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OCD isn't always being clean, it's about rituals. The main reasons for OCD is feeling like you have no control over a certain thing in your life (your illness). It makes perfect sense that you would have it. I'm working on mine, I really would encourage you to read something called The Thrive Programme. You can download it on kindle and let me tell you this....it's so worth it. I really hope you manage to overcome it, mental illness is horrible. 🤗
Wow! Thank thank thank you!
Thank you for being so open about OCD and not showing it as Hollywood does. I have NEVER admitted this to anyone other than my therapist. I have OCD as well and have always been soooop ashamed and embarrassed about it. Thank you for encouraging me to face myself by being so honest yourself. Much love and respect to you 💜
Eve & Artie thank you! ❤️❤️
I'm so sorry to hear that you are dealing with this. OCD can be the absolute worst sometimes. I hate how people literally just think it means you need to keep things clean. It's sooooo much worse than that. Mine literally gets so bad I have to rip out my toenails. And before anyone says "that's not because of ocd" I've spoken to my Psychologist and therapist and they both believe that is why it is occurring. It's even worse because i'm chronically ill so I am hyperaware of bacteria and viruses (to protect myself). Also, I constantly think my house is going to burn down which is SUPER problematic lol. It just absolutely consumes everything.
I'm glad that you are seeking help that sounds like a lot. Sending you hugs
Thanks hun. Hugss
Thank you so much for talking about this. I have OCD and I always have to tell people I have actual diagnosed OCD because it's something used so lightly so often. My OCD has affected me by causing a fear of germs and a fear of getting sick specifically vomiting or having stomach issues. When someone says "just don't wash your hands for so long" or "don't disinfect that you'll be fine" it's so frustrating! I get why they say that I do but it just doesn't work like that. I work on it and it has gotten better. But there are still some things I have to do, and if I don't I will fixate on the germs. I will picture them crawling on me and everything I touch will have them and they could be on there for a week and then a week from now I will pick up that germ and get sick. That's the kind of thoughts that will go through my head and cause severe anxiety and panic attacks. It's really hard for people that don't suffer from it to understand but it's very hard to deal with. We know we are being irrational but something in our brain thinks differently. You are definitely not alone and there is help out there! Love you girl! ❤ Also I love Violet Crumbles they have them at world market in America and I think they are better than crunchies.
I just want to say how proud I am of you for sharing about your OCD. I recently finished my doctorate in clinical psychology and my previous job was at an OCD and anxiety clinic. (I now work at a college). I worked with children and young adults (and some older too). I really appreciate your candidness and your openness. OCD is definitely misunderstood and generalized to the cleanliness trait, but that is just one variation. I think it’s great that you explained how yours shows up. I think it will be helpful for others who may suffer but have been feeling uncertain about getting help. You are so brave and courageous with all you do. ❤️❤️❤️
If I dont have a bagel and coffee in the morning. My whole routine is messed up and I hate it. If my bed isnt made before I get in it then I wont sleep well. I relate to you girl. Thank you for being open 💙
Sorry to hear, mental illness is so hard to deal with. I’m dealing with anxiety and depression at the moment and my boyfriend has anxiety, depression and ocd. It’s hard but it can be worked through! ❤️
I actually have OCD as well. Mine is mostly making sure everything stays even. Odd numbers stress me out. I also have body dysmorphic disorder which is a sub type of OCD.
Yeah I also struggle from OCD and I feel like I get the question "do you like odd or even numbers" so often and people don't understand its not always that simple, for mine it's specific numbers and their multiples and I also have body dysmorphic disorder as well as Generalised Anxiety and depression, I hope you're doing well and I wish you the best of luck with your journey❤👍
I have the same thing with odd numbers and such, it sucks so bad because people constantly do shit to trigger me
Thank you so much for speaking about this! OCD is so misunderstood. I really appreciate that you pointed out the bit about the fan. Most people think it's just needing to eat the gummies in the right order but it's so much more than that! It's the intrusive thoughts that make the disorder and the repeated behaviours are just a coping mechanism and how they comes out. I don't have OCD but I do deal with intrusive thoughts daily so I totally understand what you mean and it's not crazy. They may be irrational, but we are feeling them, they are real thoughts. It just takes time and work to learn to deal and manage in a healthy way
*Your editing and production value are amazing! Keep up the good work 💕*
Nichole Cooper thank you! 🙊🙊🙊
OCD is so hard to deal with, it manifests in so many different ways. As someone who deals with chronic illness, now cancer, I find my own OCD rearing it's ugly head and a lot of it comes with my medical care and making sure the nurses and doctors are doing everything "right". Having been a Registered Nurse for 10 years, it's extremely hard for me to give up control and be the patient. I think you are really brave for speaking out about this, most people dont understand OCD at all, they think they are educated by what mass media says, but the media is almost always wrong about things like OCD and well medical information period.
I totally get what you’re saying!! It’s so awesome to see someone talk about this because so many people have made fun of me or not taken me serious about my OCD! Thank you for sharing, love you so much♥️‼️
“Don’t do it that way,nothing bad will happen” that’s a very damaging phrase to say to someone with OCD. I’ve been struggling with OCD/Anxiety/Depression since I was 12 and I’m 32 now and it sucks because the thoughts behind the actions make absolutely no logical sense and it’s hard to do the action knowing that. But you have a community behind you of not just followers but of supporters and we are here for you 💕 thanks for sharing your story
Allie Jones Mine flared super bad when I was 14 I had to be out of school for a couple weeks till I was diagnosed and medicated. I'm 33 now and able live a pretty typical life but it still flares up in high stress situations.
I am glad you are getting help for your OCD. OCD is so debilitating
Your so incredibly brave & strong. I love that your so open, honest, and still remain so positive
So much love for you 💕❤️ I’ve struggled with OCD for years, but it was originally misdiagnosed as Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I’ve never admitted this to anyone before, but mine revolves around the fear of being judged or negatively perceived by others. Hearing you speak out about your OCD inspires me to get help and speak out about mine, so thank you so so much for sharing your story! Know that you are not alone in this fight and you have a whole community who has your back ❤️💕
Oh wow, thank you for sharing. We love you!
❤️❤️❤️🥺 sending some love xxxx
I just wanted to say thank you for speaking up about this! I have OCD and have found it completely dibilitating at times. Stay strong xx
Thank you for talking about having OCD. It helps a lot to know I’m not alone in my struggles. I’m happy you’re getting help Amy. You inspire me everyday ❤️
The spontaneous chocolate karate chop is the funniest thing i have seen in a long time. Love seeing you guys acting up together
i also get those really intrusive thoughts that disrupt my life - it can be so debilitating; my heart goes out to you. it’s such s difficult thing to work through and i’m so proud of u for doing so
thanks for sharing amy! mental health can get clouded behind the importance of dealing with a chronic physical illness. glad you are opening up about your mental health struggles as well. we are here for you!
Thank you for explaining OCD! I knew the “basics” but did not realize the fear side of it, although I understand how that would be involved. Sending gentle hugs 💜 and thanks for the reminder to use these terms for what they actually mean so they are understood!
I enjoy your videos so much, they just are so engaging and interesting and relatable and make me want to start youtube! I also really miss eating food, I don't have gastroparesis (which I am so thankful for) but I do have a series of other chronic things that affect my diet so much and I still can relate to missing food, especially in social situations or when people offer you food and say things like "today can be your cheat day" but what they don't understand is that my diet is not a weight loss or fad diet, it keeps my body from becoming debilitated in bed the next day because the pain and inflammation is so bad. But I just really appreciate your channel and having someone to watch when I get home who understands the struggle
From what I understand, OCD in people with chronic illness is INCREDIBLY common-because there is so much of our lives that we can’t control-our mind tries to mess with us! It maybe a strategy your mind is jumping to to cope/deal with what you are going thru-and that’s HUMAN!! (I hope u get what I mean!) There is no such thing as stupid thoughts-it’s REAL, and what your head is telling you! I know how you feel!! Hang in there, I’m SO glad you are getting help!!! You are AWESOME-and it will get better if you keep working on it!!
I’m very proud of you for being so vulnerable and open. I love that you are always pushing on no matter what life brings your way. I don’t know much about what it’s like to have ocd but I wish only the best for you.
Oh you have OCD. I had it when I was little. CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) helps. Also I would reverse it and make it so that if I did what the OCD wanted me to do that’s when something bad would happen. That way you beat it. ;)
Thanks for talking about your ocd Amy, it can be so debilitating I have sympathy for you as a fellow sufferer! What you describe as 'stupid thoughts' are the worst, I've had breakdowns like the one you had over the most mundane things. It's difficult for people who don't suffer from it to understand. What I always try to remember when interacting with someone who isn't responding to my symptoms in a helpful way is that even if their words/actions are wrong, they're coming from a place of care and concern rather than a negative place. People don't understand but they just want you to not be suffering. I got CBT for my symptoms and it definitely helped me to manage them easier on a day to day basis.
Well done for being so open that is such a huge step! :)
Aww Amy I have OCD too. It's so tough and you're mind seems to take over. Sending you so much love and just wanted you to know you're not alone
I was diagnosed with OCD almost 8 years ago now. And I also understand that struggle when people misuse the term. Nothing drives me mad more than someone who says “oh I’m a little OCD” cause that’s legitimately saying “oh I’m a little obsessive compulsive disorder” and it drives me crazy. So you’re not alone. Thank you for opening up about it, and... yeah. I don’t know what else to say but yeah.
I also suffer with OCD and the anxiety that comes with it is so bad. Like, it makes me so nauseous. I am glad you're getting help with yours! :)
You're such an a amazing person Amy you really are, so sweet and honest I love watching your vlogs it makes me strive to be a better person. With all you go though I'm just stunned that you are the way you are, I don't have a chronic illness I do however suffer from mental health disorders like a anxiety disorder, borderline personality disorder and bulimia it gets too much at times but when it does I watch your videos and see how strong that you are and it really does help me to pullmyself together, so thank you xx
I completely understand getting frustrated when people over use a word, like I struggle with extremely anxiety and agoraphobia, and it makes me sooo mad when my friends who have no issue say they have anxiety, like you may be anxious but you don’t have anxiety disorder. It bothers me so much because it’s like they are downplaying how serious it is. I am really sad to hear that you’ve been struggling with this, I hope you can maybe get some help or you start to feel better!
Thank you !!!! I have anxiety and my thoughts are like yours sometimes with my anxiety and people think I am crazy but I am not ! Thank you again
Thank you so much for sharing this. I too have OCD along with my 18 year old son who has battled this since he was 6 along with GAD generalized anxiety disorder. I suffer from chronic pain from a disastrous endoscopy procedure that left me with a hole in my intestine. I have international damage nerve damage( neuropathy) a collapsed intestine. And finally ptsd from nearly died became septic etc. watching you, you have inspired me!
My heart goes out to you. You are definitely not alone with this! Any of it! So much love and support surrounds you on all sides.
I see 04.01.2019 and I think I've missed an episode. Then I see your new finger bling and Tom shaving, so know everything is right with the world. Happy Lunar New Year 🎉 Thank you for being so open about your mental health. You are not alone.
I’m glad you shared about your OCD. The guy who put in my PICC line had legit OCD about germs and doing things in a specific order and told me in advance, but for him it fit very well with his job, and he did a great placement, and the extra time he spent cleaning was totally fine with me. I know it’s not the same as yours exactly, and OCD can be very debilitating, but I just want you to know it’s nothing to be embarrassed of. Many people have can relate. I have panic attacks quite regularly.
Good for you. I know how hard it is to tell people about mental health issues. I have P.T.S.D. When I tell someone or talk about it, I usually get total silence.
You are such a strong, brave woman.
Thank you for opening up about your struggles. I’ve been struggling with really bad anxiety lately and I’m having a hard time admitting it ☹️
Lol! The part where you were looking up Tom’s nose was hilarious 😂🤣
I really love seeing you being real. I suffer with bipolar and PTSD and it is very difficult. I also have an eating disorder as well. It is so hard especially enduring what people say online. You keep your head up. You have my support.
Aww Amy, I didn't see that coming. I'm sorry. Gosh, life can be so rough. Sending good vibes your way! ❤️
I can so relate..
I also struggle with OCD , and life with OCD is NOT easy ... I got your back gurl ! I know how stressfully life is with ocd ❤️
I love you and Tom’s relationship so much! You’re both adorable!
Thank you for being so open. I have suffered from OCD for a long while and my family makes fun of me for it all the time. I can’t help it and it is so difficult to manage sometimes. I always think the whole worse case scenario as well 😢
I have been struggling with OCD for 2 years now XX my checking and rituals have gotten worse since I had my son 9 months ago! Thank you for sharing this I makes it a lot less lonely
I never knew I had OCD until I mentioned a few things to my doctor . I thought I was just crazy ! Every time I have my purse I check my phone , card , and license every 2 minutes religiously even thou it can literally go no where . When I leave the house we go through the garage and even thou I watch it close I have to do a lap around the block and check it again otherwise my intrusive thoughts come in . Anyway that’s just a few .
Hope you get through this ! X x
Katlyn Hijazi this is OCD ? Wow
Sure is . It sucks !
Omg I have been waiting all day for this ! 😊
Regina Moreno me too
Thank you for talking about your experience with OCD. I've had it for years and I think It's one of the most exhausting and debilitating things I have to deal with. OCD trumps my other physical disabilities and illnesses basically every day. Mental illnesses are very taxing and it doesn't help that a lot of people don't understand. OCD is so much more than just needing to have a clean room, although that is how some people's OCD manifests, so thank you for shedding light on such an important topic.
I love your video!Thank you for sharing your story about your OCD. I to suffer from OCD some days are better than others.
Hey I have been dealing with OCD since I was a child and I never told my family about it till recently and it's so nice hearing someone talk about what it's actually like to have OCD and what it's like to have thoughts that's you can't control. Thanks for opening up about it and bring light on what it's really like to have OCD.
Just viewed your video. Became my inspiration. You been suffering so much yet managed to keep a smile. Remain strong Amy.
Thank you for speaking about OCD. Many people will benefit from your honesty and people like myself who don't suffer with it can better understand. I really appreciate your vlogs and speaking out. 😀♥️
Thank you for sharing Amy! I also suffer from this, very similar to yours actually. Most mornings I am late for work because of my “routines”. Mine is primarily with numbers and patterns. I also suffer bad anxiety attacks if things don’t stay the way I need them when it comes to this. It’s so hard and I’ve never told anyone, not even my fiancé. I feel so bad for you about your panic attack. Hang in there! 💜
it honestly felt like you were describing my ocd because my intrusive thoughts and behaviours are almost identical to yours!!! im so sorry you're going through something that feels as impossible as this often does, but im sure you know you're not alone and i hope you can find comfort in sharing things with us now that you've told us about it. I'm glad to hear you're getting help and i wish you all the best in the world
I just went to my counselor about a specific phobia I have (emetophobia). It's hard to deal with in everyday life. I was crying and shaking etc. even talking about it. It came about from a traumatic experience in my childhood, which was also hard to deal with because I knew that I had this experience, but I didn't know that it was traumatic or that it caused my emetophobia. We're working on it, but there's a long road ahead.
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It takes a lot to open up about your mental health! I tried to handle my anxiety myself with just exercise but it wasn’t enough so I finally went to the doctor and I’m so glad I did. Working on your mental well-being is hard but worth it 💞
I was diagnosed with OCD at the age of 3. I am 22 now, and it is still a massive battle. Thank you for being brave, opening up, and ultimately spreading awareness :)
I’m happy you have someone who helps and loves you 💗
OCD is debilitating. I have watched for a long time silently but this video moved me to comment. I am a therapist and I work with many people who have anxiety, OCD, depression, etc. I am so happy to hear you are getting treatment. I obviously can’t give medical advice online but I wanted to say that the gold standard for treatment is Exposure Response Prevention (ERP) and CBT - many people also need mediation as well. I wish you well on your journey. Be well:-)
*medication not mediation😉
I can't imagine how hard it must have been to make and post this video. Thank you for sharing your struggle with us. We're here for you!
I have OCPD, which is obsessive compulsive personality disorder, which is the compulsive need for certain patterns, behaviours, and organizational/cleanliness rituals. Usually it’s not accompanied with the intrusive “if I don’t do this, this bad thing will happen”, but it can be. OCPD is the obsessive compulsive need to do everything in a certain order or way. For example, I can only eat foods that do not touch, I have to eat one food at a time, and can only eat bites/foods of relatively same size, two at a time, and if my system is messed up or I miss something or someone disrupts (eats) my system I have a breakdown and cannot finish eating. There’s other things, like if someone moves my very specifically organized belongings, I have a complete mental breakdown, and stuff like that.
Your hair is GORGEOUS!
Love you and Tom! Thanks for sharing about your OCD, we are all here for you xo Plus I like Tom better with his "goatee" Loving you from Canada.
Thank you for being so open about it! My OCD presents itself in a similar way as yours with the sense that is isn't textbook. one of my bits of OCD is I have to verbally say what little task (such as small things at work or even locking my front door) or something will happen as a consequence and I have to redo said task a certain amount of times
Yes....I think so many of us have very very similar issues!! I’m a clean/tidy/organized person as well because the same thoughts come if I am not....or if I don’t put my left pant leg or left sock on first.....you get the picture!!!
I’m so sorry to hear this because I suffer with it myself and so I understand where you are coming from. I have more of the obsessive side of OCD where I worry a lot about “dumb” things. I also get panic attacks 😔. I’m so glad that you are getting help for it! I take medication for it which helps. Love you Amy an hope things get better for you soon!
I completely get this, Its part of my aspergers. I can make things really hard. but at the time its so real. I grew up with my mum having severe OCD and I didnt have it until I was about your age. your doing great talking about it, this will only help more people
I have OCD for real..and yes ppl do just say it so loosely..I struggle..it throws me into an anxiety attack...it's paralyzing at times...I'll keep you in my prayers 😘thanks for sharing!!! 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌
Don't be embarrassed. More people need to bring OCD out into the open. It's not just a clean thing. My son had several routines he had to go through before he could go to school. If he messed up a step, he started over or had a meltdown. What you are going through is very real. Bless you for opening up the subject. I'm glad you are working on your OCD issues. Keep us posted. We understand. Susan
Omg I literally love Tom he’s hilarious.
I have watched you since you were in the UK, but I don’t usually comment. Thank you so much for discussing your struggle with OCD. I also have EDS and severe OCD, and this combination has had a massive impact on my life. I am bed bound due to a large spinal cyst, and EDS related symptoms. I find it impossible to have the care I need, due to my OCD. In the past I have tried every therapy going, but nothing has helped, for a sustained period of time. I also have intrusive thoughts, so I understand what you are going through. I started suffering from OCD when I was five, but I didn’t get diagnosed until my mid thirties. Unfortunately, I think my OCD was too ingrained, by the time I sought help. My advice would be to accept every intervention or therapy that is offered to you. There are also good self help resources online. Wishing you all the best!
I’m glad you shared this and are sharing life elsewise. The fun and serious 🥰
My hair is the same I love the wave so I love it after a shower when it’s still damp but boo frizzy after effects
Violet (violent LOL), Crumble has been in Australia for decades. I used to eat them as a kid more than 40 years ago. Back than it was also common in a multipack of honeycomb squares (not individually wrapped), but haven't seen it that way for years. It is a sweeter harder more dense honeycomb than a crunchie. Crunchie also has a more slightly burnt caramel taste (which is also nice). My favorite way to eat it is to freeze it, and smash it into lots of little pieces and eat bit by bit (a not so old ad for it had the slogan, "It's the shatter that matters").
I've suffered with anxiety attacks for the last ten years (since my early 20s) and can fully appreciate your honesty, never feel embarrassed by what triggers you. At the height of my attacks I was at a water park and needed to go to the toilet, public toilets are one of my triggers, I still don't even know why, I spent forever just standing outside, I was too scared to go in and it was a little bit dark in there, I was close to tears, it was only when a kid walked in happy as Larry that I realised the stupidity of it all. It probably sounds bonkers to anyone else and I'm aware it's irrational but I am the way I am and I've worked really hard to fight through my anxiety, I'm a lot better now.
LOVE LOVE LOVE Neenish Tarts, the pink and white ones are the best
I have the same issue with having to do things in a certain way. I would have the same reaction you did, thank you for sharing how OCD isn't just "oh I keep everything tidy" OCD has so many different ways of affecting your life
Thank you for your honesty. What you think it is not silly just irrational.
Glad you are getting help.Love seeing you and Tom together x
hello!!! cant wait to watch this
I have really only heard ocd as being completely clean, but witnessing how I act for instance when I wash dishes and stack them they are color coated and by size and if they’re not it’s on my mind all day or when I do something like flipping a switch or just anything really it is to be an even number, it’s usually been 8 or 4. Every day I get out of my car and the volume is on 8. I myself am a messy disorganized person to most but to me it’s my way of how I want things. Haven’t been diagnosed and don’t think I will be not to worried tho
Love you^*^ stay strong you’re such an amazing inspiration and influence to keep strong no matter what happens
Thanks for opening up about your OCD. I was diagnosed about 10 years ago.
youre not alone amy!! thank you for sharing. love you.
Amy, thank you for being brave enough to share about your OCD. You really are an inspiration. I think what makes you so "watchable" is that you are genuine. You never try to be someone else. Thank you!!
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I totally get it, I don't have OCD but I know someone who does and it really sucks. I suffer from mental health issues as well and it has changed my perspective on life. Love you Amy and good luck with figuring it all out. I was wondering if you had any other mental health things because of having chronic illness and that kind of thing. I also live in Australia and love the fact that I can come home from an interesting day at school and watch a great video😀
I just wanted to stop by and say what an inspiration you are. Even though you ate struggling with your own health issue you still care g or your family members helping them with their own issues. I think most ppl have some ocd issues in some way. I keep you in my prayers and hope that you have many blessings coming your way.
I also have OCD. I love to have family and friends over for dinner, but then I hate my house afterwards. I have to clean and scrub everything when they leave. It's not fun! It's incredibly hard.
I can so relate, I do these same things, kind of like mini bets in my mind, if I can get it done in this way, it will avoid this catastrophe. I have been this way since my mid 20s and it sucks.
Keep your head up. Nothing wrong with wanting things your way.
Hugs and best wishes in this, Amy. I worked through a few OCD traits a few years back. Mine was with dealing with housework being done in my exact way. Clothes had to be hung on the clothesline by colour, and hung with matching clothes pegs. Yes, all pegs for each item had to be the same colour. If hubby hung the clothes for me, I HAD to pull them all off and colour match clothes to pegs all over again or I would get too worked up.
I hear you. Sometimes, the thoughts are really ridiculous, but the thoughts can seem so real as well. It’s difficult. Props to you for being open and talking about the challenging subject of OCD. Be kind to yourself if you can. Best.
i love that you still care for your family when they're ill. chronic illness can make things like common infections seem silly but it's refreshing to see you taking their temporary illnesses seriously
Love watching. You and Tom gives a great laugh.
That has got to suck! But I'm glad you are getting help and hopefully it gets easier to deal with for you. ❣🙂❣
I have OCD myself that doesn't revolve around cleaning. Mine is the same as yours but revolves mainly around even numbers! I know exactly how it feels with the panic attacks. It's horrid but I'm on Meds to help it. I used to pick at my scalp until it bled because of bumps I felt and it helped my anxiety. I'd finish my picking episodes with fingernails full of blood it was awful. I like to think I have some sort of control over it now. Main thing is, don't feel ashamed, it doesn't make us different!
You are so amazing. I have anxiety
Don’t worry I have this too and I recommend getting help books and don’t let it control you!this is not you and it’s not your fault ,good luck😂
Omg, I have OCD, thanks for sharing this, I can relate so much 😢😢😢 it's really hard to fight with our brain