"I'm so OCD": the reality of OCD | Jayde Edgren | TEDxUBC
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- Опубликовано: 11 июн 2023
- Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is a psychological disorder that is much more complicated than germaphobia or obsessive organization. People who suffer from OCD experience disturbing intrusive thoughts and compulsive behavior that inhibits their day to day lives. Why is it that OCD causes diagnosed individuals to question their identities and behavior? This talk by Jayde Edgren shows an example of how OCD can change someone’s life from one incident. As someone who was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder at the age of eleven years old, Jayde has been dealing with OCD for much longer. At the age of five years old Jayde’s OCD was triggered when she was accused by her father for saying something inappropriate. This inciting incident led Jayde to develop Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (HOCD), the fear of the possibility of being gay, and Pedophilic Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (POCD), the fear of the possibility of being a pedophile. Despite her challenges Jayde managed to become a competitive dancer for four years, ran small businesses, and got accepted into the Faculty of Arts at the University of British Columbia. Jayde is now pursuing to transfer into the Sauder School of Business in hopes of making her dream of owning a real estate development company, come true. This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at www.ted.com/tedx
She beat HOCD and then POCD came up. It seems, that OCD sufferers always need to be alert and watch out for OCD to latch on to something new. That illness is beyond horrible, but most non-sufferers don't understand.
POCD is probably the worst of the lot. I have it too. I understand the pain.
What is HOCD and POCD?
@@NB-lx6gzshe talks about it at 3:30
Every time I get over one thing something else pops up it’s exhausting.
It's horror when my seizures occurres
she is incredibly brave for talking about these taboo topics that those of us with ocd feel shame about. i hope to talk publicly about ocd to bring more awareness to it, reduce the stigma and help others know about it so they can get treatment earlier. average time for people to get treatment is 17 years
How is this taboo? Talking about going to the bathroom would be taboo here, or discussing a period, this is not remotely taboo.
This girl is so strong who else is crying
Very interesting talk. I too have been struggling with OCD for about 4 years now and it has made my life, well lets just say, very difficult to live. I miss the way i was before everything, before OCD. Its an every day struggle for me, but i am RESELIANT. i will persevere and continue fighting, i will not give up. when things get really tough, i tell myself, "i will heal, i will heal." and i keep on repeating that. for everyone who is struggling with this horrible illness: lets keep fighting, one day at a time, lets not give up. FIGHTING!!
I always told myself when my ocd was at its worst that “one day I’ll look back on this moment and laugh” and I can tell you that I didn’t laugh, but my did I look back. You will look back too and soon realize that it is beatable. You just need to run it before it runs you.
I recovered from ocd...hope you do too
@@jaydeedgrenyou have snapchat ?
Hey! Hope you’re doing good i have been struggling with ocd too i know what it feels like
@@pratibhasrivastava1506how did you recover? X
This girl is so damn courageous. I’ve had similar experiences with ocd & I’m so grateful for her bravery & vulnerability cause this video honestly helped me a lot.
Been wishing for healing all through these years, it's truly very crippling many people won't understand.
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These are great healing compounds! When used in proper context.
Stay safe people, respect this sacred fungi and it will resepect you.
Y'all all talk about the benefits but you don't say where one can grab from...
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So brave - so honest - so real. She is a warrior. And I know this because I have OCD. Jayde, if you read this, please know how important this video is to people who have OCD.
I suffer from the same things. God damn she has balls talking about these topics in front of people 😮
I thought she was a girl
This Ted Talk explained OCD so well. People usually laugh about what it, but it is very debilitating.
This needs to be talked about. This was a great way to explain it. Ocd is so misunderstood
i am so thankful for this womans bravery. i have been struggling with OCD all my life, even though i would read up on it and watch videos nothing has hit as well as validated my experience as much as listening to someone talk about the experience so candidly. thank you Jayde.
You are never alone and you are not your thoughts!
She’s sooooo brave to be so open about this
Thanks for being so transparent with what your OCD actually is. It helps break down the stigma, and also combats the stereotypes on how OCD is represented in media. Very well done presentation.
I know thay God is working in my life when these things appear right when I need them. I am going through an OCD relapse, and my specific OCDs are H-OCD, P-OCD, and T-OCD. P-OCD in particular nearly caused me to end my life and T-OCD to not get my master's degree. I'm still here, in a healthier place than I was a year ago, but I will not give in. I will not surrender. Every day is a war and I have lost a few but I am still fighting. I am the Queen of my own mind, and one day, I will be healed.
Thank you for sharing your story. Life comes at you from many angles, and we don't truly know joy until we've known pain. I could see how much it took from you emotionally to share this, but you have impacted many. May you be blessed in your own battle against OCD.
Thank you for this. Watching it with my 10 year old son helped him understand that he isn’t alone in dealing with OCD (because anything I could possibly say would never have been enough).
Wow that last sentence is almost exactly what my dad told me when I was younger too. From my experience, the best thing to do is “play into facade” of the person struggling aka your son. His main trigger will be you denying his mentally ill perception of what is going on so play into the facade until he is able to get the grip himself and admit to you the ludicrousness of his own thoughts. But in the heat of the moment his ocd will do everything in its power to make it look like reality. The best thing you can say is I understand, I agree, and I get it. I guarantee saying those things will put him at ease. He will be triggered if you cannot understand what he is trying to say because his thoughts are moving too fast, and if he forgets to explain a thought all he’ll breaks loose. So if he is spiraling just say “I understand and I get it. It will take your relationship far, and one day I promise when he is older he will find a way to cope on his own. All the best to you guys. Ocd is a battle but like I said no pain no gain he will get through this and find peace just like me.
I would also like to say that majority of people with ocd excel in life due to a mentally I’ll level of perfectionism and fear of failure. So if wondering if he’ll ever be self sufficient ever consumes you don’t even worry about it. I was exactly like him and now look at me! Not to toot my own horn but I did a Ted talk at a top three school in Canada, am starting my own company, will be attending the number 1 business school in my country and I’m only 19. Why am I achieving so much so young? There are three components. 1. My intelligence/genetics, 2, the resources I had growing up, and 3. Having ocd which makes becoming successful like crack to me. However I’ve met many people who only had the third one and are very far in life. So remind your son that the universe is on his side and that to always remember that being mentally I’ll is never an excuse to say or do horrible things to the people you love.
That is really awesome and admirable, seriously.
@jaydeedgren:
It would be great, if everyone would get through it, but unfortunately that's not the case.
I'm suffering from OCD for over 30 years and there's no end in sight.
Brave young woman! I commend her for sharing her story and educating us on several types of OCD. The world needs more of her brave types to speak up!
As someone with OCD as a 15 year old in high school, I still found solace in this video and admire the speaker very much! Though it’s an incredibly difficult way to go through life, the small elements when it comes to perfectionism have been fairly productive in my life; yes, before I turn in a half page paragraph I need to re-read it for mistakes over 30 times. I keep thinking “well what if I missed something” and though it’s horrible on so many levels, I will admit it may be what gets me into an Ivy some day.
Thank you for sharing your journey with OCD. I resonated with it a lot. I’ve only begun doing proper therapy (ERP, the gold standard treatment for OCD) and opening up to my family slowly about it this past year.
I was diagnosed with it 10 years ago when I was still a teenager, but even then my family and I were never recommended any follow-up treatment or education about OCD. I’m glad times are different now and there‘s more awareness around OCD, and how serious it is❤
Thank you for posting these videos. I struggled with OCD my whole life and was just recently diagnosed because I stumbled on a video randomly. Keep speaking out thank you
This girl is so real.
As someone who struggled with OCD as a child, and still struggles with OCD personality disorder today (the two are distinct), I admire this woman so much. What an inspiration. Thanks, Jade.
OCD diagnosed here. Your video make me cry.
It’s hard but it makes it easier when you know what it is
Hope that helps !!
This was the most incredible Ted talk I've ever seen. Thank you so much, Jayde 🙏🏼😇✨
I want to thank the speaker for being so transparent. I struggle with the same forms of OCD she does and it was a relief to hear it from someone else. Remember OCD plays on your biggest morals and your thoughts are just that, thoughts.
Thank you for this and for the reminder that "if it's meant to be, it's upto you". Wishing for you good health and happiness!
Thank you so much for this. It's so hard sometimes bc you just feel like you're a horrible person and these thoughts chase you all the time
What a wonderfully brave talk and you really nailed the awful nature of this condition .
Thank you for being brave and sharing your story.
I really didn't think this video would make me so emotional.
Thank you so much for being brave and opening up about something taboo as POCD. You're doing great things!
Jayde thank you so much for this. You talk about things I lived and I have always been so afraid to talk about it. You did great and your talk could help so many
Very brave talk! Thank you for sharing. especially for the emotions. Too many people with OCD live through these feelings alone.
Thank you for sharing your story. I don't have words to describe how I felt when you shared your story. I have had OCD from a child, and kept all of it inside until I was filled up to the point I burst. Thank you is all I can say at this moment thank you.
I understand so much of this. Deep pain in OCD. Takes so much courage to reveal this side of oneself. Brava to you, Jayde
Thank you so much. I can't tell you how often I feel alone. Like I'm a pariah of society. I'm going through a tough time where I trusted someone with my OCD and now they are going to use it against me to try to show other people the terrible person that they think i am. And it's the scariest thing I've ever had to face. This helps. Thank you.
That's why I'm afraid to say the specifics of my OCD even to my most understanding friends. I'm certain they don't know enough about OCD to be able to distinguish intrusive thoughts from actual wishes and behaviour.
you are so inspiring. I have OCD, too. my story is similar to yours. Thank you for being vulnerable, you're saving lives.
Jayde thank you. Thank you for so honestly sharing your experience. You give me hope that this can be managed and life although hard, can always be good again.
This is insanely beautiful and profound. What an honest talk & a brave young woman. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing this experience, I was move by your statement that Ocd is smart so you have to be smarter than it to outsmart it
"I think people really need to go through those really gut-wrenching, hard times in life and they need to be hurt, because no pain no gain. Had I never known how miserable it felt to be lonely and mentally ill, how would I know how great it feels not to be. And I can tell for a fact I wouldn't be standing where I am right now in the place I am in my life wanting to reach the sky had I not gone through those really tough experiences. So all the people like me out there, that are going through really a tough times that they won't talk about or can't talk about, just know that it doesn't end there. I am living evidence that it doesn't live there. I would it thought many times. I've wanted it to a dozen, but something in me told me that it wasn't over until I said it was over."
Tears in my eyes. 100% relate. Keep it up Jayde.
Thank you for sharing ur story and journey. I appreciate the honesty so much, it has inspired me to keep fighting. Ocd truly feels like a monster a lot of the time, but we can recover and beat this thing.
Courage, honesty and insight. Thank you so much.
This is such a good talk. Congrats!
Thank you for this video 🙏🏻 i really needed it
You are amazing, keep going. I have a fear of talking and it is a different types of ocd called perfectionism ocd. I'm proud of you and i gotta say this again you are amazing and a great warrior. I hope you the best ❤
She knows it well, ocd is absolutely debilitating. I nearly lost my life to it as I couldnt sleep for many days at a time. It has affected every aspect of my life
Sending love and warm vibes. You’re not alone, thank you for standing up.
I didn't know other people went through this. I love her for talking about it. Thank you so much!!!
I started crying too when she talked about the pocd, I almost killed myself for that bc I didn't have the tools to deal with that in that moment. I felt her pain, almost like she was brought back to that place of sorrow.
I kid you not i was crying, it has gotten so bad i can't even put a shirt on me before thinking if i wear it my fathers will die. To a point i had to rely on my cat to see of she meowed at me (if she meowed meant i was right), or if the lights were on or if someone said something specific it was meaning i was allowed to do specific thing. I had struggle with eating, with typing, with talking, with my personal hygiene because of these thoughts to a point i no longer recognized myself anymore or neither who i was. Spending endless nights of desperate cries, 4 years, since maybe 8 or 9. It was and IT IS horrible, everyday is a bunch of these thoughts nonstop that i gotta cry it out before it gets dark, so this video right here has helped just now to get some out and to realoze many things, and if this reaches to anybody out there with similar or the same struggles, hey, you got your back, and there's a way out, no matter where, when, hpw, why or with who, there is and your worth, existence and your persona is not defined by these and those thoughts or compulsions, okay? Believe in you, in us. We've got it! Fighting!
This means so much to me, as somebody who has been thinking strongly that they have had OCD for awhile, everything she said truly resonated with me, and it felt nice to know that i could relate to someone. i had always been worried of saying it, because i don’t want people to think that i am seeking attention (was questioning whether or not to even post this), especially since that’s what my best friend thought when i had told them. i just want to get diagnosed, so that i can be reassured that the terribly intrusive thoughts aren’t who i am, but rather just that it is an intrusive thought- praying they could give medication- because it has been ruling my life from a really young age
You should be proud of yourself for posting this! OCD is one of the most debilitating mental health conditions and people often don’t take it seriously. The intrusive thoughts that come with OCD can be so heinous that we feel as though we could never dare to say them out loud, so seeking help can be especially difficult. OCD has been stealing my life from me for years and I’m only just about to start exposure therapy.
This Ted Talk was incredibly moving.
I’m just a random person on the internet, but know that you’re not alone, there are so many others that are experiencing the same struggles, and the sooner you can get professional treatment, the better. I wish that I had started this process sooner. Best of luck!
@@Hi.My.Name.Is.Arianna aw you are amazing, thank you so much, you made my week😭🥰 (maybe even life, who knows; it makes one feel safe if they gain support from others- especially if they can relate to them, so thank you, i wish you the best too❤️)
I’m so glad to know that you found what I had to say meaningful!! I resonated with both this video and your comment, so I had hoped that I could also add some words of value.
I absolutely feel your pain. I was fortunate enough to very recently find a therapist that has also personally struggled with OCD, and having someone that truly understands it has made such a difference. You may already know this, but don’t be discouraged if the first therapist or psychiatrist you work with isn’t the right fit. It may take a few trys, but don’t give up!
It’s easy to feel like you’re going crazy, and those around you may treat you as though that’s the case, but know that it is a very real condition, and it can get better with proper treatment.
Someone online that I found to be very helpful in working up the courage to seek out a therapist, that you may also benefit from, (if you don’t already know about her) is a RUclipsr by the name of Nicole Rafiee. She’s opened up about her experience with OCD and how she’s gone about seeking professional help. It’s been an ongoing issue for her, and it’s been really inspiring to see her improve. She goes about discussing her OCD symptoms by being both very sincere and inserting comedic comments where she can. (If you do decide to look her up, be aware that she makes a bunch of different types of videos, but if you specifically look for her OCD related content, you’ll find what you’re looking for).
Anyways, I hope this isn’t too long of a reply, and thank you in return for the well wishes!! ❤️
@@Hi.My.Name.Is.Arianna no no, thank you🤩🙏❤️
please yes i really just want to be diagnosed but my family doesnt think ocd is not a serious problem and when i told them about it they just ignored it
I get it... I get how you feel.... I'm really glad you have made it till here.... I just wanna give a tight hug and say.... "It's not your fault, nothing was".... One thing I wanna say is.... " The more we care and afraid about something, the more we think about that and eventually human brain which couldn't comprehend the negative phrases will make it opposite.... So all the horrible things, thoughts which you had is because.... You didn't want them so badly.... Very hardly.... So yeah, simple brain science made life so hard.... I could understand.... I know it's very hard to change it back.... I just wanna let you know that it happened not because you are a bad person but because you are a way too good person.... Knowing that... Would be relieving.... In all that chaos and struggles"....
Incredible, keep fighting!
Any disease is just as bad,so I pray everybody be healthiest!
But to all those living with OCD and having no one close around them thoroughly understanding what they going through,or getting judged unfairly all the time ☹️
I'm so sorry for everything,me you we all know you deserve better than that,we deserve better than that,nobody ever asked for it,I hope oneday there will be no OCD remained,that's the evilest thing ever!
I have OCPD and this is really well-explained. I struggle a lot with OCD variants and she hit the nail right on the head.
Thank you, Jayde! You are a wonderful woman.
superb, just the people unluckily like me and her, living with that monster could understand how difficult its to lead your life cope de daily activities, and how that one impact your family too.
Proud of you girl. I have ocd too ❤️
I just received my diagnosis on this past Monday… She just put… my entire childhood into words… and it all makes so much sense now.
Great talk. I have the same type of OCD. Dealt with HOCD for years, and POCD very briefly (thank god). Now it's moved on to ROCD. Who knows what's next.
My teacher asked a student to move their desk because it was lopsided, and he said “sorry my OCD, I don’t have OCD. This was really annoying to me as someone with OCD, and I still get intrusive thoughts about this to this day.
Broo, I've been literally suffering for the past 2 years because of this. I lost everyone. I have no friends. My family is finding it really hard to deal with me. It doesn't end!
it going to be okay.
This describes my struggles with ocd perfectly. It is truly exhausting to have to argue with yourself like this all the time. It makes you feel crazy, truly. 😩
omg wow thank you Jayde!
Ocd is just replaying unwanted thoughts over and over
You are brave. We see you and are rooting for you
❤Thankyou Thankyou
For sharing this
Human brains are so complex
so powerful
you are brave
Congratulations on passing your test
And cheers to your future 🎉
One of the best TED episodes...I learned much and will be able to understand OCD better...thanks to the Brave One...she is a wonderful young women.
very correct. This is great
When she cried my heart broke a little :(
I started tearing up too. I’m going through ERP/CBT for this. So glad she’s rebuilt that relationship with her family :( 🤍
You are so strong❤
You are remarkable and deserve peace and happiness
I developed a major depression 3 years ago so I sought out a psichiatrist and a psichologist. They told me that not only I had a major depression but he started by asking my if I obssessed with little details to wich I said yes. So thus I discovered that my whole life, those intrusive thoughts that kept plaguing me were in fact the simptoms of ocd. Off course 3 years ago it went very bad and my obssessions (the reassurances that the speaker talks about) where constant and caused me and those around me much pain. In time (and with medication) I got better. Unfortunatly I recently had a relapse and those dam thoughts are coming back again. I can only hope that eventualy things will get better
Omg the taking quizzes is so real😭😭😭 I had it for university quizzes to continuously check that I didn’t make the wrong choice
Well you can't tell people with OCD to just try their thoughts and "see if they like them." The thoughts are often morally repugnant and even illegal.
Very interesting talk!
Very brave and transparent. I think this is the side to OCD that we need to know. Some persons with OCD are like BPD and NPD and hurt the ppl around them because they never normally satisfied with anything. You are never good enough and neither are they themselves.
This is the best Ted talk I’ve ever watched. My mom and I both suffer from ocd and I’ve had the same ones that this girl has gone through and needless to say it was AAWFUL. I’m doing ok now, but my mom is suffering m now. I’m gonna show her this video
I pity this girl. I just hope she is doing better now. Even I am having OCD and trust me it takes away the happiness from your life.
Just accept it’s not you. You will win over ocd. Put in the work and like she said you can outsmart it
The way I find most effective to me is let it be, if I die I die. If life is a disaster, be it. And sometimes ask myself, how does my thoughts serve me? There must be some good otherwise the thoughts wouldn’t exist, or is it a belief that drives the thoughts? I still have it, i have to skip the video so I don’t pick up those examples and make it mine.(because it’s too relatable)
What also helped me is when I first had those thoughts when I was in elementary school, I told my mom about it, and my mom said “oh you are fine, I had it too, I had it worse, everyone has it”, and it made it a lot better. (She doesn’t have ocd, she just made it up to make me feel better lol) I think she took that layer of anxiety of OCD away, so I no longer resisted it in that case
The serious deficiency in views of this video should be a crime. Needs at least a million
Views mean nothing.
I'm suffering from ocd almost about 5 years. I have the habit of washing my hands ,face and brushing repeatedly, but my family members scold me to stop this coz they don't know abt ocd but my obsessions on washing and cleaning myself is increasing day by day, one day I'll get the ocd cured.this video gave me lots of hope and assurance that I'm not different
You are not alone. I had to rinse a tip of my finger about four or five times to “feel right” just yesterday. This is torture
@@PaulsMom93 yeah absolutely the same. Feeling weird and my anxiety is on top of my head
I just use drugs and call the universe a coward when the intrusive thoughts come.
They don't go away though
i love her.
Ahh, you just opened my eyes to something important 14:49
I’m crying. I feel so seen.
It is definitely anxiety / fear... Overall. Just to simplify it for my brain, lol. "Avoidance" and "protective measures" make anxiety worse in general. Good to just face anxiety directly. What you do guys think? :)
I never related so much with a video, when she cried, I cried along with her. The most taboo themes, I had it.
That's the REAL ocd, my guys.
she's awesome.
one way to deal with ocd is to delay the repetition whenever you feeling and urge to repeat something u have ocd for, delay tell ur brain ok ok i will do it and the delay it prolong as long as u can by doing this you will not repeat it 10 times but only 1 time and it will never come back again.
SSRIs help a lot… some thoughts will still come through but all the rest of the thoughts will fall away except for the one that is linked to what you’re afraid of the most (that you feel like you should be afraid of based on maybe a traumatic past experience).
And for me personally, insecurities tied to my acne cleared up as my hormones became balanced.
She's so cool
TEDx Talks can you please add subtitles for different languages??
It’s like being plagued with debilitating uncertainty.
Yes it is. But you get over it by being certain about the fact that it's untrue
Parasite on the brain is so right
I am so thankful I found this. About five years ago i was invaded by intrusive thoughts. It nearly led me to want to kill myself just to make it stop . My wife got me help and saved my life. I’m so afraid to talk to anyone except my wife or psychiatrist about it. I have had some of the exact same thoughts as Jayde. It took me forever for me to tell myself that I am not that person. They are just thoughts and that’s it. Even disturbing, I don’t fight them anymore. I accept them for what they are and they simply “float away”
Yes! You are doing it right! Accept the thoughts! But never think they're true. Say to yourself “I understand what you're trying to tell me, ocd, but it's not true and even if it is, I won't do anything about it or hurt anyone so it doesn't matter anyway.
@@jaydeedgren god bless you. Thank you so much.
I hate ocd so much it ruined my life. i just want my mental health back
i love u jayde
I literally started crying when she said i m getting emotional... because i have HOCD its very difficult, its been 3.5 months i am going through. 😭😭.
it is okay to be sad and emotional and no need to be sorry