It sounds very much like Elliot Hulse recent situation. He spent years building his business and youtube, but knew he wasn't living his personal truth. He was at the physical and emotional breakpoint when he stepped back to care for himself and focus on family. He dropped off the radar for a while, he did what few men would do. He spent a decade nonstop working and he risked everything to step away from it. Elliot had many dark nights but he faced his fears and moved towards healing. He is my hero for that reason, he shifted the paradigm for our generation. We have been told just mindlessly work and build, but actualizing it challenging our fears everyday. I'm sitting in the middle of this in my career. I rebuilt my life after many hardships as a teen and young adult. I worked so hard in the last decade to move up from a dog bather to a groomer and eventually a salon manager. I've built great customers and I love 99% of my coworkers. I should be 'living the dream', but its living the lie in my mind. The company I worked at was sold, and the new company doesn't line up to my values. I've hit as far as I can go in this corporate environment, I need out while I have my morals and values. Asking for $150k from the bank is so damn scary. I've done the research, I know my ability and my market. At the end of the day I need to know that my life meant something. The only way that I can help my community is to break out of the mold. I'm in the center of the transition, and I'm frightened as hell, I'm letting go of my security. Meanwhile, my heart breaks watching teens fighting with police in a nearby community. The heroin epidemic is horrible in my neighborhood because people don't know how to process their emotional issues. We need some strong young people to reset the goals globally. Its one soul at a time, we start with yourself, once we are functional we reach out to friends and our workplace, hopefully next the community, eventually the world. Keep your published RUclips videos up while you take time to care for yourself. The videos serve as great support on my rough days. You bring a lot of insight into life, and I'm better because of what you have shared. Maybe consider an unedited raw video diary day by day as you work through things, the insight might help others. We see people at their best, glossy and perfect, however we need to see someone spiritually puking. Our generation needs to see young people waking up. Transformation hurts, but we are brave MF'ers, and we have a world to fix.
Sorry Mr Shitmandood, I did write paragraphs with double spaces, however youtube disallowed my text to break properly. KJ EB, it was too long to read, but yet you invested the time to snark, go you. PurpleJay, I'm not actually as strong as it seems, I just try to use my morals and righteous anger to push me along. I have had to learn how to live with rejection and not being liked by others. I also know that on many ways I've been really blessed, so I owe it to society to pay it forward. Leo, I'm about to make the scariest transition in my life. Its going to be some serious grinding to get it done. I failed really hard in my life...TRUST ME!!! But it kills me more if I die wondering "what if". Life is too damn short. Every time I reach one set of goals I restart a new dream.
Arika Bush Well, you fixed it, so I took the time to read it. Looks like you're a bit depressed. Have you sent out your resumes yet for new work? I'd start with that and just grin and bare the job until you have some other means of generating income or new employment. What else can you do?
Whoah. I had noticed that several of your latest videos were bolder, carrying bigger insights, I kind of felt something had to be around the corner. Godspeed! I am in the middle of my fourties and your videos helped me a lot in the last year (along with hard work, meditation and other people's insights too, of course). I can feel very well that the clock is ticking just as you say, and it's part of what makes the path amazing.
I'm willing to wait 5 years for your insights in the future. You have helped me in so many ways with your videos Leo. Thank you for the big vision you share with us, and Happy New Year!
The things that you have posted even in your beginnings have GREATLY helped me in my life. Please know that every new idea, whether you feel that it is inadequate or not, you have helped me in such monumental ways. For the past 3 years or more you have been my Guru.
Hey Leo, you’ve admitted in other videos that you’re arrogant and maybe you’re still working on that but in this video you show that you’re also very humble and it really shows how serious you are about inner growth like very few people are. And this was 6 years ago!!!
I thinkyou will go for it. i feel it. I am . I am as broke as shit but I dont need stuff... I am almost 45 and I am finished raising my family as a single parent and just moved to the beach and doing...me stuff. your a legend. I really am considering being a liteworker and will do it because I like the process of learning that I just by chance discovered thru quite time. Go live and enjoy. Bless Leo.
First. Thank you Leo for all the knowledge and help you have guided me with, I have followed you for 1,5 years now. An idea just hit me that I want to share with you. I want to see you to find someone that can document your journey in personnel development so you can go all in and focus on your life, and growing. This will inspire people and since you already have so much content that will help people for many years to come and you will have a strong impact when you really walk you talk. You have been doing this vids for a while now, please take the risk and let us follow you on your way, it would be very inspiring to follow. If you like this idea, like it so Leo can see it. Thanks Leo!
I so felt you'd advance into something richer! You've achieved so much with income and things. Last month I experienced another level in my meditation. After, I remembered, every deep teacher I've read or heard on Zen and other forms of intense meditation devotees says you must achieve all that ego-stuff, before you seek enlightenment. Then, you'd see the truth of it and you will happily let it go. I would so miss your guidance man. For me, I hit an area in meditation where I was on the edge of a vast black ocean of nothing. I was the ocean, the mind was just like a dirty membrane I was able to push past. It was a super-amazing and scary moment. Lots of bullshit in was just gone for days, I felt bad for folks not working on this. Still, confusion, anger, desires and such came back in a week. I think I know why. I've not done that ladder you mention, not fully climbed it like you have. The Ego part of me still wants to achieve stuff, but the REAL me couldn't give a fuck. If I'd stepped further into myself as that ocean I'd have died to earthly shit, and I knew this. I'll figure it out I'm sure. I get distracted and must gain control of that. Yoga, meditation work of all forms are known as something you practice but I'm 47 with no kids. I don't have much time left. I imagine I'll shed myself in my 50's and be one with that ocean and give some years of my life to nothing but meditation and mindfulness via art. I thought about you. If I was at your level of success and so young, I'd break out for a timetable like, three years. You know how to resuscitate your desires if you decide to return.
ty I needed to hear this, yesterday I realized a lot of the advice I give , I don't follow. Taking action is mandatory but frightening. This video was really refreshing, ty again.
"Live in a cabin for 5 years and enlighten the shit out of myself." Truly inspiring haha Appreciate the video Leo, very thought provoking stuff as usual.
you changed my life, i was a people pleaser and now i'm stronger and independed then every before in my whole life, i hope you find enlightment in your journy
Went to bed wondering what was going on with me, woke up to this :) I am 27, and felt like time started running out at 23. Time to re-prioritize what was always my top priority anyway.
Wow, that was real! Having the guts to speak publicly about your own problems makes it so much more authentic compared to normal self-help. Whatever you choose to do, you got my support 100%. I'm reading the Book of Not Knowing atm., and I can kind of see now that no matter what things I achieve, real peace won't come without enlightenment. I have a couple of questions about enlightenment: -If I do strong determination sitting + self inquiry, how long each day would you say is necessary if one is serious about being enlightened? -Have you taken the time to get into full lotus? There may be some tradition to it, but people say it's the most stable position for longer sits.
+Keep Ondra Thanks; I believe Leo would say 30 minutes in order for people to get good meditation gains, but without scaring us off. Perhaps that won't do if one really wants to go all the way. He stated that he isn't enlightened yet, but perhaps he knows a lot about other people who got enlightened.
+Amund D Hey! The fastest way to enlightenment is by practising Self-Enquiry. Wherever you are, or whatever you do, always enquire ''Who am I?'' It should not be done in a particular place or time, that is for novices. Forget about strong-determination sitting, pain and pleasure are only aspects of the mind, it will not weaken the mind. There's people who lives in India that have practised this 40-50 years with full commitment, they are still not enlightened. You must give up everything for the truth, by that I mean all your beliefs. You believe there's something to achieve, and that's the biggest obstacle. All happens by itself, the seeker does nothing. You are already enlightened, one with God. When effort is needed, effort will come. Everything is determined, because the Self goes beyond time and space. Enlightenement happens thanks for the mind, but you are not the mind. You cannot control the mind, because there are not two minds, only one. If you start worry about how long time it will take for you to become enlightened, you attention is on the mind and not the Self. You need strong commitment and perserveraince. Stop read books. The only real and perfect knowledge is Silence alone. All mental knowledge is holding you back. There's absolutely nothing to know. Forget everything and simply Be. It's not something passive. It's hard-hard work.
***** It's not some sort of mantra because the question itself has no power. What has power is when you turn your mind inwards and direct all your attention on the Self. The question is only an aid. Do this practise discrete when you're around other people. Don't let them know that your're doing this stuff. They are close-minded so that only leads to trouble.
I cried for a good portion of this video. Felt every bit of certainty, and confusion. Big things are on the horizon, and distractions keep getting in my way. Meditation will help clarify what the options are. I need to do this. thank you so much for this video. Do what you feel in your heart is right.
Even though I always think, ask questions and try answering it in my head, at the end I always go with the flow with my decisions. But that's just my lifestyle... I know how you feel about growing and expanding your knowledge. I get the feeling like there is not too much time left to absorb all the facts. Are you satisfied with your current knowledge? If I was you, I would. In fact I would be so much more satisfied with the fact that I'm sharing my wisdom to the masses. Your videos have helped a lot of people. Whatever your life goal is, you'll achieve it. You have a lot of years to learn. It's amazing how persistent are you, and keep on creating. Whenever I listen to you, I think, I really do. And my thoughts always end up here: What is life? Literally, the last sentence in my head which ends my reflections. So... Yeah... In conclusion. You are a good smart man.
+Phantom Zephyr Ⓥ I think once you reach his level, you realize that there are levels above, and settling for what you got in the long run would limit yourself. It's not as simple as you may think, I'm not at his level, but philosophically at least I can understand his mind set. He's way more than a good smart man. It's hard to convey that in words though.Just like I can't fully convey in words the emotion of fear or hunger.
+Aizen Sama when you say at his level what do you mean? Because how can you prove he's an any level beyond you or myself when all we have to go off of is his RUclips videos and website? There's really know telling. I've bought his book list and watched almost all his videos and there great.however when you study many different teachers/life coaches ect. You realize it's a lot if not all recycled information.
king nick That's the problem, it's really difficult proving it. They only way you can know, is if you share a similar mind set to him or have gained that level of awareness. Sounds pompous and all, but that's just the way it is, life's a bitch.
Whatever the decision you make Leo, know that you have my respect, and i think most of the viewers too. I am willing to wait 5 years to see your growth, and even if you decide to not share the wisdom publicly, I would be grateful to see your growth. The most important thing you did for me, was to inspire me into personal development, (wich i've been doing for about 6 months now) and plant this seed on me, wich by now, i don't think will die. I wish you luck, and wisdom my friend. Sorry about my english, I'm from Brazil actually :D
It is very rare to see someone who wants to practice what they preach. So dedicated to others. I'm amazed. Right behind you Leo. Go do what you feel you need to do. Go seek the truth. As for me, you have done enough. No obligations towards me as a viewer. The video's need a lot of time to see all of them. With you 100%. If i were you though, i would calculate all my obtions. I know a lot of enlightened people who didn't have to give up relations or money or sex ... still were enlightened. Have you read the life biography of Mohammad. Please, please consider reading it before you make any lifechanging decisions. I am asking you this as a friend, who wants the best for someone who i'm grateful to, Leo. You are one of the best!
Im 19 years old. I'm in college. I live at home. And within these next six months I have to deal with the loss of my childhood home and finding a new place to live, and adjusting to adult life without my parents to fall back on. My dad is a private attorney and he works for himself and a few years ago him and my mom decided that they were going to quit their business, sell our house, and travel the world with nothing but what they can pack on their motorcycles. they would stop taking new cases at the end of 2016 and by mid 2017 they wanted to be hitting the road on a year (or so) long trip from alaska to the tip of south america. watching some videos to try an find some way to help myself feel better about my parents leaving me and "moving away". Right now I'm just in denial. I know that my life is going to be changing so much, and I have never really experienced much change at all let alone anything near this magnitude. The house is going up on the market within the next month I suppose. It doesn't feel real yet but its just so weird to think that this time next year, my life will be completely different. Im scared, but I'm also excited and curious, I suppose.
your thoughs and feeling are irrelevant..they doesnt mean nothing and as loong as you think like that you will feel scared.Just let it go accept reality and go with the flow. Wish u happiness in life :)
your parents have balls. but on the other hand that must be a lot for a 19 year old to take in all at once. you'll come out stronger on the other side of this. in the mean time just objectively observe the sensations that come up when you're bothered with your current emotional state.
Leo, very inspired by this video. As if you were speaking directly to me. I'm 26. I have a wonderful career and I'm very comfortable however, I have been contemplating earning a Masters in Social Work. It's been eating at me and I want it so bad. Being in a good place makes it difficult because it's nice and cushy now. But I want to trade self-absorbing to truly making a difference on the Master's level in the world. The spirit really spoke through you in this video. Thank you for your transparency.
I think you should enjoy life more and not worry about who is more spiritual and that brings out your competitiveness. Enjoy the success and joy you have brought to so many like me. You don't need to go anywhere to be who you are and what you are. Your amazing being you.
Well, I'm glad you took the path of fulfillment and not of success. I found your deeper videos at just the right time, and they help me walk the straight line. They really resonate with me, and your direct, no bullshit approach to teaching wisdom is a rare commodity in this world.
It was very rescent that i discovered Actualized.org, im very happy about this discovery and Leo.....Thank you very mutch! I got "sold" to your videos from the first minutes in, planing to watch most of them. What i wanted to say you already have herd dosens of times (i hope). Go for that journey! I believe you deserve those higher plains of wisdom and clarity! Through all these years you might be the informational/motivational source for many people, who knows where has their path led to. Im confident that the amount of insight you have provided is more then enough to lead people to their higher journeys. The ones that need you, already have you, go for the truth!
You said you worry if you are helping people with your work...I can tell you you have DEFINITELY helped me with my depression and my anxiety and my neurosis something in which I didn't even know I had. Now of course there is no way to prove if something is helping or not in the long run as it is just personal opinion but I definitely feel an improvement right now and recently since watching your videos.
Whatever you do, keep your channel active, I have just discovered your channel and have only dipped into this vast well. Please keep your videos up,, they give a much needed echo. Thanks for this one and many others.
I made a radical change 9 years ago when I left my hometown of 20,000 for Toronto. Most of the fears I had were smashed within a few weeks. People told me I would be robbed or murdered. It was a real eye-opener for me and I'm sure it contributed to my decision to seek more of that. Hence, here I am. Thanks for your videos!
Leo, please DO NOT leave RUclips. You are my inspiration and you keep me on track and help me to self actualize. And if I do not have you and your support I will not get that far on this journey toward my highest possible potential. Sometimes you have to be selfish - I get that - but I just do not think that it would be a good idea for you to abandon your channel and viewers. Because - like enlightenment - contribution to other people is also one of the highest pleasures in life and you need to maintain integrity with your biological needs. So I Hope you can see how important keeping the channel is. Hope u will answer :)
+Christian Harborg He has a large amount of content that can still be accessed and used. His channel will still have tons of content. The only thing that would change is that you'll have a more palpable sense that the videos were recorded in the past. You will likely feel as though you lost someone out of you life that you know personally. With the nature of his videos, it is easy to do. He is human, and he has to do what he believes is the right thing.
+The Diamond Net Well there is an iterative process. Some things have to be repeated and reinforced. There are others that I believe have been on longer than he has & they repeat different parts. I suppose over time, the RUclips content starts to delivery diminishing returns, where even a weekly session might be too soon. That said, it's still going to take me a few years to get through all the books & not quite sure how long for the Life Purpose course. Also, trying to work through some psychological issues right now & require more meditation in my free time.
Leo, It can be difficult to make a change when you are afraid of the outcome. Fear makes us extremely uncomfortable. Stephen Bardo, a retired NBA Basketball player, once said, "You have to become comfortable with being uncomfortable." I didn't know what it meant until it came to making life changes. Those moments when I was most afraid to change or to speak my mind, were the moments that I had to make the changes and speak my mind. Sometimes we have to work on who we are in order to help others. The decision you are making is a tough one, but you have to stay true to your authentic self and become comfortable with being uncomfortable. I promise you that any decision you make will benefit you in the long run.
Thanks Leo. For all your videos that you have/will post. Love listening to them all, so inspiring. I feel I'm also in the midst of a paradigm shift, and your videos really help me to keep on track.
Yes, It is about YOU. But we share consciousness. You touch points that real live people in our lives, can't even come close to...even if you're just a recording, a tape, a Utube rerun or a book, you still share & help us connect with the Oneness better and it's so helpful....
Hey Leo. No matter what you decide, I want you to know this channel has had a major impact on my life. Your videos inspired me to make a lot of positive changes towards self-actualization. Thanks for all you do!
Hai leo, i am a 29 social worker and capoeira instructor from israel and have been wathcing over 100 hours of your videos. This is the first comment i am writing in response to your videos. I think that the analogy to Gandy is intersting, because he was a person who combined deep spirtual work with social practice. My opinion is that one day your true chalange will be combining family life with your ambitious project of Actualized.org(=Public speaking and being a coach). Maybe this explains part of the emptiness you are feeling right know. Gandi`s wife as an analogy took a great part of his life long journey. You are an inspiring person who gives a quality and unique service to the world . Don`t give up on being influential to others.
You are my mentor...whatever decision you make I will look up to you But as a fellow human....someone also with a inner hero You have to do it LEO...accept your calling. Sincerely Cowie
Leo!!!!!! Nooooo!!!! You cannot disappear on us. I checked the site 5 times yesterday for your video and twice today. Hope you feel better but you have to stay public. My mother passed away in May and I watched your video about taking responsibility for everything that happens in your life a dozen times. It really helped me to not fall into victim mode and empowered me to take charge in a very dark time in my life. I have since moved to California from Baltimore and when I came here I watched your videos every single week since. It will completely shatter all of my heart if you vanish as my heart still aches from the passing of Wayne Dyer. These are just my thoughts but are you sure this just isn't your mind being a squirrel on crack. Haha Follow your heart. I love you! Can't believe you're talking like this but you have my support no matter how I feel. 💓
+Cherry Pisces If he did leave, our support wouldn't matter! lol. Just make your peace with it & move on. Even in Leo's wake, I have a ton to read & his Life Purpose course...it's going to take me a couple years to get through all of this, if not longer since I still work full time & as far as the videos go, I've seen every one (except for the Life Purpose, which I'm still in theory & going through the recommended books & videos).
Don't turn down opportunity, take a chance on somebody else, and delicate it out. That way you can help others. And still benefit why'll your doing your thing even if it's to a smaller degree. Thanks for all Your help. My life is being redirected.
You have inspired me, and you got me into self-help. I want to expand my knowledge on the topic, because I too want to use it to fulfill myself, and I want to spread my knowledge to make the world a better place. But watching this video gave me some incite, and kind of opened my mind to some completely new possibilities. I learned that fulfillment is within, and the was I see it is that I want to be fulfilled now. Not way down my life. But maybe fulfillment is something that only the ones who devote themselves to it will ever find. Listening to my gut I understand why you would want to make an extreme change like that. I make small changed in my life everyday and they still can be frightening. Im only 17 and I've defiantly had one major turning point in my life, and Im so grateful for it. Im a much more positive and motivated person now. Imagining moving across the globe and changing your lifestyle %100 probably sounds crazy to most people. I feel like thats something almost no one would be willing to do, only the true heros. Death is upon us. I encourage that you make this grand leap in your life.
I was worth the wait, I had a back injury that left me on bed for the last week and like you say, I was conscious and see everything clearly, is good to know that we are not alone in this journey. Thank you.
So far, this is one of the few self-help methods that works. It provides details on how to deal with setbacks and is not overly optimistic or pessimistic.
I'm happy to see that even despite I haven't seen any more of your videos for a while, when I come back I see I'm still on the right track. Tomorrow comes the final decision of my actual turning point, but I feel more confident now, about following my inner wisdom despite what my familiy or friends might think. I don't know how they will take it when I announce it, but I know that it will happen no matter what. After all this is done, I'll come back to your videos when I need it, but I enjoy learning things myself. They feel more valuable, but you still test me, you show me new things that I haven't thought about and question the ones that I have. Thank you once again Leo, I wish you luck in your journey, no matter wich one will be.
I love how encouraging the comments on this video are. In Leo's most recent videos, the change he was speaking of in this video has become very pronounced. However, most of his viewers have not been very supportive of this and it seems to me that he is deeply misunderstood by a great majority of them, at least those who comment of his videos. He is criticized and ridiculed by viewers and other youtubers claiming that he "has gone too far" and that he "has lost his mind". But I believe what is really happening is that people do not fathom the seriousness of the commitment Leo made to pursuing enlightenment and exploring the deepest levels of wisdom and understanding. Most people are so disconnected from this endeavor and, out of ignorace, deny the possibility of attaining such levels of understanding because it is so far beyond the narrow paradigm in which they operate. And thus, when they hear Leo talk about the things that he does, to them, he seems like a delusional person that has gone off the deep end. But I argue that nothing is further from the truth. It is those people who criticize Leo the ones who are disconnected from the Truth. I argue that those who say he has "gone too far" in fact have not bothered to take the first step in the direction of serious and genuine self-mastery.
You have given so much, without you I am lost but you will become a guru. We support you, kundalini meditation is my last option, to transcend to such a level.
for me , u're my mentor .. the speech that you give can always reach my spirit , heart and brain ...and i need more and more of your videos , words and insights !! it's a pleasure for me and all those who listen to you!!
Hey Leo, for what its worth I think you are doing a tremendous public service with your videos that shouldn't be minimized. There is a huge need for self development and you are making a big difference in people's lives.
"2 steps forward and 3 steps backward but then after couple of years 10 steps forward " that's really a good advice Leo . Right now I'm facing this challenge , on one side there's my ego who is moving towards success and on the other side there a part of me wich wants growth and mastery. The point is that I'm about to get a promotion at work , wich is successful for my ego but then a part of me is screaming to go in a bigger city without promotion and learn more and more and become my best-self . Remember ... Growth is not in comfort !!!
I've been hearing a lot of Leo and Actualized and really don't know how would a person want to Actualize on the cost of everything good you have. Even Leo dosnt want to do it fully.I and 99% of people chose comfort insted of inlightment.
I just got out of school. I am going to pursue medicine which is a massive course. I am supposed to move to a place far away from my home. My home is very comfortable and luxurious. I am very lazy and a procastinator.. But the hostel is extremely basic, it's in a village. My life is going to turn upside down... I have to give up my luxuries, great home food..I relate to this 100℅...this is a consolation for me.
Hey Leo, Happy 2016 and a huge thank you. I have been following your videos for almost a year now and as with most of your followers your words inspire me and help me stay focused in a world where it is so too easy to slip back to old ways of being. I had a full and bold change about 6 years ago when I closed my business, left my husband for a years separation (happily we are now back together though) and enrolled onto a counselling course that totally changed my life. This was massive for me a girl from a dysfunctional family and at times abusive upbringing. I did not get good grades at school or college and did not even know I could be academic. However as in a lot of your videos about our inate potential being there for the taking (totally spot on), I unleashed mine, worked my my butt off and excelled obtaining both a professional diploma in counsellng and first class honors degree within my field also. I worked for a few months as a couple counsellor, and then a year as a student counsellor at the college where I trained but have left now to be home with my children, run our family roofing business and try other things. Despite all that I have learned it is still, at times hard fully embodying my new found adult wisdom and knowledge when all my family have not gone on the same kind of journey and try pulling me back to their way of thinking and a younger way of being in the world. Your videos have helped my inner adult wisdom stay firmly in place and when I step off my path or have a wobble you have been the source I go to for frank honesty and humbling discussions to help me reignite my inner fire, detemination and drive to live a wonderful life, and most importantly to me, remember my wish to pass this onto my children (ages 8 and 4) as they grow and develop. Success for me is this. Not allowing generations of family abuse and lack of awareness to go any further. it stops with me. Everything else I achieve is a huge bonus. Now what came up for me with this thought provoking video, as you talked about the cross roads you are nearing is that there were only three options for you; continuing with actualized.org or going off to master your inner psychology; or trying to do both. I am curious about you having a partner in crime to muse your wisdom with or children to pass your wisdom onto. Or a charity that helps make a difference or bring smiles to those who need it especially in a world that from my view is so deeply entrenched with the ways of the system that it sadly feels to me almost impossible for things to be any different. the system has worked a treat in keeping humanity locked in ignorance so we do not take action and stand against the unethical and damn right wrongness and inequality of the world. Those with the power keep the power can we ever make a dent in that? I know your views too on the system etc and I loved your video 30 ways society f***ks you in the A** chimpery perfect words. Does this impact on your decision as to whether you contiune with actualised.org? Does it feel too steep a vmountain to climb to really make a difference in the world under these circumstances? Finally I get being torn with wanting to be successful but not wanting to lose sight of what you truly value and the inner integrity you posess. That is a tough one and I will be intrigued to wait and see where things go for you and what you decide. In the mean timeI will be as always enjoying your videos. Thank you again Kind regards C
In one way it kinda crushes my heart to have this pretty certain feeling that you will have to leave. But in another way I'm happy for you and am proud and wish you good luck. Let us know if you decide anything Love,
OMG, you just expressed everything I was feeling in the past few months but was unable to put into words. Finally! I am currently going through major changes and was afraid, but didn't know how to express it. Thank you for your wisdom! :D
It's ultimately your decision, but your videos have helped me A LOT. If you do abandon youtube, please leave this channel up, so your past videos can continue to touch people like me. Thank you for your work!
Leo I really really felt this one. I wish the best of luck with this major decision. I do have this weird longing for something really detrimental to happen to me where it makes these shifts permanent. Because I'm kind of sick and tired of getting distracted by the drama and dumb stuff in school and in the environment. I feel that because I haven't had too many real major life experiences yet, I have no perspective of what to actually do. I want to believe that I do but I don't. I don't know whether or not I'm on the right path or I'm jumping the gun and cutting corners or something. But there is something nagging at me and I've only noticed it during 2015... I hope that if you do choose to go all out, that you somehow still manage to update us as you pursue your journey :)
Thank's a lot for this thoughts. Can't change my life a long period of time. Can't do things, that I feel I need to do. Your video help me to observe my problem with full attention and finally start to do what I need to do
Thanks for sharing, what ever decision you will make please don't let this chanel down .You change my whole thinking and I'm so much a better person Thanks ,Love you.
Hey man, it seems like I stumbled across this video at the right time and the universe has guided me here. I am facing a similar dilemma here. I went from a successful student at a top business school in Canada who is destined for career success, to contemplating becoming a Buddhist monk to attain Enlightenment. I think Spirituality is the natural extension at the peak of self-development. You first spend time developing the ego before transcending the ego. Talk about radical changes huh? I've deferred school and donated a lot of my possessions. Right now I've pretty much let go of almost everything in my old life, so that Enlightenment is my only purpose. When I took the leap, it was the scariest thing ever because I felt like someone suddenly pulled the plug on my illusions. But follow your calling man, speaking from experience, the sacrifices were nothing compared to the deep peace, satisfaction and meaning that comes with Spiritual Awakening. After all, this is the ultimate purpose of life. Peace and love brother!
I like to listen to your thoughts, Leo. If you ever decide to stop that will be a loss for the self help community. As you are one of the view that is really honest about himself and you don't bullshit people.
I have faced one big turning point in my life witch was my decision of moving to Brasil for exchange student for a year witch has given me a lot of growth. And another one is coming up where I thinking about: going to another country with AFS and do volunteer work for 6 months, go beck to high school in my small hometown, moving to Las Vegas in America and bettering myself in picking up girls (or to some other big city where they have many party's and hot girls), or stay at home working with my father and making this decision later or some other decision (which I don't want to do).
One of your best videos yet Leo.... Thank you for sharing this.... I hope you do find a way to keep Actualized.org running whilst you pursue these truths, as I think I speak for all your subscribers; we're all on this consciousness journey with you - albeit a little behind!
Good luck with your big decisions you have to make. I love your videos and will be sad to see you go, but if you need to move on you need to do it. All the best to you. You deserve it!
1. I think I am in a similar situation. My situation is probably not as intense because I don't have as much to lose as you do. I am 23 and graduated college less than a year ago. At some point I realized that pretty much everything I do is futile and that all the things that I thought matter so much actually do not. All the contexts I have are all illusions and my idea of reality is actually an escape from reality. I used to be into entrepreneurship and self-help. I don't have that urge to be special and superior anymore. It's like a part of me just died. But then at times, I think about all the success and achievement I could have if kept going in that road. I think this is what Jed Mckenna calls "spiritual dissonance." it's like being split into two and it can be really painful. But then Alan Watts said "you don't have to let go because you're not holding on to anything." I think that the control I (as the ego) have over my life is actually an illusion because I am an illusion. So trying to solve the dilemma actually creates the dilemma because you trying implies that you are real and in control. 2. Also I think that at this point, me sharing this comment or looking for videos and books related to the subject is actually an attempt to deny what I see, to slow down the process or to get reassurance from other people. I guess learning that there is no self is such an unbearable fact to the ego. 3. I don't know what the future holds. I might quit my fucking job and just wander around. I might get too scared of losing myself, forget about all this 'enlightenment' nonsense and go back to living a 'normal' life. I really don't know. What I know is that I will not be able to unlearn what I have learned. I won't be able to look at everything the way I used to in my 'normal' years. Anyways .. let me know what you think. Cheers!
Hey Leo I felt happy watching this video. It was encouraging. I believe that you are the best cause as far as I have read and heard things about self actualization - no one has kept it simple and easy to adapt like you have done it for us. Most of your videos are like as if I am hearing my inner voice speak load. Well thank you. Most important thing I wanted to share with you is some information. I have gone through many philosophers and read different books on self help but there is this one book I strongly recommend to you and all the people. It has been very difficult to adapt to its teachings however it definitely is the path to enlightenment and as you call it Self Transcendence. It is the key. No matter how many diversions I have had.. Of which your videos too were one of the many... I still have heard my heart call out to this book as the final point of all problems and to their solutions. I'm not religious about the belief cause I am more spiritual. I just believe if not today when you read my comment.. Someday on your path you definitely will remember me for this suggestion. It is the oldest of books - written by Chinmaya Mission Swami Chinmayananda called the Bhagavad Gita. Pls read and I am sure you will find the answers you are seeking. Mahatma Gandhi too believed in the Gita. My 2nd suggestion to you is to meet if possible Swami Paripoornanda as he is the best. Hope you do consider giving it a try. All the best to you in all that you do.. Regards, Vishnu Shreyas Yuvarajan
_I had a fever so I was contemplating my death_ and I just bursted out laughing. Laughing because in fact it doesn't sound stupid at all. Thinking _in fifty years I might be in similar possition and not get well_ and it's like wake-up call. However you decide, Leo I wish you the best. You literally changed the direction of my life. With self-actualization I started very recently but I know that this is the way I want to go. This is the way I _need_ to go. Persuing higher values than getting good food, having sex and getting drunk, because I wasn't born to live like an animal. Like most people are. The more I see your mind working the more I see the value in knowing who you are. Because I don't know who I am. Thanks to you I have the determination to find out.
I respect your 'realness' Leo. Trust yourself. Your perception of success is what success is. Since you are a deep person with good human values your perception of success is uncommon. (I am like you in that sense). I am facing a turning point at this very moment. It's as you have described. Funny how I have difficulty to follow my own advice and fear comes into play. I will take the hero's challenge tho and I will prevail. :)
Hey Leo man. :) You dont have to believe me, but I really think youre something else. Maybe youre not the way you wish to be, but I have no words to describe how awesome human you are. And you deserve to have any life you want to have. What ever decisions you make Ill respect that and support it. Even if it means Im gonna miss you like hell. Cause I see you as a friend. Because youre the most natural and honest guy I have seen online...and maybe beyond internet. :) Take care, man. :)
What!? No please Leo... You're my guide in this crazy world don't shut down actualized.com you have helped me so much :/ I understand what you're saying but we need you!!!! 😨😓🙏🏼
Leo, thank you for speaking the truth... i feel your heartfelt dilemma for surrendering and following your purpose. My simple advice: "Listen to your heart".
Thanks Leo! Your channel came to my life at the perfect moment! You say in a few videos that some of these videos may be too "harsh" or may not be suitable for beginners and bruise our ego and you're so right! Tough love! Truth hurts! This video seemed so much more "intimate" I hope I make sense. It seems so in the sense that it's like you're talking thru your own decisions...thought process... Just want you to know that your channel touches many lives...and thanks again!
Love the videos Leo. I hope you find what you are seeking in your enlightenment. Much respect and many wishes for peace to you. You are on spot on with priorities in life and the psychology behind them. Hero's do, ordinary don't. Much appreciated as I am currently in a life shift. Thank you.
The diamond net - Having a life purpose is also important for ones happiness and fulfillment levels. Even if you are enlightened, you still need it as well as the other needs to maintain integrity with yourself :)
That was probably one of the most serious videos I have seen so far, especially when he mentioned about no posting videos on regular basis.. Hope you'll find your truth Leo but please don't leave us :(((
Haha as someone who just quit law school, I can say I relate to a few of the things you are going through . My love and gratitude to you Leo, Thank you :)
i can relate to that, i am near graduation and i have some moral issues with completing my last 4 exams in law school. Also if fast forward 10 years ,i see myself as adrenaly exhausted zombie automaton.
+sinko83 I'm in my third year in law school and I don't want to waste my life working in an easily replaceable immoral job , I want to be a social sciences expert and writer where I can unleash my potential, I'm just completing my law degree to have a backup plan if I miserably fail 0.0 what do you think is your passion?
Im in feel of risking my happiness as i have a fear of getting mentally unwell. I have bipolar and psychosis tendencies im well managed over this but i cant risk it. Its so tricky .
Alan Watts was saying that one of the main differences between a Buddhist monk and a member of the clergy is that if you have second thoughts as a Buddhist, you can resign without the baggage if you were to do the same as a Christian. So whatever you choose, and if you choose to 'burn the boats' don't forget that the road you travel will have another fork in it.
Accpeting the call is one of the hardest part on a hero's journey, I know once I accepted it, nothing else matters, but...fuck that there are so many resistances.
This is the best self-improvement channel! period!
Truth
Agreed
+Tarik Taghzouti agreed.. incredible... and i'm a guy who would never go for self-improvement channels
There aren't a bunch of self improvement channels anyway. Having said that, this is an excellent channel but it's also on the unique side.
It sounds very much like Elliot Hulse recent situation. He spent years building his business and youtube, but knew he wasn't living his personal truth. He was at the physical and emotional breakpoint when he stepped back to care for himself and focus on family. He dropped off the radar for a while, he did what few men would do.
He spent a decade nonstop working and he risked everything to step away from it. Elliot had many dark nights but he faced his fears and moved towards healing. He is my hero for that reason, he shifted the paradigm for our generation. We have been told just mindlessly work and build, but actualizing it challenging our fears everyday.
I'm sitting in the middle of this in my career. I rebuilt my life after many hardships as a teen and young adult. I worked so hard in the last decade to move up from a dog bather to a groomer and eventually a salon manager. I've built great customers and I love 99% of my coworkers. I should be 'living the dream', but its living the lie in my mind. The company I worked at was sold, and the new company doesn't line up to my values. I've hit as far as I can go in this corporate environment, I need out while I have my morals and values.
Asking for $150k from the bank is so damn scary. I've done the research, I know my ability and my market. At the end of the day I need to know that my life meant something. The only way that I can help my community is to break out of the mold. I'm in the center of the transition, and I'm frightened as hell, I'm letting go of my security.
Meanwhile, my heart breaks watching teens fighting with police in a nearby community. The heroin epidemic is horrible in my neighborhood because people don't know how to process their emotional issues. We need some strong young people to reset the goals globally. Its one soul at a time, we start with yourself, once we are functional we reach out to friends and our workplace, hopefully next the community, eventually the world.
Keep your published RUclips videos up while you take time to care for yourself. The videos serve as great support on my rough days. You bring a lot of insight into life, and I'm better because of what you have shared. Maybe consider an unedited raw video diary day by day as you work through things, the insight might help others. We see people at their best, glossy and perfect, however we need to see someone spiritually puking. Our generation needs to see young people waking up. Transformation hurts, but we are brave MF'ers, and we have a world to fix.
Amen
best video & best comment. I completely agree.
+Arika Bush Could you break this into paragraphs? I'm not sure many can read the text wall fully.
Sorry Mr Shitmandood, I did write paragraphs with double spaces, however youtube disallowed my text to break properly. KJ EB, it was too long to read, but yet you invested the time to snark, go you.
PurpleJay, I'm not actually as strong as it seems, I just try to use my morals and righteous anger to push me along. I have had to learn how to live with rejection and not being liked by others. I also know that on many ways I've been really blessed, so I owe it to society to pay it forward.
Leo, I'm about to make the scariest transition in my life. Its going to be some serious grinding to get it done. I failed really hard in my life...TRUST ME!!! But it kills me more if I die wondering "what if". Life is too damn short. Every time I reach one set of goals I restart a new dream.
Arika Bush
Well, you fixed it, so I took the time to read it. Looks like you're a bit depressed. Have you sent out your resumes yet for new work? I'd start with that and just grin and bare the job until you have some other means of generating income or new employment. What else can you do?
ur my favorite in the self help and growth, never seen someone that gives so much details
Whoah. I had noticed that several of your latest videos were bolder, carrying bigger insights, I kind of felt something had to be around the corner. Godspeed!
I am in the middle of my fourties and your videos helped me a lot in the last year (along with hard work, meditation and other people's insights too, of course). I can feel very well that the clock is ticking just as you say, and it's part of what makes the path amazing.
I'm willing to wait 5 years for your insights in the future. You have helped me in so many ways with your videos Leo.
Thank you for the big vision you share with us, and Happy New Year!
Agreed!
it’s been 5 years
@@CJ2K haha
Was the wait worth it? haha
Please let actualized.org live forever!!! Don't leave us, we can't live without you anymore!!!
The things that you have posted even in your beginnings have GREATLY helped me in my life. Please know that every new idea, whether you feel that it is inadequate or not, you have helped me in such monumental ways. For the past 3 years or more you have been my Guru.
Hey Leo, you’ve admitted in other videos that you’re arrogant and maybe you’re still working on that but in this video you show that you’re also very humble and it really shows how serious you are about inner growth like very few people are. And this was 6 years ago!!!
If you have a ''brain'' like Leo''s...... You see where im getting at.
I thinkyou will go for it. i feel it. I am . I am as broke as shit but I dont need stuff... I am almost 45 and I am finished raising my family as a single parent and just moved to the beach and doing...me stuff. your a legend. I really am considering being a liteworker and will do it because I like the process of learning that I just by chance discovered thru quite time. Go live and enjoy. Bless Leo.
First.
Thank you Leo for all the knowledge and help you have guided me with, I have followed you for 1,5 years now.
An idea just hit me that I want to share with you.
I want to see you to find someone that can document your journey in personnel development so you can go all in and focus on your life, and growing.
This will inspire people and since you already have so much content that will help people for many years to come and you will have a strong impact when you
really walk you talk.
You have been doing this vids for a while now, please take the risk and let us follow you on your way, it would be very inspiring to follow.
If you like this idea, like it so Leo can see it.
Thanks Leo!
I so felt you'd advance into something richer! You've achieved so much with income and things. Last month I experienced another level in my meditation. After, I remembered, every deep teacher I've read or heard on Zen and other forms of intense meditation devotees says you must achieve all that ego-stuff, before you seek enlightenment. Then, you'd see the truth of it and you will happily let it go. I would so miss your guidance man. For me, I hit an area in meditation where I was on the edge of a vast black ocean of nothing. I was the ocean, the mind was just like a dirty membrane I was able to push past. It was a super-amazing and scary moment. Lots of bullshit in was just gone for days, I felt bad for folks not working on this. Still, confusion, anger, desires and such came back in a week. I think I know why. I've not done that ladder you mention, not fully climbed it like you have. The Ego part of me still wants to achieve stuff, but the REAL me couldn't give a fuck. If I'd stepped further into myself as that ocean I'd have died to earthly shit, and I knew this. I'll figure it out I'm sure. I get distracted and must gain control of that. Yoga, meditation work of all forms are known as something you practice but I'm 47 with no kids. I don't have much time left. I imagine I'll shed myself in my 50's and be one with that ocean and give some years of my life to nothing but meditation and mindfulness via art. I thought about you. If I was at your level of success and so young, I'd break out for a timetable like, three years. You know how to resuscitate your desires if you decide to return.
ty I needed to hear this, yesterday I realized a lot of the advice I give , I don't follow. Taking action is mandatory but frightening. This video was really refreshing, ty again.
"Live in a cabin for 5 years and enlighten the shit out of myself." Truly inspiring haha
Appreciate the video Leo, very thought provoking stuff as usual.
you changed my life, i was a people pleaser and now i'm stronger and independed then every before in my whole life, i hope you find enlightment in your journy
Went to bed wondering what was going on with me, woke up to this :) I am 27, and felt like time started running out at 23. Time to re-prioritize what was always my top priority anyway.
Wow, that was real! Having the guts to speak publicly about your own problems makes it so much more authentic compared to normal self-help. Whatever you choose to do, you got my support 100%. I'm reading the Book of Not Knowing atm., and I can kind of see now that no matter what things I achieve, real peace won't come without enlightenment. I have a couple of questions about enlightenment:
-If I do strong determination sitting + self inquiry, how long each day would you say is necessary if one is serious about being enlightened?
-Have you taken the time to get into full lotus? There may be some tradition to it, but people say it's the most stable position for longer sits.
+Amund D I think he said 30 minutes every day asking "who am I", "who is aware", "what are thoughts". But I could be wrong.
+Keep Ondra Thanks; I believe Leo would say 30 minutes in order for people to get good meditation gains, but without scaring us off. Perhaps that won't do if one really wants to go all the way. He stated that he isn't enlightened yet, but perhaps he knows a lot about other people who got enlightened.
+Amund D Hey! The fastest way to enlightenment is by practising Self-Enquiry. Wherever you are, or whatever you do, always enquire ''Who am I?'' It should not be done in a particular place or time, that is for novices. Forget about strong-determination sitting, pain and pleasure are only aspects of the mind, it will not weaken the mind. There's people who lives in India that have practised this 40-50 years with full commitment, they are still not enlightened. You must give up everything for the truth, by that I mean all your beliefs. You believe there's something to achieve, and that's the biggest obstacle. All happens by itself, the seeker does nothing. You are already enlightened, one with God. When effort is needed, effort will come. Everything is determined, because the Self goes beyond time and space. Enlightenement happens thanks for the mind, but you are not the mind. You cannot control the mind, because there are not two minds, only one. If you start worry about how long time it will take for you to become enlightened, you attention is on the mind and not the Self. You need strong commitment and perserveraince. Stop read books. The only real and perfect knowledge is Silence alone. All mental knowledge is holding you back. There's absolutely nothing to know. Forget everything and simply Be. It's not something passive. It's hard-hard work.
+Shootman999 thank you for your wisdom! Really amazing comment.
***** It's not some sort of mantra because the question itself has no power. What has power is when you turn your mind inwards and direct all your attention on the Self. The question is only an aid. Do this practise discrete when you're around other people. Don't let them know that your're doing this stuff. They are close-minded so that only leads to trouble.
I cried for a good portion of this video. Felt every bit of certainty, and confusion. Big things are on the horizon, and distractions keep getting in my way. Meditation will help clarify what the options are. I need to do this. thank you so much for this video. Do what you feel in your heart is right.
Even though I always think, ask questions and try answering it in my head, at the end I always go with the flow with my decisions. But that's just my lifestyle... I know how you feel about growing and expanding your knowledge. I get the feeling like there is not too much time left to absorb all the facts. Are you satisfied with your current knowledge? If I was you, I would. In fact I would be so much more satisfied with the fact that I'm sharing my wisdom to the masses. Your videos have helped a lot of people. Whatever your life goal is, you'll achieve it. You have a lot of years to learn. It's amazing how persistent are you, and keep on creating. Whenever I listen to you, I think, I really do. And my thoughts always end up here: What is life? Literally, the last sentence in my head which ends my reflections. So... Yeah... In conclusion. You are a good smart man.
+Phantom Zephyr Ⓥ I think once you reach his level, you realize that there are levels above, and settling for what you got in the long run would limit yourself. It's not as simple as you may think, I'm not at his level, but philosophically at least I can understand his mind set. He's way more than a good smart man. It's hard to convey that in words though.Just like I can't fully convey in words the emotion of fear or hunger.
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hahaha no, but that's my new years resolution :D
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Yea ^.^
+Aizen Sama when you say at his level what do you mean? Because how can you prove he's an any level beyond you or myself when all we have to go off of is his RUclips videos and website? There's really know telling. I've bought his book list and watched almost all his videos and there great.however when you study many different teachers/life coaches ect. You realize it's a lot if not all recycled information.
king nick That's the problem, it's really difficult proving it. They only way you can know, is if you share a similar mind set to him or have gained that level of awareness. Sounds pompous and all, but that's just the way it is, life's a bitch.
Whatever the decision you make Leo, know that you have my respect, and i think most of the viewers too. I am willing to wait 5 years to see your growth, and even if you decide to not share the wisdom publicly, I would be grateful to see your growth.
The most important thing you did for me, was to inspire me into personal development, (wich i've been doing for about 6 months now) and plant this seed on me, wich by now, i don't think will die.
I wish you luck, and wisdom my friend.
Sorry about my english, I'm from Brazil actually :D
It is very rare to see someone who wants to practice what they preach. So dedicated to others. I'm amazed. Right behind you Leo. Go do what you feel you need to do. Go seek the truth. As for me, you have done enough. No obligations towards me as a viewer. The video's need a lot of time to see all of them. With you 100%. If i were you though, i would calculate all my obtions. I know a lot of enlightened people who didn't have to give up relations or money or sex ... still were enlightened. Have you read the life biography of Mohammad. Please, please consider reading it before you make any lifechanging decisions. I am asking you this as a friend, who wants the best for someone who i'm grateful to, Leo. You are one of the best!
Im 19 years old. I'm in college. I live at home. And within these next six months I have to deal with the loss of my childhood home and finding a new place to live, and adjusting to adult life without my parents to fall back on. My dad is a private attorney and he works for himself and a few years ago him and my mom decided that they were going to quit their business, sell our house, and travel the world with nothing but what they can pack on their motorcycles. they would stop taking new cases at the end of 2016 and by mid 2017 they wanted to be hitting the road on a year (or so) long trip from alaska to the tip of south america. watching some videos to try an find some way to help myself feel better about my parents leaving me and "moving away". Right now I'm just in denial. I know that my life is going to be changing so much, and I have never really experienced much change at all let alone anything near this magnitude. The house is going up on the market within the next month I suppose. It doesn't feel real yet but its just so weird to think that this time next year, my life will be completely different. Im scared, but I'm also excited and curious, I suppose.
your thoughs and feeling are irrelevant..they doesnt mean nothing and as loong as you think like that you will feel scared.Just let it go accept reality and go with the flow. Wish u happiness in life :)
your parents have balls. but on the other hand that must be a lot for a 19 year old to take in all at once. you'll come out stronger on the other side of this. in the mean time just objectively observe the sensations that come up when you're bothered with your current emotional state.
Leo, very inspired by this video. As if you were speaking directly to me. I'm 26. I have a wonderful career and I'm very comfortable however, I have been contemplating earning a Masters in Social Work. It's been eating at me and I want it so bad. Being in a good place makes it difficult because it's nice and cushy now. But I want to trade self-absorbing to truly making a difference on the Master's level in the world. The spirit really spoke through you in this video. Thank you for your transparency.
Love it! People are naturally afraid of unknowns. But the unknowns are just neutral. You won't know until you try it.
I think you should enjoy life more and not worry about who is more spiritual and that brings out your competitiveness. Enjoy the success and joy you have brought to so many like me. You don't need to go anywhere to be who you are and what you are. Your amazing being you.
Well, I'm glad you took the path of fulfillment and not of success. I found your deeper videos at just the right time, and they help me walk the straight line. They really resonate with me, and your direct, no bullshit approach to teaching wisdom is a rare commodity in this world.
I deeply respect you
It was very rescent that i discovered Actualized.org, im very happy about this discovery and Leo.....Thank you very mutch!
I got "sold" to your videos from the first minutes in, planing to watch most of them.
What i wanted to say you already have herd dosens of times (i hope). Go for that journey! I believe you deserve those higher plains of wisdom and clarity!
Through all these years you might be the informational/motivational source for many people, who knows where has their path led to. Im confident that the amount of insight you have provided is more then enough to lead people to their higher journeys. The ones that need you, already have you, go for the truth!
I wish you the best Leio with whatever you choice. You've been a great help for so many people. Good luck my hero.
You said you worry if you are helping people with your work...I can tell you you have DEFINITELY helped me with my depression and my anxiety and my neurosis something in which I didn't even know I had. Now of course there is no way to prove if something is helping or not in the long run as it is just personal opinion but I definitely feel an improvement right now and recently since watching your videos.
Whatever you do, keep your channel active, I have just discovered your channel and have only dipped into this vast well. Please keep your videos up,, they give a much needed echo. Thanks for this one and many others.
I've been dying to wait for Leo's new episode. Finally it's here.
I made a radical change 9 years ago when I left my hometown of 20,000 for Toronto. Most of the fears I had were smashed within a few weeks. People told me I would be robbed or murdered. It was a real eye-opener for me and I'm sure it contributed to my decision to seek more of that. Hence, here I am. Thanks for your videos!
Leo, please DO NOT leave RUclips. You are my inspiration and you keep me on track and help me to self actualize. And if I do not have you and your support I will not get that far on this journey toward my highest possible potential. Sometimes you have to be selfish - I get that - but I just do not think that it would be a good idea for you to abandon your channel and viewers. Because - like enlightenment - contribution to other people is also one of the highest pleasures in life and you need to maintain integrity with your biological needs. So I
Hope you can see how important keeping the channel is.
Hope u will answer :)
+Christian Harborg Enlightenment is one of the highest pleasures in life? loooooollllllll :D
+Christian Harborg He has a large amount of content that can still be accessed and used. His channel will still have tons of content. The only thing that would change is that you'll have a more palpable sense that the videos were recorded in the past. You will likely feel as though you lost someone out of you life that you know personally. With the nature of his videos, it is easy to do. He is human, and he has to do what he believes is the right thing.
+The Diamond Net Well there is an iterative process. Some things have to be repeated and reinforced. There are others that I believe have been on longer than he has & they repeat different parts. I suppose over time, the RUclips content starts to delivery diminishing returns, where even a weekly session might be too soon. That said, it's still going to take me a few years to get through all the books & not quite sure how long for the Life Purpose course. Also, trying to work through some psychological issues right now & require more meditation in my free time.
Thank you, you have just given me the jolt I need to continue with my plans and you have eased the fear a little. Many blessings to you.
Leo,
It can be difficult to make a change when you are afraid of the outcome. Fear makes us extremely uncomfortable. Stephen Bardo, a retired NBA Basketball player, once said, "You have to become comfortable with being uncomfortable." I didn't know what it meant until it came to making life changes. Those moments when I was most afraid to change or to speak my mind, were the moments that I had to make the changes and speak my mind. Sometimes we have to work on who we are in order to help others. The decision you are making is a tough one, but you have to stay true to your authentic self and become comfortable with being uncomfortable. I promise you that any decision you make will benefit you in the long run.
Thanks Leo. For all your videos that you have/will post. Love listening to them all, so inspiring. I feel I'm also in the midst of a paradigm shift, and your videos really help me to keep on track.
Stay with Actualized! People need you!
Yes, It is about YOU. But we share consciousness. You touch points that real live people in our lives, can't even come close to...even if you're just a recording, a tape, a Utube rerun or a book, you still share & help us connect with the Oneness better
and it's so helpful....
Hey Leo. No matter what you decide, I want you to know this channel has had a major impact on my life. Your videos inspired me to make a lot of positive changes towards self-actualization. Thanks for all you do!
Hai leo, i am a 29 social worker and capoeira instructor from israel and have been wathcing over 100 hours of your videos. This is the first comment i am writing in response to your videos. I think that the analogy to Gandy is intersting, because he was a person who combined deep spirtual work with social practice. My opinion is that one day your true chalange will be combining family life with your ambitious project of Actualized.org(=Public speaking and being a coach). Maybe this explains part of the emptiness you are feeling right know. Gandi`s wife as an analogy took a great part of his life long journey. You are an inspiring person who gives a quality and unique service to the world . Don`t give up on being influential to others.
You are my mentor...whatever decision you make I will look up to you
But as a fellow human....someone also with a inner hero
You have to do it LEO...accept your calling.
Sincerely Cowie
Leo!!!!!! Nooooo!!!! You cannot disappear on us. I checked the site 5 times yesterday for your video and twice today. Hope you feel better but you have to stay public. My mother passed away in May and I watched your video about taking responsibility for everything that happens in your life a dozen times. It really helped me to not fall into victim mode and empowered me to take charge in a very dark time in my life. I have since moved to California from Baltimore and when I came here I watched your videos every single week since. It will completely shatter all of my heart if you vanish as my heart still aches from the passing of Wayne Dyer. These are just my thoughts but are you sure this just isn't your mind being a squirrel on crack. Haha Follow your heart. I love you! Can't believe you're talking like this but you have my support no matter how I feel. 💓
+Cherry Pisces If he did leave, our support wouldn't matter! lol. Just make your peace with it & move on. Even in Leo's wake, I have a ton to read & his Life Purpose course...it's going to take me a couple years to get through all of this, if not longer since I still work full time & as far as the videos go, I've seen every one (except for the Life Purpose, which I'm still in theory & going through the recommended books & videos).
Don't turn down opportunity, take a chance on somebody else, and delicate it out. That way you can help others. And still benefit why'll your doing your thing even if it's to a smaller degree.
Thanks for all Your help. My life is being redirected.
Hi Leo I'm 21, You helped me realize so much I appreciate everything and wish you the best in your journey.......
You have inspired me, and you got me into self-help. I want to expand my knowledge on the topic, because I too want to use it to fulfill myself, and I want to spread my knowledge to make the world a better place. But watching this video gave me some incite, and kind of opened my mind to some completely new possibilities. I learned that fulfillment is within, and the was I see it is that I want to be fulfilled now. Not way down my life. But maybe fulfillment is something that only the ones who devote themselves to it will ever find. Listening to my gut I understand why you would want to make an extreme change like that. I make small changed in my life everyday and they still can be frightening. Im only 17 and I've defiantly had one major turning point in my life, and Im so grateful for it. Im a much more positive and motivated person now. Imagining moving across the globe and changing your lifestyle %100 probably sounds crazy to most people. I feel like thats something almost no one would be willing to do, only the true heros. Death is upon us. I encourage that you make this grand leap in your life.
Leo. You have impacted the life of so many people, including me. Gratitude. You are amazing, a human being who gives value to society.
Man, that was deep and a proof that you are on this path yourself
I was worth the wait, I had a back injury that left me on bed for the last week and like you say, I was conscious and see everything clearly, is good to know that we are not alone in this journey. Thank you.
So far, this is one of the few self-help methods that works. It provides details on how to deal with setbacks and is not overly optimistic or pessimistic.
I'm happy to see that even despite I haven't seen any more of your videos for a while, when I come back I see I'm still on the right track. Tomorrow comes the final decision of my actual turning point, but I feel more confident now, about following my inner wisdom despite what my familiy or friends might think. I don't know how they will take it when I announce it, but I know that it will happen no matter what. After all this is done, I'll come back to your videos when I need it, but I enjoy learning things myself. They feel more valuable, but you still test me, you show me new things that I haven't thought about and question the ones that I have. Thank you once again Leo, I wish you luck in your journey, no matter wich one will be.
I love how encouraging the comments on this video are. In Leo's most recent videos, the change he was speaking of in this video has become very pronounced. However, most of his viewers have not been very supportive of this and it seems to me that he is deeply misunderstood by a great majority of them, at least those who comment of his videos. He is criticized and ridiculed by viewers and other youtubers claiming that he "has gone too far" and that he "has lost his mind". But I believe what is really happening is that people do not fathom the seriousness of the commitment Leo made to pursuing enlightenment and exploring the deepest levels of wisdom and understanding. Most people are so disconnected from this endeavor and, out of ignorace, deny the possibility of attaining such levels of understanding because it is so far beyond the narrow paradigm in which they operate. And thus, when they hear Leo talk about the things that he does, to them, he seems like a delusional person that has gone off the deep end. But I argue that nothing is further from the truth. It is those people who criticize Leo the ones who are disconnected from the Truth. I argue that those who say he has "gone too far" in fact have not bothered to take the first step in the direction of serious and genuine self-mastery.
You have given so much, without you I am lost but you will become a guru. We support you, kundalini meditation is my last option, to transcend to such a level.
for me , u're my mentor .. the speech that you give can always reach my spirit , heart and brain ...and i need more and more of your videos , words and insights !! it's a pleasure for me and all those who listen to you!!
If you do leave, please don't delete the channel. It's really helping me out and I would hate to see it go.
Hey Leo, for what its worth I think you are doing a tremendous public service with your videos that shouldn't be minimized. There is a huge need for self development and you are making a big difference in people's lives.
"2 steps forward and 3 steps backward but then after couple of years 10 steps forward " that's really a good advice Leo . Right now I'm facing this challenge , on one side there's my ego who is moving towards success and on the other side there a part of me wich wants growth and mastery. The point is that I'm about to get a promotion at work , wich is successful for my ego but then a part of me is screaming to go in a bigger city without promotion and learn more and more and become my best-self . Remember ... Growth is not in comfort !!!
I've been hearing a lot of Leo and Actualized and really don't know how would a person want to Actualize on the cost of everything good you have. Even Leo dosnt want to do it fully.I and 99% of people chose comfort insted of inlightment.
I just got out of school. I am going to pursue medicine which is a massive course. I am supposed to move to a place far away from my home. My home is very comfortable and luxurious. I am very lazy and a procastinator.. But the hostel is extremely basic, it's in a village. My life is going to turn upside down... I have to give up my luxuries, great home food..I relate to this 100℅...this is a consolation for me.
Hey Leo, Happy 2016 and a huge thank you. I have been following your videos for almost a year now and as with most of your followers your words inspire me and help me stay focused in a world where it is so too easy to slip back to old ways of being. I had a full and bold change about 6 years ago when I closed my business, left my husband for a years separation (happily we are now back together though) and enrolled onto a counselling course that totally changed my life.
This was massive for me a girl from a dysfunctional family and at times abusive upbringing. I did not get good grades at school or college and did not even know I could be academic. However as in a lot of your videos about our inate potential being there for the taking (totally spot on), I unleashed mine, worked my my butt off and excelled obtaining both a professional diploma in counsellng and first class honors degree within my field also.
I worked for a few months as a couple counsellor, and then a year as a student counsellor at the college where I trained but have left now to be home with my children, run our family roofing business and try other things. Despite all that I have learned it is still, at times hard fully embodying my new found adult wisdom and knowledge when all my family have not gone on the same kind of journey and try pulling me back to their way of thinking and a younger way of being in the world.
Your videos have helped my inner adult wisdom stay firmly in place and when I step off my path or have a wobble you have been the source I go to for frank honesty and humbling discussions to help me reignite my inner fire, detemination and drive to live a wonderful life, and most importantly to me, remember my wish to pass this onto my children (ages 8 and 4) as they grow and develop. Success for me is this. Not allowing generations of family abuse and lack of awareness to go any further. it stops with me. Everything else I achieve is a huge bonus.
Now what came up for me with this thought provoking video, as you talked about the cross roads you are nearing is that there were only three options for you; continuing with actualized.org or going off to master your inner psychology; or trying to do both.
I am curious about you having a partner in crime to muse your wisdom with or children to pass your wisdom onto. Or a charity that helps make a difference or bring smiles to those who need it especially in a world that from my view is so deeply entrenched with the ways of the system that it sadly feels to me almost impossible for things to be any different. the system has worked a treat in keeping humanity locked in ignorance so we do not take action and stand against the unethical and damn right wrongness and inequality of the world. Those with the power keep the power can we ever make a dent in that?
I know your views too on the system etc and I loved your video 30 ways society f***ks you in the A** chimpery perfect words. Does this impact on your decision as to whether you contiune with actualised.org? Does it feel too steep a vmountain to climb to really make a difference in the world under these circumstances?
Finally I get being torn with wanting to be successful but not wanting to lose sight of what you truly value and the inner integrity you posess. That is a tough one and I will be intrigued to wait and see where things go for you and what you decide. In the mean timeI will be as always enjoying your videos.
Thank you again
Kind regards
C
In one way it kinda crushes my heart to have this pretty certain feeling that you will have to leave.
But in another way I'm happy for you and am proud and wish you good luck.
Let us know if you decide anything
Love,
Dear Leo, I wish you all the best to any decision you make! You are a true inspiring person and it's my fortune to have met you! Thank you so much!!!
OMG, you just expressed everything I was feeling in the past few months but was unable to put into words. Finally! I am currently going through major changes and was afraid, but didn't know how to express it. Thank you for your wisdom! :D
Thanks for the video Leo. Get better and I hope that have a challenging and interesting year!
It's ultimately your decision, but your videos have helped me A LOT. If you do abandon youtube, please leave this channel up, so your past videos can continue to touch people like me. Thank you for your work!
Leo I really really felt this one. I wish the best of luck with this major decision. I do have this weird longing for something really detrimental to happen to me where it makes these shifts permanent. Because I'm kind of sick and tired of getting distracted by the drama and dumb stuff in school and in the environment. I feel that because I haven't had too many real major life experiences yet, I have no perspective of what to actually do. I want to believe that I do but I don't. I don't know whether or not I'm on the right path or I'm jumping the gun and cutting corners or something. But there is something nagging at me and I've only noticed it during 2015... I hope that if you do choose to go all out, that you somehow still manage to update us as you pursue your journey :)
love it............"let go of the good for the sake of the great!"
Thank's a lot for this thoughts. Can't change my life a long period of time. Can't do things, that I feel I need to do. Your video help me to observe my problem with full attention and finally start to do what I need to do
Sometimes the time comes and something big has to go down. This is just the way it is.
wow.... this was deep. love you, brother. wish you well, on whatever path you choose.
Thanks for sharing, what ever decision you will make please don't let this chanel down .You change my whole thinking and I'm so much a better person Thanks ,Love you.
Hey man, it seems like I stumbled across this video at the right time and the universe has guided me here. I am facing a similar dilemma here. I went from a successful student at a top business school in Canada who is destined for career success, to contemplating becoming a Buddhist monk to attain Enlightenment. I think Spirituality is the natural extension at the peak of self-development. You first spend time developing the ego before transcending the ego. Talk about radical changes huh?
I've deferred school and donated a lot of my possessions. Right now I've pretty much let go of almost everything in my old life, so that Enlightenment is my only purpose. When I took the leap, it was the scariest thing ever because I felt like someone suddenly pulled the plug on my illusions. But follow your calling man, speaking from experience, the sacrifices were nothing compared to the deep peace, satisfaction and meaning that comes with Spiritual Awakening. After all, this is the ultimate purpose of life.
Peace and love brother!
Sweet! :D Great to see people taking this stuff seriously. I still have some more work to do with Actualized.org before I can take such a leap.
I like to listen to your thoughts, Leo. If you ever decide to stop that will be a loss for the self help community. As you are one of the view that is really honest about himself and you don't bullshit people.
I have faced one big turning point in my life witch was my decision of moving to Brasil for exchange student for a year witch has given me a lot of growth. And another one is coming up where I thinking about: going to another country with AFS and do volunteer work for 6 months, go beck to high school in my small hometown, moving to Las Vegas in America and bettering myself in picking up girls (or to some other big city where they have many party's and hot girls), or stay at home working with my father and making this decision later or some other decision (which I don't want to do).
Leo you can do it, i fully feel you, fear what, you know you can do it and there will be not regret xo i send me best wishes your way
The same to you Mr Leo. Happy new year and thank you for all your work in 2015, waiting for others new you tube. God bless you .
One of your best videos yet Leo.... Thank you for sharing this.... I hope you do find a way to keep Actualized.org running whilst you pursue these truths, as I think I speak for all your subscribers; we're all on this consciousness journey with you - albeit a little behind!
Good luck with your big decisions you have to make. I love your videos and will be sad to see you go, but if you need to move on you need to do it. All the best to you. You deserve it!
You are quite special, thank you so much, most of if not everything you talk about resonates with me, and you help me with steps with more courage.
1. I think I am in a similar situation. My situation is probably not as intense because I don't have as much to lose as you do. I am 23 and graduated college less than a year ago.
At some point I realized that pretty much everything I do is futile and that all the things that I thought matter so much actually do not. All the contexts I have are all illusions and my idea of reality is actually an escape from reality.
I used to be into entrepreneurship and self-help. I don't have that urge to be special and superior anymore. It's like a part of me just died. But then at times, I think about all the success and achievement I could have if kept going in that road. I think this is what Jed Mckenna calls "spiritual dissonance." it's like being split into two and it can be really painful.
But then Alan Watts said "you don't have to let go because you're not holding on to anything." I think that the control I (as the ego) have over my life is actually an illusion because I am an illusion. So trying to solve the dilemma actually creates the dilemma because you trying implies that you are real and in control.
2. Also I think that at this point, me sharing this comment or looking for videos and books related to the subject is actually an attempt to deny what I see, to slow down the process or to get reassurance from other people. I guess learning that there is no self is such an unbearable fact to the ego.
3. I don't know what the future holds. I might quit my fucking job and just wander around. I might get too scared of losing myself, forget about all this 'enlightenment' nonsense and go back to living a 'normal' life. I really don't know. What I know is that I will not be able to unlearn what I have learned. I won't be able to look at everything the way I used to in my 'normal' years.
Anyways .. let me know what you think.
Cheers!
would be selfish if i told you not to give up on actualized.org one of my greatest followings
in the video towards the end he said something about thinking about doing away with selfactualized.org not sure what all that entails
I have done exactly what you are talking about here.... living it fully. It does feel like blissful hell :D
Thank you for your vulnerability :)
Hey Leo
I felt happy watching this video. It was encouraging. I believe that you are the best cause as far as I have read and heard things about self actualization - no one has kept it simple and easy to adapt like you have done it for us. Most of your videos are like as if I am hearing my inner voice speak load. Well thank you.
Most important thing I wanted to share with you is some information. I have gone through many philosophers and read different books on self help but there is this one book I strongly recommend to you and all the people. It has been very difficult to adapt to its teachings however it definitely is the path to enlightenment and as you call it Self Transcendence. It is the key. No matter how many diversions I have had.. Of which your videos too were one of the many... I still have heard my heart call out to this book as the final point of all problems and to their solutions.
I'm not religious about the belief cause I am more spiritual. I just believe if not today when you read my comment.. Someday on your path you definitely will remember me for this suggestion.
It is the oldest of books - written by Chinmaya Mission Swami Chinmayananda called the Bhagavad Gita.
Pls read and I am sure you will find the answers you are seeking. Mahatma Gandhi too believed in the Gita.
My 2nd suggestion to you is to meet if possible Swami Paripoornanda as he is the best.
Hope you do consider giving it a try. All the best to you in all that you do..
Regards,
Vishnu Shreyas Yuvarajan
I think a turning point might have happened recently in my life...
Thanks for the video!
_I had a fever so I was contemplating my death_ and I just bursted out laughing. Laughing because in fact it doesn't sound stupid at all. Thinking _in fifty years I might be in similar possition and not get well_ and it's like wake-up call.
However you decide, Leo I wish you the best. You literally changed the direction of my life. With self-actualization I started very recently but I know that this is the way I want to go. This is the way I _need_ to go. Persuing higher values than getting good food, having sex and getting drunk, because I wasn't born to live like an animal. Like most people are. The more I see your mind working the more I see the value in knowing who you are. Because I don't know who I am. Thanks to you I have the determination to find out.
I respect your 'realness' Leo. Trust yourself. Your perception of success is what success is. Since you are a deep person with good human values your perception of success is uncommon. (I am like you in that sense). I am facing a turning point at this very moment. It's as you have described. Funny how I have difficulty to follow my own advice and fear comes into play. I will take the hero's challenge tho and I will prevail. :)
Hey Leo man. :) You dont have to believe me, but I really think youre something else. Maybe youre not the way you wish to be, but I have no words to describe how awesome human you are. And you deserve to have any life you want to have. What ever decisions you make Ill respect that and support it. Even if it means Im gonna miss you like hell. Cause I see you as a friend. Because youre the most natural and honest guy I have seen online...and maybe beyond internet. :)
Take care, man. :)
What!? No please Leo... You're my guide in this crazy world don't shut down actualized.com you have helped me so much :/ I understand what you're saying but we need you!!!! 😨😓🙏🏼
Hope you feel better Leo. Thanks for pushing through even though you are sick. I really appreciate your video :)
Leo, thank you for speaking the truth... i feel your heartfelt dilemma for surrendering and following your purpose.
My simple advice: "Listen to your heart".
Thanks Leo! Your channel came to my life at the perfect moment! You say in a few videos that some of these videos may be too "harsh" or may not be suitable for beginners and bruise our ego and you're so right! Tough love! Truth hurts! This video seemed so much more "intimate" I hope I make sense. It seems so in the sense that it's like you're talking thru your own decisions...thought process... Just want you to know that your channel touches many lives...and thanks again!
Love the videos Leo. I hope you find what you are seeking in your enlightenment. Much respect and many wishes for peace to you. You are on spot on with priorities in life and the psychology behind them. Hero's do, ordinary don't. Much appreciated as I am currently in a life shift. Thank you.
Wow I'm glad you decided the conscious journey.
THANK YOU! DON'T STOP "ACTUALIZED!"
The diamond net - Having a life purpose is also important for ones happiness and fulfillment levels. Even if you are enlightened, you still need it as well as the other needs to maintain integrity with yourself :)
I'm actually at one of these turning points now. This video put alot of things in perspective for me. Thank you Leo.
That was probably one of the most serious videos I have seen so far, especially when he mentioned about no posting videos on regular basis.. Hope you'll find your truth Leo but please don't leave us :(((
Haha as someone who just quit law school, I can say I relate to a few of the things you are going through . My love and gratitude to you Leo, Thank you :)
i can relate to that, i am near graduation and i have some moral issues with completing my last 4 exams in law school. Also if fast forward 10 years ,i see myself as adrenaly exhausted zombie automaton.
+sinko83 I'm in my third year in law school and I don't want to waste my life working in an easily replaceable immoral job , I want to be a social sciences expert and writer where I can unleash my potential, I'm just completing my law degree to have a backup plan if I miserably fail 0.0 what do you think is your passion?
+sinko83 and with a perfect reason so...No need to be a prophet there, indeed.
Im in feel of risking my happiness as i have a fear of getting mentally unwell. I have bipolar and psychosis tendencies im well managed over this but i cant risk it. Its so tricky .
Alan Watts was saying that one of the main differences between a Buddhist monk and a member of the clergy is that if you have second thoughts as a Buddhist, you can resign without the baggage if you were to do the same as a Christian. So whatever you choose, and if you choose to 'burn the boats' don't forget that the road you travel will have another fork in it.
Accpeting the call is one of the hardest part on a hero's journey, I know once I accepted it, nothing else matters, but...fuck that there are so many resistances.
what was your call?