There’s nothing worse than being an artist but not being able to create due to mental illness like depression. I miss the days of sitting in art class, talking with friends and creating art. It made the creativity flow much better imo.
I am currently going through this, I tried to make a song but didn’t feel like I was being “myself”. I remember sitting in art class being able to draw then come home and make music I need that system back or something similar to it
I recommend looking into psilocybin/psychedelics. It’s like a reset. My depression and other various issues decreased greatly and my creativity increased. I even had a happy mood (beyond simply “not depressed”) for about 3 weeks after taking them. Life-changing
To be creative is to see the arbitrariness of perception for what it is. Not to run from chaos and relativity nor to wholly accept and embrace the safety of order, but to seek the places where they meet. The bleeding edge between the beautiful and the vile.
Your video made me think of something I told my (highly intelligent and creative) daughter a few weeks ago. "Being very smart and sensitive leads to a much richer life. But the downside is you will have a harder time finding people that can fully see you."
@@mrararatovich we all need people, unfortunately, and our thoughts to steer clear of many/most of them to find those who will treat us better than the others. The only people who really have no need for human connections are narcissists and sociopaths- and yet even they need other people....for them to prey on.
@@IfeelmylegssubtelyI used to think that. You begin breaking away from relationships with others until later down the road you have no one and no connection. It's a very lonely life and guarantees unfulfillment.
Art is probably the most direct route to self discovery. I have come to believe that the urge for creativity may be in fact a yearning for self understanding and self realization. If this is so, one could argue that the search for creativity may be actually a spiritual endeavor in the search of self. Medicine men of old, like ancient Shamans, were in fact highly artistic and creative. This is because they needed to be deeply connected to their own feelings, thoughts and dreams, so they could understand deep truths of life, humans and existence itself. We will probably soon realize that creative and artistic people, are in fact, very spiritual people in search for meaning and understanding by taking a courageous deep dive into the profoundness of their own self.
I began drawing when I was about 7 or 8. Began writing stories when I was 13 or 14. That was when I felt compelled to "try to understand the mind of God". It's been a life long endeavor, very much an aspect of my love of beauty and art. I will always have more questions than answers, for every answer opens up always more mysteries. This is a subject that fascinates.
I wish I could put into words how this made me feel. In therapy, I’ve finally touched on my fear or failure. I have always been a creative, but it did feel like a curse. Nothing I ever made felt good enough, and I began to grow scared of that feeling of inadequacy. So much so that I stopped creating for years and years. But the chaos in my heart and mind cannot be silenced. I am working on finding a balance between the chaos of creation and the structure and demands of daily life. What scares me the most is making nothing of note.
Keep making. It will not be yourself the one to realize the greatness of your own creations, so don't bother judging with that objective. Only judge to improve the work.
Your art, no matter if someone tries to replicate it, it’ll always be unique to your style! That’s what’s so beautiful about art. Use your old art by seeing what in particular wasn’t up to your standards. Once you start another painting, your questioning will click! This is where the fun begins, as you’ll be able to approach it in a slightly different way. Which will vastly increase your progress, slowly but surely of course. But that is up to the individual in terms of speed of progression. It’s important to remember that no one has ever fully mastered art since art is so vague, just others who have more experience. Keep on going and you’ll get to where you want to be!
Sometimes creativity isn't about other people , seeing your work or hearing your music, it's more about bringing something that is inside you out and learning who you are.
I very much fit the suffering artist stereotype, but I don't regret it. I would never trade in creativity for a "normal" life, it brings me fulfillment, it gave me community with people who think like me, it gives me purpose, it gives me agency. The canvas is the closest thing I've ever felt to true freedom
me too! I struggle and I strain to make film reviews but after I'm finished, I'm often proud of my work and when I'm not, I'm determined to make better content so I can be proud, I don't wanna upload content that will be popular for a week because of some meaningless trend, I want my reviews to last forever, I want people 10 years in the future to be introduced to my reviews or look back on them in nostalgia
@@AbrasiousProductions reviewing a film is leeching off someone’s work that’s not creativity you’re just writing down thoughts everyone has I hate to shit on you buddy but it’s not that creative of a job
Thank you so much for making this. Sometimes I feel like I screwed up by simply existing, that life would've been so much better if I'd been "normal", that I'd be the one laughing at anyone different. But if I was "normal" I wouldn't have the beautiful friends I do today, I wouldn't see the beauty that lies within art of all forms. Yes I suffer in a near constant state of existential crisis and melancholy, but when I'm with my friends, or looking at a beautiful painting or landscape, reading a brilliant book or or listening to a beautiful song, life is beautiful. Yes we seem to be headed to self induced annihilation, yes we are hurting each other because some powerful people wish to remain ignorant, but in those moments of beauty that all that heightened emotional sensitivity and awareness seems so sweet, and life is worth living. Especially when you know you're not alone.
I think most creative people aren’t burdened with their “gift” as you say by exterior pressure. Rather I think it’s an internal pain to live up to your own standards. Or simply a desperate attempt to silence their own mind. I’m a designer and I have terrible anxiety and insomnia as a result of my creativity. When attempting to sleep I close my eyes and am immediately stuck with flashes images in front of my eyes like lightning. I feel a compulsion to document these visions late into the night as the stream endlessly pours. I also have ocd and obsessively dedicate every moment to observing and remembering data that will aid my vision of the world. I don’t care what the world thinks of my work. I don’t care why I’m doing it. It’s simply if I don’t do this I will die. My mind will eat itself if I don’t orient it towards a outcome. There’s a constant pressure to release the tension which is only possible through solving a problem. I think many creative people feel this way.
You’re so right bro.. there’s certain pieces I haven’t finished yet and it’s like in my mind it attacks me like you better finish this, you better do this one next 😂😂😂 “what about that art book you were gonna make” so much to do so little little time
Man your like talking to my soul man, reading this comment helped truly connect with myself. It helped to recognize the cause of my problem in art Thank you
The same thing literally happens to me!! Almost everyday images of colorful characters and impossible landscapes flash before my eyes, I've been keeping a list of descriptions so I don't forget them. And I want to share all those wonders I see with the world, I think they're too beautiful to deny them existence
Going through this comment section is so therapeutic. It's like finally finding your tribe. People like you, people that resonates with you deeply. Creativity is truly a huge blessing ( cause ) with an equal and opposite reaction ( effect). And there's this constant worry I go through when I know that my higher self has this huge potential that would never be able to fit into this short life on Earth. It's like the more you create, the more you have to create. It is depressing. But then what can a mere mortal do?
That “chaos” you describe is incredibly accurate. I have all these ideas and not being express them the way I want to express them drives me mad. All these ideas flood my mind sometimes in ways they really shouldn’t and I want to share them but I fear that no one would understand why I do this.
This resonates deeply. the constant knock or nag in my soul that fiends for more work to be done. That builds up idea after idea but everytime i complete or attempt that idea. It seems as if it’s never enough, i haven’t been able to see the project or whatever it is the way i see it in my head and that is what kills me
Write them down and work at one at a time. Example, you may want to sculp untensils out of clay. You may also want to write your memoir. For your memoir write down notes daily in your journal and date them. Buy some clay and work on sculpting one untensils at a time. You need order and the best order is to write everything down.
The purpose of creating Art is not so people can understand it, is so it can be shared. As long as you share your art, you are already fulfilling its purpose. Create, and share. It will give you peace.
@@Nick.Rodriguezyes, art to me is like a current that guides you but you don’t know where, Some things just come to you, different urges to make things , but after making the thing you have to make another thing. And it’s constant doubt wheter you’re work is of value or not
I believe creativity is the only thing keeping me alive. Its the only thing avoiding me from suiciding. It's a curse; a curse that has become the reason to live. I write for myself, not for others. I want to be loved; Creativity makes it hard, but it is the thing that helps me express my pain. I wished to be properly loved. I feel I would never get it: so I wish to be loved through my books
You have the greatest gift of all. As a creative person myself, I see creativity as a way to become eternally remembered for what I do, because I could be the first to do it. If you think of it like this, there is a great chance people will love your work at some point and because of it's passion and uniqueness it would continue to be loved forever. I don't know what your book is about, but even the strangest novels (like Brave New World or Dune) are loved more now than when those authors were alive. Your creativity will outlive you, trust me.
In life things change, maybe one day you can channel your creativity so as to help you more in other ways in life, and be more happy, without the constant need to be creative. I'm sorry I don't have better words.
I have searched the phrase "the curse of creativity" multiple times in the past, finding nothing. Thanks for being the one to fill the void, great video
@@shreksburgers...so we have to use our dreams to make money ...yes I know , easier said than done , but , it's the only path that leads to OUR SUCCESS
Being an artist can be a terrible pain. I always drew, but I wanted to paint. I tried to do it because I couldn't stop, something always kept telling me to come back, but I swear I hated my art and cried and threw everything away. That was awful. People usually think that creating is a beautiful and easy way, because you have a gift, but most of the time it's just a lie.
As an artist/illustrator myself, now i know why i feel like i'm losing my mind from year to year. There's always this overwhelming feeling (that affects me negatively) whenever i think of my own existence and my purpose in life. even my friends said that i'm crazy.. it's like i'm grown more sensitive and mentally ill the older i get. Great video btw
Discovering this video and the comment section is a blessing. Being a creative individual is painful, and it hurts more when you struggle to find others who face and understand the same feelings you have. Both the video and this entire comment section resonates with me so well. I spent like 10 minutes reading these comments, and I spent a good 10-15 minutes writing down on my note app a bunch of creative things that came to mind when reflecting on what I had just read. When you stop and think about it, this comment section reveals only a small percentage of highly creative people. There are way more creative individuals out there, and many of them are struggling with the same problems we are all facing here. Crazy to think too that many creative individuals in history probably lived their lives never meeting other creative individuals. This comment section contains more creative individuals than I can imagine meeting in the span of several years. There's a lot that comes to mind, but I struggle to write precisely what ideas my chaotic mind is communicating to me -- and this is of course one of the curses of creativity that this video discusses (also, I would be writing this comment forever if I were to continue lol).
Being creative is a way of thinking. It’s such a double edged sword. I can build shit in my head to the smallest detail, I have photo memory, I can tell you when something is off in the picture or how to make it better in so many ways. But the other side of that is all the bad shit that has happened in my life I can remember to the last detail. My mind has created a system where if anything I don’t like has happened my mind erases that like it never happened. But being creative is it’s own process of self destruction
Western views of creativity is so toxic, they actively diminish and stigmatise creativity and make it seem like it’s a “curse”. It’s not a curse, it’s an innate ability that you, like everyone else in this world, has. It’s your job to hone it, to seek support, and do something with it. Otherwise you will become extremely depressed and mentally ill. To build a healthy relationship towards creative expression is one the hallmarks of human greatness. But it’s unfortunately often misunderstood. Do not emasculate the creative forces within you because of social stigma.
As someone who suffers from this, Ive gotten several glimpses of both sides of the spectrum, when you're not recognized or given credit they see you as a flawed human, incapable of completing simple tasks the given way and as a detective man But when something you do gets recognition, these same people that hated you for who you were will change opinion quickly and praise you for said task. The people who praise and judge talent are often the ones who look for it because they themselves cannot create nor understand it
You will be ground to bits and stomped upon until you die in wretched misery and then after you are dead they will erect a bronze statue in your honor...
These people have a natural intuitive understanding of impermanence in the physical and the boundless nature of the infinite. If this intuition can be brought into conscious awareness, something truly magical can happen. Which is to see that all experience, including all forms of suffering, are shades of color on the canvas of life. You are an artist and your life is your masterpiece.
Beautiful video. To anyone suffering that resonates with this, after many years of struggling I've learned two things I wish I'd known in my younger years that might be of use to others: 1. Your thoughts CREATE your feelings. And creative minds can think powerfully, both positively and negatively. I suffered severe depressions that were unknowingly of my own making - negative thoughts created negative feelings, which made more negative thoughts and the spiral deepened. Try and solve the core problems that affect you (I greatly encourage therapy to help this process), but also find a practice for becoming present so you can quieten the noise (v much recommend meditation but there are many other practices too). 2. We are not broken, or weak. We are sensitive -- to the minutiae of our artform, but also to the rest of the world. Do not feel shame or guilt because you don't like being around that group of friends, or have to break up with that person, or leave that job, or change that song - we feel things deeply and sometimes that means we have to make different choices to create the best version of our life. Owning that I'm sensitive (which if you're a man is not culturally encouraged in many places) has really helped frame the highs and lows of my experience in life. I had to leave that party not because there's something wrong with me, but I have a gift with some associated drawbacks :) Let's keep ourselves stable so we can change the world!!
I think creativity is always useful. Just because it's not paid attention to and validated by others doesn't devalue its usefulness. In fact, creative outlets are a great way to regulate ones mood and increase positive emotions. That in itself proves the utility of creativity just on the individual level. Also, highly creative people can influence the world on small scale in their own little lives. Being famous isn't an excuse for fufillment.
I agree with everything stated in this video. Over the years, I struggled with the chaos, and yes I painted to make sense of it. To create order out of it. But in my struggle to put my work out, my creativity was beaten out of me. For years, I didnt lift my paint brush. Ironically, today as I write this, I am in pursuit of that chaos that was once present in me. Perhaps that was the only thing I could rely on. Thankyou for this video, I am glad to know there are more creative people out there.
I honestly don't think our present culture either values, nor reveres creative people, because it no longer tends to look at the art of creation as an expression of an individual, but as a democratic process that everybody has a say in. Truly creative people now tend to suffer exponentially more because indifference is no longer the worst thing one has to contend with, but now there is the possibility of abuse if people don't like what you do. It's ironic that what should be the greatest period of creativity humans have ever had is also probably the worse.
I really like this. Also I think because of democratic process and access to internet a lot of bad art is also overappreciated and corrupts people mind, for instance the simple dancing videos on tiktok get more likes and more followers whereas people who are highly creative are underappreciated and they simply disappear over the period of time in the vastness and dumb and pretentious art.
Everything you said was so true, but I won't stop being an artist even if everyone hates my art and I can never find a way to truly express myself like the chaos you described
My story: Im extremely sensitive and frail by nature yet was very creative til my +-35th bday. As a child I was very shy and empathic, was always attracting bullies who came out of nowhere in droves. School was a nightmare and it damaged me. In my 20s I was still bullied by colleagues at work, by my university crush who stalked me for years to get validation. I self rejected myself from every attractive girl I encountered thinking I was unworthy. The used/abused/shitted on me so much that something died in me when I turned 35. I could had done amazing things to contribute to the world yet it wasnt meant to be. A brain activity scan had the nurses startled. 'Man your brain is so active wow'. Its the animal instincts that drive most people that killed it in me. Now Im a lifeless 46 bankrupt nobody, addicted to pot, nearly homeless. The world has consumed me
There's nothing more depressing than wasted potential. :( It's a shame, but it isn't too late. Chances are that a mind like yours at your age knows so many things, and has so many things to say. It wouldn't take too long to be seen for your work, if it reflects you. o:
David, thank you for sharing your story with us. Please do not deprive the world of your gifts. It may be dormant at the moment, but you still have it in you. They can never take that away from you.
Thats so sad, I had a friend like you, he ended his life when he was 38ish.. on top of what you are describing he was also gay. The world eats guys like you just for fun and thats why we as inferior species have no future.
Sometimes I know I'm more creative than I've allowed myself to be. I'm 70, so I'm writing again. There is no such thing as an old artist, even when the pain is killing you.
To unlock creativity to reality is to understand that in many cases, only you can see what you see. If everyone can understand and see what you see, it wouldn't be innovative. It is the trait that makes something NEW.
To date, this is the most intuitive, true, & expressive definition of the gift (the curse) of artistic ability. I began drawing around my first birthday. Art is a major part of my identity. With this gift, I learned early on, the greater the sensitivity & ability, the worse the chaos of deviations of "normalcy," result as the higher degree of genius. I have no genius, yet I do know how what artistic ability I do possess has led to mental distortion, to peer perception of being labeled as beyond weird, all issues of my own making. I have found in life no greater ecstasy nor greater anguish as what I experience when I create.
I believe this entire reality is a giant art project and probably one of many currently being created by an artist or artists we can't even begin to comprehend. It's beautiful, really.
Great take, but a counter-argument: It should noted that people like Kurt Cobain EVEN WITH SUCCESS were still miserable on an individual level. I think its a bit reductionist to say that fame and/or fortune are the only worthwhile rewards for a creative life. Those things only enhance possibilities, which make life considerably more overwhelming for the creative.
I fully agree with you 100%. Art is a form of expression of the self (thoughts, beliefs, life experiences, traumas, subconscious, etc.). Fame and/or fortune are good for the creative's income, legacy and lifestyle, but if the artist has unaddressed mental illness or unresolved trauma these things won't help in the long run and will actually cause more harm than good.
This is so true. Since I can remember I have always been a creative. I drew my first "story" (series of pictures) with 4 years and my mom wrote down the story I told her. But I also remember the first moment I experienced mental illness. When I was 5 and it was Silvester my mom told me to be careful with those glows ticks she gave us kids and "not break them because the liquit is a little toxic". I remember how I thought about sickness and death at this, and I remember thinking about how I have Ready lived so much of my life and I wouldn't have much life left. At 5 years old! At an age where I couldn't possibly know how long a human life would be, and I had so much still ahead of me. For all my life I went on thinking things like that, but also went on to create. I write, I paint, I craft, garden and so much more. And I can't stop. It's like a drug. Creating something is still some of the most beautiful feelings I have ever experienced and it's the only thing I really value about myself. Over the years I have been diagnosed with depression and OCD. Especially OCD makes my life hard every day. The perfectionism, and torturing and punishing myself about everything wrong with me. And yet... I don't take meds. I tried them, and I didn't mind most side effects but one... I was so bland all of the sudden. I didn't enjoy any more creativity, and was completely blocked. There was no need for creativity. And though there was no more dark in my life the color faded too. So I don't take meds anymore. I live with this chaos inside of me, because I can't let go of my art. By this point it just means more to me than my own suffering. I just would wither away without it and be "normal" like everybody wants me too. And I would never again feel that complete inner peace when you sit down with your brushes and colors and start painting. Like in your mind you cod go anywhere you want, and be anyone. We creatives are a "bug" never to be fixed
To creative people: you don’t have to be tortured to be creative. You don’t have to idolize chaos. You don’t have to fit some desired mold of a psychotic genius. There are plenty of non-tortured people that are really creative. They just don’t end up in the history books because their lives aren’t as relatively “interesting.”
another problem with my own creativity is ideas keep flowing through me, yet I don't have enough time to do it all so many of my ideas just stay that.. ideas.
Some things I feel you handily accomplished with this video: you lent language that allows for the compartmentalisation of concepts that otherwise defy such ordering, and you gave me a few moments of good conversation, one that I'll have to continue within the confines of my own world, but maybe someone else will be slightly altered by it: ripples in a pond. Thank you for allowing me to become part of that conversation.
I guess I fit this mold, but I don't suffer over it. It was weird as a teenager, keeping to myself daydreaming, but as an adult who can manage my time it's entirely a blessing.
Its important to never give up on creativity but its just as important to stay grounded and don't become obsessive with your own craft. It will lead to years of stress, isolation and hubris. Also, by taking a break from creating and taking the time to smell the roses, you're art will become better and you'll free yourself from tunnel vision.
You just truly explained how I've felt my whole life, I've been always depressed and anxious because i can't express these ideas inside me that people would enjoy and realise my full potential. Creativity is like a poison when not released into the world for everyone to see, when you keep it inside and not expressed it destroys you slowly and truly makes you go insane. I have had so many ideas and concepts in my head since I was a very small child ( about 3 years old) up to today that never saw light of day and it just kills me. And what you said about chaos is really true, i never knew how to explain it but i guess that's the point all these things i saw and envisioned that no-one else could would scare me even, cause trying to understand them and put them into order seemed nearly impossible, it felt like these things were to grand for my mind to fully grasp sometimes.
I have always been very creative but I've always struggled to put my thoughts into words so that i can express exactly what I'm thinking. I just feel like i numb my mind Nowadays to save myself from overthinking and setting off my anxiety.
i’m bawling my eyes out right now. this video came to my life at the right time. as an art major at the moment, i’ve been through weeks of denial and processing of this very feeling, and it is heartbreaking. only some get the answers. i couldn’t put it into words, but u sure did. thank you so much 4 bringing this to the world.
This is why ive struggled with suicide from a young age. I always felt so far away from everyone and when i spoke about the things i was trying to make sense of. Ive always felt insane, i know in the whole world i am in good company among my fellow writers or creatives at large. But in a square mile you may never meet a fellow creative without intervention(public forum like achool). The world feels so alien to me, but only by asphyxiation. Its not how i see the world that bothers me, its how horrifyingly divergent the common world view is. How they take to this hellsca0e like a duck to water, and proceed to lash out at you for your profane thinking. When i glimpse my world, the one that i see its always brought me peace. But the cumulative heartbreak of being bound in this prison in my waking life. Writing this i cant breath, as the eyes press into my skin, ensuring i conform. So much that all ive ever wanted was someone anyone who could understand me, the real me. Thats why no matter how hard it gets i will always love my soulmate so much. I couldnt not care less what it took to keep her in my life. I know its a fragile thing, but the rest of my life i had no recourse but to drown until the end came never dying but always feeling as if I've been dying the whole time. Its strange to think, here i am able bodied but have no more power to chose death than a loved one lying comatoes, pleading for it to stop. But youre right, when i can let myself bw there and feel like im really there, I soar. I dont cant if anyone ever reads my work. I write for the thrill of it, to feel life weaving itself from my hands. I may change a lot of things if i could do them differently, but id never want to lose this precious gift lodged in my chest. Be strong, always. See what only you can see.
Most people don't understand that we highly emote, for us something that to them may be small, will create on us an avalanche of emotions and feelings and thoughts that can be sometimes overwhelming. I understand you. Keep close the people who understand you, they are a blessing.
I’ve always wanted to connect to people through music and the things that I create. The biggest hurdle is living up to my own expectations because nothing I create is ever good enough. Therefore, I never end up putting anything out there to share with others. The self critic can never be silenced. I then end up feeling like a failure when I chose not to share my work and it becomes this endless cycle. I suffer from severe anxiety and it has a huge impact on my ability to create and see the good in things but if I don’t create, I end up very miserable. It’s a tricky one to navigate. Like an endless battle with no way to win.
You have to be okay with the possiblity of making mistakes in order to create without friction, you can't let imperfection define your worth as a human being, be your own friend and try making something you truly like, even if no one else does if you truly do, it will make it far less scary and far more bearable.
everything you said is exactly what's been on my mind lately. I'm a video production major in college, I know I have to get into this line of work because I would hate doing any other job. Any job that doesn't involve creativity.
Creativity can be both a gift and a challenge, but by accepting the difficulties that come with it and maintaining inner composure, one can transform adversity into a source of growth and inspiration. Stay Creative. Stay Wise. Stay Stoic.
Damn this video really hit. I loved making art, literature, and singing that'd make people feel something, incorporating fiction to realism for the arts and lit that'd make people relate. I used to see things outside the norm and it was exciting to look at for most part. It's like molding something of potential and watching it grow on its own. Nowadays I feel linear. I like to think that maybe it's just adulthood and that everyone else feels the same; I have the urge to be like the rest so life becomes simpler because the mental anguish is difficult to cope with. Sometimes I think of my fellow creatives and if they're able to adapt, then so should I, right? It's like being forced into something that doesn't fit you and hoping that overtime, you'll mold into it no matter how painful and not really worth it. I worry sometimes of living the rest of my life dull, depressed, and not creative enough that I lose soul.
I clicked on this video not to hear your opinion, but to respond to that title: There is no “Curse” with creativity it is a gift that needs to be respected. For whatever reason You as a creative person are able to tap into flow in your craft much more swiftly that someone who isn’t creative, because you’re able to soak up information from many different sources that equal a creative outcome. You hold the power to actually achieve so much if you lean into this flow & edge. But if you don’t, you will always suffer. Once you lean into your creative edge, committed fully to it’s purpose, harnessing the power of belief of achieving something that’s not yet made (to create), then you will literally architect every facet of your life. Live healthy, Respect God, Never stop learning new inputs, Never stop creating new outputs.
Well fucking done dude, spot on. "The average person wouldn't get to have this feeling in their lives". I always end up at that statement whenever I feel like my investment in my creative talents is a waste of time. one half of mind tells me "this isn't what you should be spending your time on! What benefit are you getting from this that is actually quantifiable? You don't get paid, you aren't fostering relationships through it, and who actually even sees it? What is the fucking point?....." The question echos for a moment but then a response: "Would you really want to be the aternative? If you stopped spending time on what you love? Would you want to be a regular person?".....Absolutely not, because the "average person wouldn't get to have this feeling in their lives"
What I've come to learn about myself over my life of creating is to never put pressure on the creativity. Let it take its natural course. 'strike when the iron is hot, so to speak, and learn when to walk away and not force it(while avoiding the potential dangers of this leading to extended procrastination of all things) For me, it's manifested in intense and obsessional bursts creativity and output, followed by a hiatus. It's taken me years to be able to understand this cycle and learn to use it effectively. The much harder part is managing the waves of emotion that accompany it. I deal with it well, have adjusted to it, and I live a very happy and fulfilling life, but I can imagine how easy it could be for other creatives to spiral into despair. I also think that having multiple creative outputs/mediums is also very important. I've been like this since childhood, so even though the initial interest in something new may result in a focused obsession on just that thing, learning to incorporate and assimilate it into the process is something I need to do without forsaking other interests. It really is a fascinating aspect of human psychology.
It’s crazy how I was recommended this video after thinking about this for weeks. Pain and art will always be intertwined for me. I have always had this intense urge to create, ever since I was small. But severe mental illness can make it extremely hard to find the passion or motivation to create anything. I will say, my writing is at its best when I am at my worst. I think it’s because I am able to take my suffering and transform it into something tangible. Sometimes, it makes everything feel worth it. Art is proof that we exist and that we feel. No other animals or creatures can do what we do because they don’t have the burden of the knowledge that they exist in the same way that we do. So we can take all that pain, the questioning, the suffering, joy, sadness, beauty, and we can produce physical manifestations of it based off of our own unique perceptions. It’s truly amazing and I think it’s what separates us from the rest of the animal kingdom. It’s the self-awareness that makes it possible and hence, why I believe creatives are more prone to mental illness. We are able to self-reflect in a way that a lot of people cannot. We are too aware.
i have these certain sounds, colors, shapes, places, and fictional characters that i associate with each other deeply in my subconscious... that is why music and art is the only thing that keeps me alive.
This has helped me understand myself more than anything I’ve ever read or listened too…I always felt there was something wrong with me I’ve always felt my identity’s been fragmented and have spent years trying to fix it now I know I don’t need to..I just need to embrace the chaos find freedom in it…Thank you my friend this has helped so much keep doing what your doing
True words....I feel you from the bottom of my heart.....I miss the lighten days of my childhood, the older I got, the more the natural joy goes away.....but the urge to create something is still there.. often I'm overwhelmed by it.....not knowing what and how to to....so I'm ending up doing nothing....depressed....and whenever I got up to do something.....I feel joy in the moments of doing......but shortly after I'm done, the old sorrow creeps back into my soul......and I'm empty.... And nothing is ever good enough, there must be more. A better way....better work.....better result.....and yes, over the years this motivation made me better In what I'm doing. The confidence is getting better....but still....I'm never finished....never....the chaos in me will be there....always..... It is a curse....comes with anxiety and depression.....the feeling of disconnection and the feeling nobody ever understands you really.....and the feeling that you never ever will be connected to anyone.....not in the deepest meaning just on the surface.....for the most people at least..... sometimes you are finding someone special.....let the person in.....It can heal you and motivates you....and stand behind you.... Cheerio...
This video is amazing. I've been creative my entire life (40yo now) and there are frequent times in the last 20 that I just feel absolutely nuts, and part of it is from the possibilities I see in the universe - which is something this video touches on. I latch on to one philosophy or way of thinking, which then sends me to another, and then another, and so on. It's exhausting and soul-draining to be in so many places and thoughts at once. But really I can relate to so much of this video. I am so glad and relieved that I am not alone. Much love to all my fellows out there, and thank you so much to the OP.
Being stuck between the borders of sanity and insanity is an experience most won't ever have. To touch the madness and not lose yourself is the greatest gift one can receive. That's what I think.
this video is so amazing. im an artist that’s had a war waging in my mind for as long as i can remember and i’ve never been able to describe it to get adequate help for it, but this video sums it all up perfectly and brought me a new perspective on my life i really needed. thank you
There’s nothing worse for me as an artist than having to stop a project after I start. I have an incredibly hard time picking up again because the flow isn’t there anymore.
I suffer for my art. My specific art is invisible to the neked eye. Yet, it is every emotion known to creation and only the gods can see my art. You might see an angry bitter man at work or a crazy hobo out on the street. But it has beauty that no one knows about.
As someone who has always identified as creative, I found this all very interesting and introduced me to some new concepts. Thank you. ❤ (The only thing I disagree slightly with this video on is that I truly believe ALL forms of creativity are valuable to humanity, however small, but there is a huge difference between contributing to society and being recognized and rewarded as you put it for that creative contribution to society. Unfortunately many artists do not get the respect I believe they deserve, but that’s just my opinion.)
"ALL forms of creativity are valuable to humanity." I totally agree, within reason~ Even if one's creative passions don't change the world, it can better someone who can. It can inspire them, or show them that they want to pass it along and build others up with their work too. Like a chain of positivity. And creative work doesn't even have to inspire people to be valuable, either. I've heard several stories about people referring to media to get through a rough time in their life. Like a sanctuary of its own~
Everything I've been trying to explain to people is put perfectly in this video and I'm glad I came across it. I had been in a bad headspace almost all my childhood but it's almost as if the tiny hole of creativity trauma created just for me turned into something I can leap in and out of over the past 2 years. It feels so good to have it since I know the art is something others will like and only so many truly recognize and embrace their gift. It's elevating to let my creativity spill but at some point, it can start to get crippling and I'll have to take a break for a while to give my head a rest. I can write as well as draw and when I start to peak, I could do so for DAYS without stopping if I didn't care about myself.
Believe in yourselves and each other and never give up on your dreams and aspirations and remember to be kind and uplifting to each other and open minded and genuine and respectful and humble.
Highly relatable. Beautiful video. One thing I've learned as an artist is that even though I may make no money off my work, it does not define my gift. Just having the gift alone is a blessing, and I feel blessed because of it. When I don't create I feel dead inside, or just confused. We have to create for ourselves as much as the world.
Yeah bro as a child I had a mental breakdown as I tried to understand that my existence started randomly, I looked through the eyes of myself and could've been any other person, and float in such a specific place in the endless universe that I exist in such a small part of. Worst part is, I could understand all this, overwhelming my tiny young brain, but it was so overwhelming I didn't even know how to explain it when my family would ask why I am crying. But now that I'm older and have peace by understanding Islam, I am less bothered by the concept of my own existence.
Thank you. I'm very deeply invested into exploring my subconscious with visual arts. I have hundreds and hundreds of works that just come out from the chaos. I also have my own theories on existence and meaning. However the curse is that nobody understands. I actually don't have any friends, I'm an outcast. Good to know I'm not alone though, keep going, let your chaos ablaze a path of mind fire to confront the dragon of entropy.
Me too... I feels the same way, though I am more attracted towards exploring my higher self through music, (I make beats) .Also I would actually love to hear your theories on the meaning of existence...i always want to hear from many people's perspective
i've always hoped to find someone who could understand me, who could see the thing like the way i do, but after years and years i realized that every one of us has his one little world in their heads, some may look the same but it will not be the same, you may not find someone who can understand you... but you can find someone who can accept you.
For me at least, pursuing art has always been what I imagine it's like for people that pursue martial arts their whole life. It's all about getting better and conquering new levels. Making what was once complicated feel simple. I've been very lucky to have a successful tattoo career the last 15 years, but even without that I would still be pursuing art. Always have, since 2nd grade. If you work on something creative for long enough I believe your skills start feeling similar to the way you feel about your physical health/weight. There's a constant tally mark of what's thriving and what's stagnant. At the same time, as long as art's been with me, so has that weird "I think slightly different than others" thing too. It can be a bummer, but it's a tameable one. Just like art you learn to adapt. The older you are and the longer you work at something, the easier it gets. Over the years, hearing things like what's said in this video helps give the situation clarity. Excellent work on the video! Glad I saw it.
As artist of art and a artist of music artist of art I feel comfortable with what created i drew or sculptured .the process is just opposite of recording music.....the song after feels like not enough time say exactly how it wmwas supposed to be said it feels like so much was left out even though the story was almost on put to the life situation... It still feels like it needed more.... Being creative in different areas I have except the imperfections when the art process is done .... Then when I release my work and find a new fan that like the song makes all the worth while... When I draw or sculpted something and others gaze it's creation I feel the satisfaction of creating and having others enjoy the thoughts that I manage to bring into reality... As a mechanic my modo is organization is the key to success... I my have a mess on what others see buts it's a organized mess and I know how I began the break down to build back from the first bolt I took off... Organized mess can be successful build..
You nailed all the words, all the points in which you talk some chaos which I happen to be familiar with, and you aced those points if aced means I understood your chaos and concur with it, in which a video so small yet greater than most, could make me tear up, I bow to you, because you made this connection for a brief moment with all sort of people alike that have maybe once grasped that feeling of everything yet nothing, and that is something to be truly in awe of.
Can confirm, I am an artist that suffers from great mental illnesses. My mind can spit out an entire universe, but it's not always on purpose, and it's usually pretty cool until it really, really isn't.
Being born a thinker is a gift not a curse not making one small thing a big deal and thinking pros and cons of every situation is the mother of all gifts I’m born a intp and I love myself
I truy believe creativity isn't really a problem at all; it's that we live in society that uses it, but really never knows nor appreciate the value of it.. which seems insane to say, but I think psychosis and other mental illnesses wouldn't be a problem if people were ever treated correctly... On another note; this entire video inspired another story for me. I .... don't have time to write as much as before now days though......
“Life isn’t about avoiding suffering, but finding something worth suffering for.” That is very well put.
I love this very insightful and so true. Inspiring in a weird way
I’ll drink to that
"He who has a why to live can bare almost any how." Fredrick Nietzche
@@liltick102 I sometimes do too, lol
You can’t last forever but create something that will
There’s nothing worse than being an artist but not being able to create due to mental illness like depression. I miss the days of sitting in art class, talking with friends and creating art. It made the creativity flow much better imo.
I am currently going through this, I tried to make a song but didn’t feel like I was being “myself”. I remember sitting in art class being able to draw then come home and make music I need that system back or something similar to it
So true
this but with my chronic pain
Literally me right now..I got drawers block🙃
I recommend looking into psilocybin/psychedelics.
It’s like a reset. My depression and other various issues decreased greatly and my creativity increased. I even had a happy mood (beyond simply “not depressed”) for about 3 weeks after taking them.
Life-changing
To be creative is to see the arbitrariness of perception for what it is. Not to run from chaos and relativity nor to wholly accept and embrace the safety of order, but to seek the places where they meet. The bleeding edge between the beautiful and the vile.
Beautifully said
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Wow this ish poetic homie 😎
Truly beautiful
Your video made me think of something I told my (highly intelligent and creative) daughter a few weeks ago. "Being very smart and sensitive leads to a much richer life. But the downside is you will have a harder time finding people that can fully see you."
you dont need people you need thoughts
@@Ifeelmylegssubtely I thought so too, but it turns out there's a high chance one will end up like Dostoyevsky's Underground Man...
@@mrararatovich we all need people, unfortunately, and our thoughts to steer clear of many/most of them to find those who will treat us better than the others.
The only people who really have no need for human connections are narcissists and sociopaths- and yet even they need other people....for them to prey on.
@@IfeelmylegssubtelyI used to think that. You begin breaking away from relationships with others until later down the road you have no one and no connection. It's a very lonely life and guarantees unfulfillment.
Amazing words! Did you think of that on the spot or did you find it somewhere? (out of curiosity)
a message to all creatives - never stop creating
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Actually sometimes you must stop, if is eating you, you must find a way to disconnect and stop
Unfortunately, i must often stop because it doesnt make any money. And i have to have all this money to live in a society.
If you stop you die
I won't... I promise.
Art is probably the most direct route to self discovery. I have come to believe that the urge for creativity may be in fact a yearning for self understanding and self realization. If this is so, one could argue that the search for creativity may be actually a spiritual endeavor in the search of self.
Medicine men of old, like ancient Shamans, were in fact highly artistic and creative. This is because they needed to be deeply connected to their own feelings, thoughts and dreams, so they could understand deep truths of life, humans and existence itself.
We will probably soon realize that creative and artistic people, are in fact, very spiritual people in search for meaning and understanding by taking a courageous deep dive into the profoundness of their own self.
Art is therapy
spot on. that is the philosopher's stone
Woahh! 🙌
I began drawing when I was about 7 or 8. Began writing stories when I was 13 or 14. That was when I felt compelled to "try to understand the mind of God".
It's been a life long endeavor, very much an aspect of my love of beauty and art.
I will always have more questions than answers, for every answer opens up always more mysteries.
This is a subject that fascinates.
It absolutely is a spiritual endeavor no doubt. Hence its ability to touch human beings so deeply. Well said my friend.
I wish I could put into words how this made me feel. In therapy, I’ve finally touched on my fear or failure. I have always been a creative, but it did feel like a curse. Nothing I ever made felt good enough, and I began to grow scared of that feeling of inadequacy. So much so that I stopped creating for years and years. But the chaos in my heart and mind cannot be silenced. I am working on finding a balance between the chaos of creation and the structure and demands of daily life. What scares me the most is making nothing of note.
Keep making. It will not be yourself the one to realize the greatness of your own creations, so don't bother judging with that objective. Only judge to improve the work.
Your art, no matter if someone tries to replicate it, it’ll always be unique to your style! That’s what’s so beautiful about art. Use your old art by seeing what in particular wasn’t up to your standards. Once you start another painting, your questioning will click! This is where the fun begins, as you’ll be able to approach it in a slightly different way. Which will vastly increase your progress, slowly but surely of course. But that is up to the individual in terms of speed of progression. It’s important to remember that no one has ever fully mastered art since art is so vague, just others who have more experience.
Keep on going and you’ll get to where you want to be!
My fear is not making nothing of note but making things that are note of... ridicule.
@@brunoactis1104 Nobody cares about painting? Put down the controller and hit the galleries, son. It's as popular as ever.
Oof. Read this one again in 8 years.
Creativity for me is the power to find something beautiful that has not been discovered before.
Beauty is not enough to describe the process and outcome of creativity, the rabbit hole goes wayyy deeper than that
Well said
How do you know sth has not been discovered before. How do you know you're creative?
That beautiful. Funny enough your comment is exactly what it's explaining. Beautiful
Sometimes creativity isn't about other people , seeing your work or hearing your music, it's more about bringing something that is inside you out and learning who you are.
Good art comforts the disturbed and disturb the comfortable
I very much fit the suffering artist stereotype, but I don't regret it. I would never trade in creativity for a "normal" life, it brings me fulfillment, it gave me community with people who think like me, it gives me purpose, it gives me agency. The canvas is the closest thing I've ever felt to true freedom
me too! I struggle and I strain to make film reviews but after I'm finished, I'm often proud of my work and when I'm not, I'm determined to make better content so I can be proud, I don't wanna upload content that will be popular for a week because of some meaningless trend, I want my reviews to last forever, I want people 10 years in the future to be introduced to my reviews or look back on them in nostalgia
@@AbrasiousProductions reviewing a film is leeching off someone’s work that’s not creativity you’re just writing down thoughts everyone has I hate to shit on you buddy but it’s not that creative of a job
tell em
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You can also live a normal life while doing art or your passion
Thank you so much for making this. Sometimes I feel like I screwed up by simply existing, that life would've been so much better if I'd been "normal", that I'd be the one laughing at anyone different. But if I was "normal" I wouldn't have the beautiful friends I do today, I wouldn't see the beauty that lies within art of all forms. Yes I suffer in a near constant state of existential crisis and melancholy, but when I'm with my friends, or looking at a beautiful painting or landscape, reading a brilliant book or or listening to a beautiful song, life is beautiful. Yes we seem to be headed to self induced annihilation, yes we are hurting each other because some powerful people wish to remain ignorant, but in those moments of beauty that all that heightened emotional sensitivity and awareness seems so sweet, and life is worth living. Especially when you know you're not alone.
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I feel you
“Until the creativity is literally beaten out of you” - been there felt that . Good video!
I think most creative people aren’t burdened with their “gift” as you say by exterior pressure. Rather I think it’s an internal pain to live up to your own standards. Or simply a desperate attempt to silence their own mind. I’m a designer and I have terrible anxiety and insomnia as a result of my creativity. When attempting to sleep I close my eyes and am immediately stuck with flashes images in front of my eyes like lightning. I feel a compulsion to document these visions late into the night as the stream endlessly pours. I also have ocd and obsessively dedicate every moment to observing and remembering data that will aid my vision of the world. I don’t care what the world thinks of my work. I don’t care why I’m doing it. It’s simply if I don’t do this I will die. My mind will eat itself if I don’t orient it towards a outcome. There’s a constant pressure to release the tension which is only possible through solving a problem. I think many creative people feel this way.
You’re so right bro.. there’s certain pieces I haven’t finished yet and it’s like in my mind it attacks me like you better finish this, you better do this one next 😂😂😂 “what about that art book you were gonna make” so much to do so little little time
@@HonestHeartsClub make that book bro!
Man your like talking to my soul man, reading this comment helped truly connect with myself. It helped to recognize the cause of my problem in art
Thank you
Internal truuuuuuuuu
The same thing literally happens to me!! Almost everyday images of colorful characters and impossible landscapes flash before my eyes, I've been keeping a list of descriptions so I don't forget them. And I want to share all those wonders I see with the world, I think they're too beautiful to deny them existence
Going through this comment section is so therapeutic. It's like finally finding your tribe. People like you, people that resonates with you deeply. Creativity is truly a huge blessing ( cause ) with an equal and opposite reaction ( effect). And there's this constant worry I go through when I know that my higher self has this huge potential that would never be able to fit into this short life on Earth. It's like the more you create, the more you have to create. It is depressing. But then what can a mere mortal do?
That “chaos” you describe is incredibly accurate. I have all these ideas and not being express them the way I want to express them drives me mad. All these ideas flood my mind sometimes in ways they really shouldn’t and I want to share them but I fear that no one would understand why I do this.
This resonates deeply.
the constant knock or nag in my soul that fiends for more work to be done. That builds up idea after idea but everytime i complete or attempt that idea. It seems as if it’s never enough, i haven’t been able to see the project or whatever it is the way i see it in my head and that is what kills me
Write them down and work at one at a time. Example, you may want to sculp untensils out of clay. You may also want to write your memoir. For your memoir write down notes daily in your journal and date them. Buy some clay and work on sculpting one untensils at a time. You need order and the best order is to write everything down.
@@kurtismiller2601totally agree, the best way is to find a methodical and practical way to organice this chaos.
The purpose of creating Art is not so people can understand it, is so it can be shared. As long as you share your art, you are already fulfilling its purpose.
Create, and share. It will give you peace.
@@Nick.Rodriguezyes, art to me is like a current that guides you but you don’t know where,
Some things just come to you, different urges to make things , but after making the thing you have to make another thing. And it’s constant doubt wheter you’re work is of value or not
I believe creativity is the only thing keeping me alive. Its the only thing avoiding me from suiciding. It's a curse; a curse that has become the reason to live. I write for myself, not for others. I want to be loved; Creativity makes it hard, but it is the thing that helps me express my pain. I wished to be properly loved. I feel I would never get it: so I wish to be loved through my books
You have the greatest gift of all. As a creative person myself, I see creativity as a way to become eternally remembered for what I do, because I could be the first to do it. If you think of it like this, there is a great chance people will love your work at some point and because of it's passion and uniqueness it would continue to be loved forever. I don't know what your book is about, but even the strangest novels (like Brave New World or Dune) are loved more now than when those authors were alive. Your creativity will outlive you, trust me.
In life things change, maybe one day you can channel your creativity so as to help you more in other ways in life, and be more happy, without the constant need to be creative. I'm sorry I don't have better words.
"If you have access to chaos, chaos also has access to you." How did he just sum up my life in one sentence? Thank you for sharing your art with us.
I have searched the phrase "the curse of creativity" multiple times in the past, finding nothing. Thanks for being the one to fill the void, great video
great video. to all the creatives out there just remember your work matters. never stop creating. much love.
Like ur pfp, really good album
Aye…all we can really do to keep the calamity in our heads at bay.
Thank you ❤
Thank you for inspiring us, can I share my first artbook with you for free in exchange of your feedback?
Needed that
I had a friend who was a gifted musician but quit to study computer science. I think the pressures of society made him give up on his dreams.
The pressures of society makes almost everyone give up on their dreams :(
anyone who resonated with this comment, read the book the alchemist
money is more powerful than dreams.
@@shreksburgers not necessarily
@@shreksburgers...so we have to use our dreams to make money ...yes I know , easier said than done , but , it's the only path that leads to OUR SUCCESS
Being creative is isolating, torturing, lonely, anguishing and down right heart wrenching… but Idk if I would trade it for anything.
bro.... the "what I see nobody else sees and sometimes it frightens me" hit me rly hard. I feel like Ive thought that so many times.
Being an artist can be a terrible pain. I always drew, but I wanted to paint. I tried to do it because I couldn't stop, something always kept telling me to come back, but I swear I hated my art and cried and threw everything away. That was awful. People usually think that creating is a beautiful and easy way, because you have a gift, but most of the time it's just a lie.
Nailing the concepts! 10:03... "Life isn't about avoiding suffering, but finding something worth the suffer for."
As an artist/illustrator myself, now i know why i feel like i'm losing my mind from year to year. There's always this overwhelming feeling (that affects me negatively) whenever i think of my own existence and my purpose in life.
even my friends said that i'm crazy.. it's like i'm grown more sensitive and mentally ill the older i get.
Great video btw
Literally how I feel right now(I’m an artist to)
Discovering this video and the comment section is a blessing. Being a creative individual is painful, and it hurts more when you struggle to find others who face and understand the same feelings you have. Both the video and this entire comment section resonates with me so well. I spent like 10 minutes reading these comments, and I spent a good 10-15 minutes writing down on my note app a bunch of creative things that came to mind when reflecting on what I had just read.
When you stop and think about it, this comment section reveals only a small percentage of highly creative people. There are way more creative individuals out there, and many of them are struggling with the same problems we are all facing here. Crazy to think too that many creative individuals in history probably lived their lives never meeting other creative individuals. This comment section contains more creative individuals than I can imagine meeting in the span of several years.
There's a lot that comes to mind, but I struggle to write precisely what ideas my chaotic mind is communicating to me -- and this is of course one of the curses of creativity that this video discusses (also, I would be writing this comment forever if I were to continue lol).
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Being creative is a way of thinking. It’s such a double edged sword. I can build shit in my head to the smallest detail, I have photo memory, I can tell you when something is off in the picture or how to make it better in so many ways. But the other side of that is all the bad shit that has happened in my life I can remember to the last detail. My mind has created a system where if anything I don’t like has happened my mind erases that like it never happened. But being creative is it’s own process of self destruction
Same but include alcohol at the forgetting part
"Despite my curse, I feel blessed". I like this man
Western views of creativity is so toxic, they actively diminish and stigmatise creativity and make it seem like it’s a “curse”. It’s not a curse, it’s an innate ability that you, like everyone else in this world, has. It’s your job to hone it, to seek support, and do something with it. Otherwise you will become extremely depressed and mentally ill. To build a healthy relationship towards creative expression is one the hallmarks of human greatness. But it’s unfortunately often misunderstood. Do not emasculate the creative forces within you because of social stigma.
Too damn right. It's a curse because they conflate their depression with creativity. Creativity does not make you depressed. wtf.
As someone who suffers from this, Ive gotten several glimpses of both sides of the spectrum, when you're not recognized or given credit they see you as a flawed human, incapable of completing simple tasks the given way and as a detective man
But when something you do gets recognition, these same people that hated you for who you were will change opinion quickly and praise you for said task.
The people who praise and judge talent are often the ones who look for it because they themselves cannot create nor understand it
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You will be ground to bits and stomped upon until you die in wretched misery and then after you are dead they will erect a bronze statue in your honor...
try to find not a single "As a" comment (impossible)
@@SmolMarshas a person who comments I very much agree
The definition of passion literally is to suffer for something.
Yes it's derived from Latin pati, which means "to suffer /to endure", in German we say "Leidenschaft" for passion, where "Leid" = suffering
@@superpartes4990 Yes, you got it !
These people have a natural intuitive understanding of impermanence in the physical and the boundless nature of the infinite. If this intuition can be brought into conscious awareness, something truly magical can happen. Which is to see that all experience, including all forms of suffering, are shades of color on the canvas of life. You are an artist and your life is your masterpiece.
It's not easy being creative and being Accepted
Beautiful video. To anyone suffering that resonates with this, after many years of struggling I've learned two things I wish I'd known in my younger years that might be of use to others:
1. Your thoughts CREATE your feelings. And creative minds can think powerfully, both positively and negatively. I suffered severe depressions that were unknowingly of my own making - negative thoughts created negative feelings, which made more negative thoughts and the spiral deepened. Try and solve the core problems that affect you (I greatly encourage therapy to help this process), but also find a practice for becoming present so you can quieten the noise (v much recommend meditation but there are many other practices too).
2. We are not broken, or weak. We are sensitive -- to the minutiae of our artform, but also to the rest of the world. Do not feel shame or guilt because you don't like being around that group of friends, or have to break up with that person, or leave that job, or change that song - we feel things deeply and sometimes that means we have to make different choices to create the best version of our life. Owning that I'm sensitive (which if you're a man is not culturally encouraged in many places) has really helped frame the highs and lows of my experience in life. I had to leave that party not because there's something wrong with me, but I have a gift with some associated drawbacks :)
Let's keep ourselves stable so we can change the world!!
I think creativity is always useful. Just because it's not paid attention to and validated by others doesn't devalue its usefulness.
In fact, creative outlets are a great way to regulate ones mood and increase positive emotions. That in itself proves the utility of creativity just on the individual level.
Also, highly creative people can influence the world on small scale in their own little lives. Being famous isn't an excuse for fufillment.
As some who was incredibly creative all my life - I hope everyone can find there way and creativity.
I agree with everything stated in this video. Over the years, I struggled with the chaos, and yes I painted to make sense of it. To create order out of it. But in my struggle to put my work out, my creativity was beaten out of me. For years, I didnt lift my paint brush. Ironically, today as I write this, I am in pursuit of that chaos that was once present in me. Perhaps that was the only thing I could rely on.
Thankyou for this video, I am glad to know there are more creative people out there.
I honestly don't think our present culture either values, nor reveres creative people, because it no longer tends to look at the art of creation as an expression of an individual, but as a democratic process that everybody has a say in. Truly creative people now tend to suffer exponentially more because indifference is no longer the worst thing one has to contend with, but now there is the possibility of abuse if people don't like what you do. It's ironic that what should be the greatest period of creativity humans have ever had is also probably the worse.
I really like this. Also I think because of democratic process and access to internet a lot of bad art is also overappreciated and corrupts people mind, for instance the simple dancing videos on tiktok get more likes and more followers whereas people who are highly creative are underappreciated and they simply disappear over the period of time in the vastness and dumb and pretentious art.
Everything you said was so true, but I won't stop being an artist even if everyone hates my art and I can never find a way to truly express myself like the chaos you described
My story: Im extremely sensitive and frail by nature yet was very creative til my +-35th bday.
As a child I was very shy and empathic, was always attracting bullies who came out of nowhere in droves. School was a nightmare and it damaged me.
In my 20s I was still bullied by colleagues at work, by my university crush who stalked me for years to get validation. I self rejected myself from every attractive girl I encountered thinking I was unworthy.
The used/abused/shitted on me so much that something died in me when I turned 35.
I could had done amazing things to contribute to the world yet it wasnt meant to be. A brain activity scan had the nurses startled. 'Man your brain is so active wow'.
Its the animal instincts that drive most people that killed it in me.
Now Im a lifeless 46 bankrupt nobody, addicted to pot, nearly homeless.
The world has consumed me
There's nothing more depressing than wasted potential. :( It's a shame, but it isn't too late. Chances are that a mind like yours at your age knows so many things, and has so many things to say. It wouldn't take too long to be seen for your work, if it reflects you. o:
David, thank you for sharing your story with us. Please do not deprive the world of your gifts. It may be dormant at the moment, but you still have it in you. They can never take that away from you.
Thats so sad, I had a friend like you, he ended his life when he was 38ish.. on top of what you are describing he was also gay.
The world eats guys like you just for fun and thats why we as inferior species have no future.
David- Get up, Stand up, CREATE, create and push that chit which the world has consumed out, and CREATE. -Mat
That's just sad
Sometimes I know I'm more creative than I've allowed myself to be. I'm 70, so I'm writing again. There is no such thing as an old artist, even when the pain is killing you.
To unlock creativity to reality is to understand that in many cases, only you can see what you see. If everyone can understand and see what you see, it wouldn't be innovative. It is the trait that makes something NEW.
To date, this is the most intuitive, true, & expressive definition of the gift (the curse) of artistic ability. I began drawing around my first birthday. Art is a major part of my identity. With this gift, I learned early on, the greater the sensitivity & ability, the worse the chaos of deviations of "normalcy," result as the higher degree of genius. I have no genius, yet I do know how what artistic ability I do possess has led to mental distortion, to peer perception of being labeled as beyond weird, all issues of my own making. I have found in life no greater ecstasy nor greater anguish as what I experience when I create.
i checked out your videos - thank you for using your creative gift for good :) the world appreciates you!
I believe this entire reality is a giant art project and probably one of many currently being created by an artist or artists we can't even begin to comprehend. It's beautiful, really.
Great take, but a counter-argument: It should noted that people like Kurt Cobain EVEN WITH SUCCESS were still miserable on an individual level. I think its a bit reductionist to say that fame and/or fortune are the only worthwhile rewards for a creative life. Those things only enhance possibilities, which make life considerably more overwhelming for the creative.
Glad you caught that (Chester aswell)
I fully agree with you 100%. Art is a form of expression of the self (thoughts, beliefs, life experiences, traumas, subconscious, etc.). Fame and/or fortune are good for the creative's income, legacy and lifestyle, but if the artist has unaddressed mental illness or unresolved trauma these things won't help in the long run and will actually cause more harm than good.
It is the uncreative who curse the creative. And if your also kind and honest the evil will feed on you.
This is so true. Since I can remember I have always been a creative. I drew my first "story" (series of pictures) with 4 years and my mom wrote down the story I told her. But I also remember the first moment I experienced mental illness. When I was 5 and it was Silvester my mom told me to be careful with those glows ticks she gave us kids and "not break them because the liquit is a little toxic". I remember how I thought about sickness and death at this, and I remember thinking about how I have Ready lived so much of my life and I wouldn't have much life left. At 5 years old! At an age where I couldn't possibly know how long a human life would be, and I had so much still ahead of me.
For all my life I went on thinking things like that, but also went on to create. I write, I paint, I craft, garden and so much more. And I can't stop. It's like a drug. Creating something is still some of the most beautiful feelings I have ever experienced and it's the only thing I really value about myself. Over the years I have been diagnosed with depression and OCD. Especially OCD makes my life hard every day. The perfectionism, and torturing and punishing myself about everything wrong with me. And yet... I don't take meds. I tried them, and I didn't mind most side effects but one... I was so bland all of the sudden. I didn't enjoy any more creativity, and was completely blocked. There was no need for creativity. And though there was no more dark in my life the color faded too. So I don't take meds anymore. I live with this chaos inside of me, because I can't let go of my art. By this point it just means more to me than my own suffering. I just would wither away without it and be "normal" like everybody wants me too. And I would never again feel that complete inner peace when you sit down with your brushes and colors and start painting. Like in your mind you cod go anywhere you want, and be anyone. We creatives are a "bug" never to be fixed
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To creative people: you don’t have to be tortured to be creative. You don’t have to idolize chaos. You don’t have to fit some desired mold of a psychotic genius. There are plenty of non-tortured people that are really creative. They just don’t end up in the history books because their lives aren’t as relatively “interesting.”
another problem with my own creativity is ideas keep flowing through me, yet I don't have enough time to do it all so many of my ideas just stay that.. ideas.
Yes same
Write them down, or lightly sketch them out.
Some things I feel you handily accomplished with this video: you lent language that allows for the compartmentalisation of concepts that otherwise defy such ordering, and you gave me a few moments of good conversation, one that I'll have to continue within the confines of my own world, but maybe someone else will be slightly altered by it: ripples in a pond. Thank you for allowing me to become part of that conversation.
The only curse of creativity is not being able to express it.
"They carry the disorganized and limitless set of possibilities with the promise of meaning."
wow...
I guess I fit this mold, but I don't suffer over it. It was weird as a teenager, keeping to myself daydreaming, but as an adult who can manage my time it's entirely a blessing.
Its important to never give up on creativity but its just as important to stay grounded and don't become obsessive with your own craft. It will lead to years of stress, isolation and hubris. Also, by taking a break from creating and taking the time to smell the roses, you're art will become better and you'll free yourself from tunnel vision.
You just truly explained how I've felt my whole life, I've been always depressed and anxious because i can't express these ideas inside me that people would enjoy and realise my full potential. Creativity is like a poison when not released into the world for everyone to see, when you keep it inside and not expressed it destroys you slowly and truly makes you go insane. I have had so many ideas and concepts in my head since I was a very small child ( about 3 years old) up to today that never saw light of day and it just kills me. And what you said about chaos is really true, i never knew how to explain it but i guess that's the point all these things i saw and envisioned that no-one else could would scare me even, cause trying to understand them and put them into order seemed nearly impossible, it felt like these things were to grand for my mind to fully grasp sometimes.
I have always been very creative but I've always struggled to put my thoughts into words so that i can express exactly what I'm thinking. I just feel like i numb my mind Nowadays to save myself from overthinking and setting off my anxiety.
I am 13 so many ideas kinda feel crazy
I even started hearing stuff
i’m bawling my eyes out right now. this video came to my life at the right time. as an art major at the moment, i’ve been through weeks of denial and processing of this very feeling, and it is heartbreaking. only some get the answers. i couldn’t put it into words, but u sure did. thank you so much 4 bringing this to the world.
Good luck!!
This is why ive struggled with suicide from a young age. I always felt so far away from everyone and when i spoke about the things i was trying to make sense of. Ive always felt insane, i know in the whole world i am in good company among my fellow writers or creatives at large. But in a square mile you may never meet a fellow creative without intervention(public forum like achool). The world feels so alien to me, but only by asphyxiation. Its not how i see the world that bothers me, its how horrifyingly divergent the common world view is. How they take to this hellsca0e like a duck to water, and proceed to lash out at you for your profane thinking. When i glimpse my world, the one that i see its always brought me peace. But the cumulative heartbreak of being bound in this prison in my waking life.
Writing this i cant breath, as the eyes press into my skin, ensuring i conform.
So much that all ive ever wanted was someone anyone who could understand me, the real me. Thats why no matter how hard it gets i will always love my soulmate so much. I couldnt not care less what it took to keep her in my life.
I know its a fragile thing, but the rest of my life i had no recourse but to drown until the end came never dying but always feeling as if I've been dying the whole time.
Its strange to think, here i am able bodied but have no more power to chose death than a loved one lying comatoes, pleading for it to stop.
But youre right, when i can let myself bw there and feel like im really there, I soar.
I dont cant if anyone ever reads my work. I write for the thrill of it, to feel life weaving itself from my hands.
I may change a lot of things if i could do them differently, but id never want to lose this precious gift lodged in my chest.
Be strong, always.
See what only you can see.
Relax their Shakespeare
relatable.don't worry💕💕
Most people don't understand that we highly emote, for us something that to them may be small, will create on us an avalanche of emotions and feelings and thoughts that can be sometimes overwhelming.
I understand you. Keep close the people who understand you, they are a blessing.
@juniperstardust5549 thank you, that was very kind.
this video speaks to me on a very deep level that i cant really explain
I’ve always wanted to connect to people through music and the things that I create. The biggest hurdle is living up to my own expectations because nothing I create is ever good enough. Therefore, I never end up putting anything out there to share with others. The self critic can never be silenced. I then end up feeling like a failure when I chose not to share my work and it becomes this endless cycle. I suffer from severe anxiety and it has a huge impact on my ability to create and see the good in things but if I don’t create, I end up very miserable. It’s a tricky one to navigate. Like an endless battle with no way to win.
You have to be okay with the possiblity of making mistakes in order to create without friction, you can't let imperfection define your worth as a human being, be your own friend and try making something you truly like, even if no one else does if you truly do, it will make it far less scary and far more bearable.
@@howtohuman2484 thank you for this 🙏🏻
everything you said is exactly what's been on my mind lately. I'm a video production major in college, I know I have to get into this line of work because I would hate doing any other job. Any job that doesn't involve creativity.
Creativity can be both a gift and a challenge, but by accepting the difficulties that come with it and maintaining inner composure, one can transform adversity into a source of growth and inspiration.
Stay Creative. Stay Wise. Stay Stoic.
Damn this video really hit. I loved making art, literature, and singing that'd make people feel something, incorporating fiction to realism for the arts and lit that'd make people relate. I used to see things outside the norm and it was exciting to look at for most part. It's like molding something of potential and watching it grow on its own.
Nowadays I feel linear. I like to think that maybe it's just adulthood and that everyone else feels the same; I have the urge to be like the rest so life becomes simpler because the mental anguish is difficult to cope with. Sometimes I think of my fellow creatives and if they're able to adapt, then so should I, right? It's like being forced into something that doesn't fit you and hoping that overtime, you'll mold into it no matter how painful and not really worth it. I worry sometimes of living the rest of my life dull, depressed, and not creative enough that I lose soul.
I clicked on this video not to hear your opinion, but to respond to that title:
There is no “Curse” with creativity it is a gift that needs to be respected. For whatever reason You as a creative person are able to tap into flow in your craft much more swiftly that someone who isn’t creative, because you’re able to soak up information from many different sources that equal a creative outcome.
You hold the power to actually achieve so much if you lean into this flow & edge. But if you don’t, you will always suffer.
Once you lean into your creative edge, committed fully to it’s purpose, harnessing the power of belief of achieving something that’s not yet made (to create), then you will literally architect every facet of your life.
Live healthy,
Respect God,
Never stop learning new inputs,
Never stop creating new outputs.
Well fucking done dude, spot on. "The average person wouldn't get to have this feeling in their lives". I always end up at that statement whenever I feel like my investment in my creative talents is a waste of time. one half of mind tells me "this isn't what you should be spending your time on! What benefit are you getting from this that is actually quantifiable? You don't get paid, you aren't fostering relationships through it, and who actually even sees it? What is the fucking point?....." The question echos for a moment but then a response: "Would you really want to be the aternative? If you stopped spending time on what you love? Would you want to be a regular person?".....Absolutely not, because the "average person wouldn't get to have this feeling in their lives"
What I've come to learn about myself over my life of creating is to never put pressure on the creativity. Let it take its natural course. 'strike when the iron is hot, so to speak, and learn when to walk away and not force it(while avoiding the potential dangers of this leading to extended procrastination of all things) For me, it's manifested in intense and obsessional bursts creativity and output, followed by a hiatus. It's taken me years to be able to understand this cycle and learn to use it effectively.
The much harder part is managing the waves of emotion that accompany it. I deal with it well, have adjusted to it, and I live a very happy and fulfilling life, but I can imagine how easy it could be for other creatives to spiral into despair.
I also think that having multiple creative outputs/mediums is also very important. I've been like this since childhood, so even though the initial interest in something new may result in a focused obsession on just that thing, learning to incorporate and assimilate it into the process is something I need to do without forsaking other interests.
It really is a fascinating aspect of human psychology.
It’s crazy how I was recommended this video after thinking about this for weeks. Pain and art will always be intertwined for me. I have always had this intense urge to create, ever since I was small. But severe mental illness can make it extremely hard to find the passion or motivation to create anything. I will say, my writing is at its best when I am at my worst. I think it’s because I am able to take my suffering and transform it into something tangible. Sometimes, it makes everything feel worth it. Art is proof that we exist and that we feel. No other animals or creatures can do what we do because they don’t have the burden of the knowledge that they exist in the same way that we do. So we can take all that pain, the questioning, the suffering, joy, sadness, beauty, and we can produce physical manifestations of it based off of our own unique perceptions. It’s truly amazing and I think it’s what separates us from the rest of the animal kingdom. It’s the self-awareness that makes it possible and hence, why I believe creatives are more prone to mental illness. We are able to self-reflect in a way that a lot of people cannot. We are too aware.
i have these certain sounds, colors, shapes, places, and fictional characters that i associate with each other deeply in my subconscious... that is why music and art is the only thing that keeps me alive.
This has helped me understand myself more than anything I’ve ever read or listened too…I always felt there was something wrong with me I’ve always felt my identity’s been fragmented and have spent years trying to fix it now I know I don’t need to..I just need to embrace the chaos find freedom in it…Thank you my friend this has helped so much keep doing what your doing
True words....I feel you from the bottom of my heart.....I miss the lighten days of my childhood, the older I got, the more the natural joy goes away.....but the urge to create something is still there.. often I'm overwhelmed by it.....not knowing what and how to to....so I'm ending up doing nothing....depressed....and whenever I got up to do something.....I feel joy in the moments of doing......but shortly after I'm done, the old sorrow creeps back into my soul......and I'm empty....
And nothing is ever good enough, there must be more. A better way....better work.....better result.....and yes, over the years this motivation made me better In what I'm doing. The confidence is getting better....but still....I'm never finished....never....the chaos in me will be there....always.....
It is a curse....comes with anxiety and depression.....the feeling of disconnection and the feeling nobody ever understands you really.....and the feeling that you never ever will be connected to anyone.....not in the deepest meaning just on the surface.....for the most people at least..... sometimes you are finding someone special.....let the person in.....It can heal you and motivates you....and stand behind you....
Cheerio...
This video is amazing. I've been creative my entire life (40yo now) and there are frequent times in the last 20 that I just feel absolutely nuts, and part of it is from the possibilities I see in the universe - which is something this video touches on. I latch on to one philosophy or way of thinking, which then sends me to another, and then another, and so on. It's exhausting and soul-draining to be in so many places and thoughts at once.
But really I can relate to so much of this video. I am so glad and relieved that I am not alone. Much love to all my fellows out there, and thank you so much to the OP.
Being stuck between the borders of sanity and insanity is an experience most won't ever have. To touch the madness and not lose yourself is the greatest gift one can receive. That's what I think.
this video is so amazing. im an artist that’s had a war waging in my mind for as long as i can remember and i’ve never been able to describe it to get adequate help for it, but this video sums it all up perfectly and brought me a new perspective on my life i really needed. thank you
"I looked into the void of chaos and saw myself looking back."
It's almost like the Universe is saying "Sorry you have a really bad case of the Headsies, here's a brilliant talent to make up for it"
There’s nothing worse for me as an artist than having to stop a project after I start. I have an incredibly hard time picking up again because the flow isn’t there anymore.
I don't think I have ever had a video that I can relate to more than this one. Thank you.
I suffer for my art. My specific art is invisible to the neked eye. Yet, it is every emotion known to creation and only the gods can see my art. You might see an angry bitter man at work or a crazy hobo out on the street. But it has beauty that no one knows about.
“I think I’m losing my mind” I feel that.
As someone who has always identified as creative, I found this all very interesting and introduced me to some new concepts. Thank you. ❤
(The only thing I disagree slightly with this video on is that I truly believe ALL forms of creativity are valuable to humanity, however small, but there is a huge difference between contributing to society and being recognized and rewarded as you put it for that creative contribution to society. Unfortunately many artists do not get the respect I believe they deserve, but that’s just my opinion.)
"ALL forms of creativity are valuable to humanity." I totally agree, within reason~ Even if one's creative passions don't change the world, it can better someone who can. It can inspire them, or show them that they want to pass it along and build others up with their work too. Like a chain of positivity.
And creative work doesn't even have to inspire people to be valuable, either. I've heard several stories about people referring to media to get through a rough time in their life. Like a sanctuary of its own~
this is just the best now i understand myself more
Everything I've been trying to explain to people is put perfectly in this video and I'm glad I came across it. I had been in a bad headspace almost all my childhood but it's almost as if the tiny hole of creativity trauma created just for me turned into something I can leap in and out of over the past 2 years. It feels so good to have it since I know the art is something others will like and only so many truly recognize and embrace their gift. It's elevating to let my creativity spill but at some point, it can start to get crippling and I'll have to take a break for a while to give my head a rest. I can write as well as draw and when I start to peak, I could do so for DAYS without stopping if I didn't care about myself.
Believe in yourselves and each other and never give up on your dreams and aspirations and remember to be kind and uplifting to each other and open minded and genuine and respectful and humble.
Keep creating, society only wins if you stop
Highly relatable. Beautiful video. One thing I've learned as an artist is that even though I may make no money off my work, it does not define my gift. Just having the gift alone is a blessing, and I feel blessed because of it. When I don't create I feel dead inside, or just confused. We have to create for ourselves as much as the world.
Yeah bro as a child I had a mental breakdown as I tried to understand that my existence started randomly, I looked through the eyes of myself and could've been any other person, and float in such a specific place in the endless universe that I exist in such a small part of. Worst part is, I could understand all this, overwhelming my tiny young brain, but it was so overwhelming I didn't even know how to explain it when my family would ask why I am crying. But now that I'm older and have peace by understanding Islam, I am less bothered by the concept of my own existence.
wow this happened to me too, thought i was alone on this
So you deluded yourself into believing a book... good job
@@yungmentalproblems good job indeed, it saved me
Why be bothered by a privilege
@@YourGenericBrownGuy Good job bro👍
Wow that's a wild way to look at a chaos filled childhood
Thank you. I'm very deeply invested into exploring my subconscious with visual arts. I have hundreds and hundreds of works that just come out from the chaos. I also have my own theories on existence and meaning. However the curse is that nobody understands. I actually don't have any friends, I'm an outcast. Good to know I'm not alone though, keep going, let your chaos ablaze a path of mind fire to confront the dragon of entropy.
Me too... I feels the same way, though I am more attracted towards exploring my higher self through music, (I make beats) .Also I would actually love to hear your theories on the meaning of existence...i always want to hear from many people's perspective
i've always hoped to find someone who could understand me, who could see the thing like the way i do, but after years and years i realized that every one of us has his one little world in their heads, some may look the same but it will not be the same, you may not find someone who can understand you... but you can find someone who can accept you.
For me at least, pursuing art has always been what I imagine it's like for people that pursue martial arts their whole life.
It's all about getting better and conquering new levels. Making what was once complicated feel simple.
I've been very lucky to have a successful tattoo career the last 15 years, but even without that I would still be pursuing art. Always have, since 2nd grade.
If you work on something creative for long enough I believe your skills start feeling similar to the way you feel about your physical health/weight. There's a constant tally mark of what's thriving and what's stagnant.
At the same time, as long as art's been with me, so has that weird "I think slightly different than others" thing too. It can be a bummer, but it's a tameable one. Just like art you learn to adapt. The older you are and the longer you work at something, the easier it gets.
Over the years, hearing things like what's said in this video helps give the situation clarity.
Excellent work on the video! Glad I saw it.
Being able to get your idea out and presented to the world is a gift. The curse is having an idea and not being able to express it.
the worst part about being an impulsive creator is wanting to make things when you're not supposed to, like sleep, or eating, or working
As artist of art and a artist of music artist of art I feel comfortable with what created i drew or sculptured .the process is just opposite of recording music.....the song after feels like not enough time say exactly how it wmwas supposed to be said it feels like so much was left out even though the story was almost on put to the life situation...
It still feels like it needed more....
Being creative in different areas I have except the imperfections when the art process is done ....
Then when I release my work and find a new fan that like the song makes all the worth while...
When I draw or sculpted something and others gaze it's creation I feel the satisfaction of creating and having others enjoy the thoughts that I manage to bring into reality...
As a mechanic my modo is organization is the key to success...
I my have a mess on what others see buts it's a organized mess and I know how I began the break down to build back from the first bolt I took off...
Organized mess can be successful build..
You nailed all the words, all the points in which you talk some chaos which I happen to be familiar with, and you aced those points if aced means I understood your chaos and concur with it, in which a video so small yet greater than most, could make me tear up, I bow to you, because you made this connection for a brief moment with all sort of people alike that have maybe once grasped that feeling of everything yet nothing, and that is something to be truly in awe of.
The ending made my eyes water. I felt that.
Can confirm, I am an artist that suffers from great mental illnesses. My mind can spit out an entire universe, but it's not always on purpose, and it's usually pretty cool until it really, really isn't.
Being born a thinker is a gift not a curse not making one small thing a big deal and thinking pros and cons of every situation is the mother of all gifts I’m born a intp and I love myself
I truy believe creativity isn't really a problem at all; it's that we live in society that uses it, but really never knows nor appreciate the value of it.. which seems insane to say, but I think psychosis and other mental illnesses wouldn't be a problem if people were ever treated correctly...
On another note; this entire video inspired another story for me. I .... don't have time to write as much as before now days though......
I died laughing when the elegant music playing in the background and his relaxing tone only to say “Some have a giant fucking hole in the wall.” 😂😂😂
“Art is to console those who are broken by life.”Hits hard