I just love it when your interviewees ask if it’s all right if they cuss. To me that is a gentleness and A respect that they access even when they are suffering so deeply.
I just stumbled across this 3 year old interview, and I hope Terry is doing alright. There's such a sweetness to this guy. Suffering generally does one of two things to a person: it either makes them hard and bitter, or it makes them tender and compassionate. I get a sense that Terry is a decent human being trapped by addiction after having suffered a great deal in his youth. I hope he's alive, I hope he's found a way to conquer his addiction (unlikely as that may seem), and I hope he enjoys so real happiness in this life.
That kid is absolutely gorgeous, what a shame. I couldn't believe it when he said he was in his 30s . He looks very young, clean, and well-kept. I see so much potential I really hope he gets it together
The fact that he went to jail to protect his brother from going is a huge sign of compassion, he’s a kind soul who unfortunately was condemned even before he was born with a mother who drank through her pregnancy.
It's NOT that deep lady,,, so much more kids and so much more people that go to the worst things in life that what he went through.. you praise him as if he's the only person on Earth has gone through anything.. okay so relax Cougar
@@Daygo0511tf do you mean? Its deep af, you accuse her of being a cougar bc she has compassion? You may need to look at the heartless person you've become. The fact is, this is deep. The man has anguish tatted on his neck. If that isnt telling, idk what is. Is it an excuse for him to use? No. It still explains what lives these ppl lead and could have lead if it wasnt for the circumstances surrounding their addiction. Mentally and physically. His interview may not do anything for you. Yet it may save some people. It may help family or friends understand their loved ones addiction. There is so much negative and positive in these interviews that people can learn from. Its not for you to decide whats deep and whats not. Your life experiences aren't everyone elses. Dony be so quick to judge.
@pipelayer92 he's got anguish tatted on his neck. 'cause he's an attention seeker.He wants people to feel sorry for him~ yeah, maybe he did some good things for his brother, but he needs to get off his pity party, and start living a real life, if I can kick two grams a day, he can kick anything~
@@iamyou8416yeah, they always say that, wherever someone is asking "how is X doing", there is always someone who says "X died". Doesn't mean it's true.
@@Frank_inSAHis nephew committed on the short version of Terry's interview. He said he passed away in February, 3 months after this interview. This is very sad. Bless his soul 🕊️
This had to be the first time I heard anyone say, “I’m late for work” , while finishing a soft white interview. Terry, you deserve to give yourself a chance. You are not your mother or father! Hope is one of the hardest things to believe in. However, it is the one thing that if you finally believe…Hope can move mountains!
@@ChilledWhite Hope is essential, Faith can be in many things it doesn’t need any religious input, so if a person isn’t religious in. belief, they could still have faith that their vehicle will get them thru another winter without breaking down..as an example. If there isn’t hope for anything, it’s a. very sad situation
@@oldbastard2149 it truly doesn’t matter if he has one or not. I just wanted him to know he is important enough to fight to live a better life! You continue spreading your uplifting spirit 😉
Edgar Allen Poe said, “I have absolutely no pleasure in the stimulants in which I sometimes so madly indulge. It has not been in the pursuit of pleasure that I have periled life and reputation and reason. It has been the desperate attempt to escape from torturing memories, from a sense of insupportable loneliness and a dread of some strange impending doom.” I hope more people hear stories like Terry's and have a little more empathy.
Actually as I listened to Terry and his well spokeness. As he was in his train of thoughts and remembrances. He invoked my feelings of compassion. For in his testaments he did not hold anything shielded. Which touched upon my emotion's and careness towards his spirit.
With parents like that, who could stand a chance? This young man has so much charm, potential and intelligence- I wish he could see what the rest of us see!
@@christineweaver3090I would also like to know.. ooh Esme, addict here - I could relate to stuff he said. I'm clean and sober for over 16 years now and doing whatever it takes to help others. We're not bad people we just made bad choices, sending greetings from Cape Town South Africa 🇿🇦
@@cognitiveconnectionssYes but there comes a time when we need to take responsibility for ourselves and work very hard to correct and overcome what was done wrong to us.
Terry looks like something out of a Pre-Raphaelite painting--it's amazing (minus the tattoos, of course). As thrashed as he is, he still has that butterscotchy Southern charm. He's teetering on the edge of oblivion. Compelling guy.
Your statement is so perfectly said! It sums him up completely. You are so well written, you drew me right in. You would write a beautiful book. Seems like you really know how to capture a person's soul.:)
Your comment was a month ago so I figured I'd check up on you, how you doing? You still clean? Stay strong I've been out of prison almost 2 years and im still clean, you can do it
@@soopadoopa-Brooke I am 8 weeks clean today. I came off everything cold turkey and withdrew for 14 days. Most miserable experience of my life. Keeping that pain on my mind is more than enough for me to not go back. Don’t know if I could go through it again if I had to. How about you? Hope all is well.
@@dubz636 good!, I'm still clean, completely turned my life around, completely different lifestyle now, only wish I would have figured out my shit sooner but I also refuse to live in regret, just keep pushing forward everyday, all I can do. For what it's worth, I'm proud of you
@@soopadoopa-Brooke thanks homie. Feeling better day by day still. Amazing how that shit controls your life and you don’t even realize it. Stay strong.
@@dubz636 oh yea, I think back and I must have really thought I was slick and that nobody even knew... smh, you know I cant get back the years I've wasted but I swear to make the rest of them count, much love bro
Aww my gosh the way he still calls 'my daddy" is such a form of endearment. I'm starting to cry, I call my father who passed away for years ago of Cancer "Godfather'. Oh more tears he just said ' my momma". Bless you from Hong Kong. You are your own entity your soul is yours.
@@VickieVale367 That's pretty darn cute. If a grown adult said "daddy" out here on the west coast, he'd get some funny looks. But if he had a southern accent, he'd get a pass. 😊
@@a.w.3772 Agreed! I grew up in Louisiana but I’ve noticed since moving to GA people you aren’t related to will say “daddy did this” instead of “my daddy did this”.
The southerners and Appalachian folks you interview are such fabulous story tellers. They are eloquent and their cadence is almost poetic. They are by far my favorite interviews to listen to.
yeah southerner's have a really cool cadence. Like the Southern accents (real ones, not the attempts actors do) are really fucking emotive. I went to visit a friend in Arkansas and met her family and friends. Beautiful accents.
Yessss! Us true Southerners have beautiful speaking cadences to grace the ears of other people! Sweet Home Alabama Girl here! The South also produces some of the most Beautiful People in the Whole World! We also have the Strongest & Bravest Hearts in the Universe! More Southerners have SERVED IN THE UNITED STATES MILITARY than any other part of the USA! YES INDEED!
Methadone would be the best thing for him. Even if he stayed on it the rest of his life. I took 200 mg of methadone for 12 years and then I finally got tired of it and slowly (and I mean sloooooooowly) weaned myself off it. Methadone allows a person to get their life together. You don't have to go looking for drugs. You can hold a job. People may disagree with me, but I think with his attitude being he hasn't any desire to ever be clean, methadone is the way to go.
I’ve been on Methadone about 2 years now and have been reducing for 6 months now, currently on 70mg a day. It’s definitely helped me and given me my life back.
I’ve been on methadone for about 6 years. I was at 70mg & have been slowly getting off it . At 14mg at the moment . Was the best thing I’ve ever done in my life. I got my life back because of it & never want to use drugs again!
@@blondiexox Hey I'm struggling to get below 30ish mg physeptone just the brand name but I was on 70mg for about 3 years dropped from 100mg which started almost 10 year ago now but I believe I metabolise it too quickly because I feel WD's set in 8-10 hours after my last dose which means i split 15mg twice a day...any suggestions to keep dropping without the uncomfortable cluck? Cheers from the UK :)
Agreed , too much misinformation from misinformed people about Methadone . My daughter very successfully followed a methadone program 12 years ago . She now has a Masters degree , her own business , married with a beautiful daughter . Methadone allows people to slowly reintergrate into a healthy society and detatch from the former unhealthy lifestyle .
Hey! I think you're right. Slowly really is the best way. And I mean slooooowly too. Maybe not 12 years slowly cause that'd be half my life, but still slowly. I'm 24years old. I got addicted to heroin when I was 17. And when I was 20 I had enough and entered the methadone programe. I live in Austria, we have several different opiod substitutions meds. I've started with methadone but didn't like that. To much sweating. So they changed it to Substitol (Morphine) and have been on that ever since. Started with about 1200mg. Now I'm down to 400mg a day. Thats a 2/3 reduction in 5 years. So very slowly too. I get benzos in the programe too. And next year I'm planning on staying in a rehab clinic for about 6 months to completely get off opiods and benzos. I have great luck that going an rehab in a clinic is for free in my country!!! 🙏🏼 If I manage to follow through as planned it will have taken me about 7 years to get off heroin and benzos. It's a lot of time but it really helps with learning to live a normal and healthy life again. As soon as I started with the methadone programe I was able to finish my education, got a Job and finished other educations like my A-Levels too. So the 5 or 6 years since I'm in the morphine programe have really helped me with getting to know myself again and reentering society you could say 😅
This young man is doesn't realize how strong he really is! I'm born and raised in Alabama and everything he speaks on is straight facts! It's common how many doctors got people hooked on drugs and then just left thousands of people hooked
As a recovering alcoholic and heroin addict, it’s been 7 years since I had a drink and 5 years 8 mos since I’ve done any drugs aside from my prescription medications which I take correctly today. This young man says that he doesn’t ever want to quit opiates, but in between his words I saw a beautiful soul and a kind heart. He has never known a healthy life. And NONE of us would choose to live a life that’s completely unknown to us! I worked as a Peer Advocate for four years and I would love to talk to Terry!! I relate to a lot of what he feels. I don’t think he believes that he deserves a good life. And I’d like to tell him that he does! The things we do in active addiction is just that, things we did. Not who we are!! Praying for him! ❤
My parents were from the south and momma and daddy was what we called our parents even though we were raised in Iowa! My brothers also called our momma “ma” at times!! Southern-love it❣️
@@rebeccaproulx6767I call my parents the same as does. Im from Kentucky... People tell me theyove my country sounding voice but to me I kinda wish I didn't have it 😂 It's when I talk to people that aren't from here that notice my thick accent.
Oh man; I agree. There isn't enough words to describe how sad the life has been for this man. My boyfriend has had a similar lifestyle and I have given him 25 years of my life of support and love and I feel like he's just now coming around to understanding that he's able to receive basic human needs. He is 53 and his emotional age is about 16. It is certainly the hardest situation of our lives. And when Terry said the most important thing he's learned in his life is "don't trust nobody". Beyond heartbreaking.
@@melissamartin9615 just curious, but what compelled you to stay with a man like that? i just wonder about some relationships and am truly curious why some people, and many times it seems to be women, will stay with a person that has such qualities that seem it would absolutely make it hard to hold any kind of civil relationship with. I mean if hes 53 and literally has the mind of a 16 year old that would have to be unbearable and he is at least on the verge of mental retardation it would seem. And i have experience with a couple of people like this and life is bad for them, they get thrown in jail and treared like shit because they must not be retarded enough for the system to give a fuck about them yet they cant funcrion properly in society and no one cares about them...many own their own. So i can understand wanting to help a person like this if possible, but i couldnt imagine being in a relationship with them. Couldnt be attractive in that way
@@jakeackermann9059 you're prolly right, and it is insulting. Personally id be embarassed to say something like that about my spouse, would reflect just as bad, if not worse on me
Wow, this might be one of the most honest interviews I have seen on Mark's channel. Terry is so unpretentious. He doesn't make excuses for himself. He is heart broken over his daddy. His momma helped mess him up, but he doesn't talk ill of her. His pain is raw. He is so captivating in his delivery. He is a good story teller, but his story sure is heart breaking. I hope he can find some peace.
Watching this as my dad is high off a speedball. I wish he didn’t have PTSD, he was in Iraq before I was ever born but now he been like this since I have been alive. Would have been nice to know him when he was younger, sober, and not messed up mentally.
He is still there. I went that way as well. I did 2 tours in iraq. Came home and the pain led to drugs. I've been off the drugs for 4 years. Your dad can do it. The man you want to know is still in there. I'm betting he feels like he screwed up everything too much and just quit life. Remind him that life is still worth living.
I'm an Army vet that deployed to Iraq June 2006 - Sept 2007 and hear about this kind of thing far too often. My dad was a Vietnam Veteran who just passed away a couple weeks before Thanksgiving. I miss him already, life's not the same. Had a very rough year personally in 2020. Wife left me, put me out of our house and I totally didn't see it coming. Dad passed away 4 months later, his mom my grandma died 2 weeks later, his brother my uncle was in a coma and miraculously came out of it shortly after he was taken off of life support the day was going to hospital to tell him goodbye. Been heavily depressed for many years, have ptsd, a former gang member that tried to repair my life by joining the Army. Now have to admit to feeling broken. But because of guys like your dad, my own dad, and listening these interviews from guys like Terry here and Johnny, and for where I came from I promise not to give up on life. God bless and I pray for your dad, your family, and yourself! 🙏 🇺🇲
Lordy, what a storyteller. Speaks well, has a good vocabulary. Such a bad start in life that led to bad lifestyle choices. Please Mark, can you ask Terry to come back and talk again. Really loved listening to him. I just wish there was someone who could help him turn his life around. I think he's got so much good in him. Just love him and his voice. Despite everything, he speaks with honesty and even some humour. Please have him back Mark 🙏
@@melvinjansen2338 that may be so, and I'm not trying to shine a light on negative things. I just feel like it would be hard to admit those things to yourself let alone the whole internet to see.
I've only recently found this channel and I'm blown away by it. These interviews are amazing and should be treated as national treasures, and archived for future generations.
Yes I agree. Some of these interviews should be shown in schools. I honestly believe that's some of these kids would not take drugs in the future if they saw some interviews. Mark, thank you so much for sharing. As heartbreaking as some of the stories are they are very informative
This guys story moved me. Of all Marks interviews with Fentanyl addicts, this one really stuck with me. Hope we get a follow up with Terry at some stage!
I am from Sweden and i saw these intrweiv only for the first time this weekend I have watch this clip man Times sens then Hej is sooo cute❤ Soo sade that his is dead😢 White he' s face and body he could be a fotomodell Heaven can take care of him now ❤
My brother took his life last week in the midst of opiate withdraw for 3 days. An open window, 11 stories up...Year before it was holding the hand of my GMA that raised me as she died...2017 before Christmas, my husband died leaving me and our two littles under 5 yrs old.... I needed to hear someone else express this. I started sobbing 10 seconds in. I feel like little by little, my whole tribe and pieces of me get destroyed more and more. It's no wonder we all struggle with substances or other addictions. BE KIND, this may be the nature of what they're carrying..
@ItsFreshItsAnne I'm so very sorry for your loss! My dad took his life when I was 5. His dad and grandfather also took their lives. I started feeling depressed when I was 9. I will be 50 next week. Still trying to work through my trauma when I was young. I really wished my mom got us grief counseling but never did. Struggling with clinical deprepression for years now....over 40.
You have to break the cycle for these babies. They NEED YOU. There’s a lot of beauty in life if you’re here to see it. It gets better. I promise.. if you give yourself the grace.. it gets better. ❤
I hope Terry gets help and commits to sobriety 😢 There aren’t many interviewees that really touch my heart and give me good vibes, he’s one of them. He seems like such a decent, kind, southern gentleman. It’s heart breaking. He needs to get out of California ASAP. No good for him. Come back to the south, seek help and get involved with your community. You deserve more and better Terry ♥️ I’m rooting for you here in Georgia.
I would definitely be willing to help facilitate this! I grew up where he did and North Alabama is tough. Luckily, I got help and now have a successful business and live in Orange Beach on the Gulf with 3 beautiful kids!
He's such a handsome man! His story breaks my heart you hear his pain through it all he still loves his momma and daddy you can see they meant the world to him
I agree he is fine as hell and that southern accent is the sweetest sound ever... I wish he could see what we can see in him... Hell he sounds like he can still have an intelligent conversation, some places you can starve for that kinda stuff...
I love the fact that he’s actually reminiscing on his memories with his dad despite his circumstances. And he’s trying to work and make a living for himself but it’s difficult with the minimum wage as a felon.
This truely broke my heart. He seems to be an old lost soul that just needs to be found. He was raised around it all and it’s all he knows. So horrible 😔
So polite. So much potential. He has empathy kindness very loyal to his family all these strong points he could be an incredible human being. It's almost like the last 20 years he thinks it's like love and it was really bad parenting.
I just read in another comment that was posted 6 months ago that he passed. The commenter didn't say how. Only that they grew up with him in the same town and he has passed. So sad. I was really hoping and optimistic that he was doing better and still around. RIP Terry.
I'm sure it was an overdose sadly , he said it himself. I saw it in his eyes.. I knew when Mark asked if he'd ever get off of it.. i shook my head before he did. I felt that so deeply I just hope one day I can.
@@rachelle4912 I'm sure the pain of the way he lost his father and how he'd treated his dad was too much for him!! He felt he had nothing to really live for and the only time he felt any relief was when he was high. He had alot going for him!!
What a sad story. He is not responsible for his childhood nor can he change it. Would just like to hug him and wish I won a lottery so I could send him to a year long program to help with not only the addiction but the trauma that caused the addiction.
Really nice thought, love the idea with the lottery!! 😄😍 1 year in a facility that helps with both addiction and mental trauma would be really good. But I think he's going to need some kind of therapie for the rest of his life. 😔
I don’t know what made this video come across my recommended videos today three years after it came out, but I’m so thankful it did. I’m from Alabama and I knew this guy was from Alabama before he even said it because it’s a very specific twang. My heart aches for this man! He carries the weight of blame for so many things that weren’t his fault. He doesn’t even blame his dad for his part in his addiction or for the bad things he did to him. The Hepatitis C thing is unforgivable! Arab is a town flooded with drugs of every kind and with no jobs or entertainment. Churches, banks and methadone clinics. That’s about all you’ll find there.
Terry seems like a great man. He's easily my favorite person on this channel so far. There's just something about him, something about him that's genuine and honest.
I never cried more instantly in Any interview than I did from this one. I hope to God this beautiful young man gets the help, love, relief, happiness and empathy that he truly deserves.
I thought mid 20s.....he might be, he might be just saying he's older for certain reasons, who knows? Im not calling him a liar or anything like that...im just saying
truly a work of art...and so are you Terry. You are a somebody....I pray you don't die. As an owner of a rehab< you are the reason for what we do day in and day out. You deserve a chance, I can see your potential friend and it breaks my heart. I would be willing to scholarship you Terry, at our rehab facility in TN if you want to get clean. I see you....reach out if you can.
I work with homeless humans, doing healing and expressive art - and I'm always gobsmacked by how BEAUTIFUL these boys are... gorgeous faces, fabulous skin - unreal, considering what they do to their bodies. Let me just say also, the folks I work with are just like Terry - with AWFUL childhood stories., hideous. No, they don't want to get off drugs...This is what resonates, born into it. I always tell them that they are WAYSHOWERS to the rest of us, showing us just how broken our societies are, what an illusion we live in. That this reality exists alongside ours...there is no seperation, we're all in this mess together, but most of us don't see it...or don't want to. Thank you you for shining a light, Soft White Underbelly
I've been staring at this screen for what seems like an eternity, trying to find words to match the beautiful and supportive words used by so many others, that were touched by this man. I can't really. He's a beautiful and raw soul that makes my heart ache deeply for him. I wish I could speak right through this screen, to tell him that- but I can't. That hurts even more.
😪 That same thing your Granny told you " The Lord is near to those of a broken heart ". Call he will answer. My background was just as messed up by addiction and sexual abuse. I was a addict as well. I cried out to Jesus and here I am now. Years and years of Soberity , a husband of 24 yrs and 2 girls. Prayers.
My brother died in February from fentanyl. It's sad because he always worried about it being in a pill. We always talked about this opiate epidemic but I never thought it get him. Love ya Alec
Yea it’s sad. They are using this bullshit Corona virus to control us all meanwhile the real pandemic rages on its the opiate epidemic crisis whatever you wanna call it Seriously though the homeless population should be threatened the most in a real pandemic because most of the time they are living in filth. Terrible hygiene yet the homeless population has grown during this so called pandemic Everything is backwards and upside down it’s pure insanity
My condolences Jesse. this shit isn't going to go away any time soon and i feel that as communiies we can find better ways of helping our friends and loved ones whom are oherwise overhelmed by heir pain. This swu community has/will be a big part of what amounts to a much needed paradigm shift across sociey at large.
This upset me. Especially near the end when he said he’ll probably die from opiates. He’s lived a hard life, right from the beginning. When did he ever get his chance? Never. I hope and wish that he could get help. I so much want this young man to live, and I hope he gets help and fights for life and a better future. God watch over him please.
@francesm5978 I pretty much went through all the comments trying to find out. The first comment stating this was about 6 months ago. I don't even know him and that broke my heart.
His dad a addict, his mother a drinker poor lad didn’t have a good start. We are mirrors to our children they copy what images they see.He’s not ready yet it’s a hard cycle to get off. Thank you for your channel Mark. To all reading this keep safe and well.
Just because someone’s parents are messed up doesn’t mean the kid has to repeat it. That’s a cop out. There are people with perfectly normal child hoods that end up drug addicted & homeless. It’s about the choices YOU make. Can’t put the blame on everyone else but yourself
@@chrisnavarrette6497 total respect for your comment Chris, I just felt sorry for the lad (sorry am from Yorkshire rough dialect 🤣) he didn’t have the happiest of childhoods, and I totally agree on the best of childhoods can be affected too. I was in hospital and a very well spoken lady “queens English” as it’s called, was talking to me and she lived in a very nice area where houses Cost over a million, but she said she had lost her son he over dosed at university in Oxford. She said people think it’s the lower classes who are affected it’s more rife in the middle and upper classes.That was a very enlightening experience with her opening up like that. So Chris thank you for your comment keep well and best regards to you and yours. ❤️ thank you
@@chrisnavarrette6497 while we do all have the choice, this guy only has a 7th grade education and was NEVER shown another way, so while it was his choice, there is also a lot of factors here that weigh in on the choices he made
terry, you have so much grace. i'm looking forward to see how's your story, the one that you choose for yourself, turned out. i can see you having a family, being a great professional, you're beautiful without trying, you got all the bad the world could give you, now it's time to have the goodies. I'm rooting for you.
@@namastedogtrainingdanielle9846 If he was healthy, it would help him mentally also, which would also show on the outside. I’m not being shallow, sorry you took it that way.
My favorite interview to date. I watched it twice in a row. Something drew me in within the first 15 seconds and I was bummed when it was over because I want to hear more of what he had to say. There is something about him…actually many things about him in this interview that makes me believe he could most definitely have a positive impact on people. He said he used right before this interview, if this is him high I can only imagine what kind of potential is there sober!! When he said that he will die before getting clean, that shit broke my heart 💔. Hopefully one day very soon he will see in himself what we saw. Hope we get an update!
He is adorable 😩he loves his daddy, and doesn’t see how he played such a major part in his downfall. I love the southern accent and dialect. I wish him the best.🤍 My favourite and most sincere interview on SWU.
I was born and raised in Birmingham Alabama. I was on IV heroin from 2014-2019, it’s everywhere but nothing compared to how bad Fentanyl is in California….. bless this guys heart. I hope he makes it out one day.
I'm in love! The way he looks back and describes the good memories he has says a lot about the softness of his soul. He is a truly lovely human and if he is reading this, I don't ever pray but I'll pray for you! Good luck, I'm rooting for you
There is something so special about this young man. So many others have commented they could watch him speak for hours. I hope you read these comments Terry. You are worthy of a good life. Methadone for life is better than dying from fentanyl. Ultimately I'll pray you find sobriety and that a talent scout finds you and you make the big time.
absolutely, so much untapped potential...Good luck Terry if your reading these comments, your a special man...God bless you and keep you, fi from New Zealand :)
How he said “ sir” as his polite response to not hearing the interviewer… This young man deserves a chance in life. To clean up, to find sobriety, to find love, find joy in the Gods creation. I’m sorry I wish I could help you.
He’s so sweet. I love that he refers to his father as Daddy. I hope he gets into a program soon with a taper off in a way that will keep him comfortable. He also needs a hug.
Man I feel these guys' pain. Heroin addicts and fentanyl junkies. This guy has an amazing story. Good looking guy too. You deserve nothing but the best. You can't blame your daddy's death on yourself. He's the one that did it. I'm sorry for your loss, I can see how much your parents meant to you. You deserve the best, you deserve to be clean. You deserve an amazing life, we all do. I wish I had the money to help these guys. If you ever need anyone to talk to reach out. Anyone can.
@@Wheezersmom02 Ive been clean for a few yrs now & I still & always will consider myself a junkie. It is what it is! Every1 these days get 2 caught up in labels & the "correct" wording for crap that dont matter. Us junkies have been thru & seen way 2 much 2 give a shit bout somethin that petty.
Hmmm, why would him being fairly good looking make a speck of difference? Ugly addicts- kick em to the curb. Good looking- worth helping. It's twisted logic like that, that keeps addicts darn tootin junkies.
Those whose are asking, Terry did pass away February 2nd this year. It breaks my heart to see this, I see so much of myself in him and I found my way out of addiction. I just wish he could have as well. I really hope he’s in a better place now, but until we die ourselves we can’t know forsure.
To go through such traumatic events, and still make any senses 🙈 he’s an amazing human.hopeful you can feel the good vibes I’am sending you,learn to move forward
@Mr Black - You're a minority (likely a small one at that). The person you're responding to didn't say it was impossible to break the cycle, but its a cycle for a reason. We don't all start on a level playing field. Just like the privileged have a running start, or start two steps up the ladder, its possible to damn someone's start in life, especially when they're addicted in so many ways before their brain is fully developed. (Well done, btw.)
@@jessicaswann5445 No I'm not fooled, there's just alot of empathy and sympathy in my ❤❤❤ for addicts because I was the addict that has came up out of the trenches and, it's not always the parents fault my mom or dad wasn't addicts.
Makes me sad to hear that he feels as though his childhood is all of his fault, and that he’s responsible for his dad’s death. 😢 None of this was your fault, Terry! Get well, and be well good guy. 💗🙏🏽
This guy reminds me 100% of myself. I lost my parents 2 years apart when I was younger, after that, I lost my way to drugs and violence for 12 years because I felt like I didn't care to die. I didn't want to die but I wasn't scared of death. Finally after all those years I had a daughter on the way and I got help and got clean and now I have 4 kids, have been clean for over 12 years and have my own electrical company in Colorado. These stories keep me humble but my story should make anyone HOPEFUL. I did it so anyone can do it if you want it bad enough. I am not going to lie, it was rough BUT it is possible. Good luck to all these lost souls. We appreciate this platform and we appreciate these stories.
The way this kid speaks and Carries himself comes through in a realist commutative way. A truthfulness with no holds barred. The openness and how he expresses his existence is very attentive from his mannerisms.
Around 13:00 he talks about nodding out and getting his stuff stolen. His lanyard from around his neck. I Couldn't relate more. I once nodded out Infront of McDonald's sitting on a bench with my headphones In my ears, plugged into my phone on my lap. When I awoke, my headphones were in with the wire dangling between my knees. Some other junkie had walked up, and unplugged the headphone jack and bounced with my phone. Lived that life on the streets of Portland for 7 years. Over 4 years clean now.
It makes me so sad when he says he can't see himself getting clean.. he has such a sweetness to him and there is still a sparkle in his eyes. Please Terry, get some help love.
Your videos are very interesting. I switch on the subtitles so i can read and understand everything because sometimes different american accents are not so easy to be understood by me (italian). Thanks a lot!
@@YummyGummy77 ...thats cool, I used to go to Gadsden a lot when I was a child. I live in a small town in west Atl, right next door, on the Ala/Ga line. Hope you have a great day ✌
I've been awake for 60+ hours, more or less "Wired" due to the use of copious amounts of Meth, and the sheer Dread associated with Fentanyl withdrawals. These videos not only act as a form of therapy, but they allow me to be more gentle with myself, understanding I am not alone. Truth is I feel so trapped by devices crafted through my own lack of Vivaciousness , often I do not even feel alive unless completely absorbed in some self-destructive behavior. I feel as though without True Empathy no Addict can begin to facilitate a space within themselves that cultivates True Recovery. We suffer silently, but Mark you give us all a Voice.
Son, I love you with all my heart and wish you the absolute best because I feel your pain… growing up was difficult for myself too but there is sunlight at the end of the tunnel if you give yourself a chance for self love!!!!! Love much and love always
He doesn't realize there could be a whole other life he could never dream of. He's got a good heart, is good looking, fit, and is a Skid Row unicorn with that work ethic. If I were an LA talent scout I'd be interested in casting this guy for his raw Americana vibe.
It would be nice to see an update on Terry, his story had quite an impact on me. I've thought about him a couple times since seeing this interview. I really hope he's gotten right and cleaned up.
Am praying for him tonight and hope he hasn't passed away. If he has, am praying for his soul. Seems like he never had a chance, but hope and pray he is doing well.
The chaos in some peoples lives is shocking . I watch these videos to remind myself how very lucky I am . Respect for all of the people in addiction , we are all equal.
I have been through opiate addiction, I am about the same age, Methadone and then Suboxone in combination with psychological and psychiatric help and have been clean for four years. I hope that he can find a new life.
Yes, excellent job by you for obtaining the proper care you need and deserve. I wish you the very best in life. Keep your head up, I don't even know you but I believe in you. ❤
Love listening to him talk. So sad what you had to go through Terry. I wish life had been a little easier on you. You are so attractive and seem kind hearted. You deserve happiness, a family, a good life. I hope time heals your pain and leads you to a healthier lifestyle.
I used to watch this channel when it first came out and I have lost track of the show for about 23 years and now it’s like taking me forever to catch up with all these people and it makes me so thankful of the life that I have because it is a lot of people out there struggling with some heavyheavy shit constantly
I just love it when your interviewees ask if it’s all right if they cuss. To me that is a gentleness and A respect that they access even when they are suffering so deeply.
He’s a true southern gentleman ♥️ I think he’s my favorite interviewee so far. 💔 I love him 😭
Kareb..
You're right.
@@thematriarchy2075 ..lol
I like that too about a person. I see not just gentleness, but humbleness too. Best wishes for Terry.
Why would u assume they aren’t gentle??? Most Addicts are not typically hardcore Karen
I just stumbled across this 3 year old interview, and I hope Terry is doing alright. There's such a sweetness to this guy. Suffering generally does one of two things to a person: it either makes them hard and bitter, or it makes them tender and compassionate. I get a sense that Terry is a decent human being trapped by addiction after having suffered a great deal in his youth. I hope he's alive, I hope he's found a way to conquer his addiction (unlikely as that may seem), and I hope he enjoys so real happiness in this life.
Yes! Would love an update on Terry!
God rest his young soul. So very sad. 🙏
@@Michael88keyshe died???
@@Michael88keys what happened?
@@laurendelaughter2188probably o deed
That kid is absolutely gorgeous, what a shame. I couldn't believe it when he said he was in his 30s . He looks very young, clean, and well-kept. I see so much potential I really hope he gets it together
I could t agree more ✊🏼,… are there an uPdates for Terry ⁉️
That kid should be auditioning for roles .He certainly screen tests awesome IMO coupled with the charisma .
Wish we could get an update on terry!!
@@Amar1338with his looks and streets smarts, he still has a long way to go.
@@rayva1 at this point , a year later of using the new tranq laced shit I just hope the fella is alive with all his body parts . F everything else
The fact that he went to jail to protect his brother from going is a huge sign of compassion, he’s a kind soul who unfortunately was condemned even before he was born with a mother who drank through her pregnancy.
It's NOT that deep lady,,, so much more kids and so much more people that go to the worst things in life that what he went through.. you praise him as if he's the only person on Earth has gone through anything.. okay so relax Cougar
@@Daygo0511tf do you mean? Its deep af, you accuse her of being a cougar bc she has compassion? You may need to look at the heartless person you've become. The fact is, this is deep. The man has anguish tatted on his neck. If that isnt telling, idk what is. Is it an excuse for him to use? No. It still explains what lives these ppl lead and could have lead if it wasnt for the circumstances surrounding their addiction. Mentally and physically. His interview may not do anything for you. Yet it may save some people. It may help family or friends understand their loved ones addiction. There is so much negative and positive in these interviews that people can learn from. Its not for you to decide whats deep and whats not. Your life experiences aren't everyone elses. Dony be so quick to judge.
@@Daygo0511you didn’t listen
@pipelayer92 he's got anguish tatted on his neck. 'cause he's an attention seeker.He wants people to feel sorry for him~ yeah, maybe he did some good things for his brother, but he needs to get off his pity party, and start living a real life, if I can kick two grams a day, he can kick anything~
@@Daygo0511just because others have to go through pain and hardship, doesn’t negate his.
I like Terry, he's got a lot of kindness and honesty. I wish him freedom from pain. Good luck to you Terry. ❤
They say he’s passed away 😢
@@iamyou8416yeah, they always say that, wherever someone is asking "how is X doing", there is always someone who says "X died".
Doesn't mean it's true.
I agree, this kind young soul just needs someone to believe in him to get him out of this ugly mess he is in.
God bless you Terry.
@@Frank_inSAHis nephew committed on the short version of Terry's interview. He said he passed away in February, 3 months after this interview. This is very sad. Bless his soul 🕊️
@@shemarbar maybe, maybe not, I've read this comment too.
But how do I know it's his nephew?
This had to be the first time I heard anyone say, “I’m late for work” , while finishing a soft white interview. Terry, you deserve to give yourself a chance. You are not your mother or father! Hope is one of the hardest things to believe in. However, it is the one thing that if you finally believe…Hope can move mountains!
You don't need hope when you have faith. Hopeful struggle leads to defeat, hopeless struggle leads to victory.
@@ChilledWhite Hope is essential, Faith can be in many things it doesn’t need any religious input, so if a person isn’t religious in. belief, they could still have faith that their vehicle will get them thru another winter without breaking down..as an example. If there isn’t hope for anything, it’s a. very sad situation
Loving hope moves more mountains than the ones it was looking at.
LOL ! :-) If you believe this junkie actually has a job you're truly naive.
@@oldbastard2149 it truly doesn’t matter if he has one or not. I just wanted him to know he is important enough to fight to live a better life! You continue spreading your uplifting spirit 😉
Edgar Allen Poe said, “I have absolutely no pleasure in the stimulants in which I sometimes so madly indulge. It has not been in the pursuit of pleasure that I have periled life and reputation and reason. It has been the desperate attempt to escape from torturing memories, from a sense of insupportable loneliness and a dread of some strange impending doom.” I hope more people hear stories like Terry's and have a little more empathy.
I love this
Actually as I listened to Terry and his well spokeness. As he was in his train of thoughts and remembrances. He invoked my feelings of compassion. For in his testaments he did not hold anything shielded. Which touched upon my emotion's and careness towards his spirit.
I enjoyed the speed shots because i could go a full 12 hours without shooting dope dope. So when I got to do that shot, it felt amazing.
Yeah Edgar knew it..
Wow, thanks for sharing that!
With parents like that, who could stand a chance? This young man has so much charm, potential and intelligence- I wish he could see what the rest of us see!
You gotta wonder throughout our lives instead of going turning left what if we chose right? I see this was 3yrs ago, wonder what happened to him?
Absolutely! The sky could be the limit for Terry! ❤️🙏
@@christineweaver3090I would also like to know.. ooh Esme, addict here - I could relate to stuff he said.
I'm clean and sober for over 16 years now and doing whatever it takes to help others.
We're not bad people we just made bad choices, sending greetings from Cape Town South Africa 🇿🇦
Yeah, but most people don’t see that it’s our parents that did that to us
@@cognitiveconnectionssYes but there comes a time when we need to take responsibility for ourselves and work very hard to correct and overcome what was done wrong to us.
Terry looks like something out of a Pre-Raphaelite painting--it's amazing (minus the tattoos, of course). As thrashed as he is, he still has that butterscotchy Southern charm. He's teetering on the edge of oblivion. Compelling guy.
I like the way you said that, are you a writer?
Your statement is so perfectly said! It sums him up completely. You are so well written, you drew me right in. You would write a beautiful book. Seems like you really know how to capture a person's soul.:)
Cherub face
as if tattoos matter. what a random comment.
He is really quite beautiful , I wish he’d get it together there’s nothing he can’t do but GTFO of LA it will eat you up alive
I’m in the midst of opiate withdrawals myself, and listening to all of Marks videos have been a saving grace during this time. Keep up the work Mark.
Your comment was a month ago so I figured I'd check up on you, how you doing? You still clean? Stay strong
I've been out of prison almost 2 years and im still clean, you can do it
@@soopadoopa-Brooke I am 8 weeks clean today. I came off everything cold turkey and withdrew for 14 days. Most miserable experience of my life. Keeping that pain on my mind is more than enough for me to not go back. Don’t know if I could go through it again if I had to. How about you? Hope all is well.
@@dubz636 good!, I'm still clean, completely turned my life around, completely different lifestyle now, only wish I would have figured out my shit sooner but I also refuse to live in regret, just keep pushing forward everyday, all I can do. For what it's worth, I'm proud of you
@@soopadoopa-Brooke thanks homie. Feeling better day by day still. Amazing how that shit controls your life and you don’t even realize it. Stay strong.
@@dubz636 oh yea, I think back and I must have really thought I was slick and that nobody even knew... smh, you know I cant get back the years I've wasted but I swear to make the rest of them count, much love bro
Aww my gosh the way he still calls 'my daddy" is such a form of endearment. I'm starting to cry, I call my father who passed away for years ago of Cancer "Godfather'. Oh more tears he just said ' my momma". Bless you from Hong Kong. You are your own entity your soul is yours.
That's a trait from the Deep South to say "daddy" and "mama".
Yes I’m in the south and I call my parents mama and daddy and I’m 42.
@@VickieVale367 That's pretty darn cute. If a grown adult said "daddy" out here on the west coast, he'd get some funny looks. But if he had a southern accent, he'd get a pass. 😊
@@a.w.3772 Agreed! I grew up in Louisiana but I’ve noticed since moving to GA people you aren’t related to will say “daddy did this” instead of “my daddy did this”.
Beautiful reminder “You are your own entity your soul is yours.” @Cindy C
The southerners and Appalachian folks you interview are such fabulous story tellers. They are eloquent and their cadence is almost poetic. They are by far my favorite interviews to listen to.
Terry- I wish you the best and hope you are able to get sober one day.
They all grew up in poverty.
yeah southerner's have a really cool cadence. Like the Southern accents (real ones, not the attempts actors do) are really fucking emotive. I went to visit a friend in Arkansas and met her family and friends. Beautiful accents.
Yessss! Us true Southerners have beautiful speaking cadences to grace the ears of other people! Sweet Home Alabama Girl here! The South also produces some of the most Beautiful People in the Whole World! We also have the Strongest & Bravest Hearts in the Universe! More Southerners have SERVED IN THE UNITED STATES MILITARY than any other part of the USA! YES INDEED!
@@lisanevins3605 lol no..we didn’t all grow up in poverty.
Methadone would be the best thing for him. Even if he stayed on it the rest of his life. I took 200 mg of methadone for 12 years and then I finally got tired of it and slowly (and I mean sloooooooowly) weaned myself off it. Methadone allows a person to get their life together. You don't have to go looking for drugs. You can hold a job. People may disagree with me, but I think with his attitude being he hasn't any desire to ever be clean, methadone is the way to go.
I’ve been on Methadone about 2 years now and have been reducing for 6 months now, currently on 70mg a day. It’s definitely helped me and given me my life back.
I’ve been on methadone for about 6 years. I was at 70mg & have been slowly getting off it . At 14mg at the moment . Was the best thing I’ve ever done in my life. I got my life back because of it & never want to use drugs again!
@@blondiexox Hey I'm struggling to get below 30ish mg physeptone just the brand name but I was on 70mg for about 3 years dropped from 100mg which started almost 10 year ago now but I believe I metabolise it too quickly because I feel WD's set in 8-10 hours after my last dose which means i split 15mg twice a day...any suggestions to keep dropping without the uncomfortable cluck? Cheers from the UK :)
Agreed , too much misinformation from misinformed people about Methadone . My daughter very successfully followed a methadone program 12 years ago . She now has a Masters degree , her own business , married with a beautiful daughter . Methadone allows people to slowly reintergrate into a healthy society and detatch from the former unhealthy lifestyle .
Hey!
I think you're right. Slowly really is the best way. And I mean slooooowly too. Maybe not 12 years slowly cause that'd be half my life, but still slowly. I'm 24years old. I got addicted to heroin when I was 17. And when I was 20 I had enough and entered the methadone programe. I live in Austria, we have several different opiod substitutions meds. I've started with methadone but didn't like that. To much sweating. So they changed it to Substitol (Morphine) and have been on that ever since. Started with about 1200mg. Now I'm down to 400mg a day. Thats a 2/3 reduction in 5 years. So very slowly too. I get benzos in the programe too. And next year I'm planning on staying in a rehab clinic for about 6 months to completely get off opiods and benzos. I have great luck that going an rehab in a clinic is for free in my country!!! 🙏🏼
If I manage to follow through as planned it will have taken me about 7 years to get off heroin and benzos.
It's a lot of time but it really helps with learning to live a normal and healthy life again. As soon as I started with the methadone programe I was able to finish my education, got a Job and finished other educations like my A-Levels too. So the 5 or 6 years since I'm in the morphine programe have really helped me with getting to know myself again and reentering society you could say 😅
This young man is doesn't realize how strong he really is! I'm born and raised in Alabama and everything he speaks on is straight facts! It's common how many doctors got people hooked on drugs and then just left thousands of people hooked
Doctors aren't the devil, but pills are. And they come from the doctors
From Decatur here
Yes it’s happened to so many people I know
Madison/Huntsville....
People are the problem. People abuse then blame.
As a recovering alcoholic and heroin addict, it’s been 7 years since I had a drink and 5 years 8 mos since I’ve done any drugs aside from my prescription medications which I take correctly today. This young man says that he doesn’t ever want to quit opiates, but in between his words I saw a beautiful soul and a kind heart. He has never known a healthy life. And NONE of us would choose to live a life that’s completely unknown to us! I worked as a Peer Advocate for four years and I would love to talk to Terry!! I relate to a lot of what he feels. I don’t think he believes that he deserves a good life. And I’d like to tell him that he does! The things we do in active addiction is just that, things we did. Not who we are!! Praying for him! ❤
May God bless you ❤
Best of luck with your continued recovery. 👏🏻😊🤗🙏🏻❤️
I love the way he talks, so authentic, especially when he refers to his parent's as Momma and Daddy.
My parents were from the south and momma and daddy was what we called our parents even though we were raised in Iowa! My brothers also called our momma “ma” at times!! Southern-love it❣️
@@rebeccaproulx6767I call my parents the same as does. Im from Kentucky... People tell me theyove my country sounding voice but to me I kinda wish I didn't have it 😂 It's when I talk to people that aren't from here that notice my thick accent.
This young gentleman has sooo much he could do.
Sooo handsome, he has the world if he would just realize it.
God bless his soul.
Pray for him.
:)
Imagine thinking that your father sharing drugs with you is a sign of his love. So sad 😔
Oh man; I agree. There isn't enough words to describe how sad the life has been for this man. My boyfriend has had a similar lifestyle and I have given him 25 years of my life of support and love and I feel like he's just now coming around to understanding that he's able to receive basic human needs. He is 53 and his emotional age is about 16. It is certainly the hardest situation of our lives. And when Terry said the most important thing he's learned in his life is "don't trust nobody". Beyond heartbreaking.
@@melissamartin9615 just curious, but what compelled you to stay with a man like that? i just wonder about some relationships and am truly curious why some people, and many times it seems to be women, will stay with a person that has such qualities that seem it would absolutely make it hard to hold any kind of civil relationship with. I mean if hes 53 and literally has the mind of a 16 year old that would have to be unbearable and he is at least on the verge of mental retardation it would seem. And i have experience with a couple of people like this and life is bad for them, they get thrown in jail and treared like shit because they must not be retarded enough for the system to give a fuck about them yet they cant funcrion properly in society and no one cares about them...many own their own. So i can understand wanting to help a person like this if possible, but i couldnt imagine being in a relationship with them. Couldnt be attractive in that way
@nunya bizwacks, her saying that about her husband is incredibly insulting, and probably not true at all.
@@jakeackermann9059 you're prolly right, and it is insulting. Personally id be embarassed to say something like that about my spouse, would reflect just as bad, if not worse on me
Yeah and how could you give your kid hep c. He could have at least bleached the needles so he didn't curse his son with a deadly disease. So Sad.
Wow, this might be one of the most honest interviews I have seen on Mark's channel. Terry is so unpretentious. He doesn't make excuses for himself. He is heart broken over his daddy. His momma helped mess him up, but he doesn't talk ill of her. His pain is raw. He is so captivating in his delivery. He is a good story teller, but his story sure is heart breaking. I hope he can find some peace.
Watching this as my dad is high off a speedball. I wish he didn’t have PTSD, he was in Iraq before I was ever born but now he been like this since I have been alive. Would have been nice to know him when he was younger, sober, and not messed up mentally.
He is still there. I went that way as well. I did 2 tours in iraq. Came home and the pain led to drugs. I've been off the drugs for 4 years. Your dad can do it. The man you want to know is still in there. I'm betting he feels like he screwed up everything too much and just quit life. Remind him that life is still worth living.
Fuckin sad af bro, I'm sorry
I'm an Army vet that deployed to Iraq June 2006 - Sept 2007 and hear about this kind of thing far too often. My dad was a Vietnam Veteran who just passed away a couple weeks before Thanksgiving. I miss him already, life's not the same. Had a very rough year personally in 2020. Wife left me, put me out of our house and I totally didn't see it coming. Dad passed away 4 months later, his mom my grandma died 2 weeks later, his brother my uncle was in a coma and miraculously came out of it shortly after he was taken off of life support the day was going to hospital to tell him goodbye. Been heavily depressed for many years, have ptsd, a former gang member that tried to repair my life by joining the Army. Now have to admit to feeling broken.
But because of guys like your dad, my own dad, and listening these interviews from guys like Terry here and Johnny, and for where I came from I promise not to give up on life. God bless and I pray for your dad, your family, and yourself!
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I'm really sorry. My cousin came home from Iraq and got on heroine bad. He took his life a few years ago bc he couldn't sober. I'm really sorry 😞
Lordy, what a storyteller. Speaks well, has a good vocabulary. Such a bad start in life that led to bad lifestyle choices.
Please Mark, can you ask Terry to come back and talk again. Really loved listening to him. I just wish there was someone who could help him turn his life around. I think he's got so much good in him.
Just love him and his voice. Despite everything, he speaks with honesty and even some humour.
Please have him back Mark 🙏
Terry is stuck in his childhood… sad that he was raised in such circumstances 😢🥺
Yes
It's the prison that emotionally stunts you but being having a habit too don't help. I was 15 till I was 27
@Terri Ann 💜
@Terri Ann I wish you peace and happiness. You are an amazing person, don‘t let circumstances stop you. 💓
😢💔🙏
I respect this man for being able to speak so articulate with conviction. I hope you find your way sir.
He told his lies a million times thats why
@@melvinjansen2338 that may be so, and I'm not trying to shine a light on negative things. I just feel like it would be hard to admit those things to yourself let alone the whole internet to see.
I've only recently found this channel and I'm blown away by it. These interviews are amazing and should be treated as national treasures, and archived for future generations.
agreed, but watch out swu in itself can become an addiction
@@riverflowsby I'm good, I'm limiting myself to two a day 😊
Watch Marlon
Definitely!
Yes I agree. Some of these interviews should be shown in schools. I honestly believe that's some of these kids would not take drugs in the future if they saw some interviews. Mark, thank you so much for sharing. As heartbreaking as some of the stories are they are very informative
This guys story moved me. Of all Marks interviews with Fentanyl addicts, this one really stuck with me. Hope we get a follow up with Terry at some stage!
He passed unfortunately 😢
😢
Really?! 🥺
@@FaddiIssam. Oh no! So sorry to hear that 😢
I am from Sweden and i saw these intrweiv only for the first time this weekend
I have watch this clip man Times sens then
Hej is sooo cute❤
Soo sade that his is dead😢
White he' s face and body he could be a fotomodell
Heaven can take care of him now ❤
My brother took his life last week in the midst of opiate withdraw for 3 days. An open window, 11 stories up...Year before it was holding the hand of my GMA that raised me as she died...2017 before Christmas, my husband died leaving me and our two littles under 5 yrs old....
I needed to hear someone else express this. I started sobbing 10 seconds in. I feel like little by little, my whole tribe and pieces of me get destroyed more and more. It's no wonder we all struggle with substances or other addictions. BE KIND, this may be the nature of what they're carrying..
I’m so sorry for your loss 😢
@ItsFreshItsAnne I'm so very sorry for your loss! My dad took his life when I was 5. His dad and grandfather also took their lives. I started feeling depressed when I was 9. I will be 50 next week. Still trying to work through my trauma when I was young. I really wished my mom got us grief counseling but never did. Struggling with clinical deprepression for years now....over 40.
That's heartbreaking 💔 I'm so sorry 🫂
You have to break the cycle for these babies. They NEED YOU. There’s a lot of beauty in life if you’re here to see it. It gets better. I promise.. if you give yourself the grace.. it gets better. ❤
I'm sending you prayers & hugs. Stay strong, your babies need you. Take care of yourself. ❤❤
I hope Terry gets help and commits to sobriety 😢 There aren’t many interviewees that really touch my heart and give me good vibes, he’s one of them. He seems like such a decent, kind, southern gentleman. It’s heart breaking. He needs to get out of California ASAP. No good for him. Come back to the south, seek help and get involved with your community. You deserve more and better Terry ♥️ I’m rooting for you here in Georgia.
I would definitely be willing to help facilitate this! I grew up where he did and North Alabama is tough. Luckily, I got help and now have a successful business and live in Orange Beach on the Gulf with 3 beautiful kids!
Georgia here to he reminds me alot of my kenfolk
He doesn’t see his own worth- but he has so much to offer the world and he deserves so much better than he’s gotten.
He's such a handsome man! His story breaks my heart you hear his pain through it all he still loves his momma and daddy you can see they meant the world to him
yea he's really cute and has a tender soul
I agree he is fine as hell and that southern accent is the sweetest sound ever... I wish he could see what we can see in him... Hell he sounds like he can still have an intelligent conversation, some places you can starve for that kinda stuff...
@@katydavis7 yes he has the sweetest soul you can tell one day he can read and see how we all fell for his personality ❤️❤️
😂 not the best decision makers are u
I love the fact that he’s actually reminiscing on his memories with his dad despite his circumstances. And he’s trying to work and make a living for himself but it’s difficult with the minimum wage as a felon.
This is the only interview I’ve been able to watch all the way through. God bless him ❤️
This truely broke my heart. He seems to be an old lost soul that just needs to be found. He was raised around it all and it’s all he knows. So horrible 😔
I agree. He does seems like an old soul, this poor guy. 😢
And I see an enormous heart. And good God is he honest!
PLEASE have an update soon on him. Heartbreaking...I'm a recovering addict (opiates) & I hate to see the struggle and pain he is going through.
he passed away. his name was Terry Swann
@helix9O49 oh no! Sorry to hear that 😔🖤🖤
@@helix9O49no way. Are you serious? 😫
@@seahwkgrl80 yeah:((
@@Vvvvvvvvvv459 unfortunately
So polite. So much potential. He has empathy kindness very loyal to his family all these strong points he could be an incredible human being. It's almost like the last 20 years he thinks it's like love and it was really bad parenting.
This should show you that addicts can be some of the sweetest, charming people you’ll ever meet.
Sweet, charming people who happen to be addicts.
We need an update on this charming young man!! I hope you are well Terry. You have alot of personality!!
I just read in another comment that was posted 6 months ago that he passed. The commenter didn't say how. Only that they grew up with him in the same town and he has passed. So sad. I was really hoping and optimistic that he was doing better and still around. RIP Terry.
@@racemom13 omg!! so tragic
I'm sure it was an overdose sadly , he said it himself. I saw it in his eyes.. I knew when Mark asked if he'd ever get off of it.. i shook my head before he did. I felt that so deeply I just hope one day I can.
@@rachelle4912 I'm sure the pain of the way he lost his father and how he'd treated his dad was too much for him!! He felt he had nothing to really live for and the only time he felt any relief was when he was high. He had alot going for him!!
@rachelle4912 you can, and you will! 💓
He's got a very unique look, he could be a model if he got clean
That’s what I was thinking. Cute kid. I hope he get off the drugs soon.
That’s what I thought as well. 😍
Models aren’t clean. So he would fit in with the modeling crowd as is …..
@@ameliaflowers9836 what ? Lol 😂
He’s very hot
Such a goodlooking countryboy.. wish him all the best and a stable life 💜
except he has an IQ of fucking 80
@@triple_gem_shining DO TO HIS UPBRINGING.
Actually, I believe if he was in the right environment he would flourish .
funny.. can you build a hot rod?
@@triple_gem_shining he seems intelligent, hearing him speak. Whatever his IQ is.
@@triple_gem_shining But you are the ones that starts writing a sentence without a capital letter. What’s your I.Q.?
What a sad story. He is not responsible for his childhood nor can he change it. Would just like to hug him and wish I won a lottery so I could send him to a year long program to help with not only the addiction but the trauma that caused the addiction.
Really nice thought, love the idea with the lottery!! 😄😍
1 year in a facility that helps with both addiction and mental trauma would be really good.
But I think he's going to need some kind of therapie for the rest of his life. 😔
I don’t know what made this video come across my recommended videos today three years after it came out, but I’m so thankful it did. I’m from Alabama and I knew this guy was from Alabama before he even said it because it’s a very specific twang. My heart aches for this man! He carries the weight of blame for so many things that weren’t his fault. He doesn’t even blame his dad for his part in his addiction or for the bad things he did to him. The Hepatitis C thing is unforgivable! Arab is a town flooded with drugs of every kind and with no jobs or entertainment. Churches, banks and methadone clinics. That’s about all you’ll find there.
Terry seems like a great man. He's easily my favorite person on this channel so far.
There's just something about him, something about him that's genuine and honest.
I never cried more instantly in Any interview than I did from this one. I hope to God this beautiful young man gets the help, love, relief, happiness and empathy that he truly deserves.
What a gentle way of speaking,could listen to him tell stories all day long.Goid luck young buck.
He looks so young. When he said 32 I didn't believe him. He looks like a kid
See I didn't even hear him say that but your right . I'm thought he was around 23 or something
I thought mid 20s.....he might be, he might be just saying he's older for certain reasons, who knows? Im not calling him a liar or anything like that...im just saying
He looked young until I saw the photo, you can tell he’s a bit older.
@Amanda Newman If you pause the interview and cover up his hair, so you only see his face, you can see his real age.
@@wesleyAlan9179 don't be rude
Terry man im 62 years old and i believe you said your 32. You have lived more in your 32 years than I ever will. God Bless.
Me too. Hard life makes you wise beyond your years
truly a work of art...and so are you Terry. You are a somebody....I pray you don't die. As an owner of a rehab< you are the reason for what we do day in and day out. You deserve a chance, I can see your potential friend and it breaks my heart. I would be willing to scholarship you Terry, at our rehab facility in TN if you want to get clean. I see you....reach out if you can.
@lizzybrussian I seen in other comments that he has passed.😪
@@caseyrose1327😭😭😭😭😭
Terry’s story is heartbreaking 💔. He never had a chance. You can tell he has a good heart. I hope we get an update on him.
Jennifer Thomason Hi hru this 🌅 morning? Good story though
I grew up in Bessemer Al with terry he died this past week
Oh no :( what happened to him??? So sad to hear God bless His soul
Yes please do keep tabs on him. Let him know people care about him & are hoping the best for him.
So sad, thankyounfor telling us. May he finally be at peace
I work with homeless humans, doing healing and expressive art - and I'm always gobsmacked by how BEAUTIFUL these boys are... gorgeous faces, fabulous skin - unreal, considering what they do to their bodies. Let me just say also, the folks I work with are just like Terry - with AWFUL childhood stories., hideous.
No, they don't want to get off drugs...This is what resonates, born into it. I always tell them that they are WAYSHOWERS to the rest of us, showing us just how broken our societies are, what an illusion we live in. That this reality exists alongside ours...there is no seperation, we're all in this mess together, but most of us don't see it...or don't want to.
Thank you you for shining a light, Soft White Underbelly
Yes he is very beautiful, one can only pray he gets the help he needs to live a better life.
Sounds a bit creepy. Like you're feeding off of these gorgeous boys with their beautiful faces.
@@bornwithoutconsentobviously eeew, glad I don't live in your twisted world!
I don't know what else to say to this bizarre comment.
@@petal2704 usually people who are offended by this sense some truth in it lol
@@bornwithoutconsentobviously oh dear, no, was never offended
I've been staring at this screen for what seems like an eternity, trying to find words to match the beautiful and supportive words used by so many others, that were touched by this man. I can't really. He's a beautiful and raw soul that makes my heart ache deeply for him. I wish I could speak right through this screen, to tell him that- but I can't. That hurts even more.
He seems like such a sensitive person, it's just a sad destiny, I hope a miracle happens for him :'(
I've watched about 50 of your videos so far mark. This one's the best. I hope he finds a reason to live, he's got a good brain on him.
Our CHILDREN follow our footsteps . NO matter if you don't want them too .!! Sad story . I Hope the best for this young man !
to an extent, but atthe end of the day they have their own path. they’re their own people. but i see what you mean. i wish him well also.
Many factors contribute not just how you are brought up . Addiction doesn’t discriminate.
Not always. Generational curses are a real thing though.
Be kind to your children…. Show them the correct path
😪 That same thing your Granny told you " The Lord is near to those of a broken heart ". Call he will answer. My background was just as messed up by addiction and sexual abuse. I was a addict as well. I cried out to Jesus and here I am now. Years and years of Soberity , a husband of 24 yrs and 2 girls. Prayers.
My brother died in February from fentanyl. It's sad because he always worried about it being in a pill. We always talked about this opiate epidemic but I never thought it get him. Love ya Alec
So fucking sorry….. you’re not alone brotha. Hang in there. Break the cycle. 💪
Sorry to hear that. It's not easy losing a sibling. Live life to the fullest my friend. Cause you never know what day will be your last. God Speed.
I am so sorry! God bless you and your family.
Yea it’s sad. They are using this bullshit Corona virus to control us all meanwhile the real pandemic rages on its the opiate epidemic crisis whatever you wanna call it
Seriously though the homeless population should be threatened the most in a real pandemic because most of the time they are living in filth. Terrible hygiene yet the homeless population has grown during this so called pandemic
Everything is backwards and upside down it’s pure insanity
My condolences Jesse. this shit isn't going to go away any time soon and i feel that as communiies we can find better ways of helping our friends and loved ones whom are oherwise overhelmed by heir pain. This swu community has/will be a big part of what amounts to a much needed paradigm shift across sociey at large.
Fellow alabama girl here... I just wanna hug him and help him. Seems like a genuine soul, that just got placed on the wrong path
This upset me. Especially near the end when he said he’ll probably die from opiates. He’s lived a hard life, right from the beginning. When did he ever get his chance? Never. I hope and wish that he could get help. I so much want this young man to live, and I hope he gets help and fights for life and a better future. God watch over him please.
@@francesm5978 There are many comments saying he has passed. 😪
@@caseyrose1327 oh no! I’ve looked, but can’t see any of those comments.
@francesm5978 I pretty much went through all the comments trying to find out. The first comment stating this was about 6 months ago. I don't even know him and that broke my heart.
His dad a addict, his mother a drinker poor lad didn’t have a good start. We are mirrors to our children they copy what images they see.He’s not ready yet it’s a hard cycle to get off. Thank you for your channel Mark. To all reading this keep safe and well.
Just because someone’s parents are messed up doesn’t mean the kid has to repeat it. That’s a cop out. There are people with perfectly normal child hoods that end up drug addicted & homeless. It’s about the choices YOU make. Can’t put the blame on everyone else but yourself
@@chrisnavarrette6497 total respect for your comment Chris, I just felt sorry for the lad (sorry am from Yorkshire rough dialect 🤣) he didn’t have the happiest of childhoods, and I totally agree on the best of childhoods can be affected too. I was in hospital and a very well spoken lady “queens English” as it’s called, was talking to me and she lived in a very nice area where houses Cost over a million, but she said she had lost her son he over dosed at university in Oxford. She said people think it’s the lower classes who are affected it’s more rife in the middle and upper classes.That was a very enlightening experience with her opening up like that. So Chris thank you for your comment keep well and best regards to you and yours. ❤️ thank you
@@jodif916 couldn’t have said it any better myself! 💪💯
@@chrisnavarrette6497 Thank you it’s good to be able to connect to others thoughts and values.
@@chrisnavarrette6497 while we do all have the choice, this guy only has a 7th grade education and was NEVER shown another way, so while it was his choice, there is also a lot of factors here that weigh in on the choices he made
I can’t believe he took the fall for his brother who tried to kill him. I’m sorry but that man would’ve had to face his own consequences
Don't you all just love how southern people talk!!
You mean "y'all" don't you?
i love how he speaks and the words he uses. Unassumingly poetic.
terry, you have so much grace. i'm looking forward to see how's your story, the one that you choose for yourself, turned out. i can see you having a family, being a great professional, you're beautiful without trying, you got all the bad the world could give you, now it's time to have the goodies. I'm rooting for you.
He looks good for being a 32 yr old addict. Just think what he’d look like if he was healthy. Wish him the best
Shallow...
Shallow as hell , my man's is hurting and struggling. You are sick or something.
It’s not shallow. It’s true.
@@namastedogtrainingdanielle9846 If he was healthy, it would help him mentally also, which would also show on the outside. I’m not being shallow, sorry you took it that way.
He seems like a very humble and insightful guy.
My favorite interview to date. I watched it twice in a row. Something drew me in within the first 15 seconds and I was bummed when it was over because I want to hear more of what he had to say. There is something about him…actually many things about him in this interview that makes me believe he could most definitely have a positive impact on people. He said he used right before this interview, if this is him high I can only imagine what kind of potential is there sober!! When he said that he will die before getting clean, that shit broke my heart 💔. Hopefully one day very soon he will see in himself what we saw. Hope we get an update!
He is adorable 😩he loves his daddy, and doesn’t see how he played such a major part in his downfall. I love the southern accent and dialect. I wish him the best.🤍 My favourite and most sincere interview on SWU.
I was born and raised in Birmingham Alabama. I was on IV heroin from 2014-2019, it’s everywhere but nothing compared to how bad Fentanyl is in California….. bless this guys heart. I hope he makes it out one day.
My daughter is addicted to Fentanyl. In CA.
I'm in love! The way he looks back and describes the good memories he has says a lot about the softness of his soul. He is a truly lovely human and if he is reading this, I don't ever pray but I'll pray for you! Good luck, I'm rooting for you
His brother obviously had huge emotional problems and took them out on him, that should never have been allowed to happen.
His parents should have never let him go to prison for something his brother did.
There is something so special about this young man. So many others have commented they could watch him speak for hours. I hope you read these comments Terry. You are worthy of a good life. Methadone for life is better than dying from fentanyl. Ultimately I'll pray you find sobriety and that a talent scout finds you and you make the big time.
absolutely, so much untapped potential...Good luck Terry if your reading these comments, your a special man...God bless you and keep you, fi from New Zealand :)
How he said “ sir” as his polite response to not hearing the interviewer…
This young man deserves a chance in life. To clean up, to find sobriety, to find love, find joy in the Gods creation.
I’m sorry I wish I could help you.
He’s so sweet. I love that he refers to his father as Daddy. I hope he gets into a program soon with a taper off in a way that will keep him comfortable. He also needs a hug.
Man I feel these guys' pain. Heroin addicts and fentanyl junkies. This guy has an amazing story. Good looking guy too. You deserve nothing but the best.
You can't blame your daddy's death on yourself. He's the one that did it. I'm sorry for your loss, I can see how much your parents meant to you.
You deserve the best, you deserve to be clean. You deserve an amazing life, we all do.
I wish I had the money to help these guys.
If you ever need anyone to talk to reach out. Anyone can.
You should probably not call someone a junkie if you're trying to be kind and helpful. That's not very nice, in case you didn't realize it.
@@Wheezersmom02 I'm an ex junkie I was an iv user for 24mo. I used opiates for over a decade. Several users prefer the junkie tag than any other tags
@@Wheezersmom02 Ive been clean for a few yrs now & I still & always will consider myself a junkie. It is what it is! Every1 these days get 2 caught up in labels & the "correct" wording for crap that dont matter. Us junkies have been thru & seen way 2 much 2 give a shit bout somethin that petty.
Hmmm, why would him being fairly good looking make a speck of difference? Ugly addicts- kick em to the curb. Good looking- worth helping. It's twisted logic like that, that keeps addicts darn tootin junkies.
@@mg-lc7hm Well, now that I've heard your experience, I can accept that and reiterate that a lot don't appreciate that tag.
I'm really impressed with Terry. He has a good aura and is such a troubled soul. My heart goes out to him.
This was ALOT to digest ….. wow I can’t even comprehend, it really just hearts my heart, wish him the best
He's so beautiful . He looks like a young Norman Reedus. I wish the best for him. His story brought me to tears. So heartbreaking 😢
Those whose are asking, Terry did pass away February 2nd this year. It breaks my heart to see this, I see so much of myself in him and I found my way out of addiction. I just wish he could have as well. I really hope he’s in a better place now, but until we die ourselves we can’t know forsure.
How did you find the info? I can't find anything
Right ???
To go through such traumatic events, and still make any senses 🙈 he’s an amazing human.hopeful you can feel the good vibes I’am sending you,learn to move forward
So so sad that people become a product of their environment. His parents doomed him.
My parents did the same shit and I'm completely sober so I call bullshit quit blaming other people's choices for your own is my opinion. 🖕
@Mr Black - You're a minority (likely a small one at that). The person you're responding to didn't say it was impossible to break the cycle, but its a cycle for a reason. We don't all start on a level playing field. Just like the privileged have a running start, or start two steps up the ladder, its possible to damn someone's start in life, especially when they're addicted in so many ways before their brain is fully developed. (Well done, btw.)
BUT...There is always hope. I've seen people quit. People way worse .
❤🇨🇦❤
Our parents didn't im sorry he has you fooled
@@jessicaswann5445 No I'm not fooled, there's just alot of empathy and sympathy in my ❤❤❤ for addicts because I was the addict that has came up out of the trenches and, it's not always the parents fault my mom or dad wasn't addicts.
Makes me sad to hear that he feels as though his childhood is all of his fault, and that he’s responsible for his dad’s death. 😢 None of this was your fault, Terry!
Get well, and be well good guy. 💗🙏🏽
This guy reminds me 100% of myself. I lost my parents 2 years apart when I was younger, after that, I lost my way to drugs and violence for 12 years because I felt like I didn't care to die. I didn't want to die but I wasn't scared of death. Finally after all those years I had a daughter on the way and I got help and got clean and now I have 4 kids, have been clean for over 12 years and have my own electrical company in Colorado. These stories keep me humble but my story should make anyone HOPEFUL. I did it so anyone can do it if you want it bad enough. I am not going to lie, it was rough BUT it is possible. Good luck to all these lost souls. We appreciate this platform and we appreciate these stories.
I'm so very happy you made it out! I did as well. We do recover! It's so hard to see the light when your in that dark space. But it's there for sure!
You never know what people have been through. That's why I like Mark's videos.
The way this kid speaks and Carries himself comes through in a realist commutative way. A truthfulness with no holds barred. The openness and how he expresses his existence is very attentive from his mannerisms.
Around 13:00 he talks about nodding out and getting his stuff stolen. His lanyard from around his neck.
I Couldn't relate more. I once nodded out Infront of McDonald's sitting on a bench with my headphones In my ears, plugged into my phone on my lap. When I awoke, my headphones were in with the wire dangling between my knees. Some other junkie had walked up, and unplugged the headphone jack and bounced with my phone. Lived that life on the streets of Portland for 7 years. Over 4 years clean now.
Congratulations on your hard work being clean!
Oh this poor kid hasn't had a chance in life. 😥
He didnt?
@@melvinjansen2338 I mean in his upbringing and from a Child. Not necessarily now
@@Turtledove72 he’s 32. definitely has lots of challenges to overcome.
@@NatRants still a kid to me hun. Lol
It makes me so sad when he says he can't see himself getting clean.. he has such a sweetness to him and there is still a sparkle in his eyes. Please Terry, get some help love.
He talks about shooting heroine with his dad and getting beat up by him as if they were some of his fondest memories
Your videos are very interesting. I switch on the subtitles so i can read and understand everything because sometimes different american accents are not so easy to be understood by me (italian). Thanks a lot!
This poor dude still loves his father through him getting him strung out and giving him Hep-C. That's some unconditional love.
I'm not far from this guy's hometown, about an hr. an a half away. I wish this young man the very best, good luck to him all the way💜🙏💪
Same. I’m an hour away from his hometown also. I hope he gets the help he needs. Wishing him luck and peace ❤️
Same here ..I live in Gadsden(Rainbow city) now but yeah I grew up in Arab
@@YummyGummy77 ...thats cool, I used to go to Gadsden a lot when I was a child.
I live in a small town in west Atl, right next door, on the Ala/Ga line.
Hope you have a great day ✌
fort payne here but i know arab has a ton of drugs
Wedowee here! Just wanted to say hi to some fellow 'Bamians!
I've been awake for 60+ hours, more or less "Wired" due to the use of copious amounts of Meth, and the sheer Dread associated with Fentanyl withdrawals. These videos not only act as a form of therapy, but they allow me to be more gentle with myself, understanding I am not alone. Truth is I feel so trapped by devices crafted through my own lack of Vivaciousness , often I do not even feel alive unless completely absorbed in some self-destructive behavior. I feel as though without True Empathy no Addict can begin to facilitate a space within themselves that cultivates True Recovery.
We suffer silently, but Mark you give us all a Voice.
Just wanting to check on you! I hope you’re doing okay! ❤
i hope you’re alright now and in recovery, i’m wishing you all the best in the world
Wow girl I felt this to my core...I pray you are doing ok and have some joy coming into your life!!
@2:00 Big ol’ country fucker” you had me cracking up, man! You said that like Billy the Kid from the Green Mile!
Generational curses are real. Find a church, find recovery. You won't find anything but more pain on skid row. Good luck young man. 🌺
This.
Yes generational curses are real & get passed down through the family
I unfortunately agree with this... wonder how much a family's legacy cost anyway?
Son, I love you with all my heart and wish you the absolute best because I feel your pain… growing up was difficult for myself too but there is sunlight at the end of the tunnel if you give yourself a chance for self love!!!!! Love much and love always
He doesn't realize there could be a whole other life he could never dream of. He's got a good heart, is good looking, fit, and is a Skid Row unicorn with that work ethic. If I were an LA talent scout I'd be interested in casting this guy for his raw Americana vibe.
And he is intelligent as well.
I know it would be nice if someone watched this and gave him a 2nd chance like the guy in the mugshot that went viral and is now a model.
I agree but he'd need to want to be clean first and want something different. Or he really would kill himself with those pay cheques. 😔
It would be nice to see an update on Terry, his story had quite an impact on me. I've thought about him a couple times since seeing this interview. I really hope he's gotten right and cleaned up.
Am praying for him tonight and hope he hasn't passed away. If he has, am praying for his soul. Seems like he never had a chance, but hope and pray he is doing well.
This just came into my feed and I'm thinking the same thing- hope Terry is still alive and doing much better @@tchili1
@@tchili1I just read another comment on here from a childhood friend of his that he passed. It was posted 6 months ago
@@racemom13 man, that sucks. Thanks for telling us.
He seems so kind and gentle. It’s so sad he got into opiates. He’s been through a lot and I hope he’s doing ok.
He had surgeries. That's usually how it starts - with extreme physical pain.
They stole everything I got, I love it down here. This is a good hearted kid, I pray he’s dealt a better hand soon.
The chaos in some peoples lives is shocking . I watch these videos to remind myself how very lucky I am . Respect for all of the people in addiction , we are all equal.
I have been through opiate addiction, I am about the same age, Methadone and then Suboxone in combination with psychological and psychiatric help and have been clean for four years. I hope that he can find a new life.
Yes, excellent job by you for obtaining the proper care you need and deserve. I wish you the very best in life. Keep your head up, I don't even know you but I believe in you. ❤
Love listening to him talk. So sad what you had to go through Terry. I wish life had been a little easier on you. You are so attractive and seem kind hearted. You deserve happiness, a family, a good life. I hope time heals your pain and leads you to a healthier lifestyle.
I used to watch this channel when it first came out and I have lost track of the show for about 23 years and now it’s like taking me forever to catch up with all these people and it makes me so thankful of the life that I have because it is a lot of people out there struggling with some heavyheavy shit constantly