I met Moser around 2012 in LA. He was sitting on a wall at an intersection by the freeway in Westwood holding up a sign that said he was looking for work and that he was clean and sober. To this day I still dont know why - but I motioned him over and ending up taking him to my house to have him help string Christmas lights up on my roof. I had never before and have never since picked up anyone looking for work but there was something about his face that seemed almost babyish. Plus, this was a long time ago in LA crime years, if that makes any sense. Moser ended up becoming a friend to me and my kids and spent some afternoons and evenings hanging out at our house, sometimes doing odd jobs, sometimes just having a meal with us. He was a 21 year old kid with horribly stinky feet and an old soul. Moser played guitar and sang songs he made up and was just an all around cool and goofy guy. And very smart. When it was time for him to go I would just drive him back to his tent by the freeway. That's where he lived and refused to have it any other way. I loaned him money once and never expected to see it again but after he moved back to PA he sent me a letter with a check included for the exact amount, plus interest. Over the years he would write (never email) and send me copies of his different band's CDs asking me my opinion. He was a really good singer and an exceptional song-writer. He really could have made something of himself because he ABSOLUTELY had the talent. For many years after he went back to PA, I would sometimes drive past a Westside 7-11(he used to call certain 7-11 parking lots his "office") and I'd see some tall scrawny kid with long hair, and puppy dog eyes wearing a backwards baseball cap and I'd think "Well, it looks like Moser's back". I dont know. Maybe I could have done more, maybe I should have done less. Maybe it doesn't really matter because, in the end, people are just people. I miss him. Paula
I knew Moser for so long I know his first name. He was always on shit, but, healthy. We used to party in the “riot house” on wood street in Bethlehem. I was one of the low key people. I just ate my triple c’s and drank my alcohol. The shit that happened in that house is a doc on its own. Cris was crude, funny, silly, harmless to me, I was the cool lesbian chick. He went on to front a band, got clean for a while, and idk what happened between 2020 and now (met him in 2012ish) but omg I’m crying. I can’t even express. Seeing a friend like this after wondering what happened to him and his snarky comments on my social media. He’s holding back so much trauma. He comes off as the embodiment of hopeless addiction, but he has passions. He has a heart. And he’s hurting. If anyone sees him let him know I’m trying to reach him. The cool lesbian who met him at the riot house, Lindsey.
I grew up with this man. He was a highly intelligent, extremely talented individual. He played 4 different instruments, played football and was the kindest person you could meet. He literally gave me the shirt off his back when I was in need. He had a lot of choices and he did pursue them for a while until he got bored and went back to the drugs. Its heartbreaking seeing someone so talented choose this path for themselves. Mos, you were loved and we miss you man.
@@mishariealsaqer8951 by his use of past tense to describe Moser....makes it seem like he has passed? also as a recovering addict no one person can rescue you, you have to want it....clearly Moser is not there yet.
This is my VERY first boyfriend/ex-fiance moving to Northampton... We dated for 2.5 years, started at 15-16y.o... he was such an amazing man and so sweet and kind, very loving, until he started hanging around the wrong crowd.. I tried to beg and plead for him to stop but he didn't listen to anyone... It's such a shame and breaks my heart to see this.. I cried the entire video... I really hope you find your way sweetie and make something of yourself before it's too late... Please cris.. do the right thing, you have so many people that love you ❤️❤️❤️... I pray for you every day and will continue ❤️❤️❤️..
This is as sad as it gets. Moser is the person that has no rock bottom. It's hard to see any hope or potential for him because he loves drugs more than living. He will go out doing what he loves.
Find what you love and let it kill you- bukowski. We are all looking for it. Just like there is no such thing as addiction, only things you enjoy doing more than life.
This man is not what you see. He was an intelligent, creative, loving soul. He is still in there....he is worthy...he is loved.....I love you....I pray God helps you find your way. I pray for you every day!!
This breaks my heart.. he dated my older sister for a while and he was so in love with her.. she was his first love. They were engaged at a young age. During that time they were together him and I developed a brother/sister bond and always had so much fun together, til this day I still call him my big brother. I’m pretty sure we still have each other on FB marked as brother/sister lol. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out. Even though they didn’t work out he still made time to come see me and let me know he was always there for me no matter what.. and to give me my big hug!! He’s a very smart and intelligent man for sure. Anyone who knows him will tell you the same thing. One of the smartest people I know. I wish he never went to California.. but he had big dreams.. Moser, (even though I always called you by your first name) if you see this just know I love you and care about you so much. I just want to come down there and pick you up and try to help you, I know you don’t want it, but I believe you can pull through this and get better if you really wanted to. I love you and miss you so much.. please be careful out there.. Love, Selena ❤️
This man is the epitome, definition, embodiment, of a drug addict: a person experiencing chronic, progressive dependance to opiates. To someone like Mark who isnt an addict is so perplexed and has just a complete lack of comprehension to how or why he could have no hope. Mark and others without the burden of addiction, to them its like...there's gotta be something this person is missing. But when you love heroin or fentanyl more than literally LITERALLY anything and everything else in this life...nothing will stop that affair from continuing until they find that something they love more. And unless a divine intervention swoops in...a legit miracle.... this is death. Although tragic, incomprehensible, deeply sad... I do commend this man for speaking his truth. When he explained that he lost his voice by shooting in his neck which later he explains that's his voice or talking is his best and only thing he has to keep him going....he continues to take that from himself time and time again because the fentanyl in the moment is more important than keeping his last line of communication open and useful, a must-have in order to obtain his drugs...makes no sense. Addiction in a nutshell. No games, no excuses, his rock bottom doesn't exist. His honesty about his life is like a punch in the face. Somewhere along his journey he lost hope and all light.. he has embraced the darkness and will admit what most people on drugs are too ashamed to say but most all will feel hard inside. He loves being high. Being sober or having a clear mind is boring, unfufilling, he is at peace with what he created as a life for himself. I want to say I hope this man gets clean... but he has crossed that line where he has decided there's no life for him without fentanyl and I know that it's powerful enough to drown him without him struggling for breath. I hope he goes peacefully. And I hope the next life gives him a brighter perspective.
I was prescribed fentenyl patches for about 4 years. It was when they were just plastic full of jelly so I was cutting them open and eating the jelly. I've had a lifelong struggle with addiction starting at age 9. In 2018 my brother and I overdosed on fentenyl laced heroin and I survived but he didn't. I am now 3 years in recovery. RIP CHRIS 8/4/1972-9/9/2018
@@bootypopper420 thank you my friend 💖 I miss him so much. He was a talented singer/songwriter/musician until the drugs came into the picture. His band was Cruel Twist of Fate... there's however only one of his songs on RUclips "Hearts Will Turn" and I have videos and CDs of him singing and playing guitar 🎸 it seems to comfort me. May God bless you and your loved ones ❤️
please please stay on track. you are doing well now. so sorry you lost your bro. time for you to stay well. keep your brother alive through living your life well for the both of you. he is with you, always. best of luck.. you got this
@@revfunk8823 i mean ur right but hes gonna die early by living the life he is. he may not feel there is a loss now but its different when its affecting his lifespan bc of a selfdestructive lifestyle.
This guy is so honest! I don't think I've ever seen such an honest interview. He just loves his drugs.... No glamorous stories, no excuses, no regrets. Wow. This was a great interview, Mark I'm glad you decided to go to Kensington to show the lives outside of skid row.
@@aliciamari85 it seemed halfway through the interview he kept his answers short so he could get out of there and get his fix. I agree with Tony there was a level of honesty about accepting that this is his life, and then he started deflecting. My heart breaks watching this video 💔
It’s hilarious that people always talk about honesty and drug addicts! Drug addicts are master manipulators and liars and he is only showing you wants he wants you to see. He is far from honest but you are gullible.
Not honest in the way you think, honest in so much as he's been completely reduced to his addiction, nothing else matters. It's tragic. He'll die soon.
Dude is a low life who injects other people with extremely potent deadly drugs in an unsanitary environment for a living and you like him… you should go set an appointment and meet him
@ Dolores Parra. My thoughts exactly. So he says. There have to be more to him and his story than what he's saying. He could not even come up with one childhood memory. Or he's autistic. Something in the way he answers the questions make me wonder if he's got Asbergers.
He is the most honest drug addict i have ever watched in many interviews. He doesnt make excuses for himself and wants his lifestyle. He makes me more sad than anyone else i have ever seen
The honesty doesn't change the fact that he is sick, and addict, a criminal and a burden on the social service system. Hitler was a vegetarian and loved animals, but it doesn't erase all the other shit.
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to fentanyl. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Fentanyl addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, fentanyl, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Yes he's Dr.benfungi.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
From my experience it really works excellently! It doesnt even need to be a full hit. With potent shrooms 2-3 small ones will still make a clear difference. It will be a few hour cosy rumbling moment around rest time, but afterwards its just calm and you feel amazing and gain your freedom. Psilocybin is different dudes, its the only "treatment" I would recommend to someone who genuinely wants to get better. There is no addiction, withdrawal, or negative side effects. It's just pure healing., far more effective than any anti-depressant. You can thank me later,
This is my friend. I've known this man since we were about 6. I haven't seen him or heard from him in 2 years. This is obviously so sad but I love him. Just being able to see him alive and hear his voice, see his movements and habits, the humor in him, makes me smile despite how fucked up this is. If you see this, I love you man. - KY
I'll never forget meeting him at some show in allentown, probably mayfest. It was 2010 I think. He saw a friend of mine at the mall and asked how I was, didn't have access to a cellphone. It killed me inside to see him on social media just destroying himself. We didn't get to talk much, but I always considered him near to my heart. He's so talented. Such a good soul. It's hard to see him this way.
@@froandcara Sadly he's not active on it and hasn't been since maybe two years ago about. People tag him in stuff but some of us think maybe he didn't make it. Sadly I have no news on him or know how he's doing.
Things are bad for Moser, he's ill and there is a lack of hope about him. If he don't get clean he's gonna get his wish sooner rather than later. God help him.
Death is a blessing to those who suffer so greatly. when I hear that 100 thousand users died as a result of overdose, something inside of me smiles with the relief of knowing that they are finally free from the misery of what they were trying to escape.
I related to him a lot when he said "I *could* do everything" and I truly believe he could, smart, great communicator, resourceful, empathic. I just think he decided being an addict was going to be the only and best thing he could be in life. He seems content where he is but I sincerely hope somebody could show him that there's so much more in life to see, to give, to do than being stuck in Kensington.
I never comment on your videos but he just struck me. I’d love to see more of him. This is just tragic and I really pray he makes it out of this alive.
This guy can be multiplied by the millions. Something is wrong with American society that this bleak hopelessness is pervasive in much of the population. This emptiness is a result of the emptiness of a culture that places all its value on THING$ and not a rich culture based on love
I agree and it runs through every demographic too. I know for me personally the hopelessness is partly that all the anger and hate around me makes me feel there’s no place to belong and has driven me further and further into isolation. Add health problems paired with inadequate healthcare, and I can easily relate to Moser’s outlook.
bleak hopelessness also exists in "rich" gated communities... where i've seen soccer moms (and their kids) addicted to prescription pills, cocaine, heroin, etc. so that 'rich' culture you speak of isn't immune to drug addiction... and those people have lots of 'things.'
Yeah, well said. As a young(-er) person myself, one thing that people underestimate are the effects of things like the pandemic. Imagine losing two years of your youth when you're supposed to be interacting with others and living your life at its physical peak. That takes a real toll. Once you lose that socialization it becomes a lot harder to pick it up again.
“Are you afraid of living?” is one of the most poignant, insightful and empathetic questions I have ever heard anyone ask a fellow human - especially since, in reality, no shortage of people out there actually are. Stellar interview as always, Mark. Thank you beyond measure for all that you do and help to bring out from the shadows and into the light of every glowing electronic screen the world over of those who are fortunate enough to be able to view your content. 🙏🏻💗
This poor guy is a sad representation for a disaffected generation of society that feel hopeless, isolated and with no future worth trying for. Breaks my heart.
@@geebee6244 Agree, He is one of just a few people here who just seems honest , not proclaiming some almost unbelievable tragic childhood story. No pathetic excuses, not crying for help. From me although I dont support his life style , Moser has all the respect.
@@geebee6244 how do ppl end up arguing in dee comments...u cnt tlk shit cus they havea bleeding heart fr....u can feel ur heart hurt over anything maybe his blatant attitude is heart crushing....maybe mysoullovessoul gotta kindred soul....mmmmm maybe doiii
I was reading between the lines. His gf of ten years left him, he's on the streets and intends to take a lethal drug with no care if he dies. He's not proclaiming happiness, he's given up.
I have a friend from high school just like this. open to the idea of dying and refuses to be sober. and not just like a couple beers and some pot refuses to not do tweak and dope everyday. nobody can make anybody do anything.
Thats not true at all. I never thought this way ever and I was a bad one. This is how every addict who wont get clean thinks. You manifest your own reality. You speak and think it into existence. Anyway I have a feeling you arent an addict. And if youve watched videos on here you know there are plenty who are dealing with extreme trauma which use to cover it up. Not because they love drugs.
Hey Moser, if you’re reading this comment I’m telling you I don’t buy that you love drugs more than living. I don’t buy that your mom leaving you at 12 was “her business “. I think there’s grief in your life you aren’t sharing.
If he isn’t the definition of a drug addict, I don’t know what is. This one got me. He is someone’s son; so young. Not a gray hair on his head. I wish him luck ❤
Better than nothing. Hope, Luck, Best Wishes, Prayers. It's all electrical impulses with dedication towards an energy source. No matter what your belief system even a lack of one... it's something. That, will always be better than nothing.
His entire life since leaving school has been drug addiction, his life's work, his legacy, as Mark states. He went to L.A. to do drugs and moved to Kensington to do drugs. I think he already knows the jig is up, a death wish of sorts. "I'm great at everything l do" is code for "l don't have the will to do anything else except shoot fentanyl into my collapsing veins". And yet, quick-minded and articulate. But every statement of positivity ends on negativity, "l'll either do something great....or I won't". My guess is sadly, he won't.
This interview was so real. It's sad that he has surrended he's life to drugs, he is a lost soul. I wish him well and hope he makes something out of he's life, I mean he's still young. What an authentic interview man!!
"Is there anything that happened in your childhood, anything you're running away from" "no, but if I am I'm doin a really good job at it". Wow. That was the single most compelling line I've heard on you channel. He is so mentally sharp. Even a wordsmith in there I think. He really could do anything. I like to think he's more of a "specialist", putting every ounce of life into the actual lifestyle. Like maxing only one stat in a video game. This fellow is a user and an abuser. The most telling for me is the lack of info on the string of ex girlfriends. Con artist. Not a bad person to sleep next to next to his tent near skit row either, in my opinion
Welp... I never knew there was such a thing as an injection specialist in the fentanyl world. I learn so much from this channel about the human experience. Another fascinating interview Mark. well done sir 🙏
Oh yeah..I think I learned that in some of his other videos. People who can't put a needle into themselves because they have a phobia, of needles. Or blood. Or what ever you would think would keep them away from shooting up. Nope..you find one of these guys, a friend, the dealer..often times kicking those people down some of your drugs. It's crazy
Of course has every drug-communtity people who are injection-experts. After a while it is a big job getting the needle into the right part of the body. In a way nice he helps the other people.
It's actually pretty common amongst IV drug users. After a while your veins collapse and it's super hard to hit anywhere. Add in some dope sickness ontop of that and it's even more difficult. It can be a real struggle.
I feel sorry for his family because they are the ones that are sober and have to witness the complete destruction of their child with no way to stop it…coming from someone who has lost a child to fentanyl
@@scottmatznick3140 glad to hear you are clean. Always remember everyone has people who love them. Losing you can totally ruin your families life. The pain is deep and never goes away. Good luck
I feel more sorry for him. usually addiction stems from child hood trauma... maybe his parents had something to do with that? it's sad for everyone though (who cares about him)
Moser…..you *are* terminal. You don’t want to die but you *are* dying. I used to think I wanted to die….i used to shoot up in my neck too….methodone is free man….help is free. I wish for the best for you man….you need to go to a hospital right away…don’t be ashamed just go…you might get a few more weeks
Delusional grandeur ? That's far from the truth in this guys case . I don't think he's living the time of his life and truly believes that .hes just accepting things the way they are of anything that's the furthest thing of delusions of grandeur
Many of us were concerned with where he's ended up. Now we know. He was/is a musician, a great one.. at his best he is the easiest person to follow and admire. I have some videos of his performances.. pictures and all. I'm glad he's 'thriving' in his position, but it's heartbreaking to see the detriment he's sustained to himself. Anyone can message me for some media of what his best sounded like, since I can't seem to post a video in the comments.
OMG so so emotional to watch this. His hands are a product of fentanyl use no circulation. May he find peace in this world while he is still here. Sometimes these affects aren't reversible. My heart breaks for people. I have not lived a sheltered life and have done my share of things I regret. Thank God I have been a strong woman and have overcome the battles that I have fought. God bless you Moser.
I think it's due to the so called "tranq dope" going around. It's got xylazine and/or benzos in it and it's causing horrific wounds, even in areas where they haven't been injecting. VICE did a documentary on it if you want to know more
i met a girl in Salem, NJ who's attitude about drugs was JUST like this guy's attitude. she was a "proud, happy, and faithful," drug addict. she didn't want your pity, sympathy, empathy, or (free) money... just wanted to clean your house, wash your car, shine your shoes, walk your dog... whatever it took to get some money to go to the park and do heroin. the scary thing about watching this video is that if you saw a picture of her, you'd think she is Moser's younger sister; they look very similar. i'm NOT a psychologist, but for some reason, i think Moser's 'drive' to stay high might be based on losing (romantic) love interests. some guys, when they lose their woman... etc., resort to self-destructive activities. he did say he had girls that took care of him (motherly love) but that they left.
Moser’s exceptionally intelligent. When he says that he has the capacity to excel at anything he wants, he’s simply telling the truth, unreservedly. I don’t think the same can be said for him saying/suggesting that there is no ultimate catalyst for his drug use, however. He’s probably manic depressive/bipolar/clinically depressed.
No bullshit, just real. Has me in tears. Moser, if you go out, I hope you go out knowing you've touched my heart, you are loved, and in a way you've given me hope. God bless you bro fr. 🙏 "No one's going to understand you." "That's alright." ❤️
That's exactly what it is stay loaded, and pretend it's not real, you're terrified of the living, you got skills man you could save a lot of people brother, train wake the f******, bet you you could do it brother, oh yeah I forgot you don't give a f***sorry my mistake
Moser used to be the lead singer in a band called “Victim” ruclips.net/video/HbaOq354Dh0/видео.htmlsi=6oKffjIeqd_6J8bf 8:50 He really is ‘great’ at everything he does. He ended up in worse shape than this interview and now nobody knows where he is. It’s speculated that he might’ve pass away.
I've been wondering. Thank you. He was an incredible person. I met him a year after my dad died out at mayfest in allentown. I was given a free demo and he had no cellphone at the time so there was no way to talk to him often. When I saw this interview it was not long after he messaged me to try to find a ride from philly into northampton, he had been asking others too. I think he was really trying to get back but was enticed to stay or lost phone service just before I could try to call him back. Even then, I didn't know the extent of the damage. I hope he's okay if he is alive. His music was great.
Our son is exactly like Moser, except he's 47. I started watching videos of Kennsington thinking I would see him on the street. He's homeless in Milwaukee. There's nothing anyone can do for them. They're now career drug addicts at this age.
Okay people, there you have it, straight from the horses mouth! This is one of THE saddest interviews of a person I’ve ever watched on Mark’s channel, and I’ve watched hundreds of them! His eyes are deeply cold, dark and hurt, yet oddly “happy,” in a way…just a collectively difficult way to try and describe him, but that’s what I see & feel from this man. As the famous Etta James sang, “All I could do is cry…” 😢😭
I spent 3 years straight taking 10 or so oxy codone 30s every single day - crushing them up and snorting them up the same nose that requires a mask to this day to force air into so I don’t snore loud enough to drive my beautiful girlfriend away. The only thing that prevented me from staying in this hamster wheel of chasing the high was jail. If I wasn’t sentenced to jail by judge Farnell (Dee Farnell) in Pinellas County jail I would not be Alive today. I would have killed or been killed to continue the high. It’s been 10 years since I’ve touched a painkiller and still to this day I see a video like this and completely break down watching other people go thought this struggle. I see no answer whatsoever and it kills me to know I can’t help.
Man I can really identify with that feeling of “I’m just done.” I wonder why two people can feel the exact same way but one does what he does and one just muddles through life anyway without drugs. I will say, my feeling of being “done” or just not caring stems from major depression and PTSD. Maybe that’s his struggle too but he’d rather not deal with it.
Ive been there before. When you have lost everything you have built and worked so hard for its devastating. You want to give up and sometimes for awhile you do. At the same time you eventually build another life, one you may not be totally happy with but the fear of loosing everything and starting all over once again keeps you there.
Or it stems from seeing the path in front of you and it looking boring and repetitive..actually I guess that is very depressing, but don't a lot of folks live the same day over and over?
@@bicstic8 that could be as well but the guy didnt give alot of context but from what he did say and frommy own experiences of going through something similar, when his wife left after 10 years he didnt want to start over. From personal experience I can tell you I felt the same way. I had worked hard for years had a child, a home , a family, one day, and the next it all was just gone. My ex took everything. Even my car was in her name. She took it as well. Alot of it was being you and not knowing any better, but for a long time I felt hopeless. I didnt know what to do or where to begin. I didnt want to. Why work so hard when it all van be taken away in the span of 24hrs. Not to mention the betrayal I felt from the one person I implicitly trusted. I didnt have a clue. One day I had it all the next day I had nothing.
I love this interview. Moser has beautiful pitch black eyes that seems to penetrate the camera lens. That stare, it’s almost like que lived 100 lives and knows exactly what’s gonna happen next. He absolutely would be great at anything, but if it’s shooting veins and getting high what he wants to do know, then i wish the very best luck to him.
If anyone ever wanted to see the later stages of how addiction can progress they need to watch this. This is what happens when it takes your soul and you cross that thin line of not caring... subconsciously you want the next shot to be your last so you don't have to endure another day of hopeless darkness. There is still hope but it is extremely difficult for anything positive to happen when you are at his point. Good luck and I hope you come out the other side!
Awesome interview, Mark! The comments here tell more about the commenters than about Moser. In the USA, people have it drilled into their brains from childhood that they have to be somebody. If they are not somebody, they are nobody. And there is nothing worse than that. In Buddhist temples, people work hard to discover that they aren't anyone, that trying to be someone is the core of human suffering. Sense of self is suffering. Moser seems to have figured this out already. He's surrendered to the true indifference of the universe...but his heart seems warm, his words ring true. RUclips watchers look desperately to find some weakness in his story to validate their own story. For me.....Moser doesn't strike me as a liar. That's probably his main appeal...his honesty, his sincerity....a lot of women probably fell for him over the years....that honest charm. He's probably had some very good moments in his short life. That's why he's low on regrets.....and more or less ready to die. We all have to die eventually....unless you are waiting on Jesus and company. Well.....I would say....try not to judge people that you can't understand. We really understand much less than we think we do. We posture ourselves to think we know everything. We know very little. Thanks, Moser! Thanks, Mark! Great video!
I think that people living this life are the lowest depth of misery ...they don't contribute to humanity in any way...they are a drain. There is nothing wrong with judging people who have been given the gift of life and squandered it. Disgusting display of a life wasted.
I am really struggling with this guy and the reality he lives in. He seems such a nice guy, so reasonable, balanced and self aware. But he chooses to do drugs and live a life like that. Most of the drug addicts I have known hate their lives which is why they do drugs to escape, Moser loves his life because he does drugs. So challenging and difficult. Amazing interview that has changed my perceptions.
This is so scary . His voice from shooting up in the dark . The girl with the flesh opened in her arm . Nothing scares them obviously. The pain they go through from sores and living in filth just doesn’t make them want to stop. Unbelievable and nauseating at the same time.
@@jasmines.6325 is it? Because it dont seem like they are reducing harm. The best solution is methadone first and legal heroin second. Fent is so much worse than real heroin. The gov't needs to start giving these people real heroin again.
This guy likely has vocal cord paralysis, resulting from damage to the recurrent laryngeal nerve on one side of the neck. He explains his habit of injecting the neck, which is quite dangerous. The spectrum of complications of drug misuse is quite interesting to observe on this channel. The other day, we saw a likely case of necrotising fasciitis (flesh-eating bug infection) of the forearm, complicated by failure of a graft that was meant to cover the hole in the forearm. This means the person lost the tissue both where the graft was taken (donor site) and the tissue where the graft was placed (recipient site). To a reasonable mind, these problems strongly discourage drug abuse.
... or they strongly encourage harm reduction efforts, considering that drug use isn't going away. and they should perhaps even strongly encourage full legalisation, considering these complications are mostly caused by added contaminants and not the drugs themselves, and we would save lives by making a clean supply of licit substances available to those who choose to take them
@@adamwright4135 or.. if you choose to throw your life away. So be it. World is better off without having to deal with the burden of bad decisions they make.
@@joshuaburgess4730 i mean, yeah sure, if you’re a terrible person with no compassion for your fellow humans and don’t care about the trauma that often pushes damaged people towards drugs. maybe not this dude, but watch this channel often enough and you’ll see
@@adamwright4135 I been through enough trauma. Been a drunk. (The hardest drug to quit). All the help and compassion is a waste of the person doesn't want to change. The whole using the past crap to stay a junkie is just enabling. These people in their campers living near the food banks are pathetic to. They refuse to work and expect everyone to give them handouts. Excuse me while I leave for my day of work
@natrural flavor Biden’s got nothing to do with it. It was the same under Trump too. America has always had a huge appetite for drugs. BTW Biden didn’t really change any of Trump’s border and immigration policies and Biden even added article 42. So Biden has now deported more people than Trump did. Just like it’s impossible to stop an addict from getting high, it’s impossible to stop drugs getting to them.
@natural flavor making this political is total BS. The war on drugs was lost long ago. Synthetics and tranqs are being mixed because Fent is illegal in China now. Biden doesn't "let" more in. I'm not a Biden fan, your take is just ridiculous though.
Last time we heard and seen he's In a wheelchair now due to tranq wounds and was admitted to the hospital. Rumors are going around that he passed , but no confirmation for sure 😢
Thank you for this update. I had it in my heart to go out there and find him but I didn't think it would be safe to go. I don't think anyone has contact info for him and I don't think he'd answer either way. Please if you see him again, tell him everyone misses him and his music.
He denying the fact his mother left him when he was twelve and it affected him emotionally. Twelve is a crucial age for a child. He goes through women, falls in love all the time. Repeats the abandonment peptide and puts a needle in his arm. Feels good.
yep, 12/13 is a pivotal time in a person's life. Many tribes and religions unrelated to each other have some rite of passage or transition event at this exact stage in the human's development. We really do no understand the human soul and its vulnerability at this exact time OR we choose not to understand it because it's inconvenient.
I think when they say drug addiction can steal yr soul...this is what they mean. ....very sad. Respect to Moser for sharing w us and to Mark for making it possible. It definitely helps illuminate the struggle.
I met Moser around 2012 in LA. He was sitting on a wall at an intersection by the freeway in Westwood holding up a sign that said he was looking for work and that he was clean and sober. To this day I still dont know why - but I motioned him over and ending up taking him to my house to have him help string Christmas lights up on my roof. I had never before and have never since picked up anyone looking for work but there was something about his face that seemed almost babyish. Plus, this was a long time ago in LA crime years, if that makes any sense. Moser ended up becoming a friend to me and my kids and spent some afternoons and evenings hanging out at our house, sometimes doing odd jobs, sometimes just having a meal with us. He was a 21 year old kid with horribly stinky feet and an old soul.
Moser played guitar and sang songs he made up and was just an all around cool and goofy guy. And very smart. When it was time for him to go I would just drive him back to his tent by the freeway. That's where he lived and refused to have it any other way. I loaned him money once and never expected to see it again but after he moved back to PA he sent me a letter with a check included for the exact amount, plus interest. Over the years he would write (never email) and send me copies of his different band's CDs asking me my opinion. He was a really good singer and an exceptional song-writer. He really could have made something of himself because he ABSOLUTELY had the talent.
For many years after he went back to PA, I would sometimes drive past a Westside 7-11(he used to call certain 7-11 parking lots his "office") and I'd see some tall scrawny kid with long hair, and puppy dog eyes wearing a backwards baseball cap and I'd think "Well, it looks like Moser's back".
I dont know. Maybe I could have done more, maybe I should have done less. Maybe it doesn't really matter because, in the end, people are just people. I miss him.
Paula
😢wow!!... God bless you
This was so moving. Thank you for sharing. 🥺
Thank you for sharing that with all of us!god bless❤
Wow.... I bet it a pretty good soul urself.
What an amazing story. It's funny how people we may never see again, stick with us
Is this him?
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I knew Moser for so long I know his first name.
He was always on shit, but, healthy.
We used to party in the “riot house” on wood street in Bethlehem.
I was one of the low key people. I just ate my triple c’s and drank my alcohol. The shit that happened in that house is a doc on its own.
Cris was crude, funny, silly, harmless to me, I was the cool lesbian chick. He went on to front a band, got clean for a while, and idk what happened between 2020 and now (met him in 2012ish) but omg I’m crying.
I can’t even express. Seeing a friend like this after wondering what happened to him and his snarky comments on my social media. He’s holding back so much trauma. He comes off as the embodiment of hopeless addiction, but he has passions. He has a heart. And he’s hurting.
If anyone sees him let him know I’m trying to reach him.
The cool lesbian who met him at the riot house, Lindsey.
Hope you find your friend. His interview really touched me ❤
The denial & avoidance is strong within this one
@sthlmnoir yeah, sad that he's in so much denial about his childhood.. but drugs will numb you from that realization.
TRIPLE C. Now that is something I have not heard in a long time. Old robo head checking in
I think you probably werent nearly as cool as you thought you were.
Can you please do a follow up with Moser? He is by far my favorite interview, for how honest he is and I would love to see what he’s up to now.
I agree a completely honest man id like to know how he is also.
I grew up with this man. He was a highly intelligent, extremely talented individual. He played 4 different instruments, played football and was the kindest person you could meet. He literally gave me the shirt off his back when I was in need. He had a lot of choices and he did pursue them for a while until he got bored and went back to the drugs. Its heartbreaking seeing someone so talented choose this path for themselves. Mos, you were loved and we miss you man.
Well said my friend.....
I guess you should try to help em if you miss em
@@mishariealsaqer8951 by his use of past tense to describe Moser....makes it seem like he has passed? also as a recovering addict no one person can rescue you, you have to want it....clearly Moser is not there yet.
@@mishariealsaqer8951 How? You can’t. The only person that can help them is themselves
So sad!
This is my VERY first boyfriend/ex-fiance moving to Northampton... We dated for 2.5 years, started at 15-16y.o... he was such an amazing man and so sweet and kind, very loving, until he started hanging around the wrong crowd.. I tried to beg and plead for him to stop but he didn't listen to anyone... It's such a shame and breaks my heart to see this.. I cried the entire video... I really hope you find your way sweetie and make something of yourself before it's too late... Please cris.. do the right thing, you have so many people that love you ❤️❤️❤️... I pray for you every day and will continue ❤️❤️❤️..
It must be so upsetting for you to see him like this. He seems like a nice guy.
@georgemaxwell4984 yes, you are right.
Hope life plays out better for Him.
@@kaylamicklos3699 He seems so intelligent his words are well spoken.
Cris you could be a pholbomist (sp) person who draws labs. I hope something better happens for you.
The way there are people who know him in the comments all saying the same sweet things…this is so heartbreaking.
I see this is from 2 years ago. Is there an update on this guy?
Came here to ask this!
Me too!
would like to see an update also
^
This is as sad as it gets. Moser is the person that has no rock bottom. It's hard to see any hope or potential for him because he loves drugs more than living. He will go out doing what he loves.
true. I know that feeling to think that staying sober seems unimaginable because you can't really stand clear life.
I was thinking the same thing, he has no shame or remorse, sad way to live life when there are other wanting and fighting to live
Find something you love and let it kill you
Exactly- no rock bottom. He already seems terminally ill to me...
Find what you love and let it kill you- bukowski. We are all looking for it. Just like there is no such thing as addiction, only things you enjoy doing more than life.
This man is not what you see. He was an intelligent, creative, loving soul. He is still in there....he is worthy...he is loved.....I love you....I pray God helps you find your way. I pray for you every day!!
Amen
Why did your mom leave?
“I dunno, That’s her business”
As a mom that breaks my heart
It’s this feeling that you don’t necessarily want to die, but you definitely don’t want to live.
100% true. What a statement.
You just want a damn break.
Just for a minute.
So you can take a deep breath.
Yes, I've been there before.
Yes 🥺
Thats the feeling of having no purpose. Life isn't supposed to be a selfish endeavor.
This breaks my heart.. he dated my older sister for a while and he was so in love with her.. she was his first love. They were engaged at a young age. During that time they were together him and I developed a brother/sister bond and always had so much fun together, til this day I still call him my big brother. I’m pretty sure we still have each other on FB marked as brother/sister lol. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out. Even though they didn’t work out he still made time to come see me and let me know he was always there for me no matter what.. and to give me my big hug!!
He’s a very smart and intelligent man for sure. Anyone who knows him will tell you the same thing. One of the smartest people I know.
I wish he never went to California.. but he had big dreams..
Moser, (even though I always called you by your first name) if you see this just know I love you and care about you so much. I just want to come down there and pick you up and try to help you, I know you don’t want it, but I believe you can pull through this and get better if you really wanted to. I love you and miss you so much.. please be careful out there..
Love, Selena ❤️
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This man is the epitome, definition, embodiment, of a drug addict: a person experiencing chronic, progressive dependance to opiates. To someone like Mark who isnt an addict is so perplexed and has just a complete lack of comprehension to how or why he could have no hope. Mark and others without the burden of addiction, to them its like...there's gotta be something this person is missing. But when you love heroin or fentanyl more than literally LITERALLY anything and everything else in this life...nothing will stop that affair from continuing until they find that something they love more. And unless a divine intervention swoops in...a legit miracle.... this is death. Although tragic, incomprehensible, deeply sad... I do commend this man for speaking his truth.
When he explained that he lost his voice by shooting in his neck which later he explains that's his voice or talking is his best and only thing he has to keep him going....he continues to take that from himself time and time again because the fentanyl in the moment is more important than keeping his last line of communication open and useful, a must-have in order to obtain his drugs...makes no sense.
Addiction in a nutshell.
No games, no excuses, his rock bottom doesn't exist. His honesty about his life is like a punch in the face. Somewhere along his journey he lost hope and all light.. he has embraced the darkness and will admit what most people on drugs are too ashamed to say but most all will feel hard inside. He loves being high. Being sober or having a clear mind is boring, unfufilling, he is at peace with what he created as a life for himself. I want to say I hope this man gets clean... but he has crossed that line where he has decided there's no life for him without fentanyl and I know that it's powerful enough to drown him without him struggling for breath. I hope he goes peacefully. And I hope the next life gives him a brighter perspective.
No one ready comments this long fyi
EXACTLY
He has accepted his fate. He knows all of the logic but as you said, addiction is a disease that defies all logic.
@@internetcomment4440 I do
My family knows that “I am this situation”. -Moser
I was prescribed fentenyl patches for about 4 years. It was when they were just plastic full of jelly so I was cutting them open and eating the jelly. I've had a lifelong struggle with addiction starting at age 9. In 2018 my brother and I overdosed on fentenyl laced heroin and I survived but he didn't. I am now 3 years in recovery. RIP CHRIS 8/4/1972-9/9/2018
Rest in Peace Chris. I'm glad you are clean and I wish the best for you.
@@bootypopper420 thank you my friend 💖 I miss him so much. He was a talented singer/songwriter/musician until the drugs came into the picture. His band was Cruel Twist of Fate... there's however only one of his songs on RUclips "Hearts Will Turn" and I have videos and CDs of him singing and playing guitar 🎸 it seems to comfort me. May God bless you and your loved ones ❤️
I wish you all the best ❤️
please please stay on track. you are doing well now. so sorry you lost your bro. time for you to stay well. keep your brother alive through living your life well for the both of you. he is with you, always. best of luck.. you got this
@@julz9378 thank you my friend
He’s surrendered totally to his addiction. Seems intelligent, well spoken. Sad. Such a loss.
Who's loss? He's perfectly happy.
@@revfunk8823 the loss of his potential.
@@quinnplaysguitar again. He's more than fine. Other people may feel sorry about a "loss,"....that's on THEM
@@revfunk8823 i mean ur right but hes gonna die early by living the life he is. he may not feel there is a loss now but its different when its affecting his lifespan bc of a selfdestructive lifestyle.
@@quinnplaysguitar again. That's YOUR opinion. Has no effect on his life. He chose this, clearly.
This guy is so honest! I don't think I've ever seen such an honest interview. He just loves his drugs.... No glamorous stories, no excuses, no regrets. Wow. This was a great interview, Mark I'm glad you decided to go to Kensington to show the lives outside of skid row.
Watch all of Patrick's interviews. Talk about honesty.
This poor fella avoided answering anything in depth, but I can see how you'd think he's just honest.
@@aliciamari85 it seemed halfway through the interview he kept his answers short so he could get out of there and get his fix. I agree with Tony there was a level of honesty about accepting that this is his life, and then he started deflecting. My heart breaks watching this video 💔
It’s hilarious that people always talk about honesty and drug addicts! Drug addicts are master manipulators and liars and he is only showing you wants he wants you to see. He is far from honest but you are gullible.
Not honest in the way you think, honest in so much as he's been completely reduced to his addiction, nothing else matters. It's tragic. He'll die soon.
This guy reminds me of myself in all of the ways I hate. His paperwork may say fentanyl, but this man is dying of a broken heart.
Such a cool comment.
@@sallyann985 ?
@@LuchadorMasque you can't take compliments?
It’s a profound comment. Not exactly “cool”
@@littlems.tries-to-fix-it6270 I think profound is taking it too far, but it was touching the way she worded it.
I like this guy. Something tells me he won’t live much longer. At least he loved a great life by his own standards.
Thats the best way we can look at it, I guess..it's sad really
So he says
Shit standard.
Dude is a low life who injects other people with extremely potent deadly drugs in an unsanitary environment for a living and you like him… you should go set an appointment and meet him
@ Dolores Parra.
My thoughts exactly.
So he says.
There have to be more to him and his story than what he's saying.
He could not even come up with one childhood memory.
Or he's autistic.
Something in the way he answers the questions make me wonder if he's got Asbergers.
He is the most honest drug addict i have ever watched in many interviews. He doesnt make excuses for himself and wants his lifestyle. He makes me more sad than anyone else i have ever seen
The honesty doesn't change the fact that he is sick, and addict, a criminal and a burden on the social service system. Hitler was a vegetarian and loved animals, but it doesn't erase all the other shit.
Nah. These videos are full of honesty. Obviously not all are.
This is like a cross between ASMR and a drug addicted Batman
😂😂
😂
so f'ed but real
💉“I’M 🦇MAN”💉
Hahahahah
I can’t believe he’s only 30. He’s not long for this world. Sounds like he knows that too.
At least he’s not playing the victim 🫵🫵🫵👏👏👏🌈💙💛🧡❤️💯🥳😇🏳️🌈🤩
Not His First Rodeo 💉💉💉💯🌈🏳️🌈🌈🏳️🌈🌈👌👌👌Excellent Interview 🥳🤩😇
@@whodat1884 it isn't lol
Hopefully he gets back on his feet
His time is near and that’s a blessing.
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to fentanyl. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Fentanyl addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, fentanyl, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Yes he's Dr.benfungi.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
From my experience it really works excellently! It doesnt even need to be a full hit. With potent shrooms 2-3 small ones will still make a clear difference. It will be a few hour cosy rumbling moment around rest time, but afterwards its just calm and you feel amazing and gain your freedom. Psilocybin is different dudes, its the only "treatment" I would recommend to someone who genuinely wants to get better. There is no addiction, withdrawal, or negative side effects. It's just pure healing., far more effective than any anti-depressant. You can thank me later,
This is my friend. I've known this man since we were about 6. I haven't seen him or heard from him in 2 years. This is obviously so sad but I love him. Just being able to see him alive and hear his voice, see his movements and habits, the humor in him, makes me smile despite how fucked up this is. If you see this, I love you man. - KY
I can't believe what I'm seeing and where he is right now
@@danielsylvester3725 Yeah it's pretty heart breaking, and there's not much we can do.
@pouncer999 I hear you. An old friend of mine as well. Have any contact for Mos?
I'll never forget meeting him at some show in allentown, probably mayfest. It was 2010 I think. He saw a friend of mine at the mall and asked how I was, didn't have access to a cellphone. It killed me inside to see him on social media just destroying himself. We didn't get to talk much, but I always considered him near to my heart. He's so talented. Such a good soul. It's hard to see him this way.
Can you share his social?
@@froandcara Sadly he's not active on it and hasn't been since maybe two years ago about. People tag him in stuff but some of us think maybe he didn't make it. Sadly I have no news on him or know how he's doing.
Things are bad for Moser, he's ill and there is a lack of hope about him. If he don't get clean he's gonna get his wish sooner rather than later. God help him.
Amen
Death is a blessing to those who suffer so greatly. when I hear that 100 thousand users died as a result of overdose, something inside of me smiles with the relief of knowing that they are finally free from the misery of what they were trying to escape.
Thanks for that captain obvious
@@s_photo1385 such profound insights.
@prairiedarkness yes there is.
I related to him a lot when he said "I *could* do everything" and I truly believe he could, smart, great communicator, resourceful, empathic. I just think he decided being an addict was going to be the only and best thing he could be in life. He seems content where he is but I sincerely hope somebody could show him that there's so much more in life to see, to give, to do than being stuck in Kensington.
the world is corrupt and hes being free, preparing for inevitable death. i envy him
Empathetic? He doesn't care about himself and never made any statements re concern for others.
This was just too sad to watch all the way through, seems to be the slowest suicide ever.
I never comment on your videos but he just struck me. I’d love to see more of him. This is just tragic and I really pray he makes it out of this alive.
I’d love to get an update on Moser. Obviously an intelligent guy, but a slave to dope.
This guy can be multiplied by the millions. Something is wrong with American society that this bleak hopelessness is pervasive in much of the population. This emptiness is a result of the emptiness of a culture that places all its value on THING$ and not a rich culture based on love
I agree and it runs through every demographic too. I know for me personally the hopelessness is partly that all the anger and hate around me makes me feel there’s no place to belong and has driven me further and further into isolation. Add health problems paired with inadequate healthcare, and I can easily relate to Moser’s outlook.
Not only THING$, but also false religion. It's no surprise that people feel a hopelessness. Our society has no soul.
bleak hopelessness also exists in "rich" gated communities... where i've seen soccer moms (and their kids) addicted to prescription pills, cocaine, heroin, etc. so that 'rich' culture you speak of isn't immune to drug addiction... and those people have lots of 'things.'
Yeah, well said. As a young(-er) person myself, one thing that people underestimate are the effects of things like the pandemic. Imagine losing two years of your youth when you're supposed to be interacting with others and living your life at its physical peak. That takes a real toll. Once you lose that socialization it becomes a lot harder to pick it up again.
True...poorer countries have less addictions and mental health problems.
This guy is like an angel with broken wings. He has also completely surrendered, but I think there is still this atom, glimpse of hope inside of him.
He really is
Wow...good comment.
Chill out dude he is no angel
He’s gonna be face down and dead from an overdose in a month, he isn’t an angel and there isn’t any hope
This musthaphfruqr ain't no angel, more like drug addicted, opportunist... with his dirty hands!
Sometimes when people say they are dealing with depression, it seems like the depression is dealing with them.
Yes!
ON POINT 👍
“Are you afraid of living?” is one of the most poignant, insightful and empathetic questions I have ever heard anyone ask a fellow human - especially since, in reality, no shortage of people out there actually are.
Stellar interview as always, Mark. Thank you beyond measure for all that you do and help to bring out from the shadows and into the light of every glowing electronic screen the world over of those who are fortunate enough to be able to view your content. 🙏🏻💗
How many people aren’t afraid of living?? In one way or another.
This breaks my heart a little. He seems like a good dude. Just sucks he doesn't care about himself. Godspeed Moser
This guy has no delusions and is super intelligent. It’s hard to watch, but seems he’s made his choices about life.
'Super intelligent'
Yeah.
@@mustertherohirrim7315 hahaha yea, like ppl always trow that ''super intg'' stigma over junkies
@ Hatsu Hioki
Are you saying no junkies are intelligent?
@@leneo1731 for sure not fentanyl/heroin addicts
Intelligence does not mean he can’t make poor choices. He has signs of intelligence.
This poor guy is a sad representation for a disaffected generation of society that feel hopeless, isolated and with no future worth trying for. Breaks my heart.
'Poor- sad -hopeless' these are YOUR thoughts and interpretations. Moser wasn't making excuses, spoke honestly, intelligently and claimed happiness.
@@geebee6244 Agree, He is one of just a few people here who just seems honest , not proclaiming some almost unbelievable tragic childhood story. No pathetic excuses, not crying for help. From me although I dont support his life style , Moser has all the respect.
@@geebee6244 how do ppl end up arguing in dee comments...u cnt tlk shit cus they havea bleeding heart fr....u can feel ur heart hurt over anything maybe his blatant attitude is heart crushing....maybe mysoullovessoul gotta kindred soul....mmmmm maybe doiii
I was reading between the lines. His gf of ten years left him, he's on the streets and intends to take a lethal drug with no care if he dies. He's not proclaiming happiness, he's given up.
Observation Vs judgement?
I have a friend from high school just like this. open to the idea of dying and refuses to be sober. and not just like a couple beers and some pot refuses to not do tweak and dope everyday. nobody can make anybody do anything.
This is exactly how every addict thinks we just don't ever say it like this.
Facts 💯
@@CatalinaFOIAdefinitely 100
Thats not true at all. I never thought this way ever and I was a bad one. This is how every addict who wont get clean thinks. You manifest your own reality. You speak and think it into existence. Anyway I have a feeling you arent an addict. And if youve watched videos on here you know there are plenty who are dealing with extreme trauma which use to cover it up. Not because they love drugs.
@@CatalinaFOIAsaid by people who arent addicts
@@Living42exactly 100 wrong. Plenty of addicts im sure think like this. Plenty dont.
Hey Moser, if you’re reading this comment I’m telling you I don’t buy that you love drugs more than living. I don’t buy that your mom leaving you at 12 was “her business “. I think there’s grief in your life you aren’t sharing.
If he isn’t the definition of a drug addict, I don’t know what is. This one got me. He is someone’s son; so young. Not a gray hair on his head. I wish him luck ❤
I'm afraid that won't help him much though 😌
I agree
Better than nothing. Hope, Luck, Best Wishes, Prayers. It's all electrical impulses with dedication towards an energy source. No matter what your belief system even a lack of one... it's something. That, will always be better than nothing.
There's no such thing as luck
@@snafu4405 Well said
His entire life since leaving school has been drug addiction, his life's work, his legacy, as Mark states. He went to L.A. to do drugs and moved to Kensington to do drugs. I think he already knows the jig is up, a death wish of sorts. "I'm great at everything l do" is code for "l don't have the will to do anything else except shoot fentanyl into my collapsing veins". And yet, quick-minded and articulate. But every statement of positivity ends on negativity, "l'll either do something great....or I won't". My guess is sadly, he won't.
Excellent comment. Sad but true.
"I dont want to get clean"= a death sentence, especially in Kensington. God bless his family.
This interview was so real. It's sad that he has surrended he's life to drugs, he is a lost soul. I wish him well and hope he makes something out of he's life, I mean he's still young. What an authentic interview man!!
"Is there anything that happened in your childhood, anything you're running away from" "no, but if I am I'm doin a really good job at it". Wow. That was the single most compelling line I've heard on you channel. He is so mentally sharp. Even a wordsmith in there I think. He really could do anything. I like to think he's more of a "specialist", putting every ounce of life into the actual lifestyle. Like maxing only one stat in a video game. This fellow is a user and an abuser. The most telling for me is the lack of info on the string of ex girlfriends. Con artist. Not a bad person to sleep next to next to his tent near skit row either, in my opinion
Wouldn’t say the most compelling line from the channel by any means lol..dude just loves getting high that’s all there is to it
@@wanghaf_Gl0yper well that's just like ur opinion man
Welp... I never knew there was such a thing as an injection specialist in the fentanyl world. I learn so much from this channel about the human experience. Another fascinating interview Mark. well done sir 🙏
Well written
Oh yeah..I think I learned that in some of his other videos. People who can't put a needle into themselves because they have a phobia, of needles. Or blood. Or what ever you would think would keep them away from shooting up. Nope..you find one of these guys, a friend, the dealer..often times kicking those people down some of your drugs. It's crazy
Of course has every drug-communtity people who are injection-experts. After a while it is a big job getting the needle into the right part of the body. In a way nice he helps the other people.
It's actually pretty common amongst IV drug users. After a while your veins collapse and it's super hard to hit anywhere. Add in some dope sickness ontop of that and it's even more difficult. It can be a real struggle.
get paid with a shot
I feel sorry for his family because they are the ones that are sober and have to witness the complete destruction of their child with no way to stop it…coming from someone who has lost a child to fentanyl
I'm so sorry for your loss.💙
damn, Mo. sorry to hear. I got clean. I come just to remind myself why.
@@scottmatznick3140 glad to hear you are clean. Always remember everyone has people who love them. Losing you can totally ruin your families life. The pain is deep and never goes away. Good luck
I feel more sorry for him. usually addiction stems from child hood trauma... maybe his parents had something to do with that? it's sad for everyone though (who cares about him)
Mark, I wonder if you’ve ever thought about a memorial page for those interviewees we have lost.
He does I saw it😢
@@Amhappy-wq9oqlink?
It kills me to see such a kind and likeable guy go through that...
Moser…..you *are* terminal. You don’t want to die but you *are* dying. I used to think I wanted to die….i used to shoot up in my neck too….methodone is free man….help is free. I wish for the best for you man….you need to go to a hospital right away…don’t be ashamed just go…you might get a few more weeks
Brutal honesty mixed with delusional grandeur.
So true.
Actually, no... this guy is top of the food chain...
@@tf6385 what do you mean? sarcasm?
Definately...
Delusional grandeur ? That's far from the truth in this guys case . I don't think he's living the time of his life and truly believes that .hes just accepting things the way they are of anything that's the furthest thing of delusions of grandeur
Unfortunately I don't think we'll see this guy again
OMG his hands…I’m sure he won’t admit it but that he has some sort of “abandonment issues” from his mother leaving him.
Many of us were concerned with where he's ended up. Now we know. He was/is a musician, a great one.. at his best he is the easiest person to follow and admire. I have some videos of his performances.. pictures and all. I'm glad he's 'thriving' in his position, but it's heartbreaking to see the detriment he's sustained to himself. Anyone can message me for some media of what his best sounded like, since I can't seem to post a video in the comments.
Please send the ig so I can see it, I feel like this guy is intelligent enough to realize he can at least try to function while on drugs
How can you send it?
Can you put it on your RUclips account? I'm struck by Moser, for an unknown reason, I would love to hear his music
@@aude1545 this was the band: www.youtube.com/@VICTIMofficial
Send one please
Mark sounded uncharacteristically flabbergasted, like I can sense his jaw hitting the floor in this one.
OMG so so emotional to watch this. His hands are a product of fentanyl use no circulation. May he find peace in this world while he is still here. Sometimes these affects aren't reversible. My heart breaks for people. I have not lived a sheltered life and have done my share of things I regret. Thank God I have been a strong woman and have overcome the battles that I have fought. God bless you Moser.
I've never seen a heroin/fentanyl addict with hands like that.
@@sugarsore I have seen many...
I was wondering what the discoloration on his hands was all about. This is very sad.
I think it's due to the so called "tranq dope" going around. It's got xylazine and/or benzos in it and it's causing horrific wounds, even in areas where they haven't been injecting. VICE did a documentary on it if you want to know more
I think theyre just dirty. Otherwise would be swollen too at least in my experience
i met a girl in Salem, NJ who's attitude about drugs was JUST like this guy's attitude. she was a "proud, happy, and faithful," drug addict. she didn't want your pity, sympathy, empathy, or (free) money... just wanted to clean your house, wash your car, shine your shoes, walk your dog... whatever it took to get some money to go to the park and do heroin. the scary thing about watching this video is that if you saw a picture of her, you'd think she is Moser's younger sister; they look very similar.
i'm NOT a psychologist, but for some reason, i think Moser's 'drive' to stay high might be based on losing (romantic) love interests. some guys, when they lose their woman... etc., resort to self-destructive activities. he did say he had girls that took care of him (motherly love) but that they left.
Moser’s exceptionally intelligent. When he says that he has the capacity to excel at anything he wants, he’s simply telling the truth, unreservedly. I don’t think the same can be said for him saying/suggesting that there is no ultimate catalyst for his drug use, however. He’s probably manic depressive/bipolar/clinically depressed.
yes, he must have an underlying mental health issue if there has been no trauma
Someone has updates on Moser as 16/10/2023 ? Is he still alive ?
Wonder how Moser is doing today..
Beyond sad. He just signed off on his life 😔😔
No bullshit, just real. Has me in tears. Moser, if you go out, I hope you go out knowing you've touched my heart, you are loved, and in a way you've given me hope. God bless you bro fr. 🙏
"No one's going to understand you."
"That's alright." ❤️
That's exactly what it is stay loaded, and pretend it's not real, you're terrified of the living, you got skills man you could save a lot of people brother, train wake the f******, bet you you could do it brother, oh yeah I forgot you don't give a f***sorry my mistake
Moser used to be the lead singer in a band called “Victim” ruclips.net/video/HbaOq354Dh0/видео.htmlsi=6oKffjIeqd_6J8bf 8:50 He really is ‘great’ at everything he does. He ended up in worse shape than this interview and now nobody knows where he is. It’s speculated that he might’ve pass away.
I've been wondering. Thank you. He was an incredible person. I met him a year after my dad died out at mayfest in allentown. I was given a free demo and he had no cellphone at the time so there was no way to talk to him often. When I saw this interview it was not long after he messaged me to try to find a ride from philly into northampton, he had been asking others too. I think he was really trying to get back but was enticed to stay or lost phone service just before I could try to call him back. Even then, I didn't know the extent of the damage. I hope he's okay if he is alive. His music was great.
Our son is exactly like Moser, except he's 47. I started watching videos of Kennsington thinking I would see him on the street. He's homeless in Milwaukee. There's nothing anyone can do for them. They're now career drug addicts at this age.
so sorry for your heartache.
@@julz9378 why feel sorry for something they 100% were the cause of? Broken homes and shitty parents are what causes this.
@@boofert.washington2499 It's not 100%. Watch the video above you idiot. Some people just are addicts and its as simple as that
@@boofert.washington2499 I would say in about 70% of the cases you’re right. It is the family
@@boofert.washington2499 are you fuckin dumb bruh. i know a ton of people that had perfect parents that use drugs now
I have no words.....he has NO bottom, NO happiest day, NO regrets, NO future. It's just SO darn sad. 😪
What a weird and special interview… honest, short, powerful questions by Mark and Answers by Moser…
Okay people, there you have it, straight from the horses mouth! This is one of THE saddest interviews of a person I’ve ever watched on Mark’s channel, and I’ve watched hundreds of them! His eyes are deeply cold, dark and hurt, yet oddly “happy,” in a way…just a collectively difficult way to try and describe him, but that’s what I see & feel from this man. As the famous Etta James sang, “All I could do is cry…” 😢😭
Oh puleeze
@@getin3949 I’m sorry you can’t spell and I don’t know what you need or want by your comment. If you’re hurting too, just say so.
I agree with you Maria. Good call.
I'd really love to have an update on this guy, but unfortunately I don't imagine much would have changed if you did get him back
I spent 3 years straight taking 10 or so oxy codone 30s every single day - crushing them up and snorting them up the same nose that requires a mask to this day to force air into so I don’t snore loud enough to drive my beautiful girlfriend away.
The only thing that prevented me from staying in this hamster wheel of chasing the high was jail. If I wasn’t sentenced to jail by judge Farnell (Dee Farnell) in Pinellas County jail I would not be Alive today. I would have killed or been killed to continue the high.
It’s been 10 years since I’ve touched a painkiller and still to this day I see a video like this and completely break down watching other people go thought this struggle. I see no answer whatsoever and it kills me to know I can’t help.
He looks like shaggy from scooby doo
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Imagine saying "My life is gone." at 30 years old. Man.......
I can honestly say, this is the first of the addiction interviews where I couldn't stop my tears!!! My heart really cried for him!
He describes his greatest lost as his last girl and has no childhood happy memories. I believe His mothers abandonment destroyed this child soul.
Such hopelessness it’s so sad, he’s so thin, wasting away. I think he’s hiding some trauma from his youth that he doesn’t want to confront.
I think you're spot on with that. 👍
Man I can really identify with that feeling of “I’m just done.” I wonder why two people can feel the exact same way but one does what he does and one just muddles through life anyway without drugs. I will say, my feeling of being “done” or just not caring stems from major depression and PTSD. Maybe that’s his struggle too but he’d rather not deal with it.
A lot of times it depends on your core values, support past and present and if/how truama is being dealt with.
Ive been there before. When you have lost everything you have built and worked so hard for its devastating. You want to give up and sometimes for awhile you do.
At the same time you eventually build another life, one you may not be totally happy with but the fear of loosing everything and starting all over once again keeps you there.
Or it stems from seeing the path in front of you and it looking boring and repetitive..actually I guess that is very depressing, but don't a lot of folks live the same day over and over?
@@bicstic8 that could be as well but the guy didnt give alot of context but from what he did say and frommy own experiences of going through something similar, when his wife left after 10 years he didnt want to start over. From personal experience I can tell you I felt the same way. I had worked hard for years had a child, a home , a family, one day, and the next it all was just gone. My ex took everything. Even my car was in her name. She took it as well. Alot of it was being you and not knowing any better, but for a long time I felt hopeless. I didnt know what to do or where to begin. I didnt want to. Why work so hard when it all van be taken away in the span of 24hrs. Not to mention the betrayal I felt from the one person I implicitly trusted. I didnt have a clue. One day I had it all the next day I had nothing.
@@bicstic8 so true. It can get very hard in the “straight” life not to go what the hell is the point of doing this every day?
I love this interview. Moser has beautiful pitch black eyes that seems to penetrate the camera lens. That stare, it’s almost like que lived 100 lives and knows exactly what’s gonna happen next. He absolutely would be great at anything, but if it’s shooting veins and getting high what he wants to do know, then i wish the very best luck to him.
If anyone ever wanted to see the later stages of how addiction can progress they need to watch this. This is what happens when it takes your soul and you cross that thin line of not caring... subconsciously you want the next shot to be your last so you don't have to endure another day of hopeless darkness. There is still hope but it is extremely difficult for anything positive to happen when you are at his point. Good luck and I hope you come out the other side!
Any update on cris ? (Moser)??
Usually very likeable intelligent people like him just think so little of themselves and fall so low its sad
The finest person you have spoken too. He has both eyes wide open and stares bravely into the Abyss.
This one was really hard to watch…I have a big knot in my stomach 😔
Awesome interview, Mark! The comments here tell more about the commenters than about Moser. In the USA, people have it drilled into their brains from childhood that they have to be somebody. If they are not somebody, they are nobody. And there is nothing worse than that. In Buddhist temples, people work hard to discover that they aren't anyone, that trying to be someone is the core of human suffering. Sense of self is suffering. Moser seems to have figured this out already. He's surrendered to the true indifference of the universe...but his heart seems warm, his words ring true. RUclips watchers look desperately to find some weakness in his story to validate their own story. For me.....Moser doesn't strike me as a liar. That's probably his main appeal...his honesty, his sincerity....a lot of women probably fell for him over the years....that honest charm. He's probably had some very good moments in his short life. That's why he's low on regrets.....and more or less ready to die. We all have to die eventually....unless you are waiting on Jesus and company. Well.....I would say....try not to judge people that you can't understand. We really understand much less than we think we do. We posture ourselves to think we know everything. We know very little. Thanks, Moser! Thanks, Mark! Great video!
Beautifully put, I couldn’t agree with you more!
I think that people living this life are the lowest depth of misery ...they don't contribute to humanity in any way...they are a drain. There is nothing wrong with judging people who have been given the gift of life and squandered it. Disgusting display of a life wasted.
@@zeromczero7369 Thank you for proving the OP's point.
@@zeromczero7369 "Theres nothing wrong with judging people..."
Wow.
and thank you for reinforcing my belief that you cannot explain the obvious to an idiot.
When he said do drugs and die what he’s really saying is he’s severely depressed. He probably feels like he has no reason to live..so sad!
I'm pretty sure what he said is exactly what the fuck he said, lady. it's not your place to manipulate anyone's words.
I am really struggling with this guy and the reality he lives in. He seems such a nice guy, so reasonable, balanced and self aware. But he chooses to do drugs and live a life like that. Most of the drug addicts I have known hate their lives which is why they do drugs to escape, Moser loves his life because he does drugs. So challenging and difficult. Amazing interview that has changed my perceptions.
I pray he could somehow find Jesus Christ before he kills himself!
This is so scary . His voice from shooting up in the dark . The girl with the flesh opened in her arm . Nothing scares them obviously. The pain they go through from sores and living in filth just doesn’t make them want to stop. Unbelievable and nauseating at the same time.
That's why harm reduction is the most effective
@@jasmines.6325 is it? Because it dont seem like they are reducing harm. The best solution is methadone first and legal heroin second. Fent is so much worse than real heroin. The gov't needs to start giving these people real heroin again.
This guy likely has vocal cord paralysis, resulting from damage to the recurrent laryngeal nerve on one side of the neck. He explains his habit of injecting the neck, which is quite dangerous.
The spectrum of complications of drug misuse is quite interesting to observe on this channel. The other day, we saw a likely case of necrotising fasciitis (flesh-eating bug infection) of the forearm, complicated by failure of a graft that was meant to cover the hole in the forearm. This means the person lost the tissue both where the graft was taken (donor site) and the tissue where the graft was placed (recipient site).
To a reasonable mind, these problems strongly discourage drug abuse.
... or they strongly encourage harm reduction efforts, considering that drug use isn't going away. and they should perhaps even strongly encourage full legalisation, considering these complications are mostly caused by added contaminants and not the drugs themselves, and we would save lives by making a clean supply of licit substances available to those who choose to take them
Oh, yeah, I was totally thinking the exact same thing
@@adamwright4135 or.. if you choose to throw your life away. So be it. World is better off without having to deal with the burden of bad decisions they make.
@@joshuaburgess4730 i mean, yeah sure, if you’re a terrible person with no compassion for your fellow humans and don’t care about the trauma that often pushes damaged people towards drugs. maybe not this dude, but watch this channel often enough and you’ll see
@@adamwright4135 I been through enough trauma. Been a drunk. (The hardest drug to quit). All the help and compassion is a waste of the person doesn't want to change. The whole using the past crap to stay a junkie is just enabling. These people in their campers living near the food banks are pathetic to. They refuse to work and expect everyone to give them handouts. Excuse me while I leave for my day of work
I absolutely love this guy! "Do you need therapy?", hell no! This guy IS a therapist. What a pure soul.
ruclips.net/video/5ieb7KFyPyc/видео.htmlsi=77Fw6piCndhCl2T- this is him singing
Fentanyl is the scourge of the US. It's a national tragedy. I do feel sorry for this poor lost soul and all the other souls lost in pain.
@natrural flavor Biden’s got nothing to do with it. It was the same under Trump too. America has always had a huge appetite for drugs. BTW Biden didn’t really change any of Trump’s border and immigration policies and Biden even added article 42. So Biden has now deported more people than Trump did. Just like it’s impossible to stop an addict from getting high, it’s impossible to stop drugs getting to them.
@natural flavor making this political is total BS. The war on drugs was lost long ago. Synthetics and tranqs are being mixed because Fent is illegal in China now. Biden doesn't "let" more in. I'm not a Biden fan, your take is just ridiculous though.
This interview is more different then the others, almost like an intervention.
I noticed his interview style is detached but honest and aggressive
My family knows that, “I am this situation “.
-Moser
Last time we heard and seen he's In a wheelchair now due to tranq wounds and was admitted to the hospital. Rumors are going around that he passed , but no confirmation for sure 😢
Where did you see that?
Thank you for this update. I had it in my heart to go out there and find him but I didn't think it would be safe to go. I don't think anyone has contact info for him and I don't think he'd answer either way. Please if you see him again, tell him everyone misses him and his music.
The Honesty if this man is commendable. I really really really am rooting for you mose.
30 " and I'm kind of done" ! whew... 30's when we really " start " living !
He denying the fact his mother left him when he was twelve and it affected him emotionally. Twelve is a crucial age for a child. He goes through women, falls in love all the time. Repeats the abandonment peptide and puts a needle in his arm. Feels good.
Spot on! 🎯🎯🎯
Yess and he doesn't want to say why she left when he probably knows
So true. How many people out there are looking for a wife thinking they’re going to find a mother? Far too many!
Thanks, Dr. Phil... He's a sick junkie who would sell an infant for a hit of fentanyl.
yep, 12/13 is a pivotal time in a person's life. Many tribes and religions unrelated to each other have some rite of passage or transition event at this exact stage in the human's development. We really do no understand the human soul and its vulnerability at this exact time OR we choose not to understand it because it's inconvenient.
This is just sad as hell man
I think when they say drug addiction can steal yr soul...this is what they mean. ....very sad. Respect to Moser for sharing w us and to Mark for making it possible. It definitely helps illuminate the struggle.
I think his Soul is still in there .. just buried very deep is all.
is Moser still alive?
Ohhh! What a great interview. His life is so simple, yet so complex. Yet he loves it the best he can. No goals, just living in the moment.