How brainwashed we were that we used to think that being a corporation slave, sacrifice education and doing low paid jobs was a blessing from ‘Jehovah’
there are people living that life style every day that are not in that religion -- so -- he said those that love this world more than his -- should go with it -- did yu not read that part ? ! 1 JOHN 2 : 16 ! and it is as all companys demand -- that yu do it their WAY ! PSALM 81 : 12 ! but I do understand -- and so does he !
I can only imagine. I left about 18 years ago and when I came out to my father and stepmother as an atheist, they kept insisting that atheists worshiped Satan and wanted religions banned. I didn't really know any better at the time but thankfully I was able to find videos on RUclips and had the internet (although it was still pretty rough in the early 2000's) to help me understand more and then help educate them. They eventually came to terms with it...somewhat. Anyway, glad you were able to break free and especially when it was significantly tougher than it seems to be today. I can't imagine being a Witness now with all the information we have available now but I'm biased. Anyway, cheers to you and I wish you the best!
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I just recently made my exit from this Organization of men and they are now giving me the full on shunning. I , however, been preparing for this ahead of time knowing exactly when I would be ready to get out of this religious cult. I share my story too on my page and hope some will listen and support me to the ex JW family. Much luv and love your story deeply sis!
Cheers to you for leaving. Glad you were able to break free. Sorry you had to and still have to deal with the shunning nonsense. For the life of me I will NEVER understand that nonsense. I left about 18 years ago and it is tough leaving at first but it does get easier. I almost feel like it was someone else's life I lived when I was younger. I was a ministerial servant from 17-19. Now I can't believe I ever believed in any of that and actually helped teach it. Anyway, cheers to you! I wish you the best!
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I am so glad for you that you managed to free yourself from bondage. A wide new life is now open for you to discover. You will find it to be fulfilling. Good luck on your new journey..
Thank you so much for telling your story. I only woke up 2 months ago, and these testimonials that are being shared are monumental in the healing process for all those who wake up and realize the damage this cult has inflicked on them in so many and varying ways. I've had many doubts over the years, but now they've all been confirmed through reseach and people like you sharing your stories.
Shawna, thank you for sharing your story for us. I've been out for even longer than you have, and I too pioneered for many years. Actually I pioneered for about 7 years and it was a 100 hour per month requirement back then. And I was in the "truth" for a total of about 15 years. The idea that you have to confess to the elders, is something I'll never understand. How can these guys 'forgive' you per se, when it's basically none of their business. I've absolutely done a lot things that were considered wrong, but I never gave the elders enough respect to talk with them about it. I just figured it was my business. On a more general scale, and on the subject of exiting this cult, we've both done good. We're out, we're free and we don't have to serve an organization which is clearly interested in publishing and real estate ventures. Being on the outside, we can now see that this is simply a corporation that does 'business' just as any other business. Only in the case of the WTB&TS, they get the benefit of tax breaks and free labor. Our responsibility, as I see it, is to somehow help those who are still trapped within this cult. Your video, along with so many other activists videos, really help those who may be PIMO and those who are searching for "the truth about the truth". I would never criticize any Jehovah's Witness for their beliefs. After all, we were just like them many years ago, thinking this organization was God's organization. I do however criticize the Watchtower organization, as they're responsible for so much pain and suffering the brothers and sisters have to endure. From their child abuse (two witness rule) policy, to their blood policy to their shunning policy - they're causing much damage to the psyches of so many. So, good job and I'll look forward to future videos.
Roger, I simply cannot thank you for your comment. And I agree with every word! One of the reasons I wanted to share my story so badly is because I know what it was like to be so so convinced that I had the 'truth'. I would have proudly laid down my life for Jehovah, to gain his approval. But my experience showed me that this was, in fact, not a religion based on unconditional love. It's quite the opposite. Not at all where I want to be. Not if I can't be myself. But as you say, at least we can take comfort that we are doing the right thing for ourselves. We're out. We are free. I just feel bad for those who are still so conditioned to believe they have the truth and are 'free' themselves, when in fact it is so far from the truth. I'm looking forward to sharing more and I'm thankful that you are sharing in the story and journey with me. :)
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@@LearnLoveHeal what are you talking about to find our truth ? There is only ONE TRUTH and its in the BIBLE , NOT ORGANIZATION... JahWitneses have lost their path when "anointed"ones took control in 1950ies and MADE UP BUNCH of NON BIBLICAL rules... And like 10 missed dates of Armageddon, yup, false prophets... Jesus's example ,personality and attitudes are "the way" and "the truth"... Along with rest of the Bible and Jehovah's personality...Many times God had only ONE servant on Planet Earth !! And sometimes nobody... This organization is excuse for fundraising...
I am so in awe of you sharing your story. I haven't watched Part 2 yet, but will be doing next. I escaped the organisation and it's ridiculous rules, personal intimate probing and totally unnecessary questions, 31 years ago, yet have never shared my testimony with anyone. I would like you to know that I would be very proud to have you as my sister and offer you a big hug.. Thank you for your wonderful video.. xxx
Thank you with all my heart. That means so so much to me. I would hear your story, if you'd share it, and be honoured to have you as a brother! Thank you!:) Big hugs and say strong!
Thank you so much for sharing your story, it's crazy how similar all our stories are of EX cult survivors. You are helping more people that you know with that video, telling us we were not alone that live in this situation. PS: You look amazing and at least now we are free and can really fully lives our life. I wish you many many many happy years and actually the best years of your life to come. Blessings love
I became inactive after the release of their 2013 Bible, after the comment from the GB member saying that they say that we add words and take away words from the Bible, he laughed and most of the witnesses laughed along with him, well I wasn't one of them, I wondered why they were introducing another translation, what was wrong with the Bible we already had, I was told that the New World Translation was the best translation known to man. After I received my new Grey Bible I went to some of my other Bibles and the Greek Interlinear translation and found to my surprise that words where added and words where taken away from the Bible. As I was told not to believe anyone, that talk about the religion as they where classed as postates and not to listen to their postate lies. Because there seem to be so many EXJW sites on line, curiosity got the better of me. I went onto the sites such as JWfacts.com and Watchtower Examination etc. I thought what could be wrong, after all the truth should hold up to scrutiny. The rest is history, even though I use to wander back and forth to the meetings and at the memorials. At the 2017 memorial the opening song was enough to wake me up about the organization, when we stood to sing a song about the chosen ones loving Jehovah, I wouldn't sing those words I sang I love you Jehovah. I told myself that night that I never go back to the kingdom hall anymore. I don't believe they are God's organization. Jesus said I will build my Church not my Watchtower Society. I truly believe through my research and looking into the Bible that this a cult, it's the worse cult ever, because they break-up families and friends, to the point that some have committed suicide, they have blood on their hands, and they shun those that don't believe in their teachings anymore, I know because when I wrote a letter of disassociation to the local congregation, my close JW friend of 14yrs will have nothing to do with me anymore. That was a shock but I found Jesus which I couldn't find in the kingdom hall.
I'm glad you woke up. Why write a disassociation letter, why not simply fade? To write the letter is to show them authority, which they have no right to.
As I had been told in the past, "you have your own Bible". Well I now understand after examining the Watchtower B&T Society Bibles. They are nothing more than a publishing company claiming to be backed by Jehovah. Well we know Satan and his followers transform themselves into angels of "light". They're shunning fits into the description of the goats at the Lord's separating the sheep and goats in Matthews account. Their teaching of no one should partake except 144000 at the memorial is not Biblical, but in reality about partaking is not what they teach but just the opposite; (because those who deny the sacrements deny the Christ.) So after their new "silver sword" was released and thoroughly examining it. I realized they really do have their own Bible designed to back their own Teachings, ( not scriptural teachings), and they set themselves in the place of JC just like religious leaders in JC day set themselves in Moses place. I now realize they are no different but really a part of Christendom, just like the rest. Scripture says it is Jehovah that teaches us. "Oh if we would only listen." Then our peace would be ....and your righteousness as waves of the sea. (Isaiah )
MY EXPERIENCE I love when more former Witnesses come together united adding to the new family. I know your outcry, pain, mental disparity, etc. I been baptized since June 3rd, 2012 and studying little before that. I progress fast through the " Bible teach book" publication when it was in yellow lol then progress quickly through the " Remain in God's Love" publication both within a month in a half cause I studied with my Bible teacher daily for hours. Soon qualified for my baptism at a " Special Day Assembly." I gave many public talks, I held the microphones in the congregation meetings, I participated in the cleaning of the Kingdom Halls, I was getting more hours than what's required for regular pioneers in field service ministry . I made many friends and even brought in some I knew from " the world." I grew an enormous love for the supposed " truth " and for Jah . I traveled to New York driving the entire way with a group that invited me and saw all 3 "Bethel facilities ." There I saw the headquarters of the Governing Body and my connections help me see rooms and more than what they actually are to give in these tours. I have many pictures of this experience. Traveling all throughout the country for this religion doing everything u can imagine. Yet.... I started getting extremely depressed cause the more I elevated myself...the more I was exposed to seeing which was so disturbing even heart breaking in many respects. I notice how so many in the religion idolize man . How? Ever notice that when " Special Guest" appear now suddenly everyone comes to the Kingdom Hall Meeting and all now dress up in expensive suits with bow ties to go out in field service? All cause maybe the " Traveling Overseer " is there which was so fake to me. They call it " hospitality...yet it was idolizing cause everyone competing to get his attention. To knock on doors with him, to go out to eat with him, to talk to him first after his talks, and everyone is acting like extra than usual. Once he leaves its back to the opposite. I also noticed that ones that come out the " world " get treated a little differently than the ones who grew up in the religion. Like in meetings...they're hands get picked first over yours. They get invited everywhere more than u. Many didnt work with me just my teacher most times daily. Times where my hand was literally ignored while sitting up front like wow! Elders always get called the most over all and their wives then kids. It's like levels to this of favoritism. Being related to special men can get u greater protection too from wrongdoing than average ones. Steady observing...I saw how much godly devotion, praise , and worship didnt go to " Jehovah God." It all went to the " Governing Body." The supposed "annointed" men who are the Elites over the entire faith of Jehovah's Witnesses worldwide. They are the men elevated to God like status. Can't question them or you'll be in big trouble. So I researched more , prayed, read Bible, and the more I began to look outside of our bias websites JW.org, or the JW broadcast, the Watchtower society's literature, etc I saw the truth about " the truth." Examples are as follows: The over 5 thousand child sex abuse cases aired live on the news where the Governing Body had to speak in front of the Australian government cause their system based off misinterpretation of scripture paved the easy way of molesting children. * The unexpected affair the Society had with the United Nations whom we call the Beast in Revelation that replaced the " death stroked " one . Once confronted and exposed they ended the partnership to save face quickly doing damage control sending many letters and magazines to the members smh they bought it of course. *How we quickly ban anything pagan as unacceptable to Jehovah God like Holidays, birthdays. Etc. Yet I research roots to weddings and saw that wedding " rings" are pagan customs with ritualistic beliefs to why u wear them..also the " wedding cake" and wind chimes are tied to pagan symbolism. Etc. Yet we're allowed to imitate them. I thought if its pagan stay away...yet the Governing Body can do anything even contradict themselves and the masses in the religion blindly follows and defends. * All the false prophecies which the Bible strongly condemns yet our Organization gave more dates of the end of the world....than just 1914. Every prophecy failed of course cause God isn't with them. So once it dont happen they tweak their words and update it to make excuses. The blind brainwashed followers excuse it and say " No they wasn't wrong, The Light was just dim not its getting Brighter. " lol Sadd The Organization back in the day actually practiced discrimination toward African Americans especially seen evident when " Rutherford " was the man in charge. Read all his letters. * The supposed founder of Jehovah's Witnesses Charles Taze Russel was actually a "Freemason ." That's why the earliest additions of the Watchtower magazines had the satanic symbol called " the Knights Templar " symbol seen in Satanic churches to praise the Devil. The " Knights Templar symbol " can also be found in honor of him after his death. Look up his burial grave site..you'll see a giant monument idol of a Masonic pyramid with the same satanic logo the Knights Templar symbol on it. Pyramids, all seeing eye of Horus, Knights Templar symbol, saturn rings worship...all used to praise not God but Satan the Devil. How disappointing yet many excuse or dont even believe it cause they are brainwashed by the cult dominated by man not Jah. *The Governing Body had stocks in companies that made cigarettes and war planes like Lockey Martin , Boeing etc. *Disfellowshiping! This is over exaggerated and misinterpreted from the Scriptures. God never supported flat out shunning cause it wasn't an effective tool to bringing sheep back. They use Paul words about removing a man or not eating with him etc. Or Prodigal Son. Both examples contradict shunning I'll soon make video of. This practice is user by cults when u question their leaders not really God. It's used as a fear tactic after you're baptized. Listen to whatever we say or lose your family, friends, mates, everything u know . Shunning is evil , ungodly, founded by cults, and even Satanist do the same thing . Their exist over 30 scriptures contradicting the practice of shunning. Read your Bible . *Beards? If u have a beard you're not doing anything in relation to Jehovah's Witnesses. No scripture forbids it yet they use " you look like a hippie" as their sole basis.lol All in Biblical times had beards even Christ yet we cant preach if beard is present etc. * Field Service report card. This is your hours, minutes , books, magazine placements, video showings, return visits, etc. when knocking on doors. Turn in every month. You're graded by men and must participate or you will lose privileges and be seen as non spiritual. They grade u observing u closely . Jesus exposes this practice in Matthew 6. Read it entirely. This religion isnt the truth . It's dominated by brainwashing methods and complete worship goes to the Governing Body yet they keep telling themselves no it's for " Jehovah. " I'm speaking out after 8years. Jehovah God isn't the issue...nor the brainwashed Witnesses...its the Governing Body more so who replaced Jah and Jesus ....and put the system in place that made all these sheeple into brainwash zombies. Ex witnesses arent evil apostates or bad people. They woke up and still love all their love ones trapped in the cult. Ex JWs not lost , they're better off. Wake up and stop judging . Love and truth always win not cults founded by Satan.
The rapture and the 7year Tribulation are right around the corner, please accept the tue JESUS from the Holy Bible! The JW's deny the deity of our Lord and Savior JESUS CHRIST - this is deadly: if you believe that our LORD s only a created being you can NOT be saved!!! JESUS CHRIST is GOD, see John 1! HE always existed with the FATHER and the HOLY SPIRIT = the GODHEAD or Trinity. Thank JESUS for paying for your sins on the cross and HIS resurrection on the 3rd day!!! It must come from the bottom of your heart. Listen to great evangelists lke Dr. John Ankerberg and Dr. David Reagan and their guests.
I remember meeting a gentleman who was the son of two anointed parents and had fallen away. He sat drinking whiskey and i pathetically tried to witness to him and he said something that stuck with me and came to my mind when i was falling away myself. I had mentioned something about the time of the end and Armageddon was just around the corner and he looked up at me briefly and said "Oh! that's what they believe now" and took another swig of his whiskey. I was speechless as i knew what he was saying "What can you possibly say to me that will have any effect on me, been there, done it, got the t-shirt " I appreciate the subtly of that mans words. Good luck to you thank you for your powerful story.
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Dear Shawna, Sending you much love and warm birthday wishes today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🥳🤗⚘️🎂💜Remarkably, I gasped when it dawned on me that I discovered your channel and heard you speak for the first time on your birthday .Today is January 5th 2023 four years after this video was recorded! Another major coincidence is that you released this video on Jan 6, which which was the day I was baptised alongside my husband in 2007. We both left in 2009. Similar to you, it's only been the last 4 years I've become more enlightened about the real fact about J.W.s. Namely, that they are in reality a cult. So many thanks for asserting with such clarity and conviction this plain truth in your video. Thank you 4 pointing out that it takes a proactive effort of reconditioning our minds in order to cleanse ourselves from the brainwashing. Healing is possible :)💖
Thank you so much for watching and your comment. I am so SO happy you’ve made the decision to leave. And healing from this cult is absolutely possible. I’m sending you so much love and support to continue your healing journey. 🤗❤️
Shawna, thank you for sharing your story. So brave and honest. I was once a JW Many years ago and left when I realized that their doctrines were flawed. I feel for the people who still trap because many of them are decent human beings. Keep being truthful to yourself and remember that we are loving individuals trying to do right onto others. I admire your courage. God bless you. Mathew 5 8
Happy belated birthday! It's interesting that you'd been out for a long time, yet you felt the need to make a video now. I too have been out of the organization for a long time, but as they say, you can talk take a girl out of a cult, but you can't take the cult out of the girl. (well, you can, but it's tough :) Thanks for sharing your story!
Thank you I appreciate that! And yes, it is very hard to de-cult ourselves lol, but for me there is something specifically that inspired me to talk now... bit of a long story but I'll share what that was soon. :)
CULT -- HAHAHAHA -- i GUESS IF IT HELPS PEOPLE DEAL WITH LIFE -- IT IS ALL THEY CAN DO -- PEOPLE OF NON READING ABILITY -- not yelling -- some people cant see too good ! !
I'm on your second video. Thank you so much for sharing. Those who feared the LORD spake daily one to another. I have not really been blessed to explain how I feel and what has happened in my life,and if you haven't been there you couldn't understand . Thank you again. It helps alot. Praying for you and my friends and family who are still misled. It's my right eye that has been affected by Horner's syndrome,which is caused by damage to nervous system. The Orphanage thing is exactly what happened to almost all of my mom's cousins as well as all my mom's brothers and sisters (ones who lived)
This took a lot of courage to share and I respect you for that because I can only imaging the inner turmoil of going public with your experience, considering family etc. I too was raised a JW, I too left when I was approximately 27/28. I was a full time pioneer but I'm quite a bit older than you, so when I was a pioneer we had to put in 100 hrs. I too am Canadian and I worked at the Georgetown Bethel build when it was being constructed so my hours counted when I was working there. I too was giving my presentations at the door at the age of 7, my first 'talk' at 7 and baptized at 10. I was a sign language intrepretor and played the piano for the congregation plus utilized for presentations at the meetings, circuit and district assemblies. So I understand the indoctrination that you experienced and how hard it is to 'deprogram' oneself. I'm still a work in progress 30 yrs later. My family is lost to me, as they're all fully immersed in the cult, but they don't see it that way..they feel they have the 'truth'. How very sad for them not to enjoy 'real' life. I am so happy that you are now free to live life the way that you feel comfortable living it and no one has the right to tell someone who they should be attracted to. I personally am very fortunate that my son has left the religion, my daughter never was in it, and my grandchildren will not be subjected to a life of guilt for every little thing but can live their own truth as they grow up. Finally, this isn't about me, but about your courage to leave the cult and speak out about your story and I applaud you for that. You will help many in similar if not the same situation and that is a true blessing.
So sad that JW doesn't seem to teach it's followers about Jesus's ability/purpose to forgive. Confess the sin to God, not to ppl then repent, do a 180 degree turn from that sin and love God with all your being and love all others with all your being. Jackie Hill-Perry puts it beautifully when she says it shows just how important we are to God in that He judges us on how we treat others.
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Glad you were able to leave the JW's! I left about the same time you did. I left about 18 years ago. I grew up a JW and became a ministerial servant at 17. I stopped at 19 and left not long afterward. I was 22 when I left. I'm an atheist now and have been since I was 22. My father and brother are still JW's but we still get along and can talk, as long as it isn't about religion. Anyway, glad you were able to break free. I can certainly understand how difficult it is to leave. Cheers to you and I wish you the best!
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I learned a lot from it. The feelings (guilt,shame. Etc) I was kicked. POMI. After a year I became a POMO. Still healing. I feel lonely and abandoned. Perhaps one day I would have the courage to share my story too. Keep shining.
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Thank you for sharing your story. I too fell in love with a woman when I was young and was so embarrassed and ashamed I had those feelings. So, I proceeded to have one unsuccessful relationship after another with men until I got older and faced the truth about who I am. Now I’m very proud to say I love women but it took a lot of research to rid myself of believing JWs had the truth. Happy Birthday and New Year.
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To me Shawna, your story and so many others just proves that no matter how Love is manipulated it cannot be deformed in any way, shape or form. You came here to know yourself as The Divine knows you and if that means you express your love by your appreciation of all other living creatures or by sharing your true expression of love with another no matter race, creed or gender you are being true to yourself and The Divine, so shine on beautiful!
Thank you so so much Susan! I couldn't agree more that we are expressions of the Divine here to create and manifest a world of our dreams, and to be our true authentic selves. Love is unconditional and meant for everyone, no matter what. Thank you for watching! Massive hugs and love to you :)
this is a great story so far. thank you for sharing. can't wait for the next one. I find the parts of peoples lives where their bodies are telling them something that their brains don't want to except to be very interesting.
What courage you have to talk about the organization like this. May the true God Jehovah, his son Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit walk with you each day and help you to continue to heal and learn his love. Religion, funnelled through earthly men, allowing them be the only interpreters of the Bible and the only ones God speaks through, is not our answer. Manipulation is not love.
Yes but don't forget that JESUS is GOD, see John 1! The HOLY SPIRIT is also GOD. FATHER, SON and HOLY SPRIT are co-equal and co-eternal - the GODhead or Trinity.
Your story is incredibly inspirational and is really setting the tone for others to find their truth and live without fear. Looking forward to future uploads.
This is refreshing to hear. I didn't think I'd EVER be able to overcome the brainwashing. Leaving is NOT enough. There is still quite a lot of work to do. I was just a few months old when this started for me. I stiil don't know how to do a lot of things.
I had a breakdown and was severely depressed when I accepted the truth ,but I couldn't cope with the constant fear and guilt . I'd go for so long then give up due to the constant pressure .Yet so much of it makes sense , there so many problems in the world ,we obviously are unable to manage ourselves ,is it brainwashing or is it the truth ? It's a very hard path to follow when loved ones don't share your belief,but Jesus didn't say it would' be easy
I really loved your video. I became an un baptized publisher when I was really little but never got baptized. I hate that Jehovah witnesses are so homophobic I am bi sexual and I haven’t told any of my family yet cause everyone would hate me. So I got my first girlfriend at 13 that’s when I found out I liked girls we were on and off a lot. Freshman year is what really woke me up. My two best friend kept telling me all this was fake so I started researching and listening to ex Jehovah witness stories and I just woke up all in one day. When I was 13 I started becoming very depressed i got anxiety / became very suicidal/ became super shy. That is also when I got taken away from my parents for a year and had to live with my grandparents / my sexual assault happened. I am 17 now turning 18 next year and I’m so thankful that I woke up and now I’m an atheist i just don’t believe in religions anymore. I’m still very depressed. Me and my mother hardly get along we are always arguing with each other. She label’s me as a prostitute something she was at my age. And I feel like she shouldn’t be labeling me as that because I’m not like that.
Going back maybe over 20yrs, I will never forget a middle aged visiting speaker who came to give a talk with his parents. His slightly camp voice gave away that he was gay. This man who had chosen to remain single and reach out for privilege of elder, instantly earned my respect and he brought home to me the silent battle that many gay and lesbian jw likely go through. It can't be easy.
You have to recondition your mind, spirit and soul. The paranoia and looking over your shoulder takes a while to get over. Letting go and learning to live guilt free and be happy takes a lot of time and strength. Watching others share their stories really helps in healing. You realize you are not the only one. We thank God that others are now awake …. we have our own lingo now. Lol.
You are a lovely person....very brave...I have had a similar story. So much ABUSE in this cult...I have been out or faded for 20+ years.....BEST THING I EVER DID....I STILL SERVE GOD....BUT I DON'T LET ANY MAN TELL ME HOW TO UNDERSTAND MY BIBLE NOW.....GOD BLESS YOU. PLEASE KNOW YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
Hi....I really enjoyed your first video and cant wait to watch your next one. I am probably more unusual than most of the people here because I have never been a JW nor will I ever be. I did go to meetings though for almost 3 years because the woman I fell in love with was a JW. First off let me say I feel so sorry for anyone that has been in this cult and those that have gotten out I also feel for you because I can only imagine the pain of what has to be dealt with and the far reaching effects that this devil run organization. The first night I went to a meeting I saw something was very wrong. There was a hurricane that day and when they prayed at the Kingdom Hall they only prayed for the brothers and sisters and nobody else. I didn't understand that because I pray for everyone when disaster strikes. This is a very selfish organization and they care for nobody.....not even their own people. Tell me one thing the organization does for people.... including their own????? They give nothing to nobody when they have Billions of dollars. I read verses in the bible and it is like God was warning about just this organization. They truly are the wolves in sheeps clothing. I eventually did a bible study with an elder and his wife and the girl I was dating and I agreed to it just to see how wrong they were. He ask a few questions about my knowledge of the bible and then he said " well you need to forget everything you ever learned about the bible". Can you say BRAINWASHING?? The day I quit going to meetings was the day an elder was giving a talk and he said someone left Jehovah and that someone came back to Jehovah and I realized since they had left the organization and came back to the organization that their real God was the organization. I have so many stories about things I have seen at those meetings. It was a learning experience but when I started feeling the anger you spoke of when I was in the meetings I knew it was time for me to leave. It is so good to see all these people getting out and I honestly believe the internet will bring this cruel organization down. Thanks to people like you posting these videos. Thanks for finally getting the courage to help bring them down. I wish you the best in dealing with all of the past. "strength doesn't come from what you can do.... it comes from overcoming the things that you once thought you couldn't " God bless you and may you and all ex JW's find the peace that you so richly deserve...…..
Don't you wonder all that hours knocking on people's doors, bible study and all for marketing for free. I just can't get my head around my grandmother making us walk over 5 miles back and forth in the African sun. Thank God you are really awoke.
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Hello Shauna (sp?) - I really enjoyed listening to your story. I can tell that it lifts a LOAD off of you to share it with us out here! I am subscribing so I can hear more segments. If you want to join my channel, I've just begun as well. I'm so proud of you!!!
Same here. I had been gone 10 years before I truly woke up 3 years ago. I had no intention of returning and was living my life as a none JW, but I wasn't awake because I didn't know anything about the WT. So glad I'm fully out now. Thanks for sharing your story. Every single one counts. I loved your honesty, and I'm sure it will be helpful to many.
I just found your videos, just finished watching the first one. What an amazing story. Thank you for sharing, it is so inspiring... Congrats on being out of that cult. I'm starting part two now ☺😊🤗
you poor girl........I know a jw girl , who was unmarried and she had an affair ( with a man ) and she confessed to the " elders ". she later told me , that , they were asking her questions , that were totally unnecessary . just delving into every little detail , how it was done , how many times etc , etc . she left in the impression , that they were getting their jollies , from the encounter . from the way she was describing , the enquiry , it sounded pornographic . I don't know, if the man she had the affair with , was jw but the questioning process , really threw her for a loop . stand in your truth . one of the things I have against organized religion , is that , they are so judgemental . I really feel bad for the gays , who want to embrace religion.................
@S5 Od So you are saying that Elders wanting explicit details of sexual "sin" is OK. You are just as disgusting as those Elders if that's what you really believe!
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The problem I noticed with Ex-JWs, they still call God Jehovah. God name is "I am that I am" EX3:14. In other words, God told Moses, "I don't have a name.' If God had a name, who would dare call it to his face! Only false gods have names, Jehovah is also a false god.
*You are not alone. There are millions of us. MILLIONS! We have seen the light (Christ) and never looked back. God bless your journey out of darkness. And may God judge the Jehovah's Witness leaders for their demonic teachings.*
.....thank you so much for sharing your story......was glad your video had very good audio.....no mumbling.......no echo........my dear girl, i pray you never again submit to the lascivious inquiries of lecherous men.......God keep you close to His perfect heart.....💜
Your's is an amazing story! I am an X cult member but not JW's, another shepherding/discipleship cult (like the Duggar Family's) but I am good friends with a lovely JW lady and I would like to open her eyes to what she is under so I am gleaning what I can from your stories! Your's is a very interesting story and it really helps me a lot in ministering friendship to her because she has been raped, etc. so I think the sexual side of your story helps me know how to approach hers! Thank you for sharing! You're a very good speaker with concise content and a direct spell binding type to your sharing! Thanks again! I'll go on and listen to your story further! So glad you're out! What I see so clearly is that if Satan can't get people away from a true relationship with God through drugs, alcohol, sex, etc. he'll use religion! Take care & keep sharing!
there is a book coming out called, 'Lurking Shadows'. It's about what most people don't know about the JW cult and a young child's journey through it. This book will put a crack in their armor. 50 years in the making.
Me too. About 20 years away, left at 27 and just finally started breaking through the mind control. If it wasn't for ones speaking out like you I wouldn't have broke free. Thank you so much. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. 😊 MINE IS THE 27 of this month too.
You're special, I'm 68, and like you a voracious reader, grew up in the RCC, and converted to the LDS, and may you don't know but 40 yrs after the LDS was formed and priesthood brought back, the founder of the JW group borrowed heavily from the LDS church and formed his group. If you study world religion at a university you are able to see those similarites.
Great story and thank you for your voice! It sure seems like the more studious the jw, the more likely they are to wake up. I also feel like there’s 2 categories of jws...ones who lean on the literature and limp along on autopilot (these always appear the best too) and ones who actually eat up the Bible and openly and genuinely read the Bible with open hearts. The latter are the ones who struggle but wake up. The brothers were probably too happy to hear about your fling 😝 FORGIVEN (as long as you keep giving us the juicy details) hehe.
I totally agree they were just wanting to hear the details and that's what really perturbed me; and I believe they forgave me because I was an asset to them and their stats... they didn't want to lose my field service hours, etc... I know now that I was literally just being used the entire time in the Org... to promote them. So so glad to be out, but also to be free mentally. :)
As a former ministerial servant, I always disturbed me how much detail the elders always demanded that people give them when they had people in committee meetings. When I was leaving, I had half a dozen committee meeting and they wanted so many details. Some of the times (probably only twice) I didn't actually do what I was in the committee meeting for. The other things I had done but they weren't all that juicy (I had started smoking cigars and drinking a good bit which isn't particularly interesting or abnormal at the age when I was leaving which was when I was around 21). I regrettably have heard some stories about things they've asked women and teenage girls which shocks me. Anyway, I'm glad you broke free. I wish you the best!
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Hi Shauna, I can only imagine the grief you all had when it was revealed that your mother was writing you and the letters were not getting through. The other thing that on so many levels goes un noticed, is the physical and mental strain of keeping the .org standard. It's great to awake and shed the dead wood of being sincerely indoctrinated, and now you are living your authentic self.
It was really hard actually... I found out from my Bio Mom when she found me at 21... when she heard I had never got the letter or even knew about them, she was heart broken... there is a lot more to this story, which I will share soon. Thank you for taking the time to watch and share with me. I am so so proud and happy to be living authentically. Finally. :)
Very interesting story. and I'm so glad you got through it all but especially that you got OUT. I only wish that it had of been sooner and that your suffering was less. I just wish you'd had the chance to make a connection and build a relationship with with your biological mother. What your step mother did to make you loose your bio mum was heinous, She caused you to loose some one very precious and mightily important in your life. By the sounds of things you could of had a meeting of the minds with your bio mum. really love to hear that you found her one day soon. I would never wish being born into a cult like this on any one, it's a 'no win' situation and brutally cruel . When you are born into it and it's all you ever see and hear, you just accept it all, and you have no reason to question any of it. It's unfortunate that you have to be on the other side of it, on the outside if you like, to to really examine and see clearly whats on the inside. When you are inside you are too busy playing the game to see whats happening all around you. When you do see it for what it is and you conclude you have to get out of it, it seems to require a whole lot of loss and suffering to do that, and that's just not fair. However I love the way you recognise that people that have had trauma of any kind and have worked through it are then, far better human beings and I can see that in you too. Anyway all the very best going forward, best wishes from Australia.
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I have never been in any religious organization as a regular member but I am completely intrigued by people's ability to wholeheartedly believe in and follow religious practices and beliefs. I wish you the very best! Check out Stop the Shunning channel... Beth is someone I think you could definitely bond with over your experiences :)
Too many coincidences! I was just thinking before I even saw your video, I left the JW so many years ago yet my healing seems to be progressing quickly now after so many years even though I didn't think I needed any healing. I'm also a January baby, I'm also attracted to the same gender and I just came from viewing crystals on Ebay since I've always been attracted to them as a child and sometimes meditate with crystals. My self worth has gotten stronger after watching many ex-JW videos and understanding their tactics. Thanks for sharing!
Hopefully not New Age, it's another device of the devil. Just last year I burned up all my astrology stuff and tarot cards. The scary thing is, I was getting answers to my questions using tarot but who were those answers from?? It was an open door I had to slam shut.
Oh my god, I am so surprised to hear that your story is kind of similar to mine. I was raised in the JWs too and realized I liked girls very young. I repressed it a long time and when I turned 20 I got severe severe migraines. I was never baptized so I wasn't in the religion anymore by then. I also went to see a neurologist and nothing was wrong with me, they only could give me stronger painkillers. I even had migraine auras. I came out as bi when I was 21 and my migraines just disappeared. The impact the organization had on my health, without me even understanding it, was so severe. I struggled with accepting myself for a very long time. Only when I fully detached myself from all of their stupid doctrines, I could be happy and free.
+LearnLoveHeal Praise the LORD i was never a JW. i love hearing ex-jw stories , but thank you so much for sharing your story. happy belated birthday. looking forward to part two.
I marvel at how much ground must be covered by two JWs to come together to express their same-sex love for one another in the face of such powerful homophobic indoctrination - in your case, a lifetime full - and of the consequent huge sense of guilt they would feel. I'm watching all your videos and am very happy for you seeing you escape this mind-control to find freedom. I do wonder what became of the sister with whom you had this affair. I think it's highly unlikely, but will you paraphrase Jane Eyre, to say, "Viewer, I married her"!
How brainwashed we were that we used to think that being a corporation slave, sacrifice education and doing low paid jobs was a blessing from ‘Jehovah’
you know, even you are a graduate of college, you will receive low salary too as starting position..
there are people living that life style every day that are not in that religion -- so -- he said those that love this world more than his -- should go with it -- did yu not read that part ? ! 1 JOHN 2 : 16 ! and it is as all companys demand -- that yu do it their WAY ! PSALM 81 : 12 ! but I do understand -- and so does he !
You're one of the lucky once, you woke up to them, many others are still in enduring slavery only to help the Watchtower Society get richer.
😭😭😭facts!!What god wants you to live in poverty?🤷🏽♂️
@@alexxander1290 Huge difference in pay for a high school grad and a BS degree. 18k a year vs 60k a year starting.
I left 35 years ago and it was very difficult to wake up back then. Just imagine having no internet..
I can only imagine. I left about 18 years ago and when I came out to my father and stepmother as an atheist, they kept insisting that atheists worshiped Satan and wanted religions banned. I didn't really know any better at the time but thankfully I was able to find videos on RUclips and had the internet (although it was still pretty rough in the early 2000's) to help me understand more and then help educate them. They eventually came to terms with it...somewhat. Anyway, glad you were able to break free and especially when it was significantly tougher than it seems to be today. I can't imagine being a Witness now with all the information we have available now but I'm biased. Anyway, cheers to you and I wish you the best!
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How did you realize it wasn't truth?
Left to which way between this 2 ?????Mathew 7:13-14.
@@nates9029Left to which way between this 2 ??????Mathew 7:13-14.
What you said near the beginning:
“Leaving is not enough.”
Now that right there is the absolute Truth
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I just recently made my exit from this Organization of men and they are now giving me the full on shunning. I , however, been preparing for this ahead of time knowing exactly when I would be ready to get out of this religious cult. I share my story too on my page and hope some will listen and support me to the ex JW family. Much luv and love your story deeply sis!
Cheers to you for leaving. Glad you were able to break free. Sorry you had to and still have to deal with the shunning nonsense. For the life of me I will NEVER understand that nonsense. I left about 18 years ago and it is tough leaving at first but it does get easier. I almost feel like it was someone else's life I lived when I was younger. I was a ministerial servant from 17-19. Now I can't believe I ever believed in any of that and actually helped teach it. Anyway, cheers to you! I wish you the best!
@@nates9029 thank u so much and I'm just as glad that you're free also! You're amazing!
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I am so glad for you that you managed to free yourself from bondage. A wide new life is now open for you to discover. You will find it to be fulfilling. Good luck on your new journey..
Thank you so much for taking the time to share your story! You are such a beautiful and amazing person.
Thank you so much for telling your story. I only woke up 2 months ago, and these testimonials that are being shared are monumental in the healing process for all those who wake up and realize the damage this cult has inflicked on them in so many and varying ways. I've had many doubts over the years, but now they've all been confirmed through reseach and people like you sharing your stories.
Shawna, thank you for sharing your story for us. I've been out for even longer than you have, and I too pioneered for many years. Actually I pioneered for about 7 years and it was a 100 hour per month requirement back then. And I was in the "truth" for a total of about 15 years. The idea that you have to confess to the elders, is something I'll never understand. How can these guys 'forgive' you per se, when it's basically none of their business. I've absolutely done a lot things that were considered wrong, but I never gave the elders enough respect to talk with them about it. I just figured it was my business.
On a more general scale, and on the subject of exiting this cult, we've both done good. We're out, we're free and we don't have to serve an organization which is clearly interested in publishing and real estate ventures. Being on the outside, we can now see that this is simply a corporation that does 'business' just as any other business. Only in the case of the WTB&TS, they get the benefit of tax breaks and free labor.
Our responsibility, as I see it, is to somehow help those who are still trapped within this cult. Your video, along with so many other activists videos, really help those who may be PIMO and those who are searching for "the truth about the truth". I would never criticize any Jehovah's Witness for their beliefs. After all, we were just like them many years ago, thinking this organization was God's organization. I do however criticize the Watchtower organization, as they're responsible for so much pain and suffering the brothers and sisters have to endure. From their child abuse (two witness rule) policy, to their blood policy to their shunning policy - they're causing much damage to the psyches of so many. So, good job and I'll look forward to future videos.
Roger, I simply cannot thank you for your comment. And I agree with every word! One of the reasons I wanted to share my story so badly is because I know what it was like to be so so convinced that I had the 'truth'. I would have proudly laid down my life for Jehovah, to gain his approval. But my experience showed me that this was, in fact, not a religion based on unconditional love. It's quite the opposite. Not at all where I want to be. Not if I can't be myself.
But as you say, at least we can take comfort that we are doing the right thing for ourselves. We're out. We are free. I just feel bad for those who are still so conditioned to believe they have the truth and are 'free' themselves, when in fact it is so far from the truth.
I'm looking forward to sharing more and I'm thankful that you are sharing in the story and journey with me. :)
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@@LearnLoveHeal what are you talking about to find our truth ? There is only ONE TRUTH and its in the BIBLE , NOT ORGANIZATION... JahWitneses have lost their path when "anointed"ones took control in 1950ies and MADE UP BUNCH of NON BIBLICAL rules... And like 10 missed dates of Armageddon, yup, false prophets... Jesus's example ,personality and attitudes are "the way" and "the truth"... Along with rest of the Bible and Jehovah's personality...Many times God had only ONE servant on Planet Earth !! And sometimes nobody... This organization is excuse for fundraising...
I am so in awe of you sharing your story. I haven't watched Part 2 yet, but will be doing next. I escaped the organisation and it's ridiculous rules, personal intimate probing and totally unnecessary questions, 31 years ago, yet have never shared my testimony with anyone. I would like you to know that I would be very proud to have you as my sister and offer you a big hug.. Thank you for your wonderful video.. xxx
Thank you with all my heart. That means so so much to me. I would hear your story, if you'd share it, and be honoured to have you as a brother! Thank you!:) Big hugs and say strong!
Jesus sent all of you to preach about the JW's???????
@@LearnLoveHealJesus sent all of you to preach about the JW's?????????
Belated happy birthday. Powerful story. "Leaving is not enough" so true.
Thank you so much for sharing your story, it's crazy how similar all our stories are of EX cult survivors. You are helping more people that you know with that video, telling us we were not alone that live in this situation. PS: You look amazing and at least now we are free and can really fully lives our life. I wish you many many many happy years and actually the best years of your life to come.
Blessings love
Angel Lee Thank you with all my heart!! We are absolutely not alone. Hugs and much love to you ❤️
Sending you a big hug! Thank you for telling your story. Guilt is a bag you can set down. You are as Jehovah made you, completely natural.
Heartfelt thanks to you for your courage in sharing your story. Your experiences provide a key I need to cross my rubicon. Eagerly awaiting part 2!
I'm so happy to hear it resonates with you! Thank you for watching! . :)
Your story is one of the most powerful I have watched. Thank you so much sharing and your courage is amazing.
I appreciate that very much, thank you so much for sharing that with me.
I became inactive after the release of their 2013 Bible, after the comment from the GB member saying that they say that we add words and take away words from the Bible, he laughed and most of the witnesses laughed along with him, well I wasn't one of them, I wondered why they were introducing another translation, what was wrong with the Bible we already had, I was told that the New World Translation was the best translation known to man. After I received my new Grey Bible I went to some of my other Bibles and the Greek Interlinear translation and found to my surprise that words where added and words where taken away from the Bible. As I was told not to believe anyone, that talk about the religion as they where classed as postates and not to listen to their postate lies. Because there seem to be so many EXJW sites on line, curiosity got the better of me. I went onto the sites such as JWfacts.com and Watchtower Examination etc. I thought what could be wrong, after all the truth should hold up to scrutiny. The rest is history, even though I use to wander back and forth to the meetings and at the memorials. At the 2017 memorial the opening song was enough to wake me up about the organization, when we stood to sing a song about the chosen ones loving Jehovah, I wouldn't sing those words I sang I love you Jehovah. I told myself that night that I never go back to the kingdom hall anymore. I don't believe they are God's organization. Jesus said I will build my Church not my Watchtower Society. I truly believe through my research and looking into the Bible that this a cult, it's the worse cult ever, because they break-up families and friends, to the point that some have committed suicide, they have blood on their hands, and they shun those that don't believe in their teachings anymore, I know because when I wrote a letter of disassociation to the local congregation, my close JW friend of 14yrs will have nothing to do with me anymore. That was a shock but I found Jesus which I couldn't find in the kingdom hall.
Horrible isn't it?
Soo sad :( Most important is that you found Jesus 😊
@@johannabaggerman9916 where did he find him? I can't find his number in the phone directory....
I'm glad you woke up. Why write a disassociation letter, why not simply fade? To write the letter is to show them authority, which they have no right to.
As I had been told in the past, "you have your own Bible". Well I now understand after examining the Watchtower B&T Society Bibles. They are nothing more than a publishing company claiming to be backed by Jehovah. Well we know Satan and his followers transform themselves into angels of "light". They're shunning fits into the description of the goats at the Lord's separating the sheep and goats in Matthews account. Their teaching of no one should partake except 144000 at the memorial is not Biblical, but in reality about partaking is not what they teach but just the opposite; (because those who deny the sacrements deny the Christ.) So after their new "silver sword" was released and thoroughly examining it. I realized they really do have their own Bible designed to back their own Teachings, ( not scriptural teachings), and they set themselves in the place of JC just like religious leaders in JC day set themselves in Moses place. I now realize they are no different but really a part of Christendom, just like the rest. Scripture says it is Jehovah that teaches us. "Oh if we would only listen." Then our peace would be ....and your righteousness as waves of the sea. (Isaiah )
MY EXPERIENCE
I love when more former Witnesses come together united adding to the new family. I know your outcry, pain, mental disparity, etc. I been baptized since June 3rd, 2012 and studying little before that. I progress fast through the " Bible teach book" publication when it was in yellow lol then progress quickly through the " Remain in God's Love" publication both within a month in a half cause I studied with my Bible teacher daily for hours. Soon qualified for my baptism at a " Special Day Assembly."
I gave many public talks, I held the microphones in the congregation meetings, I participated in the cleaning of the Kingdom Halls, I was getting more hours than what's required for regular pioneers in field service ministry .
I made many friends and even brought in some I knew from " the world." I grew an enormous love for the supposed " truth " and for Jah .
I traveled to New York driving the entire way with a group that invited me and saw all 3 "Bethel facilities ." There I saw the headquarters of the Governing Body and my connections help me see rooms and more than what they actually are to give in these tours. I have many pictures of this experience.
Traveling all throughout the country for this religion doing everything u can imagine. Yet....
I started getting extremely depressed cause the more I elevated myself...the more I was exposed to seeing which was so disturbing even heart breaking in many respects.
I notice how so many in the religion idolize man . How? Ever notice that when " Special Guest" appear now suddenly everyone comes to the Kingdom Hall Meeting and all now dress up in expensive suits with bow ties to go out in field service? All cause maybe the " Traveling Overseer " is there which was so fake to me. They call it " hospitality...yet it was idolizing cause everyone competing to get his attention. To knock on doors with him, to go out to eat with him, to talk to him first after his talks, and everyone is acting like extra than usual. Once he leaves its back to the opposite.
I also noticed that ones that come out the " world " get treated a little differently than the ones who grew up in the religion. Like in meetings...they're hands get picked first over yours. They get invited everywhere more than u. Many didnt work with me just my teacher most times daily. Times where my hand was literally ignored while sitting up front like wow!
Elders always get called the most over all and their wives then kids. It's like levels to this of favoritism. Being related to special men can get u greater protection too from wrongdoing than average ones.
Steady observing...I saw how much godly devotion, praise , and worship didnt go to " Jehovah God." It all went to the " Governing Body."
The supposed "annointed" men who are the Elites over the entire faith of Jehovah's Witnesses worldwide. They are the men elevated to God like status. Can't question them or you'll be in big trouble.
So I researched more , prayed, read Bible, and the more I began to look outside of our bias websites JW.org, or the JW broadcast, the Watchtower society's literature, etc I saw the truth about " the truth."
Examples are as follows:
The over 5 thousand child sex abuse cases aired live on the news where the Governing Body had to speak in front of the Australian government cause their system based off misinterpretation of scripture paved the easy way of molesting children.
* The unexpected affair the Society had with the United Nations whom we call the Beast in Revelation that replaced the " death stroked " one . Once confronted and exposed they ended the partnership to save face quickly doing damage control sending many letters and magazines to the members smh they bought it of course.
*How we quickly ban anything pagan as unacceptable to Jehovah God like Holidays, birthdays. Etc. Yet I research roots to weddings and saw that wedding " rings" are pagan customs with ritualistic beliefs to why u wear them..also the " wedding cake" and wind chimes are tied to pagan symbolism. Etc. Yet we're allowed to imitate them. I thought if its pagan stay away...yet the Governing Body can do anything even contradict themselves and the masses in the religion blindly follows and defends.
* All the false prophecies which the Bible strongly condemns yet our Organization gave more dates of the end of the world....than just 1914. Every prophecy failed of course cause God isn't with them. So once it dont happen they tweak their words and update it to make excuses. The blind brainwashed followers excuse it and say " No they wasn't wrong, The Light was just dim not its getting Brighter. " lol Sadd
The Organization back in the day actually practiced discrimination toward African Americans especially seen evident when " Rutherford " was the man in charge. Read all his letters.
* The supposed founder of Jehovah's Witnesses Charles Taze Russel was actually a "Freemason ." That's why the earliest additions of the Watchtower magazines had the satanic symbol called " the Knights Templar " symbol seen in Satanic churches to praise the Devil.
The " Knights Templar symbol " can also be found in honor of him after his death. Look up his burial grave site..you'll see a giant monument idol of a Masonic pyramid with the same satanic logo the Knights Templar symbol on it. Pyramids, all seeing eye of Horus, Knights Templar symbol, saturn rings worship...all used to praise not God but Satan the Devil. How disappointing yet many excuse or dont even believe it cause they are brainwashed by the cult dominated by man not Jah.
*The Governing Body had stocks in companies that made cigarettes and war planes like Lockey Martin , Boeing etc.
*Disfellowshiping! This is over exaggerated and misinterpreted from the Scriptures. God never supported flat out shunning cause it wasn't an effective tool to bringing sheep back. They use Paul words about removing a man or not eating with him etc. Or Prodigal Son. Both examples contradict shunning I'll soon make video of. This practice is user by cults when u question their leaders not really God. It's used as a fear tactic after you're baptized. Listen to whatever we say or lose your family, friends, mates, everything u know . Shunning is evil , ungodly, founded by cults, and even Satanist do the same thing . Their exist over 30 scriptures contradicting the practice of shunning. Read your Bible .
*Beards? If u have a beard you're not doing anything in relation to Jehovah's Witnesses. No scripture forbids it yet they use " you look like a hippie" as their sole basis.lol All in Biblical times had beards even Christ yet we cant preach if beard is present etc.
* Field Service report card.
This is your hours, minutes , books, magazine placements, video showings, return visits, etc. when knocking on doors. Turn in every month. You're graded by men and must participate or you will lose privileges and be seen as non spiritual. They grade u observing u closely . Jesus exposes this practice in Matthew 6. Read it entirely.
This religion isnt the truth . It's dominated by brainwashing methods and complete worship goes to the Governing Body yet they keep telling themselves no it's for " Jehovah. "
I'm speaking out after 8years. Jehovah God isn't the issue...nor the brainwashed Witnesses...its the Governing Body more so who replaced Jah and Jesus ....and put the system in place that made all these sheeple into brainwash zombies. Ex witnesses arent evil apostates or bad people. They woke up and still love all their love ones trapped in the cult. Ex JWs not lost , they're better off. Wake up and stop judging . Love and truth always win not cults founded by Satan.
show me your proof that governing body has stocks on warplanes, cigarretes... thanks
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Happy Birthday to you!!! Celebrate your life, how far you’ve come & the brightness of your future! 🤗🎂
The rapture and the 7year Tribulation are right around the corner, please accept the tue JESUS from the Holy Bible!
The JW's deny the deity of our Lord and Savior JESUS CHRIST - this is deadly: if you believe that our LORD s only a created being you can NOT be saved!!! JESUS CHRIST is GOD, see John 1! HE always existed with the FATHER and the HOLY SPIRIT = the GODHEAD or Trinity.
Thank JESUS for paying for your sins on the cross and HIS resurrection on the 3rd day!!! It must come from the bottom of your heart. Listen to great evangelists lke Dr. John Ankerberg and Dr. David Reagan and their guests.
Lovely video. I left about 18 years ago. Im glad i was born into this tho as its propelled me to find real answers
I remember meeting a gentleman who was the son of two anointed parents and had fallen away. He sat drinking whiskey and i pathetically tried to witness to him and he said something that stuck with me and came to my mind when i was falling away myself. I had mentioned something about the time of the end and Armageddon was just around the corner and he looked up at me briefly and said "Oh! that's what they believe now" and took another swig of his whiskey. I was speechless as i knew what he was saying "What can you possibly say to me that will have any effect on me, been there, done it, got the t-shirt "
I appreciate the subtly of that mans words. Good luck to you thank you for your powerful story.
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Dear Shawna,
Sending you much love and warm birthday wishes today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🥳🤗⚘️🎂💜Remarkably, I gasped when it dawned on me that I discovered your channel and heard you speak for the first time on your birthday .Today is January 5th 2023 four years after this video was recorded! Another major coincidence is that you released this video on Jan 6, which which was the day I was baptised alongside my husband in 2007. We both left in 2009.
Similar to you, it's only been the last 4 years I've become more enlightened about the real fact about J.W.s.
Namely, that they are in reality a cult. So many thanks for asserting with such clarity and conviction this plain truth in your video.
Thank you 4 pointing out that it takes a proactive effort of reconditioning our minds in order to cleanse ourselves from the brainwashing. Healing is possible :)💖
Thank you so much for watching and your comment. I am so SO happy you’ve made the decision to leave. And healing from this cult is absolutely possible. I’m sending you so much love and support to continue your healing journey. 🤗❤️
Shawna, thank you for sharing your story. So brave and honest. I was once a JW Many years ago and left when I realized that their doctrines were flawed. I feel for the people who still trap because many of them are decent human beings.
Keep being truthful to yourself and remember that we are loving individuals trying to do right onto others.
I admire your courage.
God bless you.
Mathew 5 8
Happy belated birthday! It's interesting that you'd been out for a long time, yet you felt the need to make a video now. I too have been out of the organization for a long time, but as they say, you can talk take a girl out of a cult, but you can't take the cult out of the girl. (well, you can, but it's tough :) Thanks for sharing your story!
Thank you I appreciate that! And yes, it is very hard to de-cult ourselves lol, but for me there is something specifically that inspired me to talk now... bit of a long story but I'll share what that was soon. :)
CULT -- HAHAHAHA -- i GUESS IF IT HELPS PEOPLE DEAL WITH LIFE -- IT IS ALL THEY CAN DO -- PEOPLE OF NON READING ABILITY -- not yelling -- some people cant see too good ! !
sam.smith JOB - dark will become light?
@@user-du7pe6pm7d "some people can't see too good". Some people like you can't write "too good". Your post makes no sense at all!
@S5 Od Maybe you have no idea why she is shunned. You are a judgmental fool.
I'm on your second video. Thank you so much for sharing. Those who feared the LORD spake daily one to another. I have not really been blessed to explain how I feel and what has happened in my life,and if you haven't been there you couldn't understand .
Thank you again. It helps
alot. Praying for you and my friends and family who are still misled.
It's my right eye that has been affected by Horner's syndrome,which is caused by damage to nervous system.
The Orphanage thing is exactly what happened to almost all of my mom's cousins as well as all my mom's brothers and sisters (ones who lived)
Finally I find a story similar to mine! Thank you for your courage to share! I’m seeing this four years later, but I’m your new follower.
Brave woman! Excellent story, be blessed and received a big hug, we thank you!
Thank you with all my heart!
This took a lot of courage to share and I respect you for that because I can only imaging the inner turmoil of going public with your experience, considering family etc. I too was raised a JW, I too left when I was approximately 27/28. I was a full time pioneer but I'm quite a bit older than you, so when I was a pioneer we had to put in 100 hrs. I too am Canadian and I worked at the Georgetown Bethel build when it was being constructed so my hours counted when I was working there. I too was giving my presentations at the door at the age of 7, my first 'talk' at 7 and baptized at 10. I was a sign language intrepretor and played the piano for the congregation plus utilized for presentations at the meetings, circuit and district assemblies. So I understand the indoctrination that you experienced and how hard it is to 'deprogram' oneself. I'm still a work in progress 30 yrs later. My family is lost to me, as they're all fully immersed in the cult, but they don't see it that way..they feel they have the 'truth'. How very sad for them not to enjoy 'real' life. I am so happy that you are now free to live life the way that you feel comfortable living it and no one has the right to tell someone who they should be attracted to. I personally am very fortunate that my son has left the religion, my daughter never was in it, and my grandchildren will not be subjected to a life of guilt for every little thing but can live their own truth as they grow up. Finally, this isn't about me, but about your courage to leave the cult and speak out about your story and I applaud you for that. You will help many in similar if not the same situation and that is a true blessing.
So sad that JW doesn't seem to teach it's followers about Jesus's ability/purpose to forgive. Confess the sin to God, not to ppl then repent, do a 180 degree turn from that sin and love God with all your being and love all others with all your being. Jackie Hill-Perry puts it beautifully when she says it shows just how important we are to God in that He judges us on how we treat others.
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Glad you were able to leave the JW's! I left about the same time you did. I left about 18 years ago. I grew up a JW and became a ministerial servant at 17. I stopped at 19 and left not long afterward. I was 22 when I left. I'm an atheist now and have been since I was 22. My father and brother are still JW's but we still get along and can talk, as long as it isn't about religion. Anyway, glad you were able to break free. I can certainly understand how difficult it is to leave. Cheers to you and I wish you the best!
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I learned a lot from it. The feelings (guilt,shame. Etc) I was kicked. POMI. After a year I became a POMO. Still healing. I feel lonely and abandoned. Perhaps one day I would have the courage to share my story too. Keep shining.
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Thanks for sharing your story ! Looking forward to hear 2 part.
Thank you for sharing your story. I too fell in love with a woman when I was young and was so embarrassed and ashamed I had those feelings. So, I proceeded to have one unsuccessful relationship after another with men until I got older and faced the truth about who I am. Now I’m very proud to say I love women but it took a lot of research to rid myself of believing JWs had the truth. Happy Birthday and New Year.
Incredible story. Thank you so much for sharing.
Am ex jehovah witness from Africa, thanks for sharing
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From up north Minnesota
To me Shawna, your story and so many others just proves that no matter how Love is manipulated it cannot be deformed in any way, shape or form. You came here to know yourself as The Divine knows you and if that means you express your love by your appreciation of all other living creatures or by sharing your true expression of love with another no matter race, creed or gender you are being true to yourself and The Divine, so shine on beautiful!
Thank you so so much Susan! I couldn't agree more that we are expressions of the Divine here to create and manifest a world of our dreams, and to be our true authentic selves. Love is unconditional and meant for everyone, no matter what. Thank you for watching! Massive hugs and love to you :)
this is a great story so far. thank you for sharing. can't wait for the next one. I find the parts of peoples lives where their bodies are telling them something that their brains don't want to except to be very interesting.
It is amazing how our bodies communicate to us when we are ignoring or repressing something. Thank you for watching! :)
What courage you have to talk about the organization like this. May the true God Jehovah, his son Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit walk with you each day and help you to continue to heal and learn his love. Religion, funnelled through earthly men, allowing them be the only interpreters of the Bible and the only ones God speaks through, is not our answer. Manipulation is not love.
Yes but don't forget that JESUS is GOD, see John 1! The HOLY SPIRIT is also GOD. FATHER, SON and HOLY SPRIT are co-equal and co-eternal - the GODhead or Trinity.
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Thank you for sharing your story, looking forward to hearing the rest. Welcome to your freedom!!
Your story is incredibly inspirational and is really setting the tone for others to find their truth and live without fear. Looking forward to future uploads.
Wishing you the best!
God bless you...You made it through the WT and realized you are HUMAN...May God continue to bless you in so many ways
This is refreshing to hear. I didn't think I'd EVER be able to overcome the brainwashing. Leaving is NOT enough. There is still quite a lot of work to do. I was just a few months old when this started for me. I stiil don't know how to do a lot of things.
Yes, "leaving is not enough!" Very well said it. Thank you for sharing your experience. God bless you.
I had a breakdown and was severely depressed when I accepted the truth ,but I couldn't cope with the constant fear and guilt . I'd go for so long then give up due to the constant pressure .Yet so much of it makes sense , there so many problems in the world ,we obviously are unable to manage ourselves ,is it brainwashing or is it the truth ? It's a very hard path to follow when loved ones don't share your belief,but Jesus didn't say it would' be easy
We simply weren't meant to live a life of guilt and fear.
Hello from New Zealand! Thanks for sharing.
Thanks for sharing you story, and how your time inside the org was strange too!
❤ it's never too late to live your life & love the way you're naturally inclined to.
A woman after my own heart! NEVER STOP LOVING JESUS AND HIS FATHER ! JEHOVAH BLESS . RUTH 2:12 XX
Thanks for sharing your story, that takes courage. Look forward to seeing more videos 👍
I really loved your video. I became an un baptized publisher when I was really little but never got baptized. I hate that Jehovah witnesses are so homophobic I am bi sexual and I haven’t told any of my family yet cause everyone would hate me. So I got my first girlfriend at 13 that’s when I found out I liked girls we were on and off a lot. Freshman year is what really woke me up. My two best friend kept telling me all this was fake so I started researching and listening to ex Jehovah witness stories and I just woke up all in one day. When I was 13 I started becoming very depressed i got anxiety / became very suicidal/ became super shy. That is also when I got taken away from my parents for a year and had to live with my grandparents / my sexual assault happened. I am 17 now turning 18 next year and I’m so thankful that I woke up and now I’m an atheist i just don’t believe in religions anymore. I’m still very depressed. Me and my mother hardly get along we are always arguing with each other. She label’s me as a prostitute something she was at my age. And I feel like she shouldn’t be labeling me as that because I’m not like that.
You are amazing! Thank you for sharing your story!
Going back maybe over 20yrs, I will never forget a middle aged visiting speaker who came to give a talk with his parents. His slightly camp voice gave away that he was gay. This man who had chosen to remain single and reach out for privilege of elder, instantly earned my respect and he brought home to me the silent battle that many gay and lesbian jw likely go through. It can't be easy.
I'm so sorry to hear he is repressing who he really is... :(
Thanks for sharing! By the way I love your stones!
You have to recondition your mind, spirit and soul. The paranoia and looking over your shoulder takes a while to get over. Letting go and learning to live guilt free and be happy takes a lot of time and strength. Watching others share their stories really helps in healing. You realize you are not the only one. We thank God that others are now awake …. we have our own lingo now. Lol.
You are a lovely person....very brave...I have had a similar story. So much ABUSE in this cult...I have been out or faded for 20+ years.....BEST THING I EVER DID....I STILL SERVE GOD....BUT I DON'T LET ANY MAN TELL ME HOW TO UNDERSTAND MY BIBLE NOW.....GOD BLESS YOU. PLEASE KNOW YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
Hi....I really enjoyed your first video and cant wait to watch your next one. I am probably more unusual than most of the people here because I have never been a JW nor will I ever be. I did go to meetings though for almost 3 years because the woman I fell in love with was a JW. First off let me say I feel so sorry for anyone that has been in this cult and those that have gotten out I also feel for you because I can only imagine the pain of what has to be dealt with and the far reaching effects that this devil run organization. The first night I went to a meeting I saw something was very wrong. There was a hurricane that day and when they prayed at the Kingdom Hall they only prayed for the brothers and sisters and nobody else. I didn't understand that because I pray for everyone when disaster strikes. This is a very selfish organization and they care for nobody.....not even their own people. Tell me one thing the organization does for people.... including their own????? They give nothing to nobody when they have Billions of dollars. I read verses in the bible and it is like God was warning about just this organization. They truly are the wolves in sheeps clothing. I eventually did a bible study with an elder and his wife and the girl I was dating and I agreed to it just to see how wrong they were. He ask a few questions about my knowledge of the bible and then he said " well you need to forget everything you ever learned about the bible". Can you say BRAINWASHING?? The day I quit going to meetings was the day an elder was giving a talk and he said someone left Jehovah and that someone came back to Jehovah and I realized since they had left the organization and came back to the organization that their real God was the organization. I have so many stories about things I have seen at those meetings. It was a learning experience but when I started feeling the anger you spoke of when I was in the meetings I knew it was time for me to leave. It is so good to see all these people getting out and I honestly believe the internet will bring this cruel organization down. Thanks to people like you posting these videos. Thanks for finally getting the courage to help bring them down. I wish you the best in dealing with all of the past. "strength doesn't come from what you can do.... it comes from overcoming the things that you once thought you couldn't "
God bless you and may you and all ex JW's find the peace that you so richly deserve...…..
Your words are so true, it can take many years
Thank you so much for sharing your story and hello from Germany (I was a pionier for three years, too) 😘❣️
Don't you wonder all that hours knocking on people's doors, bible study and all for marketing for free. I just can't get my head around my grandmother making us walk over 5 miles back and forth in the African sun. Thank God you are really awoke.
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It's a matter of conscious.
Can't go on or along with when you know the truth
You are 100% right Mechelle, thank you for sharing.
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Thx for having the courage
Shawnna you are very smart to leave the cult. Greetings from Mexico.
Thank you Jesus!
Jesus is the way and light and truth and life and love and hope and peace and freedom 🐑
wow! very interesting. Thank you for sharing your story.
You're welcome :)
Nice to see you Shawna. Been a while. Brought back lots of memories, man.
Thanks for sharing your story!
Hello Shauna (sp?) - I really enjoyed listening to your story. I can tell that it lifts a LOAD off of you to share it with us out here! I am subscribing so I can hear more segments. If you want to join my channel, I've just begun as well. I'm so proud of you!!!
I left 20 years ago at 18 and never fell for that nonsense and never looked back
Same here. I had been gone 10 years before I truly woke up 3 years ago. I had no intention of returning and was living my life as a none JW, but I wasn't awake because I didn't know anything about the WT. So glad I'm fully out now. Thanks for sharing your story. Every single one counts. I loved your honesty, and I'm sure it will be helpful to many.
I just found your videos, just finished watching the first one. What an amazing story. Thank you for sharing, it is so inspiring... Congrats on being out of that cult. I'm starting part two now ☺😊🤗
Love your call name. Lol
@@sofiamorgan6644 Thanks, kinda proud of it myself... 😁
I appreciate that very much, thank you :)
you poor girl........I know a jw girl , who was unmarried and she had an affair ( with a man ) and she confessed to the " elders ". she later told me , that , they were asking her questions , that were totally unnecessary . just delving into every little detail , how it was done , how many times etc , etc . she left in the impression , that they were getting their jollies , from the encounter . from the way she was describing , the enquiry , it sounded pornographic . I don't know, if the man she had the affair with , was jw but the questioning process , really threw her for a loop . stand in your truth . one of the things I have against organized religion , is that , they are so judgemental . I really feel bad for the gays , who want to embrace religion.................
mizfrenchtwist for me are they sincere in their and good behavior mean does not show off boasting speaking their affairs in public no problems.
@@JudithSanchez-ht6jn..hello I can't understand your reply...........
@S5 Od So you are saying that Elders wanting explicit details of sexual "sin" is OK. You are just as disgusting as those Elders if that's what you really believe!
Hi Shawna, thank you for sharing your story with us. I imagine It is not easy to do. I send you my best regards from Spain: Anna.
I can’t wait for your next video. Very well done .
Thank you So much for watching and your feedback Cathylynn! I truly appreciate it! :)
Thank you for your testimony❤️
Thank you for watching and sharing with me
I applaud your courage in speaking out your story. Remember Jesus who will always love you unconditionally...xxoo
My birthday is the 6th. I quit 10 years ago this September. After I learned about zionism and freemasonry. Very culted groups.
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The problem I noticed with Ex-JWs, they still call God Jehovah. God name is "I am that I am" EX3:14. In other words, God told Moses, "I don't have a name.'
If God had a name, who would dare call it to his face!
Only false gods have names, Jehovah is also a false god.
Thank you very much, for various reasons I can’t explain here and now.
*You are not alone. There are millions of us. MILLIONS! We have seen the light (Christ) and never looked back. God bless your journey out of darkness. And may God judge the Jehovah's Witness leaders for their demonic teachings.*
So happy you are free!
.....thank you so much for sharing your story......was glad your video had very good audio.....no mumbling.......no echo........my dear girl, i pray you never again submit to the lascivious inquiries of lecherous men.......God keep you close to His perfect heart.....💜
So beautifully authentic. Thank you.
Thank you so much, and for watching. I truly appreciate it ❤️
Good video! (Off subject, but I love your blue & white lamp)
Your's is an amazing story! I am an X cult member but not JW's, another shepherding/discipleship cult (like the Duggar Family's) but I am good friends with a lovely JW lady and I would like to open her eyes to what she is under so I am gleaning what I can from your stories! Your's is a very interesting story and it really helps me a lot in ministering friendship to her because she has been raped, etc. so I think the sexual side of your story helps me know how to approach hers! Thank you for sharing! You're a very good speaker with concise content and a direct spell binding type to your sharing! Thanks again! I'll go on and listen to your story further! So glad you're out! What I see so clearly is that if Satan can't get people away from a true relationship with God through drugs, alcohol, sex, etc. he'll use religion! Take care & keep sharing!
there is a book coming out called, 'Lurking Shadows'.
It's about what most people don't know about the JW cult and a young child's journey through it. This book will put a crack in their armor. 50 years in the making.
Me too. About 20 years away, left at 27 and just finally started breaking through the mind control. If it wasn't for ones speaking out like you I wouldn't have broke free. Thank you so much. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. 😊 MINE IS THE 27 of this month too.
You're special, I'm 68, and like you a voracious reader, grew up in the RCC, and converted to the LDS, and may you don't know but 40 yrs after the LDS was formed and priesthood brought back, the founder of the JW group borrowed heavily from the LDS church and formed his group. If you study world religion at a university you are able to see those similarites.
Great story and thank you for your voice! It sure seems like the more studious the jw, the more likely they are to wake up. I also feel like there’s 2 categories of jws...ones who lean on the literature and limp along on autopilot (these always appear the best too) and ones who actually eat up the Bible and openly and genuinely read the Bible with open hearts. The latter are the ones who struggle but wake up. The brothers were probably too happy to hear about your fling 😝 FORGIVEN (as long as you keep giving us the juicy details) hehe.
I totally agree they were just wanting to hear the details and that's what really perturbed me; and I believe they forgave me because I was an asset to them and their stats... they didn't want to lose my field service hours, etc... I know now that I was literally just being used the entire time in the Org... to promote them. So so glad to be out, but also to be free mentally. :)
As a former ministerial servant, I always disturbed me how much detail the elders always demanded that people give them when they had people in committee meetings. When I was leaving, I had half a dozen committee meeting and they wanted so many details. Some of the times (probably only twice) I didn't actually do what I was in the committee meeting for. The other things I had done but they weren't all that juicy (I had started smoking cigars and drinking a good bit which isn't particularly interesting or abnormal at the age when I was leaving which was when I was around 21). I regrettably have heard some stories about things they've asked women and teenage girls which shocks me. Anyway, I'm glad you broke free. I wish you the best!
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Better late than never! I love your lamp, thanks for sharing your story.
Thank you! :)
Thanks for sharing. I'm gay also. Can't wait for part 2. 😁
Thanks for adding your voice,stay strong sis.
Thank you Derek, I appreciate that. :)
I'm glad you made it! And yes, I remember when it was 90 hours...last year for me was 1987.
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I’m glad your out..meanwhile 84 Losers disliked this
@@RAZASHARP what do you mean?
gatolle ferro if you look at the views like 1.5 thousand likes it and 83 have it a thumbs down
Hi Shauna, I can only imagine the grief you all had when it was revealed that your mother was writing you and the letters were not getting through. The other thing that on so many levels goes un noticed, is the physical and mental strain of keeping the .org standard. It's great to awake and shed the dead wood of being sincerely indoctrinated, and now you are living your authentic self.
It was really hard actually... I found out from my Bio Mom when she found me at 21... when she heard I had never got the letter or even knew about them, she was heart broken... there is a lot more to this story, which I will share soon. Thank you for taking the time to watch and share with me. I am so so proud and happy to be living authentically. Finally. :)
Very interesting story. and I'm so glad you got through it all but especially that you got OUT. I only wish that it had of been sooner and that your suffering was less. I just wish you'd had the chance to make a connection and build a relationship with with your biological mother. What your step mother did to make you loose your bio mum was heinous, She caused you to loose some one very precious and mightily important in your life. By the sounds of things you could of had a meeting of the minds with your bio mum. really love to hear that you found her one day soon.
I would never wish being born into a cult like this on any one, it's a 'no win' situation and brutally cruel . When you are born into it and it's all you ever see and hear, you just accept it all, and you have no reason to question any of it. It's unfortunate that you have to be on the other side of it, on the outside if you like, to to really examine and see clearly whats on the inside. When you are inside you are too busy playing the game to see whats happening all around you. When you do see it for what it is and you conclude you have to get out of it, it seems to require a whole lot of loss and suffering to do that, and that's just not fair. However I love the way you recognise that people that have had trauma of any kind and have worked through it are then, far better human beings and I can see that in you too.
Anyway all the very best going forward, best wishes from Australia.
Questions: you don't believe in God anymore? do you still believe in the doctrines of the Watchtower? or did you join another church or religion? Thank you for your feedback. watch this other video......it will expose things that are never exposed or talked about from ex JW's on you tube. give me your feedback what you guys think. ruclips.net/video/S_r-ONjF0Aw/видео.html
What is the real answer? Becuase life is pretty scary...
Its hard to leave - no doubt. I left 11 years ago and never looked back...
I have never been in any religious organization as a regular member but I am completely intrigued by people's ability to wholeheartedly believe in and follow religious practices and beliefs. I wish you the very best! Check out Stop the Shunning channel... Beth is someone I think you could definitely bond with over your experiences :)
Too many coincidences! I was just thinking before I even saw your video, I left the JW so many years ago yet my healing seems to be progressing quickly now after so many years even though I didn't think I needed any healing. I'm also a January baby, I'm also attracted to the same gender and I just came from viewing crystals on Ebay since I've always been attracted to them as a child and sometimes meditate with crystals. My self worth has gotten stronger after watching many ex-JW videos and understanding their tactics. Thanks for sharing!
My friend is trying to get back into the cult please pray for her
Now that you're out what type of spiritually do you practice?
Hopefully not New Age, it's another device of the devil. Just last year I burned up all my astrology stuff and tarot cards. The scary thing is, I was getting answers to my questions using tarot but who were those answers from?? It was an open door I had to slam shut.
Do not let doctrines of men throw shade on the truth.
Exodus 6:3
kjv
Oh my god, I am so surprised to hear that your story is kind of similar to mine. I was raised in the JWs too and realized I liked girls very young. I repressed it a long time and when I turned 20 I got severe severe migraines. I was never baptized so I wasn't in the religion anymore by then. I also went to see a neurologist and nothing was wrong with me, they only could give me stronger painkillers. I even had migraine auras. I came out as bi when I was 21 and my migraines just disappeared. The impact the organization had on my health, without me even understanding it, was so severe. I struggled with accepting myself for a very long time. Only when I fully detached myself from all of their stupid doctrines, I could be happy and free.
+LearnLoveHeal Praise the LORD i was never a JW. i love hearing ex-jw stories , but thank you so much for sharing your story. happy belated birthday. looking forward to part two.
Thank you!
I marvel at how much ground must be covered by two JWs to come together to express their same-sex love for one another in the face of such powerful homophobic indoctrination - in your case, a lifetime full - and of the consequent huge sense of guilt they would feel. I'm watching all your videos and am very happy for you seeing you escape this mind-control to find freedom. I do wonder what became of the sister with whom you had this affair. I think it's highly unlikely, but will you paraphrase Jane Eyre, to say, "Viewer, I married her"!