I sit / lay in a room for hours when I become stressed, too, can't eat or use devices or much of anything [sometimes for consecutive days]. It's much more conscious for me--though--I'll feel like it's almost an imperative that I do it deliberately [or I'll just tumble into horrible negativity--thoughts of wanting to kill myself, dire hatred, violence--and a deluge of worsening moods]. My hallucinations are fairly mild, but the voice commentary combined with my co-morbid OCD [intrusive thoughts, convincingly _real_ compelling feelings and compulsions to fix, check, listen to commands, etc.] has been very difficult to deal with in pair. The pressure and narrative revolves around this theme that I must leave society and go back to nature for rebirth, which has haunted me ever since I got close to the jumping off point [where I walked out of the city close to the wilderness-desert-proximity]. I've been off medications [period] for over 2+ years, and have learned a lot about my own psychology. However, I have become so paranoid after benzodiazepine withdrawal / hell to consider going back seriously; I believe anti-psychotics would be nice if they didn't come at such a heavy-side-effect price, albeit. The biggest cost has been my sense of connection with other humans; no other time in my life have I felt more unbelonging than now--the aroma of community does not exist anymore to me--but I can see videos like this and relate to some of it [the whole emotional roller-coaster of uncertainty/ fight or flight mode and stress]. Our lives are very different [similarity of illness does not = friendship], but at least there is some level of familiarity still here. Cheers.
I remember years ago watching your "bad day as a schizophrenic" video as someone who was curious about psychosis and what it was like to live with it. Today I found your channel again as someone with psychosis myself and quite possibly schizophrenia now. Things have really changed.. already medication is helping me keep my job
☼ 0:38 omg, the computer forced updates breaking things then fixing them then breaking them again is one of the banes of my life. im glad your cat pulled thru man. ♥
I’ll tell you what man, one thing that calms me down when im stressed has always been your videos. Your honesty and the way you share whatevers going on really makes me and im sure many other people feel not so alone in our troubles.
☼ It is nice to hear about the positive fx of medications for once. of course, there are lots of down sides, and finding the right one for any condition, and the dose right, and then still the self work is required blah blah: but still, it is true, having that extra shield helps. & it is certainly better than alternatives like street opioids or alcohol. & not being afraid to use environmental controls, like just having a decent lock set up on the door, i feel often get's discouraged when it is a simple and effective intervention, w/zero side fx. Gr8 entry man.
I’m schizophrenic too I just want you to know you’re not alone! Don’t ever feel alone you’re a really cool guy very chill videos. Have a great day I’m subscribed now.
It's good to see another video from you. When it comes to stress and anxiety for me, I don't deal with it well at all. I have had Schizophrenia, anxiety, and depression all of my life, so I am sometimes able to tell myself that my mind is overthinking and overdoing itself, but other times I just can't do it and I stay stressed and nervous for a while.
Glad to see you been a while. I can completely understand about things not phasing you very much. I also deal with some of that. Some situations that would normally make other people freak out I can handle just fine. But! There are some situations I just can't handle at all that most other people would consider Petty or lame. The thing that gets me the most is relationship / emotional stress. That could be due to some codependency things like that. I think it has more to do with the cognitive abilities / disabilities because of the condition. I am not on any meds even though my diagnosis of schizophrenia and bipolar 1 should suggest otherwise and still deal with a lot of emotional blunting. On another note. I was just curious if you follow any other people with schizophrenia on RUclips? I have been watching a lot of Amateur Aries and Elliott Macgabhann lately. I find a few others every so often that help give me an understanding of their experience to help me understand mine.
Ty, liked what you had to say. I fell into a rabbit hole on my way here what almost got me stressed, maybe I was hallucinating but I thought for a moment, that I saw you there and a Rabbit and probably an Elefant? Not sure. just wanted hi !!!!! say something to
@@McHenryCruiser Not sure if that's a compliment or not. But I am interested in mental disorders from the patient perspective and he shows it very naturally.
Your videos are great. I came across your videos because I was diagnosed with schizophrenia last year. I have had autism my entire life with it ranging from low functioning to high functioning. I have been taking extremely high doses of medication to lower doses of the meds. After a year I haven't noticed an improvement and convinced they misdiagnosed me. I heard that in the DSM that you can't have autism and schizophrenia. I really can't relate to a lot of what you experience with schizophrenia. I was wondering if you could make a video comparing autism and schizophrenia.
I work with autistic kids, & am a schizophrenic. They’re similar in a lot of ways (& used to be considered the same thing a long time ago), but the key difference is that with schizophrenia there is the positive symptom component- in order to be schizophrenia, you must experience either delusions (false beliefs), hallucinations (seeing/hearing/feeling things that aren’t real), or disorganized thinking (thought patterns that are disjointed or incoherent). Autistic people do not experience these symptoms.
Hey Man, It would be cool if you started streaming again. I know its kinda out of your comfort zone but I really enjoy the streams. Either way, take care
I take 600mg seroquel and 1,000mg depakote, I go to therapy twice a week but I'm only diagnosed with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety but I'm doing 6 hours of testing so hopefully they figure out the real diagnosis I've been wondering for years.. do u feel your diagnosis is correct
I am a schizophrenic and I am a fucking beast I've made Lot's of things and accomplished lots listen to a few of my songs 1.kendrick Lamar don't kill my vibe 2.xxxtentacion schizophrenia that's what the songs called I'm from the Midwest and I'm a ghostwriter I made facebook and fortnite just to name a few accomplishments but what's up schizo
Keep continue to uploading videos bro also this platform a way to u unstress for you and for us ...may u Gonna say fck that , noway impossible to do ...ı got a suggestion possibly none said..i suggest you to search İslam 😊Just try .islam is the right way and you seems like clever guy .
Upload at your own pace man, always glad to see you upload no matter how often! Wishing you and your cat the best, I don't know if I could've kept my calm if that happened to either of my cats.
If u read this.please god.i hope u do.where r u? Ill be ur mom.i live in w.l.b. fl. Im very extremely sad every single day too.i need someone to share live with.id share more but j dont know if ull get this.please let me know if u wanna be friends.
I have been isolating myself from people who want to be my friend. My voices and always thinking people hate me. I just got in touch with a great friend and she is like your always pushing me away. Its just been hard lately. I hate it!
Always good to see you Jacob. I have been watching your videos for around 5 years now. Yours is the first channel I ever subscribed to and it’s amazing to see how much you’ve grown as a person and dealt with all the challenges of mental illness. You are incredibly strong! I hope you continue making videos, even if they’re not consistent, it’s always great just to have an update on how you’re doing 😊
Have you ever heard third person auditory hallucinations. Like people talking about you outside the walls or house? I had an experience of hearing angry men talk about me to themselves say cruel things and threatening me. But no one else could hear the voices and the side of the walls I keep hearing this my neighbors are a quite elderly couple we’ve know for years and we have no neighbors behind us. I heard these voices for an entire day outside the left side of my house non stop and it was terrible I couldn’t eat or sleep for the next two days and it made things worse. I got one day of a lttle sleep and the voices were still there but they repeat some words over and over so it was more obvious they weren’t real cause it wasn’t as convincing as hearing conversations about me. So stressful. They say things about hurting me or dragging me out the house cause they don’t want me here or that I’m disgusting and I need to get out of here. And call me bitch or nasty.
Thanks for this video Jacob. It is very timely for me as had to come home from work today as doing too much and had breakthrough symptoms of my schizophrenia. Understand completely what you say, I am the same. I am going to my doctors to increase my dose of Seroquel to help. Good for me that you only post now and again otherwise I have trouble keeping up with things.Bless you, you are the best 🙏
Boy you get some pretty creepy comments on here. I was reading them, haha. I am on 20 mg of zyprexa every day. I have Schizoaffective disorder which is basically schizophrenia on crack. Your videos have been a great comfort to me, thank you for posting them.
Hi Jacob I'm Christopher I'm also a schizophrenic and your so inspirational I cant explain I'm better now but you have influenced my life I wish I could share my story with you
It's annoying cause you want to talk to people but you can't I myself was going to the pub for a while but I wouldn't advise that personally as for the medication......... Its just the same for me on or off, its just becoming very boring for me because it feels like all I'm doing is sitting stairing at a screen so frustrating sometimes
You need to get a functional medicine doctor and get started on CBD oil as soon as possible.Great studies and outcomes for schizophrenia.Please,please,please get started with doctor supervision..... Blessings and love to you young man.
Glad you’re back. I know you live with your parents. I’d like to know where others in this community of people living with schizophrenia are living. I’d also like to know anyone’s thoughts on high quality group home living for schizophrenics. My Son is 19 and is acutely I’ll with Schizophrenia right now and we are praying he gets more function back. He’s not talking but I’d love to know what you all think of living with family/group home. Thanks and many blessings!
Does caffeine make you're schzophrenia worse like you're delusions and makes you more irrational to the point where you are more likely to react emotionally and beleive the scary delusions?
Jacob. It was so nice 2 c u again - it "was" a very long time since ur last video. I miss seeing ur videos. U r such a handsome young man and so smart. It seems such a shame that u lose out so much on life spending it all in ur room. I just wish that none of this had ever have happened 2u. It's not fair. Life's not always fair that's for sure - some people seem to have it so great but one thing is for sure "everyone" takes their turn in one way or another. Hope 2c u again real soon! :)💚
Thank you for your comments about your state. It is so reassuring to see people suffering in the same way. It convinces me I am not alone. Thanks a lot.
I really miss you and enjoy watching your videos. I sympathize and empathize with you so much. you are so strong, I really encourage you to build a relationship with God, perhaps you can start by reading the gospel of John, it answers a lot of foundational questions and provides healing as it is the Word of GOD - literally, the same Word that created the universe. I love you so much, continue in strength, God bless and until next time. xx
Omg you are back. I was really looking forward. Glad to see you again buddy.
I sit / lay in a room for hours when I become stressed, too, can't eat or use devices or much of anything [sometimes for consecutive days]. It's much more conscious for me--though--I'll feel like it's almost an imperative that I do it deliberately [or I'll just tumble into horrible negativity--thoughts of wanting to kill myself, dire hatred, violence--and a deluge of worsening moods]. My hallucinations are fairly mild, but the voice commentary combined with my co-morbid OCD [intrusive thoughts, convincingly _real_ compelling feelings and compulsions to fix, check, listen to commands, etc.] has been very difficult to deal with in pair. The pressure and narrative revolves around this theme that I must leave society and go back to nature for rebirth, which has haunted me ever since I got close to the jumping off point [where I walked out of the city close to the wilderness-desert-proximity].
I've been off medications [period] for over 2+ years, and have learned a lot about my own psychology. However, I have become so paranoid after benzodiazepine withdrawal / hell to consider going back seriously; I believe anti-psychotics would be nice if they didn't come at such a heavy-side-effect price, albeit. The biggest cost has been my sense of connection with other humans; no other time in my life have I felt more unbelonging than now--the aroma of community does not exist anymore to me--but I can see videos like this and relate to some of it [the whole emotional roller-coaster of uncertainty/ fight or flight mode and stress].
Our lives are very different [similarity of illness does not = friendship], but at least there is some level of familiarity still here.
Cheers.
I remember years ago watching your "bad day as a schizophrenic" video as someone who was curious about psychosis and what it was like to live with it. Today I found your channel again as someone with psychosis myself and quite possibly schizophrenia now. Things have really changed.. already medication is helping me keep my job
Glad your back! And its good to hear your cat is recovering from her stroke, thats scary af but they're resilient little animals :)
☼ 0:38 omg, the computer forced updates breaking things then fixing them then breaking them again is one of the banes of my life. im glad your cat pulled thru man. ♥
Thank you for being yourself!!! I've gained insights to really understand, sharing yourself dealing in that kind part of you
Oh no I,m sad for your kitty. I always look for her in your videos. She's such a cutie.Hoping she recovers 100%. Glad your back!
Beautiful cat. 💕 I'm so happy for you that she's okay.
Im so glad your cat is doing okay! 💞 and thank you for sharing all these things with us, I'm always interested in what you have to say 😄
I’ll tell you what man, one thing that calms me down when im stressed has always been your videos. Your honesty and the way you share whatevers going on really makes me and im sure many other people feel not so alone in our troubles.
So true he has a real calming way about him that is awesome.
☼ It is nice to hear about the positive fx of medications for once. of course, there are lots of down sides, and finding the right one for any condition, and the dose right, and then still the self work is required blah blah: but still, it is true, having that extra shield helps. & it is certainly better than alternatives like street opioids or alcohol. & not being afraid to use environmental controls, like just having a decent lock set up on the door, i feel often get's discouraged when it is a simple and effective intervention, w/zero side fx. Gr8 entry man.
you are comforting. hope you post soon about anything 😌
I’m schizophrenic too I just want you to know you’re not alone! Don’t ever feel alone you’re a really cool guy very chill videos. Have a great day I’m subscribed now.
Great video, wish I was confident enough to make these videos as a schizophrenic! Your videos help alot of people get through their day:)
I’m glad you’re kitty is better. I know she’s very important to you. She loves you very much. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Yayayay I'm so glad your back :))
Thanks for posting, Jacob.
It's good to see another video from you. When it comes to stress and anxiety for me, I don't deal with it well at all. I have had Schizophrenia, anxiety, and depression all of my life, so I am sometimes able to tell myself that my mind is overthinking and overdoing itself, but other times I just can't do it and I stay stressed and nervous for a while.
dude i dreamed about you last night and now you upload
Good to see you upload also you’re one of the reasons that got me to study psychology and get me to try and get into psychology so thanks
Glad to see you been a while. I can completely understand about things not phasing you very much. I also deal with some of that. Some situations that would normally make other people freak out I can handle just fine. But! There are some situations I just can't handle at all that most other people would consider Petty or lame. The thing that gets me the most is relationship / emotional stress. That could be due to some codependency things like that. I think it has more to do with the cognitive abilities / disabilities because of the condition. I am not on any meds even though my diagnosis of schizophrenia and bipolar 1 should suggest otherwise and still deal with a lot of emotional blunting.
On another note. I was just curious if you follow any other people with schizophrenia on RUclips? I have been watching a lot of Amateur Aries and Elliott Macgabhann lately. I find a few others every so often that help give me an understanding of their experience to help me understand mine.
I actually got off my antidepressants myself last month, and I feel great!
Anti depressants give me motivation, but they also kill my creativity.
@@TheTheode
Which antidepressants do you find give you more motivation?
Gregory Malchuk lexapro, I stopped taking it though because I wasn’t writing anymore.
Hope you smile as much as you want buddy!!! I 've seen you smiling and it's so nice to see you happy! Stay strong!
missed seeing your vids!! hope all is well ❤️💙
I'm glad your cat is doing better. :-) I hope she has a good recovery.
Did you give up your vape?
love you bunches jacob
Its been so long jacob good to hear from u!
I missed you so much! I listen to you everyday.. you keep me calm
Ty,
liked what you had to say.
I fell into a rabbit hole on my way here what almost got me stressed, maybe
I was hallucinating but I thought for a moment, that I saw you there and a Rabbit and probably an Elefant? Not sure.
just wanted hi !!!!!
say something to
I think my girlfriend has auditory hallucination she says she hears voices and is scared is there any medicine she can take ?
best notification I have seen. Haven't seen the video yet but am doing.
Damn this guy gets all the bitches
@@McHenryCruiser Not sure if that's a compliment or not.
But I am interested in mental disorders from the patient perspective and he shows it very naturally.
@@socialside5332 naw I think u just think hes hot
Is that white towel behind you crawling???
I was freaked out when I saw that too lol. it was just his cat though 😂
Your videos are great. I came across your videos because I was diagnosed with schizophrenia last year. I have had autism my entire life with it ranging from low functioning to high functioning. I have been taking extremely high doses of medication to lower doses of the meds. After a year I haven't noticed an improvement and convinced they misdiagnosed me. I heard that in the DSM that you can't have autism and schizophrenia. I really can't relate to a lot of what you experience with schizophrenia. I was wondering if you could make a video comparing autism and schizophrenia.
I work with autistic kids, & am a schizophrenic. They’re similar in a lot of ways (& used to be considered the same thing a long time ago), but the key difference is that with schizophrenia there is the positive symptom component- in order to be schizophrenia, you must experience either delusions (false beliefs), hallucinations (seeing/hearing/feeling things that aren’t real), or disorganized thinking (thought patterns that are disjointed or incoherent). Autistic people do not experience these symptoms.
I do non script too! Being real is cool!
Sorry to hear that bout ur cat.
yay ur alive
Why don’t you try clozapine?
Hey man I realy wanted to get in contact with you.
Hey dude, didn't you do a video where you sung "Fly me to the Moon"? Did you delete that? Or am I just remembering wrong
What would Nero do if your affliction was a gift?maybe you just have Jesus
I have schizophrenia too. Let’s meet up
Hey Man, It would be cool if you started streaming again. I know its kinda out of your comfort zone but I really enjoy the streams. Either way, take care
I take 600mg seroquel and 1,000mg depakote, I go to therapy twice a week but I'm only diagnosed with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety but I'm doing 6 hours of testing so hopefully they figure out the real diagnosis I've been wondering for years.. do u feel your diagnosis is correct
Hi, I have a question. Do people with schizophrenia need to do the ect therapy?
Goodbye.
Until next time anyway, may your cat be happy.
Acetylcysteine try this!
You lowkey look like Richard Chase
Have you tried Invega sustenna if so can u do a review
0:35 see the bed smt movin
How to deal with Anhedonia
Do you have xbox live?
I am a schizophrenic and I am a fucking beast I've made Lot's of things and accomplished lots listen to a few of my songs 1.kendrick Lamar don't kill my vibe 2.xxxtentacion schizophrenia that's what the songs called I'm from the Midwest and I'm a ghostwriter I made facebook and fortnite just to name a few accomplishments but what's up schizo
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You should try out yoga man, that thing helps.
Keep continue to uploading videos bro also this platform a way to u unstress for you and for us ...may u Gonna say fck that , noway impossible to do ...ı got a suggestion possibly none said..i suggest you to search İslam 😊Just try .islam is the right way and you seems like clever guy .
Upload at your own pace man, always glad to see you upload no matter how often! Wishing you and your cat the best, I don't know if I could've kept my calm if that happened to either of my cats.
Hi
Glad you're back.
Your cat seems nice.
I wish i was allowed to have a cat in my group home.
Greetings from sweden
U are in a group home? My son franco is in a group home.he is 23...i hope u are doing great❤
If u read this.please god.i hope u do.where r u? Ill be ur mom.i live in w.l.b. fl. Im very extremely sad every single day too.i need someone to share live with.id share more but j dont know if ull get this.please let me know if u wanna be friends.
Oh.ur in sweden.sometimes people ask me if im swedish.idk why....i love u.
@Roxas In Japan ivisit my son every week .he is 23.he was in hospital recently.but hes good now.hope ur are well.
Missed you, i'm glad you keep sharing valuable information ♡
I have been isolating myself from people who want to be my friend. My voices and always thinking people hate me. I just got in touch with a great friend and she is like your always pushing me away. Its just been hard lately. I hate it!
you look different but in a good way. :)
Always good to see you Jacob. I have been watching your videos for around 5 years now. Yours is the first channel I ever subscribed to and it’s amazing to see how much you’ve grown as a person and dealt with all the challenges of mental illness. You are incredibly strong! I hope you continue making videos, even if they’re not consistent, it’s always great just to have an update on how you’re doing 😊
Have you ever heard third person auditory hallucinations. Like people talking about you outside the walls or house? I had an experience of hearing angry men talk about me to themselves say cruel things and threatening me. But no one else could hear the voices and the side of the walls I keep hearing this my neighbors are a quite elderly couple we’ve know for years and we have no neighbors behind us. I heard these voices for an entire day outside the left side of my house non stop and it was terrible I couldn’t eat or sleep for the next two days and it made things worse. I got one day of a lttle sleep and the voices were still there but they repeat some words over and over so it was more obvious they weren’t real cause it wasn’t as convincing as hearing conversations about me. So stressful. They say things about hurting me or dragging me out the house cause they don’t want me here or that I’m disgusting and I need to get out of here. And call me bitch or nasty.
Thanks for this video Jacob. It is very timely for me as had to come home from work today as doing too much and had breakthrough symptoms of my schizophrenia. Understand completely what you say, I am the same. I am going to my doctors to increase my dose of Seroquel to help. Good for me that you only post now and again otherwise I have trouble keeping up with things.Bless you, you are the best 🙏
My medication is also the reason why I’m functional.
Boy you get some pretty creepy comments on here. I was reading them, haha.
I am on 20 mg of zyprexa every day. I have Schizoaffective disorder which is basically schizophrenia on crack.
Your videos have been a great comfort to me, thank you for posting them.
Hi Jacob I'm Christopher I'm also a schizophrenic and your so inspirational I cant explain I'm better now but you have influenced my life I wish I could share my story with you
Luxiour problems!! With a cat.
Good to see you’re back. Love you man ❤️❤️
A just out of hospital
So anxiety.......or fear it seems
Thanks for sharing and being so open.
Hi! I really like listening you!
Jacob, you do well man!
How to deal with negative symptoms
TV and games is all I do skyzo
@@crazyeyes666 I play too but I don't enjoy thinking I will kill myself
It's annoying cause you want to talk to people but you can't I myself was going to the pub for a while but I wouldn't advise that personally as for the medication......... Its just the same for me on or off, its just becoming very boring for me because it feels like all I'm doing is sitting stairing at a screen so frustrating sometimes
I thought like that too for a while m8
What systems you on what games you play skyzo?
Thank you Jacob for your video, good vibes for you and your kitty
You need to get a functional medicine doctor and get started on CBD oil as soon as possible.Great studies and outcomes for schizophrenia.Please,please,please get started with doctor supervision.....
Blessings and love to you young man.
Glad you’re back. I know you live with your parents. I’d like to know where others in this community of people living with schizophrenia are living. I’d also like to know anyone’s thoughts on high quality group home living for schizophrenics. My Son is 19 and is acutely I’ll with Schizophrenia right now and we are praying he gets more function back. He’s not talking but I’d love to know what you all think of living with family/group home. Thanks and many blessings!
Does caffeine make you're schzophrenia worse like you're delusions and makes you more irrational to the point where you are more likely to react emotionally and beleive the scary delusions?
Jacob. It was so nice 2 c u again - it "was" a very long time since ur last video. I miss seeing ur videos. U r such a handsome young man and so smart. It seems such a shame that u lose out so much on life spending it all in ur room. I just wish that none of this had ever have happened 2u. It's not fair. Life's not always fair that's for sure - some people seem to have it so great but one thing is for sure "everyone" takes their turn in one way or another. Hope 2c u again real soon! :)💚
Thank you for your comments about your state. It is so reassuring to see people suffering in the same way. It convinces me I am not alone. Thanks a lot.
glad to see you! hope your cat continues to recover. your videos are helpful :]
Love youu
😘😘 be carefull
stay strong friend...
Hey kid! I've missed you! 💓
Sup man I'm making vids too
Yes I'm schizophrenic
I really miss you and enjoy watching your videos. I sympathize and empathize with you so much. you are so strong, I really encourage you to build a relationship with God, perhaps you can start by reading the gospel of John, it answers a lot of foundational questions and provides healing as it is the Word of GOD - literally, the same Word that created the universe. I love you so much, continue in strength, God bless and until next time. xx