The Trap Called Artistic Perfection
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"Teaching isn't spewing information at someone, it's sharing the excitement of learning something new"
This such a powerful quote
Some of my Teachers need to hear that.
15:39
Systematically the worst part about these videos is the moment when they end
Honestly, this video is exactly what I need... I'm currently stuck in an endless phase of procrastination and self-loathing that impedes me of doing art. Everysingle time I'm trying to draw are merely an stress-indulcing experience that only makes me feel worse and lose even more motivation. I've already gave up on art in the past due to my inferiority complex completely crushing my remaining self-confidence and now I'm going down the same road, and I don't know how to stop. I can't stop comparing myself to high-level artists, only resulting in a loss of motivation... I haven't drawn for weeks, and everytime I try to pick up the pencil again, I just end up "failing" again.
I can't appreciate my art, I can't appreciate my efforts if they don't result in "perfection". I hate myself for this, and I despise my arrogance when it comes to art. Honestly, I don't even know why I still haven't given up on art just like in the past... I don't know what to do
Right there with you. It's unfortunate because we have all this creativity and we want to express it but once it's out we aren't satisfied by what our hand produced. It's agonizing lol
@@NegikunTV Exactly.
@@mikxl2352 sounds to me like you're living unhealthy, meaning out of touch with your psychological needs. making art requires emotional energy, not the other way around in a way that makes you wanna fill the hole of feeling not good enough or whatever with perfection. so I'd recommend to step back and focus on your health, though i also know that that's hard right now when it comes to loneliness f. ex. take care!
@@starcoreart Thanks, and you're surprisingly spot on
This was felt chief. Having all these ideas in your head, only for your skill to lag so far behind. People tell you it takes time to get there but it just feels so endless sometimes. That's where the importance of learning to enjoy the journey rather than the destination comes in. Honestly, as far as I'm aware, no artist has truly ever attained the level of skill they want, but that doesn't stop them from simply enjoying the process. You aren't alone in this is what I'm saying. (oop awkward word mistake had to fix lol)
I think - if you're paralyzed by the fear of making a mistake in your artwork - is to set out to do something deliberately badly.
That's the only way I can get myself to start drawing sometimes.
What really helped me was actually facing the mistake and actually fixing it. I had to release a weird fixation that I HAD to get it right the first time. It took me so long to realize the beautiful dance that picture making is.
Just what I needed to hear.
Thanks Dad.
We can never be perfect. We can only be better and that's enough, I think.
Can't agree more, we're always a work in progress no matter at what stage you are.
Something I struggle with currently in my art is the idea that making “the perfect painting” is left to chance rather than my own abilities. It almost feels like a 50/50 gamble when I start a new piece whether I’ll actually be able to do it or not. When maybe the only difference is time, and if I really invested in one idea, perhaps I could make it right. But on the other side, there’s the “polishing a turd” aspect of it so a lot of my paintings end up unfinished. Every piece is a nervous and anxiety inducing process in the beginning and contributes a lot to impostor syndrome, but videos like these inspire me to keep going and what I personally took away from this is that perfection is not achievable, but mileage is important. And even if I scrape one painting and no one ever sees it, that’s still mileage, like skill points in a video game. It feels awful, yes, but every experience contributes to excellence.
Thank you for these videos, every week you make me happier in stressful times. Thank you.
I'm the same... In fact, this is exactly why I've immediately clicked on this video when I saw the title.
Definitely on the same boat with me rn
What you said where you felt like the success of your work is left to chance rather than your own abilities, I actually had this problem many years ago (I think its a stage everyone goes through). What could help you get over that stage is to establish more control over your work. You can look at your current process and what I did back then is to further break down the process of my paintings, giving myself the space to correct or realize mistakes before the next stage. To me its a different take on getting mileage. Instead of doing tons of painting with little to no improvement, I would expand the process of one painting (adding more preparations before the next one) solving each problem like composition, color and anatomy on different stages , all before the final polish. And just like what you said, I figured out that most of the time the difference is only time (but of course theres more to it tho). By doing that I was able to get both mileage and increased intuition on my workflow. And over time, the preparations got shorter and shorter as I was able to gain confidence over what I know I can do and how I think. I hope this helps you. Good luck
Enixanne that’s what I thought about doing but now that you mention it I’ll definitely pay more attention to my process. Thank you for the great advice
perfect timing
a ha
dude talks about perfection not being possible and to embrace imperfections
but has a masterpiece in-progress on the screen smh
kiddin' but it is good
Was going to comment this...
That's so far from a masterpiece it's not even funny.
@@zemrpereira do you have a point or are you just trying to shit on ppl?
I'm not an artist, nor do I believe in destiny, but every video that I watched on you're channel made me reflect so much on what was happening on my own life, and right now this was not an exception. You are, on a literal sense, the voice of experience for me, and for that I cannot thank you enough. I'm not perfect, nor I'll ever be, excellence comes from my own understanding of life and how I should deal with my problems, not with perfection, but with virtue.
So happy to wake up to this 😊. Wanted to let you know Adam, that as a musician, all of your art talks are still 100% applicable to my and likely every other art form. Made my morning with this one.
Your words touch me deeply, it’s what we struggle with, it’s the moral we need to understand, it is our reality and the game of happiness , thank you so much !
I loved what you said about what draws people to your work. It really is all about connection, not skill or talent although they are the driving force. All of the art, music, films, and books I love are attached to me in some way, whether through common themes or atmospheres.
Its almost like, if your work is attached and authentic to you, people like you will come and stay for more as they will find their own threads to themselves. When you try and wear the mask of someone else, people will smell that from a mile away.
In essence, perfection is something that comes from within, as a product of excellence.
Excellence is achievable, perfection is not.
Managing one's self-esteem is part of succeeding in life.
Thank you for your reflections, they always help me grow.
I really need to hear this right now. I've been struggling to produce art for the past months trying to make every piece the "Perfect" one. I always reach the point where I become depressed with my current piece and would just leave it and never touch it again. I need to learn how to accept my current skill level, that I will always be a work in progress, and that there's no such thing as perfection. Hearing you say that we're only human makes me realize I've been giving so much pressure on myself trying to make something perfect instead of embracing my mistakes and learn from them. Thank you for this Adam.
Art dad is back with his amazing art talks!!
I'm about to have the interview of a lifetime today, a chance to work with and learn from world class artists. The best studio in my entire country. But I look at my own work and I don't see the excellence that I see in theirs, and most times I feel like an imposter. A lot of the time I don't understand how people can view me as a professional and even pay me for it. I have been in the industry for a very short amount of time, most people would consider my experience to even still be that of an apprentice. I am crapping myself. Then your video popped up and it eased some of that imposter feeling for me. It made me realize these guys are just people too and they probably have felt the way I feel right now at some point. They have just managed to master themselves, which makes them excellent artists.
Now I have the opportunity to do the same amongst these brilliant people, if I don't sabotage myself. Thank you Art Dad, you always know when to pop up.
The Fear of Failure,
Paralyzing our senses,
Calmed by just a Breath.
I often call the Fear of Failure the Fear of Success. When we build things up too much so as to make hurdles for ourselves to give us reason to not even try. That is what often happens with both the fear of Failure and the fear of success.
This painting you were doing in the video was certainly the type of thing that would make me panic and fear... Lamia, Gorgons, Medusa or anything Snake Related scares me nearly to death!
This is really really good. About 2 months ago, I received a commission request from an acquaintance of mine and it is still yet to be completed. I've painted it 20 times over again and each time I do I feel worse and worse about my abilities as an artist. And then I heard you say the thing about how perfectionism leads to looking at the things that we are flawed at doing rather than our successes, and how no one ever asked us to have perfect technique. In fact, in the case of my commission, the person I'm drawing this for has told me multiple times that I am too hard on myself, and that he just wants my art work, not for it to be some grand masterpiece. Needless to say, the attitude I developed in the process of this painting has led me to put down my art all together for too long. I would feel guilty for working on other things because I felt that he would think I was just ignoring this request, so I just opted into not drawing at all. Listening to this helps me feel free to have fun with this painting and doing the best I can, instead of trying to make it perfect, and also to know that there is a difference between the two. Thank you, Adam. Yet again you have encouraged and inspired.
This is something I struggle with a lot. It's the reason I love cheap crayons.. whenever I start beating myself up over my lack of perfection in my work, it's nice to spend a day with crappy, cheap crayons. Because you can't get perfection with cheap crappy crayons. When it's impossible to make something that is objectively "good", playing becomes fine.
Thanks for your work. I feel lucky you're alive at the same time as I am.
I'm sure many people have many different uses for your talks and demonstrations. For me personally, they really help when I'm reading myself to paint. Especially when beginning a new project.
I really liked watching this painting unfold
I have pretty bad social anxiety. Have for a while, but it's been getting worse lately. I don't talk to people and when I do I'm constantly afraid that I said something wrong, or left the wrong impression or came across as an idiot. Day in, day out I go through this. At least for me, social anxiety is the pressure to be perfect, to never have another person think ill of me, to never be in the wrong. But this video made me realize I was just being a robot. Trying to be something without flaws is to be cold and robotic.
Thanks Adam, lately I've been through a mindblock where I can't draw, I don't...want to, and drawing always has been like breathing for me! And then, I keep going back and remember your video about procrastination. It is my favorite, and it hits me in the core of what my struggle is...
My life has been like a tsunami this year, all at once. Have to improve my art quickly, find a job, learn how to be an adult...it's overwhelming. But now I want to start again, slow, I want to draw what I like and fall in love with art like not so long ago
Thank you so much for these videos Adam, truly
Hey thank you for all your videos Adam, each touch my heart everytime I watch them, but the place I was when I first heard your advices vs now, I feel much calmer, less afraid now, and I think I owe you a big part of that growth, I had a good time while I animate, and I feel happy while I create which is something I didn't felt since a long time.
I'll keep watching your videos, Thank you for your kindness and compassion, I hope you'll have a good day
thank you. im listening to this as I draw and I'm crying because I relate to this too much.
Seems like I always learn something after watching these vids and not just how to digitally paint but listening to the talk lets me discover more about myself as an artist and what I want in my work. Thanks for the video!
I've been suffering from insomnia for about a month until I found your channel... one of the finest satisfying calm beautiful voice I ever heard in my life is yours... your voice kicks me into sleep within minutes.....
I really needed this. Currently working on my portfolio for college, my entire life and future career hinges on me being accepted. I need to prove to my parents that art CAN be a career, and I need to do this. I’ve been pretty frustrated lately because I haven’t been churning out “perfect” pieces.
Dude, these videos...just, thank you.
Nothing more to add.
Your videos have nurtured me into reigniting my once lost dream of painting
I really appreciate your words, this is exactly what I needed to hear, thank you so much Adam!
I'm having a really tough time, as everybody else I guess... but on top of that, i lost my job, my sweet little dog died in my arms a couple of month ago...so I'm wreck. My professional career collapsed for thousand reasons (family, health etc.). Now i'm trying to get in shape but sometimes it's hard to overcome my anxiety and depression and more over being a 42yold is not helping.
When I listen to you Adam I feel hope again. Thank you.
Right on the spot, again! I had a hard week end and hard conversations with my roommate (artist too). We are working on an short movie project and I'm afraid that I can't hit the deadlines. It's affecting our relationship and it hurts. I felt unskilled, negative, and I am so focused on the time which is running away every day. I'm trying to change my career, and I wasn't ready for that. Impatience, stress, bills, dreams...everything is just a mess sometimes and it's exhausting. Jumping from an alimentary job to an other...repeating the same cycle. To kind for this world, to grounded and not taking risks enough (according to her). The magic button doesn't exist...so I'm here, searching for an answer.
this video couldn't have been uploaded at a better time for me. I literally just finished a small experimental drawing today after 2about 3 days of struggling to get it right, I really needed to hear these words
Your voice is a very good thing to hear today. Thank you.
Wow this was incredibly relevant to myself and my art journey. Was working on a portrait and was absolutely loving it! Then near the end of my run I was unhappy with it. I decided to take a short break and just try to think what the painting needs. I didn't feel like a failure but I was somewhat frustrated with myself. Listening to this video was great timing lol. Thank you! I plan on finishing the painting tonight
Even if I wasnt Interested in Art or anything you teach I would love to take classes with you if I could. Your videos are light beacons in dark days. Thanks for having this channel here at least I can have a bit of it.
10:10 hits me hard damn you are on point.
You just
Opened my eyes
Like
You didnt said about my problem but helped me to catch good mind flow
Thank you, that changed a lot
Adam you touched on one of my favorite things about this quarantine (yes, there is some good in it): it's showing how human artists are. I look at my favorite performers who have taken to zoom and youtube to do live readings of plays and do music or just be their silly selves. no bells or whistles, just another human being who could blend in in any crowd...it's both comforting and scary at the same time, to think i am i the same category as these people who i think do such amazing things: a regular ol' person just tryna do their art cause that's what's in them to do. It encourages me to keep going because clearly it's achievable, but also scary because impostor syndrome!
With all of my heart, thank you.
Every time I watch one of your videos I get lost in the painting and I find myself with relief. The weight I once had on my shoulders fades away. Thank you for your amazing content.
I'll give my take on this too cuz I'm a beginner and I'm struggling too. Writing about it always helps...
1. Writing helps you articulate your ideas and help you avoid running around in circles by your brain.
........... ONE IMPORTANT NOTE. >> We are different yet we are all the same ... which means that you can take what works for others but you have to adjust it and fix it to work for you ... add or remove parts.
2. For me, I've been struggling with perfectionism ... I'm paralyzed, I don't wanna create bad art .. I love art so much that I didn't want to mess up. but man what I've discovered is that is an ego that's out of control. You aren't satisfied by your level that you don't wanna do it till you can do things like a Pro artist ... I do wanna get there and get there fast that I hate my level right now and hate my art .... hence you hate practicing and creating. Fix that .. and be happy with everything that will affect your life .. living in the present and working toward a better future is the key .... (Read the practicing mind book on that - it's awesome at explaining this point.)
3. Moral: I've always heard Feng Zhu speak about it ... and I've always ignored his advice .. but Nah that's very important.. you gotta know that you are a human and not a machine ... so you gotta take care of yourself, you have to understand that sometimes you are down - so don't beat yourself for it. rather just do something that you love .. something easy .. take a break away from social media .. sort things out ... then what I've done myself to work it out is no.4.
4. Non - Linear: life isn't a straight path at all ... so for my education, I do follow a curve ... down the curve is the easiest task .. and then the moderate state .. then the challenge.
So in a nutshell, you can start doing something moderate then go up the challenge .. then you will get drained .. cuz you are human so do something easy get down and up the curve ... so you learn and have fun
5. Discipline: I thought it's about hard work ... and putting the efforts and being diligent all the time. but what I've come to believe now ... is that it's also about being patient with the results ... it's about knowing that things take time .. that your brain needs time to rewire and understand things .. that it's natural .. and as long as you are better than yesterday. you are doing fine ...
I’ve been struggling with unconsciously suppressing my emotions for the past two months due to life and my productivity.
After watching your video, my tears just rolled out.
I thank you Adam for the support and uplifting content.
I've been feeling this way the whole month and I really needed this, I beat myself up too much unconsciously when I thought I didn't. You're absolutely right, I'm overwhelming and throwing at myself too much information for me or any human being that is able to handle, and beat myself unconsciously then, that I forgot why I even became an artist.
This video helped me alot, and it came just in the right time where I thought that taking a break was the only option, now, I'm inspired. Thank you so much.
I've been meaning to watch this. I have been working on a piece for nearly a week now that I know is good enough but part of me always finds something to work on... this whole thing is reassurance that when I finish it and give it to my friend it will be okay.
You are an amazing person, Adam! Thank you sir!
Actually, I feel like what you discussed in this video can apply to so many other areas of my life, not just my artist side. Of course, today actually, I was coloring according to this way I learned in a video. For some reason, my mind thinks that if I color this way, I can get it to look as good as the person who did it in the video. So I followed it almost mindlessly, and took my time, but I realized two things. It took me a long time to color it, and two, I didn’t really enjoy it. When I colored my way, I would enjoy it. But when I colored very exactly to their way (my perfectionist side acting up), I wasn’t accounting for my own way of coloring. Their way should only be a technique that I can apply to the way I already color, and yet I try to do it exactly how they do it.
In another situation, I was doing a podcast for my English class. Always, i struggled with using sources because I was always trying to center my points around the claims made in the article. Instead, it should be that i take information from the source and state what I really think about it, and explain how I understood it from my perspective. It felt like I was striving for perfection, and that I completely, as you said “ignoring past successes” in a way that I didn’t think about my own thoughts on the matter I was researching. Writing without my feelings on the topic felt like it meant nothing to me, but when I wrote how I felt on the topic and incorporated my own views on it, it certainly made me feel proud I was able to express my views on paper and verbally. I understood the topic more.
I think the main thing I took from the video is that we should see ourselves as human. Without being kind to ourselves for mistakes that we may make, and considering our own state and feelings on something, I think that we would keep feeling terrible about it. It does help to take a step back, and maybe talk to someone about these matters that worry us, because maybe we don’t know what to do in that moment. Or how to address our feelings on the matter. Well, I’m kind of just rambling at this point, not sure where I was trying to go with it but yeah. I feel more inspired now to try to color and learn something.
Ohmygoodness, I love the concept for this Medusa piece. So beautifully sad, in a way!
So thankful to have been able to somewhat master that “perfectionistic” side of me - I love how you put it: “excellence, not perfection”.
I’ve also learned, it’s okay to take as much time as you want on a piece until you’re satisfied (but not stressing yourself out)! I used to always try to rush pieces and pump them out as soon as I could, on top of that stressful NEED for perfection... It was so unrewarding when the piece was finished, honestly.
There’s beauty in imperfection. 💙
Adam how the heck are you doing this? EVERY TIME... srsly every time I struggle with something for 2-3 days you show up with a video right after solving my hubris! Thank you! I've been hammering at how to paint skin for days and I feel like I am getting worse.
Thanks a lot for these art talks, Adam. Your words are really helpful. 👍
Celebrating who we're instead of focusing on what we're not.. That goes for me haha even as I know striving for perfection does more harm than good I still catch myself beating me up over it but I'm working on it. I'm learning the human thing more and more, I can see myself changing for the better, growing, in some ways and I love it. Is it ok if who we want to be is a better version of ourselves? I wanna be more like this, I wanna be that. But it's things I believe either will be for the best or what my heart needs. But if I'm not careful I confuse it with needing to do all well and perfect and feel too frustrated to do anything at all.
Thanks for your video Adam. I would want nothing else than what they're. Genuine and human so we all feel together in this. I can't help but smile at that.
You remedy me and saved my current art project too 😅 Thanks Adam
Man....I can't even begin to say how much I needed this. I've really been struggling this week with art. I've learned so much but I'm not getting to the point I thought I would be by now. I've watched this twice already because this is exactly what I needed to hear. The funny thing is that this is already stuff I know. Or stuff I've told other people. But it's hard to take your own advice. Thanks, Adam. I really really REALLY needed to hear this.
This absolutely made my day. Very grateful.
Thank you.. Thank you so much for this wonderful advice
U always make me feel great after i watch your videos. Thank you
Thank you so much for the video ❤ your students are lucky to have you
So relaxing and wise, thank you
This happens to me on any project...I don't wat to release it because I just don't think it's good enough...Now, I am starting to embrace that everything can't be perfect. Especially if I work on the project alone.
My favourite drawing companion is back, the only thing missing now is a cup of coffee
Seems I haven't watched your videos in some weeks. Time to relax and catch up before bed :D good to hear you, nostalgic even at this point
I found your channel when I was feeling down and needed someone to encourage myself to keep fighting with my dream.
Two years ago, after losing my confidence drawing digitally or even posting my art on social media, I can only envy everyone and shut myself while still drawing with pencil and paper. Last year, when I had the courage to meet a psychologist, I finally knew I developed trauma from some past events in my life.
When I was still high school, my parents prevented me to go to the art majors. So, I made a detour way to still keep drawing. I chose the uni I'm in now, but the result, I got so much trouble finishing my study even till my last year now.
My depression started three years ago when I lost the job in an animation studio which I really want. They said, my skill still not good enough to work for them. Maybe because it's the first time I had a big failure in my life, started that time till last year, I can't even touch my final project which is the requirement for me to graduate from uni. I was crying so hard every time I faced it. I kept seeking for perfection in my drawing and afraid everyone will be bad-mouthing me behind my back because my drawing is still not good enough. I was seeking their expectation, their praises, and even want them to envy me.
but in the end, I realized, that's stupid. To seek praise and some false expectation from people we don't know, It's only burdening myself.
After finished my therapy last year, little by little I finally can touch again digital drawing. Although my depression sometimes still come again and again, I am glad I did not give up that time. Instead, I finally find the reason why I fell in love with drawing, comics, and fiction. I know what I have to do in my art now.
though again, I still fighting with my perfectionist thought and depression. but even so right now, I'm trying to embrace my own flaws, welcome all the beautiful flaws in my art, and have a brave to keep learning from my mistakes and want to learn something new. I try to recognize myself as a human, not something that only can please -literally- everyone in the world.
I totally crying listening to this video. Because it hits me so hard.
Thank you for the encouragement you try to share from this video. I always happy whenever I see your video in my youtube feed.
I'm sorry about my bad English, and again, thank you so much.
I struggle so much with perfectionism. It's not limited to art but there it's were it's most difficult to handle. Some times i feel like quiting because my art it's not as good as i want it to be even though i know that i will never be satisfied. It's a feeling i can't seem to get rid of so i guess i'll have to keep trying living with it. I just hope i never quit.
thank you Adam, this one touched me in ways I can't even describe that well. great one!
I really needed to hear this. Thank you!
Thank you so much! I needed to hear this.
That makes me feel better about art and your fails should be a destructive
Adam, you're the art dad every artist need, thank you for your wholesome teachings you wonderful person
I love you too, i just discover a tehnique with a gradient map by mistake...it really was a happy accident and made my clothing look really realistic, i just got better and done things that i don;t explain how...I just go with the flow and feel the painting...imagine and just my hand can;t stop moving...i'm so happy to listen to you when i'm drawing, and you share this with us
Your words have been my art fuel ever since I saw your channel. Thank you for everything, Adam :)
I needed this.
Adam, it is always a pleasure to hear you speak. Wow. It touches the soul in so many ways. I stopped with my art because I can't stand this idea of not being perfect and not making a masterpiece like so many people I see online. Thanks for this video
Thank you, Sir!
Many thanks, Adam. I've been at this a long time, and I still have that nagging imposture syndrome. We all need to remember that we are human, have our struggles, and imperfection is beautiful.
Thank u..thank u soo much..i need this ..my heart is lite now..
i don't have much to say other than i love watching you paint
Wow !! I'm really surprised . the way you talk and how it is really effective l love what you doing. keep it up .
Needed this video idk how youtube algorithm was actually helpful this time.
i have never been so glad and happy to find a channel like yours.....i am so grateful that i managed to find you Adam ...thank you.
Well damn ❤️
"My quality is my ability to adapt to my imperfection" - Quote of the day good vid. 12:20
Thankyou so much
Tbh thats how i feel about my recent pieces- i feel like i havent finished any drawings and that im a shit artist just because i havent finished any pieces lately: ive been indulging myself and enjoying sketches .
Of course i practice to get better in subjects i lack, but i dont do fully rendered pieces because i am in this learning progress and its easier for me to do smaller piece. I know the logic of all of it but when i look back i kind of enjoyed the time when i had more finished piece with maybe less progress in between them.
Either way, i hope to make a slight difference with my next rendered piece!
On one hand I wand to strive for excellence and I like the process and the results when I manage to do it but on the other I feel like I'm being self-absorbed when I dare to think that I can even strive for excellence when I'm still not excellent.
Edit: I think I solved it. Way back when I still had trouble starting any drawing or doodling I eventually half figured half learned from one of Adam's previous videos (link here: ruclips.net/video/iv2uRUwc4yU/видео.html&t) that I need to simplify and figure out how to draw something. So now applying this I could figure out not just how to draw something but how to make the drawing excellent. And sure it won't be as excellent as someone else's work but it will be more excellent than my last. And if I mess up completely well I'm allowed to do that since I'm figuring stuff out.
Hello Adam, it seems you managed to read me like an open book. Despite my best efforts to retort you as i lay down trying depressed by my art you somehow managed to know what I was saying or thinking and make points against it. I thank you for this and because of this I hope you can help me with my ongoing issue.
Most of my life I’ve been drawing and aspiring to be an artist, not aiming to be popular but wanting to create what comes to my imagination and manifesting it in a realistic form. Before I was having fun even though something was off I would make the excuse “I don’t have any training, or classes” so I excused myself to think if it looks cool it doesn’t need to make sense. However I’m now in school, being surprised that my first school I choose accepted me despite once again saying I have no experience or knowledge of fundamentals.
I’ve learned a lot here but at the same time I feel I’m messing up, i struggle at every step, I’m being incredibly hard on myself and somehow I feel because one of the beginning points is messed up that the rest of the piece is ruined and when I turn in the assignment the lecturers will criticize it. At least that’s what I want yet I’ll get a compliment saying “good job” or maybe some slight criticism but about something else entirely, and my lecturers aren’t ones to hide criticism, I’ve seen them stop entire class sessions to dissect each students works saying how it can be improved, and I’m largely wanting that because I feel it will reveal something I missed letting me improve, yet like I said I only get a good job.
It seems very stupid probably but I can’t stop beating myself up because of it and it’s caused me to break down, because I’m thinking if somehow I “get it” why does it feel I don’t know what I did to achieve “it”, the best analogy; imagine someone doing an incredibly complex maneuver and being praised for it, however you don’t know what you even did that was praise worthy, why it was good, what steps led you to do be able to do it and then thinking it’s now expected of you as a norm. I’m no longer having fun with art, because I feel I should have some confidence in what I’m achieving, but along the way if every step I’m doubting myself where I think I messed up how can I be confident in my work?
This just reminded me I've been forgetting my high school teachers words: "I'm not looking for perfect."
Been really feeling like an imposter lately.
Hi Adam. Thank you for sharing these videos with us. I find your perspective to be very insightful and valuable, thank you. Ya got me feelin like rambling though so where better to do that then the good ol' youtube comment section amiright?
I'm fending off some art block right now but i feel like the problem digs a little deeper than pure art block. It has something to do with my perspective of myself, which has been horribly warped ever since this toxic relationship I had in high school. Nowadays it seems all of my friends are sad or upset about something. Some of them even giving up on art entirely because they're 'not good enough.' I don't want to quit, but there are so many people in the world that don't appreciate themselves and the good things they've done, that its easy to get stuck in an echo chamber of low self esteem. its worse when you're left alone and the only one perpetuating the echo chamber is yourself. I'm not eligible to speak to a therapist even though I feel like i should. But i feel like listening to you helps me figure myself out a little. I am an artist, this is my anon account. I do animation and i often feel like im falling behind or slipping, and its that very same feeling that causes me to not want to create for a time. al last summer i drew maybe five things which is kinda pathetic really, considering it was many months and they werent exactly extravagant paintings, just... ipad doodles... when i could have been studying. i want to excuse myself because of the shift in social attitudes with the pandemic and all, but it just feels like an excuse, and like an excuse is a bad thing. i get mad at myself for not drawing and then thats a motivator to not draw and go do something else, i am my own echochamber. I dont think that at this level of self proclaimed laziness that allowing myself to continue to be unproductive is the best option for me. they always say "you need to take a break once in a while" which is great and all but, i need to figure out how to get out of "break" mode cause i feel like im stuck in it. Im not sure what to do or if an answer to this other than increased self discipline exists but...ive got to do an animated short this year, and im co project manager on it. And if this attitude of mine keeps up, im going to let my team down, not just myself. Might start keeping a diary so i can write stuff like this for myself. Writing is a thing i used to enjoy but havent partaken in for a long time as well. maybe that can help, idk.
If anyone has any input on this, feel free to respond. But tis time for this balloon frog to drift away into the void. I hope you all are feeling okay about yourselves, dont be your own worst enemy like im doing. Happy painting, folks.
i needed to hear this.
Thanks, this is a master class
Today, you saved me. Thank you
drawing ellipses and drawig straight lines brought me here. Godamn drawabox! xd
Perfect imperfections.
This is what plagued me everytime i draw, when it's "Not Good Enough", i'm instantly Alt+F4 and i didnt even save it. I don't know why is it so hard for me to just enjoy what i draw, like when i'm on middle school. Maybe because i'm looking at so many artist work that, "Wow these are good". I forgot who said this but, there's actually a mental level behind drawing, you have your hand and eyes coordination. If your eyes are too far high leveled than your hand, you get the "I'm not good enough" syndrome. It's because your eyes expected something that your hand is incapable of producing, so they're out of sync. If you overthinking this, you have a perfect formula for a destructive virus called "Perfectionist".
I wish i be a simple minded person, not a overthinking anxiety machine..
Thanks man, couldnt have come at a better time i was literally just sitting here painting and just having a horrible time because i feelt like a total looser, your video gave some new found want to start painting on it again
once again a video right on time after i just finished a drawing. Been drawing some hours on an abstract piece today and i was struggling too with the idea of perfection. Thinking where i could add more ,tweak fix some and so on...in the end i eventually noticed that there is no such thing and was happy with the outcome and that i didnt panic or overdo on the drawing. If anyone is interested in seeing what i mean : @schizzldizzl
All feedback is appreciated. I wish you all a good day :)
Gorgeus thoughts, as always.
Thank you.
Love you too Adam. Have a lovely time even if it won't goes best or not even good. I love you as friend even we never know each other. I don't know you, you don't know me. And anyway you can make me smile.
I love you too Adam