How a Narcissist Changes You! Stephanie Lyn Coaching
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I left my husband last week. I always returned but this time I’m not. It feels like I’m grieving a death of someone. It’s been a very hard week.
I am so happy for yoh. I am trying to get to the point to leave my husbanf. I am done with the abise but unfortunately leaving is not that easy...but in the meantime while i am waiting I am working on myself and healing so when i do leave i will have done some work on muself
It is like a death and you are grieving the death of the relationship.. the hardest thing for me was letting me feel the grief... crying out loud, getting mad, etc... and lots of time going by... im 3 1/2 months out this time and know I can't go back or I lose myself!! I walked away at least 13 times times till I finally sad enough! Still have rough moments but i know in my head I must treat the relationship as a death and move forward... That is another issue, trying to move forward... best of luck :)
Marci VanOveren you’ll get there. It’s not easy.
Wendy Wibbels I cant go back either. I need to provide a healthy environment for my son. I’m glad I’m not alone. Thank you
@@ericaluna01 sending love and light to you🥰
It taught me that I am a happy soul.And not everyone has got pure and happy soul.Thanks to my parents and God.
Same💖
Love you
I'm a happy soul which is why the narc wanted to destroy me.
Amen! Like she said the best gift is to be able to see it!
EL P love wins
I changed from being a people pleaser and timid person into a force to reckon with!
I am a Warrior baby!
It took being broken, abused and discarded to lead me to self awareness, bravery, strength,positivity, peace and independence that’s what the narkynark taught me !
Just out now 45 days. Im still foggy and wondering who I am. I carried the last two Narcs on my back that broke me financially and emotionally. Friends and family disappeared. Im lonely. Work alone, live alone no one to talk to but a dog and two cats, they don't talk back. I have youtube videos that keep me getting up each day including yours. Thank you.
Hang in there. You need time to heal. These fuckers really do a number on us.
The pets don't talk back but they are the best freinds you can have right now loving you unconditionally. Treasure them
They do drain you and that’s all they will ever do is bring you down. When I realized that I completely cut them off from my life. Life is happiest when they’re not in it to make you cry and suffer. The punishment is over when you stay away and rebuild. It’s still a fresh start for you to mend yourself. I had to take a few months to rediscover myself. Take your time. You’ll slowly be put back together again. You got this. 💖You’ll make new friends and connections when you feel up to it. There’s no shortage of good people out there.
Find fun stuff you like to do. I really enjoy being with myself. Go for walks to the park feeling the wind and sun praying 🙏 fulfills me. Hang in there my dear there’s lots of good people around us. Blessings
Ill talk to you 😎. Im still with my covert narc husband (J.M).Im just as lonely and have no friends or fam to talk to because i wanted him to trust me.
I have reached that spiritual awakening. It's crazy, like a veil has been lifted. I didn't realize there were people out there who purposely manipulated and I didn't know what boundaries were. I had hit that point where I didn't know who I was because everything I had believed up to this point in my life wasn't real at all. It's a weird feeling, but it has brought a lot of wisdom. And the inner work on being aware of my own programming is awe inspiring. I hope some day I can be healthy enough to attract and want someone who is also healthy. Thank you for this video! ❤
Rebecca Tandem you can do it!
That gives me so much hope. I just went through the discard. It’s been 5 days NC and I can’t wait for this pain to go away. How long did it take you to get to that point?
Yeah i disagree that they do it on purpose. Most of them are unaware that they're manipulating people. They are just unaware of other people's needs so they end up abusing people. My ex learned her tendencies from her parents who were also very emotionally abusive
The awakening is when I'm not mourning the old me. Feels great! It'll get even better.
The devaluation before the discard is hurtful beyond words. You can’t believe it’s actually happening. May God help anyone that is going through this! I would rather be shot than deal with it again!
Me too
I hear ya...same
When I left him, I saved my life, bcse that mask came down and I saw a 😈 DEMON. I left, and he was speechless. This was nearly 11 years ago, and NEVER SAW HIM AGAIN. Changed my phone #, got off ALL social media, then I moved! He can't find me! God bless you, and NEVER TAKE THE NARC BACK!
I know the feeling thank God for Jesus Christ this the only way to escape a living heel o Earth love you Cynthia
I always felt I was never enough. I was constantly trying to please him, avoiding any arguments. Now that we are no longer together that feeling of not being enough is completely gone. I now struggle with narcissist constantly being vindictive whenever I speak up.
carol mo The best thing you can do is to not engage with the Narcissist remember that they feed off Positive energy and negative energy.
Please yourself first, best regards to who you really are is let go of the fear, guilt, shame and know that you are not responsible for his actions
@@beckyvegalifecoach2481 Yes. Rule #1 in dealing with a NPD, don't engage in conflict. Keep it black and white. Say as little as possible. I left a NPD woman a while back. She was not a monster by intent, simply devoid of human qualities that create relationship. In the end, I would just agree with her, in every way, try to be of help and never argue or discuss anything in depth. With this approach, things went smoothly until I could exit the situation. I found my years with this NPD helped me understand people in general and helped me deal with difficult people of all types. I am more calm and strong today as I learned the futility of engaging in human conflict. These are maddening people, but I suspect it is a developmental problem where the brain areas for empathy and conscience never fully developed ... and I've seen brain scan research validating this.
They want you to depend on them so that they can control you I tell you this there is nothing like peace love you Cynthia
I only found out what a narcissist was only about 2-3 months ago.. I was with a person for a few months and the love bombing was insaneeeeeee and so was the devaluation and discard.. I probably should thank my lucky stars that it only lasted a few months. I blocked her on everything and haven’t spoken to her in 2 months. I lost my entire sense of self I knew something was wrong . I didn’t want to work, go to the gym, cook, I lost 15 pounds. My friends and family didn’t recognize me. Just imagine this was only a few months of being with this girl, I can’t even imagine what some go through dealing with it for years .. my heart goes out to anyone struggling, it was definitely a painful but necessary experience for me..
Kelli R. Morris go away! Same comment all over the RUclips space trying to scam people into something totally illegal in the first place.
wow anonymous tipper. that is my exact situation and timeline! I had no idea. Its so bizarre and painful like I never imagined and even I got through a long term marriage/divorce. This was almost as bad, She really did a number on me and played me for a fool till I got wise.. She went right into the arms of another and left me in an instant.
Same, thank God just a few months as this was enough to cause damage to my self esteem. Two years no contact and breathing free air!
Literally we have the exact same situation I lost 15 pounds and lost myself and was only with the guy for three months but the amount of damage he done in that time period was insane
@@BoutiqueTeaV this people are so dangerous. Same here I was with a person for 7 months on/off. It is devastating. But I’m trying to get the strength to move on and not let it get to me.
They teach you where your weaknesses are.
So true!!😢
I left my wife 15 days ago after 27 years of marriage and discovering 3 affairs that she had in the past 10 years, most recently a 9-month affair which started my learning when I found a text string after she asked me to fix her computer. However, I also found an email where she told one of these 3 lovers that she had been living a dual life literally since we married. From everything I am learning through various therapy videos is that I have probably just scratched the surface, and even despite her own literal written documentation, she is denying all but the most recent affair. It's really sad. I am just starting my healing, but your videos, Stephanie, are amazing, my favorites to watch, and so incredibly helpful. Thank you!
Music Lover this happened to me one week ago she was asleep and I felt led to look in her phone and when I did it almost destroyed me I have been married for four years and she has been talking to a victim I mean we went to church and this and that travel every were and I woke her up and ask her had she talked to anyone she denied it swore on it I waited till the next day then left to no return and it hurts I trusted this woman with everything she is gonna reap it for real tho I’m through tho
Music lover everyone that reads your post is sending you love and strength! No BS feel it and soak it in. Best :)
she was poison. one of the hardest things was to realize that id let myself be fooled and treated so poorly. am I attracted to these people, why? she was gorgeous and a lie from the start. now I run like hell from these chicks. not much use except for basic bodily function, which is what they want for some reason. a week at most and bounce.
I can relate to the part that this abusive relationship forced me to learn to love myself and what abuse looks like. I am not the same person I was two years ago when I left that abusive relationship. And I’m proud of myself because the old me would’ve jumped into another relationship because I needed for someone to heal me and the new me Finally learned those hard lessons and learn how to heal myself and I have been single for two years and I am proud of myself. And when it is time for me to date I know that I can trust myself because I am fully conscious and aware Thanks to the abuser ❤️
Well done, never loose yourself anymore
❤🌹
Sounds like you've done some amazing self-love work
Stephanie Lyn Coaching I have. And I have to say thanks to your videos ❤️ I got asked to lead a single moms group at my church I’ve never done it before but I know I can do it and I’m actually going back and reading your videos the ones that talk about worry and our thoughts and how to choose my thoughts Because of course my ego wants to Tell me that I can’t do it But I know I can and I just have to concentrate on my thoughts and seeing myself succeed and do great in this woman’s group 😊
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It was so revealing to know that just being nice to a narcissistic person was a torture for 2 decades
I honestly had to numb myself in order to cope. I'm just coming out and I feel great! Great being away from him! I feel happy to get out of bed and smile to myself.
Keep up the great work!
Know and believe that you are always enough. When this is not mutually acknowledged and affirmed, the relationship is over. Although this is much easier said than done, do not give in to the temptation to ponder the million and one unanswered questions why the relationship ended because nothing will ever have made a difference. You will waste your precious time and only add to the disappointment.
You will always be more than enough for someone who is right for you and never enough for someone who isn’t.
How to regain emotions back or the sense of self after narcissist relation
Great insight about how a narc can actually force us to dig deeper into self-love and help us learn to set emotional boundaries around our energy. Thank you for your work. 🙏
Thank you!
Being in a relationship with a cluster-b, really wakes you up. That's a whole new scarry reality to wake up to...
Yeah, any of that is horrifying. People get misdiagnosed with borderline, though. That one can be more complicated. Still often hellish if they’re mistakable for a borderline.
I've basically been dissociated for the last 3 years (massive amounts of THC used too). I'm finally realizing I'm not worthless and can fulfill all my dreams. I'm on day 4 of no contact and escape. Good luck to everyone out there going through something this awful!
I was discarded last week. It has been one of the most difficult events in my life to try and process. I trusted and cared for this person endlessly but when I started to set boundaries and say "no" to things that made me uncomfortable the house of cards fell quickly. It does feel like I'm mourning the death of this person and also their family who I loved so very much.
I'm sorry you're going through that. I myself am recovering from emotional and psychological abuse I experienced in a friendship with a narcissistic and gaslighter. The following articles have been really helpful for me: I'm trying to heal and forgive myself, develop a strong sense of self, resurrect boundaries and enforce them going forward. Hope they help you too ❤️
www.psychologytoday.com/gb/basics/narcissism
www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/toxic-relationships/201812/how-spot-narcissist
www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/gaslighting
www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/communication-success/201707/6-common-traits-narcissists-and-gaslighters
www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/communication-success/201702/8-signs-someone-is-in-relationship-gaslighter
www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/here-there-and-everywhere/201907/rebuilding-after-gaslighting-or-narcissistic-relationship
www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/mind-games/201904/gaslighting-in-relationships-seven-ways-protect-yourself
Know and believe that you are always enough. You will always be more than enough for someone who is right for you and never enough for someone who isn’t.
Did this 6 months ago, it is so hard to process. And yes as soon as I started to set boundaries an other person came out, most of the time I wondered what I did wrong again? Took me 6 months to figure it out what was going on after she discarded me. 🤯🤯
I was wondering about boundaries with someone like that. I always thought...maybe if I had boundaries things would be better...but maybe boundaries aren't good to these people? Thanks for sharing your story
yeah bazically az zoon az boundariez come up they are out ...
Middle of divorce with young children. Makes me sick. The entire relationship was a lie. Thank you for doing these. Videos.
how long were you married? i'm going through it now as well. 3 children, narcissistic emotionally abusive wife. i dont recognize her anymore....
I’m going through this as well 😞 married only 6 years. 2 kids
Makes me sick
I put up with a lot at first because when she had withdrawn her excuse was that she was dealing with depression. After a couple weeks when she had "bounced back" she seemed a bit different and something felt off. That's when I started looking into depression, personality disorders and ended up here, learning about narcissism. Covert narcissism described her perfectly and for a couple months I was trauma bonded while I continued to learn about myself and covert narcissism. Thankfully, I was able to remain physically healthy and fairly confident while calling out her childish games in the end and made a clean break with her. She hoovered me once but it's been two weeks now and I'm sure she won't return after calling her out while keeping a cool head. We don't need these people, they're parasites but, they can also help us realize that we are attracting these demons and that we need to work on ourselves.
100% i accepted a few hoovers as i work with her. But today i called her out on her shit in a calm assertive way and won’t be talking to her.
You said it so well. The scary truth is that THEY NEVER CHANGE so don't waste your time even thinking of giving them another chance because another chance would for her to completely destroy you to even the point of calling the police on you yet they are the ones who were beating you up
Mine pretended to have a depression, while he was having an affair
I learned a valuable lesson in that relationship. Lost everything including myself... started over at 57- I have major trust issues I don't know if I'll ever get over trust. But it made me a stronger , better person. I now love who I am.. I'm a survivor of a true life nightmare... Never again..
You're not starting over. You have a headstart on the rest of your life. Think about all the shit you've learned! Now get out there & do it! ;-)
Same
At 57?? I feel old at 37, feeling it's too late to start over
Keep nourishing who you truly are
To Channel tools. Yes I lost everything. My apartment.. basically homeless... At 57?? Yup. Thought I would never make it but I did.. The struggle was real. Just have to keep going. I now just got my own place and work 2 jobs.. But I made it... scary as hell...
I just left my abusive relationship over a month ago and what got me to let him go was all the name calling for absolutely no reason. I'm not someone to doubt myself or feel bad about myself and this guy totally was doing that and I hated it. I finally let ties go because of it and it's so great to be aware of myself and actually be able to feel the way I feel and be myself. I didnt realize how bad the relationship was until I started distancing myself. It's only been a month and a half and I already feel so much relief. I just dont know how to parent with him now.. and I know it's all about control to him.
This is a challenge but, the more you can stay whole, unengaged into his drama and continue to grow onto yourself, you then have the opportunity to be a powerful example as a healthy parent. You can model for them the authentic whole human being that is you.
My co-parenting video may give you a few pointers.
Hi I had 26 years with a narc. I learned to filter everything that she stated and I filtered everything I stated before actually stating.
It was all about the narc never us or me. My emotions were numbed nothing mattered. Please dont be me I'm 60 now I lost a lifetime. Always trust your instincts narcs and toxic ppl are everywhere. Unforgiving. non God believers and toxic ppl will never ever get close to me again. My narc flattened any boundary I ever attempted to set I mean always. You have knowledge now take care of you first.
Oh the names I was called incredible.
I've been out gone 14 months I now see just how sick it all became ie 26 years. I've worked quite hard to bring myself forward. Regarding thou ghts and my feelings I just now decided to separate the two. The emotions the more challenging for me. Well 8 know now just how sick, twisted the so called relationship. Since the the relationship was totally false ie only an illusion to the narc why should I allow myself to feel poor emotionally? Emotions with no reality makes no sense. I feel all I can do now is place this book of bullshit on the top shelf of my
My phone screen jumped. Placed it on the top shelf and in one corner. I cant erase 26 years of hello it will never go away. So now i drop any emotions that occur cause it was a facade anyway. Incredible waste I have childhood abandonment issues performed by my deceased parents so there is the glue to the f mess. Maybe this will help others
I have learn some much about myself through this horrible trauma caused by my narcissist ex husband. I can see how easily I was targeted because I had no boundaries! I didn’t even know what that was! My childhood set me up for this and I see that now. But thank God for all this knowledge now. Knowledge is power. I feel better about myself because I see things clearer now. Thank you so much.
Right on! Thank you. 4 months after the discard, grateful for the growth, amazing learning experience. I now know Evil exists. Used to be pretty naïve.
Know and believe that you are always enough. When this is not mutually acknowledged and affirmed, the relationship is over. Although this is much easier said than done, do not give in to the temptation to ponder the million and one unanswered questions why the relationship ended because nothing will ever have made a difference. You will waste your precious time and only add to the disappointment.
You will always be more than enough for someone who is right for you and never enough for someone who isn’t.
Week 3 out of an abusive relationship. As a man it's so difficult to accept that I can fall for such tricks.
Stephanie your videos have helped me for the best part of a year... In and out of the same cycle with the same person, expecting different results.
It wasn't until I became suicidal that I had to look at myself. Gosh I have one life, as you said Stephanie I've been asleep up until now.
This Channel has educated me so much. I was in this abusive relationship watching your videos and arming myself with the facts. For so many years I've been trying to find the right time to leave. With every new video I watched I gained strength.
One day I stood up and said "I'm done" in my mind I knew this relationship was going to kill me.
For anyone struggling... Just keep going, a day at a time, watch these videos, in a secret location if you have to! Arm yourself with the good ammunition. The more I learnt about this stuff the less alone I felt.
Without gushing I am always so grateful for your channel Stephanie. Thank you so much! X
IT IS SOOOO TRUE! I finally (5 months after the break up) get to the point that I am grateful for my toxic ex to wake me up to love myself and to put myself first. I would also never get as much education on manipulation, gaslighting, emotional abuse if I haven't gone through it and tried to figure out what actually happened. I think I needed the experience. I love my healing process. God put him on my path for a reason - for sure!
I've learned to love myself enough to not let anybody treat me with disrespect, disdain, neglect etc. I've learned to protect myself from abusive people.
I'm about a year into my awareness. You're right that it will change everything about the rest of my life and how I interact with people.
I’ve borne the burnt of several abusive relationships (all types - relatives, friendships, romantic, and professional). The primary lessons I learned were 1) I have to put myself and my own best interests first, and 2) Appeasement and cooperation don’t work with toxic folks so it’s a time and energy waster to try, AND 3) I have to reject a person if they aren’t what I want or need in my life.
In my past I cared about getting along with everyone as much as possible. I still prefer that, but I also realize some people don’t want to get along and actively CHOOSE to harm others (physically, emotionally, financially...any way they can). I don’t want to put up with it and I will not do so.
I will not accept or tolerate anyone or anything I don’t perceive as being beneficial in my life.
A Masion this is my resolve as well after a couple abusive experiences from mom to sister to husband to boss at work to a ‘best’ friend. I will no longer tolerate these vipers at all! They aren’t worth my time and energy. At 31 I feel I have lost so much to these sorts of relationship on the alter of peace making, peace keeping and being a good Christian but the Bible doesn’t even say we should tolerate these patterns. We are told he flee from them.
The thing that upsets me when you tell your friends and they don't realise the abuse you've been going through and you say your done with them and they almost look at you like your crazy ..narcsisist a get caught out in the end wuth all thier lies .those vids are good they makes us aware we weren't going mad ..they were changing thier stiry and forgot what they said to who .one of my friends who didn't understand what I was going through she realised he was gossiping when I told her something that I would never know if it wasn't for him telling me then you could see her looking like a light bulb had gone off .so now she realused he was a horrible controlling narcsisist. ..
I was in an abusive relationship and it was so hard to leave I still love him, I really do, but he’s not a good person and I don’t think he will change. I don’t want him back but I feel feel sad for him and for me, and at the same time I feel calm, I know I’m happier without him and I’m grateful that is over, but sadness is still here, specially because well I will always care about him even after all the pain he caused
One year and 3 months out. Were together 40 years! Further complicated by loss of 19 year old daughter (15 years ago now) Blame myself sometimes - totally knew what a Narcissist was but had no idea I was integrated fully with a Covert - never knew what that was. I remember talking w a friend not understanding why he loved me SO much - something wasn't right. Now I understand the intense dedication - it wasn't love - my gut knew something. If we hadn't met so young I don't think it would have happened. I just now starting to feel a bit of hope. Just sharing because I so appreciate others of you who have shared which has helped me. These videos have been so enlightening, clarifying and helpful Stephanie - Thank You ♥
Thank you for sharing.
40 years married. I was too stupid to know what a covert was. Undeniable now.
Trying to find the strength to face the fact that it's been over for years and years and no matter how I try, he will never change.
My issue is I know when there is abuse, I know when I need to set boundaries, however my fear of the emotional abuse/guilt/shame that will come from standing up for myself keeps me from doing it.
well you should give it a shot of conquering your fear! Once you do it, you'll feel really great about yourself :) People are afraid to stand up for themselves because they don't want to hurt someone. But let me tell you this: Don't do something that will hurt you in order not to hurt someone else. Tell yourself you're important :D
I often have this problem too. I just left a year and a half long relationship and it's been really rough. But what she is saying is true this forced me to change the bad patterns that I have as well. The living in fear of everything and feeling guilty for everything. Please dig deep yes it is hard but dig deep and take a firm stand for yourself.
You have helped me so much. It will be two years from when the Narc walked out. I have grown so much and can be alone for the first time in my life. I knew I had grown when I came face to face with him last week and he didn’t control the conversation. It so happened that he had a trigger and needed to talk. The trigger was what should have been our twenty ninth wedding anniversary. After he left I felt proud of myself I never felt that before. So thank you from the bottom of my heart. Sincerely, Bobbie
I found this video very helpful ... and have seen them all. I especially liked the part that described the absence of a sense of self, and the blank indifference of the NPD to the concept of self. -- I spent years with a classic NPD woman. I once asked her about her sense of self, if she knew who she was ... she quickly said no, but had no interest or care about the concept. Her primary motive was, "How do I get what I want," and "How do I make myself seen in high regard by the public." - Home for her was an empty vessel that could not fulfill her narcissistic needs. In a humorous manner (to me today) I was a "trophy" husband she loved to be seen with in public. At home, I had less significance to her than an outfit of clothing in the closet. I was an inanimate object. -- The consequence for her, of her disorder, was a constant dissatisfaction with life, an inability to feel deeply. She could not understand people or the world ... was very fearful and always upset, angry and hateful, etc. You know the deal. A normal response of empathy and care for such a suffering person, can be trouble, and not the best approach. -- It felt like abandoning a helpless child when I left, contrary to humane instinct but necessary for self preservation.
Wow. This is it exactly. You grew or had the maturity to be able to see past her persona to the demanding, insecure child at the root of it all. I'm in the process of leaving. Much harder to get out than getting in. In the meantime, I'm working on myself and waking up to this situation fully. I could kick myself over how much time and energy I wasted in this relationship. It's like being in high school with Mean Girls, and then graduating, feeling like wow. I was so focused on and upset over this nonsense?!😑😔😂
How neat you 2 left, I never had the heart to leave him.. 27 years.. What does that say about me? I have been discarded..I know its for the best.. Still grieving tho,.. Grieving a lie.. Insanity.
1 year post narc survivor, sometimes I still struggle but most times I'm alright. Your videos are always needed. Thank you 💚
Same here.
@@Girlbgood1 Sending you love 💚
@@TealDwellings thank you!!❤❤
I’m a year out too and it definitely feels freeing!
@@neyboo4985 sending you love too 💚 an eye opener isn't it
YES!!! My deeply dysfunctional relationship finally taught me how to take care of myself and gain more independence.....especially since getting out of it. ❤️❤️❤️
I just realized I was head over heals with a narcissist and he bailed on me suddenly (after lots of soulmate talk and longterm promises and dreams) cause I started speaking my boundaries. Thankfully I realized through this experience that I have some wounds to heal and im still figuring out the rest. Lots of time to reflect and learn.
I’m learning so much from your channel
Stephanie. This video really resonates with me. Key thing I took from this... “this relationship on some level forced you to love yourself.” THIS! Also recognizing abuse. I had a toxic and narcissistic parents and my entire life I have felt I was worthless. But what happens when you have experienced so much hurt and rejection that I don’t know if I will ever be able to love myself?
Just 4 weeks in of being discarded ,the pain in my heart is like a stab wound. Watching Stephanie has given me such an understanding of the person I have spent 8 years of my life with. Makes so much sense now! Moving on and healing my inner being is so important.
I’m 34 and never knew myself. Let go of a 12 year relationship. I’m ready to live and love! I have so much hope! These videos make me feel so not alone!! Thank you!!
Kassi A yay!! I hope to see you in one of these feeds someday commenting on how much you’re thriving! ❤️❤️❤️
Be careful out there, it’s brutal, I’m 36... it’s a different world than when you were 22. Also, go easy on the guys, be upfront, and background checks go along ways.
@elizabethdupuch. I’d love an update! I’m in that situation now. 34 and ending a 13-year on and off relationship. I tried to leave but got dragged back in so many times with love bombing because I felt everything was on me or that I could change him but that’s not possible. I’d love to know if you’re thriving and possibly found love again. Best wishes! ❤
I am thankful for my ex. She allowed me to transform my life. What does not break you, makes you stronger.
I have had several failed relationships I think I’m starting to realize that my mom was toxic to me growing up so I thought that was a healthy relationship I also recently broke up with my emotionally abusive partner I find your videos to be very helpful thanks again
Alexandra Pettibon,So sorry to hear that,I think you deserve better 🙏🤙
I am out of this relationship almost a year now. I am living my best life ever. I do thank him/them because I learned how strong I am. When I feel weak I remind myself that manipulated them into letting me go home. I stood stong and travel from India back home to US alone in the dead of winter with no proper heat in my home....but I survived and now I am triving and my life gets better everyday. I am so thankful. I learned how to build me and my life and it is wonderful now!! NO goin backwards ever....healthy is what I crave and want for me and all those around me. Thank you for these videos I learn so much.🌹💗👍
Even though I’m a couple of years out, the 20 plus year marriage really did damage me. Thanks Stephanie for keeping me on the healing path.
Kristel Walton,So sorry to hear that, you deserve better 🙏🙏🙏🤙
Wow, you really broke it down to where I could understand. A lot of this makes sense. I’m dealing with the feeling of disappointment but don’t know where it’s coming from… Healing from this has been the most difficult hill I’ve had to climb in my life this far. I’m only 31. Been dealing with this from 15 yrs of my life. The moment I woke up to see what truly was going on and I got to see this person for who he really was (a narcissist) it almost killed me. I had already given so much of my life, I feel like.. and well i have started from 0. Getting to know myself what I like, what I don’t like, who I am and who I am not… all while healing the deeply rooted wounds. It’s been tough, but hearing you say, “you’ve come a long way” feels so good 🥹
Hope all is well.. 31 is an age u still have a bit of time to remarry and go on with ur life.. I'm 1 mth out, I'm 53 and 9 children I feel so old 😂😂
But I am thankful for Jesus, I know good things are in store for me ❤️
I remember, fairly early in the relationship, feeling so overwhelmed by his need to be totally my life, like we were one person. It freaked me out, I couldn't cope with it, but he was literally/physically in my face telling me that was how it should be. It disgusts me thinking back on it.
The hardest part for me was the realization of the part I played in an cyclical relationship. I did it for 16 years. I would break up & then he would love bomb me. I thought that was true love. I’m 58 & realized I was co-dependent. I beat myself up for 4 months feeling guilty & depressed. Then a sort of awakening happened. I never thought that was possible. I didn’t love myself first & I wasn’t presentI. I found your videos & they have helped me tremendously. Thank you for your amazing insight.
I became very self aware , very honest and very self loving and so much more I feel so strong now it was the greatest lesson of my life so far my discard was the biggest blessing in disguise
I never EVER! Thought I would ever be in a situation dating someone who put me through abusive cycles. Thank you for helping me through this tough time and helping me GET OUT of this viscous cycle and get my confidence and self worth back!
I would NEVER THANK an ABUSER
I had plenty self love before being with narc and practically none when ending the relationship.
Not everyone weak going in. There's no doubt in my mind these ppl are the devil incarnate. They scheme, plot, steal, destroy EVERYTHING w/out one iota of guilt.
I totally understand your position. We don’t have to go through such excruciating ordeals to learn a thing or two but it’s all about finding the silver lining. Making your narrative one of victory not victimhood.
@@LoveiDora Not ever Thanking any abuser, Idc what anyone says. Forgiving them & moving on is Enuff. The door is shut after that...
Rich_Recluse you don’t even have to forgive them. Just move on.
Rich_Recluse you don’t even have to forgive them. Just move on.
After 14 years of narcissistic abuse I'm getting divorced. Tour channel woke up my abused mind. When you talk about narcissism I feel like your talking about my ex. I feel like an empty shell right now and afraid bc for 14 years he has drained me of my self to the point where I needed him for everything.. now I'm going to be a single mom and taking care of a house..I mean he did all the fixing around the house I'm clueless...I am very codependent on him.... I feel that my true self is nudging me to wake up...it was meant to be that I found your channel now... Thank you
Yes yes yes yes! Everything she said is absolutely true. I'm way out of my abusive relationship and I have come so far from the broken shell i was right afterwards. It truly is an awakening, and I feel like I'm in tune with the world again. ♥️ Your videos Stephanie!
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Hi Stephanie! You have certainly been a huge part of any growth I have accomplished. It has been almost a year since my divorce from who I now know is a narcissist. My giving away my power to him cost me 30 years of my life. He had me hooked on hoping I could be enough-it was crazy. I still deal with the trauma bonding every time I interact with him. It is like clockwork, even though I know it is possible, I still fall prey. The journey continues. I am learning to love myself, take care of me, and to have better boundaries. It has all been an incredibly difficult path. I am a work in progress!!
Well said, again, TY.
The biggest lesson, I do love myself. I lost that for that time with the narc. I am now
No contact, and loving myself more everyday. I was completely unaware of NPD.
Very difficult lessons. Happy to be moving in the forward direction. Ty
Love & light to you and yours always!!
Robert Price,You don't need a narcissist in your life
Hi Stephanie, Great video! With covid, housing issues, and two deaths in the family my partner's fear of being out of control triggered even more extreme abusive behavior. You wouldn't believe it, but I really felt like the universe conspired to direct me to finally leave. It was like there was a force saying, "I tried to let you do this on your own with a more subtle approach, but you are not getting the message. This time I'll present you with all of the tactics of abuse at once just to make it crystal clear that you are being traumatized, and then you decide for yourself if you will be able to act as this person's emotional punching bag every time you experience loss." Now, I'm on my own again and I have no idea where I'm going, but I know I'm finally on the right path. It's fitting that 2020 was the year that's given me clearer vision. Your videos have been a huge source of support. Thank you times a thousand!
Thank you for helping me to see the upside of 25+ years of negativity and allowed manipulation. I am 59 years old and just now learning to love myself again.
Annie Brown,you deserve better cause you are a precious 🌹🌹 being 😍🙏
This is me 100%, but I am feeling stronger everyday since I had the courage to break free from the toxic person and going no contact, learning self love and self care, took back my power and it feels good.
What I learned towards the end of my final relationship, which ended in the summer of 2016, and then in the three years since: what emotional blackmail is, including gas-lighting, threats and ultimatums.
I discovered attachment trauma (which I have. Had no idea. Thanks to Alan Robarge for shining a light on this relatively new concept.)
I learned what's really important and about self-care, self-love, self-acceptance.
I had a full-blown spiritual awakening where I was in touch with the universe, infinity, a higher power, and saw, like a lightning bolt, what my purpose on the planet is: to be love, of love, with love, and for love.
I had two back-to-back narcissist partners. I left one for another. The second one was VERY charming and covert. Love-bombed me and seemed, at first, to be 180-degrees different from the partner she was trying to get me to leave. BECAUSE I had shared so much with her about how this prior narcissistic partner was treating me, she was able to use that intel to her advantage. She knew what to say, how to be, what buttons to push. Insidious.
I learned about ego. I read the "Untethered Soul."
I've also learned about social and emotional learning - SEL - which is the answer/solution to creating a world with very few, or no, narcissists. Social and emotional learning that starts in pre-K and goes to 12th grade and beyond. As Stephanie wistfully says in a lot of her vids, and we all say, and know: if ONLY we had been taught these things growing up! We could've been given the tools to learn about ego, consciousness, self-awareness, social awareness, empathy, healthy, responsible decision-making, and what healthy relationships look like. We would've learned about civility, self-esteem, self-love, etc. We could've avoided co-dependency, people-pleasing, a lot of depression, self-sabotage, and so much more.
Slowly, little-by-little, SEL IS being implemented in schools all over the world. It started in 2011, or so.
But we have a long way to go. It WILL change the world in every way, from prejudice, bullying, and toxic relationships to war, poverty, sex trafficking, domestic violence, and crime. There's a very real, empirical chance these "realities of life" will end, or be greatly reduced. IMAGINE! Sure fires up MY imagination!
If you want to learn more, google CASEL, RULER, Roots of Empathy (Canada), the NoVo Foundation, BRAC International (the world's largest NGO, headquartered in Bangladesh), or The IRC's "Healing Classrooms." And there are others.
You'll discover a whole world created by people who were wounded, bullied, and in some way impacted by a world where virtually none of these skills are taught growing up. Not by parents, schools, churches or groups like scouts. Because no one really taught them either.
Finally, hurt, affected people decided to take real and substantive action aimed at the root, at the source, of ALL these problems. Prevention vs "maybe-we-stumble-onto-a-cure" after decades of therapy, divorce, depression, lost productivity, soul-searching, recovery, etc.
So, to all of you who've been through the ringer: bravo! Well done! Keep exploring. We are on an amazing, special path. Check out S.E.L. and see if it's being done in your community and, if you're inspired, investigate, maybe volunteer. If it isn't in your school, maybe you could initiate a conversation about that with the community: teachers, parents, students, community leaders, mental health experts, therapists. (Ironically, if this really became the new teaching norm, we might not need as many therapists in the future!)
Yes, the pain, suffering, loss, and turmoil we went through has made us who we are now and there is gratitude, acceptance, clarity and peace. But I think, if given a choice, most of us would probably prefer to spare our children, and their children, from having to go through all the same shit as us to get to this place. I might be wrong, but that's where my head is. Namaste, David
Just coming out of a 14 yr. toxic relationship with narcissistic husband(since Feb). I do feel a freedom and that I have gained more knowledge of myself and how I fed into the behavior. I did lose self-esteem that I was just starting to build up after another toxic relationship ending. My self is coming back. Thank you for this video.
Tracy Cash,you deserve better 🙏🙏🙏
Wow. I’ve never considered how they might have changed me. I can’t wait to have free time to check this out.
Stephanie, thank you. I found your videos exactly when I needed to the most! Your videos have really educated me on a subject that I never knew about, especially being a guy. Men go through it too! If I could, I probably would thank my ex girlfriend for utterly destroying my heart and -idea- of whom I believed she was and how she felt about me. I’ve done some growing up since then, thankfully! I’m getting older and I don’t want to be an emotionally immature 43 year old. So thank you for your transparency, encouragement and compassion for those who’ve gone through what you yourself have! Right on sister girl🫵😊🫵🫡🦋🫵
I've been out for about 6 months. I don't think I will ever want to send him a thank you. I'm glad I learned, but I don't think anybody should have to learn that way.
But I should tell you, your videos are part of what helped me leave. I do thank you for that.
I’m working on just being okay. Okay by myself. It was a four year relationship that I remained the optimist. I was insane. I pray that I’m not anymore. It’s like a force took me over, an attraction like I’ve never felt. And yet, it could never work. And for me to think it was my fault, was a tough pill to choke down. Of course that wasn’t the case. It’s not about fault. It’s about true love. True love would never have treated me that way. Horrible things! It was the best of times. It was the worst of times. It was beauty and ugliness. It was a nightmare. The emotions cut through my depressive fog. The roller coaster ride was amazing. How sick am I? To the point I physically became I’ll. Then I knew I couldn’t do it. My pride had a limit. So low I went. I walked away that night, never turned back, never spoke again, never said a word, erased all digital, erased all materials, and most importantly erased my love. The spirit left me. And now I’m exhausted, careful, moving diligently, rebuilding, finding peace, and praying.
I found your videos when I was really going through it, thanks for being part of my healing. It's been a bit over a year since I was discarded, and I feel as though I have finally closed that chapter of my life. I told myself I was over it many times, and many times I had to forgive everyone that was involved, including myself. Everything that's happened feels like a distant memory, it no longer hurts to think back on it. I've been able to heal pain caused by that relationship, along with the pain I had been carrying from childhood. I do wish I had learned my lessons in a less painful manner but I am thankful for all the things I learned anyway.
Am beginning the healing journey and learning as I go. I found myself rereading my own journals over the last decade and seeing the growth that prior to reading those pages I hadn't realized. I am not the same person I was, I saw the red flags but chose to ignore them because I truly believe the best of people I allow into my life. And am learning to forgive myself for not taking action sooner. But am happier now, which is kind of ironic and to be honest a little scary. Thank you for posting these videos and for sharing your wisdom with others.
This video hit so many nails smack bang on the head for me. In 2017 ended up getting divorced after 30 years of marriage. I had always had this sense that I was not the problem, not that I was perfect but I was not the reason married life seemed so hard. What you said about being asleep is something I am beginning to realise how much I have been.
Looking forward to the emotional wounds video as I suspect that will be for me another big step in me waking up.
Thanks for sharing - wishing you all the best!
Hi, my name is Yvonnne. I was married to a narcissist for 13 years. I currently left the relationship four months ago. I honestly been working on myself very very hard going to the gym five days a week. Going to church every Sunday. Going to therapy once a week I have overcame so much and I am grateful but I but I still get sad from time to time. Not as much as I did in the beginning still suffer from panic attacks when I am triggered going through my angry stage now which is weird because I usually let stuff go and I’ve never been this angry ever, but this video has helped me a lot. Learning to be patient and knowing that it is going to take some time to truly move past this is my biggest problem is dealing with the situation that it was not a normal relationship or healthy and it sucks that I put so much energy in my marriage, and now I have to put so much energy into making myself healthy without him but I know I can do it
I am 11 months out of my 6 year relationship with my ex narc. I have learned that it's not my fault, that I cannot make a relationship all about that other person, and what I want is a deeper relationship than just surface content. I recently saw them in public (my narc and the girl he cheated on me with for two years) and I ignored them. They don't get my time and head space anymore. I am still not ready to date anyone yet because of the baggage that I have, but I know when I do, I will be more open and ready to have a deeper and committed relationship. AND I know what to look for as red flags! I love your videos, Stephanie! Great job! To anyone out there that is in their narc relationship, or just out of one... it gets better, and it takes time. So don't beat yourself up about taking too long to "feel better". I did that for so long! It DOES get better, but with patience towards yourself.
I'm bipolar and borderline personality. I was with a narcissist for 12yrs and we either shut down or lash out in extreme violence when pushed. Either to ourselves or toward the narcissist. Very toxic!
Separated 3 years ago living my best life but seem to attract those narcissist still.
Sad but true I thank my ex for teaching me all the red flags to look for and how to create boundries and refuse to accept toxicity in my life.
Great video!! Thank you so much!
Thank you for posting this. I am 100% thankful for the lessons now, and as you said the awakening. I see life much differently, present, past and future. Along with a lot of reading, watching videos like yours and going to a therapist it’s very exciting to me.
I’m so glad you’re on the other side and see the lesson!
Watch out for them telling you that they'll call you on a specific day and time and they don't. This scenario will repeat itself over and over again and again.
Thank you I appreciate this message.. and you for delivering it...
I've been raised by 5 narcissistic females.. and left behind by both parents.. to cope I got into a relationship that was not the healthiest.. I just wanted to say thank you
It took almost 20 years for me to leave my narcissistic ex. I’d spent 20 years being manipulated and abused and I didn’t recognize it as abuse for the first 16-17 years and then my mom passed away and I was awoken spiritually. I became very spiteful and resentful towards the end and somehow was able to uno reverse him into leaving. I don’t think he realized at the time that it was actually the end and I was truly done. I’d kicked him out and taken him back a few times in the past, so he assumed that I would again. It’s been 16 months now exactly and while life is much more peaceful than it was I’m still healing. There are still times when my intrusive thoughts are repeated flashbacks of his insults but I’m working on myself every day and am learning to love myself again. It’s a process for sure. ❤
After 2 months of pure agony since leaving my borderline partner, this video has calmed my stomach down just enough to feel like myself again. For the moment anyways. Thank you
I'm just now starting to distance myself . finding your videos are helping me so very much . Thank you for sharing your knowledge.
I have been complete no contact for 3 months. We have a 3.5 yr old together that he has not seen not asked about, and that hurts. We have lived apart for 1.5 yrs now so I am ok. for the most part, accepted what happened, after I understood it I also forgave and I am ok a brink of feeling grateful Sometimes I have moments of missing the good parts, or what I believed was good, and real. Then I come back to this channel to be reminded of the reality of what really happened. I was doing better since there has been no contact, just feeling sad.for our daughter. Last week I found out he is living 6 miles away, with the woman he had an affair with all while in a relationship with me. To be physically so close and not see your child is something I cannot comprehend. Thanks for this channel Staphanie
This is the 1st time I have ever been with a beautiful narcissistic woman. A very eye opening experience. I never questioned myself and my self worth before meeting her. It is definitely a form of disease built up over years of abuse from another partner she had. This video really helped me Stephanie ! Thank you.
Adam Forman,You deserves better
@@oscarikenna Thanks man.
@@adamforman606 You are always welcome 🤗.I will be glad to be a friend so we will always pray for each other.Are you on WhatsApp or Snapchat?
@@adamforman606 ?
Hey Stephanie,
I have exactly experience all you have explained and I completely agree on all you said as it represents the spit copy of my estranged wife behaviour and the empty, fake and superficial relationship I had with her!.
I have gladly and happily come out this abuse, toxic relashionship 10 years ago.
Unfortunately now my almost 14 years old daughter is experiencing the same painful situation but unfortunately she is too blind and brianwashed to see it.
I have awaken from it now and I am glad I went trough that experience (even cost me a lot financially and emotionally). It make me a better person. I now will be waiting when my daughter will awake so she can reunite again with the rest of my family she was taken away from due to the lie, manipolation, brianwashing of my ex and now also my ex narcisist latest partner.
As you said I will send her a bottle of wine to thank her for all this as I have awaken and I am living an amazing, happy and healthy life!
I'm bipolar and I felt normal coming out of the relationship being around crazy makes you feel crazy 😅
Same
Just coming out, and feeling like I understand. I’m not bitter, I feel for her, but I’ve moved on with boundaries.
I love your work, thankful that you share!!
Thank you so much!
26 yrs and 7 children. Has been a hard two months. But no more arguments, no more antics and no more drama. Sad to see her like this and will always love her( just can't help her). Some ways I really miss her, but for my own well being I need stay stong and not let her back in my life. So much of what you said really hits home. Thanks!
Amazing you hit the nail on the head I could relate to everything you said. Thank you so so much I just am so grateful to hear the words aloud and have confirmation. Coming out of a 2 decade marriage now 3 months on with the help of subliminals and channels life yours.🙏♥️
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The first person I had a relationship with after loosing my wife of 32 years.I didn't understand what was going on.all the mental abuse drove me to meds and therapy.I was convinced it was my problem .It wasn't until I watched videos and researched narcissist that it became clear.I felt so violated and couldn't understand of all people why would you do this to me after shortly loosing my at.It was text book line by line narcissism . Understanding gave me the advantage to break away . Thank you for helping me understand such a sickness exist.
I'm struggling because I was married for 20 yrs. Divorced for 9. I divorced him because of all the fighting and he just had my self esteem at zero. He was downright mean! Now im beating myself up thinking I was at fault. I should have done this...I should have done that... was miserable in my marriage! I know my part in it tho I just put so much blame on myself I need to remember how awful he was!
Annie Bananie, you deserve a good man cause you are a precious 🌹🌹 being
I feel like in these awful emotional abusive relationships, you end up behaving in ways you feel ashamed of. But you were pushed to the absolute brink so it's completely understandable and you should let yourself forgive yourself ❤
Thanks to my spiritual awakening happening prior to the day he discarded me, I already knew we were not going to be forever. I genuinely smiled when he said he wanted a divorce. If anyone is reading this and wondering constantly how/when it will happen, this is your sign to let go and flow Because forces are outside of us far greater than any of us has your back. In the meantime focus on your inner peace and faith in knowing that everything in life is temporary
I'm still with a covert narcissist. I still tell myself that compared to others she isn't that bad. She has little empathy though and is seriously passive-aggressive along with being negative 99% of the time which is draining. She has helped me a lot early on when we first met though but as time has gone on things have continued to deteriorate which is really sad to reflect on. I'm trying to learn and become a better person while she seems to slowly get worse over time. It's like being with a robot who even seems to like to see you down which is messed up but I remind myself she has a disorder and may be malignant which is why they are like that. I have been around narcissists most of my life but I did not realize it until I started researching all this. I often wonder what this world would be like if all the low empathy cluster B people just vanished leaving only empathetic people behind. Would we need laws and locks and government anymore? Do narcissists create 99% of the world's problems? I do fear she has changed me in negative ways but hopefully, if I can escape, I can repair any damage that has been done. Thank you as always for making these videos and raising awareness on this issue!
Hi!!! How've you been? It's been a few years since you left this message. Are you still with this unhealthy person? If yes, have they improved?
Thank you so much. It is really true, once you awaken and do the painful healing you become 10 times happier than you have ever been!
im in a relationship with a narcissist i think because this makes sense. i literally cannot think straight and I feel like I am always confused and can never make up my mind or think about something for MYSELF. im just confused lol.
Get out before it’s too late!
Hope these help you:
www.psychologytoday.com/gb/basics/narcissism
www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/toxic-relationships/201812/how-spot-narcissist
www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/gaslighting
www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/communication-success/201707/6-common-traits-narcissists-and-gaslighters
www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/communication-success/201702/8-signs-someone-is-in-relationship-gaslighter
www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/here-there-and-everywhere/201907/rebuilding-after-gaslighting-or-narcissistic-relationship
www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/mind-games/201904/gaslighting-in-relationships-seven-ways-protect-yourself
I’ve watched a few of your videos over the last few weeks , They have really made me feel better about myself, I now realise what’s been happening I realise what my problem has been for so many years 👍🇬🇧
Just 3 months of leaving an 11 years relationship My sense of self is something that I know I lost because I did everything he wanted and to his expectations Initially i did that because I believe that I wanted to make him happy but as years went on I did so I didn't have to hear back lash. I forgot who I was before him I am now working on getting my self esteem back and not doubting my everything that I do.. because he made me feel as if I did anything without consulting him first it would turn out disastrously and I am slowly moving forward to knowing that everything isn't perfect and that it's ok that I CAN DO THINGS WITHOUT NEEDING HIS APPROVAL AND THEY WILL TURN OUT GOOD, BECAUSE I AM CAPABLE AND SMART.. My kids are also my strength to look ahead and become someone thay can look up to....❤
Hi Stephanie, I feel much better, my tears stopped falling all night long. That seemed useless and wrong, to keep crying, waiting, hoping and I just can’t get the lessons off my mind and I used to I think codependents were two people helping each other too much. Thank you!
I was with a narc for 17 years and in 7 days it will be 2 years to the day i walked away from him. I still dont know how to love who i am or even whats healthy. Im trying hard but i dont know if i will ever know how
I was with my narc for 22 years three years now separated/divorced just now starting to put my life together emotionally. Hang in there!!! look at how many followers Stephanie has you are Not alone by no means!!!
@@scotth.7577 Thank you i needed to hear that right now
@@sarahmaxey1788 I've started doing some of the stuff Stephanie talks about the affirmations she has another video where you do check ins, I have timers set on my phone and I check my thoughts and correct them, just don't give up, you get to start a new lease on life with putting you first!
I was told to be open to my feelings and actually feel them and accept them. Im a narc btw 😀 I say that because i do look to become rather than be myself.
You are so strong, how did you even manage to tolerate him for so long? My relationship with narc was only 10 months, but he totally fucked up my self-esteem
I appreciate all these videos. It has been very helpful after my divorce. Thank you
Hi...I am just coming out of my relationship. I finally filed and put myself into a safe place. I have been working with a counselor for a year and 1/2. I moved out to file and he completely moved out while I was gone. So I am home and waiting to see what mediation brings. I am finding it difficult to set goals for my future. I dont know how to find me again. Now he is playing or should I say he has gotten huge favor from our daughter who has now reached the age of maturity. She is his victim too. She is too young to realize and I am so concerned how it is affecting her. Though she has a really great guy in her life for about 3 years I see familiar patterns in their relationship. I have been watching you this whole year. Now I need to heal but also want to help my daughter.
Sunshinegirl415fl wish you all the best. Don’t lose hope
One night back in my sober living house me and my roommate were up late discussing our past relationships and I was telling him my present situation and the breakup that was going on with the girl I was planning to marry and just had a new baby girl with while we were working on our sobriety (we as in me and my fiancé, as well as my sober roommate. Who I actually met thru my fiancé) anyway...he told me my relationship sounded almost identical to the one he had a few years ago with this girl, and he told me to look up Stephanie’s videos about narcissistic people and how to figure out if you’re in a relationship with one. Well after the 1st video I couldn’t stop watching all of them and was absolutely blown away by everything she said, and my heart sank deeper and deeper at the end of every video, because I solidified the crushing realization that this wasn’t just a matter that a couple could work out together and after tears were dried and intense nights of makeup sex, all that would linger was gonna be severe leg cramps and bite marks. Not in a case like ours sadly enough, and unfortunately I didn’t see the one about what happens when you call that person a narcissist to their face, or the video about narcissistic rage.....Here I thought I would go about it the nice way and advise her that I wasn’t going to argue anymore because no matter how much proof I had that I wasn’t lying and never cheated on her, she would always take a sweet moment we had shared and twist and turn it and weave it into a different memory entirely that made me out to be some heartless Godless piece of shit in the end, I started to think I was possessed by a demon (I only started thinking demons possessed me cuz she literally said that I was living with a demon inside of me )and of all the relationships she’d been in that no one ever made her feel like she’d rather be dead than to live another day with me in her life. Of all the terrible things she said to me that to me was the most gut wrenching. I had been compared to the boyfriend who beat her up and raped her at knife point on more than one occasion, and I was put in the worse than that column. I never felt anything but undying love and gratitude to God for finally giving me the girl of my dreams because of how fairy tale our relationship started out. I couldn’t believe someone so perfect existed this whole time and I said numerous times that if I knew how great of a chick I’d have after the numerous abusive relationships and having my children ripped away from me and used as pawns to hurt me. I would have gladly lived those painful years 1000 times over just to have found her at the end of it all.
To hear her say those words to me, to see the hate in her eyes directed at me for things I never did. I’m not gonna say I’ll never recover from this because I will.....I am, everyday. Moment by moment. Absolutely there will be scars left behind. But no way am I going to allow myself to remain a victim. Learning to love myself is something I should have learned long ago and it’s not overnight, but we only get hurt as much as we permit someone to hurt us. We are in control of that, we always have been. I’m learning and growing so much each day I can’t thank you enough Stephanie. Please keep the videos coming.
I listened to this .....and I've come to a point where I can say thank you...so I sent my friend...well ex friend some flowers and a bottle of wine....and wait for it....she called me and said they are not my favourite flowers and not my favourite wine so I remembered what you said in other videos not to react but respond....so I stayed calm and said thank you...and she said GO TO HELL!!!!..😂.. ....So i said I've already been there...when I was friends with you!!!......😂.... jokes aside I have got to that point...and I loved the message thank you...
@@victoriadorgu3207 go away asshat
Betty Boo that is the most on point reply you could have got from this spirit ! ! I had such a laugh when I read your comment, they're actually funny when we are extracted and disengaged enough to look at it from the outside.
YOU. ARE SO SIMPLE AND DIRECT AND I APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR STRAIGHT TALK, IT IS TRUE ALL OF THE DRAMA AND HURT AND PAIN HAS HELPED ME TO SEE MYSELF MORE CLEARLY AND TO SEE THE NARCISSIST IN MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING SO MUCH MORE CLEARER. I HAVE LEARNED AND GROWN SO MUCH, ESPECIALLY EMOTIONALLY AND SPIRITUALLY, AND I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER AND I AM MUCH MORE HAPPIER!!!! NO NONE OF US ARE PERFECT BUT WE CAN DO BETTER AND I AM CONSTANTLY STRIVING TO IMPROVE MYSELF, SO I FEEL LIKE YOU DO, I CAN THANK THE NARCISSIST PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN IN LIFE AND KEEP GROWING AND LEARNING AND KNOW WHO WOULD BE TOXIC FOR ME AND HAVE THE WISDOM TO STAY AWAY FROM THEM!!!!!!!!! I THANK MY GOD EVERYDAY FOR HIS DIRECTION IN MY LIFE AND HE HAS DIRECTED ME HERE, BUT OF COURSE THROUGH HIS PERFECT WORD!!!!!!
He changed me to the point I don’t want to date anymore.let along I’m pregnant he’s with a new supply
Don’t let him. DON’T. It’s a Nightmare but you will heal. Take care of yourself and your kid to come - put maximum boundaries - get your friends to help you, support you. Whoever is capable listening to you without judging. Don’t let him steal away your self-love. You DO deserve a good man. Please, believe it. Take care 💕
I have been out for a while but now ....in this new space I am becoming more aware of my dependencies........also.......it is fun to rediscover who I am and what I like and stepping out into my freedom.....yes its is scary and I still cry at the hurt but its getting better......I am looking forward to life again.....I am laughing again.......this make me happy...........your videos are amazing .....thank you so much
Just told my husband narcissist to leave nd i was left with nothing of me its sad 🥴😥 how some ppl take all of a human nd dont care...
sorry to hear that
All the assessments you've mentioned are absolutely correct, you are dealing with a person that are very I'll mentally!!💯