I am a DBT therapist and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this video! You are normalizing and destigmatizing this diagnosis and discussions of mental health. Beaitiful work!
@@altafmalik2843 bpd is brain damage. If you look up 'bpd brain abnormalities mri scans ' you will see from various good studies that many parts of the brain have been affected, usually in childhood. Most drs still believe that it's psychological and family, friends and society have been duped into believing the bpd person isn't trying hard enough or its their fault if any treatment doesn't work. Mental and sexual abuse as a child is devastating. Most diagnoses are done over the age of 16, (mostly 18). The diagnosis process radically needs to change. Maybe mri scans of the brain at 10 years old could identify problems and help to diminish lifelong severe problems. Very complicated but 99% don't get any treatment. 10% of bpd folk alive now will kill themselves.
Another bpd girl here. "my upset was different to theirs, like I felt like my world was ending" is the sentence that sums it up for me. It has been like that for me. For years. I keep hearing "it's not the end of the world!" or "that's just a minor inconvenience!", when for me everything feels **amplified**. You got me crying throughout the video. I see myself in many of the stories you're telling in this video. Thank you for sharing :)
I was diagnosed with BPD 20 years ago. I have had many ups and downs, but I wouldn’t change a thing about my life. I am a rocket engineer with a wonderful husband and 2 healthy bright little kids. Thank you for sharing your story. 🙏🏻
Can i ask how you manage your mental health? Medicine, therapy? I was diagnosed 6months ago and i got meds that were working for me but i had very bad setback and now i feel just devastated. I had huge stress for couple months and my meds stopped working. Now i taking break off everything and trying to figure out what to do now.
As someone who suffers from bpd, I can imagine how freaking hard it must have been to speak about your experience on such an intimate level as those with bpd would prefer to suffer in the shadows. But the message is clear: it is possible for anyone suffering from mental illness to have a beautiful and full life. It is within reach so don't ever give up and make sure to use all the community resources possible in the fight. 💙
I haven’t worked out in months because of my depression but after watching this you’ve really motivated me to wake up tomorrow and just get back into it, for myself and my mental health 💗
Hey, I was diagnosed with BPD about a year ago. I had lived like 30 years knowing something wasn’t right and lived in emotional agony. I had ruined my credit, self sabotaged jobs and many relationships. Engaged in some very risky sex, and delved into substance abuse. However after seeking help I have found a good medication cocktail paired with therapy. I’m no where near 100% but I’m doing so much better. I still have so much learning to learn and improve on. But I feel so much better. Of course I have my bad days but I have a wonderful support system of friends. My mom told me this and it has really helped me: BPD is not your fault, but it’s your responsibility. Thanks for sharing your story!
I know this is an old video but I have been diagnosed with bpd since I was 18 years old and your life is SO similar to mine. I had no stability in my life as a child, I moved around so much and I 100% think that has a huge impact on the development of bpd. My life was also chaotic in every aspect of my life; family, friends, relationships, substances. My parents also were chaotic and that ended extremely bad. It’s crazy hearing someone speak about their life as a diagnosed borderline and it being so similar to mine. Makes me feel seen and heard. Thank you for being so honest you don’t realise how many people you are helping with your bravery ❤
Mari, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for discussing your life and journey of living with BPD. I lost my best friend to suicide in 2019 who was diagnosed with BPD shortly before, and I never truly understood the severe effects it has on a person. Living with anxiety and depression myself, I will continue to teach and educate others about the importance of mental health and taking care of yourself!
Mari - thank you. Thank you. I am a music therapist working in a mental health hospital and I have struggled with my own trauma and mental illness since I was in middle school. It’s time we talk about this as a society and stop sweeping it under the rug. I’m so happy you are a part of my life and fitness journey 💕
This made me really emotional. Felt like I was having a deep conversation with a friend. Thank you for your vulnerability. It resonates more than you know. 🧡
I am 42, got sober 10 years ago after almost ending my life (but didn’t because my puppy walked in on me) and gripped on tight for the ride of sobriety. My mental health didn’t improve and actually got worse- however I was picking up coping skills in sobriety, it was just VERY hard to implement them. My only real coping mechanism was now gone (alcohol) and I was a MESS. Went on meds, they didn’t help. Today I am coming to terms with why- I check every single box for BPD and as I listen to you and other folks in her describe their life with BPD it feels like you’re talking about me. I’m going to check out that workbook you mentioned here. I’d like to get into therapy but I’m in a masters program and it’s sucks up ALL of my time. A therapist would be nice but I mostly just wanna get my hands on the info and tools. The past few days have been hard. Got triggered over the school shooting court cases going on here in America and I haven’t been able to snap out of the suicidal ideation. But I’ll hang on because as history has shown- it will pass. Thanks for taking the time to share your story. I hope I can freely talk about it one day too.
"felt like wanting to rip your soul out" resonated a lot. I used to say it would hurt less if I would stab myself in the heart. I've only recently been diagnosed although all the signs were there. Thank you for this clip
Can I just say I freakin love you! My mom died after committing suicide in 2011 after we got in a fight. I struggle with my mental health and exercise had changed me and is MY a therapy, thank you for your honesty
hello im kinda in he same situation as you, do you have any advice or help with a bdp person who lost my DAD in 2011 on his way to pick me up it was a fatal head on accident
@@tessapfeifer2087 hey girlie I know u commented this awhile ago but I hope you're doing well, I've gone through similar and what helped me get through it is leaning on others, therapy, and reminding myself that it wasn't my fault. Take your time to grieve ❤
What a brave woman this woman is. I'm just blown away. This video can help so many people,. Borderline is so stigmatized and misunderstood and to see someone share their inspiring journey so honestly and helpfully is just a tremendous gift to those who suffer with BPD and there loved ones. I am also amazed at the devotion and kindness of her partner That what real partnership is about.
My Mom has BPD , Bipolar and a recovering alcoholic she was sexually abused from the age 3 almost until she got pregnant with me at 16! It started with 3 of her 4 brothers, cousins, friends fathers... She was truly a wonderful mother the most difficult for me was when she got worse in my 20’s. I have so much mental illness in my family & I’m so grateful it’s more discussed & norm now ppl aren’t seen as “crazy” & locked away in institution where my Mom spent much of her life.Thank you for sharing.💖
Thanks, I’m going to see a psychiatrist soon because I was self harming and I was making dangerous choices for myself I love the highs of this disorder but they put me in unsafe situations where I trust in those I shouldn’t, and don’t expect anything to affect me. I’m on a journey now to protect myself at 38 I feel like it’s as good a time as any and my 3 boys will benefit from my focusing on my mental health for a while. You are making me want to work out more !!❤. Thanks I’m scared to give up my addiction which is relationships I need to be single a while and learn how to cope . Thank you.
Thank you for sharing your story and working towards dismantling the stigma around mental illness ❤️ I would love to hear from Greg’s perspective what it’s like supporting someone with bpd, if he’s willing to share. So grateful for you!
I thought the same thing! They’ve been together through it all, it would be cool to hear his perspective and tips for supporting someone with a mental illness.
Agree... the maturity and love Greg had to stick by Mari throughout her worst moments is commendable. Especially whilst still being a teenager. I’m so inspired by their daily reality now compared to the harsh times Mari discussed. Amazing.
Thank you SO much for this video. I’m 46 & was diagnosed with BPD 5 years ago. I’ve always struggled, people don’t understand how painful it is. This was perfect timing ❤️❤️❤️❤️
… my therapist just recommended this video to me & i procrastinated sooo much to finally watch it because i was fearful of what she would say about my #1 disorder & possibly hurt my feelings or make me upset… BUT 5 minutes in & i already feel so understood & SEEN… & to whoever comes across to read this WITH BPD, you’re not alone
Mari- as an RN working in NYC during this COVID19 global pandemic I have seen such a dramatic increase in mental health conditions. Thank you for having the courage to use your platform to shine light on the importance of mental health and encouraging people to seek help when needed! Thank you for opening up and inspiring others to do the same.
Your brave journey is SUCH a testament to the power of love, belief in self-worth, getting off of the toxic influence of sugar and alcohol, eating pure foods and returning your body to the healthy and active way we evolved to be thousands of years ago. I have begun to think of the food industry as criminals in their pursuit of wealth over compassion and correct advertising. Think about it. There's no money to be made in advertising broccoli or apples because there's no middle man to make the profits all the way from harvest through processing through packaging and being out onto supermarket shelves!!! Mari, you and Greg are helping thousands discover, or rediscover, their true inner beings. Kudos to him for seeing and loving the beautiful girl shining in the darkness and helping you through this journey. Now you are paying all that love and support forward. Thank you!
This video was so incredibly articulated. I’ve never seen something so raw & real on this platform. When you started to tear up, so did I! It’s incredible how you talked about wanting to be a strong person without even realizing just how strong you have always been especially for pulling yourself out of your mental illness & facing it head-on. I’ve struggled with anxiety & my weight for years but you personally helped me lose over 55lbs over a year ago & I’ve become obsessed with fitness ever since & you don’t even know me. You changed my life so I can only imagine the number of people you’ve inspired & impacted just with your openness about your illness alone. The world needs more people like you.. & Greg❤️ I’m so happy you’re here. Thank you for sharing your story & helping others feel more open about sharing theirs 🙌🏻
I am from TAIWAN,married to Australia,I have one son but I have been diagnosed BPD after I committed suicid 2 years ago, still feel like outsider still struggling a lots with my husband and job and my poor English and this society ect struggling with dark thoughts 、low self esteem and feel no one can help me or truly understand me … thank you for sharing your story it’s shows me it is could have successful life it’s could get better but I just feel no one help me still … and urged with my partner a lot he just don’t understand…😢 it’s super super lonely and hopeless
I suffer with BPD and I have never been able to explain it in a way that makes sense. I can’t thank you enough for making this video and brining awareness! So much love to you 💕
Thank you! I'm a therapist and have been working with a young woman w/ bpd who has been wanting to find more bpd psychoeducation.. I think she will find this video helpful and relatable!
I was just diagnosed with BPD and you are seriously my inspiration. My bad habits are reckless spending and binge eating, and seeing how successful you are makes me so hopeful that this disorder won’t take over my life anymore but I can manage it. Thank you. I wish we could be best friends
I HAVE SAID THIS A MILLION TIMES AND I WILL KEEP SAYING IT, EVERYONE DESERVES A PARTNER LIKE GREG OMG *UGLY CRY* MARI YOU ARE AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING. LOVE YOU.
Thank you. Your truly inspiring. I’ve got BPD and PTSD woke up today feeling so low. Memories can be haunting. I feel not so alone watching your video and reading all the comments.
Oh my gosh! This was by the best video I have watched from a RUclipsr discussing mental health. As someone learning to navigate life with BPD I want to thank you so much for sharing your story. You are so inspiring to watch because of how strong you look and for your incredible physical transformation. I honestly cried throughout your video because I could not believe someone who looks likes you could have something in common with someone like me who feels as broken as I do by BPD. You are proof that this horrid illness does not have to steal a person's joy. We can conquer this. Mari, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
I found you on Instagram several months ago and found you and your posts so captivating and educational...I really appreciated how you delivered your information. I just found out that you had a RUclips channel, from your post about this video. WOW- you are an incredible young woman. Despite our age difference (I am 55) I could relate SOO much to your incredibly courageous story. I have suffered with mental health issues my entire life, but unfortunately, given the timeframe I was born in - these topics were never discussed, so I didn't know for a majority of my life that my struggles were about mental health... and was left feeling broken and bad. What a gift you have put out into the world, that will help so many.
I’ve gotten more comfortable talking about my mental health over the last two years and have made some great friends who also have bpd. Its really nice having people who understand where I’m at and me where they’re at/dealing with
I had a really tough day today with my mental health and your video really helped me feel more hopeful so thank you for sharing! I've been doing the Slay app for 18 weeks now and I've never felt more confident and good about myself so just thank you again for all the hard work and sacrifices you've made because they've really made a difference! 💕
I'm watching this video for my daughter. She said she couldnt completely explain this condition she has, but she said this video gives a great description. Thank you for this. Good luck
Ok I feel like you’re my hero at this point. I only started recently following u on IG and yes I definitely thought ur life looked perfect in every way. I headed straight to ur youtube channel when I saw ur IG post about ur mental health story being uploaded- I’m like “what? Her?!” Your story has literally lifted me out of the pit that I’ve been in since the pandemic started - I have BPD as well as c-ptsd, a.d.d, depression, anxiety. But the BPD really makes life hard to live. To see how dedicated u were and are at overcoming this and especially how ACCEPTING u are of your mental health has lit a fire in me to not only keep going but to take my health to the next level. People on social media need to be more transparent and ur doing exactly that. Thank u so much. I’ll be purchasing from your line tomorrow especially because of this video, I’m so happy to support you and your causes - cheers my dear and thank you so much for opening up 💕
Hey there, I was diagnosed by a doctor, he was very familiar with mental health issues though - I would first take an online assessment to get an idea for yourself, and then maybe tell your doc and ask for a referral to a psychiatrist - they would know better. Especially since u have C-Ptsd, it’s highly possible you could have BPD as well. It’s a tough journey but there’s nothing better than knowing what’s going on - then u can start addressing it ♥️ Much love and support to you my dear ♥️🙏
I don’t usually comment on videos... but thank you so much for sharing. This is such a personal and vulnerable battle. Having the courage to share this is such a gift to so many struggling with the same disorder. Helping many to feel not alone. Thank you for that.
first, I shed a tear simply reading this title. Anytime I have ever searched anything related to fitness, your first Instagram post comes up, or some photo of you within the first 10 items, on any platform. I did not know you have a youtube channel and feel thankful to have stumbled upon it. I too have Borderline Personality Disorder and I find that I feel very alone in this space because no one gets it. In your other video, you briefly mentioned what you go through but did not disclose your diagnosis. I knew it was borderline just from how you described it. I am going to binge-watch every one of your videos and look to you for inspiration as I have been in a very dark place the last few years and have been trying too hard to get out of it. Thank you. thank you. thank you.
Thank you for sharing your mental health story. Your so brave and amazing for sharing. I’m still battling major depression and anxiety. Typically talk to my therapist 2 times a week. It helps so much and gone through DBT group therapy twice over the past year. Never even heard of it until last summer. But has changed my life for better! Living with my parents at 36 years old but doing so much better. Have so many learned coping skills that I’m still working with and trying to figure out what best works. Love your inspiration and do want to get in better physical shape since the bad part or side effect of some meds was weight gain. Anyway sorry for long message just wanted to say thank you 🙏
Thank you so much for sharing this🙏. I have the same struggles. I'm now almost graduated with a bachelor's in nursing, at 31 years old after doing a lot of work focused on my mental health after not being able to obtain an associates degree because I was so unstable. I agree,💗 eating healthy and working out greatly improves mental health and it is my #1 motivator to make those choices for myself now. When you're not doing well, you tend to not be doing well all around-eating crappy processed foods, not moving your body, not having friends around, not managing a work schedule or for me-I was in bed and staying home for 6 months at my worst and could not get myself outside, let alone to work. I also stopped my medication cold turkey and it brought me to rock bottom where I struggled to reach out for help and it took me a lot of different experiences through that time to get there. 💛My boyfriend has also been with me when I started going through my worst times. We've been together for 7 years and his support and love and care has meant everything to me. It's true you push people away when you are not well and I've been so blessed to have my boyfriend as my rock. I really appreciate you sharing some details about your personal struggles when you are having a 'freak out'. It's unbelievably emotionally painful and it feels like you have to let it let it out with something physical. I am currently struggling with whether or not to cover up my scars with a tattoo, which I wouldn't otherwise be getting if not for the scars, so it has me emotionally torn right now. I see that you don't have tattoos and I wonder how you experience that when your scars are seen by others and also how they affect you when you see them. 💓🧘♀️ I also agree I'm grateful for who I am and my struggles because it has made me a compassionate, strong, and empathetic nurse as well as loving and kind human because I am aware of how much people struggle behind a smile and I want to ensure that I create a more loving and accepting and encouraging presence. I relate greatly to your story and I appreciate your bravery in sharing. 💟
It’s great that you’re putting this on public record so people can know to avoid dating you. People with BPD should come with a warning label, dating them is absolutely traumatic and causes so much harm.
I want to thank you from a bottom from my heart. One of my best friends who also had BPD and ADHD, as I have, and she ended her life. I happen to be a struggling right now, after multiple peacefull years, this has been little more than a year now. And I really want that peace back. I will order that book you showed, thankfully it's available here in Finland. But anyhow, my point was, thank you so so much for making this video, this helped me a lot to hear about someone's else how they experience BPD. Thank you so much.
Mari, I know this was from a year ago and things may be different from day to day, but I want to say how grateful I am that you are open and honest about your mental health journey. You may just be what someone else needs. For me it is a good reminder that there are plenty other people that have BPD and successfully reach their goals in life. I also want to recognize the wonderful partner you have who helps you daily and sees you for the valuable person you are. So many times all it takes is one person who believes in us, supports us, and encourages us in a meaningful way. We are valuable and we are worthy of love, but it takes the right person to help us see that in ourselves.
Mari, thank you so so much for this video. Just got diagnosed with bipolar 2 at the age of 30. I felt so lost for so long, didn’t understand a lot of my behavior. Feel like I can’t have healthy relationships. You are so inspiring with everything you do. I’ve been following since you lived in Colorado and your growth is just amazing. You are the reason I started my fitness journey. And I love how you openly talk about mental health. Thank you so much for this video and being your authentic self.
My youtube must be worried about my mental health because ive been getting bpd notifs all week (i have bpd and add). Thank you for sharing your story 💖 bpd is hard but you’re amazing and im so proud of your honesty! Mental illness doesn’t mean we can’t be successful 💖
Mari thanks for this video it was courageous and very honest of you. As someone with BPD I think it’s important to highlight facts as well as personal experiences, as not every case is the same. For example the BPD spectrum scale, BPD recovery, cases of recovery over a period of time. I also think that words have power so if one affirms that, ‘I won’t ever heal from BPD’, then guess what my body will respond to this. It’s funny because people are still separating mental illness from physical illnesses, and expect a different result. When just like a physical illness with early intervention, ongoing support, self-care etc, one can recover just like a physical illness. Again it depends on your type of mental illness, and early preventive measures. On a positive note, THANK YOU for highlighting that you can live with a mental illness and still thrive 🙏🏽.
I have goosebumps. You are a huge inspiration! Thank you so much for sharing. I have so much respect for you - I can only imagine how hard this was. Thank you, Mari ❤️❤️
Wow this video has truly helped me realize I might have BPD and need to see a doctor about it. I never knew what BPD was so thank you for opening up and helping me, among others. You are amazing!
Mari, this was so impactful ... thank you for sharing and telling the world there is no reason that having a mental illness means you can't be happy and successful
They think that I have BPD. I just feel so many emotions during the day. It feels like I will never get ‘normal’ again. I’m so in my head everyday. I hurt myself and I think a lot about not being here anymore. I don’t know where it stops. It’s so painful. Life is so hard.
It's comforting to know that there's hope 🖤 Thank you for sharing your story! It's inspired me to get back to being a gym rat. For me, I wanted to rip my heart out and beg God to take away my pain. I understand the ripping of the soul feeling.. I get so angry and discouraged that I have to live with this. It runs in my family along with generational trauma. My dad would tell me to sleep and eat right. It's like he knew something that I didn't.
Thank you for sharing this, as I know it can be a really tough subject! I live with bipolar disorder and it is never easy, but having people like you help ending the stigma of talking about mental health is very helpful, we appreciate you💛
I just want to say thank you…so much. I’m struggling with depression and sometimes it seems impossible to get my self out there. But when I listen stories like yours,I think “if she did it, I can do too!” And also, you said you still remind yourself why you need to do this workout, so we can see, when our goals will be reached, it doesn’t mean like everything will be like clock work. Thank you so much! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Wonderful Mari! Let me tell you that you're a hell of a strong person! Thank you tremendously for sharing your experience of living with BPD, I have Bipolar but know someone with BDP and videos like yours help me understand them better! From the heart
Mari, thank you for sharing this incredibly personal and difficult story with the world. These conversations are so so important and seeing someone at your level of success and influence come out and not gloss over the facts is just incredible. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to be so vulnerable with strangers and fans on the internet. What’s even more impressive is realizing that you are not only putting yourself out there but also volunteering to take feedback from anyone watching this (and leaving the comments open) which could affect your own mental health shows what a phenomenally caring person you are and how dedicated you are to helping your followers to improve their own lives. I’ve been a supporter for years and will continue to be one and I hope others feel the same! You are truly an inspiration!
Hey Mari! I just wanted to thank you for talking so openly about your mental health journey. I was recently diagnosed with BPD and it is a relief to know there’s plenty of others who know what I’ve been feeling all this time. It’s very inspiring and encouraging to me to see how you deal with this and it really shows me that I can make healthy and happy progress ❤️
I've never even heard of BPD until you talked about it in one of your videos a while ago. Your description intrigues me. I was diagnosed with depression at the age of 18. I'm 26 now and I still feel very... not normal. I'm overly sensitive, like a LOT. Nobody around me understands why I feel so hurt all the time. For example I cannot handle any hint of conflict with a partner. I started having panic attacks after aguments in my recent relationship, which has never happened before. I have suicidal thoughts and self harm thoughts whenever I'm alone, which is almost every day. I had ED in my teens. I cut all my friends off, every single one of them because I felt hurt. Also drank a lot of alcohol throughout highschool, came home at 3 am and went to school at 7 am. Needless to say my grades suffered greatly. I would definitely say I'm an addictive person because the image of escaping pain is very appealing. Unfortunately, the state of psychiatry help is quite low in my country. I wasn't even diagnosed with an ED because I wasn't underweight. I imagine therapists can be helpful but they are very expensive. Thank you for spreading awareness, Mari. Appreciate it a lot.
I just found this was diagnosed with bpd last year literally the weight gain not leaving the house not keeping a job being parnoid avoiding painful things etc all me right now fitness is also what I'm starting with thank you so much ♡
Thank you for sharing, I definitely shed some tears...we all have struggles but I can now understand a bit better when someone tells me about their bpd.
Ugh. I feel like this is my story, but im not to the happy ending just yet.. Thank you for sharing.. this is so important and im thankful to see someone thrive after going through so much pain.
I just want to thank you for sharing this video! I’ve suffered from anxiety/depression since I was 16 and constantly going back and forth with different antidepressants. I have been researching diet/exercise and came across your page and you are an inspiration and a voice to those that struggle with mental health. Thank you again for sharing your story.
I think it's different when you have no support system. My family disowned me and pushed away all my friends. Happy for you though! For doing what will help you feel better and live a life worth living. Be proud of yourself!❤️
Thank you for doing this. I have waited to hear this story, for a while. I have BPD and it is tremendously painful. I originally didn’t follow you for the fitness aspect but your transparency with BPD. I’m so happy you have found the balance “we” all seek.
You’re a superstar Mari! Such a strong, courageous woman. As hard as it must have been to express your journey, I think it’s so wonderful to be able to reflect on how far you’ve come and what you’ve achieved to manage your BPD. As if your fitness journey and businesses weren’t enough to be proud of?! Girl! Hats off to you! And can we appreciate Greg too, sticking by you truly through thick and thin, any other young guy would’ve run a mile rather than help you work out what you needed. Maybe you can share some of your evening mindful techniques that you use to stay on top off your mental health? Lord knows we all need a little encouragement from these last 13 months 💕
I have BPD. I had no idea you suffered from BPD too and I’ve watched so many of your videos! I’m 28 and I am struggling so much with it at the moment, my relationships are failing, I cry everyday, I’m alone all the time and keep having dark thoughts. But your video has helped me feel less alone. Thank you so much. I also have that DBT book and I have a BPD work book too, they really do help. ❤❤
I’ve been following you for a little while but had no idea about your mental health journey. This is such a vulnerable video and we’re lucky you shared your experience with us. Amazing to see you work so hard to continue living such a fulfilled life ✨
You have no idea how much your videos calm my chaos. I believe I struggle with alot mentally. I've never been in a position for someone to care enough to get me the help I feel I need. No one ever knows about the mental struggle I face every day. Just fake the smile because I feel people are depending on me. But you sure help me alot. Thank you for sharing. It means the world.
Thank you for sharing♥️ About 6 years ago I lost my grandma and it was the first time I felt anxious and depressed. I was in and out of the hospital and didn’t leave my house for a month. I truly felt like my world was ending and that things were not going to get better. BUT they did after taking medication and going to the gym!!! I still have off days a few times a month but its okay!! Thank you so much for sharing your journey, it makes me feel less alone♥️
Mari! Wow. Idk what to say that hasn't already been said. You described what it feels like to have bpd perfectly. You should be incredibly proud of the strength and bravery it took to make this video. You are giving me (and so many others) HOPE. Hope that we can still achieve our dreams and have control over our lives. You are the most inspirational person I "know." Your honesty is fueling the the recovery of so many people. Thank you 💚
You are such an inspiration. I am struggling with anxiety and because of my anxiety I tend to eat comfort food and crave sugar a lot. I feel like I am at my worst with my weight and acne breakouts and still find it so difficult to stay motivated to eat healthy and workout. I wish I had your mental strength and motivation.
Hi Mari I am so so grateful that you shared your experience. I resonate with so many of the things you described. Junior year in college was my rock bottom as well, on new medication that made me so numb I describe it as my “lost year”. The hyper sensitivity you described is something I feel too, the pain and anger we feel as a response to being hurt just consumes me and it feels like I have to do anything I can, either lashing out at others or hurting myself to process it. I have struggled so much with the person untreated BPD turned me into and I also see her as a separate version of myself. I just really appreciate you being open about this and you truly make me feel less alone in this illness. I am doing your 6 week slay challenge right now and already feeling the joy and hope fitness is bringing back to my life. Thank you again Mari I love you!
Mari, YOU ARE LIFE! 🙇🏼♀️ What an amazing journey. I am so damn proud of you. The amount of similarities we have in our lives kind of freaks me out haha Thank you for opening up and sharing your experiences. 🙌🏻❤️❤️ Heading to your site now 🥰🌻✌🏻
Thank you so much for posting this video. I was told by my trusted therapist I might have BPD and the interned scared me away. I ended up being misdiagnosed with chronic depression and felt so alone for years. Your video described exactly what I feel and I will now take steps to seek proper help and proper diagnosis. Thank you.
Brave, beautiful. It seems like you're well now and I hope you are. Bpd is no joke. Mental health awareness 100%. Thank you for sharing and doing what you do.
As a mother having to witness your child suffer, for years and years, not knowing how he is doing now, as he has cut all contact I can only hope and wish that he is on a journey similar to yours. I have full confidence in his strength and ability to turn things for himself because I know what he has been through, so if this is the way he needs to do things, so be it. I am in awe of your effort, determination, but most of all your strength. My respect for those who turn their own struggles into something that will support others is endless. Thanks for posting this video, Mari.
I wish you could give intimate details. I also wish your dad and boyfriend could come on and give their perspective, The good, bad and the ugly. The details are where it matters on how to help people with BPD or how to take care of your own self if you have BPD or take care of your own self if you are going through a rough time with somebody who has BPD. The details are where we connect and relate. Thank you for sharing your story though. I do have a lot of sympathy for anybody diagnosed with BPD. I also have a lot of hesitation and distrust as the four people I know will not commit or admit or accept their diagnoses.
I started following you & watching your videos at an extremely low point in my life, after going through a bad breakup and struggling with generalized anxiety. I felt out of control in my life, and continued to push my health aside. I’m still working on reaching my fitness goals, but my mental health has been thriving. I honestly look forward to seeing your content on IG and youtube. You have continually motivated me to work on myself - from a mental health standpoint in addition to my fitness and nutrition. Thank you for sharing your story, and for being authentic. You have helped so many people ❤️
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! I have BPD and am in a very similar situation to you when you were at college but you have filled me with so much hope I am starting to believe that one day I will be able to manage my symptoms as well as you have and get physically healthy. You are a blessing! Thank you again!! x
Thank you so much for sharing❤️ The fact that you said you feel like “prior you” was a different person reallllly shows how hard it must be for you to talk to us about this. So thank you, thank you, thank you. You’re helping so many people ❤️❤️❤️
Wow I had no idea you’re suffering from BPD as well. Thank you for talking about it, also just saying we are not evil. I had the same experience as you when looking up BPD, making me feel like a demon or just a really awful person, so it’s just nice to hear someone address that! You are an inspiration. I want to be successful in life too. I need to look into the whole eating aspect of things cause I’m sure my current eating habits aren’t helping my BDP but I have just been super consumed with education but I will finish in a few months and then I will try to get more into fitness and eating healthy. Thank you again!❤️
You shared really well. Thank you for being vulnerable and honest. This is so encouraging to me and I just want to say that I do not see you any differently. You’re amazing and should be incredibly proud at all the work and effort you have done to reaching health. I’m praying for you as you continue to work hard, daily!
I am a DBT therapist and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this video! You are normalizing and destigmatizing this diagnosis and discussions of mental health. Beaitiful work!
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@Erin Peterson how can I get help from you or someone else in your profession? I also struggle with bpd
Is this disorder a mental illness or its just a personality disorder?
@@altafmalik2843 personality disorders are mental illness
@@altafmalik2843 bpd is brain damage. If you look up 'bpd brain abnormalities mri scans ' you will see from various good studies that many parts of the brain have been affected, usually in childhood. Most drs still believe that it's psychological and family, friends and society have been duped into believing the bpd person isn't trying hard enough or its their fault if any treatment doesn't work. Mental and sexual abuse as a child is devastating. Most diagnoses are done over the age of 16, (mostly 18). The diagnosis process radically needs to change. Maybe mri scans of the brain at 10 years old could identify problems and help to diminish lifelong severe problems. Very complicated but 99% don't get any treatment. 10% of bpd folk alive now will kill themselves.
Another bpd girl here. "my upset was different to theirs, like I felt like my world was ending" is the sentence that sums it up for me. It has been like that for me. For years. I keep hearing "it's not the end of the world!" or "that's just a minor inconvenience!", when for me everything feels **amplified**. You got me crying throughout the video. I see myself in many of the stories you're telling in this video. Thank you for sharing :)
I was diagnosed with BPD 20 years ago. I have had many ups and downs, but I wouldn’t change a thing about my life. I am a rocket engineer with a wonderful husband and 2 healthy bright little kids. Thank you for sharing your story. 🙏🏻
Heck yeah!!!
Amazing!!!!!
Can i ask how you manage your mental health? Medicine, therapy?
I was diagnosed 6months ago and i got meds that were working for me but i had very bad setback and now i feel just devastated. I had huge stress for couple months and my meds stopped working. Now i taking break off everything and trying to figure out what to do now.
Maaaaaaaaaaan!!!!!!! You are amazing! ❤
As someone who suffers from bpd, I can imagine how freaking hard it must have been to speak about your experience on such an intimate level as those with bpd would prefer to suffer in the shadows. But the message is clear: it is possible for anyone suffering from mental illness to have a beautiful and full life. It is within reach so don't ever give up and make sure to use all the community resources possible in the fight. 💙
I haven’t worked out in months because of my depression but after watching this you’ve really motivated me to wake up tomorrow and just get back into it, for myself and my mental health 💗
You can do it 👏🏻
Hope you are better now ❤️
Hey, I was diagnosed with BPD about a year ago. I had lived like 30 years knowing something wasn’t right and lived in emotional agony. I had ruined my credit, self sabotaged jobs and many relationships. Engaged in some very risky sex, and delved into substance abuse.
However after seeking help I have found a good medication cocktail paired with therapy. I’m no where near 100% but I’m doing so much better. I still have so much learning to learn and improve on. But I feel so much better. Of course I have my bad days but I have a wonderful support system of friends.
My mom told me this and it has really helped me: BPD is not your fault, but it’s your responsibility.
Thanks for sharing your story!
Your mom sounds like an insightful woman! I'm happy you have a good support system, that's so important.
I miss my mom....
I know this is an old video but I have been diagnosed with bpd since I was 18 years old and your life is SO similar to mine. I had no stability in my life as a child, I moved around so much and I 100% think that has a huge impact on the development of bpd. My life was also chaotic in every aspect of my life; family, friends, relationships, substances. My parents also were chaotic and that ended extremely bad. It’s crazy hearing someone speak about their life as a diagnosed borderline and it being so similar to mine. Makes me feel seen and heard. Thank you for being so honest you don’t realise how many people you are helping with your bravery ❤
Sorry you're going thru it. I would say your chaotic family life, rather than moving around is what maybe contributed to your diagnosis.
Mari, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for discussing your life and journey of living with BPD. I lost my best friend to suicide in 2019 who was diagnosed with BPD shortly before, and I never truly understood the severe effects it has on a person. Living with anxiety and depression myself, I will continue to teach and educate others about the importance of mental health and taking care of yourself!
I’m so sorry to hear girl. Thinking of you and sending so much love
Mari - thank you. Thank you. I am a music therapist working in a mental health hospital and I have struggled with my own trauma and mental illness since I was in middle school. It’s time we talk about this as a society and stop sweeping it under the rug. I’m so happy you are a part of my life and fitness journey 💕
This made me really emotional. Felt like I was having a deep conversation with a friend. Thank you for your vulnerability. It resonates more than you know. 🧡
I am 42, got sober 10 years ago after almost ending my life (but didn’t because my puppy walked in on me) and gripped on tight for the ride of sobriety. My mental health didn’t improve and actually got worse- however I was picking up coping skills in sobriety, it was just VERY hard to implement them. My only real coping mechanism was now gone (alcohol) and I was a MESS. Went on meds, they didn’t help. Today I am coming to terms with why- I check every single box for BPD and as I listen to you and other folks in her describe their life with BPD it feels like you’re talking about me.
I’m going to check out that workbook you mentioned here. I’d like to get into therapy but I’m in a masters program and it’s sucks up ALL of my time. A therapist would be nice but I mostly just wanna get my hands on the info and tools.
The past few days have been hard. Got triggered over the school shooting court cases going on here in America and I haven’t been able to snap out of the suicidal ideation. But I’ll hang on because as history has shown- it will pass.
Thanks for taking the time to share your story. I hope I can freely talk about it one day too.
Mari, thank you for always ALWAYS advocating for mental illnesses. You are such an inspiration!! 🤍🤍🤍
Thank you for the encouragement love - always will!!! 💖
"felt like wanting to rip your soul out" resonated a lot. I used to say it would hurt less if I would stab myself in the heart. I've only recently been diagnosed although all the signs were there. Thank you for this clip
Can I just say I freakin love you! My mom died after committing suicide in 2011 after we got in a fight. I struggle with my mental health and exercise had changed me and is MY a therapy, thank you for your honesty
hello im kinda in he same situation as you, do you have any advice or help with a bdp person who lost my DAD in 2011 on his way to pick me up it was a fatal head on accident
@@tessapfeifer2087 hey girlie I know u commented this awhile ago but I hope you're doing well, I've gone through similar and what helped me get through it is leaning on others, therapy, and reminding myself that it wasn't my fault. Take your time to grieve ❤
What a brave woman this woman is. I'm just blown away. This video can help so many people,. Borderline is so stigmatized and misunderstood and to see someone share their inspiring journey so honestly and helpfully is just a tremendous gift to those who suffer with BPD and there loved ones. I am also amazed at the devotion and kindness of her partner That what real partnership is about.
This explains BPD so clearly.. I will be sending this to my friends/family to make them aware of it. Thank you so much. Amazing.
My Mom has BPD , Bipolar and a recovering alcoholic she was sexually abused from the age 3 almost until she got pregnant with me at 16! It started with 3 of her 4 brothers, cousins, friends fathers... She was truly a wonderful mother the most difficult for me was when she got worse in my 20’s. I have so much mental illness in my family & I’m so grateful it’s more discussed & norm now ppl aren’t seen as “crazy” & locked away in institution where my Mom spent much of her life.Thank you for sharing.💖
Thanks, I’m going to see a psychiatrist soon because I was self harming and I was making dangerous choices for myself I love the highs of this disorder but they put me in unsafe situations where I trust in those I shouldn’t, and don’t expect anything to affect me. I’m on a journey now to protect myself at 38 I feel like it’s as good a time as any and my 3 boys will benefit from my focusing on my mental health for a while. You are making me want to work out more !!❤. Thanks I’m scared to give up my addiction which is relationships I need to be single a while and learn how to cope . Thank you.
Thank you for sharing your story and working towards dismantling the stigma around mental illness ❤️ I would love to hear from Greg’s perspective what it’s like supporting someone with bpd, if he’s willing to share. So grateful for you!
I thought the same thing! They’ve been together through it all, it would be cool to hear his perspective and tips for supporting someone with a mental illness.
Agree... the maturity and love Greg had to stick by Mari throughout her worst moments is commendable. Especially whilst still being a teenager. I’m so inspired by their daily reality now compared to the harsh times Mari discussed. Amazing.
Thank you SO much for this video. I’m 46 & was diagnosed with BPD 5 years ago. I’ve always struggled, people don’t understand how painful it is. This was perfect timing ❤️❤️❤️❤️
… my therapist just recommended this video to me & i procrastinated sooo much to finally watch it because i was fearful of what she would say about my #1 disorder & possibly hurt my feelings or make me upset… BUT 5 minutes in & i already feel so understood & SEEN… & to whoever comes across to read this WITH BPD, you’re not alone
Mari- as an RN working in NYC during this COVID19 global pandemic I have seen such a dramatic increase in mental health conditions. Thank you for having the courage to use your platform to shine light on the importance of mental health and encouraging people to seek help when needed! Thank you for opening up and inspiring others to do the same.
Your brave journey is SUCH a testament to the power of love, belief in self-worth, getting off of the toxic influence of sugar and alcohol, eating pure foods and returning your body to the healthy and active way we evolved to be thousands of years ago. I have begun to think of the food industry as criminals in their pursuit of wealth over compassion and correct advertising. Think about it. There's no money to be made in advertising broccoli or apples because there's no middle man to make the profits all the way from harvest through processing through packaging and being out onto supermarket shelves!!! Mari, you and Greg are helping thousands discover, or rediscover, their true inner beings. Kudos to him for seeing and loving the beautiful girl shining in the darkness and helping you through this journey. Now you are paying all that love and support forward. Thank you!
This video was so incredibly articulated. I’ve never seen something so raw & real on this platform. When you started to tear up, so did I! It’s incredible how you talked about wanting to be a strong person without even realizing just how strong you have always been especially for pulling yourself out of your mental illness & facing it head-on. I’ve struggled with anxiety & my weight for years but you personally helped me lose over 55lbs over a year ago & I’ve become obsessed with fitness ever since & you don’t even know me. You changed my life so I can only imagine the number of people you’ve inspired & impacted just with your openness about your illness alone. The world needs more people like you.. & Greg❤️ I’m so happy you’re here. Thank you for sharing your story & helping others feel more open about sharing theirs 🙌🏻
I’m sitting here crying right now because I always thought there was no way I could change. Thanks so much for this video!
On my husband's account but thank you. Just figuring this out about myself after living with these symptoms for 35 years😢
I am from TAIWAN,married to Australia,I have one son but I have been diagnosed BPD after I committed suicid 2 years ago, still feel like outsider still struggling a lots with my husband and job and my poor English and this society ect struggling with dark thoughts 、low self esteem and feel no one can help me or truly understand me …
thank you for sharing your story
it’s shows me
it is could have successful life
it’s could get better
but I just feel no one help me still …
and urged with my partner a lot
he just don’t understand…😢
it’s super super lonely and hopeless
Thank you! So many other content creators make BPD out to be super stigmatized. This was very much appreciated.
Fitness has done wonders for my BPD, it’s basically my new medication. Your experiences and videos are so inspiring ❤️
This was so inspiring to me. My daughter has BPD and I want to play this for her. Thank you for your honesty.
I suffer with BPD and I have never been able to explain it in a way that makes sense. I can’t thank you enough for making this video and brining awareness! So much love to you 💕
Thank you! I'm a therapist and have been working with a young woman w/ bpd who has been wanting to find more bpd psychoeducation.. I think she will find this video helpful and relatable!
I was just diagnosed with BPD and you are seriously my inspiration. My bad habits are reckless spending and binge eating, and seeing how successful you are makes me so hopeful that this disorder won’t take over my life anymore but I can manage it. Thank you. I wish we could be best friends
I HAVE SAID THIS A MILLION TIMES AND I WILL KEEP SAYING IT, EVERYONE DESERVES A PARTNER LIKE GREG OMG *UGLY CRY* MARI YOU ARE AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING. LOVE YOU.
Thank you. Your truly inspiring. I’ve got BPD and PTSD woke up today feeling so low. Memories can be haunting. I feel not so alone watching your video and reading all the comments.
you’re the best and it’s so inspiring to see where you are today ❤️ love you sista
Much love for you sis
This is the most beautiful and encouraging story I have heard about bpd. Thank you so much for sharing it, it gives so much hope ❤️
Oh my gosh! This was by the best video I have watched from a RUclipsr discussing mental health. As someone learning to navigate life with BPD I want to thank you so much for sharing your story. You are so inspiring to watch because of how strong you look and for your incredible physical transformation. I honestly cried throughout your video because I could not believe someone who looks likes you could have something in common with someone like me who feels as broken as I do by BPD. You are proof that this horrid illness does not have to steal a person's joy. We can conquer this. Mari, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
I found you on Instagram several months ago and found you and your posts so captivating and educational...I really appreciated how you delivered your information. I just found out that you had a RUclips channel, from your post about this video. WOW- you are an incredible young woman. Despite our age difference (I am 55) I could relate SOO much to your incredibly courageous story. I have suffered with mental health issues my entire life, but unfortunately, given the timeframe I was born in - these topics were never discussed, so I didn't know for a majority of my life that my struggles were about mental health... and was left feeling broken and bad. What a gift you have put out into the world, that will help so many.
Needing to self harm to feel real is such a struggle for me. I self harm in atypical ways, but thank you for verbalizing this feeling
From one girl with BPD to another, thank you thank you thank you 💕
I’ve gotten more comfortable talking about my mental health over the last two years and have made some great friends who also have bpd. Its really nice having people who understand where I’m at and me where they’re at/dealing with
I had a really tough day today with my mental health and your video really helped me feel more hopeful so thank you for sharing! I've been doing the Slay app for 18 weeks now and I've never felt more confident and good about myself so just thank you again for all the hard work and sacrifices you've made because they've really made a difference! 💕
This is so amazing to hear thank you for sharing love 🙏🏻
I'm watching this video for my daughter. She said she couldnt completely explain this condition she has, but she said this video gives a great description. Thank you for this. Good luck
Ok I feel like you’re my hero at this point. I only started recently following u on IG and yes I definitely thought ur life looked perfect in every way. I headed straight to ur youtube channel when I saw ur IG post about ur mental health story being uploaded- I’m like “what? Her?!”
Your story has literally lifted me out of the pit that I’ve been in since the pandemic started - I have BPD as well as c-ptsd, a.d.d, depression, anxiety. But the BPD really makes life hard to live. To see how dedicated u were and are at overcoming this and especially how ACCEPTING u are of your mental health has lit a fire in me to not only keep going but to take my health to the next level. People on social media need to be more transparent and ur doing exactly that. Thank u so much. I’ll be purchasing from your line tomorrow especially because of this video, I’m so happy to support you and your causes - cheers my dear and thank you so much for opening up 💕
Where you diagnosed by a professional or self? I am asking because I have cptsd too and have always worried about bpd.
Hey there, I was diagnosed by a doctor, he was very familiar with mental health issues though - I would first take an online assessment to get an idea for yourself, and then maybe tell your doc and ask for a referral to a psychiatrist - they would know better. Especially since u have C-Ptsd, it’s highly possible you could have BPD as well. It’s a tough journey but there’s nothing better than knowing what’s going on - then u can start addressing it ♥️ Much love and support to you my dear ♥️🙏
I don’t usually comment on videos... but thank you so much for sharing. This is such a personal and vulnerable battle. Having the courage to share this is such a gift to so many struggling with the same disorder. Helping many to feel not alone. Thank you for that.
first, I shed a tear simply reading this title. Anytime I have ever searched anything related to fitness, your first Instagram post comes up, or some photo of you within the first 10 items, on any platform. I did not know you have a youtube channel and feel thankful to have stumbled upon it. I too have Borderline Personality Disorder and I find that I feel very alone in this space because no one gets it. In your other video, you briefly mentioned what you go through but did not disclose your diagnosis. I knew it was borderline just from how you described it. I am going to binge-watch every one of your videos and look to you for inspiration as I have been in a very dark place the last few years and have been trying too hard to get out of it. Thank you. thank you. thank you.
Thank you for sharing your mental health story. Your so brave and amazing for sharing. I’m still battling major depression and anxiety. Typically talk to my therapist 2 times a week. It helps so much and gone through DBT group therapy twice over the past year. Never even heard of it until last summer. But has changed my life for better! Living with my parents at 36 years old but doing so much better. Have so many learned coping skills that I’m still working with and trying to figure out what best works. Love your inspiration and do want to get in better physical shape since the bad part or side effect of some meds was weight gain. Anyway sorry for long message just wanted to say thank you 🙏
Thank you so much for sharing this🙏. I have the same struggles. I'm now almost graduated with a bachelor's in nursing, at 31 years old after doing a lot of work focused on my mental health after not being able to obtain an associates degree because I was so unstable.
I agree,💗 eating healthy and working out greatly improves mental health and it is my #1 motivator to make those choices for myself now. When you're not doing well, you tend to not be doing well all around-eating crappy processed foods, not moving your body, not having friends around, not managing a work schedule or for me-I was in bed and staying home for 6 months at my worst and could not get myself outside, let alone to work.
I also stopped my medication cold turkey and it brought me to rock bottom where I struggled to reach out for help and it took me a lot of different experiences through that time to get there.
💛My boyfriend has also been with me when I started going through my worst times. We've been together for 7 years and his support and love and care has meant everything to me. It's true you push people away when you are not well and I've been so blessed to have my boyfriend as my rock. I really appreciate you sharing some details about your personal struggles when you are having a 'freak out'. It's unbelievably emotionally painful and it feels like you have to let it let it out with something physical. I am currently struggling with whether or not to cover up my scars with a tattoo, which I wouldn't otherwise be getting if not for the scars, so it has me emotionally torn right now. I see that you don't have tattoos and I wonder how you experience that when your scars are seen by others and also how they affect you when you see them. 💓🧘♀️
I also agree I'm grateful for who I am and my struggles because it has made me a compassionate, strong, and empathetic nurse as well as loving and kind human because I am aware of how much people struggle behind a smile and I want to ensure that I create a more loving and accepting and encouraging presence.
I relate greatly to your story and I appreciate your bravery in sharing. 💟
It’s great that you’re putting this on public record so people can know to avoid dating you. People with BPD should come with a warning label, dating them is absolutely traumatic and causes so much harm.
I want to thank you from a bottom from my heart. One of my best friends who also had BPD and ADHD, as I have, and she ended her life. I happen to be a struggling right now, after multiple peacefull years, this has been little more than a year now. And I really want that peace back. I will order that book you showed, thankfully it's available here in Finland. But anyhow, my point was, thank you so so much for making this video, this helped me a lot to hear about someone's else how they experience BPD. Thank you so much.
Mari, I know this was from a year ago and things may be different from day to day, but I want to say how grateful I am that you are open and honest about your mental health journey. You may just be what someone else needs. For me it is a good reminder that there are plenty other people that have BPD and successfully reach their goals in life. I also want to recognize the wonderful partner you have who helps you daily and sees you for the valuable person you are. So many times all it takes is one person who believes in us, supports us, and encourages us in a meaningful way. We are valuable and we are worthy of love, but it takes the right person to help us see that in ourselves.
Mari, thank you so so much for this video. Just got diagnosed with bipolar 2 at the age of 30. I felt so lost for so long, didn’t understand a lot of my behavior. Feel like I can’t have healthy relationships. You are so inspiring with everything you do. I’ve been following since you lived in Colorado and your growth is just amazing. You are the reason I started my fitness journey. And I love how you openly talk about mental health. Thank you so much for this video and being your authentic self.
My youtube must be worried about my mental health because ive been getting bpd notifs all week (i have bpd and add). Thank you for sharing your story 💖 bpd is hard but you’re amazing and im so proud of your honesty! Mental illness doesn’t mean we can’t be successful 💖
Facts girl!!!
This video is so honest it’s inspiring. I have been horrified by a diagnosis of BPD that I haven’t ever shared it with anyone. Thank you for this 🙏
Mari thanks for this video it was courageous and very honest of you.
As someone with BPD I think it’s important to highlight facts as well as personal experiences, as not every case is the same. For example the BPD spectrum scale, BPD recovery, cases of recovery over a period of time.
I also think that words have power so if one affirms that, ‘I won’t ever heal from BPD’, then guess what my body will respond to this.
It’s funny because people are still separating mental illness from physical illnesses, and expect a different result. When just like a physical illness with early intervention, ongoing support, self-care etc, one can recover just like a physical illness. Again it depends on your type of mental illness, and early preventive measures.
On a positive note, THANK YOU for highlighting that you can live with a mental illness and still thrive 🙏🏽.
I have goosebumps. You are a huge inspiration! Thank you so much for sharing. I have so much respect for you - I can only imagine how hard this was. Thank you, Mari ❤️❤️
Wow this video has truly helped me realize I might have BPD and need to see a doctor about it. I never knew what BPD was so thank you for opening up and helping me, among others. You are amazing!
Mari, this was so impactful ... thank you for sharing and telling the world there is no reason that having a mental illness means you can't be happy and successful
They think that I have BPD. I just feel so many emotions during the day. It feels like I will never get ‘normal’ again. I’m so in my head everyday. I hurt myself and I think a lot about not being here anymore. I don’t know where it stops. It’s so painful. Life is so hard.
It's comforting to know that there's hope 🖤
Thank you for sharing your story! It's inspired me to get back to being a gym rat.
For me, I wanted to rip my heart out and beg God to take away my pain. I understand the ripping of the soul feeling..
I get so angry and discouraged that I have to live with this. It runs in my family along with generational trauma.
My dad would tell me to sleep and eat right. It's like he knew something that I didn't.
you re so inspiring!!!!!! thank you, I am a psychologist, and I am studying DBT, and its such a good feeling to see how it works for you.
Thank you for sharing this, as I know it can be a really tough subject! I live with bipolar disorder and it is never easy, but having people like you help ending the stigma of talking about mental health is very helpful, we appreciate you💛
I just want to say thank you…so much. I’m struggling with depression and sometimes it seems impossible to get my self out there. But when I listen stories like yours,I think “if she did it, I can do too!” And also, you said you still remind yourself why you need to do this workout, so we can see, when our goals will be reached, it doesn’t mean like everything will be like clock work.
Thank you so much! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Wonderful Mari! Let me tell you that you're a hell of a strong person! Thank you tremendously for sharing your experience of living with BPD, I have Bipolar but know someone with BDP and videos like yours help me understand them better! From the heart
Mari, thank you for sharing this incredibly personal and difficult story with the world. These conversations are so so important and seeing someone at your level of success and influence come out and not gloss over the facts is just incredible. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to be so vulnerable with strangers and fans on the internet.
What’s even more impressive is realizing that you are not only putting yourself out there but also volunteering to take feedback from anyone watching this (and leaving the comments open) which could affect your own mental health shows what a phenomenally caring person you are and how dedicated you are to helping your followers to improve their own lives.
I’ve been a supporter for years and will continue to be one and I hope others feel the same!
You are truly an inspiration!
Hey Mari! I just wanted to thank you for talking so openly about your mental health journey. I was recently diagnosed with BPD and it is a relief to know there’s plenty of others who know what I’ve been feeling all this time. It’s very inspiring and encouraging to me to see how you deal with this and it really shows me that I can make healthy and happy progress ❤️
I've never even heard of BPD until you talked about it in one of your videos a while ago. Your description intrigues me. I was diagnosed with depression at the age of 18. I'm 26 now and I still feel very... not normal. I'm overly sensitive, like a LOT. Nobody around me understands why I feel so hurt all the time. For example I cannot handle any hint of conflict with a partner. I started having panic attacks after aguments in my recent relationship, which has never happened before. I have suicidal thoughts and self harm thoughts whenever I'm alone, which is almost every day. I had ED in my teens. I cut all my friends off, every single one of them because I felt hurt. Also drank a lot of alcohol throughout highschool, came home at 3 am and went to school at 7 am. Needless to say my grades suffered greatly. I would definitely say I'm an addictive person because the image of escaping pain is very appealing.
Unfortunately, the state of psychiatry help is quite low in my country. I wasn't even diagnosed with an ED because I wasn't underweight. I imagine therapists can be helpful but they are very expensive. Thank you for spreading awareness, Mari. Appreciate it a lot.
I just found this was diagnosed with bpd last year literally the weight gain not leaving the house not keeping a job being parnoid avoiding painful things etc all me right now fitness is also what I'm starting with thank you so much ♡
Thank you for sharing, I definitely shed some tears...we all have struggles but I can now understand a bit better when someone tells me about their bpd.
Ugh. I feel like this is my story, but im not to the happy ending just yet..
Thank you for sharing.. this is so important and im thankful to see someone thrive after going through so much pain.
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I just want to thank you for sharing this video! I’ve suffered from anxiety/depression since I was 16 and constantly going back and forth with different antidepressants. I have been researching diet/exercise and came across your page and you are an inspiration and a voice to those that struggle with mental health. Thank you again for sharing your story.
I know you don’t know me. But I am so PROUD of you for being brave and talking about your BPD. You did something beautiful 🤍🤍🤍 thank you for sharing.
I think it's different when you have no support system. My family disowned me and pushed away all my friends.
Happy for you though! For doing what will help you feel better and live a life worth living. Be proud of yourself!❤️
Thank you for doing this. I have waited to hear this story, for a while. I have BPD and it is tremendously painful. I originally didn’t follow you for the fitness aspect but your transparency with BPD. I’m so happy you have found the balance “we” all seek.
You’re a superstar Mari! Such a strong, courageous woman. As hard as it must have been to express your journey, I think it’s so wonderful to be able to reflect on how far you’ve come and what you’ve achieved to manage your BPD. As if your fitness journey and businesses weren’t enough to be proud of?! Girl! Hats off to you! And can we appreciate Greg too, sticking by you truly through thick and thin, any other young guy would’ve run a mile rather than help you work out what you needed.
Maybe you can share some of your evening mindful techniques that you use to stay on top off your mental health? Lord knows we all need a little encouragement from these last 13 months 💕
I have BPD. I had no idea you suffered from
BPD too and I’ve watched so many of your videos! I’m 28 and I am struggling so much with it at the moment, my relationships are failing, I cry everyday, I’m alone all the time and keep having dark thoughts. But your video has helped me feel less alone. Thank you so much. I also have that DBT book and I have a BPD work book too, they really do help. ❤❤
I’ve been following you for a little while but had no idea about your mental health journey. This is such a vulnerable video and we’re lucky you shared your experience with us. Amazing to see you work so hard to continue living such a fulfilled life ✨
You have no idea how much your videos calm my chaos. I believe I struggle with alot mentally. I've never been in a position for someone to care enough to get me the help I feel I need. No one ever knows about the mental struggle I face every day. Just fake the smile because I feel people are depending on me. But you sure help me alot. Thank you for sharing. It means the world.
Thanks for sharing your story Mari, you're really brave and a good soul...It helped a lot to hear your experiences
Thank you for sharing♥️ About 6 years ago I lost my grandma and it was the first time I felt anxious and depressed. I was in and out of the hospital and didn’t leave my house for a month. I truly felt like my world was ending and that things were not going to get better. BUT they did after taking medication and going to the gym!!! I still have off days a few times a month but its okay!! Thank you so much for sharing your journey, it makes me feel less alone♥️
Mari! Wow. Idk what to say that hasn't already been said. You described what it feels like to have bpd perfectly. You should be incredibly proud of the strength and bravery it took to make this video. You are giving me (and so many others) HOPE. Hope that we can still achieve our dreams and have control over our lives. You are the most inspirational person I "know." Your honesty is fueling the the recovery of so many people. Thank you 💚
You are such an inspiration. I am struggling with anxiety and because of my anxiety I tend to eat comfort food and crave sugar a lot. I feel like I am at my worst with my weight and acne breakouts and still find it so difficult to stay motivated to eat healthy and workout. I wish I had your mental strength and motivation.
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Hi Mari I am so so grateful that you shared your experience. I resonate with so many of the things you described. Junior year in college was my rock bottom as well, on new medication that made me so numb I describe it as my “lost year”. The hyper sensitivity you described is something I feel too, the pain and anger we feel as a response to being hurt just consumes me and it feels like I have to do anything I can, either lashing out at others or hurting myself to process it. I have struggled so much with the person untreated BPD turned me into and I also see her as a separate version of myself. I just really appreciate you being open about this and you truly make me feel less alone in this illness. I am doing your 6 week slay challenge right now and already feeling the joy and hope fitness is bringing back to my life. Thank you again Mari I love you!
Mari, YOU ARE LIFE! 🙇🏼♀️ What an amazing journey. I am so damn proud of you. The amount of similarities we have in our lives kind of freaks me out haha Thank you for opening up and sharing your experiences. 🙌🏻❤️❤️ Heading to your site now 🥰🌻✌🏻
Thank you so much for posting this video. I was told by my trusted therapist I might have BPD and the interned scared me away. I ended up being misdiagnosed with chronic depression and felt so alone for years. Your video described exactly what I feel and I will now take steps to seek proper help and proper diagnosis. Thank you.
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Brave, beautiful. It seems like you're well now and I hope you are. Bpd is no joke. Mental health awareness 100%. Thank you for sharing and doing what you do.
As a mother having to witness your child suffer, for years and years, not knowing how he is doing now, as he has cut all contact I can only hope and wish that he is on a journey similar to yours. I have full confidence in his strength and ability to turn things for himself because I know what he has been through, so if this is the way he needs to do things, so be it. I am in awe of your effort, determination, but most of all your strength. My respect for those who turn their own struggles into something that will support others is endless. Thanks for posting this video, Mari.
I wish you could give intimate details. I also wish your dad and boyfriend could come on and give their perspective, The good, bad and the ugly. The details are where it matters on how to help people with BPD or how to take care of your own self if you have BPD or take care of your own self if you are going through a rough time with somebody who has BPD. The details are where we connect and relate.
Thank you for sharing your story though. I do have a lot of sympathy for anybody diagnosed with BPD. I also have a lot of hesitation and distrust as the four people I know will not commit or admit or accept their diagnoses.
I really appreciate this video, I much prefer the actual stories than the cut and dry diagnostic review videos. I wish you all the best
I started following you & watching your videos at an extremely low point in my life, after going through a bad breakup and struggling with generalized anxiety. I felt out of control in my life, and continued to push my health aside. I’m still working on reaching my fitness goals, but my mental health has been thriving. I honestly look forward to seeing your content on IG and youtube. You have continually motivated me to work on myself - from a mental health standpoint in addition to my fitness and nutrition. Thank you for sharing your story, and for being authentic. You have helped so many people ❤️
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! I have BPD and am in a very similar situation to you when you were at college but you have filled me with so much hope I am starting to believe that one day I will be able to manage my symptoms as well as you have and get physically healthy. You are a blessing! Thank you again!! x
Thank you so much for sharing❤️ The fact that you said you feel like “prior you” was a different person reallllly shows how hard it must be for you to talk to us about this. So thank you, thank you, thank you. You’re helping so many people ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I came to the realisation that I have BPD recently so this has inspired me to keep going. You're amazing.
my history is so similar to yours, adhd and bpd also had drinking problems and self harm. Thank you for sharing this, we´re not alone
You are the bravest and realest person on the internet. You are so inspiring and helpful to so many people. Wow, I’m speechless. ❤️
Wow I had no idea you’re suffering from BPD as well. Thank you for talking about it, also just saying we are not evil. I had the same experience as you when looking up BPD, making me feel like a demon or just a really awful person, so it’s just nice to hear someone address that! You are an inspiration. I want to be successful in life too. I need to look into the whole eating aspect of things cause I’m sure my current eating habits aren’t helping my BDP but I have just been super consumed with education but I will finish in a few months and then I will try to get more into fitness and eating healthy. Thank you again!❤️
You shared really well. Thank you for being vulnerable and honest. This is so encouraging to me and I just want to say that I do not see you any differently. You’re amazing and should be incredibly proud at all the work and effort you have done to reaching health. I’m praying for you as you continue to work hard, daily!
Thank you with tears. I really needed to hear this. One foot in front of the other… this is an endless journey