Thank YOU Chris for sharing your story. I know it will help many out there. For those reading this, Chris told me that if there is enough interest he may make his own videos. So feel free to subscribe to his channel (that left the above comment)if that is something you would like.
Thank you for sharing your story, I struggle with mental illness and hearing stories like mine help me feel so much less alone. Sending love your way ❤️
Thank you for sharing your life struggles and the things you have experienced. Much love and respect your way. Keep on working on yourself becuaase you are worth it. You are worth working towards the best life you can have.
I was having so much suicidal thoughts 10 years ago as a teenage, also suffered severe anxiety and mental disorder. I got diagnosed with bipolar, spent my whole life fighting bipolar. Not until my husband recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
YES sure of mycologist Pedroshrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, addiction. Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
If you see this, it is not your fault for wanting a dog. Period. 💔 I hope you are able to get a service dog that helps keep you grounded during any delusions. Your dog will always have your back, you wont have to worry. I'm so glad you have your hope back. You deserve a beautiful life. 💜💜
It's common with type 1 aka eccentric personality disorder clusters which is what he is a part of. He has schizoaffective disorder. It is unlikely for a patient to present comorbidly as autistic with a schizoaffective disorder. There have been very few reported cases. however, both cluster A and cluster b as well as neurodivergent personality types all have overlapping traits. For example, many personality disorders as well as ADHD individuals and autistic individuals like myself have OCD and may experience mood disorders comorbidly like depression, anxiety, paranoia, moments of feeling unattached to one's body yourself, not being sure of how you feel about yourself as in not understanding what emotion you're feeling. A difficult time understanding The intentions of others. Cluster a personality disorders are ones that involve things that are not actually real, like delusions. Paranoia, hallucinations. Type 2 are self-centered disorders such as narcissism, borderline personality disorder, machiavellianism, these are disorders that are stemming from maladaptive attachment bonding at home. @@Mattiest1
As an autistic individual I have had bouts of psychosis where I've not been able to tell what's real or not, I knew that I was experiencing the psychosis though. So technically I knew that it wasn't real. It just kept on being intrusive. And it did seem really real but at the same time in the back of my mind I kept telling myself that I would get through this because I did before back in the day when I took way too much acid. But after I had my second baby I had gone through a whole bunch of drama, I had lost 30 people in my life and was breaking up with an abusive partner, I had traumatic brain injuries, it was way different. I had what I believe was a personality breakdown which led to postpartum psychosis, limerence, intrusive thoughts, loss of all executive function, destroyed libido and will to power, I just felt like a shell of myself. It was horrible. It took a while, but I rebuilt myself back up🎉
his parents created and left him a whole world of problems. hope this guy finds a way to turn his pain into purpose rather than continue the cycle of trauma and pain.
I can relate to this so hard. My entire Viewpoint of life is so much different from others and it's always been so difficult to talk about. I've always been ostracized from society because of the way I think. But the way I think is based off of the life I've lived. I feel his pain.
Very wellspoken and articulated thoughts. I hope that his apparently high intelligence will help him to work through the hardships he's facing now. Being a young adult is not an easy period for many of us but that's when we can learn the most about ourselves. Hang in there Chris, you will put these things behind you.
As a child, it’s impossible not to buy in to a parent’s interpretation of reality. I am deeply sorry for your loss. You were not responsible. I’m sorry that you have to live with that. I am sorry you just can’t relax. Kindness to you.
Alone but not alone. Although there are people out there who can relate, nobody is exactly in his shoes and nobody is better equipped to overcome the struggle than him.
This young man is more self aware than majority of adults. It’s good that he is out of the toxic environments. May he find happiness and true laughter.
He's only 20? This man has taken a lifetime of unimaginable pain and turned it into compassion and insight. What a rare and unique person and I wish him the life he deserves from here on out!
I hope bro understands he’s made of steel. People like him usually think “I just did what I had to do to survive” not realizing that most people in their position wouldn’t have survived.
He says he feels younger than he is, yet carries old. An intelligent man with language-magician skills. I hope he continues to fight and overcome his worst symptoms and learns to feel again. When I listened to him telling his story, I heard not only a public speaker but also a writer.
Yes, yes, yes! An amazing speaker and sharer of stories. I love how you said "language magician" because that is him! I was spellbound, intrigued, heartbroken, and completely connected from the beginning.
"Your delusions are real and fake at the same time." That's a perfect way of putting it. I am so happy that you had such a good experience at the hospital and that you have found a therapist you feel you can trust. That is so hard. Not only because good trauma specialist are rare. You also need to find the courage in yourself to trust them enough so they can help you through bad phases. I wish you all the best.
It's the only way man can experience the unseen. Once you believe in religion heart mind and soul there's no escape from it. The only thing you can do is wait for the second coming in a very dark room
@@deathbydeviceableI wouldn’t exactly classify religion as the same as delusions. For one, not every theist practices because they’ve experienced a “personal spiritual experience.”
@@cameronschyuder9034religion is a delusion. You think some deity is sitting there, judging BILLIONS of people, deciding who goes where? Did you know that schizophrenics who ARENT exposed to religion have much more manageable symptoms? There’s schizophrenics deep in the Amazon rainforest, on remote islands, in remote mountain villages…and they don’t hurt people “in the name of god”. God is dead.
Dear brother I have a severe schizophrenia but I come from a good familly. I just want to say you are an inspiration how you overcame your problems. You are one good guy. Wish you all the best in life and God bless ❤❤❤
I was diagnosed extremely early as a schizophrenic. (As a child) I would say my schizophrenia is pretty severe as well but I'm healing. I'm glad your family helps you 😇
@Christine19205gold So have autistic people, but there's lots that were properly treated by their parents. I think its because mental illness can fuel neglect and abuse, and while autism isn't a mental illness, it can cause a lot of mental illnesses. My mom is who I got it from, and she has comorbid NPD or ASPD or BPD (doctors never knew which one it was) from childhood abuse from her undiagnosed autistic drug addicted parents, and she also abuses drugs and has OCD. It all created an unhealthy abusive situation, and it repeats over and over. It's the same with schizophrenia. The thing is, all these things do not automatically cause abuse, they just make it more likely as their sense of morality is skewed. I actually developed some of her OCD rituals for a long time, thankfully I don't have it much anymore.
@@user-wg4ie9pb3x Uh, that’s not an anecdote bro. Nothing is being referenced to from real experience, it’s just a blank statement which a lot of people resonate with “A lot of schizophrenics have bad childhoods”, didn’t even say “all” either. You are more likely to experience a bad childhood when you’re maturing with a mental illness.
Chris in the last few powerful and hopeful minutes you look to the camera with such raw authenticity that I marvel at your strong young soul. Always know there are others like you that you help with your strength. And that there are others who will genuinely want to help when you need it. You’ve obviously worked hard to get where you are.
Chris has a novel to share. He was gifted with storytelling. Thank you for your honesty and your bravery. As a mother, my heart goes out to you. As a previous mental health professional, this should be mandatory viewing.
This sweet, extremely intelligent man has gone through HELL as a child and he STILL is being empathetic and non judgmental to ANYONE in the family…you are a gem and I hope you see this. I don’t know you personally, but I can say you are extremely strong, smart, loving, patient, kind…you are not what you’ve experienced. You are so much better than that. ❤
Sometimes we don't know what this kind of experiences are preparing us for. Intelligence we hear is birthed out of those experiences. One day what looks like curse will undoubtedly become a blessing. Destiny child is sitting right there. He's a blessing even when he doesn't know it yet.
How does a child end up with the burden of processing family dysfunction ALL BY HIMSELF!!?? What a warrior to make it as far as he did and continues to value life despite the cards that were dealt. Hang in there dear soul, you’re gonna get where you want to go. Sending love and many blessings to you ✨💖✨
unfortunately children ending up feeling like they have to address the burden by themselves is pretty common in dysfunctional families. especially when the adults can't/won't be able to sort out their own problems in a healthy way, and especially in cases of generational trauma : (
@@apparentlyasunTHIS! Being the one to bear the burden of not only my traumas but my family’s as well has led me down a very difficult (hopefully eventually rewarding) path.
@@ofriezz one therapy used is called Ideal parent figure protocol. The issue is children are hardwired to bond with parents, only when parents don't validate their children it leaves the child thinking its their fault, and there are a number of paths a child can take to try to win their parents validation, be smarter, more entertaining, more pleasing, more accomplished, but of course the validation never comes, and the child keeps blaming themself.
I am one of many that I know who are doing the same thing. It seems to be a theme in my generation (born in 1995). My conversion to Islam had aided a lot of that, as well as years of therapy, and logical application in my daily life (helps me balance out my emotional state when I am constantly using logic on tasks like debating, writing essays foe fun, problem-solving, etc.)
This man is absolutely incredible. His ability to survive and be resilient is awe inspiring. Much love to you, and I hope you can find peace and joy in this life.
Right, how is it that someone who was shown so little compassion all his life can have so much kindness and compassion for others? I feel like he has every reason to be an angry and mean person but instead... such a testament to his strength of character.
Parentification sucks as a kid, but builds resilient and empathetic adults of you. The hard thing for them/us is just what he phrases in a very sophisticated way at the end: to be empathetic with ourselves and believe we are worthy of love.
This is probably the hardest interview I've listened to on SBSK, and I've listened to a lot of them over the years. Spending an entire childhood in unsafe environments is just awful, and it probably took a lot for him to be able to share his story. I wish the best of luck to him moving forward.
He was so brave to do this. He went full on. Shared his story and his struggles with such honesty... Even the delusions of grandeur. That was very brave, and I'm really glad he did this. I'm cheering for him.
Your tribe is out there. We can’t all be your friend in person because we are spread all over the world but just know you are not alone… we get you… we love you.
My mom same. I was diagnosed at 18. My mom still goes too church and believes everything in her head. She would beat me. Lock me in my room. I left the house at 18 and now we dont talk at all. The struggle is real. The people in my head will never stop and i wont either. I wish you all the strength u need too get through life. It isnt always fair.
I talked once awhile ago with someone who had schizophrenia. He said he had to accept it, go therapy and he had medication for it and he was doing way better. He was living with someone who also had mental health, like colocation and working too. Courage to you too ❤
How did u end up moving out on ur own? I’m 19 & have persistent depression, OCD, and social anxiety. All the symptoms of these disorders along with living in a narcissistic family makes me fearful of what I’ll do if and honestly when my parents kick me out. I have no support system and don’t know if I can survive on my own.
So close to my story. Less religion, more outer space, ESP, magic writing stuff. I thought every family was like this. Makes it hard to know the difference between reality and make believe. My heart goes out to this awesome young man. He went through SO much more than me. Damn. I hope that in many years, the voices get so soft he can’t hear them anymore. Sending you a big hug of love brother.
This young boy is so strong and courageous. The final message really got me, instead of saying something about him, he focused on us who have watched the video, he focused on giving strength to us, he made the last message a message to us. You really have a big and kind heart. I wish you the best life ever 💙
For him being only 20 years old, I am baffled at the intelligence with which he speaks about all of this. He must have thought about it so much and tried to analyze it so intensely. Admirably resilient person.
Life can be so unfair! He's clearly a very smart, eloquent and interesting person, and it makes me sad that the adults around him were the worst kind of people. Best is yet to come! I truly wish him a future full of love, understanding and happiness
I have flashback myself listening to Chris. My mom was schizoaffective and had mystical delusions as well. I’ve been lucky to have had a loving Daddy who saved at least a tiny part of my mental sanity. All my heart goes out to you, Chris. All of it.
My son, also named Chris has schizo-affective with delusions. He's right now not speaking to me because according to him I am not his mother. 😢 I will be here when he remembers I am. He has a supportive partner who lets me know he's ok. His delusions tell him that his bio father is El Chapo and grandma is Jessica Lang. Can't make this up. My heart breaks because there isn't anything I can really do except love him from afar.
@@joyful_tanyasorry to hear that. I was a very disobedient son with many regrets that I must live with. Please don’t be too hard on yourself as it must be very upsetting for you. I hope and pray for you and your son ❤
@@joyful_tanyaI'm also named Chris and schizoaffective lol, what a crazy occurrence with people named Chris huh? But I hope your son gets out of his delusion that you're not his mother, just show him lots of love and empathy and hopefully things get better for you
Out of the all the turmoil that Chris has gone through since an early age, a well spoken and humble young man has emerged like a phoenix. Stay strong and thank you for sharing your light
You’re one of the most articulate and resilient young men I’ve heard sharing such deeply personal and vulnerable life experiences. To survive this and still be able to share your story to help others is simply amazing - mind blowing in fact. You deserve to be heard and you deserve to be applauded for doing so. You are strong, you MATTER . Always hold on to hope x
Goodness you have been through so much. My cousin experienced terrible things as a child too. Her mother wasn’t sane or kind. Blessings for a full recovery. You deserve happiness, security and peace.
I used to work with "in-patients", a closed ward, I was in my early 20's and it was one of the best experiences of my life. I felt safe surrounded by people that didn't, couldn't, fake it. It was genuine in lack of a better word. I felt at home. Thank you Chris! You're one of my heroes. Thank you for staying alive and tell your story. What a beautiful gift, precious. So happy that you've met a therapist that you trust
Sending so much love your way Chris! My dad has schizophrenia and it led him to being really violent towards me throughout my childhood. I always try to lead with kindness and empathy, but I think that the experience resulted in me having a subconscious fear of people with psychotic disorders for a long time. I’ve worked hard to educate myself and become an advocate for people with schizophrenia but it’s a continued journey for me. Stories like yours need to be shared and I’m so grateful to you for speaking out against the stigmas surrounding schizophrenia. ❤
How brave is this young man? I’m grateful he’s in an environment where he feels safety and comfort, and that he has a therapist with whom he has connected and bonded. Wishing him a peaceful and happier future.
Often we cannot control our situations, but we often can control our reactions. So, proud that you have chosen to be proactive with your mental health. I also grew up beholden to another's delusions. As a child, I would day dream about being independent, so I could free myself. I did grow up. I did free myself. It did not insulate me from making my own mistakes, but like you I finally had the opportunity to decide how I wanted to be. You are not alone. Thank you for sharing your story.
What an amazing, strong, smart young man. He deserves so much love, kindness, respect, and HAPPINESS.. i really hope he can get help, some really good friends, a partner. Just live a happy life. Id love to be this mans friend ❤
7 minutes in & I'm mesmerized by how he speaks. I mean I could be totally wrong but he sounds like he would be a great author or poet. What I'm trying to say is he has a way with words. I wish him the best! 😊
What to say about such a story… this is beyond heartbreaking. Yet, despite your pain, you are so composed and wise beyond your years. Please remember that you are not your family’s mistakes - you are anything but. You were/are a young person seeking comfort from a family that neglected that affection. What you’ve taken from all this tragedy is amazing. I’m 23, and could only hope for this type of retrospect and wisdom when I’m much older. I’ve experienced struggle, but if I had to deal with a fraction of what you’ve been through, I don’t know where I’d be. You are incredibly intelligent, resilient, and kind. You’re special, and despite all the cruelty that’s been bestowed on you, I think your fight will take you far. Thank you for sharing❤️ sending you love and well wishes
And for the record, you have such a great voice, such a specific way of compelling storytelling. I think you could write a fantastic memoir - and that’s saying a lot considering 1.) how young you are 2.) this is coming from an English teacher (if that actually means anything lol)!
I wrote to him: i would like to improve my english with you! He could be an excellent english teacher. I am an italian native speaker. So i totally agree with you
English major here! 1. Your comment was beautiful! 2. I totally agree! Chris has such a beautiful voice, sound wise and syntax wise. Chris should definitely write!! Doesn’t have to be a memoir (since it may need to take lots of time and could be traumatizing; not everyone needs to share their story and be an activist or whatever) but writing can help with anxiety and provide an amazing creative outlet that can be a safety net for people to go to rather than negative self talk, etc. it definitely helps me through any frozen state I find myself in. ❤
@@jezstyles2233 thank you so much, and YES!!! Great points - you’re absolutely right!! Writing of any kind is so healing (I can attest) and whether he shares it with anyone or not, I’m sure he’d have such a captivating voice!❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this story. I grew up with an undiagnosed schizophrenic dad and my sister suffers from this disease. Listening to this gentle soul tell his story made me feel less alone. We too are shunned by society. Picking up a creative hobby helps.
He is such a strong and courageous person for sharing his story. And his message at the end had me in tears. Thank you for opening yourself up and sharing your story
You can do it Chris. You have brought your issue to your consciousness now. You are aware. It will get easier and easier with time. Dont loose hope on your self! You are exceptionally intelligent. 🙏🏾👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽✨✨✨
Wow! What an amazingly articulate, compassionate and empathetic young man. The way he speaks about his experiences is so enlightened. Such a sad and traumatic life he's had. I hope he can find joy and peace in this world. ❤️
chris, i relate you are not alone. my partner is a T1D and i’ve been traumatized over and over again through saving his life over his T1D lows- waking to him seizing beside me(we live in a van) and it’s been so tough. as shitty as it is i am glad to relate to someone
I so badly want to give him a hug! I want to show him the proper love of a mother/family, just to show him he is loved and cared about and make sure he gets what he needs. 😢❤😊
What self awareness! What clarity in the sharing! I am feeling with you my brother, and sending love. Your story is only just beginning, and you have worlds of love, joy and healing waiting in the golden light of each moment. Thank you, thank you for sharing. Believe in yourself because you are amazing and worthy of every wonderful and beautiful experience. 🙏🏽💫❤
I’m so proud of you. I also was diagnosed with Major depressive disorder though I’m always thinking that there is more “wrong” with me and always trying to figure it out. I felt that when you said trying to be/appear normal to everyone, it gets exhausting, and emotions never come naturally I have to try, it feels like a chore sometimes. I love that you did this interview I hope you don’t regret it at all, We love you
As someone with recurring major depression and a daughter with a schizoaffective diagnosis I hear you, I see you. The positive path you have chosen will, I hope, bring you a better life than you have had.
"I wasnt just a person that was tolerated" Speaking of the people he met at the hospital. That was heavy. He was more welcomed and "seen" by them than with his own family. Well, those were/are very smart people, because this guy is very worth knowing ❤❤❤
This is one of Chris's most important videos. Raw and real. Just like the disease of mental illness. Thank you gentlemen both for your bravery to speak so bluntly online. Chris, you have a purpose in this life. You are very intelligent and so young. I believe you have the ability to do real good in this world. God loves you, dont be afraid to express your beliefs. Thank you for sharing your story. Many will benefit. ❤
Thank you for sharing this story! I've been following this channel for a while because I'm an aspiring mental health professional but this episode hit very close to my heart, I've never seen a story as similar as my own and it's so relieving in a way to know that there are other people who have experienced similar trauma as you. For context I grew up with a father with undiagnosed schizophrenia that revolved around religion as well for around 10 years and it was extremely difficult, especially because for a long time I was undiagnosed with autism among other things. I'm so glad to see that after it all there is still happiness in the world for people like me and Chris.
good for you, Chris. When you said you were only 20, I was surprised, because you speak so elegantly. I'm proud of you for getting treatment and living a fulfilling life. I'm so sorry your mother struggled so much, and im grateful you know the truth now and have the clarity that you do. Sending love and compassion to you, friend.
I am a retired psychiatrist. I have met so many like this very intelligent handikapped young man. My heart goes out to him. I hope he gets all the help he needs. ❤
Your mom may not appreciate your kindness and courage but a whole lot of strangers like me are very grateful you did. That’s a proud moment for you bro. God Bless
Chris, you are a normal person in most aspects. Your childhood experience is hopefully not “normal”, and I am so happy for you that you have found a way forward. You can take pride in how much you accomplished as a child and adolescent, even though that was forced upon you so early. That inner strength and resilience can take you to a much happier future. Believe in yourself and be proud of yourself. If you are not “normal”, you are certainly not inferior, but better than many of us!
What a smart young man. I'm really glad he realized he needed to open up. As someone who has isolated myself because of my depression, I've had to make that same decision, and it has really helped. To let your pain out into the world and not keep it wholly as a part of yourself. I wish him health and peace.
Loneliness was your constant companion. That’s so hard especially for a young child. Your situation was unbelievably hard. It breaks my heart. I hope you continue your journey toward good mental health. I’m not sure how I would’ve dealt with what you went through. It’s mind boggling. You are amazing!
I'm not afraid of you kind Sir. I was raised by a single mother, who worked as a psychiatric registered nurse. She has bestowed her knowledge onto me. So I understand. Your words at the end floored me and made me cry because oddly those are the words I never hear but truly needed to. Thank you for that. I don't believe it quite yet but those words can help me to put one foot in front of the other for tomorrow. Never underestimate the power of your words. Thank you again. You are appreciated.
Thanks for your kind words, Chris, you also deserve compassion and forgiveness. Im glad that you have hope now. When I started having hope for the first time all of my life changed and it was thanks to my therapist, too.
Your not alone. Your story is so sad yet so inspiring. Please consider writing a book about your journey, it could help so many. I've been a psych nurse for over 30 years and your story could help so many. Stay strong and bless you.
This is one of the best interviews on the channel. I am glad that Chris is in a place of hope and progress. Thank you for being so open with us, everything you said towards the end is what so many of us need to hear.
Tears streaming down my eyes just how sad and how much sorrow is in this man had in his life. I want to say that someone is thinking about you and loves you and wishes nothing but the best in this life. Keep working on yourself and doing good in this world we NEED people like you.
Holy crap, thank you so much for sharing your story. I’m 18 with a bunch of trauma in my own story, and you did such a wonderful job of sharing. That message you shared at the end, I hope you know it applies to you, too :)
I could've unalived myself without my amazing therapist. I am so glad you've found someone and stuck with it for two years already, that's huge! You may feel young but you are wise beyond your years. I hope you get to experience a real smile and a genuine belly laugh sometime soon! Thanks for sharing your story ❤. Sending love from the UK 🇬🇧 x
This is by far the best video on this channel. The amount of adversity this man has gone through truly seems unbeareble, which is why his message at the end gave me so much hope. He is so strong, eloquent, well spoken. I hope he can continue to heal and finally feel happy, cause he deserves it so much. Thank you for the video, this one is extra special.
This man is so well spoken. With so many problems, he must have done well in school. That will help his journey to self-acceptance. I've dealt with depression for many years and I understand that part of what you are going through. I wish you success in all your experiences. I think you are well on your way.
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Thank you.
Thank YOU Chris for sharing your story. I know it will help many out there. For those reading this, Chris told me that if there is enough interest he may make his own videos. So feel free to subscribe to his channel (that left the above comment)if that is something you would like.
Thank you for sharing your story, I struggle with mental illness and hearing stories like mine help me feel so much less alone. Sending love your way ❤️
Thank you for sharing your life struggles and the things you have experienced. Much love and respect your way. Keep on working on yourself becuaase you are worth it. You are worth working towards the best life you can have.
Thank you sir!!!
Thankyou for sharing Chris! You are most definitely not alone
I was having so much suicidal thoughts 10 years ago as a teenage, also suffered severe anxiety and mental disorder. I got diagnosed with bipolar, spent my whole life fighting bipolar. Not until my husband recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? Really need 😢
YES sure of mycologist Pedroshrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, addiction. Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Where do I reach this dude? If possible can I find him on Google
He’s only 20 but he doesn’t speak like a normal 20 year old would. He speaks as if he’s 40 and wise. I hope he knows how great he is.
Wisdom doesn't always come with age...It comes with experience. Some people are just given much more experiences much sooner than others.
He had to grow up fast because of his situation.
that’s what i was gonna say
No CAP, he's got RIZZ
People who have schizophrenia are very good story tellers
If you see this, it is not your fault for wanting a dog. Period. 💔
I hope you are able to get a service dog that helps keep you grounded during any delusions. Your dog will always have your back, you wont have to worry.
I'm so glad you have your hope back. You deserve a beautiful life. 💜💜
Yes! I hope so too!❤❤
Absolutely--nobody is responsible for the actions of another.
Amazing comment
You can hear the pain and trauma in his voice, the avoiding eye contact, the hunching over. I feel so bad for him.
Isn't that common with autism, I have it and I can sense intuitively that he has it and schizophrenia can be common with autism, what do you think?
It's common with type 1 aka eccentric personality disorder clusters which is what he is a part of. He has schizoaffective disorder. It is unlikely for a patient to present comorbidly as autistic with a schizoaffective disorder. There have been very few reported cases. however, both cluster A and cluster b as well as neurodivergent personality types all have overlapping traits. For example, many personality disorders as well as ADHD individuals and autistic individuals like myself have OCD and may experience mood disorders comorbidly like depression, anxiety, paranoia, moments of feeling unattached to one's body yourself, not being sure of how you feel about yourself as in not understanding what emotion you're feeling. A difficult time understanding The intentions of others. Cluster a personality disorders are ones that involve things that are not actually real, like delusions. Paranoia, hallucinations. Type 2 are self-centered disorders such as narcissism, borderline personality disorder, machiavellianism, these are disorders that are stemming from maladaptive attachment bonding at home. @@Mattiest1
As an autistic individual I have had bouts of psychosis where I've not been able to tell what's real or not, I knew that I was experiencing the psychosis though. So technically I knew that it wasn't real. It just kept on being intrusive. And it did seem really real but at the same time in the back of my mind I kept telling myself that I would get through this because I did before back in the day when I took way too much acid. But after I had my second baby I had gone through a whole bunch of drama, I had lost 30 people in my life and was breaking up with an abusive partner, I had traumatic brain injuries, it was way different. I had what I believe was a personality breakdown which led to postpartum psychosis, limerence, intrusive thoughts, loss of all executive function, destroyed libido and will to power, I just felt like a shell of myself. It was horrible. It took a while, but I rebuilt myself back up🎉
@@Mattiest1 stop calling everything autism study this theme instead. They are connected genetically so have some same features
@@Pugetwitch What did you feel and think about during this state?
his parents created and left him a whole world of problems. hope this guy finds a way to turn his pain into purpose rather than continue the cycle of trauma and pain.
He definitely has what it takes to succeed! ❤
can't you see he already is
I can relate to this so hard. My entire Viewpoint of life is so much different from others and it's always been so difficult to talk about.
I've always been ostracized from society because of the way I think. But the way I think is based off of the life I've lived. I feel his pain.
And I don't think he is quite understanding "both parents".
Very wellspoken and articulated thoughts. I hope that his apparently high intelligence will help him to work through the hardships he's facing now. Being a young adult is not an easy period for many of us but that's when we can learn the most about ourselves. Hang in there Chris, you will put these things behind you.
oh man, i'm only 3 minutes in and heartbroken for this man. i hope he finds peace through sharing his story. he's not alone in any of his struggles.
My heart is so broken as well. I feel terrible.
Same
As a child, it’s impossible not to buy in to a parent’s interpretation of reality. I am deeply sorry for your loss. You were not responsible. I’m sorry that you have to live with that. I am sorry you just can’t relax. Kindness to you.
He's still so young. He still needs a mom 😭
Alone but not alone. Although there are people out there who can relate, nobody is exactly in his shoes and nobody is better equipped to overcome the struggle than him.
This young man is more self aware than majority of adults. It’s good that he is out of the toxic environments. May he find happiness and true laughter.
He's only 20? This man has taken a lifetime of unimaginable pain and turned it into compassion and insight. What a rare and unique person and I wish him the life he deserves from here on out!
I hope bro understands he’s made of steel. People like him usually think “I just did what I had to do to survive” not realizing that most people in their position wouldn’t have survived.
He says he feels younger than he is, yet carries old. An intelligent man with language-magician skills. I hope he continues to fight and overcome his worst symptoms and learns to feel again. When I listened to him telling his story, I heard not only a public speaker but also a writer.
Exactly what I thought. He's a great story teller although the story he told wasn't so great. Wish him all the best.
Yes, yes, yes! An amazing speaker and sharer of stories. I love how you said "language magician" because that is him! I was spellbound, intrigued, heartbroken, and completely connected from the beginning.
Please consider writing. You have a way with words and a powerful story to tell!
Same here. The way he tells his story pulls you in and you listen intently
My thoughts exactly! He is great with words and i feel he could become a writer if he isnt one already
"Your delusions are real and fake at the same time." That's a perfect way of putting it. I am so happy that you had such a good experience at the hospital and that you have found a therapist you feel you can trust. That is so hard. Not only because good trauma specialist are rare. You also need to find the courage in yourself to trust them enough so they can help you through bad phases. I wish you all the best.
Probably the crap medication making him worse. Doctors are idiots when it comes to mental health
It's the only way man can experience the unseen. Once you believe in religion heart mind and soul there's no escape from it. The only thing you can do is wait for the second coming in a very dark room
@@deathbydeviceableI wouldn’t exactly classify religion as the same as delusions. For one, not every theist practices because they’ve experienced a “personal spiritual experience.”
@@cameronschyuder9034religion is a delusion. You think some deity is sitting there, judging BILLIONS of people, deciding who goes where? Did you know that schizophrenics who ARENT exposed to religion have much more manageable symptoms? There’s schizophrenics deep in the Amazon rainforest, on remote islands, in remote mountain villages…and they don’t hurt people “in the name of god”. God is dead.
Dear brother I have a severe schizophrenia but I come from a good familly. I just want to say you are an inspiration how you overcame your problems. You are one good guy. Wish you all the best in life and God bless ❤❤❤
I was diagnosed extremely early as a schizophrenic. (As a child) I would say my schizophrenia is pretty severe as well but I'm healing. I'm glad your family helps you 😇
@Christine19205gold So have autistic people, but there's lots that were properly treated by their parents. I think its because mental illness can fuel neglect and abuse, and while autism isn't a mental illness, it can cause a lot of mental illnesses. My mom is who I got it from, and she has comorbid NPD or ASPD or BPD (doctors never knew which one it was) from childhood abuse from her undiagnosed autistic drug addicted parents, and she also abuses drugs and has OCD. It all created an unhealthy abusive situation, and it repeats over and over. It's the same with schizophrenia. The thing is, all these things do not automatically cause abuse, they just make it more likely as their sense of morality is skewed. I actually developed some of her OCD rituals for a long time, thankfully I don't have it much anymore.
@Christine19205gold : you've shared an anecdotal belief, not a fact.
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@@user-wg4ie9pb3x Uh, that’s not an anecdote bro. Nothing is being referenced to from real experience, it’s just a blank statement which a lot of people resonate with
“A lot of schizophrenics have bad childhoods”, didn’t even say “all” either.
You are more likely to experience a bad childhood when you’re maturing with a mental illness.
Chris in the last few powerful and hopeful minutes you look to the camera with such raw authenticity that I marvel at your strong young soul. Always know there are others like you that you help with your strength. And that there are others who will genuinely want to help when you need it. You’ve obviously worked hard to get where you are.
Pretty sure the money goes to sbsk and not the person being interviewed
That is way too much money!
@@abigrant7194good thing it’s not your money.
Well that money is going to the channel that helps these stories be told and get seen soo it's for a great cause.
Chris has a novel to share. He was gifted with storytelling. Thank you for your honesty and your bravery. As a mother, my heart goes out to you. As a previous mental health professional, this should be mandatory viewing.
This sweet, extremely intelligent man has gone through HELL as a child and he STILL is being empathetic and non judgmental to ANYONE in the family…you are a gem and I hope you see this. I don’t know you personally, but I can say you are extremely strong, smart, loving, patient, kind…you are not what you’ve experienced. You are so much better than that. ❤
Sometimes we don't know what this kind of experiences are preparing us for. Intelligence we hear is birthed out of those experiences. One day what looks like curse will undoubtedly become a blessing. Destiny child is sitting right there. He's a blessing even when he doesn't know it yet.
How does a child end up with the burden of processing family dysfunction ALL BY HIMSELF!!??
What a warrior to make it as far as he did and continues to value life despite the cards that were dealt.
Hang in there dear soul, you’re gonna get where you want to go. Sending love and many blessings to you ✨💖✨
unfortunately children ending up feeling like they have to address the burden by themselves is pretty common in dysfunctional families. especially when the adults can't/won't be able to sort out their own problems in a healthy way, and especially in cases of generational trauma : (
@@apparentlyasunTHIS! Being the one to bear the burden of not only my traumas but my family’s as well has led me down a very difficult (hopefully eventually rewarding) path.
@@ofriezz one therapy used is called Ideal parent figure protocol. The issue is children are hardwired to bond with parents, only when parents don't validate their children it leaves the child thinking its their fault, and there are a number of paths a child can take to try to win their parents validation, be smarter, more entertaining, more pleasing, more accomplished, but of course the validation never comes, and the child keeps blaming themself.
By definition, the vast majority of those from dysfunctional families have to deal on their own
I am one of many that I know who are doing the same thing. It seems to be a theme in my generation (born in 1995).
My conversion to Islam had aided a lot of that, as well as years of therapy, and logical application in my daily life (helps me balance out my emotional state when I am constantly using logic on tasks like debating, writing essays foe fun, problem-solving, etc.)
This man is absolutely incredible. His ability to survive and be resilient is awe inspiring. Much love to you, and I hope you can find peace and joy in this life.
Right, how is it that someone who was shown so little compassion all his life can have so much kindness and compassion for others? I feel like he has every reason to be an angry and mean person but instead... such a testament to his strength of character.
Parentification sucks as a kid, but builds resilient and empathetic adults of you. The hard thing for them/us is just what he phrases in a very sophisticated way at the end: to be empathetic with ourselves and believe we are worthy of love.
This is probably the hardest interview I've listened to on SBSK, and I've listened to a lot of them over the years. Spending an entire childhood in unsafe environments is just awful, and it probably took a lot for him to be able to share his story. I wish the best of luck to him moving forward.
He was so brave to do this. He went full on. Shared his story and his struggles with such honesty... Even the delusions of grandeur. That was very brave, and I'm really glad he did this. I'm cheering for him.
Your tribe is out there. We can’t all be your friend in person because we are spread all over the world but just know you are not alone… we get you… we love you.
Thank you for saying this, Hanney. ❤❤❤
Such a kind words. Even whispered from the other side of the world, they reach and warmed the lonely soul.
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I would honestly love to talk with him… you are loved❤️
My mom same. I was diagnosed at 18. My mom still goes too church and believes everything in her head. She would beat me.
Lock me in my room. I left the house at 18 and now we dont talk at all. The struggle is real. The people in my head will never stop and i wont either. I wish you all the strength u need too get through life. It isnt always fair.
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My heart goes out to you. X
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I talked once awhile ago with someone who had schizophrenia. He said he had to accept it, go therapy and he had medication for it and he was doing way better. He was living with someone who also had mental health, like colocation and working too.
Courage to you too ❤
How did u end up moving out on ur own? I’m 19 & have persistent depression, OCD, and social anxiety. All the symptoms of these disorders along with living in a narcissistic family makes me fearful of what I’ll do if and honestly when my parents kick me out. I have no support system and don’t know if I can survive on my own.
Oh boy, he’s just 20... Basically still a child! Hopefully he will have a good life ahead and everything will be under control ❤
20 year old is a man
Younger then me too (I was born in 2000)
So close to my story. Less religion, more outer space, ESP, magic writing stuff. I thought every family was like this. Makes it hard to know the difference between reality and make believe. My heart goes out to this awesome young man. He went through SO much more than me. Damn. I hope that in many years, the voices get so soft he can’t hear them anymore. Sending you a big hug of love brother.
I think Chris is so respectful ❤ he let him talk freely no questions or interruption..its like a therapy session
I agree with you. Chris did a great job!
This young boy is so strong and courageous. The final message really got me, instead of saying something about him, he focused on us who have watched the video, he focused on giving strength to us, he made the last message a message to us. You really have a big and kind heart. I wish you the best life ever 💙
His final sentiments have me in tears. What an incredible gentleman. Thank you for allowing him to share his story, Chris.
For him being only 20 years old, I am baffled at the intelligence with which he speaks about all of this. He must have thought about it so much and tried to analyze it so intensely. Admirably resilient person.
I love the way he narrates. Such a brave intelligent man.
What a story teller. He should write a book.
Life can be so unfair! He's clearly a very smart, eloquent and interesting person, and it makes me sad that the adults around him were the worst kind of people. Best is yet to come! I truly wish him a future full of love, understanding and happiness
i can listen to this guy speak all day, i feel comforted by him , i don’t feel alone.
You aren’t alone ❤
I have flashback myself listening to Chris. My mom was schizoaffective and had mystical delusions as well. I’ve been lucky to have had a loving Daddy who saved at least a tiny part of my mental sanity. All my heart goes out to you, Chris. All of it.
My son, also named Chris has schizo-affective with delusions. He's right now not speaking to me because according to him I am not his mother. 😢 I will be here when he remembers I am. He has a supportive partner who lets me know he's ok. His delusions tell him that his bio father is El Chapo and grandma is Jessica Lang. Can't make this up. My heart breaks because there isn't anything I can really do except love him from afar.
@@joyful_tanyasorry to hear that. I was a very disobedient son with many regrets that I must live with. Please don’t be too hard on yourself as it must be very upsetting for you. I hope and pray for you and your son ❤
@@LiClan thank you very much. I'm trying not to be hard on myself. It's been hard, but it's getting better.
@@joyful_tanyaI'm also named Chris and schizoaffective lol, what a crazy occurrence with people named Chris huh?
But I hope your son gets out of his delusion that you're not his mother, just show him lots of love and empathy and hopefully things get better for you
@@MercuricChloride thank you very much Chris. He's blocked me for now but I will be here when he's ready. His long term GF let's me know he's ok. 🫂❤️
Thank you for your kind words at the end of the video ❤️
"That I have hope now" - Yes! This so touched my heart 🥰 You are not alone. In my prayers. Sending love and support from Southern California ❤️
I hate that this young man had to deal with so much at a young age. I hope that he can move on from it and have a happy and fulfilling life 🙏🙂
Out of the all the turmoil that Chris has gone through since an early age, a well spoken and humble young man has emerged like a phoenix. Stay strong and thank you for sharing your light
What a wonderful boy!
A big hug from an italian mother
You Italians always find a way to say it
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Right?! 😂 @@gas-lyghtchristianson-ashl5041
You’re one of the most articulate and resilient young men I’ve heard sharing such deeply personal and vulnerable life experiences. To survive this and still be able to share your story to help others is simply amazing - mind blowing in fact. You deserve to be heard and you deserve to be applauded for doing so. You are strong, you MATTER . Always hold on to hope x
Goodness you have been through so much. My cousin experienced terrible things as a child too. Her mother wasn’t sane or kind. Blessings for a full recovery. You deserve happiness, security and peace.
I used to work with "in-patients", a closed ward, I was in my early 20's and it was one of the best experiences of my life. I felt safe surrounded by people that didn't, couldn't, fake it. It was genuine in lack of a better word. I felt at home. Thank you Chris! You're one of my heroes. Thank you for staying alive and tell your story. What a beautiful gift, precious. So happy that you've met a therapist that you trust
I've been an impatient and had some wonderful people who helped me.
The mood and tone of hospitals is something that always made sense to me .
Sending so much love your way Chris! My dad has schizophrenia and it led him to being really violent towards me throughout my childhood. I always try to lead with kindness and empathy, but I think that the experience resulted in me having a subconscious fear of people with psychotic disorders for a long time. I’ve worked hard to educate myself and become an advocate for people with schizophrenia but it’s a continued journey for me. Stories like yours need to be shared and I’m so grateful to you for speaking out against the stigmas surrounding schizophrenia. ❤
How brave is this young man? I’m grateful he’s in an environment where he feels safety and comfort, and that he has a therapist with whom he has connected and bonded. Wishing him a peaceful and happier future.
Often we cannot control our situations, but we often can control our reactions. So, proud that you have chosen to be proactive with your mental health. I also grew up beholden to another's delusions. As a child, I would day dream about being independent, so I could free myself. I did grow up. I did free myself. It did not insulate me from making my own mistakes, but like you I finally had the opportunity to decide how I wanted to be. You are not alone. Thank you for sharing your story.
What an amazing, strong, smart young man. He deserves so much love, kindness, respect, and HAPPINESS.. i really hope he can get help, some really good friends, a partner. Just live a happy life. Id love to be this mans friend ❤
7 minutes in & I'm mesmerized by how he speaks. I mean I could be totally wrong but he sounds like he would be a great author or poet.
What I'm trying to say is he has a way with words.
I wish him the best! 😊
Hey Chris, you strong af. Thanks for sharing all of it.
What to say about such a story… this is beyond heartbreaking. Yet, despite your pain, you are so composed and wise beyond your years. Please remember that you are not your family’s mistakes - you are anything but. You were/are a young person seeking comfort from a family that neglected that affection. What you’ve taken from all this tragedy is amazing. I’m 23, and could only hope for this type of retrospect and wisdom when I’m much older. I’ve experienced struggle, but if I had to deal with a fraction of what you’ve been through, I don’t know where I’d be. You are incredibly intelligent, resilient, and kind. You’re special, and despite all the cruelty that’s been bestowed on you, I think your fight will take you far. Thank you for sharing❤️ sending you love and well wishes
And for the record, you have such a great voice, such a specific way of compelling storytelling. I think you could write a fantastic memoir - and that’s saying a lot considering 1.) how young you are 2.) this is coming from an English teacher (if that actually means anything lol)!
I wrote to him: i would like to improve my english with you! He could be an excellent english teacher. I am an italian native speaker. So i totally agree with you
English major here! 1. Your comment was beautiful! 2. I totally agree! Chris has such a beautiful voice, sound wise and syntax wise. Chris should definitely write!! Doesn’t have to be a memoir (since it may need to take lots of time and could be traumatizing; not everyone needs to share their story and be an activist or whatever) but writing can help with anxiety and provide an amazing creative outlet that can be a safety net for people to go to rather than negative self talk, etc. it definitely helps me through any frozen state I find myself in. ❤
@@jezstyles2233 thank you so much, and YES!!! Great points - you’re absolutely right!! Writing of any kind is so healing (I can attest) and whether he shares it with anyone or not, I’m sure he’d have such a captivating voice!❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this story. I grew up with an undiagnosed schizophrenic dad and my sister suffers from this disease. Listening to this gentle soul tell his story made me feel less alone. We too are shunned by society. Picking up a creative hobby helps.
He is such a strong and courageous person for sharing his story. And his message at the end had me in tears.
Thank you for opening yourself up and sharing your story
You can do it Chris.
You have brought your issue to your consciousness now. You are aware.
It will get easier and easier with time. Dont loose hope on your self!
You are exceptionally intelligent. 🙏🏾👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽✨✨✨
What an insightful and caring man he is.
Chris, I am so deeply sorry for you... I wish you only peace and joy. Sending lots of love from Poland.
Wow! What an amazingly articulate, compassionate and empathetic young man. The way he speaks about his experiences is so enlightened.
Such a sad and traumatic life he's had. I hope he can find joy and peace in this world. ❤️
I am so glad you have hope, support, and safety. You are very well spoken, smart, and just a kind wonderful man. 😊
chris, i relate you are not alone. my partner is a T1D and i’ve been traumatized over and over again through saving his life over his T1D lows- waking to him seizing beside me(we live in a van) and it’s been so tough. as shitty as it is i am glad to relate to someone
it's amazing what a moment of no longer feeling alone can do.
@@TheoRae8289yes, it really is. that’s so true
This was heartbreaking man, you deserve all the love in life. Your finishing words really touched me thank you for that!
Me too! It was straight from his heart! 💖
I so badly want to give him a hug! I want to show him the proper love of a mother/family, just to show him he is loved and cared about and make sure he gets what he needs. 😢❤😊
What self awareness! What clarity in the sharing! I am feeling with you my brother, and sending love. Your story is only just beginning, and you have worlds of love, joy and healing waiting in the golden light of each moment. Thank you, thank you for sharing. Believe in yourself because you are amazing and worthy of every wonderful and beautiful experience. 🙏🏽💫❤
I’m so proud of you. I also was diagnosed with Major depressive disorder though I’m always thinking that there is more “wrong” with me and always trying to figure it out. I felt that when you said trying to be/appear normal to everyone, it gets exhausting, and emotions never come naturally I have to try, it feels like a chore sometimes. I love that you did this interview I hope you don’t regret it at all, We love you
As someone with recurring major depression and a daughter with a schizoaffective diagnosis I hear you, I see you. The positive path you have chosen will, I hope, bring you a better life than you have had.
"I wasnt just a person that was tolerated" Speaking of the people he met at the hospital. That was heavy. He was more welcomed and "seen" by them than with his own family. Well, those were/are very smart people, because this guy is very worth knowing ❤❤❤
Getting to know people facing these struggles but still going is truly fascinating!
Psychiatric nurse here. I work with this population, yet his story was hard to hear. Thank you for sharing brother.
Thank you for doing this interview.
This is one of Chris's most important videos. Raw and real. Just like the disease of mental illness. Thank you gentlemen both for your bravery to speak so bluntly online. Chris, you have a purpose in this life. You are very intelligent and so young. I believe you have the ability to do real good in this world. God loves you, dont be afraid to express your beliefs. Thank you for sharing your story. Many will benefit. ❤
Thats nice to say. But wont this comment make his illness of grandeur worse?
@@patrikpass2962how is it grandeur exactly? He isn't putting himself on a podium
@@MercuricChloride Chris told us he has problems with grandeur trough a religious context and she is implying that he is special and she mentions God.
@@patrikpass2962 doesn't mean his entire disorder is grandeur based. Delusions are episodic
@@patrikpass2962 but I do agree that the OP of the comment we're under shouldn't have told him to openly share his beliefs
I love that this channel sheds light on a wide variety of serious mental illnesses that are usually not talked about.
Thank you for sharing this story! I've been following this channel for a while because I'm an aspiring mental health professional but this episode hit very close to my heart, I've never seen a story as similar as my own and it's so relieving in a way to know that there are other people who have experienced similar trauma as you. For context I grew up with a father with undiagnosed schizophrenia that revolved around religion as well for around 10 years and it was extremely difficult, especially because for a long time I was undiagnosed with autism among other things. I'm so glad to see that after it all there is still happiness in the world for people like me and Chris.
good for you, Chris. When you said you were only 20, I was surprised, because you speak so elegantly. I'm proud of you for getting treatment and living a fulfilling life. I'm so sorry your mother struggled so much, and im grateful you know the truth now and have the clarity that you do. Sending love and compassion to you, friend.
Difficult situations build stronger people. You deserve all the love!
His message at the end made me cry. Such a beautiful soul, thank you for this. I see so much growth in your future
I am a retired psychiatrist. I have met so many like this very intelligent handikapped young man. My heart goes out to him. I hope he gets all the help he needs. ❤
Out of curiosity, why did you feel the need to use the word handicapped in that sentence? Intelligent young man is still accurate.
Exactly. Disability has no correlation to intelligence! @@GeekGamer666
@@GeekGamer666 I'll be bold to assume that its professional deformation
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That might be typical language in his country.
@@lovingmayberry307Handicapped isn’t a medical term. His English is good enough to know that is an outdated term.
Im tearing up. This man is a good soul who did what he had to. Reminds me of my own childhood and its not okay but I would do it all over again ❤
I was crying the entire time he was talking. You can hear the pain in his voice. I wish I could be his friend.
Your mom may not appreciate your kindness and courage but a whole lot of strangers like me are very grateful you did. That’s a proud moment for you bro. God Bless
Chris, you are a normal person in most aspects. Your childhood experience is hopefully not “normal”, and I am so happy for you that you have found a way forward. You can take pride in how much you accomplished as a child and adolescent, even though that was forced upon you so early. That inner strength and resilience can take you to a much happier future. Believe in yourself and be proud of yourself. If you are not “normal”, you are certainly not inferior, but better than many of us!
What a smart young man. I'm really glad he realized he needed to open up. As someone who has isolated myself because of my depression, I've had to make that same decision, and it has really helped. To let your pain out into the world and not keep it wholly as a part of yourself. I wish him health and peace.
All the best to you too 💙
I am so sorry that you had to live and grow up like that. I'm proud of you for fighting and living a fulfilling life.
Loneliness was your constant companion. That’s so hard especially for a young child. Your situation was unbelievably hard. It breaks my heart. I hope you continue your journey toward good mental health. I’m not sure how I would’ve dealt with what you went through. It’s mind boggling. You are amazing!
this made me cry. you’re a good guy 🩷 don’t give up on happiness - you deserve it chris.
Thank you for your testimony this is probably one of the best episodes I’ve seen on this channel
I'm not afraid of you kind Sir. I was raised by a single mother, who worked as a psychiatric registered nurse. She has bestowed her knowledge onto me. So I understand. Your words at the end floored me and made me cry because oddly those are the words I never hear but truly needed to. Thank you for that. I don't believe it quite yet but those words can help me to put one foot in front of the other for tomorrow. Never underestimate the power of your words. Thank you again. You are appreciated.
I'd like to give Chris a big big hug!
Thanks for your kind words, Chris, you also deserve compassion and forgiveness. Im glad that you have hope now. When I started having hope for the first time all of my life changed and it was thanks to my therapist, too.
I’m crying tears of sadness and joy for this man, he will be an inspiration to so many people. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️
Thank you!! I dont think you give yourself enough credit!!! I was really touched by your words and your wisdom. ❤
As someone who's experienced Christian religious trauma and CSA I'm so sorry you endured this & I'm hoping you find some peace in life.
Your not alone. Your story is so sad yet so inspiring. Please consider writing a book about your journey, it could help so many. I've been a psych nurse for over 30 years and your story could help so many. Stay strong and bless you.
This is one of the best interviews on the channel. I am glad that Chris is in a place of hope and progress. Thank you for being so open with us, everything you said towards the end is what so many of us need to hear.
I wholeheartedly agree! One of the best! I wish him all the very best as well!! ❤❤
Great interview. This guy is super smart and articulate. I wish him all the very best of luck going forward🙏
He is such a brave person simply by sharing his story. Thank you.
Tears streaming down my eyes just how sad and how much sorrow is in this man had in his life. I want to say that someone is thinking about you and loves you and wishes nothing but the best in this life. Keep working on yourself and doing good in this world we NEED people like you.
Holy crap, thank you so much for sharing your story. I’m 18 with a bunch of trauma in my own story, and you did such a wonderful job of sharing. That message you shared at the end, I hope you know it applies to you, too :)
You're such an insightful, intelligent and loving young man, Chris. You made me so proud of you.
Im so proud of them for getting help, building confidence and hope and sharing that to others ! Its not easy
Thank you for the warm words at the end. Thank you for your story.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Religious trauma is so difficult to share. You’re so cool keep up your incredible self care and work!!
Keep going Chris, you are worthy of having a good life. You’ve overcome horror and survived thus far and that shows how strong you are. ❤️
He’s so honest and insightful. Very proud of him!
I could've unalived myself without my amazing therapist. I am so glad you've found someone and stuck with it for two years already, that's huge!
You may feel young but you are wise beyond your years. I hope you get to experience a real smile and a genuine belly laugh sometime soon! Thanks for sharing your story ❤. Sending love from the UK 🇬🇧 x
This is by far the best video on this channel. The amount of adversity this man has gone through truly seems unbeareble, which is why his message at the end gave me so much hope. He is so strong, eloquent, well spoken. I hope he can continue to heal and finally feel happy, cause he deserves it so much. Thank you for the video, this one is extra special.
This man is so well spoken. With so many problems, he must have done well in school. That will help his journey to self-acceptance.
I've dealt with depression for many years and I understand that part of what you are going through. I wish you success in all your experiences. I think you are well on your way.