as a fellow ocd queen, the way you describe your thought processes and feelings is like the exact way i think and it makes me feel so seen. forever grateful for u and i love watching you grow and get happier with each video u post. also ur tattoos are so sick u make me wanna get more🫶
hearing your explanation of the "call the dogs out" tattoo was so comforting to me. i remember you talking occasionally about your privacy being invaded. between february-june of this year, i also experienced invasions of privacy in my dorm hall. it was so scary and because i didn't know what exactly was happening, i have trauma + anxiety that i have been managing. almost no one i know can relate to my experiences of privacy invasion/levels of stalking, so it was just nice to hear another person that has experienced something like what i went through. love you sm!!
You shared so many intimate moments and stories in this video, and thank you for that. It helped to hear about you talk about your old fear of getting a tattoo and not be able to “scrub it off” because it’s a huge fear of mine and why I don’t have any tattoos, but I never even recognized that until right now and hearing you say it. Damn! Thank you. Also, I love the knife tattoo how adorable what a precious memory to cherish forever
I almost teared up watching this. I have OCD as well and went through almost the same experience with tattoos. I clicked on this video randomly wanting to look at some cool tattoos and never expected to hear someone who understood and went through something so difficult to explain to others. I have never met anyone else who understood why it was so hard to get a tattoo and what a big deal it was once I finally decided to go for it. Thank you so much for sharing and being open!! I’m so thankful it reached me
The thing about immigrant mothers just cutting with fruit in their hand is totally true in my household too!! I have no idea how my mom does it safely..
I didn’t get a tattoo while studying in Spain and it’s literally my biggest regret of the whole trip. Now I’m in Ireland studying and I’m gonna take this video as a sign
I was diagnosed with OCD this year and have felt the same way about tattoos, it feels like such a big mental block that I want to grow beyond but have been too scared to have permanent change. Thank you for putting it into words and helping me feel a little more validated about my little kooky brain
One of my favorite things about this channel is your openness with your ocd. My ocd is incredibly isolating because it tends to obsess over very dark subjects. It’s freeing to hear something talk so casually about a mental illness that thrives off isolation and guilt.
ur miracle aligner tattoo kicked off my tat obsession! i got my first two tattoos last week and i was literally JUST saying how i wished u had a tat tour! so so so dope nikki!! 💖
its insane how much i related to the ocd struggle of never knowing how long you wil be the same person, that constant need for change is awful and never allows us to find a safe spot where will be secured and stable, i never considered tattoos as a way of telling yourself you are still you doesnt matter what happens, you dont need to lose yourself every time things go wrong, ur words inspired me a lot and tbh im considering getting a tattoo for it to be my amulet :3 great video nicole!! and i luv the designs
I completely understand the parental disappointment. My first major tattoo a Japanese traditional full sleeve. I went to Texas for my first session and I came when I came back with a half sleeve my dad rolled his eyes so hard. He was pissed my second session cuz I went from a half sleeve to a full sleeve. It’s ok. Your Social media family approves 🥰
I totally relate to being spontaneous being a challenge. I don't have ocd, but I do have asd and so making choices about anything whatsoever or having permanent change has always been terrifying. But now that my mental health is improving and I'm developing as a person, I am becoming more comfortable in doing something 'just because' and it's great.
I love how you explain your "relationship" with tattoos. I got some tattoos as well over the summer and I felt really insecure for a couple of days about them cuz of the same reason you explained. I have found tattoos to by just a collection of my thoughts. Loved your boot tattoo!
I really loved what you talked about with wanting to change when something bad happens but you can't do it with tattoos. I'm very similar and it felt so validating to hear someone else talk about it. I have yet to get a tattoo but maybe one day!
As someone with anxiety that section about OCD hit so hard for me. Like that called me out for cutting my hair and changing my style every time I get over something bad. It's kind of compelling me even more to get a little number 7 tatt somewhere hidden.
Thanks for sharing! I feel like what you said about having something permanent really resonated with me. I have two big ones neither have meaning and it was tough to wrap my head around not being able to change it. That being said - I travelled to Germany for one of mine, now I want to get a new tattoo from a great artist every time I travel. It's a great way to remember the trip
Your OCD talk is making me emotional 🥲 really resonates as an OCD girlie who struggles with uncertainty and permanence but would love to have tattoos. This year!! I will do it!! Thank you for sharing 💕
Your speech abt changing and worries of not being able to get a tattoo because of it being so daunting even after something wrong happening it really did reach me personally and i feel ya
The point you said about OCD, I resonate with that esp about how challenging it is for people with OCD to get a tattoo and committing to something ~forever~. Thanks so much for your insightful video - someone with OCD who is planning to get their first tattoo but is scared
I'd been trying for so long to find a way to explain how I feel about my tattoos in relation to my OCD but you just did it perfectly. Getting tattoos is a way of letting go of control whilst simultaneously taking active control over my body. Love love love your take on it. Thanks for existing Nicole
Man. I can totally relate to a lot of the reasoning behind your tattoos. I have that same phobia of getting a tattoo I cannot erase. I also have OCD and changes in my appearance are very difficult to deal with, not to mention tattoo shame is heavy in the family.
Wow I heavily related to you talking about your OCD and how you see getting them now as a sign of your growth. I want some so bad and I’ve been waiting like 10 years and I finally feel ready.
I’m Polish and I love your "STO LAT" tattoo! Your other tattoos are great too🤭 You are the first person to understand me and my fears of getting a tattoo (I have OCD and I dream of a tattoo, but I have obsessive thoughts)
hi nicole!!! (cool tatoos;; especially the one with your babuska cat) first of all, i just wanted to say that i really really enjoy your videos!! ive recently re-found your channel (i think ive seen 1 video like, 2 years ago) and watched so many videos since! (lol that sounds weird out of context) anyway -- i really like the content you create, the things you talk about and how you talk about it + your humour. its really fun to watch your stuff and i enjoy listening to the stories / things you tell :D also, weird flex but okay, i think ive become more confident ?? since watching your stuff?? like youre kinda inspiring with how you act and carry yourself; not caring about what other people think etc, and i think thats so cool. alsoo, your intro/outro music sounds very cool, i like your cat, your skin is always so fu*king shiny and i like your style. haha anyway, have a good day and stay safe xx
i've been waiting for this and i'm so excited!! i love all of your tattoos and it's so nice to hear about your ocd journey and how you can improve bc i struggle with that type of thing myself. Love the new stork!
Neecole, you're my fav tuber atm. Currently on year 2 and line 2 of cancer treatment for lymphoma and awaiting a stem cell transplant in a couple weeks so I'm in isolation and rewatching your vids. Just wanted you to know you're the bomb diggity 💕 aaaand I am jealous of Ur tats.
miracle aligner by tlsp is my all time favorite song too! i was just planning to get a tattoo very similar to yours, and now i think i might just do it! i love it
okay as a Polish person, the Sto Lat tattoo is just so funny to me cuz it's just a happy birthday song, but I'm into giving your own meaning to small things
duudeee. I didn't know people thought that way too. I would attach bed memories to specific items and then I would avoid wearing such item or doing this/that because said behavior would be attached to something I was trying to avoid. I didn't know that was an OCD symptom, that is so great to hear other people have experienced this
I understand what you are saying about ocd and not being able to take the tattoo off when you want to get away from yourself. In elementary school when I would become embarrassed about something or feel shameful I would take down my braids, peel off nail polish, hid jewelry I was wearing anything just to hid from myself
Just happened to click on this video to play in the background but omg the way you describe OCD and needing to change everything about you really hit me. I can finally put into words exactly what it feels like 😭
i have never heard of you before and somehow just randomly stumbled upon this video.. but like.. how can someone instantly be that.. likeable? i love your energy and vibe! looking forward to watching many more videos of you 🫶🏽
Thank you for sharing about your boot tattoo and OCD! I am also diagnosed with OCD, and resonated SO much with what you said. It honestly helped me understand myself a bit more and feel seen. 😅 I’m planning to get a tattoo soon, which is a HUGE deal for me, and a huge part of my healing process. 💜
Love your tattoos! The tattoo addiction is so real ;;;;; You'll get one and then want another one like 4 hours later sdksldad I wholeheartedly agree and can relate to the summer tattoo hell! I have eczema prone skin which activates during the summer, especially in specific areas. I got the areas tattooed and they almost immediately flared up! It was a horror show! I was terrified! I'm so glad that your tattoos survived the flare ups!!!
my dads side of the family is very polish, he was born there, and i totally relate to the stolat thing. there’s a running joke in my family bc we went to an anniversary party and this guy with an accordion kept jumping out every five minutes and singing the song lmao
i have diagnosed ocd too & the way you described the way you think made me feel not so alone !! also obsessed with all your tattoos (but especially clem 😭) & the meanings ahaha
I’ve struggled with OCD and what you said about change and stuff I relate to, maybe not in the same exact way as you but the overall idea of having a difficult relationship with change, I definitely understand.. Thank you for sharing
omg twins the beginning of this year I had 1 tattoo and now I have 12 WOOO also yes I have learned my lesson and I will now only be getting tattoos in the fall or winter
omg ! i have ocd as well and have struggled with the concept of getting a tattoo for so long bc of the permanence. lately i’ve been wanting a tattoo and i feel like it’s gonna be a big hurdle :) also love the sto lat tattoo :o
I totally relate to what you said about tattoos and ocd!!! I was diagnosed with ocd in high school (i don't have it anymore... I think) and I felt the same way. I liked tattoos but the thought of having something permanent on my body and disturbing that "pureness" I was craving (I have anorexia and at the time I was obsessed with my body being "pure", so yeah my ED and OCD were both acting towards that fucked up mindset) was really scary to me. Thankfully I'm not cured but it got better). Even piercings made me panick because the thought of having scarring really stressed me out. I don't have tattoos yet because I'm still a bit scared of not being able to change, having regrets etc.. but I know I will do it eventually and that it will be therapeutic. A few months ago I got an ear piercing spontaneously because I had a disciplinary meeting at work and it might be very little, but for me it's huge that I managed to do something I wanted without overthinking it. So yes, next time I'll get a tattoo ! And I have tokophobia too ! A really severe one
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im sorry miss nikki i simply will never get over how your hair gets better and better every video?? also the tattoos are amazing and i love the knife
as a fellow ocd queen, the way you describe your thought processes and feelings is like the exact way i think and it makes me feel so seen. forever grateful for u and i love watching you grow and get happier with each video u post. also ur tattoos are so sick u make me wanna get more🫶
hearing your explanation of the "call the dogs out" tattoo was so comforting to me. i remember you talking occasionally about your privacy being invaded. between february-june of this year, i also experienced invasions of privacy in my dorm hall. it was so scary and because i didn't know what exactly was happening, i have trauma + anxiety that i have been managing. almost no one i know can relate to my experiences of privacy invasion/levels of stalking, so it was just nice to hear another person that has experienced something like what i went through. love you sm!!
You shared so many intimate moments and stories in this video, and thank you for that. It helped to hear about you talk about your old fear of getting a tattoo and not be able to “scrub it off” because it’s a huge fear of mine and why I don’t have any tattoos, but I never even recognized that until right now and hearing you say it. Damn! Thank you. Also, I love the knife tattoo how adorable what a precious memory to cherish forever
pointing out that i love the new video essay approach - i will now watch the tattoo tour, over and out
Lol I watched it and definitely worth it. So cool to hear her story
I almost teared up watching this. I have OCD as well and went through almost the same experience with tattoos. I clicked on this video randomly wanting to look at some cool tattoos and never expected to hear someone who understood and went through something so difficult to explain to others. I have never met anyone else who understood why it was so hard to get a tattoo and what a big deal it was once I finally decided to go for it. Thank you so much for sharing and being open!! I’m so thankful it reached me
The thing about immigrant mothers just cutting with fruit in their hand is totally true in my household too!! I have no idea how my mom does it safely..
I didn’t get a tattoo while studying in Spain and it’s literally my biggest regret of the whole trip. Now I’m in Ireland studying and I’m gonna take this video as a sign
Did you get the tattoo!!
Why?
I was diagnosed with OCD this year and have felt the same way about tattoos, it feels like such a big mental block that I want to grow beyond but have been too scared to have permanent change. Thank you for putting it into words and helping me feel a little more validated about my little kooky brain
One of my favorite things about this channel is your openness with your ocd. My ocd is incredibly isolating because it tends to obsess over very dark subjects. It’s freeing to hear something talk so casually about a mental illness that thrives off isolation and guilt.
ur miracle aligner tattoo kicked off my tat obsession! i got my first two tattoos last week and i was literally JUST saying how i wished u had a tat tour! so so so dope nikki!! 💖
I envy people that have good enough handwriting to use for a tattoo, if I tried that it would literally look like a toddler wrote it
Like hi, love ur content btw and so relatable because same, my handwriting is ✨atrocious✨
that can still be cool though, “perfect” handwritings hella boring
its insane how much i related to the ocd struggle of never knowing how long you wil be the same person, that constant need for change is awful and never allows us to find a safe spot where will be secured and stable, i never considered tattoos as a way of telling yourself you are still you doesnt matter what happens, you dont need to lose yourself every time things go wrong, ur words inspired me a lot and tbh im considering getting a tattoo for it to be my amulet :3 great video nicole!! and i luv the designs
I completely understand the parental disappointment. My first major tattoo a Japanese traditional full sleeve. I went to Texas for my first session and I came when I came back with a half sleeve my dad rolled his eyes so hard. He was pissed my second session cuz I went from a half sleeve to a full sleeve. It’s ok. Your Social media family approves 🥰
Just do what makes you happy other peoples opinions don’t matter
I totally relate to being spontaneous being a challenge. I don't have ocd, but I do have asd and so making choices about anything whatsoever or having permanent change has always been terrifying. But now that my mental health is improving and I'm developing as a person, I am becoming more comfortable in doing something 'just because' and it's great.
i can't emphasize how much i love you and how much comfort you give me tbh
as someone who struggles daily with diagnosed OCD, i am so grateful that you shared your story!! 💓
i always thought your tattoos looked cool and atypical, but knowing the meaning just makes me love them even more 😌
I love how you explain your "relationship" with tattoos. I got some tattoos as well over the summer and I felt really insecure for a couple of days about them cuz of the same reason you explained. I have found tattoos to by just a collection of my thoughts. Loved your boot tattoo!
I really loved what you talked about with wanting to change when something bad happens but you can't do it with tattoos. I'm very similar and it felt so validating to hear someone else talk about it. I have yet to get a tattoo but maybe one day!
As someone with anxiety that section about OCD hit so hard for me. Like that called me out for cutting my hair and changing my style every time I get over something bad. It's kind of compelling me even more to get a little number 7 tatt somewhere hidden.
i'm so in love w miracle aligner ur so right for getting it tattooed
The miracle aligner one is perfect! I love it sm, for sure my favorite TLSP song.
the whole ocd explanation hit really close to home for me and it was really cool to see someone else who overcame them. thx:)
I live in philly and it's so nice to see someone express how much they like it here because I think it's a great city, and it deserves more love :,)
cały czas jak mówiłaś o tatuażu “sto lat” miałam te piosenke w głowie 🤣❤️
Thanks for sharing! I feel like what you said about having something permanent really resonated with me. I have two big ones neither have meaning and it was tough to wrap my head around not being able to change it.
That being said - I travelled to Germany for one of mine, now I want to get a new tattoo from a great artist every time I travel. It's a great way to remember the trip
Your OCD talk is making me emotional 🥲 really resonates as an OCD girlie who struggles with uncertainty and permanence but would love to have tattoos. This year!! I will do it!! Thank you for sharing 💕
Your speech abt changing and worries of not being able to get a tattoo because of it being so daunting even after something wrong happening it really did reach me personally and i feel ya
I'm getting my first ever tattoo in two weeks and this has just made me even more excited! 💖
not me being in the middle of booking my next tatoo when getting this recommodation. They all suit you so much Nicole!
youre a breath of fresh air
always rewatch your videos when I feel overwhelmed about the future, and this time I just want more tattoos. Thank you for inspiring me, Nikky. 🖤
i love that you said it makes you feel more confident in your own skin, i've never thought of tattoos that way! also love the stolat one :)
Enjoying this video while moving in to my dorm room at university today
The point you said about OCD, I resonate with that esp about how challenging it is for people with OCD to get a tattoo and committing to something ~forever~. Thanks so much for your insightful video - someone with OCD who is planning to get their first tattoo but is scared
I'd been trying for so long to find a way to explain how I feel about my tattoos in relation to my OCD but you just did it perfectly. Getting tattoos is a way of letting go of control whilst simultaneously taking active control over my body. Love love love your take on it. Thanks for existing Nicole
Man. I can totally relate to a lot of the reasoning behind your tattoos. I have that same phobia of getting a tattoo I cannot erase. I also have OCD and changes in my appearance are very difficult to deal with, not to mention tattoo shame is heavy in the family.
Wow I heavily related to you talking about your OCD and how you see getting them now as a sign of your growth. I want some so bad and I’ve been waiting like 10 years and I finally feel ready.
that clem tattoo made my lil heart sing i love it so much thank you for the tour nikki nasty
I’m Polish and I love your "STO LAT" tattoo! Your other tattoos are great too🤭 You are the first person to understand me and my fears of getting a tattoo (I have OCD and I dream of a tattoo, but I have obsessive thoughts)
hi nicole!!! (cool tatoos;; especially the one with your babuska cat) first of all, i just wanted to say that i really really enjoy your videos!! ive recently re-found your channel (i think ive seen 1 video like, 2 years ago) and watched so many videos since! (lol that sounds weird out of context) anyway -- i really like the content you create, the things you talk about and how you talk about it + your humour. its really fun to watch your stuff and i enjoy listening to the stories / things you tell :D also, weird flex but okay, i think ive become more confident ?? since watching your stuff?? like youre kinda inspiring with how you act and carry yourself; not caring about what other people think etc, and i think thats so cool. alsoo, your intro/outro music sounds very cool, i like your cat, your skin is always so fu*king shiny and i like your style. haha anyway, have a good day and stay safe xx
nicole your video gave me a lot of confidence in getting a tattoo, i feel very heartened to do so♡
I also have OCD, fear of pregnancy and love for tattoos (and cats) so watching this was amazing!
i've been waiting for this and i'm so excited!! i love all of your tattoos and it's so nice to hear about your ocd journey and how you can improve bc i struggle with that type of thing myself. Love the new stork!
So do I I can relate to having a fear of childbirth it scares me so much😬
miracle aligner evokes some whole new emotion while listening
The OCD thing with tattoo’s spoke to me on a different level + it’s really making me want to just go out & do it! x
I feel the same about visualizing myself as this person that I am right now with tattoos. Do whatever gives you more confidence. ☺️
love them and im glad your mental health has improved! new sub!!
this is such an amazing video, i love your tattoos and your reasonings behind them. thank you for sharing that part of yourself
Neecole, you're my fav tuber atm. Currently on year 2 and line 2 of cancer treatment for lymphoma and awaiting a stem cell transplant in a couple weeks so I'm in isolation and rewatching your vids.
Just wanted you to know you're the bomb diggity 💕 aaaand I am jealous of Ur tats.
you are my comfort person anytime i feel bad i watch your videos i feel so safe with you
miracle aligner by tlsp is my all time favorite song too! i was just planning to get a tattoo very similar to yours, and now i think i might just do it! i love it
okay as a Polish person, the Sto Lat tattoo is just so funny to me cuz it's just a happy birthday song, but I'm into giving your own meaning to small things
I remember you mentioning your miracle aligner tattoo when you weren't as big and seeing how far you've come is so cool
I LOVE THE MIRACLE ALIGNER TATTO CAUSE THATS MY FAVORITE SONG TOO
a mother's compliment is the highest form of praise for a tattoo
duudeee. I didn't know people thought that way too. I would attach bed memories to specific items and then I would avoid wearing such item or doing this/that because said behavior would be attached to something I was trying to avoid. I didn't know that was an OCD symptom, that is so great to hear other people have experienced this
I really want tattoos when I’m older these are very cute
ive been waiting for this one. turn it up!
just got a tat from rachel this past week and i've gotten non stop compliments
SLAYYYY your vids make everyone so happy!
i love how wholesome the knife is
I understand what you are saying about ocd and not being able to take the tattoo off when you want to get away from yourself. In elementary school when I would become embarrassed about something or feel shameful I would take down my braids, peel off nail polish, hid jewelry I was wearing anything just to hid from myself
Miracle Aligner is my favorite song too. It’s my anthem for how I live my life lolol!
No cause I already know imma love this her tats are 🔥🔥
i also have diagnosed OCD and hearing you talk about your mindset about tattoos was CRAZY! it’s exactly how i feel!!! thank you for sharing. 🤍✨
Just happened to click on this video to play in the background but omg the way you describe OCD and needing to change everything about you really hit me. I can finally put into words exactly what it feels like 😭
this is perfect bc i’m literaly getting two big tattoos tomorrow
i have never heard of you before and somehow just randomly stumbled upon this video.. but like.. how can someone instantly be that.. likeable? i love your energy and vibe! looking forward to watching many more videos of you 🫶🏽
i always knew you were a tattoo girly, also omg big slay nicole!!
PLEASE THE STOLAT! IS SO CUTE I LOVE IT
Thank you for sharing about your boot tattoo and OCD! I am also diagnosed with OCD, and resonated SO much with what you said. It honestly helped me understand myself a bit more and feel seen. 😅 I’m planning to get a tattoo soon, which is a HUGE deal for me, and a huge part of my healing process. 💜
Love your tattoos! The tattoo addiction is so real ;;;;; You'll get one and then want another one like 4 hours later sdksldad
I wholeheartedly agree and can relate to the summer tattoo hell! I have eczema prone skin which activates during the summer, especially in specific areas. I got the areas tattooed and they almost immediately flared up! It was a horror show! I was terrified!
I'm so glad that your tattoos survived the flare ups!!!
Hair is gorgeous.
The matching star tattoos are my favourite. ❤
i have my nana's rocking chair on my right arm!
my dads side of the family is very polish, he was born there, and i totally relate to the stolat thing. there’s a running joke in my family bc we went to an anniversary party and this guy with an accordion kept jumping out every five minutes and singing the song lmao
im leaving a like just for that miracle aligner tattoo, obsessed 🙌🏽
I swear to god every video you say something that makes me relate to you in a very specific way. Luv u xx
i have diagnosed ocd too & the way you described the way you think made me feel not so alone !! also obsessed with all your tattoos (but especially clem 😭) & the meanings ahaha
I’ve struggled with OCD and what you said about change and stuff I relate to, maybe not in the same exact way as you but the overall idea of having a difficult relationship with change, I definitely understand.. Thank you for sharing
I tattooed my arm because im not that confident in showing my arms, and now i like to show them more
mirecla aligner is also my favourite song ever!
I have always been excited for thiss one!🤍
i love this!! currently also wanting to get more tattoos but held off bc of summer as well lol
Hey grlly, I’m in love with your aesthetic soooo can we get an updated apartment tour?!?😂🤌🏼✨
phenomenal timing for this video because i just got my first tat like 2 weeks ago and i love her. buuuut now i want more…………
The kewpie and cat tattoo soooo cute
Love love the silly little strokes tattoo
in loveeee w your nailsss! its simple yet a tad edgy *chefs kiss*
I got my first tattoo yesterday and I’m already itching to get more.. thank u nikki nasty for the inspiration
omg twins the beginning of this year I had 1 tattoo and now I have 12 WOOO also yes I have learned my lesson and I will now only be getting tattoos in the fall or winter
omg ! i have ocd as well and have struggled with the concept of getting a tattoo for so long bc of the permanence. lately i’ve been wanting a tattoo and i feel like it’s gonna be a big hurdle :) also love the sto lat tattoo :o
ahhhhhhhh i love miracle aligner!
i'm on the waitlist for all of these tattoo artists !! i love tattoooooooos
Thank you for the little tattoo tour Nicole
this video was so therapeutic
I love your tattoos so much, especially since you have us the meanings behind them! I so excited to get my own 💖
i love ur tats so much
I totally relate to what you said about tattoos and ocd!!! I was diagnosed with ocd in high school (i don't have it anymore... I think) and I felt the same way. I liked tattoos but the thought of having something permanent on my body and disturbing that "pureness" I was craving (I have anorexia and at the time I was obsessed with my body being "pure", so yeah my ED and OCD were both acting towards that fucked up mindset) was really scary to me. Thankfully I'm not cured but it got better). Even piercings made me panick because the thought of having scarring really stressed me out. I don't have tattoos yet because I'm still a bit scared of not being able to change, having regrets etc.. but I know I will do it eventually and that it will be therapeutic. A few months ago I got an ear piercing spontaneously because I had a disciplinary meeting at work and it might be very little, but for me it's huge that I managed to do something I wanted without overthinking it. So yes, next time I'll get a tattoo !
And I have tokophobia too ! A really severe one