What to Do if Kundalini Energy Feels Out of Control Learn how to control kundalini energy Immediately stop spiritual practices that over-stimulate the spine. Find a good spiritual counselor. If there isn’t one available in the meditation tradition you follow, ask God to guide you to someone who can help you. Mentally surround yourself with Light. Keep a picture of a great master or saint, like Yogananda or Jesus, and pray deeply for help as needed. Get plenty of exercise and fresh air. Breathe deeply while outdoors. Ground yourself in nature by working with plants or by walking barefoot on the grass or beach. Work with young children. Lead a balanced life. Get plenty of rest and eat a well-balanced diet with enough protein. Learn how to deal with stress. Be expansive and think of others. Avoid intense self-involvement. Don’t be afraid. Sometimes all that is needed is a slight course correction in your meditation routine and/or daily life. Remember, God is with you and guiding you through this experience. In time, everything will work out for the best.
You left me speechless. My big one happened 5 years ago after a prolongued period of unimaginable pressure, sleep deprivation, and gaslighting. My nervous system went haywire and I finally got diagnosed with lupus, which I've had my whole life. I was pretty close to death. Something was obviously rebalancing because I spontaneously took up art -- almost obsessively. Thanks for sharing this. Most of us think we're going nuts.
@martin.ballard I am so grateful you mentioned gaslighting, because I am confident that gaslighting is almost lighting the match to the fuel that causes the awakening to happen….. stress, our nervous system’s are shot , lack of sleep, and constantly feeling like you’re in fight or flight…. at least what happened to me. And then another traumatic sudden ending to my relationship that I was not expecting. It was an absolute recipe for disaster… Or awakening, and I’m glad my being chose the awakening! Well, it’s incredibly confusing to figure out what you’re going through, even in its darkest moments, I am grateful and it’s much better than putting up with someone telling you that you’re not remembering things correctly or lying and deceiving you. ❤
@@AnoopKumarPrasad wow, I just realized I've been dying for someone to ask me that question directly. In one phrase, I can only say that my identity down to the soul level was completely shattered. I think you could relate to it as shamanic dismemberment. I would say ultimately that I found my way back myself through music and art.
There is Nothing in life that feels better than finding someone who can relate to something you may be going through. This is a difficult & confusing journey. I have happy & sad 😭 tears right now. I was just wondering "What have I done so bad in my pass life to have so much pain in this life"!!😢💔 Thank you for your content!!... 💞 I'm not crazy!!😅 Nervous 😬..... Not crazy!!😅
I went through the same thing. In my case it was about 8 years ago and I can say that after processing emotions everyday, having hundreds of dead ends, guessing, misinterpretating I finally got to the place where I can just feel every emotion without any judgement and just let it go through my body and integrate it with my psyche. I would say that it is a process of emotional maturing that average teenager went through but for us with complex ptsd it didn’t happen naturally because of traumatic blockages. And now we just have to deal with every suppressed emotion and understand what they are about and learn how we really felt in our childhood/adolescence life.
Thank you so much for this!! The energy of Kali is exactly what I have been experiencing for the last few years. She is the image of divinity that I align with the most, which has been so strange to me, given my Christian upbringing. The purging and cleansing is what I'm in the thick of right now and you're totally right about the righteous rage. I just randomly cry and have fits of emotions, especially after doing something releasing like yoga or dream interpretation. It's a really hard path because no one even knows kundalini exists, and even those who do know, think that it is psychosis. It's a double edged sword because I've gained a lot of awareness, but it's not an awareness I can explain to other people, which makes it very lonely.
I would just recommend The Alchemist YT channel to you and maybe a session with her if you can. She explicates all the emotions and mythology, background & current crap in a very clear & supportive way. Choose a topic & dive in, or go back to the beginning. Think you'll like it. Best wishes.
I was so surprised to hear her refer to Kali. I got the date my Kundalini awakening started tattooed on my hand a long with Maha Kali in Sanskrit to invoke her because she was my guide during my event.
We have been taught to push it down, and let it go, but unless you purge, you cannot release the trauma. I am sending total love ❤️ Light and healing energy your way!
Oh I completely understand Trauma, It was severe childhood Trauma, but I started out slow with the healing process. My first book when I was 23 was You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hays, and it was a huge help. But Trauma is something that we are always healing from, but we come out on the other side stronger. I love that you are speaking your truth. For hundreds of years of generational curses and vicious cycles that have been brushed under the rug, and now is the time to bring ever to the light. We are awakening in so many ways on this planet, and I am hopeful.
This is the point I’m at now, super sensitive and easily but hurt and I can hear all the hurtful stuff that was said to me in childhood and every time I hear something related to those words on TV or in music trigger me so quickly nobody understands
Unlike any other post about Kundalini. I love your sharing. I experienced and experience similar things. After more than 8 years, thinking it was a lot better and easier I got ripped apart again. And still have faith because I experienced these dark nights before and know I come out with healed parts that I could not imagine. The proces is magical I cannot understand, only surrender to it. Mych love. So happy to have found your video
Thank you very much for posting this beautiful message. My full Kundalini awakening happened just about seven years ago and it was quite spontaneous but through intense meditation. I had no way was trying to have this experience and yet it happened. I actually had no clue what had happened to me. I just knew that I was awake and became very fearful immediately. This led into panic attacks which led into three and a half years of intense seizure activity. I went through a separation and a divorce right after this happened. In fact, i was separated almost to the day one year after this awakening. It changed my entire life and I'm very grateful now, but I had absolutely no friend or family support and was very blind through this process. I would love so much to speak with you about this! I too have had no one who really understands dealing with this type of intense awakening while still carrying a tremendous amount of trauma from childhood all the way to present. My son had passed away 2 years before this awakening happened and I was still drinking quite heavily which contributed to the panic and seizures. I will say that through this I have overcome many addictions and unhealthy attachments. The best medicine I have found is this unconditional self-love and self-compassion that you speak of. I have been able to use these tools to be unconditionally loving and compassionate to everyone around me, even though those who may not be for me lol. I'll leave it here, but this is very inspiring! I encourage you to keep talking about this and I promise you there are so many of us out there who really need this type of support and community 🙏💚♾️. Your courage to speak on these things is quite beautiful and you are very very appreciated and loved 💫❤️
Rainbow Turtle Frequency is the best handle ever :-) Yes everything changes and we don't know what's happening until we're through the majority of it. Like going down a river and hitting some rapids, you just have to hang on thank u
Thank you for the beautiful compliment, my friend🙏. Getting on board with life's ebb and flow has truly been the most beautifully painful experience💚. The Unconditional Love being cultivated is the Medicine, the Gift, and the most profound Reward...to me and everyone. Be the change we wish to see in the world♾️💚🙏
Thank you so much for your openness and compassion for us. Experiencing these awakenings while also working on trauma and PTSD simultaneously in isolation had been extremely challenging for me. But that was part of my process in learning how strong and brave I really was. I encourage you as you encourage me. We will continue this journey with new understanding everyday and do it together!
I got same stuff going on. Came to a head around 1995/6, i got in a situation where it was damned if u do damned if u dont. Loads of supernatural events started occurring in my life, which I am not interested in talking about, but I got the idea, life is not as I was assuming it was. I'm still all over the shop but doing better at not acting like I am. BUT one thing that keeps cropping up for me, is something central to what I consider ME is not having it! It insists on getting the nearest it can to authenticity. My superficial personality is like, yeh, ok, whatever, but what is underneath is volcanic, in that it that it puts up with stuff until I find myself doing inexplicable things. I've been trying to set up something for ages, to make a group of people who've experienced similar out there experiences for common support. But not easy. I think most just want to be free of IT, including my superficial personality. So it's like I have to carry on experiencing 'bad' stuff or I'd give up trying to help others. I have had moments of freedom from all mental suffering, but it wasnt blissful, more a resignation and it was as unbearable, for my inner personality seemingly as the mental torment to my outer personality is. I helped set up a group previously when I lived in London, under the spiritual crisis network umbrella, but eventually we all got so WELL that it just dissolved as everyone decided to move out of London, haha. I lived in a forest for a while and 100% helped. If I could manage it I'd live by a river in a forest. 99% of ailments dissolved and needs rather than wants prevailed in the mind. But would be good to chat to someone who's in it for the longhaul and looking to do stuff for others suffering too but in a low key everyday kind of way. And I get the crying, I cry every single day but I'm ok with it now cos I realise it's just passion near the surface. But other people are so freaked by crying, by an unapologetic man, Ur the 1st person I've come across though who's talking about it in the way I am. No fancy dressing it up, no bells and fancy clothing, just this is f8*%ing tuff.but necessary. Shame you're in the States? But I'm always looking to network with sympaticos Have a nice day. cheers
I can't believe I found you. It's like you're a friend who told me what I needed to hear. October 25th, 2001, 22 yrs ago, I was "Re-birthed" with the classic rebirthing model set out by Sondra Ray, (see the book, "Loving Relationships"). At first it was BLISS! Then after the honeymoon was over it was like trying to clean up the Twin Towers Disaster with a teaspoon! I had so much purging to do!! Unbeknownst to me, somewhere along the line, my Kundalini was awakened. I have no idea when, but it did. This is a double whammy because my past was filled with INTENSE TRAUMA. I suffered at the talons of a Demon of Fear that had attached itself to me when I was very young. It would hit me with surges of FEAR LIKE WAVES of LAVA as I lie in my bed as a teenager. The demon never spoke. It only injected venomous "Fear Poison" into my body. This when on for many years. I got delivered in my early 20's. . . . but the shit was still inside of me, the fear energy. Back to my "Re-birth Day" and the sly Kundalini Awakening on top of that, I was propelled into a spiritual journey of the most bizarre and painful proportions! My nervous system is shot to shit but has been in "The Process" of healing for 22 yrs now. To the degree that I was traumatized (tortured) is to the degree my system is being overhauled and re-worked. I've been to healer after healer and course after course to find out, fix, remedy, and just find some relief to my condition. Watching your video puts my "condition" into perspective and sheds light of my plight. Thank you! There is hope - - - there is relief - - - there will be an end to this suffering and pain & a beginning of something different (maybe not for another 20 yrs, though). I resonated with your words. Many thanks. You are not alone . . . nor am I.
Thank you very much for sharing this. I had a kundalini awakening about 3 years ago. As other people that I later heard about, it was induced by LSD, so I wasn't truly ready for that experience. It very much amplified the pain of trauma while other times experiencing states of bliss and union. I'm currently treating PTSD, having a hard time to integrate thoughts and feelings and my head feels full of a stagnant kundalini energy along with feelings of fear and doubt that sometimes become overwhelming. Sometimes I manage to surrender and open the doors to that current through spiritual practices. I don´t know if it's ok for me to share too much about it yet because I still have a lot to heal, but your sharing makes me feel less alone in this experience and gives me confidence to keep allowing myself to grow. Thank you thank you 🙏
Thankyou thankyou thankyou. Your honesty and courage is refreshing. Sending you lots of love. I am in year 5 of processing kundalini awakening and dealing with PTSD. It started as an explosion of memorie from pre birth in the womb and processing each year and now I I have moved into when I was 5. I am highly aware now of ancestral trauma and how it gets passed down, how we are imprinted in our mothers womb, how as children we are imprinted again by unsolved traumas within our family, how cycles keep repeating. I work closely with my guides and am reminded I am a catalyst for change. And I am seeing this change within my birth family. So much more love, gentleness, respect and kindess. It is beautiful. Yes I still have to choose at times do zi suurrender to love and peace of my Spirit or do I continue the old patterns of rage and hurt. So I choose to love.I feel I hold more light now than ever before, am beginning to feel the beginnings of true freedom. I remember my past lives. How I have learnt to be a leader a teacher to hold the light speak the truth. My guides remind me I was an innocent child. That those who harmed were not holding the light, so brainwashed and traumatised and repeating old family/societal patterns of behaviour or deliberately choosing to harm. Bloody scary stuff to remember, the intensity of remembering was truly dreadful . But the breakthroughs have been awesome!!!! I now see hear and feel my guides and talk them all the time. I have morning and eveningsessions with them, both like I am a student and a patient. I asked for then for this. I needed their reassurance, their love clarity and wisdom and humour.so I didn't feel alone anymore. I have also asked this kundalini awakening be a gentle process now, and that I give them permission to either knock me out or I sit in the illumination of their love and wisdom so I don't feel the intensity of the pain anymore. Interestingly during these times if I try to do something else I mentally fall into the distress of the trauma being released. So I am learning to accept this is my 'work' for now. I work only part time now. Now I see myself as one mighty light peaceful warrior and have moved out of anger disillusionment and despair to often now belief knowing love happiness again and so much wiser. . Yes I feel frustration and yes intense sorrow arises at times when I let rip with pure bluntness to perpetrators at times but it doesn't last long. I even giggle at the reality, I am becoming free of them. I feel this freedom. So I write to let you know. The work even though it's been the toughest thing I have ever done-The rawness has left me bare and broken so many times but after going through each release, the triumph is amazing!!. just as nature renews itself after a drought, a fire so I am renewed. My guides tell me I have another two years, the first 5 years were about undoing , allowing the traumas to rise, be felt, be witnessed be transformed. Year 6 and 7 will be about rebuilding my life in all areas. Nurturing myseld and others and sharing my gifts and wisdom. I ask all those reading this, Nurturing your inner child is an absolute must. I have found by doing so and freeing her from the padt, she is teaching me to trust in life again, sharing with me my soul wisdom. You will get through this to anyone starting out on this journey. I recommend move your body to release fear, even if it's wiggling fingers and toes, and express safely your emotions. Eat well, stay hydrated, hug a tree go out into mature, unplug from social media, when things get intense, slow deep breaths, anything that calms fown your nervous system i stopped eating sugar, minimised watching tv, went into nature as often as I could and gave myself permission that it was ok to have a nap, to hide under the bed covers and go gently. Ask Spirit to nurture you. Ask what is the best path forward every day. Because your guides do hear you and want to help.when you feel their love OMG, life truly transforms Xx
There are soooo many people on RUclips trying to talk about this subject. Watching your videos, I can easily tell you're "legit"! Part of this struggle has to do with cutting certain people out of your life who don't want to evolve. Some of those people are family.. Food is HUGE! More specifically, how your digestive system deals with certain foods.
I do my sun got murdered and sheesh when I say it’s been out of this galaxy of human comprehension I totally get you. My kundalini ripped from my spine through my crown chakra and it’s the heads seeing all like a toteum pole. It’s been 8 years of first getting to an awareness that I lost my child then going through CPTSD therapy then different spiritual systems now I’m just spending time alone without anybody. I’m so glad you spoke on this thank you for using your power to even share this.
I have chronic headaches, after 6 years of bliss the energy became to strong for me, and one morning in meditation it shot up and burned my crown chakra, slowly the burning and pain increased 7yrs later am still in pain, I went through and supported my son who had drug problems, he is now better, but much trauma through awakening sai ram to all, I tried Charlie Goldsmith hearler6"" but no good result
Shadow work has been the best tool throughout this process. It’s crazy, but there is an unseen force that is protecting us as we go through this process. When Kundalini chooses us she also protects us. I love how you have put this information together. Thank you.
Yes honey. Hardcore intense no words unbelievably challenging and terrifying experiences I have had. Almost six years now. I can’t find anyone who really talks about the raw bones of the process … the real process. Thank you. Cause I start feeling psychotic thinking I’m caught in a nightmare I don’t understand.
I’m going through this too, thank you for sharing. I feel like I’m walking a tight rope with my mental health and spiritual awakening balancing parallel (for which I’m grateful because at least it’s balanced)
Finding a teacher is not easy , most of them are people who have had the same difficult experience with the kundalini energy . But now they ask for example like € $ 80 for a hour ....I mean no harm but not everyone can afford it My ego have a vision 🤭 that is one day to make this kind of help and support available for everyone Thanks for the video,s they really help ✨🙏🙏
You are so strong for posting this ❤️. I have went through exactly what you mentioned and agree that it isn’t talked about enough - I don’t feel as alone now!
Thank you, this has been me for 4yrs now only this year going through another awakening both spiritual and kundalini where l wasn't quite open This yr has been huge, massive further purging, transformations as from the past and a complete shift alltogether in identity, it has been more challenging than ever It isn't spoken about and this has definately brought me to speak about it on podcast Thank you 🙏🌸
I’m sure you’ve heard of Gopi Krishna? His awakening was traumatic but then I’ve heard others have much smoother Kundalini experiences. It’s a bit confusing but I suppose everyone has a different past.
Just found your page! I cried with you💜💜 thanks for holding space! Im 2 years into this journey and i am tired but i have hope... and you are right about us all sharing our story it really helps💪! This really helped me! Thank you glad to have found you ❤🙏
Thank you, I am 61 and I am going through hell one day and heaven the next. It turned my life completely upside down, I initially thought I was posesed. I was diagnosed with complex PTSD stemming from my childhood. It feels like my computer is being rebooted, not easy at all, by far the hardest period in my life.
My Kundalini awakening was 4years ago. I have cptsd and I'm working thru it on my own most of the time. There is help for sure. Thank you for your honest vulnerability. I relate to most of what you shared . Thank you. Me too
@Aliens-Are-Our-Friends2027 Thank you, I am at awe how much love and positive energy is flowing into my life after that episode. I am so grateful and increasingly full of love for the world.
I had a spontaneous awakening following EMDR therapy for cPTSD 2 years ago. I also had plant medicine experiences which opened things up, but the awakening itself happened outside of those experiences. I was also just beginning a meditation practice and consciously starting to work through a chakra blockage. BAM! The experience itself was transcendent. I eat better, exercise regularly, and so much more conscious, but like you said, it's a process. Like, I'm on this upward spiral. I still have painful feelings, but I pause and go inward instead of grasping at all the external straws outside myself. I feel like it happened because my energy body was ready for it to happen, but so many experiences, revelations, etc. I'm slowly connecting in community, but that part has been really hard. I need community but it's even harder to relate to other people and I can't be anyone who's inauthentic in any way now... it just hurts. I'm blessed to be in a career that is both secure and doing meaningful work, but the connection thing is hard. I have loving relationships in my life, but no one I know who directly understands what this feels like. Maybe it's just that connecting had always been hard and I just can't bypass it any longer. I'm not sure.
Oh man that sounds intense! Thanks for sharing your experience. I have wondered if something like EMDR would be beneficial. Community is hard to build because the situation is so unique and not well understood (on multiple fronts,) and it can feel uncomfortable to go through it without a lot of feedback, I hear you! But maybe that will also be the blessing that we get to be for others.
You are Amazing . Thank you . I am able to meditate and get into what a love state ( bliss) , I mean body tingles , feel like I'm floating , ect. ,but I never understood the anger or frustration that would come sometime later . I so moved by the way you explained this . I can now see I need to meditate more . Thank you for being such a beautiful soul . I am truly grateful for you.
Thank you for this video. This is EXACTLY what I am going through. I have complex PTSD and had a spontaneous awakening a few months ago and the shock of the realisations and processing of it all, led to a complete nervous breakdown. The recovery is VERY slow... So much intense grief. Transmuting darkness IS hard work. Learning to surrender is also hard work. I regularly burst into tears. I now have lots of strategies; praying, reading, Qigong, grounding exercises, walking, praying some more, quiet time, self compassion talk to myself, rest, meditation, cooking healthy food, somatic therapy sessions, etc. It IS hard core. In the beginning, I felt like I was dying. Recovery is up and down, but overall, it feels like about 5 percent each week.
Well done for talking about it… mine blew in 2012. I had no idea what was happening to me at the time and I took years to stabilise and process the energies. Now, I’m unrecognisable from my previous self. It took some getting here though and yes; facing and processing the trauma was key. Your advice of, ‘just keep going’ is good advice 👍
@@blackswan8309 the first year was pretty traumatic… it started settling a bit after that but was an ongoing process. As I said in the comment above I didn’t know what had happened to me until much later. I self medicated with alcohol and cannabis which is a really bad idea. Had I known, I would have adopted a meditation practice and sought spiritual guidance from those in the know (India). You can’t go back to who you were… forwards is the only way.
Thank you for sharing this. Especially with the stuff I went through as a child, I had been blaming myself for a long time for I thought it must have been because of something I had done before. It has been a long journey of forgiving and letting go. Some days it is hard to believe if the pains will ever come to an end, and some days i glimpse how i used to feel light and loving as a child instead of all the hate I have been directing towards others since then, which gets reflected back to me and that I had to carry it with me when i didnt know what to do with it.
im ONLY 18 and already almost been a year since it went hay wire. i attemopted death several times at its height, so dont lose hope everyone it takes time to re stabalize your life. im now going to college and starting to get involved in clubs/routines again slowly.
I'm glad you are doing better! And thank you for sharing an example to give hope for others. We could all use the reminder. It truly does help. Many blessings
It’s demonic possession. I know bc it happened to me and took me 10 years to see it and get my life back. God would NEVER put you through something that made you suicidal for “healing” that is Satan my friend masquerading as an angel of light. Call on Jesus for healing and ask him to show you the truth. God bless.
Spontaneous kundalini awakening 4 years ago in the beginning of Covid lockdowns - it was terrifying and I had no outlet or guidance other than a few videos and articles I found on it . Eventually the intense rage and a wrath that came out of me was absolutely confusing and terrifying too (Kali) and I had to learn to work with it and hone it - I couldn’t believe it’s intensity … On the plus side I started to do “shadow work” at an insane speed… it took 4 months for the “electric” sensation to calm down- I also started drinking alcohol again to slow it down- so I didn’t get more purified because I already lived a very clean lifestyle beforehand. This made me not want to be perfect anymore. I also came across Hindu teachings that strongly warned against attempting to have a kundalini awakening because it could really screw you up and cause a kundalini psychosis . I definitely feel more grounded nowadays and calm in my core - however I’m not the same and I miss my more innocent and perfectly pure self lol - I definitely miss the bliss state- but I do feel traumatized from the kundalini itself and as if I never want for it to ever happen again - other than I’m thinking dying will be somewhat like it …
This helped someone who needed it. It has been the most relatable video I have watched so far, and I have been watching a lot trying to understand what happened to me. Thank you. ❤❤❤❤❤❤
I recently discovered I have CPTSD. It's been a really difficult time, but the universe has sent me to this video. I realised that the CPTSD isn't anything new - it's just been buried by my brain's constant coping strategies. And discovering this? It's good! It means I've progressed far enough in my path to spirituality that I am capable of digesting these traumas. It's been a tough couple of weeks. I believe I had my kundalini awaken on me recently - literally ended up unlocking a number of repressed memories just hours after experiencing the energy and serpent climbing my spine (though it only made it to my heart). But this video has helped me to come to terms with everything that's happening, and I can look at the future with optimism now! Now that I've spent so long with the pain of my chakras burning up, I'm recognising the feeling. And it's not a burn, as much as a burning NEED. A need to fix things. To get these emotions out and processed and to become the best version of myself. It's wonderful.
It has only made my life better and discipline easier - like the answer to the hope and faith I had before, now it is having a tangible reminder, a visceral reality guiding you, the felt sense of unconditional love and how it truly manifests and seems to desire that you feel it and know it through and through best wishes
3/4 years in. When your whole perception of you you thought you were is smashed! A lot of childhood trauma. I had a really good year then it crashed again. Old pains more intense than ever resurfacing the ever inward spiral 🌀
I hear you and yes, that's what its like, beautiful, then heavy, beautiful, then heavy and then you look up and it's mostly just good and finally its not just mostly good but you realize the bad is truly over and only happiness and felt bliss remains. I am a lot less scared about triggers now because the bliss always comes back but in the beginning I was worried that it wouldn't
I'm so happy you share this, and in such a personal way. In kundalini yoga we touch on trauma and how yoga/ meditation / mantras can work for recovering, but in my opinion only on the surface. It's not an official part of the level 1 and 2 training. Meanwhile I see many students and teachers with trauma that use KY, but mostly to become stronger, meaning feel less. They don't really process or heal, at least that is how I see it. Recently, I started learning about trauma sensitive yoga and the theory behind it (mostly from David Emerson). I learned how trauma effects the body and so many domains in life. Also that recovering is a multilayer reclamation. Also Peter Levine speaks about the recovering from trauma, and that this often felt as a rebirth, as a spiritual experience. Personally I was drawn to yoga intuitively when I was a student at the university. At that time I didn't know how traumatized I was. Now in my fifties, and a lot of hard work later, my experience and understanding of yoga and trauma and spirit is deeper, and I start to feel how they are connected. Many blessings ❤
Thank you dear, your video found me in the perfect timing. I recently came to know that I am dealing with neurodiversity and hypersensitivity related to giftedness - so the hardware is there for a reason - and a lot of the trauma has been related to the false understanding of this predisposition. Kundalini Ma stepped in, when I could no longer handle it myself. Dealing with PTSD it is now about finding balance between doing the psychological work and simultaneously allowing the purging & giving oneself to the process without running into the trap of having the Kriyas and all the accompanying stuff pathologized by unknowing therapists. Love & bliss Chris
I was doing massive shadow work, and tons of deep massage trauma work. Days before was waking up 2-4am. Eating little + laying on the bed it kinda just happened. Heart centered focus on God probably could have stopped it, but everything happens for us
Such a special post you have told the story of my experience I was suffering PTSD got professional therapy then started with Reiki then Energy healing Donna Eden then Somatic healing Peter Levine ,then TRE David Berceli then Kundalini I was guided by my much loved but departed Aunty now I have found something really special thank you for putting your words to my emotions love N x
This is a Beautiful Video. I'm currently going through this Process. A deep Dark Night of the Soul. My whole Life has crumbled & the only thing that is getting me through is daily Breathwork & Meditation. Anyways, Much Love ❤️
My kundalini awakening occurred in 2008. It was mild and actually pleasant. I had trained in Kundalini yoga for 18 months prior to the awakening. I fully recommend my experience to anyone.
Sometimes it's blocked energies moving, or pranic momentum rather than kundalini. The latter would have surely caused major upheaval and discomfort, perhaps spanning over decades.
@@marciestoddard730 I wouldn’t say that. I felt the energy go up my spine in a serpentine fashion. Then my essence left my head and went approximately 20 meters above my body. The entire experience was pleasant.
Thank you so much for this video. I had a spontaneous kundalini awakening 2 years ago. I was given clairsentience and clairvoyance but little claircognizanse, feeling and seeing everything but not knowing the rationale, has given me what I feel is PTSD. I appreciate you opening up and explaining some things, this was a great video, I wish I saw it 2 years ago.
Ya. Shit has been God damn wild. Nonstop pressure in my solar plexus. Throat muscles always clinched up. The critic keeps telling me I'm just fucked up and that nothing spiritual is happening and that it's all hopeless. I keep bringing in the new spiritual energies of Love and Safety to my Heart and to the base of my spine and my body is bugging out. A total shit show. Thanks for sharing your experience with this. Feels less lonely.
Have you ever been tested for allergies? Sometimes a mold allergy can make it even more difficult to go through the process. I lived in an apt with mold at the same time I was purging tons of old trauma stuff and I couldn't understand why things weren't improving when I was doing so much work. Once I moved and detoxed for a couple years, all of the bliss states came in without all the effort and my mind wasn't fuzzy and seeking all the time. It's always a bit of a dance between physical and spiritual, like the spiritual is attempting to give us the clues we need to make the physical feel better. Be well. Best wishes!!
Oh yes, happened to me spontaneously in November. I had to “reverse engineer” what the heck happened. It is profound and a blessing. Just keep moving forward and to find out your truth. Dr. Joe Dispenza and Delores Cannon were and are so helpful. Welcome to the AWAKENING!!! Thank you for sharing!!!
Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither wildly as they slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind Possessing and caressing me [Chorus] Jai Guru Deva, Om Nothing's gonna change my world
So thankful I came across this video this morning. 10 months into it and it’s incredibly difficult some days. Especially when you have nobody to discuss it with. Again, thank you for being so real and raw it has really helped me. 💫
This is the most emotional video i have seen about Kundalini Awakening. Most of the times we are only sold the dream of the experience and never the downside. Thank you very much for the video, it is very helpful.
Get a closer relationship with god. His there all the way. Ask for what you need. Trust trust trust. Feel it to heal it. Have your trusted support mechanism. Im here a year later and boy am i glad to say IM SO MUCH BETTER!
Thank you for making this video, from inside the journey, its truly refreshing, validating & strengthening to hear from someone who's really gone thru it too...X much love x
Thank you so very much for sharing your kundalini awakening 🙏🏽I’ve also experienced Kundalini Awakening 🥹it was such a powerful mind blowing moment 😩I nearly fell to the floor 😅Sending love and light beautiful🫶🏽Stay Shining Your Light 🌬️💨💨💫✨💫✨💫✨💫🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍
I just found this scrolling around and need to come back, so I subbed... very relevant to my own story... Kali was also something I aligned with... I need to go to bed right now been on here too much but I gotta say I had a doozie experience a few times and the last crisis was in February - March 2023... A lot of amazing things that I need to remember.... it all is starting to fade because I'm living in a stifling situation & been stuck here 6 years and its making me feel batshit crazy as in hopelessly lost & powerless and wanna explode out of this. I'm too old and beat up from life to go about things the way I used to when trying to move on, just feeling like no end in sight, can't change my environment depressed and godawful wondering why so much of my life has been a black wasteland. I'm sorry.... isolation is really offing me up bad at this point.... gonna get some rest & come back here.... maybe tomorrow.... thank you for being here. Funny having wished for something like this back in 2012 and over the years I'm witnessing witnesses and experiencers coming forward out of the woodwork and this is the best thing possible. So so so glad. 💖 Peace
Thank you. I’m working on my trauma and so much has changed in the last year. It’s like the light has opened up massively, but so has the darkness. It gets so intense at times that I often find myself in total despair. Then I’ll find an opening that I never seen before and things shift and open up. Then it’s brutal again shortly after on whole new level. It’s so good to hear what you shared today. It gives me more strength to keep battling on. 🙏
yes I hear you! so many layers! It can get exhausting but the layers of yucky eventually give way to layers of omg this is awesome and more and more unfolding of bliss and deep sense of feeling loved - keep going! you definitely deserve to feel that and become established in it
I want to thank you for this video and the raw sharing. You are such a beautiful person. I have PTSD myself, and I can truly feel what you're saying so much that I teared up when you did. Sending you so much love.
As it happened so many times lately, your video found me at the perfect timing, as I am going through this exact process, and it really is a rollercoaster, pretty scary at times. Thank you for sharing this, it helps me understand what is going on, and why. 🙏
The worst thing was the extreme physical spasms. And to be awake whilst still operating on autopilot (not able to stop the cycle or trauma). It was the most painful thing that happened but also the most liberating.
I have cptsd and went through a spontaneous kundalini awakening 2 years ago having no clue what it was at that time. It was a VERY difficult and at first disturbing experience not understanding what what was going. While stuff is still coming up to be processed, and i’m still getting used to different states of consciousness etc. my overall nervous system is much calmer than it has ever been in my life now
Thank you for this video. I recently have experienced the same experience. I never knew what a kundalini was ... and then it happened. I started having reiki sessions 3x a week for 3 months. Weeks into reiki it happened. The process started a year before as i sat and that about some heightened awareness that was a gift as a small child that wentvaway with childhood trauma. I spent years in therapy for ptsd and trauma. I wish i was warned at my reiki session of what could happen. I thought i was losing my mind. No... i was gaining more awareness and truth. It's still a scary experience when you dont know anything about it.
I think it's possible that not every Reiki practitioner is aware of some of the higher possibilities with Reiki depending on who they trained under but I do believe it definitely speeds the process. Thanks for your sharing! Blessings
Thank you for sharing, I understand and was the worst 6 year process dark night of the soul, beaing beaten since 3 and neglected since birth, and all the energies around that was why and the process was not understood until after. Love & Light , Bless you!
I totally agree with you regarding the concepts of karma and past lives to be used as an excuse not to do anything to face and stop absuse. I think it helps people to not face their own discomfort. My pattern being resolved was not one.of being a predator, it was one of generational matriarchal lineage powerlessness. Thanks for sharing. Brave and genuine.
Had a kundalini awakening in 2012, coming out the other end of it now. Triggered it out of desperation because my own psychological programming was killing my spirit and subverting my natural will at any point that went against my family denying my ability to say no when I needed to set boundaries and follow my own path. Had to phase many demons and trigger my ego into pure terror. The good thing is that after you figure out for the fiftieth time that you are dead wrong about a thing then the shock of the ego is over and discovering blockages illusions and lies, becomes a good thing and you realize it was always a good thing to be wrong. The only way to become right is to know when you were wrong. This is not an easy path it took me about 12 years and it was hell for many of them but now I respect the demons and the demons respect me. It is always the darkest before the dawn and what a great dawn it is. Stay strong.
Amen i felt healed and the energy i felt wss amazing ..yhe clarity i was so differnt ..but be csreful in that spave of compassion be careful u can definitly misread ur emotions .. my purging went good...its been six years ..im finally peaceful..still struggle at times..but god always comes thru..trust in him ..pray .❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much. "Kundalini is like a rewiring to your nervous system." I really appreciate you stating this. It' very helpful to hear this. I also appreciate your honesty & truth telling. I can relate to a lot of the hardcore things that you have experienced in your own healing & awakening process. I think that a lot of healers gloss over the reality of trauma & this can be a real problem. I believe in & have experienced ancestral memory. I don't know if I believe in past lives. I agree that, "The upgrade of the nervous system does make things better." Experiencing "bliss & compassion & strength" is such a gift as we do the healing work we are called to engage it. I agree that it's really important to take full stock of our reality right now & I hear you about wat you said about the lack of accountability in past life related ideas/concepts. Thank you for the wisdom that you shared.
thank you - I agree so much, trauma seems to get embedded with shame and lack of self-worth so glossing it over makes any sense of wholeness, integration and genuine unconditional love so hard to feel which are the tools the healer must use, if they are worth their salt
I dont know how much it helps when Kundalini say clearly: So you think its hard for you, know that there are countless others who feel worse. Okay, so i am nuts in this messed up world, but is it true? I think its a lot worse for those who adapt to society and keep the machinery up and running. ❤
Thank you for sharing your experience it takes a lot of courage. Looking back over these experiences two things come to mind. One I was never alone ,second today when emotion arise overwhelmingly I can embrace then knowing that it's a growing process. Thanks
Hey, a question - have you ever heard of something akin to a 'negative Kundalini' or an 'anti-Kundalini', which I intuit might be somehow based in some deep-seated fear or anger? The experience of this ray (not hot at all) shooting up the spine and the moment it reached the heart chakra, the intense short pain - I wonder if the process might have gone wrong somehow or (I was wondering for some time now) if maybe some of my chakras (the lower ones) got misaligned at some point in life, as I'd had a block between solar plexus and heart chakra for quite some time and been oscillating between being more empathic and egoic/fear-based polarities for quite some time... The idea of 'negative Kundalini' may be an exaggeration but I had heard something like that somewhere. Worried that my heart will end up somehow bypassed or screwed up, and what kind of person I might become due to this experience. It might just be a bunch of needless worrying (not the first time in my case) but pls advise, thank you 🙏
It can be a couple different things - one, that it is not fully risen through the crown, which may end up giving you increased prana or chi, shakti energy whatever word you want to use and you will have a little more work to do to clear the negative holes, gaps, or pathways that haven't dissolved. Old memories, even past life wounds handed down in your dna that you may have no conscious access to, only energetic, only feeling it because it has now been charged with spiritual energy. Second to that is wounding, parasites, attachments like unformed tulpas or thoughts you have so often they take on a life of their own. All of this can be cleared by conscious directed thought towards clearing. See, and the say clear all fields, clear all blocks, transmute or change energy being used for holding this pattern (whatever it feels like - name it) into holding this new pattern (again name it) You can also send that discordant energy holding negative patterns away from your field, see it and by that I mean don't run from it but be conscious of it (it is you), say clear any projections, attachments, no longer useful, painful, out of synch cords and pathways and move that energy out of my field, transmute that energy to something useful for the plant kingdom, the oceans or some other such natural place that can easily absorb untethered energy into positive directions. It's like working out knots, but you can just throw the whole string away. you don't need it, spiritual energy is endless. You can remake your entire nervous system into one of peace. that all said, if you have wounding, like a physical wound that has created pathways, there may be a deeper lesson and aspect of your path and you won't be able to just let it go. It's a strange version of bearing a cross, or thorn in the side type thing, it keeps a soul humble Hope that helps. Blessings
I have been going through this for a few years now , mine was spontaneous I hadn’t heeled trauma as I didn’t know how, and now I have energy pressure stuck in head I feel it in face and neck , my body pulses all day every day, negative thoughts are extremely exaggerated and never stop, I feel a lot of fear , I try to surrender sometimes it works, I go full nights without sleep, I’m just exhausted with it , I just try to be present with it all , Thanku for sharing I’ve been searching for answers as to what happened to me, sending prayers to all xx
yes, its a long process, I hear you. I've tried a number of different supplements along the way to help support my body. Because of my age, I've found hormone supportive herbs to be really helpful, l-theanine is an amino acid that helps with sleep and I was taking shatavari for awhile. Hormone fluctuations on top of all this nervous system recalibration can also increase anxiety and make things harder to balance. If you can find a way to ask your body what will help to relieve it's symptoms, it finds interesting ways to provide us answers. Wishing you peace
Yes it can definitely be extreme - I had a smoothie everyday for a year and added lots of supplements to it to try and keep up with the demands to the body trying to heal, purge, heal etc best wishes
I just want to say thank you with all my heart I really needed to hear that from someone who really knows what's going on my heart is heavy because I can feel your pain but I do appreciate you taking the time to think about others I really mean that I would love to connect with you if you was able if that seems like something possible let me know on here thank you have a good day
Bravo …. I have been in meditation many years and I am having kundalini experiences … I have good support and a guru … your comments were reassuring … they were helpful to me …. I have little fear … better yet when some fear arrises over the process … listening to others gone before helps … warm regards
What to Do if Kundalini Energy Feels Out of Control
Learn how to control kundalini energy
Immediately stop spiritual practices that over-stimulate the spine.
Find a good spiritual counselor. If there isn’t one available in the meditation tradition you follow, ask God to guide you to someone who can help you.
Mentally surround yourself with Light.
Keep a picture of a great master or saint, like Yogananda or Jesus, and pray deeply for help as needed.
Get plenty of exercise and fresh air. Breathe deeply while outdoors.
Ground yourself in nature by working with plants or by walking barefoot on the grass or beach. Work with young children.
Lead a balanced life. Get plenty of rest and eat a well-balanced diet with enough protein. Learn how to deal with stress.
Be expansive and think of others. Avoid intense self-involvement.
Don’t be afraid. Sometimes all that is needed is a slight course correction in your meditation routine and/or daily life.
Remember, God is with you and guiding you through this experience. In time, everything will work out for the best.
Brilliant. Thank you. Totally agree.
I have answered probably a hundred questions on this issue on quora
You left me speechless. My big one happened 5 years ago after a prolongued period of unimaginable pressure, sleep deprivation, and gaslighting. My nervous system went haywire and I finally got diagnosed with lupus, which I've had my whole life. I was pretty close to death. Something was obviously rebalancing because I spontaneously took up art -- almost obsessively. Thanks for sharing this. Most of us think we're going nuts.
@martin.ballard I am so grateful you mentioned gaslighting, because I am confident that gaslighting is almost lighting the match to the fuel that causes the awakening to happen….. stress, our nervous system’s are shot , lack of sleep, and constantly feeling like you’re in fight or flight…. at least what happened to me. And then another traumatic sudden ending to my relationship that I was not expecting. It was an absolute recipe for disaster… Or awakening, and I’m glad my being chose the awakening! Well, it’s incredibly confusing to figure out what you’re going through, even in its darkest moments, I am grateful and it’s much better than putting up with someone telling you that you’re not remembering things correctly or lying and deceiving you. ❤
@wacubby I totally concur. Understanding that gaslighting is real was so shocking I almost loat the reat of my mind.
@@martin.ballard totally relate, gosh!
Could you tell a bit more how gaslighting affected you?
@@AnoopKumarPrasad wow, I just realized I've been dying for someone to ask me that question directly. In one phrase, I can only say that my identity down to the soul level was completely shattered. I think you could relate to it as shamanic dismemberment. I would say ultimately that I found my way back myself through music and art.
There is Nothing in life that feels better than finding someone who can relate to something you may be going through. This is a difficult & confusing journey. I have happy & sad 😭 tears right now. I was just wondering "What have I done so bad in my pass life to have so much pain in this life"!!😢💔
Thank you for your content!!... 💞
I'm not crazy!!😅
Nervous 😬..... Not crazy!!😅
I went through the same thing. In my case it was about 8 years ago and I can say that after processing emotions everyday, having hundreds of dead ends, guessing, misinterpretating I finally got to the place where I can just feel every emotion without any judgement and just let it go through my body and integrate it with my psyche. I would say that it is a process of emotional maturing that average teenager went through but for us with complex ptsd it didn’t happen naturally because of traumatic blockages. And now we just have to deal with every suppressed emotion and understand what they are about and learn how we really felt in our childhood/adolescence life.
Yes
Thank you so much for this!! The energy of Kali is exactly what I have been experiencing for the last few years. She is the image of divinity that I align with the most, which has been so strange to me, given my Christian upbringing. The purging and cleansing is what I'm in the thick of right now and you're totally right about the righteous rage. I just randomly cry and have fits of emotions, especially after doing something releasing like yoga or dream interpretation. It's a really hard path because no one even knows kundalini exists, and even those who do know, think that it is psychosis. It's a double edged sword because I've gained a lot of awareness, but it's not an awareness I can explain to other people, which makes it very lonely.
Same same 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i can relate so much hugs to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
I would just recommend The Alchemist YT channel to you and maybe a session with her if you can. She explicates all the emotions and mythology, background & current crap in a very clear & supportive way. Choose a topic & dive in, or go back to the beginning. Think you'll like it. Best wishes.
Kali is significant in my story as well! ❤
I was so surprised to hear her refer to Kali. I got the date my Kundalini awakening started tattooed on my hand a long with Maha Kali in Sanskrit to invoke her because she was my guide during my event.
We have been taught to push it down, and let it go, but unless you purge, you cannot release the trauma. I am sending total love ❤️ Light and healing energy your way!
Oh I completely understand Trauma, It was severe childhood Trauma, but I started out slow with the healing process. My first book when I was 23 was You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hays, and it was a huge help. But Trauma is something that we are always healing from, but we come out on the other side stronger. I love that you are speaking your truth. For hundreds of years of generational curses and vicious cycles that have been brushed under the rug, and now is the time to bring ever to the light. We are awakening in so many ways on this planet, and I am hopeful.
This is the point I’m at now, super sensitive and easily but hurt and I can hear all the hurtful stuff that was said to me in childhood and every time I hear something related to those words on TV or in music trigger me so quickly nobody understands
I cried for you , and me , and all of us , bless
Unlike any other post about Kundalini. I love your sharing. I experienced and experience similar things. After more than 8 years, thinking it was a lot better and easier I got ripped apart again. And still have faith because I experienced these dark nights before and know I come out with healed parts that I could not imagine. The proces is magical I cannot understand, only surrender to it. Mych love. So happy to have found your video
Thank you very much for posting this beautiful message. My full Kundalini awakening happened just about seven years ago and it was quite spontaneous but through intense meditation. I had no way was trying to have this experience and yet it happened. I actually had no clue what had happened to me. I just knew that I was awake and became very fearful immediately. This led into panic attacks which led into three and a half years of intense seizure activity. I went through a separation and a divorce right after this happened. In fact, i was separated almost to the day one year after this awakening. It changed my entire life and I'm very grateful now, but I had absolutely no friend or family support and was very blind through this process. I would love so much to speak with you about this! I too have had no one who really understands dealing with this type of intense awakening while still carrying a tremendous amount of trauma from childhood all the way to present. My son had passed away 2 years before this awakening happened and I was still drinking quite heavily which contributed to the panic and seizures. I will say that through this I have overcome many addictions and unhealthy attachments. The best medicine I have found is this unconditional self-love and self-compassion that you speak of. I have been able to use these tools to be unconditionally loving and compassionate to everyone around me, even though those who may not be for me lol. I'll leave it here, but this is very inspiring! I encourage you to keep talking about this and I promise you there are so many of us out there who really need this type of support and community 🙏💚♾️. Your courage to speak on these things is quite beautiful and you are very very appreciated and loved 💫❤️
Rainbow Turtle Frequency is the best handle ever :-)
Yes everything changes and we don't know what's happening until we're through the majority of it. Like going down a river and hitting some rapids, you just have to hang on
thank u
Thank you for the beautiful compliment, my friend🙏. Getting on board with life's ebb and flow has truly been the most beautifully painful experience💚. The Unconditional Love being cultivated is the Medicine, the Gift, and the most profound Reward...to me and everyone. Be the change we wish to see in the world♾️💚🙏
Thank you so much for your openness and compassion for us. Experiencing these awakenings while also working on trauma and PTSD simultaneously in isolation had been extremely challenging for me. But that was part of my process in learning how strong and brave I really was. I encourage you as you encourage me. We will continue this journey with new understanding everyday and do it together!
Yes! 💖
I got same stuff going on. Came to a head around 1995/6, i got in a situation where it was damned if u do damned if u dont. Loads of supernatural events started occurring in my life, which I am not interested in talking about, but I got the idea, life is not as I was assuming it was. I'm still all over the shop but doing better at not acting like I am. BUT one thing that keeps cropping up for me, is something central to what I consider ME is not having it! It insists on getting the nearest it can to authenticity. My superficial personality is like, yeh, ok, whatever, but what is underneath is volcanic, in that it that it puts up with stuff until I find myself doing inexplicable things. I've been trying to set up something for ages, to make a group of people who've experienced similar out there experiences for common support. But not easy. I think most just want to be free of IT, including my superficial personality. So it's like I have to carry on experiencing 'bad' stuff or I'd give up trying to help others. I have had moments of freedom from all mental suffering, but it wasnt blissful, more a resignation and it was as unbearable, for my inner personality seemingly as the mental torment to my outer personality is. I helped set up a group previously when I lived in London, under the spiritual crisis network umbrella, but eventually we all got so WELL that it just dissolved as everyone decided to move out of London, haha. I lived in a forest for a while and 100% helped. If I could manage it I'd live by a river in a forest. 99% of ailments dissolved and needs rather than wants prevailed in the mind. But would be good to chat to someone who's in it for the longhaul and looking to do stuff for others suffering too but in a low key everyday kind of way. And I get the crying, I cry every single day but I'm ok with it now cos I realise it's just passion near the surface. But other people are so freaked by crying, by an unapologetic man, Ur the 1st person I've come across though who's talking about it in the way I am. No fancy dressing it up, no bells and fancy clothing, just this is f8*%ing tuff.but necessary. Shame you're in the States? But I'm always looking to network with sympaticos Have a nice day. cheers
I hear you. :-)
I can't believe I found you. It's like you're a friend who told me what I needed to hear. October 25th, 2001, 22 yrs ago, I was "Re-birthed" with the classic rebirthing model set out by Sondra Ray, (see the book, "Loving Relationships"). At first it was BLISS! Then after the honeymoon was over it was like trying to clean up the Twin Towers Disaster with a teaspoon! I had so much purging to do!!
Unbeknownst to me, somewhere along the line, my Kundalini was awakened. I have no idea when, but it did. This is a double whammy because my past was filled with INTENSE TRAUMA. I suffered at the talons of a Demon of Fear that had attached itself to me when I was very young. It would hit me with surges of FEAR LIKE WAVES of LAVA as I lie in my bed as a teenager. The demon never spoke. It only injected venomous "Fear Poison" into my body. This when on for many years. I got delivered in my early 20's. . . . but the shit was still inside of me, the fear energy.
Back to my "Re-birth Day" and the sly Kundalini Awakening on top of that, I was propelled into a spiritual journey of the most bizarre and painful proportions! My nervous system is shot to shit but has been in "The Process" of healing for 22 yrs now. To the degree that I was traumatized (tortured) is to the degree my system is being overhauled and re-worked. I've been to healer after healer and course after course to find out, fix, remedy, and just find some relief to my condition.
Watching your video puts my "condition" into perspective and sheds light of my plight. Thank you!
There is hope - - - there is relief - - - there will be an end to this suffering and pain & a beginning of something different (maybe not for another 20 yrs, though).
I resonated with your words. Many thanks. You are not alone . . . nor am I.
Sometimes you are the awakened soul that is holding space that no one else can hold. Be well, thank you for sharing
Thank you very much for sharing this. I had a kundalini awakening about 3 years ago. As other people that I later heard about, it was induced by LSD, so I wasn't truly ready for that experience. It very much amplified the pain of trauma while other times experiencing states of bliss and union. I'm currently treating PTSD, having a hard time to integrate thoughts and feelings and my head feels full of a stagnant kundalini energy along with feelings of fear and doubt that sometimes become overwhelming. Sometimes I manage to surrender and open the doors to that current through spiritual practices. I don´t know if it's ok for me to share too much about it yet because I still have a lot to heal, but your sharing makes me feel less alone in this experience and gives me confidence to keep allowing myself to grow. Thank you thank you 🙏
Thankyou thankyou thankyou. Your honesty and courage is refreshing. Sending you lots of love. I am in year 5 of processing kundalini awakening and dealing with PTSD. It started as an explosion of memorie from pre birth in the womb and processing each year and now I I have moved into when I was 5. I am highly aware now of ancestral trauma and how it gets passed down, how we are imprinted in our mothers womb, how as children we are imprinted again by unsolved traumas within our family, how cycles keep repeating. I work closely with my guides and am reminded I am a catalyst for change. And I am seeing this change within my birth family. So much more love, gentleness, respect and kindess. It is beautiful. Yes I still have to choose at times do zi suurrender to love and peace of my Spirit or do I continue the old patterns of rage and hurt. So I choose to love.I feel I hold more light now than ever before, am beginning to feel the beginnings of true freedom. I remember my past lives. How I have learnt to be a leader a teacher to hold the light speak the truth. My guides remind me I was an innocent child. That those who harmed were not holding the light, so brainwashed and traumatised and repeating old family/societal patterns of behaviour or deliberately choosing to harm. Bloody scary stuff to remember, the intensity of remembering was truly dreadful . But the breakthroughs have been awesome!!!!
I now see hear and feel my guides and talk them all the time. I have morning and eveningsessions with them, both like I am a student and a patient. I asked for then for this. I needed their reassurance, their love clarity and wisdom and humour.so I didn't feel alone anymore. I have also asked this kundalini awakening be a gentle process now, and that I give them permission to either knock me out or I sit in the illumination of their love and wisdom so I don't feel the intensity of the pain anymore. Interestingly during these times if I try to do something else I mentally fall into the distress of the trauma being released. So I am learning to accept this is my 'work' for now. I work only part time now. Now I see myself as one mighty light peaceful warrior and have moved out of anger disillusionment and despair to often now belief knowing love happiness again and so much wiser. . Yes I feel frustration and yes intense sorrow arises at times when I let rip with pure bluntness to perpetrators at times but it doesn't last long. I even giggle at the reality, I am becoming free of them. I feel this freedom. So I write to let you know. The work even though it's been the toughest thing I have ever done-The rawness has left me bare and broken so many times but after going through each release, the triumph is amazing!!. just as nature renews itself after a drought, a fire so I am renewed. My guides tell me I have another two years, the first 5 years were about undoing , allowing the traumas to rise, be felt, be witnessed be transformed. Year 6 and 7 will be about rebuilding my life in all areas. Nurturing myseld and others and sharing my gifts and wisdom. I ask all those reading this, Nurturing your inner child is an absolute must. I have found by doing so and freeing her from the padt, she is teaching me to trust in life again, sharing with me my soul wisdom. You will get through this to anyone starting out on this journey. I recommend move your body to release fear, even if it's wiggling fingers and toes, and express safely your emotions. Eat well, stay hydrated, hug a tree go out into mature, unplug from social media, when things get intense, slow deep breaths, anything that calms fown your nervous system i stopped eating sugar, minimised watching tv, went into nature as often as I could and gave myself permission that it was ok to have a nap, to hide under the bed covers and go gently. Ask Spirit to nurture you. Ask what is the best path forward every day. Because your guides do hear you and want to help.when you feel their love OMG, life truly transforms
Xx
thank you for being so realistic/neutral
There are soooo many people on RUclips trying to talk about this subject. Watching your videos, I can easily tell you're "legit"! Part of this struggle has to do with cutting certain people out of your life who don't want to evolve. Some of those people are family.. Food is HUGE! More specifically, how your digestive system deals with certain foods.
I do my sun got murdered and sheesh when I say it’s been out of this galaxy of human comprehension I totally get you. My kundalini ripped from my spine through my crown chakra and it’s the heads seeing all like a toteum pole. It’s been 8 years of first getting to an awareness that I lost my child then going through CPTSD therapy then different spiritual systems now I’m just spending time alone without anybody. I’m so glad you spoke on this thank you for using your power to even share this.
I have chronic headaches, after 6 years of bliss the energy became to strong for me, and one morning in meditation it shot up and burned my crown chakra, slowly the burning and pain increased 7yrs later am still in pain, I went through and supported my son who had drug problems, he is now better, but much trauma through awakening sai ram to all, I tried Charlie Goldsmith hearler6"" but no good result
Blessed be your soul/Being
Shadow work has been the best tool throughout this process. It’s crazy, but there is an unseen force that is protecting us as we go through this process. When Kundalini chooses us she also protects us. I love how you have put this information together. Thank you.
Yes honey. Hardcore intense no words unbelievably challenging and terrifying experiences I have had. Almost six years now. I can’t find anyone who really talks about the raw bones of the process … the real process. Thank you. Cause I start feeling psychotic thinking I’m caught in a nightmare I don’t understand.
6 years in as well. It's hard
I’m going through this too, thank you for sharing. I feel like I’m walking a tight rope with my mental health and spiritual awakening balancing parallel (for which I’m grateful because at least it’s balanced)
Finding a teacher is not easy , most of them are people who have had the same difficult experience with the kundalini energy .
But now they ask for example like € $ 80 for a hour ....I mean no harm but not everyone can afford it
My ego have a vision 🤭 that is one day to make this kind of help and support available for everyone
Thanks for the video,s they really help ✨🙏🙏
You are so strong for posting this ❤️. I have went through exactly what you mentioned and agree that it isn’t talked about enough - I don’t feel as alone now!
Thank you, this has been me for 4yrs now only this year going through another awakening both spiritual and kundalini where l wasn't quite open
This yr has been huge, massive further purging, transformations as from the past and a complete shift alltogether in identity, it has been more challenging than ever
It isn't spoken about and this has definately brought me to speak about it on podcast
Thank you 🙏🌸
It's so important to share these experiences. ✨
I’m sure you’ve heard of Gopi Krishna? His awakening was traumatic but then I’ve heard others have much smoother Kundalini experiences. It’s a bit confusing but I suppose everyone has a different past.
Just found your page! I cried with you💜💜 thanks for holding space! Im 2 years into this journey and i am tired but i have hope... and you are right about us all sharing our story it really helps💪! This really helped me! Thank you glad to have found you ❤🙏
Big Love to you!
Thank you, I am 61 and I am going through hell one day and heaven the next. It turned my life completely upside down, I initially thought I was posesed. I was diagnosed with complex PTSD stemming from my childhood. It feels like my computer is being rebooted, not easy at all, by far the hardest period in my life.
My Kundalini awakening was 4years ago. I have cptsd and I'm working thru it on my own most of the time. There is help for sure. Thank you for your honest vulnerability. I relate to most of what you shared . Thank you. Me too
Breathe deep into your heart. You are loved
@donwalker117 Thank you
@Aliens-Are-Our-Friends2027 Thank you, I am at awe how much love and positive energy is flowing into my life after that episode. I am so grateful and increasingly full of love for the world.
I had a spontaneous awakening following EMDR therapy for cPTSD 2 years ago. I also had plant medicine experiences which opened things up, but the awakening itself happened outside of those experiences. I was also just beginning a meditation practice and consciously starting to work through a chakra blockage. BAM! The experience itself was transcendent. I eat better, exercise regularly, and so much more conscious, but like you said, it's a process. Like, I'm on this upward spiral. I still have painful feelings, but I pause and go inward instead of grasping at all the external straws outside myself. I feel like it happened because my energy body was ready for it to happen, but so many experiences, revelations, etc.
I'm slowly connecting in community, but that part has been really hard. I need community but it's even harder to relate to other people and I can't be anyone who's inauthentic in any way now... it just hurts. I'm blessed to be in a career that is both secure and doing meaningful work, but the connection thing is hard. I have loving relationships in my life, but no one I know who directly understands what this feels like. Maybe it's just that connecting had always been hard and I just can't bypass it any longer. I'm not sure.
Oh man that sounds intense! Thanks for sharing your experience. I have wondered if something like EMDR would be beneficial. Community is hard to build because the situation is so unique and not well understood (on multiple fronts,) and it can feel uncomfortable to go through it without a lot of feedback, I hear you! But maybe that will also be the blessing that we get to be for others.
You are Amazing . Thank you . I am able to meditate and get into what a love state ( bliss) , I mean body tingles , feel like I'm floating , ect. ,but I never understood the anger or frustration that would come sometime later . I so moved by the way you explained this . I can now see I need to meditate more . Thank you for being such a beautiful soul . I am truly grateful for you.
You're welcome! Thank you for being here
Thank you for this video. This is EXACTLY what I am going through. I have complex PTSD and had a spontaneous awakening a few months ago and the shock of the realisations and processing of it all, led to a complete nervous breakdown. The recovery is VERY slow... So much intense grief. Transmuting darkness IS hard work. Learning to surrender is also hard work. I regularly burst into tears. I now have lots of strategies; praying, reading, Qigong, grounding exercises, walking, praying some more, quiet time, self compassion talk to myself, rest, meditation, cooking healthy food, somatic therapy sessions, etc. It IS hard core. In the beginning, I felt like I was dying. Recovery is up and down, but overall, it feels like about 5 percent each week.
Well done for talking about it… mine blew in 2012. I had no idea what was happening to me at the time and I took years to stabilise and process the energies. Now, I’m unrecognisable from my previous self. It took some getting here though and yes; facing and processing the trauma was key.
Your advice of, ‘just keep going’ is good advice 👍
When did it start to be stabilized?
@@blackswan8309 the first year was pretty traumatic… it started settling a bit after that but was an ongoing process. As I said in the comment above I didn’t know what had happened to me until much later. I self medicated with alcohol and cannabis which is a really bad idea. Had I known, I would have adopted a meditation practice and sought spiritual guidance from those in the know (India). You can’t go back to who you were… forwards is the only way.
Thank you for sharing this. Especially with the stuff I went through as a child, I had been blaming myself for a long time for I thought it must have been because of something I had done before. It has been a long journey of forgiving and letting go. Some days it is hard to believe if the pains will ever come to an end, and some days i glimpse how i used to feel light and loving as a child instead of all the hate I have been directing towards others since then, which gets reflected back to me and that I had to carry it with me when i didnt know what to do with it.
im ONLY 18 and already almost been a year since it went hay wire. i attemopted death several times at its height, so dont lose hope everyone it takes time to re stabalize your life. im now going to college and starting to get involved in clubs/routines again slowly.
I'm glad you are doing better! And thank you for sharing an example to give hope for others. We could all use the reminder. It truly does help. Many blessings
It’s demonic possession. I know bc it happened to me and took me 10 years to see it and get my life back. God would NEVER put you through something that made you suicidal for “healing” that is Satan my friend masquerading as an angel of light. Call on Jesus for healing and ask him to show you the truth. God bless.
Spontaneous kundalini awakening 4 years ago in the beginning of Covid lockdowns - it was terrifying and I had no outlet or guidance other than a few videos and articles I found on it . Eventually the intense rage and a wrath that came out of me was absolutely confusing and terrifying too (Kali) and I had to learn to work with it and hone it - I couldn’t believe it’s intensity …
On the plus side I started to do “shadow work” at an insane speed…
it took 4 months for the “electric” sensation to calm down- I also started drinking alcohol again to slow it down- so I didn’t get more purified because I already lived a very clean lifestyle beforehand. This made me not want to be perfect anymore.
I also came across Hindu teachings that strongly warned against attempting to have a kundalini awakening because it could really screw you up and cause a kundalini psychosis .
I definitely feel more grounded nowadays and calm in my core - however I’m not the same and I miss my more innocent and perfectly pure self lol - I definitely miss the bliss state- but I do feel traumatized from the kundalini itself and as if I never want for it to ever happen again - other than I’m thinking dying will be somewhat like it …
This helped someone who needed it.
It has been the most relatable video I have watched so far, and I have been watching a lot trying to understand what happened to me.
Thank you. ❤❤❤❤❤❤
thank you 🙏
I'm grateful for your share ❤this is so hard I'm tired of sufferage
I recently discovered I have CPTSD. It's been a really difficult time, but the universe has sent me to this video. I realised that the CPTSD isn't anything new - it's just been buried by my brain's constant coping strategies. And discovering this? It's good! It means I've progressed far enough in my path to spirituality that I am capable of digesting these traumas. It's been a tough couple of weeks. I believe I had my kundalini awaken on me recently - literally ended up unlocking a number of repressed memories just hours after experiencing the energy and serpent climbing my spine (though it only made it to my heart). But this video has helped me to come to terms with everything that's happening, and I can look at the future with optimism now!
Now that I've spent so long with the pain of my chakras burning up, I'm recognising the feeling. And it's not a burn, as much as a burning NEED. A need to fix things. To get these emotions out and processed and to become the best version of myself. It's wonderful.
what a beautiful testimony - thanks for sharing! Very encouraging!
I can see the universe expanding I can awaken to the idea that I’m source energy but I am so TIRED lately I can’t stop sleeping!!!!!
That can happen! Sometimes we just need to listen to what the body is asking for so we're ready for whatever comes next :-)
Mine is vibrating my body now. I believe it’s rising. I have been meditating for 3 years now. It was nice to listen to Thank u I’m a little scared.
It has only made my life better and discipline easier - like the answer to the hope and faith I had before, now it is having a tangible reminder, a visceral reality guiding you, the felt sense of unconditional love and how it truly manifests and seems to desire that you feel it and know it through and through
best wishes
3/4 years in. When your whole perception of you you thought you were is smashed!
A lot of childhood trauma.
I had a really good year then it crashed again. Old pains more intense than ever resurfacing the ever inward spiral 🌀
I hear you and yes, that's what its like, beautiful, then heavy, beautiful, then heavy and then you look up and it's mostly just good and finally its not just mostly good but you realize the bad is truly over and only happiness and felt bliss remains. I am a lot less scared about triggers now because the bliss always comes back but in the beginning I was worried that it wouldn't
I like that you're so authentic
The amount of courage it took for you to do this is amazing. My heart, mind and soul thank you.
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I'm so happy you share this, and in such a personal way.
In kundalini yoga we touch on trauma and how yoga/ meditation / mantras can work for recovering, but in my opinion only on the surface. It's not an official part of the level 1 and 2 training.
Meanwhile I see many students and teachers with trauma that use KY, but mostly to become stronger, meaning feel less. They don't really process or heal, at least that is how I see it.
Recently, I started learning about trauma sensitive yoga and the theory behind it (mostly from David Emerson). I learned how trauma effects the body and so many domains in life. Also that recovering is a multilayer reclamation.
Also Peter Levine speaks about the recovering from trauma, and that this often felt as a rebirth, as a spiritual experience.
Personally I was drawn to yoga intuitively when I was a student at the university. At that time I didn't know how traumatized I was. Now in my fifties, and a lot of hard work later, my experience and understanding of yoga and trauma and spirit is deeper, and I start to feel how they are connected.
Many blessings ❤
Thank you. I needed this, sending so much love 🤗
Thank you dear, your video found me in the perfect timing.
I recently came to know that I am dealing with neurodiversity and hypersensitivity related to giftedness - so the hardware is there for a reason - and a lot of the trauma has been related to the false understanding of this predisposition. Kundalini Ma stepped in, when I could no longer handle it myself. Dealing with PTSD it is now about finding balance between doing the psychological work and simultaneously allowing the purging & giving oneself to the process without running into the trap of having the Kriyas and all the accompanying stuff pathologized by unknowing therapists.
Love & bliss
Chris
I was doing massive shadow work, and tons of deep massage trauma work. Days before was waking up 2-4am. Eating little + laying on the bed it kinda just happened. Heart centered focus on God probably could have stopped it, but everything happens for us
Such a special post you have told the story of my experience I was suffering PTSD got professional therapy then started with Reiki then Energy healing Donna Eden then Somatic healing Peter Levine ,then TRE David Berceli then Kundalini I was guided by my much loved but departed Aunty now I have found something really special thank you for putting your words to my emotions love N x
Beautiful! Thank you
@@MettaM444 ❤
This is a Beautiful Video. I'm currently going through this Process. A deep Dark Night of the Soul. My whole Life has crumbled & the only thing that is getting me through is daily Breathwork & Meditation. Anyways,
Much Love ❤️
Much love to you
My kundalini awakening occurred in 2008. It was mild and actually pleasant. I had trained in Kundalini yoga for 18 months prior to the awakening. I fully recommend my experience to anyone.
Sometimes it's blocked energies moving, or pranic momentum rather than kundalini. The latter would have surely caused major upheaval and discomfort, perhaps spanning over decades.
@@marciestoddard730 I wouldn’t say that. I felt the energy go up my spine in a serpentine fashion. Then my essence left my head and went approximately 20 meters above my body. The entire experience was pleasant.
Thank you so much for this video. I had a spontaneous kundalini awakening 2 years ago. I was given clairsentience and clairvoyance but little claircognizanse, feeling and seeing everything but not knowing the rationale, has given me what I feel is PTSD. I appreciate you opening up and explaining some things, this was a great video, I wish I saw it 2 years ago.
Ya. Shit has been God damn wild. Nonstop pressure in my solar plexus. Throat muscles always clinched up. The critic keeps telling me I'm just fucked up and that nothing spiritual is happening and that it's all hopeless.
I keep bringing in the new spiritual energies of Love and Safety to my Heart and to the base of my spine and my body is bugging out. A total shit show.
Thanks for sharing your experience with this. Feels less lonely.
Have you ever been tested for allergies? Sometimes a mold allergy can make it even more difficult to go through the process. I lived in an apt with mold at the same time I was purging tons of old trauma stuff and I couldn't understand why things weren't improving when I was doing so much work. Once I moved and detoxed for a couple years, all of the bliss states came in without all the effort and my mind wasn't fuzzy and seeking all the time. It's always a bit of a dance between physical and spiritual, like the spiritual is attempting to give us the clues we need to make the physical feel better. Be well. Best wishes!!
You’re so brave doing this. Thank you 🙏 ❤
I’m with you girl 🙏🏻 Keep clearing the old/past energy. 💞 Thank you for sharing 💚
🙏 you are just describing the state i am going through and I am tired ..it resonates completely..
Oh yes, happened to me spontaneously in November. I had to “reverse engineer” what the heck happened. It is profound and a blessing. Just keep moving forward and to find out your truth.
Dr. Joe Dispenza and Delores Cannon were and are so helpful.
Welcome to the AWAKENING!!!
Thank you for sharing!!!
Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup
They slither wildly as they slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind
Possessing and caressing me
[Chorus]
Jai Guru Deva, Om
Nothing's gonna change my world
So thankful I came across this video this morning. 10 months into it and it’s incredibly difficult some days. Especially when you have nobody to discuss it with. Again, thank you for being so real and raw it has really helped me. 💫
You are such a beautiful being ❤
Big blessing thank you
This is the most emotional video i have seen about Kundalini Awakening. Most of the times we are only sold the dream of the experience and never the downside. Thank you very much for the video, it is very helpful.
Get a closer relationship with god. His there all the way. Ask for what you need. Trust trust trust. Feel it to heal it. Have your trusted support mechanism. Im here a year later and boy am i glad to say IM SO MUCH BETTER!
thank you - peace
Thank you for making this video, from inside the journey, its truly refreshing, validating & strengthening to hear from someone who's really gone thru it too...X much love x
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Thank you so very much for sharing your kundalini awakening 🙏🏽I’ve also experienced Kundalini Awakening 🥹it was such a powerful mind blowing moment 😩I nearly fell to the floor 😅Sending love and light beautiful🫶🏽Stay Shining Your Light 🌬️💨💨💫✨💫✨💫✨💫🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍
Thank you for sharing. This is exactly what I needed to hear. Been going through so much lately, that this information resonates deeply 🙏
I just found this scrolling around and need to come back, so I subbed... very relevant to my own story... Kali was also something I aligned with... I need to go to bed right now been on here too much but I gotta say I had a doozie experience a few times and the last crisis was in February - March 2023... A lot of amazing things that I need to remember.... it all is starting to fade because I'm living in a stifling situation & been stuck here 6 years and its making me feel batshit crazy as in hopelessly lost & powerless and wanna explode out of this. I'm too old and beat up from life to go about things the way I used to when trying to move on, just feeling like no end in sight, can't change my environment depressed and godawful wondering why so much of my life has been a black wasteland. I'm sorry.... isolation is really offing me up bad at this point.... gonna get some rest & come back here.... maybe tomorrow.... thank you for being here. Funny having wished for something like this back in 2012 and over the years I'm witnessing witnesses and experiencers coming forward out of the woodwork and this is the best thing possible. So so so glad. 💖 Peace
Helped me so much! In the midst of mine. No idea what was happening at all. ❤️
Glad it helped!
Thank you. I’m working on my trauma and so much has changed in the last year. It’s like the light has opened up massively, but so has the darkness. It gets so intense at times that I often find myself in total despair. Then I’ll find an opening that I never seen before and things shift and open up. Then it’s brutal again shortly after on whole new level. It’s so good to hear what you shared today. It gives me more strength to keep battling on. 🙏
yes I hear you! so many layers! It can get exhausting but the layers of yucky eventually give way to layers of omg this is awesome and more and more unfolding of bliss and deep sense of feeling loved - keep going! you definitely deserve to feel that and become established in it
I want to thank you for this video and the raw sharing. You are such a beautiful person. I have PTSD myself, and I can truly feel what you're saying so much that I teared up when you did. Sending you so much love.
As it happened so many times lately, your video found me at the perfect timing, as I am going through this exact process, and it really is a rollercoaster, pretty scary at times. Thank you for sharing this, it helps me understand what is going on, and why. 🙏
The worst thing was the extreme physical spasms. And to be awake whilst still operating on autopilot (not able to stop the cycle or trauma). It was the most painful thing that happened but also the most liberating.
I'm so happy I've found your video. You talk exactly about my experience and yes, its not easy to get any feedback on it.
Hugs
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You are a beautiful experience helping me feel beauty and guidance.
Thank you.
Best explanation for what happened to me 10 years ago. Yes, the kundalini energy lasted 5 years. The first 6 months were just pure torture.
I have cptsd and went through a spontaneous kundalini awakening 2 years ago having no clue what it was at that time. It was a VERY difficult and at first disturbing experience not understanding what what was going. While stuff is still coming up to be processed, and i’m still getting used to different states of consciousness etc. my overall nervous system is much calmer than it has ever been in my life now
That's wonderful to hear! Thank you
Thank you for this video. I recently have experienced the same experience.
I never knew what a kundalini was ... and then it happened.
I started having reiki sessions 3x a week for 3 months. Weeks into reiki it happened.
The process started a year before as i sat and that about some heightened awareness that was a gift as a small child that wentvaway with childhood trauma.
I spent years in therapy for ptsd and trauma. I wish i was warned at my reiki session of what could happen. I thought i was losing my mind. No... i was gaining more awareness and truth. It's still a scary experience when you dont know anything about it.
I think it's possible that not every Reiki practitioner is aware of some of the higher possibilities with Reiki depending on who they trained under but I do believe it definitely speeds the process. Thanks for your sharing! Blessings
@@MettaM444 agree
Thank you for sharing, I understand and was the worst 6 year process dark night of the soul, beaing beaten since 3 and neglected since birth, and all the energies around that was why and the process was not understood until after. Love & Light , Bless you!
Thank you so much for this video, it mean a lot more than I can explain ♥
You have a brightness in your eyes!
Thank you for sharing your story with us ❤
I totally agree with you regarding the concepts of karma and past lives to be used as an excuse not to do anything to face and stop absuse. I think it helps people to not face their own discomfort. My pattern being resolved was not one.of being a predator, it was one of generational matriarchal lineage powerlessness. Thanks for sharing. Brave and genuine.
Had a kundalini awakening in 2012, coming out the other end of it now.
Triggered it out of desperation because my own psychological programming was killing my spirit and subverting my natural will at any point that went against my family denying my ability to say no when I needed to set boundaries and follow my own path. Had to phase many demons and trigger my ego into pure terror. The good thing is that after you figure out for the fiftieth time that you are dead wrong about a thing then the shock of the ego is over and discovering blockages illusions and lies, becomes a good thing and you realize it was always a good thing to be wrong.
The only way to become right is to know when you were wrong.
This is not an easy path it took me about 12 years and it was hell for many of them but now I respect the demons and the demons respect me. It is always the darkest before the dawn and what a great dawn it is.
Stay strong.
well said, thank you
What do you mean by demons? I read alot of people have been seeing entities! And speak to them! Tbh that should be terrifying ?
Amen i felt healed and the energy i felt wss amazing ..yhe clarity i was so differnt ..but be csreful in that spave of compassion be careful u can definitly misread ur emotions .. my purging went good...its been six years ..im finally peaceful..still struggle at times..but god always comes thru..trust in him ..pray .❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much. "Kundalini is like a rewiring to your nervous system." I really appreciate you stating this. It' very helpful to hear this. I also appreciate your honesty & truth telling.
I can relate to a lot of the hardcore things that you have experienced in your own healing & awakening process. I think that a lot of healers gloss over the reality of trauma & this can
be a real problem. I believe in & have experienced ancestral memory. I don't know if I believe
in past lives. I agree that, "The upgrade of the nervous system does make things better." Experiencing "bliss & compassion & strength" is such a gift as we do the healing work we are called to engage it. I agree that it's really important to take full stock of our reality right now
& I hear you about wat you said about the lack of accountability in past life related ideas/concepts. Thank you for the wisdom that you shared.
thank you - I agree so much, trauma seems to get embedded with shame and lack of self-worth so glossing it over makes any sense of wholeness, integration and genuine unconditional love so hard to feel which are the tools the healer must use, if they are worth their salt
Divine timing with this video. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I dont know how much it helps when Kundalini say clearly: So you think its hard for you, know that there are countless others who feel worse. Okay, so i am nuts in this messed up world, but is it true? I think its a lot worse for those who adapt to society and keep the machinery up and running. ❤
Thank you for sharing your experience it takes a lot of courage. Looking back over these experiences two things come to mind. One I was never alone ,second today when emotion arise overwhelmingly I can embrace then knowing that it's a growing process. Thanks
This was so real & beautifully honest. Thank you
Hey, a question - have you ever heard of something akin to a 'negative Kundalini' or an 'anti-Kundalini', which I intuit might be somehow based in some deep-seated fear or anger? The experience of this ray (not hot at all) shooting up the spine and the moment it reached the heart chakra, the intense short pain - I wonder if the process might have gone wrong somehow or (I was wondering for some time now) if maybe some of my chakras (the lower ones) got misaligned at some point in life, as I'd had a block between solar plexus and heart chakra for quite some time and been oscillating between being more empathic and egoic/fear-based polarities for quite some time... The idea of 'negative Kundalini' may be an exaggeration but I had heard something like that somewhere. Worried that my heart will end up somehow bypassed or screwed up, and what kind of person I might become due to this experience. It might just be a bunch of needless worrying (not the first time in my case) but pls advise, thank you 🙏
It can be a couple different things - one, that it is not fully risen through the crown, which may end up giving you increased prana or chi, shakti energy whatever word you want to use and you will have a little more work to do to clear the negative holes, gaps, or pathways that haven't dissolved. Old memories, even past life wounds handed down in your dna that you may have no conscious access to, only energetic, only feeling it because it has now been charged with spiritual energy. Second to that is wounding, parasites, attachments like unformed tulpas or thoughts you have so often they take on a life of their own. All of this can be cleared by conscious directed thought towards clearing. See, and the say clear all fields, clear all blocks, transmute or change energy being used for holding this pattern (whatever it feels like - name it) into holding this new pattern (again name it) You can also send that discordant energy holding negative patterns away from your field, see it and by that I mean don't run from it but be conscious of it (it is you), say clear any projections, attachments, no longer useful, painful, out of synch cords and pathways and move that energy out of my field, transmute that energy to something useful for the plant kingdom, the oceans or some other such natural place that can easily absorb untethered energy into positive directions.
It's like working out knots, but you can just throw the whole string away. you don't need it, spiritual energy is endless. You can remake your entire nervous system into one of peace.
that all said, if you have wounding, like a physical wound that has created pathways, there may be a deeper lesson and aspect of your path and you won't be able to just let it go. It's a strange version of bearing a cross, or thorn in the side type thing, it keeps a soul humble
Hope that helps. Blessings
Your journey is helping so many!
I have been going through this for a few years now , mine was spontaneous I hadn’t heeled trauma as I didn’t know how, and now I have energy pressure stuck in head I feel it in face and neck , my body pulses all day every day, negative thoughts are extremely exaggerated and never stop, I feel a lot of fear , I try to surrender sometimes it works, I go full nights without sleep, I’m just exhausted with it , I just try to be present with it all , Thanku for sharing I’ve been searching for answers as to what happened to me, sending prayers to all xx
yes, its a long process, I hear you. I've tried a number of different supplements along the way to help support my body. Because of my age, I've found hormone supportive herbs to be really helpful, l-theanine is an amino acid that helps with sleep and I was taking shatavari for awhile. Hormone fluctuations on top of all this nervous system recalibration can also increase anxiety and make things harder to balance. If you can find a way to ask your body what will help to relieve it's symptoms, it finds interesting ways to provide us answers.
Wishing you peace
Thank you...beautiful message
Thank you and bless you. I send you all love 💖
❤ thank you for the enlightenment and great job.
Thankyou for sharing, the physical impact this is having seem extremeXx
Yes it can definitely be extreme - I had a smoothie everyday for a year and added lots of supplements to it to try and keep up with the demands to the body trying to heal, purge, heal etc best wishes
I just want to say thank you with all my heart I really needed to hear that from someone who really knows what's going on my heart is heavy because I can feel your pain but I do appreciate you taking the time to think about others I really mean that I would love to connect with you if you was able if that seems like something possible let me know on here thank you have a good day
I don’t know if this was my experience but I didn’t have much childhood trauma to my knowledge so I leave it for others 🙏
Wow.I feel you.I know what you mean.Much love.I love you❤❤❤❤
Big Love ~ Thank you
I’m in there 😅 3 mo now. Yes to all this
thank you for sharing. much love to you.
Bravo …. I have been in meditation many years and I am having kundalini experiences … I have good support and a guru … your comments were reassuring … they were helpful to me …. I have little fear … better yet when some fear arrises over the process … listening to others gone before helps … warm regards