the pain of recalling memories of an empty life (playlist)
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00:00 fading over time (scapes.)
03:16 snowfall (øneheart/reidenshi)
05:17 on something to which i won't admit (fading language)
07:50 time slows down (nowt)
11:07 broken air (exist strategy)
13:30 dear friend (repulsive)
17:05 what doesn't hold is bound to break (fading language)
23:09 let the sea take it away (nowt)
28:00 oktagon (ibi)
31:52 for a new meaning 'slowed' (nowt)
36:23 reverence (exist strategy)
39:17 i'll wait for you (exist strategy)
41:29 winter fingertips (monosleep)
Awesome
Often one as to reflect on life what we are and what we can be. Its healthy . But, many think that being empty is negative. In Buddhist philosophy, it is not looked down on . It is seen as part of the road to enlightenment . It could be the right way of looking at emptiness. One can then cope with the dark night of the soul.
@Classical Imperium 0جج0ج0900جك00ككج0ج0
God bless you for this one man….
How do I contact nowt to let them know how much “for a new meaning” hit me 😮💨 that’s the deepest piece on this list for me. The piano notes stubborn and unchanging, the strings arguing until they both give up, that stagnant piano tried a little longer until it finally stopped. That is the background music for any relationship that ended from a lack of healthy communication. It’s the background music for my relationship rn at least. I’m in love w that piece.
We didn't realize we were making memories, we were just having fun
- Winnie The Pooh
🤔
That’s some really deep quote from a kids show
@Maths2Go those ones yes but I remember the bs started for me when I was 13
Winnie is a good thinker
i completely forgot that winnie the pooh said that
For all those here in their late teens/early 20s thinking they've done nothing with their lives. We're still learning. We have such a ways to go. Our lives have just begun and just because you don't believe you've made a difference doesn't mean you haven't. You may have no idea how much you mean to someone else. At the very least.. all of you have made me realize I'm not alone in my own feelings.
I relate to the struggle of feeling like meaning little, but I believe by voluntary toil, one should attain stronger meaning.
Some people unlock potential through pain.
A life without hope, without meaning, without purpose.
A life of disappointment.
Is that a live worth continuing?
I ask myself that question every day- I've come to a conclusion but that conclusion is the cause of another question.
Edit: I have come to the conclusion that only god can give life meaning. I tried to run from him but no matter where I went he always revealed himself to me- even when I expected it the least
I think I done somethimg wrong some days long ago
Wow. Thank you.
I used to feel the same way, and that's exactly why you must continue to forge on. Hope, meaning, and purpose are not just concepts or opinions. Their is true hope, meaning, and purpose for every person on earth. You may not believe this now but if you are anything like me it could take quite some time to find these truths, but it is well worth it in the end. Seek and you shall find..
100 reasons to stay alive:
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your favourite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favourite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek).
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64.Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. Pray (if you are religious)
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realizing that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone you
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Someone’s skin against yours.
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it.
Ps : Never forget you are a beatiful person 💕 Life is so beatiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you 🫶🏼
Thank u, beautiful human🦋 Sending you a warm hug 🤍🫶🏻
@@_analina_ YW!
Awww this made my day, thanks ❤❤
❤❤
This made me cry
Most likely no one will notice this comment, but I come here every afternoon and evening. It helps me a lot with depression and my anxiety. I am nobody and I have no future. I am happy that even if my name will be forgotten before I even say it, I can at least be a part of this community. For me, this music is compassion and another world at the same time.
Edit: Thank you all so much for your kind comments. You gave me a lot of hope. I appreciate your help. Many of you have written that you have similar problems - to those who are struggling with it, but also to everyone else, I wish you the best of luck on your life's journey, healing and happiness. 💕
I notice you buddy, and I truly wish a future for you, I know how you feel but we gotta keep going. I have my eyes watered as I read trough all the comments here. I hope you can find purpose and peace in your journey and I'm sorry for the bad things you've gone trough.
@@thenoxz2924 thank you so much. These are the nicest words I've heard in last two years. I wish there were more people like you. I really appreciate it.
@@snowfox3264 😄
Lots of love, prayers and hugs for you 💕. I also have anxiety and depression so i can understand what you are going through. Just keep fighting. You are strong. You are worthy. 💕
Cheer up!! I know you'll get through this. I am sure you are an amazing person and I wish you the best in the world. I hope you are well and can improve. ☺️
Isnt weird how in the end we all just die and everything we ever owned, everything we ever knew, everything we ever said, experienced, felt, smelled, heard, everything just stays here. It doesn’t go with you. That first love you never told anyone about, that first kiss you never told anyone about, those little secrets you have never told a soul, they all just cease to exist with you. Life is so tragically beautiful it hurts. I’m so peacefully depressed.
♡
i can't put into words how beautiful that was so i will use an emoji 🥰
Of course, it's weird. Everything in the current existing is weird.
And because of how little sense it makes to me, I keep living this life with a kind of joy in little details. If deep pain or huge happiness. But I'm still learning how to be best friends with myself, which I believe is something we did as a child.
I think, even after realizing our weird detailed life filled with atoms and their meaning in the 21st century will be the infinite past by dying - we still can live at the moment, or dream at the moment. Even wasting your time doesn't unfulfill life itself. It's all about being able to appreciate and kind of respect it.
Read up on reincarnation and past life regression hypnosis. Death isn't the end, it's the beginning of the next round.
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
At the age of 53, as I write, I am thinking of how I have deeply hurt everyone I love. The nothingness of what I have accomplished. Being disabled I am tired. I sleep more than I am awake. Addicted to the dreams that I didn't make. To the chances, I didn't take. The pain in my heart is a constant ache. I am grateful for this life and those I did forsake. Just wish I could make the voices in my head be still.
I’m sorry. I hope everything gets better. Stay strong 💪
@@sakedamayo_yt5998 it is. One day at a time. One step at a time. Thank you for your kindness. Happy New Year. It's never too late when we are here in this world, to change and grow.
@@dawnmichelleseidlgodsey120 couldn’t be better said.
@@sakedamayo_yt5998 🩵💙💜
Tomorrow is another chance
STOP PLANNING! STOP TRYING TO GET EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL! Wake up, do what feels right, give it your all and go back to sleep. It's as simple as that. Don't complicate your happiness. Happiness is hidden in simplicity.
(ooh 6k likes, I just posted my first song on my channel, lmk what you think)
Thank you man that helps a lot actually
Wow
@@slywrlddd glad it does 🙏🙏
@@nathanversluys6625 🙏🙏
Can‘t… can‘t do it alone… but i kno i could with a helping hand… but nah i can‘t
They didnt notice you were crying
They didn't notice you were sad
They didn’t notice you were tired
They didn’t notice you were alone
They didn’t notice how attentive you were
They didn’t notice how sweet you actually are...
They didn’t notice how you actually try to make others smile
They did notice you failing grades
They did notice your unattractive
They did notice the mean side of you
They did notice all your mistakes
They did notice all you flaws
They did notice that you weren’t good enough for them.
But you stayed strong
You kept going on
You never gave up on hope
You never let them take you down
And you know they wasn’t good enough for you
And that’s what make you stronger
ur real for this.
Meet God man bc at this state you will find true love.
@@TreyGuy2 i highly agree
you’re*
This is beautiful thanks
The darkest patch of night sky holds galaxies unseen just as a the soil beneath our feet is home to more bacteria than there are stars. Don’t discount times that you see as empty, there is always something
Ehi friend, thank you. May I ask you if you wrote it ? Is that a poetry?
@@simonericcardi6090 thank you friend I'm glad you enjoyed. I wrote that based on my life experience, I thought sharing what Ive learned might help some people who are feeling down
your poetry is beautiful.
Poem
Woah, I needed this. Thanks.
the worst part is not remembering the memories in your life until someone recalls a memory and it all comes back, the memories flooding all at once.
Yeah, like right now, that's what I'm going through right now in my own head memories of my childhood and of both good and bad memories and both happy and sad memories and scary ones and thrill and chill ones to memories of my earlier day's adventures and childhood life and experiences that for the life of me I try bringing back up to the forefront of my brain and it's slow moving but it gets there I the end afterwards.
It doesn't have to be and image in you head. It brought you here and that's all that matters. You became who you are all because of those moments and all that matters will always stay with you.
@@Leviksetrepee and then you die
signs of trauma can relate.
It’s been a while since i have been crying like this. Yet i am somehow happy about it. I read through the stories of strangers and suddenly i don’t feel that alone anymore.
same feelings, we're not alone in loneliness
I don't think that I can even cry anymore because I've tried, and I can only get out of only one single tear drop out of one eye tearduct getting them both going is hard but if I am really sad then yeah only then would cry like actually cry tears like two rivers down my face. And for those of all of you feeling down in the dumps and sad, here's a virtual 🫂 to all of you.
I feel the same way whenever i read the comments in here.
I dont know how many "it is what it is" I have left in me man
Keep the ones you have left. You'll to use them anyway, but not everytime. There are things that you will have to accept and move on. Things you can't change. But that doesn't mean you shouldn't care or the you should just ignore. True strength comes from being able to put armor around yourself but not covering your eyes, for you should be able to see without feel. This is a skill, it takes time, so keep pushing and know that one day, you'll definitely get there
you know your at that stage of life where you feel nothing like you don’t know what the hell is wrong with you just a blank thought in your head like you can’t even cry to empty yourself that’s how I feel
Embrace all emotions, don't accumulate them in yourself, don't lie to yourself. But choose positive thoughts, for future.
Try meditating, it's when you focus on some process in the present, the easiest way is to breathe deeply and slowly, your consciousness will be forced to be in present moment, and if you want maximum effect, you need to multi-task and focus on multiple sources, like, turn on white noise sounds, then your brain will be distracted and mind will be clear, it's helpful to spend some time in silence or meditate
Stress actually affects your body and you lose some essential elements from your body, so try using vitamin B to increase resistance to stress, and other vitamins too.
@banhtanin7, sorry 😞
I feel the same. Just void void void! I'm looking for that spark in life. It's all dark and void!
@@adonai7187 Find the right people, and you will. Find your purpose, and something will spark. I promise you.
Maybe you can try to read Nocturna - Stay awake and Nocturna - Remember me, universe. Maybe it would help and one sentence will change everything.
@@adonai7187try to work it really helps a lot, even a very simple work (like washing dishes in a restaurant) don't think you will not be able to succed, just try it
I'm gonna be 22 this year... I feel like nothing has really changed since I was around 13. It feels like a one very long day.
I still can't get over many things, can't let go, can't move on. I'm honestly suprised I've made this that far.
Edit. And now I am 22 heh
Good job and keep on trying your hardest to get past it, never give up even in the darkest of times. People are with you.
Every word of this resonates with me, if that makes you feel any better
This is exactly my life rn I'm gonna be 22 too
You know that feeling you get when you're a teenager thinking you'd probably die by 18? But when you make it to 18 still alive, you're so lost, like what comes now? Been asking myself that question for almost 6 years. I'll be 24 this year and I'm as lost as I was the day I finished high-school. That's not to say I don't have a job and stuff, no no, I did all that society dictated I should do. By all standards, I probably live what most would call an averagely good life. But I'm just lost. I don't feel like I belong. Everyone I knew has left. All the new people I meet already have their groups. I feel like a wooden boat carried around by an indifferent sea, away from the shores I knew and nowhere close to any other strip of land. Just floating aimlessly, quietly and unnoticed by a soul.
Go out and live. You’re 22 you’ve barely scratched the surface of a possible life ahead of you! Reap the benefits!
Life as he knew seemingly passed him by
He became an inessential piece in his own play
He couldn’t live but he couldn’t die
He was home but he felt like a stray
you words, they resonate brother.
❤
Means a lot!
Sums up my situation more eloquently than I ever could have.
I'm 27 years old and i still feel as helpless as 11 years old me, nothing changed i'm still looking at my reflection in the mirror and telling her it's going to be okay. Nothing changed except my features are getting older. I don't know how long i'm going to keep fighting, i don't even know what i'm fighting for. Everything seems meaningless to me.
Please don't lose hope. We don't know what the next days will offer us. The only way to learn is to live
It doesn’t get easier you just become stronger
Yer name? lmao! 🤣 wth ?
No you don’t you just have to carry more pain with you until you die and that’s assuming if that shit doesn’t carry with you to the afterlife if there is one
Based
I know it do be like that but im not sure how much more i can strain myself.
Everything always seems to give me more struggle than others.
They fly past it gracefully while i limp behind.
Everything that most people just find mundane is often too much for me.
Ill keep trying but its possible ill just drop dead one day cuz idk how others just exist and dont fall on themselves like a house of cards.
@@TheKrokomaster been there and still here luckely now at 44 it is coming out naturaly all the trauma's. Go within and try to feel what and where it is and try to heal that. Go info nature as much as posible.
The worst thing is one day every thing, every emotion ends and becomes a memory. And you are probably the only one who will carry this memories...
alone
:( sad this is true, but im a little happy someone else thinks like me. i was guessing out of 8 billion people there would have to be someone with the same thoughts as i have but i still doubted it. glad ur here lol. have a good life :/👋👯♀️🧩💮
@@the.secret.of. im happy you are here as well UwU
I think that I'm only alive because there are still people like you in life. Have a beautiful days!
And it is only you who can acces it. Just like everything in your head. We are far more lonely then we think we are. Other people are just distant blurry shadows in our consciousness.
@@vadim_voron And I wanted some of those shadows become something more colourful... Not all of them, but the most became more dark...
Why are you so attached? you're not alone in the fact that all humans create memories , other people could carry those but that takes work . Everything ending seems depressing but its ultimately just part of the cycle. I honestly think human emotions and the human spirit will Endeavor forever even if the world just combusted into nothingness right now, Moments are infinite regardless of memory
So young yet I already feel tired. Living the same day everyday and always trying to make sure everyone around me is happy. Sometimes I forget to even care about my own mental health. As I cry at this moment, my tears fall emptily from my eyes. I just want to rest for a while.
I'm 26 and get waves of loneliness.. music helps me escape the pain.
Jesus is there for you, friend ❤🕊 John 3:16; John 8:32
You ll learn to be there yourself. There ll come a day which you will not be afraid to be alone, but you would welcome it. You are young. You ll learn. Running from pains is not a solution. You have to face your pains and fear. If you were interested I can give you some resources. But you can find them yourself too.
@@Hannah11235❤️❤️❤️
I might be late on commenting on this video and maybe nobody will see this comment, but I come here every morning and afternoon because of my depression. This calming music helped me a lot. I just wanted to say thank you for letting me through my tough times. (Sorry about my grammar...)
I noticed your comment :)
Yes I just found it, the imagery and music is just my style. I don't have depression but I feel that I might considering how much my well being has declined. Just constant chaos and gloom everywhere/thing I seem to insert myself into. It's tiring especially when there's no one in my life I can really relate with. Here's hoping for better days for both of us🍺
im here with you buddy
I'm reading this now, we're here with you! Best regards from México!
Don't worry everything will be fine from Morocco
You're in my prayers.
Just a while ago, I was sitting alone at a playground, on a swing, trying to recall happy memories, but nothing came. Nothing bad, but nothing good either...there are many memories I've lost.
Bro I don't know what's wrong with me but I'm 15 and I don't have many things to recall from my childhood. Ik I did many things but I can't remember. It's like I had no childhood. I do have bad memory and I fear forgetting all the good memories and being empty all the time.
That’s until I got on the teeter totter
There are a few specific things that remind me of my childhood, maybe some toy, maybe a song that I NEVER heard, maybe even a room of my school.
I really think sometimes, every happy or bad time i had, it becomes a sweet nostalgic memory after a few years...
Don't be hard on yourself... they will come in the moment they're meant to come
@@mistyydagoat same its like you forget it but cant remember it
I'm 18. At the time of writing this, I just finished my Final Exams for my first semester at uni. Me and this one girl in my history class sit next to each other and we engage in conversation every now and then. We'd both consider each other friends. I was going to ask for her phone number today as soon as we finished our tests, but she had finished long before I did. I quickly finished the rest of mine, and went to try to talk to her. By the time I had finally gotten ready, she was nowhere to be seen. I don't know where she went. I wanted to try to stay in contact with her over my winter break, but i guess that's virtually impossible now. We're off for 3 weeks, and I doubt we're going to have the same schedule next semester.
I don't know what I'm trying to get at here. This Playlist is basically where my mind is right now. Cold, almost hopeless. I must confess I do have feelings for her, but I don't care about that right now. I just want to be someone that she considers to be a good friend back. I want to hang out with her, or just get lost in a deep conversation with her, I really don't care. There's this thing where I just enjoy being around her.
She's an amazing person. She's pretty. She has the nicest blue-gray eyes. Her laugh is my drug. I just try to make her laugh a bit whenever we talk, it's a little tee-hee giggle. She's smart, she's considerate, and wants to be a teacher. Her ambition inspires me. She's just an amazing person who I just really enjoy being around, and I'd really like to be more than just a friend who talks to her every once in a blue moon.
Maybe I am a coward for not taking initiative. I am afraid of talking to her about things in front of other people, I'm afraid of talking about personal stuff in general around other people.
I want to take this chance, but I am scared that history will repeat itself.
This same thing happened around the same time last year. There was a girl in my Spanish class who was great. We talked a lot, we were good friends, and i confessed my feelings to her the day we went on break. She didn't feel the same way, and proceeded to date 3 other guys within the span of 4 months. We drifted apart, and that feeling i had had gone dormant.
It wasn't until i met and got to know my history friend that this feeling was still alive. She had brought it back, and i am so fucking scared of losing that feeling and going through that whole experience again.
I want to take initiative and talk to her, i want to make the moves, but it's that damn feeling holding me back like a string puppet, whispering in my ear"do you really want to do this?"
I don't know how to go about it . If i see her again next semester, I'll try to talk to her. I just want to make my move without the whispering in my ear.
I'm sorry for writing this long story, i tend to ramble, but i really needed to get that off my chest. I have few friends, and even fewer who would listen to what i just wrote. I barely see them, but i just had to get it out. If you made it this far, thank you for reading. I know this isn't therapy, but it feels somewhat therapeutic to write my experience for anyone to see. I hope whatever you're going through, you stay strong and hold your head high. That's all we can really do, huh?
Wish you the best of luck.
@@danielg7806 thank you
Even if it doesn't seem so experiences are the ones shaping us in who we are today.... good luck and keep your head up bud.
also yes leaving stories like this in comments is therapeutic :)
hey. hows this going? winter break is over, so i just wanted to hear whats up.
A great place for an old man to cry in solitude 😢
I am sorry that you're feeling sad. I wish we lived close by so we could talk it out
@@sonic_mercury This is such a sweet comment. you’re a good person.
Ngl, this is truly my biggest fear
Slowly feeling life leaving my body as I recall memories of my life and realize that... I achieved nothing, and I'm about to die... alone
I am sincerely so afraid about this
I am only 25 but, I feel already so old... I suffered already so much, is this life ? I don't want it, I just have hope now, the hope that, somehow, I'll find sense in all of this, maybe someone, or something to dedicate myself to, but...
Idk man, I'm just so tired, I pushed myself to my extreme limits to be the best that I could become, but it hadn't been enought to keep her, and not even enough for me to actually like or love myself, for who I am
I feel so trapped, my mind has become the most inextricable prison, a labyrinth from I cannot escape, not anymore
I'll keep fighting, until the very end, I just hope that, "the thing", that I'm looking for, will not show up too late...
Stay brave everybody, thanks for reading...
Such is life
I am only 17 and i fear of the same happening to me and not knowing what to do about it anymore.
There's time. It may not feel like it now, but there's so much time.
I turn 44 in a few months, and I was at a similar point where you are now at 25. Times got darker before they got better. I'm legitimately lucky to be alive and after nearly drinking myself into an early grave. I lost her, too, and while many have come and gone since, there's been no one quite like her. Maybe it was just teenage hormones or maybe it was true love, but it doesn't mean I'll ever stop looking to find that feeling again.
More than that, "the thing" you're looking for likely won't be another person. If it is, then should the day come when they leave, they take it with them. The thing has to something which belongs to you and you alone, that no one can ever take away. You may not know what it is now or feel like you'll never find it, but there is time left to search and discover passions and form your identity. Fearing that it may never show up is valid. This is the only life we have, and the fear of isolation, watching the clock run out without having ever found it is a harrowing thought. Still, the value of our achievements is up to us to determine, not the measures which society and others attempt to impose on you. All you have to do is keep getting up in the morning and making it back to bed in the evenings -- one day at a time.
Each day is new. Some feel the same, some better than others, and some worse... but take heart in that the only constant in life *is* change.
Hang in there, friend.
I'm about to hit 20 and I feel you man,
And I think there are a lot of people out there feeling the same.
As much as everything looks like hell we need to keep struggling, keep fighting and keep living.
There is a light in the end of the tunnel, there is a rainbow after the rain, we just have to keep going :)
Hang in there pal, we're gonna make it.
Everything you write is the same to me, i'm also 25, and i have compiled so much regret in the last years... i try to make the best decisions but i have failed much more than won, keep seeing my friends catching up their dreams is good, but i feel left behind, just wanna my little space in the bright field of life, its to much to ask?
this mix is powerful, its been getting me through some tough times... my heart got broken right around christmas and i've never felt this lonely and lost.. 3,5 years of my life i gave my all to this girl and in the end I got nothing to show for it. I made a song about it to express my feelings and help people going through the same thing.. Lonliness hurts and I hope to inspire people to use heartbreak as a motivation for their passion. Dropped the song yesterday, to anyone taking the time to check me out and join me on the journey to success, I will forever be thankful. Right now it means more than anything💔🙏
Your time wasn't wasted. The good times still happened. The lessons learned are still there for you. You got this random stranger!
Joining you in the heartbreak hotel, brother. May our healing be meaningful.
Go journaling and watch Hamza.
It really helps.
@@heekyungkim8147 A selfimprovement youtuber, who helped me a lot.
3.5 years. Are you crazy man? I suggest you if you'll date someone again, i think you should marry in short term.
you dont realize how alone you are until you sit back and look at all the people you've lost. it really feels like i have no one, i dont live near my family and i dont have friends anymore. its funny, my biggest fear was always being alone and now that i am i dont know what to do with myself. i dont know how to make friends or be social and it hurts to know that i may have already lost the best and only friends of my life. someday i hope I'll be able to overcome this, but for now I can sit in the comfort of my room in the middle of the night listening to this music and reading everyone elses comments knowing that im not the only one struggling. stay strong everyone, we can get through this.
“When my father and my mother abandon me, then the Lord will take me up.”
Psalm 27:10 ❤
Much love and if you need anything im here :D
I don't have people either. Don't worry. The world is just crap. Some of us are alone.
The only time I really feel at peace with myself is when I drift off to sleep.
I don't like waking back up. When I do, that calmness that I once felt was now gone.
I was back to the same old routine of waking up to every day being the exact same.
I enjoy closing my eyes and taking time to dream, because
*It's an escape from reality.*
There are many people, mostly men, who lay on their death beds at the end of their lives with this terrible pain. Their life became empty because 90% of their waking hours were spent working. Every work day is a carbon copy of the last one, and the next one to come. These repeat experiences are simply deleted from our memory, because they contain nothing new. Consequently, at the end of life, many hard workers will only feel like they lived 10% of the time they were given, because quite literally, that was the only time they had that meant anything. The only time they got to live.
Even the slaves of ancient times had more time to live their lives than we do now, in the Western world. Don't let this go on - change your life before its too late.
Idk? what I read ? but it was moving lol!
That is so true! We are all modern day slaves. Apart from the upper classes of course.
@@violette4841 u aren't gonna teach me about blue collard work that's for sure haha, I got my "working class /man's PhD " haha ....no fr though I kinda do haha. Been there done that got the t-shirts ' ....haha. I've tried about all I could try in the entry level work world...; I've also dealt with cluster b personality disorders in my family, trying to install a good work ethic and a system of being rewarded for it almost 🤏like a Nazi concentration camp slogan,.....and then later got jobs , and then it all being contradicted completely! haha! (that idealogy haha) too many examples to count haha, but then again in yer defense...., I'm a ancient slave haha, no fr not joking it can be proven haha, it's ok now though haha, cuz of a legal piece of pizza and robots haha , plus calling me a : advanced military 🪖 weapon when I'm not haha, cute puppy and kitten and or baby haha, so it's all okay no problem with slavery when u mention any of those afterwards haha, am I right? haha , so yeah we BOTH might be preaching to the quire here aren't we ? haha.
I wish we could hang out for a conversation.
how can I change my life? I cant! how can my family eat?
Back in 8th grade, I lost one of my friends from church to cancer. A year later into my 8th grade year, I lost my grandpa. The last time I got to hang out with him, we were eating Ice Cream, having conversations. My mom and dad told me he passed a couple days later, and next day at school I broke down in the hallway and started crying, my friends at that time gathered around and gave me a hug. I’ll never forget the kindness of my math teacher who gave me a hug telling me that I’m ok.
And then, I lost a long time friend of mine. One of my dogs had passed away my first year of high school, she was in so much pain before she had passed, she could barely see, hear, or walk. We said goodbye to her in our home, we figured it would be better for her, and I had to say goodbye to her.. she was a sweet girl…
Every day, not a day goes by when I don’t think about them. I’m already in tears now.
💛💛
Man, you've got through a lot. But it made you the person you are today. The time never heals, but this shit made you stronger. I'm 24 and I lost my wife 2 years ago. I know what you feel like. These tears did not break you, but made you stronger. Keep striving and be yourself, brother.
*Hugged you* ❤️(╯︵╰,)
I cant express enough how depressing that felt...😔
i lost my grandpa to old age and same like u i lost my church friend to blood cancer wow i have never related to some one so much and ryt now i am in 8 going to 9 grade
hope ur well
I died when I was 16, then life after that loses its colors.
Before I turned 17, I see life as beautiful, dramatic and exciting, I really am looking forward a lot to what life would bring, but living life till my 16th felt like a memory, cause everything felt really special , my self is telling me to cherish it cause I know I'm gonna miss this, it felt like when you know you've already been into this moment, you just came back to know the feelings you've missed that you have forgotten how to feel. Myself is telling me to get a hold of those feelings I might not feel anymore. Now, I'm turning 20 next month and I just don't know how to be Happy, I don't feel anything except being numb. Everyday I live my life asking " So, What would happen next?". I'm trying myself to be happy and excited, like eating my favorite desserts, reading my favorite book and rewatching my favorite movies back then and it got me happy a bit but not for too long. I'm still figuring how I'm going to survive.
And to everyone let's keep on fighting this emptiness, you're not alone, we all got this!
I know that feeling. You think your story is finished. There isn't anything, except just existence...pointless, painful, hopeless existence. I've felt like this too...a lot. Every time the thought that would get me out of my head and in the world was "No! I decide when my story ends. I'm willing to keep writing my story, even if it's a tragedy. I'm willing to go out there, and to live, no matter how painful". Because in the end, feeling something is still better than nothing.
Your gonna have a tough late 20s early 30s
Listening to this at 3am while laying on my bed and it's windy outside is such a vibe.
Stay safe everyone 💜
I can appreciate every single one of my memories. What seems empty to others might be the fullest to someone else.
I appreciate the memories of when I held close to me the woman I loved and embrace how I felt in those seemingly timeless moments
Да, я ищу здесь свою потерянную семью и жильё, воссоздаю все в памяти😔
@@miya5442 держись, ты молодец..
@Gilles your comment makes me less depressed. when this playlist was posted, i felt my life was empty. since last week, i started to use two 5 year journals (q and a by potter style, and the happiness project by gretchen rubin which was also designed by potter style) and another one called the empath's empowerment journal by judith orloff. slowly, i am learning to look at the positive things in my life. your comment is really helpful for me to re- frame my life so thank u so much. :)
@@Meaning_frame спасибо
There's certain memories I wish I could erase but I'm afraid I wouldn't be the same person I am today if I never learned from those mistakes.
I have told myself, that I would not be the person I am today, without the mistakes...no, the experiences, I have lived.
Their are certain memories wish I could re live..to cherish them more with what I know now. But no time jus keeps going forward.
memories are more than painful, but they make who you are today! shitty and really fucked up thing happen in life, but this is what forms our personality.
Yup... you can't have the cake and eat it too. most of the time, mistakes teach us far more about life and who we are as people than successes.
You got to put your behind in your past. yes you are right
I've been unhappy my whole life. It doesn't get better. I felt worthless when I was 11 and I still feel worthless approaching 27.
life feels bad for the past years since ive been 7 to eleven, everything sucks and i just wanna sleep forever.🥲😢
The song at 03:36 reminds me of the excitement of going to the city, the eucalyptus trees hanging over the highway, the steep winding roads of the Blue Mountains, the beauty of the city lights, the grandness of the Sydney highways, but it also reminds me of returning home, seeing the lights of the towns I'd pass through on my way back, seeing the almost hypnotizing lights of the cars going up and down the highway going up the hills at the other side of the valleys the towns all grew in here. Those were the best parts of my childhood. That was when I was most happy.
Nice memories
To everyone who feels like he/she is at the lowest right now. Its ok. Its ok to feel that way. For a while. Don't let this consume you. Please don't give up. Keep fighting, because your life is worth it, your happiness is worth it. I've been in dark places and felt like I will never ever be happy again. I got cancer, lost my dreamjob and my gf at the time broke up because she couldnt handle being with me in my current state. I went through cancer treatment alone, tried to find a new job that makes me happy for years and never wanted to be in a relationship again. And right now I'm sitting in my hobbyroom, listening to this playlist thinking about my way. I'm drinking my favorite Whisky, on my lap sleeps my little dog, in the background I hear my wife snorring and the only light in the room comes from the Babymonitor I use to look at my 15month old son. My life is probably far from perfect, but its so much more than I ever could have asked for. If you ever feel like noone loves you, please remember this text and know that I love you and I know that you will get back to your place in the sun.
You have great taste, can you take a look at my content? I'm doing something similar, I'd like to know your opinion, and what can be fixed..
BEAUTIFUL❤ Thank you Brother
you made me cry badly thankyou
Thank you so much 😔😔😔🩷🩷🩷
These types of messages become tiresome.
"I went into the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life... to put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived." - the dead poets society
i wish you the best 🤍
You know I always wanted to live in a cottage away from everyone but I'm coming to realize that would damage me because I need people to live. Still want to live in the woods. Nice poetry btw
Lucy any one who hears or reads that quote will be forever changed. No matter where they hear it. Dead poets was magical!
Henry David Thoreau wrote that :)
That film is amazing (hence my profile picture lol)
Something that might help is going to an animal shelter and applying to walk the dogs. The dogs are so grateful to being walked outside. It's also rewarding to help the ones who are scared at what's happened to them. Everyone that has a pet should have a plan in place to make sure they will be taken care of and not abandoned.❤
For anyone listening to this playlist as I am... YOU ARE NOT ON YOUR OWN! No matter what your age, no matter if you have friends or not, no matter if you feel loved or not, you are living your life through the emptiness of these songs and I am proud of you for hanging on, I really am. I’ve been through so much over these years... not just in my life but in myself. I just get lost in fear of being left behind and fear of letting everyone down by not being the person I once was/ should be. And I KNOW you feel the same in any regard if you are still reading this but I just want to be that person who is really proud of you even if you are not of yourself! Life’s complicated and it will get harder to find will power but that just makes you more of a trooper.
don’t do this to me bro, I can’t deal with this rn 😭😭😭
there’s times when your playlists are so hauntingly hurtful that I can barely bring myself to listen to it and sometimes it is so beautiful and it makes me feel at peace.
Theres one playlist called the last memories of a dying person. If it was just the title with no music, i probably would not have been on the verge of a panic attack. But coupled with the haunting dull and lonely photos it brought to light my deep fear that death is no light, hazy, cold and lonely. I can't deal with that.
@@Meshatiny Damn, same here. I keep going back to that specific one as well, churns a feeling inside in a way which you describe.
@@Meshatiny As Martin Heidegger said, death is only our own experience, we try to hide it in society, but we cannot avoid it. And by hiding it, we only make things worse. So my philosophy is not to avoid it, but to embrace it. Live with it. Remembering that someday all this will end. It means that I must live now, while I still can. Enjoying the autumn leaves waltzing from the trees, the sudden warm summer rain, looking for something beautiful in all this mess we're in...
@@vadim_voron Beautiful words. Thank you dear stranger. I agree wholeheartedly.
@@vadim_voron bruh
I feel like I'm in slow motion and life is just passing me by...
Yeah
I’ve been saying this, I feel the exact same way
😢
Same, and I feel like my life is just not meaningful anymore since my only relative that I know and was close to made themselves kick the bucket.
I am so sorry my friend. I truly am.
I have learned in my life that relationships are fleeting nothingness.
Not any specific relationship but all of them.
This may not be true for everyone but it is for me.
I am truly and entirely alone.
Time and time again I have tried to reach out, form bonds, depend on others.
Time and time again, I am discarded or abandoned.
I give chance after chance.
Only to find out I never mattered to begin with.
I have no one to blame but myself.
For I am all that I have.
So many comments are also true. So many of us don't share a lot of things about life but you're right when we leave here we take nothing with us. I wonder we get to have our memories in heaven. Thank you god bless everyone
Sometimes I wish I could erase some memories bc remembering how good/bad it was back then hurts so much.
You should see the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind... its about this exact topic and its a really good movie.
Oh god, the title of this video just called out my life. I am young, yet feel so old, spent, empty, all of that without even moving, i have never had experiences like other normal people, going out with friends, drinking, going somewhere, falling in love, everyone says that "the time will come" but.. does it really? Why does being 22 feel so.... Void? At this rate, many, myself incluided, will die alone, the only way we can be. Under silence, rain and the Everlasting notion that we where really never here.. because, who can say otherwise?
same for me, right now at 19.
Wow I can relate to this so much. I feel so empty, like I just exist for no reason
I feel the same, I just don't see a point in any of this. On my days off I struggle to get out of bed, I'm just so tired and i feel no joy
@@madmagic228 uni REALLY doesn't help with that ...
@@madmagic228 thats EXACTLY how i feel!! and i try sooo hard to remind myself of the good things in life to cheer myself up even if its the little things like food or whatever but some days it aint enough.
Im tired. Im sure many others are as well. So listen to this, think about life, sink into the depths of despair if you want. But after your done, take a day to lay your weary head to rest. We don't know why we continue on, and its a painful unrewarding path we walk. But when your feeling lost, you will always have the peace of sleep to numb your pain. Try and enjoy a nice soft bed and dream of a place where all is right, where you belong, and where you aren't alone. Maybe when you wake up you'll feel a bit better. Im proud of you for not giving up yet, even if there's no reason to keep going, you've kept on day after day so I have to say good job. If for nobody else, im proud of all of you out there so keep it up if you can.
Felt
i have insomnia..
I needed to read this …
When you said "dream of a place where all is right, where you belong, and where you aren't alone." reminds me of heaven.
what if you find it really hard to sleep (insomnia), and when you finally do, your nightmares aren't any better than reality, what then?
I want to rest, I want to cry, I'm tired of everything, I'm afraid of other people's ridicule, once they make fun of me about my shortcomings it immediately feels very painful, I'm depressed, I'm so scared that I rarely interact with other people, I just want to be perfect which is not has shortcomings, So I just want to rest forever
Being empty is also important in your life. Doing nothing sometimes does more things (in good terms) to you than normal working days. Try to do just nothing for one day just like this.
1. Play a soothing playlist which can sooth your emptiness just like this playlist. (I recommend nobody's)
2. Let it play for the whole day on repeat. You may change to other soothing music playlist too.
3. Do you daily requirements like eating, freshening up. Apart from these do literally nothing.
4. If possible stay in your room that whole day. Try not talk to anyone. Don't do any exercises or anything. Just be there in the room just like that.
5. Quit social media for that day.
Notice the difference.
This is everyday for me, lol
Solid advice,btw what influenced you to choose the username BV^2?
This sounds like a tech Sabbath, beautiful concept! I should try it, it'll force me to get all my school work done more efficiently, because one day of the week I'll be "busy". 😊
That's me for the past 7 years haha.. Honestly it feels nice and i enjoy my solitude, i feel peaceful. The only problem i have is that i'm lazy, so lazy that i'm also wasting money.. For example today i didn't open my shop because i didn't feel like it, and i probably missed 200-300€
I would say it's depression, but not dark and morbid type of depression, i don't have too many dark thoughts or anything, i just don't have strength to be active and i'd rather stay at home doing nothing..
@@twentytwo138 "When you stop moving, you start dying." -Grandfather's Father
Not being active slowly kills you on the inside. It feels great to have peace and solitude, I know it too. But what good would it be when you're dead? Working is miserable, but it feels nice when it's done.
I know this because I've worked ten hours a day in the hot sun, crawling under trucks and climbing factories just to spray spiders. But when I come home, I feel glad that it is done, and that I've done something in my life.
If I would recommend something, it would be not to waste your wonderful life alone in isolation for years to come.
Loneliness. Heartbreak. Regret. Tears. Anguish. Pain.
Hope you're feeling better. Nothing bad lasts forever
The many things i am unable to run away from.
I had a pretty nice childhood. We never had much money but that was made up for with love. I was told I was a very bright child. I had a lot of friends in kindergarten and that continued at school too. My light just grew dimmer with each change. I miss this childlike innocent friendship. without any worries. People used to be free and could concentrate on the beauty of life. For example, on my last day of kindergarten, we vowed to remain best friends. We never saw each other again then. same at school. I never managed to keep my friends even though that was always what I needed most. My light had long since gone out at this point and I thought it would stay that way. but then I met the love of my life. That was the first time I felt real and right again in 8 years. The day I met her I cried myself to sleep because I was too overwhelmed with myself. the next day I felt wonderful. For the first time in years I was able to look at the beauty of the world again. It's been 3 years since then and my inner light has started to shine again. please dear people who see this. Don't fall for the illusion of beautiful nostalgia like I did. it draws you under its spell and doesn't let you move forward.
you can do it.
I firmly believe in you.❤
I hope everything is legible, as I had to translate from German into English. I just felt that I had to pour my heart out in my native language.
I love u dear ♡
I love reading these comments truly helps to feel less alone
We may all feel alone here but we all know this feeling. What if us meeting each other here, in this feeling, is our way of finding connection?
❤❤
I wish all of us random people could connect with each other somehow, but well things are not so simple
where all conected to the same where light for eachother and here to learn from our mistakes and make the very best memories we can im a 14yo that has its oun strugless but i know i can do it
Live your life. Show love to your people.
Make memories. Don't sit and watch everything happen. Get up.
So many days I could've spent with my Mother.. But all I did was live another life that I enjoyed more. I stayed in my room everyday and played video games. the amount time I could've spent with her.. now all I think about is her peeking in my room to see if I'm awake..
Life is too short to live many all at once.
Might aswell enjoy the life that is real, the one that matters.
Do not take time for granted. It's a burn that never heals.
This one hits close to home, I lost my mom in March of 2020 to cancer and I too wish I would have came out of my room more and spent time with her. I wish I would have made myself more available and open to her instead of being a stubborn ass hole. Whoever you are, I love you bro.
I know it's nearly impossible but don't be hard on yourself for a feeling of wasted time. Yes, video games and solitary time could be spent in other ways but who is to say that you didn't need that time to relax and learn more about yourself. Life has many spheres and it is a constantly moving hourglass, we can't only focus on one thing that's important to us like family, there will never be enough time in the world to spend on that but we are able to spread our limited time across many avenues that further grant us enjoyment and happiness. If we learn perfect balance of all of the spheres of life that are most important to us then we can live the most fulfilled life but that takes time, effort, trial, and error. There is never any right way to spend time and I'm sure you've made countless memories with her while you had time in this world together. I didn't know your mother but if she loved you, she wouldn't want you to be burned by guilt. I'm sorry for your loss. I wish you the best.
@@SheriffBigNuts I appreciate you. Where ever you are in the world. Thank you
As a child, I often heard the refrain. “Cherish the moment with your loved ones, as you will never know when it will be the last time you will see them again.” This is a wisdom which truly strikes you as you get older and experience the heartache of losing someone dear to you. How desperately, you seek to turn back time, just to enjoy more moments with your loved one. To once again here the sound of their voice, which had the power to comfort, even in the darkest hours. I often find myself wishing to be able to see their smiles once more, a smile like the sun, rising upon the horizon with its golden glow. I ache with regrets, wishing I had spoken more, embraced you tighter and longer, never releasing you out of my grasp. If only I said more. If only I would have said how important you are to me, how much I love you. As I look back in time, I regret a lot of things. I regret not telling you “I love you” enough. I regret not spending more time with you. The thought of you passing away without me having done those things enough, fills my heart with sorrow.However, as I mature, I have come to understand that this is the natural course of life an inevitable part of our human journey. It doesn’t matter if you were rich, poor, pretty or ugly, we all meet the same end. This is the way of nature. I also realized that the only way to view death with a sense of positivity is through faith. The faith that we will see our loved ones again, hold them close, witness their smile again. My message to myself and everyone is simple: Hold onto your faith, even in the darkest moments, there will be a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. Tell your loved ones how deeply you cherish them and treasure every precious moment with them as if it were a valuable gift.
You are perfectly splendid and so right. ❤
I just want to thank everyone in this comments section for opening up about their life. You opening up about your problems makes others realise that they arent alone.
And also a huge thank you to everyone supporting eachother and saying words of kindness.
You're all beautiful and no matter our differences, i consider you all a friend.
No matter where you are in your life right now, wether you're young or old, you can still make the best of your life and i wish you the absolute best in doing so.
Stay strong, treat yourself as a friend, and keep going, no matter what.
I believe in you.
I lost all my close friends and I just wonder what went wrong we were so happy but gradually I realised I can't do anything about it you can't stop anyone in your life. Everytime I recall back the memories I feel so sad but I'm just getting used to it. I don't know if I'll make any new friends or will remain be like this all alone and empty.
you'll make new and awesome friends, trust me bro
What happened
Hey, thank you for sharing. You are not alone with this. I came here to search for people’s stories because I feel so alone with what’s going on and I saw your comment and I can say: we are not alone. I also lost all of my close friends. I have two people left who I am talking to - but I wouldn’t actually trust them with my feeling, with being able to accept who I am.
And you know, the worst feeling is when you feel like it’s your fault that you lost them: that you’re the problem and you’re the one who is too complicated. (Coming from a person who was the left over in a group of three)
I brought my best friends from school together and now I’m the one left behind, so it’s gotta be my fault right?
And you know what, the answer might be: yes, it’s my fault.
It’s my fault that I refuse to change my way of thinking just to be with people who couldn’t handle me normally. It’s my fault that I make mistakes that I will be learning from. It’s my fault that I can’t properly control my way of acting, but you know what? I am at 16 years very young and I am learning to live just as everyone else is. Some people learn faster than others.
Don’t pressure to find friends. Try to be open for people to talk to, but true friends are hard to find and they might leave you as well. Remember, in the end, we‘re all together on this planet.
Same. They all left me to look for new friends even my bff went with them and just throw me out.
@@the_truth_untold8 u should make new friends!
My comment will probably get lost but whoever reads this.. you got this! whatever you are going through will get better hang in there 💛
I'm trying to but, nothing ever felt good since she left, since then I'm suffering, i start crying randomly, couldn't even hold myself back for 5 seconds after i read your comment, I'm wounded and miss her every second, i get out of my house at mid night just to find peace, but all i get is flashbacks of that time when i was happy
I remember those feels. Wailing crying a lot. That hurt needed to come out. Things need to hurt. Pain, whether physical or psychological or emotional or spiritual, is a teacher.
Pain is a teacher: what is it trying to teach?
Oh I’ll hang alright
I will be strong thnx to people like you.. our legacy shall live on King..💪
People say that, but things can't get better for me.
At the time of writing this I am eighteen. As I'm lying awake here at three in the morning, I've come to relize the current state of my existence. My entire life I've been told again and again that I'm so "gifted" and that I "have so mutch potential", But over time I've come to the understanding that none of this is true. I feel as if I've wasted my whole life struggling to live up to the unreasonable expectations of others. I'm a tired, confused, anxios, perfectionist, mess. Ever since I graduated high school I've been lost, originally I thought that somehow graduating would make my life easier but now I feel as though it was the only thing I really had to keep me busy. The days blur together, It's like somehow the time I have alone is both infinite and nearing it's end simultaneously. I want to do more with my life, I do, but it's becoming increasingly difficult to pry myself out of bed each morning, I wish sometimes that I could lie here forever and silmply cease to exist. no pain, no loss, only blissfull internal silence. Thats the worst part of it all the noise. I'm not sure if it's HDHD like my friends suggest or just my overactive mind but I feel that I don't controll the flow of my own thoughts. All thoughts are muddled by the constant static of a million others all vying for attention. This has the unfortunate side effect of making any motivation i can muster a fleeting commodity. I want to be a voice actor, I know it's a bad choice of carreer for someone who can barely hold a normal conversation but all I want is to make others laugh. With that I'm on the verge of falling asleep so I'll make this last part quick
I understand that This entire comment will most likely seem unhinged or frantic to most, And that is primarily because it is. This is not so mutch a story of my life up until this point as it is the resalt of my writing down thoughts as they come and go. I hope you can gleam some understanding from my gargin and thank you for taking the time to read this.
Be strong, I believe in you man
As someone who's been broken by 20 years of life, I feel relatively grateful that I have no nostalgia for my childhood, nothing to remember back on fondly and yearn for, for all I remember is pain, both physical and emotional. But even now, deep down, I can't help but feel a certain indescribable sorrow for experiences I never got to have, friendships I never got to make, memories I never got to store. A happy, carefree adolescence consumed completely by anguish and rage. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I don't miss what used to be, but grieve what could have been. As jaded and embittered as I've become, as broken as I am, I still hope that somehow, one day, I'll find the peace I so desperately need. The happiness that dreams are made of.
No matter where we come from. It only matters where we are and where we want to go. The search for happiness is a hard one, specially when we don't even know what that really is. But even though I do not know you, have my wisdom and I hope it helps: start by making peace with your past. Most things you're not to blame. It just happened and there's nothing to do about it. And even the things you regret doing, learn from them, and then let them go. They're not coming back. And now you are wiser. Because you learned, even with hardship. Then you choose. What do I want to do? What gives me pleasure and happiness? Go for it. Chase it and never spot. And know, you'll definitely get there...
bro im sixteen years old, i don't how i ended up here. i don't feel entitled to say that i've been through many things in this life, but when adolescence arrives it's very difficult to deal with things, one moment u have no idea of anything, at another time u just see that nothing was like the fantasies i imagined when i was a child, i don't like feeling empty being so young but ik, one day everything gets better, ig
You ended up here for a reason. That is to show you that you are not alone. Let the emptiness propel you to a higher understanding. Strive onward and upward.
It would be cool the see a playlist on the theme of "Entering in the Old Basilica of Saint Peters in the Middle Ages"
That would be awesome..!! 👍
@Classical Imperium hic fallum
When u think it's done , remember that your heart is still beating and u have another chance
The simplest advice often rings the most true. Well said.
I’m 14 years old, and honestly, my life seems to be like I’m living the memories of a slowly unraveling tragedy. Don’t even feel like I’ve got legs to stand on and there’s not much more left in me to be honest
Same, I’m also 14, and I broke my ankle recently. I kind of hoped it would be a discussion point with my fading friends, or even girls, but no one cares, no one talks to me. Life’s just not fair
@@gulfbut you think it’s just cuz they don’t really see a broken ankle as something super severe?
Or they just being… yknow ignoring you?
As you grow you'll learn thay everyone's just surviving on theyre own ways, dealing with their own pain....
Lil man trust me... With age comes insight. The ability to accept what is and what cannot be...
Trust in The Creator, otherwise known as Christ. He suffered alongside us.
Also, you sound intelligent... Give "stoicism" a try... Look into it and take the core elements. Egnor the olden days gibberish.
Take it from a man who was once 14 with depression. Still fight it but its different now... I have the higher ground, not it.
Trust the process, Lil dude. I love you, man.
Sorry if I miss gendered you by the way. Im unsure what to make of your name.
the darkness is part of life. we forget about it in the light but when times get hard we remember our old friend
Old friend, constant companion.
hey to you reading this (: whatever brings you here, wether it's to fall asleep or to relax from something stressful, i just wanted to let you know that everything will be fine. If you're going through a hard time right now, it's okay to remind yourself that this is temporary, and there are many good and relaxing days to come. If you're about to sleep, i hope you will have the most beautiful dreams, and the most peaceful sleep. You are an amazing person and the world is lucky to have someone like you in it. I hope only good things, love and strenth will come your way. Goodnight (:
The most peaceful sleep I will ever take is when I'll finally be de d .
@@Rhinestone-wg7wf I have only one request from you, your help to grow my channel. I trust you 🍀
@@RelaxationStudioo sorry , I have lost all my respect .
@@Rhinestone-wg7wf ☘
To the person reading this,
I just want to take a moment to remind you of your incredible worth and the unique light you bring into the world. Life can be challenging, and sometimes we forget just how special and resilient we are. No matter what you're going through right now, please know that you are not alone.
You have a strength within you that can weather any storm and a beauty that goes beyond what words can express. Embrace the journey, celebrate the victories, and learn from the challenges. You are a masterpiece in progress, and every step you take is a testament to your courage and determination.
Take a deep breath, believe in yourself, and know that you are deserving of love, happiness, and all the wonderful things life has to offer. Your presence makes a difference, and the world is a better place with you in it.
Wishing you a day filled with kindness, joy, and a heart full of love.
I'd rather die than live in this place. The world is evil. The world only cares about how much money you'll make. Women don't care. Men don't care. Cooperations own everything and everyone.
this music is really helping me to get through cleaning my messy depression room. In February this year I fell excruciatingly unwell because of a chronic illness, which led to me becoming entirely bedbound for many months. I became allergic to almost everything, and spent most of my time starving in my messy bedroom because I could barely eat without pain. I was later diagnosed with Mast Cell Activation syndrome, a rare immunological condition that causes anaphylaxis to random things. since my diagnosis, i have improved slightly and have found some foods i can tolerate but I'll never be able to go back to the person I was before February. whilst I'm cleaning out the mess I've left behind from my many months of suffering, i also have to let go of things i once loved that now bring me pain. including items that hold memories, perfumes that remind me of my partner, old paints that i used to make art with, and the earrings that my grandmother gave me that i'm now allergic to. I feel like I'm slowly letting go of the person i was and embracing the person i am now that I'm chronically ill, but it's tough cos i really wish i could go back...
That really hit me my friend, please let me give you some encouragement. Your life might be in shambles right now,
"That is why we labor and strive, because we have put our hope in the living God, who is the Savior of all people, and especially of those who believe."
You may not believe this, but im still gonna rejoice because Jesus Christ is the Saviour of all people, including you!! So one day, believing or not, you will be with your Creator, where there are no more tears, pain, death or anything bad. Your existence isnt useless or just an accident, God thought twice before He created you, and still did. You are loved even if you dont believe that, have an amazing day my friend 🙏♥️
Hey Wolverine, go back to what?....Every day we take steps that lead us forward to something new, good or bad....you'll never be the person you where 5, 10, 20 years ago...your illness is surely painful 😞 but as with time it may past....looking forward to seeing who you become...better... stronger...resilient...most of all content in yourself
Im really sorry to hear that. How are you holding up now?
I'm really sorry to hear that
How are you doing now after 7 months
It will be really good to hear from you
I just thought I'll reveal my situation here. I know it's insignificant compared to what the world is suffering right now.
I used to go to a school in my country and I had a nice bunch of friends in middle school. As I was aging into higher grades, I noticed I wasn't myself anymore. Everyone was in their own worlds of friends and success and none of that was ever about including me in their worlds. All of a sudden my performance dropped and I still remember one of my ungrateful teachers saying that I was good before but now I had been labelled....a low performer. I got fed up and became silent and basically went to school and came back like an autopilot mode in an aircraft. No interest in studies, no socializing, no other interests. I thought the best thing to do is to end it all and leave this world; like anyone would care....nearly 5 years later here I am all alone to myself and a big introvert, but no plans to ever revive what was lost because memories are dry and unfeeling as sand, prickly as thorns, and venomous as even one drop is enough to disturb your happiness. Now the only thing that keeps me happy is my mother. She has seen me all the way in my life but recently I'm just pained by seeing her hair becoming white. Sigh... If only I never went through such a mess. But still I'm grateful for youtube so that I can cry all alone and no one will ever know in this world.
I know how you feel. Sometimes I find myself asking what's the purpose in life itself. Most people say being successful or reaching the top but they couldn't be more wrong. Best answer I heard made me feel kinda dumb for how obvious it was and that is that the point in life is your choice and the main objectives are to simply just be alive and grateful for what you have because somewhere out there someone is doing far worse but they still still endure no matter what. For some this might not make sense but trust me, eventually you start to realize it's true on your own and it really does make life feel a whole lot better makes you realize life's surprisingly not that complex and oddly increases the quality of life. It just goes to show how a change in perspective and reflecting on things goes a long way. Life is short so it's best not to think about the past at all and try not to think about the future too much and simply enjoy living in the present, and realize that we're more lucky than we think in life, funny enough I think it's great luck just being born, sadly some never got to experience that and what if some people were born as other creatures you never know. Imagine being born as a ant surviving a queen all day long without breaks or a will of your own just to be stepped on by a human. I mean that just sounds awful and makes me feel oddly thankful as dumb as it may sound, it helped quite a lot.
@@chadjustchad4129 these are some nice thoughts, hmm... 🤔👍
Dont forget to give yourself praise for getting through school when it was so hard on you! Take some extra time to treat your mother to someting nice. Don't worry about her white hair. The alternative to aging is much more dreary. Leave the past behind you, dont let passed time poison time to come! I know it's easier said than done. I still hang on to old and bad times, but try to remind yourself that you dont need to spend another second in those bad times. They're gone, and good riddance.
Yeah me but only ever since kindergarten. Depression only got way worse when COVID hit and I was in 5th grade when it started happening. I'm no longer in public school and go to homeschool because I simply couldn't/wouldn't or didn't find the need to socialize because I was always reminded that no matter what we do when we're alive, we are still going to die. Myself and a lot of others deal with the same issues you included, just to different extents. I want to remind you, even if being alone is good to you, people always deserve other people no matter your introverted/extroverted/ambiverted whatever.. You deserve people to care about, and for them to care about your feelings and interests.
@@BubblegumKoi I really wished for a long time what you said became reality, but it's not the reality. Everyone is busy with their survival, social circle, limitations, other people and friends that the value of one human being is greatly reduced in these times. You can see it in the form of queues, traffic and more personal issues like being replaceable, betrayal. The social world is getting worse day by day. Only Crux of the matter is it's insignificant for one particular individual so it doesn't matter. Sometimes I feel like early man and ancient civilizations had much more space on earth to live a good quality life.
i really wish you make a video like “you’re in antarctica” with these sounds like, deep sea, snow, like seaworld sounds
Like this video?
ruclips.net/video/_tFlCHuUgP0/видео.html
I'm 20 years old, and I can vaguely remember the good times, but I hear the bad memories like they're on a loop. When I was 12, I was told I was diagnosed with scoliosis, which is when your spine becomes curved and shoulders are misaligned. For the next couple of years, I had to wear a brace for my back and shoulder. After I was done with surgery at 18 years old, everyone went back to their old selves. Everyone wants from me, is to be what they expect of me. I just wish my life wasn't so dang messed up like a shattered mirror.
Don't worry. It may seem like it's all hopeless, but it is never, NEVER, hopeless, when you believe in Jesus christ.
Hey man, little late on the comment I know, but hope you're doing well, and things are positive around you , much love
If you truly want to know you will, when you do it is one of life's thresholds to pass through, something mysterious yes, the limit of mind leads to feeling something deeper than thought. Remember the feeling (not an emotion) it is the go to of true-self...open minded keep going...
"Death isn't scary... what's really scary is... being all alone..." - Takemitchi Hangaki
Tokyo ravangers 😢
There is something unexplainable about that pic in the video.. It reflects darkness,loneliness, mystery,hope and combined those with that music,feels like im actually there.
Liminal?
Wish I was actually there
a lifetime of graveyard shifts, working on Christmases, a string of tiny apartments, sitting alone in the park on Sundays with a coffee from that place, no one to hold. no one worried about losing you. then nothing announcing your departure from this world.
I’m 34 years old with a very bad learning disability! When I was younger, I had big dreams of becoming of a writer one day and I wrote many stories on my PCs throughout the years. I feel like my life is incomplete, and that I’m a burden to everyone, even though they don’t treat me as such.
Over the course of the years I’ve developed a bad memory prematurely, a part of me fears it may be early onset dementia…The s scariest thing I can think of. My ability to recall upon memories is quite limited. But I do cherish the good memories that I have, and wish I could recount the others and stop being haunted by all the bad/negative ones.
I’ve been struggling to write these past few years, and can’t seem to draw upon the correct words I need to keep my stories going. As a writer, that’s soul-crushing.
I have all the time in the world to write, yet, most of the time I simply can’t.
I fear what the future may hold for me, but I’m trying so hard to give positive memories to those around me for when the day finally comes I can’t recall any of my own.
"the pain of recalling memories of an empty life" the pain just unreal i can't bear with it
Hope you're feeling better my friend
It’s already playing for me
i’m calling bs
@@carsonwilliams8297 I don't think you understood them or the title of the video. But good for you for having a fulfilling life I guess.
@@val.6724 i get it now. my bad 😞
I dont know How much longer I can stay here, I'm afraid to tell a single soul, but I can't resist anymore, I don't feel safe with myself anymore, thank you so much for the remix I liked it. ❤️🩹🌻🇧🇷
@@tomi_t706 I know friend! Love u
Talk to someone. Don’t ever give up hope , sometimes hope will help you see the path to happiness:)
you are loved don't give up hope you are not alone sending you all the love
Espero que agora você esteja em um momento bom, Emanuel 🥹 as vezes pode parecer difícil mas você vai conseguir passar por tudo isso, e quando for bem lá na frente, vai se lembrar daquilo e pensar “nossa, nem era tão difícil e eu consegui “
OP, please have some good news ❤! Please know you are LOVED ❤! Jesus died for you - John 3:16. If you do not know Him, seek Him with a genuine, humble, and repentant heart and He will reveal His existence to you. His presence is the most immense peace you could ever feel. Life with Jesus is better than anything.
We have all sinned egregiously against God and deserve judgement. God knew our condition and gave us all a way of reconciliation and salvation through His son Jesus Christ. Jesus endured the wrath of God for us and paid the price for our sins despite Himself living a perfect, holy, sin free life. All so we could be freed from the curse of sin and inherit eternal life in the new kingdom that will be free from the corruption of sin (death, disease, decay, suffering, etc). Life is so short, you have a choice whether you choose God's free gift of eternal life salvation from death. I used to be a militant atheist and HATED Christianity. All that changed 3 years ago when I had a supernatural encounter with Jesus that completely changed my spirit and desires to that of God's. I loved what He loved, craved righteousness, and hated my sin. My eyes were opened to the reality of sin and its different forms and to the spiritual war waged against us.
Time is so short friend. Believe in Jesus genuinely and confess it with your mouth and you shall be saved and experience the immense joy, love, and peace of the lord that transcends all ❤🕊🙏 The truth makes us free friends. John 8:32
I am so so thankful for your rain sound videos! I lost my boyfriend of 7 years in a tragic motorcycle accident earlier this year. These have helped tremendously with falling asleep again. Letting go of anxiety before bed is an issue I am sure I’m not alone in, thank you from all of us! ❣❤❤
Im sorry to hear that 🙏
God bless you, I am so sorry for your loss. I pray God will give you peace and comfort.
Loneliness has been with me for as long as I remember. In the end, it became my dearest company in this confusing world we lived in. For long I had lost myself. I could no longer relate with the one I was, even through memories and photographs that were left by the hands of time. Holding on to the self-love I once found prevents me from unnecessarily dying as a coward. I still constantly living my life day by day while figuring out how was it to breathe again. Wishing one day the path that would lead me to serenity come and show me the way. Although I know it's not enough but Amy if one day you cross over this and things haven't changed a bit, I know you've done your best in that tranquillity. Just don't die!
Stay strong ✊
Stay strong buddy❤
Even though i feel sad sometimes, I find this channel so intriguing. It makes me feel intensely and I like that
Nobody , has PTDS . He suffers greatly from it . But , hovis coming out of it. That is why he paints and compiles the music, and he is good at it too. He is a good man that cares. The guy above at Classical Imperium. Has some great music too. Music , no matter were you get it from really helps to change moods .
I think I come here cuz I know this is where the completely off the wall comments live haha!
@@spmoran4703 🤔
snowfall makes me feel so empty everytime i listen it..
💜💜
“let the sea take it away” is one of the most beautiful pieces I’ve ever listened to
"Dad is getting old"
Yet I've not achieved anything in life that would've made him proud
And nobody cares hahaha because i am a loser 😊
@@Captaingaming2.0YT He is proud of u no matter what u do. Be helpful, never give up. Not all were born to make great things, besides its the little things, everyday kindness that matter. :)
I don't wanna grow up. I'll have to move away from my home to study aboard and I know that soon my usual routine will be interrupted and I'll probably never come back to it. I love staying in my bed knowing I'm home safe with my dear family, reading books in my dim room with the smell of lavender sleeping spray imbedded in my bed sheets from last night, my siblings coming in to annoy me from time to time, dreading doing my homework and then going back to listening to music and reading while stuffing my mouth with different kind of snacks I can get my hands on. I know I'm growing up. I know I'll have to leave it all someday. This thought always haunts my mind but I push it in the furthest corner of my mind and I just enjoy the remaining moments while I can. Then some nights like these I remember and I start hurting. I love my family so so much. They have given me so many opportunities, every word that I read, every deep breath of peace I do is all thanks to them and their hard work. Soon it'll be my turn to work but I don't want to. I don't know what to do with my future and I'm lost. I went through this routine for so long but lately the feeling like you're nealy at the end of a journey is creeping up on me. I'm suddenly aware of time and that I'm no longer child. Exams are around the corner and I'm finally in the stage of life I've dreamed and dreaded of at the same time. I thought I would be so cool that I'd be in the 9th grade and then I dreaded my exams 5 years prior, but now I feel nothing towards it. I want to continue being a child in my parent's home. I don't want to grow up. It's never enough.
im 12 and im exactly also at that stage . i may not understand you cleary 😔😌but, i hope this helps,,
think of it as a rainfall. it has its bad side, but its also relaxing to listen to.
Its definetly going to end though but after,
you can feel the warmth of the sun on your skin.
I want you to know youre not alone🙂😊😁
Since I first listened to this playlist, I have felt the must to hug everyone in my life. No special reseason needed. Onlyy this amazing playlist that really hits those who can feel and understand the title.
Sometimes i get this feeling too
I don't live i just exist
Same, bro
I just wish I never existed in the first place
@@user-bg5im5kl7bSame. With every moment is just pain. I wish I never came to exist.
@@user-bg5im5kl7bsame
Same, I never had anything past or present except memories, (I can't remember any good ones now) but I just realized that all I do have is tomorrow.
As much as I just want to quit existing... I still have tomorrow.
I wish I had someone
35yo and feels like life has reached the end of everything good that could come out of it. Recalling memories of younger times when I had hope for the future and everything looked so full of possibilities is a bitter sweet feeling, but gives me a slight sense that those days could come back sometime.
Yes because when your old and about to die you would recalled the day of your 30's
I'm 34... I don't believe life is over yet. There's still a lot for both of us to do. It's never too late for God to change somebody's life and fill them with new hope and new purpose. Put your faith in Jesus... you never know where he might take you. 🙏
I'm 34 and I feel so lost, like I'm on a never ending road of fear, anxiety and uncertainty over whether I will ever do something worthwhile that I can be proud of.
There's so much to learn, to know...to get through. Then finally you figured it out. The sudden feeling of total emptyness hits you and you wish you know nothing. The sheer pain of being lost, no longer part of this all. The illusion of togetherness fades. You realize you're just a lonely traveller while time is going slow. Painfully slow.
schreibst du gedichte?
das hier ist gut....hat mich tief getroffen....
It makes me think of when I was a child. Everything was much more relaxed, and I didn't have to deal with stress and responsibilities. I miss growing up with my mom and dad. I wish I could go back and experience it all again.
Then again, the dark thing about that is not being able to do much on your own. You can only do so much. It's strange yet memorable.
It's okay to take breaks and focus on yourself from time to time :) you don't have to overwhelm yourself. You can take breaks from studying\ work\ etc when you feel like. I love you all. Everything's going to be okay no matter what's happening in your life right now. I've been experiencing tough stuff that I thought it's over for me and I almost gave up on life but thankfully I didn't. 3 years ago, I never imagined my life could get this much better. Keep fighting, it's worth it, I promise.
Music is a language you don't have to write or understand to experience. That's why everyone flocks here when they're upset, we all *get* that feeling. I don't have a sob story I feel is worth sharing right now. I'm just 19 and I feel that this is, in the literal most sincere sense, deep.
Я потеряла свою семью, жильё в котором уют создавала,….. в душе пустота … ваши ролики успокаивают душу возвращая память о ней…это волшебно …спасибооооооооооо
Сочувствую😔
I hope you will feel better 😞❤️
Покой настанет ❤ 🌟
i've never thought that loneliness can be the most painful thing to feel
I know right? I've been physically abused, punched, ran over, had horrible sickness, got my heart broken, but.. loneliness it's the worst thing of it all.
I've started a journal recounting my earliest and favorite memories. I was so happy growing up, I get so warm and fuzzy remembering her giggles and awkward kid moments.
I want to be her again
Sometimes I close my eyes and imagine going to an alternate universe when I'm sitting on the floor in the shower.
What?! I literally dream about sitting on the floor in the shower with nothing but moving light bolts and black abyss around me, at least that's what i feel when sitting in the shower without lights..
I feel like I'm losing my ability to create drawings/art. I guess it's a mix of ADHD, addiction problems, and my fear of failure. But it feels like the root of the problem is deeper than that: an emptiness in my heart, reflected by the emptiness I see around me. No creative idea feels exciting or worth creating anymore. It's all just lacking something . . .
Courage !!
Sometimes life gets harder but the sunshine comes , maybe you are feeling anxiety but tomorrow is not the same believe in yourself try to slow down , calm down
Everything will be fine
@@hakimkadi3043 thank you for your encouraging words. I agree. It's best to look forward, not be discouraged and never give in to despair.
Hi friend, your comment spoke to me. I also struggle with ADHD and addiction problems - I've only recently made significant turnaround improving my approach to life, but I empathize with that level of emptiness. I hope things improve for you, and perhaps a novel or outside-the-box approach to creative expression might bring you inspiration. Take care.
@@TheAbsoluteDenial Thanks, friend. In the moment, it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel so to speak. But I know that things can get better. Maybe I'll find a new creative outlet that I've never even thought about one of these days
To everyone. You don't need to change the world to change or make a difference. It really does only matter, the impact you've made on the ones you love and the ones who love you. Don't be afraid to express any emotion, you have the excuse, you have the scars. Just let them fade, we all know they don't heal, but the pain goes away.
When it gets too hard, shut your mind off, if you can't shut your mind off, shut off the world. Quiet yourself.
Breathe for a moment.
Close your eyes.
That feeling in your chest, just let it be.
It's a many great things, that feeling.
Feel. Breathe.
It's not your fault.