In the name of Jesus Christ please watch over my dear friend Nick. Carry him through his darkest days & comfort him in his time of need 🙏🏼 Wrap your loving arms around Nick & protect him from harm. I pray to our Lord & Saviour to please do not let anything bad happen to him! 🙏🏼♥️ Nick please, nobody is perfect & using is a part of recovery! You can do this Nick I believe in you & I have faith in Jesus Christ 🙏🏼♥️🇨🇦 We all love & care for your health & sobriety! We are all here to support you! Please Nick are you okay? 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼♥️🇨🇦 20:21
Fortress if you ever see this don't hang your head for too long. We all slip and fall as humans. This night was just a setback, but you can come back 10 fold and crush this obstacle that life has put before you. You like many of us have a disease. If you were perfect and didn't make a mistake than you wouldn't be in this situation to begin with, but you are human. Just pick yourself up and start this minute to get back on track.
@@RubberWilbur I sincerely hope that Nick is okay. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him since I saw this most disturbing video & I’m genuinely worried about him. I wonder where Kerri is? I had my own suspicions that something wasn’t right with Nick but I always prayed that it was just that he needed time away to deal with his ongoing Disability appeal application. I’ve been following Nick from day 1 & he’s done so well for so long. There’s nothing wrong with breaking his sobriety, it’s a part of recovery but what was going on in this lengthy video was painful to watch. I’m praying that he’s OK 🙏🏼 the fact that the video is still up worries me even more 😭
@@susansuarez343 I think he is fine. I think he just might be in the addiction zone and is not worried about social media or tying up any lose ends. I've been there, done that. He'll be back.
Hey Nick, it’s Susan from Toronto Canada. It’s been quite a few days now & your Livestream video is still up. Listen Nick, relapse is a part of recovery so please don’t e hard on yourself about what happened ok? Nobody here will judge you, believe that. I want you to know that we are all here to support you & please don’t hesitate to reach out for help. I miss you & your videos ♥️ I’m not sure what the outcome was with your appointment regarding your Disability application but I’m praying that it went your way. Please let us know that you’re doing ok Nick, as your friend I’m worried about you & your health. Sending you positive energy & prayers of healing. You’re in my daily prayers Nick 🙏🏼 Susan ♥️🇨🇦 2:01
I DON’T WANT YOU TO DIE NICK! NOT TODAY BUT A VERY LONG TIME FROM NOW! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I AM PRAYING FOR YOU NICK, I AM ON MY HANDS & KNEES CRYING TO GOD & JESUS CHRIST TO BE WITH YOU IN YOUR TIME OF NEED ♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼🇨🇦 3:23
Oh no! Nick! Are you okay my friend? What is happening? Where is Kerri? Nick I’m gonna pray for you 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼♥️♥️♥️🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🇨🇦😭😭😭 I hope you’re okay? I’m so confused right now? Nick!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭 3:23
I honestly thought he would have deleted this by now. I certainly would have an probably made a video or community post or something. Unless he was so messed up he doesn't remember it
I’m really worried about Nick & I agree with you, the fact that it’s still up is telling me that he hasn’t checked his phone or whatever other device he’s using to know he recorded this Livestream! Omggg every time I come back & see it still here really hurts me. I wonder who he’s talking to? A pet dog or a cat? At 6:05 he’s clearly saying sit down, kiss me, thank you, I love you. Do you think someone else is there with him? God I’m praying that Nick is ok?! 😭😭😭😭😭🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼♥️🇨🇦 8:19
@@CasualtiesOfGaming I keep checking back to see if he's taken down this video and still nothing. I don't even know his last name or where he lives. Really hoping he's OK and still with us.
Just remember Nick, you've been through a lot and NOW is not the time to give up. Most of us that watch your progress have been through tough times also. I did 2 1/2 years ago. And i had a miraculous recovery. Nick, remember "when the going gets tough, the tough get going".
@@markminer4685 Congratulations Mark, I’m so happy for you! I know that Nick has been through a lot & his denial for Disability hit him hard. He did have another date scheduled for his appeal & I fear that it didn’t go his way. I can’t imagine what he’s going through now. I’m praying that he’s ok but since this video is still up on RUclips, it really worries me. I’m trying to stay positive & think positive but somewhere in the back of my mind something is telling me that he’s not ok & he needs help! Where is Kerri? I really hope we hear from Nick soon. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼♥️♥️♥️🇨🇦
Good evening Susan. Applying for Social Security-Disability. It took me the second time to get it. I got hurt when I slipped on the ice and tore my shoulder up. Had it operated on, but it was unsuccessful. I can only lift my hand level with my elbow. I needed that reach above my head, as I was a Journeyman Power Lineman and a lot of work involved I could no longer do. I took retirement after 40 years as a Lineman. This was before I learned I had chirrosis. I finally got a lawyer involved. Fast forward to January 2022. Wasn't feeling good, and I really couldn't my finger on it. Finally I went to the University of Colorado branch hospital here in my town. After all of the C-T, MRI, blood work etc. the Doc came in and said you are going to Denver to nite. I was going by chopper, but a bad blizzard was going on so the chopper couldn't fly. I went by ground to Anschutz. They are a teaching hospital, branch of University of Colorado Med School. They said I was to get my TIPPS Proceedure early the next morning. It never hit me until the Doc said my chances were 50-50. I pulled through. I was in from that Friday nite until Tuesday. They called me the "Miracle Man". They put me under the care of a Hepatlogist. Gave me all kins of prescriptions. I had a bought with HE last spring. Gave me Laculose. I no longer need it. 6months ago they took me off of Insulin completely. I'm not even in the pre-diabetic stage anymore. The scans came back and the Doc said-numbers are well improved, and she is no longer concerned about my liver! Go in 6 months for routine labs and scans. I feel that the guy upstairs was looking after me. I haven't had a drink since Feb. of 2022. I quit cold turkey. Didn't go to AA meetings or anything else. The only thing I drink is Budweiser 00. It looks like beer, tastes like beer, but 0 alcohol contant. Sorry I was long winded, but it kind of sets the stage involving Nick. Unfortunately I think things were going on that he never really talked about on his video posts. Where was that gal that was staying with him? Now he needed support from her since she was the closest to him. Don't leave him to fight this by himself. If I lived closer to him I would go see him and spell it out to him. How did he get the Nitrous Oxide that we heard in the background? I presume it was that with the hissing sounds we heard. Is he thinking suicide? It's too bad that there isn't someone who follows his U-Tube videos that could check in on him. Unfortunately I too have a bad gut feeling about Nick. We will see I guess. If you ever want to discuss so it doesn't go on the web site. My personal e-mail is markminer07@gmail.com. have a good evening. Mark
@@markminer4685 Hey Mark, I’m so happy for you & that your health is so much better! I think that you were lucky in the fact that you got the right medical treatment when you did & you had the right medical team caring for your health! What a blessing! 🙏🏼 I don’t know what happened to Kerri, his girlfriend. She really helped him come back to life when the Doctor said he only had 3 months to live & sent him home. I would always tell Nick to say hi to Kerri from me but he never said anything in return in his messages back to me which I thought was odd but I didn’t press the issue since it’s his personal private life so I just assumed he didn’t want to say anything. I too think things were going on as well but I always stayed positive & didn’t want to think negatively. I don’t know what he was doing in his Livestream but I have a feeling that someone else might’ve been there with him unless he was talking to himself? I wish that there was someone that is closer to him that could reach out to him & check up on him because I’m really worried about Nick. I will gladly email you so we can further talk. I was diagnosed 18 months ago with stage 4 cirrhosis of the liver & I found Nick’s channel right at the same time he started so that’s why I’m so worried about him. I know that relapsing is a part of recovery & I hope that he can reach out for help before it’s too late. I will email you when I get home from my Doctors appointment. Take care & chat soon, Susan. I pray that Nick is ok but every minute that goes by without a word from him is giving me a bad feeling but I’m trying to push the negative out & just try to think positive thoughts.
Hey Mark, I sent you an email late last night, did you receive it? Just checking ok cuz it’s been a while since I sent one 🤭 hope you’re having a good day today! Cheers from sunny Toronto 🌞🇨🇦 0:02
@@ValentinaKajcinovskasome type of gas that you inhale to get high but I’m not 100% sure, you can Google what is Nitrous oxide & find out. I didn’t because that’s what I think it is which is not good for your health, brain, lungs etc 17:19
It’s been 24 days since this Livestream was made & still no word from Nick. I reached out with the Facebook group but I’ve heard nothing back. I’m praying he’s okay. Thanks for your support, Susan 🇨🇦🙏🏼 5:55
@@susansuarez343 it’s definitely disturbing he just vanished. We’ve all made mistakes and I pray that’s all this was and he’s just too embarrassed to respond. We’re all only human and it’s ok to make mistakes. Without mistakes being made, we would never learn anything.
@@Shauna-z5n Yes but there was a time back when he vanished for a month or so & when he came back he said he needed a break. Anyone can understand that right? This time it’s totally different. There’s actual evidence of him using something & for me to watch it was really scary because I didn’t know if he was ok the next day? Relapse is a part of recovery & it doesn’t matter if he used, you just start over again, it’s a process that nobody usually gets right the first time. Nothing for him to feel bad about, It’s a Disease & it’s a daily battle to stay clean & sober. I just wish he would come back to his channel & see this Livestream up there & take it down!! I can’t believe that the number of views keeps on growing?! I reached out to him on Facebook last week but I haven’t received any response from him. I will continue to pray for Nick & hope he comes back soon! So worried from Toronto Canada 🇨🇦🙏🏼🤞🏼♥️
@@susansuarez343 I agree. The video was absolutely terrifying. I couldn’t sleep at all that night and wasn’t sure what to think. I pray he’s ok. Please keep us updated if you hear from him. I also agree starting over is the right choice. Sobriety is a battle everyone of us that have these addictions.
@@Shauna-z5n Hi Shauna! I feel the same way as you! I tried again today to message him on Facebook so I’m anxiously waiting to hear back from him! I joined Facebook specifically so that I could join his Facebook group on liver disease & he responded on Aug 26th saying to me welcome Susan! I know he’s okay but I don’t know why he hasn’t been on his RUclips channel? I’m almost certain he doesn’t know that the Livestream is up on his channel so if reaches out to me I’ll let him know about it so he can take it down. It was so heartbreaking for me to watch & hear him as I didn’t know what he was doing until someone else told me & I was just worried about him. I’ve been following his channel from day 1 & I know all about addiction so I could never judge him but just want him to know that I’m here to support him on his journey. 1 day at a time & it’s a lifelong struggle when you’re dealing with a disease & I know there’s some people that judge but it’s because they don’t know themselves what it’s like. I will definitely let you know if I reach him but if I do & he takes this down then I won’t be able to post a message. Let’s just pray 🙏🏼 he gets back to me soon! Thank you for your kind message 🙏🏼♥️🇨🇦 Susan!
Oh no! Nick! Are you okay my friend? What is happening? Where is Kerri? Nick I’m gonna pray for you 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼♥️♥️♥️🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🇨🇦😭😭😭 I hope you’re okay? I’m so confused right now? Nick!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭 3:23
In the name of Jesus Christ please watch over my dear friend Nick. Carry him through his darkest days & comfort him in his time of need 🙏🏼 Wrap your loving arms around Nick & protect him from harm. I pray to our Lord & Saviour to please do not let anything bad happen to him! 🙏🏼♥️ Nick please, nobody is perfect & using is a part of recovery! You can do this Nick I believe in you & I have faith in Jesus Christ 🙏🏼♥️🇨🇦 We all love & care for your health & sobriety! We are all here to support you! Please Nick are you okay? 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼♥️🇨🇦 20:21
Fortress if you ever see this don't hang your head for too long. We all slip and fall as humans. This night was just a setback, but you can come back 10 fold and crush this obstacle that life has put before you. You like many of us have a disease. If you were perfect and didn't make a mistake than you wouldn't be in this situation to begin with, but you are human. Just pick yourself up and start this minute to get back on track.
@@RubberWilbur I sincerely hope that Nick is okay. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him since I saw this most disturbing video & I’m genuinely worried about him. I wonder where Kerri is? I had my own suspicions that something wasn’t right with Nick but I always prayed that it was just that he needed time away to deal with his ongoing Disability appeal application. I’ve been following Nick from day 1 & he’s done so well for so long. There’s nothing wrong with breaking his sobriety, it’s a part of recovery but what was going on in this lengthy video was painful to watch. I’m praying that he’s OK 🙏🏼 the fact that the video is still up worries me even more 😭
@@susansuarez343 I think he is fine. I think he just might be in the addiction zone and is not worried about social media or tying up any lose ends. I've been there, done that. He'll be back.
@@RubberWilbur Alright, I hope so.
Hey Nick, it’s Susan from Toronto Canada. It’s been quite a few days now & your Livestream video is still up.
Listen Nick, relapse is a part of recovery so please don’t e hard on yourself about what happened ok? Nobody here will judge you, believe that.
I want you to know that we are all here to support you & please don’t hesitate to reach out for help. I miss you & your videos ♥️
I’m not sure what the outcome was with your appointment regarding your Disability application but I’m praying that it went your way.
Please let us know that you’re doing ok Nick, as your friend I’m worried about you & your health.
Sending you positive energy & prayers of healing. You’re in my daily prayers Nick 🙏🏼 Susan ♥️🇨🇦 2:01
I DON’T WANT YOU TO DIE NICK! NOT TODAY BUT A VERY LONG TIME FROM NOW! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I AM PRAYING FOR YOU NICK, I AM ON MY HANDS & KNEES CRYING TO GOD & JESUS CHRIST TO BE WITH YOU IN YOUR TIME OF NEED ♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼🇨🇦 3:23
Oh no! Nick! Are you okay my friend? What is happening? Where is Kerri? Nick I’m gonna pray for you 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼♥️♥️♥️🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🇨🇦😭😭😭 I hope you’re okay? I’m so confused right now? Nick!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭 3:23
Not good for the liver or kidneys my friend. Praying for you brother 🙏
Anyone able to check in on him? The fact this video is still up is disconcerting.
I honestly thought he would have deleted this by now. I certainly would have an probably made a video or community post or something. Unless he was so messed up he doesn't remember it
I’m really worried about Nick & I agree with you, the fact that it’s still up is telling me that he hasn’t checked his phone or whatever other device he’s using to know he recorded this Livestream! Omggg every time I come back & see it still here really hurts me. I wonder who he’s talking to? A pet dog or a cat? At 6:05 he’s clearly saying sit down, kiss me, thank you, I love you. Do you think someone else is there with him? God I’m praying that Nick is ok?! 😭😭😭😭😭🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼♥️🇨🇦 8:19
@@susansuarez343 nitrous can make you hallucinate
@@CasualtiesOfGaming I keep checking back to see if he's taken down this video and still nothing. I don't even know his last name or where he lives. Really hoping he's OK and still with us.
@TheJoncic Well he's got a Facebook group and he was just active in the group chat so he's still around. Beyond that I wouldn't know
Hi Susan. The only e-mail I got was the one asking if I got your email. How's everything going? Mark
Just remember Nick, you've been through a lot and NOW is not the time to give up. Most of us that watch your progress have been through tough times also. I did 2 1/2 years ago. And i had a miraculous recovery. Nick, remember "when the going gets tough, the tough get going".
@@markminer4685 Congratulations Mark, I’m so happy for you! I know that Nick has been through a lot & his denial for Disability hit him hard. He did have another date scheduled for his appeal & I fear that it didn’t go his way. I can’t imagine what he’s going through now. I’m praying that he’s ok but since this video is still up on RUclips, it really worries me. I’m trying to stay positive & think positive but somewhere in the back of my mind something is telling me that he’s not ok & he needs help! Where is Kerri? I really hope we hear from Nick soon. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼♥️♥️♥️🇨🇦
Good evening Susan. Applying for Social Security-Disability. It took me the second time to get it. I got hurt when I slipped on the ice and tore my shoulder up. Had it operated on, but it was unsuccessful. I can only lift my hand level with my elbow. I needed that reach above my head, as I was a Journeyman Power Lineman and a lot of work involved I could no longer do. I took retirement after 40 years as a Lineman. This was before I learned I had chirrosis. I finally got a lawyer involved. Fast forward to January 2022. Wasn't feeling good, and I really couldn't my finger on it. Finally I went to the University of Colorado branch hospital here in my town. After all of the C-T, MRI, blood work etc. the Doc came in and said you are going to Denver to nite. I was going by chopper, but a bad blizzard was going on so the chopper couldn't fly. I went by ground to Anschutz. They are a teaching hospital, branch of University of Colorado Med School. They said I was to get my TIPPS Proceedure early the next morning. It never hit me until the Doc said my chances were 50-50. I pulled through. I was in from that Friday nite until Tuesday. They called me the "Miracle Man". They put me under the care of a Hepatlogist. Gave me all kins of prescriptions. I had a bought with HE last spring. Gave me Laculose. I no longer need it. 6months ago they took me off of Insulin completely. I'm not even in the pre-diabetic stage anymore. The scans came back and the Doc said-numbers are well improved, and she is no longer concerned about my liver! Go in 6 months for routine labs and scans. I feel that the guy upstairs was looking after me. I haven't had a drink since Feb. of 2022. I quit cold turkey. Didn't go to AA meetings or anything else. The only thing I drink is Budweiser 00. It looks like beer, tastes like beer, but 0 alcohol contant.
Sorry I was long winded, but it kind of sets the stage involving Nick. Unfortunately I think things were going on that he never really talked about on his video posts. Where was that gal that was staying with him? Now he needed support from her since she was the closest to him. Don't leave him to fight this by himself. If I lived closer to him I would go see him and spell it out to him. How did he get the Nitrous Oxide that we heard in the background? I presume it was that with the hissing sounds we heard. Is he thinking suicide? It's too bad that there isn't someone who follows his U-Tube videos that could check in on him. Unfortunately I too have a bad gut feeling about Nick. We will see I guess. If you ever want to discuss so it doesn't go on the web site. My personal e-mail is markminer07@gmail.com. have a good evening.
Mark
@@markminer4685 Hey Mark, I’m so happy for you & that your health is so much better! I think that you were lucky in the fact that you got the right medical treatment when you did & you had the right medical team caring for your health! What a blessing! 🙏🏼
I don’t know what happened to Kerri, his girlfriend. She really helped him come back to life when the Doctor said he only had 3 months to live & sent him home. I would always tell Nick to say hi to Kerri from me but he never said anything in return in his messages back to me which I thought was odd but I didn’t press the issue since it’s his personal private life so I just assumed he didn’t want to say anything. I too think things were going on as well but I always stayed positive & didn’t want to think negatively.
I don’t know what he was doing in his Livestream but I have a feeling that someone else might’ve been there with him unless he was talking to himself? I wish that there was someone that is closer to him that could reach out to him & check up on him because I’m really worried about Nick.
I will gladly email you so we can further talk. I was diagnosed 18 months ago with stage 4 cirrhosis of the liver & I found Nick’s channel right at the same time he started so that’s why I’m so worried about him. I know that relapsing is a part of recovery & I hope that he can reach out for help before it’s too late. I will email you when I get home from my Doctors appointment. Take care & chat soon, Susan. I pray that Nick is ok but every minute that goes by without a word from him is giving me a bad feeling but I’m trying to push the negative out & just try to think positive thoughts.
Hey Mark, I sent you an email late last night, did you receive it? Just checking ok cuz it’s been a while since I sent one 🤭 hope you’re having a good day today! Cheers from sunny Toronto 🌞🇨🇦 0:02
Hopping you are well my friend?? Hang in there buddy. Still praying for you 🙏
Nick!!!!
Has anybody heard anything yet??
No. I googled his name and no obituaries or anything popped up. Hoping he's just taking a media break.
@@TheJoncic Thanks, they say he is addicted again hope he is ok ✌️
Hey Nick. I hope you’re doing well. Blessings!
What was this?
@TheJoncic well he was definitely live when he didn't mean to be. I'm not sure you want to know the rest
@@CasualtiesOfGaming yeah I gathered that much. I know what he was doing unfortunately in the video. Hoping he gets the help he needs.
@@TheJoncic I'm with you on that one.
@@TheJoncicI don’t know but I’m scared for Nick! 😭😭😭 28:23
Praying with you brother!!
Praying
Encephalopathy.
Nitris oxide
@@TheJoncicomggg 😭😭😭 29:58
This is what I am thinking too
@@TheJoncicWhat's that?
@@ValentinaKajcinovskasome type of gas that you inhale to get high but I’m not 100% sure, you can Google what is Nitrous oxide & find out. I didn’t because that’s what I think it is which is not good for your health, brain, lungs etc 17:19
Nick. We’ve all had days. I pray you’re ok.
It’s been 24 days since this Livestream was made & still no word from Nick. I reached out with the Facebook group but I’ve heard nothing back. I’m praying he’s okay. Thanks for your support, Susan 🇨🇦🙏🏼 5:55
@@susansuarez343 it’s definitely disturbing he just vanished. We’ve all made mistakes and I pray that’s all this was and he’s just too embarrassed to respond. We’re all only human and it’s ok to make mistakes. Without mistakes being made, we would never learn anything.
@@Shauna-z5n Yes but there was a time back when he vanished for a month or so & when he came back he said he needed a break. Anyone can understand that right? This time it’s totally different. There’s actual evidence of him using something & for me to watch it was really scary because I didn’t know if he was ok the next day?
Relapse is a part of recovery & it doesn’t matter if he used, you just start over again, it’s a process that nobody usually gets right the first time. Nothing for him to feel bad about, It’s a Disease & it’s a daily battle to stay clean & sober. I just wish he would come back to his channel & see this Livestream up there & take it down!! I can’t believe that the number of views keeps on growing?!
I reached out to him on Facebook last week but I haven’t received any response from him. I will continue to pray for Nick & hope he comes back soon! So worried from Toronto Canada 🇨🇦🙏🏼🤞🏼♥️
@@susansuarez343 I agree. The video was absolutely terrifying. I couldn’t sleep at all that night and wasn’t sure what to think. I pray he’s ok. Please keep us updated if you hear from him. I also agree starting over is the right choice. Sobriety is a battle everyone of us that have these addictions.
@@Shauna-z5n Hi Shauna! I feel the same way as you! I tried again today to message him on Facebook so I’m anxiously waiting to hear back from him! I joined Facebook specifically so that I could join his Facebook group on liver disease & he responded on Aug 26th saying to me welcome Susan!
I know he’s okay but I don’t know why he hasn’t been on his RUclips channel? I’m almost certain he doesn’t know that the Livestream is up on his channel so if reaches out to me I’ll let him know about it so he can take it down. It was so heartbreaking for me to watch & hear him as I didn’t know what he was doing until someone else told me & I was just worried about him. I’ve been following his channel from day 1 & I know all about addiction so I could never judge him but just want him to know that I’m here to support him on his journey.
1 day at a time & it’s a lifelong struggle when you’re dealing with a disease & I know there’s some people that judge but it’s because they don’t know themselves what it’s like. I will definitely let you know if I reach him but if I do & he takes this down then I won’t be able to post a message. Let’s just pray 🙏🏼 he gets back to me soon!
Thank you for your kind message 🙏🏼♥️🇨🇦 Susan!
Oh no! Nick! Are you okay my friend? What is happening? Where is Kerri? Nick I’m gonna pray for you 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼♥️♥️♥️🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🇨🇦😭😭😭 I hope you’re okay? I’m so confused right now? Nick!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭 3:23