From Meth To Netflix

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  • Опубликовано: 20 дек 2022
  • This is just my story about how I went from a life totally under control to a life and control.
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  • @ThePrimeagen
    @ThePrimeagen  Год назад +4580

    I hope this helps. Know that everyone struggles and everyone has a story. You never know what someone went through or is going through. Have Grace

    • @knoxa123
      @knoxa123 Год назад +11

      how old are you, by the way? I wonder that some times

    • @kaiowasdeath
      @kaiowasdeath Год назад +14

      Are you my twins in fate? I thought you were telling my life story. Only difference in addictions of mine was games instead of porn. My killer was alcohol. I quit all the bad habits. I didn’t apply for work for at Netflix…. yet!
      But the rest, we passed the same rite of growing old including marriage struggles while forgetting to grow up which is the happiest accident of my life. We should meet some time and do a pissing contest on who had the most f$&@d up shiitake for fun. Whaddya say?

    • @blobglo
      @blobglo Год назад +14

      Man you are an inspiration! Thank you for being so open about your story

    • @hasan_haja
      @hasan_haja Год назад +5

      Thank you very much for sharing that! ♥

    • @kaczor647
      @kaczor647 Год назад +5

      Thanks for sharing Prime

  • @suauhwang
    @suauhwang Год назад +1253

    Porn -> LSD -> Meth -> VIM, the story checks out.

    • @fnusuolongfu5474
      @fnusuolongfu5474 2 месяца назад +58

      I do all four at the same time.

    • @IonizedComa
      @IonizedComa 2 месяца назад +19

      You'd have to be some sort of crazy to use VIM as a main IDE ngl.

    • @raskalthefirst
      @raskalthefirst Месяц назад +1

      "story of my life", quite literally 😂

    • @jamesm5192
      @jamesm5192 Месяц назад +14

      From porn to "backend engineer" 😅

    • @shantanushekharsjunerft9783
      @shantanushekharsjunerft9783 Месяц назад +4

      @@fnusuolongfu5474😂😂 how do you quit VIM my man?

  • @sharoncohen318
    @sharoncohen318 11 месяцев назад +1537

    Most "failure" stories I see in tech are "I didn't get into Harvard, I only got into Berkeley", "I didn't get the internship at Google sophomore year but got it junior year", etc.... It's refreshing to see a story of someone *actually* struggling and turning things around and succeeding.

    • @richardbeare11
      @richardbeare11 7 месяцев назад +28

      Hah well "I only got into Berkley" sounds more like a flex than a genuine struggle? On the other hand, I guess if one is striving for perfection - and if Harvard is one's definition of perfection - then the struggle is genuinely felt. But is it not as real as you make it?
      It's my philosophy that we can find the most joy "where we are at" - e.g. if our capability, drive, interest, and values align. And if we are not generally achieving them, then we struggle - for reasons that are meaningful (i.e. internal feedback telling us we ought to make a change for a better life - and perhaps a better life for others).

    • @TransmentalMe
      @TransmentalMe 6 месяцев назад +45

      Lot of stigma around not coming from "valuable stock." A lot of us with crazy stories don't talk about our history because it literally gets you black balled and people look at you funny unless you're sharing after you've climbed the mountain of success.
      Once you're successful people look at your story in awe, while you're trying to succeed people look at your story with disgust.

    • @ignrey
      @ignrey 5 месяцев назад

      yup this is a good comment section for your opinion on people's complains. "Refreshing" what a retard you're

    • @saltytunes1883
      @saltytunes1883 3 месяца назад +4

      a lot of failure stories don't have that "but I" secondary part

    • @LouisDuran
      @LouisDuran 2 месяца назад +1

      @@richardbeare11 It's not real struggle, because the safety net of Berkeley is underneath. Try doing life without the safety net.

  • @holyfreakinguacamole
    @holyfreakinguacamole Месяц назад +41

    Thank goodness for this! Former addict turned programmer. After 250+ applications last year, landed my first job for $120k! 5 months later (now)… laid off. (They’re outsourcing software development.)
    Anyway. Thanks for reminding me it’s the hard work through the struggle. ❤

  • @TraversyMedia
    @TraversyMedia Год назад +2362

    Incredible video brother. I love hearing stories like this. I have seen drugs and alcohol take so many friends and family members. They almost took my life as well. I love seeing people beat the shit out of their addictions and come out on the other side. Thanks for sharing and being so transparent.

    • @arshdeepchhokar7994
      @arshdeepchhokar7994 Год назад +35

      Brad, even before seeing the comment section I somehow knew you would be here lol. Thanks for all of the incredible content on your channel.

    • @TheRighteousDawn
      @TheRighteousDawn Год назад +20

      Good to see you here Brad, you have been a big part of my journey early on and have really helped me improve my web development skills :)

    • @easzyprogramming
      @easzyprogramming Год назад +5

      Thanks Brad.
      And thank you for all those amazing contents you put up

    • @adriancoliba
      @adriancoliba Год назад +7

      Brad, your web development videos have played an important role in easing my transition into a software development career. Much appreciation to you.

    • @musicdev
      @musicdev 11 месяцев назад +2

      Brad ❤❤❤

  • @meltygear5955
    @meltygear5955 Год назад +1381

    I'm a 42 year old junior engineer and you've been a beacon of inspiration through and through. Thank you for sharing your story.

    • @heguer87
      @heguer87 Год назад +18

      same here....plus this guy is just way too funny! lol

    • @mannycalavera121
      @mannycalavera121 Год назад +21

      I'm 37 and considering a career change, what path did you take to get into the field

    • @meltygear5955
      @meltygear5955 Год назад +43

      @@mannycalavera121 The Odin Project + Fullstackopen + portfolio projects. But never felt obligated to walk through everything, and always complimented whatever thing they covered with google search and youtube videos.

    • @TacoMental
      @TacoMental Год назад +7

      39 and self learning for a job switch now. Will be following in your foot steps sir!

    • @_checkit
      @_checkit Год назад +7

      I'm proud of all of you! Keep on learning and doing!

  • @johnathanrhoades7751
    @johnathanrhoades7751 7 дней назад +6

    The “finding joy where you are” is amazing. I learned that in a decade in customer service.
    Excellent video.

  • @lawrencefitzgerald4744
    @lawrencefitzgerald4744 Год назад +502

    Thank you for sharing your story. I struggled in college, dropped out, and joined the work force. Years ago, I decided I wanted to learn programming - for many reasons. The road has been _very_ difficult. Over the years, I feel like I've banged my head against a brick wall over and over again. I look at code (in a language I have some understanding of) and can tell you roughly what it's doing, but I struggle to write my own code.
    Hearing stories like this are refreshing, and give me more motivation. Thank you for taking the time to encourage people you've never even met.

    • @georgesanchez8051
      @georgesanchez8051 8 месяцев назад +10

      Doubt you’ll see this, but I believe in you! I didn’t have quite as difficult a time as you, but if you’ve already made it this far, I’d say you already did the hard part.

    • @MrNiceGuy442
      @MrNiceGuy442 7 месяцев назад +7

      Keep banging with the head, it will eventually make you stronger, we all have been there!

    • @TheSoulCrisis
      @TheSoulCrisis 6 месяцев назад +4

      Go really deep with your own personal projects and don't rely on tutorials a lot, best advice I can give. ;)

    • @EmmanuelNatera
      @EmmanuelNatera 4 месяца назад

      Write out common operations onto paper and memorize them. Then start building a solution to a problem you understand. In web development, it’s mostly just CRUD stuff. It’s all about what we want the code to do. If you don’t know what you want the code to do, then how will you even write the code needed for the task? You have to understand the task first.

  • @ChrisTitusTech
    @ChrisTitusTech Год назад +1259

    I'm proud of you brother. My story was a lot like yours and It's good to see you found a balance in your life and not killing yourself with work or drugs.

    • @ThePrimeagen
      @ThePrimeagen  Год назад +161

      Thanks bud. I really appreciate that so much

    • @jonnyd6087
      @jonnyd6087 Год назад

      ​@@ThePrimeagen you never gave up. That's all that needs to be said about how your mom raised you. This reminds me of myself and the stuff I've put myself through. I feel like I just did the bare minimum in undergrad, took 7 years, was on drugs. Didn't get a job after college. Got an AWS cert and learned angular. Got picked up for a job but then found out I needed a security clearance. I was like fuck that I'm not going to prison for lying on a federal document lol. My best friend from college passed away and she was my on and off lover separated by distance. Dealt with legal stuff from being an idiot and getting caught in stupid situations doing dumb stuff usually cuz of alcohol or drugs, nothing horrible though. Tried to kill myself accidentally. Got clean, decided to try. Went back to school for a masters. Got a girlfriend who's a total badass and holds me accountable, who's a future doctor. Started taking calc 2 (never thought I could do it, just like you, and I was in the top 15% on our first test). Now I'm still technically jobless but my academic career is going great and my outlook has completely changed. I'm no longer in fear that my future is dark and miserable. I'm proud of myself and I know I'll do something valuable with this career. Amazing you were able to be so open, I'd be terrified to say this stuff on a video where so many people could see my face. Finding your channel has been great. Your videos are "blazingly" good

    • @cavendysh
      @cavendysh Год назад +11

      Yeah, me too, it seems like there are a lot of us.

    • @michaelutech4786
      @michaelutech4786 Год назад +8

      @@cavendysh We don't all take drugs, but most of us struggle. Those who don't struggle are usually too boring to notice.

  • @InnsmouthAdmiral
    @InnsmouthAdmiral Год назад +422

    It's crazy how people with the most tragic backgrounds become very positive people that help thousands of other people. You and Brad Traversy both dealt with addiction and became success stories through hard work and dedication. These human stories help a lot of people.

    • @meltygear5955
      @meltygear5955 Год назад +42

      I feel there's a touch of confirmation bias in remarks like these, but the key takeaway is that your past is a life lesson, not a life sentence.

    • @kevin.malone
      @kevin.malone Год назад +4

      You have to keep that positive mental to stay strong enough to pull through. If you don't have that in you, you won't make it. It'll destroy you.

    • @3rdGen-Media
      @3rdGen-Media Год назад +2

      Tragic? Hyperbolic much

    • @awesomedavid2012
      @awesomedavid2012 Год назад +5

      ​@@meltygear5955 as well as survivorship bias

    • @romantkac7766
      @romantkac7766 6 месяцев назад

      @@3rdGen-Media yeah like c'mon, what loser thinks that being an addict ruining your life is tragic, what a pussy

  • @annonix04
    @annonix04 День назад +2

    I never realized just how much I relate to his experiences. I've been going through scarily similar circumstances, although instead of drugs I've been failing college due to not taking care of my medical conditions, and I was seriously considering just giving up. Hearing this shows me I still have time and more than enough ability to turn this around. This video probably just saved my future. Thank you.

  • @bhumikjoshi2011
    @bhumikjoshi2011 3 дня назад

    Can actually confirm the statement, "Hardwork with a little bit of timing" works tons of time. It's your job to put yourself in a position to be succesfull, be great at what you can control and you are more probable to have luck on your side when it matters. Thanks for your story prime, Inspirational is an understatement.

  • @devicemanager131
    @devicemanager131 Год назад +299

    The one saving grace of going through tough times and making mistakes in your life is learning from them and coming out the other side to teach others not to fall into the same traps. Proud of you Prime.

    • @user-lb8to5yr6r
      @user-lb8to5yr6r Год назад +2

      how should I study from my mistakes?

    • @josephogoley
      @josephogoley Год назад +5

      @@user-lb8to5yr6r take inventory of the mistakes you've made and how they've impacted your life. Ask a trusted friend about what mistakes you might be making, have an open mind, don't be sensitive and be willing to grow. Make no excuses. Good luck

    • @user-lb8to5yr6r
      @user-lb8to5yr6r Год назад

      @@josephogoley thank you)

    • @fadilmamedov2844
      @fadilmamedov2844 Год назад

      @@user-lb8to5yr6r Just don't repeat them, lol

    • @FoxInTheBasement
      @FoxInTheBasement Год назад

      @@user-lb8to5yr6r There's two types of mistakes.
      There's you knew better and said screw it, and you didn't know.
      "screw it" mistakes are like cheating, gambling, quitting your job without a fallback or doing hardcore drugs mistake. There cases when you knew better and did it anyways because you put the thing that would make you happy in the moment over your long term happiness. Those are hard to break. As Joseph said above, try to take inventory, and catch yourself in those moments before you usually say "screw it" and don't make those mistakes. No excuses like for the examples: I was I was sad, I wanted to have fun, the job sucked or this person was putting pressure on me.
      Then there's the mistakes you make from bad info. Joining a bootcamp, that turned out to be sketchy, because a person recommended it. Getting a fast track degree and finding out that companies don't hire people without co-ops. Dating a person with certain traits or behaviour that you didn't realize you couldn't mesh well with. These ones can be tougher to avoid but hopefully you don't make them again when the same situation arises later.
      Overall, with age, and some self awareness, you'll learn. Life has a way of humbling people and sanding down their rough edges.

  • @ThatManFromGermany
    @ThatManFromGermany Год назад +348

    You radiate so much positive energy in your videos and streams and now we all know why. 🙂 Thank you for that!

  • @Konqy
    @Konqy Месяц назад +6

    I am the stage with many things you went through. This gives me hope I can be more than just a waste of air. Thank you bro.

  • @morgan11131
    @morgan11131 3 месяца назад +33

    I know how hard it is to share a story like this that is so personal . The way you completely turned your life around when most people would give up is absolutely inspirational ! Thank you for sharing this.

  • @discoline10191
    @discoline10191 Год назад +586

    4:41 Hey man I started tearing up cause I was in a dark place two years ago, but I started learning Linux and RUclipsd Vim and blam you made me believe it could be fun and I could do it. You've been with me the whole journey man. I'm now a DevOps Engineer at a very stable company on a great team, and it's amazing to see how you've grown and inspired others as well. So thankful for you man.

    • @ThePrimeagen
      @ThePrimeagen  Год назад +168

      my man!

    • @HansMaxiBricks
      @HansMaxiBricks Год назад +1

      Nice one. How did you manage to land a Devops job after 2 years of xp ?

    • @rudycarv2197
      @rudycarv2197 Год назад +1

      Well done very inspiring

    • @mrdraynay
      @mrdraynay Год назад +24

      ​@@HansMaxiBricks I wrote a reply here but IDK what happened. Anyway, to summarize, I learned strong basics in python, networking, Linux, and DevOps concepts via RUclips and Udemy, and I went to as many local networking events as I could. I quickly learned DevOps is a need everywhere, you just need to know how to talk the talk to open the door, and then have the LInux/neovim admin skills to quickly find files. Literally my current job was a screenshare where I solved problems on a test github repo, and he was like "you spend a lot of time in teh terminal, don't you? i can tell you can solve any problem." Most helpful personal project was setting up my dotfiles with ansible on a github repo, so if my computer randomly crashed I could bootstrap my setup, even sensitive files, within minutes. It blows some of my coworkers away still, though at this point I realize its not too complex a project.

    • @htmlprogrammer5244
      @htmlprogrammer5244 7 месяцев назад +1

      @@mrdraynay hey man, is there a way we can talk ? I'm a second year college student and I know a lil more than basic in linux and I really really want to learn more about it. I just don't know what should I start. I'd be happy if you can tell me more about this. I won't take you much time. no worries if you don't have time. thanks

  • @snarr2
    @snarr2 Год назад +320

    I’m a self taught programmer/hacker since 11 years old, a recovering heroin addict (clean almost 3 years) and I have never had a job (used to sell other stuff). I just wanted to thank you for the inspiration and strength, things have been quite difficult lately, spent the year applying and applying only to receive radio silence and maybe a couple automated rejection responses from everywhere. I almost want to just give up but I am going to continue trying my hardest. Thank you for sharing your story again.

    • @saura_
      @saura_ Год назад +7

      You got this, cmon✨✨

    • @oliverchalkley1187
      @oliverchalkley1187 Год назад +18

      You sound like a classic super smart person that lost their way.
      You'll do great things and look back at your younger life as essential experience. Go do great things dude

    • @macienrique
      @macienrique Год назад +1

      Good things will come man, just hang in there and never falter. You got this!

    • @aelam02
      @aelam02 Год назад +4

      You got this bro. I went to school but had a really poor GPA and went through similar. Applied to jobs without hearing anything for 8 months straight. Then one day I finally got an interview, prepared my ass off as much as possible and got the job. Just make sure that when you do get that opportunity (and it WILL come if you keep trying), that you make it count. You got this!

    • @suvraneelsaha8973
      @suvraneelsaha8973 Год назад

      @@aelam02 thanks man for the story

  • @Nahjeep
    @Nahjeep 25 дней назад +4

    I wanna thank whoever invented the computer and the people who came before me so that I have the chance to be included in this amazing journey called programming.
    Learning to program a computer completely changed my life.

  • @MrDaoJones
    @MrDaoJones 8 месяцев назад +6

    This got me pumped. I'm a 43 year old. My parents mostly left me alone, they weren't horrible, but I didn't have a lot of guidance. I'm artistic... I've always been into art and music. They always said I should go to college, that I need something to fall back on, etc. I went to art school and sort of just failed at that for years because of a lack of instilled discipline and drive. Eventually I got expelled and joined the military because I didn't know what else to do. I ended up using the GI Bill to go to school for IT because I needed the money for housing allowance. I got a help desk job, and worked my way up, and now I'm in DevOps. I fucking suck at DevOps. I've been doing it for 4 or 5 years... drinking the firehose of AWS and CI/CD and all of this shit I really knew nothing about. I got laid off from my first DevOps job, and then laid off from a cloud engineer job shortly after....
    But... now I'm certified in AWS and I kinda know some shit. I also can fuck with Terraform and write some python. I'm not totally useless and I just got an offer at a shitty company I'm not that excited about. They do hardware servers and networks and things, but they also do Ansible and I've never done that before. I'm just trying to fill in the knowledge gaps. Ansible is a knowledge gap I have that I see on a lot of job descriptions, and I'm going to keep moving forward until I don't fucking suck anymore. Really, I'd prefer to just be a bartender or something... but I have people relying on me and debt, so that isn't really an option. So, as a guy that could be considered mid to senior, its not just the junior devs or people trying to get into it that you are speaking to here. This was inspirational for me as well. Hard work beats smart or talented every time. I'm going to take that into my next job and we'll see how it goes.

  • @dinckelman
    @dinckelman Год назад +188

    It takes a colossal amount of strength to talk about this, let alone climb out of that pit, and become this successful. On top of that, it just proves yet another time that there's more to a person, than what you immediately see. Treat people well.
    You're an inspiration, prime

  • @ibnlanre
    @ibnlanre Год назад +61

    "hard-work with a little bit of luck; preparation with timing"
    - ThePrimeagen
    You're an inspiration sir.

  • @Artistwannabe
    @Artistwannabe 5 месяцев назад +1

    You're so open to tell us of all of this. It truly shows character growth and how those years are really behind you.
    It's a fresh breath of air to see people this honest about their wrongdoings, failings and problems (especially with your popularity). I've seen your other content and you're not ashamed to admit you have done wrong or been wrong. And this is what maturity really is about, being real and honest with yourself and others. It shows that we are all human at the end of the day, and we can all fall and raise.
    Hope you keep that good running streak, you really turned your life around and you deserve to reap the benefits from your hard work.

  • @msr25
    @msr25 2 месяца назад

    Thanks for that. It's very comforting to see you opening about hard things from your past. We tend to see only success stories, but rarely we see the other side of the journey. Kudos for the honesty and giving back to the community. Chapeau bas, like the French used to say

  • @ChrisPatti
    @ChrisPatti Год назад +156

    this is straight up a beautiful story, and you are one brave dude for being willing to tell it.

    • @ThePrimeagen
      @ThePrimeagen  Год назад +26

      ;)

    • @wakemewhenitsover2010
      @wakemewhenitsover2010 5 месяцев назад +1

      What an amazing story, all the way ‘round. Good on you for realizing you were meant for more than your childhood /adolescence gave you. Deciding to fall in love with what you are doing - that’s a conscious choice, and one that made my life /career better once I decided to make that choice.
      I’m a 50+ yo female developer, been at it for 20+ years, pretty much self-trained (started off with offsite training courses paid for by work, then was mentored by awesome gurus in my field, and continue to read / take video courses). Thought I’d be a busgirl forever, then I was afraid I’d never be more than a temp secretary. Grateful for every day I get to program, and continue to try to get better. You’re a huge inspiration and an excellent resource! Thank you for occupying this space , and helping the rest of us to level up. You rock, sir 🤩

  • @fasolplanetarium
    @fasolplanetarium Год назад +77

    This hit me hard. I was a hardcore heroin addict, homeless, no degree, broke and miserable. I got clean, taught myself to code, and now work at a FAANG company (not that this necessarily matters, but it obviously seems to resonate with people). It can be done; you don't have to live your life this way. Programming saved my life.

  • @kirillnovik8661
    @kirillnovik8661 4 месяца назад +10

    Thanks for sharing your story! And happy you were able to find a way toward becoming a happier person! Battling an addiction is probably one of the most valuable experiences in life despite being damaging, painful and miserable. I root for everyone who is battling their demons. Keep up the great work! You're awesome!

  • @oscardiggs246
    @oscardiggs246 6 месяцев назад +1

    I think that anything that diverts you from the work of improving yourself is holding you back some forms of RUclips content have taken up my time and diverted from getting where I want to be.
    I’ve recently found your channel and started watching to see how a programmer feels about a lot of the programming dogmas that exist. I was staring to feel like “ok, I’ve got it, use what works, question whether what you are doing is really working, ignore the fads, and do the work.”
    I actually questioned whether to watch this video, but it seemed like it had an unexpected story for me.
    I was floored by this. Thank you so much for sharing. I’m a ‘successful’ IT pro who has been looking to go to the next level and feel more accomplished in what I do, not trapped in a lucrative but unfulfilling job, and more capable of learning what I don’t know. Your story has energized me and reminded me that a positive approach to learning and doing without the distractions of bad habits is the best way forward. Thank you for sharing this inspiring story. It’s not just a good lesson for those who are trying to get started, it’s a helpful guide to for someone struggling to get unstuck.

  • @cd-stephen
    @cd-stephen Год назад +81

    you are never too old to learn - what makes you old is when you stop learning - Prime, your stories are always inspiriational - merry Christmas

  • @DevOpsOrDeath
    @DevOpsOrDeath Год назад +132

    I can’t express how much this story hits home in some ways. The struggle with pornography is something I think myself and a lot of other people can identify with. You’re story is inspiring and touching and I’m so happy you chose to share it with us. We love and appreciate you, Prime. So glad to be a part of such an incredible community.

    • @M1America
      @M1America Год назад +1

      Oy vey

    • @afairbank4976
      @afairbank4976 Год назад +4

      I feel your pain king. I'm doing a lot better now thanks to the audiobook "Your Brain on Porn: Internet Pornography and the Emerging Science of Addiction." Book by Gary Wilson. Check it out if you feel you're struggling. Free on audible. Progress daily :)

    • @afairbank4976
      @afairbank4976 Год назад +5

      @Jonathan Yeah buddy, old school best way. Every day without those sites and you're rewiring your brain for the better :)

    • @akaBryan
      @akaBryan 11 месяцев назад

      @@afairbank4976 If you have any advice please let me know. It is a struggle for me right now and I wanna quit.

    • @iamsyourdadi
      @iamsyourdadi 10 месяцев назад

      @@akaBryan Bro i am on the same train as you...its a struggle to break free but i am hopeful. Good luck bro

  • @zapoyou2
    @zapoyou2 4 месяца назад

    Freaking love this video and your story/“testimony”. I just dropped out of school at 32 with wife and kids (getting out of military soon) and am trying to figure out what to do. Might just have to keep schooling. Thank you for the motivation, Much love brother.

  • @agustinothadeus
    @agustinothadeus 3 месяца назад +20

    I wish I could upvote this more than once, I am going through serious addiction right now and can't seem to find any way out but I know that giving up will mean living my life as a failure and the regret of not achieving anything is more dreadful than anything I can think of. I have to a least leave a mark before I leave this world....no matter what, so fighting is my only option right now.

    • @tbkswagg
      @tbkswagg 3 месяца назад

      Get medical help I am an engineer after a car accident I had chronic pain and got addicted to opioids. I somehow managed to do my job with high quality for years but I have now serious health problems, got into a toxic relationship where I was abused for4 years etc etc. I was then laid off and almost got out of my current house. I got to know a nice doctor and an addiction center where they are empathetic, its free and I am in therapy now. Did not get completely off of meds but ita managed by my doctors now
      I find really hard to have motivation to do anything normal... That is what I struggle with. I have health problems from various things, but if I look into my past everything is a memory now even if scarred me.
      Find a community. That is what I noticed, thats why also religion helps many people. They find a community through it or anything else. You have to replace that addiction with ANOTHER addiction. Which is not consumerism. Something which you put out and not put in. I am sure I will find it and you too. But I really get you, addiction is the only deadly disease people dont even look at you as someone with a disease.:(

    • @1337kaas
      @1337kaas 2 месяца назад

      Keep fighting brother, you will eventually be rewarded for trying to make amends. You can do it ❤

  • @ShawnThuris
    @ShawnThuris Год назад +179

    What a story, very moving. It's hard to be this honest with your audience but the comments show it was the right call. You were already one of the small handful of dev channels whose videos I can sit through, but now I have a much better idea of who's talking. You have my respect and my best wishes for continued success.

  • @kirbulich
    @kirbulich Год назад +30

    I'm a Java developer. And this landed pretty harsh. My first 5 years was an alcoholic trip through anxiety and a fear of being fired. On six year I was rejected, and moved to another three or five projects, step by step. And I still have a feeling of being fired from current job. But two weeks ago I've started to developing an urge to myself -what can I do with all of this time, what I need to complete, what possibilities I have now to stop being in flow, and prepare properly. I started to play around with all that image generation stuff, installed all the game engines, all the programming languages I want to learn. This thing was like "Maybe I just start again, and just wish myself a bit of luck, but with tenacity of a Titan" And it start working. Now I'm start seeing videos from you and other devs. Kinda strange and cool. Something is changing, and you're right - smoking is hard, third time in a row, porn - makes brain foggy. Thanks for your story. And I'm really sorry for this wall of text, but after your video I thought I need to send all of these things about me.

  • @PoorlySoup
    @PoorlySoup 9 месяцев назад +5

    Really appreciate this story man. You've been through a ton and it's really inspiring to see how far you've come. Incredible resilience.

  • @narekmusic
    @narekmusic 2 месяца назад +5

    You're super brave and so down-to-earth - really admire that. Thanks for letting us in on your story. Just found your channel and I'm hooked on all your videos. Keep doing your thing; it's awesome!

  • @sebosebo4661
    @sebosebo4661 Год назад +131

    I personally admire your openness on your pornography addiction. I myself have a problem with porn, and knowing someone in my field also had the same problem - it makes me feel a lil less alone. Thank you.

    • @TrevoltIV
      @TrevoltIV 6 месяцев назад +10

      Just gotta ask God to help you brother, demons don't come out on your command but His. I get lots of people in our industry don't believe in God but what is to lose?

    • @TheWhippinpost
      @TheWhippinpost 6 месяцев назад +7

      @@TrevoltIV Time

    • @tokyospliff
      @tokyospliff 5 месяцев назад +15

      Nooooo, don't turn to spirituality, that's extreme, unless you need to. If you want to change something about your life you just need to start making a change today and try your best to keep at it, eventually it will become your default behaviour

    • @TrevoltIV
      @TrevoltIV 5 месяцев назад +7

      @@tokyospliff Don’t turn to spirituality, turn to God.

    • @DelightfulPager-ro4nw
      @DelightfulPager-ro4nw 4 месяца назад +3

      STOP WATCHING IT 👀 just a gentle reminder, we care about you and you can stop 🙂

  • @arcadeduo7101
    @arcadeduo7101 Год назад +57

    "Being smart will get you far, but hard work will get you further." - ThePrimeagen 12.22
    Thanks for the hope and life lessons I learned from your videos.

  • @joshpayne2600
    @joshpayne2600 Месяц назад +2

    What a phenomenal video man. God bless you for your openness. There are so many out there that benefit from you sharing your story, myself included.

  • @mahdizarepoor8964
    @mahdizarepoor8964 2 месяца назад

    very very very very inspiring
    I have no idea why on earth your story and mine has so much in common .
    you really make me feel about myself .
    the one part you mentioned that you started learning to have fun beside doing your actual boring job was the key to survive in this career .
    love you so much
    Mahdi

  • @radomane
    @radomane Год назад +70

    There aren’t enough stories like this in this industry, most of them go untold. I really liked hearing this perspective, this is what I always found so inspiring with Andreas Kling/SerenityOS.

  • @matercomus
    @matercomus Год назад +80

    Damn prime, your story really resonated with me. You definitely gave me more confidence to keep going. thanks a bunch!

  • @nojerome497
    @nojerome497 9 месяцев назад +9

    It's legit hearing someone talk so openly about some very difficult challenges in their life. Obviously your accomplishments, but also your willingness to be open about yourself will be a serious inspiration to countless people. Keep being awesome.

  • @iseeu-fp9po
    @iseeu-fp9po 9 месяцев назад +1

    Thank you for sharing this. I don't even code but RUclips recommended this. Maybe it's because I've seen your "I quit Netflix" video sometime earlier or that I feel down and have been searching a lot about mental health advice lately. I'm at a place in my life where I don't know what to do next. Thanks, it's good to see stories like this so people know that life has different phases and you can move on from a dark place.

  • @NicholasRenotte
    @NicholasRenotte Год назад +381

    “Smarts will get you far but hard work will get you further”
    Goddammmit preach brother 🙌🏽
    I felt this deep in my soul, thank you for sharing dude. It’s a tough grind coming from rock bottom, but, knowing you can get a win from there, it’s reaffirming that you can get back.
    Thanks man!

    • @easzyprogramming
      @easzyprogramming Год назад +3

      Thanks Ren for your amazing videos on machine learning, you are a big inspiration, love the part of how you got your job in ibm

    • @fhujf
      @fhujf 11 месяцев назад +5

      However, hard work doesn't mean shit if you are not smart.

    • @limitlesskode
      @limitlesskode 8 месяцев назад

      Hey Nicholas is here. I love love your videos. Great to see you here

    • @SocialNetwooky
      @SocialNetwooky 8 месяцев назад +1

      Having someone come up to you just because you're a programmer and offering you a job with a higher paycheck also helps a lot. "Luck" always plays a major role in stories like this.

  • @mechanought3495
    @mechanought3495 Год назад +408

    It's alarming how directly harmful pornography is to both creators and consumers, yet it's almost completely ignored. I've had my own struggles with addiction, and I thank you for telling your story. I'm glad that you kept at it and made it to where you are. Dark thoughts don't go away, so always be on your guard. Stick around, life ends up being pretty worth it.

    • @mpmedia6735
      @mpmedia6735 Год назад +14

      I don't think pornography affects everyone equally

    • @Phillip3223
      @Phillip3223 Год назад +38

      Ironically one of the most arguments I heard was "Sex is natural, so it can't be that big of a problem". However missing the part out that sex is more equivalent to "smelling beautiful flowers on a field"-joy while porn is the "hardcore doing drugs overloading your brain"-joy. The issue ist the scale on which you can fall down the rabbit hole.
      You enjoy porn, until you don't. But then it's to late, at least for the easy way out.

    • @MKULTRA_Victim_
      @MKULTRA_Victim_ Год назад +26

      ​@@mpmedia6735 yes exactly. There are people who are being honest about it and people who are in denial.

    • @Demondzeta
      @Demondzeta 11 месяцев назад +15

      This is why I hate people who defend OF as a life model and think its unharmful 😢

    • @jakubzika6367
      @jakubzika6367 11 месяцев назад +8

      Society fails to reflect the problems in time.

  • @xMaticusfinchx
    @xMaticusfinchx 3 месяца назад +2

    I realize I'm super late to this party, but thank you for this story. I've only recently discovered your content, but you've got a great attitude and as a struggling programmer myself, I've quickly come to look up to you. For that to be the case given this story is nothing short of amazing. Thanks for being awesome.

  • @zacharymilo
    @zacharymilo 5 месяцев назад

    stumbled upon your channel maybe 6-7 months ago and finally joined a stream the other week too. you're probably one of my biggest inspirations and motivators right now. thanks for doing what youre doing and sharing your experiences/knowledge. you're a legend Prime 💪

  • @jonathanduran2921
    @jonathanduran2921 Год назад +30

    Side note.. thanks for being so vulnerable. It's refreshing and gives a person like myself hope in many ways.

  • @andreicojea
    @andreicojea Год назад +23

    Sound like one of my key learnings in life: There's not such thing as "that's who I am", there's always room for becoming something else, better or worse. I'm happy for you!

  • @shubhsharma19
    @shubhsharma19 3 месяца назад

    Thankyou for sharing your story! I remember when i tried to quit life in 2020, I was literally done with everything, life can really put u down really hard and it hurts when i realise, but I am stronger today! Goal is to not give up no matter what.
    The truth is noone knows what you have gone through until you share it with everyone, even then not many care unless they have some empathy toward people.
    To everyone going through shit in life, Do not give up, its a phase, it will pass!

  • @tylerreis7627
    @tylerreis7627 2 месяца назад

    Thank you so much for this. I’ve never seen your channel and this popped up in my feed, the Lord knew I needed to hear this

  • @niky2989
    @niky2989 Год назад +57

    Thank you man for sharing your story. A beacon of light, which is needed these days! Stay awesome

  • @pertuck
    @pertuck Год назад +69

    You've told snippets of this story on Twitch, and it's incredibly humbling. It's great to see you coalesce them into this video. Big ups. Have a great holiday!

  • @MarcusHammarberg
    @MarcusHammarberg 2 месяца назад

    Wow! Brutal honestly on display. Thanks for sharing. We need to hear stories like this in our community. I'm sure a lot of people recognize (part of) the struggle.

  • @ilikedirt
    @ilikedirt 8 месяцев назад +1

    The thing I needed to hear most was: keep pushing for what you want to achieve, I have a lot of grief for not pushing myself harder in school and cruising, and after finishing I had a great drive to be better, it worked for 15 years but sometimes I feel like there's gaps that will never be filled, and the only reason that *can* become true is if I let myself go down that road by giving up. Thank you! This has been truly inspiring, I think any addiction you described can be a placeholder for any behavior that keeps anyone from achieving what they want, and just because those things happen doesn't mean that the ship has sailed.

  • @headlights-go-up
    @headlights-go-up Год назад +28

    You’re an amazing mentor if we were to base it solely on your technical prowess and teaching ability.
    The fact that you’ve opened up and offered your past as a way to support others that have faced/are facing difficult challenges makes you simply exceptional.
    Not only are we, your online pupils, fortunate that you share your time and knowledge, but I think this also demonstrates how good of a father and husband you’ve grown to be.
    You’re one of a kind, Prime.

  • @lucasteo5015
    @lucasteo5015 Год назад +15

    22-year-old junior developer here, I like watching your videos, I always like the way you encourage people to be open minded for learning new things, I ended up learning vim motion despite that I hated it the first time I saw it but now I'm 2 months in and I'm using it daily, I still have a lot to learn but a good start is part of the success, I'm trying to learn and earn atm, really wanna get myself into CS post grad degree, or straight up to PhD... but as we all know that requires a lot money, I have years to go, so I must keep focus.
    Life is hard enough, don't let minor things defeat you before you face your major challenge, every one of us will have plenty of long term goals to tackle, so be positive everyone and LET US ALL DO IT!

  • @WordsThroughTheSky
    @WordsThroughTheSky 4 месяца назад +1

    thanks dude, been struggling a lot lately, laid off for almost a whole year while trying to take care of my small family, but everyday I try to learn something, build something, and it's keeping me alive

  • @vcv6560
    @vcv6560 3 месяца назад +1

    Thank you for peeling back the onion and sharing such a story. These are the ones we all need, finding a way out of the darkness to success. Failing, its so hard not to blame yourself (I've had my own struggle) for not being good enough. Microsteps until getting there.

  • @Nyghtrid3r
    @Nyghtrid3r Год назад +3

    I'm proud of you man. I can definitely relate to a lot of the issues you had and I'm glad you've gotten through them. Thanks for sharing your story.

  • @holygl
    @holygl Год назад +8

    You are a true inspiration. That was the most genuine, inspiring, well articulated video I've watched in a long time. Thank you for making these amazing videos and sharing your experiences with the world. I for one am benefiting from them and am truly grateful for what you are putting out. Keep going...blazingly fast!

  • @jasonamador7991
    @jasonamador7991 7 месяцев назад

    I knew there was a reason I connected with your videos. Thanks for being so open, I bet this will help a lot of people.

  • @KLuqman01
    @KLuqman01 9 месяцев назад

    Recently subscribed due to your humor and knowledge of programming. Hearing your story makes me root for you even more. Much props. These stories are important for those pursuing this profession to see that these are real people who have overcome some of the same obstacles you may have faced.

  • @supernerd6983
    @supernerd6983 Год назад +21

    As funny and entertaining as I find it, I think the fact that your usual content is so sarcastic and cocky that seeing you take the time here to be so sincere and vulnerable makes it mean even that much more. Thank you for taking the time to do this.

  • @christsciple
    @christsciple 9 месяцев назад +24

    Dude my buddies were the tutors at the math center at MSU at the time you were going there! We probably knew a lot of the same folks! That's funny. I have a similar story as yours and really used a lot of the hardship and experiences to motivate me through school and eventually became a self-taught software engineer! Really proud of you and how far you have come! You're really a huge motivation for us all!

  • @brunomonteiro3646
    @brunomonteiro3646 9 месяцев назад

    Man... I really needed this video right now, and somehow it got to me. I am a mid-level engineer (but the complexity of the thing I do at my job is, honestly, junior level) and very unsatisfied with my life. Not working with things and tecnologies that excite me, earning an amount that feels unfair to me and with a rollercoaster of emotions throughout the days. Watching this made me feel better and gave me hope. Thank you very much for sharing your story, it really is a very inspiring one and I am very happy that your life turned out okay.

  • @myhops
    @myhops 4 месяца назад

    What a heartfelt story. I would have never expected you to have such a hard early life. You carry yourself really well and are super positive.

  • @rucko7415
    @rucko7415 Год назад +5

    This level of honesty is incredibly powerful. There will be a considerable number of people watching this who will see their first ever relatable backstory and an example of hope for the future.

  • @jesse9999999
    @jesse9999999 Год назад +5

    Very refreshing to see someone talking about their real life and painting a realistic picture of how difficult but worthwhile it is to push through the hard times, thank you

  • @nneddenn6207
    @nneddenn6207 6 месяцев назад

    Man, that's a so touching story and I can relate to it so much. Have addictions of mine, that are stealing my time and energy, had low periods in my life when I didn't know who am I and what for. I'm a senior developer for quite a time but still on my way through hard times. Thank you for sharing this, had wet eyes listening to it. Your story encourages and give support. Keep going, Prime!

  • @ryanpollitt3784
    @ryanpollitt3784 2 месяца назад

    Really needed this today im currently 8 months into my course and feel like im just stumbling through and not really learning but this has motivated me to keep pushing through ill get there one day. Thank you!!

  • @esdrasevt
    @esdrasevt Год назад +2

    This is a great story and advice that so many people can relate to and draw motivation from.
    Really appreciate you being vulnerable and sharing, Prime!
    The internet needs more of this!
    Much love!

  • @around3
    @around3 8 месяцев назад +8

    Needed this. Been watching your videos for the past few weeks, trying to find a direction to go. My story was heroin and alcohol, partying, giving, up, restarting, giving up, partying, repeat ad nauseam. It will be 5 years in October since I decided enough was enough and I feel like at this point, I can learn or do anything. Thanks for the hopeshot, brother

  • @smartwolf9045
    @smartwolf9045 3 месяца назад

    Big respect. I did follow some of your content already, but now it makes me want to watch way more of it.

  • @jswozie4282
    @jswozie4282 5 месяцев назад +2

    this spoke directly to my soul, I recently got completely clean off opiates. Both my parents are/were heroin addicts as was my older sibling. I just started learning programming after discussing the possibility of switching to software development if i get whatever certifications they would like. After finding it would be a possibility I began immediately. I am loving learning it but feel like I don’t deserve it honestly but this video just validated my whole experience in the most positive way. I have put over 40 hours working onto the cert in the last 7 days, while working full time but have been feeling like maybe I just can’t catch up- but this video just reignited my drive to do it. I am young but with no degree. Thank you for taking the time to do this

  • @jonashansen2512
    @jonashansen2512 Год назад +5

    Inspiring, glad to hear you recovered.
    I’m 31, have been a dev, ops & lead for 5-6 years and I’m often questioning my abilities and knowledge.
    Especially the last year or two, in the past I used to grind everyday with long hours and working for free from home, but the latter years I’ve had to scale my efforts down or lose myself and my woman.
    Finding a good balance between work, relationships and recovery is hard and deserves some videos of their own.
    After all, what’s the money and career success worth if your loved ones aren’t there to share and celebrate with.

  • @riffsfromtheabyss666
    @riffsfromtheabyss666 11 месяцев назад +6

    Inspirational. This past Spring was the first time I got straight A's. Was a total fuck up (C's and D's) in school most of my life and decided to go back to school for Computer Engineering. My main aspiration is to become a Digital Signal Processing Engineer. Loved your story, new subscriber here as of today.

  • @montdeez2
    @montdeez2 2 месяца назад

    Thank you for sharing your story. I'm in a SD program right now.I suck most days,and I'm on top of the bottom other days. You are a true inspiration. Love the channel!

  • @plutogaming6495
    @plutogaming6495 4 месяца назад +1

    Mad respect man. That idea of making tons of small decisions instead of a new year's resolution really resonated with me. Thank you for sharing your story

  • @MichaelMerritt
    @MichaelMerritt Год назад +3

    You’re a golden nugget of a programming public figure and date I say role model for many junior engineers. I identified a lot with your story. Keep it up, your endurance, humor and thirst for knowledge is contagious. Love it man.

  • @AhmadMaartmesrini
    @AhmadMaartmesrini 3 месяца назад +3

    good storytelling skills, massive Reaspect for sharing your incredible experience with life and how you change after you have been trying for so long

  • @edanparker9273
    @edanparker9273 10 месяцев назад +1

    Thank you so much for sharing your story man. I had a similar, less intense trajectory and really take comfort in knowing that not everybody follows the picture perfect journey to finding meaning in their life.

  • @adrianguadalupemunozjaureg5425
    @adrianguadalupemunozjaureg5425 Месяц назад

    Bookmarking this one so I can rewatch it every time I get tired of not getting code right. Thank you so much for sharing this and for the good vibes man!

  • @AminD0
    @AminD0 Год назад +6

    Thank you a lot for sharing your great story! And im really glad that you made it through the hard times. Your story helps me and pretty sure a lot of people out there. Everyone goes through some different hardships, but we need to stick to it and find the passion and love in what we do and stay focused.

  • @Jame_D
    @Jame_D Год назад +2

    I'm currently turning my life around right now and hearing stories like these give me hope. Thanks for all you do

  • @Luna0wl
    @Luna0wl 3 месяца назад +2

    As someone who has pretty much a history with the same direction this is really motivating that I might be able to get somewhere in the tech field. Thanks for sharing this personal stuff!

  • @v.pareix
    @v.pareix 26 дней назад

    damn this almost brought me to tears. this was some real talk. my upbringing sucked with a heroin addict father, felt lost most of my teens, I went insane in my early 20s, went down a really dark path that ended in rehab at 25, being addicted to many different drugs at the same time. now at 30 I'm in my second semester of uni for engineering and clean 3 and a half years. it's intimidating how deep and broad the subject is and even tho I got straight A s in my first semester I feel like this world of programming is so far beyond my knowledge and capabilities that I just don't know if I will get somewhere worthwhile. but still this hope and confidence after doing better in uni than I ever would've imagined is within me now and your story gives me the feeling that if I just continue what I'm doing I will get to a good place. cheers man

  • @jonathanfraimorice8292
    @jonathanfraimorice8292 Год назад +3

    Wow, the amount of exposure is amazing. Kudos for this video and for your bravery to come out like this and huge kudos to getting from that to what you're today. Truly amazing man, glad to see you managed to pick yourself up like this

  • @aidencrilley730
    @aidencrilley730 Год назад +5

    Thank you for posting this. This is truly something I needed to hear. Your content is awesome and it gives me hope stepping into the world of software engineering. God bless you brother.

  • @jesse2667
    @jesse2667 9 месяцев назад +1

    Quality video. Lots of people see successes and assume it happens overnight and from the time they see them, and often are unaware of all the groundwork and challenges that were overcome. Love the videos and shared learning.

  • @jasojone
    @jasojone Месяц назад

    Thank you for sharing your story brother! I have been through similar I lost my father when I was 14. Your story brings hope to all who suffer similarly. Thank you for your bravery!

  • @jasonconsiglio5256
    @jasonconsiglio5256 Год назад +14

    Stories like this and Brad Traversy give me hope. I have had similar struggles, and came out with too much enthusiasm to be stopped. I'm going to make it as well. Thank you Prime for all that you do for the community and your subscribers. We can all tell, even if it's in a joking way, it's from the heart.

  • @Kroloz
    @Kroloz Год назад +15

    I am glad you exist. Besides the awesome content, you are a genuinely good person. Hope you and your family enjoy the holidays!

  • @hleet
    @hleet 6 месяцев назад

    Thanks for sharing ! I think that you are a genius. When you work on yourself and your skills, you just polished the dirt so that you can shine ! Love your videos, funny and so informative too. To share a little bit of my story about being a programmer, I feared computer like hell when I was a boy in the 90's, it was a nightmare for me to just touch one in class as I didn't understand that. Just like you, games were the first thing that helped me look-up on computers. I saw all the opportunities (bad and good) of computers, and untill today, it never cease to amaze me how computer can change the world ... and jobs !! And I love it :D. Getting good in computer science is a long journey. It is not easy at all, but if you love this path, continue !

  • @fushipunk
    @fushipunk Месяц назад

    Thanks you very much, sincerely, it is incredibly valuable that you could share this. I think it takes a lot of courage, yet you do it so gracefully. Thanks again!

  • @uquantum
    @uquantum Год назад +2

    Thank you so much…crazy how kind, thoughtful and helpful you are, improving the lives of tens of thousands of devs. Thanks for sharing your personal story, I feel lucky to have found your channel, and your videos have helped me many times. Sending kindness and good vibes your way! 😊

  • @thanhsonnguyen3212
    @thanhsonnguyen3212 Год назад +13

    God, seeing your success and expertise now I would never imagine you had such problems in the past. It takes a huge courage to share a story like that, and honestly it’s very motivating to know that if you made through such circumstances there’s no reason we can’t. Thank you for your story.

  • @King-sd5vg
    @King-sd5vg Месяц назад

    stuff like this is so great to see. It reminds me that there's people in worse situations than me, and I also love the fact that you PROVED to yourself that if you wanted something bad enough, worked hard enough you could get it. I try to do this with the gym, and I hope I can do it with engineering

  • @michaeldsouza773
    @michaeldsouza773 8 месяцев назад

    Super powerful testimony brother. Takes real compassion to share your failures to uplift others.