I Am Not A Monster: Schizophrenia | Cecilia McGough | TEDxPSU

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  • Опубликовано: 20 ноя 2024

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  • @bar8665
    @bar8665 5 лет назад +11745

    Imagine giving this speech while IT clown was taunting you from the crowd or behind your ear. Strong individual here.

    • @awesomeapple-jt8jd
      @awesomeapple-jt8jd 5 лет назад +126

      Matthew he’s called PENNYWISE

    • @tinalouiseking
      @tinalouiseking 5 лет назад +212

      I was thinking the same thing as she was speaking. Wow...im inspired

    • @flaviadasilva5627
      @flaviadasilva5627 5 лет назад +13

      Just pop bunch of neuroleptics before

    • @ashtynstormes1734
      @ashtynstormes1734 5 лет назад +33

      I want to like this but its at 666 and i dont want to spoil it.

    • @tinalouiseking
      @tinalouiseking 5 лет назад +7

      @@ashtynstormes1734 😂 I do that all the time. We need one more comment for it to be 666 6

  • @kylek7748
    @kylek7748 5 лет назад +18348

    "I am not much different from any of you"
    Idk there big dog, I didn't discover a star in high school while fighting off giant spiders and getting stabbed in the face by IT. You're a lot more badass than I am

    • @franciscofavarolaferrara8805
      @franciscofavarolaferrara8805 5 лет назад +480

      such a beautiful comment lol ♥

    • @spacecase7566
      @spacecase7566 5 лет назад +316

      Hah. I think it was the chick from the ring that would stab her in the face but, you’re right.

    • @fatimaadreeta
      @fatimaadreeta 4 года назад +36

      Exactly

    • @TheEldestSpawn1979
      @TheEldestSpawn1979 4 года назад +93

      Bruuuuuhhhh this is my favorite comment

    • @theopkingdom3433
      @theopkingdom3433 4 года назад +154

      Seriously. She's like this brilliant scientist who is also fighting D & D bosses...

  • @emilywhittle1420
    @emilywhittle1420 3 года назад +5590

    “I’m just someone who cannot turn off my nightmares, even when I’m awake.” WOW.

    • @hareecionelson5875
      @hareecionelson5875 3 года назад +104

      I've seen a 14 year old with psychosis, it's like he was speaking a different language, the incoherence of his sentences, and when he realised that the doctor wasn't understanding what he was saying, he stopped talking, because he knew there was no point carrying on the conversation.
      It was a lot like mumbling in your sleep when you're having a bad dream. I get chills just thinking about it.

    • @shawnmunck7412
      @shawnmunck7412 3 года назад +40

      i'm a type 2 schizo(schizophrenia with BPD triggers) an i approve this message 😂

    • @multi_verse8636
      @multi_verse8636 3 года назад +22

      We live in a nightmare reality

    • @shawnmunck7412
      @shawnmunck7412 3 года назад +12

      @@multi_verse8636 does a man dream hes a butterfly, or is it the butterfly dreaming its a man? are the nightmares happening to us, or are we making them happen? (its a lil of both i think, but i wanna get your opinion.)

    • @demiurg25
      @demiurg25 3 года назад +1

      762 to 763

  • @neffykalks5021
    @neffykalks5021 2 года назад +1911

    This sounds horrifying. Imagine seeing the scariest things and having nobody take you seriously. So scary. People with schizophrenia need more recognition.

    • @GabrielofAdonai
      @GabrielofAdonai 2 года назад +24

      We do need more representation

    • @Thysta
      @Thysta 2 года назад +8

      Try to drink alcohol every day all day for 2 weeks, and you will experience the same. Yes it is horrifying haha.

    • @memenazi7078
      @memenazi7078 Год назад +8

      Challenge accepted. Though, I figured lack of sleep is more of a contributing factor for hallucinations.

    • @hildagrauls5138
      @hildagrauls5138 Год назад +1

      Its also scary when they get into fight mode. Saying they wanna see the blood spulrt from your neck and wash their face in it.
      At least thats scary to me, dont know bout you guys tho

    • @cynxmanga
      @cynxmanga Год назад +3

      ​@@hildagrauls5138 Who said that to you

  • @sorensouthard927
    @sorensouthard927 4 года назад +1692

    "We all see hear and feels stuff when we're dreaming. I'm just someone who can't turn off my nightmares when I'm awake."

    • @scttrnhrt
      @scttrnhrt 4 года назад +9

      That's terrible. I'm so sorry.

    • @daisyglaze1817
      @daisyglaze1817 4 года назад +17

      I do not have schizophrenia but I have been interested in becoming educated about it. I had wondered what causes the hallucinations and thought about how they sound similar to what goes on when one is falling asleep; when you're still awake but start dreaming. Then upon researching I had read that schizophrenia is waking reality processed through the dreaming brain. It basically said the R.E.M state doesn't shut off upon waking so one is having dreams, or nightmares, while awake. Reading that helped me to get a better understanding of schizophrena. Now, hearing Cecilia I think she explains it very well.

    • @jeansoto1912
      @jeansoto1912 4 года назад

      This is perfect to the times like I would end up having chucky dream and the dream ends with him laughing than I wake up to him laughing.

    • @azul4904
      @azul4904 4 года назад

      that quote was so perfect

    • @homejonny9326
      @homejonny9326 4 года назад

      Sometimes happen to me that I am in a nightmare and I became aware of that, then I struggle to wake up and I eventally suceed in waking up.

  • @sarasplenda
    @sarasplenda 5 лет назад +15810

    NO ONES GOING TO TALK ABOUT HOW SHE DESCOVERED A STAR *IN HIGH SCHOOL* ?!?!

    • @ellasedits_
      @ellasedits_ 5 лет назад +489

      Sarasplenda i know right! That’s amazing, and she did it despite challenges, I’m so inspired by her 💕

    • @emmanuelserrato7805
      @emmanuelserrato7805 5 лет назад +159

      Yea altho she is really inspiring discovering stars is very common in the scientific community

    • @Teen-Tok-Shorts
      @Teen-Tok-Shorts 5 лет назад +212

      She just hallucinated that

    • @wisap4940
      @wisap4940 5 лет назад +150

      @@Teen-Tok-Shorts not if others also saw it

    • @colico14
      @colico14 5 лет назад +735

      @@Teen-Tok-Shorts Not cool.

  • @emilyskyleigh6337
    @emilyskyleigh6337 5 лет назад +22605

    My father had schizophrenia, he heard voices threatening me and my sister. He was scared and couldn’t sleep or eat and they told him to hurt people but he knew he wasn’t going to ever hurt a soul. He took his own life last year September 6th. He wrote diaries and he did sketches. He wasn’t a monster and he was scared, his name was Stephen. Edit: I was just diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and go through episodes of hallucinations, I know how my dad felt and I thank him for being so strong.

    • @MizziProductions
      @MizziProductions 5 лет назад +781

      Coral Denmark I’m very sorry to hear, Coral. May he rest in eternal peace. x

    • @matthewciaramella696
      @matthewciaramella696 5 лет назад +498

      Rest in peace Stephen

    • @HumanimalChannel
      @HumanimalChannel 5 лет назад +382

      i am so sorry Coral. so many people with schizophrenia don't make it. I wish you well and hope you do have support to help you in processing and dealing with your loss.

    • @emostorm7
      @emostorm7 5 лет назад +76

      Heart breaking ❤️

    • @tayloralexandra9507
      @tayloralexandra9507 5 лет назад +110

      Coral Denmark I’m so very sorry for your loss. Mental illness is such a difficult thing to deal with. He was a very strong man for a very long time. I pray for your healing. Stay strong, love. And may he rest peacefully. ❤️

  • @fennyellis3366
    @fennyellis3366 Год назад +247

    I was in a psych ward.
    I witnessed schizophrenics in psychosis.
    It was frightening. Yet, even in their psychosis, I heard pearls of wisdom.
    I wept for them.

    • @Kitt3nkrash
      @Kitt3nkrash Год назад +10

      I wept when I saw one get sedated.. even though I was the only minor in the place I heard others crying with me

    • @soniacastaneda865
      @soniacastaneda865 9 месяцев назад

      This is the best coments I ever read about so beautiful human 😊

    • @olivegrove-gl3tw
      @olivegrove-gl3tw 3 месяца назад +4

      my aunt had this condition and the doctor told me us that the majority of these people are very, very smart. with proper mediction and family help people can live normal lives

    • @jameslay6505
      @jameslay6505 Месяц назад +1

      Poetically worded.

    • @Dream7773
      @Dream7773 Месяц назад +1

      @@olivegrove-gl3twI wonder if people are able to take medication with minimal side effects . My son is going therapy but I’m afraid to start medication.

  • @Sup-rh4eu
    @Sup-rh4eu 4 года назад +9214

    Dude I can’t even do a presentation with a few people in the room and she’s doing it in front of hundreds and a clown who looks like IT

    • @alt0v14
      @alt0v14 4 года назад +131

      Pennywise, his name.

    • @conniewilliamson973
      @conniewilliamson973 4 года назад +82

      @Justin Bos that's the point, she has schizophrenia, which manifests as her hallucinating a clown

    • @theunconventionaldeal3879
      @theunconventionaldeal3879 4 года назад +83

      What if she's not hallucinating and someone else sees it also?

    • @slightlyshattered
      @slightlyshattered 4 года назад +6

      Justin Bos dont be rude.

    • @slightlyshattered
      @slightlyshattered 4 года назад +40

      TheUnconventionalDeal don’t discredit her illness.

  • @elle7562
    @elle7562 4 года назад +7588

    “The clown is in the audience right now.” That sent shivers down my spine

    • @giovannacognito8647
      @giovannacognito8647 4 года назад +46

      when was that in the vid

    • @lindathetford3776
      @lindathetford3776 4 года назад +233

      I'M SORRY BUT I WOULD HAVE FROZEN IN MY SEAT I know she's seeing it and I'm not making fun of her but she said others freaking out makes it worse so I'd just be like o.0 internally LOL

    • @annesmlr
      @annesmlr 4 года назад +66

      Giovanna Cognito 6:17

    • @vtechflower85
      @vtechflower85 4 года назад +11

      Omg same!

    • @thiscommentwasposted262
      @thiscommentwasposted262 4 года назад +180

      she should have pointed him out, and have everyone in the room look at him, point at him, and laugh him out of the room.

  • @crusadertsakos4638
    @crusadertsakos4638 6 лет назад +5418

    About the girl with the knife, man, a terrifying demon stabbing you, talking to you, and having access to all your insecurities and using them against you. No wonder why they cannot take it. All scizophrenics are so brave i admire them

    • @siemniak
      @siemniak 6 лет назад +25

      How they are brave exactly ? They get used to it before they do they get very scared and even suicidal. I mean I feel sorry for them but calling someone brave just because of the mental issues?

    • @natureandrap
      @natureandrap 6 лет назад +270

      siemniak not everyone gets used to it .... why do you think some take their lives because of this

    • @shanestrickland5006
      @shanestrickland5006 6 лет назад +100

      I have schizophrenia but I wouldn't say I'm brave. I'm forced into this.
      But still thanks for the kind words.

    • @nixiieofficial
      @nixiieofficial 5 лет назад +166

      @@siemniak because those mental issues are really hard to live with. if you haven't experienced it yourself you can't even begin to imagine how it feels. they are brave for surviving with a mind that's trying to kill them and in a society that keeps telling them they're monsters, just seeking attention, or not trying hard enough

    • @nixiieofficial
      @nixiieofficial 5 лет назад +2

      ok i guess you're not brave then @@siemniak

  • @chrystallinne
    @chrystallinne 2 года назад +405

    I have Schizophrenia, and this makes me feel seen. I’ve dealt with it since I was 10 (I am 18 now, and soon to be 19) and it’s been a very big struggle for me. I am like her in the sense that I can differentiate between a hallucination and reality. I am able to tell when I’m hallucinating, but it’s still difficult for me to deal with. I’m really happy that I found this video.

    • @gamingwithsmiley2192
      @gamingwithsmiley2192 2 года назад +7

      Thanks for this comment even tho years later I see it , it helps me. I was around 10 or so when mine started and hallucinations went away when I was 17 I am 34 now I was left with the other issues if I don't take care of myself my mental health goes down hill but iv been bettering myself for years , your comment helped me I hope mine helps you 😇 and hope you are well today

    • @sharonsettle9079
      @sharonsettle9079 Год назад

      You are loved I'm so sorry for you mental illness, my dear suffers from so I understand.

    • @BILLA17yt
      @BILLA17yt Год назад +2

      Do you guys feel others are hearing ur thoughts

    • @vsreelekshmi591
      @vsreelekshmi591 Год назад +1

      Heyy . I am a similarly disadvantaged person . Can we talk ?

    • @Novarcharesk
      @Novarcharesk 6 месяцев назад

      "Feel seen" what a cringe nonsense term

  • @the-rickster
    @the-rickster 3 года назад +6765

    Shawty really co-discovered a pulsar in high school while fighting off Pennywise, Aragog, and Samara and I can’t even do long division

    • @samcopernicus
      @samcopernicus 3 года назад +320

      saw my name and felt real confronted for a sec

    • @1Fatherlesschild
      @1Fatherlesschild 3 года назад +162

      Plot twist: she’s just being bullied by scps

    • @the-rickster
      @the-rickster 3 года назад +28

      @@1Fatherlesschild Lmfao

    • @the-rickster
      @the-rickster 3 года назад +21

      @@samcopernicus Oop-

    • @2bleushadow
      @2bleushadow 3 года назад +1

      @em sevilla 👏👏👏👏

  • @BigtimeBigA
    @BigtimeBigA 7 лет назад +9654

    A scary laughing clown the sometimes bites, a large spider that makes kid laughing noises as it moves, and a ghost girl that carries a knife and stabs her in face and other places, that's amazing she amount of sheer horror she has dealt with and is still on her way to a successful life, just amazing.

    • @raviolipaw9015
      @raviolipaw9015 7 лет назад +11

      Big A yuuup

    • @new-knowledge8040
      @new-knowledge8040 7 лет назад +26

      These are the extra mild cases. So recovery is possible.

    • @ThatSpazChick
      @ThatSpazChick 7 лет назад +88

      NEWKNOWLEDGE How is this at all mild?

    • @new-knowledge8040
      @new-knowledge8040 7 лет назад +28

      To give you an example, person A may present a report of something that happened to him/her, and the listeners just find this report as being nothing but the outcome of delusions and/or hallucinations. If physical proof of the event that occurred is then presented to the listeners, they then proceed to tell person A what had happened, and do so even though person A had said that this was the case to begin with.
      In other words, the "disbelief" of a schizophrenics words is taken so seriously, that despite there being proof of the schizophrenics words being true, the nutcase listeners still feel the schizophrenic has to be informed.
      This is total madness.

    • @michaelpodolske9626
      @michaelpodolske9626 7 лет назад

      Right

  • @jeanie9350
    @jeanie9350 3 года назад +3724

    my aunt has schizophrenia and when she said "I'm just someone who cannot stop my nightmares when I'm awake" that hit me so hard 😭😭

    • @debbieliz8612
      @debbieliz8612 3 года назад +10

      aw:///

    • @onewotldgovernmentonlywhen9044
      @onewotldgovernmentonlywhen9044 3 года назад +15

      I heard that viruses can cause schizophrenia. It’s a virus found in cats. Now there’s an injections that’s about $1,000 a month that’s helps very well. I have an uncle with it and with that shot he is changing very much. Sorry I can’t remember the name of the shot.

    • @avataraang4553
      @avataraang4553 3 года назад +7

      My aunt has schizophrenia because of really bad trauma from her childhood and has an alcoholic addiction. My uncle also had it but died at 60 years old

    • @deliciouscake4971
      @deliciouscake4971 3 года назад +3

      @@avataraang4553 rip 🥺😕

    • @airam-sj2172
      @airam-sj2172 3 года назад

      Wow, so sorry, I hope this video can help her somehow to deal with this so difficult situation.

  • @zarky12
    @zarky12 2 года назад +272

    Having this disease and achieving everything she has achieved... She is the real superhero and an amazingly strong person.

  • @ABhattacharya
    @ABhattacharya 4 года назад +5783

    I think schizophrenia has been demonized in movies.

    • @oliviaculhane7129
      @oliviaculhane7129 4 года назад +42

      Donny Darko

    • @Mtz2604
      @Mtz2604 4 года назад +183

      In all kinds of media, unfortunately

    • @ABhattacharya
      @ABhattacharya 4 года назад +50

      @@Mtz2604 True. I feel Hitchock's Psycho was the pioneer.

    • @EliudLeMoine
      @EliudLeMoine 4 года назад +47

      Agreed, but the good thing is, our vision of things are changing now-a-days

    • @ABhattacharya
      @ABhattacharya 4 года назад +16

      @@EliudLeMoine Hope so. It's high time!

  • @marielae.3977
    @marielae.3977 4 года назад +2203

    "DON´T LET ANYONE TELL YOU THAT YOU CAN´T HAVE A MENTAL ILLNESS AND STILL BE MENTALLY STRONG" . Cecilia is amazing

    • @hampter8992
      @hampter8992 4 года назад +1

      Facts

    • @biscuffer2518
      @biscuffer2518 3 года назад +10

      IMO ppl with mental health issues are the strongest people
      People's everyday stress revolves around their job, meaningless relationships and money
      mentally ill people wish that was their everyday stress
      I wish thats what i stressed about

    • @unslavement
      @unslavement 3 года назад +1

      She needs to trip

    • @alias_peanut
      @alias_peanut 3 года назад +1

      @@unslavement ??

  • @carsilk2492
    @carsilk2492 4 года назад +6209

    When I saw her on SBSK she couldn’t make eye contact, and here she’s speaking for a TED crowd... wild! Thanks Cecilia for educating me on schizophrenia, and for being an awesome inspiration

    • @sarahpapa484
      @sarahpapa484 4 года назад +323

      Ι think she couldnt make eye contact because there was a hallucination next to the person interviewing her.. im not sure tho :/

    • @carsilk2492
      @carsilk2492 4 года назад +43

      @@sarahpapa484 wow, mad respect for this amazing girl

    • @annythekettle7031
      @annythekettle7031 4 года назад +74

      @SS lol yeah that's something I've noticed too, some people are really uncomfortable when someone's looking at them in the eyes.

    • @sadeyes7652
      @sadeyes7652 4 года назад +78

      @SS I've always thought he's a really weird guy, like something about him is off

    • @MilesAndHeights
      @MilesAndHeights 4 года назад +33

      I had to go bk and check if it was the same person Cos body language is way different. Im glad though that she found a way through it to act “normal” (although I don’t really know what “normal” is)

  • @k.k.2157
    @k.k.2157 2 года назад +633

    Cecilia is amazing, such a strong woman. I've been suffering from depression since childhood and couldn't get into university and get a degree due to it. My biggest achievement so far has been staying alive and it saddens me. I wish I were stronger, not just strong enough to survive but strong enough to make my life right.

    • @shannonbook3493
      @shannonbook3493 2 года назад +50

      You fight a battle everyday. I too have these thoughts, but I try to remember the days I thought I should only be locked away and never would do anything. Some days showering is an accomplishment, some days I clean my whole house and kill it at work, some days we just stay alive and that is the strongest thing we can ever do. Tell your truth, no matter how agonizing it is to be in at times, because someone else will hear your story as their story and doing that is one of the bravest things you can do.

    • @k.k.2157
      @k.k.2157 2 года назад +29

      @@shannonbook3493 You are right, Shannon. Thank you for sharing with me your thoughts on this matter. As you said, even showering is an accomplishment, and as such we have to recognise the worth of our small actions. Any small success is success after all. Once again, thank you for your comment.

    • @sarahs1849
      @sarahs1849 2 года назад +16

      I'm so happy we are all here together, fighting to survive another day.

    • @k.k.2157
      @k.k.2157 2 года назад +8

      @@sarahs1849 I too am very glad to see we are all here, fighting and not quitting on ourselves.

    • @KitelessThirteen
      @KitelessThirteen 2 года назад +27

      Bro, if you’ve managed to stay alive all this time with depression then you are STRONG, you’re bloody strong. The things that aren’t ‘right’ with your life aren’t because of you, they’re because of your depression, they’re because every day you have to fight 100x harder to do anything. You can do it mate

  • @jamesricker3029
    @jamesricker3029 5 лет назад +8297

    Great talk. I love how she says repeatedly “I have schizophrenia,” and not, “I am schizophrenic.” Important identity distinction.

    • @sunjohn7197
      @sunjohn7197 5 лет назад +30

      Is this a jab at the Autism community?

    • @william_boone
      @william_boone 5 лет назад +180

      Sun John wtf are you talking about

    • @william_boone
      @william_boone 5 лет назад +294

      James Ricker I love that also. because at the end of the day she has a medical condition, she isn’t a medical condition.

    • @jamesricker3029
      @jamesricker3029 5 лет назад +92

      William Boone - Exactly. Not a clue what this Sun guy is talking about. Seems like if someone is looking to be offended they’ll find a way no matter how positive the comment.

    • @Rubyscoobydoo
      @Rubyscoobydoo 5 лет назад +37

      Sun John no, it’s called person first language.

  • @lineikatabs
    @lineikatabs 5 лет назад +3497

    Saw her on a SBSK interview. Her story inspired me to learn more about her condition. I'm so super delighted to hear her on a TED talk AND she's an astrophysicist?!?!! Insane in the most greatest sense possible.

    • @WillKrause21
      @WillKrause21 5 лет назад +56

      ya, I'm kinda confused why SBSK skipped that part of her.

    • @TheDeathsMessenger
      @TheDeathsMessenger 5 лет назад +67

      @@WillKrause21 He focuses more on the disability than the people themselves. They are more like the conductor of info

    • @TheyLoveThemLLC
      @TheyLoveThemLLC 5 лет назад +25

      Yeah I just saw her on SBSK and I was blown away by her story! I'm so proud of her and I hope she's doing well!

    • @rickjames5998
      @rickjames5998 5 лет назад +26

      @@TheyLoveThemLLC she lookes demeted and robotic almost on that sbsk

    • @mlconstable
      @mlconstable 5 лет назад +11

      That's where I first saw her too. She is amazing.

  • @titandragon753
    @titandragon753 2 года назад +130

    I have OCD, I have unwanted and intrusive distressing thoughts which never leave me alone. I also suffered a stress induced nervous breakdown, which caused me to have very scary and real hallucinations. I have also felt ashamed to tell people about it. Thank you for sharing your story. ❤️

  • @howieandersen
    @howieandersen 7 лет назад +8378

    I would like to point out that Cecilia got a standing ovation from the entire audience after this talk. She is such an inspiration, such a champion.

    • @pennydogsn
      @pennydogsn 7 лет назад +109

      find it embarrassing to bring up and tell people i have schizophrenia. my family knows cause they always take me to the psych ward when it shows up real bad. but i never tell co workers. they would just judge me and treat me different. no doubt. i tried college briefly. hated it. but working a job makes me feel normal. plus it tires me out so i can sleep and have a routine.

    • @pennydogsn
      @pennydogsn 7 лет назад +41

      also i enjoyed your speech. or your life story. it made me feel better knowing u can have a serious mental illness and still be a productive member of the world.

    • @Naomi-jz1sy
      @Naomi-jz1sy 7 лет назад +3

      sara novetsky p

    • @pennydogsn
      @pennydogsn 7 лет назад +19

      were u trying to say something to me? cause i cannot figure out how to read what u r typing. i see sara novetsky. and the letter p.

    • @mushroom1307
      @mushroom1307 7 лет назад +36

      Wonderful talk. I'm in the mental health field as an educator, and I found this useful.

  • @samiksha537
    @samiksha537 6 лет назад +1467

    So nice of the Ted crew to change the red circle carpet, which is like their signature, for her. Did anyone notice the "TedxPsu" was also dark/unlit however in most Tedx videos it is usually lit

    • @Shannonluvsuful
      @Shannonluvsuful 5 лет назад +71

      It's good that they were considerate.

    • @AudriusSauciunas
      @AudriusSauciunas 5 лет назад +10

      lit af

    • @Badcannon
      @Badcannon 5 лет назад +5

      Damn erza.. Your hair.. Hair.. Cover it up..

    • @Sleep2Dream
      @Sleep2Dream 2 месяца назад +1

      I noticed that too…it looks like she pushed her hair over her right eye so she wouldn’t see it in her peripheral vision as well.

  • @liamtahaney713
    @liamtahaney713 7 лет назад +3165

    I will never understand why the stigma surrounding mental health STILL exists. No one looks down on someone for a broken arm. You aren't shamed as being weak when you have cancer. It's messed up.

    • @karstenmahlzahn122
      @karstenmahlzahn122 7 лет назад +212

      Liam Tahaney and its more difficult to understand mental illnesses, than a broken arm. and people fear what they dont understand

    • @zellybrat1462
      @zellybrat1462 7 лет назад +105

      It's because way back when, the mentally ill were locked up because that's how they used to handle things. Many of us are still afraid to share our diagnosis because we get told it'll go away or you're just faking or you just want attention. Some are even afraid to share what they're feeling because they don't want to go into a mental hospital because of that stigma of being in there.

    • @kbardWarrr
      @kbardWarrr 7 лет назад +22

      People with broken arms and cancer don’t go on mass shooting sprees

    • @kbardWarrr
      @kbardWarrr 7 лет назад +10

      Nicole Clark 60% of all mass shootings since 1970 in the US were committed by people suffering from paranoia, delusions, and depression

    • @kbardWarrr
      @kbardWarrr 7 лет назад +6

      Minty Grace well, the OP didn’t understand the stigma surrounding it. I do agree that they need to be helped

  • @MyArtEminence
    @MyArtEminence 2 года назад +189

    I recgonized her from SBSK and seeing her now is such a transformation! She was so closed in and no eye contact and seeing her on stage is amazing! Well done!

    • @janelledillon6553
      @janelledillon6553 2 года назад +26

      Actually
      This is an old talk. This is five years old. Around the same
      Time that interview came out. However SBSK came out with a NEW interview with her and
      She HAS grown a lot !! It’s amazing

    • @DanielBro42
      @DanielBro42 Год назад

      same, came from there

    • @shannontobin7825
      @shannontobin7825 10 месяцев назад

      Me too! Awe the thumbnail and immediately thought, “hey she looks familiar!”

    • @ravenscarlettanis13
      @ravenscarlettanis13 10 месяцев назад

      I love SBSK! I want to be interviewed but I’m all the way in the UK.

    • @Jackinthewaffleburgerbox
      @Jackinthewaffleburgerbox 8 месяцев назад

      That’s why she looked so familiar then !

  • @luisforeal8676
    @luisforeal8676 7 лет назад +2701

    I saw when she started to slur her speach as soon as she started her hallucination slides. You could tell that shes not bullshitting.

    • @greencyy
      @greencyy 7 лет назад +81

      truth

    • @-crescent422-4
      @-crescent422-4 7 лет назад +5

      Yes. ):

    • @numbereightyseven
      @numbereightyseven 7 лет назад +96

      Luis Foreal Why would you even need to question that she may be?

    • @msgreenaliens
      @msgreenaliens 6 лет назад +94

      numbereightyseven I don’t think he wrote that as a question but rather a statement

    • @Melissa77777
      @Melissa77777 5 лет назад +74

      I noticed it too. Her voice shakes at some points as well.

  • @anna21a11
    @anna21a11 5 лет назад +3438

    how could her own mother say such horrible stuff to her....
    this makes me sick.

    • @evangeline77x
      @evangeline77x 5 лет назад +99

      Because she was scared.. Imagine being her mother and receiving that call what would you have done? The perfect, precious child you gave birth to, raised her entire life, protected and nurtured, whose fears you quelled and that you love with every fiber of your being, suddenly calls you from college. Your child tells you they are hallucinating and scared. She is away from home, probably several hours drive or even further, far enough that you can't just go get her right then and there.. I know I'd be scared if I was her mom. And to be fair most people don't understand schizophrenia, or severe dissociative disorders and she probably was afraid that her daughter would be involuntarily hospitalized somewhere actually horrible..
      There are so many reasons why her mom reacted the way she did.. Its not fair to judge her for it now.

    • @evnovave
      @evnovave 5 лет назад +227

      @@evangeline77x While I agree that being scared of knowing one's child has a mental illness like schizophrenia is natural, I think that any parent should make a move to get the child help instead of supressing it. Regardless of how the parent feels. Rejecting the fact that a child has a chemical imbalance in the brain and preventing them from receiving the proper help has bad outcomes. She mentioned that her mother said, "think of your sisters". A mother telling her child that their siblings wellbeing is more important than going to a doctor for their treatment, especially for mental illness? That really sucks. I know it's unreasonable judge her mother for it now, but it's important for parents to learn about how to deal with their child's mental illness in a way that won't be destructive.

    • @HerrMisterTheo
      @HerrMisterTheo 5 лет назад +67

      EveVazzz
      I highly doubt the mother was educated enough on schizophrenia to know that there would be proper medication out there. She probably thought "Going to the doctor isn't gonna do us any good, so just sit it out". I can imagine she was under the impression that people with schizophrenia just spent their lives in psychiatric institutions.

    • @evnovave
      @evnovave 5 лет назад +18

      @@HerrMisterTheo Oh... I understand. So her idea may have been tied to the stigma surrounding schizophrenia.

    • @HerrMisterTheo
      @HerrMisterTheo 5 лет назад +10

      EveVazzz
      Possibly. I don't know her, but I like to give people the benefit of the doubt. I'd like to believe that she didn't dissuade her daughter from getting treatment, because she wanted her to suffer and possibly kill herself.

  • @lilyk9518
    @lilyk9518 4 года назад +3032

    What she's doing is SO important. Destroying this kind of stigma is something that EVERY society needs.

    • @vebvin
      @vebvin 4 года назад +5

      Your name kinda scared me cus my sisters name is Lily K too lmfao-

    • @sudhanvakt
      @sudhanvakt 4 года назад +16

      In spite of her schizophrenia,she is managing her profession so smoothly.Really it is so amazing.She is really very brave and confident..

    • @robertleyva6004
      @robertleyva6004 4 года назад +2

      Lily K You're right and now with this comment you are contributing as well ✌️♥️

    • @privatprivat7279
      @privatprivat7279 3 года назад +4

      having schizophrenia means ur gifted... but its casted out as a sickness in the modern world and they dont know what to do with u! humanity hes gone so wrong.... we lost ourself SO FAR! most exciting time in human history thow! 🤣😉

    • @ethanotoroculus1060
      @ethanotoroculus1060 Год назад

      You're completely right. For my part I came here because my parents have a very pervasive prejudice against these people and I wanted to know the reality of it. I'm really glad that this video exists if only to help give perspective.

  • @baileyhallfilms
    @baileyhallfilms Год назад +76

    her bravery will change lives and all of the pain will transform lives too.

  • @tamanna500
    @tamanna500 5 лет назад +641

    imagine monsters from the ring ,stranger things and IT following you in real life, i can't handle the movie, i would never be able to handle life
    she's so strong.
    and screw the 1.5K people who disliked the video

    • @kittypewpew
      @kittypewpew 4 года назад +2

      The hallucinations are often very culture related, schizo people in more rural places hear usually positive voices.

    • @thedeath7736
      @thedeath7736 4 года назад +3

      maybe they somehow disliked her idea: have schizophrenia is ok :^ I'm a part of it too. We have different circumstances. Like she said find a doctor, medical treatment,... yeh sound easy, have you think about those people in poor countries lol. Like Asia as an example: no money no doctor. I know some people hiding their schizophrenia and talked to them before sound crazy but they decided to hide it
      I just said a part of those people disliked video ( maybe more culture-related I guess)

    • @c.9231
      @c.9231 4 года назад +5

      @@thedeath7736 You are way too quick to find fault. If people were able to get treatment then it would be a good thing, right? So why is it bad to encourage them to do so if it is possible? She gave good advice. If everyone all over the world and in every circumstance is not able to follow the advice it, that doesn't change the value of the advice or the value of her story. We should be supportive of and not quick to judge, those who already have a difficult life.

  • @krissmgvlogs
    @krissmgvlogs 5 лет назад +4043

    I watched her interview with SBSK and she was constantly looking away from the camera. I couldn't understand but after listening I believe she was averting her eyes from her hallucinations. I thought I knew what schizophrenia was but I guess I never had a clue. What a brave and strong woman.

    • @MikeWazowski680
      @MikeWazowski680 5 лет назад +104

      I just watched it too! I was wondering the same thing but what you said makes sense

    • @friedrichquecksilber770
      @friedrichquecksilber770 5 лет назад +160

      The comments where enabled the last time I saw it and someone that knows her in person said she looked away because she was hallucinating at that point and couldn't look in this direction because the hallucination was right behind him.

    • @mybld8969
      @mybld8969 5 лет назад +73

      the thing is people without it will never understand we can just try to be understanding and empathetic.

    • @lakenhigbee6969
      @lakenhigbee6969 5 лет назад +5

      @xxx CHOPPER how do you know? Any link? Just curious because I have schizophrenia and loved her and this video

    • @meganjohnson9623
      @meganjohnson9623 5 лет назад +3

      I watched it as well it really helped me understand her condition

  • @topgurl9313
    @topgurl9313 6 лет назад +3661

    As someone who does not have a mental disorder, but always wants to try to understand - thank you for this, ma'am. You're an amazing person.

    • @patrycja2059
      @patrycja2059 6 лет назад +52

      Lani Jauregui-Hansen you are amazing too because you are trying to understand mental disorder and not everyone do it! I dont have a schizofrenia but something alse and I just know how people can ignore problem which is hurtful. Thank you:) (im sorry for my ang!)

    • @topgurl9313
      @topgurl9313 6 лет назад +30

      @@patrycja2059 You're welcome, I see it as a responsibility to educate ourselves about what others are going through so that we can really help when people reach out. By making informed decisions and not making situations worse.

    • @vishnukrishnanr2280
      @vishnukrishnanr2280 6 лет назад +8

      I have not schizophrenia.but I learned more about this because of my anxiety disorder.i thing it's hard for a person having schizophrenia with horrible hallucinations .she learned more about her illness.i don't considering this disease as an illness in her case.cause its the strongest part that made her strong .

    • @renvill4989
      @renvill4989 5 лет назад +10

      @@vishnukrishnanr2280 I have ADHD and anxiety because of this I became more open about mental ilness and learned more about it. I just want everyone to know if your struggling with anything, Im going though a lot right now but we can go through this together and your not alone.

    • @dewaynestafford5507
      @dewaynestafford5507 5 лет назад

      Check out Jerry Marzensky for a real education

  • @eclecticme0940
    @eclecticme0940 Год назад +322

    She is absolutely amazing.

    • @jacobgrammer2022
      @jacobgrammer2022 Год назад +4

      She a amazing yep I agree

    • @ReichAnFleisch
      @ReichAnFleisch Год назад

      She lives while 259 has killed them the same time. That's not the help we need

    • @Deadhammer218
      @Deadhammer218 Год назад +4

      @@ReichAnFleisch Can you paraphrase your comment? I don't get it - 259 people died because of her help? I don't understand what you're trying to say

    • @ReichAnFleisch
      @ReichAnFleisch Год назад +1

      @@Deadhammer218 she survived but so many take there lives we need more help than that

    • @alvaroq2024
      @alvaroq2024 Год назад +7

      @@ReichAnFleisch It sounds like you’re advocating for more non-profit organizations that deals with schizophrenia in general, not just young people in the USA. Good for you, now get to work on making that happen.

  • @CherryDolce93
    @CherryDolce93 7 лет назад +5106

    I'm shook. The clown was in the audience. She's an iron lady. So Incredible!

    • @2kiwis1aussie
      @2kiwis1aussie 7 лет назад +689

      That was the most powerful moment in the talk for me. I couldn't believe how confident and collected she was in the face of such a terrifying hallucination. Amazing woman.

    • @RinoaL
      @RinoaL 7 лет назад +164

      it made sense to me, i was wondering when she would say it.

    • @IvanSlayerr
      @IvanSlayerr 7 лет назад +3

      When does she mention it?

    • @maggiebachelor7445
      @maggiebachelor7445 7 лет назад +58

      Ivan Reyes 6:20

    • @kayrealist9793
      @kayrealist9793 7 лет назад +84

      Brave girl. I would of ended up talking to the clown on stage.

  • @mifzalaerum8920
    @mifzalaerum8920 2 года назад +1878

    "Don't let Anyone convince you not to get medical help." THIS IS ONE OF THE MOST POWERFUL SENTENCE I'VE EVER HEARD!!!

    • @dumdumdumdum8804
      @dumdumdumdum8804 2 года назад

      feel like crying she did not understand that this is technology and there is no cure because it is not a disease but technology, there are simulations available where you could direct sound to a single person in a crowd, They market this people, I feel sad for her she is used for propaganda.

    • @memenazi7078
      @memenazi7078 Год назад +13

      The mental health field is a waste of money

    • @user-hc4ls5of3g
      @user-hc4ls5of3g Год назад +11

      I think in moments of panic, people suggest not getting "help" because help in our society for psychotic symptoms means being locked up and heavily medicated. Masking the root of the problem which is a complexity of abnormal ways to cope with panic and deep rooted family issues that not allow room for expression because of the confusing layout of reality within a schizophrenic family.

    • @lttrhd
      @lttrhd Год назад

      Schizophrenics really acknowledge that they have mental problems.

    • @Truthseeker371
      @Truthseeker371 Год назад

      In the same token we can say don't believe everything doctors say. I deal with mentally ill people. I find the biggest obstacle with them is denial. They don't accept they have some mental issues. But it's understandable. If they can accept it, they are not really considered mentally ill. We all have to have tolerance and understanding with "mentally ill people". None of us are normal.

  • @PopsiclesInMyCellar
    @PopsiclesInMyCellar 6 лет назад +3655

    Pretty messed up how the mind can produce such horrible and specific manifestations and inject them into your reality.

    • @lomalanni
      @lomalanni 6 лет назад +171

      Reality can never be scarier than what's inside our own heads.

    • @outoftheklosset
      @outoftheklosset 6 лет назад +95

      venom5610 then that would be imagination not hallucination. Obtrusive hallucinations aren't negotiable, unfortunately.

    • @mhuh
      @mhuh 6 лет назад +2

      Unless you live in Australia or Montana.

    • @JanoyCresva
      @JanoyCresva 6 лет назад

      Sounds pretty cool to me. If she wasnt so affected by fantasy creatures and bugs, she wouldnt be so terrified.

    • @emes6333
      @emes6333 6 лет назад

      I lov ur profile picture

  • @piccadelly9360
    @piccadelly9360 Год назад +276

    It takes a lot of courage to make a statement like that, I admire you and what you do for all of humanity.
    People with schizophrenia are normal people too , and you proved it

    • @zackz1260
      @zackz1260 Год назад

      they are, by definition, not ‘normal’

    • @yuliia-san5609
      @yuliia-san5609 Год назад +2

      I don’t have such problems with perception, don’t fight this. But after this video I feel more weaker than all people who fight this. Guys you’re warriors! Adore you all. Brain just bugged… not your fault. Such important thing Sicilia doing! I’m sorry to find out that some of you guys straggle so much. Big respect to brave, smart, beautiful Sicilia and to you all guys!! I’m absolutely okay to have friends like you and if someone is not - it’s their problem, not yours. I would say they just bad people
      PS: Jesus, this story about police! So unfair!!!
      (I’m sorry, bad English)

    • @aloalo3727
      @aloalo3727 9 месяцев назад

      ​@@zackz1260there is no normal. Schizophrenia is her normal. Who gets to decide who's normal is the real one?

  • @brandon7587
    @brandon7587 5 лет назад +3672

    "The color red triggers me"
    me: sweating hoping she doesnt turn around and see the GIANT RED TED SIGN BEHIND HER

    • @joakimandersson7769
      @joakimandersson7769 5 лет назад +182

      Isn't it blue for that precise reason?

    • @morgansmith1529
      @morgansmith1529 5 лет назад +358

      they made sure to keep it in shadow for that reason

    • @Marandanorton93
      @Marandanorton93 5 лет назад +128

      Did anyone else notice her website or forum was red and white?

    • @brettmitchell8014
      @brettmitchell8014 5 лет назад +5

      Not cool

    • @sarabeth641
      @sarabeth641 5 лет назад +91

      generally people with triggers can still handle small amounts of them through coping mechanisms, depending on how severe, how fresh, etc.

  • @georgerobins4110
    @georgerobins4110 5 лет назад +1652

    God, having schizophrenia and doing a presentation like this is so brave. I can't imagine how scary it must be to tell an audience full of people you see things that aren't there.
    Not to mention a common symptom of schizophrenia is word salad, which means that your words make perfect sense to you, but they're so jumbled up that everyone else thinks they're non-sense. Basically imagine speaking in slang that nobody else in the world understands.

    • @valerielinares2068
      @valerielinares2068 5 лет назад +57

      My sister has a mild case of schizophrenia, and she is almost always saying things in ways that don't make sense. I didn't realize that was connected to her schizophrenia.

    • @leslyl1818
      @leslyl1818 5 лет назад +5

      i dont really know if i have schizophrenia but my therapist says i have schizo-noises. but idrk if thats the same thing though

    • @kristinesmart24
      @kristinesmart24 5 лет назад +8

      @@leslyl1818 You have to make an appt. with your doctor as soon as possible. Don't be googling things like I do making yourself upset.

    • @rewrite5133
      @rewrite5133 5 лет назад +23

      @@kristinesmart24 A therapist is a doctor.

    • @idealtruth3904
      @idealtruth3904 5 лет назад +13

      I had a bad fever today trip when I was very young. I walked down stairs and sat on the couch. I looked over at the dog, and he told me if I move from that corner of the couch or if I told them he would kill my whole family. He didn't move his mouth so I heard it in my head, but it was the scariest thing that ever happened to me. So for people to go through that every day or so. It must be very tough for them.

  • @pauliethompson3922
    @pauliethompson3922 3 года назад +1825

    The spider while moving sounded like children laughing, thats possibly the most terrifying thing i have ever heard.

    • @melk1776
      @melk1776 3 года назад +30

      Me too,i cant even imagine it...

    • @pauliethompson3922
      @pauliethompson3922 3 года назад +54

      @@melk1776 i mean i have crazy dreams were i swear i have lived whole lifetimes. But what she said terrified me to my core.

    • @teresatano193
      @teresatano193 3 года назад +40

      HORRIBLE BEYOND WORDS. Why can't it be a vision of a nice unicorn or something?

    • @pauliethompson3922
      @pauliethompson3922 3 года назад +25

      @@teresatano193 i dont know but just thinking of that vision makes me feel her pain. I habe terrifying dreams of demons and sleep paralysis but i wake up in the morning. This poor woman i wish i could take her pain away.

    • @uixxkx4345
      @uixxkx4345 3 года назад

      it feels great how crazy it is

  • @zakkxx1
    @zakkxx1 2 года назад +163

    Ok this is a motivational speech for sure… I hate when celebrities try to lecture us or teach about things they don’t even experience anymore in life. Hearing her talking about her fight against schizophrenia is really commendable and she is a real fighter for her ability to graduate while suffering from this disease. Kudos to her, Miss Cecilia you are a survivor.

    • @kellywguarnaccia7077
      @kellywguarnaccia7077 Год назад +2

      A member of Fleetwood Mac had it, a Beach Boy had it, those who got help accepted the world as such survive and live decent outcomes. It's Agnosia percentage that fight medication in their own paranoid world, they need families to go to court for court order healthcare, some strong consistent NAMI and research on how to speak building trust. Often it where's down the family and bad things continue or worsen if you cannot accept the illness in your child and you fight and worsen it.

  • @m00nlightnew
    @m00nlightnew 4 года назад +1890

    I have schizophrenia and this makes me feel less alone, I know that sounds so simple. You're a badass!

    • @celine2670
      @celine2670 4 года назад +42

      Mickey Arlo remember that there are people who love and support you 😁💞

    • @TigequenChan
      @TigequenChan 4 года назад +40

      ​@@flyman9251 so, only the girl in this video is allowed to have schizophrenia and no one else can have it? stop being ridiculous. it's better to trust someone's words than to tell someone with a mental illness that they're wrong. that's incredibly harmful.

    • @TigequenChan
      @TigequenChan 4 года назад +34

      @@flyman9251 it's a video about schizophrenia. of course people who have it are going to talk about it in the comments. they're not looking for pity but for people similar to them since they probably feel so alone irl.

    • @TigequenChan
      @TigequenChan 4 года назад +23

      @@flyman9251 jesus, you're dull

    • @rachelohara1489
      @rachelohara1489 4 года назад +3

      I am here if you need to talk x

  • @latenitetubing
    @latenitetubing 4 года назад +850

    “Don’t let anyone convince you not to get medical help” THANK YOU

    • @alwardgrover3347
      @alwardgrover3347 4 года назад +1

      How right you are

    • @Tux0xFF
      @Tux0xFF 4 года назад +2

      scientologists are typing....
      XD XD XD

    • @filtill
      @filtill 4 года назад +2

      The world needs the living God. Nobody can help us except God, Seek the living God!

    • @alwardgrover3347
      @alwardgrover3347 4 года назад +3

      @@filtill Well when you see god ask him for the Lotto numbers God is not real there is No god

    • @dreahutch1091
      @dreahutch1091 4 года назад +1

      @@filtill you are absolutely correct. Only God can help!

  • @duchesspodcast
    @duchesspodcast 2 года назад +983

    My sister has schizophrenia. It’s hip to talk all about mental health these days, but if once you talk about schizophrenia people get weird and quiet. So many practitioners won’t even treat it. Disgusts me. Glad this young woman is speaking out and effecting change.

    • @Bewefau
      @Bewefau 2 года назад +19

      because they don't know how to treat it.

    • @ashla7567
      @ashla7567 2 года назад +73

      @@Bewefau We in the psychology field do know how to treat schizophrenia. We can’t cure it, but we can definitely manage the symptoms. The stigma just runs so deep that some practitioners are afraid to even be around these patients. It’s a really sad phenomenon in our field.

    • @mahna_mahna
      @mahna_mahna 2 года назад

      @@Bewefau It's not that. It's because it's often a very visible mental illness (for those with symptoms of disorganized speech and motor function, or negative symptoms causing lack of hygiene or eye contact.) Most mental illness is hidden to us, with people able to keep their symptoms entirely invisible. On top of that, when they do speak out, it emphasizes that some people with schizophrenia experience a different perceived reality, with hallucinations and delusions. Many people find it hard to talk with someone whose perception of reality is so different. It challenges them, and many don't rise to that challenge.
      On top of that is the small percentage of people with schizophrenia who are violent. Through negative media portrayals of schizophrenia, the perception is that _all_ people with schizophrenia are violent, or could become violent at any moment, so you better keep away from them.

    • @sunl6564
      @sunl6564 2 года назад +12

      @@ashla7567 agree with being afraid to be around them because what they think, feel, see is out of the boundaries of what a normal person can imagine. It is worse than ptsd because there is no root to cure. Unfortunately may need to involve some pills. If the individual has self-awareness and want to be better that's the best. But some are consumed by it and did bad things or suicide.

    • @oooo1743
      @oooo1743 Год назад +5

      I don't have training of anything and i have no problem sitting in a room with and listen and talk with such ppl.I believe that these so "disorders" are actually not illnesses but something with wich the person have to grow

  • @redlilwitchy6088
    @redlilwitchy6088 2 года назад +83

    From a mother, thank you for speaking up and breaking the silence on living with schizophrenia. My son developed sz in his freshman year and has not yet returned.
    He is not a monster either. 🙏🏼🧡

    • @naylinrodriguez1796
      @naylinrodriguez1796 Год назад +3

      We know he is not ❤ his brain just work diferent way I have had pure TOC but at the time I accept myself and told my self I love you no matter what and Im produjo of you and the strong you are :)

  • @Renbu8
    @Renbu8 5 лет назад +1715

    I have schizophrenia too. Her pattern and style of speech reminded me of my own. It's like she's struggling to condense her thoughts into something organized and coherent.

    • @Valkonnen
      @Valkonnen 5 лет назад +20

      It's The Medication.

    • @swingtodivine
      @swingtodivine 5 лет назад +71

      Hello, I was freed from the demon of schizophrenia in 2016, when I chose to believe in Jesus Christ. I pray that one day you too will choose to receive Jesus into your life to be your Lord, and that you will find freedom from this disease just as I did. I truly believe anyone can be set free from this by the power of the cross. Thank you for reading my post, and have a nice day!

    • @vixengarde
      @vixengarde 5 лет назад +181

      VictoriaWomer SwingToDivin Jesus doesn’t fix everything-

    • @swingtodivine
      @swingtodivine 5 лет назад +67

      @@vixengarde That is true. There are a lot of people with physical illnesses and even deformities that never get healing. But I do know that Jesus healed me from mental illness, and that's all I was trying to share. Have a nice day :-)

    • @caramel7050
      @caramel7050 5 лет назад +172

      @@swingtodivine Religious superstition doesn't fix imbalances in the brain. You fell to confirmation bias and placebo effects, buddy.

  • @suk4honesty
    @suk4honesty 6 лет назад +4304

    She's got such a meticulously authentic 1980's look. Props

    • @StevieMichelle
      @StevieMichelle 6 лет назад +27

      Especially with the blonde hair

    • @nathanrobert2550
      @nathanrobert2550 6 лет назад +58

      I thought I was the only one who thinks she looks straight out of the 80s

    • @rosysingh6699
      @rosysingh6699 6 лет назад +5

      vickie g That is a very interesting observation and so very spot on! Really nice☺

    • @iciman100
      @iciman100 6 лет назад +1

      who is she on the pic ???

    • @carolmyggen8684
      @carolmyggen8684 6 лет назад +12

      Really.... I was in my 20's in the 80's and don't remember that look at all. Maybe different geographical areas had different looks

  • @boynamedlen
    @boynamedlen 6 лет назад +1215

    The way she says 'schizophrenia' is really satisfying and pleasant for some reason.

    • @brendan2868
      @brendan2868 6 лет назад +6

      Hshaha seductive

    • @devetakiskullguise18
      @devetakiskullguise18 6 лет назад +4

      should we be scared or something?

    • @MidoriJane12
      @MidoriJane12 6 лет назад +4

      Lennart N it has a lot of consonants

    • @aleebaabe2489
      @aleebaabe2489 6 лет назад

      Lennart N i was thinking the same thing

    • @BrandinZinck
      @BrandinZinck 6 лет назад +4

      My doctors have pronounced it like her, and explained the way I say it was actually incorrect.

  • @polarisheiress2202
    @polarisheiress2202 Год назад +30

    My sister in law has schizophrenia and her first schizophrenic break was in college. High stressors tend to trigger the first episode. Getting the support she needed took years

  • @Lauren-fj4nq
    @Lauren-fj4nq 6 лет назад +818

    I have schizophrenia and my episodes sometimes cause me to try to take my own life, this made me proud of who I am and I am no longer ashamed.

    • @scarliep
      @scarliep 5 лет назад +34

      God Bless You

    • @gabfig1669
      @gabfig1669 5 лет назад +20

      Lauren god bless you never be ashamed of who you are.

    • @debramather2477
      @debramather2477 5 лет назад +38

      If you ever need someone to talk to I'm one of your people. My dad had it since i was 7. Im 46 now. My 16 yr old son had it dx at 14 but had it for a year before telling anyone. I get it. I'm here. Much love n peace.

    • @fanta1773
      @fanta1773 5 лет назад +6

      Debra Mather thanks for sharing

    • @cyber_dev24
      @cyber_dev24 5 лет назад +8

      You're brave, I have depression and people like you always give me hope.

  • @Pschychotically
    @Pschychotically 5 лет назад +445

    "I'm just someone who can't turn off my nightmares even when I'm awake." ~ Cecilia McGough, 2017

  • @lucasjustice
    @lucasjustice 5 лет назад +2179

    She was on SBSK. I’m glad that she’s gotten so far from then!

    • @drewm8502
      @drewm8502 5 лет назад +68

      Was wondering if anyone else watched that too

    • @lindseydejesus1877
      @lindseydejesus1877 5 лет назад +41

      yes! i found her on SBSK and she's so wonderful! i wish we could be friend irl haha

    • @blackBrad18
      @blackBrad18 5 лет назад +23

      Found the comment I was looking for.

    • @angelar.8649
      @angelar.8649 5 лет назад +38

      I wasn't sure if it was her until she spoke about the clown and the girl. Wow she looks so different in SBSK .

    • @pkorns1892
      @pkorns1892 5 лет назад +32

      That's where I saw her. You tube has disabled the comments to all of his videos even though most all the comments were positive. SBSK is trying to get their comment section reinstated.

  • @wendymattucci4336
    @wendymattucci4336 Год назад +39

    I literally bawled through the entire presentation! My grandmother suffered from paranoid schizophrenia. I suffer from Bipolar 1 Disorder and was just thinking about becoming a mental health advocate! Such an inspiring, important talk!

    • @loriejohnston839
      @loriejohnston839 7 месяцев назад

      You should because individuals who personally experience it and are doing great living a healthy life and doing well, are the best individuals to make a difference in someone's life that has not quit got there yet.

  • @jimmystagger
    @jimmystagger 4 года назад +811

    I am in awe of this woman's ability to overcome her schizophrenia and achieve so much in science. In awe.

    • @d4rshni456
      @d4rshni456 4 года назад +15

      she’s not overcome it. she still has it

    • @EK-rx2ju
      @EK-rx2ju 4 года назад +10

      @@d4rshni456 think they mean she was able to overcome it controlling her life

    • @chromberries7329
      @chromberries7329 4 года назад +2

      Ngl, she had me interested in those pulsars

    • @lolcindydarling3642
      @lolcindydarling3642 3 года назад +1

      Exactly!

    • @alias_peanut
      @alias_peanut 3 года назад

      ngl is not gonna lie??

  • @kr-666
    @kr-666 5 лет назад +1255

    Wow this is the first time I've ever really heard someone talk about schizophrenia like this.

    • @selty
      @selty 5 лет назад +6

      I love how she compares it to people without schizophrenia having dreams whilst asleep instead of constantly. It really made it so relatable.

  • @yungxcoral
    @yungxcoral 3 года назад +2598

    My boyfriend has schizophrenia, he often thinks he’s a monster and that us as a society are better than him but I always remind him that he is not a monster. He’s a very kind and thoughtful person. It just hurts to know that people with Schizo go through so much emotionally, mentally, and so much more. Please be kind to one another we need more love in this world. Love you J ❤️

    • @1Fatherlesschild
      @1Fatherlesschild 3 года назад +41

      This this is depressing you sound like a great friend just stay there for them

    • @ratflail215
      @ratflail215 3 года назад +37

      One of my best friends has it too. He's the most kindest person I know and doesn't deserve it in any way. I've only asked him couple questions but seeing that he is so ashamed of his illness I stopped. I don't think he has many if at all visual hallusinations but sometimes he kinda drifts out and I believe he's hearing something. Mostly he is very normal but during spring even on meds he just shuts down and doesn't want to see anyone. We just give him space and and let him be then.

    • @pacomg_2553
      @pacomg_2553 2 года назад +6

      I can relate to your friend, I started developing symptoms in the last semester of High School, and honestly I even puked when I saw myself in the mirror. One of the few things that could make me feel human wasn't when people told me I was human after a mental breakdow, but instead when someone who didn't know me or hadn't seen me during a psychotic attack treated me as such. Mainly because it was a selfless act, and the person didn't know what I felt like, yet, they showed empathy, this brought me confort a lot of times, and even a cat displaying these traits saved me from taking my own life. Please be kind to others, even if you don't know them, you could be their last hope. Now I'm being treated, but sometimes I have delusions and extreme paranoia, please let your friend know that treatment and therapy (if possible) can make a huge difference.

    • @suspiciouswatermelon7639
      @suspiciouswatermelon7639 2 года назад

      He is in fact a monster.. and he probably needs to be locked in a cage for everyone's protection.

    • @stacynp90
      @stacynp90 2 года назад +5

      It’s so sad because they can’t help it and it must be very scary. Thanks for being a friend to him.

  • @brittanywallis6471
    @brittanywallis6471 2 года назад +37

    So much courage. She made me want to cry. She touched me in so many ways. She gave me courage to not feel ashamed to go to the doctor for meds. Everyone keeps saying I don’t need them but I’ve been dealing with issues since I was a kid.

    • @loriejohnston839
      @loriejohnston839 7 месяцев назад

      Please never feel ashamed. Going to the doctor/psychiatrist is the best thing you can do for yourself and you should be very proud to do so. There are many many people who have some type of brain disorder including people with Alzheimers, dementia, Parkinson, and many more and I categorize all of these disorder amongst the brain disorder category. Each need medication to help reduce or eliminate very difficult symptoms. Never feel ashamed to get help for yourself to live a happy productive life.

  • @aponiaa
    @aponiaa 6 лет назад +1191

    My uncle had schizophrenia. In the 70s, he went into a convenience store and the clerks were scared by how erratic he was acting so they pepper sprayed him. He stumbled out of the store, blinded by the spray, and stepped into traffic-- he was hit by a truck and killed. We need awareness and widely available help to keep these things from happening to other people, because it's all too common for individuals suffering with schizophrenia to end up homeless on the street or dead. It's a tragedy that it can be prevented, but it's so often not. I'm so proud of this girl for all she's overcome and accomplished, it'll help save many lives!

    • @violetaluna2782
      @violetaluna2782 6 лет назад +64

      Jake 😞 it brakes my heart to read your story, my son suffers from schizophrenia and it is so hard for him to go out in public, I always get scared something like that will happen to him. He is talks to himself there has been insidents where he says a bad word and other people respond imidiatly with violence. It is not easy for him or me😞

    • @insomeperson
      @insomeperson 6 лет назад +3

      Stand for him, you can make him strong, just help him through his tough times. He can make it through and so can you, so help him fight!

    • @kg-oe6vq
      @kg-oe6vq 6 лет назад +7

      Jake that. is. so. messed. up. i’m so sorry.

    • @marythomas8170
      @marythomas8170 6 лет назад +2

      Hahaha that is one way to kick the bucket I wish I could see that one on r/watchpeopledie.

    • @imanileche6206
      @imanileche6206 6 лет назад +6

      Jake I’m really sorry for you loss some people don’t realize people have that conduction and it makes me really anger how people will kill people without know they have that conduction.

  • @themarilynwannabe801
    @themarilynwannabe801 3 года назад +216

    My mother has schizophrenia, she used to push me out of the way of windows because she thought people were outside with guns that were gonna shoot us.
    Even though I know there was no one out there, I know in her head, there was and she was saving my life!
    My mom is such an amazing woman and she has been so resilient with everything life has thrown at her. She's since gotten treatment and she's been able to manage her schizophrenia ❤️ I'm so proud of her. She's definitely not a monster and neither are you

    • @elizabethjohnson6386
      @elizabethjohnson6386 2 года назад +19

      The fact that you're willing to appreciate that, even though she was sick, she was trying to do the right thing by protecting you, is special.

  • @Cnc-q9j
    @Cnc-q9j 5 лет назад +474

    "I can't turn off my nightmares when I'm awake".

    • @austinrichards871
      @austinrichards871 5 лет назад +1

      Nadisha say it louder so true

    • @austinrichards871
      @austinrichards871 5 лет назад

      Nadisha but life is worth living

    • @bouncy8025
      @bouncy8025 5 лет назад +5

      my live is sometimes a nightmare no voices in head needed

  • @seektruth24-7
    @seektruth24-7 2 года назад +28

    I am a Nursing Professor and I teach about cultures, religions and Mental Health. I wanted you to know that I use your SBSK interview video in my class because it helps students understand this mental health challenge in a beautiful way. I encourage my students to follow not only TED & SBSK (which I ADORE! Keep up the amazing work, it's needed!) but Cecilia's journey! Thank you Cecilia for being so brave! You go girl!!!

  • @hi-br5tc
    @hi-br5tc 6 лет назад +1941

    Her voice is so soothing! And she's very *very* pretty

  • @donna481
    @donna481 5 лет назад +1245

    Saw her in special books by special kids. So happy for her that she is talking abt it more..

    • @matthewlysne
      @matthewlysne 5 лет назад +14

      Ditto. She is so good. I appreciate her story. It is so helpful to understand her experience. It is eye-opening.

    • @jelly3166
      @jelly3166 5 лет назад +3

      Same

    • @laurend.3858
      @laurend.3858 4 года назад +3

      Same here

    • @njineermike
      @njineermike 4 года назад +2

      Yep

    • @yaimemiller8537
      @yaimemiller8537 4 года назад +2

      I know she's doing so well and helped me understand

  • @Lexi-vj1lm
    @Lexi-vj1lm 5 лет назад +827

    Her smile is beautiful. She’s clearly a genius. I’m proud of her.

    • @allanpotocki5972
      @allanpotocki5972 4 года назад

      Check out this recent video of her, you honestly couldn't even tell it was her shes changed so much! So happy for her. Look up - Schizophrenia in 2020 (coping with the chaos), heres the talk!

  • @Mio1199
    @Mio1199 2 года назад +50

    Man i really appreciated her shinning more light on schizophrenia. Personally i think everyone just lacks the knowledge on what schizophrenic individuals deal with so its really empowering to see her face her fears to explain her experiences. Best entry yet 👌

  • @gmc5618
    @gmc5618 4 года назад +2287

    Is this the same Cecelia from SBSK? What a fabulous person❤️

  • @evelynchang2100
    @evelynchang2100 6 лет назад +989

    I literally sobbed at the very last part... I've been suffering with schizophrenia since I was 19... I've been hospitalized 6 times and have tried to kill myself several times. It's not something I talk about. Ever. Because I'm so afraid of what people will think... Thank you so much for speaking out... God bless you...

    • @evelynchang2100
      @evelynchang2100 6 лет назад +9

      jung bun thank you so much! It's still a struggle every day. But it seems to slowly be getting better. I finally opened up to my husband about it and he understood. He was much more kind than I ever expected.

    • @splonkdesplonk
      @splonkdesplonk 6 лет назад +6

      Evelyn Chang We love you and the world needs you. Never stop loving yourself, you WILL endure..bless you forever

    • @antigonajusufi9957
      @antigonajusufi9957 6 лет назад +2

      May Allah SWT guide you my dear and help you out with whatever it is you’re suffering...

    • @neverbeaten
      @neverbeaten 6 лет назад +5

      Evelyn Chang hi. I absolutely dont know you, but I wanted to see how you are doing? Hope you read this. Hope you are REALLY fine. Hang in there. I havd OCD and chronic depression. So hi evelyn! :)

    • @iceprincess6225
      @iceprincess6225 6 лет назад +2

      God bless you to, I could never imagine that pain, I hope you will be okay

  • @_username_3591
    @_username_3591 4 года назад +1045

    This is terrifying imagining being stabbed in the face while taking a test.

    • @jimineutron3775
      @jimineutron3775 3 года назад +26

      _ [Username] _ I would definitely make scene if that happens to me...

    • @Akira-fu9dw
      @Akira-fu9dw 3 года назад +52

      Taking a test itself is terrifying

    • @phattjohnson
      @phattjohnson 3 года назад +3

      I'd imagine the worst hallucinations come with stress / tiredness.. just can't win when it's exam time!

    • @samwelch8085
      @samwelch8085 3 года назад +1

      I’d take the stab over the test😂

    • @SmashGuru007
      @SmashGuru007 3 года назад

      She's probably seeing that as she's speaking. poor girl, bless her soul.

  • @amylopez5840
    @amylopez5840 2 года назад +41

    When she compared it to having nightmares except she is awake, I think that’s an excellent way to describe it that would connect with people who don’t have it !!

  • @MsAnduk
    @MsAnduk 7 лет назад +454

    It's so refreshing to hear this, my boyfriend has schizophrenia,and he is an amazing human being, he's kind,loving and I want to do everything I can to be his champion. Thank-you for your words of encouragement .

    • @WesleyButtercup
      @WesleyButtercup 7 лет назад +2

      There is a reason to be fearful though too if its not managed. Schizophrenia can cause people to become mentally unhinged when the hallucinations and constant taunting become too much, and many mass murderers that have gone on killing sprees have been schizophrenic or suffered similar mental illness. Someone can be a victim while simultaneously being dangerous to themselves and others.

    • @rottingsun
      @rottingsun 7 лет назад +23

      Actually it's very rare that they attack other people. Usually a person with schizophrenic delusions will harm themselves. if anyone. Please don't perpetuate a negative, false stereotype that contributes to the stigma.

    • @BoopSnoot
      @BoopSnoot 7 лет назад

      And that's not to say that schizophrenics aren't victims, but abused dogs forced to fight and who are hit with sticks and the like by their cruel owners are victims too but if you just try to rehome them with a small child there is a chance that they could kill the kid. Its all about predictability... with a well adjusted sane person, you can predict their behavior. Unless you threaten them, they have no rational reason to attack you. But with an insane person, you can't really know what will happen, because their behavior may not be rational. And people forget that cops often get bad intel. If the dispatcher just says "we need officers immediately to the university bla bla for someone mentally disturbed that has become unhinged", their preconception of what threat you pose is going to be distorted, and that's not their fault. The last time they responded to a mentally disturbed case, it might have been a knife wielding father who killed his wife and was threatening his children. They don't know, and their job is to be safe rather than sorry and secure the public and maintain the peace.

    • @alexsp7086
      @alexsp7086 7 лет назад

      and one day he picks up a gun and shoots you down.

    • @rubbish9231
      @rubbish9231 7 лет назад

      WesleyButtercup what are you doing man. Demoralizing. No nothing happens like that if you give love and balance.

  • @kendalrivera6027
    @kendalrivera6027 7 лет назад +2449

    The word "triggered" has been used too many times incorrectly, and i feel as if she has an actual reason to say it, and makes me upset when people use the word without a decent justification. Cheers to her.

    • @harveyspecter7893
      @harveyspecter7893 7 лет назад +62

      You trigger me.

    • @Shellsterxx
      @Shellsterxx 7 лет назад +216

      I agree, it's very commonly misused these days, when it's a very real thing for mentally ill people. There is so much stigma amount mental illness that people treat it as a joke.

    • @lolerionark186
      @lolerionark186 7 лет назад +68

      +Kendal Rivera
      I have actual depressive and anger issue triggers but I never like to say that because of all the memes and stigma attached to it.

    • @amask4360
      @amask4360 7 лет назад +33

      Xephyre Ikari
      And it completely ruined the words meaning.
      Though, this is nothing new on the Internet. Kids don't realize when they are doing something wrong and need to be tolerated and guided into realizing their mistake.

    • @tobey958
      @tobey958 7 лет назад +11

      why are you so triggered

  • @sanderellefsen4375
    @sanderellefsen4375 4 года назад +620

    Imagine the fear of thinking you’re being stabbed in the face, and stalked, and bullied in everyday life, without being able to tell anyone because of the immense stigma associated with your diagnosis.
    Massive respect to anyone going through that.

    • @ThomasJr
      @ThomasJr 3 года назад +1

      but she has the conscience that those only happen in her head. Still tough, but not real.

    • @kelseyslack9102
      @kelseyslack9102 3 года назад +7

      @@ThomasJr you should watch special books by special kids interview with her so you can see how this affects her daily life. Just because it’s not real doesn’t mean it’s not all consuming.

    • @ThomasJr
      @ThomasJr 3 года назад +1

      @@kelseyslack9102 I didn't say it wasn't bad, I only said that she's not actually being stabbed, which would be way worse Lol.

  • @dizzylizardproductions
    @dizzylizardproductions Год назад +22

    Awesome ... My wife has scizophrenia but is ashamed of it and denys it ...
    Really wish she would accept it and face it as this young woman does...
    I appreciate the video.

    • @Liddy-lr5uy
      @Liddy-lr5uy 9 месяцев назад +1

      Please make sure she gets doctor check ups if possible. My late mom's schizophrenia prevented her from getting a cancerous lump treated early. All the best and you are an amazing person for sticking by.

  • @shilpaneelkant6421
    @shilpaneelkant6421 3 года назад +787

    My brother committed suicide by falling in front of the train on 28 July 21. He was schizophrenic for past 15 years, my mom had schizophrenia and she died 11 years back, he had it by genetically he was 27 when he took his life. He was a fighter he fought with himself for many years. He left me alone. He was very kindhearted and loving. Please try to understand and educate about this condition and help them because they are living a life with their enemy fighting with it always and it's not at all easy. I miss him.

    • @Sabrinna_1234
      @Sabrinna_1234 3 года назад +29

      Hugs❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @oliverjones2426
      @oliverjones2426 3 года назад +25

      im so sorry :(

    • @Gabriel-nw6lb
      @Gabriel-nw6lb 2 года назад +16

      So sorry for your loss hope you doing allright 🙏🏼

    • @naanayaa6408
      @naanayaa6408 2 года назад +18

      My mom is schizophrenicc,she had her outbreak when she was more or less 3.
      Our journey hasn't been easy and being in Africa makes the battle worse

    • @ryanward8122
      @ryanward8122 2 года назад +10

      28th July 2021 my birthday my brother died on 26 August 2020 on his birthday I stood in front of a train on 28 August 2021. Very lucky 3 broken ribs now missing one kidney smashed my elbow broken very very lucky man considering I heard a voice that said dont can't remember how it happened clipped me never even knocked me out just kept saying I should be dead this ain't wright how why? My mum died from a stroke via vacula dementia 4 moths ago .I don't know why I'm writing this but its very strange to come across this comments section I am so sorry for you loss im getting mental help but im sure the diagnosis is wrong bpd bipolar emotional personality disorder i hate meds hate them.

  • @sheenamarie832
    @sheenamarie832 6 лет назад +802

    I agree, Schizophrenia is so horribly stigmatized and that needs to change!!!

    • @LadyofCleves65
      @LadyofCleves65 5 лет назад +30

      I think we can blame the movies for that partly.

    • @trinitylivingston1286
      @trinitylivingston1286 5 лет назад +30

      Not just schizophrenia, but any other mental illnesses, especially the ones where some of the symptoms are hallucinations and delusions. There all stigmatized because of movies and tv shows, which makes my life a daily struggle.

    • @Embernie101
      @Embernie101 5 лет назад

      I think people need to understand it. There are different levels are severity for Schizophrenia. My other half's mother has the worst kind I would think. She acts on the things she sees. It is terrifying and actually makes her dangerous. But I still tried to understand it. just not with her in our house anymore. But it needs to be talked about. how else are we going to help those with it. To make sure it doesn't reach the point that my mother in law to be is at? She is going on 60 and she is dangerous to be around.

  • @noor1989n1
    @noor1989n1 3 года назад +871

    My little sister has schizophrenia, and unfortunately, the stigma of this illness is ruining her life. I see her trying so hard to study and search for jobs, and I feel so sad that I cant help her. She doesn’t take her medication on a regular basis, but she is so kind and sweet. I would do anything to have her back. I hope and pray that they find a cure for this illness soon.

    • @modernmonk2645
      @modernmonk2645 3 года назад +19

      My sister is facing the same struggle! I hope she comes out of it soon

    • @kokita1237
      @kokita1237 3 года назад +13

      She need to tacke her medicatiins

    • @modernmonk2645
      @modernmonk2645 3 года назад +20

      @@kokita1237 With only four days of medication she is now completely alright!

    • @smgloria1601
      @smgloria1601 3 года назад +9

      I know everyone thinks that schizophrenia has to b treated mandatorily with medicines bt I don't think so ,I see them as normal people attacked by demonic forces ,u said u would do anything for ur sis right , actually u don't need to , becoz solution is already there ,that's the name of Jesus ,ask ur sister to submit herself completely to jesus n repent of her sins n turn back from them n when those hallucinations (demons ) show up to bind them in Jesus name ,I can tell this with my own experience when a demon attacked me I bind it in jesus name n it jst went away quickly n not show up again .

    • @CrisOnTheInternet
      @CrisOnTheInternet 3 года назад +72

      @@smgloria1601 this is lame, sick people need medication

  • @ciiooipip
    @ciiooipip 2 года назад +35

    I remember seeing her on special books for special kids it’s a RUclips channel that is so wonderful at sharing stories and humanizing people who vary with disabilities and diagnosis. Wonderful talk

    • @katecooper9158
      @katecooper9158 Год назад

      I was wondering where I recognized her from!

  • @wittyandcreative
    @wittyandcreative 5 лет назад +602

    I have schizophrenia, I had an episode at work. I'm going back tomorrow morning with fresh homemade bread to try and show people its ok

    • @Zoe_life_media
      @Zoe_life_media 5 лет назад +24

      Its Ok

    • @wittyandcreative
      @wittyandcreative 5 лет назад +44

      @@Zoe_life_media I dont know, they're all acting really weird🤣 but thg they loved the bread😎

    • @Zoe_life_media
      @Zoe_life_media 5 лет назад +22

      @wittyandcreative I think they are learning, maybe that's their reaction to learning a new thing. You've shown them its ok, I believe they would learn that. Am glad they loved your bread, kudos to you. For me, bread is one difficult recipe, I don't know why. I have never baked a perfect bread, let alone have enough confidence to bake one and take to my colleagues... I can imagine their reaction😂😂😂. They would eat it and say..."hmmm Marilyn what did you say this is again"?

    • @wittyandcreative
      @wittyandcreative 5 лет назад +7

      @@Zoe_life_media do the overnight no kneed bread recipe, I was in the same boat but it comes out perfect everytime😉👍

    • @Zoe_life_media
      @Zoe_life_media 5 лет назад +4

      @@wittyandcreative Thank you so much. Would definitely try that.

  • @jenanjuice2003
    @jenanjuice2003 7 лет назад +454

    My cousin has schizophrenia. Unfortunately for him, he isn't able to focus. It's sad to watch someone you love develop such a terrible condition. This girl is so brave, and so smart. I'm glad that she is using her strengths to help others

    • @John-kv7jo
      @John-kv7jo 7 лет назад +1

      Please take your cousin to the Healing Rooms. There is a spiritual side to schizophrenia.
      Jr

    • @darby1220
      @darby1220 7 лет назад +16

      John Richards Mentally ill people need medical help first, not religion. Quit it.

    • @chelsieward9378
      @chelsieward9378 7 лет назад +3

      spiritual doesn't always have to do with religion

    • @halogladiators8618
      @halogladiators8618 6 лет назад +1

      My father has it and you wouldn’t even notice it.

    • @Afura33
      @Afura33 6 лет назад

      @Halo why wouldnt you notice it?

  • @ancienttime6307
    @ancienttime6307 3 года назад +446

    The line "People with schizophrenia just drag their nightmare into the reality" hit me hard, cannot even start to imagine what it would be like on a daily basis. Hugs.

    • @jessedion16
      @jessedion16 2 года назад +4

      I do...

    • @oooo1743
      @oooo1743 Год назад +4

      As i understand about this condition it when the consciousness is suddenly filled with the unconscious and does not resist it.

    • @memenazi7078
      @memenazi7078 Год назад

      @@oooo1743 precisely, most disorders like this are influenced by their own will.
      Ex) tourettes is just constant echolalia with no discipline to shut up. like when that one tourettes calls moistcritikal a cuck. That’s a conscious decision. To think it can’t be cured is like saying you can’t teach an old dog new tricks.
      Most of the disorders are partially caused by the disorder enabling people to treat them different, then they treat themselves different.
      ASD is the most destructive label, especially since it’s diagnosed in their youth before they can establish a normal mental foundation.

    • @rubyy.7374
      @rubyy.7374 Год назад +4

      Sounds like sleep paralysis demons but waking up doesn’t make them go away

    • @magnusgranskau7487
      @magnusgranskau7487 Год назад

      i really liked that too. it made it very easy to understand and to see it from they`re perspectiv

  • @lionessprowess3581
    @lionessprowess3581 2 года назад +15

    About 4 years ago, Special Books for Special Kids interviewed her. Her symptoms were so bad that she would not look up or into the camera at all. She had informed us that she don't pay attention to her hallucinations because it causes her to confuse the hallucinations with reality. So was brave then and even braver now. I'm so happy that she has come this far and accomplished so much. I am sorry to hear about her college mate though.

  • @samnorris3649
    @samnorris3649 6 лет назад +4070

    "The clown is actually in the audience today..."
    Faaaaaaarrrk man.

    • @ichheieelsenorandorayashi4824
      @ichheieelsenorandorayashi4824 5 лет назад +85

      She's afraid of IT ....

    • @valerielinares2068
      @valerielinares2068 5 лет назад +264

      I can imagine the audience members looking around thinking, "wait, what?"

    • @MovieCampCounselor
      @MovieCampCounselor 5 лет назад +67

      Who's looking forward to the Oscars?

    • @Bluebuthappy182
      @Bluebuthappy182 5 лет назад +211

      @@valerielinares2068 I've seen another interview with this woman saying she basically never talks about her present hallucinations for that very reason as she's have people in real life interaction with her hallucination by looking in that direction which would enforce it for her and that would be very bad.

    • @valerielinares2068
      @valerielinares2068 5 лет назад +45

      @@Bluebuthappy182 That's understandable. My sister has schizophrenia and has mentioned that she doesn't like to talk about what she sees either.

  • @Vedangi_
    @Vedangi_ 4 года назад +1041

    There's a slight shivering and hesitation in her speech, I think that's because of the clown. You can actually see her struggling, she's so damn brave, God bless her❤️❤️

    • @laxminagar5334
      @laxminagar5334 4 года назад +49

      Yes she feels panicked when she is describi g her traumas

    • @Milokitty-en5nb
      @Milokitty-en5nb 4 года назад +117

      Or maybe she’s just a bit nervous speaking in front of hundreds of people and a bunch of cameras.

    • @SuperCraft1999
      @SuperCraft1999 3 года назад +97

      One of the symptoms on the first slide listed difficulty speaking, also speaking in front of a crowd can be nerve racking (for me it surely is) especially about personal/sensitive subjects

    • @Milokitty-en5nb
      @Milokitty-en5nb 3 года назад +5

      @@SuperCraft1999 yeah I could wrong. It was just a thought.

    • @kurstendiane
      @kurstendiane 3 года назад +2

      Good call

  • @terryshryock4872
    @terryshryock4872 3 года назад +792

    As the father of a schizophrenic son, I find her extremely encouraging and hope-inspiring.
    God bless her for her courage!!

    • @heresjohnny602
      @heresjohnny602 2 года назад +5

      No god would curse his creation like this, especially not if they're made in his image.

    • @batlefieldproes
      @batlefieldproes 2 года назад +5

      @@heresjohnny602 God did not create us in his image because God is not human. The definition of God and his creation in the bible is false. Go to the Quran instead. God created us from clay and then said 'BE' we are not in his image as we are our own creation.

    • @helipeus1882
      @helipeus1882 2 года назад

      @@batlefieldproes quran and bible are false
      god does not exist

    • @kiril323
      @kiril323 2 года назад

      @@batlefieldproes god did bit create anything we created god
      to add some meaning to this useless existence

    • @batlefieldproes
      @batlefieldproes 2 года назад

      @@kiril323 wrong wrong wrong. God is well rooted in us

  • @teresastephens1206
    @teresastephens1206 Год назад +15

    Cecilia thank you for teaching us the world about schizophrenia. Mental health is so very important. Good proactive mental health coincides with our physical health. We treat cancer disease so like cancer schizophrenia is also a disease of brain chemical imbalance just as you explained. You are helping so many people. THANK YOU CECILIA! YOU ARE AWESOME 🎉

  • @angelamarie341
    @angelamarie341 5 лет назад +3012

    0:59 "I know what you guys must be thinking..."
    Me: Why is there a yellow chicken on that guy's head?

    • @19Marc79
      @19Marc79 5 лет назад +85

      Without your comment, I would have never actually SEEN that yellow chicken toy. It was funny to finally see that chicken :)) And then: your question is just SO valid !

    • @mariahd980
      @mariahd980 5 лет назад +41

      I was thinking the exact same thing!!

    • @heidi2166
      @heidi2166 5 лет назад +33

      I noticed yellow chicken immediately. It was so out of place I thought I'd hallucinated it

    • @flopimus
      @flopimus 5 лет назад +2

      Lol

    • @noxkoimax356
      @noxkoimax356 5 лет назад +2

      Accurate

  • @MissKateWalk
    @MissKateWalk 4 года назад +724

    How could a mother make her daughter not to get help when she specifically asks for it, it's just so sad and unforgivable!

    • @LorenaMartinez-gs4fe
      @LorenaMartinez-gs4fe 4 года назад +34

      I have an eating disorder since I was 15... although I asked my parents for help they used to say that I did that only for attention.

    • @ellismartiskainen7729
      @ellismartiskainen7729 3 года назад +1

      @@LorenaMartinez-gs4fe can you ask the counsellor at school or something?

    • @halroxdynasty8683
      @halroxdynasty8683 3 года назад

      So messed up ikr

    • @gunnerhiro394
      @gunnerhiro394 3 года назад +23

      The older generation did not want to hear about it - just don't mention it. Sadly, many in the newer generation don't want to deal with it in the early stages - they wait till it's a real problem - for them.

    • @shabyheltay
      @shabyheltay 3 года назад +11

      It's forgivable. Most parents try their best and all parents make mistakes.

  • @violethaye6987
    @violethaye6987 4 года назад +1816

    Y'all check out how Cecilia is doing now in her special books by special kids (SBSK) interview on youtube 2020!

    • @Earthlybell
      @Earthlybell 4 года назад +24

      Yes! Get this comment to the top!

    • @DrDIY1
      @DrDIY1 4 года назад +52

      Just watched it!!! It was great! Her 1st interview with Chris she looked like her disease was progressing . So, i was very happy to see her again and in good mental health.

    • @sonquatsch8585
      @sonquatsch8585 4 года назад +27

      sbsk is the best thing that has ever happened to me....gonna check right now thanks.

    • @tarotfortheheathens9556
      @tarotfortheheathens9556 4 года назад +14

      She looks so lovely! ❤️ So well spoken, beautiful, and intelligent. Glad to see her healing take place. Keep up the great work Cecilia for yourself and others. All affected are worth it!

    • @sonquatsch8585
      @sonquatsch8585 4 года назад +2

      @@tarotfortheheathens9556 check out her 2020 update via sbsk here on youtube. she is doing even better.

  • @emberphoenix9027
    @emberphoenix9027 2 года назад +8

    My grandmother was a paranoid schizophrenic. Her young adulthood was in the early 50s and what I know of her is that her life was unimaginably hard, and she never really got a break from the difficulty. I struggle with different mental illnesses. But seeing the revelation that you founded something specifically for Schizophrenia, I'm really struck hard by what a different life that would have meant for my Grandma Dorothy.
    This is such a good thing. Thank you for doing this

  • @kateiannacone2698
    @kateiannacone2698 3 года назад +1535

    I know I'm about 4 years late to the party, but I'm someone who works in a Psychiatric Hospital, and I just want to say bravo for being courageous enough to tell your story, raise awareness, and encourage others to get help.

    • @edwelndiobel1567
      @edwelndiobel1567 2 года назад +5

      Is there help? I mean really? Is there hope?

    • @kateiannacone2698
      @kateiannacone2698 2 года назад +13

      @@edwelndiobel1567 Yes.

    • @nataliem7144
      @nataliem7144 2 года назад +14

      It can get better with the right balance of meds and therapy, especially if you're type 1 (more positive symptoms, like hallucinations). I'll be honest, it probably wont go away forever. But you can learn to make it more...manageable so that you can have a fulfilling life.

    • @kateiannacone2698
      @kateiannacone2698 2 года назад +5

      @@nataliem7144 ^This.

    • @viky2405
      @viky2405 2 года назад +5

      Cronic mental illness are just like others cronic illness as well, in the same way that people with asma can get through their entire pretty well with the correct traitment, people with mental illness like schizophrenia can

  • @siddhikakani
    @siddhikakani 3 года назад +539

    She is a warrior. Hallucinating a clown or a girl is scary. She has become so strong mentally, that despite that chemical imbalance in her brain she has trained her brain to listen to her subconscious and not get scared. She is also determined to be a mental health advocate! She is an inspiration!

    • @dniilii
      @dniilii 2 года назад +5

      True... I can only imagine the pure dread she would experience on a daily basis...

    • @allsortsgifts6202
      @allsortsgifts6202 2 года назад +1

      I agree. She is absolutely amazing

  • @eithos87
    @eithos87 5 лет назад +842

    this was hard for me to watch and sit through. I was diagnosed at 17 with schizoaffective disorder. I have been hearing voices that were not there since around the age of 6. one of the voices was not the kindest and I was having suicidal thoughts. after I started getting treatment that voice went away and was replaced with one that was better and helps remind me of all the skills I have learned through therapy. I have had people that have found out about my illness and avoid me after. I hate having to be quiet about it. on a plus side I graduated high school on time and I can hold a fulltime job. I love to draw and write poems and short stories. thank you for this video. stay strong all of you.

    • @Jaycee555
      @Jaycee555 5 лет назад +19

      My fiance has schizo-affective as well.His auditory hallucinations are mostly controlled with medication except for one that won't go away, that has haunted him for years. It is so awesome that you have been able to replace those terrible voices with encouraging words for yourself! It sounds like you are doing well. Stay strong!

    • @grumpycat6429
      @grumpycat6429 5 лет назад +13

      Eithos I never received treatment. I’ve seen many creepy things but I’ve seen beautiful things such as angels and friendly giants as well. There’s about 4-8 individuals who grew up with me from a kid to now. They would fight these things off and help me focus, talk to me when I had no one to talk too. Some would call them hallucinations but they were far more than that. They helped keep the bad ones away. They visit every now and then to say high and stuff but they tell me that when they aren’t with me they’re on my home planet. This is no chemical imbalance. This is an invisible world that only a select few can see. And fewer can handle.

    • @kotobukikokoro9276
      @kotobukikokoro9276 5 лет назад +6

      i was also diagnosed with schizoaffective at age 17. i'm 25 now. my mom made me never tell anyone because i think shes ashamed so even family members do not know.

    • @Maaaarrrrssss
      @Maaaarrrrssss 5 лет назад +8

      @@kotobukikokoro9276 I'm so sorry to hear that, there's absolutely nothing to be ashamed of I'll tell you that ❤️

    • @kotobukikokoro9276
      @kotobukikokoro9276 5 лет назад +3

      @@Maaaarrrrssss thank you very much ❤️ i really, really appreciate that. big hugs

  • @kathymckenna5696
    @kathymckenna5696 Год назад +13

    Thank you so much for posting this.. my daughter was diagnosed approximately 10 years ago and the first to a little boy who's now nine years old.. she has fought hard to get better stay compliant and be motivated to work and to raise her little boy the best way with family support.. my daughter has had full custody of her son since birth and now the father decided to pursue custody first by abducting Michael for almost five months with contempt charges and now seeing to prove my daughter unfit and mentally unstable it's so sad seeing what my daughter has to go through I do believe that she's become stronger from this her mental health therapist has her listed as stable and compliant in person is thriving this post was so encouraging to hear in the midst of this emotional conflict that involves her family God bless you

  • @adamgardiner5869
    @adamgardiner5869 7 лет назад +187

    Cecilia thank u for a wonderful talk. My wife has Schizoaffective disorder and she's funnier than me, more compassionate than me, more creative than me and more intelligent than me. I wouldn't change her for the world except to take away her occasional fear and confusion so that I could carry it for her.

    • @CatMom5050
      @CatMom5050 7 лет назад +23

      Adam Gardiner She is so lucky to have such a loving and supportive partner :)

    • @hajarb.2405
      @hajarb.2405 7 лет назад +13

      God bless you. You're a good husband. I wish you and her all the luck in this world

    • @Mannycheungrulez
      @Mannycheungrulez 7 лет назад +3

      "funnier than me" lol

    • @anitacigarette
      @anitacigarette 7 лет назад +4

      You're a good guy. I suffer from schizo-affective disorder too. It isn't easy to talk about with others without worrying about them changing how they present themselves towards you.

  • @triplereed1234
    @triplereed1234 4 года назад +706

    I cannot believe how strong and composed she is given what she deals with. Incredible!!

    • @jequelamaquez4726
      @jequelamaquez4726 4 года назад +9

      A lot of people with schizophrenia are able to function normally

    • @louisskulnik7390
      @louisskulnik7390 4 года назад +3

      She had an update with SBSK. She was in a very, very bad spot at this time.

    • @Jannat-f1q
      @Jannat-f1q 4 года назад +3

      @@jequelamaquez4726 With severe depression and unbelievable pressure. 🥺

    • @MrZomg17
      @MrZomg17 4 года назад +2

      I think the movie IT affected her

    • @lotussavage1283
      @lotussavage1283 4 года назад +1

      @@MrZomg17 that's why people with schizophrenia shouldn't watch horror movies

  • @thesuicideeffect1506
    @thesuicideeffect1506 6 лет назад +362

    It broke my heart when she said she had a secret and it was her mental illness. People shouldn't be afraid of talking about their disorders and that's what I'm trying to do with my channel. I just want to raise awareness for mental health and end the stigma around it!

    • @lilithxstarx
      @lilithxstarx 6 лет назад +14

      TheSuicideEffect for me it’s not that I’m scared exactly. It’s that I don’t want to be treated differently. When ppl find out what I see and hear they become almost scare of me. I have lost ppl by coming forward (yea yea they shouldn’t be in my life ect ect) but you can see the way ppl even family look at you differently. You day dream for a moment and everyone is on edge asking if you’re seeing things. Accidentally talk to yourself “who are you talking to, you know no ones there right?” It’s hard. And no one likes to be treated differently especially for things they can’t control.

    • @jonithibodeaux5418
      @jonithibodeaux5418 5 лет назад +6

      Shouldn't be afraid?? I'm 41 years old and am known as the local town crazy person!! I've been cut off by all of my family because they think the suicide attempts I have made is for attention!!! I honestly have no clue how I am still alive!! My last suicide was November 2, 2018. I say suicide because I died several times at my house, in the ambulance and at the hospital!! And yet here I am still wishing I was dead!! That is why people like me are afraid that other people find out about our mental illnesses!! If you have never been afraid of the demons in your own mind then you have no idea what fear really is!!

  • @katiephelps4118
    @katiephelps4118 Год назад +7

    i saw cecila’s interview with special books for special kids, i cant believe how far she’s come!!

  • @carolineglenn2918
    @carolineglenn2918 4 года назад +560

    She is so intelligent and brave. I hate that she’s had to go through so much. Her mind is so incredible

    • @davidfranklin7018
      @davidfranklin7018 4 года назад +5

      I think, maybe, she wouldn't be who she is now *without* the schiz.
      I know I wouldn't be where I am now without bipolar.

    • @michaelm8510
      @michaelm8510 4 года назад

      David Franklin same here, well said

    • @3joewj
      @3joewj 3 года назад +1

      They think it's a virus. Not joking.

    • @alias_peanut
      @alias_peanut 3 года назад

      @@davidfranklin7018 she be even better

    • @3joewj
      @3joewj 3 года назад

      @clusterfuck schizophrenia is thought to be a virus.