I really want to see another follow up on this guy if possible. He seems like such an intelligent and bright guy. I want him to succeed so badly. So well spoken. So kind hearted. We’re all rooting for you, Ryley. You deserve joy. You are worthy of that. You’ve got an army behind you. Make the call.
I keep thinking about him. I don't know why this touched me so much. Much more than other videos. I think he's headed way down the bad path... I hope he gets away from this. Riley, if you read me, man, you're not a piece of shit. You've had a very unhappy childhood, and therefore you coped with some mechanisms (like lying) but it's never too late. You need love and support and of course drug addictions professionals.
he might have used hours ago in this interview, also you never know how much of whatever is in the drug you're using. looks like he hasn't slept either and is malnourished
Its long over due to rehab the rehab. These folks need so much more detailed care. 30, 90, 6 months doesn’t work. Instead of sending drug offenses to prison , send them to a 3-5 yr focused care facility. Tax payers are paying for prisoners anyway, why not spend the money on something real? Idk... something has got to give. I wish him luck and hope someone can help this kid out.
Tax payers paying for prison is much cheaper then if we paid for rehabs. Prison is minimal, food cost 3 dollars a day a person, no new clothes unless destroyed. And they have to buy everything else they want. Rehab would have to be more comfortable and they would need way more privileges and right. A rehab costs thousands to hundreds of thousand a year for you to go to, that’s why people can only go 30-90 days, because it’s extremely expensive. Tax payers paying for that would be impossible
My brother died in August from a fentanyl overdose. He got out of rehab a week earlier. I would talk to him often and Ryley talks about his addiction in very similar ways. I wish the best for him.
Ryley, I have been where you are. I’m a single mom. I lost my kid to my addiction. I got her back and have 7 years sober from heroin. Get help man! You can do this. Life is so good sober! Things will fall into place when you are clean. I promise! It will be hard the first few months. But you can get your girl back And more importantly your Sanity and your son. You are loved and people do want to see you sober and healthy! Just pick a day and stick to it and take it one day at a time.
Wonderful that you have been doing so well Lauren McCormick. Good for you :) As far as your heartfelt encouragement goes: You don't know if he can get his ex back. That would not be the right motivation in any case, because if you are doing it for that reason and she is not willing to take him back, it's going to be really easy to relapse... Other than that I second your comment
@@murdamangoz they word it really insensitively but I know what they mean, his expressions, body language and dialogue portray that of a man that has completely lost all hope in himself. He feels like he’s just waiting to die and is almost numb. I really hope he can find a way out, he has a beautiful soul
I was addicted to heroin for 10 years since the age of 21/22. I now have 4 years clean, and have realized I was using opiates to cope from all the pain I endured in my childhood. No one else in my family or immediate family are addicted to any drugs.
Congratulations! Well done! You have been free from that addiction so long time. Continue in that way. Life is hard sometimes but it would be harder consuming drugs. Stay safe.
I recently relapsed after a long time clean, same "one bad decision" thing he is dealing with. I had enough and realized I couldn't trust my future self no matter how committed I was to clean living, there would always be that moment of weakness. I went out and bough a safe that day, which my girlfriend locks all the things I would need to access drugs every night. I have since had the urge to relapse but had removed EVERY possible way to access drugs from myself. I was actually mad at myself for securing the situation so well (as insane as that sounds), but thankful the next morning. I have extreme empathy for addicts and we need a change in thinking to move the needle on issues of addiction. Love you dude, keep your chin up, get help when youre ready. Sooner is better tho... EDIT: Sorry I wasn’t clear, my addiction was not to opiates it was to amphetamines. I think the opiates are much more painful to get off. Also I wrote this because I want people to understand how, even with all the support in the world, it’s very easy to relapse EVEN if you don’t want to. The human brain is a fishy little piece of kit.
Heartbreaking to see the progression in his addiction. As long as he is alive there is hope. Him saying not being with his ex gives him the chance to work on himself, take this chance! Your son needs you in his life.
Just go, bro. Drop everything and check into a rehab center. Tomorrow never comes, you only have right now. A year from now, you'll feel so much better and hopeful and prolly have a job and shit.
@@andytom91 true, but there are ways. He said he had a ride and a plan. Tomorrow he might not have either, only making it harder. I guess my point being it won't ever get easier, only more difficult
Another thing relating to this, my dad had a hip surgery last year and they gave him oxy for the pain. He has an amazing stable life and support structure. When he went off the meds he told me he almost killed himself. I couldn't believe it when I heard him say that, until I heard it was oxy. He was puking for a week and lost 20 pounds. His wife had to take off work to take care of him. He was actually hit by a car in his 20s, broke his leg and fractured multiple bones. He said being hit by a car was a walk in the park compared to opiate withdrawal. I always think of addiction (specifically opiate addiction) like this; every time a heroin addict starts running out of their drug, its like a train is headed right for them, and getting the fix is the only way to step off the tracks. EDIT: SWE DIZ said this in the comments and I think it helps the analogy. “Getting your fix is just walking a bit further down the tracks, getting off (meaning recovery and sober living) is the hardest part” I’m paraphrasing but thanks for that SWE. Another interesting coincidence is that “track marks” are what the obvious injection sites from heroin use are called.
My mother had a similar horrible experience after shoulder surgery. It's hard to think of it even now remembering the struggle as she has passed on. Thanks for sharing, Godspeed,and stay your course.
this hits home for me. my dad struggled with prescription drug addiction ever since i was a kid he’s had 3-4 back surgeries and had crazy pain killers but one day he woke up and decided he was done. he still takes pain pills that don’t get you high and got a medical card! he’s since started a contracting business and makes some good money! i’m so proud of him! growing up i never knew he was struggling but he told me a few years back that he used to be addicted to them and it blew me away and everything sort of made sense. but it’s all over now and i’m very proud of him! prescription drugs are no joke and are just as deadly as street drugs are!
I broke my back (have 50% anterior height of my L1 left..rest burst in the break) that was nothing compared to detox. Ya gotta plan detox. A instant stop is worse than anything. I've read Soviet spies would be tortured (bad..use imagination) n never broke till they (cia) made em hooked and then pulled the drugs away n they sang when having limbs removed they held their mouth shut.
I met this kid in Renton/Issaquah area a few years ago. we weren't super close friends, but he was a friend of a friend who I talked to on numerous occasions in passing. super well spoken guy. really sad to see him getting worse. Ryley bro, I hope you find the light. it's out there
Getting an addict to agree to rehab is very difficult but so necessary. Many are not near long enough. Such a handsome intelligent young man. "addiction is such a perplexing thing for an outsider to watch" So true. IIt is also so stigmatized yet it knows no race ,religion , social economic, creed constraints . It is an illness that steals your body , mind , spirit and soul. I so hope this young man seeks help.
@Hannah 619 It helped my loved one immensely but she had to be ready to recieve it. She is now on a maintenance dose of suboxone after switching from methadone . So glad to hear you are ok.
@@noeljones5994 I dont know what rehab is like where you are from but where I live it is treated with both . Medicine , counselling , structure, teaching etc etc
This is an intelligent handsome young man that I feel has tremendous potential for changing his lifestyle. Mark please persuade this young man to get into a rehab center away from that neighborhood.
Oh Ryley. It hurt me so mu h to hear you call yourself a piece of shit. I don’t want to get all preachy and weird, but you are a wonderful, beautiful child of God. You have so much value and worth and I hope you learn that. You are loved.
I'm an atheist. I don't think what you said was "all preachy and weird" but I do think it was a lovely thing to say to someone. And it is thoughtful and well intentioned. It's nice to read nice things, Kelly. Keep being weird, girl. 🕊️🥰
Addiction is just depression manifesting as addiction. The common thread here, is severe childhood and generational trauma!! Oh Ryley, you are gorgeous!! Get the help you need and find your way. Xx
Never dealing with losing my father at 8 years old to alcoholism has caused massive issues for me. I always thought I was ok as a young teen and now that I’m 37 I realize never dealing with it has followed me all this time and I didn’t notice it
@@2vcrew782 it's never too late to start dealing with your past. I'm the same age as you and just started to look at something from my past, that I've never dared to look at untill now. Go for it. It's hard but you won't regret it. I promise! 😊
The one constant is feeling like you’re not a fully complete human, like the part of you that is sure of himself and embraces their identity was never really there. That and a feeling of disconnection to the world and people around them. It’s so sad and those feelings are awful
The brightness is dying in that young man's eyes. I remember that moment in my life. If you read this my man, you can get out. It'll be an extreme change for a while, but you can learn to live sober again. Every day with an addictive personality is a choice, we just have to wake up each morning and make the right one.
Riley you are not a POS at all! 2 years ago my only child, my son, he was homeless, on Heroin, tried every drug out there. I don’t know the daily details of how he survived but i presume exactly like you. Narcaned 5 times. He now has 1 year, 4 months clean. . He got a job as a waiter. He moved to his own rental home over the past week. He met a girl. He goes to meetings. He is 21. You can do this for sure! It is horrible but you won’t die from getting clean. No more panic every day to get your fix. No worry about jail. No more hunger, cold or fear. Your son needs a loving Daddy! Please make that call!!! You are braver and stronger than you know!
I pray for him. This is sad to watch after his first one. I felt like he hit the nail on the head in both interviews about addiction. In the last one he was so hopeful that it made me hopeful for him... he REALLY does need help Mark. As an addict in recovery this is so hard to watch. I really hope he is given the help he needs to help himself.
The life of an addict mixed with hopelessness drains the life and energy from these people. Looking into his face you can see the despair and emptiness.
the difference between this and the previous interview is mindblowing. it's so devastating to see that all he's trying to do is mute his thoughts/feelings and just get by. he's so scared to face the reality while being clean. i really hope that he'll gain the courage to go to rehab asap and get a proper psychological support to work some things over. keeping my fingers crossed for him!
Damn. I just watched his first interview for the first time and then immediately watched this after and it seems he has aged multiple years in a few short months. His aura is so dull and depleted. He seems like such an amazing soul. My older brother was badly addicted to heroin and overcame his addiction so I pray that Riley can find his way out as well 💙
Ryley, we chatted after your first video and I had so much hope for you. This is heartbreaking. Please get the help you need. We believe in you. Your son needs you.
One thing that stuck with me in this interview is what Mark said about"the fear of being successful" and it's something I've only thought about recently regarding my dad's addictions and his relationship with my grandad. And seriously I think that is one of the major obstacles to overcome when going towards recovery, maybe more than the addiction itself. You know, the biggest "fuck you" you could ever give to the people that hurt you in the past is actually being happy with yourself, leading a sober life and being fulfilled; because that's the one thing these people who abused never had and will never have. Let them wallow in their own hatred and envy.. and you definitely deserve a change at being happy. Take that chance and run away with it. It's your own life and your adult life YOU are the one that gets to decide, not those fuckers in your past.
Such an intelligent, good looking full of potential boy. Though there is drastic negative change from his last interview he's still think logically and still have a real desire to stop so there is hope and hope is the seed of any sacsess! I really hope he will find an healthy way to deal with his emotions without using. This sweet boy deserves so much more.⚘
Such an intelligent young man, with so much potential. I know he has the strength to over come his addiction. Much love to all these people constantly struggling and trying to survive.
I have encouraged so many young people I am in contact with to subscribe & watch your videos. These should be shown at schools. I applaud each person's courage to tell their story & I pray for their recovery!! Keep going Ryley, go got this man 🙌💪
He's such a strikingly handsome and eloquent young man. He should have such a bright and beautiful future ahead of him if he starts making better choices. I think traveling somewhere exotic would change his life. A total change of environment would really open his eyes. The happiest people are the ones who realize they have the most options. Godspeed on his journey through this chaotic life ❤
Im a critical care nurse. Sometimes when I give people IV fentanyl they stop breathing and I have to jaw thrust them to open their airway. It blows my mind that people would want to use this drug for leisure. 🤯 Its really some dangerous stuff.
Lost a homie to smoking that shit in the past month, his dad ended up finding him. His addiction just started wasnt even noticeable, hope this guy sees my comment And realizes this shit is really killing people
Have you seen him lately? I’m wondering if he’s okay. I lost my brother to an OD a year ago and I see the similarities between him and Ryley. Addiction is such a horrible disease. It destroys you and the ones that love you. I want to see him make it and beat this so much.
Josh Bryant no that's what I meant; IE Florida is even worse--not try Florida ; its better. I just left Florida; its a disgusting, desperate place. Im back home in NC
I’ve been in recovery for almost four years. Two years ago I had a relapse. I went out and did all the drugs I used to do. Nothing was the same. All the drugs were cut with fentanyl. I didn’t like it! It wasn’t even worse buying. Honestly if you are thinking about relapsing, please think twice. It’s Not worth it.
Ryley, you are definitely not a “piece of shit.” I struggle with that false belief about myself too and am also on a sobriety journey (alcohol). I relate to your shares so much. You are not broken. You are a wonderful, light-filled being who is worthy of love, compassion and belonging. With much love and solidarity, Sara
Addiction is a crazy thing I’m from Philly Kensington is the skid row of Philly. I’m right here with these people. I have so much heart for people with addiction because i understand I wish there was a cure like a true cure. I’m rooting for you rylie !! You deserve everything life has to offer you !! You can do you ! I believe in you ! So many more people than you even know do ! I’m rooting for all the people on your channel I’m dedicated to your channel mark it’s a beautiful project ❤️
The only cure is accountability & self love. You can’t keep feeling sorry for yourself & doing nothing about it. He wants to keep doing drugs to “not feel like a piece of shit” well he needs to do something about it. Get a job, take care of your kid & maybe he won’t feel that way. I had a rough child hood too but I would never allow myself to give up, especially since I have a child. That baby doesn’t deserve to grow up without a father & he’s selfish for not getting his shit together for his son.
Ryley, I see that you know what you need to do. And you’re right to feel scared. Everyone is. But when it feels scary to jump that is when you do it. Otherwise, you end up stuck in the same place all of your life. Risk is a tricky thing to face. And you’re right... maybe there were times where you were deserving of the bad, if those are the consequences for actions you were dealt with. But Dear Ryley, you are also VERY VERY deserving of a new life and a new opportunity. It’s time to face the good consequences now. You can do it. You can break the cycle for your child. He will love you forever, if you teach him what it is to be great. To never give up, to treat people with kindness and always learn to forgive yourself. There’s darkness sometimes but then there is light at the end. I see you, I hear you. Keep pushing 🙏🏽 prayers !
He is a great candidate for Sublocade. I’m an RN in OC and we provide MAT to people struggling with opioid use disorder. It helps people get their life back together. If you are having cravings, it’s hard to focus on life. MAT helps and in my opinion is a miracle that we are able to offer it to people struggling. I’m all about HARM REDUCTION.
nurse and understand the dangers of fentanyl. At the hospital, we have to be extremely careful when handling and administering it to a patient because of how potent it is. Someone very close to me almost lost his life to a fentanyl addiction. He has been clean for many years now, but it was very hard seeing him go through that. Addictions not only affect the individual, but they also affect the people around them.
I’m a mom of 3 recovering heroin addicts not from a sad childhood but because of poor life choices. It is so hard to convince these poor sweet souls to go to rehab because they are all terrified of the detox and dealing with the feelings they must confront and because rehab is so expensive and if you don’t have insurance you are in a catch 22. My heart goes out to this beautiful soul. Prayers for you to make the decision to take your life back. This makes me so very sad... The options seem to be death, prison or by the grace of God you make it out. Kudos to all of you here that have made it. Unfortunately I know way to many that haven’t. Prayers from this momma bear to all of you struggling.
Oh no. He looks so worn and sick now....like he is starting to fit in with his surroundings, looking more like the older people on Skid Row. God it can happen so fast!
As a recovering H and other drugs I feel your pain. I get how comfortable you get in the lifestyle it helps you justify the drugs use being with people in same situation. I found that the people that I knew and trusted were what helped me yet kept me . Life without drugs is not going to be easy. Just think it's not going to kill you to try to stop. Doing F and the crap on the street you will die and see your company die. If you can survive the drug lifestyle you can survive 💯 in life of sobriety. You are loved by many ❤ love yourself do it for you. Peace happiness and love will come to you.
I from Seattle suburbs too! I’ve been 6 years clean, you can do it too. Move away from where you are and start over. Your life changes for the better fast. You are who you hang out with. Your right. You ARE WORTH IT!
Being self aware is the best and the worst thing, you can watch yourself do all the things you know you shouldn't and you do it anyway. I hope he gets to rehab because he deserves a real chance at life to get to know himself and his son and everything else. It's never too late 🖤
Ryley, please know you are a bright, loving spirit. Your fear is a self made illusion. You are safe to take the first step towards rehab and you will be safe in rehab. You are worthy of love and we all want to see your success. 💕💕💕
Im so glad he's honest and open about his addiction. I know that alone, not in a co dependent relationship etc. That he may be successful. Being selfish in your recovery IS IMPORTANT! Be as selfish as you need to get better, i had to cut everyone off and really work on myself first, before i could accept any one in my past or present back into my life. I've had 6 years and 2 months clean off heroin, crack etc. And At first there's no one you can really be there for but yourself
I am so happy to see an update from him. I had commented on his last video and he replied. I never went back to him and I regret that. I’ve often wondered how he was doing or where he ended up. Rylee, you can get out. It will be hard but go to Orange County, get that treatment, and then show folks who didn’t think they could make it that it is possible.
Ryley I would strongly encourage you to look into ibogaine treatment. It’s offered at many clinics in Mexico. If you want to do it I’ll help fund it, just message me and we’ll figure it out.
I've never wanted someone to succeed so badly. I hope he finds his way, not only for himself but for his precious son. Break the cycle Ryley, we're all rooting for you.
I hope you’re ready to receive help soon, Ryley. In the next update, I hope you’re telling us that rehab helped you and that you got to see your son. All of us in the comments are rooting for you! You deserve to get better and you have the willpower to do so! The drugs are telling you that you can’t! I believe in you Ryley!
.Ryley you have what it takes to do great things...I hope you find the support you need to take that next step to get you there. You deserve it...you’re a beautiful soul❤️
The desire to be well has to to be stronger than the fear of withdrawal. Addiction lures you into a cycle of self hate and destruction. In order to have any desire to be well one must have a glimmer of hope ....
He reminds me so much of my brother. My brothers not an addict, but Riley reminds me of him because of how intelligent he is and how he carries himself. A beautiful human being. You can tell he was a very bright and respectful individual but the drugs got him. I pray he gets the courage to get sober, when he’s ready, before it’s too late and he’s too far gone. Praying for you Riley!
Mark, you're getting better at interviewing. When you said, it's not about intelligence. I think sometimes intelligent people get caught up more often, because ignorance is bliss, and smart people are keenly aware of the abuses and their impact... just my two cents.
theres an idea floating around in the fringes of the web that has really captured my attention. the idea is that people of sub-standard intelligence are incapable of processing abstracts and people of far-above-average intelligence are too smart to me tricked by sophistry, but theres a midrange, average to slightly-above-average, can process an abstract idea but arent smart enough to poke holes in it. maybe that is related, maybe it's not, we live in times unprecedented in the modern era. it's hard to say.
My son was going to go to Harvard. Eagle Scout. Great kid. Broke his arm badly in a fall, was given Oxy, (neither of us knew about it and we were not warned). New addict created. It can hit silver spoon families and highly intelligent kids too. He understood he had the world on a silver platter, but the drugs made him not care about anything at all. Not even living. Nothing he would not do to get that next high. So in my humble and totally subjective opinion intelligence is no impediment to addiction. Nor is money. Think of all the Artists who died young with Fortune, Fame, Incredible Talent, being greatly loved, any thing they could want a choice for them ... but the Drugs trumped all of it. Maybe they did not die ON skid row, but the geography is a mere detail. An OD even at the Bel Air or the Ritz is the exact same.
I really liked this guys first interview. It's a shame how he's looking after the past 8 months since then. He's getting worse. He said he was headed to treatment that day of his interview with marc. It's been months and he's still trying to go. I hope he gets his shit together and gets well for good this time. Bless 🙏 him.
he's right about the types of people who get addicted, they do cause they need the crutch. in my experiences the only thing that is the same with every drug addict, is poor coping mechanisms..
surprised the bipolar was not mentioned and how hard addiction and m/h can correlate. really believe in you Ryley be brave enough to dare to have what you deserve a chance. rooting for you xx
I've been an addict all my life basically, I'm 30 now and I feel this guys pain....I want to quit everything SOOOOO fucking bad, but I'm scared to go through the withdrawals, scared whats on that other side, I'm so sick of having to wake up every single day and fix myself before I can even move or make my day productive. I am a "functioning addict" I work, I skate, I ride my Ninja, I have nice things like my computer, and game systems, etc...but drugs just makes everything else seem a little less unimportant, and I can't enjoy them like I use to. I hate this so bad....It's depressing, upsetting, it angers me at times. I just with there was an easier way. So if anyone can take anything from what I said, please just stay as far away from drugs as you can, because they suck you in so fast, you end up in the worst place imaginable without remembering how you even got there. There's no positive outcome when it comes to doing drugs, NONE, especially opiates. Opiates are better than sex, and that's why they are so dangerous, they completely consume you, and then you start to consume everyone, and everything around you.
Hey friend. I was in the same boat. I was an addict for most of my life. I got to a point where I was so broken and so tired, I was either going to load that needle up one last time, or I was going to quit. I didn’t want to die, I just wanted the pain to stop. It was hard man, it was. I was scared I was empty I felt alone and I felt hopeless. And that lasted a LONG time. It’s just the truth. But if you FIGHT THROUGH THAT and don’t ever give up your brain will start to go back to normal. 7 years clean later, I’ve never second guessed my decision and life is better now than I could have ever imagined. You can’t see it now, and that’s normal man. Neither did I. Trust the process of healing, even when your mind tells you to run. You CAN. BE. FREE. I promise you. I speak from experience with a 1600 dollar a day habit. It was no joke. I’m NOT bragging, on the contrary. I’m telling you, it CAN be done. But you can’t just expect it to stop right away. You’ve been an addict for so long it’s going to take a long time to heal, and a lot of work from you. But that’s what it takes man. If you put in HALF the effort to get clean as you do to get high, you will succeed. Much love friend. remember, ALWAYS FORWARD.
@@superkool7 thanks for those words man, I appreciate it. I know it’s going to take time, I just can’t believe I fucked up again, I had over 5 years clean and then I screwed up again, but when I was clean those were some of the best years of my life, I just want it to end so bad, I hate the grind. I’m on about a $500 a day habit right now, it’s pretty bad, but if you can get clean with a $1300 per day habit I can sure do it. I’ve been thinking of getting myself into a methadone treatment, a taper though, I don’t want to be on that garbage forever either because that’s even worse. I know people that have been through methadone withdrawal and they say it’s worse than any opiate withdrawal you could imagine. I remember oxy withdrawals, those are NO JOKE, so I can only imagine something worse than that. I’m gonna call a center Monday to get in hopefully.
@Alan Poncet I’m getting there man, I’ve just been slowly cutting down and weaning myself off. I’ve already cut my habit in half within the last couple weeks so I’m hoping by mid summer or so I’ll be done. Got a couple bottles of methadone to wean off completely eventually. I’m getting there slowly but surely.
His body language and facial expressions have changed, he looks sad/tired. I hope he will be okay.
His light is dimmer fr
That’s the fentanyl numbing everything
He’s high
He’s out of it. Responses delayed , etc and I say this feeling helpless for him . :(
This is what it looks like when you are “coming down” meaning you don’t have drugs and aren’t high right then.
I really want to see another follow up on this guy if possible. He seems like such an intelligent and bright guy. I want him to succeed so badly. So well spoken. So kind hearted. We’re all rooting for you, Ryley. You deserve joy. You are worthy of that. You’ve got an army behind you. Make the call.
Hes getting worse. The light in his beautiful eyes is fading.😢
I keep thinking about him. I don't know why this touched me so much. Much more than other videos. I think he's headed way down the bad path... I hope he gets away from this. Riley, if you read me, man, you're not a piece of shit. You've had a very unhappy childhood, and therefore you coped with some mechanisms (like lying) but it's never too late. You need love and support and of course drug addictions professionals.
Please. Please do it your yourself b4 something bad happens...💔🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Beautifully said, Macy.
oh shut up you only say that because hes white
He is getting worse. He needs out of there as soon as possible.
he is to capable as an addict. you can't get clean when you can make drugs work
He has lost his "spark". So sad. Hope he gets control of himself.
He is using something he doesnt know whats in it.. he is likely using tranquilizer + fent and its probably a miracle he isn't falling asleep.
define spark
he might have used hours ago in this interview, also you never know how much of whatever is in the drug you're using. looks like he hasn't slept either and is malnourished
@@mynameismyname17 he was getting the rolly polly eyes and leaning over at 11:20. He was about to catch a serious nod.
@@modaciouslav4792 shit i didnt even notice. he nodded hard for a sec he forgot what he was sayin
Aw, was hoping Ryley would be further along on his recovery. Thank you for the update Mark. Rooting for you Ryley.
I as well...was hoping he would be further along!
Its long over due to rehab the rehab. These folks need so much more detailed care. 30, 90, 6 months doesn’t work. Instead of sending drug offenses to prison , send them to a 3-5 yr focused care facility. Tax payers are paying for prisoners anyway, why not spend the money on something real? Idk... something has got to give. I wish him luck and hope someone can help this kid out.
Spending it on something fake is more profitable. People throwing their life away to addiction is a cash cow.
What you're suggesting makes too much sense. Breaks my heart that it'll probably never happen and extended therapy is only affordable to the wealthy.💔
You're too right. They really dont want to help these folks. Its a nasty brutal world. Dont slip, you just may drown while ppl just watch you.
3-5 yr focus facility, sounds like a psych ward. That’s not what drug addicts need they need jobs and an actual support system
Tax payers paying for prison is much cheaper then if we paid for rehabs. Prison is minimal, food cost 3 dollars a day a person, no new clothes unless destroyed. And they have to buy everything else they want. Rehab would have to be more comfortable and they would need way more privileges and right. A rehab costs thousands to hundreds of thousand a year for you to go to, that’s why people can only go 30-90 days, because it’s extremely expensive. Tax payers paying for that would be impossible
His eyes are so sad. I really truly hope he finds the courage to get the help he not only needs, but deserves.
Poor guy has aged atleast 5 years in 8 months. Hope he gets well soon.
My brother died in August from a fentanyl overdose. He got out of rehab a week earlier. I would talk to him often and Ryley talks about his addiction in very similar ways. I wish the best for him.
I’m so sorry for your loss Jess ica 🌸 Warm thoughts & hugs 🤗
I am soo sorry for your loss of your brother. It must be so hard😢i wish You All the Best, big hugs ❤️🤗🙏
My best friend died August 23rd a day after my wedding from fent overdose. He was clean for months before this... RIP to all who have fallen.
I am so truly sorry for your loss.
I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my sister 1/16/21. This is been the worst few months of my life. The grief is overwhelming at times.
Ryley, I have been where you are. I’m a single mom. I lost my kid to my addiction. I got her back and have 7 years sober from heroin. Get help man! You can do this. Life is so good sober! Things will fall into place when you are clean. I promise! It will be hard the first few months. But you can get your girl back And more importantly your Sanity and your son. You are loved and people do want to see you sober and healthy! Just pick a day and stick to it and take it one day at a time.
I'm happy to hear you're doing well and got you're daughter back.😊💖
Wonderful that you have been doing so well Lauren McCormick. Good for you :)
As far as your heartfelt encouragement goes: You don't know if he can get his ex back. That would not be the right motivation in any case, because if you are doing it for that reason and she is not willing to take him back, it's going to be really easy to relapse... Other than that I second your comment
I was addicted to heroin/fentanyl for a long time myself. No childhood trauma just poor life choices.
Glad you stopped bro
@@inkaros1288 ten months sober whole new perspective on life it's sweet
@@hedgehogpancakes6174 good for u dude .. 👏🏼👍🏼
Congrats
Addiction is not always due to childhood trauma. Glad you stopped .:)
Sadly , he looks broken . I wish him strength and courage .
how does someone look broken
I am BROKEN, my HEART HURTS.
@@murdamangoz they word it really insensitively but I know what they mean, his expressions, body language and dialogue portray that of a man that has completely lost all hope in himself. He feels like he’s just waiting to die and is almost numb. I really hope he can find a way out, he has a beautiful soul
He looks 10kr yrs older since last time. Wish you the best. You dont want to die in this darkness
Wow riley. We went to rehab together. Keep goin my man.
Really? How was it?
@T. de Goeij Yea that’s why I don’t tell my life story on a RUclips channel with 1.5 million subscribers
lol, your username.
how can i help this man i want to contact him and maybe cash app him or pay for a hotel room temporarily
@@taliamanno509 you might want to reconsider unless he's clean. Probably better off donating to Mark
I was addicted to heroin for 10 years since the age of 21/22. I now have 4 years clean, and have realized I was using opiates to cope from all the pain I endured in my childhood. No one else in my family or immediate family are addicted to any drugs.
Congratulations! Well done! You have been free from that addiction so long time. Continue in that way. Life is hard sometimes but it would be harder consuming drugs. Stay safe.
Congratulations!😎💖👏👏👏
Beast!
I’m sorry
Continued blessings❤
I recently relapsed after a long time clean, same "one bad decision" thing he is dealing with. I had enough and realized I couldn't trust my future self no matter how committed I was to clean living, there would always be that moment of weakness. I went out and bough a safe that day, which my girlfriend locks all the things I would need to access drugs every night. I have since had the urge to relapse but had removed EVERY possible way to access drugs from myself. I was actually mad at myself for securing the situation so well (as insane as that sounds), but thankful the next morning.
I have extreme empathy for addicts and we need a change in thinking to move the needle on issues of addiction.
Love you dude, keep your chin up, get help when youre ready. Sooner is better tho...
EDIT: Sorry I wasn’t clear, my addiction was not to opiates it was to amphetamines. I think the opiates are much more painful to get off.
Also I wrote this because I want people to understand how, even with all the support in the world, it’s very easy to relapse EVEN if you don’t want to. The human brain is a fishy little piece of kit.
That’s really great on you bro! You made a really smart decision with the safe thing too, I wish you great luck on your future
Stay strong Nick, we are rooting for you! You got this. 🤍
Well said brother. Wishing u well 🤍
Right on,brother! Right on!
Keep it up,man!🤟
Bro, I dont know about you but there is nothing you could put in a safe that could stop me from using if I was dopesick.
I want so badly to see this man happy enough with his soul that he can be without these drugs. God bless him.
Heartbreaking to see the progression in his addiction. As long as he is alive there is hope. Him saying not being with his ex gives him the chance to work on himself, take this chance! Your son needs you in his life.
Just go, bro. Drop everything and check into a rehab center. Tomorrow never comes, you only have right now. A year from now, you'll feel so much better and hopeful and prolly have a job and shit.
Not saying this isnt possible but rehab does cost money....
@@andytom91 true, but there are ways. He said he had a ride and a plan. Tomorrow he might not have either, only making it harder. I guess my point being it won't ever get easier, only more difficult
Andrew T getting on MediCal will help.
I don't know about the States but in the UK its like £3000($4250) per week.
Sad, definitely no shortage of people or topics for this series. Really appreciate what you're doing.
Another thing relating to this, my dad had a hip surgery last year and they gave him oxy for the pain. He has an amazing stable life and support structure. When he went off the meds he told me he almost killed himself. I couldn't believe it when I heard him say that, until I heard it was oxy.
He was puking for a week and lost 20 pounds. His wife had to take off work to take care of him. He was actually hit by a car in his 20s, broke his leg and fractured multiple bones. He said being hit by a car was a walk in the park compared to opiate withdrawal.
I always think of addiction (specifically opiate addiction) like this; every time a heroin addict starts running out of their drug, its like a train is headed right for them, and getting the fix is the only way to step off the tracks.
EDIT: SWE DIZ said this in the comments and I think it helps the analogy.
“Getting your fix is just walking a bit further down the tracks, getting off (meaning recovery and sober living) is the hardest part”
I’m paraphrasing but thanks for that SWE.
Another interesting coincidence is that “track marks” are what the obvious injection sites from heroin use are called.
very well said
Yes...very well said!
My mother had a similar horrible experience after shoulder surgery. It's hard to think of it even now remembering the struggle as she has passed on. Thanks for sharing, Godspeed,and stay your course.
this hits home for me. my dad struggled with prescription drug addiction ever since i was a kid he’s had 3-4 back surgeries and had crazy pain killers but one day he woke up and decided he was done. he still takes pain pills that don’t get you high and got a medical card! he’s since started a contracting business and makes some good money! i’m so proud of him! growing up i never knew he was struggling but he told me a few years back that he used to be addicted to them and it blew me away and everything sort of made sense. but it’s all over now and i’m very proud of him! prescription drugs are no joke and are just as deadly as street drugs are!
I broke my back (have 50% anterior height of my L1 left..rest burst in the break) that was nothing compared to detox. Ya gotta plan detox. A instant stop is worse than anything. I've read Soviet spies would be tortured (bad..use imagination) n never broke till they (cia) made em hooked and then pulled the drugs away n they sang when having limbs removed they held their mouth shut.
when youre at the point where youre scared how things are progressing but you continue anyway it gives you such a powerless feeling. feel bad for him
I met this kid in Renton/Issaquah area a few years ago. we weren't super close friends, but he was a friend of a friend who I talked to on numerous occasions in passing. super well spoken guy. really sad to see him getting worse. Ryley bro, I hope you find the light. it's out there
He’s a loser
Getting an addict to agree to rehab is very difficult but so necessary. Many are not near long enough. Such a handsome intelligent young man. "addiction is such a perplexing thing for an outsider to watch" So true. IIt is also so stigmatized yet it knows no race ,religion , social economic, creed constraints . It is an illness that steals your body , mind , spirit and soul. I so hope this young man seeks help.
@Hannah 619 It helped my loved one immensely but she had to be ready to recieve it. She is now on a maintenance dose of suboxone after switching from methadone . So glad to hear you are ok.
Rehab is garbage; its dangerous nonsense
Addiction is a Medical Problem-- treat it with Medicine!!!!
@@noeljones5994 I dont know what rehab is like where you are from but where I live it is treated with both . Medicine , counselling , structure, teaching etc etc
Its not an illness
@noeljones5994 what kind of medicine should it be treated with?
This is an intelligent handsome young man that I feel has tremendous potential for changing his lifestyle. Mark please persuade this young man to get into a rehab center away from that neighborhood.
Oh Ryley. It hurt me so mu h to hear you call yourself a piece of shit. I don’t want to get all preachy and weird, but you are a wonderful, beautiful child of God. You have so much value and worth and I hope you learn that. You are loved.
I'm an atheist. I don't think what you said was "all preachy and weird" but I do think it was a lovely thing to say to someone. And it is thoughtful and well intentioned. It's nice to read nice things, Kelly. Keep being weird, girl. 🕊️🥰
Addiction is just depression manifesting as addiction. The common thread here, is severe childhood and generational trauma!! Oh Ryley, you are gorgeous!! Get the help you need and find your way. Xx
Never dealing with losing my father at 8 years old to alcoholism has caused massive issues for me. I always thought I was ok as a young teen and now that I’m 37 I realize never dealing with it has followed me all this time and I didn’t notice it
@@2vcrew782 it's never too late to start dealing with your past. I'm the same age as you and just started to look at something from my past, that I've never dared to look at untill now.
Go for it. It's hard but you won't regret it. I promise! 😊
From what Nick P. described it's indescribably worse.
The one constant is feeling like you’re not a fully complete human, like the part of you that is sure of himself and embraces their identity was never really there. That and a feeling of disconnection to the world and people around them. It’s so sad and those feelings are awful
The brightness is dying in that young man's eyes. I remember that moment in my life. If you read this my man, you can get out. It'll be an extreme change for a while, but you can learn to live sober again. Every day with an addictive personality is a choice, we just have to wake up each morning and make the right one.
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What a lovely message♥️
The brightness really has faded. As someone else posted he has aged 5 years in 8 months. Such an articulate guy I hate to see this.
He looks so much worse.
Sunken in cheeks, vacant eyes, red skin.
Not good.
He looks the same just older and more sketchy he also seems to have a darkness in him now
If he didn't want anything to control him than why did he start.
Fentanyl....
Ryley, don’t call yourself a piece of shit. You are just broken ❤️ You can get clean and make amends.
It’s not about being a coward Riley. I think you are very courageous. Addiction is a disease.
Riley you are not a POS at all! 2 years ago my only child, my son, he was homeless, on Heroin, tried every drug out there. I don’t know the daily details of how he survived but i presume exactly like you. Narcaned 5 times. He now has 1 year, 4 months clean. . He got a job as a waiter. He moved to his own rental home over the past week. He met a girl. He goes to meetings. He is 21. You can do this for sure! It is horrible but you won’t die from getting clean. No more panic every day to get your fix. No worry about jail. No more hunger, cold or fear. Your son needs a loving Daddy! Please make that call!!! You are braver and stronger than you know!
Aww man...I was hoping for the best for this guy, because I liked that last interview. Sadly, seems he has aged 5 or 6 years in the last 8 months.
I pray for him. This is sad to watch after his first one. I felt like he hit the nail on the head in both interviews about addiction. In the last one he was so hopeful that it made me hopeful for him... he REALLY does need help Mark. As an addict in recovery this is so hard to watch. I really hope he is given the help he needs to help himself.
Ryley, It takes a lot of guts to openly admit you're afraid. That's a big step forward. You're doing better than you think. We're in your corner.❤❤❤
The life of an addict mixed with hopelessness drains the life and energy from these people. Looking into his face you can see the despair and emptiness.
It has been one year since this follow-up. I hope he's doing alright.
the difference between this and the previous interview is mindblowing. it's so devastating to see that all he's trying to do is mute his thoughts/feelings and just get by. he's so scared to face the reality while being clean. i really hope that he'll gain the courage to go to rehab asap and get a proper psychological support to work some things over. keeping my fingers crossed for him!
They lied to him to get THEIR loved one to treatment and left him by the wayside? That's so sad!
I'm sure that's not how it happened.
An excuse im sure
I'm pretty sure he's the one lying.
Sorry to say that but you can not trust what an addict tells you.
He might be lying about that
Damn. I just watched his first interview for the first time and then immediately watched this after and it seems he has aged multiple years in a few short months. His aura is so dull and depleted. He seems like such an amazing soul. My older brother was badly addicted to heroin and overcame his addiction so I pray that Riley can find his way out as well 💙
"Scared to run and too scared to fly." That is something that helped me become a better person. This man reminds me alot of me when I was his age.
you're breaking my heart, Ryley.
Ryley, we chatted after your first video and I had so much hope for you. This is heartbreaking. Please get the help you need. We believe in you. Your son needs you.
Addiction is a cunning, baffling, and powerful disease.
Without help, the ends are always the same: jails, institutions, or death.
Ok Novak...
One thing that stuck with me in this interview is what Mark said about"the fear of being successful" and it's something I've only thought about recently regarding my dad's addictions and his relationship with my grandad. And seriously I think that is one of the major obstacles to overcome when going towards recovery, maybe more than the addiction itself.
You know, the biggest "fuck you" you could ever give to the people that hurt you in the past is actually being happy with yourself, leading a sober life and being fulfilled; because that's the one thing these people who abused never had and will never have. Let them wallow in their own hatred and envy.. and you definitely deserve a change at being happy. Take that chance and run away with it. It's your own life and your adult life YOU are the one that gets to decide, not those fuckers in your past.
Well said ❤
Mark this young man is such an eloquent speaker. I sincerely hope that he can turn things around, poor kid..
He was much better on his last interview like 8 months ago. look it up and compare to this one.
@@angelavelasquez6397 hello Miss Angela🙋!!!
Thanks for your reply& for the info. I will DEF check out the other video, 🙏thanks🙏again!!
Such an intelligent, good looking full of potential boy.
Though there is drastic negative change from his last interview he's still think logically and still have a real desire to stop so there is hope and hope is the seed of any sacsess! I really hope he will find an healthy way to deal with his emotions without using.
This sweet boy deserves so much more.⚘
Such an intelligent young man, with so much potential. I know he has the strength to over come his addiction. Much love to all these people constantly struggling and trying to survive.
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I have encouraged so many young people I am in contact with to subscribe & watch your videos. These should be shown at schools. I applaud each person's courage to tell their story & I pray for their recovery!! Keep going Ryley, go got this man 🙌💪
He's such a strikingly handsome and eloquent young man. He should have such a bright and beautiful future ahead of him if he starts making better choices. I think traveling somewhere exotic would change his life. A total change of environment would really open his eyes. The happiest people are the ones who realize they have the most options. Godspeed on his journey through this chaotic life ❤
Im a critical care nurse. Sometimes when I give people IV fentanyl they stop breathing and I have to jaw thrust them to open their airway. It blows my mind that people would want to use this drug for leisure. 🤯 Its really some dangerous stuff.
Same here. Been working ICU 20 years. I hate Fentanyl.
wow
Lost a homie to smoking that shit in the past month, his dad ended up finding him. His addiction just started wasnt even noticeable, hope this guy sees my comment And realizes this shit is really killing people
He probably knows plenty of people who aren't with us anymore. He will likely die doing the thing he loves most... heroin.
so sad
Have you seen him lately? I’m wondering if he’s okay. I lost my brother to an OD a year ago and I see the similarities between him and Ryley. Addiction is such a horrible disease. It destroys you and the ones that love you. I want to see him make it and beat this so much.
He needs to get out of California. Land of addictions and narcissism.
Addiction and narcissism spans far away from just California...
Try Florida
It's everywhere, believe me
@@noeljones5994 Florida is even worse. But “wherever you go, there you are”
Josh Bryant no that's what I meant; IE Florida is even worse--not try Florida ; its better.
I just left Florida; its a disgusting, desperate place.
Im back home in NC
I’ve been in recovery for almost four years. Two years ago I had a relapse. I went out and did all the drugs I used to do. Nothing was the same. All the drugs were cut with fentanyl. I didn’t like it! It wasn’t even worse buying. Honestly if you are thinking about relapsing, please think twice. It’s Not worth it.
I always go back to the first interviews when there is a follow up to refresh my memory. I believe i've watched every episode thus far. =]
Ryley, you are definitely not a “piece of shit.” I struggle with that false belief about myself too and am also on a sobriety journey (alcohol). I relate to your shares so much. You are not broken. You are a wonderful, light-filled being who is worthy of love, compassion and belonging. With much love and solidarity, Sara
I always liked Ryley. He reminds me a lot of myself. Glad you brought him back. He looks like he lost some weight i hope he gets better.
Addiction is a crazy thing I’m from Philly Kensington is the skid row of Philly. I’m right here with these people. I have so much heart for people with addiction because i understand I wish there was a cure like a true cure. I’m rooting for you rylie !! You deserve everything life has to offer you !! You can do you ! I believe in you ! So many more people than you even know do ! I’m rooting for all the people on your channel I’m dedicated to your channel mark it’s a beautiful project ❤️
I wish more people understood about addiction like you do. I’m thankful for people like you ❤️
The only cure is accountability & self love. You can’t keep feeling sorry for yourself & doing nothing about it. He wants to keep doing drugs to “not feel like a piece of shit” well he needs to do something about it. Get a job, take care of your kid & maybe he won’t feel that way. I had a rough child hood too but I would never allow myself to give up, especially since I have a child. That baby doesn’t deserve to grow up without a father & he’s selfish for not getting his shit together for his son.
Ryley,
I see that you know what you need to do. And you’re right to feel scared. Everyone is. But when it feels scary to jump that is when you do it. Otherwise, you end up stuck in the same place all of your life. Risk is a tricky thing to face. And you’re right... maybe there were times where you were deserving of the bad, if those are the consequences for actions you were dealt with. But Dear Ryley, you are also VERY VERY deserving of a new life and a new opportunity. It’s time to face the good consequences now. You can do it. You can break the cycle for your child. He will love you forever, if you teach him what it is to be great. To never give up, to treat people with kindness and always learn to forgive yourself. There’s darkness sometimes but then there is light at the end. I see you, I hear you. Keep pushing 🙏🏽 prayers !
He is a great candidate for Sublocade. I’m an RN in OC and we provide MAT to people struggling with opioid use disorder. It helps people get their life back together. If you are having cravings, it’s hard to focus on life. MAT helps and in my opinion is a miracle that we are able to offer it to people struggling. I’m all about HARM REDUCTION.
So true
Mat?
@@NZKiwi87 medically assisted treatment
@@NZKiwi87 that’s what they calll using methadone or suboxon to help you stay away from heroin
@@NZKiwi87 Medication assisted therapy
Ryan, please get help. The difference in you from your last interview to now is incredibly noticable.
nurse and understand the dangers of fentanyl. At the hospital, we have to be extremely careful when handling and administering it to a patient because of how potent it is. Someone very close to me almost lost his life to a fentanyl addiction. He has been clean for many years now, but it was very hard seeing him go through that. Addictions not only affect the individual, but they also affect the people around them.
I’m a mom of 3 recovering heroin addicts not from a sad childhood but because of poor life choices. It is so hard to convince these poor sweet souls to go to rehab because they are all terrified of the detox and dealing with the feelings they must confront and because rehab is so expensive and if you don’t have insurance you are in a catch 22. My heart goes out to this beautiful soul. Prayers for you to make the decision to take your life back. This makes me so very sad... The options seem to be death, prison or by the grace of God you make it out. Kudos to all of you here that have made it. Unfortunately I know way to many that haven’t. Prayers from this momma bear to all of you struggling.
Oh no. He looks so worn and sick now....like he is starting to fit in with his surroundings, looking more like the older people on Skid Row. God it can happen so fast!
I have a lot of addicts in my life and some of the saddest things I’ve ever seen was my family was the away I front of me. Shit sucks man.
As a recovering H and other drugs I feel your pain. I get how comfortable you get in the lifestyle it helps you justify the drugs use being with people in same situation. I found that the people that I knew and trusted were what helped me yet kept me . Life without drugs is not going to be easy. Just think it's not going to kill you to try to stop. Doing F and the crap on the street you will die and see your company die. If you can survive the drug lifestyle you can survive 💯 in life of sobriety. You are loved by many ❤ love yourself do it for you. Peace happiness and love will come to you.
I from Seattle suburbs too! I’ve been 6 years clean, you can do it too. Move away from where you are and start over. Your life changes for the better fast. You are who you hang out with. Your right.
You ARE WORTH IT!
Recovery is uncomfortable and scary as hell. It’s worth it.
Being self aware is the best and the worst thing, you can watch yourself do all the things you know you shouldn't and you do it anyway. I hope he gets to rehab because he deserves a real chance at life to get to know himself and his son and everything else. It's never too late 🖤
Thanks for the update, I wish Riley all the best.
I hope he survives this, he's not doing so good. Please just survive.
He reminds me of Tim Roth. Intelligent and well spoken. Bless you and I hope you find your way soon.
My brother/best friend died from fentanyl OD in 2018. Shits soul crushing. I hope you can beat the disease.
Ryley, please know you are a bright, loving spirit. Your fear is a self made illusion. You are safe to take the first step towards rehab and you will be safe in rehab. You are worthy of love and we all want to see your success. 💕💕💕
Im so glad he's honest and open about his addiction. I know that alone, not in a co dependent relationship etc. That he may be successful. Being selfish in your recovery IS IMPORTANT! Be as selfish as you need to get better, i had to cut everyone off and really work on myself first, before i could accept any one in my past or present back into my life. I've had 6 years and 2 months clean off heroin, crack etc. And At first there's no one you can really be there for but yourself
Wise words and well done!😎💖👏
Your eyes say so much....You could be the Dad you never had.You are full of love..You deserve that..Don’t give up on yourself.
I’ve been waiting for his update. So unbelievably sad
This update broke my heart for Ryley
any update on Ryley?? we all want to know and hope he's doing better :(
Mark I love what you are doing and it's helped me so much in so many ways
we need a follow up, i’ve never seen someones life get sucked out of them like his did in with this follow up.
2 grams of fent a day... Went ColdTurkey-12Dayz of hell - 32 dayz clean
stay strong, best of luck
It’s worth it because kidney failure and heart failure ain’t no joke. Your organs will thank you later. Keep going
Keep going!!! Rooting for you
Hope you’re still on it. You got this ❤️
I hope you keep going. The worst thing you can do is think you’re in the clear with only a few months under your belt.
Ryley- I hope you watch this. You're fading. Have courage, young man!!
I am so happy to see an update from him. I had commented on his last video and he replied. I never went back to him and I regret that. I’ve often wondered how he was doing or where he ended up. Rylee, you can get out. It will be hard but go to Orange County, get that treatment, and then show folks who didn’t think they could make it that it is possible.
Ryley I would strongly encourage you to look into ibogaine treatment. It’s offered at many clinics in Mexico. If you want to do it I’ll help fund it, just message me and we’ll figure it out.
❤
Such a kind offer 💜
YOU are amazing. God bless you! I’ll bet we could get a go fund me for this kid for this kind of treatment?
I’ll chip in. If you see this Ryley, we can help you. Respond to our messages and we can definitely help you.
let's do this Ryley!! it's never too late.
I've never wanted someone to succeed so badly. I hope he finds his way, not only for himself but for his precious son. Break the cycle Ryley, we're all rooting for you.
“ I feel like I deserved a lot more than I got.” Thats powerful
I hope you’re ready to receive help soon, Ryley. In the next update, I hope you’re telling us that rehab helped you and that you got to see your son. All of us in the comments are rooting for you! You deserve to get better and you have the willpower to do so! The drugs are telling you that you can’t! I believe in you Ryley!
You deserve sobriety and all the greatness that comes with it, Ryley. I wish you the best.
Oh man. The last 8-9 months have changed him quickly. I hope he gets to rehab and finds the courage to get and stay clean.
.Ryley you have what it takes to do great things...I hope you find the support you need to take that next step to get you there. You deserve it...you’re a beautiful soul❤️
Comparing his last video to now is so sad, I hope he has strength to get his life on track! God bless him 🤍❤️
The desire to be well has to to be stronger than the fear of withdrawal. Addiction lures you into a cycle of self hate and destruction. In order to have any desire to be well one must have a glimmer of hope ....
He reminds me so much of my brother. My brothers not an addict, but Riley reminds me of him because of how intelligent he is and how he carries himself. A beautiful human being. You can tell he was a very bright and respectful individual but the drugs got him. I pray he gets the courage to get sober, when he’s ready, before it’s too late and he’s too far gone. Praying for you Riley!
Mark, you're getting better at interviewing. When you said, it's not about intelligence. I think sometimes intelligent people get caught up more often, because ignorance is bliss, and smart people are keenly aware of the abuses and their impact... just my two cents.
ignorance is bliss, i love the perspective u gave me!
theres an idea floating around in the fringes of the web that has really captured my attention. the idea is that people of sub-standard intelligence are incapable of processing abstracts and people of far-above-average intelligence are too smart to me tricked by sophistry, but theres a midrange, average to slightly-above-average, can process an abstract idea but arent smart enough to poke holes in it. maybe that is related, maybe it's not, we live in times unprecedented in the modern era. it's hard to say.
My son was going to go to Harvard. Eagle Scout. Great kid. Broke his arm badly in a fall, was given Oxy, (neither of us knew about it and we were not warned). New addict created. It can hit silver spoon families and highly intelligent kids too. He understood he had the world on a silver platter, but the drugs made him not care about anything at all. Not even living. Nothing he would not do to get that next high.
So in my humble and totally subjective opinion intelligence is no impediment to addiction. Nor is money. Think of all the Artists who died young with Fortune, Fame, Incredible Talent, being greatly loved, any thing they could want a choice for them ... but the Drugs trumped all of it. Maybe they did not die ON skid row, but the geography is a mere detail. An OD even at the Bel Air or the Ritz is the exact same.
@@annieseaside , you're so right!!
@@annieseaside that insight was subtly brilliant
This was really hard to watch. My heart really feels for him. Our system is so broken. Sending love and positivity
I hope he finds the courage ♡
I really liked this guys first interview. It's a shame how he's looking after the past 8 months since then. He's getting worse. He said he was headed to treatment that day of his interview with marc. It's been months and he's still trying to go. I hope he gets his shit together and gets well for good this time. Bless 🙏 him.
he's right about the types of people who get addicted, they do cause they need the crutch. in my experiences the only thing that is the same with every drug addict, is poor coping mechanisms..
surprised the bipolar was not mentioned and how hard addiction and m/h can correlate. really believe in you Ryley be brave enough to dare to have what you deserve a chance. rooting for you xx
I've been an addict all my life basically, I'm 30 now and I feel this guys pain....I want to quit everything SOOOOO fucking bad, but I'm scared to go through the withdrawals, scared whats on that other side, I'm so sick of having to wake up every single day and fix myself before I can even move or make my day productive. I am a "functioning addict" I work, I skate, I ride my Ninja, I have nice things like my computer, and game systems, etc...but drugs just makes everything else seem a little less unimportant, and I can't enjoy them like I use to. I hate this so bad....It's depressing, upsetting, it angers me at times. I just with there was an easier way. So if anyone can take anything from what I said, please just stay as far away from drugs as you can, because they suck you in so fast, you end up in the worst place imaginable without remembering how you even got there. There's no positive outcome when it comes to doing drugs, NONE, especially opiates. Opiates are better than sex, and that's why they are so dangerous, they completely consume you, and then you start to consume everyone, and everything around you.
Hey friend. I was in the same boat. I was an addict for most of my life. I got to a point where I was so broken and so tired, I was either going to load that needle up one last time, or I was going to quit. I didn’t want to die, I just wanted the pain to stop. It was hard man, it was. I was scared I was empty I felt alone and I felt hopeless. And that lasted a LONG time. It’s just the truth. But if you FIGHT THROUGH THAT and don’t ever give up your brain will start to go back to normal. 7 years clean later, I’ve never second guessed my decision and life is better now than I could have ever imagined. You can’t see it now, and that’s normal man. Neither did I. Trust the process of healing, even when your mind tells you to run. You CAN. BE. FREE. I promise you. I speak from experience with a 1600 dollar a day habit. It was no joke. I’m NOT bragging, on the contrary. I’m telling you, it CAN be done. But you can’t just expect it to stop right away. You’ve been an addict for so long it’s going to take a long time to heal, and a lot of work from you. But that’s what it takes man. If you put in HALF the effort to get clean as you do to get high, you will succeed. Much love friend. remember, ALWAYS FORWARD.
@@superkool7 thanks for those words man, I appreciate it. I know it’s going to take time, I just can’t believe I fucked up again, I had over 5 years clean and then I screwed up again, but when I was clean those were some of the best years of my life, I just want it to end so bad, I hate the grind. I’m on about a $500 a day habit right now, it’s pretty bad, but if you can get clean with a $1300 per day habit I can sure do it. I’ve been thinking of getting myself into a methadone treatment, a taper though, I don’t want to be on that garbage forever either because that’s even worse. I know people that have been through methadone withdrawal and they say it’s worse than any opiate withdrawal you could imagine. I remember oxy withdrawals, those are NO JOKE, so I can only imagine something worse than that. I’m gonna call a center Monday to get in hopefully.
@Alan Poncet I’m getting there man, I’ve just been slowly cutting down and weaning myself off. I’ve already cut my habit in half within the last couple weeks so I’m hoping by mid summer or so I’ll be done. Got a couple bottles of methadone to wean off completely eventually. I’m getting there slowly but surely.