Noticing one of the symbolism of Hello Kitty as a symbol of innocence in the trauma core art (thought too deep into it), the fact she doesn't have a mouth makes me sad. The thought of not being able to speak for so long with bottled emotions and thoughts is super sad. Having no mouth.
@@zeni.mallow What I'm trying to say is that she wasn't intended to evoke deep symbols about communication. In order to make cartoons to sell products (in this case, to kids, though hello kitty goods have an intergenerational appeal) they had to give her the ability to speak, even if it meant betraying the original design
"Oh no" "Why was i not good enough?" "It still hurts" "I'm not entirely here" "My head! So loud! It's all too loud" "I will be leaving soon" "We missed you! Where have you been?" "Is any of this real?" "Is there no escape?" "Do you still think about it?" Why do these quotes make me look around- Also "find me" on a picture of a forest reminds me of this one time I went fishing with my parents when I was super young... Creepy, as I don't know why. I did feel like we were being watched, but not by a human... I remember that feeling... vaguely...
I'm 67% sure that the phrase: "You took a little girl and turned her into something damaged....something broken,something unlovable..." Has appeared in PetScop-
There's "A young person walks into your school building. They walk in with you. You're holding their hands. They come out crying into their hands, because nobody will love them, not ever again." but to my knowledge that specific phrase is never in petscop?
Ok but the one with the train and the broken window hit too close to home. I was sexuality assaulted in a late night train and everything I could think of after that is "What was I supposed to do? I could do something to prevent it, right? I had to do something, why didn't I do anything to save myself?" Edit: everyone in the comments is so kind and sweet, I don't deserve y'all ;w;
@hi i love u!! I’m very sorry to hear that, this is the world we live in, try to remember that the only thing that count is that you’re STRONG, and that you made it despite everything else. You’re here and you’re alive, and I hope we’all see all our dreams come true. In your lonely depressing times remember that You’re NOT alone, you have the people in your corner that love you and want to see you happy even if Doesn’t feel like it. I know it’s not much but I hope I was able to give you even just a little comfort. If you feel like you may be experiencing a lot of distress by remembering this traumatic experience try to seek for professional help, or just watch a RUclipsr called Psych2Go, they discuss a lot of mental issues including this, try to check it out, hope it’ll help.
oh my god..i hope ur doing ok rn..well..heres some flowers and hearts, and a virtual hug..💗💗💛💛🌸🌸🌸🌺🌺💜💜🌷🌷🌼🌼🌼🌼💙💙💘💘💘💖💝💝💝💝💝🫂 hope you feel better. -breadsticks
Hi hun, I understand what you went through and I was you to move past it and forget. I know it’s hard to forget, but trust me. It’s worth it in the end. Sending you love and hugs. 💜
Seeing this just now makes me sad, knowing that somebody on the internet needing guidance they cannot get- Just know that your loved sweetheart! Even if you don't know it *o(〃＾▽＾〃)o*
Don't worry i am with you That happened to me too.. “I got raped too ;)” And WHO DID THAT MY STUPID OLDER BROTHER I THOUGHT HE WAS NICE AND KIND but no... He was a monster
Fr... I used to skip school for weeks on end because of home issues and when I came back they would say the exact same thing and the feeling it gives me is undescribable
TW: I was groomed so many times, my body is so dirty. I was 12 and it was my fault I let those men do that to me. I liked it when they loved me. I told them I was abused previously, and they told me they’d take care of me. Instead they made my life hell
It wasnt your fault, no matter what you may think. It shouldn’t be YOU who has to stop them from doing something like that when they should be able to realize that its wrong to do that to someone. You were just a child, and these people were adults. They should know so much better than that. They knew its a crime and yet they still did it. You shouldn’t have to take the blame for someone else’s actions and choices, they have to take the blame. I really hope you’re doing better and i’ll say it again, it wasnt your fault
Hello Kitty is such an early 2000’s symbol, every time I look at her it reminds me of the best and worst of those times. I think she and a few other Sanrio characters really represent childhood during that period of time. Also, thank you for making this. It makes me feel at peace with myself, and I can’t thank you enough.
TRIGGER WARNING: My early teenage years were ruined by a man who I thought loved me, as well as childhood abandonment and abuse. I met him when I was only 13and he was 22. He ruined everything for me for 4 years. I didn’t get to go out with friends or date or do the things a young girl was suppose to do. My teenage years were thrown away from me. And I’ll never get them back. Groomed me and treated me like a toy. I never realized it now until I turned 18 and saw that it was pedophilia. I’m now 22, I suffer from BPD and a number of other mental health problems. I just want to go back. I want to go back and be young and happy.
That's just terrible to hear... I can't believe someone like you has gone through that... The random stranger on the internet wishes you the best, life will get better for you my friend!
Although I dont have massive trauma. This just reminds me of when my parents fight. Everyone bursts into sides and my brother always chooses my dad. I sit there, crying as my dad threatens to kill himself
I’m so sorry. Someday you’ll look back on this and realise that this is indeed horribly traumatising. Please, don’t stay quiet. Tell someone, someone you trust. I really hope things get better.
@@gravito1573 I myself don’t have much trauma even despite some things I’ve been through but I would love to lucid dream to maybe get some of it off me
Potential triggers: mentions of su1cid3, and s1urs. I never really thought I would relate to a lot of this, as I've always counted myself as being dramatic, I still don't even know if I'm truly upset or not I've been having thoughts of su1cid3, mostly because of school and family related issues. I used to do so good, used to always graduate honors. By 5th grade though, I got my first F and it was the worst day of my life. I'll never forget how they yelled at me and how worthless and stupid I felt. After that I was worn down and didn't get as good grades. Being called names like stupid and r3t@rded by my mother made this worse. I've been having occasional thoughts of su1c1d3 around here. I feel tired but I've been trying to catch myself up with all attempts failing and life doesn't feel worth living anymore. I stopped talking to my friends because of this and now I have nobody to talk to except my aunt, who I'm still scared to fully open up to because she'll probably confront mom. I understand why she'd do this, but I don't want her to know. Adding the fact when I had to explain this to my mom who saw I was failing multiple classes and she boiled it down to me being depressed because she wouldn't let me "slack". I just want to get away from everyone. My parents argue a lot too, I'm used to it but sometimes they'll go an extra mile and it'll be scary. Everyone is so loud and it's so stressful and I can't wait to leave. The only thing stopping me at the moment is fear of death and potential nothingness, after that's gone, I'll disappear.
Weakass. Your parents r calling u stupid and you feel suicidal? Fucking weakling. You dont know what suffering is. You dont what's like to have the big hands of your dad choking the hell out of your throat, being at the verge of death if it wasnt for my brother impeaching him. You dont know what's like to being the undesired kid, knowing it since you heard a familial conversation, being the undesired and despised kid my whole childhood, being bullied at school and coming at home to continue the nightmare. To be the kid who never knew what it felt like to be loved, who couldnt remember a single time when he was taken in his dad's or mother's arms and feeling safe and loved, but instead feeling like my only safe space is in front of the TV eating my cereals, a little reliefment out of the nightmare that i was living anywhere else (in my dreams / at home / at school / outside). People like you are pissing me off like crazy, because y'all are thinking that you've suffered like crazy, when your suffering is ridiculous. You didnt attempted on yourself a double-digits number of times at the age of 15 you, shut the f%#k up.
most of these hit a little to close to home. when i was 4, I’m now 12, my parents did drugs and a lot of the time when the police came over I would have to hide the drugs and myself. I didn’t know at the time but when they finally took me away and sent me to my grandmas house i didn’t even know who she was. My parents had kept me away from the world Bc they didn’t wanna lose me. It hurts so much. They even cut themselves in front of me. I mean imagine you have one thing disappear from your life each day til you have nothing…I had my hole world taken away from my in seconds. Don’t stay quiet…
im 11 (turning 12) and my parents fought and it scared me a little and i texted my friends in pure panic. i cried with my dog because i thought i would never see her again that night.. then it got louder and louder and i just played roblox all night, crying and confused. they always ask, why are you on the internet all day.. well i'd be dead if it weren't for my online friends. i live with my aunt, my uncle, and cousins now. i still think, what if it had a different ending? what if im being dramatic? why am i venting, i have everything i want and im spoiled. im the good child.. who gave up. and now im a disappointment. but maybe i should suck it up and keep it away from everyone. but those were old times. im not listening to what that person told me anymore. that person.. is hurting me and my mother and was hurting us all along. mostly.. me. why couldnt i have a normal childhood.. why did i have to always go under strict rules at 8. why couldnt i go and play and be loud? that person. why couldnt i have privacy? that person. i could never have anything to myself because of them. and that person.. is my stepmother. f-ck my stepmother. shes a h0e for that.
Even though I haven't experienced anything close to a severe trauma, I can still find that odd comfort in these images, some hit too close to home. I am tremendously sad and sorry for all the people who went through such horrible stuff and didn't deserve it. It's heartbreaking.
Oml, whenever I see these, I think of an empty department store with all but one light on. The one light is flickering right next to the exit, I’m in the front of the store and suddenly the other lights completely die out and it’s only that one light.....flickering
I'm just so happy that I'm not the only one that feels that way :) I got raped when I was 12...i'm almost 16 now and in therapy. It doesn't matter how many years it happened ago... It can still destroy you. You guys are not alone :)
I believe it's concidered a kind of childhood trauma, there's an acronym, but I currently can't remember it, so yes. It is concidered a form of trauma.
0:27 this image really hit me because when I was little if I bought a toy or had a habit it was very hard to let go of it.I had a baby bottle all the way up until I was like 7 since it was hard to let go so I feel this
No it's because you probably went to other place kinda like that a long time ago and it looks familiar and you think you went there before that's probably why
For a some weird reason, this reminds of 2009s days. When the internet was new to me, when all your friends used to send memes through Windows messenger. When you were used to play music on youtube or wait for a long time to download a single thing. Well, i was just nine yrs old, I would feel bothered about my actions and how lifeline goes by.
Because my cousin shoved a incense stick into my furby’s mouth 5 years ago. I just found it and it screamed so horribly and loud, my rabbit shat himself on the sofa
The image of the swings with the ruining childhood message affected me alot, while my experiences aren’t that bad compared to others I saw in the cs, there is a “family member” I know who turned out to be a manipulative liar, he’s also frightening when he’s angry. I’m still growing up and I wish that they had just not done what they did. I hope everyone else with bad experiences is able to overcome their trauma, talk to somebody if you’re upset. It really helps when you talk to someone who listens and is kind, trust me.
Although I don’t have trauma, I still remember when I was playing in the living room with some random toys, and I hear my mom and dad screaming at eachother. My dad eventually left and slammed the front door behind him. I was only 3, but it’s still so vivid, somehow :( I now have a stepdad who yells at my mom and me, calling me “fcking stupid” and such. I don’t usually tell anyone this because I don’t wanna seem dramatic. But on the internet, you can remain anonymous.
traumacore has to be one of the most insensitive aesthetics I've ever seen. (Unless you use it to cope) but people using it because they think it's "qUiRkY uWu" is just gross. Say I'm gatekeeping all you want but this kind of thing ACTUALLY HAPPENS TO PEOPLE and it ruins their lives.
THIS. I thought I was only the person who's thinking the same way as people don't call out on this bullshit when it's so apparent. Unless people have the actual trauma or something, but for others, the disrespect is just so fucking bad. The extent of being oblivious of some people so they could just earn some "quirky" badges is ridiculous. The self-awareness, where is it?
I think most people who use it are coping with trauma tbf, judging from what I've seen and my own experience, but yeah I'd have to agree that if someone is just using it to seem aesthetic or edgy they're shit. I make traumacore images myself, though I don't post them aside from some that don't really fall under traumacore, rather weirdcore, and they help me. Seeing others help me too, as well as traumacore esc music, so I'm not against seeing it in general but some people really do glorify it and thats not alright lol
I’ll never be clean again. They took it all away from me. My purity has been stripped, my innocence stolen and ripped to shreds right in front of me. I deserve to suffer because I let what happen to me happen and fester inside of me. I am not a person anymore, I am simply a problem who always resorts to searching for all the rights things in all the horribly wrong places. I have failed my Shepard and now I am nothing. I am becoming nothing. I am what’s inside of the shadows. I have chosen this; therefore I should not be sad because this is truly all of my fault and only my fault. I could’ve done more, but I didn’t. I will never be enough. It’s never going to be enough no matter how hard I try. I will keep lying to myself and to others. And God doesn’t like liars. I don’t understand how God could love me now or even how He did then. I am failing and now I am letting what I fought for so long win. Now I am slowly fading to oblivion where one day I will wake up and the day will come where I will ultimately fade and pass on into nothing.
This introduced me to weirdcore and when I see it I am reminded of a dirty place in my life. I am reminded of my wishes and my fears, the pain I inflicted upon myself and my abuser’s face, although we were young it was still a crime left unpunished. My body image is destroyed and Traumacore/Weirdcore brings me comfort and has brung me comfort for close to 2 years. It’s been difficult but it’s been getting better, I’m fixing stuff. If I ever see this in the future I can only hope that I am okay, healthy and breathing.
"Yes mommy, you promised me you loved me right? Then why you said that i was undesired to big bro and daddy yesterday? Before sleeping i heard everything" What i want to say since this day, when i was 10 years old
I really loved that video, for me is a masterpiece that give me feelings indescribable, despite that being about a trauma. I really like videos like this in YT. Very good your work.
*tw: harassment and psychological bullying* So, there was a boy in 5th grade (we are in the same class since 4th grade in elementary school), he manipulated me, he told me that my friends don't care about me, he grabbed my hand and hurt me, it was very annoying. and said many uncomfortable, obscene and out of context things that upset the whole class, I'm not the only victim, the rest of my classmates were too. Also, the teacher who taught me in the 5th and 6th grade left me very traumatized, she put too much pressure on me so that all, ALL, the image of my school looked good, the success of my classroom and the elementary level depended on how well I I went to school competitions, etc. The saddest thing about all this is that there were many consequences, i had nightmares, anxiety attacks about this guy and that teacher, i visited my best friends at my old school about two months ago, i didn't even see the guy that close, but I started to shake and felt nauseous. I left the place because, I hate feeling like I can be manipulated again. I am unable to hear the voice of that teacher bc i start to get nervous and want to vomit, (also, I don't like hearing to it because it brings back memories i don't want to remember) lol. Nobody, nobody listened to me, not the teachers, not the principal, not even my dad, bc when I told him all this, he worried more about the boy than about his own daughter. I'm sick and tired of knowing that they don't believe me, and that until now no one, has told the truth about the hell of a teacher that she is, about the hell that boy put me through, and about everything that me and my bestfriends went through in elementary school/middle school. My dad changed my school, and until now I talk to my friends. Tbh, I don't know how they manage to continue in the same class with that boy, and with his friends (who also hurt us.) yes, i needed to vent this sh1t. i've been healing and processing all this, bc atm i didn't realize. ily y'all and take care, this rlly helps me to cope my trauma.💗
I sometimes feel uncomfortable seeing these times of stuff I am still young but I feel very scared and weirded out… I feel like I’ve seen these before..
Even tho, trauma isn't a aesthetic, I like this. The pictures js comfort me n someway. But traumacore isn't okay. Thanks 4 this video. Some people might use traumacore as a way 2 vent or let out emotions, but it's still not okay.
I feel like a have trauma but at the same time it's nonexistant. It was pretty bad and even now the situation with my parents isn't the best...but I feel like back then it was way worse yet I feel like I'm not bothered by it enough. Even thought after realizing how long the whole ordeal dragged on later (it lasted 6 years) it made me feel terrible but the feeling didn't last long. It feels more like a gap that I don't pay much attention to which may be me just coping but I do feel weird that it seems like I don't care much about it. Although I won't deny that it has influenced quite a few of my fears today but idk, feels weird
One of the worst things about this, is that after awhile the sickness starts seeping out of your inner world and becomes visible to the outside. It's like poisonous gas surrounding the edges of your body; People, regular people, begin to vaguely sense it and eventually they can clearly see the poison surrounding you. It doesn't matter if you're acting nice, normal, funny, etc etc... because their instincts tell them to stay away, and so they do - the congeniality is there but you'll always be on the outside, never close, a desolate creature. I used to be able to keep the perfect mask, but the emptiness has carved scars on my soul and it shows on my face.
I didnt even searched this stuff, i stumbled upon it by chance. I dont know if its a trend, but why it looks like its artistic or smth? Do y'all people think traumas are cool ? Its really pissing. I just hope i'm missing the point. But yeah, childhood traumas sucks ass fr. Feeling like your household isnt safe, being almost choked to death by your dad, being regularly intimidated by your brother (he always scared me at nighttime, it gave me irrationnal fear of the dark that i still have today), being the undesired kid (i always knew it but one day i heard it, i bursted in tears in my room, i was 10 or 11 or smth), growing without familial sport, being like a ghost when you were a brat who needed support and love (i was so desperate for attention that i sticked up to every relationship i developed later on my life, i never knew what it felt like to be loved by your parents, to have someone who cares for you, to have someone who wants you alive), wanting this nightmare to stop and attempting on myself multiple times (i had a double-digits number of suicide attempts at the age of 15), failing every single time, perpetuating this nightmare again and again, developing severe schizophrenia, PTSDs, crippling depression and fear of everyone (i was so afraid that i couldnt even ask what the hour was to a stranger, i was so scared). And now, here i am, in my worst psychological downfalls, i always was from the victim side of the trauma (being afraid, weak, ...), now i'm starting to be the one causing the traumas (i'm developing big anger issues, i have an unexplainable bloodlust and i almost killed my brother). I just want to stop being a fucking freak man, i dont even want to be bad, i just want to be in peace. But i know that i wont, i'm destined to perpetuate this cycle of suffering, its the only thing i know in this world, suffering and causing suffering and chaos, that's it. That's all i've learned, and that's all i will learn me too. My foolish self at 14 yo thought he'd change, hah, what a dumbass. He didnt knew that life was about to be much harder the upcoming years, since causing traumas is way more traumatizing than being traumatized, believe me.
I understand that some people are fans of this core because it's quite interesting and different, but if someone has a problem in life, then guys, I'm worried. Please find someone who can support you, talk to you, or even comfort you. Don't think about bad things, everything can turn into reality. You just need to think about something good, have fun with friends and your interlocutors. Thank you.
No one can help me shut the f#ck up hypocrite Everyone treat me as a freak, i cant trust no one since the psys betrayed me (one of them wanted to call the cops because i said that i caused the s#icide of someone, and the worst of all is that he said that i could say whatever i wanted, fucking hypocrite) I cant trust no one anymore, everyone wants to mock me or humiliate me or belittle me or deshumanize me, people are thinking being a lone wolf is cool, no motherfucker when you're a freak despised by everyone, there is nothing cool about it, it sucks ass.
Noticing one of the symbolism of Hello Kitty as a symbol of innocence in the trauma core art (thought too deep into it), the fact she doesn't have a mouth makes me sad.
The thought of not being able to speak for so long with bottled emotions and thoughts is super sad. Having no mouth.
she does canonically speak, but i understand what you mean--she definitely appears to embody silence, though sanrio didn't intend her that way.
she has no mouth and she must scream
actually she speaks through her heart which could also be a symbol. i get what you mean though.
@@fuwayuru wait they didnt intend her that way? if so, do you know how they wanted to intend her?
@@zeni.mallow What I'm trying to say is that she wasn't intended to evoke deep symbols about communication. In order to make cartoons to sell products (in this case, to kids, though hello kitty goods have an intergenerational appeal) they had to give her the ability to speak, even if it meant betraying the original design
1:21
I can't with those last words "You ruined my only chance at childhood" cause shit. It kinda hits too close to home for me
I want to be innocent and clean again.
Me too
Hey everybody 👋
we’re all becoming the person that our younger selves were afraid of. you’re not alone
I wanna be child again so bad i can't stop thinking about what would i do if i was little i want it so.much
same
"Oh no"
"Why was i not good enough?"
"It still hurts"
"I'm not entirely here"
"My head! So loud! It's all too loud"
"I will be leaving soon"
"We missed you! Where have you been?"
"Is any of this real?"
"Is there no escape?"
"Do you still think about it?"
Why do these quotes make me look around-
Also "find me" on a picture of a forest reminds me of this one time I went fishing with my parents when I was super young...
Creepy, as I don't know why.
I did feel like we were being watched, but not by a human... I remember that feeling... vaguely...
Wow- I've never been through a forest
I have...
It happened when I was playing with my friends...
I WAS 7...!!!!!!!!!!!
This feels like the backrooms but with a less scarier music
I agreee
Same
Indeed
It's very similar to liminal spaces,Dreamcore and weirdcore
Getting lost in the endless hallways of old memories
I'm 67% sure that the phrase: "You took a little girl and turned her into something damaged....something broken,something unlovable..." Has appeared in PetScop-
bruh
There's "A young person walks into your school building.
They walk in with you. You're holding their hands. They come out crying into their hands, because nobody will love them, not ever again." but to my knowledge that specific phrase is never in petscop?
@@haunted.doll.s o h
@@haunted.doll.s sorry i must've gotten confused
@@haunted.doll.s Thanks for telling me!:D
Ok but the one with the train and the broken window hit too close to home. I was sexuality assaulted in a late night train and everything I could think of after that is "What was I supposed to do? I could do something to prevent it, right? I had to do something, why didn't I do anything to save myself?"
Edit: everyone in the comments is so kind and sweet, I don't deserve y'all ;w;
@hi i love u!!
I’m very sorry to hear that, this is the world we live in, try to remember that the only thing that count is that you’re STRONG, and that you made it despite everything else. You’re here and you’re alive, and I hope we’all see all our dreams come true. In your lonely depressing times remember that You’re NOT alone, you have the people in your corner that love you and want to see you happy even if Doesn’t feel like it.
I know it’s not much but I hope I was able to give you even just a little comfort. If you feel like you may be experiencing a lot of distress by remembering this traumatic experience try to seek for professional help, or just watch a RUclipsr called Psych2Go, they discuss a lot of mental issues including this, try to check it out, hope it’ll help.
oh my god..i hope ur doing ok rn..well..heres some flowers and hearts, and a virtual hug..💗💗💛💛🌸🌸🌸🌺🌺💜💜🌷🌷🌼🌼🌼🌼💙💙💘💘💘💖💝💝💝💝💝🫂
hope you feel better.
-breadsticks
Hi hun, I understand what you went through and I was you to move past it and forget. I know it’s hard to forget, but trust me. It’s worth it in the end. Sending you love and hugs. 💜
Seeing this just now makes me sad, knowing that somebody on the internet needing guidance they cannot get-
Just know that your loved sweetheart! Even if you don't know it *o(〃＾▽＾〃)o*
Don't worry i am with you
That happened to me too..
“I got raped too ;)”
And WHO DID THAT MY STUPID OLDER BROTHER I THOUGHT HE WAS NICE AND KIND but no... He was a monster
1:01 the “We missed you! Where have you been?” hit WAYYYY too close to home
yup
how
@@haytham2301internet ppl care more than real ones
Fr... I used to skip school for weeks on end because of home issues and when I came back they would say the exact same thing and the feeling it gives me is undescribable
TW:
I was groomed so many times, my body is so dirty. I was 12 and it was my fault I let those men do that to me. I liked it when they loved me. I told them I was abused previously, and they told me they’d take care of me. Instead they made my life hell
...tbh your an idiot ngl but this isnt a hate comment.
OMG?!? 😨
That actually happened to you??
It wasnt your fault, no matter what you may think. It shouldn’t be YOU who has to stop them from doing something like that when they should be able to realize that its wrong to do that to someone. You were just a child, and these people were adults. They should know so much better than that. They knew its a crime and yet they still did it. You shouldn’t have to take the blame for someone else’s actions and choices, they have to take the blame. I really hope you’re doing better and i’ll say it again, it wasnt your fault
0:24 Okay, but the fact that it's a character from an anime "Kodomo no Jikan" that fell in love with an adult teacher-💀
Ik
Oh sht-
most of the hotel rooms/bedrooms felt familiar, yet i'm sure i have never been to those places before.
Yeah that's why I like watching dreamcore/weirdcore/Tramacore videos. It's a weird feeling that's weirdly likeable once you get used to it.
@@Itz_Mothii agree! and sometimes i feel like i'm not in reality somehow
They are called liminal spaces
I saw them in my dreams. It's how I would find them here. That's why it's so familiar.
same, except for the hospital bed, reminds me of when i broke my arm lol cuz ive been there
Hello Kitty is such an early 2000’s symbol, every time I look at her it reminds me of the best and worst of those times. I think she and a few other Sanrio characters really represent childhood during that period of time.
Also, thank you for making this. It makes me feel at peace with myself, and I can’t thank you enough.
don't know what is the need to search for this it makes me feel so sad 😔😭
Search up traumacore for more videos like this :]
me too i hate it but i need it
TRIGGER WARNING:
My early teenage years were ruined by a man who I thought loved me, as well as childhood abandonment and abuse. I met him when I was only 13and he was 22. He ruined everything for me for 4 years. I didn’t get to go out with friends or date or do the things a young girl was suppose to do. My teenage years were thrown away from me. And I’ll never get them back. Groomed me and treated me like a toy. I never realized it now until I turned 18 and saw that it was pedophilia. I’m now 22, I suffer from BPD and a number of other mental health problems. I just want to go back. I want to go back and be young and happy.
Rooting for u
im so sorry for you and hope you recived your healing but this reminded me of a song, all you wann do by six
@@7drienn Thank you, I'm still far away from recovery but I'm still alive and breathing. I wish nothing but the best for you.
i feel bad for you :( hope your doing good now!
That's just terrible to hear... I can't believe someone like you has gone through that... The random stranger on the internet wishes you the best, life will get better for you my friend!
Although I dont have massive trauma. This just reminds me of when my parents fight. Everyone bursts into sides and my brother always chooses my dad. I sit there, crying as my dad threatens to kill himself
Bro that's definitively trauma
Definitely*
I’m so sorry. Someday you’ll look back on this and realise that this is indeed horribly traumatising. Please, don’t stay quiet. Tell someone, someone you trust. I really hope things get better.
@@tommibear4013 it's fine it only happens every few months.. kinda
Thanks kaeya PFP👌
@@xiuehe ofc 😌
I thought its just me being edgy… But in reality I’m traumatized and trying to cope by reliving the nightmares.
Do you make lucid dream often?
@@gravito1573 do lucid dreams help with trauma?
@@BeeTheTravler yeah sometimes no because it could easily turns into your worst nightmare, but most of the Time it helps, atleast for me
@@gravito1573 I myself don’t have much trauma even despite some things I’ve been through but I would love to lucid dream to maybe get some of it off me
Hope you recover
this song makes me remember evreything that i have been through for some reson
Same here, and it reminded me a particular dream I had
Potential triggers: mentions of su1cid3, and s1urs.
I never really thought I would relate to a lot of this, as I've always counted myself as being dramatic, I still don't even know if I'm truly upset or not
I've been having thoughts of su1cid3, mostly because of school and family related issues. I used to do so good, used to always graduate honors. By 5th grade though, I got my first F and it was the worst day of my life. I'll never forget how they yelled at me and how worthless and stupid I felt.
After that I was worn down and didn't get as good grades. Being called names like stupid and r3t@rded by my mother made this worse. I've been having occasional thoughts of su1c1d3 around here. I feel tired but I've been trying to catch myself up with all attempts failing and life doesn't feel worth living anymore. I stopped talking to my friends because of this and now I have nobody to talk to except my aunt, who I'm still scared to fully open up to because she'll probably confront mom. I understand why she'd do this, but I don't want her to know. Adding the fact when I had to explain this to my mom who saw I was failing multiple classes and she boiled it down to me being depressed because she wouldn't let me "slack". I just want to get away from everyone.
My parents argue a lot too, I'm used to it but sometimes they'll go an extra mile and it'll be scary. Everyone is so loud and it's so stressful and I can't wait to leave.
The only thing stopping me at the moment is fear of death and potential nothingness, after that's gone, I'll disappear.
Hey, I am very sorry to hear that :( .I hope everything gets better.
Weakass.
Your parents r calling u stupid and you feel suicidal? Fucking weakling.
You dont know what suffering is.
You dont what's like to have the big hands of your dad choking the hell out of your throat, being at the verge of death if it wasnt for my brother impeaching him. You dont know what's like to being the undesired kid, knowing it since you heard a familial conversation, being the undesired and despised kid my whole childhood, being bullied at school and coming at home to continue the nightmare. To be the kid who never knew what it felt like to be loved, who couldnt remember a single time when he was taken in his dad's or mother's arms and feeling safe and loved, but instead feeling like my only safe space is in front of the TV eating my cereals, a little reliefment out of the nightmare that i was living anywhere else (in my dreams / at home / at school / outside). People like you are pissing me off like crazy, because y'all are thinking that you've suffered like crazy, when your suffering is ridiculous. You didnt attempted on yourself a double-digits number of times at the age of 15 you, shut the f%#k up.
1:13 This phrased kinda gave me anger
My trauma isn't as major as a lot of people's but... It still scares me.
Same bro
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@the ghost of u i bet ur traumas mid and not bad shut up and go outside freak
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01:21 "i will never be young again, you ruined my only chance at childhood" got me
most of these hit a little to close to home. when i was 4, I’m now 12, my parents did drugs and a lot of the time when the police came over I would have to hide the drugs and myself. I didn’t know at the time but when they finally took me away and sent me to my grandmas house i didn’t even know who she was. My parents had kept me away from the world Bc they didn’t wanna lose me. It hurts so much. They even cut themselves in front of me. I mean imagine you have one thing disappear from your life each day til you have nothing…I had my hole world taken away from my in seconds. Don’t stay quiet…
im 11 (turning 12) and my parents fought and it scared me a little and i texted my friends in pure panic. i cried with my dog because i thought i would never see her again that night.. then it got louder and louder and i just played roblox all night, crying and confused. they always ask, why are you on the internet all day.. well i'd be dead if it weren't for my online friends. i live with my aunt, my uncle, and cousins now. i still think, what if it had a different ending? what if im being dramatic? why am i venting, i have everything i want and im spoiled. im the good child.. who gave up. and now im a disappointment. but maybe i should suck it up and keep it away from everyone. but those were old times. im not listening to what that person told me anymore. that person.. is hurting me and my mother and was hurting us all along. mostly.. me. why couldnt i have a normal childhood.. why did i have to always go under strict rules at 8. why couldnt i go and play and be loud? that person. why couldnt i have privacy? that person. i could never have anything to myself because of them.
and that person.. is my stepmother. f-ck my stepmother. shes a h0e for that.
Hows it hanging, pal?
Even though I haven't experienced anything close to a severe trauma, I can still find that odd comfort in these images, some hit too close to home. I am tremendously sad and sorry for all the people who went through such horrible stuff and didn't deserve it. It's heartbreaking.
for me, i dont have trauma, but i cry from this. Do u know the reason why?
@@nanajpempathy for those who went through that
Oml, whenever I see these, I think of an empty department store with all but one light on. The one light is flickering right next to the exit, I’m in the front of the store and suddenly the other lights completely die out and it’s only that one light.....flickering
I'm just so happy that I'm not the only one that feels that way :) I got raped when I was 12...i'm almost 16 now and in therapy.
It doesn't matter how many years it happened ago... It can still destroy you.
You guys are not alone :)
Sad
I can’t imagine…
I hope you have an amazing future, and you’re very successful in life
You are very strong, and I wish you all the best for your future. ♥️
❤❤❤ I’m a CSA survivor too. You are not alone 🫂 We will get through this together!
I hope everyone who deals with trauma get an amazing future! Also, does being
bullied count
as a part of trauma?
so many things can be trauma if it hurts the person bad enough. so yes it can be
I believe it's concidered a kind of childhood trauma, there's an acronym, but I currently can't remember it, so yes. It is concidered a form of trauma.
@@beingweirdisnormal1404 Oh my god, thank you for the response! I really needed that so thank you.
@@lastspringanimations Thank you as well!
@@km8898 you're welcome!
my boyfriend broke up with me bcuz I'm black so I decided to listen to this and cried my heart out :)
I hope your day gets better you deserve it
@@Mattatap aww thank you 🥺
Your ex is a bitch.
When did he find out
I'm very confused... why would he break up with you because of your race or is this something else? No offense.
As someone who lost their childhood to someone I think that this is calming
I hope you can heal
why i feel so comfortable and good with these images? they are so relaxing to me..
They arent rly scary
Just thinking how useless my life is, we are probably just some stupid things that kill ourselves and we are just not even worth living
This made me laugh as I'm broken alone and a complete failure, it brought me some joy Idk why, maybe that's because of white widow
0:27 this image really hit me because when I was little if I bought a toy or had a habit it was very hard to let go of it.I had a baby bottle all the way up until I was like 7 since it was hard to let go so I feel this
0:49 this place looks so fricking familiar to me yet i have never been into it......
Probably because you dreamed about it
No it's because you probably went to other place kinda like that a long time ago and it looks familiar and you think you went there before that's probably why
For a some weird reason, this reminds of 2009s days. When the internet was new to me, when all your friends used to send memes through Windows messenger. When you were used to play music on youtube or wait for a long time to download a single thing. Well, i was just nine yrs old, I would feel bothered about my actions and how lifeline goes by.
That fine me tag in the woods really shook me 😳
1:57 Damn, this didn't hit too close to home, it hit home.
I see a lot of people who say they feel scared with this kind of music, but I feel like I'm at home, I feel good about this music, it relaxes me ^^
This would make a great show where the main charcher has starts to relise everythings a lie
eren
@@expex3230 you smell like a baka, eren yeager
"What is wrong? you were so happy, so healthy..." Bro.... Idk
Because my cousin shoved a incense stick into my furby’s mouth 5 years ago. I just found it and it screamed so horribly and loud, my rabbit shat himself on the sofa
The image of the swings with the ruining childhood message affected me alot, while my experiences aren’t that bad compared to others I saw in the cs, there is a “family member” I know who turned out to be a manipulative liar, he’s also frightening when he’s angry. I’m still growing up and I wish that they had just not done what they did.
I hope everyone else with bad experiences is able to overcome their trauma, talk to somebody if you’re upset. It really helps when you talk to someone who listens and is kind, trust me.
0:47 this makes me wanna cry so badly😢
0:47 i mean they aren't wrong...
Just discovered what tramacore is (From this vid) and the picture at 0:28 Hurts me. I've never had this happen to me but it makes me wanna cry.
I didn't come here due to trauma. I just came here to snuff out the Petscop-esque quotes sprinkled throughout strange videos, such as this one
0:59 i like that part :)
0:21 the fact that I have this exact plushie
minuto 1:30 AYUDA MI HERMANA Y YO YA HEMOS VISTO ESA SOMBRA EN NUESTRO CUARTO Y EN LA CASA DE MI ABUELA-
Although I don’t have trauma, I still remember when I was playing in the living room with some random toys, and I hear my mom and dad screaming at eachother. My dad eventually left and slammed the front door behind him. I was only 3, but it’s still so vivid, somehow :(
I now have a stepdad who yells at my mom and me, calling me “fcking stupid” and such. I don’t usually tell anyone this because I don’t wanna seem dramatic. But on the internet, you can remain anonymous.
traumacore has to be one of the most insensitive aesthetics I've ever seen. (Unless you use it to cope) but people using it because they think it's "qUiRkY uWu" is just gross. Say I'm gatekeeping all you want but this kind of thing ACTUALLY HAPPENS TO PEOPLE and it ruins their lives.
THIS. I thought I was only the person who's thinking the same way as people don't call out on this bullshit when it's so apparent. Unless people have the actual trauma or something, but for others, the disrespect is just so fucking bad. The extent of being oblivious of some people so they could just earn some "quirky" badges is ridiculous. The self-awareness, where is it?
@@querencia8697 finally someone who doesn't throw every excuse in the book at me on this one
I think most people who use it are coping with trauma tbf, judging from what I've seen and my own experience, but yeah I'd have to agree that if someone is just using it to seem aesthetic or edgy they're shit. I make traumacore images myself, though I don't post them aside from some that don't really fall under traumacore, rather weirdcore, and they help me. Seeing others help me too, as well as traumacore esc music, so I'm not against seeing it in general but some people really do glorify it and thats not alright lol
ITS NOT EVEN AN AESTHETIC HOLY SHIT
i looked behind me 12 times while watching this
oh look at that, 13 times
this
this is what I've been looking for
I’ll never be clean again. They took it all away from me. My purity has been stripped, my innocence stolen and ripped to shreds right in front of me. I deserve to suffer because I let what happen to me happen and fester inside of me. I am not a person anymore, I am simply a problem who always resorts to searching for all the rights things in all the horribly wrong places. I have failed my Shepard and now I am nothing. I am becoming nothing. I am what’s inside of the shadows. I have chosen this; therefore I should not be sad because this is truly all of my fault and only my fault. I could’ve done more, but I didn’t. I will never be enough. It’s never going to be enough no matter how hard I try. I will keep lying to myself and to others. And God doesn’t like liars. I don’t understand how God could love me now or even how He did then. I am failing and now I am letting what I fought for so long win. Now I am slowly fading to oblivion where one day I will wake up and the day will come where I will ultimately fade and pass on into nothing.
Ths makes me nervous and I like it
i felt goose bumps everywhere..
This introduced me to weirdcore and when I see it I am reminded of a dirty place in my life. I am reminded of my wishes and my fears, the pain I inflicted upon myself and my abuser’s face, although we were young it was still a crime left unpunished. My body image is destroyed and Traumacore/Weirdcore brings me comfort and has brung me comfort for close to 2 years. It’s been difficult but it’s been getting better, I’m fixing stuff. If I ever see this in the future I can only hope that I am okay, healthy and breathing.
oh this is actually legitimately triggering. but in a beautiful, cathartic way. this feels good to watch
Happiness before the internal depression
Every picture in it has a deep meaning.... Very deep meaning
And I can relate to the picture that say it's too loud
People nowadays call people emo when they’re depressed. Emo is pretty much a synonym for goth it doesn’t mean depression
Being molested is so fucking damaging. I'm fucked up now. And it was by someone I trusted, someone I loved.
you promised me you'll never go away from me,
WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?
...
"Yes mommy, you promised me you loved me right? Then why you said that i was undesired to big bro and daddy yesterday? Before sleeping i heard everything"
What i want to say since this day, when i was 10 years old
0:22 Is really funny to me for some reason, it gives off the same energy as that “No One’s Around To Help” video.
i hate the girl that made that video
THIS REALLY REPRESENTS ME.....THANK YOU.....!
I really loved that video, for me is a masterpiece that give me feelings indescribable, despite that being about a trauma. I really like videos like this in YT. Very good your work.
I've seen so many of these photos that it gives me peace now...
Fun fact.
In seven years cells replace themselves, so you’ll have cells that weren’t touch by the person.-
Bro I don't have trauma but this how my thoughts be in my head almost everyday 💀💀
SOMETHING IS JUST NOT..... RIGHT.SOMETHING IS JUST NOT..... RIGHT. ....
Turn it down to 0.75, play from beginning. I dare you.
Surprise adoption be like: 00:38
Suprise adoption turns into delayed abortion.
@@memeswereablessingfromthel3942 BRUH 😶🌫️😶🌫️😶🌫️
It's okay to cry. It's okay to feel bad.
You deserve to feel better.
These pictures make me feel bad about things sometimes
Beautifully made, I hope you are doing better now
Remember kids, TRAUMA IS NOT. A TRENDY. INTERNET. AESTHETIC.
Exactly.
*tw: harassment and psychological bullying*
So, there was a boy in 5th grade (we are in the same class since 4th grade in elementary school), he manipulated me, he told me that my friends don't care about me, he grabbed my hand and hurt me, it was very annoying. and said many uncomfortable, obscene and out of context things that upset the whole class, I'm not the only victim, the rest of my classmates were too.
Also, the teacher who taught me in the 5th and 6th grade left me very traumatized, she put too much pressure on me so that all, ALL, the image of my school looked good, the success of my classroom and the elementary level depended on how well I I went to school competitions, etc.
The saddest thing about all this is that there were many consequences, i had nightmares, anxiety attacks about this guy and that teacher, i visited my best friends at my old school about two months ago, i didn't even see the guy that close, but I started to shake and felt nauseous. I left the place because, I hate feeling like I can be manipulated again. I am unable to hear the voice of that teacher bc i start to get nervous and want to vomit, (also, I don't like hearing to it because it brings back memories i don't want to remember) lol.
Nobody, nobody listened to me, not the teachers, not the principal, not even my dad, bc when I told him all this, he worried more about the boy than about his own daughter. I'm sick and tired of knowing that they don't believe me, and that until now no one, has told the truth about the hell of a teacher that she is, about the hell that boy put me through, and about everything that me and my bestfriends went through in elementary school/middle school.
My dad changed my school, and until now I talk to my friends. Tbh, I don't know how they manage to continue in the same class with that boy, and with his friends (who also hurt us.)
yes, i needed to vent this sh1t.
i've been healing and processing all this, bc atm i didn't realize.
ily y'all and take care, this rlly helps me to cope my trauma.💗
Tysmmm 😭😊✨
the care bear in the trash really reminds me of my childhood where I’d find clothes and old toys in bags to be given away
Im scared of hospitals i feel like fainting GET IT OVER WITH
0:27 This hits really hard for me, even if I'm only 10. Yeah. 10. The time I'm making this comment, I've only lived 10 years in cruel Earth.
0:04 reminds me of full mental alchemist
Hell nah 💀
ILL SAY THIS IS MY FAV SONG I LOVE WEIRDCORES AND DREAMCORES ALOT
0:29 help this makes me so sad for no reason
I sometimes feel uncomfortable seeing these times of stuff
I am still young but I feel very scared and weirded out…
I feel like I’ve seen these before..
Thank you, i was searching a small version than original but SLOWED
0:15 hits hard
Even tho, trauma isn't a aesthetic, I like this. The pictures js comfort me n someway. But traumacore isn't okay. Thanks 4 this video. Some people might use traumacore as a way 2 vent or let out emotions, but it's still not okay.
:(: this symbol alone in the bathroom picture made my day
This is exactly the kind of video i wanted❤❤❤❤❤
I feel like a have trauma but at the same time it's nonexistant. It was pretty bad and even now the situation with my parents isn't the best...but I feel like back then it was way worse yet I feel like I'm not bothered by it enough. Even thought after realizing how long the whole ordeal dragged on later (it lasted 6 years) it made me feel terrible but the feeling didn't last long. It feels more like a gap that I don't pay much attention to which may be me just coping but I do feel weird that it seems like I don't care much about it. Although I won't deny that it has influenced quite a few of my fears today but idk, feels weird
this gave me chills and nostalgia
And now i’m depressed and full of traumatic memories
not me trying not to cry bc im in the car with my mom
Sweet music
Nostalgic pictures
Relaxings
It’s so empty.. so blank😕
This is the first time I'm ever freaked out by a core
One of the worst things about this, is that after awhile the sickness starts seeping out of your inner world and becomes visible to the outside. It's like poisonous gas surrounding the edges of your body; People, regular people, begin to vaguely sense it and eventually they can clearly see the poison surrounding you. It doesn't matter if you're acting nice, normal, funny, etc etc... because their instincts tell them to stay away, and so they do - the congeniality is there but you'll always be on the outside, never close, a desolate creature. I used to be able to keep the perfect mask, but the emptiness has carved scars on my soul and it shows on my face.
I wish I had a normal childhood, my dad tried so hard to fix it but my mom truly destroyed me
They both did.
They made me sick
They made me insecure
The made me wanna do self-harm.
I didnt even searched this stuff, i stumbled upon it by chance.
I dont know if its a trend, but why it looks like its artistic or smth? Do y'all people think traumas are cool ?
Its really pissing. I just hope i'm missing the point.
But yeah, childhood traumas sucks ass fr.
Feeling like your household isnt safe, being almost choked to death by your dad, being regularly intimidated by your brother (he always scared me at nighttime, it gave me irrationnal fear of the dark that i still have today), being the undesired kid (i always knew it but one day i heard it, i bursted in tears in my room, i was 10 or 11 or smth), growing without familial sport, being like a ghost when you were a brat who needed support and love (i was so desperate for attention that i sticked up to every relationship i developed later on my life, i never knew what it felt like to be loved by your parents, to have someone who cares for you, to have someone who wants you alive), wanting this nightmare to stop and attempting on myself multiple times (i had a double-digits number of suicide attempts at the age of 15), failing every single time, perpetuating this nightmare again and again, developing severe schizophrenia, PTSDs, crippling depression and fear of everyone (i was so afraid that i couldnt even ask what the hour was to a stranger, i was so scared).
And now, here i am, in my worst psychological downfalls, i always was from the victim side of the trauma (being afraid, weak, ...), now i'm starting to be the one causing the traumas (i'm developing big anger issues, i have an unexplainable bloodlust and i almost killed my brother).
I just want to stop being a fucking freak man, i dont even want to be bad, i just want to be in peace. But i know that i wont, i'm destined to perpetuate this cycle of suffering, its the only thing i know in this world, suffering and causing suffering and chaos, that's it. That's all i've learned, and that's all i will learn me too.
My foolish self at 14 yo thought he'd change, hah, what a dumbass. He didnt knew that life was about to be much harder the upcoming years, since causing traumas is way more traumatizing than being traumatized, believe me.
I JUST DON'T AANT TO HAVE THIS DISORDER ANYMORE PLSASE IT HURTS.
This song makes me feel safe.
I understand that some people are fans of this core because it's quite interesting and different, but if someone has a problem in life, then guys, I'm worried. Please find someone who can support you, talk to you, or even comfort you. Don't think about bad things, everything can turn into reality. You just need to think about something good, have fun with friends and your interlocutors. Thank you.
No one can help me shut the f#ck up hypocrite
Everyone treat me as a freak, i cant trust no one since the psys betrayed me (one of them wanted to call the cops because i said that i caused the s#icide of someone, and the worst of all is that he said that i could say whatever i wanted, fucking hypocrite)
I cant trust no one anymore, everyone wants to mock me or humiliate me or belittle me or deshumanize me, people are thinking being a lone wolf is cool, no motherfucker when you're a freak despised by everyone, there is nothing cool about it, it sucks ass.