Month 4 - Why I Keep Coming Back

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  • Опубликовано: 7 фев 2025
  • Attempting to capture the emotions felt in the last days of a hitch.

Комментарии • 64

  • @NoName-zn1sb
    @NoName-zn1sb Год назад +4

    Reminds me of Saigon, 1968. When I got home I had no family. I'll get over it soon.

  • @indylovelace
    @indylovelace Год назад +10

    Wow, that was powerful. Thanks for letting us in. Vulnerability is strength.

  • @JohnBare747
    @JohnBare747 Год назад +6

    Such genuine emotion. At one point there you had a most blissful peaceful contented look on your face contemplating seeing our loved ones, and then the tears came. Thanks for sharing this very personal moment, it grabbed my heart for your safe return.

  • @donstor1
    @donstor1 Год назад +3

    Yea, be glad that you family to see when you get home. It is real hard when you get home and no one is here. Just wait until its time to go back out.

  • @kenmunozatmmrrailroad6853
    @kenmunozatmmrrailroad6853 4 месяца назад +1

    As a father to a daughter, or, just an old guy to youth, I loved how you told this story and the genuiness in which you did. Sidebar: as a long haul commercial driver I can relate to some of your feelings and it’s a perk of the job isn’t it. Great video!

  • @shooter575
    @shooter575 Год назад +4

    Maddie, you are a strong woman. I am proud to know you through your video blogs. Can't wait until the next chapter. 🙂

  • @seatanker
    @seatanker Год назад +1

    Thanks for reminding me why I switched to smaller vessels ie tugs and yachts after 10 miserable years of dealing with this. It's been a year and a half since I've done a ship contract, never again. Ships are prison, you are floating your life away in bum fuck nowhere. The things you were thought you'd get to experience, adventures in far off regions, etc it was all a lie. Cities usually don't put their ports in the best part of town, taxi mafias scamming you worldwide, and you still are on shitty watch schedules. It ends up you suffering for money, and money is inconsequential in the grand scheme. You can make the same, if not more sometimes working inland.

    • @m.leinewolczko
      @m.leinewolczko  Год назад +1

      Great perspective -- it's definitely not for everyone.

  • @captsam54
    @captsam54 Год назад +3

    Damn Maddie.. you bring a tear to me one eye...

  • @mattc.310
    @mattc.310 Год назад +1

    Good deal you have a name, a place, and a date. Thanks for sharing this news and a part of you with us out here in the ether. What a journey.

  • @brentnorum4374
    @brentnorum4374 Год назад +4

    Congrats on knowing you're relieved! You are a courageous and gutsy woman! My hat is off to you! Truly inspiring!

  • @Forrest-Jackson
    @Forrest-Jackson Год назад +1

    I had an old nasty-ass sailor tell me when I was on my first hitch that "we're always sailing on our last ship." It stuck with me because I took it to mean that we're always reacting to our current ship with the expectations that the inevitable avalanches of bullshit will fall down the same mountains, in the same ways, as it did on our last one.
    Yes... yes I did just mix my metaphors. That was a bonus. 🤣
    Thank you for sharing this, Maddie... It's poetry. I felt exactly what your feeling just watching it and that's some pretty powerful stuff.

  • @joewilliamson5597
    @joewilliamson5597 Год назад +2

    "the biggest relief".

  • @darkhill556
    @darkhill556 Год назад +1

    Thank you so much for sharing this! You are such a source of encouragment and an inspiration. I wish more people had your sense of purpose. Hope you have a great time between contracts!

  • @jeromewelch7409
    @jeromewelch7409 Год назад +2

    Wolczko" Cries ?" Who knew? 😃..Agape! Maddie …..Safe Travels Sister!

    • @m.leinewolczko
      @m.leinewolczko  Год назад +2

      I cry quite a lot! Haha life is too beautiful to not 🥹😁

  • @richardb7726
    @richardb7726 Год назад +1

    nice video, as always. Thank you
    In years to come you will be sitting with friends and family, looking around, listening to someone talking about some ‘problem’ at work, in their life or relationship etc
    And you will think “problems….you really have absolutely have no f-ing clue what you are talking about..when I was..”
    Just pause and realise, your suffering now is your strength later

    • @m.leinewolczko
      @m.leinewolczko  Год назад

      I like to stay on the track of relativity. My life isn't as difficult as the next guy, yadda yadda, but some of these things are difficult relative to my life prior. Same with others who live comfortably in comparison to me. Maybe a trip to the grocery store is difficult for some. Empathy is really the point, feeling some other person instead of comparing

    • @richardb7726
      @richardb7726 Год назад

      @@m.leinewolczko very true and I will try to be more empathetic in the future, rather than comparing. All problems are relative🙂
      Not saying it’s going to be easy though - you’ve not met some of my sister’s friends !

  • @chuckboyle8456
    @chuckboyle8456 Год назад +1

    Superb introspection, discussion & presentation of your accomplishments at sea in a very challenging assignment. Well done. Thank you for bringing us into your beautiful life. The best news is your not in a Chinese shipyard. Safe journey home shipmate! Carry on!

  • @VeroVideoPro
    @VeroVideoPro Год назад +1

    Heave Ho
    It’s off to home we go!
    &
    How sweet it is
    Because you’ve done the Good work
    Now deserve to
    Reel in - The Good Times .
    Safe all the way .
    Cheers !

  • @Tangent099
    @Tangent099 Год назад +2

    I am so happy for you.

  • @redcauthen771
    @redcauthen771 Год назад +2

    Kind a tuff cruise, this trip didn’t seem to have a lot of Liberty calls. 🎉🎉❤ Ya playing to much Secret Squirrel Shit. 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪

    • @m.leinewolczko
      @m.leinewolczko  Год назад

      Haha unfortunately that's the name of the game this hitch

  • @carlystewart9162
    @carlystewart9162 Год назад

    You cry makes me cry. Always happy to have you return home safe after working hard on an adventure.

  • @scottjones5221
    @scottjones5221 Год назад +2

    ❤ EPIC ❤ EPIC ❤

  • @Vitiuxa
    @Vitiuxa 7 месяцев назад

    Thank you for sharing your emotions. The longer contracts you work at sea, the stronger these feelings are. I work 4-6 week contracts since a few years ago. I wish you find something similar as well. It is a sweet spot, in my opinion.

    • @m.leinewolczko
      @m.leinewolczko  7 месяцев назад +1

      I've been doing some shorter stints myself this year and it's definitely better 🙌

  • @timothywalker4563
    @timothywalker4563 Год назад +2

    I can imagine your folks thinking Maddie is coming home but for you does that feeling start to kick in when you go down the gangway😊

    • @m.leinewolczko
      @m.leinewolczko  Год назад

      Never really feels real until I wake up kn the first flight home 😁

  • @chrisvandecar4676
    @chrisvandecar4676 Год назад +2

    I can’t imagine how you wouldn’t have some bad flashbacks to being stuck on the last ship. Probably normal, also probably healthy that you can talk about it and not keep it bottled up😃

  • @mikeizzano172
    @mikeizzano172 Год назад +1

    Glad you feel all the emotions associated with what you do . I have a sense of it ,although my time away was military the end result is the same . It makes you feel alive , and your right it’s hard to put into words .calm seas and fair winds my friend hope to hear from you when you have time !..
    🤟

  • @danvanderhyde4009
    @danvanderhyde4009 Год назад +3

    You're a good egg Madeleine

  • @robertvogt5606
    @robertvogt5606 Год назад +1

    Have a cigar ! Welcome home.

  • @domeslacker
    @domeslacker Год назад +2

    Ah yes, officially a short timer. Let that channel fever wash over you.

  • @loislane5092
    @loislane5092 Год назад +2

    Nice video.
    I have two questions:
    1) having watched your other videos from this contract, it seemed this turn was every educational for you, seeing how you had to take on tasks that one normally associates with AB-ratings on larger ships. Not that you didn't know how to do them before, but just from the general "responsible for tons of stuff" perspective. Is this correct?
    2) What are the eye-sight requirements for watch officers? I recently read that they were 20/20, but your glasses seem to be a little strong. Am I mistaken, or is the 20/20 requirement "with/after correction"?
    (I actually also have a question about the "restricted to ship" period, but will wait a while with that one.)

    • @m.leinewolczko
      @m.leinewolczko  Год назад

      1) Most of my learning was of the ship's systems and how much had to be done manually-- cargo hatch covers, working cranes, ballast system, etc. We all seemed to take on tasks well outside our usual range on this vessel. You learn a lot having to trace systems, etc.

    • @m.leinewolczko
      @m.leinewolczko  Год назад

      2) Eyesight requirements are 20/40 corrected, and 20/200 not corrected. You also can't be colorblind.
      And yes, I am quite blind. But I wear contacts and have two pairs of extra glasses with me at work as well. This satisfies USCG requirement

    • @m.leinewolczko
      @m.leinewolczko  Год назад

      Feel free to ask about the RTS period.

  • @chairrockfarms1337
    @chairrockfarms1337 Год назад

    Well I hope you got to eat some of the street food in Singapore....Welcome home!

  • @ralhmcc47
    @ralhmcc47 Год назад +2

    was your contract for 90 days?

  • @edshelden7590
    @edshelden7590 Год назад +1

    You had a contract of X Days. Do you get paid more for the extending the contract X+N$???. I can understand the residual PSD from the last ship ordeal. But hey you have one of the most unique jobs in the world. ...and you do not have to drive to work everyday😁

    • @m.leinewolczko
      @m.leinewolczko  Год назад +1

      No extra pay for additional days. You just keep getting paid the same