i hope the logical, non-anxiety part of your brain knows that we love and support you and will wait but would also watch a 'boring' or 'mundane' video and love it
Nicole, no matter what you film (even if it is “boring”) I’ll watch it. I love you videos, and I am so happy that you said you are going to make content you love and want to make. Also, I love the little microphone. I don’t know why, but it just makes me so happy.
I second this. Nicole, we love you for YOU! Even videos that you might consider "boring," we love so much. Watching your videos makes me so happy. Keep doing you girl, your worries are so not true!❤
The fact that almost every youtuber I have watched at some point has mentioned how terrible the ranking system in YT Studio is for their mental health, and yet youtube instead is like "we removed dislikes to help youtuber's mental well beings 😊"
“Why would people care what I have to say?” Is a thought that plagues my mind every day since I was a child. From creating my own work to leaving comments like this I shut myself down before anyone else can. Thanks for this video miss nasty
we are growing as you are growing. our taste and personalities are also maturing. we don’t want 19 year old nicole, we want current nicole putting out videos that make her happy.
a good thing to remember is that every recurring viewer is here not because of the video topics but because you are the one presenting the topics, personally I like to watch your videos as something to relax to and play video games, the content I enjoy from you is what you're best at which is being yourself and I have the feeling that this sentiment is shared throughout your community
The mini microphone makes me so happy 😭 your hair was such a power move ma’am I’m so glad we are both gingers I have covid rn and your video are getting me through it 😭 hope you’re okay and taking care of yourself love you so much
as a 17 year old i myself am scared of me like i have absolutely no idea where im going in life i just want to enjoy whatever it is. ive been watching your videos for almost 3 years now, and in that time i feel like ive grown with u. its been inspiring and has even made me want to pursue filming (more of a hobby) not that i have a phD in film or whatever but maybe that would help you feel more free to make what u want without the stress of pleasing everyone, its your professional hobby.
Get what you’re saying. I think when some people use the term ‘hobby’ it can be a bit condescending, though. Hobby usually means a private personal activity that isn’t shared or promoted to others. Which is fine. It’s also okay to try to build an interest into an occupation that can also support you. I think the term ‘interest’ shows others that you’re taking something more seriously.
@@Paul-cj2dy yea totally, thats why i added professional to it yk bc shes taking something that she uses to express herself and make a living off of. its good to have balance and not over do either side.
okay this is just what I need. I'm at my college dorm and having a mental breakdown since monday. Thanks for saving my whole week and making it better! ❤️
my new year's resolution is to fucking kick ass in my a levels bc you know what, i have BEEN to therapy and i AM mentally healthy (mostly lmao) and i DO have an offer from oxford and i am going to SMASH my exams
babes if you were not evolving i would be worried for you (": i think you are doing great girly do not force yourself to make videos if you don't want to, we'll still be here!
I'm literally having an existential crisis rn and watching this makes me feel like me and my 2 brain cells interacting. extremely comforting love you!!
Remember your audience no matter what will have to grow and evolve with you, even if that means you lose some people. That’s okay, you’ll gain some too. I started watching you while in college, and then I graduated and moved out also, and now I’m more interested to see what that transition looks like for you as well. We are evolving and getting older as individuals too, and naturally that will change the content we wanna see. You can’t make everyone happy but if you’re making yourself happy then the right audience will gravitate to you. Also this is very random but hear me out, I remember you mentioning in a prior video that your mom worked as a housekeeper so you learned how to clean growing up. Now that you have your own place have you ever considered doing cleaning type videos? Whether that’s like cleaning 101 or just clean-with-me videos where people can hang out and do their laundry with you or some shit. It’s something I’m interested in seeing more now as a neurodivergent person who never learned how to keep a tidy space growing up (and I also potentially have OCD), so I’m growing a liking to see how other people do basic life things. You seem to enjoy routines and making your space something you’re proud of, and I think a lot of people actually like home maintenance type videos, they can be sort of comforting. Ok now that I feel kind of stupid writing an essay to a stranger on the internet I’ll stop. Just know that a lot of people will continue to watch whatever you want to make ✨
uhmm what the heck, every time im getting in my head about things i somehow find your video whether its now just posted an hour ago, or from 7 months ago,, they ALWAYS resonate with what im feeling. i definitely feel stuck kn my teen years as well, im 22 and havent moved forward in life at all just trying to get my physical health and mental health better,, idek where i wanna go in life or who i am at this point. idk i could say alot but i love u so much, i feel your headspace and youre not alone in that feeling as a creator vs just a person hanging with ppl "putting on an old persona" 💕thanks for your honesty and i love literally anything u would make, even if its just trying different cereal💕
As a fellow 22 year old having a breakdown and feeling completely disconnected from who I have always been and scaled to set the boundaries to prioritize current me- I feel like this has embodied all of my feelings. It’s rough out here at 22 where is the support group for us Covid baddies who have slipped into the existential void during our self discovery years.
ugh I felt this, as soon as you feel as you’re moderately okay and doing better you’re not as interesting or funny as before because you would joke about your issues. But listening to you talk about it made it make sense, and no matter what you post Nikki it’ll be fun to watch because that’s just who you are. A fun, silly goofy soul. ur awesome
This video was honestly very comforting to watch because I've been in a very similar emotional place and so it was almost therapeutic to hear you just talk everything out in a very stream of consciousness kind of way. Also if you feel comfortable sharing I would love to hear what the medication is that has been helping with your OCD is because I've been wanting to go on meds for my own OCD again but it's a little daunting to just go through that all those weeks of trials before landing on the right fit. It's always nice to actually hear someone's firsthand experiences with a medication instead of just reading about their side effects and effectiveness on Wikipedia.
Thank you so much for this video. I recently have been “fighting some demons” that i feel like have been slapping me in the face over and over to get myself to truly stop worrying about every little thing. I can tell I’m on the “turnaround” like you if that’s even the right phrase, but I’m making progress in short! And seeing this video, I just wanted to say that you’re doing things right and that I am with you on this and I hear you and I support you
I love and appreciate current Nicole! Being 2 years behind you academically and seeing you navigate life after college makes me so much more less anxious about the future and excited for what’s next. Even if you think it’s boring it’s so helpful and enjoyable.
past self being dead? holy hell, i think i just had a breakthrough. thank you for this kind of vulnerability. honestly, hearing someone else talk through thoughts like these is incredibly validating. gonna go journal now. or watch midsommar.
These raw and honest chats are what I live for from you, im also 22 and going through similar things and feelings so its nice to hear someone of my age expressing their thoughts and feelings, makes me feel calmer Yano
I think every person on RUclips evolves and changes their content with time and I also know that change sometimes can be scary and yt algorithm sometimes doesn't like change at first but sometimes it also can like it and boost certain youtuber. My point is that you should do you and if you're happy with that there will always be people that'll be happy because of you too.
I'm so proud of you and how far you have come , every single video no matter if you think it's "not interesting " makes my day and probably so many other people's days , you have helped me through so much and I am so grateful that I found u at the start of lockdown else I don't think I'd be where i am today. And I agree with everything , just do what YOU want to do and don't worry about anyone else just know how to make yourself proud, even though you will always make all of us proud no matter what you do , ilysm
Dude just being so eloquent and honest about your feelings on camera is in my eyes a strength and a skill that I want to have, and yes, growing up and becoming calm doesn’t mean that life now is going to be boring and monotonous, it simply is a shift and really helps to figure out and focus on what one wants or wants to really work upon. Love your videos Nicole❤️
i just wanna say: the first 10 seconds of the video where you just ended on this baby voice pitched already took me completely out and I laughed out loud... so... just keep doing your thing, you're amazing and funny af, love you
As a person on the internet, you're still allowed to grow and change! At this point, I'll watch literally anything you post. I know that doesn't help much, but just do your thing and we will be here!
you calling yourself “nikusha” really brought me back to my polish roots. i started watching you because you were polish :) and i continue to watch you because i genuinely enjoy your content. i will continue to watch you, especially when you make videos you enjoy :) love from ekusha (i also had an “usha” nickname”
I would just like to say that we have watched you wax your armpits so yes, we are most definitely here to support any video that you make 😂❤️ 20-25 is such a weird age and no one talks about how stressful and confusing it is once you are fresh out of college. Now that I'm getting closer to 30 things really do just start falling into place. Post whatever video that you want and we'll be here to support you!
I know personally I watch you because you are relatable. I'm 21 and feel like I have been experiencing so many of the same things you talked about in this and so I truly think I would enjoy your "boring" videos just because of the fact I like you. And I know that you said you feel like you haven't been fully yourself but I think I would still like you if you were. I also think it could be somewhat inspiring to see you be fully yourself :) It is honestly scary to be completely yourself and do what makes you happy even if you don't have an audience of people watching.
I can't wait to see what the new and healthy nichole has to offer! I'm sure whatever it is it's just as good as 19 yr old nnichole, or even better. Either way I'll watch because you're a very soothing person but also a bad ass.
nicole i love you so much, thank you for always just being you and even just being vulnerable with us. we support you in whatever you do, we just want the best for you ❤️❤️❤️
I have always appreicated you for sharing raw videos like these and parts of your life where you have down moments. There's so many influencers that only share their happiest moments or try to be happy for the sake of not letting people down or whatever their reason is. The thing is, it makes me forget that it's actually normal to not feel happy all the time and it's not weird and there's nothing wrong with me. It is just how it is, and you sharing these videos makes me feel much less alone. Any video you share I've appreicated so much because I don't watch them for the content, I just like who you are
goshh I feel this - we're constantly changing and growing!! it'd be weird if we stayed the same version of ourselves when we started or "peaked" online
Honestly, I love all of your content, I hope you get through this slump thing you're in right now because I love watching you, and watching you change feels real and makes sense. I'm of a similar age and can't imagine being even remotely similar to who I was at 19, literally film whatever makes you happy and we will all come watch!
this is your Clairo moment!! old Nikki Nasty is Immunity, and current Nicole is Sling - both great phases that deserve their own time to shine. you've grown and are growing, which is interesting in its own way! we're getting older, too 🌹
As someone who’s navigating college and living on my own, your videos are so comforting. It’s nice to see others who are going through similar things. We always appreciate your videos, no matter how “boring” they may be! 💓
I am really happy for you. You look so calm, happy and chill. And it gives me hope that after my crazy struggling time with mental health I would be there too. Girl, do your thing, don’t stop. I support you and I am waiting for this current Nicole to fully blossom and make this channel all about her 💃
i literally tell all of my friends about all of your videos because they make me so happy so i know that my words cannot change your brain chemistry but fear not because there will always be people (me) who will be so excited to watch your videos
Nikki I will watch your videos until the day that I die no matter what it is, your content is so fun to watch and I love just sitting and listening to you talk, you're one of my comfort RUclipsrs and you've helped me through a lot of mental health struggles, anxiety episodes, depressive episodes, and you also helped me feel better when I had covid. I've been subscribed to you for the past couple years or so and I feel like I've known you forever, sometimes I really wish we could be friends. But my point is, you're awesome Nicole, don't ever let that little voice in your head tell you otherwise! 💕
Not the SOFT CLOSING CABINETS 😍😍 love your content and looking forward to more videos that YOU like! Calm Nicole is a happy Nicole and that’s better for everyone ☺️
GIRL I WOULD WATCH EVERY SINGLE VIDEO IN THAT LIST but seriously you gotta do what makes you happy and not what others want you to (or what you *think* others want you to) Whatever you do, the right audience will find you. Love you
no like i feel the same way, i had a convo with my mom about how i used to be so confident and once i started university it all basically disappeared, and ever since then in every conversation i'm in my head going "be funnier" "relax" "be yourself" when in reality, that's just not me anymore. plus, i love your videos no matter what you post!!
the fact that you being vulnerable and sharing about something that's been weighing on your mind with us is only making our love, understanding and appreciatiation stronger Nicole. With all my due respect to Little Nikki, but as soemone who is growing too and constantly changing and evolving, i'd love to share my growing journey with current Nicole, so.... you go girlie ;D
I’ve been so in my head lately and this video really helped me. I really relate to you, but you also make me feel less alone. Just you talking about stuff is so great and I really thank you for that 💗
Honestly, being in my early 20’s I crave content like this! Knowing that other people are also learning to grow into themselves and figuring out who they want to be has just been so comforting for me. So idk I’ll definitely be sticking around for whatever content you’re making as long as it’s what you want to make! :)
Im 22 too and have just started working my first 'grown up' job, and am also finding it really hard to come to terms with the fact that I am an adult now and not just a silly little teenager. It always seems like everyone else has taken the whole transition into adulthood a lot better than I have, so it is really refreshing to see someone be honest for once. The videos where you just talk or do the simple things (like talking in your car on the way to get groceries etc) are always my favourite
I can relate to this video deeply . My mental health issues couldn’t be ignored anymore and I got on meds. And I am trying to build boundaries and take care of my life. May we both grow and be happy.
As someone who started watching you as a college student a few years ago I found you so relatable, but now as I’ve graduated and I’m a 20 something trying to figure out my life I find your current feelings extremely relatable too! Please feel free to make content you want, your audience will grow up and change with you. We’re here for you.
we’re around the same age and I can definitely relate to how you’re feeling I’ve also seen other youtubers struggle to evolve because they’re playing an old version of themselves. I like the saying you can’t look back while moving forward and have realized that I’ve been living in the past too, like how you said you still feel 17- so cheers to the new year and the future! Spring is actually the real new year, Aries is the first sign of the zodiac :) 🌷
You do what you need to do to be happy, taking care of yourself and your mental well being is so super important. Whatever you decide to post in the future will always be important and beautiful. Keep up the awesome work and remember to be kind to yourself! And of course, I’ll remember to be nasty and not disgusting
Literally been having the worst day and this little chat has made me feel so much better. I relate to so much you said btw like I'm not even an influencer and I get anxious over what I post on my insta story so I feel for you. Would love to see more content like this it's very relatable. Much love ❤
I’m gonna be 21 in October and I genuinely can’t believe it because my life felt like it stopped when I was 18 and I had to go to online school and I’ve basically spent everyday after that inside since. I feel like the same person, yet two years have past. I know the feeling. Also, I will watch whatever you put out, and I think you’re just as cool as you ever were. You’re really an inspiration to me and your videos are always comforting.
girl keep making videos for me!! your videos on ocd are literally the first time I have ever heard anything relatable after my diagnosis with ocd. also you are so funny!!!
Gahd I missed you, Nicole ❤️ tbh i think you will never ever film something boring, your videos always makes me feel better (no matter how many times i rewatch them).
nicole im not even joking when i say you are one of the only youtubers whose videos always excite me, even if theyre the most "boring" concept ever. like i get the notif for your videos and my day? instantly better.
This video is an exact representation of how I feel whenever I'm trying to write my first novel (I'm a writer) and it sucks every time it passes my mind. I feel like my writing isn't going to be good enough an no one will want to read them and then I'll never become a published author like I've always dreamed of since I was 8 years old (I'm 22 now) and then I feel like I graduated with the wrong major (Creative writing w a minor in film). This feeling sucks but I also know I'm in an era where I have to try anyway because what if people do want to read my novel and that voice in my head is trying to prevent my success if I listen to it. I feel like a lot of people in their 20's are also feeling this way and are trying to heal from their past to have a better future. This video was something I actually needed to see as confirmation to keep going and the decisions being made in my life are the right ones. As you said "I'm in my selfish era" (or at least that's how I remembered it lol). Being in your 20's you should be allowed to be selfish to a healthy extend because this is the decade where we have to pick up our careers and start living a life worth living instead of just existing. I'm proud of you for coming to this realization and I love all your videos and literally anything you post I'll watch it especially since we're the same age and I feel like if we went to the same college we would be good friends (but instead I went to SUNY New Paltz). I hope you make the content you love to make and are happy with the future of your youtube career 💓.
this has been probably one of the worst weeks of my life and I’m not going to lie just the title of this video made me feel better because I was like wow, I’m not the only person having mental breakdowns in random places in my house. So much love to you Nicole ❤️
nicole, i’m so grateful for the videos you make !! i have always loved your videos, and i want to stick around for whatever content you want to put out, regardless of how much you or your content changes !! cheers to the start of a new era :D
I feel WAY too seen rn 🤠 i was also dealing with restraining orders & also blacked out the entirety of November-January. HAPPY NEW YEAR 🎆 XOXO I am always so so so proud and inspired by you, babe! Enjoy your 20s bc you deserve it
I’ll be honest - I’m a small creator and I still feel this way. My “best” era on youtube was when I was in college and I haven’t been posting frequently since because of this exact feeling you’re describing. There’s a pressure there to be college me and that’s simply not the case whatsoever : ( I promise you made PERFECT sense this entire video and you’re fantastic ❤️ I love every single Nicole era!
remember that we grew up with you too!! our life’s also “got boring” if that’s what you wanna call it so it’s good to see someone we have known and love finding joy alone and being an adult
You have a huge impact on our lives, even if its just through a screen. You're the reason i found out i had OCD and am working on myself. I admire you so much Nicol, things will always progress forward, we all love and believe in you
I just started going to therapy and I think I've suffered from ocd my whole life, however I never had the chance to actually talk to a professional about it. Idk if it's ocd or not, I just know I can't keep living like this and this feeling is so scary. Watching you getting better and being more independent is such an inspiration for me bc it's something I cannot imagine myself being capable of dealing with. I'm 19 and I hope at the time I'm 20 or even 21 everything will be better 🤞🤞🤞🤞 by the way I don't even get into college yet bc my brain just cannot function, so I decided to take one more year to study and try again. Thank you so much for being vulnerable and honest with us
I will watch and enjoy anything you post, and if you make videos that make u happy n bring out your personality more authentically, I will enjoy that more bc it makes viewers feel closer and relate more. I started watching you when I was 19 and loved your content and personality, but I am now 21 and have grown with you, we’re all evolving together!
I have extreme dissociation and your description of when you're in front of a camera you black out is so real to me. I can't remember anything I've said after I've hung out with people and it sucks. I hope this new content will help you enjoy youtube again
Hey Nicole. Fellow 22 year old here. It’s really nice to hear you talk about things that I’m dealing with right now. Life is crazy and so many outside things tell us to do things that will please others, which makes us put our wants and needs on the back burner. Thanks for reminding me to put myself first. Needed this.
I don’t just love your videos, I love you as a person. That means I’m here for the long haul baby. I’d watch a video of you zoning out while driving for 2 hours just because I want to support you. You deserve it, pal
you are not boring! you could literally post a video of you just looking at the camera for 10 minutes and i’ll still watch. we watch you because you are real and you don’t fake who you are for views. we love you Nicole, no matter what your content is!
i hope the logical, non-anxiety part of your brain knows that we love and support you and will wait but would also watch a 'boring' or 'mundane' video and love it
you are too kind helen ❤️
@@NicoleRafiee
i second your message, helen :)
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So do i!! ❤️
Nicole, no matter what you film (even if it is “boring”) I’ll watch it. I love you videos, and I am so happy that you said you are going to make content you love and want to make. Also, I love the little microphone. I don’t know why, but it just makes me so happy.
I second this. Nicole, we love you for YOU! Even videos that you might consider "boring," we love so much. Watching your videos makes me so happy. Keep doing you girl, your worries are so not true!❤
this came just in time bc i'm having a breakdown under my desk and i was looking at something to watch and feel better
i hope you feel better ❤️
Same man same
also just had a break down on my floor 🤪🥹
the line "mommy starts recording, bowels start turning" killed me.
The fact that almost every youtuber I have watched at some point has mentioned how terrible the ranking system in YT Studio is for their mental health, and yet youtube instead is like "we removed dislikes to help youtuber's mental well beings 😊"
anD YT STUDIO STILL SHOWS US DISLIKES
“Why would people care what I have to say?” Is a thought that plagues my mind every day since I was a child. From creating my own work to leaving comments like this I shut myself down before anyone else can. Thanks for this video miss nasty
jajajja no its the same but its ok if you feel ok with yourself about 30s i mean ;)
@@daianaarazi22 lol it’s like when I was 13 and thought being 23 would be the best thing ever
I just wanna be in my 30s 😫
In my 30s and it still sucks
@@dejah2553 sorry to hear that! hope ur 40s rock
we are growing as you are growing.
our taste and personalities are also maturing.
we don’t want 19 year old nicole, we want current nicole putting out videos that make her happy.
This ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
a good thing to remember is that every recurring viewer is here not because of the video topics but because you are the one presenting the topics, personally I like to watch your videos as something to relax to and play video games, the content I enjoy from you is what you're best at which is being yourself and I have the feeling that this sentiment is shared throughout your community
The mini microphone makes me so happy 😭 your hair was such a power move ma’am I’m so glad we are both gingers
I have covid rn and your video are getting me through it 😭 hope you’re okay and taking care of yourself love you so much
get well soon!!!
The only RUclipsr I relate to 😭😭 love your chaotic energy. Can’t wait till your tote bags are back in stock 💜💜
I've been following you for a year now (more or less I'm not sure), and I'm not lying when I say you are my comfort content creator
ilyt!!!
Your viewers are growing WITH YOU!! ♥️ Change is good. And "boring" videos and vlogs are honestly so much more interesting/comforting to watch
When I worked at chilis we would have a collective scream in the walk in cooler and it actually helped so much. Highly recommend.
as a 17 year old i myself am scared of me like i have absolutely no idea where im going in life i just want to enjoy whatever it is. ive been watching your videos for almost 3 years now, and in that time i feel like ive grown with u. its been inspiring and has even made me want to pursue filming (more of a hobby) not that i have a phD in film or whatever but maybe that would help you feel more free to make what u want without the stress of pleasing everyone, its your professional hobby.
Get what you’re saying. I think when some people use the term ‘hobby’ it can be a bit condescending, though. Hobby usually means a private personal activity that isn’t shared or promoted to others. Which is fine. It’s also okay to try to build an interest into an occupation that can also support you. I think the term ‘interest’ shows others that you’re taking something more seriously.
@@Paul-cj2dy yea totally, thats why i added professional to it yk bc shes taking something that she uses to express herself and make a living off of. its good to have balance and not over do either side.
okay this is just what I need. I'm at my college dorm and having a mental breakdown since monday. Thanks for saving my whole week and making it better! ❤️
my new year's resolution is to fucking kick ass in my a levels bc you know what, i have BEEN to therapy and i AM mentally healthy (mostly lmao) and i DO have an offer from oxford and i am going to SMASH my exams
in the same position - good luck you will be amazing!!
@@gracetheleopard7483 so will you bestie we got this
babes if you were not evolving i would be worried for you (": i think you are doing great girly do not force yourself to make videos if you don't want to, we'll still be here!
I'm literally having an existential crisis rn and watching this makes me feel like me and my 2 brain cells interacting. extremely comforting love you!!
Remember your audience no matter what will have to grow and evolve with you, even if that means you lose some people. That’s okay, you’ll gain some too. I started watching you while in college, and then I graduated and moved out also, and now I’m more interested to see what that transition looks like for you as well. We are evolving and getting older as individuals too, and naturally that will change the content we wanna see. You can’t make everyone happy but if you’re making yourself happy then the right audience will gravitate to you.
Also this is very random but hear me out, I remember you mentioning in a prior video that your mom worked as a housekeeper so you learned how to clean growing up. Now that you have your own place have you ever considered doing cleaning type videos? Whether that’s like cleaning 101 or just clean-with-me videos where people can hang out and do their laundry with you or some shit. It’s something I’m interested in seeing more now as a neurodivergent person who never learned how to keep a tidy space growing up (and I also potentially have OCD), so I’m growing a liking to see how other people do basic life things.
You seem to enjoy routines and making your space something you’re proud of, and I think a lot of people actually like home maintenance type videos, they can be sort of comforting.
Ok now that I feel kind of stupid writing an essay to a stranger on the internet I’ll stop. Just know that a lot of people will continue to watch whatever you want to make ✨
uhmm what the heck, every time im getting in my head about things i somehow find your video whether its now just posted an hour ago, or from 7 months ago,, they ALWAYS resonate with what im feeling. i definitely feel stuck kn my teen years as well, im 22 and havent moved forward in life at all just trying to get my physical health and mental health better,, idek where i wanna go in life or who i am at this point. idk i could say alot but i love u so much, i feel your headspace and youre not alone in that feeling as a creator vs just a person hanging with ppl "putting on an old persona" 💕thanks for your honesty and i love literally anything u would make, even if its just trying different cereal💕
being in my early 20s has been very difficult for me but creators like you keep me going. thank you for keeping it real.
As a fellow 22 year old having a breakdown and feeling completely disconnected from who I have always been and scaled to set the boundaries to prioritize current me- I feel like this has embodied all of my feelings. It’s rough out here at 22 where is the support group for us Covid baddies who have slipped into the existential void during our self discovery years.
ugh I felt this, as soon as you feel as you’re moderately okay and doing better you’re not as interesting or funny as before because you would joke about your issues. But listening to you talk about it made it make sense, and no matter what you post Nikki it’ll be fun to watch because that’s just who you are. A fun, silly goofy soul. ur awesome
This video was honestly very comforting to watch because I've been in a very similar emotional place and so it was almost therapeutic to hear you just talk everything out in a very stream of consciousness kind of way. Also if you feel comfortable sharing I would love to hear what the medication is that has been helping with your OCD is because I've been wanting to go on meds for my own OCD again but it's a little daunting to just go through that all those weeks of trials before landing on the right fit. It's always nice to actually hear someone's firsthand experiences with a medication instead of just reading about their side effects and effectiveness on Wikipedia.
I've been struggling a lot with my OCD lately, and it makes me happy (and hopeful) to see medication working for you.
Thank you so much for this video. I recently have been “fighting some demons” that i feel like have been slapping me in the face over and over to get myself to truly stop worrying about every little thing. I can tell I’m on the “turnaround” like you if that’s even the right phrase, but I’m making progress in short! And seeing this video, I just wanted to say that you’re doing things right and that I am with you on this and I hear you and I support you
I love and appreciate current Nicole! Being 2 years behind you academically and seeing you navigate life after college makes me so much more less anxious about the future and excited for what’s next. Even if you think it’s boring it’s so helpful and enjoyable.
past self being dead? holy hell, i think i just had a breakthrough. thank you for this kind of vulnerability. honestly, hearing someone else talk through thoughts like these is incredibly validating.
gonna go journal now. or watch midsommar.
These raw and honest chats are what I live for from you, im also 22 and going through similar things and feelings so its nice to hear someone of my age expressing their thoughts and feelings, makes me feel calmer Yano
I think every person on RUclips evolves and changes their content with time and I also know that change sometimes can be scary and yt algorithm sometimes doesn't like change at first but sometimes it also can like it and boost certain youtuber. My point is that you should do you and if you're happy with that there will always be people that'll be happy because of you too.
I'm so proud of you and how far you have come , every single video no matter if you think it's "not interesting " makes my day and probably so many other people's days , you have helped me through so much and I am so grateful that I found u at the start of lockdown else I don't think I'd be where i am today. And I agree with everything , just do what YOU want to do and don't worry about anyone else just know how to make yourself proud, even though you will always make all of us proud no matter what you do , ilysm
Dude just being so eloquent and honest about your feelings on camera is in my eyes a strength and a skill that I want to have, and yes, growing up and becoming calm doesn’t mean that life now is going to be boring and monotonous, it simply is a shift and really helps to figure out and focus on what one wants or wants to really work upon. Love your videos Nicole❤️
i just wanna say: the first 10 seconds of the video where you just ended on this baby voice pitched already took me completely out and I laughed out loud... so... just keep doing your thing, you're amazing and funny af, love you
Nicole is the best human being ever and the funkiest one, NOT GONNA LIE AT ALL!!
As a person on the internet, you're still allowed to grow and change! At this point, I'll watch literally anything you post. I know that doesn't help much, but just do your thing and we will be here!
you calling yourself “nikusha” really brought me back to my polish roots. i started watching you because you were polish :) and i continue to watch you because i genuinely enjoy your content. i will continue to watch you, especially when you make videos you enjoy :) love from ekusha (i also had an “usha” nickname”
I would just like to say that we have watched you wax your armpits so yes, we are most definitely here to support any video that you make 😂❤️ 20-25 is such a weird age and no one talks about how stressful and confusing it is once you are fresh out of college. Now that I'm getting closer to 30 things really do just start falling into place. Post whatever video that you want and we'll be here to support you!
I know personally I watch you because you are relatable. I'm 21 and feel like I have been experiencing so many of the same things you talked about in this and so I truly think I would enjoy your "boring" videos just because of the fact I like you. And I know that you said you feel like you haven't been fully yourself but I think I would still like you if you were. I also think it could be somewhat inspiring to see you be fully yourself :) It is honestly scary to be completely yourself and do what makes you happy even if you don't have an audience of people watching.
I can't wait to see what the new and healthy nichole has to offer! I'm sure whatever it is it's just as good as 19 yr old nnichole, or even better. Either way I'll watch because you're a very soothing person but also a bad ass.
glad your prioritizing content that makes you happy 🥰 also your viewers are growing with you too. excited to see where u go from here!
nicole i love you so much, thank you for always just being you and even just being vulnerable with us. we support you in whatever you do, we just want the best for you ❤️❤️❤️
I have always appreicated you for sharing raw videos like these and parts of your life where you have down moments. There's so many influencers that only share their happiest moments or try to be happy for the sake of not letting people down or whatever their reason is. The thing is, it makes me forget that it's actually normal to not feel happy all the time and it's not weird and there's nothing wrong with me. It is just how it is, and you sharing these videos makes me feel much less alone. Any video you share I've appreicated so much because I don't watch them for the content, I just like who you are
goshh I feel this - we're constantly changing and growing!! it'd be weird if we stayed the same version of ourselves when we started or "peaked" online
I needed this video thanks for making me feel validated
Honestly, I love all of your content, I hope you get through this slump thing you're in right now because I love watching you, and watching you change feels real and makes sense. I'm of a similar age and can't imagine being even remotely similar to who I was at 19, literally film whatever makes you happy and we will all come watch!
this is your Clairo moment!! old Nikki Nasty is Immunity, and current Nicole is Sling - both great phases that deserve their own time to shine. you've grown and are growing, which is interesting in its own way! we're getting older, too 🌹
this was such a nice way to put it (i love clairo & her music
As someone who’s navigating college and living on my own, your videos are so comforting. It’s nice to see others who are going through similar things. We always appreciate your videos, no matter how “boring” they may be! 💓
I am really happy for you. You look so calm, happy and chill. And it gives me hope that after my crazy struggling time with mental health I would be there too. Girl, do your thing, don’t stop. I support you and I am waiting for this current Nicole to fully blossom and make this channel all about her 💃
love how i’m only 2 mins in and nicole has already made like 10 different animal calls
watching this while knitting my silly little yellow gloves
As a content creator this video really helped me I’ve been experiencing that black out feeling a lot lately
i will be binge comfort watching you as i currently get through my break up
i literally tell all of my friends about all of your videos because they make me so happy so i know that my words cannot change your brain chemistry but fear not because there will always be people (me) who will be so excited to watch your videos
i have been thinking a lot about what you said, i know that i'm 22 but most of the time i feel as i was 18/19.... i can totally relate with you
ALSO, i love yout little videos, with little embarrasing stories that make us feel little better, you are so kind and iconic. We love u
Nikki I will watch your videos until the day that I die no matter what it is, your content is so fun to watch and I love just sitting and listening to you talk, you're one of my comfort RUclipsrs and you've helped me through a lot of mental health struggles, anxiety episodes, depressive episodes, and you also helped me feel better when I had covid. I've been subscribed to you for the past couple years or so and I feel like I've known you forever, sometimes I really wish we could be friends. But my point is, you're awesome Nicole, don't ever let that little voice in your head tell you otherwise! 💕
no bc i NEED the communal screaming scene from midsommar i totally get it now
Not the SOFT CLOSING CABINETS 😍😍 love your content and looking forward to more videos that YOU like! Calm Nicole is a happy Nicole and that’s better for everyone ☺️
GIRL I WOULD WATCH EVERY SINGLE VIDEO IN THAT LIST but seriously you gotta do what makes you happy and not what others want you to (or what you *think* others want you to)
Whatever you do, the right audience will find you.
Love you
no like i feel the same way, i had a convo with my mom about how i used to be so confident and once i started university it all basically disappeared, and ever since then in every conversation i'm in my head going "be funnier" "relax" "be yourself" when in reality, that's just not me anymore. plus, i love your videos no matter what you post!!
the fact that you being vulnerable and sharing about something that's been weighing on your mind with us is only making our love, understanding and appreciatiation stronger Nicole. With all my due respect to Little Nikki, but as soemone who is growing too and constantly changing and evolving, i'd love to share my growing journey with current Nicole, so.... you go girlie ;D
I’ve been so in my head lately and this video really helped me. I really relate to you, but you also make me feel less alone. Just you talking about stuff is so great and I really thank you for that 💗
take your time nikuś! we will be always waiting for you
you humans are so cute sharing your silly little life on here. i love being a part of the earth sometimes 🥺🥺🥺. flowers 4 u 💐💐💐.
Honestly, being in my early 20’s I crave content like this! Knowing that other people are also learning to grow into themselves and figuring out who they want to be has just been so comforting for me. So idk I’ll definitely be sticking around for whatever content you’re making as long as it’s what you want to make! :)
Im 22 too and have just started working my first 'grown up' job, and am also finding it really hard to come to terms with the fact that I am an adult now and not just a silly little teenager. It always seems like everyone else has taken the whole transition into adulthood a lot better than I have, so it is really refreshing to see someone be honest for once. The videos where you just talk or do the simple things (like talking in your car on the way to get groceries etc) are always my favourite
I can relate to this video deeply . My mental health issues couldn’t be ignored anymore and I got on meds. And I am trying to build boundaries and take care of my life. May we both grow and be happy.
As someone who started watching you as a college student a few years ago I found you so relatable, but now as I’ve graduated and I’m a 20 something trying to figure out my life I find your current feelings extremely relatable too! Please feel free to make content you want, your audience will grow up and change with you. We’re here for you.
You’re channel is literally free therapy,, thank you.
we’re around the same age and I can definitely relate to how you’re feeling I’ve also seen other youtubers struggle to evolve because they’re playing an old version of themselves. I like the saying you can’t look back while moving forward and have realized that I’ve been living in the past too, like how you said you still feel 17- so cheers to the new year and the future! Spring is actually the real new year, Aries is the first sign of the zodiac :) 🌷
You do what you need to do to be happy, taking care of yourself and your mental well being is so super important. Whatever you decide to post in the future will always be important and beautiful. Keep up the awesome work and remember to be kind to yourself! And of course, I’ll remember to be nasty and not disgusting
i love yout little videos, with little embarrasing stories that make us feel little better, you are so kind and iconic. We love u
Literally been having the worst day and this little chat has made me feel so much better. I relate to so much you said btw like I'm not even an influencer and I get anxious over what I post on my insta story so I feel for you. Would love to see more content like this it's very relatable. Much love ❤
you’ve got this 💗 you’ll figure out what’s best for you and you’ll be supported for it
I’m gonna be 21 in October and I genuinely can’t believe it because my life felt like it stopped when I was 18 and I had to go to online school and I’ve basically spent everyday after that inside since. I feel like the same person, yet two years have past. I know the feeling. Also, I will watch whatever you put out, and I think you’re just as cool as you ever were. You’re really an inspiration to me and your videos are always comforting.
girl keep making videos for me!! your videos on ocd are literally the first time I have ever heard anything relatable after my diagnosis with ocd. also you are so funny!!!
Gahd I missed you, Nicole ❤️ tbh i think you will never ever film something boring, your videos always makes me feel better (no matter how many times i rewatch them).
nicole im not even joking when i say you are one of the only youtubers whose videos always excite me, even if theyre the most "boring" concept ever. like i get the notif for your videos and my day? instantly better.
This video is an exact representation of how I feel whenever I'm trying to write my first novel (I'm a writer) and it sucks every time it passes my mind. I feel like my writing isn't going to be good enough an no one will want to read them and then I'll never become a published author like I've always dreamed of since I was 8 years old (I'm 22 now) and then I feel like I graduated with the wrong major (Creative writing w a minor in film). This feeling sucks but I also know I'm in an era where I have to try anyway because what if people do want to read my novel and that voice in my head is trying to prevent my success if I listen to it. I feel like a lot of people in their 20's are also feeling this way and are trying to heal from their past to have a better future. This video was something I actually needed to see as confirmation to keep going and the decisions being made in my life are the right ones. As you said "I'm in my selfish era" (or at least that's how I remembered it lol). Being in your 20's you should be allowed to be selfish to a healthy extend because this is the decade where we have to pick up our careers and start living a life worth living instead of just existing. I'm proud of you for coming to this realization and I love all your videos and literally anything you post I'll watch it especially since we're the same age and I feel like if we went to the same college we would be good friends (but instead I went to SUNY New Paltz). I hope you make the content you love to make and are happy with the future of your youtube career 💓.
this has been probably one of the worst weeks of my life and I’m not going to lie just the title of this video made me feel better because I was like wow, I’m not the only person having mental breakdowns in random places in my house. So much love to you Nicole ❤️
nicole, i’m so grateful for the videos you make !! i have always loved your videos, and i want to stick around for whatever content you want to put out, regardless of how much you or your content changes !! cheers to the start of a new era :D
the baby mic will NEVER be over
I feel WAY too seen rn 🤠 i was also dealing with restraining orders & also blacked out the entirety of November-January. HAPPY NEW YEAR 🎆 XOXO I am always so so so proud and inspired by you, babe! Enjoy your 20s bc you deserve it
nicole, we love you! i will watch literally anything you post, you have the best personality and it’s easy to tell how much you love making videos 💗
I’ll be honest - I’m a small creator and I still feel this way. My “best” era on youtube was when I was in college and I haven’t been posting frequently since because of this exact feeling you’re describing. There’s a pressure there to be college me and that’s simply not the case whatsoever : ( I promise you made PERFECT sense this entire video and you’re fantastic ❤️ I love every single Nicole era!
remember that we grew up with you too!! our life’s also “got boring” if that’s what you wanna call it so it’s good to see someone we have known and love finding joy alone and being an adult
You have a huge impact on our lives, even if its just through a screen. You're the reason i found out i had OCD and am working on myself. I admire you so much Nicol, things will always progress forward, we all love and believe in you
I just started going to therapy and I think I've suffered from ocd my whole life, however I never had the chance to actually talk to a professional about it. Idk if it's ocd or not, I just know I can't keep living like this and this feeling is so scary. Watching you getting better and being more independent is such an inspiration for me bc it's something I cannot imagine myself being capable of dealing with. I'm 19 and I hope at the time I'm 20 or even 21 everything will be better 🤞🤞🤞🤞 by the way I don't even get into college yet bc my brain just cannot function, so I decided to take one more year to study and try again. Thank you so much for being vulnerable and honest with us
I will watch and enjoy anything you post, and if you make videos that make u happy n bring out your personality more authentically, I will enjoy that more bc it makes viewers feel closer and relate more. I started watching you when I was 19 and loved your content and personality, but I am now 21 and have grown with you, we’re all evolving together!
When I finally watched midsummer that scene was my favorite part.
whatever you upload i’ll watch, ily thanks for sharing this with us
just realised you're the only person who doesn't trigger me by whispering :))) really love listening to you talk
Girl this is everything I've been dealing with behind the scenes 👌🏻
I have extreme dissociation and your description of when you're in front of a camera you black out is so real to me. I can't remember anything I've said after I've hung out with people and it sucks. I hope this new content will help you enjoy youtube again
i have nothing profound 2 say but i love u as a person nicole and will consume any and all content u create
Hey Nicole. Fellow 22 year old here. It’s really nice to hear you talk about things that I’m dealing with right now. Life is crazy and so many outside things tell us to do things that will please others, which makes us put our wants and needs on the back burner. Thanks for reminding me to put myself first. Needed this.
I don’t just love your videos, I love you as a person. That means I’m here for the long haul baby. I’d watch a video of you zoning out while driving for 2 hours just because I want to support you. You deserve it, pal
I never noticed a drastic change…still just as funny and relatable as the day I subscribed to your channel! 🙌🏻
You are genuinely my favorite RUclipsr, just thought u should know
you are not boring! you could literally post a video of you just looking at the camera for 10 minutes and i’ll still watch. we watch you because you are real and you don’t fake who you are for views. we love you Nicole, no matter what your content is!
No, you don't sound stupid, you sound honest, growing and being true to yourself ❤️