My journey with Depersonalisation/Derealism/Dissociation | (DPDR DISORDER)
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- Опубликовано: 20 сен 2021
- Hey everyone,
My name is Damiano and i suffer with Depersonalisation and Derealism. and i wanted to share my journey and thoughts surrounding this topic with anyone that might be going through the same situation.
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DC x
Your have a heightened sense of awareness your gonna have to live with it its not a curse it's a blessing after a few years your gonna settle into this higher state of awareness its not illness or infliction your highly empathic were the world is becoming more and more superficial its a gift except it who helps the helpers Angels xx
Thank you for such lovely words x
i ve had this shit for three years now and i m 15 so imagine a 12 yr old kid not knowing what is happening to him going to all the doctors possible not knowing what he has and why all the people look at him when he cries at school and now i have episodes almost every day when i have to go outside so the only person that understans me is my best friend not even my mother or brother or family cause they can t understand me and it s hard but i ll get over it, we ll get over it
well dude, you're welcome and accepted here! we all understand you and know exactly what your going through. mine started when i was 12 too...i'm 31 now. i hope to god that things have advanced a lot since i was 12 so you don't have to go thought all these years with it. if you need anything. feel free to drop a comment or something and we can have a chat. you got this brother!
Same here bro I'm suffering from ocd from last 8 years and almost 3 years I'm also suffering from dpdr .. sometimes I feel that there is no way out and in my area there is no therepist I'm feeling helpless.
I’m still crying after watching your video. I think this just saved my life.
I really need help. But there’s just no help. Psychologists and psychiatrists don’t help. They just don’t help. How do you help yourself when you don’t know what’s going on… what it is? I’m fighting a ghost. I don’t know where or what. Don’t know. Thank god I found this video. I’m NOT crazy. I’m not. 😢
Hey, I’m so happy that my video gave you a little reassurance that you’re not the only one going through this. I’m sorry you’re in the position to be watching it though, I wouldn’t wish it on anybody. I appreciate you, and everything you’re going through and I will try to make another video on this. Let me know what kind of questions you’d like answering or advice you like? I’ll do my best to help x
@@DamianoCambridge Thank you for your kind words. A big problem is therapy. Therapy should help - a huge part of one's resolution and healing process. Yet, therapy has done more harm than good. I would think I found an excellent therapist only for it to turn very quickly over a couple of months. It hurts even more knowing that they are CLINICAL psychologists. Not one, not a single therapist helped me. The one, I quote, told me "your suicide attempt in year 11 was a cop out". I can't do this on my own. I don't have any knowledge re my situation and I'm not going to fool myself by thinking I'm a smarta$$. Therapists don't listen. So what do I do now? Meds are not helping. Been drinking meds for 13 years now. Told my GP I want off. Either he's going to help me get off this safely or I'm going cold turkey and that we'll be on his conscience. Harsh? Coming from a place wherr highly qualified individuals have done more harm than good. No, it's not harsh. How does the meditation thing really work? Connecting body and soul/mind. Sure. I have been open minded. It's dumb. I'm wasting my time. Meditation to me is not therapy it's just a who-ha coping mechanism. Unless, I'm looking at this the wrong way? My marriage is not doing well because just as I'm suffering you could imagine the frustration my husband experiences. I'm better off dead. He'll be ok. He'll move on. I don't have family anymore. I cut them off. As my family, especially my 'father', did the most harm. So fu#* 'em. I'll be fine on my own. Always have been. So to speak. What do you do when you have from the bottom of your heart... The absolute pit of your soul... Tried everything and nothing not a shred of help is working. I'm giving it one more try because I'm definitely not ignorant to the chance that I might just be dumb tbh. I'll give it one last try and if in the next couple of years it doesn't work... Yeah I don't know. See? Even I'm rambling. I hope my message makes sense and you could see something meaningful, questuon wise at least. Please don't feel forced to make a video that includes this as well. I'm no one special and don't perceive myself as such. Just another human trying to be and do good. Take care and I sincerely wish you and your fam ONLY the best in life.
Gifts come in many guises chosen are few xx
Alex, 26 y.o., in dpdr for 10 yrs 24/7, an sincerely speaking, i am a bit envious. You've got a family, a child for whom you can live, a purpose in life and i'm really, really happy for you.
In short: you don't fight it, and you don't live From it, you live with it (it doesn't define you, its just a part of you).
Get the two books of S.C. Hayes:
"Get out of your life and into youre life" and "A liberated mind", they're on ACT therapy. It's the single thing which helped me. Wish you all good.
Thanks a lot for your comment but there is really no need to be envious of me, from what I’ve learned in the 18 years I’ve had dpdr is that no matter what goodness you have in your life, the dpdr doesn’t care. Ofcourse I try to be high spirited for my daughters but it’s not an easy task to accomplish! What is your day to day life like may I ask? Do you work? Have a social life etc? Cause I really find things like that hard in my situation
@@DamianoCambridge Yes about the job, and a moderate social life (im a natural "introvert", no dpdr involved). In case of how you do it, man, i don't even know where to begin with :d.
First, things related to body: exclude all recreational drugs/psychostimulants like coffee, green tea, alcohol and the worst ones like smoking(cigs or weed). All of them induce artificial stress on your body, u don't want that.
Second, you need to really lvl up your cognition. For example, youre attitude towards dissociation is that it's fcking horrible, but is it? You dissociated while trying to protect ur mind from rough emotions (i suppose our parents wheren't the best ones, did they). The fact is, dpdr is the only thing that kept you sane (and i say that cuz in a normal situations, dpdr doesn't occur) etc.
Did you try the Wim Hof Method ? Its simple & it works oh yea
Especially the deep breathing fitness.
1 - 30 FULLY inhale & JUST exhale ( deep breathing round )
2 - Hold for as long you can after the last 30 Exhale (retention empty lung)
3 - Inhale fully when you feel the urge to breath (recovery / DMT release)
4 - Hold on the INHALE for 10 to 15 second (retention full lung)
(belly bake, chest bake, squeeze the head)
- And exhale, let it go
-Repeat for 2 to 4 rounds
I have tried the wim hof method yes. And to be fair I enjoyed it while I was doing it but I think I ended up falling out of routine with it.
@@DamianoCambridge I'm practicing for 2 month & a half. Little by little i feel the cloud of dream vanishing. Connection between me & the reality going slowly but strongly. I've experienced constant DR for 16 years. Only now i feel the awakening step by step. Cold shower & Deep Breathing clean & repair connection to my deep entity, my feeling, awareness. My sleep is deep again. If i'm do it, you will find your way out of the dream state : )
Ears are not felt just eyes sees off wht is it no deep smell is this dpdr
Hi
I'm really confused cause I don't really know if I have DPDR or something else... sinds almost 3 months after a shock event in my life I'm started feeling like my house.my work place my street my family, friends and every single place I visited before strange and first time I went there and also my memories and everything in my life like doesn't happened and also music i loved and every detail in my life...myself my personality like not myself anymore... and also that i feel that everything around me is weird and like im not living in life and environment around me like trees and everything so strange! It's like I forget what normal is and who I was as a person before..
And also related my sensation of weather and environment and seasons?
And when I talk it's not seem like me
And my head like it's not mine
Feeling like I'm not here...
Hey, it definitely sounds like dpdr, although I’m not a doctor I can only speak from experiencing the same symptoms as you. It is scary I totally understand how you’re feeling currently. Is this something that is continuous for you or is it coming and going?
@@DamianoCambridge actually it's 24/7 condition and I'm really afraid to stuck like this for long time many years of forever
@@joudez6627 that’s exactly how it is for me. The best thing I can say to you is, and it’s going to be ALOT hard to do than you think…but it’s simply not to let it play on your mind…. Try to live as if you don’t have it. Believe me, It’s taken a lot time for me to learn how to do so and still it’s not normal but it’s the best I’ve been able to function since this all started for me. I hope you find some sort of peace. DC x
Brother how you doing these days?
I am Living In Hell😢😢 This thing is hell on Earth
Cptsd and anxiety are the real cause of dpdr
If it doesn't feel real does it mean other people are not real or just that I'm perceiving them as not real?
Such a profound thought! I’ve often thought the same 😩 I hope you’re not struggling too bad my friend!
Hi, my daughter left a comment and is still trying to do research on her own "illness". You said in a later video that they are looking at your frontal lobe and so on. My daughter had encephalitis when she was 10. Can you ask your doctors if that could have been a contribution to her state of mind and troubles? According to me all her mental issues started around that time. Thank you in advance
Hey, thank you for your comment, I’ll make sure I ask about it, currently they haven’t even checked my brain further than an mri I assume due to covid back logs still. My neurologist has also since informed me that I have to try 3 different medications for 4 months each to target chronic migraines before I go any further. Which I know for a fact won’t work as I’ve already tried them all before. I do despair with the hospital sometimes. I’m sorry to hear about your daughter though but would love to hear more on her symptoms etc if that’s possible?
@@DamianoCambridge thanks for your response. She also struggles with headaches and her overall health is not great and I do believe it is as a result of mainly her mental state. She was in a house with an alcoholic and narcissistic dad. No support from his side and a lot of verbal abuse and putting her down as well as blaming her for his problems. She was diagnosed with bipolar at age 17. She truly does not believe she is bipolar. My knowledge of mental illnesses isn't great so I don't want to say she is or isn't. I just wish I could help her. Knowing what could be wrong will be a good start
@@karinbredenhand7063 thank you for giving me a little insight - i can imagine it can't be easy. i'm fully aware of what having a parent like that is like, my own father was always gone, and when he was there it was like we were a problem or a burden, was quite violent towards us etc. i'd hazard a guess that their relationship is now non-existent? i'm sorry she had to go through such a tough time with him, i'm sure it couldn't of been easy for you either? i have SO many questions for you both. if you like feel free to drop me a Dm on instagram - @damianocambridge.
I have realisation really bad now but I also have anxiety along with it constant dizziness racing thoughts and fear did you have the same ? Any tips
honestly, i almost feel like everything i try changes nothing. i've tried exercise, diet changes, tried to act like i don't have any of these symptoms, stopped drinking caffeine. and nothing i do makes any of it better. i have an appointment with a neurologist at the end of the month so i'll see what he says and can relay the information in another video?
@@DamianoCambridge how was at neurologist?
@@banke8480 it wasn’t great to be fair, I made an update video on my channel if you wanna go watch it which goes into more detail for you :) hope you are good though!
@@DamianoCambridge what was the result?
@@banke8480 they are under the impression I may have temporal lobe epilepsy and have referred me for further tests which I am still yet to have. I’m also having high intensity cbt aswel. I’ll make another video on that when I have the time. :)
What caused this it doesn’t say anything about what caused it???
My friend, nobody knows. But in most cases they believe it’s years and years of built up anxiety/depression. I’m still being tested now to see if it’s mental or physical in my case. But with covid there has been such a back log of treatment. I have an appointment with the neurology team at my local hospital at the end of June! From there I’ll make a new video and update you guys on my journey! Until then, if dpdr is something you’re struggling with I pray it’s not consuming your life and that your on the road to getting help in one form or another
Why there’s people that last too many years ? Im scared now
Dude, unfortunately I don’t have the answers you’re looking for :( all we can do is raise awareness and hope the clever people find a way to break the chain. I’ll be uploading another video soon about recent updates to my situation so if you have questions you’d like answering let me know and I’ll try my best to give you the answers :) I wish you wellness and strength
Any physical symptoms like eye or headaches
Yes I have headaches quite often and I’ve had to start wearing glasses since last year. I’ve had mri on my brain which showed my brain was okay but I’m still yet to speak to a neurologist to see if anything could be adding to my symptoms. What symptoms do you find is the worst for you?
@@DamianoCambridge my environment just feel numb. It doesn't hit where it used to.
@@Hellobuffal that’s very common, it’s like nothing is enjoyable every and you always feel so meh about everything
@@DamianoCambridge mine may be from years long bullying and family problems
@@DamianoCambridge yes I am flat on emotions . You can tell me happiest thing and I will react ok same goes for a disaster.
Hi i have DPDR could u help me please
Hey Lauren, thanks for your comment! How long have you had DPDR?
Bruv you got any better?
I am suffering from it for four years now
I’m so sorry to hear that, how do you cope? Does yours come and go or is it constant over the 4 years? I’d love to chat about it!
@@DamianoCambridge no it's constant for 24/7 it never wears off
@@DamianoCambridge any way we can contact
I have derealdickation
U are the only one if it's been 18years go on meds then genius
Impossible to have it that long u wouldn't survive
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