Guys I am genuinely OVERWHELMED (in a good way for once hahah) with all the comments and love. I took 20 minutes out to have a cup of tea and 3 bags of crisps (#eatclean) and came back to so many comments that I can't even keep up with replying! But I'm gonna do my best to respond to every single one 💖 thank you all so so much. It definitely feels like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I know I wasn't ready before, but this is all something I should have done so much sooner because the responses and support has honestly shocked me. Like I knew you guys were KOOOOOL but wow ur all rly rly cool. I dunno what else to say but I really do feel like this is the start of a new chapter with a lot of things and I can't thank you enough for sticking around and just making me feel so loved tonight. Love you all xxx
Ok... I'm very sorry for your lost Steph 😢 I genuinely didn't knew all of that. When it comes to you, being offline for a few months... well I have to be honest... I didn't forget you, you are my favorite influencer and I still love you and suport you and I'm always anxious for a new video. And I'm 100% sure that your grandparents and your Mom are insanely PROUD of you. Big kiss from Portugal 🇵🇹 and we are here for you, every time you need
Modest opinion... you are beautiful, strong, inteligente, funny... so we are here because you are one of us Steph, because we love you and nerds never leave one of their own behind, so we will never leve you behind
I've never commented before on your videos, I'm 62 year old woman who likes make up but rarely wears it. So why do I watch your content? Simply because of your authenticity as a person. I'm so pleased to hear you say that you are realising that you are enough. Chant it like a mantra to yourself everyday, because YOU ARE ENOUGH! You have experienced so much loss and grief in such a short time, and yet here you are, unafraid to be vulnerable and that, darling woman, takes true, deep strength.
I know what you mean when you pull away. I close myself off as well. Thank you for coming to us. I will be an ear to listen. Mental health is something we all deal with and I am glad that their are people like you who help others in ways you may not know.
Steph I'm a silent watcher but I've had to comment today. I'm a 54 year old woman who was full of self hate from a young age just like you. Bullied for looking nerdy (glasses and big teeth) in 2020 during lockdown I started my RUclips channel. It's a tiny channel compared to yours only 4.5k subscribers so far but I keep going because like you I've realised people actually like me for me and its a nice feeling isn't it. You steph are beautiful funny talented and the world is definitely your oyster. We are all here for you and always will be. I know this video was tough for you sweetheart but trust me when I say things can only get better. You are quite a bit younger than me but your videos helped inspire me to start RUclips so thank you for that and thank you for just being you. Sending you lots of love positive vibes and blessings for what's to come. ❤❤❤❤
OOOh...I'm coming up for 50 in July so have subscribed to your channel too, I only just found Steph's!! @steph that's a lot to go through at such a young age and we all make mistakes at any age, you've got yourself together from that, now you've dusted yourself off and gotten back out there, it takes guts especially to come back to social media and being an influencer, good luck girl ❤
I wish you could see yourself through your viewer's eyes. You are the reason I watch RUclips. Your videos make me happy,and have helped me through the last six years since I had my stroke. You are such a beautiful person inside and out.
The reason I started watching you is because you’re hilarious, you’re smart, snarky, and self-aware. Those traits are *you*, Steph. Before the 4K camera, before the brand deals, before the ultra boujee PR-there is, was, and always will be you. I remember watching you put on bright blue eye shadow with Primark palettes, and that Steph is the Steph I’m still rocking with years later. 💜
Im a silent watcher, and I can confirm I do watch the videos for makeup. But let's be real, we come for the makeup but stay for the personality. To add to the list of clichés, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger... right? I'm sorry to hear that life has shit on you from a great height for many years. And never apologies for the way you feel. Your feelings are just as valid as anyones. Never compare your struggle to anyone elses. You are valid. You are enough. I hope it is all on the up from here. Girl, you deserve it. Love ya lots. Xx
Maaaaate, I feel like you are the wee English ADHD counterpart to my huge, autistic Scottish ass except you HAVE the balls to do this. My chest hurts from watching this because I’ve been through everything you’ve been through too, you are a fkn champ for putting in the work and coming back vulnerable but stronger and more determined than before. You are an inspiration and I’m sure I speak for many of your followers when I say I’ll be watching and supporting the Toms no matter what. Unless you become a light coverage/skin tint girly, that’s where I draw the line ❤️
Can confirm I just like you. And I’ve liked you for years. And I’ll continue to like you for years. And if you pop off for a bit then come back - I’ll watch and I’ll still like you. And I think I speak for a lot of us when I say that there’s no pressure from us to show up 100% of the time or to be 100% consistent.
I don’t care what you post, I just enjoy your content because of your personality. I’ve been watching you since 2014 and every time I see a new upload I click straight away. Love all the way from an Aussie ADHDer.
Came for the makeup, stayed for Steph…. Self acceptance is so difficult and i commend you for laying it bare. I adore you! Have for years. You (and itssabbrina) are the only makeup girlie i follow.. for the makeup initially… now I rarely even wear makeup.. but im still watching you!! Proud of you and so is your mum xxx
omg gurl so proud of you and just wanted to tell you that you're doing the best that you can with whatever you have. Manifesting healing and inner strength for you! keep moving forward!! love love love you!!!!
Omg! There was a reason I loved your vids. ADHD peeps seemed to find each other. Diagnosed 6 months ago and it’s a ride!!!!! Welcome back. We missed you!
Silent watcher! Cornish gal, 39 and love your videos! I lost my mum 3 years ago and felt every word you said. It’s wonderful to hear you being so honest and looking after yourself x
Im 21 mins in, and this is how my 13 year old daughter describes herself. I tell her daily that none of this is true. She was diagnosed with autism during lockdown. I cry often because of what she says. Thank you for posting this. I'm going to show her this, and hopefully, she will see that she is not different, not on her own. Thank you
26 and diagnosed Autistic 2 weeks ago! Tell your daughter she is beautiful, she is amazing and we rule! The community is always here to support! I hope she never feels alone! Plus being geeky is the best! I love being a nerd and so does my girlfriend! Sending lots of hugs and hopes she sees her worth soon! Being different is really fricken cool! 💜
I resonate with this all so hard! I think it goes without saying I’m sorry and I love you, like we all do, but it it’s true. I have always resonated with you on so many levels and thought you would just be the bestest friend I could ask for because of how we see life and being a geeky person who happens to also like make up and make themselves feel good. It’s really difficult feeling like you don’t fit into a category and I have always appreciated that you are on here because I see myself and that’s powerful. I’m in a lot of the situations you are currently and seeing you own it I just have to say, you’re so strong. It’s not easy, especially when you your pain to others, but it’s important. Your feelings are justified and you are worthy of them just as much as you are worthy of feeling unconditional love. I know, (oh gosh do I know), that the deep shadow work is hard but it is opening you up to your higher self. So I’m manifesting for both of us, that we continue these journeys and blossom into who we are truly meant to be. You got this! I may never meet you, but I am always here for you if you ever need a strangers unbiased opinion. Oh oh! Twitch!!! Yes!! Loved chatting and playing with you on there 😁
My opinion isn't worth much, but I found your videos like 8 years ago when I was overwhelmed and lonely at uni. Idk who I really am a lot of time, I get you there, but I know you're my comfort videos. What other YTer would apply makeup with nuggets??? Looking forward to where you take your videos. You're a legend, thank you for adding light to some dark times x
Hey steph, my mum passed 4 years ago aswell to cancer, its the most aweful thing to go through! You dont know me but i am always here! I get it. You have helped me in my darkest times and i would love to be uere for you aswell! ❤❤❤
first of all i'm so sorry you lost your mum too :( it's just awful and i hope you're doing okay. you just commenting something positive is absolutely enough! thank you so much xx
Wow Steph I can relate to u alot of this feeling off losing everyone. I am an only child I have lost mum and now dad and it terrifies me that I will loss my partner. I am waiting to speak to someone as I defo suffer some PTSD of finding my dad passed. And I defo have death anxiety.
@gingerbreadloverjulie8609 I think I know what you're talking about. I watched a few videos from palliative care nurses talking about how a lot of their clients see their family members, that have already died, before they pass. Like they will tell the nurse "my sister is here, she said she's coming back on Wednesday" then they die on the Wednesday. I don't believe in heaven and souls. But this really has been making feel comforted. I've watched people I love die. One of them, they woke up for a while and when I think back, they where saying things that I now think someone was there to take her. Now I look forward to seeing if my dad is going to come. I've always been atheist byw. So this is weird for me.
Hearing you speak about drink is such a brave thing, my mum has been sober since November after her 4th medical detox in hospital. There is such a stigma around it and nobody likes to speak about it, so glad you have. X
I’ve been watching you for years when you only had a few hundred subs, and I’m still excited when I see you posting. I am so proud to see the woman you became and seeing the woman you are becoming. You’re real and I really appreciate that. Thank you for being you!
People dont buy into brands, they buy into you...the person who keeps it real, who still shows up even when life is shite.i saw you once in debenhams in truro when i worked there years ago ,you were down to earth and youve not changed.your authenticity about who you are can be a lot for some people (i know this about myself😂) but you keep being just that!the ones who love you will continue to do so❤
I'm very sorry for the losses you've had. I can only imagine how horrible that must have been for you. I also can relate to having conditions which means you feel like you stand out. I have stress induced epilepsy and autism, so I know what it's like. I also got bullied in school a lot, due to people not understanding it, as I hadn't been diagnosed with either condition at the time, and also from being fat, which at times for me, has been mistaken for pregnancy too. (I got my epilepsy diagnosis at 17, autism diagnosis at 18). I agree too, getting a diagnosis is good, as it helps to explain things, especially since problems are caused by people lacking understanding. I find it's better to say someone is different, rather than saying something is wrong, because it's essentially the brain working differently from other people's. I say think of it like you have 2 calculators, one is simple and the other scientific. A scientific calculator follows the BIDMAS rule, whereas the simple one doesn't. There's nothing wrong with either one, they just work differently.
Thank you for sharing and just know whatever you post up on RUclips I will be watching and I appreciate it and I love your videos and I lost my mom in 2021. She gave up the fight from diabetes. Watching my favorite RUclipsr and your videos have helped me get through the rough times, and just hang in there.❤❤ be safe, everyone😊😊
I’m just about to watch this video so I’ve no idea what’s in it or what it’s about but I just wanna say as a nearly 40 year old you are 1 of my fave people to watch and I genuinely laugh along with you. Xx
This was quite relatable. The inability to no feel your worth is so painful, unfortunately a lot of us feels the same. I think it is important to talk honestly about these stuff.
Oh bless you.. it’s hard losing people you love especially those closest to you. I lost my 3 year old son and it’s the harder thing I’ve ever been through. That was 2018 and I’m still suffering now.. stop beating yourself up. We all deal with things differently and you should be proud that you’re coming out the other side. We all love you. You say it’s cringe but you do feel like a friend and id love to meet you! Take care of yourself and remember you are enough ❤
I started watching your videos in 2019 when I was going through a bad period in my life. You really resonated with me and we have had very similar experiences. I wish you all the best going forward and your future will absolutely amazing! Never stop being you ❤
You are definitely ENOUGH! I love watching you because I learn new things (57 years old) and I laugh my ass off! I'm so sorry you've gone through so much, but also very happy and proud for you! Love from Texas, USA
So refreshing to hear someone be so honest about these things. Really brave of you to open up about all of this. Id personally watch/listen to whatever you do ❤ x
I've been following for years now, I've left some comments here and there and you've replied to some of them. I love this realness, I don't want to see perfect lives with people doing just great because I'm so not perfect and I've been through some shit and appreciated you coming through with this realness. I hope you do get to a happy place mentally again ♡
I love how relatable you are and how real you are. I am so unbelievably sorry for everything you have been through. Just remember it’s ok to laugh when something is funny and cry when you’re sad. Your Poundland video is my go to when I need to laugh, that foundation shade and your facial expressions genuinely never fail to make me absolutely howl 😂. Love you lots mate x
Also been watching for years purely for your personality (the cats are also a bonus). We're the same age nearly - im 31 in sept - and just want to send you so much compassion for those losses. I can't imagine losing my relationship so I'm so glad to see you processing it all and working through it. I wish you nothing but healing and peace (from a therapist haha)
Legitimately, the way you speak about life topics and balance your thoughts and feelings is the most relatable thing I’ve heard from someone, in a way I’ve never really heard from someone else before. Like being scared of nothing but everything at the same time? It’s hard to explain but internet friends can be like, such a significant part of making you feel less weird and okay about yourself. So this was a great video! Hope the cockroaching keeps on the roll 🐾
Joining the rest in sending a lot of love beforehand before watching the full video. Thank you for your honesty and great vibes over all these years and I can only hope the good things will find you again soon as well 🫶
I'm in my 40s and you make me laugh every time I watch you. Seeing you just be yourself is very refreshing. That includes you trying to do your job while everything's burning. I think most of us can relate to that. There's no need to know where you're at. Endless possibilities never stop feeling scary but this whole process will be worth it 😘
YESSSS STEPH! 🥳 Just sat here cheering you on and rooting for you SO HARD. I’ve watched you for years and this actually made me so happy for you. You’re so strong for coming out the other side so positively and I know you’re about to have the biggest life glow up ❤ So excited to see what’s next for you 🎉
Ive got ADHD, OCD and Anxiety and i get seasonal depression. Its a struggle but i try and see the positive in things. We each have silent struggles we don't talk about.
I’m a senior in college and I’ve watched you since middle school:) I also got an adhd diagnosis later in life(sophomore in college) and can relate to your story a lot. Thanks for coming back and pulling yourself out of the depths of depression. Loss mixed with ADHD is so hard. I admire you so much, can’t wait to see what you do!❤
Oh, sweet baby girl! I felt the same way until I turned 50. I went through similar things. I'm 57 and so comfortable in my own skin. As far as people liking me, now I don't give a flying fig! You are enough! I enjoy watching you, and you will find your footing!
As someone who is recently diagnosed with ADHD and recently lost a close relative, you are like a superhero in my eyes for making it here!! You are such a strong, wonderful human bean. Not only from the shite youve waded through but for opening up about said shite wading. Not a single thing in this world lasts forever, not the stars in the sky or the flowers on the ground. The bad times will pass, sad memories will eventually bring a smile to your face and dreams will come true that you havent even thought of yet. Reach for the sky sweet angel, it may be a bumpy journey but its your journey! I bet your mum would be so proud; being vulnerable and making yourself open to the INTERNET, come on, whats more bad ass than that. And p.s. id watch you all day, any day, doing absolutely fuck all 🤍✨
I’m usually a silent watcher but sending all my love, Steph! It really sounds like you’ve been dragged through the shit and you deserve to feel so so proud of yourself ❤️ Heck yeah the world is your oyster girl!! Xx
I love how real you talk about these situations and in such a respectful way to those involved as well. The courage you have had to even post such a vulnerable video is amazing. I cant wait to see new content from you. Definitely someone who deserves nothing but happiness x
Im so sorry about what you have gone through. After watching I just have to say that I have never related to a video by an influencer more. Im a long time fan, i found you with the makeup but stayed for you! I really like you! I just want you to know that. You have been a fave and inspiration for me for so long, theres not many influencers I can watch and see myself in and relate to the way I do with you. I love your style and personality. After this vid I cant believe how much we have in common.. I have similar experiences with alot of it youre talking about, and just remember its so valid. And Im so sorry for you, just know youre not alone and nobody can take away those feelings. They are valid because all of it are real big and are traumatic things for anyone. Also just have to add ( the body dysmorphia is so real). I was bullied as a child and the way you talk about those feelings are the realest thing. The reason i got into makeup and fashion was mostly because I never felt pretty enough or cool/good enough because of it. I really get it. I guess we both have this year as a fresh start in many ways. I wish all the best for you going forward from now! I will be here and I will be watching and remember we love u ❤
I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through all this and fair play for sharing with us! I don’t often comment on RUclips however I really appreciate videos like this as it helps us all realise that shit happens to all of us! Also been through a lot of loss in life as many have and it can feel so isolating. You’re doing an amazing job, I find you really relatable and enjoyable to watch so what ever you choose to do I’m certain we will all be here cheering you on ❤
We love you Steph and sending you all the good vibes you deserve. So sorry to hear you went through all of this. And know you are going to come out of it ahead ❤❤❤
“In your bins” 😆😆😆 that properly made me laugh. What a genuinely touching and tough video to make, I think you’re very brave. Sending love and positivity to you and all your new chapters.
Touched by your bravery in talking about these difficult topics, Steph. You make each of us feel less alone in our own struggles, that is a true gift. Sending so much love and positive energy your way - your community is here to rally behind you on this new chapter of your journey ✨️❤️
Babe, I can relate to 90% of what you went threw the past 4 years 😢 I’m actually in hospital right now bc of depression and alcohol abuse! I drove drunk on Monday night and crashed my car in to a fence.. I’m so happy no one else was in the accident but me, and that I’m alive 🥺🙏🏽 You are my number one “best makeup friend” when I sit down to do my face, you’re keeping me company and make me laugh better than any of my irl peeps 🫶🏽🫶🏽 If you want to visit Sweden and our peaceful nature, I got a spare room with your name on it 🌲🌻👯♀️
I’m a heroin addict and have been sober 5.5 years. I wish you all the best in your recovery! I promise you life is so much better sober. Next time you could kill someone, or yourself, so please don’t drive intoxicated again 😢 you can do this and you are so much stronger than you think!!! I promise you are. One day at a time ❤ not at all judging btw, I have a DUI from like 7 years ago and still don’t have my license back. Working on it though! Addiction is a horrible disease and I pray you find your way out ❤
I’ve been with you from the start and I have always loved how authentic and real you are, how relatable and YOU that you are. Literally think you’re bloody wonderful. ❤
I'm ready and I'm listening to the very end. As long as you're healthy and happy that's all that matters it really is all that matters. You have taught me a lot about make up and you made me laugh on the days when I was suffering with depression. I've got a lot to say thank you for. Now it's our turn to listen & help you if we can xxx
Steph, I love you. We all love you🩷 We are here for you, and cannot wait for your restart and see your videos going forward. Sending you love and happiness🩷xxx
I never really comment or anything, but I feel the need to confirm all the things you’re coming to terms with right now: you truly are enough and we really do love you for you. I’ve kinda fallen of out love with makeup, or at least don’t invest as much in it anymore but I’ll never stop watching your videos. You’re just so entertaining, also very relatable to me personally and seem so real, as sad as I get listening to you think negatively of yourself, you’re making your page a safe space to be true to yourself and I can’t put into words how much I appreciate that. I truly truly hope everything will finally work in your favor and genuinely believe you couldn’t deserve it more
Steph im nearly 52 and suffer with my mental health and inly iver the last couple of years really opened up about it, i shut myself away when things get to much, thankyou for sharing everything it takes alit of courage, you should be so very proud of yourself we all are xx ❤️
Oh steph honey. Feel your pain,I nearly ended up being sectioned recently, trauma messes us up luv. We know you care ,I hope you can find the space and time to fully heal. Thank you for being so raw and vulnerable,thank you for just being you, sage your house and manifest . Love ya girl. You got this.❤❤❤
It takes so much courage to put yourself out there, whether it is us on the Internet or in real life. You are an amazing person, and you see stronger than you think. Also, I have just become a new mum to a 9 week old ginger boy, and I love him and he is fitting in with my other 5 furbabies. Xx
The first thing that needs to happen is for you to gain control of your mental health. I just came to your channel yesterday to see if you had uploaded and I maybe missed it. I haven’t been at my best the last few months and haven’t been on here allot. My grandson left for the US army in April and my granny heart has been through some shit!! Depression is an absolute bitch!!! As an old granny I feel like I just wanna hug you and squeeze all the bullshit that’s hurting you away!!!! I will be here with you as long as you’re here!!!!❤❤❤❤❤
oh for suuuure! that's what i've been trying to work on the most lately - just doing everything bit by but. i'll always take a granny hug! hope everything is okay for you my love ccc
Aww Steph, so much of what you said resonated with me & my recent MH+ADHD journey over last few years - you've been through a bloody lot babes, but you're here & now you're thriving ready for a fresh start. I've just started to come out of a 3yr deep depression too & I'm 37 so not much older than you, but 2024 is defintely a year of resetting & fogiving myself for the last 3yrs & being kinder to myself💜 I watch you cos your funny, aunthentic & just you - as you said YOU are enough. I'd genuinely watch/listen to you doing anything make-up, vlogs, lifestyle, commentary, you reacting to tiktoks, you opening a paper bag - i really don't care, just like 'hanging out' with you, cos I swear we're such similar people so I 'clicked' with your content bloody years ago & enjoyed your vibe ever since 😅 PS: thank you for reminding me to be kinder to myself & remember I am enough too... work in progress too, but as long as we keep trying right?🥰
@stephanietoms mate you could be talking about soil 😅 I watch because I like you. I recognise so much of what you say in myself, I lost my Dad at 13 and undiagnosed but almost certainly have ADHD. You may feel uncomfortable saying you like to be liked by randoms on the Internet... but it's just as weird to feel like you are friends with someone you watch 😅 honestly, keep being you. Do what is best for you and those that are worth it will support you 😘 xx
I have watched you back in the day from 2018 onwards, fast approaching my 40's and going through a divorce, and I felt the same way about myself and how I looked and felt, like you have recently. You opened my world to make up and how to use it, what was the best dupes etc. I used to love going to Wilko's and getting the next Essence dupe you recommended. Its like you opened the door and I walked through and then on to a path to learning self worth, love and self care. I know thats major cringe, but for someone that found herself suddenly single after a 16 year relationship, it was everything. I was sorry to hear about had to deal with over the last couple of years, but please dont minimise it, your feelings and how these events made you feel are completely valid, no matter what else is going on around the world. Was lovely to see you posting, and looking forward to what comes next. You will smash it
Ive been watching your videos for years i can honestly say one of the best youtuber i watch and i hope all your wishes you mentioned in the video come true, no one deserves it more.. good luck steph i wish you a bright future x
So glad you’re coming out of the dark part of everything! I was the same when my mum passed away last year, I hid away for almost a year but now I can feel it’s time to start living again. Being honest mainly to yourself is such an important stepping stone. Sending love ❤
Even though I don’t know you I’m so freaking proud of you! To sit down and film this video took took both some balls and guts - but YOU did it girl!! Life can be so f*^#ing hard and it constantly throws curveballs at you, but in all of the mess called life we grow, we learn. I’m confident that you’re going to excel in this next chapter of your life because you’re more than enough! 💕
I'm so sorry you've been fighting through all that for so long. Happy to hear you're taking care of yourself. I feel like you've explained so many things that we all feel like about ourselves and about life in general, so never feel alone in that. ❤ We love you and your channel, no matter what you're talking about! Thank you for sharing and I pray that you make it through each day knowing that you are loved and appreciated.
You are deeply inspiring and I think you don't even realise that. I takes a lot of courage to talk about these things on the Internet. I wish you all the luck, happiness and best wishes in the world right now! 💕
I know, Steph has inspired me a lot over the years especially with regards to my mental health ~ knowing I'm not the only one going through it & even someone as successful as her sadly experiences hardship too. She also reminded me to remember that we're all enough & to be kinder to myself which is something we all need to do 💛✨️
I started watching you because I've felt like I could relate to your natural rambling, thoughts, ideas and even your comment a few years ago about wearing interesting T-shirts just to create a conversation starter in a public setting. It was a lovely idea and it helped me relax and you've given new perspectives on things about life in general bc you're so kind and you almost think the way I do and it makes watching your videos so relatable and comforting. Thank you.
gosh i love your strength!!! you’re only a few months older than me and i thought i had it bad but omg my heart aches for you. i cried so much watching this :: sending love to you and your family ♡ and wishing them alll so much happiness and peace and comfort ♥️
Could cry with u! So brave of you making this video, as a late adhd diagnosis myself I know exactly your struggles, from addiction to self loathing, it’s like talking to your bestie listening to you, and with or without make up, you are beautiful, a whole,. real, lovely woman. Take care & take time for yourself, self care & family is no 1. Please keep going send love & hugs xxx
Steph when you post a video it totally cheers me up ! You got me through my breast cancer fight when I was feeling shit with chemo & looking at my shiny bald head I’d watch your video & forget for a while how crap & ugly I felt ! Just seeing you & your honest down to earth attitude makes you a delight to watch! You don’t realise what a beautiful girl inside & most definitely outside too ! You are !So good luck with your NEW future baby steps & onwards n upwards you will go ! Everything happens for a reason so never doubt yourself you have the most wonderful future in front of yourself! The only thing you should be scared of is not trying if you’ve tried & failed at least you can say I’ve tried to do my best ! But somehow I know you won’t fail so good luck & we’ll see you in the next exciting episode of love life. & beautiful makeup on a beautiful girl love ya Steph from your older fan ! ( 63 ) ❤❤❤😂🎉
I started watching you because you were real! You whole attitude and personality was infectious and I’ve been watching your videos for years now and will never stop! I love you lots! You are enough! As a fellow Cornish person it’s nice to see a Cornish girl on here
I had to find you again because I hadn’t seen your videos for ages. I love watching your videos. I feel like your so down to earth and relatable ❤ Keep being you xx
The more I watch this video the more I can relate such as the bullying as a child, low self esteem, finally being liked and accepted for being me and I feel your genuine happiness when you said you are liked now. I've chosen to go down the path of becoming a counsellor to help others and currently studying and would like to say as big headed as it is, you and I and many others are inspiration to those who feel their lowest and want to come out the other side!
You got this! ❤ As someone who has gone through most of what you have (including ADHD diagnosis at 38)… you have got this! Just focus on the next three steps..
i hope your doing better. your personality and energy is so warm and kind and welcoming. as soon as i click on your video i feel like its so real. never doubt that that. also youre gorgeous, model stunning, but body dysmorphia and self worth issues are personal and hard to combat despite objectively not being accurate. sending a lot of comfort and love.
I'm here and have always been her because of you! I really like you as a person. I'm so sorry for all of the compounded losses you've been through. It's definitely way to much for a single person in a short period of time. It sounds like your finally getting to know your true self. It takes a lot of time for people to reach that point, if they ever do. Please be kind to yourself and give yourself a lot of grace. Many positive vibes are being sent your way sweetie!!!!! 🥰
Well done Steph! The wee phoenix that you are. You're one of life's good uns. I wish you nothing but true success and happiness for your new start. Time for you 🧡
Your so brave for talking out. Hope it's helped you. I've been watching your videos for past 7 years so I feel like I've been through most of journey with you. Keep doing what your doing.❤ xxx
Awh Steph, i´m so sorry that you felt/feel this way. 😔 but i can understand. I´m diagnosed with seasonal depression. Fall and spring are the worst for me. I got help and was doing fine. And than my grandmother died, covid happened and i went rock bottom. And even with the help i have now, it´s still hard to get out of it. I think covid destroyed a lot of us. You´re not alone. I came f0r make-up and i stayed for Steph. I just like you. And i´m proud of you for opening up about what you´re struggling with. Wish more people did it. I love you, Steph! ❤
I have so much respect and admiration for you - to come on to social media and basically pour your heart out and tell everyone about the unfortunate happenings of the last few years is outstanding. Well done you! Be proud of yourself and continue to grow in to the amazing person you are
i’ve been subbed to you since i was in college and i’m 26 now. from one former nerdy loser teenager (also seeking a late adhd diagnosis! watching you talking about your journey with it gave me the confidence i needed to investigate it for myself) to another, everything that makes you ‘weird’ makes you so so wonderful to us. thank you for still being here. we love you so much!
I just drove home from work, stopped at 24:54. I keep coming back to your videos over years, because I genuinely like you❤ I struggle with a lot of the same internal battles as you do. Self esteem, depression, body image, whether people like me.... you are not alone☺️ love you girl. Please never leave us🥰
I rarely ever comment on videos and such but this does resonate with me so much and you're not alone in feeling all the feels. what makes you stand up from other beauty gurus is just that you're more relatable than others and that makes it absolutely wholesome.
I’ve watched you for years, you should be so proud of yourself & YOU are special! You’re allowed to have feelings regardless of anything else in the world! Do what’s best for you because we miss seeing your beautiful face 🤍
Hey beautiful, I'm SO grateful for your transparency and for being willing to be vulnerable with us all❤ I know that it took a lot of courage and strength and I have the utmost respect and love for you! You're such a kind caring positive soul and the community that YOU have built, is SO blessed to have you in our lives. 🙏🏼😊 love you so so much!!
Guys I am genuinely OVERWHELMED (in a good way for once hahah) with all the comments and love. I took 20 minutes out to have a cup of tea and 3 bags of crisps (#eatclean) and came back to so many comments that I can't even keep up with replying! But I'm gonna do my best to respond to every single one 💖 thank you all so so much. It definitely feels like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I know I wasn't ready before, but this is all something I should have done so much sooner because the responses and support has honestly shocked me. Like I knew you guys were KOOOOOL but wow ur all rly rly cool. I dunno what else to say but I really do feel like this is the start of a new chapter with a lot of things and I can't thank you enough for sticking around and just making me feel so loved tonight. Love you all xxx
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Ok... I'm very sorry for your lost Steph 😢 I genuinely didn't knew all of that. When it comes to you, being offline for a few months... well I have to be honest... I didn't forget you, you are my favorite influencer and I still love you and suport you and I'm always anxious for a new video. And I'm 100% sure that your grandparents and your Mom are insanely PROUD of you. Big kiss from Portugal 🇵🇹 and we are here for you, every time you need
U are amazing ❤
Modest opinion... you are beautiful, strong, inteligente, funny... so we are here because you are one of us Steph, because we love you and nerds never leave one of their own behind, so we will never leve you behind
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I've never commented before on your videos, I'm 62 year old woman who likes make up but rarely wears it. So why do I watch your content? Simply because of your authenticity as a person. I'm so pleased to hear you say that you are realising that you are enough. Chant it like a mantra to yourself everyday, because YOU ARE ENOUGH! You have experienced so much loss and grief in such a short time, and yet here you are, unafraid to be vulnerable and that, darling woman, takes true, deep strength.
I fully agree. You are a beautiful person inside and out. You are so authentic. That’s why 500k people follow you.
Me too! I am 52 and Never wear it but love watching steph because she is humble and lovely
There’s so many RUclipsrs out there with the fancy setups and cameras and doing makeup… they aren’t you! We watch you for you!
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aw man why has thissss comment made me almost well up! thank you so so much babe xx
I know what you mean when you pull away. I close myself off as well. Thank you for coming to us. I will be an ear to listen. Mental health is something we all deal with and I am glad that their are people like you who help others in ways you may not know.
Exactly! I'm not into make up that much, I just love her, the calmness that comes from her and her voice 🤭
@@stephanietomsAnd that is exactly why we love you 😊💛
this is why you’re successful - because of your authenticity & honesty. we love you no matter what queen, sending you so much love 🤍🤍
ohhh my love thank you so so much xx
Steph I'm a silent watcher but I've had to comment today. I'm a 54 year old woman who was full of self hate from a young age just like you. Bullied for looking nerdy (glasses and big teeth) in 2020 during lockdown I started my RUclips channel. It's a tiny channel compared to yours only 4.5k subscribers so far but I keep going because like you I've realised people actually like me for me and its a nice feeling isn't it. You steph are beautiful funny talented and the world is definitely your oyster. We are all here for you and always will be. I know this video was tough for you sweetheart but trust me when I say things can only get better. You are quite a bit younger than me but your videos helped inspire me to start RUclips so thank you for that and thank you for just being you. Sending you lots of love positive vibes and blessings for what's to come. ❤❤❤❤
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OOOh...I'm coming up for 50 in July so have subscribed to your channel too, I only just found Steph's!! @steph that's a lot to go through at such a young age and we all make mistakes at any age, you've got yourself together from that, now you've dusted yourself off and gotten back out there, it takes guts especially to come back to social media and being an influencer, good luck girl ❤
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@@tashaleeman thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️
I wish you could see yourself through your viewer's eyes. You are the reason I watch RUclips. Your videos make me happy,and have helped me through the last six years since I had my stroke. You are such a beautiful person inside and out.
The reason I started watching you is because you’re hilarious, you’re smart, snarky, and self-aware. Those traits are *you*, Steph.
Before the 4K camera, before the brand deals, before the ultra boujee PR-there is, was, and always will be you.
I remember watching you put on bright blue eye shadow with Primark palettes, and that Steph is the Steph I’m still rocking with years later. 💜
Same ❤️
Same here 🥹❤️
Yes yes yes 🙌🏻
I can see at the end of the video how PHYSICALLY relieved you look for getting everything off of your chest. You’re such an inspiration.
Im a silent watcher, and I can confirm I do watch the videos for makeup. But let's be real, we come for the makeup but stay for the personality.
To add to the list of clichés, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger... right?
I'm sorry to hear that life has shit on you from a great height for many years. And never apologies for the way you feel. Your feelings are just as valid as anyones. Never compare your struggle to anyone elses. You are valid. You are enough.
I hope it is all on the up from here. Girl, you deserve it. Love ya lots. Xx
Ohh don't - I can't tell you how many times I have heard that - :( lol
Maaaaate, I feel like you are the wee English ADHD counterpart to my huge, autistic Scottish ass except you HAVE the balls to do this. My chest hurts from watching this because I’ve been through everything you’ve been through too, you are a fkn champ for putting in the work and coming back vulnerable but stronger and more determined than before. You are an inspiration and I’m sure I speak for many of your followers when I say I’ll be watching and supporting the Toms no matter what. Unless you become a light coverage/skin tint girly, that’s where I draw the line ❤️
Can confirm I just like you. And I’ve liked you for years. And I’ll continue to like you for years. And if you pop off for a bit then come back - I’ll watch and I’ll still like you. And I think I speak for a lot of us when I say that there’s no pressure from us to show up 100% of the time or to be 100% consistent.
Here here! Well said ❤
I don’t care what you post, I just enjoy your content because of your personality. I’ve been watching you since 2014 and every time I see a new upload I click straight away. Love all the way from an Aussie ADHDer.
Came for the makeup, stayed for Steph…. Self acceptance is so difficult and i commend you for laying it bare. I adore you! Have for years. You (and itssabbrina) are the only makeup girlie i follow.. for the makeup initially… now I rarely even wear makeup.. but im still watching you!! Proud of you and so is your mum xxx
omg gurl so proud of you and just wanted to tell you that you're doing the best that you can with whatever you have. Manifesting healing and inner strength for you! keep moving forward!! love love love you!!!!
"There's gunna be a lot of tangents "
The adhd side quests 🤣🤣🤣 (I'm still watching but I did giggle at that) xx
hahah LITERALLY!! everything i do/say takes 5 times longer i swear because of the tangents 😂
@stephanietoms 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 you're not alone my friend!
ADHD squad unite!
Omg! There was a reason I loved your vids. ADHD peeps seemed to find each other. Diagnosed 6 months ago and it’s a ride!!!!! Welcome back. We missed you!
@@ebeb657 we're packs ✌🏻 I am 8 months diagnosed 🫶🏻
Silent watcher! Cornish gal, 39 and love your videos! I lost my mum 3 years ago and felt every word you said. It’s wonderful to hear you being so honest and looking after yourself x
Im 21 mins in, and this is how my 13 year old daughter describes herself. I tell her daily that none of this is true. She was diagnosed with autism during lockdown. I cry often because of what she says. Thank you for posting this. I'm going to show her this, and hopefully, she will see that she is not different, not on her own. Thank you
26 and diagnosed Autistic 2 weeks ago! Tell your daughter she is beautiful, she is amazing and we rule! The community is always here to support! I hope she never feels alone! Plus being geeky is the best! I love being a nerd and so does my girlfriend! Sending lots of hugs and hopes she sees her worth soon! Being different is really fricken cool! 💜
I resonate with this all so hard! I think it goes without saying I’m sorry and I love you, like we all do, but it it’s true. I have always resonated with you on so many levels and thought you would just be the bestest friend I could ask for because of how we see life and being a geeky person who happens to also like make up and make themselves feel good. It’s really difficult feeling like you don’t fit into a category and I have always appreciated that you are on here because I see myself and that’s powerful. I’m in a lot of the situations you are currently and seeing you own it I just have to say, you’re so strong. It’s not easy, especially when you your pain to others, but it’s important. Your feelings are justified and you are worthy of them just as much as you are worthy of feeling unconditional love. I know, (oh gosh do I know), that the deep shadow work is hard but it is opening you up to your higher self. So I’m manifesting for both of us, that we continue these journeys and blossom into who we are truly meant to be. You got this! I may never meet you, but I am always here for you if you ever need a strangers unbiased opinion.
Oh oh! Twitch!!! Yes!! Loved chatting and playing with you on there 😁
My opinion isn't worth much, but I found your videos like 8 years ago when I was overwhelmed and lonely at uni. Idk who I really am a lot of time, I get you there, but I know you're my comfort videos. What other YTer would apply makeup with nuggets???
Looking forward to where you take your videos. You're a legend, thank you for adding light to some dark times x
Big hugs and keeo being you. Take care of yourself and take every day as it comes.
Hey steph, my mum passed 4 years ago aswell to cancer, its the most aweful thing to go through! You dont know me but i am always here! I get it. You have helped me in my darkest times and i would love to be uere for you aswell! ❤❤❤
first of all i'm so sorry you lost your mum too :( it's just awful and i hope you're doing okay. you just commenting something positive is absolutely enough! thank you so much xx
Wow Steph I can relate to u alot of this feeling off losing everyone. I am an only child I have lost mum and now dad and it terrifies me that I will loss my partner. I am waiting to speak to someone as I defo suffer some PTSD of finding my dad passed. And I defo have death anxiety.
Sorry for your loss x
@gingerbreadloverjulie8609 I think I know what you're talking about. I watched a few videos from palliative care nurses talking about how a lot of their clients see their family members, that have already died, before they pass. Like they will tell the nurse "my sister is here, she said she's coming back on Wednesday" then they die on the Wednesday. I don't believe in heaven and souls. But this really has been making feel comforted. I've watched people I love die. One of them, they woke up for a while and when I think back, they where saying things that I now think someone was there to take her. Now I look forward to seeing if my dad is going to come. I've always been atheist byw. So this is weird for me.
Hearing you speak about drink is such a brave thing, my mum has been sober since November after her 4th medical detox in hospital. There is such a stigma around it and nobody likes to speak about it, so glad you have. X
I’ve been watching you for years when you only had a few hundred subs, and I’m still excited when I see you posting. I am so proud to see the woman you became and seeing the woman you are becoming. You’re real and I really appreciate that. Thank you for being you!
People dont buy into brands, they buy into you...the person who keeps it real, who still shows up even when life is shite.i saw you once in debenhams in truro when i worked there years ago ,you were down to earth and youve not changed.your authenticity about who you are can be a lot for some people (i know this about myself😂) but you keep being just that!the ones who love you will continue to do so❤
I'm very sorry for the losses you've had. I can only imagine how horrible that must have been for you.
I also can relate to having conditions which means you feel like you stand out. I have stress induced epilepsy and autism, so I know what it's like. I also got bullied in school a lot, due to people not understanding it, as I hadn't been diagnosed with either condition at the time, and also from being fat, which at times for me, has been mistaken for pregnancy too. (I got my epilepsy diagnosis at 17, autism diagnosis at 18).
I agree too, getting a diagnosis is good, as it helps to explain things, especially since problems are caused by people lacking understanding. I find it's better to say someone is different, rather than saying something is wrong, because it's essentially the brain working differently from other people's. I say think of it like you have 2 calculators, one is simple and the other scientific. A scientific calculator follows the BIDMAS rule, whereas the simple one doesn't. There's nothing wrong with either one, they just work differently.
Thank you for sharing and just know whatever you post up on RUclips I will be watching and I appreciate it and I love your videos and I lost my mom in 2021. She gave up the fight from diabetes. Watching my favorite RUclipsr and your videos have helped me get through the rough times, and just hang in there.❤❤ be safe, everyone😊😊
I’m just about to watch this video so I’ve no idea what’s in it or what it’s about but I just wanna say as a nearly 40 year old you are 1 of my fave people to watch and I genuinely laugh along with you. Xx
oh mate thank you so much!! this video isn't the most funny thing in the world hahah but i hope it's something! thanks for sticking around xx
@@stephanietoms it’s true and it’s from the heart which in my eyes makes you even more amazing. Xxx
This was quite relatable. The inability to no feel your worth is so painful, unfortunately a lot of us feels the same. I think it is important to talk honestly about these stuff.
Oh bless you.. it’s hard losing people you love especially those closest to you. I lost my 3 year old son and it’s the harder thing I’ve ever been through. That was 2018 and I’m still suffering now.. stop beating yourself up. We all deal with things differently and you should be proud that you’re coming out the other side. We all love you. You say it’s cringe but you do feel like a friend and id love to meet you! Take care of yourself and remember you are enough ❤
I lost my 6 year old in 2016. My heart is with you mama❤
@@jesuisaimeex same to you ❤️
I started watching your videos in 2019 when I was going through a bad period in my life.
You really resonated with me and we have had very similar experiences.
I wish you all the best going forward and your future will absolutely amazing!
Never stop being you ❤
We love you Steph! And will always watch 🖤🖤🖤🖤
i love YOUUUUU!! can't wait to meet you some day and kiss ur face gout xxx
You are definitely ENOUGH! I love watching you because I learn new things (57 years old) and I laugh my ass off! I'm so sorry you've gone through so much, but also very happy and proud for you! Love from Texas, USA
So refreshing to hear someone be so honest about these things. Really brave of you to open up about all of this. Id personally watch/listen to whatever you do ❤ x
I've been following for years now, I've left some comments here and there and you've replied to some of them. I love this realness, I don't want to see perfect lives with people doing just great because I'm so not perfect and I've been through some shit and appreciated you coming through with this realness. I hope you do get to a happy place mentally again ♡
I love how relatable you are and how real you are. I am so unbelievably sorry for everything you have been through. Just remember it’s ok to laugh when something is funny and cry when you’re sad.
Your Poundland video is my go to when I need to laugh, that foundation shade and your facial expressions genuinely never fail to make me absolutely howl 😂.
Love you lots mate x
Also been watching for years purely for your personality (the cats are also a bonus). We're the same age nearly - im 31 in sept - and just want to send you so much compassion for those losses. I can't imagine losing my relationship so I'm so glad to see you processing it all and working through it. I wish you nothing but healing and peace (from a therapist haha)
Legitimately, the way you speak about life topics and balance your thoughts and feelings is the most relatable thing I’ve heard from someone, in a way I’ve never really heard from someone else before. Like being scared of nothing but everything at the same time? It’s hard to explain but internet friends can be like, such a significant part of making you feel less weird and okay about yourself. So this was a great video! Hope the cockroaching keeps on the roll 🐾
Big hugs to you Steph. I’m so sorry for your losses and all that you’ve been going through. I wish you all the best with whatever comes next for you.x
Joining the rest in sending a lot of love beforehand before watching the full video. Thank you for your honesty and great vibes over all these years and I can only hope the good things will find you again soon as well 🫶
thank you so so much! honestly overwhelmed by all da lurveee xxx
Good for you Steph! I have watched you for a few years and I think you're great. I can relate to a few things you've said. All the best xx
I'm in my 40s and you make me laugh every time I watch you. Seeing you just be yourself is very refreshing. That includes you trying to do your job while everything's burning. I think most of us can relate to that.
There's no need to know where you're at. Endless possibilities never stop feeling scary but this whole process will be worth it 😘
YESSSS STEPH! 🥳 Just sat here cheering you on and rooting for you SO HARD. I’ve watched you for years and this actually made me so happy for you. You’re so strong for coming out the other side so positively and I know you’re about to have the biggest life glow up ❤ So excited to see what’s next for you 🎉
Ive got ADHD, OCD and Anxiety and i get seasonal depression. Its a struggle but i try and see the positive in things. We each have silent struggles we don't talk about.
Yasss me too sending love ❤
I’m a senior in college and I’ve watched you since middle school:) I also got an adhd diagnosis later in life(sophomore in college) and can relate to your story a lot. Thanks for coming back and pulling yourself out of the depths of depression. Loss mixed with ADHD is so hard. I admire you so much, can’t wait to see what you do!❤
Oh, sweet baby girl! I felt the same way until I turned 50. I went through similar things. I'm 57 and so comfortable in my own skin. As far as people liking me, now I don't give a flying fig! You are enough! I enjoy watching you, and you will find your footing!
Truly watched you since the day I found you because of your personality. Happy to see your gorgeous self back! You deserve everything and more. 🖤
As someone who is recently diagnosed with ADHD and recently lost a close relative, you are like a superhero in my eyes for making it here!!
You are such a strong, wonderful human bean. Not only from the shite youve waded through but for opening up about said shite wading. Not a single thing in this world lasts forever, not the stars in the sky or the flowers on the ground. The bad times will pass, sad memories will eventually bring a smile to your face and dreams will come true that you havent even thought of yet. Reach for the sky sweet angel, it may be a bumpy journey but its your journey! I bet your mum would be so proud; being vulnerable and making yourself open to the INTERNET, come on, whats more bad ass than that.
And p.s. id watch you all day, any day, doing absolutely fuck all 🤍✨
Hey Steph! Appreciate you putting yourself out there to us, really rooting for you! Lots of love from London ❤
I’m usually a silent watcher but sending all my love, Steph! It really sounds like you’ve been dragged through the shit and you deserve to feel so so proud of yourself ❤️ Heck yeah the world is your oyster girl!! Xx
awww well i'm glad you're here today! thank you so so much xxx
I love how real you talk about these situations and in such a respectful way to those involved as well. The courage you have had to even post such a vulnerable video is amazing. I cant wait to see new content from you. Definitely someone who deserves nothing but happiness x
Im so sorry about what you have gone through. After watching I just have to say that I have never related to a video by an influencer more. Im a long time fan, i found you with the makeup but stayed for you! I really like you! I just want you to know that. You have been a fave and inspiration for me for so long, theres not many influencers I can watch and see myself in and relate to the way I do with you. I love your style and personality.
After this vid I cant believe how much we have in common.. I have similar experiences with alot of it youre talking about, and just remember its so valid. And Im so sorry for you, just know youre not alone and nobody can take away those feelings. They are valid because all of it are real big and are traumatic things for anyone.
Also just have to add ( the body dysmorphia is so real). I was bullied as a child and the way you talk about those feelings are the realest thing. The reason i got into makeup and fashion was mostly because I never felt pretty enough or cool/good enough because of it. I really get it.
I guess we both have this year as a fresh start in many ways. I wish all the best for you going forward from now! I will be here and I will be watching and remember we love u ❤
I would love to see vlogs and Pokémon card openings 🙌🏻 tbh I just enjoy watching you, not really fussed what the content is
Your you and that’s why we love you 🤍 sending you so much love gorgeous
I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through all this and fair play for sharing with us! I don’t often comment on RUclips however I really appreciate videos like this as it helps us all realise that shit happens to all of us! Also been through a lot of loss in life as many have and it can feel so isolating. You’re doing an amazing job, I find you really relatable and enjoyable to watch so what ever you choose to do I’m certain we will all be here cheering you on ❤
We love you Steph and sending you all the good vibes you deserve. So sorry to hear you went through all of this. And know you are going to come out of it ahead ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for being honest and open ❤ I'm so sorry for everything you've been through.
The most honest and relatable video I have see in years. Thank so much for sharing and being so honest. Wish you all the best, here from Denmark🤗
“In your bins” 😆😆😆 that properly made me laugh. What a genuinely touching and tough video to make, I think you’re very brave. Sending love and positivity to you and all your new chapters.
Touched by your bravery in talking about these difficult topics, Steph. You make each of us feel less alone in our own struggles, that is a true gift. Sending so much love and positive energy your way - your community is here to rally behind you on this new chapter of your journey ✨️❤️
Babe, I can relate to 90% of what you went threw the past 4 years 😢
I’m actually in hospital right now bc of depression and alcohol abuse!
I drove drunk on Monday night and crashed my car in to a fence.. I’m so happy no one else was in the accident but me, and that I’m alive 🥺🙏🏽
You are my number one “best makeup friend” when I sit down to do my face, you’re keeping me company and make me laugh better than any of my irl peeps 🫶🏽🫶🏽
If you want to visit Sweden and our peaceful nature, I got a spare room with your name on it 🌲🌻👯♀️
I’m a heroin addict and have been sober 5.5 years. I wish you all the best in your recovery! I promise you life is so much better sober. Next time you could kill someone, or yourself, so please don’t drive intoxicated again 😢 you can do this and you are so much stronger than you think!!! I promise you are. One day at a time ❤ not at all judging btw, I have a DUI from like 7 years ago and still don’t have my license back. Working on it though! Addiction is a horrible disease and I pray you find your way out ❤
I’ve been with you from the start and I have always loved how authentic and real you are, how relatable and YOU that you are. Literally think you’re bloody wonderful. ❤
I'm ready and I'm listening to the very end. As long as you're healthy and happy that's all that matters it really is all that matters. You have taught me a lot about make up and you made me laugh on the days when I was suffering with depression. I've got a lot to say thank you for. Now it's our turn to listen & help you if we can xxx
depression is a BIIIAAATCH so i get it! so glad i could maybe help even in the tiniest way on your worst days. you got this. thank you so much xx
Steph, I love you. We all love you🩷 We are here for you, and cannot wait for your restart and see your videos going forward. Sending you love and happiness🩷xxx
I never really comment or anything, but I feel the need to confirm all the things you’re coming to terms with right now: you truly are enough and we really do love you for you. I’ve kinda fallen of out love with makeup, or at least don’t invest as much in it anymore but I’ll never stop watching your videos. You’re just so entertaining, also very relatable to me personally and seem so real, as sad as I get listening to you think negatively of yourself, you’re making your page a safe space to be true to yourself and I can’t put into words how much I appreciate that. I truly truly hope everything will finally work in your favor and genuinely believe you couldn’t deserve it more
Steph im nearly 52 and suffer with my mental health and inly iver the last couple of years really opened up about it, i shut myself away when things get to much, thankyou for sharing everything it takes alit of courage, you should be so very proud of yourself we all are xx ❤️
Oh steph honey. Feel your pain,I nearly ended up being sectioned recently, trauma messes us up luv. We know you care ,I hope you can find the space and time to fully heal. Thank you for being so raw and vulnerable,thank you for just being you, sage your house and manifest . Love ya girl. You got this.❤❤❤
It takes so much courage to put yourself out there, whether it is us on the Internet or in real life. You are an amazing person, and you see stronger than you think. Also, I have just become a new mum to a 9 week old ginger boy, and I love him and he is fitting in with my other 5 furbabies. Xx
The first thing that needs to happen is for you to gain control of your mental health. I just came to your channel yesterday to see if you had uploaded and I maybe missed it. I haven’t been at my best the last few months and haven’t been on here allot. My grandson left for the US army in April and my granny heart has been through some shit!! Depression is an absolute bitch!!! As an old granny I feel like I just wanna hug you and squeeze all the bullshit that’s hurting you away!!!! I will be here with you as long as you’re here!!!!❤❤❤❤❤
oh for suuuure! that's what i've been trying to work on the most lately - just doing everything bit by but. i'll always take a granny hug! hope everything is okay for you my love ccc
Aww Steph, so much of what you said resonated with me & my recent MH+ADHD journey over last few years - you've been through a bloody lot babes, but you're here & now you're thriving ready for a fresh start. I've just started to come out of a 3yr deep depression too & I'm 37 so not much older than you, but 2024 is defintely a year of resetting & fogiving myself for the last 3yrs & being kinder to myself💜
I watch you cos your funny, aunthentic & just you - as you said YOU are enough. I'd genuinely watch/listen to you doing anything make-up, vlogs, lifestyle, commentary, you reacting to tiktoks, you opening a paper bag - i really don't care, just like 'hanging out' with you, cos I swear we're such similar people so I 'clicked' with your content bloody years ago & enjoyed your vibe ever since 😅
PS: thank you for reminding me to be kinder to myself & remember I am enough too... work in progress too, but as long as we keep trying right?🥰
This looks serious, hope you're ok. We all love you lots xx
it is a bit but i'm doing so much better now, thank you!! love you too xx
@stephanietoms mate you could be talking about soil 😅 I watch because I like you. I recognise so much of what you say in myself, I lost my Dad at 13 and undiagnosed but almost certainly have ADHD. You may feel uncomfortable saying you like to be liked by randoms on the Internet... but it's just as weird to feel like you are friends with someone you watch 😅 honestly, keep being you. Do what is best for you and those that are worth it will support you 😘 xx
I have watched you back in the day from 2018 onwards, fast approaching my 40's and going through a divorce, and I felt the same way about myself and how I looked and felt, like you have recently. You opened my world to make up and how to use it, what was the best dupes etc. I used to love going to Wilko's and getting the next Essence dupe you recommended. Its like you opened the door and I walked through and then on to a path to learning self worth, love and self care. I know thats major cringe, but for someone that found herself suddenly single after a 16 year relationship, it was everything. I was sorry to hear about had to deal with over the last couple of years, but please dont minimise it, your feelings and how these events made you feel are completely valid, no matter what else is going on around the world. Was lovely to see you posting, and looking forward to what comes next. You will smash it
no, literally i really wanna give you a big hug!!!
awww same!!xxx
Ive been watching your videos for years i can honestly say one of the best youtuber i watch and i hope all your wishes you mentioned in the video come true, no one deserves it more.. good luck steph i wish you a bright future x
So glad you’re coming out of the dark part of everything! I was the same when my mum passed away last year, I hid away for almost a year but now I can feel it’s time to start living again. Being honest mainly to yourself is such an important stepping stone. Sending love ❤
I completely understand your struggle. Thank you for sharing. I really wish you the best of luck. Here for you.x
Even though I don’t know you I’m so freaking proud of you! To sit down and film this video took took both some balls and guts - but YOU did it girl!!
Life can be so f*^#ing hard and it constantly throws curveballs at you, but in all of the mess called life we grow, we learn. I’m confident that you’re going to excel in this next chapter of your life because you’re more than enough! 💕
I'm so sorry you've been fighting through all that for so long. Happy to hear you're taking care of yourself. I feel like you've explained so many things that we all feel like about ourselves and about life in general, so never feel alone in that. ❤ We love you and your channel, no matter what you're talking about! Thank you for sharing and I pray that you make it through each day knowing that you are loved and appreciated.
You are deeply inspiring and I think you don't even realise that. I takes a lot of courage to talk about these things on the Internet. I wish you all the luck, happiness and best wishes in the world right now! 💕
I know, Steph has inspired me a lot over the years especially with regards to my mental health ~ knowing I'm not the only one going through it & even someone as successful as her sadly experiences hardship too. She also reminded me to remember that we're all enough & to be kinder to myself which is something we all need to do 💛✨️
I started watching you because I've felt like I could relate to your natural rambling, thoughts, ideas and even your comment a few years ago about wearing interesting T-shirts just to create a conversation starter in a public setting. It was a lovely idea and it helped me relax and you've given new perspectives on things about life in general bc you're so kind and you almost think the way I do and it makes watching your videos so relatable and comforting. Thank you.
gosh i love your strength!!! you’re only a few months older than me and i thought i had it bad but omg my heart aches for you. i cried so much watching this :: sending love to you and your family ♡ and wishing them alll so much happiness and peace and comfort ♥️
Could cry with u! So brave of you making this video, as a late adhd diagnosis myself I know exactly your struggles, from addiction to self loathing, it’s like talking to your bestie listening to you, and with or without make up, you are beautiful, a whole,. real, lovely woman. Take care & take time for yourself, self care & family is no 1. Please keep going send love & hugs xxx
Steph when you post a video it totally cheers me up ! You got me through my breast cancer fight when I was feeling shit with chemo & looking at my shiny bald head I’d watch your video & forget for a while how crap & ugly I felt ! Just seeing you & your honest down to earth attitude makes you a delight to watch! You don’t realise what a beautiful girl inside & most definitely outside too ! You are !So good luck with your NEW future baby steps & onwards n upwards you will go ! Everything happens for a reason so never doubt yourself you have the most wonderful future in front of yourself! The only thing you should be scared of is not trying if you’ve tried & failed at least you can say I’ve tried to do my best ! But somehow I know you won’t fail so good luck & we’ll see you in the next exciting episode of love life. & beautiful makeup on a beautiful girl love ya Steph from your older fan ! ( 63 ) ❤❤❤😂🎉
I started watching you because you were real! You whole attitude and personality was infectious and I’ve been watching your videos for years now and will never stop! I love you lots! You are enough! As a fellow Cornish person it’s nice to see a Cornish girl on here
I had to find you again because I hadn’t seen your videos for ages. I love watching your videos. I feel like your so down to earth and relatable ❤ Keep being you xx
Been here from the start you’re genuine and human and that’s why I send you a ton of love 🫶🏻❤️🏴
The more I watch this video the more I can relate such as the bullying as a child, low self esteem, finally being liked and accepted for being me and I feel your genuine happiness when you said you are liked now. I've chosen to go down the path of becoming a counsellor to help others and currently studying and would like to say as big headed as it is, you and I and many others are inspiration to those who feel their lowest and want to come out the other side!
You got this! ❤ As someone who has gone through most of what you have (including ADHD diagnosis at 38)… you have got this! Just focus on the next three steps..
i hope your doing better. your personality and energy is so warm and kind and welcoming. as soon as i click on your video i feel like its so real. never doubt that that. also youre gorgeous, model stunning, but body dysmorphia and self worth issues are personal and hard to combat despite objectively not being accurate. sending a lot of comfort and love.
I'm here and have always been her because of you! I really like you as a person. I'm so sorry for all of the compounded losses you've been through. It's definitely way to much for a single person in a short period of time. It sounds like your finally getting to know your true self. It takes a lot of time for people to reach that point, if they ever do. Please be kind to yourself and give yourself a lot of grace. Many positive vibes are being sent your way sweetie!!!!! 🥰
Well done Steph! The wee phoenix that you are. You're one of life's good uns. I wish you nothing but true success and happiness for your new start. Time for you 🧡
awww thank you so so much! absolutely the same to you xxx
Your so brave for talking out. Hope it's helped you. I've been watching your videos for past 7 years so I feel like I've been through most of journey with you. Keep doing what your doing.❤ xxx
My heart is with you and I wish you all the best and you have my support if that means anything.
Awh Steph, i´m so sorry that you felt/feel this way. 😔 but i can understand. I´m diagnosed with seasonal depression. Fall and spring are the worst for me. I got help and was doing fine. And than my grandmother died, covid happened and i went rock bottom. And even with the help i have now, it´s still hard to get out of it. I think covid destroyed a lot of us. You´re not alone. I came f0r make-up and i stayed for Steph. I just like you. And i´m proud of you for opening up about what you´re struggling with. Wish more people did it. I love you, Steph! ❤
I have so much respect and admiration for you - to come on to social media and basically pour your heart out and tell everyone about the unfortunate happenings of the last few years is outstanding. Well done you! Be proud of yourself and continue to grow in to the amazing person you are
i’ve been subbed to you since i was in college and i’m 26 now. from one former nerdy loser teenager (also seeking a late adhd diagnosis! watching you talking about your journey with it gave me the confidence i needed to investigate it for myself) to another, everything that makes you ‘weird’ makes you so so wonderful to us. thank you for still being here. we love you so much!
I just drove home from work, stopped at 24:54. I keep coming back to your videos over years, because I genuinely like you❤ I struggle with a lot of the same internal battles as you do. Self esteem, depression, body image, whether people like me.... you are not alone☺️ love you girl. Please never leave us🥰
I rarely ever comment on videos and such but this does resonate with me so much and you're not alone in feeling all the feels. what makes you stand up from other beauty gurus is just that you're more relatable than others and that makes it absolutely wholesome.
You are humble and not stuck up. That is why I like you.
I’ve watched you for years, you should be so proud of yourself & YOU are special! You’re allowed to have feelings regardless of anything else in the world! Do what’s best for you because we miss seeing your beautiful face 🤍
Hey beautiful, I'm SO grateful for your transparency and for being willing to be vulnerable with us all❤ I know that it took a lot of courage and strength and I have the utmost respect and love for you! You're such a kind caring positive soul and the community that YOU have built, is SO blessed to have you in our lives. 🙏🏼😊 love you so so much!!