan thought he had me. I made to the next day & my dad took me to church . The preacher topic was on suicide & the steps there. That was me. I cried the whole sermon. God picked me out of the whole church to use a message I needed to hear. My life changed that night for the rest of my life. I surrendered my life to Him to lead me & protect me from future thoughts. Thank you for listening
The simple fact of being a survivor, of being alive is a sign of His love for you, brother! I see that you mentioned both the community of the church and a relationship that went wrong, and I'm not judging you, but we all sometimes fail to depend on other people to be happy, but humans are fallible! Only God is perfect and won't ever let you down. I'm praying for you bro! Praying for all of you guys on the band :) "Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me." Psalm 27:10
Hey man, stumbled across this channel in my recommendations, and found this video. I’m a Christian, so naturally, i was drawn to watch your reaction to this song. I have no idea what it was like to go through the mental distress and turmoil of deep depression or mental issues, but if you were rooted (truly rooted) in Christ prior to all of this, I’m sure He was there in your recovery process. Maybe all the times you tried to end it but couldn’t (like I said, idk your story) or when you felt you couldn’t get up anymore to fight to keep your life, He was the one giving you the strength to push forward out of that state. You made it through! God obvious has a call on your life and you obviously have an amazing testimony to share. It’s by no accident you’re still here after all you’ve been through! I urge you to diligently seek him (prayer, the Bible, and worship) and watch how quickly you began to find yourself in the process! That’s how it was for me. God bless you! 🙂
Agreed! After creating the movie " Rock for Jesus" Onelife heard the calling to create onelife and continue singing . Though the pandemic has changed things, we continue here online . Thank you for standing by us and with us!
Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord SHALL be saved!!" The Lord (Jesus, God's Son) is so loving and filled with love for each and every one of us. I just hope that you all see his love and give him a chance before it is too late! I was pulled from an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety by The Lord and God and I hope that you all may find the peace that Jesus has to offer by seeking him as well. God bless! I mean no harm or offence to anyone who doesn't believe, you still deserve just as much love, and God has it for you!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
I understand your reaction when you said it's hard for you to reconcile with those words because I am also a suicide survivor, I suffer daily with BPD and PTSD and not getting the correct therapy to help cope emotionally with my situations that usually end up in alot of sadness and depression... One thing I've learned is that God didn't cause all of those bad things to happen to us, Satan did. Satan wants us to feel all of these things and to turn away from God but the power of God is a good overwhelming feeling and if you keep your faith, keep going you will see at the end of the day that he has fought some fights right with you and look at the things you have missed or could've gotten yourself into but didn't, I truly believe Jesus is right next to each and everyone of us through the good and the bad but we have to seek Him! Seek in the Lord and you will find, it doesn't say "seek in the Lord during the good times and you will find" it doesn't say "seek in the Lord during the bad times and you will find" no, it specifically says, "seek in the Lord and you will find!" I just wanted to point that out because it has helped me alot! Also "Have I not commanded you? Do not be afraid; Do not be discouraged, Be courageous, says the Lord, your God, who is with you wherever you go" -Joshua 1:9
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
Even when we don’t see HIM working, HE is always with us, around us and carrying us. HE will soften your heart just let HIM in. I am a prodigal and literally felt my hard heart crack and start to soften as I opened up to HIM. Seek HIM, HE will be there.
Ask God for discernment of your mind , body, soul and Spirit... I've been in the same boat as you...but I was watching your eyes..the Compassion in your heart must be massive..I see it..you survived for a purpose..someone or many someones needed you to be alive. maybe it's me you touched..because you did...❤🙏
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
The fact that you no longer are suicidal and are finding new faith in god is proof that he was there for you during that 6 year period of pain. When we dont feel him is when he is the closest. Love you brother
Numbers 6:24-26 24- “May the Lord bless you and protect you.” 25- “May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you.” 26- “May the Lord show you his favor and give you his peace.” God has a plan for you and it will be amazing. Stay strong. God loves you no matter how many mistakes you make. He will always be there waiting for you.
Love your honesty. I'm a therapist, yet I can't pretend to know what you went through, how low those 6 years must have been. I guess even the disciples doubted Jesus sometimes and I know I have for various reasons. All I can say is I'm so glad you were here to post this video and I'm praying you're in an even better place now.
He never leaves us. We give up on Him sometimes when we don’t get the answer we want. We can never feel or imagine the pain that Jesus went through for us. My heart is broken as I have went through a loss that was so devastating, but I know The Lord’s promise and I will never give up my hope in Him. God bless you all.
i know you said you didn't have any percieved help during that low time in your life, but look at you now!! YOUR ARE STILL ALIVE with God's breath in your lungs!! Praise God He brought you through it !!
Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord SHALL be saved!!" The Lord (Jesus, God's Son) is so loving and filled with love for each and every one of us. I just hope that you all see his love and give him a chance before it is too late! I was pulled from an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety by The Lord and God and I hope that you all may find the peace that Jesus has to offer by seeking him as well. God bless! I mean no harm or offence to anyone who doesn't believe, you still deserve just as much love, and God has it for you!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
Living in a merciless world like this one, we will have to deal with a lot of issues but the fact that you are alive is gods will. Sending you a big hug, my friend
I just stumbled across your video. I am a Christian so these lyrics hit hard..even though I have been through a lot. I just want to say thank you for your bravery to be able to be so transparent with your reaction. Saying that it's hard for you to perceive those lyrics is so vulnerable. I do want to point out that satan will use depression to blind you to the fact that He (God) is everything the lyrics say. I can see the internal struggle still. I'm So glad you are doing well and will continue to pray for joy, peace and comfort from God for you!
@@JoelJacksonofficial The Holy Spirit 100% Jesus said that when he was going away he would send a comforter (meaning the Holy Spirit). Its not always easy to draw strength from that but between my relationship with Christ and the knowledge that I am not bound by what Satan tries to speak of, I am able to fight against that manipulation.
I'm also a suicidal survivor. And I sometimes when depression attacks me it's hard to believe in this song. But I still listen to this song whatever happens
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. I appreciate you and the world needs more people like you to say, hey, i get it. My daughter has struggled with mental health and suicide for 3 years now. She is doing so much better by the grace of God. As a parent, we do not know what to do accept to love her and accept who she is. That is what God does for us all, always. I will pray for you and let God do what only he can do in your life. "HE makes everything beautiful in it's time". Ecclesiastes
A long time , and to be a mother wanting to help must be a struggle also . We are here for her , you and all who live with the daily struggle. Much love
God was with you the whole time through those 6 years, everything you go through he goes through with you, and I know that because you survived! And now look at what your doing, you are helping people with mental health, I struggled with mental health and still do, but God has helped me and continues to. You where the 1 sheep and he found you and left the other 99 to do so! He will continuously accept you and everyone how ever many times it takes till you open your heart fully to him and not let go of him! God bless you brother🙏🏻
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
I grew up in church and struggled reconciling my belief with the destruction of my family after my mom died and when my dad remarried very very badly. I say this to affirm your real questions and not relegating them to general Christian pie-in-the-sky responses. I made a choice a long time ago to receive the Lord is my savior. I've stood by that choice but I know the questions. I appreciate people who walk with Christ who don't tell people that their faith wasn't strong enough or they didn't pray hard enough. I'm glad you're here and thank you for sharing your experience and your reaction.
Hi Joel, thanks for sharing this. I also struggled terribly with suicidal thoughts for years. I didn't know how to ask for help and struggled alone until it got so bad that I would wake up weeping because I didn't get to die in my sleep and had to live another day. I found my way to a church and opened my heart to God and He completely rocked my world by helping me to see and experience His love. It was a journey but He totally and complete saved me. He's not done yet, but God is faithful!
Joel, I came across this video and seeing the part where you say you miss worship and how you were thinking on going back. And now seeing your current video. YOU CAME BACK! God bless you Joel. God loves you!
You say you don't feel it at this time but that's what the meaning of the parable is. You said you were lost for six years with suicidal thoughts yet here you set, making RUclips videos, 25k subs. Your in a band doing things you love in support for awareness of what you went through. He carried you on his shoulders through those 6 years and even today as you read this. Me to brother, I am also a 1 in 99 and know after all I've been through he carried me to. Hope this finds you well and God bless you!
I relate a lot to what you've talked about. Although I never tried to take my life, I have had a plan to do that since I was a young young child. I decided to live in the 3rd grade, just to see what God has in store. Things in my life got worse, I became disabled, got miraculously healed, and now I'm learning to live. I'm grappling with the love of God. Since I'm not used to such a love from anyone, i struggle with pushing it away. But I'm getting more comfortable with His love, as well as getting more comfortable with fighting off the doubts and thoughts that say I am not loved by Him. it's an issue I'm healing from, and now that I have a will to live I'm doing my best to change my life for the better (changing form past thinking, trying to learn to love myself and accept Gods love, etc etc). A comforting thought I have is, no matter how i may feel, that doesn't change God's love for me. He isn't an insecure parent. He doesn't rely on our love to move. He doesn't give love once we love Him. He loves BECAUSE (because He is God, because He created us, BECAUSE). So, if I feel it or if I don't, His love always prevails and His love is always there. Thank you :]
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
Wow . I'm sorry to hear . Thats why we sing to prevent that. So many questiond unanswered but know it was not your fault . Each day mental health comes and goes , we know . Mental health isn't something that a quick pill can fix in a day , deciding each day to Not end your life, to keep fighting! You are strong ! Glad you are here with us
I lived a christian life, not that you could tell, but i never surrounded myself with broken, Christ loving people! I have been through hell and back! I couldn't understand why i wasn't seeing God help. Years later I have learned He is and has been with me! I pray you find your way back to Him fully!
As someone whose suffered from depression and suicidal thoughts since 14, I look back and see God holding me even when I felt alone and trying to hide what was happening from everyone in my life. You are here becasue He didn't give up on you. Try Cory's new album To Love A Fool, it is so good. It speaks to all the brokeness in my heart, mind and soul.
I really recommend you to read the story about Job. I think that will really make you understand how you should feel. Never lose faith❤️ Jesus will always love you
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
I did not know God when I was growing up, but HE knew me! I started having dreams and visions at an early age that would come true, some symbolic some to the point. I did not understand it for a long time, I was not raised in a Christian home, but in my 20s I started having dreams about the end times, which I had NO knowledge of, I mean NO knowledge, I had never read the Bible to speak of and I had this one dream that was so real I would wake up crying and I would tell my husband and he would say "go back to sleep its a stupid dream" I KNEW it was more than just a dream....I went to the Christian book store like shortly after I had one of those dreams. I bought it and got back in the car, and ripped the card board open and the book fell open to Job 33, and my eyes started reading at verse 12 “But I tell you, in this you are not right, for God is greater than any mortal. 13 Why do you complain to him that he responds to no one’s words[a]? 14 For God does speak-now one way, now another- though no one perceives it. 15 In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falls on people as they slumber in their beds, 16 he may speak in their ears and terrify them with warnings, 17 to turn them from wrongdoing and keep them from pride, 18 to preserve them from the pit, their lives from perishing by the sword. I was recked by HIS LOVE of me!!!! Right then I KNEW God was VERY REAL oh so very very real and he loved ME, I was so full of hurt and pain and doubt and I was so lost and had no Idea until he found me. And I stopped running from him and instead all the junk in my life made me RUN TO HIM!!!!! My life was so empty, but I was 27 then and now I am 50 the walk has had its difficulties and many times I moved away from him but every time he chased me down again, he NEVER stopped pursuing me. And its so hard to reconcile such a big GOD would love someone like me....but he does, despite my failures.
I’ll be praying for you bro, I personally don’t have the same experience but your stronger than you believe, the way back is hard but YOU ARE HERE, hallelujah lord Jesus
I was hopelessly lost in mental illness for years and how many times I just wanted to check out. That was until the day a friend of mine asked me what would I do if I did take my life and ended up before Him only for Him to ask “why didn’t you trust me” that did it, I’m still dealing with mental illness but I know that I won’t ever think of taking my own life again. The cross was enough and my savior paid the ultimate price for me!
I went through temptation about Jumping off a bridge, and I was Christian way back before temptation and I was trying to get more closer to God before temptation hit me. I prayed, and prayed, and prayed and temptation went away Jesus has been so good to me. Thank you for sharing your honest reaction, and I hope you find in your heart that Jesus is there, he knows what you go through talk to him and he will lead you through temptation, Amen. Also, Christian life is not perfect. Bye!
It’s 12:09 am in NC and I’ve been listening to songs like these for several hours,I feel God tugging at my heart. I too am suicidal survivor as well off and on and this song pulls very deeply . I suffer from anxiety,depression,ptsd,and occasional thoughts still and I just get through the day very hard. I just feel so alone. I am crying right now, I’m so glad I came across your channel and subscribed
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
I listen to this song and wonder when God will leave the 99 to go after my son. He’s had problems from the age of about 17. Suicidal with depression and anxiety. He’s now 39 and I’ve watched his life spiral into chaos over and over and over. We don’t know what to do any longer but pray and wait in faith. I just want him happy for once.
I am so proud of you for taking this step. Jesus was there with you the whole time and is still with you now. Job 33:4 The spirit of GOD has made me, and the breath of the Almighty has given me life.
Everything happens in time. You are still here and that is a blessing from god. Some times he just works behind everything else and you don’t even know he was there. I’m a 3 time war veteran and I know the struggle is vary real but just know god loves you so much. The kingdom of heaven is waiting for you someday and there is no pain and suffering there and it will be so beautiful. Keep your head up and your heart and soul in a great church that will help you and always be there for you.
I am also a Christian who struggles with suicidal ideation and attempts. I also took time away from my faith. When I struggle with lyrics like "Reckless love of God" I do what I can to remind myself that if God didn't love me recklessly I would not be alive today.
Looking back at my life, childhood abuse, followed by isolating illness as a teen/young adult, then after a couple years of health and thinking I had a new beginning, married someone who turned out mentally abusive and I not getting free until another nearly 20 years. A lot of why. I chose Jesus when I was five and apparently signed up for a war zone. He has been there though, I can see it every time the smoke clears. Rooting me deeper and now I can go deeper into the questions, like it seems you’re doing so honestly. We can ask them to the most honest presence possible and go where religion fears to. It’s gold, where you’re going with God. Where I’m at right now is asking where he was and why, like they are the shadows he can light up and doors he can kick down. I can’t resolve yet but if he wants relationship with all of my heart like he said he does than he can keep being the strong one and carry a person over or through trust issues.
I was in that same dark place. and Him chancing me down is what saved me in all ways. and I was on the road of the wicken path. but it was Jesus who came for me when I gave up and was drowning in depression wanting to die and planning it. This testamony in song is completely true for me, it took time and healing, but now NOTHING is more precious to me than Juses, who came to be my friend and loved me long before i loved myself. Thank you for your reaction. Please look into the song God Only Knows by King and Country. it is also about God reaching out. You'll get there. Just walk with him.
I felt suicidal for awhile and when I went to bible study I felt that God spoke to me. He told me that My Grace is enough for you. Nothing in this life will make you complete os satisfy you. Being thankful that you have a place in heaven because Jesus died and forgave u for every rotten thing you have done should bring u joy and thankfulness in life. Nothing can get your into heaven except for Gods love and forgiveness and its through Jesus that helps you get there.
You can find homeless ppl who still believe God’s been good to them and still love Him. It’s all in perspective and sometimes it takes looking at someone else’s life to realize how truly blessed we are. It also matters who the kind of ppl we surround ourselves with that determine our perspective. I pray God will show you and remind you of where He was in each moment of your life. As a suicide survivor myself, I empathize with you and pray you find peace.
Praise God you survived. You are so worth it. You might not be convinced of His love, but HE is utterly convinced. He has done it for you. Just accept it.
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
It's really hard to see you try to reconcile with it. So sorry you went through that ❤️ I can only imagine. I appreciate that you made this video. I'm so glad you've come back to a faith. I hope you're growing it still
Sometimes these songs don’t ring true to us until we finally encounter Him for real and recognize His reckless love for us through all the bad things. He climbs up the mountains and tears down the lies, but we have to learn to recognize His voice and the truth about who we are. The devil constantly whispers in our ears lying to us and WE BELIEVE HIM. It becomes easy to believe the lies and we begin to hate ourselves, which leads to suicide. Jesus wants us! Sometimes it doesn’t make sense, but believing Him and what He says about us makes the difference! Im gonna be praying over you! 🤍 be well!!
My best friend since childhood committed suicide December 10th 2021 and I'm really really struggling with accepting and moving on. I wish I had known she was struggling she lived 5 hours from me and we kind of lost contact and it just rips my heart out that she's gone and this song really really speaks to my heart
It's interesting hearing your comments that you struggled with the "chasing you down" line... while you survived your suicidal tendencies...That was literally God chasing you down! 🥰 I know this was posted three years ago, I truly hope you've come to that realization since this 💝
After having attempted suicide before, I can understand how it’s hard to understand how true lyrics are. I was a Christian and lost faith but after my attempt I made an attempt to get close to Him again and realized that He was always there even if I didn’t see Him. He meant for us to go through times of hurt and suffering and that’s when He works on us the most because we’re so vulnerable already. This is just my personal experience though. ♥️ God Bless
I was once a lost sheep going through the same things you did for years. Jesus loves me and he loves you too. I'm not mad at Him for "letting" me go through those things. I'm grateful He kept trying to reach me.
God will use those 6 years of despair to reach the hearts of many. All things work together for the good. Every dark road we travel will bring light to others so they too can find their way. No hurt goes to waste. I love your honesty. That level of honesty is what Christ longs for; us bringing our authentic selves to him. You have walked through the valley of the shadow of death, through the deep waters...and it didn't kill you. You survived. You are an over comer. When you fully get to the other side of this stretch in your journey you will look back and know he was there all the time. Bless you.
The way I reconcile these songs when i might not see or feel the lyrics is with what scripture says. I might not feel God is there but his word says he never leaves us. I've learned for me that my emotions don't equal what's truth. I pray you continue to find God's truth in his word for the rest of your life. You're heart and soul is beautiful.
My friends understand that one day we will truly understand how much the Lord loves us and how much he truly was with us every waking moment. For 6 years u felt lonely and had suicidal thoughts and bc of that u feel like Jesus didn't even look ur way but in reality for 6 years the enemy tried to kill u every waking moment and yet here u are. How many ppl have ended themselves in a year or less. In the grand scheme of life we don't see things as they really are. And even if the strength to hold on was all u had in those days understand that that grace didn't come from u. Bc even the very breath u are taking right now comes from a loving father that can only be perceived through faith in the sacrifice and the victory of that sacrifice. Which on its own is worthy of all Thanksgiving and praise. The enemy still fights u but since he couldn't take ur life he will do all to steal or destroy ur relationship with the father. If you can't find any common ground with the goodness of God in your life. Start with the basics. Go back to the cross. Much love and I'm happy your are still here 💛😊
I like the way you deal with the comments with great respect. Perhaps this song is not for everyone, but I believe it has helped a lot of people in difficult situations. Cory Asbury is a wonderful person. Even if it doesn't appeal for a help seeker, taken as a song, it is wonderful just as a music lover.
Hey I just found you on youtube today. I been dealing with suicide depression for as long as I can remember and I'm 30. Even though I love God I had always been mad at him and I told him many times to let me just go. I couldn't see the light but this year since the covid I been able to really sit and talk and scream to him about everything I been feeling. Were there was no light now I can see the light and I just want to run toward it and never let look back. I know I can't run yet but so if a walk or crawl is all I need to get there I will. The fact that he carried me though so much I can't express how thankful I am to have found him. I will all so subscribe to your channel.
Hi Joel. Hope you are well. Many times we don’t see God at work when we are going through stuff. But later when we look back we can see His hand. Even in things we didn’t realise could have destroyed us. Keep growing in faith bro. 🙏
Its absolutely beautiful if you just thought about everything he has done for you. You focus on your past and you dwell on the same thoughts that almost made you end it all. There is hope for you and there is love waiting for you if you just accept it my guy.
God never leaves. He was always there using people to chase u down..... As long as we're on this earth bones will still break, hearts will still break. But his promise of eternity remains. God bless u
Hi Joel! i am grateful for this video reaction, and i am grateful that u are still alive ❤ i don't know u but thru my Father in heavens i just want u to know that u are a loved by Him thru everyone around u❤
I can relate a lot to your story. I was raised in a Christian family so God and Jesus was a normal thing to me right from my earliest memories. As a teen I really struggled with my mental health. I struggled with depression, major anxiety, suicidal thoughts. I was careless in my actions with zero regard to my wellbeing because I had no self worth. I barely felt worthy to be considered human most of the time. I understand your struggle with this song in terms of God's love coming for us because you didn't have any physical or memorable moment during that time to confirm this. In my struggle I also didn't sense him or feel he was ever there. I truly saw nothing through the darkness, no sense of hope. But now that I have a relationship with God, when I look back to those dark times I remember him being there. I remember his presence being there with me as I cried myself to sleep feeling absolutely worthless. He never left my side no matter what I was doing. I remember him comforting me even when I couldn't feel it in the moment. The more time you spend with him and get to know him personally the more you'll see the impact he's truly had in your life. I love that although you struggle to believe or relate to parts of this song you are still open to the chances what he's singing could be true. I pray blessings and revelation of who God is to come upon you in Jesus mighty name, amen.
I was raised by a single mother who had schizoaffective disorder. My father was hardly present and was an alcoholic and sex addict. At the age of 10, I told God that if He existed and loved me why did He allow so much pain in my life. Then I said that I didn't believe in Him anymore and became an atheist from that point forward. In His patient love for me, after I ran and ran and ran, trying to find peace through so many other things, I am so blessed to say I am His child and He left the 99 to find the 1.
Let me say this my friend I’m was a lifelong atheist for 54 years, I’m also an NDEr and OBEr, I died 4 years ago because of a breathing issue I used to have I can’t assure that God and Jesus loves you in ways that we will never comprehend, their love is so intense and pure that we can’t imagine it I never thought for a second that this God and Jesus and heaven and all that was real at all, to me it was just a crazy thing that religious people talk about I’m still not religious nor I will ever be because religion is not of God but of man, but the love and peace and joy that he have for every single soul on this side of heaven is indescribable, he is and has always been with you, but your thoughts and fears have kept you away from him All thoughts are all lies all the time about everything, let go of thoughts and fears and there you will find them I wish you well my friend, and many blessings
I’ve suffered from suicidal thoughts. I’ve had the lows where I didn’t hear God and the lows where I did. My faith has caused some pain in that too. But it was the thing I wouldn’t let go. And it always ended up being my sanity and comfort. It takes time for me to wrestle with what is. Distinguishing between what I think is true and what God says is true. Even when I don’t feel the relief or see the point to the pain, I knew eventually it would make sense. That there are times when God feels close and so far away. But he is there. I listened to this song last night and I realized part of the reason depression is so hard is because it’s like trying to love and being heart broken 77x, forgiving people 77x, trying again for the 77th time, and nothing changing. So what’s the point? When will it these feelings end? What if every time I try to love or live in purpose it falls apart? What if I’m tried and tired? And then God said, that’s my job. It was never meant to be this way. I think depression is like dying while awake, grieving with no end or reason, it’s isolating, and it’s a circle of hell on this earth. It’s a prison that God breaks into. Because he never wanted it for us. And to know what heart break is and what rejection is, is to know the the world and to know the cross. To know the limits of myself and God.
I tried suicide as a teen. Had suicide thoughts as a young adult. Gave my life to Jesus at 18. While I was getting too know him I was still struggling with suicide thoughts. One night 14 years later at 31 years old I was at a mens bible group and they prayed for me and I was delivered from suicide thoughts . He has shown his self too me so many times that my faith will never waiver now
Your honest opinion made me subscribe. Here to see God work through you . If you happen to see my comment know that I'm happy to see you still here 😊🙏🙌
Thank you as we are happy you are here with us . After the movie " rock for jesus" there was a calling or as people say a purpose to be a vlice for those who don't and do not know where to go . Appreciate you
He kept you here, He wants you to come to Him, He cares for you and loves you, He can break every chain from your past and free you! Sending love and praying ❤
I pray that God opens your heart to Him completely and floods your life with His love and grace. You are not still here by accident I promise you! God Bless you!
Agreed . We are here to sprsad mental health awareness. What we go through others go through and we want to show and tell that they are not alone and we all can get through this!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
prayers for you, Joel! I pray that you'll find the source to your joyfulness! Don't give up trying to seek for the Lord with all your heart. I used to be Catholic and Taoist, but never really interested in both religions. I wouldn't call myself an athiest, but rather, i knew that there is a God out there, but never figured out who, and who would save me from 4 and a half years of excruciating pain. It's a gradual and supernatural journey, i used to be in the shoes of those who are struggling in their faith as a Christian. I would question things a lot and wanted to backslide, but everytime i tried to backslide, hell would always come knocking at my door to keep me captive in pain. I would run back to God because of me disobeying and refusing to let the Lord lead, facing many scary and overwhelmingly painful things in life, because i chose to go my own ways. Even when i disobeyed, He still loves me even though i rejected Him. He never planned for us to be in pain, but He just wants us to trust in Him with all our hearts and lean not onto our own understanding. He will keep on sending signs to turn back to our First Lover (Holy Spirit) in many different ways that we wouldn't even recognize. If you ever need any help and or are questioning your walk with God, you can always ask/reply to my comment. God bless you, Joel.
Your honesty is truly a gift. And throughout the years you struggled, you did not die. You are still here. I do not wish to minimize in any way what you have battled and fought through but only wanted to highlight this thought- you may not have perceived God's help and have battled for years but God did not let you die. You are still here. I see that as a testament of His love towards you to sustain you even till now to keep you fighting and alive to share your story. Thank you for being so transparent. May the Lord bless you and keep you and shine His face upon you.
Yes! You got it! This song is written after a lost soul was found. It can be hard to relate when in a lost place. But the enemy wants us to believe God isnt with us. Hes just here to kill steal and destroy. But God is more powerful and He is love.
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
God loves his children im so sorry you went through that, i used to be depressed, i lost 2 dogs in the span of a month and my grandma and had a porn addiction i felt the Holy Spirit one day at a church conference. sometimes we have to be the ones to allow him in our lives Jesus wont force anything onto us he just reminds us he’s there. you just have to accept him and love him. God loves you so deeply, he treasures you so much He was with you during your failed attempt and He’s still there! I love you and Jesus loves you!!
Thanks for sharing your story and being open with your struggles. Community is where we can grow one another and help find our identity and hope in Christ. You're a mighty warrior to have overcome all that has come against you so far in your life. Believing for blessings and your faith to grow so much more than you could have ever possibly imagined. God loves you so much.
I pray this song will touch everyone wrestling with suicide or suicidal thoughts, it’s not a cliche and it’s not rederick, God loves you even when this world doesn’t make it look like it. You were handcrafted by Him and at your lowest He offers hope.
I think something that helped me after dealing with years of severe anxiety and it feeling like God just wasn't there for me was remembering that Jesus suffered so much in His life too. Not just the Crucifixion (though of course that's the big one), but being rejected over and over, by strangers and His closest friends alike, being subject to temptation and betrayal and trials and fear so intense He sweat blood. He was fully human so He experienced the range of emotions we feel too, and can understand us and walk with us in our pain. He never promised that we would happy on this earth, which believe me I know is really hard to accept at times, especially when it seems so many people are happy and healthy and have never dealt with these issues. But He does promise us love and understanding and true joy in Heaven, and we can find bits and pieces of that joy here on earth and share it with others. And because of what we've been through, we can help others going through the same thing, and even have a deeper relationship with Christ because we've suffered on this earth as He suffered. We can't feel true joy without carrying our own cross, and it's okay if it gets too heavy sometimes, even Jesus fell while carrying it and needed help, but He understands and walks with us. He's not a spectator to our pain, He feels it with us
Absolutely appreciate your honesty about accepting God's grace sometimes. Just remember that the devil is also powerful he fights for you to give up and come back to him. God will never give up on you. Just stay focused on the lord when you doubt. 🙏
Hi, this is the first video I watched from your channel. I don't know you but deep down in my heart, I can see how strong you are. I don't know it's weird to feel this way to a stranger but I guess that's what God put in my heart when I stumble in your channel. Thank you for your honesty and humble reaction to the video. I'm your new subscriber :) Looking forward to your another Christian music reaction. God bless you! EDITED: and by the way, it's okay not to feel what you should be feeling in hearing the message of the song and the scripture that the lead singer shared. It's okay. But here's the thing, Jesus loves you unconditionally. It's hard to believe especially when we have that negative thoughts in our heads and all that we've been through.. it's hard to believe. But give God a try. Ask Him to reveal Himself to you. Just try. There's nothing to lose. I love you brother :)
It’s hard to open up with that pain and trust that He wants to take it and bare it. He wants it and deserves praise because he bore it all. It wrecks my ego all the time and the purest joy arises He is goodness We all struggle brother and I am encouraged by you. Thanks
I’m sorry you have gone and going through such hard times.my heart goes out to you.i do know what it’s like to be in the state you are in.I’m almost 50 divorced and no kids.suffered with depression and self harm for more then thirty years.suicide always on my mind and one failed attempt.such a deep and dark hole and almost impossible to get out of.they say God doesn’t put more on you then you can handle,then why do people kill them selves.I’m covered in scars,scars of madness that when I look at brings all those feelings back.the turning point that bought myself back to God is when I help the gun to my head and pulled the trigger it didn’t go off.new gun and bullets.no reason it shouldn’t have but God’s intervention.so I do know what you are feeling and going through.you are not alone and we all have a purpose.i think God for the blessing in my life.they may seem small to others but are blessing all the same.you are brave to put yourself out there the way you did.thank you for doing so and bringing awareness.sending you prayers of strength and healing.love you my brother in Christ
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
Our finite life is so short compared to the wonder of eternal happiness that God wants us to share with Him. ETERNITY is a long....unfathomable even. If you realize this, then the suffering you face in your life up till now...seems almost like a blessing. I have been through a lot as well, two attempted suicides, turned away from Him, had a bunch of surgeries for health related reasons....but once I started turning back to Him and building a relationship with Him, life has become beautiful. Much love brother.
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Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord SHALL be saved!!" The Lord (Jesus, God's Son) is so loving and filled with love for each and every one of us. I just hope that you all see his love and give him a chance before it is too late! I was pulled from an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety by The Lord and God and I hope that you all may find the peace that Jesus has to offer by seeking him as well. God bless! I mean no harm or offence to anyone who doesn't believe, you still deserve just as much love, and God has it for you!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
The Holy Spirit entered my body. i really felt it when he entered me. i was filled with peace, love and comfort. God shared his love with me and gave me understanding of how much he really loves all of us. God loves the worst person out there. Even a murderer who killed 50 million ppl. God said he loves that person and hes ready to forgive them if only they ask. He's ready and willing to forgive u and remember ur sins no more. It was love that none of us could express. God told me he doesnt want hell for any of us. Hes not mean at all like some of us may see him. He only warns us because he loves us so much and wants us being reconciled back to him. I felt the holy spirit grieve in me. i started weeping nonstop for hours. The Holy Spirit was weeping for all the lost souls. He told me to pray and plead with God for forgiveness, mercy, grace and more time for all the lost sinners. pray that they come into a repentance and God softens their heart. God doesn't want hell for us. He weeps when 1 soul goes to hell. The lil bit of grief he allowed me to feel was too much for me to bear. i told God i cant handle this grief. its too much for me. God took the grief away from me. He just wanted me to know how high, deep and wide his love really is. I had hate for my enemy and unforgiveness but God gave me HIS OWN love for my enemy. And now i have love for my enemy and ive been trying to help him get saved and be reconciled back to God. There's no way u can love ur enemies on ur own. U can only love ur enemies when u SHARE in Gods love 😊💖 God is truly beautiful and he loves you so much. He doesnt want bad for u. He wants u to know and feel how much he loves you and he is for u 😊💖 we may fail God and get mad at him, but God will never fail us and will never leave us. I know this from experience😊 Jesus loves u 💖😊 read the bible starting in the book of John 😊 The NLT version is more easier to understand than KJV 😊💖
My I suggest you an album- Morning Star - Fly me like the wind. The 4th track is a testimony type song that may speak to you. I love the 2nd track starting about 10 minutes in.
Also I am someone who has had times in life that ending seems better than living but it has been my Faith in God that has kept me instead of loosing it because of my thoughts. Bless you brother. Look up the poem footprints as well.
Did you ever attempt to seek God while going through your suicidal times? If you weren't then maybe that's why you feel like you had to do it all alone. I can sense you were upset at God. Funny thing is, God is literally telling YOU that you're that 1 he left the 99 for. It's no coincidence that you listened to this song. God Bless You!😊❤🙏
I'm a more than once survivor of suicide...God literally saved me...thank you Jesus!!!!!❤
Thats awesome !
Yes!!!! God has me here for a reason, for sure....
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
@@vanessabunnie9262 beautiful testimony😊 so glad God has you still here to fulfill the amazing plans for good and not evil for you.😁 God first👆🏼
@@vanessabunnie9262 what a power testimony ❤️❤️ God has a plan for your life. To God be all the glory!! ❤️❤️❤️
He was in the heart of the doctor who pumped you stomach. He was with the emy giving you compressions. He was with the friends who had the gut feeling to check on you... and they actually followed that. He was there when you were running far from him. He was there when your family hit you, crying with you, knowing he agreed to let us be free to be good or sadly evil. HE IS HERE FOR YOU. He wants to give you a huge hug and just let you cry and yell and let it all out to him.
I was a very depressed child and teen. I was suicidal too and I called out to God if he was real and a few days later met a friend at school that was Christian and took me to her church and God broke down all those traumatic things that happened to me in an instant.. what my psychologist and therapist couldn’t do.. The thing is even though I didn’t have a clue about him, He already knew me. What’s amazing is He heard my cry!! HE saw ME when no one did!!!
And tore down those walls and lies , ain't it awesomeness! #mentalhealthmatters mari - don't stop sharing your story girl !
We are an overcomer by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony ❤️❤️❤️
@@momentmade6525 great words and song!
Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord SHALL be saved!!" The Lord (Jesus, God's Son) is so loving and filled with love for each and every one of us. I just hope that you all see his love and give him a chance before it is too late! I was pulled from an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety by The Lord and God and I hope that you all may find the peace that Jesus has to offer by seeking him as well. God bless! I mean no harm or offence to anyone who doesn't believe, you still deserve just as much love, and God has it for you!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
Opening your heart to God is a start, for you to see his love and wonders in your life, even the toughest hearts cant resist his love, God bless you brother
To see so much more that our eyes are veiled from for sure
that's true
Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord SHALL be saved!!" The Lord (Jesus, God's Son) is so loving and filled with love for each and every one of us. I just hope that you all see his love and give him a chance before it is too late! I was pulled from an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety by The Lord and God and I hope that you all may find the peace that Jesus has to offer by seeking him as well. God bless! I mean no harm or offence to anyone who doesn't believe, you still deserve just as much love, and God has it for you!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
@@JoelJacksonofficial Please repent all of your sins to God , become a Christian , get saved . I don't want you, your friends and family to go to hell. God is real, Jesus is real , Heaven is real and the Holy Bible is real everything in it happended it is not a book filled with fairy tales. Prayer works it is important let's be all prayer warriors. Hell is real hot, if you go there you will be in pain all the time no convert no happiness. You will also won't see your friends , family or pets. Prayer for the unbelievers they need our prayers more than ever . don't get the chip because it's the mark of the beast you will not enter Heaven if you get it. Help other non Christians get saved God wants all of us to get saved, repent, become a Christian . also pray for satan to become a Christian only do good , repent and get saved to get to go to Heaven.
Hey Joel, thank you for your honest reaction. I just found your channel and I can see you are a genuine, caring person. The Lord wants to tell you that He was there with you the whole time when you were in your sunken place. He is still here with you. Those days of loneliness and negative voices coming against you, know Jesus was holding your hand and He still is. Don’t lose faith. You are here for a purpose. You are a living testimony. It may not feel like it now but know you are in God’s Hands. “A thousand may come at your side and ten thousand at your right hand but none will come near you.” Psalms 91:7, what happened in those six years should not be brushed aside because it is part of your testimony. However, know God Has written your future too. Your past will help those get out of suicide and depression because of your experience but know your future that God has written will bless those because your are an example of a living testimony. Do not be discouraged, Jesus got you. I pray your relationship with Him will flourish and that the Holy Spirit will give you divine peace and joy. “Because he hold fast to me in love, I will deliver him; I will protect him, because he knows my name. When he calls to me, I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will rescue him and honor him.” Psalm 91:14-15. Don’t let your past relationship with the church define your future relationship with Jesus now. Jesus is still holding your hand. He never let go. God Bless you brother ❤️
Wow . Yes and yes. I hope others read this and are encouraged and inspired . Thank you
Thank you❤️ I needed to hear this and almost didn’t read until I saw the other comment. We are all here right now for a divine and mighty purpose.
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
Amen!
Lots of love and prayers!
@@vanessabunnie9262 this was so inspiring to me . What a great testimony!
I am a survivor too. I was away from the Lord for many years. Satan is a liar , he tricks us to believe God does not care. The night i tried again to take my life satan thought he had me. I made to the next day & my dad took me to church . The preacher topic was on suicide & the steps there. That was me. I cried the whole sermon. God picked me out of the whole church to use a message I needed to hear. My life changed that night for the rest of my life. I surrendered my life to Him to lead me & protect me from future thoughts. Thank you for listening
The simple fact of being a survivor, of being alive is a sign of His love for you, brother!
I see that you mentioned both the community of the church and a relationship that went wrong, and I'm not judging you, but we all sometimes fail to depend on other people to be happy, but humans are fallible! Only God is perfect and won't ever let you down.
I'm praying for you bro! Praying for all of you guys on the band :)
"Though my father and mother forsake me,
the Lord will receive me."
Psalm 27:10
Hey man, stumbled across this channel in my recommendations, and found this video. I’m a Christian, so naturally, i was drawn to watch your reaction to this song. I have no idea what it was like to go through the mental distress and turmoil of deep depression or mental issues, but if you were rooted (truly rooted) in Christ prior to all of this, I’m sure He was there in your recovery process. Maybe all the times you tried to end it but couldn’t (like I said, idk your story) or when you felt you couldn’t get up anymore to fight to keep your life, He was the one giving you the strength to push forward out of that state. You made it through! God obvious has a call on your life and you obviously have an amazing testimony to share. It’s by no accident you’re still here after all you’ve been through! I urge you to diligently seek him (prayer, the Bible, and worship) and watch how quickly you began to find yourself in the process! That’s how it was for me. God bless you! 🙂
Agreed! After creating the movie " Rock for Jesus"
Onelife heard the calling to create onelife and continue singing . Though the pandemic has changed things, we continue here online .
Thank you for standing by us and with us!
Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord SHALL be saved!!" The Lord (Jesus, God's Son) is so loving and filled with love for each and every one of us. I just hope that you all see his love and give him a chance before it is too late! I was pulled from an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety by The Lord and God and I hope that you all may find the peace that Jesus has to offer by seeking him as well. God bless! I mean no harm or offence to anyone who doesn't believe, you still deserve just as much love, and God has it for you!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
I am so proud of you for taking this step. Lord thank you for him, Amen.
Thank you! Do you have Facebook or Instagram?
I understand your reaction when you said it's hard for you to reconcile with those words because I am also a suicide survivor, I suffer daily with BPD and PTSD and not getting the correct therapy to help cope emotionally with my situations that usually end up in alot of sadness and depression...
One thing I've learned is that God didn't cause all of those bad things to happen to us, Satan did. Satan wants us to feel all of these things and to turn away from God but the power of God is a good overwhelming feeling and if you keep your faith, keep going you will see at the end of the day that he has fought some fights right with you and look at the things you have missed or could've gotten yourself into but didn't, I truly believe Jesus is right next to each and everyone of us through the good and the bad but we have to seek Him! Seek in the Lord and you will find, it doesn't say "seek in the Lord during the good times and you will find" it doesn't say "seek in the Lord during the bad times and you will find" no, it specifically says, "seek in the Lord and you will find!" I just wanted to point that out because it has helped me alot!
Also "Have I not commanded you? Do not be afraid; Do not be discouraged, Be courageous, says the Lord, your God, who is with you wherever you go" -Joshua 1:9
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
hope you're doing well now, please stay here. God has plans to prosper you not to harm you (Jeremiah 29:11)
Even when we don’t see HIM working, HE is always with us, around us and carrying us. HE will soften your heart just let HIM in. I am a prodigal and literally felt my hard heart crack and start to soften as I opened up to HIM. Seek HIM, HE will be there.
Ask God for discernment of your mind , body, soul and Spirit... I've been in the same boat as you...but I was watching your eyes..the Compassion in your heart must be massive..I see it..you survived for a purpose..someone or many someones needed you to be alive. maybe it's me you touched..because you did...❤🙏
Thank you for the advice :)
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
The fact that you're still here shows that He was there all along. He loves you and I pray you find your way back to Him.
The fact that you no longer are suicidal and are finding new faith in god is proof that he was there for you during that 6 year period of pain. When we dont feel him is when he is the closest. Love you brother
Numbers 6:24-26
24- “May the Lord bless you and protect you.”
25- “May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you.”
26- “May the Lord show you his favor and give you his peace.”
God has a plan for you and it will be amazing. Stay strong. God loves you no matter how many mistakes you make. He will always be there waiting for you.
Love your honesty. I'm a therapist, yet I can't pretend to know what you went through, how low those 6 years must have been. I guess even the disciples doubted Jesus sometimes and I know I have for various reasons. All I can say is I'm so glad you were here to post this video and I'm praying you're in an even better place now.
He never leaves us. We give up on Him sometimes when we don’t get the answer we want. We can never feel or imagine the pain that Jesus went through for us. My heart is broken as I have went through a loss that was so devastating, but I know The Lord’s promise and I will never give up my hope in Him. God bless you all.
And you will see them again ! Sorry for your loss 😔
Day by day you can heal
Thank you for being a part of mental health matters
i know you said you didn't have any percieved help during that low time in your life, but look at you now!! YOUR ARE STILL ALIVE with God's breath in your lungs!! Praise God He brought you through it !!
Love what you are doing right now. May God blesses you.
Thank you Janet. God gave Onelife a purpose and even more today it is needed. Appreciate that and your watching
Romans 10:13 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord SHALL be saved!!" The Lord (Jesus, God's Son) is so loving and filled with love for each and every one of us. I just hope that you all see his love and give him a chance before it is too late! I was pulled from an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety by The Lord and God and I hope that you all may find the peace that Jesus has to offer by seeking him as well. God bless! I mean no harm or offence to anyone who doesn't believe, you still deserve just as much love, and God has it for you!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
"When you go through difficult times it changes the way you sing these lyrics" Well said.
Living in a merciless world like this one, we will have to deal with a lot of issues but the fact that you are alive is gods will. Sending you a big hug, my friend
Hugs are powerful! Virtual? Even . Thank you for it all! We press on being a voice for mental health
I just stumbled across your video. I am a Christian so these lyrics hit hard..even though I have been through a lot. I just want to say thank you for your bravery to be able to be so transparent with your reaction. Saying that it's hard for you to perceive those lyrics is so vulnerable. I do want to point out that satan will use depression to blind you to the fact that He (God) is everything the lyrics say. I can see the internal struggle still. I'm So glad you are doing well and will continue to pray for joy, peace and comfort from God for you!
This band onelife is what gives purpose to us all and helps the depression inside
What helps you?
@@JoelJacksonofficial The Holy Spirit 100% Jesus said that when he was going away he would send a comforter (meaning the Holy Spirit). Its not always easy to draw strength from that but between my relationship with Christ and the knowledge that I am not bound by what Satan tries to speak of, I am able to fight against that manipulation.
I'm also a suicidal survivor. And I sometimes when depression attacks me it's hard to believe in this song. But I still listen to this song whatever happens
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
@@vanessabunnie9262 praise God. Thanks for your amazing testimony
hope you're doing better now. God loves you so much and he has good plans for you. trust Him
Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. I appreciate you and the world needs more people like you to say, hey, i get it. My daughter has struggled with mental health and suicide for 3 years now. She is doing so much better by the grace of God. As a parent, we do not know what to do accept to love her and accept who she is. That is what God does for us all, always. I will pray for you and let God do what only he can do in your life. "HE makes everything beautiful in it's time". Ecclesiastes
A long time , and to be a mother wanting to help must be a struggle also . We are here for her , you and all who live with the daily struggle. Much love
God was with you the whole time through those 6 years, everything you go through he goes through with you, and I know that because you survived! And now look at what your doing, you are helping people with mental health, I struggled with mental health and still do, but God has helped me and continues to. You where the 1 sheep and he found you and left the other 99 to do so! He will continuously accept you and everyone how ever many times it takes till you open your heart fully to him and not let go of him! God bless you brother🙏🏻
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
I grew up in church and struggled reconciling my belief with the destruction of my family after my mom died and when my dad remarried very very badly. I say this to affirm your real questions and not relegating them to general Christian pie-in-the-sky responses. I made a choice a long time ago to receive the Lord is my savior. I've stood by that choice but I know the questions. I appreciate people who walk with Christ who don't tell people that their faith wasn't strong enough or they didn't pray hard enough. I'm glad you're here and thank you for sharing your experience and your reaction.
Hi Joel, thanks for sharing this. I also struggled terribly with suicidal thoughts for years. I didn't know how to ask for help and struggled alone until it got so bad that I would wake up weeping because I didn't get to die in my sleep and had to live another day. I found my way to a church and opened my heart to God and He completely rocked my world by helping me to see and experience His love. It was a journey but He totally and complete saved me. He's not done yet, but God is faithful!
Everytime those thoughts come up, I remember there's someone who loves me so much he died for me and He'll do it again and again.
It puts me through.
Joel, I came across this video and seeing the part where you say you miss worship and how you were thinking on going back. And now seeing your current video. YOU CAME BACK! God bless you Joel. God loves you!
You say you don't feel it at this time but that's what the meaning of the parable is. You said you were lost for six years with suicidal thoughts yet here you set, making RUclips videos, 25k subs. Your in a band doing things you love in support for awareness of what you went through. He carried you on his shoulders through those 6 years and even today as you read this. Me to brother, I am also a 1 in 99 and know after all I've been through he carried me to. Hope this finds you well and God bless you!
Survivor here, another one is Priceless, it really touched me.
Plumb - in his arms, hit me hard when I didn't have a faith
Your survival is the proof He came for you my friend. He was, is, and will always be there for you. Stay strong, keep up the good work, and God bless!
I relate a lot to what you've talked about. Although I never tried to take my life, I have had a plan to do that since I was a young young child. I decided to live in the 3rd grade, just to see what God has in store.
Things in my life got worse, I became disabled, got miraculously healed, and now I'm learning to live. I'm grappling with the love of God. Since I'm not used to such a love from anyone, i struggle with pushing it away. But I'm getting more comfortable with His love, as well as getting more comfortable with fighting off the doubts and thoughts that say I am not loved by Him.
it's an issue I'm healing from, and now that I have a will to live I'm doing my best to change my life for the better (changing form past thinking, trying to learn to love myself and accept Gods love, etc etc). A comforting thought I have is, no matter how i may feel, that doesn't change God's love for me. He isn't an insecure parent. He doesn't rely on our love to move. He doesn't give love once we love Him. He loves BECAUSE (because He is God, because He created us, BECAUSE). So, if I feel it or if I don't, His love always prevails and His love is always there.
Thank you :]
Buddy you are breathing so God has been so so good to you.
True bruh so true
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
@@vanessabunnie9262 God bless you, thank you for sharing your testimony!
So much support coming from here. I still struggle with suicidal thoughts. My sister commited suicide in 2000. Praying for you!!
Wow . I'm sorry to hear . Thats why we sing to prevent that. So many questiond unanswered but know it was not your fault .
Each day mental health comes and goes , we know . Mental health isn't something that a quick pill can fix in a day , deciding each day to Not end your life, to keep fighting!
You are strong !
Glad you are here with us
GOD IS WITH YOU - ALWAYS! 🤍 He loves you and never leaves you.
We don’t have to w@it to feel Gods love but first trust that his word is true without question and he first loved us.
“Even if” by mercy me is hreat🌹
We will look it up thanks!
YOU are the ONE he left the 99 for, I’m watching this May 17th 2022, you’re still here❤️❤️❤️❤️
Satan provides tragedy. God Almighty is always there to pick up the pieces. Blessings over you 🙏💕🙏💕🙏
Always provides a way
I lived a christian life, not that you could tell, but i never surrounded myself with broken, Christ loving people! I have been through hell and back! I couldn't understand why i wasn't seeing God help. Years later I have learned He is and has been with me! I pray you find your way back to Him fully!
As someone whose suffered from depression and suicidal thoughts since 14, I look back and see God holding me even when I felt alone and trying to hide what was happening from everyone in my life. You are here becasue He didn't give up on you. Try Cory's new album To Love A Fool, it is so good. It speaks to all the brokeness in my heart, mind and soul.
I really recommend you to read the story about Job. I think that will really make you understand how you should feel. Never lose faith❤️ Jesus will always love you
Great book and so many good studies on it
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
@@vanessabunnie9262 I’m glad u got to know him🤩🤩Stay strong💪 thank you for sharing your story
I did not know God when I was growing up, but HE knew me! I started having dreams and visions at an early age that would come true, some symbolic some to the point. I did not understand it for a long time, I was not raised in a Christian home, but in my 20s I started having dreams about the end times, which I had NO knowledge of, I mean NO knowledge, I had never read the Bible to speak of and I had this one dream that was so real I would wake up crying and I would tell my husband and he would say "go back to sleep its a stupid dream" I KNEW it was more than just a dream....I went to the Christian book store like shortly after I had one of those dreams. I bought it and got back in the car, and ripped the card board open and the book fell open to Job 33, and my eyes started reading at verse 12 “But I tell you, in this you are not right,
for God is greater than any mortal.
13 Why do you complain to him
that he responds to no one’s words[a]?
14 For God does speak-now one way, now another-
though no one perceives it.
15 In a dream, in a vision of the night,
when deep sleep falls on people
as they slumber in their beds,
16 he may speak in their ears
and terrify them with warnings,
17 to turn them from wrongdoing
and keep them from pride,
18 to preserve them from the pit,
their lives from perishing by the sword.
I was recked by HIS LOVE of me!!!! Right then I KNEW God was VERY REAL oh so very very real and he loved ME, I was so full of hurt and pain and doubt and I was so lost and had no Idea until he found me. And I stopped running from him and instead all the junk in my life made me RUN TO HIM!!!!! My life was so empty, but I was 27 then and now I am 50 the walk has had its difficulties and many times I moved away from him but every time he chased me down again, he NEVER stopped pursuing me. And its so hard to reconcile such a big GOD would love someone like me....but he does, despite my failures.
I’ll be praying for you bro, I personally don’t have the same experience but your stronger than you believe, the way back is hard but YOU ARE HERE, hallelujah lord Jesus
I was hopelessly lost in mental illness for years and how many times I just wanted to check out. That was until the day a friend of mine asked me what would I do if I did take my life and ended up before Him only for Him to ask “why didn’t you trust me” that did it, I’m still dealing with mental illness but I know that I won’t ever think of taking my own life again. The cross was enough and my savior paid the ultimate price for me!
I went through temptation about Jumping off a bridge, and I was Christian way back before temptation and I was trying to get more closer to God before temptation hit me. I prayed, and prayed, and prayed and temptation went away Jesus has been so good to me. Thank you for sharing your honest reaction, and I hope you find in your heart that Jesus is there, he knows what you go through talk to him and he will lead you through temptation, Amen. Also, Christian life is not perfect. Bye!
I'm Christian and I'm so happy that you were so honest with this reaction!!! Hope you fine ur inner peace!!! God bless!!!
It’s 12:09 am in NC and I’ve been listening to songs like these for several hours,I feel God tugging at my heart. I too am suicidal survivor as well off and on and this song pulls very deeply . I suffer from anxiety,depression,ptsd,and occasional thoughts still and I just get through the day very hard. I just feel so alone. I am crying right now, I’m so glad I came across your channel and subscribed
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
hope you're doing better now. God loves you so much and he has good plans for you. Trust God.
I listen to this song and wonder when God will leave the 99 to go after my son. He’s had problems from the age of about 17. Suicidal with depression and anxiety. He’s now 39 and I’ve watched his life spiral into chaos over and over and over. We don’t know what to do any longer but pray and wait in faith. I just want him happy for once.
I am so proud of you for taking this step. Jesus was there with you the whole time and is still with you now. Job 33:4 The spirit of GOD has made me, and the breath of the Almighty has given me life.
Everything happens in time. You are still here and that is a blessing from god. Some times he just works behind everything else and you don’t even know he was there. I’m a 3 time war veteran and I know the struggle is vary real but just know god loves you so much. The kingdom of heaven is waiting for you someday and there is no pain and suffering there and it will be so beautiful. Keep your head up and your heart and soul in a great church that will help you and always be there for you.
I am also a Christian who struggles with suicidal ideation and attempts. I also took time away from my faith. When I struggle with lyrics like "Reckless love of God" I do what I can to remind myself that if God didn't love me recklessly I would not be alive today.
Looking back at my life, childhood abuse, followed by isolating illness as a teen/young adult, then after a couple years of health and thinking I had a new beginning, married someone who turned out mentally abusive and I not getting free until another nearly 20 years. A lot of why. I chose Jesus when I was five and apparently signed up for a war zone. He has been there though, I can see it every time the smoke clears. Rooting me deeper and now I can go deeper into the questions, like it seems you’re doing so honestly. We can ask them to the most honest presence possible and go where religion fears to. It’s gold, where you’re going with God. Where I’m at right now is asking where he was and why, like they are the shadows he can light up and doors he can kick down. I can’t resolve yet but if he wants relationship with all of my heart like he said he does than he can keep being the strong one
and carry a person over or through trust issues.
I was in that same dark place. and Him chancing me down is what saved me in all ways. and I was on the road of the wicken path. but it was Jesus who came for me when I gave up and was drowning in depression wanting to die and planning it. This testamony in song is completely true for me, it took time and healing, but now NOTHING is more precious to me than Juses, who came to be my friend and loved me long before i loved myself. Thank you for your reaction. Please look into the song God Only Knows by King and Country. it is also about God reaching out. You'll get there. Just walk with him.
I felt suicidal for awhile and when I went to bible study I felt that God spoke to me. He told me that My Grace is enough for you. Nothing in this life will make you complete os satisfy you. Being thankful that you have a place in heaven because Jesus died and forgave u for every rotten thing you have done should bring u joy and thankfulness in life. Nothing can get your into heaven except for Gods love and forgiveness and its through Jesus that helps you get there.
You can find homeless ppl who still believe God’s been good to them and still love Him. It’s all in perspective and sometimes it takes looking at someone else’s life to realize how truly blessed we are. It also matters who the kind of ppl we surround ourselves with that determine our perspective.
I pray God will show you and remind you of where He was in each moment of your life.
As a suicide survivor myself, I empathize with you and pray you find peace.
Praise God you survived. You are so worth it. You might not be convinced of His love, but HE is utterly convinced. He has done it for you. Just accept it.
Christ died for you and me...
And everyone in between
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
Amen
It's really hard to see you try to reconcile with it. So sorry you went through that ❤️ I can only imagine. I appreciate that you made this video. I'm so glad you've come back to a faith. I hope you're growing it still
Sometimes these songs don’t ring true to us until we finally encounter Him for real and recognize His reckless love for us through all the bad things. He climbs up the mountains and tears down the lies, but we have to learn to recognize His voice and the truth about who we are. The devil constantly whispers in our ears lying to us and WE BELIEVE HIM. It becomes easy to believe the lies and we begin to hate ourselves, which leads to suicide. Jesus wants us! Sometimes it doesn’t make sense, but believing Him and what He says about us makes the difference! Im gonna be praying over you! 🤍 be well!!
My best friend since childhood committed suicide December 10th 2021 and I'm really really struggling with accepting and moving on. I wish I had known she was struggling she lived 5 hours from me and we kind of lost contact and it just rips my heart out that she's gone and this song really really speaks to my heart
It's interesting hearing your comments that you struggled with the "chasing you down" line... while you survived your suicidal tendencies...That was literally God chasing you down! 🥰 I know this was posted three years ago, I truly hope you've come to that realization since this 💝
After having attempted suicide before, I can understand how it’s hard to understand how true lyrics are. I was a Christian and lost faith but after my attempt I made an attempt to get close to Him again and realized that He was always there even if I didn’t see Him. He meant for us to go through times of hurt and suffering and that’s when He works on us the most because we’re so vulnerable already. This is just my personal experience though. ♥️ God Bless
Glad your here with us
I was once a lost sheep going through the same things you did for years. Jesus loves me and he loves you too. I'm not mad at Him for "letting" me go through those things. I'm grateful He kept trying to reach me.
God will use those 6 years of despair to reach the hearts of many. All things work together for the good. Every dark road we travel will bring light to others so they too can find their way. No hurt goes to waste. I love your honesty. That level of honesty is what Christ longs for; us bringing our authentic selves to him. You have walked through the valley of the shadow of death, through the deep waters...and it didn't kill you. You survived. You are an over comer. When you fully get to the other side of this stretch in your journey you will look back and know he was there all the time. Bless you.
The way I reconcile these songs when i might not see or feel the lyrics is with what scripture says. I might not feel God is there but his word says he never leaves us.
I've learned for me that my emotions don't equal what's truth.
I pray you continue to find God's truth in his word for the rest of your life. You're heart and soul is beautiful.
My friends understand that one day we will truly understand how much the Lord loves us and how much he truly was with us every waking moment. For 6 years u felt lonely and had suicidal thoughts and bc of that u feel like Jesus didn't even look ur way but in reality for 6 years the enemy tried to kill u every waking moment and yet here u are. How many ppl have ended themselves in a year or less. In the grand scheme of life we don't see things as they really are. And even if the strength to hold on was all u had in those days understand that that grace didn't come from u. Bc even the very breath u are taking right now comes from a loving father that can only be perceived through faith in the sacrifice and the victory of that sacrifice. Which on its own is worthy of all Thanksgiving and praise. The enemy still fights u but since he couldn't take ur life he will do all to steal or destroy ur relationship with the father. If you can't find any common ground with the goodness of God in your life. Start with the basics. Go back to the cross. Much love and I'm happy your are still here 💛😊
I like the way you deal with the comments with great respect. Perhaps this song is not for everyone, but I believe it has helped a lot of people in difficult situations. Cory Asbury is a wonderful person. Even if it doesn't appeal for a help seeker, taken as a song, it is wonderful just as a music lover.
Hey I just found you on youtube today. I been dealing with suicide depression for as long as I can remember and I'm 30. Even though I love God I had always been mad at him and I told him many times to let me just go. I couldn't see the light but this year since the covid I been able to really sit and talk and scream to him about everything I been feeling. Were there was no light now I can see the light and I just want to run toward it and never let look back. I know I can't run yet but so if a walk or crawl is all I need to get there I will. The fact that he carried me though so much I can't express how thankful I am to have found him. I will all so subscribe to your channel.
Hi Joel. Hope you are well. Many times we don’t see God at work when we are going through stuff. But later when we look back we can see His hand. Even in things we didn’t realise could have destroyed us. Keep growing in faith bro. 🙏
Its absolutely beautiful if you just thought about everything he has done for you. You focus on your past and you dwell on the same thoughts that almost made you end it all. There is hope for you and there is love waiting for you if you just accept it my guy.
God never leaves. He was always there using people to chase u down..... As long as we're on this earth bones will still break, hearts will still break. But his promise of eternity remains. God bless u
Thank you for your honesty. I am glad you are still here. Thank you for being open. I love that you are experiencing the agape.
Hi Joel! i am grateful for this video reaction, and i am grateful that u are still alive ❤ i don't know u but thru my Father in heavens i just want u to know that u are a loved by Him thru everyone around u❤
I can relate a lot to your story. I was raised in a Christian family so God and Jesus was a normal thing to me right from my earliest memories. As a teen I really struggled with my mental health. I struggled with depression, major anxiety, suicidal thoughts. I was careless in my actions with zero regard to my wellbeing because I had no self worth. I barely felt worthy to be considered human most of the time. I understand your struggle with this song in terms of God's love coming for us because you didn't have any physical or memorable moment during that time to confirm this. In my struggle I also didn't sense him or feel he was ever there. I truly saw nothing through the darkness, no sense of hope. But now that I have a relationship with God, when I look back to those dark times I remember him being there. I remember his presence being there with me as I cried myself to sleep feeling absolutely worthless. He never left my side no matter what I was doing. I remember him comforting me even when I couldn't feel it in the moment. The more time you spend with him and get to know him personally the more you'll see the impact he's truly had in your life.
I love that although you struggle to believe or relate to parts of this song you are still open to the chances what he's singing could be true. I pray blessings and revelation of who God is to come upon you in Jesus mighty name, amen.
I was raised by a single mother who had schizoaffective disorder. My father was hardly present and was an alcoholic and sex addict. At the age of 10, I told God that if He existed and loved me why did He allow so much pain in my life. Then I said that I didn't believe in Him anymore and became an atheist from that point forward. In His patient love for me, after I ran and ran and ran, trying to find peace through so many other things, I am so blessed to say I am His child and He left the 99 to find the 1.
Let me say this my friend
I’m was a lifelong atheist for 54 years, I’m also an NDEr and OBEr, I died 4 years ago because of a breathing issue I used to have
I can’t assure that God and Jesus loves you in ways that we will never comprehend, their love is so intense and pure that we can’t imagine it
I never thought for a second that this God and Jesus and heaven and all that was real at all, to me it was just a crazy thing that religious people talk about
I’m still not religious nor I will ever be because religion is not of God but of man, but the love and peace and joy that he have for every single soul on this side of heaven is indescribable, he is and has always been with you, but your thoughts and fears have kept you away from him
All thoughts are all lies all the time about everything, let go of thoughts and fears and there you will find them
I wish you well my friend, and many blessings
I believe God often lets us go through awful situations so that we can grow and so we can help others through the issues they have . God bless man
Its not God who leaves us , but our decisions we make that draw us away from Him. ( reckless love song)
@@JoelJacksonofficial exactly our decisions make us go far from God
I thank God you survived he saved you for a reason.I will keep you in my prayers 🙏 ❤
I’ve suffered from suicidal thoughts. I’ve had the lows where I didn’t hear God and the lows where I did. My faith has caused some pain in that too. But it was the thing I wouldn’t let go. And it always ended up being my sanity and comfort. It takes time for me to wrestle with what is. Distinguishing between what I think is true and what God says is true. Even when I don’t feel the relief or see the point to the pain, I knew eventually it would make sense. That there are times when God feels close and so far away. But he is there. I listened to this song last night and I realized part of the reason depression is so hard is because it’s like trying to love and being heart broken 77x, forgiving people 77x, trying again for the 77th time, and nothing changing. So what’s the point? When will it these feelings end? What if every time I try to love or live in purpose it falls apart? What if I’m tried and tired? And then God said, that’s my job. It was never meant to be this way. I think depression is like dying while awake, grieving with no end or reason, it’s isolating, and it’s a circle of hell on this earth. It’s a prison that God breaks into. Because he never wanted it for us. And to know what heart break is and what rejection is, is to know the the world and to know the cross. To know the limits of myself and God.
I tried suicide as a teen. Had suicide thoughts as a young adult. Gave my life to Jesus at 18. While I was getting too know him I was still struggling with suicide thoughts. One night 14 years later at 31 years old I was at a mens bible group and they prayed for me and I was delivered from suicide thoughts .
He has shown his self too me so many times that my faith will never waiver now
Your honest opinion made me subscribe. Here to see God work through you . If you happen to see my comment know that I'm happy to see you still here 😊🙏🙌
Thank you as we are happy you are here with us . After the movie " rock for jesus" there was a calling or as people say a purpose to be a vlice for those who don't and do not know where to go .
Appreciate you
I just saw your have a new reality series coming.out next year. Im so proud of you. May the Father bless you
He kept you here, He wants you to come to Him, He cares for you and loves you, He can break every chain from your past and free you! Sending love and praying ❤
I pray that God opens your heart to Him completely and floods your life with His love and grace. You are not still here by accident I promise you! God Bless you!
Agreed . We are here to sprsad mental health awareness. What we go through others go through and we want to show and tell that they are not alone and we all can get through this!
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
prayers for you, Joel! I pray that you'll find the source to your joyfulness! Don't give up trying to seek for the Lord with all your heart. I used to be Catholic and Taoist, but never really interested in both religions. I wouldn't call myself an athiest, but rather, i knew that there is a God out there, but never figured out who, and who would save me from 4 and a half years of excruciating pain.
It's a gradual and supernatural journey, i used to be in the shoes of those who are struggling in their faith as a Christian. I would question things a lot and wanted to backslide, but everytime i tried to backslide, hell would always come knocking at my door to keep me captive in pain. I would run back to God because of me disobeying and refusing to let the Lord lead, facing many scary and overwhelmingly painful things in life, because i chose to go my own ways. Even when i disobeyed, He still loves me even though i rejected Him. He never planned for us to be in pain, but He just wants us to trust in Him with all our hearts and lean not onto our own understanding. He will keep on sending signs to turn back to our First Lover (Holy Spirit) in many different ways that we wouldn't even recognize.
If you ever need any help and or are questioning your walk with God, you can always ask/reply to my comment. God bless you, Joel.
Your honesty is truly a gift. And throughout the years you struggled, you did not die. You are still here. I do not wish to minimize in any way what you have battled and fought through but only wanted to highlight this thought- you may not have perceived God's help and have battled for years but God did not let you die. You are still here. I see that as a testament of His love towards you to sustain you even till now to keep you fighting and alive to share your story.
Thank you for being so transparent.
May the Lord bless you and keep you and shine His face upon you.
Yes! You got it! This song is written after a lost soul was found. It can be hard to relate when in a lost place. But the enemy wants us to believe God isnt with us. Hes just here to kill steal and destroy. But God is more powerful and He is love.
Thank you for this comment! :)
I would also suggest listening to the To Love a Fool album, by Cory Asbury. It’s really good!🙂
He's a good guy and singer
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
@@vanessabunnie9262 that was beautiful, you almost made me cry 😢I’m so happy God saved you and blessed your life
God loves his children im so sorry you went through that, i used to be depressed, i lost 2 dogs in the span of a month and my grandma and had a porn addiction i felt the Holy Spirit one day at a church conference. sometimes we have to be the ones to allow him in our lives Jesus wont force anything onto us he just reminds us he’s there. you just have to accept him and love him. God loves you so deeply, he treasures you so much He was with you during your failed attempt and He’s still there! I love you and Jesus loves you!!
Thanks for sharing your story and being open with your struggles. Community is where we can grow one another and help find our identity and hope in Christ. You're a mighty warrior to have overcome all that has come against you so far in your life. Believing for blessings and your faith to grow so much more than you could have ever possibly imagined. God loves you so much.
Thank you for listdning and being a part of more than this channel but what it stands for !
Even if you don’t feel it, go into it blind, and just keep pursuing. You’ll see it☺️ it just takes time but be patient it is SO worth it.
Thank God, you are alive, it may not seem like it but He carried you through it
I pray this song will touch everyone wrestling with suicide or suicidal thoughts, it’s not a cliche and it’s not rederick, God loves you even when this world doesn’t make it look like it. You were handcrafted by Him and at your lowest He offers hope.
I think something that helped me after dealing with years of severe anxiety and it feeling like God just wasn't there for me was remembering that Jesus suffered so much in His life too. Not just the Crucifixion (though of course that's the big one), but being rejected over and over, by strangers and His closest friends alike, being subject to temptation and betrayal and trials and fear so intense He sweat blood. He was fully human so He experienced the range of emotions we feel too, and can understand us and walk with us in our pain. He never promised that we would happy on this earth, which believe me I know is really hard to accept at times, especially when it seems so many people are happy and healthy and have never dealt with these issues. But He does promise us love and understanding and true joy in Heaven, and we can find bits and pieces of that joy here on earth and share it with others. And because of what we've been through, we can help others going through the same thing, and even have a deeper relationship with Christ because we've suffered on this earth as He suffered. We can't feel true joy without carrying our own cross, and it's okay if it gets too heavy sometimes, even Jesus fell while carrying it and needed help, but He understands and walks with us. He's not a spectator to our pain, He feels it with us
Absolutely appreciate your honesty about accepting God's grace sometimes. Just remember that the devil is also powerful he fights for you to give up and come back to him. God will never give up on you. Just stay focused on the lord when you doubt. 🙏
Hi, this is the first video I watched from your channel. I don't know you but deep down in my heart, I can see how strong you are. I don't know it's weird to feel this way to a stranger but I guess that's what God put in my heart when I stumble in your channel. Thank you for your honesty and humble reaction to the video. I'm your new subscriber :) Looking forward to your another Christian music reaction. God bless you!
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and by the way, it's okay not to feel what you should be feeling in hearing the message of the song and the scripture that the lead singer shared. It's okay. But here's the thing, Jesus loves you unconditionally. It's hard to believe especially when we have that negative thoughts in our heads and all that we've been through.. it's hard to believe. But give God a try. Ask Him to reveal Himself to you. Just try. There's nothing to lose. I love you brother :)
Good words and thank you for subscribing
It’s hard to open up with that pain and trust that He wants to take it and bare it. He wants it and deserves praise because he bore it all. It wrecks my ego all the time and the purest joy arises
He is goodness
We all struggle brother and I am encouraged by you. Thanks
I’m sorry you have gone and going through such hard times.my heart goes out to you.i do know what it’s like to be in the state you are in.I’m almost 50 divorced and no kids.suffered with depression and self harm for more then thirty years.suicide always on my mind and one failed attempt.such a deep and dark hole and almost impossible to get out of.they say God doesn’t put more on you then you can handle,then why do people kill them selves.I’m covered in scars,scars of madness that when I look at brings all those feelings back.the turning point that bought myself back to God is when I help the gun to my head and pulled the trigger it didn’t go off.new gun and bullets.no reason it shouldn’t have but God’s intervention.so I do know what you are feeling and going through.you are not alone and we all have a purpose.i think God for the blessing in my life.they may seem small to others but are blessing all the same.you are brave to put yourself out there the way you did.thank you for doing so and bringing awareness.sending you prayers of strength and healing.love you my brother in Christ
Thank you for sharing your story . More people need to do that
when i was 15yrs old, i tried committing suicide. i took 20 pills. i was so close to death. my whole body swelled up. i got bumps all over my body. my throat was startin to close up and i could barely even breathe. i knew i was seconds away from death. i was gasping for air. i got scared and regretted it right away. i wished ive never done it. for the first time in my life, i cried out to God and told him i dont wanna die. i jus need help. plz help me. plz help me. i wept. within seconds, i felt this warmth, love and peace surround me. i knew for a fact it was God. within seconds, he healed my whole body. i could breathe. swelling was gone. he instantly delivered me from suicidal thoughts and depression after strugglin with it for 6yrs. psychiatrists and psychologists and takin their medicine never helped. the only thing that WORKED was when i cried out to God and asked him for help. he instantly saved me and delivered me and performed miracles on me. he gave me a new outlook on life. for once in my life i actually wanted to live and not die. that was something odd for me cuz for 6yrs i wanted to die so bad. my mom had cancer and shes the reason why i tried taking my life cuz i didnt wanna lose her. i lost her at 16yrs old and lost my dad at 17yrs old. i didnt kno Jesus until i was 24 n a half yrs old. im 25 now n my relationship with Jesus is so strong. hes helped me change into a whole diff person. ppl actually see the miraculous change in me. if it wasnt for Jesus, id be dead right now. The only healer u need is Jesus. hes our healer. Go to Jesus for healing. im living proof 😊💖 Jesus loves u😊💖 he wants u to repent and forsake ur sins, be born again and place ur faith n trust in him. start havin a personal relationship with Jesus and obey him 😊💖
Our finite life is so short compared to the wonder of eternal happiness that God wants us to share with Him. ETERNITY is a long....unfathomable even. If you realize this, then the suffering you face in your life up till now...seems almost like a blessing. I have been through a lot as well, two attempted suicides, turned away from Him, had a bunch of surgeries for health related reasons....but once I started turning back to Him and building a relationship with Him, life has become beautiful. Much love brother.