So I'm not autistic, but I signed up for a mentorship program where I'm supposed to pair up with an autistic kid to help them out in a musical theater class. Never having worked with someone with a disability before, I decided that while informational videos and articles about autism are helpful, I wanted to explore all types of things about autism. So naturally, I start watching a few of these tiktoks. But wait... hold up... WHY DO I RELATE TO ALL OF THESE
I'm diagnosed too and from what I've noticed is that comps definitely help some people learn more about themselves and others. I've watched several comps I don't relate to, but I know just by reflecting on the doubt and my childhood that I am very much autistic. ...I'm just trying to say that even if you don't relate, that's fine. Everyone, on the spectrum or not, experiences life differently, so don't worry if you can't always relate Have a good day Human!!
@@EvanJGMegson They call it a spectrum for a reason- no two autistic people have the same triggers, likes/dislikes, etc. We're all uniquely made; no one's more or less autistic than anyone else!
@@EvanJGMegson Nobody is going to relate to all of the possible symptoms. But if you feel like you can't relate to most of them, it might be worth it for you to look into more autism related stuff and revaluate the diagnosis you got.
Right?? I wish I could share with neurotypical folks just how deeply the experience of watching a small animal go about its business can change my whole day. "Hey there, friend, I see you have a lovely big stinger, but don't worry, I won't squash you. Now where are we headed today? Oh, in big circles around this wooden sign that's painted bright red but has no use for you that is obvious to me? I'm so happy for you! I hope that works out well and your hive stays warm and cozy and full of food and healthy from colony collapse disorder for this entire year." And then I can return to the thronging crowds of people who just never quite seem to realize just how much noise they're making, and it's now possible to appreciate the beauty in all that messy humanity because I no longer just DESPERATELY need to get away from them all. I have seen a bee today. All is well.
@@mirmalchik I've found the type of neurotypcial people I can usually enjoy more to be around are those who like to do drugs recreationally because they seem to be able to experience those little things in life similarly as intensely as us when they're high (depending on the type of substance of course)
Does anyone else smile intensely when someone is talking to you because you think it’s polite and at the end of the conversation your face muscles ache SO MUCH.
Oh my god I'm being screened for autism and I didn't realise this but with certain friends who I am not really close to and don't know as well I try to look litterally so happy my smile is 😁almost the whole conversation and I try my best to look really happy and friendly
The biggest problem for me is that I also use the muscles behind my ears when I smile like that, and they're not very strong, so they start to spasm and cramp, and it hurts so much 😣
That realistic assessment one hit really close to home. I'm 34 and undiagnosed but I resonated with every single one of those points. I want to pursue a diagnosis but I'm really scared that I've become so good at masking that no one in my life will believe me and the doctors won't think I have it.
I feel like this is exactly why I'm bored very often and want to experience adventure, cuz I'm always stuck on a routine and it's too stressful for me to try anything new. I thought it's normal for every person, but ig it depends on how much that affects you
@@Avery-rs9hc I can relate with the sensory issues SO FREAKING MUCH- I can only wear one type of pants, I always have to wear shorts under my pants, I hate getting new shoes and most necks on shirts are unbearable.
19:17 i was just doing research on autism and stuff because i think i might have it but this one was just so relatable. I remember my mom always complaining about how we shouldn't do Christmas anymore because i never liked my gifts, but i did! I even started crying watching that one! Although i do cry alot and easily.
same it doesnt make me nervous at all to receive gifts or anything because i dont care if i react well enough for other people, but i dont ever seem excited or happy about stuff even if i do like it, and my mom tells me im boring all the time. im also really bad at expressing to people that i like them. like its hard for me to know how to let my friends know how much i care about them. i come across as really mean when i speak but its not my intention to be mean. i think im just not very expressive but i still feel it all inside but i just cant really figure out how to let other people know
I am in the same boat, I have been doing a lot of research lately and that one threw me for a loop because I thought I was the only one. I've always disliked my birthday and Christmas because I simply just don't know how to react and show people that I appreciate their gift, I also just don't like the surprise aspect of gifts. I always like to either know beforehand or snoop on what it is so I can plan how I react to the gift when they give it to me. Even this year, my housemates set things up to celebrate my birthday and got me gifts and such but I was so stressed out about gift-giving time that I didn't eat and just sat in my room and cried for a while and ended up telling them that I would prefer to do it another time. My one housemate left her gift on the table and I looked at everything so the next day I was better prepared to react. I love and appreciate my friends and family who give me gifts but I always feel like I'm putting on a show when I have to exaggerate how I feel and show on my face that I am happy. If I had it my way, I would prefer to just take the presents and open them in my room by myself so I don't have to do a fake and exaggerated face
Thank you for sharing this. About like half or three thirds of these really sounded to me like normal things and I was wondering is maybe autistic people themselves are not sure where the border is between struggling socially due to autism and the struggles everyone has, some longer some not so long. But the end of that one when she explain how she would basically have a blank reaction and how much of her focus it takes to make sure she reacts appropriately for others and also your comment have illuminated for me that some of these may sound like very normal, common, allistic so to speak struggles but are actually much harder and more frequent for autistic people than for allistic people. I'm pretty sure I have ADHD and now I'm thinking the way I was confused is probably similar to how non-ADHD people are sometimes confused when they hear descriptions of ADHD symtpoms and they ask "isn't this just normal?". This parallel you've helped me build is helping me understand autism better. Thank you!
I always think back to that concrete sandbox type thing we had at school when I was very little. Me and other children would build things on the edges and then swipe them off back into the sandbox. I swiped over that stone surface with my hand ONCE and I am still in physical pain every time I think back to it. Like, my teeth hurt so bad. Every time I saw someone else do it afterwards, I would feel it. Some textures just need to fuck off right out of existence
I can imagine the feeling and the pain just by reading your comment 😬 Once when I was younger I met this really sweet dog by think his name is Sparky and had I thought was an interesting pattern on his fur so then I want to touch it and instantly jerked my hand away I refused to touch that area after that because upon touching it I realize that it wasn’t a coloration pattern on the fur there was no fur there because it had been burned in a fire and so when I didn’t get the furry texture that I expected my hand was just absolutely like “no I hate this”
The girl at Disneyland is literally me. I’ve never actually seen somebody else do that exact stim I do with my hand when I’m in a busy environment, but it’s one of my most calming ones! Totally doing the disability pass next time I go to Disney. Would have made a world of difference last time.
The one at 15:11 hit me. It was the first tiktok that nade me realise my struggles with autism. I used to ALWAYS compare my mental state to others (especially bpd or bipolar disorder) in the sense of “they have it worse than me“. I wish I had their diagnosis instead of my mine. Its really emberassing. Now however, I noticed my own autism and the problems I have with it. Its truely a struggle to live life, but I never seemed to acknowledge it, maybe because I mask all the time.
Orrrrr maybe because you've been told for your whole life that you're exaggerating and that you're making a fuss about nothing and that you are the problem
When I found out I have autism, my mother basically disowned me because "HeR dAuGhTeR mIgHt Be A lItTlE dIfFeReNt" and she doesn't want people to judge her.
My mother told me I was thick when I was small and didn't respond to my name straight away. She also said I was 'needy' in a resentful way and my brother wasn't. Not all mothers are nurturing and loving unfortunately. I don't talk to her anymore cos she's generally abusive.
20:33 I got my hair cut for the first time a few months ago! I’m very proud of myself for sticking through it, it was very new and overstimulating. But my hair is cool now!
wow, congratulations! always nice to see someone doing well. may i ask, how did you deal with your hair before that? did you shave it off? or did you just have really long hair?
That video was really distressing to me. The mother and hairdresser just seemed to have absolutely no awareness of how upsetting it can be to have noisy equipment (with blades in it!) right up against your head. He tapped the cutting end of the electric trimmer to reassure himself it was safe to let her touch him with it, and they both just responded like "oh, this is an entirely subconscious behavior with absolutely no reasoning behind it." Neurotypical people are so dismissive of the rich inner lives experienced by nonverbal autistic folks, and scenarios like this illustrate some of the harm that can cause. But I'm proud of you, Mazapan, for sticking through it! I remember how upsetting haircuts were for me through childhood, and am so glad to have learned over the pandemic how to give myself a decent haircut so I don't have to deal with all that overstimulating messiness on someone else's schedule :D
The disability pass helps me so much at Disney. I'm not diagnosed, but my brother is. Next time I go to Disney, I'm going to bring my noise canceling headphones as well.
Same. I'm actually getting tested right now, but it's taking a really long time because my therapist is also testing me for personality/attention disorders and learning disabilities just to be safe.
I can't even BEGIN to explain how great this was to see. I'm literally trying so hard to resist yelling out of happiness right now, cause all of this was so relatable and validating when no one I've met in real life has been to me. I finally get an explanation for why everyone has treated me differently and why I've always felt different than everyone else.
How interesting, im definitely neurotypical but i relate to the birthday thing, the overstimulation when it comes to noises in crowded places, and some of the stims.
Love the adult autism diagnostic video! I'm so happy to be old enough to buy all the cool kid things I've been denying myself withoit caring what people think! The more weird people there are, the less weird we'll be tho! 🤔
Oh, wow. The sense of danger one is so spot on. My mom had me on a leash in the 80's and I basically was terrified of going anywhere with my son before he was like, 5 years old. He would wander directly into traffic, and he didn't care if you were screaming at him, he'd keep doing whatever he wanted. It was so freaking stressful.
Same! My uncle made me plain rice last night but didn't tell me he put some fucking SALT in it and he really thought I wouldn't notice it, I ended up wasting the entire pot sadly
The spoon one got me good. I am notorious for only using the teaspoons! I hate not being able to just blip! In and out bite of food no clacking of the teeth on metal. And yet, ut of sheer whimsy i choose the comically large tablespoon when eating single serving yogurt containers. Something about eating a whole cup of yogurt in a single spoonful amused me enough to overcome that terrible feeling.
oH my Gods, that "realistic adult assessment." legitimately called me out. Yes to everything. I'm not even and adult and I did not think I had autism, just ADHD. bUt DUDE I THINK I HAVE AUTISM- I think I have a new hyperfixation to research-
this isnt a black or white criticism at all, but the hairdressers part at 20:33 kind of rubbed me the wrong way. the direct telling him "put your hands down" instead of thinking of maybe why he would be doing that, and how can we accomdate to him needing the stability and control he needs without having it be dangerous. Plus, the way she said "i cant believe hes letting her do it" instead of speaking directly to him congratulating getting through an extremely stressful experience as well as "letting her do it" assuming that he is being awkward and not allowing her to use the razor out of his own volition, which is so not true with autism. and finally, the fact shes calling this a miracle. it really reminds me of the moment my dad said "i can't wait till the day they hug me again" which makes me feel sick, though that is my own issues. while i agree that it's really important to start doing things that scare you or are necessary in adult life, being unable to do or find tasks difficult is not a conscious decision that autistic people have chosen to ruin someone's day with. another small note is that he (possibly) would have benefitted from the hairdresser talking through what she was doing and how she was going to go about it, but i cannot guarantee this lady is a professional on autistic haircuts at all and is most likely just a local worker which is completely fine. this isnt at all saying the parent or guardian filming is completely evil, i have no doubt that they are supportive of Gabe and try to accommodate as much as possible. This is evident from fact they made this video, and is aware to some point that hairdressers is a difficult task to some if not most autistic people. this video just reminds me of the "autistic parent" phenomenon, as well as stretching to loose ties with ABA practices. if the person who made this tiktok is watching (as well as anyone else who may be reading for that matter), again a million times, this is not black or white and i dont at all believe you're an evil person who supports ABA etc, and even though i am an autistic person who has a experience to back up my criticism, i dont know anything about what goes on behind the camera or the context for this. all i can say is research, research, research. listen to autistic adults, not just other guardians of autistic kids, you will find something new every day about autism, i swear. yesterday i only just learned autistic people are more likely to have gut problems. autism is complex, and only in the past decade or so have we started researching past the research that came from nazi freaking germany on autism, which is scarily recent. im so sorry this was so long, i was just thinking about this as soon as i finished this video and had to get it out. shout out my autistic dyslexic bros who couldnt read this, tldr i am concerned about Gabe at 20:33 not having accommodation for his needs due to the language i saw being used :)
Thanks for this, I was getting weird "autism mom" vibes from it as well. Also, I do the same thing Gabe was doing, though in a different context, and it is *so* important to be able to push the others hand away if need be. Perhaps holding lower on the hairdressers arm or holding her other arm would work; they do for me
I’m neurotypical and I felt the same way a little, correct me if I’m wrong (bc like i said I’m neurotypical lol) but I felt like it would’ve been a little better if she went slower? Or let him touch the razor a little bit more the way she did near the beginning so that he could be as familiar with it as he wanted to be before she started? I did think it was nice at the end when she gave him the brush to touch his face with, it looked soft :) thanks for sharing your experience!
just to touch on one of the notes you made, (i have seen this full video on gabes familys youtube channel) the hairdresser is nonverbal like gabe (she’s deaf) which is why she is not verbally communicating with him throughout the haircut. and gabe has been getting his haircut from her for years, which has established a sense of trust/comfortability with a task that has been more difficult for him in the past. another note to make is gabes parents make a very distinct effort to speak to him directly the majority of the time (this iv’e also seen in other videos of theirs) it’s very easy to make an assumption based on one clip, but let’s try not immediately assume the worst when you do not have the full picture and do not know the people personally
@@PandaBuni i did make it very clear that i only have information from that one clip and i was just giving criticism to what i had seen in the video, so let's lose the attitude. in any case thank you for informing me
Another thing I read the other day from someone with autism, it could help to put a towel or something around the neck to prevent hairs from falling on it. Helps protect against sensory overload.
Thank you @ShadyBoi for putting together such an inspirational video about such inspirational people! I pray that this collection will serve as an opportunity for those who are unfamiliar or who stereotype people with neuro- diversities to look past the idiosyncrasies and see the talent, unique visions, and amazing intellectual contributions these men and women (boys and girls) have given and continue to give the world.
Not 36yo me looking at the early childhood signs TikToks and going how the f**k did no one know I was autistic I LITERALLY DID ALL THOSE THINGS AS A CHILD 🤦🏽♀️
15:18 it's possible to make yourself speak when you're nonverbal? I've had times where it feels like my voice is trapped in my throat and talking is just so difficult and feels impossible and like it takes so much effort but I didn't think that was being nonverbal because I could make myself talk. Now I'm very confused. Is that being nonverbal? /gen
Verbal-ness is a spectrum, like so many things; you can be hyper-verbal, normally verbal, semiverbal, or completely nonverbal. It sounds like you're experiencing some struggles with being verbal, which definitely puts you on the semiverbal/nonverbal end of the scale. Like so many other things with masking, how we would naturally be and how we make ourselves be in order to be socially acceptable also don't usually match up. If saying/thinking "I'm feeling nonverbal right now" or something similar helps you, I think it's appropriate to use that word to describe the experience you talked about.
3:406:3011:20 THIS!! Society needs more of this! 15:13 is literally me :') And the one where the son got a haircut and the other one where they get their own room gave me the biggest smile! Parents do not be ashamed! Know that you are the key to their success and your helps gains them independence! 🌻
3:01 I really like that one, but they're all really pretty 7:09 please don't say that to me, I'm already dealing with ADHD, I can't do autism too 😭😭 7:54 HELP 8:04 I don't get the teeth thing but I do step 2 and 4 10:36 dang it... 11:30 that's not normal either...? 13:44 it keeps getting worse, I'm losing my mind 24:36 ahaha I do that
I was diagnosed with autism when I was in seventh grade but also with ADHD when I was six years old also the way I found out that I had autism was not fun for me in fact my parents had no idea I had found out until months later because of how I found out I didn’t tell them that I found out
FYI, ADHD and autism have a lot of behavioral overlap, but the reasons are often different. Some people who are autistic don't like uncomfortable clothing because it's literally painful, but for me with ADHD, it's because if I'm having a stressful day it's another small thing that's making me irritated and once I notice it it's hard to focus on anything else. Also I'm a perfectionist at heart so needing to have things 🌟just so🌟 makes me feel like I have it together(and it's prob why I had an eating disorder and have been questioned about possible OCD). Also ADHD brains mature slower so my tendancy to like "teen" things is probably a combination of that and just sheer nostalgia because I miss high school and having a flourishing social life (another indicator I might NOT be autistic but just kinda weird, or I mask well without even realizing I'm doing it, idk).
HELP I’m not even 14 and I feel like the adult assessment is more calming because it’s not like the person is judging you for being a child or acting the way your acting
6:52 hit me hard cause I had never being diagnosed (still not) and I had a "friend group" in primary school I thought we were friends and they like me as I liked them but one to one had left me (i was a weird and awkward kid) but the last one was the worst. She thought I was dumb and stupid because I didn't get social cues (even my cousin makes fun of me for that), made an even more bad image of me by telling rumors and everything but I still wanted to believe in her. When we changed schools (together) at the age of 12 I started to new my true friends and left her behind My friends accept me as who I am and they have problems like me too, they are wonderful and I could not be more happy to have them in my life 💓 Today I'm 18 years old waiting for one day being diagnosed and understood
18:21 I just realised we have the same headphones and I love her tiktoks! She's so cool and funny and sweet and clever and kind for sharing her thoughts and experiences! Those headphones are so useful but kind of bulky for when I have to wear a hood coz it's raining :)
I remember my best friends and I were messing around at school. And one of them stuck a sticky plant on my leg. I did what my friends call my “bad texture dance” and I refused to touch it and get it off. So one of my friends got it off for me. And for the next hour I was doing “dino arms” to compensate for the bad texture. And some idiot stuck another one on my arm cuz he knew I didn’t like it :( but my friends sorted it out so yay :)/srs
I can’t thank you enough for this compilation! My 9 year old gets so overwhelmed by her brother whose 7. Showing this to her will show her that we aren’t the only ones facing this and that there is beauty in the minds of those with Autism 😊
When my son was in 3rd grade his teacher locked him in a janitors closet because he was making clicking noises that "disrupted the class". They had an empty closet with a child desk and he was put in there before lunch and left there almost until time to go home. She not only locked him in, she forgot he was in there. They didn't fire her. I took my kids out of that school
9:20 explained my experience as an autistic perfectly. I normally avoid watching autistic tik toks or shorts because the majority of the time, it’s very vague, and not accurate. I find the same issue with adhd shorts or tik toks, it attempts to glamorise and make it “cute” but I find it quite annoying and not true to the actual reality. This woman explained my reality as an autistic so on point I will probably remember her for the rest of my life now.
the terra-cotta one was too real. any time i even remotely _imagine_ my nails scratching across that texture or anything similar that make that grating sound it makes me wince and contort and if prolonged will straight up make me nauseous or cry i hate it so much literally just watching the tiktok made me spas out
I relate to a lot of the things in SEVERAL videos I've watched. I started watching them to get a better idea of autism bc I have a couple friends who have it really bad. I've already had a testing done but the lady immediately crosses autism off the list purely due to the fact that I could keep eye contact. But. Here's the thing. I was later diagnosed with inattentive ADHD, dyscalculia, and anxiety. I was so intensely focused on finding out why I act the way I do and why I think the way I do, and I knew she had the answers that I was able to focus on the space between her eyes. I can usually look people in the eyes bc it's been engrained into my life that it's rude if you don't. When I was younger I used to not be able to look people in the eyes. I have A LOT of sensory issues (ie seams, polyester, pure cotton, sticky tables, ect ect) there's so many other things I related to but I don't have the patience to type it out. Idk if I'm just overthinking everything or what but I would really appreciate it if someone would help me a little bit.,,
Just here to comment that if you’re holding yourself back from getting a squishmallow, go get one now if you’re able. Best things in the whole universe. I love them so much.
6:37 (ADHD haver here) I remember in first grade the teacher moved my desk to the corner where it faced the wall. I don’t know if it was punishment or just an attempt to get me to talk less during class, I just remember sitting backwards in the chair so I could stare outside. Wild times, it’s a such a relief to be an adult. Managing my adhd (mostly) by myself is hard, but I got to choose a job that didn’t clash with my needs or disadvantages. Also when I slip up and things get messy or etc I don’t have the rejections of disappointing the adults in my life. It’s a mess, gotta clean it, but also it’ll still be there tomorrow yah know?
Watching this comp to see if I have autism because my mom told me that I actually had autism back then but was healed. Until I searched in the internet and people said it doesn't make it disappear so I'm not sure anymore.
2:00 lmaoo the only one that doesnt hate those "whole chicken" (idk what its called) stuff?? (actually i think its prob bc my moms chicken is plain asf even w/ some spices) I like (most) chicken and like what i usually order from restaraunts jhhjhkhlhjhjlkh
6:52 I've been diagnosed with adhd and anxiety and the works, but autism is a slight possibility. Idk if ill ever look into it though. No matter if I have it or not, the moment right before the picture popped up, the floodgates in my eyes unleashed more than they had to any 4 second clip. Not being able to tell if people are really your friends is the worst. Ever. Especially when you've always been thinking your friends might hate you but have had to tell yourself you're just overthinking it again and being over dramatic. Cuz it was nothing. Just a teensy thing that could mean anything. Until you were right. They all decided you weren't like them. They thought it the whole fucking time. and when you finally realize, your completely alienated. You've officially run out of friends. That was it. and for months you're alone with your thoughts, reminding you of how you should've noticed sooner. You could've fixed it. You could've been better. But you're not. And now you're not only not enough, you're nothing and alone. Cuz how could they do that? How could they pretend for so long? Why didn't anyone tell me? Anyways, its not supposed to be my fault, even when it felt like all I shouuld've done was be better. But really? If I take a step back and look at what happened back then with a clearer mind, how could I be in the wrong? They decided for themselves that I wasn't good enough. They promised if they ever said anything mean, it was a joke. They're the ones that made me think I was one of them and they saw me as a person; a person worth enough to tell the truth to and not treat like some dog when you're tired of them. So its not because of me. I am not the reason they all left. It's not my fault. right?
Me as a 3 year old absolutely not reacting to the birthday gifts and not responding to "show me what you got!" while fascinated only by a fluffy white coat and the tv (bonus: i couldn't put on the coat, it was super confusing to get dressed 🤣🤣) 20 years later here we are knowing It Has Always Been Autism, and Other Stories
I'm the Bus Station one... When I'm waiting for anything and listening to music, I twitch and do that to the beat of the music. Scared my mum once when I looked like I was having a stroke during a very twitchy part of a song.
23:09 I can really relate to this one because I’ve self diagnosed myself with OCD and my friends are like “You’re just saying that for attention you don’t actually have it.” But they don’t realise the amount of research I’ve done-
I would still seek diagnosis when you can. OCD can be co-morbid and symptoms can be confused with another diagnosis. Depending on the severity, it may be best to seek it now
“No fear” “weaker sense of danger” I just figured I was braver and not a coward like other people. Today I can advocate for myself and am not intimidated by bigotry, peer pressure, ignorance, or childish displays of violence by others who let fear run their lives. I won.
5:05 I can really relate to the sounds thing. I was at a family get together recently, and we had a punch bowl with an ice ring in it. Whenever you got a cup of punch, the scooper thing(ladle?) Scraped against the ice and made me want to tear my ears off, I hated it so much.
The great irony of this video is the lack of closed captions 😅 my *vast* auditory processing abilities required me to skip backward several times to catch things I missed. Great vid tho 👌
Oh gosh damn it!!! The assessment one really got me. Only thing I didn't get was the eye contact and the info thing, I really don't care about other people like that 💀💀 But FUCKKKKK the self analysis is an autism thing??? dude I've tried to figure out why I do that so much, like I will literally experiment on myself just to find out how I'll react like what
I’m getting my sit down consultation for autism this week, then two more appointments i think for testing. I relate to a lot in this comps, even the part about masking of afab. It kinda stings though that no one knew that i could possibly be autistic until i saw one neurodivergent vid then i realized that I’m barely getting through life and the neurotypical way is not working at all for me. I always feel tired to try to act “normal” around others. I’m pretty lucky cause it was my therapist who actually found this doctor who can do testing on adult autism in my city. I didn’t expect it to be soon. I’m nervous and relieved that hopefully I’ll get the answers i need to finally understand more about myself.
21:08 him grabbing the cord and her hand is so relatable. I am autistic and having something to hold onto especially if it’s attached to what’s happening is good and holding the cord gives a sense of control
I remember my second grade teacher putting my desk away from other kids and having it facing the book shelf cause i asked why she repeated the same sentence several times. She was on drugs. Lady hated me. I spent more time in other kids classrooms than i did hers cause of how often shed just send me out not wanting to deal with me.
The one about being put in a corner hurt bad. I too was put in the corner as a child. Luckily my mother was like the woman in the video and we were able to move and get the right support 💜
I rarely ate peanut butter as a kid because I HATED (still do) the texture. It sticks to my teeth and makes me cringe. Everyone just thought I was being picky but now my mom is realizing I’m probably autistic.
it also sometimes just randomly heats up for some reason?? maybe it's just me but when i eat it i feel like im consuming a slowly heating tiny pasted microwave
When I go somewhere I only wanna bring my comfort blanket but its too big and my mom always says "ill give you a smaller one, a warmer one" or "im sure they have some" and I swear to god I have a mental breakdown every time I physically cannot sleep without this blanket its the only one that feels physically right to sleep in or I will feel Terrible all night 😃
6:47 this TikTok rlly resonated with me cause I was the autistic kid who got alienated from the class. I hadn't realized how awful it was until years later, the teacher mistreated me as well, I didn't have a diagnosis at the time but that probably severely impacted how I act at school.
"what if im not autistic what if its all in my head" *pain of relatable noise comes out with pained expression* Rip me 3-4 year denial and disbelif and thinking those exact words
5:55 was actually me. Wasn't diagnosed with adhd or autism yet cause nobody noticed my female presenting symptoms. I'd been sat alone in the corner while everyone else was in table groups for over a month before my mom asked my teacher "So what's the plan on when she's gonna be put back with the other kids?" and my teacher's response was "oh, well, I wasn't really planning to". That was in first grade, and thank god my mom was a kindergarten teacher who was better than mine & knew that's not how a classroom is supposed to be!!
Omg I have autism and I honestly never thought of some of the things in his tiktok comp. Now that I have, I feel much more comfortable with my autism so thank u ^^
21:20 i struggle with the clippers too bc i'm always scared i'm gonna get cut but the buzzing feeling is also so satisfying i get these tingles down my spine
9:45 not always, because I can get distracted easily, plus I'm very good at going into my own world... but other than that, I feel kinda called out about the first question, lol
Ps. To go into my own world, I need to be doing something. With headphones on its super easy. Then right under that it's reading books, but I feel uncomfortable reading books in most public spaces. I can tunnel-vision ok a task tho!
This is exactly why Im on the fence. I can answer a lot of questions with not always but I still feel kinda called out 😅. For example Im actually good in stressful situations and I can feel what the other person is feeling (without looking at their body languge, body lamguage and facial expressions dont really tell me anything they mostly just confuse me) I just don't instinctivly know how to deal with them or what that emotion is called (emotions are just physical sensations for me in general, I have to manually match up to names by descriptions or feedback from others but I still know what feeling Im getting from them) I can do social situations fine most of the time as long as I have some kind of plan on how this is going to go (I have almost like a handbook in my head and if I experience negative feedback I install kind of like a tripwire that goes of with a very distinctive feeling the next time Im in a similar situation so I can then respond the way the last time taught me was right. I stim veery often but I only have shutdowns very rarely and I don't think I've ever had a meltdown and sensory things don't usually bother me that much there are textures and sounds I prefer but nothing I abhor in normal life except for 1 or 2 things that I dont come into contact with ever. During a shutdown that's a whole different Story then everything is to much and I feel like Im interacting with the World through a glass wall with the volume turned up to 11. Also routines as long as I plan on being in a situation that cant be planned (which sounds very weird I know) Im fine with a little unpredicatbility like I love working as an EMT and there is no way to predict or plan what my shift will look like but as long as I keep my before shift rituals (mostly uniform related) and the rest of my day is planned down to the minute I have no issue with that. Maybe also because for most situations there is a fixed protocol and structure that gets rolled out as soon as a certain Symptom complex appears I just don't know which protocol is going to be in use that day. The only thing Im sure about are special intrests my family has some intresting stories about little 7 y/o me and my abnormal obsession with fillys
Everyday I realise more and more.. I'm probably autistic. I cover my ears as well and sometimes hit myself when hearing loud noises, especially breathing. Heavy constant breathing. My mom has a husband with breathing problems and he breathes heavier and louder than usual to top it all off. Also autism is biological and gets passed down. I have several family members with autism like my oldest sister.
Had high capacities diagnosed since 6yo or so, but my parents and i think i got autism too. I noticed cuz I watched a vid bout someone wth autism and related too much, and searched more info bout it and I related to most of it- Meanwhile my mother thought about it too, and yesterday she told me and I laughed sm cuz I thought too. I don't *struggle* wth looking at people in the eyes while they're talking, but I didn't cuz I could concentrate better while drawing or looking somewhere else while they did, and people always found it disrespectful. "Its not, im paying attention, i just dont listen with my eyes" was one of my most recurrent sentences when little 😆. My mother explained it to me, how not looking at who was talking could mean you weren't listening, she accidentally taught me how to mask. I still struggle with noise (thought it was hypersensitive ears that's it), weird textures ("isnt it just normal hating some textures?"), being left out and having trouble socializing (that's cuz of people, not my fault, what do I need people for anyways..")... etc. And fck the high capacities that helped me to mask and look "normal", if i didn't have those maybe we couldve started searching for a diagnose much sooner. Hope you liked my little rant, when I get the diagnose i will update this ✨
Omg I felt the texture one deep in my soul. If I feel a texture I hate I gag, full body shivers, immediately mega stim (hand flapping while walking in circles and shaking my head as if to shake it off) hahaha so accurate.
The gift one is sooo true. I love all the gifts I get but idk how to show i’m really excited, heck i don’t even feel excited even though i really do like the gift i have 😭
I was screened for Autism recently and found out that I’m highly likely to be autistic. But honestly, I also am extremely similar to people with ADHD and sometimes wonder if I have both.
So I'm not autistic, but I signed up for a mentorship program where I'm supposed to pair up with an autistic kid to help them out in a musical theater class. Never having worked with someone with a disability before, I decided that while informational videos and articles about autism are helpful, I wanted to explore all types of things about autism. So naturally, I start watching a few of these tiktoks. But wait... hold up... WHY DO I RELATE TO ALL OF THESE
I’m diagnosed and the only thing I related to is the textures but I have only 2 things I hate so do I actually not have autism?
I'm diagnosed too and from what I've noticed is that comps definitely help some people learn more about themselves and others. I've watched several comps I don't relate to, but I know just by reflecting on the doubt and my childhood that I am very much autistic.
...I'm just trying to say that even if you don't relate, that's fine. Everyone, on the spectrum or not, experiences life differently, so don't worry if you can't always relate
Have a good day Human!!
@@mhavens8532 :)
@@EvanJGMegson They call it a spectrum for a reason- no two autistic people have the same triggers, likes/dislikes, etc. We're all uniquely made; no one's more or less autistic than anyone else!
@@EvanJGMegson Nobody is going to relate to all of the possible symptoms. But if you feel like you can't relate to most of them, it might be worth it for you to look into more autism related stuff and revaluate the diagnosis you got.
"I was able to look at a bee, it was fantastic"
Absolute queen
Right?? I wish I could share with neurotypical folks just how deeply the experience of watching a small animal go about its business can change my whole day. "Hey there, friend, I see you have a lovely big stinger, but don't worry, I won't squash you. Now where are we headed today? Oh, in big circles around this wooden sign that's painted bright red but has no use for you that is obvious to me? I'm so happy for you! I hope that works out well and your hive stays warm and cozy and full of food and healthy from colony collapse disorder for this entire year." And then I can return to the thronging crowds of people who just never quite seem to realize just how much noise they're making, and it's now possible to appreciate the beauty in all that messy humanity because I no longer just DESPERATELY need to get away from them all. I have seen a bee today. All is well.
@@mirmalchik I've found the type of neurotypcial people I can usually enjoy more to be around are those who like to do drugs recreationally because they seem to be able to experience those little things in life similarly as intensely as us when they're high (depending on the type of substance of course)
Does anyone else smile intensely when someone is talking to you because you think it’s polite and at the end of the conversation your face muscles ache SO MUCH.
Oh my god I'm being screened for autism and I didn't realise this but with certain friends who I am not really close to and don't know as well I try to look litterally so happy my smile is 😁almost the whole conversation and I try my best to look really happy and friendly
it's like a nervous tic for me at this point, sometimes I literally can't release those muscles
Yes... my mouth muscles even start TWITCHING if I'm nervous, which makes me smile harder and twitch more and so on... it's embarrassing
The biggest problem for me is that I also use the muscles behind my ears when I smile like that, and they're not very strong, so they start to spasm and cramp, and it hurts so much 😣
@@lizad6030 Asperger here and I do that
istfg every time i ever got a gift i had to force myself to act excited because i had no idea how tf to do that naturally
LITERALLY i practised for hours bfr christmas on how to act surprised
Have so many bad memories being made to feel bad because of this
I got a oculus last Christmas but I still had to act excited I just can’t ever be excited😂
omg wait I thought that was just a me thing 😳
Right?!? I still don't have it right and I'm told so often to be excited for a gift
I just don't know how
That realistic assessment one hit really close to home. I'm 34 and undiagnosed but I resonated with every single one of those points. I want to pursue a diagnosis but I'm really scared that I've become so good at masking that no one in my life will believe me and the doctors won't think I have it.
I have both adhd and autism and its fun(/j) to be so obsessed with familiarity and yet monotony is painful at the same time hhhhh🥲
Bro same- I’ve been diagnosed with autism, not adhd though.. Sometimes I need the same things over and over again, sometimes I can’t stand it
I feel like this is exactly why I'm bored very often and want to experience adventure, cuz I'm always stuck on a routine and it's too stressful for me to try anything new. I thought it's normal for every person, but ig it depends on how much that affects you
Meee toooo!!!
@@Avery-rs9hc I can relate with the sensory issues SO FREAKING MUCH- I can only wear one type of pants, I always have to wear shorts under my pants, I hate getting new shoes and most necks on shirts are unbearable.
@@Avery-rs9hc Yes exactly lol. You as well!
19:17 i was just doing research on autism and stuff because i think i might have it but this one was just so relatable. I remember my mom always complaining about how we shouldn't do Christmas anymore because i never liked my gifts, but i did! I even started crying watching that one! Although i do cry alot and easily.
same it doesnt make me nervous at all to receive gifts or anything because i dont care if i react well enough for other people, but i dont ever seem excited or happy about stuff even if i do like it, and my mom tells me im boring all the time. im also really bad at expressing to people that i like them. like its hard for me to know how to let my friends know how much i care about them. i come across as really mean when i speak but its not my intention to be mean. i think im just not very expressive but i still feel it all inside but i just cant really figure out how to let other people know
I thought it was normal to not know how to react to gifts and thinking about how you should react when you get one
I am in the same boat, I have been doing a lot of research lately and that one threw me for a loop because I thought I was the only one. I've always disliked my birthday and Christmas because I simply just don't know how to react and show people that I appreciate their gift, I also just don't like the surprise aspect of gifts. I always like to either know beforehand or snoop on what it is so I can plan how I react to the gift when they give it to me. Even this year, my housemates set things up to celebrate my birthday and got me gifts and such but I was so stressed out about gift-giving time that I didn't eat and just sat in my room and cried for a while and ended up telling them that I would prefer to do it another time. My one housemate left her gift on the table and I looked at everything so the next day I was better prepared to react. I love and appreciate my friends and family who give me gifts but I always feel like I'm putting on a show when I have to exaggerate how I feel and show on my face that I am happy. If I had it my way, I would prefer to just take the presents and open them in my room by myself so I don't have to do a fake and exaggerated face
@@ii_noticed8725 literally tho 😟
Thank you for sharing this. About like half or three thirds of these really sounded to me like normal things and I was wondering is maybe autistic people themselves are not sure where the border is between struggling socially due to autism and the struggles everyone has, some longer some not so long. But the end of that one when she explain how she would basically have a blank reaction and how much of her focus it takes to make sure she reacts appropriately for others and also your comment have illuminated for me that some of these may sound like very normal, common, allistic so to speak struggles but are actually much harder and more frequent for autistic people than for allistic people. I'm pretty sure I have ADHD and now I'm thinking the way I was confused is probably similar to how non-ADHD people are sometimes confused when they hear descriptions of ADHD symtpoms and they ask "isn't this just normal?". This parallel you've helped me build is helping me understand autism better. Thank you!
I always think back to that concrete sandbox type thing we had at school when I was very little. Me and other children would build things on the edges and then swipe them off back into the sandbox. I swiped over that stone surface with my hand ONCE and I am still in physical pain every time I think back to it. Like, my teeth hurt so bad. Every time I saw someone else do it afterwards, I would feel it. Some textures just need to fuck off right out of existence
Aaaaa i got shivers just reading that lmao
Bro I cant be reading this Its like I felt the texture you were talking about I hate that texture so much
I can imagine the feeling and the pain just by reading your comment 😬
Once when I was younger I met this really sweet dog by think his name is Sparky and had I thought was an interesting pattern on his fur so then I want to touch it and instantly jerked my hand away I refused to touch that area after that because upon touching it I realize that it wasn’t a coloration pattern on the fur there was no fur there because it had been burned in a fire and so when I didn’t get the furry texture that I expected my hand was just absolutely like “no I hate this”
@@ii_noticed8725 same secondhand bad texture
The girl at Disneyland is literally me. I’ve never actually seen somebody else do that exact stim I do with my hand when I’m in a busy environment, but it’s one of my most calming ones! Totally doing the disability pass next time I go to Disney. Would have made a world of difference last time.
I'll do disability pass. I hate being surrounded by too many people and stimm out of boredom.
The one at 15:11 hit me. It was the first tiktok that nade me realise my struggles with autism. I used to ALWAYS compare my mental state to others (especially bpd or bipolar disorder) in the sense of “they have it worse than me“. I wish I had their diagnosis instead of my mine. Its really emberassing. Now however, I noticed my own autism and the problems I have with it. Its truely a struggle to live life, but I never seemed to acknowledge it, maybe because I mask all the time.
Orrrrr maybe because you've been told for your whole life that you're exaggerating and that you're making a fuss about nothing and that you are the problem
When I found out I have autism, my mother basically disowned me because "HeR dAuGhTeR mIgHt Be A lItTlE dIfFeReNt" and she doesn't want people to judge her.
Aww, that sucks, im sorry :(
Aw, I’m sorry. Hang in there, hopefully things will get better and you won’t need to be around her anymore if you don’t want to be
@@Shady_Boi it's alright:)
@@EF-kk3vh maybe one day:)
My mother told me I was thick when I was small and didn't respond to my name straight away. She also said I was 'needy' in a resentful way and my brother wasn't.
Not all mothers are nurturing and loving unfortunately. I don't talk to her anymore cos she's generally abusive.
20:33 I got my hair cut for the first time a few months ago! I’m very proud of myself for sticking through it, it was very new and overstimulating. But my hair is cool now!
wow, congratulations! always nice to see someone doing well. may i ask, how did you deal with your hair before that? did you shave it off? or did you just have really long hair?
@@acusemplectic288 I had extremely long hair
That video was really distressing to me. The mother and hairdresser just seemed to have absolutely no awareness of how upsetting it can be to have noisy equipment (with blades in it!) right up against your head. He tapped the cutting end of the electric trimmer to reassure himself it was safe to let her touch him with it, and they both just responded like "oh, this is an entirely subconscious behavior with absolutely no reasoning behind it." Neurotypical people are so dismissive of the rich inner lives experienced by nonverbal autistic folks, and scenarios like this illustrate some of the harm that can cause.
But I'm proud of you, Mazapan, for sticking through it! I remember how upsetting haircuts were for me through childhood, and am so glad to have learned over the pandemic how to give myself a decent haircut so I don't have to deal with all that overstimulating messiness on someone else's schedule :D
@@mirmalchik not trying to be rude or anything but you don’t have to be autistic to be scared shitless
The disability pass helps me so much at Disney. I'm not diagnosed, but my brother is. Next time I go to Disney, I'm going to bring my noise canceling headphones as well.
Trying to figure out if I’m autistic. This video called me out in so many ways, can’t ignore it anymore ha
Thank you :)
Same here lmao
Same :)
same here hahaha
Same. I'm actually getting tested right now, but it's taking a really long time because my therapist is also testing me for personality/attention disorders and learning disabilities just to be safe.
@@Ginnies_Dremscape_Official I want to get tested but my parents “don’t believe in autism and mental illnesses “
I can't even BEGIN to explain how great this was to see. I'm literally trying so hard to resist yelling out of happiness right now, cause all of this was so relatable and validating when no one I've met in real life has been to me. I finally get an explanation for why everyone has treated me differently and why I've always felt different than everyone else.
Realistic Adult Autism Assessment video: exists
Me: get out of my head you antipodean sorcerer!
I hate the textures of book paper and bone china plates they really make me shiver
You guys really need to stop being this relatable, you're making me question my entire existence
23:07 when she hands him the brush was so sweet oml
How interesting, im definitely neurotypical but i relate to the birthday thing, the overstimulation when it comes to noises in crowded places, and some of the stims.
Love the adult autism diagnostic video! I'm so happy to be old enough to buy all the cool kid things I've been denying myself withoit caring what people think! The more weird people there are, the less weird we'll be tho! 🤔
Oh, wow. The sense of danger one is so spot on. My mom had me on a leash in the 80's and I basically was terrified of going anywhere with my son before he was like, 5 years old. He would wander directly into traffic, and he didn't care if you were screaming at him, he'd keep doing whatever he wanted. It was so freaking stressful.
Thank you so much for this comp!!!! I especially like the one at 2:01because it's so relatable. Bland Food is Best Food (for me at least).
Same! My uncle made me plain rice last night but didn't tell me he put some fucking SALT in it and he really thought I wouldn't notice it, I ended up wasting the entire pot sadly
YES like sometimes the additional stuff tastes good but I prefer it plain lol
THIS IS AN AUTISTIC THING??????? IM SO CONFUSED
The spoon one got me good. I am notorious for only using the teaspoons! I hate not being able to just blip! In and out bite of food no clacking of the teeth on metal. And yet, ut of sheer whimsy i choose the comically large tablespoon when eating single serving yogurt containers. Something about eating a whole cup of yogurt in a single spoonful amused me enough to overcome that terrible feeling.
oH my Gods, that "realistic adult assessment." legitimately called me out. Yes to everything. I'm not even and adult and I did not think I had autism, just ADHD. bUt DUDE I THINK I HAVE AUTISM-
I think I have a new hyperfixation to research-
this isnt a black or white criticism at all, but the hairdressers part at 20:33 kind of rubbed me the wrong way. the direct telling him "put your hands down" instead of thinking of maybe why he would be doing that, and how can we accomdate to him needing the stability and control he needs without having it be dangerous. Plus, the way she said "i cant believe hes letting her do it" instead of speaking directly to him congratulating getting through an extremely stressful experience as well as "letting her do it" assuming that he is being awkward and not allowing her to use the razor out of his own volition, which is so not true with autism. and finally, the fact shes calling this a miracle. it really reminds me of the moment my dad said "i can't wait till the day they hug me again" which makes me feel sick, though that is my own issues. while i agree that it's really important to start doing things that scare you or are necessary in adult life, being unable to do or find tasks difficult is not a conscious decision that autistic people have chosen to ruin someone's day with. another small note is that he (possibly) would have benefitted from the hairdresser talking through what she was doing and how she was going to go about it, but i cannot guarantee this lady is a professional on autistic haircuts at all and is most likely just a local worker which is completely fine. this isnt at all saying the parent or guardian filming is completely evil, i have no doubt that they are supportive of Gabe and try to accommodate as much as possible. This is evident from fact they made this video, and is aware to some point that hairdressers is a difficult task to some if not most autistic people. this video just reminds me of the "autistic parent" phenomenon, as well as stretching to loose ties with ABA practices. if the person who made this tiktok is watching (as well as anyone else who may be reading for that matter), again a million times, this is not black or white and i dont at all believe you're an evil person who supports ABA etc, and even though i am an autistic person who has a experience to back up my criticism, i dont know anything about what goes on behind the camera or the context for this. all i can say is research, research, research. listen to autistic adults, not just other guardians of autistic kids, you will find something new every day about autism, i swear. yesterday i only just learned autistic people are more likely to have gut problems. autism is complex, and only in the past decade or so have we started researching past the research that came from nazi freaking germany on autism, which is scarily recent.
im so sorry this was so long, i was just thinking about this as soon as i finished this video and had to get it out.
shout out my autistic dyslexic bros who couldnt read this, tldr i am concerned about Gabe at 20:33 not having accommodation for his needs due to the language i saw being used :)
Thanks for this, I was getting weird "autism mom" vibes from it as well. Also, I do the same thing Gabe was doing, though in a different context, and it is *so* important to be able to push the others hand away if need be. Perhaps holding lower on the hairdressers arm or holding her other arm would work; they do for me
I’m neurotypical and I felt the same way a little, correct me if I’m wrong (bc like i said I’m neurotypical lol) but I felt like it would’ve been a little better if she went slower? Or let him touch the razor a little bit more the way she did near the beginning so that he could be as familiar with it as he wanted to be before she started? I did think it was nice at the end when she gave him the brush to touch his face with, it looked soft :) thanks for sharing your experience!
just to touch on one of the notes you made, (i have seen this full video on gabes familys youtube channel) the hairdresser is nonverbal like gabe (she’s deaf) which is why she is not verbally communicating with him throughout the haircut. and gabe has been getting his haircut from her for years, which has established a sense of trust/comfortability with a task that has been more difficult for him in the past. another note to make is gabes parents make a very distinct effort to speak to him directly the majority of the time (this iv’e also seen in other videos of theirs) it’s very easy to make an assumption based on one clip, but let’s try not immediately assume the worst when you do not have the full picture and do not know the people personally
@@PandaBuni i did make it very clear that i only have information from that one clip and i was just giving criticism to what i had seen in the video, so let's lose the attitude. in any case thank you for informing me
Another thing I read the other day from someone with autism, it could help to put a towel or something around the neck to prevent hairs from falling on it. Helps protect against sensory overload.
Thank you @ShadyBoi for putting together such an inspirational video about such inspirational people!
I pray that this collection will serve as an opportunity for those who are unfamiliar or who stereotype people with neuro- diversities to look past the idiosyncrasies and see the talent, unique visions, and amazing intellectual contributions these men and women (boys and girls) have given and continue to give the world.
Not 36yo me looking at the early childhood signs TikToks and going how the f**k did no one know I was autistic I LITERALLY DID ALL THOSE THINGS AS A CHILD 🤦🏽♀️
15:18 it's possible to make yourself speak when you're nonverbal? I've had times where it feels like my voice is trapped in my throat and talking is just so difficult and feels impossible and like it takes so much effort but I didn't think that was being nonverbal because I could make myself talk. Now I'm very confused. Is that being nonverbal? /gen
Verbal-ness is a spectrum, like so many things; you can be hyper-verbal, normally verbal, semiverbal, or completely nonverbal. It sounds like you're experiencing some struggles with being verbal, which definitely puts you on the semiverbal/nonverbal end of the scale. Like so many other things with masking, how we would naturally be and how we make ourselves be in order to be socially acceptable also don't usually match up. If saying/thinking "I'm feeling nonverbal right now" or something similar helps you, I think it's appropriate to use that word to describe the experience you talked about.
🥺 thank you for existing as you are !!! i really love the pronouns you use, such a great combo of goodies :3
3:40 6:30 11:20 THIS!! Society needs more of this!
15:13 is literally me :') And the one where the son got a haircut and the other one where they get their own room gave me the biggest smile! Parents do not be ashamed! Know that you are the key to their success and your helps gains them independence! 🌻
3:01 I really like that one, but they're all really pretty
7:09 please don't say that to me, I'm already dealing with ADHD, I can't do autism too 😭😭
7:54 HELP
8:04 I don't get the teeth thing but I do step 2 and 4
10:36 dang it...
11:30 that's not normal either...?
13:44 it keeps getting worse, I'm losing my mind
24:36 ahaha I do that
Oop-
I was diagnosed with autism when I was in seventh grade but also with ADHD when I was six years old also the way I found out that I had autism was not fun for me in fact my parents had no idea I had found out until months later because of how I found out I didn’t tell them that I found out
FYI, ADHD and autism have a lot of behavioral overlap, but the reasons are often different. Some people who are autistic don't like uncomfortable clothing because it's literally painful, but for me with ADHD, it's because if I'm having a stressful day it's another small thing that's making me irritated and once I notice it it's hard to focus on anything else. Also I'm a perfectionist at heart so needing to have things 🌟just so🌟 makes me feel like I have it together(and it's prob why I had an eating disorder and have been questioned about possible OCD). Also ADHD brains mature slower so my tendancy to like "teen" things is probably a combination of that and just sheer nostalgia because I miss high school and having a flourishing social life (another indicator I might NOT be autistic but just kinda weird, or I mask well without even realizing I'm doing it, idk).
HELP I’m not even 14 and I feel like the adult assessment is more calming because it’s not like the person is judging you for being a child or acting the way your acting
6:52 hit me hard cause I had never being diagnosed (still not) and I had a "friend group" in primary school
I thought we were friends and they like me as I liked them but one to one had left me (i was a weird and awkward kid) but the last one was the worst.
She thought I was dumb and stupid because I didn't get social cues (even my cousin makes fun of me for that), made an even more bad image of me by telling rumors and everything but I still wanted to believe in her.
When we changed schools (together) at the age of 12 I started to new my true friends and left her behind
My friends accept me as who I am and they have problems like me too, they are wonderful and I could not be more happy to have them in my life 💓
Today I'm 18 years old waiting for one day being diagnosed and understood
18:21 I just realised we have the same headphones and I love her tiktoks! She's so cool and funny and sweet and clever and kind for sharing her thoughts and experiences! Those headphones are so useful but kind of bulky for when I have to wear a hood coz it's raining :)
I remember my best friends and I were messing around at school. And one of them stuck a sticky plant on my leg. I did what my friends call my “bad texture dance” and I refused to touch it and get it off. So one of my friends got it off for me. And for the next hour I was doing “dino arms” to compensate for the bad texture. And some idiot stuck another one on my arm cuz he knew I didn’t like it :( but my friends sorted it out so yay :)/srs
I can’t thank you enough for this compilation! My 9 year old gets so overwhelmed by her brother whose 7. Showing this to her will show her that we aren’t the only ones facing this and that there is beauty in the minds of those with Autism 😊
When my son was in 3rd grade his teacher locked him in a janitors closet because he was making clicking noises that "disrupted the class". They had an empty closet with a child desk and he was put in there before lunch and left there almost until time to go home. She not only locked him in, she forgot he was in there. They didn't fire her. I took my kids out of that school
9:20 explained my experience as an autistic perfectly. I normally avoid watching autistic tik toks or shorts because the majority of the time, it’s very vague, and not accurate. I find the same issue with adhd shorts or tik toks, it attempts to glamorise and make it “cute” but I find it quite annoying and not true to the actual reality. This woman explained my reality as an autistic so on point I will probably remember her for the rest of my life now.
the terra-cotta one was too real. any time i even remotely _imagine_ my nails scratching across that texture or anything similar that make that grating sound it makes me wince and contort and if prolonged will straight up make me nauseous or cry i hate it so much
literally just watching the tiktok made me spas out
for the haircut one. yes you shouldnt give up before it happens but also if doesnt happen thats ok
That little boi spinning so fast has me rolling💀😂☺️☺️
sometimes I question if I am autistic so I watch these. I really like the AI art things of what it thinks autism looks like.
THE FIRST ONE, WHAT A ADORABLE LITTLE KID😭💗
23:08 when Gabe put the brush on his face 🥺❤
I relate to a lot of the things in SEVERAL videos I've watched. I started watching them to get a better idea of autism bc I have a couple friends who have it really bad. I've already had a testing done but the lady immediately crosses autism off the list purely due to the fact that I could keep eye contact. But. Here's the thing. I was later diagnosed with inattentive ADHD, dyscalculia, and anxiety. I was so intensely focused on finding out why I act the way I do and why I think the way I do, and I knew she had the answers that I was able to focus on the space between her eyes. I can usually look people in the eyes bc it's been engrained into my life that it's rude if you don't. When I was younger I used to not be able to look people in the eyes. I have A LOT of sensory issues (ie seams, polyester, pure cotton, sticky tables, ect ect) there's so many other things I related to but I don't have the patience to type it out. Idk if I'm just overthinking everything or what but I would really appreciate it if someone would help me a little bit.,,
"She's a ten but..." How are these "Buts"? They mostly sound amazing!
Just here to comment that if you’re holding yourself back from getting a squishmallow, go get one now if you’re able. Best things in the whole universe. I love them so much.
6:37 (ADHD haver here) I remember in first grade the teacher moved my desk to the corner where it faced the wall. I don’t know if it was punishment or just an attempt to get me to talk less during class, I just remember sitting backwards in the chair so I could stare outside. Wild times, it’s a such a relief to be an adult. Managing my adhd (mostly) by myself is hard, but I got to choose a job that didn’t clash with my needs or disadvantages. Also when I slip up and things get messy or etc I don’t have the rejections of disappointing the adults in my life. It’s a mess, gotta clean it, but also it’ll still be there tomorrow yah know?
Watching this comp to see if I have autism because my mom told me that I actually had autism back then but was healed. Until I searched in the internet and people said it doesn't make it disappear so I'm not sure anymore.
It’s possible but it’s extremely rare
2:00 lmaoo the only one that doesnt hate those "whole chicken" (idk what its called) stuff?? (actually i think its prob bc my moms chicken is plain asf even w/ some spices) I like (most) chicken and like what i usually order from restaraunts jhhjhkhlhjhjlkh
I think it's a rotisserie chicken!
not diagnosed but just laughed so hard at the twin bouncing around....I literally bust in the room dancing while my sister is busy.
6:52
I've been diagnosed with adhd and anxiety and the works, but autism is a slight possibility. Idk if ill ever look into it though. No matter if I have it or not, the moment right before the picture popped up, the floodgates in my eyes unleashed more than they had to any 4 second clip. Not being able to tell if people are really your friends is the worst. Ever. Especially when you've always been thinking your friends might hate you but have had to tell yourself you're just overthinking it again and being over dramatic. Cuz it was nothing. Just a teensy thing that could mean anything. Until you were right. They all decided you weren't like them. They thought it the whole fucking time. and when you finally realize, your completely alienated. You've officially run out of friends. That was it. and for months you're alone with your thoughts, reminding you of how you should've noticed sooner. You could've fixed it. You could've been better. But you're not. And now you're not only not enough, you're nothing and alone. Cuz how could they do that? How could they pretend for so long? Why didn't anyone tell me?
Anyways, its not supposed to be my fault, even when it felt like all I shouuld've done was be better.
But really? If I take a step back and look at what happened back then with a clearer mind, how could I be in the wrong? They decided for themselves that I wasn't good enough. They promised if they ever said anything mean, it was a joke. They're the ones that made me think I was one of them and they saw me as a person; a person worth enough to tell the truth to and not treat like some dog when you're tired of them. So its not because of me. I am not the reason they all left. It's not my fault.
right?
Me as a 3 year old absolutely not reacting to the birthday gifts and not responding to "show me what you got!" while fascinated only by a fluffy white coat and the tv (bonus: i couldn't put on the coat, it was super confusing to get dressed 🤣🤣) 20 years later here we are knowing It Has Always Been Autism, and Other Stories
I'm the Bus Station one... When I'm waiting for anything and listening to music, I twitch and do that to the beat of the music. Scared my mum once when I looked like I was having a stroke during a very twitchy part of a song.
I swear your vids are teaching me so much about myself ...
23:09 I can really relate to this one because I’ve self diagnosed myself with OCD and my friends are like “You’re just saying that for attention you don’t actually have it.” But they don’t realise the amount of research I’ve done-
I would still seek diagnosis when you can. OCD can be co-morbid and symptoms can be confused with another diagnosis. Depending on the severity, it may be best to seek it now
@@alexwilliams2276 thanks for the advice, I’ll try getting a diagnosis soon
2:46 why does this makes me want to cry so hard? ;-;
“No fear” “weaker sense of danger” I just figured I was braver and not a coward like other people. Today I can advocate for myself and am not intimidated by bigotry, peer pressure, ignorance, or childish displays of violence by others who let fear run their lives. I won.
5:05 I can really relate to the sounds thing. I was at a family get together recently, and we had a punch bowl with an ice ring in it. Whenever you got a cup of punch, the scooper thing(ladle?) Scraped against the ice and made me want to tear my ears off, I hated it so much.
5:34
My eyes widened so much when they grabbed the big spoon
I can relate! 🌸 You all are beautiful! ❤️
The graduates story made me bawl dude😭
That adault autism assessment is so true that it had me laughing like a maniac because finally i feel so completely seen and it felt so beautiful 😭💜
The great irony of this video is the lack of closed captions 😅 my *vast* auditory processing abilities required me to skip backward several times to catch things I missed. Great vid tho 👌
Sorry, im working on adding captions!! :)
@@Shady_Boi Oh no worries! I know it’s a pain so thank you for putting forth the effort ^^
The first one is literally adorable, though I can see how it can cause some worry
2:02 I don't have autism but I feel so called out I will literally only eat spaghetti with parmesan no sauce
MY GODS ABOVE FINALLY IVE FOUND SOMEONE ELSE WITH THE NECK TWITCHES YES I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST ME
Oh gosh damn it!!! The assessment one really got me. Only thing I didn't get was the eye contact and the info thing, I really don't care about other people like that 💀💀
But FUCKKKKK the self analysis is an autism thing??? dude I've tried to figure out why I do that so much, like I will literally experiment on myself just to find out how I'll react like what
5:29 Omg, I felt this a little too hard 😂
I regularly buy Birthday cakes for myself cause I loved them as a child so I’m like why not? 🤣
💙🙏🏻💙
I’m getting my sit down consultation for autism this week, then two more appointments i think for testing. I relate to a lot in this comps, even the part about masking of afab. It kinda stings though that no one knew that i could possibly be autistic until i saw one neurodivergent vid then i realized that I’m barely getting through life and the neurotypical way is not working at all for me. I always feel tired to try to act “normal” around others. I’m pretty lucky cause it was my therapist who actually found this doctor who can do testing on adult autism in my city. I didn’t expect it to be soon. I’m nervous and relieved that hopefully I’ll get the answers i need to finally understand more about myself.
21:08 him grabbing the cord and her hand is so relatable. I am autistic and having something to hold onto especially if it’s attached to what’s happening is good and holding the cord gives a sense of control
I remember my second grade teacher putting my desk away from other kids and having it facing the book shelf cause i asked why she repeated the same sentence several times. She was on drugs. Lady hated me. I spent more time in other kids classrooms than i did hers cause of how often shed just send me out not wanting to deal with me.
The one about being put in a corner hurt bad. I too was put in the corner as a child. Luckily my mother was like the woman in the video and we were able to move and get the right support 💜
I rarely ate peanut butter as a kid because I HATED (still do) the texture. It sticks to my teeth and makes me cringe. Everyone just thought I was being picky but now my mom is realizing I’m probably autistic.
i only like eating crunchy peanut butter haha
it also sometimes just randomly heats up for some reason?? maybe it's just me but when i eat it i feel like im consuming a slowly heating tiny pasted microwave
19:30 I’m not autistic but I always fake my reaction because I’m scared they’ll think I don’t like it when I actually really do 😭
I know it makes me a traitor but...
I hate butter noodles-
I love butter noodles
:0 you did not *shocked* /lh /j
Yeah butter noodles suck
Too much grease!!! Not enough interest!!! No butter noodles in this house
When I go somewhere I only wanna bring my comfort blanket but its too big and my mom always says "ill give you a smaller one, a warmer one" or "im sure they have some" and I swear to god I have a mental breakdown every time I physically cannot sleep without this blanket its the only one that feels physically right to sleep in or I will feel Terrible all night 😃
Nuuuuu that sucks :(
6:47 this TikTok rlly resonated with me cause I was the autistic kid who got alienated from the class. I hadn't realized how awful it was until years later, the teacher mistreated me as well, I didn't have a diagnosis at the time but that probably severely impacted how I act at school.
"what if im not autistic what if its all in my head"
*pain of relatable noise comes out with pained expression*
Rip me 3-4 year denial and disbelif and thinking those exact words
5:55 was actually me. Wasn't diagnosed with adhd or autism yet cause nobody noticed my female presenting symptoms. I'd been sat alone in the corner while everyone else was in table groups for over a month before my mom asked my teacher "So what's the plan on when she's gonna be put back with the other kids?" and my teacher's response was "oh, well, I wasn't really planning to". That was in first grade, and thank god my mom was a kindergarten teacher who was better than mine & knew that's not how a classroom is supposed to be!!
at 10:46 i just started screaming at the whole question
Same lmaooo
The food thing is a big reason they didn’t diagnose me😂 but I’m ethnic like no one was giving me only chicken nuggets as an option.
8:19 they're doing god's work here
The little girl in the first one is sooooo cute!
Omg I have autism and I honestly never thought of some of the things in his tiktok comp. Now that I have, I feel much more comfortable with my autism so thank u ^^
21:20 i struggle with the clippers too bc i'm always scared i'm gonna get cut but the buzzing feeling is also so satisfying i get these tingles down my spine
I am not on the autism spectrum, but because many things are really relatable I like those kind of videos 😊
when i tell u i gasped when she picked up that big spoon
OMG THE GIFT THING! its a nightmare 😭 i always feel so bad about it-
02:49 that's insane. i had no idea AI got that good at art.
Look up Midjourney.
Me and my entire family being capricorns with autism (or tauruses with adhd): 👁👄👁 👁👄👁 👁👄👁 👁👄👁 👁👄👁
Why do I relate so much with it ... I'm the king of toe walking!!!
9:45 not always, because I can get distracted easily, plus I'm very good at going into my own world... but other than that, I feel kinda called out about the first question, lol
Ps. To go into my own world, I need to be doing something. With headphones on its super easy. Then right under that it's reading books, but I feel uncomfortable reading books in most public spaces.
I can tunnel-vision ok a task tho!
This is exactly why Im on the fence. I can answer a lot of questions with not always but I still feel kinda called out 😅. For example Im actually good in stressful situations and I can feel what the other person is feeling (without looking at their body languge, body lamguage and facial expressions dont really tell me anything they mostly just confuse me) I just don't instinctivly know how to deal with them or what that emotion is called (emotions are just physical sensations for me in general, I have to manually match up to names by descriptions or feedback from others but I still know what feeling Im getting from them) I can do social situations fine most of the time as long as I have some kind of plan on how this is going to go (I have almost like a handbook in my head and if I experience negative feedback I install kind of like a tripwire that goes of with a very distinctive feeling the next time Im in a similar situation so I can then respond the way the last time taught me was right. I stim veery often but I only have shutdowns very rarely and I don't think I've ever had a meltdown and sensory things don't usually bother me that much there are textures and sounds I prefer but nothing I abhor in normal life except for 1 or 2 things that I dont come into contact with ever. During a shutdown that's a whole different Story then everything is to much and I feel like Im interacting with the World through a glass wall with the volume turned up to 11.
Also routines as long as I plan on being in a situation that cant be planned (which sounds very weird I know) Im fine with a little unpredicatbility like I love working as an EMT and there is no way to predict or plan what my shift will look like but as long as I keep my before shift rituals (mostly uniform related) and the rest of my day is planned down to the minute I have no issue with that. Maybe also because for most situations there is a fixed protocol and structure that gets rolled out as soon as a certain Symptom complex appears I just don't know which protocol is going to be in use that day.
The only thing Im sure about are special intrests my family has some intresting stories about little 7 y/o me and my abnormal obsession with fillys
Everyday I realise more and more.. I'm probably autistic.
I cover my ears as well and sometimes hit myself when hearing loud noises, especially breathing. Heavy constant breathing.
My mom has a husband with breathing problems and he breathes heavier and louder than usual to top it all off.
Also autism is biological and gets passed down. I have several family members with autism like my oldest sister.
Had high capacities diagnosed since 6yo or so, but my parents and i think i got autism too. I noticed cuz I watched a vid bout someone wth autism and related too much, and searched more info bout it and I related to most of it- Meanwhile my mother thought about it too, and yesterday she told me and I laughed sm cuz I thought too. I don't *struggle* wth looking at people in the eyes while they're talking, but I didn't cuz I could concentrate better while drawing or looking somewhere else while they did, and people always found it disrespectful. "Its not, im paying attention, i just dont listen with my eyes" was one of my most recurrent sentences when little 😆. My mother explained it to me, how not looking at who was talking could mean you weren't listening, she accidentally taught me how to mask. I still struggle with noise (thought it was hypersensitive ears that's it), weird textures ("isnt it just normal hating some textures?"), being left out and having trouble socializing (that's cuz of people, not my fault, what do I need people for anyways..")... etc. And fck the high capacities that helped me to mask and look "normal", if i didn't have those maybe we couldve started searching for a diagnose much sooner.
Hope you liked my little rant, when I get the diagnose i will update this ✨
Omg I felt the texture one deep in my soul. If I feel a texture I hate I gag, full body shivers, immediately mega stim (hand flapping while walking in circles and shaking my head as if to shake it off) hahaha so accurate.
The gift one is sooo true. I love all the gifts I get but idk how to show i’m really excited, heck i don’t even feel excited even though i really do like the gift i have 😭
I was screened for Autism recently and found out that I’m highly likely to be autistic. But honestly, I also am extremely similar to people with ADHD and sometimes wonder if I have both.