I do want to apologize up front about the audio. I got a new recorder that was supposed to improve things and it just didn’t bring the quality up the way I had hoped. I’ll try again next video 😅
All those "uncool" things like hand-writing Mortal Kombat fanfiction, crying at the end of FF8, having self-insert Silent Hill OCs - for whatever it's worth, I think those things are cool and you should be proud of them. But oh my GOD do I feel the fear and shame you talk about - I don't know that that will never not haunt me, or most of my friends honestly.
The last five minutes of this video are particularly inspirational (not to mention endearing). I'm sure quite a lot of people can identify with it. I know I do.
I know a couple of people who are very "im convinced my soul is japanese, I was born in the wrong place, I dont belong here", it's definitely a thing and a pretty uncomfortable thing, but the word diluted so fast to just mean "otaku I think is cringy"
I love this. I'm a 30 year old Brazilian guy and could have said half of what you said word for word. I wish I could go back to a time I could just enjoy things
Thanks for helping understand why my mom refused to buy me Catwoman comics but was always willing to get me an issue of Tiger Beat. The 90s were weird.
OMG. The first time I got called a WEEABOO, I was livid. And this was on another video-sharing website called VidLii. I forgot the screen name of whoever called me that, but they obviously had a problem with me appreciating Japanese media. They totally assumed that I thought Japanese media was far superior to American media. I was so hurt by that word, that I just left VidLii and never came back. I am a Black American, but I am proud of the fact that I love/appreciate Japanese media. I feel your pain, and I'm sorry you had to go through that.
"I gave up an entire genre of media that I LOVED, and no one was even bullying me!" OOF can relate 😂 I was very much a self-conscious "I'm not like other weebs" girl. Now I just don't care lol
I feel this in my bones. Thanks for having the “audacity” to say it out loud. I’ve been a fan of everything you’ve put out for years, and the thought of all your unreleased writings and art is far more interesting to me than all of Da Vinci’s lost sketches. 💜
I knew a number of girls who were into comics in the 90s but it was because they where very into dark and brooding guys and there was no shortage of dark and brooding guys in 90s comic books.
I relate to this so hard. There's so much in life that I've missed out on because fear of potential shame. I hope you can be strong and do what makes you 😊
Magdalen Rose confirmed: Too cool to be bullied. This video reminds me of a very important quote from Confucius: “Do not kill the part of you that is cringe, but instead kill the part of you that cringes.”
so... i just found your channel because Innuendostudio mentioned you... why do you have so few subscribers, you are great! you are funny and smart and your perspective is interesting and fun. so, yeah, i hope you enjoy doing this^^ good video, thanks for the content :)
Really good vid. The words "weeaboo" and "otaku" are actually why I was so terrified of getting into anime growing up in the 2010s, afraid of being CRINGE... but now I'm 20 and could not give less of a shit : ) Also, don't worry, I also cried at the end of Final Fantasy VIII, but not because the game was very emotional, it was 5 am and I had just bashed my head against the final dungeon for hours. VERY glad I didn't grow up with that game... *Triple Triad...*
Here are my thoughts on Internet-created "insults" for fandoms: You hear it so much that you eventually become desensitized to it, then you either embrace it or move on.
Yo I never thought that about older comics. It really was geared towards men while anime was more varied. It had it's pervy male fantasy stuff as well but there was more to choose from
I wonder how much crossover this has with, like, hipsterism/ironic enjoyment. The Chan stuff is horrible, obviously, shaming and harassing people, they’re just ruining others’ fun. Edgelordism in a nutshell. But on a personal level, especially when I’m feeling more depressed and the world seems out of control, my tastes shift. The stuff that used to seem good to me just doesn’t anymore. I get nihilistic, and not in a good way. When I feel like this, the only things I can enjoy are, like, so-bad-they’re-good-style movies. Neil Breen, Wiseau, etc., or reading really bad fanfiction, stuff like that. The idea of watching, say, a Marvel blockbuster and getting pumped by having sex-positive neoliberalism IV’d directly into my eyeballs makes me feel sick… I’d say overall, the feel is one of dissociation, like, I become only able to enjoy something with a degree of ironic distance because feeling anything but disdain is “too close”, if that makes sense. But when I’m like that, feeling miserable, there’s an urge to spread it. “Everything sucks, how can you possibly have a good time? It wouldn’t play out like that, the drag on the plane accelerating at that angle would break the wing, then all your favorite characters would die. I’d want to see that movie, they’ve stolen the data card, they’re escaping the enemy compound, then the wing breaks off and we watch as the plane catches on fire and Chewie and Indiana and Bruce Wayne burn to death, roll credits. Call it a postmodern heist movie. But no *eyeroll*, they’re going to do the ‘impossible’ and escape…so predictable.” I fall into that a lot, definitely have to watch myself and ask, “Am I trying to make someone else miserable?” Or, “Am I trying to make a friend?” It helps to be married and have a spouse that points out when I’m doing it. Maybe the “weeaboo” stuff is like that…a very misguided attempt to get others to laugh at themselves along with you (then judge how “cool” they are by how much or how little they’re willing to put up with abuse). That doesn’t excuse it, of course. And to an extent (that doesn’t come anywhere near Chan-trolling), like, it can be a good thing to turn a mirror on someone and say, “This is what you look like right now.” Like, playing back video footage of the alcoholic ruining their friend’s wedding to them when they sober up, etc. But it’s not to shame, but rather to inform. I dunno. It seems similar enough to me to warrant comment.
Only once in my life did someone comment (derisively) on that I read manga in public, back in high school or whatever. He sure could quote a lot of Sailor Moon anime lines for someone who supposedly thought it was really silly and bad. Anyway, I was reading Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind and showed him a particularly gruesome fight scene, and that kinda shattered his perception of what manga and anime could be. I do still wonder if he was genuinely enjoying Sailor Moon but had decided it wasn't cool enough. That's dumb.
I wrote a Silent Hill fanfiction when I was 18 and posted it on a gay erotica website. Using my real name. It's still there. Like a threat I can never shake.
There was a very short-lived Witchblade series on TNT that was pretty good and nowhere near as horny as the comic. Even as a boy, I knew there was a little too much boobage. I think to your point about millennials (from one to another), I think it goes back to wanting to impress and be as cool as our detached, Daria Morgendorffer, older siblings, Gen X. The slackers, the "whatever" generation of grunge and 90s hip hop & R&B. But for a lot of us, the influx of Japanese media was such a revelation that our natural weirdness just gravitated towards it, ergo we became Otakus. For me, it was Gundam, The Big O, and Kiyone from Tenchi Muyo. In high school, I had an insatiable thirst for all things sci-fi and giant robot, that wasn't able to quench until moving out on my own. I like to think that's one thing Gens Y and Z learned from US---that adulting doesn't mean you have to stop liking stuff and just think about, golf and accounting. And please, please, Maggie. Just write the book.
I'm so glad anime availability progressed beyond what us Gen-Xers had. In that initial post-AKIRA boom in the early 90s, you could only find the same dozen titles at the video store, and they were all hyper-violent and bro-ey and poorly dubbed. Luckily my university started up an anime club right after that Sailor Moon/Evangelion explosion and I got exposed to some quality fansubs.
Do you know how encouraging it is to watch a video like this from you when you're not even an anime RUclips :] ? ; I hit 'the triple decade mark' when this came out
AHHHHH - why would you go and remind me how much I miss your Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon videos, still -to my knowledge - trapped on ancient hard drive if not outright lost forever.
I think we're way past the weeb teasing at this point liking anime is a norm and pretty mainstream, but it was probably tough for early 90s/2000 kids growing up, who were pretty much futurists and living ahead of the current culture
omg what you said about writing a novel being super revealing about everything sooooo resonates with me. it is one of the reasons why i've only ever shared ANY of it with strangers on the internet since at least then i can hide a bit in online anonymity
I'm still upset STEAMBOY wasn't a hit here and thus they have not released a bluray copy yet. The color and resolution on my special edition DVD from 2003 of STEAMBOY is rekt. :crying_cat_face: Also FFVIII was my first Final Fantasy game I got to play through and beat and is still my favorite of the series to this day. :handshake:
In high school I was not fully aware of anime and manga. My freshman year roommate was very into it, so I got to enjoy it for the first time. It was mainly Dragonball Z and Cowboy Bebop, but there were definitely others. I guess my main issue for why I never got into it on my own was how intimidating the amount of anime and manga there is
My 8 year old niece loves manga and anime, and I'm here as the cool but kinda cringe nonbinary "aunt" cheering her on and asking to see her kawaii drawings. This kid is gonna enjoy her nerdy hobby in peace dammit xD
The Tumblr reality distortion field probably didn't help. You'd go on Tumblr looking for anime content, run into some horrifying cringe content, which made you question if you were that bad. Not realizing at the time that it was either intentional trolling or a very small percentage of fans that had unresolved issues.
I'm so glad we are moving away from making fun of people for enjoying things unironically. When I was a kid I thought of myself as "the good otaku" where I had great taste cause anime RUclipsrs said it was and making fun of sword art online and its fan is a valuable use of my time and should became a personality trait of mine.
It smells like sussy baka in here
oh becase i never played amogus. gotem.
superficial comment: your hair looks great
“You don’t like giant robots? You schmuck!”
Loved this.
We just need to get everyone to start liking anime & manga, because once we are all weebs, then nobody is.
I do want to apologize up front about the audio. I got a new recorder that was supposed to improve things and it just didn’t bring the quality up the way I had hoped. I’ll try again next video 😅
You use Premiere, right? Are you running the audio through compression and EQ filters?
All those "uncool" things like hand-writing Mortal Kombat fanfiction, crying at the end of FF8, having self-insert Silent Hill OCs - for whatever it's worth, I think those things are cool and you should be proud of them. But oh my GOD do I feel the fear and shame you talk about - I don't know that that will never not haunt me, or most of my friends honestly.
The last five minutes of this video are particularly inspirational (not to mention endearing). I'm sure quite a lot of people can identify with it. I know I do.
I know a couple of people who are very "im convinced my soul is japanese, I was born in the wrong place, I dont belong here", it's definitely a thing and a pretty uncomfortable thing, but the word diluted so fast to just mean "otaku I think is cringy"
I love this. I'm a 30 year old Brazilian guy and could have said half of what you said word for word. I wish I could go back to a time I could just enjoy things
Getting manga in the 90's was so hard I only bought my first manga in 2003
Thanks for helping understand why my mom refused to buy me Catwoman comics but was always willing to get me an issue of Tiger Beat. The 90s were weird.
OMG. The first time I got called a WEEABOO, I was livid. And this was on another video-sharing website called VidLii. I forgot the screen name of whoever called me that, but they obviously had a problem with me appreciating Japanese media. They totally assumed that I thought Japanese media was far superior to American media. I was so hurt by that word, that I just left VidLii and never came back.
I am a Black American, but I am proud of the fact that I love/appreciate Japanese media.
I feel your pain, and I'm sorry you had to go through that.
"I cried at the end of Final Fantasy VIII" Me: Who didn't? "I had a crush on Zell!" Me: ...some crimes can never be forgiven.
"I gave up an entire genre of media that I LOVED, and no one was even bullying me!"
OOF can relate 😂 I was very much a self-conscious "I'm not like other weebs" girl. Now I just don't care lol
I feel this in my bones. Thanks for having the “audacity” to say it out loud. I’ve been a fan of everything you’ve put out for years, and the thought of all your unreleased writings and art is far more interesting to me than all of Da Vinci’s lost sketches. 💜
“Mine was Sub Zero”
CORRECT!!!!!
I do like the painting. Well done!
I knew a number of girls who were into comics in the 90s but it was because they where very into dark and brooding guys and there was no shortage of dark and brooding guys in 90s comic books.
just came over from innuendo studios and wow this is relatable
I relate to this so hard. There's so much in life that I've missed out on because fear of potential shame. I hope you can be strong and do what makes you 😊
of course I will watch this since I've always feared the same
Magdalen Rose confirmed: Too cool to be bullied.
This video reminds me of a very important quote from Confucius: “Do not kill the part of you that is cringe, but instead kill the part of you that cringes.”
It’s probably more accurate to say I was “too unaware to be bullied” 🤡
Just make what you wanna make!
so... i just found your channel because Innuendostudio mentioned you... why do you have so few subscribers, you are great! you are funny and smart and your perspective is interesting and fun. so, yeah, i hope you enjoy doing this^^ good video, thanks for the content :)
Really good vid. The words "weeaboo" and "otaku" are actually why I was so terrified of getting into anime growing up in the 2010s, afraid of being CRINGE... but now I'm 20 and could not give less of a shit : )
Also, don't worry, I also cried at the end of Final Fantasy VIII, but not because the game was very emotional, it was 5 am and I had just bashed my head against the final dungeon for hours. VERY glad I didn't grow up with that game... *Triple Triad...*
I beat it at 6:30am as the sun was rising!
Here are my thoughts on Internet-created "insults" for fandoms: You hear it so much that you eventually become desensitized to it, then you either embrace it or move on.
Hey, don’t sass Kansas Thunder! It’s a classic!
We will never give up on you! NEVER!
Yo I never thought that about older comics. It really was geared towards men while anime was more varied. It had it's pervy male fantasy stuff as well but there was more to choose from
I wonder how much crossover this has with, like, hipsterism/ironic enjoyment.
The Chan stuff is horrible, obviously, shaming and harassing people, they’re just ruining others’ fun. Edgelordism in a nutshell.
But on a personal level, especially when I’m feeling more depressed and the world seems out of control, my tastes shift. The stuff that used to seem good to me just doesn’t anymore. I get nihilistic, and not in a good way.
When I feel like this, the only things I can enjoy are, like, so-bad-they’re-good-style movies. Neil Breen, Wiseau, etc., or reading really bad fanfiction, stuff like that. The idea of watching, say, a Marvel blockbuster and getting pumped by having sex-positive neoliberalism IV’d directly into my eyeballs makes me feel sick…
I’d say overall, the feel is one of dissociation, like, I become only able to enjoy something with a degree of ironic distance because feeling anything but disdain is “too close”, if that makes sense.
But when I’m like that, feeling miserable, there’s an urge to spread it. “Everything sucks, how can you possibly have a good time? It wouldn’t play out like that, the drag on the plane accelerating at that angle would break the wing, then all your favorite characters would die. I’d want to see that movie, they’ve stolen the data card, they’re escaping the enemy compound, then the wing breaks off and we watch as the plane catches on fire and Chewie and Indiana and Bruce Wayne burn to death, roll credits. Call it a postmodern heist movie. But no *eyeroll*, they’re going to do the ‘impossible’ and escape…so predictable.”
I fall into that a lot, definitely have to watch myself and ask, “Am I trying to make someone else miserable?” Or, “Am I trying to make a friend?” It helps to be married and have a spouse that points out when I’m doing it.
Maybe the “weeaboo” stuff is like that…a very misguided attempt to get others to laugh at themselves along with you (then judge how “cool” they are by how much or how little they’re willing to put up with abuse).
That doesn’t excuse it, of course. And to an extent (that doesn’t come anywhere near Chan-trolling), like, it can be a good thing to turn a mirror on someone and say, “This is what you look like right now.” Like, playing back video footage of the alcoholic ruining their friend’s wedding to them when they sober up, etc. But it’s not to shame, but rather to inform.
I dunno. It seems similar enough to me to warrant comment.
Only once in my life did someone comment (derisively) on that I read manga in public, back in high school or whatever. He sure could quote a lot of Sailor Moon anime lines for someone who supposedly thought it was really silly and bad.
Anyway, I was reading Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind and showed him a particularly gruesome fight scene, and that kinda shattered his perception of what manga and anime could be.
I do still wonder if he was genuinely enjoying Sailor Moon but had decided it wasn't cool enough. That's dumb.
Oh dude , liking things ironically was also a big part of my gen x upbringing. So depressing.
Dear Magdalen,
Please have the audacity.
Yep, I know these feelings.
Congratulations on facing down your greatest enemy.
I like some anime but the fan base kept me away as well..I don't care for how I'm seen but the idea of being associated cringe turned me away
I wrote a Silent Hill fanfiction when I was 18 and posted it on a gay erotica website. Using my real name. It's still there. Like a threat I can never shake.
Omg!!
The Mortal Kombat fanfiction story was pretty cool to hear
There was a very short-lived Witchblade series on TNT that was pretty good and nowhere near as horny as the comic. Even as a boy, I knew there was a little too much boobage.
I think to your point about millennials (from one to another), I think it goes back to wanting to impress and be as cool as our detached, Daria Morgendorffer, older siblings, Gen X. The slackers, the "whatever" generation of grunge and 90s hip hop & R&B.
But for a lot of us, the influx of Japanese media was such a revelation that our natural weirdness just gravitated towards it, ergo we became Otakus. For me, it was Gundam, The Big O, and Kiyone from Tenchi Muyo. In high school, I had an insatiable thirst for all things sci-fi and giant robot, that wasn't able to quench until moving out on my own. I like to think that's one thing Gens Y and Z learned from US---that adulting doesn't mean you have to stop liking stuff and just think about, golf and accounting.
And please, please, Maggie. Just write the book.
I'm so glad anime availability progressed beyond what us Gen-Xers had. In that initial post-AKIRA boom in the early 90s, you could only find the same dozen titles at the video store, and they were all hyper-violent and bro-ey and poorly dubbed. Luckily my university started up an anime club right after that Sailor Moon/Evangelion explosion and I got exposed to some quality fansubs.
Do you know how encouraging it is to watch a video like this from you when you're not even an anime RUclips :] ? ; I hit 'the triple decade mark' when this came out
Aw shucks! Thanks!
AHHHHH - why would you go and remind me how much I miss your Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon videos, still -to my knowledge - trapped on ancient hard drive if not outright lost forever.
The sad feels...
To get this right: When you are self-deprecating, we should bully you?!?
I think we're way past the weeb teasing at this point liking anime is a norm and pretty mainstream, but it was probably tough for early 90s/2000 kids growing up, who were pretty much futurists and living ahead of the current culture
Please write the book, your content is great and I'm sure we'd all love to see more!
omg what you said about writing a novel being super revealing about everything sooooo resonates with me. it is one of the reasons why i've only ever shared ANY of it with strangers on the internet since at least then i can hide a bit in online anonymity
I'm still upset STEAMBOY wasn't a hit here and thus they have not released a bluray copy yet. The color and resolution on my special edition DVD from 2003 of STEAMBOY is rekt. :crying_cat_face: Also FFVIII was my first Final Fantasy game I got to play through and beat and is still my favorite of the series to this day. :handshake:
Steamboy was ahead of its time here for sure. Totally under appreciated by anime nerds!!
I just wanted to say that I really enjoy watching your videos, they're great!
In high school I was not fully aware of anime and manga. My freshman year roommate was very into it, so I got to enjoy it for the first time. It was mainly Dragonball Z and Cowboy Bebop, but there were definitely others. I guess my main issue for why I never got into it on my own was how intimidating the amount of anime and manga there is
Innuendo studios will only have my respect when he admits his status as a weeb.
There's nothing wrong with loving Ryoko or Brandon Boyd.
That was quite a comforting video, thanks :). Btw, what's the name of the japanese fashion book you showed?
Yo, I am down for some KANSAS THUNDER
How could you slam Scorpion like this :(
Please find more audacity, you’re pretty awesome :)
Umm, yes, I have a complaint, I see myself in this and I don't like it.
go on get some audacity. JUST DO IT :)
My 8 year old niece loves manga and anime, and I'm here as the cool but kinda cringe nonbinary "aunt" cheering her on and asking to see her kawaii drawings. This kid is gonna enjoy her nerdy hobby in peace dammit xD
The Tumblr reality distortion field probably didn't help. You'd go on Tumblr looking for anime content, run into some horrifying cringe content, which made you question if you were that bad. Not realizing at the time that it was either intentional trolling or a very small percentage of fans that had unresolved issues.
I was with you until you said you had a crush on Zell.
I mean, ZELL?!
What's wrong with Zell? :
#justwritethebook
#justwritethebook
:-)
lol weeb
I'm so glad we are moving away from making fun of people for enjoying things unironically. When I was a kid I thought of myself as "the good otaku" where I had great taste cause anime RUclipsrs said it was and making fun of sword art online and its fan is a valuable use of my time and should became a personality trait of mine.
sersiously dunno wtf this content is becasue you keep changing your formula soooooooooo keep it up because it works
branding is for the weak
#justwritethebook
#justwritethebook