Thank you to everyone letting me know the sound is slightly off! I noticed people have been mentioning it recently but my audio checkers couldn’t pick up the problem through my editing software, only once it was uploaded to RUclips did it seem to become slightly distorted. Just got my lovely wife to look at the microphone and she realised it had cracked slightly! Oh Deaf Problems! 🙈 New microphone is on its way so Friday’s video should be back to normal 😊 xxx
In a way, it just makes the audio sound "older" - which to be honest, I didn't really notice too much since it matches your aesthetic and fashion style lol! Almost could pass as an editing style choice!
Ahh it reminded me of the sound on your older videos. Then I thought maybe it was so the sound went with the vintage vibe because it sounds like very old audio. lol
you're so beautiful oh wow,,, i love you sm, you've changed my life lots. as a young, femme, disabled lesbian, ive never found anyone like me in the media. thanks for being there for kids like me who need a role model like you. you're who ive needed for a long time 💕💕💕 hope you're doing well, love from Canada !
Thanks for this video! A good friend of mine also struggles with the perception of their face due to trauma, and I wanted to say that you're not alone. Also, the 2 dislikes are probably from those creepy teddy bears with human teeth.
If there's one life lesson I got from med school I can convey to others is that there is no "right" emotional response to a medical situation. In medical rotations, I'm rarely the first person to talk to someone about their prognosis because I'm the most junior member of staff, so when I come in to talk to them, they've developed a reaction to their disease and I'm just a witness. Every emotion is valid and there is no fixed path to move forward for any person or illness.
Your fairy lights seem to break at 10:01 (just letting you know in case of a fire hazard) :) Your inner beauty shines from within, and without imperfections we wouldn't be human!
This hits on so many truths. Unrelated to disability or accidents so many people struggle with their own appearance. Weight, aging, even something as normal as growing up is jarring psychologically. My teenage self hated stupid parts of my face for seemingly unreasonable reasons. Looking back why did I obsess over my cupids bow for being too deep? Why did I freak out over the smile creases in my face? I was a baby then and looking back I looked normal. But it was the growth the change the aging I was unsettled with, my brain wasn't ready to accept the new version of me. I'm 30 soon and I am going to have to work on accepting that in this next decade my face will be changing a lot.
The title of this video really surprised me. Not just because you're so positive but because you're gorgeous. We don't notice any asymmetry due to lack of muscle movement, so I hope it doesn't make you self-conscious. I understand the frustration of feeling like you don't look like yourself. I have felt like I don't look like myself since I got permanent cosmetics done on my eyebrows in 2012. They weren't quite how I would have done them shape-wise. And even if I had my old eyebrows back now, between aging, weight gain (60 pounds), and weight loss (75 pounds), I think I still wouldn't quite recognize myself, because I'd be expecting to go right back to what I was in 2012, and my appearance has naturally changed since then.
I understand the not rightness of a face. I have actively avoided mirrors and mirror finish reflective surfaces for years. I was born Autistic spectrum and never very comfortable with faces to begin with. Then I had a series of injuries one of which affected my brain and another which damaged my hearing (among many other issues). So now I have prospagnosia and have to supplement my hearing with lipreading. Every face simultaneously looks similar, unfamiliar and wrong. I can see faces when looking at them and I can remember certain things like hairline, facial hair or if someone has a lack of mobility in the face, but I can't retain memory of what a persons face looks like. A few years ago my partner shaved his facial hair for a Halloween costume and I flat out refused to see him for months because I couldn't process that he was really him without it. After years of being accustomed to watching his beard I could barely understand him without it and his voice not coming from a beard was just too bizarre for me to handle. Seeing myself in a mirror or other reflective surface if I'm not braced for it is the worst. I remember my face from before injury and NOTHING about the facsimile I can see now looks right or even close to right. Faces are creepy to start, faces that always look both the same and like strangers are worse. Having that same not right stranger's face look back at you from a mirror is straight out of a horror movie. So many coping mechanisms to get by.
Out of curiosity, regarding 8:02 ... have you tried reversing (left-to-right) photos of yourself? Does that make a difference for what you're talking about? I remember a time way back when when I did a photo shoot for a friend. I printed (I was taking B&W photography classes at the time) a few different ones, and they didn't like any of them. Frustrated, I pondered it for a while... and then a few weeks later, I presented my favorite of the photos, but printed backwards. My friend loved it! I think they even asked why I hadn't shown them that photo previously... but of course I had, just reversed. I don't know for sure what all factors might have played in (mood on the day, familiarity of an image once seen, etc.), but the big factor to my mind at the time was the reversal. And I know we're used to seeing ourselves (or at least were, before the days of Instagram and such?) in the mirror more so than in photos, so... I wonder...
Nobody will fully understand how another person sees themselves or their lives. So long as that self-perception is respected rather than downplayed, it's kindness
sparx fli I honestly find it to be very interesting what people end up finding I pleasing about their person. I’ve found that those things are rarely if ever noticed by others. I tend to love an appropriate the things that are “different”.
But should I let my girlfriend hate herself just because that's what her bullies taught her? Maybe I'm missing the point. Can you explain when trying to help a person accept and value themselves becomes downplaying their feelings?
Jessica, I cannot even tell you how much I desperately needed this video. I'm on a pretty bad downward spiral with my depression right now, and I'm finding it very difficult to even like myself, let alone love myself. I so very much needed to hear the message of self-love being a journey, especially when stated as eloquently as you did. My brain often doesn't do what I'd like it to do, and there are so many days when I feel like it has let me down. Thank you for helping me feel less alone in that space. Your videos do a world of good.
Jessica, you and I have so much in common. I have connective tissue disease (and now, RA) and spinal issues (herniated discs that led to double level cervical fusion and also scoliosis), and twice in the 90s I had Bells Palsey, which paralyzed the side of my face. I recovered but it's never been the same and I worry others notice, though apparently nobody seems to but me. I feel asymmetrical and off, though. I don't know if a mini stroke caused it. I also have migraines, so who knows. What's really odd is my pupils are two different sizes!
Don't know to send a message so I'll just leave my comment here. Thanks for being a wonderful person and posting about yourself and about quite a few aspects of your life. You inspire me in more than a few ways.
Thanks for the game recommendation! I have a disabling mental health condition and I can feel a rough patch coming on so definitely downloading right now for a new distraction! Love you Jessica, you're my favourite youtuber to watch on my down days xxx
What a lovely video. It’s hard to be vulnerable like this, it’s very powerful. Also I noticed an unexpected parallel which I found really interesting. The description of seeing yourself but the image being off in subtle ways that make it very uncomfortable to look at, really resonates with me as someone who has experienced gender dysphoria.
My empathy for you concerning migraines is unreal, I had horrific migraines for three years and then they stopped and I'm still terrified of them. My worst thing was people calling headaches migraines, you know the ones that were up and walking around completely normal just complaining they had a migraine but in truth at least my migraines completely nocked me out. It was interesting about the aura because mine was. really different, I would have flashing lights accross my entire vision and have a very small gap to see out of, ugh it makes me feel sick thinking about them.
tilla I usually can’t see half of the picture my eyes are seeing...hard to explain :/ if I stare at a digital watch I can only see minutes, not hours. Ever happened to you? Then come the numbnes in half of my face/arm/leg and then the headache kicks in
Mine looks like the light positioned right above my left eye is flashing. Even when I lay down it still comes down from my forehead. It only happens in my left eye and my migraines are always in my left temple/around my left eye. All I can think is that it’s really good I don’t have epilepsy triggered by flashing lights since my brain makes flashing lights itself.
Did u ever play that slenderman game all those years ago? Whenever you look in the direction of the slenderman, the game's screen gets fuzzy and static-y. It gets worse and worse until you're eventually devored by the monster. That's what my migraine auras are like. Static that moves wave-like across my vision
Hey Jessica! Just to let you know, the audio on this video and the last one has sounded quite distorted and muffled - I think your microphone may be damaged or at least malfunctioning. Thought I'd better let you know!
Yes, it sounded very "retro". Like an old gramophone...how fitting ;-) I loved what you said about the validity of feelings. I think you help more people than you are aware of, because of your personality and your pure existence...
i was born premature and my left retina did not fully develop. it took me LONG TIME to be okay with it and not cry whenever i talked about it. but at this point in my 24 years of life i am finally okay with it and view it as a fun topic of conversation. thank you for making this video. i really appreciate all you do, jessica. i’m finally loving my little blind eye.
My husband had a similar but sort of opposite problem -- he was overdue and the left side of his face was pressed hard against his mother's pelvis for 1-2 weeks -- that cut off blood supply on that side and damaged his eye so he can only see light/shadows in his peripheral from that eye. His biggest issue is not having any depth perception. Weirdly, it also caused his beard to not grow in a large section on that side until he was in his 30s. He turned 48 yesterday and now wishes he had 1/3 less beard to shave like he used to, lol.
You’re so beautiful and wonderful and I like how you are validating our own feelings and that it is okay not to like everything about yourself and still love yourself. I also like how you are talking about that side of your fave. I have a side of my face that doesn’t operate properly and it is like the muscles aren’t as strong or operating as well. And that eye doesn’t work or look the same. And it is frustrating. I like how you are so open about things because it can cause frustrations that others don’t realize.
Hey) First video, which I saw on your channel is about that you are deaf) I was completely surprised 😅 There you told that it’s very important for you to talk clear) I am from Russia and I decide to learn English) So, your videos are so understandable Thank you very much because your so helpful for me to learn this language💕💕💕
This is so helpful to hear. Sometimes it feels like I'm being unreasonable for the way I feel about my body, especially since my disabilities have cropped up, and its immensely reassuring to know that it's something others experience too.
Thank you for explaining this so well! I can relate to some of it. My face feels "wrong" right now because my meds are causing moon face. I know I don't really look bad but it's this weird feeling that something's off.
Oh my gosh, thank you for this video! I had a migraine like this too awhile ago and while my vision did come back, the left side of my face is still partially paralyzed and you really do uncanny valley yourself about it, like, half your face is the ventriloquist and the other half is the dummy.
Jessica, you are THE BEST! I've been wathcing all of your videos and for the first time feel as if there is someone who understands (and even has some similar health conditions as I do). I also have hypermobility syndrome (not genetic eds) from an accident to my hip, SI joints, and lower back , which (without proper cae) spread laxity up my spine and eventually has affected all joints. I too have a lesser degree of feeling on the entire left side (and it's lights out internally on the left side of my face- I never thought I'd hear someone acknowledge or understand this experience!) Unfortunatley, like you, I've been around and around the medical system, but with limited success as I plan for my future (still with no diagnosis as I attempt to stabilize my body using my own knowledge
All the love my dear. Thank you for sharing with us. 💜 I particularly love the idea that we can love and accept ourselves and love who we are and our flawed bodies and still have not so fav parts. I feel like you should be teaching the world.
Thank you.... so much.... THIS ... EXACTLY THIS , I had a facial drop post surgery. I will be sharing this on my blog as I don't think I could explain better.
First, I love this video. I think it helps remind everyone that our self-perceptions and how others see us can be quite different. Second, I love when RUclipsrs I love get sponsorships!
Love how honest and lovely you are! ❤️ Also, you're super beautiful 🌹😊 thanks for your positive influence in my life. One of my favourite quotes is one from greys anatomy "Not everyone has to be happy all the time. That's not mental health. That's crap"
Oh my gosh! This made it click why I've always felt like photos looked nothing like me. I have amblyopia, which means my brain mostly ignores input from my right eye. It had never occurred to me until you mentioned it that my perception of how my face looks is completely different than it would be if I could see properly with both eyes, especially since I've had amblyopia my whole life. Add in the mirror effect (especially since that flips which side is more visible to me) and...yeah, no wonder I always think I look "weird" in photos.
I was born with a palsy down my left side and dyspraxia. At age 14 I had brain surgery and caused damage. My left side of my face works and looks similar to yours in the muscle weakness, but as I’ve aged, i prefer it to my right side which has aged, and I look asymmetrical. Thank you for this video, I’ve discussed this with my cbt therapist and she’s given me a pep talk and a worksheet 😊 lots of love Xxx
I deeply appreciate the message at the end. After years of living with someone who was constantly putting me down and bullying in school, it's been hard building my self-esteem back up. I am no longer in school or living with this person, but the damage has still been done. I have good days and bad days, but it's nice to be reminded that it's ok to have those bad days.
This really touched me because I was born with a facial nerve palsy on my left side. I can't really see out my left eye and I can't blink it. I have had some cosmetic surgery so my fave is a bit more symmetrical and some reanimation surgery on my mouth. As I got older and became aware I was different, I couldn't stand to see pictures from my left side or especially videos of me talking because I thought I looked like an alien, it wasn't me! And I had a set idea of what a face was like, I thought I was like everyone else. Part of me wanted to believe I was like everyone else too. I have been so self conscious and sad about it for as long as I can remember but I really pushed the feelings down and have only really acknowledged them properly this last year since seeing a therapist. Thank you so much for validating my feelings ❤️ your speech at the end was lovely. I, too, am learning to love my funny little face too x x x x x
I never write comments on videos... but honestly, you have made my day so happy!! I don't suffer from any complicated condition as you (I admire your personality despite everything). I have a complicated column (and there is no explanation for it...). I have had already 3 surgeries from herniated disks (and probably more in the future..), and I'm starting to show symptoms on my legs and arms that make my days hard, and I'm trying to learn how to live with. Thank you for showing me how happy you can be even with worse conditions than mine! It gives me strength and courage!
I've never been into the whole gardenscapes build your own house, but Jessica actually kind of sold me on this game. These kinds of games are great for the disabled, because it's slow, and you don't have to react quickly. I'm always trying to find games that are easy enough that I don't have to get into that competitive mode and get anxiety, or stress out my muscles.
Thank you thank you thank you. Yet again you've somehow created content specific to a part of my experience that has made me feel alone/ isolated/ strange. So refreshing
I love that you said this! I have always hated looking into a mirror because my face never matched what I thought it should. As I've gotten older that thought has changed. I don't hate what I see. That being said I still don't look into a mirror unless I need to. The years of "training" myself to avoid looking has stuck. I try to remind myself to look but I can actually walk past mirrors 100 times a day and never glance at myself. It's nice to hear that someone who is so usually positive and uplifting sometimes feels similar. Thanks for sharing!
So, I have Chronic Lyme. It caused Bell's Palsy on the left side of my face nearly 2 years ago and my face has never fully recovered. Your video really helped communicate how I feel about my half my face not working 100% Thank you so much!
Thank you for sharing. I don’t care for parts of my face either. But, it’s mine, so I adjust. Also, downloaded Lost Island. OMG very addicting. I love it. Glad you recommended it. 💕
as someone with mild face blindness every once in a while I get really unnerved by my own reflection in the mirror because it doens't innately seem like 'me' and I get that uncanny valley feeling
Thank you for this video, Jessie. I am autistic and have PCOS and it's a battle to like my body. I know that other people think I look normal or a healthy weight or whatever, but I battle with having hair in weird places, adult acne, constant pain, and a whole host of other nasty symptoms. I love myself, and I know my body can do amazing things (I'm a ballet dancer as a hobby and after starting at 21, was able to get my pointe shoes as an adult! Hell yeah!), but sometimes it's a real battle to be okay with the body I live in. I appreciate you verbalising this and helping to normalise it.
LMFAO this is ironic since right now I have right side facial paralysis and have been watching youtube as I recover from everything and this pops up. I love you and your channel so much !!
You are a wonderful human being and the word unconditional comes to mind in that I don’t think a lot of people who’ve chosen to be part of the community a long time could not love even the parts of yourself you dislike. All that said you are absolutely without a doubt stunning. You make this whole life thing a bit more bearable everyday just knowing you are out there.💖💛💙
You look perfect and beautiful to me! I have strabismus which meant that for a large part of my life my left eye was crossed and in toward my nose. It didn't follow along with my right eye at all. So, when you talk about that uncanny valley thing I possibly understand I think. People were uncomfortable about my face and often had no embarrassment to ask me directly "what is wrong with you" and I often was sad about it. Fortunately when I was an adult I got cosmetic surgery so that it is now less crooked. Even though most can't tell now, I still can tell when I look in the mirror and it can bother me. I empathize with that feeling. I love your channel and your positivity.
I can relate to you, though not the exact same way. My left eye is a "lazy" eye. It looks off to the side at times. Instead of my eyes working together as they should my right eye became dominate to make up for the weakness on my left. I've had people comment on it, mostly kids. I hate taking or seeing pictures of myself because my left eye rarely will be staring in the same direction as my right. It's not as noticeable as it was when I was younger except when when I'm tired or have eye strain. It took me awhile before I could accept that it isn't as noticeable as I think it is.
About 15 years ago I had Bell's Palsy and the left side of my face was paralyzed for about 3 months. I can relate to the weird feelings of numbness and the mask like qualities!
I didn't know the uncanny valley thing, that's kinda cool! I totally feel you with the moustache thing. When my recorder teacher cut his hair when I was like 8 I freaaaaked out.
I can relate to this on some level, while I don't have paralysis in my face I do have tremors in the right side of my body due to Serotonin Syndrome that did not alleviate after the typical 5 weeks, its been 3 years. Most of the time just the corner of my eye and mouth tick as well as a slight tremor in my right hand but any time I become overly stressed or have too much adrenaline for any reason (being sick, not enough sleep, emotional stress, busy line at work) the right side of my body kind of just melts down. During these times I'm prone to get foggy and tired as well so to someone who doesn't know what is happening it looks like I'm having a seizure or stroke. I'll fall, slur my words (tongue and lips start to tick and tremor as well) my core, arm, and leg muscles are constantly tensing and jumping until they either go into dystonia or I take medication that knocks me out. Its really hard not to be frustrated with my body when this happens because I just want it to do things and it wont! Even though people don't notice my tremors generally unless I point them out, I am always aware of them and the small adjustments I've had to make over the past few years to accommodate them. This video and your migraine video about separating your mind from your body really resonate with me for these reasons.
At least now I know I'm not the only person who's struggling with both chronic migraines and scoliosis. I watched your video about life lessons with chronic illnesses, and I was unsure about what you were going through. Glad I watched this one too. You're a beautiful and wonderful person, and I am so happy I found your channel.
I freaking love you! You have such a amazingly beautiful spirit and that's what's translated into your beauty. Yes you are physically beautiful but believe it's because your inner projects to your outer. Thank you for your videos you've spread a lot of goodness into the world and I find them highly educating. Thank you. Muah!
I don’t typically like to comment until I’ve watched in its entirety but I’ve never been so early. Haha. All the love, Jessica! Your videos make my day.
Every video of yours helps so much. I can’t express it properly but please know that. And thank you. Truly thank you! And lost Island is pretty dope. I don’t have anything to do with the game. But it’s not greedy like other games with in app purchases.
My story is not identical to yours but I can relate to so much to this; and yes the impact it can have on your self esteem is devastating even if no one can tell but you ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Oh my god I'm so glad I've found someone with the same problem as me. Well not glad but you know I feel less alone now. My story isn't exactly the same as yours obviously and it's such a long story I can't he bothered to go into detail, but yes the right side of my face has never been the same since: it's a lot better now and I do have a relatively normal life but I used to not be able to move it properly, not smile with that side, not be able to talk properly, all my facial expressions just went so weird. Same as you really, that side of my face just didn't look right anymire it just didn't look like me and it does fucking freak you out! It was so depersonalizing and I don't think anyone can understand the psychological impact of it unless they've gone through it themselves. It was devastating to my confidence and it still affects me so much now. In the nicest way possibke anyone in the comments going "what are you on about? You're gorgeous you have nothing to worry about!" this type of thing is a lot deeper than "oh I don't like my nose or my my skin" Half my face stopped fucking working, and you need your face for um everything???!!!! Not too mention people telling me "not to worry" and they "couldn't tell" and that I "still looked pretty" when a big part of the problem was that I was also in pain???!!!!! I'm not glad by any means you went through this, but it's refreshing to hear someone speak about it and it needs to be spoken about ❤️ If it is any consolation at all, and I know I'm being a bit of a hypocrite, but you are gorgeous and you can't tell 😘
I grew up with a small amount of plastic surgery (and I'm also blind in one eye!) and I related a lot to the last part of the video especially. So good to hear someone talking about this very niche feeling - thank you so much for uploading!!!
I have persistent migraine aura so I just see the weird fluctuations in light (Mine looks kind of like tv static) all day every day. :/ I miss being able to see things clearly, but I've mostly adapted to it. I really know what you mean when you talk about your body letting you down... My body is actually really healthy in most aspects and works very well for me(which I greatly appreciate and no longer take for granted), but the part of my brain that processes visual information just kind of randomly stopped working correctly. Anyway, your videos are sooo helpful to me when I feel upset about these kinds of things. You are amazing.
I can't believe I'm not alone! For the past few months I've had weird vision due to persistent migraine aura. It really scared me at first but like you, I've gotten used to it. I wish you all the best with your health
I have several issues with my appearance. I've been living with a constant, chronic pain for several years now, that's practically left me disabled and I think it contributes to my low self esteem and seeing myself as unattractive, although I was struggling with it even before my life turned into constant pain. Anyway, one of my issues is my very hooded eyes and I randomly ended up on a makeup tutorial for hooded eyes (from a guy who didn't really have very much of it) and it reminded me how much I dislike my own, but after that I ended up on a couple of your vids and it was just nice to see someone with what looks like the same degree of hooded eyes as me, lookin really beautiful (even if I'm super jelly of your thick hair !) So thanks for being you and reminding me that the trait doesn't have to take away from one's beauty.
I love watching your vlogs because you always tell it how it is but then find something positive about it, like today I loved what you said how all of our thoughts are our own and we shouldn't let anyone take away from that❤❤❤ even when you don't feel great you still find something good... by the way I think you are gorgeous but I also understand where you are coming from and I admire you... lots of love to you Jessica and Claudia, Walter and Tilly💝💝💝💝❤❤❤❤
I know that everybody is telling you, but I won't be less... I really think that your face is BEAUTIFUL. But moreover, you are beautiful inside, with all your good vibrations and your strong will, and... I would like to tell you so many things, but English is not my mother tongue and I can't find the words. So, I'm sending you a big, big Spanish hug. (I suffered that paralysis of one side of my face many years ago, It didn't left me any consequences, but It terrified me too).
Thank you for the video Jessica! I wanted to recommend a phone game to you - Love Nikki Dress up Queen! I've been playing it almost daily for over a year, it's super fun, and the story is very interesting. You travel through a magical land where all conflict is settled with fashion competitions, as mandated by a treaty after a massive war that happened before your character arrived. The clothing options are massive and ever-growing, I think you'd really like it!
New subscriber - found you looking for a mentor/role model for a modern/vintage fashion. I LOVE you. Out of everyone I’ve seen... well, call me a lifer. You’re going to be huge just being you. And I just hope when I start getting my fashion sense more on point to how I feel I want to look, it looks half as gorgeous as how you look. 😍🥰 And I enjoy all of your educational content as well. You’ve been my binge watch for this mama today lol ❤️
I relate, I don't look like "myself" to me either, I don't even have a mental picture of what I should look like just a perpetual ambiguous wrongness. Although I do have mild face blindness (prosopagnosia) so I think for me that's part of the reason. Recognizing myself (and other people in my family) in photos (or in person) is a matter of memory and practice.
I can completely empathise with the ‘only being able to see one side of one’s face, and being disturbed by it’ kind of thing, though I’d certainly say I’ve had it much easier than you have - I was born blind in my left eye. However, that also means that my face has always looked upsettingly asymmetrical to me, despite no-one else seeming to notice it now. (Honestly, the blind eye has a partial mono-lid, and the eye itself strays when it’s tired. Truly a lazy eye.) The bullying I endured until the end of secondary school was killing, frankly, and really messed up my internal working model, but I’m still working on that ‘No fucks given’ attitude I’ve always strived for. Your story came as a total surprise to me - I’ve been subscribed to your channel for almost a year now, but I never twigged (nor would I probably ever, had I not seen this) that you only had vision in one eye, let alone any sort of facial paralysis. God, you’re an inspiration to me, and no doubt to so many others in similar boats.
Just wondering if that's why you have your hair's parting on the side that it's on. To partially hide that side of your face and so you don't get that specific 'there's hair touching my face' feeling?
I was born with a pinched nerve on the right side of my face. The only time my right eye closes is when I’m sleeping because it’s relaxed enough. I also can’t smile correctly because my right side of my face doesn’t work correctly. Because of these things I hate having my pictures taken and I’m very shy. I just wanted to thank you for putting yourself out there for not only yourself but for others like me.
I can relate to this a little. When I take a photo and the camera inverts the image on its own, it really messes with me. It no longer looks right. Even though that's probably how other people see me, it's not how I see myself. I get this weird disconnect from the image and have to delete it and change camera settings.
It's amazing to me how our perception of our faces can change, not just due to trauma and diability--although that is a huge consideration and not one I have thought about before--but even just throughout a day or week. Sometimes I look in my mirror and I tell myself "girl, you look amazing!" and then others, I feel like I have all of these things wrong with me. (also, looking at my face without my glasses on sometimes is scary because my eyes look like black holes)
You're just Darling. What a wonderful dry sense of humor you have. Have a bit of a lowered left eye lid,left over from brain aneurism and today a full of himself insecure egomaniac gentleman pointed it out to everyone in ear shot, trying to be funny. Of course I let him know about his self and I'm sure he will think twice before picking on someone else but truth be told I was a bit mad at my eye and also felt bad for being mad at it. It does work very hard to stay open so I can see properly from both eyes. Not real great with feelings but I do love most of me most of the time.
We really need positive representative of princess character like this beautiful lady . I wish future generation watch her videos and messages behind it
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Thank you to everyone letting me know the sound is slightly off! I noticed people have been mentioning it recently but my audio checkers couldn’t pick up the problem through my editing software, only once it was uploaded to RUclips did it seem to become slightly distorted. Just got my lovely wife to look at the microphone and she realised it had cracked slightly! Oh Deaf Problems! 🙈 New microphone is on its way so Friday’s video should be back to normal 😊 xxx
In a way, it just makes the audio sound "older" - which to be honest, I didn't really notice too much since it matches your aesthetic and fashion style lol! Almost could pass as an editing style choice!
@@kalystamainville8022 for me it was mostly inaudible what she said, i couldnt understand almost anything
@@locke. Ouch! For me, its just has some static and the sound of an old recording! I didn't realize it was so bad for some people.
@@kalystamainville8022 yeah, i guess its just youtube being youtube again.
Ahh it reminded me of the sound on your older videos. Then I thought maybe it was so the sound went with the vintage vibe because it sounds like very old audio. lol
Omg this is so interesting!!!
Ha ha, thank you, I try! 😁
Oh my Jessica and Doodie.. I'm gonna cry you two are great!
Omg if you two had a baby it would be like a singer in the 1930's!!!!!!
Dodie!
If only a collab could happen
I acc kinda like the bad audio cause it weirdly fits the whole 50s theme and posh accent. Genuinely thought it was a style choice at the beginning!
Nothing beautiful is ever perfect, and nothing perfect is ever beautiful.
😍
Oh shit
Ring the bells that still can ring. Forget your perfect offering. There's a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in.
You are beautiful Dear Lady. Never forget that.🙂
you're so beautiful oh wow,,, i love you sm, you've changed my life lots. as a young, femme, disabled lesbian, ive never found anyone like me in the media. thanks for being there for kids like me who need a role model like you. you're who ive needed for a long time 💕💕💕 hope you're doing well, love from Canada !
Ooo fellow Canadian!
Yay young femme disabled lesbian club! Glad there are others out there
You're so pretty!
That the left side lights went out was oddly appropriate
Omg I didnt even realize that until just now. 10:02 for anyone who's curious
@@Anna-ly9dg Thank you for the time stamp? That was odd 😳
You are like the only person that's able to properly explain uncanny valley.
She's a great communicator!
Thanks for this video! A good friend of mine also struggles with the perception of their face due to trauma, and I wanted to say that you're not alone. Also, the 2 dislikes are probably from those creepy teddy bears with human teeth.
Hahahaha!
or are they...
If there's one life lesson I got from med school I can convey to others is that there is no "right" emotional response to a medical situation. In medical rotations, I'm rarely the first person to talk to someone about their prognosis because I'm the most junior member of staff, so when I come in to talk to them, they've developed a reaction to their disease and I'm just a witness. Every emotion is valid and there is no fixed path to move forward for any person or illness.
THANK YOU
If I had a pound for everything I loved about your face
Riches!
Seriously Gurl, you are beautiful!
Thank You for your constant british sarcasm. I honestly love the way you can talk about serious topics while still making me laugh. X
Your fairy lights seem to break at 10:01 (just letting you know in case of a fire hazard) :)
Your inner beauty shines from within, and without imperfections we wouldn't be human!
This hits on so many truths. Unrelated to disability or accidents so many people struggle with their own appearance. Weight, aging, even something as normal as growing up is jarring psychologically. My teenage self hated stupid parts of my face for seemingly unreasonable reasons. Looking back why did I obsess over my cupids bow for being too deep? Why did I freak out over the smile creases in my face? I was a baby then and looking back I looked normal. But it was the growth the change the aging I was unsettled with, my brain wasn't ready to accept the new version of me. I'm 30 soon and I am going to have to work on accepting that in this next decade my face will be changing a lot.
The title of this video really surprised me. Not just because you're so positive but because you're gorgeous. We don't notice any asymmetry due to lack of muscle movement, so I hope it doesn't make you self-conscious. I understand the frustration of feeling like you don't look like yourself. I have felt like I don't look like myself since I got permanent cosmetics done on my eyebrows in 2012. They weren't quite how I would have done them shape-wise. And even if I had my old eyebrows back now, between aging, weight gain (60 pounds), and weight loss (75 pounds), I think I still wouldn't quite recognize myself, because I'd be expecting to go right back to what I was in 2012, and my appearance has naturally changed since then.
I understand the not rightness of a face. I have actively avoided mirrors and mirror finish reflective surfaces for years. I was born Autistic spectrum and never very comfortable with faces to begin with. Then I had a series of injuries one of which affected my brain and another which damaged my hearing (among many other issues). So now I have prospagnosia and have to supplement my hearing with lipreading.
Every face simultaneously looks similar, unfamiliar and wrong. I can see faces when looking at them and I can remember certain things like hairline, facial hair or if someone has a lack of mobility in the face, but I can't retain memory of what a persons face looks like.
A few years ago my partner shaved his facial hair for a Halloween costume and I flat out refused to see him for months because I couldn't process that he was really him without it. After years of being accustomed to watching his beard I could barely understand him without it and his voice not coming from a beard was just too bizarre for me to handle.
Seeing myself in a mirror or other reflective surface if I'm not braced for it is the worst. I remember my face from before injury and NOTHING about the facsimile I can see now looks right or even close to right. Faces are creepy to start, faces that always look both the same and like strangers are worse. Having that same not right stranger's face look back at you from a mirror is straight out of a horror movie.
So many coping mechanisms to get by.
Out of curiosity, regarding 8:02 ... have you tried reversing (left-to-right) photos of yourself? Does that make a difference for what you're talking about?
I remember a time way back when when I did a photo shoot for a friend. I printed (I was taking B&W photography classes at the time) a few different ones, and they didn't like any of them. Frustrated, I pondered it for a while... and then a few weeks later, I presented my favorite of the photos, but printed backwards. My friend loved it! I think they even asked why I hadn't shown them that photo previously... but of course I had, just reversed. I don't know for sure what all factors might have played in (mood on the day, familiarity of an image once seen, etc.), but the big factor to my mind at the time was the reversal. And I know we're used to seeing ourselves (or at least were, before the days of Instagram and such?) in the mirror more so than in photos, so... I wonder...
Nobody will fully understand how another person sees themselves or their lives. So long as that self-perception is respected rather than downplayed, it's kindness
sparx fli I honestly find it to be very interesting what people end up finding I pleasing about their person. I’ve found that those things are rarely if ever noticed by others. I tend to love an appropriate the things that are “different”.
But should I let my girlfriend hate herself just because that's what her bullies taught her? Maybe I'm missing the point. Can you explain when trying to help a person accept and value themselves becomes downplaying their feelings?
After discovering you today, I can't wait to tell my friends about you! I'm a 60+ year old straight guy and you're fabulous
your description of a day without migraine made me tear up---i get about one or two pain-free days a year and i know that feeling so specifically.
Jessica, I cannot even tell you how much I desperately needed this video. I'm on a pretty bad downward spiral with my depression right now, and I'm finding it very difficult to even like myself, let alone love myself. I so very much needed to hear the message of self-love being a journey, especially when stated as eloquently as you did.
My brain often doesn't do what I'd like it to do, and there are so many days when I feel like it has let me down. Thank you for helping me feel less alone in that space. Your videos do a world of good.
I have severe OCD and body dysmorphic disorder, so I relate to this so much. Different cause, but similar outcome. Sending you love!
Jessica, you and I have so much in common. I have connective tissue disease (and now, RA) and spinal issues (herniated discs that led to double level cervical fusion and also scoliosis), and twice in the 90s I had Bells Palsey, which paralyzed the side of my face. I recovered but it's never been the same and I worry others notice, though apparently nobody seems to but me. I feel asymmetrical and off, though. I don't know if a mini stroke caused it. I also have migraines, so who knows. What's really odd is my pupils are two different sizes!
You've convinced me in less than a minute to get the game when months of ads did the opposite.
Don't know to send a message so I'll just leave my comment here. Thanks for being a wonderful person and posting about yourself and about quite a few aspects of your life. You inspire me in more than a few ways.
Thanks for the game recommendation! I have a disabling mental health condition and I can feel a rough patch coming on so definitely downloading right now for a new distraction! Love you Jessica, you're my favourite youtuber to watch on my down days xxx
What a lovely video. It’s hard to be vulnerable like this, it’s very powerful. Also I noticed an unexpected parallel which I found really interesting. The description of seeing yourself but the image being off in subtle ways that make it very uncomfortable to look at, really resonates with me as someone who has experienced gender dysphoria.
I love the body neutrality approach you take to self acceptance. Because body positivity can feel a little empty when you're disabled
My empathy for you concerning migraines is unreal, I had horrific migraines for three years and then they stopped and I'm still terrified of them. My worst thing was people calling headaches migraines, you know the ones that were up and walking around completely normal just complaining they had a migraine but in truth at least my migraines completely nocked me out. It was interesting about the aura because mine was. really different, I would have flashing lights accross my entire vision and have a very small gap to see out of, ugh it makes me feel sick thinking about them.
Aura migraines are the absolute worst. They look like that to me but with added disco lights and heat wave patterns.
tilla I usually can’t see half of the picture my eyes are seeing...hard to explain :/ if I stare at a digital watch I can only see minutes, not hours. Ever happened to you? Then come the numbnes in half of my face/arm/leg and then the headache kicks in
Mine looks like the light positioned right above my left eye is flashing. Even when I lay down it still comes down from my forehead. It only happens in my left eye and my migraines are always in my left temple/around my left eye. All I can think is that it’s really good I don’t have epilepsy triggered by flashing lights since my brain makes flashing lights itself.
@@iHatePlasticBags Yes! I completely get that too. I look down and can only see half of my phone or some things are just black
Did u ever play that slenderman game all those years ago? Whenever you look in the direction of the slenderman, the game's screen gets fuzzy and static-y. It gets worse and worse until you're eventually devored by the monster.
That's what my migraine auras are like. Static that moves wave-like across my vision
I have really bizarre ones where one side of my face just stops working and goes all droopy. I don't really get the headache though so that's a plus.
Hey Jessica! Just to let you know, the audio on this video and the last one has sounded quite distorted and muffled - I think your microphone may be damaged or at least malfunctioning. Thought I'd better let you know!
Sounds muffled for me too - not so bad that you can't understand it, but not as professional as usual.
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Yes, it sounded very "retro". Like an old gramophone...how fitting ;-)
I loved what you said about the validity of feelings. I think you help more people than you are aware of, because of your personality and your pure existence...
i was born premature and my left retina did not fully develop. it took me LONG TIME to be okay with it and not cry whenever i talked about it. but at this point in my 24 years of life i am finally okay with it and view it as a fun topic of conversation. thank you for making this video. i really appreciate all you do, jessica. i’m finally loving my little blind eye.
My husband had a similar but sort of opposite problem -- he was overdue and the left side of his face was pressed hard against his mother's pelvis for 1-2 weeks -- that cut off blood supply on that side and damaged his eye so he can only see light/shadows in his peripheral from that eye. His biggest issue is not having any depth perception.
Weirdly, it also caused his beard to not grow in a large section on that side until he was in his 30s. He turned 48 yesterday and now wishes he had 1/3 less beard to shave like he used to, lol.
You’re so beautiful and wonderful and I like how you are validating our own feelings and that it is okay not to like everything about yourself and still love yourself. I also like how you are talking about that side of your fave. I have a side of my face that doesn’t operate properly and it is like the muscles aren’t as strong or operating as well. And that eye doesn’t work or look the same. And it is frustrating. I like how you are so open about things because it can cause frustrations that others don’t realize.
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First video, which I saw on your channel is about that you are deaf) I was completely surprised 😅
There you told that it’s very important for you to talk clear)
I am from Russia and I decide to learn English)
So, your videos are so understandable
Thank you very much because your so helpful for me to learn this language💕💕💕
This is so helpful to hear. Sometimes it feels like I'm being unreasonable for the way I feel about my body, especially since my disabilities have cropped up, and its immensely reassuring to know that it's something others experience too.
Thank you for explaining this so well! I can relate to some of it. My face feels "wrong" right now because my meds are causing moon face. I know I don't really look bad but it's this weird feeling that something's off.
Oh my gosh, thank you for this video! I had a migraine like this too awhile ago and while my vision did come back, the left side of my face is still partially paralyzed and you really do uncanny valley yourself about it, like, half your face is the ventriloquist and the other half is the dummy.
I’ve had visual migraines every now and again for the past few years, my auras look like tv static instead, interesting to see your version!
Jessica, you are THE BEST! I've been wathcing all of your videos and for the first time feel as if there is someone who understands (and even has some similar health conditions as I do). I also have hypermobility syndrome (not genetic eds) from an accident to my hip, SI joints, and lower back , which (without proper cae) spread laxity up my spine and eventually has affected all joints. I too have a lesser degree of feeling on the entire left side (and it's lights out internally on the left side of my face- I never thought I'd hear someone acknowledge or understand this experience!) Unfortunatley, like you, I've been around and around the medical system, but with limited success as I plan for my future (still with no diagnosis as I attempt to stabilize my body using my own knowledge
All the love my dear. Thank you for sharing with us. 💜 I particularly love the idea that we can love and accept ourselves and love who we are and our flawed bodies and still have not so fav parts. I feel like you should be teaching the world.
Thank you.... so much.... THIS ... EXACTLY THIS , I had a facial drop post surgery. I will be sharing this on my blog as I don't think I could explain better.
i thought the audio was meant to sound like it was from the 50's lol i like it
WHAT!?! You’re one of the most beautiful human beings I have ever seen...
First, I love this video. I think it helps remind everyone that our self-perceptions and how others see us can be quite different.
Second, I love when RUclipsrs I love get sponsorships!
Oh Jessica, you give me all the feels. Thank you for your kind and heartfelt words 💓
Love how honest and lovely you are! ❤️ Also, you're super beautiful 🌹😊 thanks for your positive influence in my life. One of my favourite quotes is one from greys anatomy "Not everyone has to be happy all the time. That's not mental health. That's crap"
YOU ARE SIMPLY AMAZING!!!! So full of wisdom. Thank you for these words! I really needed to hear them right now.
When I got my sight back it took a while get used to seeing my face again, never heard it explained in such a clear way. Thank you
Oh my gosh! This made it click why I've always felt like photos looked nothing like me. I have amblyopia, which means my brain mostly ignores input from my right eye. It had never occurred to me until you mentioned it that my perception of how my face looks is completely different than it would be if I could see properly with both eyes, especially since I've had amblyopia my whole life. Add in the mirror effect (especially since that flips which side is more visible to me) and...yeah, no wonder I always think I look "weird" in photos.
I was born with a palsy down my left side and dyspraxia. At age 14 I had brain surgery and caused damage. My left side of my face works and looks similar to yours in the muscle weakness, but as I’ve aged, i prefer it to my right side which has aged, and I look asymmetrical. Thank you for this video, I’ve discussed this with my cbt therapist and she’s given me a pep talk and a worksheet 😊 lots of love Xxx
I can 100% relate to this sadly. Thank you for making these videos that make me feel less alone.
I deeply appreciate the message at the end. After years of living with someone who was constantly putting me down and bullying in school, it's been hard building my self-esteem back up. I am no longer in school or living with this person, but the damage has still been done. I have good days and bad days, but it's nice to be reminded that it's ok to have those bad days.
This really touched me because I was born with a facial nerve palsy on my left side. I can't really see out my left eye and I can't blink it. I have had some cosmetic surgery so my fave is a bit more symmetrical and some reanimation surgery on my mouth. As I got older and became aware I was different, I couldn't stand to see pictures from my left side or especially videos of me talking because I thought I looked like an alien, it wasn't me! And I had a set idea of what a face was like, I thought I was like everyone else. Part of me wanted to believe I was like everyone else too. I have been so self conscious and sad about it for as long as I can remember but I really pushed the feelings down and have only really acknowledged them properly this last year since seeing a therapist. Thank you so much for validating my feelings ❤️ your speech at the end was lovely. I, too, am learning to love my funny little face too x x x x x
I never write comments on videos... but honestly, you have made my day so happy!! I don't suffer from any complicated condition as you (I admire your personality despite everything). I have a complicated column (and there is no explanation for it...). I have had already 3 surgeries from herniated disks (and probably more in the future..), and I'm starting to show symptoms on my legs and arms that make my days hard, and I'm trying to learn how to live with. Thank you for showing me how happy you can be even with worse conditions than mine! It gives me strength and courage!
I've never been into the whole gardenscapes build your own house, but Jessica actually kind of sold me on this game. These kinds of games are great for the disabled, because it's slow, and you don't have to react quickly. I'm always trying to find games that are easy enough that I don't have to get into that competitive mode and get anxiety, or stress out my muscles.
I discovered your Channel for retro Hairstyle, but now I know I found the treasure on YT: Channel about beauty and real life. ❤️👍
Thank you thank you thank you. Yet again you've somehow created content specific to a part of my experience that has made me feel alone/ isolated/ strange. So refreshing
NOTHING BECAUSE YOUR BEAUTIFUL YEAH THAT IS WHAT I THOUGHT
Lmao I love this comment
Lol
I love that you said this! I have always hated looking into a mirror because my face never matched what I thought it should. As I've gotten older that thought has changed. I don't hate what I see. That being said I still don't look into a mirror unless I need to. The years of "training" myself to avoid looking has stuck. I try to remind myself to look but I can actually walk past mirrors 100 times a day and never glance at myself. It's nice to hear that someone who is so usually positive and uplifting sometimes feels similar. Thanks for sharing!
So, I have Chronic Lyme. It caused Bell's Palsy on the left side of my face nearly 2 years ago and my face has never fully recovered. Your video really helped communicate how I feel about my half my face not working 100% Thank you so much!
Thank you for sharing. I don’t care for parts of my face either. But, it’s mine, so I adjust. Also, downloaded Lost Island. OMG very addicting. I love it. Glad you recommended it. 💕
as someone with mild face blindness every once in a while I get really unnerved by my own reflection in the mirror because it doens't innately seem like 'me' and I get that uncanny valley feeling
You look like an angel.
Thank you for this video, Jessie. I am autistic and have PCOS and it's a battle to like my body. I know that other people think I look normal or a healthy weight or whatever, but I battle with having hair in weird places, adult acne, constant pain, and a whole host of other nasty symptoms. I love myself, and I know my body can do amazing things (I'm a ballet dancer as a hobby and after starting at 21, was able to get my pointe shoes as an adult! Hell yeah!), but sometimes it's a real battle to be okay with the body I live in. I appreciate you verbalising this and helping to normalise it.
LMFAO this is ironic since right now I have right side facial paralysis and have been watching youtube as I recover from everything and this pops up. I love you and your channel so much !!
You are a wonderful human being and the word unconditional comes to mind in that I don’t think a lot of people who’ve chosen to be part of the community a long time could not love even the parts of yourself you dislike. All that said you are absolutely without a doubt stunning. You make this whole life thing a bit more bearable everyday just knowing you are out there.💖💛💙
Your description still says “no sponsored content.” Just letting you know 🙈
Edit: Thanks for taking that down!
Where I don't see it
She needs her coin so I'll pretend this wasn't sponsored
i dont know if that is intended or something but the mic sounds like it is in a closed box when recording your voice?
@@shadowsun5704 it wasnt like this, thats what makes me sad a bit, because she probably cant hear the difference.
@@locke. look at the pinned comment :)
You look perfect and beautiful to me! I have strabismus which meant that for a large part of my life my left eye was crossed and in toward my nose. It didn't follow along with my right eye at all. So, when you talk about that uncanny valley thing I possibly understand I think. People were uncomfortable about my face and often had no embarrassment to ask me directly "what is wrong with you" and I often was sad about it. Fortunately when I was an adult I got cosmetic surgery so that it is now less crooked. Even though most can't tell now, I still can tell when I look in the mirror and it can bother me. I empathize with that feeling. I love your channel and your positivity.
I can relate to you, though not the exact same way.
My left eye is a "lazy" eye. It looks off to the side at times. Instead of my eyes working together as they should my right eye became dominate to make up for the weakness on my left. I've had people comment on it, mostly kids. I hate taking or seeing pictures of myself because my left eye rarely will be staring in the same direction as my right. It's not as noticeable as it was when I was younger except when when I'm tired or have eye strain. It took me awhile before I could accept that it isn't as noticeable as I think it is.
About 15 years ago I had Bell's Palsy and the left side of my face was paralyzed for about 3 months. I can relate to the weird feelings of numbness and the mask like qualities!
I didn't know the uncanny valley thing, that's kinda cool!
I totally feel you with the moustache thing. When my recorder teacher cut his hair when I was like 8 I freaaaaked out.
I can relate to this on some level, while I don't have paralysis in my face I do have tremors in the right side of my body due to Serotonin Syndrome that did not alleviate after the typical 5 weeks, its been 3 years. Most of the time just the corner of my eye and mouth tick as well as a slight tremor in my right hand but any time I become overly stressed or have too much adrenaline for any reason (being sick, not enough sleep, emotional stress, busy line at work) the right side of my body kind of just melts down. During these times I'm prone to get foggy and tired as well so to someone who doesn't know what is happening it looks like I'm having a seizure or stroke. I'll fall, slur my words (tongue and lips start to tick and tremor as well) my core, arm, and leg muscles are constantly tensing and jumping until they either go into dystonia or I take medication that knocks me out. Its really hard not to be frustrated with my body when this happens because I just want it to do things and it wont! Even though people don't notice my tremors generally unless I point them out, I am always aware of them and the small adjustments I've had to make over the past few years to accommodate them. This video and your migraine video about separating your mind from your body really resonate with me for these reasons.
At least now I know I'm not the only person who's struggling with both chronic migraines and scoliosis. I watched your video about life lessons with chronic illnesses, and I was unsure about what you were going through. Glad I watched this one too.
You're a beautiful and wonderful person, and I am so happy I found your channel.
Love your vids, you help so many people deal with their problems. Just also saw your twinkle lights on your headboard blow out
I freaking love you! You have such a amazingly beautiful spirit and that's what's translated into your beauty. Yes you are physically beautiful but believe it's because your inner projects to your outer. Thank you for your videos you've spread a lot of goodness into the world and I find them highly educating. Thank you. Muah!
I don’t typically like to comment until I’ve watched in its entirety but I’ve never been so early. Haha. All the love, Jessica! Your videos make my day.
The lights in the background being off on one side added a lovely level of symbolism 😂 Wonderful video as always
Every video of yours helps so much. I can’t express it properly but please know that. And thank you. Truly thank you!
And lost Island is pretty dope. I don’t have anything to do with the game. But it’s not greedy like other games with in app purchases.
My story is not identical to yours but I can relate to so much to this; and yes the impact it can have on your self esteem is devastating even if no one can tell but you ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Oh my god I'm so glad I've found someone with the same problem as me. Well not glad but you know I feel less alone now.
My story isn't exactly the same as yours obviously and it's such a long story I can't he bothered to go into detail, but yes the right side of my face has never been the same since: it's a lot better now and I do have a relatively normal life but I used to not be able to move it properly, not smile with that side, not be able to talk properly, all my facial expressions just went so weird.
Same as you really, that side of my face just didn't look right anymire it just didn't look like me and it does fucking freak you out! It was so depersonalizing and I don't think anyone can understand the psychological impact of it unless they've gone through it themselves.
It was devastating to my confidence and it still affects me so much now.
In the nicest way possibke anyone in the comments going "what are you on about? You're gorgeous you have nothing to worry about!" this type of thing is a lot deeper than "oh I don't like my nose or my my skin"
Half my face stopped fucking working, and you need your face for um everything???!!!!
Not too mention people telling me "not to worry" and they "couldn't tell" and that I "still looked pretty" when a big part of the problem was that I was also in pain???!!!!!
I'm not glad by any means you went through this, but it's refreshing to hear someone speak about it and it needs to be spoken about ❤️
If it is any consolation at all, and I know I'm being a bit of a hypocrite, but you are gorgeous and you can't tell 😘
I grew up with a small amount of plastic surgery (and I'm also blind in one eye!) and I related a lot to the last part of the video especially. So good to hear someone talking about this very niche feeling - thank you so much for uploading!!!
I have persistent migraine aura so I just see the weird fluctuations in light (Mine looks kind of like tv static) all day every day. :/ I miss being able to see things clearly, but I've mostly adapted to it. I really know what you mean when you talk about your body letting you down... My body is actually really healthy in most aspects and works very well for me(which I greatly appreciate and no longer take for granted), but the part of my brain that processes visual information just kind of randomly stopped working correctly. Anyway, your videos are sooo helpful to me when I feel upset about these kinds of things. You are amazing.
I can't believe I'm not alone! For the past few months I've had weird vision due to persistent migraine aura. It really scared me at first but like you, I've gotten used to it. I wish you all the best with your health
I have several issues with my appearance. I've been living with a constant, chronic pain for several years now, that's practically left me disabled and I think it contributes to my low self esteem and seeing myself as unattractive, although I was struggling with it even before my life turned into constant pain. Anyway, one of my issues is my very hooded eyes and I randomly ended up on a makeup tutorial for hooded eyes (from a guy who didn't really have very much of it) and it reminded me how much I dislike my own, but after that I ended up on a couple of your vids and it was just nice to see someone with what looks like the same degree of hooded eyes as me, lookin really beautiful (even if I'm super jelly of your thick hair !) So thanks for being you and reminding me that the trait doesn't have to take away from one's beauty.
Uncanny Valley in 3 words: CATS the movie
I relate to this so much!!! Thank you for talking about chronic illness and disabilities
I love watching your vlogs because you always tell it how it is but then find something positive about it, like today I loved what you said how all of our thoughts are our own and we shouldn't let anyone take away from that❤❤❤ even when you don't feel great you still find something good... by the way I think you are gorgeous but I also understand where you are coming from and I admire you... lots of love to you Jessica and Claudia, Walter and Tilly💝💝💝💝❤❤❤❤
Omg... “Something familiar that just isn’t quite right” You just described how my dysphoria feels XD
I know that everybody is telling you, but I won't be less... I really think that your face is BEAUTIFUL. But moreover, you are beautiful inside, with all your good vibrations and your strong will, and... I would like to tell you so many things, but English is not my mother tongue and I can't find the words. So, I'm sending you a big, big Spanish hug. (I suffered that paralysis of one side of my face many years ago, It didn't left me any consequences, but It terrified me too).
Thank you for the video Jessica! I wanted to recommend a phone game to you - Love Nikki Dress up Queen! I've been playing it almost daily for over a year, it's super fun, and the story is very interesting. You travel through a magical land where all conflict is settled with fashion competitions, as mandated by a treaty after a massive war that happened before your character arrived. The clothing options are massive and ever-growing, I think you'd really like it!
New subscriber - found you looking for a mentor/role model for a modern/vintage fashion. I LOVE you. Out of everyone I’ve seen... well, call me a lifer. You’re going to be huge just being you. And I just hope when I start getting my fashion sense more on point to how I feel I want to look, it looks half as gorgeous as how you look. 😍🥰
And I enjoy all of your educational content as well. You’ve been my binge watch for this mama today lol ❤️
YOUR FACE IS GORGEOUS AND SO IS YOUR PERSONALITY ❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️
I relate, I don't look like "myself" to me either, I don't even have a mental picture of what I should look like just a perpetual ambiguous wrongness. Although I do have mild face blindness (prosopagnosia) so I think for me that's part of the reason. Recognizing myself (and other people in my family) in photos (or in person) is a matter of memory and practice.
I can completely empathise with the ‘only being able to see one side of one’s face, and being disturbed by it’ kind of thing, though I’d certainly say I’ve had it much easier than you have - I was born blind in my left eye. However, that also means that my face has always looked upsettingly asymmetrical to me, despite no-one else seeming to notice it now. (Honestly, the blind eye has a partial mono-lid, and the eye itself strays when it’s tired. Truly a lazy eye.) The bullying I endured until the end of secondary school was killing, frankly, and really messed up my internal working model, but I’m still working on that ‘No fucks given’ attitude I’ve always strived for.
Your story came as a total surprise to me - I’ve been subscribed to your channel for almost a year now, but I never twigged (nor would I probably ever, had I not seen this) that you only had vision in one eye, let alone any sort of facial paralysis.
God, you’re an inspiration to me, and no doubt to so many others in similar boats.
Just wondering if that's why you have your hair's parting on the side that it's on. To partially hide that side of your face and so you don't get that specific 'there's hair touching my face' feeling?
I was born with a pinched nerve on the right side of my face. The only time my right eye closes is when I’m sleeping because it’s relaxed enough. I also can’t smile correctly because my right side of my face doesn’t work correctly. Because of these things I hate having my pictures taken and I’m very shy. I just wanted to thank you for putting yourself out there for not only yourself but for others like me.
I can relate to this a little. When I take a photo and the camera inverts the image on its own, it really messes with me. It no longer looks right. Even though that's probably how other people see me, it's not how I see myself. I get this weird disconnect from the image and have to delete it and change camera settings.
It's amazing to me how our perception of our faces can change, not just due to trauma and diability--although that is a huge consideration and not one I have thought about before--but even just throughout a day or week. Sometimes I look in my mirror and I tell myself "girl, you look amazing!" and then others, I feel like I have all of these things wrong with me.
(also, looking at my face without my glasses on sometimes is scary because my eyes look like black holes)
When I look at you, all I can think is that you are perfect just the way you are ❤️
You're just Darling. What a wonderful dry sense of humor you have. Have a bit of a lowered left eye lid,left over from brain aneurism and today a full of himself insecure egomaniac gentleman pointed it out to everyone in ear shot, trying to be funny. Of course I let him know about his self and I'm sure he will think twice before picking on someone else but truth be told I was a bit mad at my eye and also felt bad for being mad at it. It does work very hard to stay open so I can see properly from both eyes. Not real great with feelings but I do love most of me most of the time.
We really need positive representative of princess character like this beautiful lady . I wish future generation watch her videos and messages behind it
Jessica the game has hooked me so quickly! Thanks for your great recommendations and your honest vulnerability 🌸