Fentanyl Addict interview-John
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- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of John, a fentanyl addict on Skid Row.
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I never comment but this young man really got me, he’s a strong, intelligent soul and I hope he can get his life on track, live one day at a time John, you can do this, we are all wishing you the very very best 💪
Your a G mang. Get a lil job, start saving And get to your kids.. get outta l.a. if possible🤘🏻
me too
Yes. I hope his life takes a turn for the best.❤️
you need to check out Gabriel's interview...hes another fentanly addict...now THAT guy is brilliant
Can see the pain and anguish in his face. Unbelievable amount of trauma for 1 person. Stay strong buddy.
@ravexbabe - 100% agree. You can see it in his face... broke my heart even before he said anything...
Agreed
I feel so bad :( I can't imagine going through that. Hugs to him.
Addicts are selfish and depend on people feeling sorry for them. Believe me I know.
@@jimmerrell1688 I agree that they are, I've lived with them too. I will say that he does seem different than most. I can't paint everyone with the same brush...
He really lights up when talking about computer programming. THAT is what he needs to be doing. THAT is is passion. I hope he finds his way out. What a lovely soul.
Kudos to his former brother-in-law for taking in his two kids. I can't imagine taking on such a tremendous responsibility. Always interesting, thanks!
Yep foresight was good 👍
Dude the definition of “I have no more tears to shed” stay strong man, this bouta to be one of the greatest comeback stories of all time.
Hope to see an update for John. I feel like he’s given up, but he’s got the capability to turn it around.
Get back on methadone. It saved my life I was on 60mg for five years while I dosed down slowly and did counseling etc. I came off the methadone last July and I am still clean. No desire to use it just makes everything harder doesn't solve any issues.
Congratulations on your hard earned sobriety Sean! That is awesome👏
"does not solve any issues"...no truer words have ever been spoken. Keep staying sober, buddy, come what may. God bless. 🙏🏽❤️
Coming off methadone is really hard on some people. I rather go suboxone route. My dad said worst coming off that stuff and he’s done it all.
How bro I've been on 140mg for 8 years and I still have trouble going down and backsliding not much but its happened
How bad was it for you doing It that way and coming off because I’m in the process of coming fully off, I’m just wondering the opinion of someone who did it the right way and didn’t just either stop taking it or got locked up and had no choice
Mark, I began watching your channel once every week or so but now I wake up every morning to hear a new story. I have developed a genuine interest in learning people’s background, people who are often judged for their decisions without understanding their circumstances. Thank you for opening a platform to share their story.
Yes!!! Me too
So do I. I don’t miss a vid these days.
@@erincatanzariti3866 nnn
@Mark Shmuck Comment of the year, Mark. You are definitely the cool one here
@Mark Shmuck Wow you’re comments on this channel span from blatant racism to pure hate speech. The words you spew are a direct reflection of yourself. Vile, ignorant, miserable.
I wish parents would realize how much damage they are causing their children by letting them witness terrible things such as fighting, drinking, drugs, abuse, etc.
Good luck to this young man. I hope you find peace and tranquility in your journey ❤
These are the same parents that say “we stayed together for the kids”. Smh
@@Kimikosnoh there's more to staying together for the kids than just physically staying together. That's only the first step. The most important thing is to commit to choosing to love, no matter how hard it may be. BOTH must commit.
Parents are lost too and either make it or don't.....the aftermath is the next generations to deal with, sadly. Drugs are never an answer.
Same. It took me years to get past the abuse. It stays buried these days..You have to learn to push forward. It never stops hurting 💔. Please be safe everyone. Sending love.
@Lori Joy Fine Art Channel SOCIETY needs classes!!!! They benefit or wither from the majority of a persons life too. Schools are a disaster.....I honestly believe that an imprint of God is missing.
Breaking up family is by design.....evil is doing it's best to consume goodness. $$ and power have corrupted all that used to lead.....
Dude this story is so intense, this guy has literally been put though emotional agony. I love the faith he continues to have. Accepting his anger issues and trying to fix them make me think he will get cleaned up. He has tons of potential for sure, he’s so knowledgeable, his vocabulary says it all. I hope he gets cleaned up soon. Not all fathers think of being their for their children in an emotional way.
Such a smart, talented, sweet, gentle soul, with a loving heart.
I’m grateful for John sharing his story. Though I’m at a loss for words to express how sad and sorry I am for things that happened to him and his family. Heartbreaking isn’t a big enough word.
Sending him lots of love and prayers. And wishing him well.
I just wanna hug him:( he’s been through so SO much trauma … I hope he’s able to get in recovery and try to have his life back to whatever degree he can :(( I’m so sorry for the pain you’ve had to go through :(💜
You CAN do the withdrawals John. I did withdrawals from an opiate and it’s horrible and scary but you just have to keep telling yourself that it’s only temporary. One minute at a time. One step in front of the other… you CAN do this. Those children need you in their life 💕💕
Nope. Long term addicts often have PAWS. That ish can last YEARS. This is why opioids have the highest recidivism rates. And for those who have other health issues? It can be very dangerous. We now know that people CAN die from withdrawals.
I was using Fentanyl for the last 4 years of my addiction. as of the 1st of the month I have 20 months of Sobriety. I had No hope of getting clean. I had resigned my self that I was going to Die a Junkie. But I grabbed onto a Moment of Clarity and reached out for Help. Recovery is a Lot of Work, but not even close to the amount of work Active Addiction is and was. Whenever I listen to fellow Addicts on this channel, I pray they can find the Peace of Mind that leads them to long term Sobriety.
Bravo, brother.
Hugs to John. He strikes me as a person who deep down does have the strength to get sober and try again. I can imagine that after losing so many people he loved and was vulnerable with, that he might be reserved to allow himself feel love. I hope he's able to get/stay clean.
John is a good example of how a perfect storm of terrible events can take a person to become a drug addict. A very sad story because he had it all to be a happy person if not for all the tragic events with the ppl he loved. Thanks for the video.
I don't have any experience with people with fentanyl addiction or how it affects their behaviour, but when I look at John's eyes I see a person in shock. He's such a sincere and gentle soul, I hope he can find his way back to a place where he and his children can be together again. Life is short, and every day is precious! Thanks John, all the best!
They feel anxious frantic worried sensitive and very very physically sick.. To sick to even go get more drugs if they wait to long.
It's a prolonged state of stress, marked by high amounts of adrenaline and activation of fight or flight, supression of activity in the prefrontal cortex (decision making part of the brain). There are regular periods of withdrawal which put high amounts of stress on the regulation systems of the body (blood pressure, temperature regulation, immunie system) .It's absolute chaos on the body, mind and soul.
@@ayten3617 You're NEVER too sick to get a fix. NEVER.
@@morgenmachen2400 It is chaos indeed. As I head out to get my daily methadone? Yeah... its basically hell on Earth.
@@suchabadkitty1293 yup, I'm well aware, I answered from personal experience. I've been on methadone for close to ten years and today I have four years clean. Methadone and the program have been a big part of that for me. I hope you're doing well today!
I’m your age John. We’ve had similar lives in terms of trauma/parents and seeking mental silence. Total sensory deprivation to not feel. Know that you can do this; I was weaker than you appear and by far. Please reach out if you feel the need. Much love.
I prayed for his daughters, him and his wife. what a strong guy, he can do it though. I kicked fentanyl April 11th. it can be done
Extremely intelligent. Hope he gets the fuck out of LA and around the area of his kids. He’s smart enough to get clean.
Someones intellect doesn't have anything to do with getting clean or not. You can be smart or as dumb as a box of rocks people stay sober because they want it bad enough. There's nothing more to it.
I feel like deep down he's accepting dying from an overdose wish i could do something. Once again this another HUGE interview for me Mark, damn I feel for this guy and there really isn't shit I could do for him. I HOPE YOU GOT KIDS TO CARRY ON THIS AWSOME LEGACY YOU GOT GOING ON HERE!!
Sadly there are so many addicts that would accept dying from an overdose any day. I was one of them, until I got clean 15 years ago.
He is so depressed. I hope he can pick himself up. It’s hard especially with the heavy things that have happened. I wish him the best.
The best part is he doesn't have to pick himself up, he needs to allow God to pick him up.
Johnny, your a beautiful soul.
God can and will pick you up.
Allow Him to.
2 Corinthians 12:9 But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest on me.
@@heatherh.197 Stop with the religious bullshit
As always mark your stories are real and so inspiring. Keep up your beautiful 😍 gift the lord has blessed you with. From the frozen praire of South Dakota
@@heatherh.197 dpppp
He seems to have a good deal of self awareness and intelligence, if anyone on this channel is likely to recover I believe in him
The second this guy chooses to get sober he can get a software dev job within a month and be living better than most people
There is so much I want to say to this guy. It’s the first time I’d say someone’s fentynal addiction is justified. I wanted to just hug this poor dude and tell him there is a better way…but damn how do you when someone has been thru what he has.
Brother, the fact you’re alive and saying the things you’re saying, even tho you don’t believe what you’re saying yet, it IS possible to come back. Tho I can’t imagine the pain you carry, the fact that you can still say those positive things means they can come out of you.
Wow...judgey.
I appreciate your empathy, I finally got a job and start work tomorrow making 17/hr. Slowly saving up to move into an apartment. I'm setting up a GoFundMe per my friends and family request as they want to help. I will share it here as well when its up. Thank you for your kind words :)
@@johngallegos1235 Hello John, I hope you are doing well. Thanks for that quick update. As you can see your story touched a lot of us. Thank you for sharing your story.
Your story reminds me of Job; he lost everything, he told God it would've been better if he had never been born. Job stood in faith; God blessed him 10 fold. I believe your life will turn around, all your trials are rainbows in the end. When you go through your pain, as you process every event in your life, allowing yourself to heal, forgiving yourself, allowing your soul to grieve all the losses you've experienced, there will be an abundance of blessings, you will have more than you ever imagined. Allow yourself to heal, give yourself permission to feel your emotions, process
all you have inside, don't bury it. One day at a time. I'm sorry for your pain. I can't say I know what you have been through, I can only relate to the pain of losing a parent. Everyday is a new day for you , a clean slate, you get to choose what type of day you will have. You're not your addiction. You're you and only you know how to get where you want to be. I hope for the best for you and your daughter.
T/1
Do you god squad trolls never give up? Unbelievable. Did you actually hear what he had to say about God?
Maybe take a break from the constant proletysing and actually listen to someone for once. Ironically it would actually be the Christian thing to do 🙄🙄
I think some of us just get handed a shitty deck. But the only positive out of that is that without those people... How can others find hope or find help.. He has a purpose here 🦋. My heart breaks for him. He is so smart and self aware.
Honestly this man’s life made me cry … he is so shut down … I hope he manages to get clean … he is so clever and needs his children to be close to him
Dover, De? I’m from Salisbury, Maryland. Go back to the eastern shore/ Delmarva. You’re better off there.
Uuhhh. I want the absolute best for this man. He's just a regular guy who's been through horrendous trauma yet still has the most calm and quiet demeanour. I really hope he gets ALL the help he needs. This breaks my heart ❤
Me too, Zara! I want the best for him and to be filled with lots of love and happiness 💗 He really made my heart hurt.
My heart breaks for this man. His eyes show his spirit. Such pain and hollowness. I hope to see him again with life on his side for a change.
Right? This guy has been through way more than most. Very sad.
Please accept Mark’s help getting you clean and back East, CA is too expensive and too man drugs. Whatever time you are blessed with with your daughter BE THERE IN PERSON! She won’t care if you are disabled or at McDonalds. Go to her! And your son you got that chance! Get home!!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️
yeah you don’t wanna go to rehab in california. unless its like up in the mountains away from that whole “recovery” community down south. way too many drugs here
I am in no way a professional or even an armchair amateur at substance rehabilitation that being said I suspect without addressing the underlying mental health condition attempting to solve the substance problem is a fool’s errand.
@@RealmCenter40 on the other hand addressing any underlying mental health problem is probably much harder to do when you have an addiction to feed on top of it.
It’s so hard for me to imagine losing everything and still having hope. Thank you, Mark! Best of luck and prayers to this young man 🙏🏻
My heart literally breaks at your story! Praying and hoping for a full recovery! Most of all, hope that you’ll be able to reunite with your children and all live a wholesome, happy, healthy life 💙
This is the perfect example of how broken the american healthcare system is and how it doesn't just affect the sick, it affects their entire families and circles. It is a brutal cycle. I'm so sorry for this man and wish him the best, losing people to cancer is one of the most painful losses there is
Pretty amazing. Clearly this is a man who is smart, polite, and seems like a totally normal guy etc. I imagine seeing this guy on the street alone, possibly shooting up etc and just assuming the guy's a fuck up or whatever negative stereotype or assumption that may enter my head, without knowing what he has been through. This is an excellent visual lesson on never assuming how or why some people are where they are. John if you are reading this, first of all I am sorry and I assume nearly every viewer is as well. More importantly I think you need to speak to someone who can help you through this. It would be a real shame if you got lost on a hot shot of drugs etc and your kids would miss out on a father. I have no doubt you will beat your addiction but time is of the essence when doing what you are doing-so please don't wait.
He seems like such a sweet sweet soul!!!! I really hope life starts getting better for you man. I'm so sorry you have had such a hard road.
Ιt's a lot that he is not sharing and hiding, i can tell...
Thats enough to test the best of us. Take the help, find your feet and get your children back and your life will come back to you, be well John.
Thats too much for a person only :( Keep Strong John!
He is such an intelligent, sensitive, kind man, but he is so full of sadness and despair. I wish him all the best. Your kids need you. Stay strong and get yourself on track.
Wow what a interesting guy I hope things go well for him, thanks mark for doing these interviews.
My little brother died of cancer at 9 yrs old and my catholic raised parents stopped believing in God afterwards 😔 💔
He’s numb to loss. I can relate and I feel like I’m cold hearted for it sometimes (however, I never tell people how I’m thinking). My heart breaks and goes out to him.💔
I have to take breaks from this channel from time to time. Whenever I come back I am always so happy to be here. I really hope John can recover. My heart is hurting for him.
John, as a fellow Delawarean- wishing you all the best. I hope you find your way to a sober and happy life. Thanks for sharing your story. I’m rooting for you.
Me too Amber from New Castle!
Yup, hang in there John.
-Kyle from Wyoming DE
Another Delawarean here, wishing him well! Newark
Fish-Magnolia, DE I wish we could get on the lanes again one day fam🙏🏾you got this!!! Stay as strong as possible!!!
So much sadness and loss for one person. My heart breaks for you John, I really hope that in the next interview with Mark that you will be telling us how long you have been free of substances and about to start a job. Please look after yourself, you are of value.
It always makes me happy to see that little smile at the end. I loved Mark’s questions during this interview: do you believe in God after all you’ve been through? What does all that teach you? Etc. I hope John gets clean, finds a decent job and gets back his kids. I can see him being a great dad. Hope he makes sure those what if’s won’t be his biggest regrets one day. I believe in him 🫰🏽
I saw that sweet little smile too. 💗
Dying is easy. Living takes practice.
Some of these stories are absolutely astonishing! This young has been through hell and back a few times from the word go. Please, please please find your way to recovery, you deserve peace, healing and a good rest of your life.
Of all your guests for some reason I just stopped breathing when he said his mother got shot. What followed made me want to crawl up in a ball and sob. My heart really aches. I never wanted to comfort anyone as much as this young man. Wow. I feel his pain. It’s deep. Good luck to you 🥰
John, please don’t get stuck there! 🥺 I would hate to see that!! Get up, find help. Help yourself, you deserve it! I know that’s easy to say but you can do it! Reunite with you’re children, they are all you have and they love you and need you in their life. Don’t settle for a couple of calls. YOU are irreplaceable for them!
I belive in you! 🍀
xxmuch love
I cannot fathom the trauma this beautiful young man has been through. and despite everything he still has a kind and pure heart. I hope he realizes what a light he is for this world and that there are thousands rooting for him🤗
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You've been through a lot bro... You have a great story man, thanks for sharing. Your outlook is inspiring🙏
I clicked on his video bc it struck me the sadness and pain in his eyes, and of course now I know where that comes from. What a heartbreaking journey he's been on. I'm a very empathetic person which makes hearing these stories extra tough. They also make me so very grateful for the life I have and the chances I've been given in my life. I am grateful to those who are so vulnerable to share their stories with the world, with all their pain and flaws. Life can be so incredibly unfair and so fragile. My heart goes out to him. He's obviously very intelligent and maybe with a little luck and determination, he can heal from all the trauma, and provide stability and love for his own children. It's also sad to think that his trauma could get passed down to his children, if they themselves end up orphans. Don't give up hope.
Mark please help this guy!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
He needs to WANT help first.
What they said ^
Lots of love and healing energy for John. I see the pain & sadness is his eyes and it's heartbreaking. I pray God lifts him up and reminds him he is with him and he is loved. He still has a lot of reason to live. I hope he seeks help for his trauma and drug use then gets back to Pennsylvania. Have faith in yourself John!
Looks like the guy from Mr Robot
Fuck this bummed me out hard. This poor fucking guy deserves better. Drop that garbage and get clean John, you deserve it man.
I don't understand why people blame God for everything. If people read the Bible they would know God left this earth a long time ago to give people free will and free choice bc people wanted to do their own thing. So would u rather God stay and tell u how u should live ur life and heal people as Jesus did or would u prefer free choice to do as u please? The last time I check, they killed Jesus who was out there healing people and people didn't want to listen to what God told them to do. So don't blame God for any of these issues world issues
I'm a non believer and honestly uneducated on the topic, however, I want to thank you for your comment. I've never had it explained in such a way. Very insightful.
@@elbos8391
I'm a non believer as well, and I always try to respect the believers on here, even though I'm a non believer.
I respect your comment, El Bos.👍
Jeez. This guy got handed a bum hand, and then life kicked him a couple more times just to make sure. I think he will be able to turn things around if he's just honest with himself. I feel like he ran to the west coast to get away from the pain when his wife was sick - which left her taking care of the kids while sick. Granted she had her mom and sister and brother, but still. Dude. Your kids. They've lost their Mom to cancer. Your daughter has already fought cancer once (although she probably doesn't recall it now). Don't make them lose their Dad to drugs and living on the street. You keep using and you're going to lose the brain that brought you a lot of positives in your life.
Fentanyl is one of the hardest hitting drugs right now. This guy is a very intelligent man, and even he got hooked on. I pray he can come clean and fully get better.
Coming through the southern border..
@@charsiu_808 first it came from the eastern ports! Straight from China! The south only second to the east! They Chinese sell the raw materials to the mexican cartels. If you want it to stop you have to address the China issue, first!
Definitely coming thru the border and the hardest hit cities are all run by Democrats and have been for decades. Insanity is doing the same thing over again expecting a different result. Voting in Democrats definitely has proven doesn’t work so make a change by voting red. Gotta get America to go in a different direction because this surely isn’t working. We’re going downhill fast!
@@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet your brain washed! Enjoy your koolaid breakfast! Lol!
@@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet did you erase your comment? Or was it RUclips deleting it for misinformation? Lmao!!!
God bless him he’s really had a tough time and had some unfortunate events happen, I pray things work out for him and his kids
"God" has not blessed this man in any way.
@@suchabadkitty1293 that’s why I said “God bless him” no child left behind truly failed I see, fuck you and that cat
You have a kindness that is so sincere, your great advice to never hold grudges, you have obvious intelligence, I would love to hear how you are doing very soon.
Bloody hell he has been through SO much trauma!!!
I went to school with John….holy shit
Idk about all that but he was quiet….smart….nice guy…..I saw him about 4 years ago at a bar but before that it had been since middle school….and I haven’t seen him since then either….blew my mind seeing him on here
That's a rough looking 32. Im 33 and i would have guessed closer to 40. Hope he can turn it around. I've seen this type of shit all my life.
Everyone is saying to mark to help him but what you guys don't understand is an addict or anyone with any type of addiction is NOT going to take help unless they seriously want it and they need to help themselves first by going to treatment, meetings and getting sober supports I know everyone says that but it really does work and it is possible if you want it bad enough.
Well said
This guy is a terrible person. He abandoned his wife and daughter after they were diagnosed with cancer! He’s not getting a ton of sympathy from me
Did you even pay attention? Thats not what happened sir.
I want to give this guy a hug. I feel so lucky to have the life I do. If I’d been dealt the same hand of cards as this guy, I don’t think I’d be doing as well as he is. Despite his current addictions, he’s exceptionally strong willed and I wish him the best!
I’m not one to comment but this one really got me. John, for such a young person has gone through more trauma than most would in their entire life. I’m so hopeful he has what it takes to get clean, get his life back, and his kids. Please do follow up’s on John, I think with help he could really make it.
I have a couple family members with drug issues. Watching this hits home. This is very heartbreaking and you can see the pain in his eyes 😢
My dad use to be this way except when me and my brothers would try to hide in our room, he would force us to stay in the living room and watch him beat my mom up. It would be after midnight on a school night and we'd be forced to watch my drunk dad beat my mom.
That's fcking horrible! How are you all doing now?
I'm so sorry to hear this,that's absolute sickening to me. So,so sad.
I hope you're doing as good as you can be these days. Stay strong, Jason💜🙏
This young man has potential. He can quit or get on the methadone program, and turn his life around. I hope he does it soon cuz it will only get harder as time goes on.
was it real that his father molested his sister? he didn't explain anything about it, how did he feel about his parents, why did his father kill his mother and then himself, how is his relationship with his sister? he didn't talk about any of the topics that I was most curious about, does he talk to his sisters about his parents, how does his sister feel, she has definitely gone through hard times, can they support each other?
John, Its not right all the things that has happened to you. Its not fair. Its horrific what you’ve survived.
I had been on prescribed fentanyl patches for roughly 10 yrs after getting hurt as a cop, so i know how shitty withdrawal is. . Ive gotten off opiates several times. 2xs cold turkey, 2xs using Kratom. I would get some Kratom although it doesn’t take away 100% of the withdrawal but its helps ALOT. You can do it.
Please get off the fentanyl before it kills you…& it will. Thats how this game works k i know you know that. The new tranq dope is 1000000 worse & more deadly then anything in the past.
You may think your kids have a new fam, but they NEED YOU.
As a cop on & off for 20yrs Ive seen what happens to a kid when a parent dies. Your mom didn’t choose to get murdered by your dad, your wife sisnt choose cancer to take hee away from your family, but you ARE CHOOSING the drugs to murder YOU. YOUR KIDS DESERVE BETTER. YOU AS A PARENT HAVE TO PUT THEM FIRST!!’ That means you don’t get to risk dying with every time you do dope. Thats the unspoken contract you sign with with your babies.
You are wasting time you could be with them.
Im not trying to sound heartless-you’ve had so many basic rights taken from you as a human. You should have 2 parents that love you. A wife that shouldn’t have died young & unexpectedly. You as a human should of had basics…BUT you don’t get to take away yourself form your kids with the choices you are making. Don’t pass more trauma onto them. You cant give them their mon or Grandparents back, but YOU can give them all of YOU. Without drugs. Sober. Trust me when i say they need that & its the greatest gift you could give them.
Take care John. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
He reminds me of Casey Afleck in Manchester by the Sea. Just a shell of a man. For good reason. Good luck my guy.
Mark please help John n we need a follow up stay strong John! 🙏🏽
He’s been through too much to bare. It’s a miracle he’s still here today. This man is so strong… it’s time he starts having some good life experiences. John, I hope you can find your way back into a program and get some treatment for the trauma you’ve been through. It’s like I want to reach through the screen and take all your pain away. I’m Praying for you…wishing you the best of luck from here on out. I wish I could do more.
Oh, my...Mark, this video perfectly illustrates how addicts can come from all walks of life - poor, rich, professionals, flipping burgers at Mickey D's. I think this video touched me the most, from all the videos that you've made that profiles addicts. I'm an opiate addict. This is definitely not the future that I ever would have foreseen, nor would anyone else. I graduated high school, valedictorian & summa cum laude, 3 months after I turned 16. I had a Governor's Scholarship that provided a "free ride" to any college in my state (Kentucky). My 1st year of college, my mental and physical health issues began to surface, and I dropped out of college. I've languished since then. The only thing that I've been kinda successful at is being a mom, but I've had a lot of help from my parents, who have allowed my kids and I to live with them. I live in a small town, but I've managed to keep my addiction a secret from the world at large, but I'm sure ppl wonder why I didn't live up to my potential. I'm 40 now and my kids, 17 & 21, are the only reason I keep on pushin'. I'm just tired.
Wow. Graduated at 16 & then college for (1) year?!!! Impressive. I'm curious but do you remember who or what instance first introduced you to drugs? ____ ? I asked my Mom & she shocked me with telling me it was my aunt, when my Mom was a teenager. So pissed. My Mom also didn't admit her drug use until 2017, when I darn well knew she's been an addict for the last 20 years. I know her better then the back of my hand. Duh. Nar-anon helped tho.
@@Deelifull it's nobody's fault for introducing, people can make their own decisions. I'm an alcoholic and an opioid addict, I don't blame a soul besides my self and my inability to cope with the world.
As an addict myself, the fear of withdrawal this young man talks about is really just as bad as the actual event, if not mentally worse. I really hope he gets through the trauma and eventually move on to a happier more stable life with his kids.
any update for you?❤
You should team up and work with this guy on some tech projects for SWU. He's one strong spirit for keeping going through all he's faced.
Heart breaking to say the least. John - Kick this addiction’s ass. You can and you will. The world needs more good people like you, functioning and contributing.
It’s in your name John ! You have a big calling. Unfortunately we live in a fallen world. And things happen to good people. Read book of James 1. God explains it there. My the Lord Jesus Christ give you peace and guidance that surpassed all understanding.
maybe God hates this guy, but having watched this video, this gentleman can take solace in that God has treated him better than the hookers or porn stars that mark has interviewed.
No lie, I forgot the state of Delaware even exists!
Lol me too
This man has a good soul, I really hope things work out for him.
Hey Mark, there is someone who is using your videos for their content on their Facebook page. The name of their page is 'Your Opinion Is Not My Reality'.
I know that you put in a lot of hard work and hours, so I thought that I'd pass this info along to you! 💖💖
EDIT: And to top it all off, they put their category as "Video Creator", when all they have is other people's videos as their content! 🙄
Do you mind emailing him? I think he should know this
@@Obiamajoyisrmd yeah, I just did. I didn't even think about doing that, was just waiting until he put this morning's video out to tell him in the comments, lol. Thanks! ☺
Great looking out👍👍👍
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@@ministryofpeacekmk Yes, there are a bunch of these stolen content accounts, especially on TikTok. It’s frustrating. RUclips is great about dealing with copyright infringements, but Facebook and TikTok are useless against these accounts. Social media is the Wild West sometimes. I wish I could do something about it.
He looks so very broken 😢
I wish him the best. I wish fentanyl and meth could be kept off the streets.
Freedom is not something that can be given John , or we would . It has to be taken but I can promise that it exists right here , right now and it is as ready for you as you are for it.
He’s a baby
Damn....life is so unfair! John has seen more pain than anyone should have to
For his wife to have arranged to have their children go to her brother, then my guess this guy was dabbling in drugs prior to his wife's death. I hope he gets clean for his children. He's wasting precious time not being there for his kids. If his daughter's cancer returns the guilt is going to eat him alive not being there for her.
"There, but for the grace of God, go I" its amazing how much luck plays a part of one's life.
You can do this ,you are the strongest person to have survived all that you have. Best of luck to you , I have heard of many who stay on the lowest dose of subsboxonnee for years.May you be sober & see your children soon.
To all those Ignorant quick to Judge the less fortunate....This Dudes story is a perfect example to not judge but instead extend a helping hand and be grateful for what you have
you got this Johnny boy! fuckin life is rough & i learnt a lot from you in a spiritual sense & your pivot point is coming, i see it! good luck & remember your spirit is a lot more advanced then people can understand, but this is okay. you know what you need to do, keep leveling up my dude!!
Poor dude. Far out, heavy heart for him. Wish him sobriety and peace and may he find love.
His childhood is so tragic. 🙁