talking about your problems even to a camera for a video is soothing. As someone who suffers severe bi-polar disorder I understood a lot of the things and feelings you mentioned. Specifically the "I feel great, Let's get healthy YA!" and then all of a sudden "I feel horrible, hate, dark" I understood very well.
As a longtime fan and supporter of yours, apple, thank you for sharing your story with us. I cannot begin to understand what you've been through and how it has affected you, but I can say with certainty that you're an awesome human. Thank you for being you; it's why I have watched you throughout the past couple of years. No matter what, follow your heart and do what's best for you. You're never out of the fight, my dude. Best wishes for your health and future.
Omg I'm so happy that you are fine now 😀 I can't wait for the best salt loving AppleJacked to stream again!!! You look amazing!!! You can overcome this man!!! I like to see this side of you 😃
Only at 2:56 and just wanted to say I'm glad your back and it's crazy how a veteran I guess still has to take the bus, dealing with ptsd etc and still fighting through all these hard things I give you props man I wouldn't be able too
Hey Applejacked, I know that this is just a random comment on the Internet but I just want you to know that I'm really wishing you the best. I think you have a lot of talent and a lot of important stuff to share with the world. Sharing stories like this are important to share for you and for the people hearing them. I hope you can bring yourself to seek help because I know that it can help. Maybe not quickly or easily but it *can* help. Best of luck man. Look forward to hearing from you again.
It is nice to see that you are doing better man. You are an amazing guy and i hope you will do even better. Can't wait to see you stream and go back those positive days. You are an amazing guy and you will always be like that.
Hey Apple. Coming in late to this video. I can't really relate to the PTSD or military experience, but I can definitely relate to the days when you feel like you don't even see the point of being alive, when you don't want to get out of bed, and when you feel like death is the best option. Totally get where you're coming from there, man. I'm glad to see that you have good days too. They're so imporant, more than I can give words too, really. You're a great guy and I'm pulling for you bro. All the respect in the world for you and what you risked. Stay strong, much love. Wishing you only the best.
I'm super happy to hear you're getting things back on track. Also this was really interesting to hear about so thank you for sharing. Take care of yourself man, I'm sure I'll see you back streaming in not too long!
im happy to hear you are doing better. I miss your streams man I really hope things start to look up and get better for you! dont give up man! i started streaming because of you.
Stay strong bro. Keep vloggin. We enjoy hearing and listening to you. I know it gets tough sometimes but just know that you have at least one person out there that cares about you. Take care of yourself man. Much love
Wow, I must say that I am impressed by your strength. Yes, you feel depressed and suicidal at times, but that is okay. It is human to feel that way after going through the things you did. Most people haven't lost anybody that close to them, let alone a good friend. Just remember in times of weakness that you have gone through the worst part. Feel proud of that. You can get through the bad parts and after that comes the sunshine and good parts of life. Keep fighting, we all wish you the best. It is really great to see you being able to talk about your struggle as it is a sign of strength. The people you lost in Afghanistan fought for you to be able to live happily now, so go do it! :)
The feeling stays the same but you get better at handling yourself. My ex gf has PTSD but for other reasons and she was able to hide it pretty well at first but we got closer and it was a daily struggle. I ended up stressing her out too much and we haven't talked in a while. I hope she's doing fine tonight.
My dad served in vietnam. He relates similar problems - doesn't look back on his service favorably in any way. I don't have any advise from that, just maybe a story that lets you know that other people went through that shit and have lived good lives after. Appreciate the real talk. Careful with the days you're not doing well & the harsh trolling of the internet.
dude. you're a good person. I don't have the experience to give real advice, but maybe when you're feeling all "Fuck - it mode" just ride those feelings out, but be aware that you're feeling that way. like if you didn't feel affected by your time in Afghanistan that would be fucking strange. anyways man whether it's a good day or a bad day you have people that don't want you to be suicidal!
Hey Apple, you are an awesome dude. I have watched you scince the good old monster and chat riot times. Its nice that you have a good income now and feel better, at least sometimes. Would be great if you can stream someday again :) Hang in there.
I know what you're going through. The hypervigilance is exhausting, so Tend to be in doors most days. The best the to do is to try and be out in the world.
medicine and technology is far more advanced now than it's been since Vietnam.. your experiences will be far less harsh than the guys who fought in that war if you actively seek help
aw that's too bad to hear :(. You ever done 23andme dna testing? You most likely have problems methylating which basically means repairing your body and detoxifying. But I got a dna test and learned a lot about myself and have been taking a variety of supplements that support methylation and have been feeling better than I have in a long time. I'm sure it could help you too. Feel free to ask any questions if you're curious
talking about your problems even to a camera for a video is soothing. As someone who suffers severe bi-polar disorder I understood a lot of the things and feelings you mentioned. Specifically the "I feel great, Let's get healthy YA!" and then all of a sudden "I feel horrible, hate, dark" I understood very well.
As a longtime fan and supporter of yours, apple, thank you for sharing your story with us. I cannot begin to understand what you've been through and how it has affected you, but I can say with certainty that you're an awesome human. Thank you for being you; it's why I have watched you throughout the past couple of years. No matter what, follow your heart and do what's best for you. You're never out of the fight, my dude. Best wishes for your health and future.
Omg I'm so happy that you are fine now 😀 I can't wait for the best salt loving AppleJacked to stream again!!! You look amazing!!! You can overcome this man!!! I like to see this side of you 😃
Only at 2:56 and just wanted to say I'm glad your back and it's crazy how a veteran I guess still has to take the bus, dealing with ptsd etc and still fighting through all these hard things I give you props man I wouldn't be able too
Hey Applejacked, I know that this is just a random comment on the Internet but I just want you to know that I'm really wishing you the best. I think you have a lot of talent and a lot of important stuff to share with the world. Sharing stories like this are important to share for you and for the people hearing them. I hope you can bring yourself to seek help because I know that it can help. Maybe not quickly or easily but it *can* help. Best of luck man. Look forward to hearing from you again.
It is nice to see that you are doing better man. You are an amazing guy and i hope you will do even better. Can't wait to see you stream and go back those positive days. You are an amazing guy and you will always be like that.
Yo apple so happy you are fine now. Bounce back stronger my man.
Hey Apple. Coming in late to this video. I can't really relate to the PTSD or military experience, but I can definitely relate to the days when you feel like you don't even see the point of being alive, when you don't want to get out of bed, and when you feel like death is the best option. Totally get where you're coming from there, man. I'm glad to see that you have good days too. They're so imporant, more than I can give words too, really. You're a great guy and I'm pulling for you bro. All the respect in the world for you and what you risked. Stay strong, much love. Wishing you only the best.
Man i fucking loved this real talk. More vlogs for sure if you can.
I'm super happy to hear you're getting things back on track. Also this was really interesting to hear about so thank you for sharing. Take care of yourself man, I'm sure I'll see you back streaming in not too long!
Keep hanging in there, Man! Hopefully you get to streaming again soon. You were my favorite streamer.
I'm glad things are looking up, bro! Can't wait to watch you stream again !
im happy to hear you are doing better. I miss your streams man I really hope things start to look up and get better for you! dont give up man! i started streaming because of you.
Stay strong bro. Keep vloggin. We enjoy hearing and listening to you. I know it gets tough sometimes but just know that you have at least one person out there that cares about you. Take care of yourself man. Much love
Wow, I must say that I am impressed by your strength. Yes, you feel depressed and suicidal at times, but that is okay. It is human to feel that way after going through the things you did. Most people haven't lost anybody that close to them, let alone a good friend. Just remember in times of weakness that you have gone through the worst part. Feel proud of that. You can get through the bad parts and after that comes the sunshine and good parts of life. Keep fighting, we all wish you the best. It is really great to see you being able to talk about your struggle as it is a sign of strength. The people you lost in Afghanistan fought for you to be able to live happily now, so go do it! :)
Respect man. Never forget that the sniper missed for a reason. You are worth it.
I'm pulling for you Apple, I don't mind waiting for when you feel comfortable streaming again if you ever do. Best of luck in life Apple
The feeling stays the same but you get better at handling yourself. My ex gf has PTSD but for other reasons and she was able to hide it pretty well at first but we got closer and it was a daily struggle. I ended up stressing her out too much and we haven't talked in a while. I hope she's doing fine tonight.
And HE IS BACK! Hope to see more! Still subbed for better or for worse.:)
My dad served in vietnam. He relates similar problems - doesn't look back on his service favorably in any way. I don't have any advise from that, just maybe a story that lets you know that other people went through that shit and have lived good lives after. Appreciate the real talk. Careful with the days you're not doing well & the harsh trolling of the internet.
I'm going to boot camp soon it's cool to hear your experience and ya idk glad your trying to get back on twitch and RUclips
6 years later, hope you came home safe, god bless!
thanks for sharing this.
dude. you're a good person. I don't have the experience to give real advice, but maybe when you're feeling all "Fuck - it mode" just ride those feelings out, but be aware that you're feeling that way. like if you didn't feel affected by your time in Afghanistan that would be fucking strange. anyways man whether it's a good day or a bad day you have people that don't want you to be suicidal!
Very interesting. If you feel like it I would love to see/ hear more!
What can we do to make you go see a professional, and get treatment? for your bipolar situation, or whatever it is.
Apple, you finally sound like yourself again!
Respect man
still here chillin
3:37 isn't that what phones are for?
Hey Apple, you are an awesome dude. I have watched you scince the good old monster and chat riot times. Its nice that you have a good income now and feel better, at least sometimes. Would be great if you can stream someday again :) Hang in there.
Also thanks for making the world a safer place for us
I know what you're going through. The hypervigilance is exhausting, so Tend to be in doors most days. The best the to do is to try and be out in the world.
you don't have uber?
This is an interesting vlog. How about walking after work every time and doing one of these.
I second that, Jared.
What does PTSD mean?
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
Love you
medicine and technology is far more advanced now than it's been since Vietnam.. your experiences will be far less harsh than the guys who fought in that war if you actively seek help
Am I the only one who wanted to hear the "darker" things applejacked mentioned at the end of the video?
Curiosity is perfectly normal, but some things are better left a mystery in this case.
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aw that's too bad to hear :(. You ever done 23andme dna testing? You most likely have problems methylating which basically means repairing your body and detoxifying. But I got a dna test and learned a lot about myself and have been taking a variety of supplements that support methylation and have been feeling better than I have in a long time. I'm sure it could help you too. Feel free to ask any questions if you're curious
Fuck Humanity I want to know what it is now!