vents bc mommy issues pt4
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My mom kinda had mommy issues. Yet she decided to make her kids feel worse then she did growing up.
I don’t know how people do that. I didn’t necessarily want kids until I remembered that I could give them a far better childhood than my mom gave me.
@@wendywoohooo God bless you, you a real one
same here generational trauma is real (my moms parents made her feel like sh!t, but that doesnt me she gets to treat me like sh!It)
Me too but sry you have to go thru that too I hope you a good life
I hate it when I say same but ngl same
I don't want to treat my children the way my mother treated me.
But now I have extreme anger issues so I'm afraid I'll do the same :(
i know when i have kids i'd treat them how i dreamed my mum would treat me
you are so precious😭
i relate to this on a different level, I wish you all the best and happiness
Get that anger in check because trust me you will repeat it. Find your triggers. learn to identify them and seek therapy. Anger comes in different forms.
@@lilliathmo-alaali tell my parents that. Me even talking to them is a problem.
@@i.heart.u69same
Who else’s mom tells them to control their emotions when they never could even control their own?
me :(
@@pupstar69 :(
And the fact that "controlling emotions" don't even exist.
Wsp I was summoned 😃
Fr
The feeling when they call you "lazy" yet they don't even know what's going on..
Exactly everyone thinks i am just a bitch who lacks discipline and self control but they don't even know the sh*t i have been through and going through
I can safely say that i have experienced every tragic thing in my life
My mom said to me yesterday day that I need to clean more, your rooms a mess, what is with your attitude( I literally did not have one ) maybe if she saw my wrists she would shut up
@@whatthe2956i feel you.. i hate my mom and shes literally the reason im like this.. shes never there for me and nobody understands me, they always call me lazy.. (the pain in my throat while im crying typing this-) and my dad has anger issues and idk if hes abusive but they divorced when i was like five or smth and both my parents hate me.
The thing is,my parents know everything and they still tell me that
One of my fears about the future is that if I have kids I’ll treat them the way my mom treats me. I don’t wanna be anything like her
fr
The reason I hate the thought of having kids is because I have anger issues and I’m scared I’ll hurt them like she did to me (don’t like/reply my mum doesn’t trust me to have my own account
Yeah, I can relate
I'm not having kids altogether cause I already know I'm horrible, [thanks mom] so I already know I wouldn't be a good dad.
Same...
I swear, I won’t ever neglect my kids like she neglected us.
I swear, I won’t ever use bipolar as an excuse like she did.
I swear, I won’t leave my child while she’s dying.
I swear, I won’t choose drugs over my kids.
I swear, I wont leave my kids with an abusive boyfriend.
I hope you keep your words.❤
you're gonna be alright, I'm gonna pray for that.
I don’t think I’ll ever be emotionally stable enough to raise children as much as I love kids.
Same😢
I'm scared of becoming likd my mom tbh
Same as me, people always compare to my mom. Ex. "You get angry so easily, just like mom!" Mostly my siblings say that. I used to LOVE children, [not in a Drake way] but now I just think they are a lil annoying. Plus with all the money, stress, and my issues. HELL no, I just won't have children cause I don't want any chance of me traumatizing a child.
My mom is the main reason why I have body image issues. She points out every flaw I have. I hate it!
My mom officially broke me. I barely know my self because she want me to be “so perfect” but she doesn’t see my mental health is shattered
so real
"--- but i also feel bad for her to have a child like me." This is like a salt in the wound. As much as you hate you mother, you always stop to think that maybe you *were* the problem.
If you guys would know in India there are board exams and the results come state wise. I got 98.75% and ranked 4th in cluster. I was so happy i could not believe myself that i actually did that. My mom’s reaction was like ‘uh if you did a little better you would’ve gotten the 3rd rank and your name would’ve been announced at the school.’ Dude i was legit blank for 2 mins, the whole year i scored around 92-93% and i decided to work hard for the finals, did not sleep spent my whole time studying and made such a huge progress just to hear that if i got a point or two more it would’ve been better? I couldn’t really get appreciated for anything. She did not even once hug me 😂😂 i am so done fr. I ain’t doing it again for anyone. She literally used to tell me ‘you have to get more marks than your cousin.’ Go to hell with all that ego and pride of yours which you have dependent on me with. I HATE YOU
Love yourself bro.
Do things for yourself.
Same happened to me. I got state rank 4 in the International English Olympiad (if you know what that is) and my mum literally said that if I had studied better I would have gotten state rank 1. Like I literally rot my brain studying for the entire winter vacations and when she said that I literally had the suprised Pikachu face
PS- Congrats on scoring well in your exams!
@@deveshpandey7724 yk, we do our best and it is not always that we can be fitst. I'm glad you got the 4th rank, it's a really big deal. Congrats
Be proud of yourself love, the people you do good to, but only recieve bad from them, they are going to be grounded for the rest of their lifes. ❤
@@an4sha thnx man
my mom had mommy issues so I can see why she wouldn’t be an Ideal mother but she could have been nicer to me could have been so much more understanding. And the one time I opened up to her she was answering with ‘’ well what if” questions if that makes sense but maybe I’m dramatic idk anymore
Literally same. I can't hate my mom bcz she went through a shit ton of trauma as a kid but like, I keep falling for her traps of making me think that she will finally understand or be calm but then she blasts me on full volume the second I actually do open up to her.
"nobody can hurt my feelings like my mom" so true...she was legit one if the only peoplenwho could ever hurt my feelings and she did all the time
VENT INCOMING
TW: possible ed, depression, and just in general
I don’t know if I have mother issues because she did love and never hit me, but there are so many things she’s done that I can’t forgive.
I just remember her yelling at me whenever I failed a test, telling me to lose weight despite the fact I was a kid (A FUCKING KID), judging my outfits and what I do, making me feel guilty whenever I say “that I’m hurt” or don’t want to do things, convincing me not to take my meds because conspiracy oOOoO, getting upset that I went to therapy (at first), yelling hurtful things, getting frustrated or upset of doing my own thing, yelling at me for crying sometimes, and worst of all….telling me to go pray for god to kill me when I was in the mist of my (back then, undiagnosed) OCD.
Like what kind of mother says that! It makes me not want to be with her! In fact when I move out I will cut contact with her and most of my family! I don’t want to take care of her! I don’t want her to be at my future wedding dress fitting or with my future kids!
She says she’s sorry for the hurtful things she said to me, but no, she was in the wrong and I never forgave her for it. She’s all nice and good to other people but I know she’s butter me.
Which is a problem because she is associated with humanitarian aid and does good for the community (people praise her and tell me I am lucky to have her). Now when I bring up my feelings I don’t know why I feel guilty. It’s just hard 😞
Thank you for reading my long rant. I’m sorry for the grammar mistakes. And please forgive yourself.
Your mother was abused and is projecting that abuse onto you. Whatever she is doing to you was done to her. She is a narcissist. Yes you need to distance yourself from her but before you do that ask her about her childhood and see what her reaction is. She will either change the subject or start to vent. Then you will know why she acts the way she acts. Tell her she needs to get help but that you are no longer subjecting yourself to her abuse.
I won’t ignore my kids when they need me the most.
I wont make them feel like crap every time they open up.
I won’t take a strangers side rather than my kids
I won’t push their buttons until they sob.
I wont make them feel so unwelcome d they cry in their rooms silently at night
No matter what
my mom used to be my everything. i would prefer her over my dad as a kid because he used to be incredibly toxic. now that i’m getting older, she’s becoming more and more judgemental and it’s like she can’t go a day without criticizing me or making me feel terrible. it’s like the roles have reversed between her and my dad. i’m basically scared to be around her now.
0:51 i cant say how much i relate to this
The thing is, my mom hasn't ever done anything bad to me, or called me names. There are people out there suffering far worse than me, and yet it still hurts. It's never been about something she said or did, it's what she hasn't...
Neglect is a form of abuse too. 💔I’m so sorry 🫂
my mom judges me. i hate her so much. i can’t do anything without feeling judged, i hate her. i wish she would just leave me alone and stop judging me all the time. i get judged enough i just wish she would leave me ALONE FOR ONCE.
When I was 10 I asked my mom for food and she said I was old enough to cook by myself and yelled at me while after that she asked my brother who's older then me if he wanted some food to eat....
I’m so sorry I had a mom who didn’t feed me or my sister as well
i love how my mom says, after i’ve had a break down she’s like i don’t go slamming my door and screaming and shout do i?? like haha yes you do.
this one time in class one of my friends was talking about how her mom was her bsf and it took everything not to burst into tears. like how does it feel to live my dream bro 💀
If i have children ill never try to choke them to death over grades, call them useless, pathetic, say “i was happier without kids.”.
My mom also had mommy issues. She tried her best to not be like her mother, and she always tried to help and support me, even if her methods weren't the best. She ended up overprotecting me and I now I feel like I can't do a thing by myself, and I just can't blame her because she only wanted to help, even if she wants to control all the things that she doesn't like of me. She thinks that's the best for me lol.
My mom is the one who hurts me the most,its not that she treats me bad,its just that she doesnt take care of me,these days i have exams and it has been a very hard year for me but she can't see me even when i try to tell her to help me emotionally she gets mad and upset and never try to listen to me,i cry every night and feel lonely because of her and because i know very well that she would never change ,i just feel like i'm talking to a robot when i talk to her,i can't feel her soul or the warmth that is supposed to be from a mother ,my heart feels very weak and empty and cold because of her..
straight up forced me to not cry, told me i was skinny asf, forced me to eat things i didnt want to eat, told me i was ugly, said i was lazy to be pretty. same thing from my dad. 🙂
4:34 hit me hard
“You say you love the rain but you still use an umbrella, you say you love the sun but you still look for shade. This is why I’m scared when you say you love me.”
I got mommy issues like low key gon do my best in school and all so dat I can give my future kids da attention needed and be a good mother to them
You cannot even begin to fathom the amount of despair that comes from the knowledge that the person who birthed you, your own mother, is your biggest nightmare and enemy. My dad traumatized me by not being there and my mum traumatized me by being there. I pray every day that my little brother doesn’t go through what I went through with that woman. No one deserved to have that kind of woman. It is always the eldest daughters that have to go through with this shit. It is not fair. You think I wouldn’t want to love my parents if I had a choice?
WHY WAS I LAUGHING AT 2:57 💀💀
STOP SAME-
6:24 it hurts how much I can relate
I was like 10 and in 4th grade. Me, my dad, my mom, and my 1 year old brother was at a restaurant for my cousins birthday on my dads side. Everything was perfectly fine, until my mom decided to get flat out drunk. Basically the whole dinner she kept shit talking us and about how we didn’t satisfy her needs. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t even care about that like she can do what she wants but It got even worse overtime. Especially when it was time to leave. It took my mom over 1 to 2 hours for one of my dads family members to get her into my dads truck to leave. When she finally got in, my mom and dad fought nonstop over and over again. Until, my mom realized she left her phone out of her purse. My dad said he would drive us home first then go back after to find it. But my mom kept saying he was full of it and he was lying. She was so angry, while he was driving on a bridge she kept saying she would jump if he didn’t stop or turn around. It got to the point where my dad had to bodyslam her head and neck into his dashboard from her opening the door. When we got home, my mom then packed her stuff and drove off. She later called me, asking if I wanted to come with her. Of corse my innocent 10 year old self, not realizing how much she gave me trauma said yes. My dad also supported me and understood and helped me pack. When I got in her car, I could see she was crying while smelling cigarette smoke. She also showed me the big bruise she had on her neck from him. I just stayed silent not knowing what to do. We later stopped at a small gas station and bought $40 to $50 on snacks and drinks. We then found a very expensive hotel and booked a room. Everything was going okay, I will say but then it wasn’t. I started to realize how paranoid she was and started grabbing my phone every 3 minutes to see if I texted dad or talked to him. She also kept saying I was lying whenever I would tell her I didn’t tell dad anything. At one point she even told me the code to our safe at our house and told me to grab her a gun. That’s when I said enough, and I asked her to drive me home. She was super shocked, but mostly mad. Which I would to, but you have to understand she was going CRAZY and I didn’t feel safe around her. She did what I asked though, and drove me home. When we got to our driveway, she threw all the food she got me out of her car including my stuff, and screamed at the top of her lungs, “You will never fucking see me again! You made a big mistake. Hope you have fun without a mother in your life!” While shooting me and my dad outside a middle finger. I have serious mom issues and I should go to therapy lmao😃👍🏻(by the way, to make it worse she came back the next day. YES! After all of that, she came back the next day…)
The fact that a random stranger online that will forget about me in the span of 5 minutes can show more love than any of my parents is so sad.
"You know that voice in your head that tells you that you arent good enough? Well that voice was the person who drove me to school everyday" is so real.
Tbh all we can do is heal your past because we cant change the past we only change the present and the future worrying about the past were you couldn't so anything will not do anything but just cause you distress
I understand every single word they say it's true i will never forgive my mom I'm tired of her face her sound her EXISTING I WISH MY DAD WAS HERE AND COULD STOP THIS FIGHT BETWEEN MY MOM AND ME :( OR AT LEAST GO AND TELL MY MOM TO STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO STOP TRYING TO CONTROL MY LIFE AND MAKING IT LIKE HELL I'M TIRED OF FORGIVING PEOPLE AND PUTTING THE FAKE SMILE ON
I can never relate to the teacher ones, my mom pulled me outta school a few years ago (before I was depressed) and now I can’t leave the house or talk to anybody bc I’m not allowed to have social media or anything so I just have to stay home all day and listen to her argue and fight with me. Can anyone give me advice on how to deal with this? I hope you have a good day/night ❤❤
Wait, How old are you? Why did she take you out of School?
She cant do that. Call the police, run away. You’ll be put somewhere else and while it may not be the best, it’ll probably be better than what shes doing to you. She *legally* cannot take you out of school or confine you to your house.
@@am_2395 I’m 14 so not legally and adult , Obviously. But I got taken outta school because I made a Snapchat account when I didn’t know I wasn’t allowed to have it and someone hacked it and made me look like a whore. So yeah..
@@ghanii_ my problem is I love her too much ik I probably shouldn’t, which is bad to say and I’m too much of a pussy to run away I want to soo bad but they’ll probably find me I live in a small town in Maryland but idk thank you for responding btw
just runaway
The breaking down in public when I see a happy mom and daughter in public is so real
my mom’s superpowers, ✨gaslighting✨
The 2 one is so relatable she has been like that for 5 years im 10
My mother reminds me of that one scene in The Good Place :
Michael : Why can't you accept that she might be living a good, honest life? That she's an attentive partner and a good mom? Eleanor Shellstrop : Because I wanted that mom! I wanted the mom who made me afternoon snacks instead of just telling me to look for loose fries in the McDonald's ball pit.
2:10 got me too gud......shedding tears after reading it 🥹
i think i have nommy issues im just gonna vent my mom So today my mom got off work and she yelled at me for leaving the light all on today she hitt me on the head and hit me on the shoulder and pushed me in the room and i was crying a little bit on the floor
MY AD BEFORE THE VIDEO WAS ABOUT CHEESE IT CRACKERS AND IVE NEVER BEEN MORE EXCITED BC I KNEW I HAD SOME IN MY PANTRY☺️💀
I’m bawling my eyes out🙂
Yup same here. Hope you’re doing okay tho! Have a nice day!
Hey angels! Look Ik its completely hard. Ik that you try to be enough for everyone, including yourself. It’s massively painful, I know. But the reason I’m here is not to sell you lies just to make u feel better, I’m here to make you look closely into reality and facts that you’re too blind to see yet. Just look at you. You’re a person that struggles every day for their meant health but yet, they’re still to this world. They still fight for a better life and most of all, *for others*. You’re always there for others, you give everything you have only to satisfy them, you put them first angel. This world is so lucky to have you, even if some people don’t even realize it yet. Please don’t be hard on that sweet angel that you are. God made you special to this world. I want you to remember something. *»God has made you, and he never makes mistakes, only masterpieces💠💠”* I’m here to let you know how amazing you are and how you don’t gotta give up yet. It’s just a stage now that it’s gonna leave soon. Even if u don’t know it, there are so many people out there who need you, who love and care about you so much, who would do almost every single thing for you, who couldn’t live without you, who wouldn’t handle the pain if you were g0ne. You’re such a blessing to this world angel, and to show some appreciation to what you do every day I have a free to vent vid on the bottom of the comment which’s full of advices for mental health. Remember that it’s the trying that matters and don’t be too hard on ur self. Stay safe angel💠💠⚜️⚜️
Video!! : ruclips.net/video/LaIo3e3Vh5Y/видео.html .
Bro, this hits different
i love you
I cried reading this lol
Those Videos are so real
2:15 holy hell this one really got to me, because I’m the exact same way..
My mom literally bullied me for having acne and years after one day I couldn't just take it anymore so I burst into tears and told her what was going on with me and she was simply like oh that's it your just so dramatic
0:21. The kid just lying on the floor. The toys everywhere.
Mommy and Daddy issues best of both worlds
It hurts read the comments because that's exactly how I feel, and I also know other people do too
when ur mom has\had mommy issues so she passes it over to you..(i wanna have kids just so i can treat them better than how my mom treats me and my sister
I cried intensely throughout the video, and when my mother suddenly entered, I wiped my tears and pretended that nothing had happened.
I thought moms were always supposed to be there for you. But, instead my mother just drinks all day and, night. She doesn't give a crap about me or my sisters. And, now It's sad because I have absolutely no childhood memories with my mom. My dad and grandma pretty much raised me my entire life..
If I ever have kids or watch kids I dont want to treat them like my mom treated me idc if she has "gotten better" it's a lie it's just sad
Yknow how some say "they didnt want to be lile their parents" i was one of them too i beg myself not to be here but now this year is hopeless im already her and there is nothing i can do to change the fact i am my mother's little girl..
and yea.. i attached with that one teacher from my school, it's been 3 years. I alrdy consider her as my sec mom. I love her personality, her beauty, her eyes, her smiles, her hair, her laugh, the way she talking, every move she makes that really made me fall more in love with her. She's older than my mom. I didn't know that she was so important to me now. She's everything to me. She's perfect. We have shared many memories together. Almost every night i cry just bcoz i rlly miss and want her so badly. I once gave her a bouquet of flowers and a gift on teacher's day and i even made her a chocolate cake. She is always on my mind 24/7
Wish my mother would understand I’m a person with emotions too.
At home we have a chart of chores so when you do a chore you write your initial.
Im kinda the only one with initials on the chart, including my parents and siblings.
I also recently came out and she keeps calling me by my deadname and she/daughter.
Doesnt help that all three of her kids were accidents, and i feel like a mistake 😊
It’s so hard to realize that my mom gets so angry and mad at me but she’s my mom and I love her so much 🥲 and I can’t realize that she the person in the wrong but it always feels like I am and I love her 😞
My mom is the person that will be nice to u just for something SHE wanted but never knew what I wanted
I was crying to these because my mom literally screamed and slapped me 4 not organizing her room as she found me crying in my bed before doing that which made me question my love towards her because I'll never see her as a mother figure again.
2:10
This is how I feel with my bio mom
My mom used to push my older sister down the stairs. I just now realize I’ve never really had a childhood. Maybe if my parents were together I would’ve had a decent life
i don't know if i ever want to have children, because i'm terrified of being a bad mother.
one of my teachers always calls me honey and sweetheart and i wanna cry everytime❤️i love her but everyone thinks she’s annoying and mean
my mother.Always takes my sibling side never my and I feel like I'm not good enough for anybody and Only 2 people made me feel like I matter
dude im 10 and i relate to all this...
one time i i watched the movie homeless in harvard in my class and it was ok until i saw the mom and the drugs and the way she acted and i cried so bad in class thank you ms rector and i was sad because my momma did that too my momma did that too
i never really had a mother, did i?
Im watching this knowing my mum was just screaming on the phone to me
I can relate to everything especially the 3rd one
My dad is a bad guy and my mom tells him everything so out of fear from him my mom was never emotional there for me not to mention she makes everything my dad does a good thing like her saying " if he didn't love you he wouldn't hit you" when my dad "playfully" (painfully) hits us
It’s just that I don’t feel anything anymore and it’s because of my mom 🥲
I don't think my mother was ready to become one.
I mean, she's a pretty good mother: she buys me food, clothes, and sometimes even school supplies.
But the thing is... I don't think she was ready to be a mom. And being a mom is totally different.
Being a mom is not screaming at your child because they told you they have a problem. Being a mom is not being jealous of the relationship between your child and your husband. Being a mom is not telling your child that they're unworthy of friends, knowing that I get bullied at school.
And being a mom, ultimately is, not telling your child you don't want to be a mom anymore.
Even though you actually have never been
I’m honestly disgusted with my mother.
I am a Lucky boy that my mom isn’t like this. 😊
Mommy, I'm sorry.
I don’t ever want to see anyone get treated how I got treated by my mum but I’ve gotten rlly bad anger issues recently and I get annoyed and mad rlly easily and I’m honestly rlly scared I can’t even go a full week brushing my teeth which is rlly bad but I can’t I have no more motivation to do anything anymore it’s so hard
My mom just said I was messed up 😃
So currently I’m crying on my bedroom floor watching this because I know I am fucked up.
6:34 the fact that for so long i thought that’s how it was for everybody.
Nothing worse than when a mom screams in ur face that ur to attitudy and that ur not good enough or that ur acting like a spoiled brat or how she didn't raise u to be the girl that u are acting like
My mom walked in in me watching this and got mad at me for not wanting to tell her why I was crying
The reason I don't want kids is because I'm afraid I'll do the same thing my parents did to me.
will never make the same mistakes raising my kids as mom made raising me will never in a million years treat my kids the way she treated me.
Exactly ❤
I was helping with setting up for a school event and my best friends mom ask me and her to help her with something and we were telling her about this counseling thing the middle school was doing and she misunderstood us. and she said something and we all started laughing because of what she said and it made me remember how I’ll never have that with my mom. Also when I was sitting behind them in church and they were smiling and laughing instead of Arguing like me and my mom do.
That second clip was crazy 😔
I feel like I'm becoming a bad person, I'm not directly blaming my mother here, but the things that we both have gone through, destroying each other, it's made me into this person who rarely trusts people, if someone is nice to me I feel like they're just faking it, in becoming a bad friend who finds fault in everyone and when others praise me for anything I do, I don't believe them and inside I feel like they're saying it out of pity. I wasn't like this....I don't want to become this...I don't want to become a bad person. I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to be me anymore... The me I know now, is a monster we have both created.
5:40 cc
My mom is the best. She always do her best for me, and she gives me everything I asked for and she support me sm
my uncle always yells at my mom which makes her leave, and it even happened on christmas eve, and my grandmother always yells at me and makes me feel like im nothing sometimes
I never felt a mother's love
I really love ❤my momma and she does love me too. Unfortunately I can't meet with her everyday. 😿💕
Me after watching this after my mom abused me for not knowing how to turn off the stove……😭🙁
i feel sad that i dont even feel sad when she treats me like shit . i feel nothing . she never liked me . she never will. she like other kids . she thinks everyone is far better than me . a little thanks to her i have a habbit of always judging myself and always comparing myself with others . maybe its not because of her but mom why you have to be like this am i so bad
Vent‼️
She never just listens to
me, I try to tell her my feelings and she has to make sense of it. Is it that hard to listen?? I told her I was upset and that was a big step for me, Its hard for me to share my feelings with anyone really. Shes the cause for that, just because she didnt have parental guidance doesnt mean she has to shelter me for everything. I dont know if its because im on my period that im so emotional but I just feels like crying. Im so upset right now and then it just gets worse and worse. I just want her to listen to me man. And whenever I share what im feeling I just have to stay quiet with the rest because I dont want to cause an argument. Jesus Christ I cant even say any of this to her face, she doesn’t understand how hard it is more me to even tell her any of this. She never understands and she never will, it hurts so much. She confuses me more than anything- one day its “I love you! Lets go shopping!” Next minute is “You make me upset everyday.” Does she know what shes saying to me?! Does she realize how much that hurts someone like me??? Its so frustrating and confusing and I know I cant do anything about it because im just a fucking child and shes the grown adult. I want to be like those mother daughter relationships my friends have. Where they fan talk about boys and shopping and their feelings straight to their moms face. Why can we be like that? I used to feel like I had to sympathize her because she had a rough childhood but what about my childhood huh? My dad left me for drugs, I felt like everything was my fault, I wanted to kill myself for gods sake and what does she say to all of that? “Do better” “Its not real I felt the same way when I was your age” “Do your homework” “Ill do the worst if the worst punishments if I have to” why cant I just be accepted and supported?! I JUST WANT TO BE FUCKING ENOUGH FOR HER BUT I NEVER WILL BE. Im just a mistake, a disappointment In fact. I just want her to be well, my mom.
Your mom is not the only one. You have teachers and friends to rely on.
Yk it's not that easy. Either they will not understand and would try to underestimate your wounds or if you're extremely lucky, you'd get help but that's also limited.
I put mascara on so I don't cry
I crave validation from older women, just because my mom was absent for almost all of my life.
For me I have a half toxic dad and I got mommy issues and
Sh problem
And other stuff
And it fell good to know I not alone
Even know it hard
5:22 ...welp-- everything after that one (including that one) is true for me ;-;