SCHIZOPHRENIC EPISODE ON CAMERA
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- Опубликовано: 3 ноя 2018
- In this video i have an episode
I hope it is some what educational
Edit: OMG So many subscribers and likes!!!
Thank you guys all so much.
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U can see in his eyes when he’s hearing the voices
Yes . Reminds me of my cousin . He killed himself sadly . And I saw his eyes like that. He just never wanted to say a word about what he was Seeing and hearing
@@RUclipsCommentRater sorry to hear that man
@@maxmacks8856 thanks. i wish we all saw all these videos BEFORE. it was a tragedy we can't get over.
@@RUclipsCommentRater I’m so sorry for your loss.
Its good that he can Ignore those voices such a brave man....one of my fam members drink some leponex to fall asleep cause she can’t sleep hearing those voices but thanks to god we can still talk to her..and she actually tells us what she heard and seeing and that was crazy like demons who speak bad words to Her back and realizing those people with this kind of condition is really having a hard time to speak with, so you must talk to them and treat them like a normal person coz it can help them to ignore those voices and don’t let them to watch horror movies or stuff related to what she hears and sees, I don’t have this kind of condition but one of my love ones has this and thank god she is still alive and living properly.
When the voice told him to kill himself and he said “sometimes I debate if I should or not” :(((
dillydollie that killed me
My heart sunk 😔
my heart literally shattered. no one deserves that. If he’s reading this rn i wanna tell him that everything will be okay! 😔💞
Nervous Norvus
I agree. But still. He deserves to live.
@Nervous Norvus No one should have to live with that though 🙄
I wish I could hug him. I hope he’s doing ok today
he's doing great!!! he has a child on the way and a way better outlook
@@TheTree42069 oh good!
Same :(
no way, he must've gotten married then a while back too? great news tbh
How can I find the current status of this child?
"trying to make light of the situation" was a really good pun
Humor can be very therapeutic
I couldn’t even imagine the internal battle this young mans fighting every day
same it s sad
He's strong for battling it alone
I am too im schizo because of weed
@@rohahayzza2175 he aint alone
It's like a haunted house inside of the mind
the way he was talking sounds like he’s trying to ignore another loud voice talking to him and he keeps losing his train of thought and that is so scary to me
It is really scary, and you can't focus yeah :(
Shut up
Mr Panda what the hell
@@mrpanda2655 👏
Jada Rose ur fat u needa lose weight
I can't believe nowadays people use schizophrenia as a joke when it's a real thing people suffer from. I hope you're doing alright bro
You know how when in Harry Potter , students make fun of Boggart ?
@@unknownartistman5155 like it changes anything
Who using it as a joke in this video though? Stop bringing up negativity
@harveyhooks3431 not in the video but u can see it in the comment section, I think it's mostly my generation though (im gen z so u know how that goes)
@SukunaYaoi oh yea I understand that
I suffered the borderline disorder for over 23 years, with so much anxiety not until I came across psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment actually saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean.
Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms
Microdosing helped me get out of the pit of my worst depressive episode, a three year long episode enough to start working on my mental health
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Germany. Really need
He's Shane.myco
The shroom experience stands as my most remarkable journey, an awe-inspiring encounter that left an indelible mark of amazement.
He’s on insta?
imagine having to be stuck in your house and in your own head space during quarintene, god bless you.
estrrrible
Girl, ON POINT!!! Dude DONT EVER KILL YOUR SELF CALL ME BRO ILL TALK TO YOU! I would never let you do that man!
@YERIKV1914 bro stfu you think every mentally ill person hasn't heard that shit before. It cant cure us.
Quarantine?
@YERIKV1914 its the meds
My grandpa was schizophrenic and went blind so he would have yelling arguments with people and i felt bad for him because he truly couldn’t tell if the people were there or not.
Mental illness are the most horrifying things that can happen. I’d rather die of can cancer honestly.
i thought you couldnt be blind and schizophrenic? sorry if thats insensitive i jus heard that somewhere.
Fuck that's crazy real life shits happens
That's so sad
That’s sucks
This is no joke.. I respond to things that others can’t hear or see.. sometimes I have to analyze the situation to see if what I’m experiencing is actually real or in my mind. I do jump while I’m in bed because I feel stuff walking on my bed. I had to learn to not respond out loud to whatever I’m hearing. It is exhausting to have what most people consider a normal day. Praying for you.
🙏
Demons. You have demons possessing you like this boy or demons oppressing you and trying to get in and possess you. Demons are real and the ONLY cure is to RUN TO JESUS CHRIST! 🙏🏼
and is it any better now ?
it is scary and weed caused me sensations like these but i have nothing so weed or die
Hi, if you dont mind me asking, what do you see? Ghosts, shadows or normal people?
My son has been battling with schizophrenia for over 12 years. He turns to drugs to try to feel normal....that's what he says. If I could switch places with my son, I would do it in a heartbeat. He's been in and out of treatment for years, nothing has changed. I wish the Canadian government would do more for anyone dealing with mental illnesses. What I've learned is that my son is just a number....so sad! I hope my son gets the help he needs before I die 😢
Oh gosh, wishing him the best
Your son is telling you bullshit. Drugs increases die likelihood for psychosis in schizophrenia. Really bad idea, drugs and schizophrenia.
There are medications for schizophrenia, antipsychotics like Risperdal.
The goverment is so cruel
Sending prayers over your son
Unfortunately we're all just numbers no matter where you are in the world it's like the matrix some people are aware others are completely oblivious
Who else found this in recommended and clicked on it instantly
Wow thanks for the likes
I was actually reluctant to click this video because I knew it would put me in a bad mood but I just wanted to experience what other people experience 😕
A 2am
Me
The reason why I clicked on this is because I myself have been experiencing constant throbbing headaches in my head, mainly the pain is concentrated on the back of my head but whenever I try to sleep sometimes I feel like thoughts are forced on me to think. Like random songs, quotes I never heard of or heard before so I thought this was a good video to analyze
I hesitated
Don't ever kill yourself! You're stronger than the voices.
Ailurophile what if the voices deadlift 225lb
Miko omgggggg
@@Miko08 if they deadlift 225 lbs they weak af and this guy will beat them easily
The voices aren't like other people he's having problems with parts of his brain
@@jrapattii9941 ?
You are incredibly brave for making this and allowing us a glimpse or what you're dealing with. Thank you so much for sharing brother. You are loved by many
A slave is brave for being forced to..?
@@bunk95wtf
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@bunk95 are you sţüpiɗ?
It is actually so crazy how people can life with this. After listining to an Simulator it geniuently seems like a horror movie. Mad respect for everyone who manages to have a semi-normal life
It must be so weird for him to watch this footage, since it won’t contain anything of what he’s hearing in his head and the silence must be startling.
That would be a very interesting reaction video of him watching his own episode with the silence surrounding him.
He probably would still hear and see his delusions in the footage since they can manifest themselves through multimedia
@@alexangel4758 is there some evidence of this? Because I'd love to learn more if that is true.
@@MaraJadeSkky Living With Schizophrenia did a reaction video on how hallucinations and delusions present themselves and mentioned this
@@alexangel4758 I have schizophrenia, and my boyfriend has recorded me having a split, and when I watched the video back, it was so scary because it was just complete silence, I’m sitting with my boyfriend and best friend, and nothing is happening but me freaking out and not knowing what time zone I’m in (In my episodes I usually “Time TRavel”)
The fragility of the human brain is scary, sad and fascinating at the same time.
I’m leaning on the complexity of the human brain tbh, so much we don’t know about the human psyche
The fragility of the human brain on schizophrenia*
Mhm.
Fragile, yet it always happens because of a reason. Commonly because of maybe childhood trauma or even genetic. It’s terrible watching him go through this but it’s a great sign that he’s talking through it. If I knew this guy I wouldn’t this he’s crazy, respect.
Intelligence has not only good advantages
Truly thank you for this video. My husband has schizoaffective disorder and when he goes through an episode- you being able to put into words what you are currently hearing helps me understand what he goes through. He’s expressed in the past that he’s heard almost the same exact things. His common one that he has is that someone is following him or stalking him. When he’s in a bad episode he’ll go catatonic. It’s truly a nerve wracking thing. I can’t even imagine what it’s like to be the one experiencing it so thank you for sticking around to tell us your story. I know this video is from a few years ago, but I saw that you’re still active on here and that made me happy. When you said that the one voice said to unalive yourself the expression you had on your face was one I’ve seen on my husband’s one too many times. So thank you for sticking around. Thank you for not giving into those voices. Again, I can’t imagine what you go through on a daily, but as someone that is a partner to someone with a form of schizophrenia, it means a lot that you keep pushing and that you’re on meds. The fact that you’re also pretty aware of it helps too I’m sure. At least it helps my husband.
Sending hugs to you and your husband, hope you’re doing well! Stay strong, and take care 🤍
My grandmother has Schizophrenia. I love seeing people spreading awareness on this, no one understands her so she was appreciative to see someone shining light on this. Thank you.
The fact that he's aware that he's imagining all this is quite fascinating. He is a strong minded fellow with a very unfortunate sickness.
yeah my dad has this sickness and he was absloutley crazy but he finally took metication and hes talking to "people' he says and he dose that alot and says hes not crazy
It means is not sick 😂. Trust me !
So whats the difference between a schozfrenic and a normal person, not much of a diff, let me tell u why, we all have a voice in our head that keeps talking and complaining, is the reason of all the suffering in the world, but are we are really separate from these thoughts and who we really are? Yes, we are totally different than what we hear in our mind and ourselves and reality, this kid, unfortunately is not properly guided, but i bet a week around me, and i ll solve all his problems.
But why does it sound like anyone talking about their internal thoughts. What's fascinating is that there is no second thought about it being real. Since there is that disconnect that these are not his voices and his thought, that it makes it easier to believe. Like people wanting to jump when they walk up to a ledge is a real phenomenon. But most understand that it's THEIR thoughts
I don't wanna be that weirdo in the comments but I wonder if for some people they're hearing spirits. I hear them once in a great while. I have no mental illnesses.
Crazy how he knows the voices are not real but he can still hear them
Blindi as it progresses you start to believe they are real, that’s the problem with this mental illness. Along with other manifestations of course.
What if he’s u intentionally channeling beings ?
@Blindi That's such a dickheaded thing to say. Most people with this type of schizophrenia can't tell, it's hard to distinguish between what's real and what isn't, particularly if it's paired with hallucinations, which I don't think his is. These voices convince them to believe a lot of things, the intense paranoia shows that they believe these voices.
@Blindi If you heard someone calling your name from another room, you'd know they're real, becaude you can hear it, you can process it. If you hear something, you have the privilege of knowing it's real, but these people have the same sensations of hearing something, but they have to decide for themselves if they believe it or not.
Scott Larson me too
Just discovered your channel now.
My brother was schizophrenic throughout most of my life (sadly he passed a few years ago) and it wasn't easy watching him struggle.
He was a very kind-hearted soul that was dealt a crap hand, and what he had to go through was anything but fair.
Thank you for sharing your experience with us, I wish you all the best
I understand you perfectly
Sometimes we can’t play our cards
A slave lied about as your brother is also being lied about as ________?
I’m so sorry, kiddo. My son was recently diagnosed. My heart goes out to you and your family. This is very brave of you to share, and is helpful to me as a support person for my son. Thank you with all of my heart. I wish you tons of great things on your recovery journey. ❤
For anyone wondering, those voices are loud and clear, the brain can generate sensory inputs from within that are even clearer than those from your ears
Yeah like in dreams?
didn't watch the video but whos voice they be hearing?
@@raymondreddington9788 it can be just made voices or someones voice you have heard throughout your life
Yep, you almost can't even tell difference between real and fake when you're experience those.
Yeah, happens to me too sometimes. I'll sometimes hear my mom yelling at me from the living room very loud and clear and when I go to see what she wants, I remember I'm home alone...
KEEP POSTING MATE.
YOU
ARE
NOT
ALONE
IN
THIS ILLNESS.
We are here for you. You have an army battling with you and supporting you. Letting people in to what is happening is the cleverest idea EVER.
You are so smart to do this. Many brains are better than one!
Hope this young man is doing good this day and age!
The fact that you’re aware that you’re having an episode and talking about it is amazing
Edit: I have learnt a lot more about schizophrenia since I left this comment. This came from my personal experience and had no ill intent
Very amazing 👏
Yes it is! That shows amazing strength
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@@emmacatherine3960 or hes faking for views
@Antlers Antlers it's just a critical thinking u idiot. If this boy didn't showed any medical certificate "Colton" can say whatever he wants to
This dude is so strong.
then where are his muscles
swaggy fridgerator on the inside
@@butterscotch9020 it was a joke i hope the best for him my relatives suffer from schizo affective bipolar and it is torture.
I don't see him lifting communist spies
swaggy fridgerator r/facepalm
I would just love to give you a big warm hug. You are so brave. Thank you for showing what is your experience of this awful illness.
I am so impressed with your awareness and ability to cope with your illness. Putting yourself out here in such a vulnerable state is admirable. You are a strong young man that is clearly utilizing the tools and resources available to you and that is commendable. I realize this video is 5 years old but I intend to watch all of them and to follow along on your journey. Sending so much love and appreciation for your daily struggle. You're an amazing human. 💚💚
Such a nice kid I feel so bad he’s gotta deal with this constantly.
Francisco Elliot nice or not nobody should have to go through any of what he is going through
@@doggon1416 put him out of his misery?
@@spaghettios *иісса...*
Check freq?
@@spaghettios noice
It disgusts me knowing that there are people out there who would think this is fake.... this poor kid I hope he has a happy life other than this
Edit: I understand why people could assume something like this is fake, but I meant like, to just flat out be like “that is so fake” and for some people to actually get mad at it? Horrible, cause you don’t even know if it really is fake or not. And, there are some people who genuinely don’t believe schizophrenia is real. It’s all just horrible
I’m sure there are people who fake their schizophrenia but I understand what you’re saying
@@JackaboiTV what
@@MASlTAS what
@Sugu there really are some crazy attention Whores out there that will say they have this disorder, its more common in narcissistic people I only say this cuz I know of people who faked their disorder
It's sad many people wish they had schizophrenia thinking it's like a drug trip or that it's trendy to be mentally ill
You're such a sweet person. I'm so proud of you for fighting this everyday and yet still being such a light. Im rooting for you ❤
" sometimes i debate if i should or not " no, please youre amazing and you deserve to be here on this planet, please you make the world a better place and you spread awareness to the world. Dont listen to the voices🙏
This is a sane person with schizophrenia and he actually realizes it
No, this is a *Rational* person with schizophrenia.
Your right sir. You worded it correctly
Most people with schizophrenia can't step back and look at it rationally like this kid can. I hope he comes through on top
@@blackthunder7342 is that a fact?? I don't know tbh i don't know most ppl w schizophrenia but most ppl i know who have it (which is a very small sample) have fluctuating levels of awareness. Just like everyone else has fluctuating mental experiences, but someone who ids w schizophrenia has a harder time maintaining awareness 4 sure. But i wouldn't think that most people arent usually pretty aware of their surroundings.
@@hizts you're right most people are completely unaware of their surroundings I'm not one of those people though
“NOOO YOU CANT MAKE HUMOR OUT OF MENTAL ILLNESS NOOO”
Person with schizophrenia: anyways here’s a laser pointer
Making humour of mental illness is the majority of people’s, including my own way of coping with it
Ask anyone who suffers from anxiety, depression, Aspergers such as myself. If we didn’t have humour to help deal with it, we would go nuts without more help than possible
A mental illness is part of our everyday life. It's always there. Making jokes is a way to express it. But I do feel kinda bad when people make memes about wanting to kill yourself.
Matthew Greer people who don’t suffer shouldn’t joke about it but if it helps someone cope with their mental illness then it should totally be allowed. you just gotta be careful because it’s triggering for some
It's fine to joke about mental illnesses in a friendly, jovial manner. But you should never never joke about the person or make a cruel, heartless joke. Also its best not to joke about illnesses you don't have.
@@gamevault4580 aye for real I'm quite depressed but it's getting way better and I usually deal with it by anger and jokes mostly jokes.
I have bad Anxiety and Moderate Depression (DNA) and PTSD from an event in my early 20's. THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS! Mental Health is still too Taboo. WE MUST TALK ABOUT IT TO BREAK THE STIGMA!
Dude you are so brave!! You are so worth the time and effort it takes to get better!!
Thank you so much for recording and putting yourself, in your most vulnerable situation, out here for those of us that are here to learn and understand bc we have loved ones suffering too!! Thank you so so so much. You are a hero in my eyes.
So I noticed this video was taken a year ago I certainly hope this young man is healthy and alive
He's been uploading frequently on his gaming channel, posted a new video yesterday
@@cold894 what's his gaming channel ?
@@marandagarner5218 It's called Geeky Boi Gaming, he mentioned it in the description of the video which is the only reason I know, lol
The spies prob got him
@@azhleysentertainmentofbore922 Oh fuck off.
“The voice told me to kill myself”
“I’ll just put the music back on”
YES YOU DO THAT DROWN THE VOICES DROWN THEM OUT
Exactly I tell mine to stfu now
@@sarahsmith9430 same lmao, but sometimes i zone out and kind of forget im in public or with people lmaoo
Hey dude.
I’m a schizophrenic.
I cannot handle stress.
The words that come out of my brain tend to be jarbled. It is a miracle that I can even type this out correctly.
I work at mcdonalds and i love washing the dishes because it’s the easiest part of the job.
Thanks!
@@vodkacannon stay strong king!!
You are the best and yes it was educational! Great job sharing and telling everyone what you’re going through. We all love you for who you are.
I feel like schizophrenic people are lucid enough to see their own life from a 3rd person angle while having unstable thoughts like... its mind blowing
This poor baby is so brave. I couldnt do this. He is very strong.
Why're you calling him a baby tho? He's a grown up man.
@@user-qu4oh4xi1s was my exact question as well. And she isn't even old, like as if a grandma said it.
She said it out of love guys ...
My profile picture was years ago. Just because I'm not "old" does not mean I cant sympathize with one another. Obviously he is having a hard time and this is his life. He is so traumatized and vulnerable...so yes, the metaphor "poor baby" was the appropriate response, in my opinion. The world is so sensitive; will pick anything apart on what anyone has to say... What a shame. My comment shouldn't have stolen what the "big picture" was.
Not to mention, in this video this KID had to be about 15-17. He was not a grown man at the time and still lived with his parents
I can't even imagine living in constant anxiety...he should really have a service dog to help him or maybe a good friend to check on him everyday... :(
Same😔
I feel so srry 4 him
Its a good idea!
@@4meiggy109 same 🤯
@@4meiggy109 my dad had it tho and I’ve been smoking weed since 13 but I think I’m clear
MUCH LOVE!! ive been through similar things during and shortly after bad psychedelic experiences. im rooting for you brother.
Thank you so much! I have a grandson with the same problem He talks to his voices It's a little scary but you are doing very well with the way you're handling it. Please don't ever try to kill yourself! Your whole life is ahead of you! Plus i imagine that you have many many people that love you! God bless you and keep you!
He has the prettiest eyes but they are full of so much pain I feel for him
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
@@userm180 stop shoving ur religious beliefs down people's throats
@@FrozenMermaid666 you may have a god complex and delusions, please seek a professional.
Or you're trolling, idk.
In Psalms 2:7 God says “You are my Son; today I have begotten you" to David. So are you sure? "HE gave HIS only begotten SON" you are contradicting the bible. Read your scripture.
@@idunno7131 Nice to know there’s a someone normal in this comment section. For some reason, it’s riddled with radical loonies.
Imagine consciously staying lucid while your own mind is actively working against you. Your willpower is very impressive my man.
for real
Extremely impressive, one might say one of a kind, if only every schizophrenic individual was aware that they were schizophrenic, and only hallucinating, and that the voices, and what not, we’re just all part of a sickness, no warped, storyline really far outside of reality that one mistakes for their actual life because they would know it is all just a hallucination
I heard vocies in my life too. I heard demons laughing, female voices, man voices that can wake me up, jokes that i wake up. Make me fear like nightmare and stuff.
I also heard God speaking and he spoke in muy head not into my ear like the others.
The best thing you can do is accept Jesus Christ who is God himself, pray in the name of Jesus Christ, hurt these demons, command in Jesus name fire on them, break covenants with them and command them to get out just like the apostles did after Jesus died and left them the holy spirit in the book of Acts.
Terrible
@@seven7upndown241 I thought this was an actually person with schizo but no, you decided to put the religious bs in the comment just because you want people to follow your christian god.
Dude, I'm sorry that you have to fight this difficult battle everyday in your life. Thank u for share this video and i hope one day this stop and you never can hear/see this situations anymore. Much love from Brasil to your heart! 🇧🇷❤️
Psychedelics saved me from years of uncontrollable depression, anxiety, and illicit pills addiction. Imagine carving heavy chains for over a decade and then all of a sudden that burden is gone. Believe it or not, in a couple of years they'll be all over for treatment of mental health related issues.
Yes, that's right. I researched and found out that shrooms are very helpful, it has really helps to reduce anxiety and depression. I would love to try magic mushrooms but I can't easily get some, Is there any realiable source I can purchase one?
Tripping is not really bad but find a good mycologist who will teach you the right things you need to know
I feel the same too. I once got my shroom from him and he's a genius. I'm glad to be part of his community.
Does Sporeville ship?
Thank you, I really needed to hear this. Something terrible has happened unexpectedly in my life. I'm very vulnerable and also very afraid.
Poor boy, I just want to hug and hold him. He is very brave.
I bet it's cause he's a very pretty boy, don't lie to us. I wanna hug him too.
@CRACKEDfortnitePRO 08 you suck hahaha
@CRACKEDfortnitePRO 08 mama jokes are for infantile blokes like yourself. grow up
♥️
He is so brave
To be honest I wanna be friends with him. He seems like a chill person.
@Marcus Aurelius He has schizophrenia. He's not a psychopath, come the fuck on
@Marcus Aurelius That's not how it works dude..
It's just a stereotype or extreme cases
Besides there's medication for this
@Marcus Aurelius Yes sir. And in fact i have a aunt with this. They can be medicated and live a normal life. What you see on the news is the extreme of schizophrenia plus some psycopathic traces.
Anyway, you have to be careful not to be rude to these people, they already suffer too much
@Marcus Aurelius Ok
@Marcus Aurelius 💀💀💀so uneducated
Thanks for the video, I too suffer from schizophrenia, meds made it worse and I've learned to tune the voices out and after lots of convincing I know the auditory voices aren't there but just in my head, no one understands or really knows the true extent of the things going on in the head, I now know I'm not the only one. Thanks, hope your able to find some peace
Seeing this helped me understand that there aren't crazy people, just crazy things happening to normal people. I hope he found some peace and tranquility
Sorry, but have you heard of Hitler or Jeffrey Dahmer or any other serial killer or something like that. There are crazy people.
(Dunno why I said this I know it's useless)
@@suurinappi6298they weren’t crazy they were bad, hitler was evil, not mentally unwell or impaired. “Crazy” is a somewhat impolite term to refer to people who suffer from mental disabilities or disorders.
There are also crazy people though, this man is not one of them
The shooter in Maine today killed 22 ppl & hurt plenty others in 3 separate locations. He too was mentally ill. & ex military
At my pharmacy job there was a woman who would sit and act crazy and then when her schizo drugs were ready she was completely normal.
Uh-maz-ing
Was with a friend who had a episode. He always heard his Mothers voice, he looked at me with pleading eyes and said, "Can't you hear her?" It broke my heart
My boyfriend is experiencing schizo rite now. He said he always hear some of his friend's voice talking bad about him. Even when he was with me, he will ask me is there anyone around us bcz he can hear people badmouth about him. I pity him. Now he is on medication, i hope that will make him better 😢
I would hug them idk why, it’s a natural instinct of mine.
Larry Sunde is his mother still alive?!
Makes me sad my mom died when i was a baby i heard her for years during my kindergartden and my first school years by tha age of 9 i ended up with heavy prescriptions of risperidona and clonazepam nobody believed me kides were so.mean in that days when i grown up i learn to live with it but it was hard .
Maggie Mahmond wow I wonder if it was really her
Thanks for doing this. I'm extremely interested in psychology, specifically mental illnesses. I wish there was an easy cure for sufferers like yourself. Keep doing your thing and raising awareness
Thank you for sharing to raise AWARENESS of this illness and let people see for themselves the reality of it. Stay STRONG brother keep pumping that hip hop
When he said the voice told him to kill himself my heart shattered
My dad had paranoid schizophrenia - he thought things like car horns honking were a kind of secret communication system about him and this reminds me that he probably had voices telling him that, too. He passed away from cancer at just 36. Schizophrenia hit him out of the blue at like 29 or 30, and I feel terrible about what he went through.
isnt that normal
My best friend took his life because of this disease. It’s truly insane. No clue how it works, and even if it was explained it wouldn’t make any fucking sense.
I’m glad this guy knows what he’s going through, I don’t know if Matt did or not
the whole disorder sounds absolutely terrifying to go through.
what’s up my fellow nico collins fan tho :)
Intelligent. Strong for sharing, and helping others. The brain is so complex. Prayers x
Audio hallucinations are so much worse than visual hallucinations, this poor boy must be tormented.... what a scary thing the human brain is, I hope this kid gets all the help he can
Yep! I sometimes hallucinate (most likely a result of a lack of sleep but idk) and I used to hear babies crying. I also recently heard someone say my name from right next to me (I was sat in my room at night, alone) so that was terrifying. In terms of visual hallucinations, one time I woke up face-to-face with a ghost-like person, so either my house is haunted or I should start going to sleep earlier
My visual hallucinations are much worse than the auditory ones. Also, I'm not diagnosed with schizophrenia so right now I don't know the source of my hallucinations.
@@beezabub06 wow you should contact a doctor or someone that can help you idk, that's strange
@@Alanna_Llama same to the comment above
@@beezabub06 I sometimss wake up at night and see my dad staring at me but his face is weird and just... idk why lol hes nice but it freaks me out
I just now saw this and I'm glad you did this. You're very brave! I deal with this as well. Seeing that I'm not alone really gives me a sense of comfort... I hope you're doing okay. We got this ❤
How are you doing?
Thank you so much for your vulnerability. Thank you for putting yourself out to educate people. I hope you know how much this is helping
he sounds so sweet and genuine. i just want to be his friend and give him a hug :(
maxx frrr ❤️❤️❤️
maxx it’s fake or not to the extent he is saying.
Jesse maness wdym
that kinda sound sus
hes a nazi look at the flag in the back
If i hear a voice shout "gotcha" behind me and it's not there, i would genuinely shit my pants. You're a brave, pure and funny human being. Much love man
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I feel the same way! God bless and keep strong. Thank you for sharing.
This is a beautiful young man, I am so sorry this is happening to him
I hope this is therapeutic for him and it helps to release the power it has over his thoughts and the shame it can often bring.
He loves Enigma...me too Buddy!
I'm not really " religious " but when I remember to pray or something touches my heart I'm inspired to do so.
May I pray for you?
Is it better to listen to his mind or is it better to ignore those? Which one helps the mind?
@Cole Aufdenkamp I don't get it, I thought Abby M was drunk or something
God bless your soul brother. Nothing else to say but a true WARRIOR. I hope you're keeping up the good fight sir
Thank you for sharing such difficult content. You are brave and should be commended. I hope that you are in counselling. You're an amazing individual. Kudos!
I had a friend in high school who was constantly in and out of the hospital for his schizophrenia. Unfortunately, he committed suicide our sophomore year when we were 16. My friends and I are 23 now, and we still talk about him all the time. Such a great kid. Rest In Peace, Avery.
i am so sorry for your loss...
avery is very proud of u♡
Oh my. I’m so sorry😢 No one should have to go through that. I’m very sorry🥺
Omg that’s my name when i saw that I got scared but Rest In Peace to your friend I bet he was a great guy 💖 and I hope you are doing well
Constant hospitalizations look like good cause of suicide no?
Rest in peace buddy🥺
I work with schizophrenic folk all the time. Its very rare that people are this aware of their delusions. The amount of willpower this takes is far beyond anything I could even comprehend, you're strong dude. Keep that head up.
This is low key why this looks like drug induced psychosis to me - the strong mind and awareness seem like a rather early diagnosis or something that developed a few years after intensive lsd “research”
Look up Jerry Mininsky, he interviewed hundreds of people and wrote about their voices, his conclusions, the voices are real, not hallucinations, for these people it seems some veil is lowered, enabling them hear the voices most of us just think as negative thoughts.
@@roflman2122it could be indeed a drug experience but i dont say it is one
Yeah I know what you mean this happened to me when I took strong ass shrooms and it’s uncanny how a disease and a drug kinda affects your brain in a similar manner
@@roflman2122well if you look at his second episode there's a shroom on the back wall 🤔
We have to do better!! This young man and others need us to do better!! I'm sorry. You're a brave and sweet young man. They are still treating this illness the same way with the same meds for 40 + years. We need to do better!! Thank you for sharing yourself with us so we can help learn how to help you!
I’m very happy you posted this my cousin is in the same boat. It started when he went to college. He is different though. Like the old cousin died and this new one emerged. He doesn’t want help and doesn’t believe he has it. I wish he would watch your videos. Just so he understood that he isn’t alone. He lives on the streets in Chicago somewhere now… 😢 I’m glad that you can make these videos so others can understand somewhat of how you guys are when you’re in it.
It takes some proper mental strength to talk and stay focused on a task during an episode. This dude is so strong I’m impressed
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He is an amazing person and extremely brave!! Helps to create awareness and stop the stigma!!
Hugs 🤗and love to you young man!
@@thequantummechanic1796 lol
Yes, peoples comments are more scary than him!
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This honestly terrifies me the most of all. Imagine hearing voices talking to you and turn around and there is nothing there what so ever. You are incredibly brave I I hope you stay strong
Theodor Sabaghi there is probably something there for him he’s schizophrenic
For me auditory hallucinations and visual ones don’t match up or make sense when together which is kind of worse
Theodor Sabaghi you don’t just hear stuff you can see it too
In Abnormal psychology we learnt that schizophrenics hear their inner voice, which majority of the population has (when you read a book in your head and read in ur mind), but with schizophrenics they are unable to differentiate between it.
charger btw not true just in some cases
Sadeness is a great song, super informative video, interesting perspective, thank you for uploading.
I'm so sorry you struggle with this. Please don't ever kill yourself!! You seem like an amazing guy. You've got a great personality, funny, friendly, caring & much, much more. Do you take medications for this? Do they help if/when you do? It sounds like you're close to your parents because you said you talk to them about it but if you ever need/want someone just to talk/chat with we could exchange emails, FB messenger, or thru here, although I don't know if we can chat thru here, I've never tried that :) Anyway, you're a very strong & brave guy with lots to offer this world & I wish you more good days than bad. 💕
“My least favorite music is country”
*_respect_*
discharge puddle 💀
Country roads?
Stg 😭
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You’re going through a schizophrenia episode and you still act happy and silly and bring up a laser pointer, good for you man! You’re awesome and I hope the best for you!
Couldn't have been said better.
Yeah that's really hard to do
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I’m your 7.9 thousandth like... 🤗
That coming from forrest deer, wow.
I have Schizo also and one of the voice just said "we support you not turning off the recording software"
I'm delusional I make voices for company me and I'm not lonely I'm like extrovert but I feel there's no one can understand me I converse with myself
watching the whole thing now and this really is so heartbreaking..it’s not even living😞🖤I feel horrible for the people that have to go through things like that. you make me feel less alone🩷stay strong soldier💖
This guy is so tough mentally. My uncle got schizophrenia and killed himself. Its not easy when you have so much shit going on in your head. Stay strong man. The voices are real but you can fight back.
i guess you have to take your meds ALL THe TIME
Well Hot damn!
Well No Shit!
Thats Alllll because of Demons, like i Commented down below the video
Towelie Towel my grandfather also committed suicide :’(
@@angiedeleon4839, WELL POOR YOU
I have a friend that has schizophrenia. Whenever he is having an episode, he would focus his attention on the time. He says that focusing on something that grounds him in reality really helps him to be able to stop focusing on what's in his head. Stay strong friend, much love.
That wouldn't work for me because I would just tell myself that time is an illusion but I'm glad if it works for others
That’s what I do when I’m high as shit, watching a movie helps
@@ThuggBugg69 it works for bad trips for sure
@Spicy_pickle_forlife it's fine to reference something that's in the video you're watching and comment on it. For fucks sake
@@robbdgordon Is he already on medication? Sometimes meds need to be adjusted. If not, being unmedicated and psychotic means you are a danger to society. Therefore, you should take him to the hospital rather than having a neighbor report him and then the police drag him there. It would be easier to take him there yourself and hopefully he agrees to take the medication. If not, speaking from experience, he will be injected with tranquilizers and locked in a room until he agrees to take them orally. After discharge, he will see a psychiatrist who will manage the medication for most likely the duration of his life but some have gone off successfully with no psychosis later in life. It is an easier route to say "yes" to the medication they offer and then see the psychiatrist.
I wish the same for the creator of this video.
I am sending love and saying prayers for your peace. My older brother also has schizophrenia and is now in his 70's. He was lucky enough to have a wonderful doctor who helped him become a sucessful in life. I hate that the voices are telling you to kill yourself, because life can get better. Please hang in there, and seak support when you need it. Also you are very corageous to be so open with your struggles, I doubt I could ever do something like that. Thank you for sharing, and I am sending love and saying prayers!
I hope all is well for you brother, thank you for sharing your experience
I really want to give him a big hug. He is so strong.
I call you now: big Hugman !
Yeah, he is.
And he is cute af 😊😊😊
@@auk8174 agree :D
It's almost like schizophrenia is when a person's random, negative subconscious thoughts are run through an amplifier and brought to the level of their conscious thoughts.
I usually think of it as a toxic friend. It's complex.
Wow yes I can see that.....
My cousin has this disorder I watch and listen to his responses it is a constant battle of thoughts magnified
*as if your intrusive thoughts have taken over your conciseness
that's a simplistic view, after all no ordinary person would have thoughts about ending their own lives as much as schizos have. But I believe their hallucinations may have to do with the environment a bit and also of course their malfunctioning brain.
@@vocalzbyjamelle6241 Oh man that s sad
Thanks for doing the video some of us not knowing what your going thru its hard but thanks for the video you are so brave going thru this
Thank you for your bravery and honesty! I wish you nothing but the best and I’m glad you’re still here with us. Please don’t ever harm yourself! You’re such a strong warrior!
*uses a laser pointer* “I’m trying to make light of the situation” 💀
*points own eye* ouch
Laser probably can make you blind
Unintentional pun😂
good wordplay on his part
Best pun ever
Poor guy, I can’t even begin to imagine how horrible this must be to deal with on a daily basis.
its hard to deal with/ u got that right. im proud of the dude. takes alot to do what he did. record himself having a episode.
I feel this comment is clout chasing ,unnecessary and rude
SKilledP0TATO it’s awful :,(
@@Xunersito people like you make me sick
My older sister says its like living on a horror movie 24/7
Keep your head phones on and the hope in your heart strong. Youre extremely self aware intelligent and brave. Youre honestly like a breathe of fresh air as much as it was heart breaking to watch. Stay strong❤
Wow, i respect yiu so much for sharing it. I lived with someone who had schizophrenia. This will help others, and hopefully yourself. It's learning how to throw out all negative thoughts and embellish the positives and love. Very difficult. I wish you well
When he said that he's hearing voices telling him to kill himself but he doesn't and he says "i guess that's a good thing".
Man, that's a real great thing. You're so strong to fight it off like that. I know it's hard not to listen to it but I'm proud of you holding on this long. You're doing great!💙
You deserve heaven.
I hope you are doing okay this week, dude. No lie. Wish you the best. I used to use drugs and I would hear people in my house. I would hear them under my bed, in my closet...it was awful. So glad I do not have to do that now. Are you watching a football game or am I hearing things now?? Seriously thought I heard a while and I hear commentators. Please tell me I am not losing it
@@NukePossumSpringsBand thank you for letting me know i am not losing it.
@gurty chicken I went to his page and he had other videos but tell me that the guy in the other videos looks totally different like I think he does. I expected him to have black hair but in other videos it is tow head blonde. Let me know if you think someone took over his page or if its still him and the hoodie is just throwing me off.
You're doing great handling your episodes. Did you take your vitamins? They are important to balance the chemicals in your brain. You are just wired differently. I wish you would tell your therapist always whatever you hear. You just need to express and converse with someone. Im here to listen if you like. I have a friend who is also schizophrenic, but i dont get to talk to him often. He is staying strong like you are. Am here if you want to talk. Hugs!
When he said “I don’t know why. There’s a lot we don’t know.” that broke my heart. I’m hoping one day we will know, and we can help.
❤️
humans will never know, human brain whack
I couldn't imagine not having control of my mind
@@people_watcher I wouldn't wish that upon my enemy
@@greenjupiter , same for me. Nobody deserves that type of suffering.
Oh honey.. your trying to fight it and that takes alot of courage and will power. Thank you for sharing this. God bless you sweetheart
You’re so strong for making such a video and I’m so proud of you for trying to fight this. Much love
This kid has a enormous amount of strength to even talk about what he's going through. You'll find your happy place soon enough.
He looks like a teenager
Yes he does...so strong!!
@Yeah Right is there really a need to bring up gun control to a video of a tremendously brave teenager lively explaining what he’s going through/seeing/hearing to educate more people on this exact matter on mental illnesses, in this case (schizophrenia). Go sit on a fucking pinecone if you don’t have anything better to do, fucking pathetic.
@Yeah Right You sound like a toddler. F**k "gun rights". Look at the civilised world. Grow up. Childish mehmehmeh...
@Yeah Right *evil laughter*
You can see in his eyes whenever he fades. Must be terrifying every time he snaps back to reality and I hope he’s doing well
he’s alive and well right now! he streams video games on twitch in his mean-time.
@@kaynagbilinmeyenmadde2093 pewdie pie
@@kaynagbilinmeyenmadde2093 you should look at his recent videos on his channel, he talks about his twitch streams and his nickname
I was gonna make a "SNAP BACK TO REALITY!" joke but I realised it's not a great time to make it.
@@brrttaa 😂 love the dark humor
Watching his latest video from 10 days ago I couldn’t be happier to see him doing well ❤️
9:03 yes it’s a good thing!! I am glad you never did and hope you never do! I struggle with really bad anxiety and ocd so I feel your pain and you are not alone 😢…I am proud of how honest you are and it’s super brave of you to be so vulnerable and I am praying for you to find peace ❤
Why is everyone getting recommended this now. It’s 1 am and this is so scary.
Chikinnugjits you still awake? I am 😂
Igs literally 1:00 am exactly
CrustyOnion wtf
It’s now 1 am for me too wtf
Yooo same lmao 😳😳🙄🙄
I want to be his friend really badly
oh same!
I wish so too
i want to help too so bad but im scared ^^
Same 😭
Yaa, me too..